#and i cant handle that thought rn

[waluigistits]

The way Begins youth is dedicated to keeping the hyyh storyline as confusing as it was originally even when told in a more linear form is. beautiful i think

[dizzybizz]

incoherent mumbling and whimpering and sobbing and-

[skunkes]

not an ask, but I saw ur post and relate a lot to it.

anticipatory grief sucks. people will tell you not to think about it, not to let it steal from today, but some days are just so hard. sometimes it feels unavoidable, like it’s some goliath mountain in the distance or even the sky and you can’t not look at it. it’s like you have to keep trying to distract yourself not to think about it, and it’s exhausting, and you’re so fucking scared of the inevitable.

like how does anyone even function? the idea of the world continuing to spin when there’s this terrible, horrible thing that will happen some day is unfathomable but it does, and it’s horrible. Some day will mark the before and the after. nobody can ever be ready for it.

I hope the love you have keeps you strong. wishing you the best.

this is literally it. i know thinking about it Now wont make the actual day it happens any easier. but it's impossible to not think about it, especially since there's no tangible way to preserve memories or feelings or the like forever. i cry easily and get emotional over most anything and everything, which is another layer of difficulty wrt it because I spiral. I want to squeeze out of my body. im not meant for any of it

[puhpandas]

hi mutuals im just curious.

[averycutesalamander]

talkin’ about dat boothill smell… i dunnoooooo… nesting n stuff… makes your mind all fuzzy n warm n stuff because you’re surrounded by blankets n an absurd amount of pillows you’d think in regards to himself— n it all smells like that smoke his, some syrupy hint from far off pine trees, gunpowder creating a bit of a bitter taste in the back of your throat but it’s so nice— the kind of bitterness you’d chase down in alcohol, swallowing up insatiably. ‘n that smell just. surrounding you, all bundled up, bleeding into your mouth especially when he refuses to remove himself from you. a little whine perhaps if you even shift a ghost of a fragment away, his hips curving. maybe some little mechanical groan that’s so gooey and molten about your own softness.

there’s that leather too, scotch and whisky combined in his needy breaths. and his scent just melts more into you, making you feel almost fucking high at this point; and you’re so cozy and squished and it’s all just him. which really is exactly what he wants. to keep you nice n comfy n full, satiated, thanks to him. to keep his scent bleeding into you.

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YOU CANT DO THIS TO MEEEEEEE im gonna dieeeeee 😭😭😭😭

[madetolooklikeus]

be of use to them

[mintedwitcher]

Don't mind me just sobbing grossly (again) at 5am over "If this is my last breath, I'm leaving with no regrets. I had you, til death."

Flybynightgirl when I catch you flybynightgirl .......

[tothesolarium]

how did my professor recommend me The Color of Outer Space

and I found the whole ass wrong book

its about a farm??? I was reading space travel what did I do

[ncoley]

I'm sooooo normal about him

[lxndonorris]

teams please announce your drivers challenge.

[darknessandasong]

i feel like im being beaten to death by multiple people with steel chairs

[enden-k]

im sorry to hear people are stomping all over your boundaries, big props to you for sticking up for yourself and putting your foot down. I hope you're doing ok (/gen)

on another, hopefully happier note, i noticed your info post mentions that you self ship! I'd love to hear about your favourite self ships if you're comfortable talking about them some time?

i actually never did or had interest in this but then haitham waltzed in so hes the first and only one (this whole thing flusters me so its smth i indulge in for myself in private by reading or daydreaming or sometimes i babble and ramble about him very in depth)

(most hkvthm things i draw is just me going 'wish that was me' and drawing it LMFAO)

ohh also same w kaveh but in a slightly different way than haitham (theyre both the only ones) i want them to hold hands. i want them to hold my hands. there

[baconcolacan]

Just wanted to say thank you for all the messages, both in my inbox and under my my last post. I’m in a bit of a better mood now since I just came back from visiting Parm, he’s doing alright, hopefully his surgery today will go smoothly.

Again, thank you guys, you’ve helped alleviate a bit of my anxiety about everything going on <3

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[ajdrawshq]

@ your tags on my post, i am shaking you like a maraca and yelling "YESSSSS"

i wanna see how kh3 tackles that whole thing because it's so eerily similar to what happens in the manga. and in the manga, he is in so much pain and agony, AND HE'S STILL FIGHTING. ROXAS IS THERE WITH HIM, HIS ONLY COMPANION, and then kh3 just tripped and fell on the glass table.

also, i think about this constantly, i want them to do something with it so bad.

YEA i cant wait to see the rest of kh3 manga chapters and how they handle everything, i especially loved the manga versions for days and kh2 and the way their stories were told - even tho kh3 has a Lot going on that might be hard to show well.. amano's been good at it so far tho so i have faith :]

but yeah that whole thing with Roxas is just . oughh. im not gonna lie even i forgot that Roxas was like. still there with Sora when he perishes until i thought abt it writing those tags but now that ive realized that. why the hell did they not take advantage of that!!!! like ok i get that it was more focused on the destiny trio in the ways i talked abt in the tags but yknow. what happened to "he makes up the difference"?? that wouldve been a great moment for it to shine!! ik they already make an example of it during the Xemnas n Saïx fight but still!!

part of me wishes Roxas couldve have more outward influence on Sora the way Ven did. granted, he arguably had an affect on Sora back in kh2, and while i dont remember if it was canon or even intended, that could be applied to both his appearance (his lighter hair, mostly) and his behavior (his hostility towards the organization members; ive seen this argued both as smth Roxas had influence over and purely based on Soras experiences thus far, and i believe in both personally) but Ven in kh3 was literally able to speak and somewhat act through him. im pretty sure this was meant to show that Ven was fully ready to awaken or smth like that, and that wasnt sonething that was needed for Roxas; hes alright, just needed a body/vessel for himself. but i still think itd be a cool way to express the earlier sentiment. and it wouldnt necessarily have to be Roxas "taking over" either, the manga shows very well how Roxas gives Sora strength from within and that he definitely does make a difference

to be fair tho...... whether that wouldve helped Sora in the moment that he gives in to his despair, im not sure. in kh2, both manga and game, hes in a very different mindset than kh3. in that part of the manga especially, despite thinking everyone (except Roxas) is gone for good, he still has the belief that they can live on within him. and that, plus the literal strength hes getting from Roxas, is keeping him going despite it all. in kh3 his self confidence is beyond fucked, and he truly believes in that moment that hes lost Everything, not just his friends. thats hard to come back from

i wonder if he were to remember that Roxas were still there, if that wouldve helped. whether for comfort in the way that hes not really alone then, or for motive to keep living bc if he dies then Roxas is gone too, or whatever reason, i think it couldve changed something, even if its just a little bit. hell, itd have been great if something like that happened afterwards in the final world. id like to think Roxas had a hand in Sora surviving ..... not sure how but its a nice thought. either way i do wish Sora n Roxas' connection and that moment they have in san fransokyo had more....... More. in kh3. it was a great opportunity that they didnt use/forgot about n im now sad abt it forever

[lupismaris]

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