#and i am well aware jeremy strong does not

[wehear4u]

i would kill to be their fourth

[antidisneyinc]

middle of the night hot take: i am deeply critical of adam driver as an actor for being such a method weirdo that his colleagues barely know how to interact with him, but unironically megalopolis is my favorite performance of his and that is not derogatory. everyone who says he doesn't know what movie he's in or that he doesn't understand the level of camp doesn't have a clue what they're saying. it's by far his funniest and most well rounded performance because he knows he's allowed to do anything and he does. go back to the club is not a one-off, he does every scene like it's take 25 of 50 and it's the most interesting part of the whole slog. i think he's insufferable as a professional and has absolutely fake humility but unless he truly has jeremy strong levels of self awareness he has to have known he was being funny.

megalopolis is still bad though. if that wasn't clear

[panelshowsource]

ok i finally listened and i watched taskmaster nz series 2...8 times

and i'm ready to offer my reaction & thoughts but please understand this is over 3000 words (which means it is too long to proofread) and it is so bc i do not know how to be concise but also bc i decided to a PROPER brain dump so if you like reading this kind of thing enjoy and if you don't do not click keep reading!!!

STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS WORD VOMIT INCOMING

i KNOW what i said. i KNOW i said i'd kinda watched s1 of taskmaster nz and it was okay and jeremy and paul were okay and guy william's outfit scarred me for life but all in all it was okay, and i can't say nz humour (which, and i stand by this, is a bit monotonous) is my fave, and i wasn't that excited about watching international taskmasters in general so i wasn't prioritising it. i know what i said!!!!!!!!!

but

i did what i was told incessantly to do and i watched taskmaster nz series 2. it's...it is. it is what everyone said it is. it's fucking hilarious. it's so good. it's one of it not the example of a perfect cast with perfect energy and synergy and banter and friendship and competition. everyone tried so hard and succeeded and failed in their own hilarious ways. the tasks are half-original, kinda-inspired (if not appropriated), simple even when they're cerebral, and very core-of-taskmaster-y. CHEF'S KISS — by tm nz standards

i watched the entire series...8 times? i have A LOT of opinions and i wasn't gonna get into all of them because i don't love to debate and am scared of being roasted lmao, but i'm being brave!!

BUCKLE UP FOR MY BRAIN

➜ imo there is no standout contestant, it's a matter of taste and they're GREAT, but all in all i think the season wouldn't have a single chance of being what it was — in its total chaos, moments of innocence, moments of genuine friendship — without david correos, who was more or less the heart of the season. it's very obvious and very cute he is friends with paul, laura, and guy irl (guy mentioned their team is actually in an improv group together he's very close to laura and presumably david), and real-life friendships bring out a series panel's comfortable dynamic much faster than if they're meeting for the first time. and on that note —

➜ as much as i enjoy non-comedians on the show, especially when they're people i really like, the cold hard truth is that the very very very best series of taskmaster are comedian-only lineups. pls do not come into my inbox rn with your recency bias and yell about s16 this is a dead serious, studied fact: series 1, 2, 4, 5, 7, 9 (i am excluding recent-ish series because legacy takes time to establish itself but imo 12–14 were very strong) being the epitome of tm, it's not a coincidence these lineups are more or less ALL standup comedians (richard osman gets a pass for producing cats does countdown and being, arguably, the ultimate comedy superfan). a big reason for this is that non-comedians — and they almost always admit this, in interviews or on the podcast — are very aware that they're out of their element, are the odd ones out, feel the additional responsibility of having to find their place and suss out the dynamic and be funny and fit in. sometimes they're not really that funny and it is what it is (and it's the show's job to edit them and encourage them in a way that will = entertainment; they know what they're signing up for, or the risk of them not fitting in well, when they cast these people). other times, it's not that they're not funny or capable, but that these overwhelming feelings hold them back: they don't pipe up, they don't speak when it's not their turn, they don't challenge greg or the other contestants, they don't fight, they don't tease. yes, when it's their turns to speak, they're often silly and fun, and when they do the tasks, they're often silly and fun, but they just don't hit their comedic potential — because they don't know how or they don't let themselves try. very understandable! it's very intimidating being on TASKMASTER with PROFESSIONAL FUNNY PEOPLE including GREG AND ALEX who are LEGENDS. but the best thing about comedian contestants other than their comedy is that they want spotlight and they want to be the centres of attention and they will take risks, so they (usually) make the most of their time, whether it's the recorded tasks or in the studio. THE POINT, IF I MAY BRING IT BACK, BEING TASKMASTER NZ SERIES 2 — matt heath not being a standup but being 1) an extrovert, 2) your standard entertainment industry attention seeker, and 3) very good friends with jeremy means we didn't get these obstacles from him. if anything, he was more relaxed and game than everyone else in the room at the start of episode 1 because he is already in the accepted graces of the literal taskmaster. he tried really hard, he fought hard, he teased hard, he laughed a lot. i get that being a funny guy radio dj may not seem that different to being a comedian, but it is, and he was SO good! —and every contestant who is a friend of a taskmaster is always good, that's another studied conclusion

➜ why was david naked all the time lmfaooo body positive KING his haircut is also adorable. speaking of a lack of clothes guy's shorts length was lovely for the eyes

➜ momentary disgression: i'm SO interested in the story david told on the podcast about russell howard going to one of his shows and then, like, immediately leaving as fast as possible when it was over because he cringed to death or was scandalised or something—imo it wasn't very clear just what david was implying russell said/felt and i'm really curious. if anyone has insight into this pls send it to me

➜ i don't think jeremy or paul get much better than season 1 and ultimately they're both just okay, and they will always be what holds tm nz back from reaching tm uk-levels of god-tier tm. i know a lot of people will like paul because he's attractive and he is friends with rose (and others) and from time to time he is amusing. sometimes that's all it takes, and if that's all it takes for you, that is well and nice. but...personally...i can't get over how QUIET paul is...alex isn't half as quiet as paul, very often asking questions throughout the tasks and making little passive-aggressive comments at someone's effort or even just looking at the camera...paul is so often just there doing and saying absolutely nothing, EVEN when he's involved in the task, and a healthy 60% of the time he's asked a question he does a very forced deadpan "okay" that just...like it's not funny — it doesn't hit that comedic beat — after the first hundred times. he may just not be a lightning quick improv kinda guy, and i think the inherent one-dimensionalness of his character hinders him, but idk he could offer SO much more during the tasks, especially when he already has a good irl dynamic with so many of them. there are times, during the tasks, he could just not be there. i also don't necessarily understand his character in that during the tasks he's exceptionally shy/reserved to the point of being mostly silent but then in the studio will pipe up and act "normal" in a way that seems like the real paul and not the character paul. idk. i just think...why isn't he more present and also more consistent. (and i'm gonna say something controversial here but i also watched guy mont spelling bee and paul was not very funny on that — again, quiet — and i think the truth is he might be a little boring at times. i said it. im sorry to everyone :() i think this is a common criticism of jeremy but i will agree that, while i do like him especially when he actually lets himself be silly and banter-y, it is BEYOND ME how he just flies through the prize tasks and the scoring. the prize task is practically show and tell with no comment at all from jeremy instead of a dialogue between the contestants and the taskmaster, and then half the time jeremy doesn't explain his scoring for anything. often i'm left thinking "how could someone show up with this bone-shakingly good prize and jeremy just nods and smiles and goes 'okay who's next'?" and maybe it's not jeremy, maybe it's the editors, but it drives me INSANE when that happens. greg would spend the whole hour going over the prize tasks if he could, just cuz he loves the banter and ragging on people — and the show is noticeably weaker when the banter is lost. hence my issue with, to bring it back around, banter-avoidant paul. (also sorry if it's annoying when i compare taksmaster uk and taskmaster nz, i don't mean to do it tooooo much but it's unavoidable at times, pls understand...) (also, i'm saying all of this without even commenting on the actual dynamic between the taskmaster and his assistant, but i'm not gonna touch that — despite the fact the greg/alex dynamic is the heart of tm and what every single contestant ever praises most about the show.) SO i do think the series having matt for jeremy and david (at least) for paul did help encourage them in being funnier than they may have been otherwise. (was guy williams being on series 1 why paul was..idk...like he was...on series 1? i also recently learned a lot of people don't like guy williams lmao very interesting...)

➜ it's hilarious to me that jeremy is OBSESSED with sports and greg LOATHES sports (except the darts lmfao)

➜ ngl i have always wondered why taskmaster uk didn't use their increased budget to do, like, 10% more landscaping — i get not wanting to make the place look TOO manicured but would it really kill them to just fix the cracks in the driveway? idk — but then i watch nz and do feel like it's a little too much of a set hahahah but i like the outdoors they really have a nice big yard to play in (the sewage ("legally it's not ☝️") pond is a choice tho...)

➜ i read about 100 reddit threads about te reo māori, how prevalent it is in school and culture, how many people speak it or even want to speak it, its roots, its appropriations — and the majority of new zealanders said they don't really care about it, it's not actual practical in the way chinese or german or whatever is, they don't think it should be mandatory in schools over other languages, etc. i found these reactions 1) mildly suspicious but idk how conservative the nz sub is but also 2) really surprising! BECAUSE there is WAY more te reo in the every day language of, at least, the new zealand convo i have witnessed on a few nz panel shows than i think they realise. the ones i've heard the most are a few different greeting lines to open episodes, pākehā, whanau, and kai, but there are TONS of te reo words and phrases sprinkled into everyday language and i felt like i was googling so much (even if the meanings were relatively obvious from the contexts). very interesting! off the back of that i had absolutely no idea people in new zealand said "en zed" to refer to nz in any capacity but it makes sense i just never thought about it before

➜ something i adored about the series ��� that we see less and less of each series from series 1 of tm uk — is editing in reactions from the panel in the studio while they're watching the task vt. it's HILARIOUS watching, say, tm uk s1 and seeing romesh smacking tim on the back, josh pointing fingers, roisin with her hands in her head, etc in real time as they're watching the tasks for the first time. editing this way also helps express the group friendship and harmony, which is so important to a successful season. tm uk NEVER does this anymore and it's one of my biggest criticisms of the show — but this series of tm nz did it so much and it was HILARIOUS watching the panel falling all over each other laughing at everything. they're so goofy

➜ the fake paul with the moustache was, in fact, a dish, whoever he is congrats on being hot

➜ very random moments i liked:

"you think she's doing great things for women in those boots? 🤨💅"

it was so underrated that guy's idea to transform a room was to turn it into a farm and he had people in animal costumes being sheep or whatever that shit was HILARIOUS

matt ziptying a brush to a helmet to look like an ancient roman cracked me up so hard "husband to a murdered child" ??? smh

when laura was trying to rope the cameramen into american pie-ing her wedding cake and paul went "don't ask them...because one of them WILL do it"

"a tongue kiss with an extra 10%? i'm not sure—" "10% extra, maybe thumb up bum" ????

matt forgetting his hometown and saying "i was born in oxford in england! i forgot… that was fucking ages ago!"

"because david eats something doesn't make it food :|"

"this reminds me of my mother's music group ...i hated every one of those bitches" like?? LMAO i NEED the story behind this comment

"one is south african, one is filipino...but they both like their balls...swiss"

"i'm fairly certain i'm not gonna crush this challenge, but i know at some point you and i are gonna box and/or wrestle, and i'm gonna crush that one"

matt being so serious that his dream animal is a horse

"i probably won’t even need the other food colouring but how good is it not to have paul in the room?"

why was jeremy so into those urinal cakes?? like okay jeremy hmm

every time jeremy and urzila flirted

when paul was convincing laura to go through with the sabotage and they agreed david probably wouldn't fuck over his team but guy definitely would lmfao

"tell me a little about yourself" "i'm paul" "...interesting. i love that about you"

it's hard to top david and guy being actually naked for the tie task but i actually think guy's farmer's tan stole the show

when guy was looking for paul in the rain and said "the irony is if paul was here we could talk about this weather, he loves that sort of shit" LMAO

urzila being the ghost of abe lincoln was actually genius and she deserved more flowers for that lateral thinking

♪im gonna gonna drown you / in your own blood♪ why is that so catchy?? "matt matt run him over like a cat" "david you shouldnt run over cats" but fr during the diss track task when matt said he was gonna eat their asses and also while they were dissing guy matt went "he's good looking though" 💀

in the secret shoelace task david said "i take solace in knowing that everyone else has go through this as well" was like a fucking mirror of the time josh widdicombe did a secret task and was like "i'm not the one who has to watch this five times" hahahaha also when they had so much time to kill paul was just reading the entire story of rumpelstiltskin please

when guy realised, during the milk/microwave task, that he should have listened to paul and like angrily laughed "i'm furious! i'm furious with everyone! this is a disaster!" you don't see that side of him often and it was so funny

➜ regardless of whether these yielded funny results (they did anyways of course), these were most of my favourite ideas for tasks:

transform this room when the lights go out

shoot a chocolate fish into the fishbowl and say the name of a different animal with each shot, most powerful animal wins

create a diss track about the members of the other team

the fucking abe lincoln one

the milk/microwave task (hilarious on both tm nz and tm uk)

also i personally want to play the celebrity name game from that one live task

➜ all in all the series had quite a few very simple tasks — build a tower of onions, squirt the sunscreen, fly, make the loudest noise — and that's something i really cherish and appreciate and feel is at the heart of what taskmaster is all about. i'd say tm nz, being in its baby era, is able to get away with having a lot more simple, straightforward tasks, which are far superior to some of the incredibly convoluted ones we see on tm uk. i see people say alllllll the timeeeeeee "it's not the tasks that matter it's how to contestants react to them + the editing" but i do not agree — plenty of tasks are duds because they are duds and not because everyone else failed to find the entertainment value in them. i would love to see tm uk work harder to bring the tasks back down in scale and convolution bc tm nz has been able to come up with quite a few that have never been done before so i know they can too

➜ something else this series does VERY well is little morsels on top of the established format: laura's sabotage, the brussell sprouts that kept floating throughout other tasks and then appear in another task!!!, paul and david's trip to christchurch, laura rounding up their girlfriends, the shoelace secret task, paul lying and fucking with the magnet, the crew "accidentally" (though i do believe it was an accident idk if we'll ever know) turning the lights off on david, even the abe lincoln task that took place outside of the taskmaster ranch — all of these things contributed to the format being more than just task/score, task/score, task/score. they felt like little cherries on top, extra content, at times extra suspense. felt like every episode had something a little extra funny in this way. very impressed by this stuff!

➜ task complaints:

alex has talked before about one of the central concerns of post-production being the ordering of the tasks and particularly choosing the very first task they show, which sets the stage for the panel. i actually feel like this series didn't do a good job in choosing their very first task, which surprises me bc that seems like an easy thing to get right with this series' group + task lineup. not a big deal but something to consider!

in the live task when they had to choose a weapon and half something (which i LOVE the idea of), it bothered me that they didn't measure by percentage and instead by actual kilo

is it just me or does tm nz feel like it sends a LOT of balloons into the air? have they ever specifically confirmed they retrieve all of the balloons they let go? ngl the amount of balloons they send off + the amount of food waste can sometimes be distracting

the piggy bank live task was totally fucked like the length of time it look paul to get the pictures of the piggies to jeremy was ridiculous and heavily disadvantaged everyone — and they didn't even show us all the piggie drawings????? HELLO I WANNA SEE THE PIGGIES??

jeremy giving guy's new zealand pillow 3 points was the worst scoring decision of the series

frankly it was GROSS when david sucked all of the room temperature tomato juice cans. but one thing i've noticed is — it may be a me problem? maybe an american problem bc we don't eat beans the way brits do? do nzers eat beans on toast? anyways — when it comes to people licking/eating cold/room temp canned goods. because i can name 10 different times i've seen contestants lick baked bean juice or spaghetti hoop sauce off their fingers and i just cannot imagine eating those things in any amount not heated up. cold bean juice? BLEGH

okay i'll wrap this up now because i wrote an incoherent outline of a thesis on this series but it was FUN as HECK and i'm so happy that funny people get to enjoy the legacy of a fan favourite series (on the tm podcast, guy seemed to take a lot of pride in this when ed mentioned it<3) and i like them all and i wish they would come back and do another 10 episodes. paul if ur reading this make it happen

[cantdanceflynn]

OK SO BACKSTORY/INFODUMP/PROPAGANDA FOR ROBOT CANDACE :DDDDDDD

SHE WAS CREATED BY CARL, ALONG WITH ROBOT VERSIONS OF THE OTHER FLYNN-FLETCHERS TO SPY WITH/CONVINCE THEM PERRY IS OK WHEN HE HAS LONG MISSIONS/REPLACE MEMBERS OF THE FLYNN-FLETCHERS IN CASE THEY HAD ISSUES WITH ACCIDENTALLY ERASING TOO MANY MEMORIES OF THE FLYNN-FLETCHERS

WHILE WE ONLY RLY SEE THE LAWRENCE FLETCHER ROBOT, WE KNOW HE, AND THEORETICALLY AS MOST OF THE OTHER ROBOTS HAVE SIMILAR FUNCTIONS, ROBOT CANDACE CAN AS WELL, SPEAK PROPERLY ALBEIT LIMITEDLY, SHIFT THEIR BODY IN MULTIPLE WAYS(THE LAWRENCE ROBOT CAN SPECIFICALLY USE DRILLS BUILT INTO HIS SHOES, EXTEND HIS ARMS, AND USE HIS MOUTH AS A VACUUM, BUT ALMOST ALL THE OTHER ROBOTS CAN FULL ON SHIFT THEIR BODY, INCLUDING THE CLASSIC ARM CANNONS AND LONGER LIMBS, SO IVE DECIDED BEING VAGUE BOUT IT WORKS BETTER. THEY CAN DO WHATEVER THEY WANT FOREVER), AND USE MAGNETS TO RETRIEVE THEIR LIMBS. OTHER ROBOTS CAN ALSO SHOOT LASERS, MISSILES, BREATH FIRE, AND THEY ALL ARE SUPER STRONG BUT I MEAN THEYRE ROBOTS.

THATS LITERALLY ALL WE SEE OF THEM UNTIL THE SEASON 3 ENDING SPECIAL, WHERE'S PERRY. LONG STORY SHORT, CARL ENDS UP TURNING EVIL(NOT HIS FAULT BUT ALSO HE DESERVED TO BE EVIL NGL), AND HE USES THEM TO HUNT DOWN THE REAL PERRY.

WHILE ALL OF THE ROBOTS ARE TECHNICALLY UNDER HIS CONTROL, THEY SHOW TRAITS OF THE PERSON THEY'RE BASED OFF OF FAIRLY OFTEN, IE ROBOT LAWRENCE GETTING ATTACHED TO A PINEAPPLE RIGHT AWAY. SO THE FACT THAT CANDACE ROBOT ENDS UP BECOMING LIKE. FULL ON SENTIENT LATER ISNT RLY SURPRISING LOL

NOW, IM GONNA PREFACE THIS BY SAYING THAT IM AWARE THE META REASON IS BASICALLY COMPLETELY ROMANCE BASED BUT ALSO THAT WORKS FOR CANDACES CHARACTER AND THERES A LOT MORE NON-ROMANTIC CONNECTION BASED U CAN TAKE FROM THIS INUNIVERSE SO I AM GOING TO DO THAT

BASICALLY, SHE ENTERS THE HUMAN CANDACES ROOM AND HEARS A VOICEMAIL FROM JEREMY, AND WHILE SHE DOESN'T ACTIVELY ACT ANY DIFFERENT, HER FOCUS IS NOW ON RELAYING THAT MESSAGE TO THE HUMAN CANDACE

IN THEIR CHASE FOR PERRY, ROBOT CANDACE ENDS UP INTERACTING WITH THE HUMAN CANDACE, ALBEIT W HER PRETENDING TO BE A MONKEY KINDA JUST BC SHES DRAMATIC WHICH IS KINDA A MOOD. SHE TRIES TO RELAY THE MESSAGE, BUT FAILS BC HUMAN CANDACE IS BEING DRAMATIC AND RUNS AWAY

EVENTUALLY ROBOT CANDACE FINDS HUMAN CANDACE AGAIN, FIGHTING THE REST OF HER ROBOT FAMILY(AND THEN SOME BC CARL MADE ROBOTS FOR MONOGRAM DOOF VANESSA NORM(MAY JUST BE THE NORMAL NORM BEING CONTROLED IS UNCLEAR) IRVING CLYDE BUFORD BALJEET AND ISABELLA) BC THEYRE BEING A THREAT, AND GETS KILLED SAVING HUMAN CANDACE FROM ROBOT PHINEAS(KILLING HIM IN THE PROCESS WHICH LIKE YES I AM INSANE OVER SHE LITERALLY HAD TO KILL HER OWN BROTHER WTF) AND DOES END UP DELIVERING THE MESSAGE

SHE DOES DIE WITH THE IMPLICATION THAT SHE DIDN'T CONSIDER HER LIFE WORTH ANYTHING COMPARED TO HUMAN CANDACE BC SHE DIDNT HAVE A JEREMY ROBOT BUT ALSO WITH LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE AND HOW PNF TENDS TO DO THINGS LIKE THIS LIKE I CANT EXPLAIN IT BUT THEY TEND TO SIMPLIFY OVERALL CONNECTION STUFF INTO JUST ROMANTIC ONES, ESPECIALLY W CANDACE(WHICH I MEAN. THIS IS A ROBOT VERSION OF CANDACE.) SO LIKE. ILL CIRCLE BACK TO THIS

ITS ALSO WORTH NOTING THAT THAT THING W THE VOICEMAIL? ITS THE ONLY VOCAL INTERACTION ANY OF THEM ACTUALLY HAVE WITH SOMEONE THEY CARE ABOUT EARLY ON, AND DEPENDING ON HOW YOU SEE THINGS, AT ALL?? LIKE LINDA ROBOT SEES HER DAD SNORING, SOME OF THE LATER ROBOTS ARE BONDED TO DOOF BUT MONOGRAMS THE ONE FIGHTING, SO LIKE. THEY ALL JUST STRAIGHT UP NEVER VOCALLY INTERACT OR ARE CONFIRMED HEAR THE VOICE OF ANYONE THEY CARE ABOUT? LIKE IM FULLY AWARE THE IMPLICATION IS PROBABLY SUPPOSED TO BE AS SIMPLE AS "SHE WAS REMINDED OF HER BOYFRIEND, AND THE POWER OF LOVE SNAPPED HER OUT OF BEING EVIL, BUT LIVING WOUT HIM WAS TOO MUCH TO BEAR" OR WTVR, BUT ALSO LIKE. PNF IS USUALLY SIGNIFICANTLY BETTER W STUFF LIKE THIS, AND WITH OTHER INSTANCES OF PEOPLE TURNING EVIL(IE: LAWRENCE IN BULLSEYE), USUALLY JUST VOCAL OR PHYSICAL CONFIRMATION OF THE PEOPLE THEY CARE ABOUT CAN JUST SNAP THEM OUT OF IT, SO I DONT THINK ITS NECESSARILY JUST THAT

ILL BE HONEST IVE HAD TO SIMPLIFY A GOOD PORTION OF THIS BC IM NOT A FAST TYPER AT ALL SO IM RLY RLY NOT GOOD AT THIS BUT LIKE. TRUST ME WHEN I SAY(ESPECIALLY IF YOU'VE SPENT AS LONG ANALYZING THIS SHOW AS I HAVE) THAT ROBOT CANDACES DEATH IS, IN SIMPLIFIED TERMS,

"SHE WAS THE ONLY NON-EVIL, FULLY SENTIENT MEMBER OF HER WHOLE FAMILY, (AND CONSIDERING CARL WAS LIKE THAT FUCKIN CLOSE TO PERRY PROBABLY DIDNT SEE ANY FUTURE WHERE THATD CHANGE), DIDN'T HAVE BASICALLY ANY OF HER OTHER CONNECTIONS EITHER AS THERE WASN'T A ROBOT STACY, JEREMY, JENNY, AND SO ON, AND IF THERE WAS THEY'D BE EVIL AND NOT UNDER THEIR OWN CONTROL TOO, AND THE COMBINATION OF NOT BEING ALLOWED THOSE GENUINE EMOTIONS AND CONNECTIONS(LIKELY EXASPERATED BY HER SEEING HUMAN CANDACE THROW AWAY EVERYTHING LIKE GIRL WTF WERE U DOIN) DROVE HER TO BASICALLY COMMIT SUICIDE (THERE WERE 100% OTHER WAYS SHE COULD HAVE STOPPED THAT IN TIME THAT ALSO PROBABLY WOULDVE BEEN EASIER TO GET PAST EXECS THEN HER DYING TO HER BROTHER), AND ONCE AGAIN, KILLING HER FUCKING BROTHER AT THE SAME TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!"

AND ID SAY IM READING TOO MUCH INTO THIS BUT ITS PNF DYA KNOW THE LAYERS TO BASICALLY EVERYTHING THEYVE DID?

ALSO I WAS GONNA GET IMAGES TO MATCH EVERYTHING BUT IVE SPENT LONG ENOUGH ON EM AND THE WHERES PERRY GALLERY PART OF THE PNF WIKI SUCKS ASS SO BAD LIKE EVERY OTHER GALLERY PAGE ON THE WIKI SO JUST TAKE IMAGES OF THE ROBOTS THEMSELVES BC I THINK THEYRE VERY NEAT

[thejugheadparadox]

plsss write why you think kendall is written as autistic i wanna hear it <3

right i am no longer as attached to this idea as i once was and i rlly would need to rewatch again to solidify it but i do still have things to say. okay OKAY so. hear me out please.. i KNOW kendall roy is a fucked up man in his 40s but to be fair half the internet calls him their little meow meow (dont mean that disparagingly!) so i think ill say what i like actually. this is literally just what i think might be a writing choice or something that MIGHT have been discussed however minorly behind the scenes if any of the writers or actors have done their research on it.

because like kendall stims, he either doesn't make eye contact or makes a show of it, he submerges himself physically when he needs to calm down (ie in water), he often likes solitude with music and/or routines. he has markedly different and sort of more extreme physical and vocal reactions to things than at least shiv and roman (ie bathroom scene AND THEN HE CLEANS IT UP!). he absolutely has difficulty with certain forms of empathy, and only seems to find it v easy to exist around/open up to/feel comfortable with people who've had really specific (bad) experiences similar to his own (to me naomi is the main example of that, as well as his siblings and sort of stewy). we know he has the remainder of a stutter and likely had broader issues with speech as a child. he is sometimes on the edge of going non-verbal when shit goes wrong for him.

and on that, he's terrible at adapting to change. whenever logan shocks him or acts differently to how he expects, it really throws him through a loop and he can barely ever handle it, so he fixates on being one step ahead. he has obsessive routines and is fixated on self improvement. he carries out plans to the very end even once it's clear theyre not going to work just bc he needs to have done them to move on. the end of which side are you on always comes to mind - his plan went wrong, he has zero fucking clue what to do with himself. and this i leave to the end bc i feel like we all know, its basically explicit: this man performs soooo hard. he basically copies the scripts to all his conversations from his dad and we see him mask multiple times.

ANYWAY. i just maybe think jeremy strong or jesse armstrong (wow they have oddly similar names) might be aware of this, and tbh i wouldnt think that if not for iverson! so iverson roy brings it all together by being kendalls explicitly autistic son (idk if i need to back that up.. he just is yeah? and i love it!). and the symptoms he displays of being blunt and finding change difficult are literally ones that kendall does too, but has had to learn to conceal. and ofc its v common for autistic kids to have autistic parents/relatives. potentially if these are all things the writers/cast are aware of, it could maybepossiblymaybe be an intentional writing choice. just something thats interesting to consider when analysing the character yk.. probably wrong tho especially since i have no idea what it would add to the narrative. id love to know if anyone else has a perspective on that?

[sam-blackbird]

What if episode 8 spoilers!

I wrote this while watching the episode and after, but I don’t stop the episode every time I had something to said because it would have been to long. (In fact that’s what I did so it’s really a long post, sorry!) Anyway, let’s began!

OMG there’s « Jeremy Renner » in the opening! *fangirling in Hawkeye/Clint Barton fan* Wait, about the opening, it’s different from the others, the ones from the previous seven episodes, right? OMG blond-haired-Natasha! *also cry in fangirl*

The Watcher talking about a reality which end and which breaks his (?)(we always assume that’s The Watcher use the he/him pronouns but as far as I’m not sure of it, I’ll use the they/them pronouns) their heart and guess what? I think this episode will break mine!

It snow… (Please tell me it’s not ashes (Maybe from the burning world?))

Holy- Natasha!!! My heart is tight and I feel bad and sad and now I want to cry, Marvel I hate you. Also, she looks hurt, Marvel I double hate you for that, stop playing with my feeling please!

*yell and screams* My little boiiii!!! (Hawkeye/Clint Barton just appeared on my screen) (and I’m really happy of it) (I hope he won’t be hurt, or I’ll became violent because no one hurt my little baby! Yes, I’m aware that he’s older and stronger than me but I don’t care, let me dream and cry, ok?) Also, excuse me, but what happened to his right arm? I’m not sure but if it’s what I think it is, Marvel you’re gonna have big trouble (and by that I mean my insulting you in French in my room, which isn’t that bad I think)

Good I love this action scene and this duo! And the Hawkeye cape is really stylish! I want the same! It seems so cool! Can we agree on the fact that that’s a cape of invisibility, like in Harry Potter?

Also, that’s a metal arm or a prothese that he have instead of his right arm?! Marvel please no! *screams and swear in French*

The three-arrows thing was cool!

*double scream in French when the robots hurt Hawkeye*

Touch him and I’ll kill you you robots! Yay! Natasha!

Wait a minute, I just think about it but where are the others? (I’m full of fear now)

A joke about him being disable? Ah. Sooo fun 😒 (no) Natasha saying that puns aren’t her speciality… Girl, no kidding?! Also, the « It’s Russia. Secrets were the national pastime. » is actually a good one! (Is that the ruins of Saint-Petersburg?)

« One‘s man dream »… You mean his stupidity and/or madness of values, right?

Oh sh¡T! Ultron dear, you’re a son of a Tony, and that’s not a compliment. Dumbass, if you erase the life on Earth, first of all that‘s not nice (thank you Captain obvious) and then, how can we have the wonderful Wandavison?! (Yeah, I love this ship, one of the only hetero ones I like)

Clint being worried for his family wasn’t something I needed today you Marvel!

Scuse me WTF?! He cut Thanos like a shitty piece of paper?! And this purple idiot let him a free access to the Infinity stones?! (Well, he may don’t think things were gonna happened that way but it’s a big catastrophe, like *scream in French*)

*swear in French* Ultron my dear don’t do that!!! *scream for the happy universes we saw* *cry for it* Also, Ultron might be a vilain but we can’t deny they’re (again I’m not sure about the pronouns) really good looking. I mean, their design is really cool and full of style and it’s sad it would bring us tears and desperation because they’re really stylish -I know I repeated the same think but I think it and my English vocabulary isn’t really good :C -.

And I was right to fear for the others :C

Ultron, peace isn’t destruction!

Did he just destroyed Earth?! *is shocked and don’t accept it* *my heroes can’t die, right? * (friendly reminder that Tony’s not part of my heroes)

And Asgard?! *still in disbelief*

*saw their favorites MCU characters disappear from the screen* No! Nooo! *cry for real and had to put pause to cry* (my heart is broken, why did you did this Marvel?!)

The Great Master is just like us, he watch what’s happening in disbelief because it’s so… absurd. It’s not happening, right? It’s just a nightmare and I’ll wake up soon, right?

What the f_ck Xandar?! Captain! *cry with joyfull tears* Please kick Ultron’s ass! Skynet, LoL, I understand that reference! (Am I that old?!)

Wait, I just realized but if Ultron had destroyed Earth, it means Maria -you know, Carol’s wife- is dead?! *gasp in pain*

« You can’t win. - I already have. » Dude WTF?! Let me have hope you son of Tony!

Crap Ultron broke the 4th wall and heard the narrator (aka The Watcher!)! We’re in danger! All the universes are in danger! Our mental health are in dan… Wait, I don’t have that one.

*deep breath with Natasha and Clint appears on screen*

Hey Watcher, maybe you could help them, no? I mean, the multiverse is in danger and they’re your last hope, remember? But no, it’s so much fun to watch them looking in all the boxes… 😒

Is that Alexei Red Guardian’s shield? You really want me to cry Marvel?! (oh no, now I’ve got « Bye bye Miss American Pie » stuck in head… Great, really)

*Clint talking about his low will to live* Me: same here bro! Not exactly for the same reasons but same here!

Watcher, stop talking just f_cking help them! That’s what you called « intervene » Watcher?! LoL seing them trying to talk to the duo Clintasha is the funniest think in this episode for now xD

Not this escalator xD *think about the scene with Steve and Bucky in it in Captain America: The Winter Soldier* *smile*

Francis?! WTF?! XD

How to kill Zola? With water xD Oh God I love Clint so much xD

« I’d like to order a pizza » LoL *die of laughing because it was unexpected* xD (See? She can make pun!)

Yes, a specific arrow! Also, don’t explain us you plan! If we know the plan before it happened, it’s not gonna work!

I’m love the trio Clint-Natasha-Zola actually!

Wait… Natasha holding Clint furiously reminds me of what happened in Voromir… *realization* NO! No no no no No! I see what you trying to doing here Marvel! No! I want them to live! Both of them!

*shock* *cry*

The « I don’t want to fight anymore » wasn’t something I needed Marvel! Why would you do this to me?! WHY?!

*also, sadly, we know that Ultron won’t die in this episode because we saw it in the end of episode 7 and it was after episode 8 I guess*

THEY DO THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT HAPPENED IN ENDGAME THOSE *incomprehensible swear drowned in tears* !!! I hope all the one who said that « it should have been Clint » regret it!

And the little smile! He’s relieve to leave and to join his family! *cry in pain*

Why do I still watch The MCU?! I know it’s painful but I still watch, why?!

Apart of that, can we talk about the beauty of this scene? The music, the light who goes on Clint…

Watcher, you sure you can’t do anything ?!

I’m sorry but I have to : Nat, you’re such a poser !

Wait, The Watcher is actually really badass and strong!

What the f_ck Steve?! Why became president?!

WTF?!

Wait, it’s already the end?! Ah, no. Fiou.

What the… That’s Strange. And by that I don’t only said that it’s weird, but also that that’s literally Doctor Strange from episode 6.

How the f_ck does he end up there!? No idea.

I love the ending music, god!

*enging credits* What the… The CNC and Film France helped?! *disbelief but also pride to be French*

And that’s it! Finished! One week to wait until the next one?! It’s gonna be sooo long (actually no because of my studies but you understand what I mean, right?)

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Ask Explosion #6

Asks answering previous posts:

Oh, okay! I’m glad, thank you!

(the post this anon is referring to)

Ohhhh.

And fjbgjnfkjgfg thanks >////<

I don’t think there’s much wrong with liking the design itself; I prefer Riposte personally, but that’s just me.

The best way I could put the “insensitive” part (I’m sort of dumb when it comes to this stuff and I talked about it before when I was working on that 3D model of Marinette) is that it’s so heavy on Japanese. I mean, they already have Kagami constantly wear what looks like a school uniform and Tomoe is just like--super heavy Japanese. It’s like the show doesn’t know how to balance “can’t tell at all” (with Marinette) and then “okay this is WAY strong” (with Kagami+Tomoe+Kung Food).

That makes sense! I guess the only problem then would be that the kwami can’t really act as mentors of any kind because “you’re saying this just because that’s all you can say” (like Sass, hypothetically, always willing to give someone a second chance, no matter what; I know that’s not what his power specifically entails but it’s just an example).

I would however definitely lean towards kwami being very strict in one alignment, so Tikki would always be on the path of pure good and thus never want to take/steal/whatever, whereas Plagg is always on the path of “bad,” but there are times where Marinette will have to ignore Tikki while Adrien will have to listen to Plagg.

And yeah, the guardians existing and the kwami not having so much control... not a huge fan.

Someone asked about Chat Noir’s flirting and he claimed that it was “on purpose” (you know, while throwing episodes like “Felix” at us but okay) and then he followed up with this:

There was also this other comment he made a while back when someone tried to make a suggestion to him:

Except he’s missing the point completely. When he talks about constructive criticism, he acts like it doesn’t matter, especially not anymore now that they’re working on Seasons 4 and 5:

(I mean, personally, I don’t think I need “engineering knowledge” to know when a rollercoaster I’d ridden nearly tossed the cart off the tracks and had questionable design decisions, but you do you, Astruc.)

Yes, constructive criticism is mainly for seeing a product improve, but that doesn’t mean ignoring it because, “well you haven’t seen the full product.”

“Animaestro” even has a bit of commentary on it:

Ladybug: What's with that trailer too? I am not scared of cats, at all.

Animaestro: You haven't even seen the movie and you're already slamming it?

Chat Noir: He does have a point, you know.

Ladybug: I wasn't slamming it. It's called constructive criticism!

(firstly, of course Chat Noir bows to Astruc on that one because he’s Astruc’s sunshine boy, ugh)

Ignoring the fact that a movie/printed book is usually a “full product,” criticism is also to say “you did this thing wrong, don’t do this in the future.” It doesn’t have to be referring strictly to the show. It’s just, “you did this thing wrong and here’s why, try to catch yourself if you accidentally do it again in the future, whether in what you’re working on now or otherwise.”

(He’s also talked about “unsolicited critique” before and I don’t know what that means? Like, dude, this isn’t someone’s fanfiction where I’d actually agree that you can’t go after them for their work. This is professional work.)

Anyway, remember “Chameleon”? When everyone saw the trailer and absolutely flipped out over it, then there were people who were like, “Wait for the full episode!!”?

Guess what? The full episode came out and people were either just as mad or even madder than before.

Astruc wants to have his cake and eat it to. He wants to say that his episodes are “stand-alone,” and that the order isn’t that important, but when people start pointing out issues, it becomes, “No! You have to wait for the rest of the episodes to come out!” and when people do that, it’s gonna be like, “Well, we already did the whole show so it’s not like I can change anything. *shrug*”

Also, just blaming it on “the industry” when everything else has been exhausted:

(He’s literally brought up before that the New York special was meant to have subplots about other characters, so it’s not like he can never say anything when something didn’t fit the “original vision”; I’m not asking him to get on his knees and say he’s sorry - plus, I do recognize that a lot of influence comes from the industry and people like Jeremy - but I expect a little more than the “whoops” he gave when people pointed out that “Weredad” contradicted his statement on Miraculous Ladybug.)

I think the reason people see it the way they do is because of Fu’s line in “Robostus” seems to imply the exact opposite thing happening.

Master Fu: Universe must always stay in balance. For every action, there is a reaction. For every wish, a price to pay in return. Had your robotic friend asked to become a real boy, someone would have lost his humanity in return.

New Asks:

Marigami is acceptable. I’m not crazy about it but it’s likable enough.

Lukadrien though... no, absolutely not. On a conceptual level, because it’s such a slap in the face for Marinette, and on a fanon level, because most of the jokes around it is Luka going to Marinette like he’s about to ask her out and then just asks for Adrien’s details. It’s just... ugh. I hate it (throwing Marinette into the ship still doesn’t help for me though because I’m not into the love square).

Bi erasure is my least favorite thing.

And yeah, it’s like--they set the love square ship(s?) out onto the water, then the Lukanette ship later with the plan to either sink it or just kinda... return it to the harbor if they don’t make a huge fuss about it?

Meanwhile, the love square ship has been in piece this whole time, and instead of letting it sink, they put it on a raft to keep it floating.

Depends.

In LadyBugOut? It’s already written and I haven’t posted it.

For canon? Like, Marinette being super disappointed at her view of Adrien being shattered or? :P

That’s accurate. I dislike about a fourth-ish of Season 1,then about half-ish of Season 2, then like... almost all of Season 3.

So we’ll just have to see what happens in Season 4.

I like Adrimi, but I’m not crazy about it and I don’t really write for it unless Lukanette is already the main ship (making Adrimi just a background ship). Adrien tends to dismiss Kagami a lot (like in “Frozer” and then “Miracle Queen” with him not committing) and I don’t want to see Kagami hurting like that (I agree with the anon completely that Adrien is more at fault than she is). They’re both emotionally-stunted so I usually have them wait it out or something to have them get together.

My ideal endgame is Lukanette while Adrimi is more like “let’s wait, let’s work on ourselves (especially Adrien; Kagami at least has on firm crush and wants to commit to it), and we’ll see where we go down the line.”

I don’t know if they really have the guts to arrest Gabriel. I also think that Lila might pick up the butterfly at the end of Season 5 or something after she’s been “dealt with.”

Chloe also is the mayor’s daughter so even if the law was that strict on teens, nothing would happen to her unless Andre got replaced.

Big yikes.

Maybe that the thing forcing Marinette away from Adrien and causing things to go wrong is the part of the curse trying to prevent the ladybug and cat miraculous from coming together?

So, close enough to be attracted and want to work together, but forcing the ladybug away from the cat to prevent the miraculouses from being used to make a wish?

I CHOKED ON MY DRINK.

ugh

ugh

ugggggggh

I’m 100% sure that Marinette wouldn’t be as uncomfortable around Adrien if Alya hadn’t constantly intervened. She’s the enabler of both Marinette’s anxiety and her crush on Adrien.

I went back and looked at the scene and it does kinda look like it, yes, because it basically goes from the intersection Marinette is in to another intersection that looks very, extremely similar and I don’t see Marinette in that intersection.

It was just a really, really bad transition. I remember being thrown off for a second too so I don’t blame you, anon.

I think Bob Roth’s intent was to scare Marinette away from showing that proof? He probably knows very well that Marinette has all the evidence she needs to make a case and already had a story planned for the press about how “the young talents they found didn’t measure up and the people deserved better.”

He just needed enough pressure on them for them to believe that he had enough authority to silence them.

And then Silencer tried to silence him instead. :3

I don’t think Marinette’s relationship with her parents would change too much. Like, they already let her just go out whenever she wants which obviously Plagg approves off, although Marinette might become more numb to the idea of being grounded because Plagg just teaches her, “hey lol Ladybug isn’t grounded tho,” so Marinette sneaks out all the time.

Yeah, Tikki would probably justify Gabriel’s behavior, and she wouldn’t really be able to get on his case for flirting as Mister Bug because she’s not aware of it.

lol it helps no one to have Tikki I guess.

Adrien overall and then honorable mention to Alya for Winny’s comment about her being Marinette’s conscience (which is probably why they almost never nail Alya for stuff she does).

KHNJFDNGFD THE LUKANETTE QUEEN MONIKER RETURNS >///<

And ugh, the absolute level of bias in that. Even if the video was made in, like, Season 2 (don’t know, didn’t see it), Season 2 still gives examples of why Adrienette isn’t making Marinette happy at all (and has some of the love square failings too).

The name and the fact that they gave it that name tells me everything I need to know.

Goodness gracious.

Yeah, people can talk about character’s flaws. I mean, we talk a lot here about Marinette’s struggles in getting over Adrien (partly brought on by a lot of outside factors but still).

Also, sure, Luka is a “pushover” because he’s one of the few characters who understands Marinette’s tunnel vision and isn’t bothered by it, okay. :P (Interesting that the topic of Chat’s entitlement towards Ladybug but Luka respecting her choices and just enjoying being around her makes him her punching bag).

Every time I hear, “Adrien needs more spotlight!!!” I lose a part of my soul. How people can’t see that Marinette is the show’s true punching bag is beyond me.

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Updated List 2021 For Netflix Cancelled & Renewed Shows

Platforms like Netflix and Amazon Prime are watched by a number of people all over the world. Both of these platforms telecast movies, shows, and series which are related to different genres. From thriller to action, anime, mystery, documentaries, history, and more, everything can be seen on these platforms.

Before getting started let us first talk about the shows/series you like to watch? Friends, Riverdale, Game Of Thrones? Well, all of them has a huge fan following. I personally can never get enough of watching Riverdale and Friends. Whether I am back home after work or I wanted to spend some time, Netflix has always been a savior. However, lately I got a news and it just felt like the end of the world.

Were you aware of the fact that some of the Netflix shows have been going off air and cancelled real soon? Yes, you are reading this right. The reasons behind the cancellation of various reasons bring together a plethora of reasons. Of course some shows like Dear White People and Dead To Me have a huge fan following and will be missed for sure. However, since we know that sooner or later good things do make their way, all these shows also came to an end soon.

Have you been wondering which shows got canceled? This is the piece which is apt for you. You will be able to find out all of them here itself. Hence, let’s get started without any further ado.

Netflix shows that have been renewed and cancelled in the year 2021Below mentioned is a list of the top twenty shows that have been canceled this year. Check them out to find the reasons behind the big decision. In addition to this, you will also find out if they are coming back anytime soon.

Ozark: This one has been renewed for season four. The famous television series is coming to an end in 2021. You could find this series on Netflix. Even after gaining so much of popularity, the show is gong off air this year. The show did receive a number of nominations of awards and has also won numerou titles. Some of them are the Guild award, and Emmy award. To people who have watched this series, the fourth season has divided into two different categories. Each category consists of seven episodes. However, at present the director wanted to take a break and made sure that the series is remembered by the fans.

Cast of Ozark

Jason Bateman

Alik Bateman

Andrew Bernstein

Ellen Kuras

Daniel Sackheim

Amanda Marsalis

Benjamin Semanoff

Phil Abraham

Cherien Dabis

Dead To Me: This one has been renewed for season three. The series is known to end in the year 2021. However, the series finale is a big hit and funny. But, this one did not gain too much attention. Time changes, and so does the audience. This is why it is now time to bid adieu to this series, Jenny and Judy. Even though the series was loved by some of them till date, it is finally coming to an end yet not off air.

Cast of Dead To Me

Kat Coiro

Geeta V. Patel

Minkie Spiro

Abe Sylvia

Amy York Rubin

Tamra Davis

Jennifer Getzinger

Liza Johnson

Silver Tree

Elizabeth Allen

Lucifer: The series is renewed for season six. Another fantastic which is coming to an end is Lucifer. The series premiered on 25 January 2016. With time the first season received mixed reviews from critics. A number of them praised certain characters and Elli’s performance was no exception. With time more and more seasons were released. However, they did not gain much popularity. Platforms like Netflix also cancelled the pick up of the third season.

Cast Of Lucifer

Tom Ellis as Lucifer Morningstar

Lauren German

Kevin Alejandro

D B. Woodside as Amenadiel

Lesley as Ann Branch

Scarlett Estevez as Beatrice

Rachael Harris

Kevin Rankin

Tricia Helfer as Mum

Tom Welling as Lieutenant Marcus Pierce

Inbar Lavi as Eve

You: This one got renewed for season three. There are only very few Netflix series that have grabbed the attention of people. However unfortunately, this famous thriller series has come to an end now. However, a statement was made by the director where he said that the series will be ending with a season three. The series is based on a novel which was written by Caroline Kepnes. The main role was played by Penn Badgley who was a bookseller. During the second season, the seller was a movie from New York to LA. Even though this is an irresistible show, the fans may not get to watch it anymore.

Cast of You

Penn Badgley

Victoria Pedretti

Ambyr Childers

Elizabeth Lail

Luca Padovan

Jenna Ortega

Zach Cherry

James Scully

Carmeta Zumbado

Nicole Kang

Shalita Grant

Scott Speedman

Travis Van Winkle

Atypical: This show has been renewed for season four. With the season finale, this show is going off air in 2021. However, it will still remain in the hearts of so many of them. No reasons have been found as to why the show is going off air. However, some of them are saying that the reason is because the show is very underrated.

Cast of Atypical

Keir Gilchrist

Brigette Lundy-Paine

Jennifer Jason Leigh

Michael Rapaport

Nik Dodani

Amy Okuda

Jenna Boyd

Graham Rogers

Fivel Stewart

Nina Ameri

Raúl Castillo

Ariela Barer

Graham Phillips

Sara Gilbert

Rachel Redleaf

Allie Rae Treharne

Eric McCormack

Casey Wilson

Angel Laketa Moore

Christina Offley

Kimia Behpoornia

Karl T. Wright

Major Curda

Marietta Melrose

On My Block: There is no official announcement related to the renewal of On My Block. However, it is going to end in 2021 mainly because of the pandemic. The show gained popularity but is still ending. Centered in Los Angeles, this one was based on high school teens who face different challenges.

Cast of On My Block

Diego Tinoco

Sierra Capri

Jason Genao

Brett Gray

Jessica Marie Garcia

Julio Macias

Ronni Hawk

Peggy Blow

Jahking Guillory

Paula Garc��s

Danny Ramirez

Reggie Austin

Eric Neil Gutierrez

Eme Ikwuakor

Emilio Rivera

Lisa Marcos

Angela Elayne Gibbs

Ada Luz Pla

Troy Leigh-Anne Johnson

Shoshana Bush

Rob Murat

Mallory James Mahoney

Raushanah Simmons

Gilberto Ortiz

Dear White People: This series is renewed for season four. This one is coming to an end in 2021. The final episodes will show you the nest conversational end.

Cast of Dear White People

Logan Browning

Antoinette Robertson

Brandon P. Bell

Ashley Blaine Featherson

Marque Richardson

DeRon Horton

John Patrick Amedori

Giancarlo Esposito

Tyler James Williams

Caitlin Carver

Jeremy Tardy

Obba Babatundé

Brandon Black

Sheridan Pierce

Nia Long

Ally Maki

Quei Tann

Brant Daugherty

Wendy Raquel Robinson

John Rubinstein

Jeff Larson

Alex Alcheh

Francia Raisa

Rome Flynn

Luke O’Sullivan

Taylor Foster

John Paul Jones II

Tessa Thompson

Ratched: This series is renewed for season two but is going off air very soon. The series is about a nurse Ratched and is based on a real story. As of now it is twisted and ended with a superb episode.

Cast of Ratched

Sarah Paulson

Cynthia Nixon

Finn Wittrock

Sharon Stone

Judy Davis

Jon Jon Briones

Charlie Carver

Amanda Plummer

Corey Stoll

Alice Englert

Sophie Okonedo

Vincent D’Onofrio

Hunter Parrish

Brandon Flynn

Harriet Sansom Harris

Rosanna Arquette

Jermaine Williams

Michael Benjamin Washington

Don Cheadle

Linda Bisesti

Annie Starke

Teo Briones

Emily Mest

Liz Femi

Jeff B. Davis

Robert Curtis Brown

Kirk Bovill

Grasie Mercedes

Siaka Massaquoi

Ben Crowley

Elinor Gunn

Clayton Farris

Aaron Jay Rome

Patrick Duke Conboy

Zabeth Russell

Albert Malafronte

Jake McDermott

Heather McPhaul

Lita Lopez

Lucas Barker

Greg Ballora

Alfred Rubin Thompson

Germain Arroyo

Kristin Charney

Fred Maske

Casey James Knight

Glow: This one is straightaway cancelled. A very famous wrestling drama, this had to be cancelled because of the pandemic.

Cast of Glow

Alison Brie

Betty Gilpin

Marc Maron

Kate Nash

Jackie Tohn

Sydelle Noel

Sunita Mani

Britney Young

Gayle Rankin

Awesome Kong

Britt Baron

Ellen Wong

Chris Lowell

Kimmy Gatewood

Rebekka Johnson

Marianna Palka

Shakira Barrera

Rich Sommer

Bashir Salahuddin

Geena Davis

Victor Quinaz

Ursula Hayden

Alex Rich

Andrew Friedman

Elizabeth Perkins

Annabella Sciorra

Brooke Hogan

Breeda Wool

Kevin Cahoon

Horatio Sanz

Wyatt Nash

Joey Ryan

Toby Huss

Paul Fitzgerald (actor)

Eli Goree

Marc Evan Jackson

Phoebe Strole

Amy Farrington

Ravil Isyanov

Messiah: The series was cancelled because it had to go through ups and downs. However, for the year 2021, this high class show has been canceled. The reason behind this is the dropping popularity.

Cast of Messiah

Mehdi Dehbi

Michelle Monaghan

Stefania LaVie Owen

Rona-Lee Shimon

Sayyid El Alami

Melinda Page Hamilton

Wil Traval

John Ortiz

Fares Landoulsi

Jane Adams

Beau Bridges

Philip Baker Hall

Dermot Mulroney

Teenage Bounty Hunters: This one got cancelled too. Even though this was considered as one of the best teen comedy series, it came to an end. The series received amazing reviews from the critics and the jury.Sadly, the first season of this show fails to draw the attention of the audience. This is one major reason why the series ended.

Cast of Teenage Bounty Hunters

Maddie Phillips

Anjelica Bette Fellini

Devon Hales

Kadeem Hardison

Virginia Williams

Spencer House

Mackenzie Astin

Myles Evans

Charity Cervantes

Method Man

Eric Graise

Given Sharp

Shirley Rumierk

Randy Havens

Jacob Rhodes

The Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance: The series got cancelled even after umpteen gigs and comedy episodes.

Cast of The Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance

Anya Taylor-Joy

Taron Egerton

Nathalie Emmanuel

Mark Hamill

Simon Pegg

Jason Isaacs

Helena Bonham Carter

Andy Samberg

Natalie Dormer

Keegan-Michael Key

Caitriona Balfe

Alicia Vikander

Gugu Mbatha-Raw

Mark Strong

Harvey Fierstein

Theo James

Toby Jones

Awkwafina

Lena Headey

Ólafur Darri Ólafsson

Shazad Latif

Donna Kimball

Harris Dickinson

Benedict Wong

Sigourney Weaver

Hannah John-Kamen

Neil Sterenberg

Louise Gold

Beccy Henderson

Kevin Clash

Dave Chapman

Warrick Brownlow-Pike

Helena Smee

Bill Hader

Theo Ogundipe

Kemi-Bo Jacobs

Dave Goelz

Eddie Izzard

Patriot Act with Hasan Minhaj; This American show has grabbed the attention of so many of them during the lockdown. However, the show is now cancelled and no reasons behind the same have been found out yet.

Cast of Patriot Act With Hasan Minhaj

Hasan Minhaj

Joyelle Johnson

Arnab Goswami

Andrew Yang

Cory Booker

Maeve Higgins

Adi Ash

Michelle C Bonilla

Rahm Braslaw

Julian Zane Chawdhary

Sean Hartman

Alexis Landry

James Adam Tucker

Rayan Zaim-Sassi

Emily Grace Buck

Vava

Vinod Chaproo

Joan Dickson

Michael Eric Dyson

Jann Ellis

Sonia

Lori Hammel

Smith Harrison

John Hodgman

Siraj Huda

Jacob Dylan

Aurea Jolly

Kevin

The Summary

These are some of the famous Netflix series and shows that got cancelled in the year 2021. As mentioned above, the reasons behind the cancellation differ from series to series. However, you need not lose hope. Netflix still have amazing series coming up. Whatever genre you prefer, keep that in mind and start searching for them. This way you will surely end up finding the ones that will be suitable for you. If not Netflix, then you can check out IMDB. This is a platform where you can search for various shows and movies. While doing do, what you can do is check out the ratings. This way you will find out whether or not the show should be watched or not. IMDB shows new series ans shows that are released every week or month. Search for the one you want to watch and get started without any further ado.

We hope this piece has helped in understanding which and why the shows got cancelled. However, you need not worry about anything. There are a plethora of shows you will come across on this platform, and something or the other will surely be worth watching. Thus, do not wait further and make use of the time this lockdown. Do not let the cancellation and lockdown spoil your mood. Your mood will be cherished and who knows you find out facts you never thought could happen? Also, exploring various genres never goes waste. So, why not make use of this wonderful opportunity?

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The Vampire Diaries: Elena Gilbert - Type 9w1

Elena is caring, humble and stubborn. She is accepting and friendly towards everyone she meets and is one of the most popular girls at Mystic Falls High. She wants to fit in and adapts quickly to read the emotions and feelings of others and appeal to what she thinks they are looking for. She really wants to have a normal life and battles with how this will happen now that she is aware of the Supernatural world. 

I was thinking of typing Elena as a 2 as she is very helpful and can come across as a nurturing figure to her friends and family. However, I think that this has occurred as a reaction to her parents death and feeling as though she has to be this role for Jeremy in particular. Both 9s and 2s are both positive types and put the needs of others before their own but I think Elena does so as a way of keeping the peace more than wanting to feel loved and needed.

At her best, Elena is resilient and becomes more active in her own life. She stops being a damsel in distress for Damon and Stefan to protect and begins taking control of her life and making her own decisions.At her worst, Elena becomes withdrawn, anxious and reactive. It can be seen at the start of the series that she is pushing people away and is emotionally closed off due to the death of her parents. 

Elena has experienced a lot of loss and change in her life but she remains positive and strong. She has a very calm demeanor and when faced with more tragedies or threats is able to stay composed and think logically. She believes it is better to carry on and keeps her feelings to herself as she doesn’t want to burden anyone else. She will often put others first which can be seen in her decision to go with Klaus in order to keep everyone else safe from him.

Elena finds it very difficult to choose between Damon and Stefan and does not want to make a decision. She fears that she will make the wrong choice and gets stuck in procrastination. She had a very strong relationship with Stefan and has deep feelings for him and is very conflicted when Damon expresses his feelings towards her. She wants both of the brothers to be happy and is afraid of hurting them or coming between their relationship. It takes Stefan confronting Elena about having feelings for her to even consider that this may be true as she is unsure of her own emotions and thoughts. 

Elena has a strong wing 1 as she wants to do the right thing and is more reserved and represses her feeling more than a wing 8. She is mroe likely to write her feelings into her diary than addressing any concerns she may have. 

Tritype: 9w1-2w1-6w7

Some quote to describe Elena’s motivation:

"Dear diary, I made it through the day. I must have said, "I'm fine, thanks," at least thirty-seven times. And I didn't mean it once. But no one noticed. When someone asks, "How are you?" They really don't want an answer."

“See, the thing is, I got home tonight planning on doing what I always do, write in my diary, like I have been since my mom gave me one when I was 10. It's where I get everything out, everything I'm feeling. It all goes in this little book that I hide on the second shelf behind this really hideous ceramic mermaid. But then I realized that I'd just be writing things that I should probably be telling you."

"When have I ever made a decision? You and Stefan do that for me. Now this, this is my decision."

"Stefan thinks that I have feelings for you."

It was. I'm sorry that I strung you along. I should have figured out what I wanted and just been honest about it. I'm now making the same mistakes with Stefan and Damon. It’s not right what I'm doing to them either, I – I have to let one of them go."

"I don’t know how I feel."

"So, Damon, tell me. What is it that I want?"

"It was my choice to save him. Why aren't you seeing that?"

"Well, he did and that’s exactly what I am. Confused. I need to figure out what these feelings actually mean."

[lostgirlrewatch]

1x09 - Fae Day

Written by: Jeremy Boxen

Directed by: Steve DiMarco

Original Air Date: November 14, 2010

I’m back, bitches.

There’s like 130 people who follow this blog now, which is crazy. I don’t know why you followed, whether it’s to reblog gifsets, to read/skim the episode blog posts, or because of gay girls. But thank you. I took a long break because real life is a bitch. And also because Lost Girl episode 1x09 sucks.

My plan is to be back permanently and post on a more consistent basis. My goal is to post one episode commentary every Sunday around 5PM EST, give or take a few hours.

As I write this, I am sitting here drinking very strong coffee and eating an underwhelming Walmart blueberry muffin, having just watched 1x09.

Wow, that episode was boring. In fact, I had completely forgotten about it.

The premise is that Bo is upset by the events at the end of last episode—Vex getting away without providing any information on her mom, Lu Ann supposedly being executed—and wants to “take a break” from the Fae, which she does by going to the Dal with Kenzi for a drink, where a ton of Fae are partying. (Okay.)

It’s a holiday called La Showshang--

--(no, I am not looking up how it is actually spelled) where Light and Dark Fae call a truce and are allowed to fuck each other. And also they can’t fight. Then a banshee screams and predicts that someone at the party will die, and Bo decides to help out.

Does it sound stupid yet?

No? Okay, then how about this? While Bo and Dyson are off investigating, Kenzi stays behind and randomly develops a crush on this milquetoast motherfucker with no personality.

So it turns out this guy, Sean, is the one who is predicted to die. Some drama ensues between him and his estranged brother, that is really, truly, very interesting, I assure you, it is super interesting. (It’s not.) Spoilers: the dad did it. Sean dies at the end anyway.

Now that we’ve got the plot out of the way, let’s at least talk about how this episode contributes to the overall arc. Or does it?

Last episode, Trick secretly saved Lu Ann from execution so that he could find out more information about Bo’s birth mom. He hasn’t told anyone that he did this, except Dyson (when asked). Dyson, understandably, is a bit peeved that they are still keeping Bo in the dark about “all this.” 

What exactly is “all this,” you ask? I can’t remember if it’s been revealed in the show prior to now, but Dyson name drops an “Aife” who is on her way to town, so I think it’s safe to say that both Trick and Dyson are aware of who Bo’s birth mother is, and are deliberately keeping it from her. Ah, yes. The most important thing in her life, the thing that haunts her day in and day out, the thing that Dyson literally saw her go apeshit on Vex about and then break down crying about afterwards. They just casually know it, and aren’t telling her. Bo also thinks that Lu Ann is dead, so that’s doubly cruel. Dyson is just as guilty for keeping Bo in the dark as Trick is, but at least he has the decency to be upset about it and insist that they stop doing it.

Trust. What a wonderful, elusive thing. Hm.

Dyson and Trick are cowards and failures.

Trick is like Dollar Tree Giles. Just as much of an asshole, but with less of a personality, and less interesting and likable. Rupert Giles being an asshole works because by the time we realize what a fucking dick he is, we have grown to know him well and care about him, and his assholery is the casual, patronizing, well-meaning kind that makes him extra realistic. It hits hard. I mean, sure, I hate Giles, but I also love Giles for the character he is. Trick is just…I feel like they tried to make him the Giles of Lost Girl, and it falls flat because we have no reason to give a shit about him. He just comes across as a grumpy, neurotic old fuck who is extremely cruel to Bo (someone who is *spoilers* rather close to him) for seemingly no reason.

Dyson: How long are we gonna not tell Bo about this?

Trick: For as long as we can.

Great. Nice talking to you, Trick.

Dyson also calls Trick the “Blood King” in this scene, so now we know he is apparently really important.

Kenzi has another run-in with death in this episode. If you vaguely followed the trajectory of this season so far, have you noticed that Kenzi seems to have an interaction with “death,” as a concept, in every other episode? It sure feels that way.

I like that Kenzi’s reaction to finding out Sean is going to die is, “You know what? Fuck no. If you are going to die, you are going to die without regrets.” In her own wise words (or those of Ludacris), regret is fo suckas. Bitch. 

Kenzi’s reaction to death is always rebellion, or at the very least, she is super into the idea of living life to the fullest while you still can. She gives me trauma vibes of, “Death is always around the corner, so I’m always seeking thrills and always trying to live without regrets.”

Sean dies at the end, right in her arms.

Girl, you knew him for one day.

But it’s still awful. Kenzi has seen too much death already, and she deserves better. Unfortunately, this show is not kind to her. If you’ve seen the next few seasons, you know that this one-off situation is only the first in an ongoing trend—Kenzi’s absurdly horrendous luck with regards to her love life.

Kenzi should be, physically at least, the weakest character. She is the youngest by far. But she always takes the hardest hits.

[brigade-claire-opinions]

Day 7: IT Chapter Two

Let's talk about this novel and THIS film.

IT Chapter Two is an (admittedly rather loose) adaptation of the adult chapters of Stephen King's 1986 novel IT. It's now 2016 - 27 years after the events of 2017's IT - and our friends from the first film have all grown up. Unfortunately, most of them have forgotten all about Derry, It, and each other. After a tragic homophobic attack followed by It eating its first victim since the events of the first film, Derry is thrust back into Its reign of terror, and it's up to Mike Hanlon - the only member of the gang who stayed in Derry and, thus, retained his memory - to gather our ragtag band of Losers and defeat this ancient evil once and for all.

With this particular adaptation of IT, there are two key elements that I feel are paramount to my feelings about the film.

The first is the cast. They absolutely NAILED every single adult counterpart to the kids in the previous film. James McAvoy replaces Jaeden Martell as our lead protagonist Bill Denbrough; Bill Hader takes Finn Wolfard's place as Richie Tozier; Jessica Chastain takes over for Sophia Lillis as Beverly Marsh; Isaiah Mustafa takes the torch of Mike Hanlon from Chosen Jacobs; Jay Ryan takes up the mantle of Ben Hanscom from Jeremy Ray Taylor; Andy Bean fills in for Wyatt Oleff as adult Stanley Uris.

While everyone mentioned above does a phenomenal job playing the aged up versions of their counterparts - most of them even look believable as 40-something incarnations of their respective characters - I need to give special props to the decision to cast James Ransone as adult Eddie Kaspbrack. This dude is an absolute dead ringer for Jack Dylan Grazer - seriously, it's like they reached 27 years into the future and plucked him for this film. The resemblance is nothing short of uncanny.

Bill Skarsgård returns as It and crushes the role just as he did in the first film. I truly believe that his performance will go down in history as the iconic portrayal of IT, even if we see another adaptation in the future.

As many of you may know, Stephen King would often receive criticism about the endings to his stories. That extends to Bill Denbrough, who grows up to be a successful author, who doesn't know how to write a good ending to save his life. Stephen King makes a cameo appearance in this film and... well, I won't spoil exactly what happens, but it's probably my favorite scene out of both films.

That leads me to the second key element, one which may have a significant effect on the reception that many audiences receive this film. Tonight's viewing of this film is my third - once in the cinema, twice now on Blu Ray - and now, I can finally confirm that IT Chapter Two is not a horror film. Sure, it has the setting, cinematography, score, and plot progression of a horror film. It has some scary sequences and at times even leaves you chomping on the edge of your seat.

The writing and the performances, however, have led me to the conclusion that IT Chapter Two is a dark comedy wrapped up in the cloak of a horror film. The humor in this film is so organic and so well-timed that this absolutely has to be intentional. I mean, I could be wrong and all of this could be a happy accident, but I am convinced that Andy Muschietti wanted to turn IT into a comedic film.

And it works! The film really leans into the ridiculousness of its premise - that a group of 40-somethings who haven't seen each other in 27 years have to come back together to take down an eldritch abomination in the form of a killer clown who haunted them in their childhood. It's absurd, the movie is aware of that, and it has a ton of fun with this premise.

It's really difficult to compare this film to the adult portions of the novel without getting into spoilers. What I'll say is that, while it hits the expected plot points from the novel for the most part, they're delivered with that comedic tone that the novel just doesn't have. But, hey, cocaine is hell of a drug, and was Stephen King's cowriter on many of his famous works, including this one. There's a humorous anecdote that King tells about hardly remembering Cujo, but that's a story for another time.

IT Chapter Two disappointed many people I've spoken to, but I really enjoy it. While I hesitate to refer to it as a horror film, I think it's a wonderful dark comedy that serves as a great second half to the first film. It successfully delivers on the promise set up by Chapter One. These two films together build a strong narrative and complement each other well. While watching these back-to-back is quite a feat, Andy Muschietti is reportedly working on director's cuts for each chapter, as well as a third cut that edits both films together in book order. I am super interested in all three of these - if they ever come to fruition, I may just have to revisit this property in the future.

I watched the original television adaptation of IT as a kid with my cousins. For the longest time, IT appeared in my mind's eye as a haunted house film about a creepy spider clown. While there is a spooky house involved, this is absolutely not a haunted house film. Speaking of, though, I have yet to review any page-to-screen adaptations of haunted house stories...

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The Brightest Star Pt.04

Enkindled Starfire

05/27/2019

Pairing: Thor x Reader          Word Count: 11,697

Masterpost          Warnings: smut, unprotected sex, language, angst, fluff, polyamory

A/N: I don’t know what it is about this fic that has me struggling so hard to get it just right. I love it but I’m rewriting a lot more for this than I ever have for other stories. Anywho, I hope you like this chapter. More smut for y’all. If you happen to reblog, thanks so much for helping me spread my work! xoxo

“What's this? No. Jeremy, you are not making me go to another stupid gala.” You shove the dark gray envelope back towards him, heavy paper hissing against the table.

“You have to go. You skipped the last one, besides this one is going to benefit the places in need of clean drinking water.” Jeremy isn’t even looking at you.

You watch him flip through another page of the thick binder on his lap. He's focused. Aware of you but not watching you. He looks relaxed, wide shoulders slouched as he leans back in the chair across from you at your desk.

He's not phased by your resistance anymore and that annoys you. You wanna throw a tantrum. You wanna literally scream and shout, despite knowing that you'd send your desk through the wall.

You slide down your chair, letting the only person you’re comfortable around have front seat to your pouting.

He smiles, his full lips slowly stretching upwards. A grin. A smirk. Smug bastard!

“You’re going, Y/N.” He says sternly and finally swings his feet towards you. The chair turns, and he peeks at you over the rims of his glasses. “I’ll go with you.”

You spring back up into your seat, elation shooting out of every pore.

“Really?” You gasp, stunned by the offer. Slightly touched by it too. He knows how much you hate to be the center of attention and because you rarely go to these benefits and banquets, people flock to speak with you.

They're so damn curious about Henry’s little girl. What is the Surestar Energy heiress up to?

Then of course there’s all those eligible bachelors looking to pad their bottom lines.

You’re pretty sure that's why Seth had befriended you. Then he got distracted by Nan, who is much more appealing. She models in her spare time and has an extensive following on social media.

His parents were not happy. Your wealth is no joke.

Jeremy lays his binder aside, a ton of numbers written and highlighted across the paper. He scoots closer to your desk, sitting up straight.

“Yeah. I gotta make sure you walk through the door this time.” He watches you with a gentle smile, pleased by your happiness.

And you are…happy. Happy that you won't have to be alone at the benefit among those people who only care about your net worth. But if you could have gone to this gala with anyone…

Jeremy's hand slides over onto yours. He grabs it, wrapping his fingers around your own, cooling your heat with his normal human temperature.

“It's been a week, Y/N.” His voice is smooth, consoling.

“He never called.” You smile at him through the sadness that's overwhelmed you constantly over the past week. A break down here. A few tears there. No eating one day—Jeremy had been so angry at you he forced you out to dinner and wouldn’t let you leave until you’d consumed something. Anything.

He doesn't understand. He tries, but he can never get it.

For a few blissful hours, you had felt whole. There's no other way to explain the way finally talking to Thor had made you feel.

You’ve been alone for so long.

Yes, you have Jeremy. However, he's not like you. He knows how you tick but he doesn't get it completely. He can't.

Even though Thor didn’t know that you were closer to being like him than any of your fellow humans, the possibility that he'd someday know what you’re capable of and understand the power within you had been an unprecedented comfort. Something to look forward to. A blessing bestowed upon you by the Universe.

Thor, for some odd reason, had asked you for a coffee suggestion and then sat next to you, and asked for your number and…what happened? What went wrong?

“I…I just don’t know what I did, Jer. What did I do?” Your voice cracks as tears sting your eyes. It burns, like acid but you know that's not a power of yours.

It's just the heartache making them burn because Jeremy pulls your hand up to guide you onto your feet. You do what he wants because you’re broken a bit more by this small and short exchange with Thor.

His warmth had been so intoxicating. That Godly aura, the essence of who he is. You'd bathed in it for months and now to have it gone…you feel empty. Like your soul is missing.

“I’m so stupid.” You blubber, angrily. You hate feeling like this. It's more than a crush but why?!

Jeremy makes to pull you down onto his lap but you freeze and yank back away from him. Your eyes roam over the glass wall behind him and the door.

Jeremy releases your hand and hurries to lock it then press his fingers against a small illuminated square of purple light where several arrows and words shine.

The glass wall suddenly darkens, shutting out the eyes that might be watching. Your close relationship with Jeremy isn’t really a secret but you’re at work.

The complicated nature of just how he takes care of you, emotionally, physically, professionally…you'd rather keep it quiet even if some people already guess.

You and Jeremy aren’t in love.

He moves back towards you and turns to lean against the edge of your desk. He pulls you towards him, his hands moving up to wipe the tears from your cheeks.

See, his fingers aren’t burning. You don’t have acid tears.

“I don’t know what you did, chipmunk. But you should have stopped texting him when he didn’t reply.” He's not chastising you but you know he's right.

You fall forward, resting your forehead against his chest as his hands stroke the sides and back of your head, caressing you. Comforting you. Giving you what he knows you’re second most starved for. Physical touch.

“I am stupid.” You whine.

Jeremy chuckles. “No, Y/N. You’re just eager. Is it because he's hot?”

You lean back to look up at Jeremy with his eyebrow quirked as he watches for your reaction.

You shake your head because sure, as good looking as Thor is, it’s not his body that pulled you to him—but come on, you know you’re dying to have those massive arms wrapped around you, those slightly pouty pink lips pressed against your own, those massive thighs shoved against yours.

Yes, you wanna fuck Thor! He's beautiful, but what you remember…you shut your eyes, remembering the first moment that golden aura washed over you.

The smell of spring rain, soil, and then the slight bite of ozone followed his heavenly essence after him. Then you looked for the source because that warmth was everything. Hotter than you. Hotter than the sun.

Like clashing lightning, charged and scorching.

That’s what you want. All the time. Every minute of every day. It fills you up. The fact that it came from Thor had deterred you. He didn’t see you that one time. He'd bumped into you and he'd stared right at you and didn’t see you.

He was out of your league. So his rejection makes more sense than you'd like to admit.

“He's different, Jer.” You explain. “Like…he's like a magnet but it's him. His soul. The very core of what makes him, him. He's good and strong and right and just…”

You sigh, Jeremy strokes the sides of your head, his fingers reaching down to tilt your head back so that he can look into your eyes. Your lip trembles when you find him searching for answers in your own gaze.

“I wanted him, so much. More than I’ve ever wanted anything or anyone.” You sigh, shakily breathing in and out.

“I’m sorry, chipmunk. I know you don’t get this attached often.” He pulls you close, wrapping one arm around your waist while he cups the back of your head with the other and tucks your face in against the side of his neck.

“Or ever.” You correct. “Just you and Papa Roman.”

Jeremy gives you a squeeze.

“What would he have done?” He's wondering genuinely as he asks you.

You chuckle unexpectedly because picturing what your Papa Roman would have done and what Jeremy did…well, “Definitely not what you did.”

Jeremy smiles. “But I did help you feel better for a little bit, right?”

You nod. A whole day and a half. Jeremy had distracted you from your heartache by making you feel like you were desirable when Thor had made you feel utterly forgettable.

“You want more?” He asks, and your core shifts but your heart sinks.

“Maybe later. I’m not really…I don’t wanna go to this stupid benefit, Jer.”

Jeremy smiles, running his hands from your shoulders down to your waist.

He pulls you against his body roughly. You gasp, not expecting it.

“You’re going, chipmunk. If only so that the board members stop wanting to fire me for not doing my job.” He leans down to press his lips to the side of your chin.

You shut your eyes, tempted to accept his offer to distract you. But Thor's smiling eyes manifest in the darkness behind your lids to send another painful lurch through your chest.

You fist Jeremy's sleeves, fingers aching with the tightness.

Jeremy pulls back, looking for something in your eyes, a look. A tell. He knows you too well.

“You sure?” You love him, not like you might have loved Thor, but he's good to you. Good at what he does. He sees that you need it, to feel wanted and desired so he offers and it's always up to you.

“No.” You relent, loosening your fists to stroke the hard bulge of his arms. “I'm not."

“Tell me, chipmunk.” Always ready and willing, he waits for instruction. You feel bolder suddenly.

“Touch me, Jer. Make me feel like I-like I’m important.” You beg.

Jeremy frowns, his brow creasing with disapproval. He caresses the sides of your head and gives it a teeny shake.

“You are important, Y/N. That guy doesn’t know what he's missing. I swear, chipmunk. Someone someday will see you for the amazing and strong woman you are.” He seems so sure.

“But when?” You whimper.

He trails his hand down along your sides, running his hands over the curves of your back, hips, and finally butt. He turns you slowly then pulls you up, sitting you on the edge of the desk before slipping his right hand down along the long open slit at the front of your fancy yellow office dress.

He unhooks the little latch that holds the dress closed and pushes it open to expose your left breast. He pulls the fabric of your bra down and latches onto your nipple, suckling gently as you sigh a moan and slip your hand into the back of his hair.

He moans too and that’s so rare that it catches you by surprise.

You pull his head back to look at his face to see what might be his expression but he doesn't give you a chance. He rushes up to meet your lips in a languid, sloppy, wet kiss.

His lips move along yours lazily, his tongue taking long strokes of your flavor to taste. He groans again into your mouth. You pull back again.

“Jeremy?”

His eyes are dazed as he meets yours and you feel a rush of fear. What is he feeling?

“What? What's the matter?” He asks, slowly regaining the sharp look of his dark eyes.

“You're…you’re not…” You don’t even want to finish the sentence. Catching feelings here would spell ruin for the two of you. “Maybe we should stop?”

Jeremy laughs, breathless but his hands are sliding up along your shoulders, pushing the dress down and away.

“No. I’m not…I’m sorry. I’m just-this dress is really doing things for me, today.” He shrugs. “That's all.”

“You and Lily?”

“We’re still together.” He assures you.

He dives back down to trail kisses along the side of your neck.

When you’d first learned that he had a girlfriend, it had been just after he'd made you “feel better" a few times. You'd panicked but Jeremy had assured you that he and Liliana had an open relationship and though they both loved each other very much, they were both unwilling to commit monogamously just yet.

You even met her once, at the office Christmas party. She was sweet but very confident. You'd avoided Jeremy for weeks after that, afraid of what sleeping with you after sleeping with someone like Lily must be like.

Jeremy had been quick to show you how amazing he found your body. You never fought him on it again.

Despite his reassurance, your body is still tense.

He pulls back and places his hands on either side of you on your desk, his thumbs caressing the clothed side of your upper thigh.

“Should I stop?” He asks, serious but somehow still soft in his expression to reassure you.

You half shake your head, feeling the need to feel arms around you, hips throbbing against yours.

“Tell me when to stop.” He orders.

He takes his middle finger and slowly slides it down along the outside of your left thigh. As he nears your knee, where the end of your dress sits, he shifts his finger to the top of your leg as they slide along your knee. He stands up straighter, closer, his face is so close to yours his hot breath wafts along your lips.

You’re so distracted by the sudden proximity of his face that you don’t notice how high up his fingers have gotten until he's got his middle finger pressed against the damp center of your core.

You gasp and reach out to take tight hold of his sleeve at his bicep. He smiles. A corner tilt of his full lips as he trails that finger up and down along your wet and clothed slit.

You feel all resistance fall away as you shut your eyes and lean your head back, allowing your body to exhale in pleasure.

His lips are back on your breast, suckling gently while his finger hooks your underwear aside to touch your soaking sex.

The noise is dirty, squelching and squishy, not loud but enough for you to hear it.

“You’re so ready, chipmunk.” He teases and you groan, wanting him. Wanting to be wanted.

“You-you want me?” You ask him, uncertain whether it's okay to do so.

He smiles big, pearly whites shining and blinding. His left hand wanders between the two of you and you realize now that he's between your legs. When did that happen?

You hear the clinking of his belt and the loud growl of his zipper.

“Look at me, chipmunk. I’m all swollen for you.” Your eyes flow down between the two of you and your mouth waters at the bulging sight of his rounded head, cock stiff and throbbing.

The darker peach tint of him flows red at the head and you want to taste him though you know he won’t let you.

“It's not about me, Y/N.” He'd argued once. “Lily does that for me. Let me make you feel better.”

You reach down anyway and he lets you. The smooth heat of his cock is nothing compared to the raging temperature your body is flowing with right now.

He grunts as you stroke him, your elevated temperature probably feels good for him.

“That feels good, chipmunk.” He groans.

Reaching up, he slips his hand behind your neck and pulls you down to kiss.

Your hand stutters as his finger pokes at your entrance. He tickles it, teasing you before he slides it in smooth.

“Jer?” You moan, breaking the kiss. “Tell me I-I'm wanted.”

Jeremy frowns again, that impossibly upset crinkle between his eyes. His glasses fog up along the bottom as your breath flows towards him. He's pushing his finger inside of you, quickly, curving it up in search of that special spot.

Your legs are spread wide, slightly lifted. He puts his free hand on your knee and pushes it back, spreading you more.

“I want you, Y/N. I want your body. I wanna be inside you. I want to make you feel better; make you come.” His words make you shiver and he pulls his finger away.

You barely have any time to react because the head of his cock is suddenly in you.

He wraps his arms around your waist and slowly walks closer, plunging deeper into you with each move. You moan. Loudly.

Jeremy shoves his hand over your mouth but doesn't tell you to be quiet. He smiles instead, pleased.

“I’ll make you forget him, chipmunk. I’ll give you what he won't.” Jeremy promises and while he stuffs you, pounding into you hard and passionately, you sadly pull him in for a kiss because you know that despite his promise, in this moment, you wish Thor had called you.

What did I do wrong? You think desperately as Jeremy meets your kiss eagerly.

“Why are there so many reporters?” You gasp, leaning forward in your seat. The limo’s leather squeaks as you pull your dress back down. Skin pulling at the fabric as you try not to completely climb over Jeremy’s lap.

Not that he’d mind, but being so close to prying eyes, best to keep things cool.

Layers of light blue chiffon, beaded and worked through with shining crystals that glitter like stars, fall back down around your waist. Jeremy pulls the pale blue sleeve of his Gucci tux then sighs with disappointment.

His hand had been crawling up your leg, feeling the soft skin of your inner thigh. You’d needed the relaxation but the car ride to the repurposed theater had been short and you’d gotten distracted by the crowd outside of the large art deco building.

“They’re not reporters, Y/N. They’re papz.” He counters but then goes about straightening your dress around you. He’s so careful and he takes care of you well. “And you look amazing. They’re going to go crazy snapping your pic.”

“Great.” You groan. Your picture all over the paper again? What will Thor think when he sees it? Will he even care?

Stop thinking about Thor. You growl at yourself.

Jeremy chuckles. “It’s your own fault for being so reclusive. You’re a hot commodity. Everyone wants to know you.”

The cool firm hand on your back gives you a little bit of comfort. “I’m nothing special. And having them know nothing about me is how I like it. They always bring them up and I-I don’t feel like talking about it…Jer?”

Jeremy’s eyes are soft as you meet them, his expression saddened. “I’ll handle it.”

His promise has weight. He’ll physically remove anyone who tries to talk about them with you. Yet another reason to be glad for his fit physique.

“Thanks.” You smile at him, so grateful he’s here with you because you’d probably have run again if he weren’t here to walk you in. He strokes your back and you lean back into your seat and into his arms, cuddling into his side because you like the way it feels and you know that it means nothing more than just that, it feels good.

This doesn’t happen often. You and Jeremy cuddling and sleeping together as much as you have been the past two weeks. Your relationship is usually pretty professional if not familiar. Like that day of the board meeting. He knows how to steer you and you know how to take his cues—well, the ones you’re going to do anyway.

You’re not a mindless puppet. You have your own opinions even if you don’t speak them aloud with most people. Jeremy knows better. He prefers it when you argue with him. The one person in your life you can be open with completely.

You’d hoped Thor would be too…

Jeremy squeezes you, careful not to crush your dress. He holds it for only a second before he sits you back up. He reaches up and fixes a few of your stray hairs.

“You’ll ruin your look.” He chastises, also recognizing the gesture as what it is besides a need for physical comfort.

You’re stalling.

You chuckle. Amused by his preoccupation with how you look.

He’d spent much more time getting you ready than he should have. He’d chosen your dress, your hair, and then matched himself to you. You’d laughed when he’d told you that he’d got himself a tux to match your dress but that’s only because you’d been picturing the most absurdly blue seventies tuxedo with one of those white ruffled shirts with the black lining. Bright bold colors designed to catch the eye.

When you finally saw Jeremy dressed in head to toe couture, sleek black trousers, shining black shoes, a crisp white shirt—no ruffles—and that stunning pale blue tuxedo jacket you renounced all misgivings about his fashion sense then snapped a shot and sent it to Lily.

She’d thanked you for the instrument of blackmail and told you to have fun.

Lily: As much fun as you need. He enjoys it too, Y/N. Don’t let him make you think he doesn’t.

You feel bad monopolizing Jeremy intimately this way lately but with Lily’s blessing you’d relaxed and let Jeremy treat you like he would a girlfriend. You just try to not think about how he’s your assistant all the time and that he’s only doing this out of a deep sense of duty to you.

“We don’t have to stay long, right?” Your smile wavers and you look out at the throng of photographers yelling obnoxiously at the high-profile guests walking into the gala.

Like you, they’re late and they make no time to stand for photos despite the shouts and pleas of those stationed outside.

“Just an hour and we’re gone. Dinner should be wrapping up about now.” He explains.

“What was the point of me spending so much money on buying a table if I wasn’t going to eat?” You grumble. You can care less about the fancy party but the food?!

“I’ll buy you some pizza afterwards.” He offers.

“You? Why would you buy me a pizza? I can afford my own damn pizza.” You sigh but he laughs once. Then he’s silent. Too silent.

“Why aren’t you like this with your friends?” He suddenly asks you, catching you off guard. You look at him, searching his face for what he might really mean.

“I-I don’t know. They don’t give me a chance to? Nan and Seth have a lot to say. Everyone does. It’s easier if I just let them talk. No one cares about what I have to say, Jer. It’s okay. I’ve come to terms with that.” You smile at him, ignoring the pulsing heartache at having lost someone who had genuinely sat and listened to you talk for hours.

Thor…Why can’t you stop thinking about him? You’d known him for less than two days. Feeling that magical pull he has for months doesn’t translate into time known.

Did it really mean nothing to him that he can ignore you the way he has?

“Well, they’re missing out. You’re really funny, Y/N. And you have quite the dirty mouth.” He wiggles his eyebrows at you and your cheeks burn.

“Jeremy.” You chastise, and he chuckles.

“Come on, chipmunk. Let’s get this over with.” He makes to open the door, but you pull back on his hand and he looks at you, concern etched across his handsome face. “What? What’s wrong?”

You shake your head once. “I-I feel so silly in these big ball gowns.”

Jeremy smiles at you fondly, reaching out to straighten your skirt again. He lets his hand flow down beneath the external skirt, to the tighter, sheer fabric of your front. His hands slide along the covered flesh of your thighs where the skirt is so sheer that the lovely color of your skin peeks through. His eyes roam over you, appreciating you the way he knows that you need.

“You’re gorgeous, Y/N. You look like a waterfall, cascading with stars.” He grins at you, appreciating his own word choice. You smile at him, rolling your eyes.

“Stars? Really?”

He chuckles. “Come on, pouty. Let’s get out there.”

He pushes the door open and then helps you out.

He looks you over once you’re on your feet and steps very close as he reaches onto your waist to adjust the gleaming silver and black belt. He gives you another appraisal and when satisfied, he steps back.

“Okay. Ready?” He offers you his hand and you nod and take it.

No talking. You’re in public again. You can already feel yourself withdrawing. With Jeremy here, at least you’ve got an anchor.

You zone out for a minute, startled by the sudden burst of white flashes, allowing Jeremy’s strong arm around your waist lead you forward through the small space provided for party goers to walk through. You can hear people shouting your name. They’re louder than they were with the others and this draws an even larger crowd as pedestrians and passerby stop to gawk at you too.

Terrified by the attention, you focus on the ground and don’t dare look up.

“Look over here, Y/N! Over here. Come on. Just one picture?” Someone shouts but you don’t stop because Jeremy’s speeding forward.

“Steps, chipmunk.” He warns and you lift your foot.

You blink hard, eager to clear the blindness from your eyes. The flashes remind you of lightning which only make you think about Thor again that makes that dark pit in your stomach bigger.

This is stupid. Get over it. Stop thinking about Thor!

Once you’re inside with the cool night air cut off, you feel yourself burning. The stress of those photographers. Your wallowing on Thor. It’s catching up with you quickly and you wish you were back at home in your bedroom where you can be you and you don’t have to pretend to be anyone other than who you truly are.

Hell, you’re even more you in the café.

Jeremy feels your heat and he knows what that means. “Hey, it’s okay. Um…here. Come here.”

He tugs you away from the room that you still haven’t looked up at. It’s only the foyer but you can hear the chatter of people echo around you. There’s a gentle hum of a string and piano ensemble coming from the main ballroom. Your eyes are only for the stunning pale marble floor.

You shift into a stuffier room, which doesn’t help your heat, but you hear a door click and Jeremy’s body is before you. “Hey.”

You shake your head. “I can’t do this Jeremy. I-They’ll ask about them. I don’t want to talk about my parents.”

“Look at me.” You don’t. “Hey, look at me, Y/N. Right now.”

The stern order drives your face up and you meet his dark eyes with layers of fear and trepidation sewn into your very being.

You shut your eyes and in the sudden quiet you feel a familiar warmth. Surprised by it, you look towards the closed door. It’s faint. And then it’s gone. Thor’s influence is so ridiculous. You miss him.

You’re also in a coat check closet. The array of smells and perfumes are giving you a headache.

Jeremy reaches up to grab your chin, leading you to face him again. With your attention reclaimed and your heart resigned to the fact that you’re going crazy if you think you’re feeling Thor even when he’s not around, you focus.

“You can do this. And if someone asks you something you don’t want to talk about, you tell them you don’t want to talk about it.”

“Jer…” You begin to complain.

“You say, ‘I don’t really want to talk about that.’ And if they bring it up again, then just walk away.” He instructs.

You frown at him, knowing you may not be able to do that. You’re such a wimp sometimes, despite the ability you know you have to literally burn the entire room if you wanted to.

“You want a kiss for courage?” He asks, seriously too.

You blink, smiling, taken aback by his question but not offended. “I’m staring to think you just want to kiss me.”

Jeremy shrugs a shoulder. “Well, I don’t not want to kiss you.”

His words are like solace. Someone likes kissing you. Even if it’s not the someone you wanted it to be. You look down, hating yourself for tying Thor to even these moments when Jeremy makes you feel good. Smile gone.

“Can you hang in there for an hour?” He checks, waiting for you to respond and when you don’t look at him, he reaches up again to cup your face to force you to meet his eyes. “Can you do this? Or do you wanna run again? Like you always do? You want to keep running?”

He’s guilting you. You know he is. He’s holding up a mirror to the person you’ve been in the past. The person you are. You’re tired of running. You don’t want to hide anymore but you’re not ready to talk about your parents. So, you’ll try and do what he suggests. You’ll tell them no and leave if they don’t stop.

“No. I don’t wanna run.” You pout and Jeremy smiles, bright and ecstatic.

“Good. You walk out there with your head held high; you hear me? You don’t look down to anyone, Y/N.” He says it so passionately. Like he means it with all of his heart. You believe him. “You’re powerful and unique. And you’re really good in bed.”

“What does that have to do with anything?” You laugh.

“It just…trust me. When someone’s being a jerk to you, tell yourself that and you’ll walk with your head held a little higher. Okay?”

“Okay.” You shake your head, but you resign to his logic.

He leads you back out into the foyer. Now that you’re actually able to look at it, you see that it’s a large room with three large staircases that lead up to a second floor lined with dark gray carpet. The center and largest staircase is lined with purple flowers and this is the staircase that everyone seems to be filing up through.

There are so many people here; women in gorgeous silver, pink, black, gold, and gray gowns. There are a few in darker blues but not one as light as yours. It draws attention and though your instinct is to curl into Jeremy’s side, you wrap your arm around his tighter and fist the sleeve of his jacket and draw yourself up.

He looks down at you and smiles as he leads you up the stairs to a large set of ornate brown doors through which you can see a mass of people sitting at tables and dancing at the center of what looks like hundreds of small tables.

The lighting is dim but white like winter daylight only not so bright. It gives the party the feeling of ice though the room is toasty warm. As you cross into the large room you see that the ceiling is hung with fake white lilies made of porcelain and the cold light streams from within bunches of them casting spots of illumination along the black and white marble floor.

Jeremy runs his hand over the skin of your hand then reaches up to cup the farther side of your neck. He’s checking your temperature and he seems pleased that it’s leveled out. It’s too beautiful in here to focus on your stress and social anxieties. With Jeremy beside you, confidence is easier to fake.

“’Atta girl.” He praises you and it fills your belly with warmth.

You see that as you pass, the small white tables with their white puffed chairs are decorated with stunning silver plates and silverware, crystal glasses, and more of those beautiful purple flowers that fill the room with the fresh scent of spring.

Just as Jeremy said, dinner seems to have come to an end and everyone is up and about, talking and filling the empty spaces with lively conversations about things that you could care less about.

Portfolios and assets and lavish vacations. You spot Nan and Seth about halfway down the large room and point them out to Jeremy. He nods and leads you in their direction.

Your body twists as that familiar warmth washes over you again and you strain to look through the crowd around you. Stopping you pull your arm out of Jeremy’s and grab your dress and follow the warmth. Heaven’s aura.

No. Not heaven.

Asgard’s.

You stop when you’ve reached the center of the dance floor. Several people turn to look at you curiously, admiring your dress and your visage in general.

“Y/N?” Jeremy catches up to you and waits as you look around frantically.

“I-I thought…” You frown, disappointment washing over you as you realize that maybe you’re just imagining things. “Never mind. It’s nothing.”

“You sure?” Jeremy wonders, reaching out to place his hands on your waist and pull you close. Too close. People will talk. Then again, you don’t care. The disappointment in your heart is too big.

Too consuming.

“Yeah. I’m sure. Let’s go see Nan and Seth. Sorry. I-I won’t do that again.” You’re going to ignore it if it happens again.

He doesn’t want you. You remind yourself.

Jeremy pull you along again and when you reach Nan and Seth you can hear them bragging about their contributions to several charities. They’re not even being humble or discreet about it. They’re just whipping out their dicks to see who has the biggest one. At least that’s the comparison your mind draws to the way they’re talking about their carefully calculated altruism.

“No.” You pull on Jeremy’s arm just before you reach them. He turns to look at you, observing the frown on your face. “I don’t want to go talk to them. I changed my mind.”

Jeremy tilts his head, disappointed but relenting because he can see your distress. “I’m a bad assistant.”

“What?” You ask, surprised by his leap. He moves closer to you, taking your arms in hand as he pulls you close.

“I should have forced you out a long time ago. You’re too shut off from the world, Y/N. You can’t keep pushing people away.” He says it sadly, like he really does consider it his failure. “I know this isn’t your scene but it’s part of your life. I should have prepared you better for it.”

“Jeremy…this isn’t about not being ready to socialize I just…these people…”

“They’re not all bad, Y/N. Some of them are, I admit, a little fake.”

“A little?” You gasp, looking back over at Nan and Seth.

“You have to give someone a chance at some point, chipmunk. I can’t be the only one you count on.” Fear builds in your chest, terrible fear of losing him.

“Are you leaving me?” You breathe, quickly wondering if you’ve been putting too much pressure on him. “I-You don’t have to come with me to these things, Jer. In fact, if you want to go home right now, you can! I know Lily probably had some plans for you two. D-Do you need a vacation? If I’m stressing you out, just tell me and I’ll back off. I’ll try not to do whatever it is that’s bothering you. Just tell me, okay?”

You reach up to grab at his shoulders, too hard you realize as he winces.

“Sorry.” You sigh. “I’m sorry.”

“No, Y/N, that’s not what I…Come on.” He reaches down to take your hand and pulls you off towards the left side of the room instead. “Let’s jus sit for a bit, okay? And I’m not going anywhere. I promise.”

Your heart relaxes, grateful for the opportunity to catch your breath and the reassurance that you’re not losing Jeremy because of your neediness.

This is all so overwhelming. And this party is not your kind of thing.

He stops at an empty table where all the plates sit unused, your name on a placard at the center. He leads you around to the far side of the table so that when he pulls out your chair and you sit, you’re facing the dance floor. Not many people are dancing. Some.

For a split second, a startling pair of electric blue eyes flash through the crowd, crowned with a golden head of carefully styled hair.

You shoot to your feet, heart aching because this time you know you saw him.

“What?” Jeremy asks, curious but more stunned than anything. “What is it?”

Your eyes roam over the couples gently swaying to the gentle music. You scan for blonde hair. Blue eyes. Wide shoulders. Huge arms. But he’s tall. Surely, he’d tower over everyone else on the dance floor?

“Y/N?” Jeremy reaches out to touch your arm.

You jump, on edge, afraid to see Thor but also eager to get your eyes on him once again.

“What?” Jeremy asks, eyebrows high.

“N-Nothing. I just thought I-Nothing. Never mind.” You settle yourself back down into your seat, careful to spread your dress around you.

“You want something to drink?” Jeremy asks, leaning down over you.

You nod, feeling parched all of a sudden. Maybe a good drink will help you forget Thor. You’ve seen and felt nothing but his ghost since you got here. This is just you letting go of him.

“Okay. Sit tight. I’ll be right back.” He hesitates but then leans down to kiss your cheek. He leaves you, winding his way through the finely dressed crowd as he searches for a waiter or waitress.

You keep your hands on your lap, folded carefully under the table as you stare around at the stunning crowd. It takes a few minutes but you push Thor to the back of your mind.

Now that you’re sitting you can appreciate the splendor of the décor and the beauty of the people. The music is good too. Although it’s a string quartet with piano accompaniment, you can now hear that they’re playing modern music.

Chandelier?

You smile, amused by the song for some reason. The bliss of the moment outweighs your anxiety and you genuinely begin to enjoy yourself. Quietly, like this, you can appreciate being here.

Feeling lighter than you’ve felt all week, with the beautiful music to distract you, you’re not aware that you’re looking right at him until you hear his laugh.

Smile vanishing, you avert your eyes from the man of your dreams.

He’s dressed in a stunning black tuxedo. His tall frame wrapped in the expensive fabric; it fits him like a glove. Why can’t you feel him? You’ve always been able to feel him.

You peek up at him and find him at a table close to the head of the room. There are others at this table. A redhead, the Black Widow, who you know from the papers when S.H.I.E.L.D. first collapsed. She’s sitting next to a man with long brown hair, carefully styled and straightened, tucked behind his ear. A shine on his hand pulls your attention. The Winter Soldier. He’s holding the Black Widow’s hand under the table. They’re a couple?

Beside him is a black man with short cropped hair and a small gap in his two front teeth. It only adds character to his handsome smile. He’s sitting with a young woman with brown hair. You don’t recognize her, and she seems friendly with him, though it doesn’t look strictly romantic.

Beside the girl is a familiar redhead wearing a long form fitting golden dress, sequined with paler gold sequins. The dress falls low along her back but she’s busy chatting with the black man who you suddenly realize is the Falcon. You’ve seen him in the news a few times too. Pepper Potts, Tony Stark’s fiancé, sits next to an Asian woman. Korean? She’s beautiful.

Her own dress is long and flowing, black velvet scattered with rhinestone stars. Her dark hair is draped over her left shoulder as she leans in towards Thor, whispering in his ear about who knows what? He sits with his arm draped across the back of her chair, his left leg, jutting out at the end of the table as it’s too long to keep bent maybe?

He’s so tall.

He’s also smiling. He looks happy. While you’ve been broken and a recluse, he’s happy.

I am so…so stupid.

You tear your eyes away, unable to watch any longer. You’re grateful when a group of women with large dresses plant themselves in your line of sight to that table. At least this way your heart can break completely in semi-private.

“You’re a hard woman to get a hold of.” A teasing sarcastic tenor voice stiffens your back and you turn to your right to look up at Tony Stark himself.

Well, maybe not so private.

Tony looks snazzy, as he always does, his mustache and goatee carefully styled and trimmed like his dark chestnut hair. His bowtie is undone. Like he’s been here for hours. You realize that he must have been. This is his benefit, you realize.

The table of Avengers suddenly makes really stupid sense.

“I thought it was a slim chance that you’d show up, but you showed up. Remind me to thank that assistant of yours. Or…maybe you can thank him for me?” The way he says it, he knows. How does he know? Most people just guess…but Tony Stark knows.

He sips his umber liquid, sloshing around with the ice in his glass. The bite of liquor reaches your nose and you realize he’s probably a little tipsy. He might not have made that comment about Jeremy had he been sober.

“I-I don’t know what you-” You begin, voice quaking with the knowledge that Thor is here with someone else. A date. A woman. A beautiful one. Clearly outgoing. She’s probably nothing like you.

No wonder he dumped you before you even had a chance to start. How can you compete with that?

“I’m not here to judge. Pepper was my assistant. Did you know that?” Tony undoes the front buttons of his chic tuxedo jacket then sits beside you, placing his glass on the table as he snaps his fingers. “Waiter!”

You’re astounded by how quickly one runs up. “Champagne for my friend and bring us a couple grapes?”

He turns to you.

“You like grapes, right?” He turns back to the waiter. “Grapes. And some strawberries if you’ve got them.”

“Right away, Mr. Stark.” The waiter says then scurries off to do as he’s bid.

You admire this about Tony Stark. He’s like you, in some ways. Just like you he’s grown up in this life but he seems so much more at home in it than you do.

“Not gonna say hi?” He asks, smiling as he leans back and lounges on the expensively purchased seat.

“Hello again, Mr. Stark.” You say, giving up because he’s not going anywhere until he’s ready. Maybe he can pull your mind away from the blonde at the head of the room?

“Again?” He smiles, “Oh, you mean that last time we saw each other? What was it? Six years ago? Just before you hired that assistant of yours?”

“Why do you keep bringing up Jeremy?” You ask, self-conscious that maybe you and Jeremy are giving out some sort of vibe. Where is he? If Thor is here with someone else, you want to show off that you’re here with someone too.

Okay, sure, it’s Jeremy and he’s technically getting paid to be here but…fuck my life. You think.

“Isn’t that who you brought as your date? Little weird, isn’t it?” He takes a drink of his bourbon, then he looks up as the young waiter brings a plate split in half with strawberries and grapes. He places it in between you and Tony and then places a glass of champagne in front of you. “Thanks.”

The waiter leaves and you shake your head. “Jeremy knows I hate coming to these things, so he offered to be here with me. It’s not a d-date.”

“But you are sleeping with him, right?” He asks, reaching out to rip a grape from its stem.

“I-I don’t see how that’s any of your business, Mr. Stark.” You stutter, flustered. You grab your champagne and drink about half the flute.

“You’re right. It’s not. But there’s a certain someone I know that has a deep interest in your relationship with that ridiculously good-looking assistant of yours.” Tony’s teasing is unbearable but he’s smiling, chewing on his grape.

Thor? Not possible.

“No one cares about me but Jeremy. Mr. Stark.” You say quickly, resolute. Convinced. And sad.

Tony sits forward, tensing up as he leans his elbows on the table to get a better look at your face because you’re staring at the pretty centerpiece which you can now see are purple orchids. Stunning.

“I know—Look, I know that after what happened with your parents I wasn’t really around much. I had to-”

His tone, the casual way he’s talking to you, familiar. It floods back a flash of blurry memories of a tall handsome teen carrying you in his arms, making you laugh, watching cartoons with you and making silly faces. Telling you stories. Hugging you. Taking you outside to play. A happier life when you hadn’t been stripped of everything you once were. When your innocence had still been intact.

It hurts to remember Tony like that. Present. Close.

“I don’t want to talk about my parents, Tony.” You sigh, frustrated with him for making you remember when you try so hard not to think about the small bit of life you’d had before your mother and Uncle Arnold had turned you into this…thing.

Tony cut himself off from your life for so long and only recently wants to reach out? It’s too late! You don’t need him anymore. You have Jeremy. You have…fuck…you have no one but Jeremy. And what if he leaves you too?

“This isn’t about them.” Tony insists. “I-I should have been around, and I wasn’t. I’m sorry, kid. I messed up.” You don’t want to hear this now, but he sounds so genuine and it hurts.

You meet his eyes and find that he’s staring at you with a pleading to understand.

“Fine. I forgive you. Okay? Can we drop it?” You ask, desperate to get back to the little bit of peace you’d found before you’d spotted Thor.

Every fiber of your being is telling you to bolt but you don’t want to disappoint Jeremy who has been the only one showing you any sort of true kindness lately. You don’t want to run.

“Okay.” Tony relents.

“Alright.” You sigh.

“But seriously, how long have you and the assistant been shacking up?” Tony probes.

“Tony…” You whine.

“I’m just curious.” He shrugs.

This is embarrassing. “Years. Three, I think. Why do you care?” You growl.

“I don’t. Like I said, other interested parties.” He admits, sipping his bourbon.

“Other interested parties? Who the hell would be interested in who I’m sleeping with? Paparazzi? You selling info to trash magazines now?” You ask, your voice soft and meek despite the strength of your vocabulary. You shrink into your seat, lifting your arms up to wrap them around yourself as you steal a glance back towards Thor’s table only he isn’t there.

Your eyes scan the table again, quickly. The woman wearing stars is gone too.

“Is it love?” He asks.

“No.” You reply simply, distracted. Truthfully. And he doesn’t argue so he must see how you mean it. The thought of what you and Jeremy share pulls your attention back to Tony. “I-”

You can’t explain this to Tony without him finding out about what you can do, and you don’t want him to know. He’s been after you for testing to see what that explosion when you were a kid might have done to you since you somehow managed to live through it. Telling him why you and Jeremy started to sleep together would be revealing just that. You can’t do that.

“I have anxiety of sorts. Social anxiety. I don’t connect with people the way others do and that makes creating relationships difficult. Jeremy helps me with that. It’s just sex, Tony. Nothing else. He h-has a girlfriend.” You scan the crowd again, looking for him but he’s nowhere to be seen. Did he get stopped? Pulled aside by someone from the board? They’re probably here too.

As you scan, your eyes stutter over Thor’s familiar golden head.

No. This isn’t happening. Now you have to watch him dance with someone else too?

You shoot to your feet and Tony slowly rises to his beside you.

Run, Y/N. Run.

All of our instincts scream at you to run.

“See something?” He asks, glancing in the same direction you’re staring.

The dancing crowd continues to sway and dance to the slow ethereal tune of Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Rey. It’s like magic, the way the music makes your heart pound and the way seeing Thor again after weeks fills you with such sadness. He’s here with someone else.

Not you. His aura reaches you finally. He’s closer. At the center of the dance floor now. He’s still obscured and you can’t see him clearly, only the top of his blonde head.

You really have to concentrate to feel it, the golden glow of him. Too many people.

The crowd parts and your chest caves in. Expecting the sight but not ready to see it.

“Who’s that?” You gasp, your heart aching so painfully you’d swear someone has literally plunged their hand into your chest to physically twist it for it to feel like this.

Tony looks over, placing his hand on your lower back to keep his balance. “Oh, that’s Dr. Helen Cho. Thor’s date.”

Thor’s date. Thor’s date. Thor’s date.

You swallow hard but don’t dare tear your eyes away from the beautiful couple. This Dr. Helen Cho, the black of her dress is so deep it looks like someone carved out a piece of the night sky and forged it into a dress for her. Her long slender neck, the rose of her cheeks, her smile—she’s ecstatic to be here and in Thor’s arms. She wants him too.

You see that in her eyes because you feel it in the core of your very soul.

And Thor’s holding her close, swaying with her to the magical melody of the song.

This must be why he never called you. He’d found someone else to be with, that’s the only explanation for why he never reached out. No texts. Nothing.

Maybe she blocked you from his phone when she saw your messages?

You watch her lean up to whisper into his ear again as he swings her around slowly, forcing him to turn towards you.

Run.

He laughs, stunning smile on display for the room to see but she put it there. Her joke made him smile. His arms are around her waist.

Time to face it. He’ll never be yours.

Run. This time, you’re inclined to obey.

“I have to go.” You gasp, trying to ignore the weight in your chest. How does it feel so heavy but hollow all at once?

“Go? You just got here.” Tony argues.

Half an hour is not just. You tried. You hung in there even when you saw him here. You should have never come here. You should have stayed away where people like you to be. Alone, in your home. A recluse. The mysterious heiress.

Not good enough to fall for. Not worth listening to. Unimportant. Small. Insignificant. Forgotten.

Thor’s electric blue eyes find yours and your heart shatters. You claw at your stomach, hating the painful twist as his smile instantly vanishes.

That’s what you do to him. You take his smile away. Wipe it clean and non-existent.

Run!

“I have to go.” You repeat, almost crying. “Move, Tony.”

You push past him hard, using some of your strength and ignore his protests as he reaches for your wrist. You slip by him and behind the next table and the next but ahead there’s a crowd of partygoers laughing and talking. They’re blocking the way to the door with their huge dresses and chairs all wonky and out of place.

They’re drunk and fighting through them will take time.

Panicking you turn to your right and shift into a small run towards a lone wooden door, your dress hissing as it sways against the marble floor.

You don’t know where the door leads but anywhere is better than this place.

As the wooden door shuts, the music of the ballroom nearly dies as you find yourself in a smaller side room with sofas around an expensive looking ornamental carpet. The room is dark, save for a small lamp casting the room in a dim yellow glow. A waiting room.

This light is nicer. Warmer. Like the sun. No ice.

You move towards the lamp, like a moth to the flame and stop only when you can stare down at the small source of light.

It’s not hot enough. You wish there was a fire. You could make one if you really wanted to, but there’s no wood in the large fireplace. Just a grate with no logs.

The door behind you clicks shut again and you refuse to turn around. Addictive golden energy flows through you, engulfing you in pleasurable heat.

It completes you but you don’t want to see. You don’t want to know.

It’s probably Tony. You lie to yourself.

Yeah…just Tony.

“Y/N?” Thor’s voice asks gently. Confusion floods his tone.

Your heart lurches. Shattered as it is, it grinds against you painfully.

You don’t want him to see you. You don’t want to see him. What will he see? Why is he even here? Shouldn’t he be with his girlfriend? His date?

If he’s just going to apologize for ghosting you, you’d rather not hear it.

“Don’t. Please.” You beg. You don’t want to hear it. You don’t want to deal with this. Why can’t you just disappear?

“I was not expecting to see you here.” Thor says, closer. He’s not by the door anymore.

Maybe you can make a run for it? You’ll dive around him and hurry out before he can grab you.

“I’m sorry I came. I-”

“For work?” He offers and you turn to look at him.

It might have been better if you hadn’t.

The sight of him in his black and white tuxedo is too good. Tall. Majestic. He’s glorious all golden and formal.

His words spark something in you. Something like courage but not quite. Indignation? How dare he presume to know anything about you when he made it so very clear that knowing you is the last thing he could ever want.

The thought of all those unanswered text messages fills you with shame and embarrassment.

“What do you know about my work?” You demand, angrier because you’d tried so hard to keep that from him. What you do. Who you have to be? This life is the life that was given to you. The one you were born into. It’s not who you truly are.

You’re not delusional, before all of this mess you’d known you couldn’t hide it forever but for a while at least. Just until he could get to know you as the person you really are without all the money and the rumors. You just wanted to be the girl who loves coffee and pastries and books.

Or maybe it’s like you thought and maybe that’s why he didn’t call you? He’d seen who you are, and his interest had disappeared with the knowledge. Is that it?

“Is that why you didn’t call me? Because I-I didn’t tell you who I was?” You sigh, feeling worse. “I was going to tell you when I was ready I just-”

“No!” He rushes to say, stepping forward a few steps but he stops when you attempt to take a step back only to crash with the lamp. It rattles behind you, glass on porcelain.

You reach back to steady it, hating yourself for being so open with your reactions. Why can’t you be cool and collected? Hide it all underneath some carefully calculated outer shell?

“Then why?” You plead, forgetting the lamp as your insides peel and cut at the very sight of his chiseled chin, covered in the neatly trimmed fuzz of his beard. A few strands of his hair have come undone from his carefully styled hairdo and they’re falling against his forehead, tempting you to tuck them back. “Why didn’t you call? I waited and waited. I-From what you said I thought that…do you hate me because I didn’t tell you who I was right away? You can tell me the truth, Thor.”

“No. I meant to call you; I did.” Thor assures you, his voice straining with sincerity. A groan of regret in his throat. “But I-”

He stops, hesitating. Not sure why, you recover from your shock of having him step towards you and take a step towards him yourself. “But?”

Oh, he’s so close. You could touch his skin…that heat…like a moth to the flame.

“I-I forgot.” He says it quietly, as if he might be able to take it back the moment he wishes to. But he can’t. And now it’s out there.

Your eyes drift down to his hands which are balled into fists as your emptiness grows.

Just where I belong. Forgotten. You smile with your heartbreak, a small breath of a laugh whispered through your lips. Eyes stinging, you blink furiously to drive them back. You won’t cry in front of this man.

You swallow hard, moving back until your legs hit the edge of the fancy gilded sofa and sit.

“You forgot me.” You state, smiling sadly at the floor, speaking slow and quiet.

Every bit of confidence that Jeremy had built up in you tonight seems to vanish.

“I guess I’m not really surprised. Everyone seems to forget about me. Silly of me to expect different. Silly. It’s okay.” You nod. “I’m used to it.”

“No.” Thor rushes to your side, dropping down beside you. He takes your hands in his own, the heat of his skin so lovely compared to the cooler temperatures of everyone else in your life but you can’ even really enjoy it. “I don’t mean that I forgot about you. I have thought about you every day since I last saw you.”

Your heart flutters. Can he mean it?

“The mission we were on pulled Stark and I into space in pursuit of our enemy. I should have stopped to call you then when I realized that we would have to leave, or at least sent you a message that it might be possible I would not return for a while, but we were in such a hurry that I didn’t think of it until we got back.”

“You don’t owe me an explanation, Thor.” It sounds fake anyway. It lines up with the story of him going away and then coming back later. Your mind shoots back to the beautiful Korean woman he’d been dancing with. Helen Cho. “If you found someone else, you didn’t have to hide it from me. I-”

You hesitate because you don’t like to outright lie, and this is most definitely a lie.

“I would have been okay with just being your friend. She’s very beautiful, your date.” You smile at him, forced, still sad. Damn your lack of a poker face.

“No.” Thor grieves. He scoots closer, cupping the sides of your face.

God, his touch could melt metal.

“No, Y/N. Although I cannot deny that I am here with Dr. Cho, I can assure you that I am only here because she asked me to be her escort when Steve could no longer accompany her. Nothing more. And you…I could never be just friends with you.” He shakes his head, smiling affectionately at you. “I’d go mad.”

You search his eyes, yearning for him so much that you know he must be able to see it. Can what he says be true?

“You really left Earth?”

“Yes.” He nods, thumbs caressing your cheeks.

“I’m sorry I sent you so many texts.” You confess, still hating yourself for the slip. Like Jeremy said, you should have played it cool and stopped when he never replied.

“I loved them.” Thor smiles, your heart soaring at the subtle stretch to his lips.

“But-you got back and never—you never responded?” You look down at his chest and he tilts your head back up to stare into your eyes again.

“I was not truly back. The members of the team that did return thought it best to release the story of our return to keep our enemies at bay. If they knew we were off planet for more than a day, they might try and cause trouble. Steve did not realize what releasing that story would do to us.”

Us. Oh, good God! Us! You and Thor are an us?

You lick your lips, staring at his then diverting attention back to his eyes. “So, you weren’t ignoring me?”

“No.” He shakes his head, shifting closer. Is he going to kiss you?! “I came to you as soon as I received those messages only…”

He pulls back and you hate it. So much that your hands react on their own and find the hard bulge of his shoulders. You pull him closer and his eyes go slightly wide at the strength with which you do it.

He elects to ignore your slip and you’re grateful for the moment.

“I came to see you, at your home at the tip of your tower but when I arrived you were…preoccupied. I left straight away.” The way he says it you know what he must have seen.

Fuck!

His hands slide down along your neck then finally come to rest on the sides of your shoulders.

“Oh.” You loosen your hold on him and bring your hands down to his sides.

Touching him at all has your head dizzy. The smooth fabric of his suit, the lovely aura he exudes right up against you, is all so delightful but you also have to contend with the guilt of what he must have seen. Wait…why are you feeling guilty? You and Thor weren’t together.

Your mind flurries over the confusion of how intensely you feel about Thor already. It feels like fate or destiny. Drawn to him the way you are. You don’t even have a choice whether you should be with him or not. The answer is yes. You must be with Thor.

“Have you found someone to cherish you?” He asks, giving your arms a squeeze. “It’s what you deserve.”

His assurance breaks your heart again. You’re the reason that he’s kept away this past week. He came to see you when he realized what you must think but then found you in bed with Jeremy.

“Jeremy’s always been very considerate of me, Thor. There are things about me that only Jeremy knows, and he’s been there for me through that. When you never called I-I withdrew. I hadn’t come out of my home in days and Jeremy offered me the only comfort and distraction that he can. He’s done it for years.” You bite your lower lip. Will this make Thor run? “I’m different from regular people, Thor and Jeremy offered once to help me experience something that would be dangerous for anyone to try with me, but we managed it and he’s been there for me in that way since.”

You’re not ashamed of what you and Jeremy share. It’s unique, sure, but it had been a necessity.

“It’s not an everyday occurrence, although I do have to admit that since you never called and when I finally gave up, it’s happened more and more often. I know that it must be strange but it’s just a way to cope. A way to get something that’s been missing my whole life. The emotions might not be there, but I-I can feel wanted when he’s with me. Like there’s nothing wrong with me.”

You avoid his gaze, embarrassed by this admission. That you need the sex to feel normal, not the sex itself.

“So, you are not in love with him?” Thor asks, eyebrows high on his forehead.

If that’s what he pulls out of what you just said to him, he’s even better than you ever realized.

“No.” You smile at him—a real smile—eager to please and assure him that you’re only interested in him. “I love Jeremy—as weird as this might sound—like family. He’s the only person I’ve ever been able to trust after my Papa Roman passed.”

“But you are not with him?” Thor asks, eagerly, his hands shifting up along your neck again.

The trail they carve burns hot.

“No.” You shake your head. “I-I only w-want to be with you, Thor. I’ve never felt this way about a guy before. Anyone, really.”

The nerves in your stomach make you queasy to say such stupid, sappy, and open things aloud to his face. If he weren’t sitting right in front of you, you might have blown chunks.

You drop your voice even lower, quieter. It’s a whisper in the semi-darkness with the hum of the string quartet finishing up their rendition of Young and Beautiful.

“I like you, Thor. A lot.” You blink, staring into his blue eyes hoping that the spark you see there means he’s passionate about you too. “Do you think that m-maybe you could like me ba-?”

You don’t get to finish as he lunges down towards you, pulling you up until your lips crash against his. It’s rough at first, needy and your teeth click. Your lips burn with the roughness that he kisses you with, but you groan, happy to have his lips on yours though it does hurt.

He pulls back, gasping quietly, hot breath on your lips. You sigh and laugh lightly. “Ow.”

“I’m sorry.” He says, eyes still shut as he strokes your cheeks with his thumbs once more. “I’ve been wanting to do that for months.”

This surprises you and you pull back, confused. “Months?”

Thor’s eyes shoot open. “Oh, I mean, not months. That would be strange right? It’s not like I’ve been following you around or anything I just—Well, I went to some of the places I knew you happened to go to and if you happened to be there, then I would get to see you. That’s not weird, right?”

Months?! “You’ve been watching me?”

“No!” He nearly screams in panic.

“You haven’t been watching me?” You ask, slightly disappointed, though it’s veiled in bewilderment.

“I mean, yes. I wasn’t stalking you or anything like that, even if that’s what Natasha kept saying.” He hurries to explain himself but you’re too busy basking in the blissful warmth of your confusion. “One day I just, I saw in you the café and you were so happy. Your eyes shone like stars, but you were so unappreciated by those friends you keep, and I wanted to keep seeing you. So, I kept going to the café and one day I was out by the park and you passed by with your friends and I saw you go into that museum of art, the Met? So, I went by a few days later-”

He’s babbling, quickly. Explaining himself as thoroughly as he can but all you’re hearing is the fact that every time you felt his warmth, every single time you bathed in his aura and thanked the universe for letting you feel it, Thor had been there intentionally to see you.

You.

You wrap your arms around his back again, under his arms and use your hands to push him towards you once again. His eyes widen once more at the shocking strength you exert but he doesn’t complain when your lips find his.

You shut your eyes and surrender to the bliss. You can feel his power coursing underneath his skin. It sends subtle shocks through to yours and you smile against his lips and let yourself burn him in return. He pulls back, a little, shocked by your heat. Not far enough to really break your kiss.

“What-?”

“I told you, I’m different.” You whisper against his lips. “I’m…I’ll explain it all to you but Thor, please can you just-?”

He seems to know what you want because he wraps his arms around your waist and kisses you again. This time, his lips are sensual, slow, and soft. His tongue traces the edges of your lips and you let him in, whimpering against his mouth as he softens for you.

He’s like velvet, smooth and slow, his beard tickling your chin and cheeks. His electricity charges you and your heat burns him. This kiss, slow and riddled with such yearning and feeling, chars him to you and finally you can use your strength.

You crush yourself to him. He groans and the sound is a tease of what’s to come. You can’t hold anyone like this, not Jeremy. No one. He seems to realize that he can use his strength too and he squeezes you tighter, breasts crushed against his chest and he tilts his head to the left and leans you back against the sofa.

After tonight, you can never go back to a time when you are not able to kiss Thor. Although you know he has a say in the matter, mentally you claim him as your own. Thor is yours and you wish anyone that hopes to stand in your way of having him luck.

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Wynonna Earp 3x03 Colder Weather

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Stray thoughts

1) They’re doing a Dolls retrospective in the previously-on and oh God, it’s going to be one of those episodes, am I going to cry my heart out?

2) Wynonna is sad, drunk, and angry – a dangerous combination. Yep.

3) God, they even changed the music for this episode… They’re really going for emotional devastation, aren’t they?

4) So, the vampire lady that had Doc all tied up in the season opener is back. He called her Countessa, but then she begged him to say her name, and I wonder if this has some other meaning? Like, maybe she needs him to say her name for some spell or something? I don’t know. Anyway, apart from being a vampire, she moonlights as a seer. And she tells Doc that she’d seen a warrior would die – Dolls – and that he should give up trying to get with Wynonna because she loved Dolls, too, and he’d be forever competing with Dolls’ ghost. Ouch.

5) Really, dude?

6) Waverly and Nicole are having a very important conversation that everyone should have with their loved ones – what happens with my remains when I die? I’ve had this conversation several times with different people and they’re all very much aware of what I want to be done with my body, but I guess I’ll be dead and they can do whatever they want and  I’ll never find out. Anyway, Nicole’s wish is to have a sky funeral, which sounds whimsical and cute but it’s actually pretty gross.

7) Uh-oh. Waverly has just found out that her father – well, not her father-father, you know what I mean – had only made arrangements for her mother’s and Wynonna’s burials, not hers… and that’s so unnecessarily cruel? Did they adopt her or were they charged with her? I really need to find out what’s the whole story about Waverly and the Earps!

8) Wynonna is in denial. She continues binge-drinking and shooting Peacemaker, but she’s not finding any peace. It’s Doc who can finally comfort her and convince her to pay their respects to Dolls. They actually comfort each other…

9) Who dis?

10) Waverly is kind of freaking out, saying she’s hungry and how that reminds her that Dolls will never eat again and then she starts laughing (her little breakdown reminded me a bit of Anya’s in The Body…) and Doc then smashes a glass against the wall (kind of like what Xander did in The Body…) They’re preparing a wake for Dolls at Shorty’s, which I guess we’ll end up being more like a sad party with everyone getting drunk and shots being fired because nothing can go right in Purgatory, not even a wake.

11) So, I took an instant liking to Star Hand guy for some reason, and thankfully, he seems to be Dolls’ friend. Doc is demanding evidence, as he should. Question is, how did he find out Dolls was dead? Is he a Black Badge agent, too? Did he come here to say his goodbyes or is he going to be a mainstay? And with this I’m reminded of…

12) Hmm. I have some questions…

NICOLE: My parents were travelling again and they told me I could go to this music festival with my aunt and uncle. Here. WAVERLY: In the Ghost River Triangle? NICOLE: There was an attack. A man in leather. So much screaming and blood. WAVERLY: The demon Dolls killed at the cliff? Bondage Bob? NICOLE: For years, my parents just told me that everybody died in a forest fire and that I had... I had somehow escaped, but... you know, it just didn't explain the nightmares. WAVERLY: Yeah, I've... I've heard them. NICOLE: Last spring, when... Widow Mercedes said his name... Bulshar... it was like this shotgun went off in my head. And Dolls helped me. He got me files, he... he told me that... Black Badge had been covering up these massacres for years. The Cult of Bulshar.

I’m not sure I’m on board with this backstory they gave Nicole literally out of nowhere? And the same demon that committed this massacre is the guy Dolls killed on the hill? The one Waverly names “Bondage Bob”? I just… I don’t totally buy it. I know it could be completely possible for her to have suppressed these memories because of trauma, but… it all feels a bit thrown together at the last minute? Why couldn’t she just be a human, a kickass human but a human nonetheless? Why does she also need a supernatural and traumatizing backstory? I don’t know, I’m still a bit iffy about the whole thing.

13) Will this turn into a supernatural version of “P.S. I Love You”?

14) Obviously, Dolls knew he was going to die, hence the ominous letter. Wynonna takes it out on Jeremy because he knew and he was trying to help Dolls but he didn’t say anything to anyone else, trying to respect Dolls’ wishes. Wynonna feels betrayed, but I don’t really get why? First of all, all of them know they can die at any time, that’s part of the gig, right? So yeah, Dolls being aware of his own mortality shouldn’t be that surprising considering his line of work. Second of all, they all witnessed that this dragon-power was taking a toll on him, didn’t they? Am I crazy? So yeah, Wynonna might have pretended it wasn’t an issue, but she knew, they all knew… I guess it’s easy when you’re mourning someone’s death to have someone to blame, but Jeremy hardly deserves it.

15) So, Quinn, Xavier’s friend, is all chummy with Doc and I’m here for it. Wynonna asks Doc if he knew Dolls was dying, and Quinn is like “duh! Of course, he was!”, which was exactly my reaction. Wynonna is not an idiot, so she had to be in complete denial not to see that he was dying. Anyway, apparently, he was also Black Badge.

16) Oh, great. The fucking revenants stole all the serum Doc had concocted for Dolls and are streamlining it. This should end well.

17) So, Jeremy placed a coded message for Dolls’ friends to come to his funeral. See? How can you be angry at Jeremy?

18) Wynonna wonders why Dolls didn’t attempt to do anything to get better, and the answer is blatantly obvious for both Quinn and Doc – because of her. I’m guessing she’ll take this information to further flagellate herself over Dolls’ death.

19) The vampire lady, Katalin, stole Waverly’s purse, for some reason, maybe she’s a klepto or something, but she didn’t use any of her vampire powers to do it? Like, she just grabbed and took off, awkwardly running in her heels? Kind of disappointing, but also super hilarious.

20) Ay…

21) Waverly enlists Doc to help her get Dolls’ letter back, and they sneak out all secretive, but… it’s a wake with literally 5 freaking guests… I think the three people left will eventually notice they’re gone?

22) “Why torture yourself? I don’t.” HA! Yeah, right!

23) Quinn suggests that Black Badge is not really gone – well, duh – and that they might come to retrieve what’s left of Dolls…

24) Yep. A bunch of jacked-up revenants have just crashed the party. Coolio.

That’s alright, Wynonna’s got it.

25) I do appreciate a good early 00s callback…

26) WTF

27) OMG, Waverly trying to lose it and turn the table but realizing it’s too heavy and then just throwing the cards on the floor and giving a little shout? *chef’s kiss*

28) Oh, shit, Katalin now knows what Waverly is?! What is she???

29) Aw, Nicole just set Wynonna straight, told her that everyone is grieving Dolls just as much as she is and that she should go apologize to Jeremy. I do really love their quiet yet strong bond.

30) Quinn is fucking torturing Jeremy with a goddamn stapler and why does everyone keep treating Jeremy like crap? Quinn wants to get Jeremy’s drugs to become a dragon and storm BB headquarters. Wynonna gets through to him by admitting that she is also haunted by the ghosts of the people she lost, but their best revenge is to go on living. Be brave. Live. For me.

31) Ouch, I didn’t know that something as small as Wynonna giving Quinn Dolls’ badge would hurt like a bitch, but it did.

32) Damn, damn, damn.

That whole scene simply destroyed me. Wynonna finally decided to cremate Dolls’ body to prevent BB from coming after it to continue experimenting on him. And then they bury him, each of them placing a personal item that symbolizes their relationship to Dolls. It fucking devastated me.

33) Waverly asks Wynonna what her plans are for when she passes, casually mentioning that she doesn’t have a spot on the Earp’s burial site. Wynonna doesn’t make a big deal of it, and instead, tells Waverly that they will live for about another 80 years and then, they’ll be buried together at the homestead. That’s all the reassurance Waverly needs. She might not be an Earp, but she’s Wynonna’s sister, and that’s all that matters.

34) Damn, Dolls.

35) Does Katalin spend the whole day playing with her Tarot cards? #quarantinemood

So… she admits that she only stole Waverly’s purse to get Doc’s attention. They have a short conversation about the days of yore and then…

Damn Doc, he can’t just keep it in his pants, can he?

36) That was an emotional rollercoaster of an episode. Dolls wasn’t one of the characters I loved the most, but I understand how important he was to the narrative and to each of the characters, so I’m glad to see he got a proper send-off. I really hate it when shows gloss over the aftermath of a main character’s death and skip forward all the grieving and uncomfortableness of mourning. That being said, this being a supernatural show and all, I’m skeptical that this was the last we’ll see of Dolls. Anything can happen, right?

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@paperthinrevolutionary asked ☆～（ゝ。∂）, ❤️ , † 

For the hc meme here and tumblr broke the ask SO. I’m moving it to a new post thanks 

☆～（ゝ。∂）= How the character greets people

Scott tends to default to his ‘Hello, Hello!’ like in his phone calls haha. He tends to be more hesitant when greeting people outside of his work environment. The Manager Persona is strong tm but don’t expect him to make first contact if you see him grocery shopping or something when he’s off work.

Scott also tends to give small sheepish little waves if his hand isn’t occupied with something else.

Jeremy’s not the most talkative of fellas, so he generally just grunts in the person’s general direction and lifts his head to show he’s seen them.

Maverick has his stupid HEY HEY! like on his phone calls. He tends to shout it and rolls it into a rhyme with the person’s name (Tan the Man; Van(ny) with the Plan(y)) even if the rhyme doesn’t really make sense. If he’s got something to say he immediately launches into it without giving the other person much of a chance to respond to anything. He’s also very touchy, and enjoys clasping shoulders or throwing his arms around people.

♥ = Character’s preference for relationships (sexuality, type of person, etc.)

Scott is gay; but closeted due to stigma in the time period. He has a tendency to fall for those that aren’t the best for him…idk man idk he’s a hopeless man who falls for terrible terrible men who give him a smidge of positive attention. He falls hard when he gets caught catching feelings. 

Jeremy is straight; probably somewhere on the ace spectrum if he knew what it was. He tried to do the whole white picket fence lifestyle and shacked up with his highschool sweetheart but once they actually had a kid and started a life together he struggled to keep being the breadwinner of the family while she stayed home with their daughter. The divorce came hard and though he doesn’t miss his ex-wife, the thought of losing his daughter keeps him from rolling over and giving up.

He doesn’t have another romantic relationship after his divorce.

Maverick is pan and genuinely just here to have a good time. He knows he’s a lot to take in and long lasting relationships are not his strong suit. Most people aren’t going to stick around while he sinks his entire being into his newest Fright Scheme.

† = How the character feels about murder

I mean……..is this. A question that needs answering? LMFAO.

Scott is…morally against it and learning the truth behind the missing children incident genuinely broke his spirit and trust in the one person he’d given his heart away to.  

But on the other hand? Working at Freddy’s involves a lot of denial and grey areas when it comes to murder? I guess? Like he’s aware that the Night Guards end up getting murdered by the animatronics but he’s also like???? What am I supposed to do???? How can I help? Does this count as a natural cause? Is it really murder? It’s more like an accident? The Fredbear incident with his brother when he was younger also painted him as a murderer? So he’s. He’s just having a bad time all in all and knows his hands will never truly be clean. 

Jeremy is also against it but understands that self defense is a very much real thing. Much more open about the idea of a grey area but he isn’t about to go...chopping anyone up. 

Though Fazbear’s gets some very choice words and he earns a police escort away after the bite that claims his daughter. 

Maverick is very desensitized to the concept due to his fascination with gore but he does know when to put that on the back burner and realize that hey. Shit’s fucked up. 

If he learns the truth about what Isaac and Vanny are doing in the Fright he would immediately try and turn them in after processing that they are really hurting people. Whether he’d be successful or not....well. Hm. 

[cornfields-and-bad-dreams]

Fictober19, Day 12: “What if I don’t see it?”

Fandom: Achievement Hunter, FAHC.

Pairing: Jeremwood.

Word count: 704

Warnings: N/A

Synopsys: Ryan is given a talking to by the newest *recruit about love.

*shameless OC insertion.

Ryan sat in the living room of the penthouse staring out the window at the city below.

"You're looking rather somber today."  Ryan glanced behind him to find Denver, the newest addition to the team, offering him a diet coke.

"Just one of those days."  Ryan took the coke and went back to watching the bustling streets.

"If you say so, though I am willing to listen if you want to talk about anything."  Denver sipped at their own drink as they grabbed a book of the coffee table and settled into one of the chairs.

Ryan wasn't one who usually talked about the things bothering him, but he also wasn't dealing with it that well on his own.  After ten minutes or so he finally decided to speak.

"I think I'm in love with Jeremy."

Denver peered up from their book, slowly they slipped the bookmark back in and set the book down.

"Think?"

"I'm hesitant to say I know for sure.  But it's a strong possibility."

"Right, and this has you morose why?"

Ryan huffed and gave Denver a look like it should be obvious.

"Because what's the point of liking someone if the feelings not mutual?"

"Does Jeremy not like you back?"  Denver sounded honestly confused, Ryan's expression softened.

"I haven't talked to him about it, but my expectations aren't too high."

"You know what they say, don't you?  When you assume it makes an ass out of U and me."

Ryan shook his head and gave a small chuckle.  Resting his head against the window glass Ryan stared out at nothing in particular.

"I'm perfectly aware of the saying.  But I don't have much reason to think he'd like me back."

"Seriously?  Jeremy definitely feels strongly about you in a very positive way."

“What if I don’t see it?”

"Then you're blind.  Which doesn't matter, Jeremy will still like you regardless of your visual impairment."

Across the room, the two could hear the elevator whir to life as the floor display above it indicated it ascending up to the top floor.

"Speaking of Jeremy, that's probably him getting back from being out with the Lads.  I'll leave you to it."  Standing up Denver retrieved their book once again and headed for their room.

A moment later the elevator doors opened to reveal Jeremy in his Rimmy Tim get up.  The man was a bit dirtied and the brim of his stetson looked mildly singed but he still wore a giant grin on his face.

"You should have been their Ry, it was crazy."  Jeremy strode energetically into the room and toward Ryan.

"I regret sleeping in then.  You can tell me all about it later."  Ryan smiled up at Jeremy who was now standing beside him.

"Why not now?"  Jeremy cocked his head quizzically.

"There's something else I wanted to talk about first."  Ryans smile faltered nervously, something that Jeremy seemed to pick up on.

"Of course.  Is everything okay?"  Jeremy sat down beside Ryan, placing a hand on his leg.

Ryan took a deep breath to steady his nerves, placing his own hand over Jeremy's he gave it a squeeze.

"I, I love you, Jeremy.  I really love you and I need to know how you feel about me."

Jeremy was frozen, his mouth hanging open slightly.  Ryan could feel the knot in his stomach grow tighter.  Standing up quickly Ryan began backing away.

"This was a mistake.  I shouldn't have said anything."  Turning Ryan tried taking a step toward the direction of his room but was held back by Jeremy's hand grabbing his.

"Wait, don't go.  I'm sorry, you just caught me off guard."

Ryan turned back to Jeremy hopefully.

"Ryan, I feel the same.  I've loved you for a while now, I didn't think you'd feel the same though."

"Why wouldn't I?"  Ryan took both of Jeremy's hands and held them to his chest.

"I just never thought you were interested in me."

"I never thought you were interested in me."  Ryan laughed, pulling Jeremy into a hug.

"I guess we're both idiots huh?"  Jeremy pulled back enough to look up at Ryan.

"Yeah, I guess we are."  Ryan leaned down and connected his lips with Jeremy's.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

My only problems with that bmc theory you mentioned is that 1) bmc was already really popular and 2) that’s kinda body shaming Roland :/ but yeah I agree that he can’t really sing for shit lol. And I hate how his go-to thing when he’s singing (it’s super evident in loser geek or whatever) is to just throw his arms out in a t pose

you should have problems with every part of that theory because everything in that post is about how the arguments are terrible and absurd, and i’m gonna use this opportunity to straightforwardly lay out why all that is, but first let me talk about the problems you did find with it

1) yes 

the off-bway run of bmc is unusual because it did (and existed because) already have popular support/demand. they absolutely had no motivation to try to increase its popularity. they already had that fully covered. 

2) yes

nothing wrong with having a preference or an attachment to the first portrayal you saw but there is no real reason to legitimately dislike or resent will roland’s performance to the degree that anyone wants to act like they have objective justifications for this. i will freely blame a ton of this on the fact that will r is not a super lanky guy who sort of looks like elijah wood’s fey woodland cousin or something, and he has a nasal voice, and the fact people find this less attractive leads to this extra resentment that gets rationalized as some kind of problem they have with his performance. surely i will come back to this but for now i’m going to argue against my own fake arguments

they didn’t approach will only because he was in deh and thus ~famous~ or famous by association or whatever. like i said in an earlier post, they were considering will for the part of jeremy even before will was considering himself for the part, as he said he didn’t consider auditioning for that role until it was suggested to him. and then he made it to callbacks, which means he was seriously considered and they already saw merit in the idea of casting him for the part. the fact that he didn’t get it doesn’t mean he wasn’t good enough: people Don’t Get The Part all the time and it isn’t for any certain reasons. for example, earlier will got cast in the black suits, while george salazar also auditioned and didn’t get cast, and yet we wouldn’t use this as evidence that george wasn’t necessarily good enough. not to mention that will would’ve been getting involved in deh at around that time of the bmc auditions, so evidently he was already good enough to be involved in like, any production.

also, the part of jeremy wasn’t the only change in cast between the productions. and they didn’t seem to leap on the opportunity to get Big Names involved, and in fact, they’ve said they didn’t want to do that. and, again, they did not need a popularity boost, they were in the unusual position of already knowing they had an audience. thus there’s no reason to believe that will’s casting, and will’s casting alone, was some sort of grab for increased attention on the production.

joe iconis had worked with will for years prior to 2018 and it’s just kind of ridiculous to suggest that will auditioned for his play and got turned down because he was terrible, and it’s only due to the fact that he was then cast in deh that made joe go “hm that roland guy can’t sing for shit and i’ve just been too polite to Not cast him in a previous musical of mine and work with him dozens of other times but he’s in a Popular Broadway Musical now so hmmm, maybe we’ll make a sacrifice to the quality of this show to get a popularity boost we don’t need” like

obviously it does not make sense. will was not Only offered the role because of being in deh. and, by extension, he was not offered the role in spite of any kind of inadequacy on his part. or in spite of anything at all.

also there is no indication that will connolly was just like, ditched or something. initial castings and casting changes are done for any number of reasons. and it’s not like joe iconis exactly has a reputation for ruthlessly screwing over people he works with, nor does will roland…and casting changes are basically inevitable if a show goes beyond one run or has a particularly long one. and it’s not unlikely people will have a preference or consider the first performance they see to be kind of the standard in their eyes, and there’s nothing wrong with the end of someone’s run / a casting change being bittersweet, cuz all of that is just how it’s gonna go. but like there’s no reason for animosity towards the replacement cuz then you’re gonna always hate everyone but the o(b)c

again like. maybe people really aren’t aware that will roland was cast in a musical of joe iconis’s back in 2012? the black suits? ben platt was there? george salazar wasn’t? will was 1/6th of the cast and did plenty of singing. and that was 3-4 years prior to him auditioning for bmc and getting the part for the off-bway performance, and as people tend to backhandedly point out, he only gets better with time and experience, and he was already doing great vocally in the black suits. he did that 2012 run, and then the run tbs had in 2013 as well. like, joe had plenty of experience working with him there. why would he think will is bad at singing.

also will was involved with joe’s work even prior to his graduation

will was also involved with bmc producer jen tepper’s work prior to his graduation. had a solo in the “if it only even runs a minute” show

they’d know how good will is. they had already been willingly involving him in various works for years, over and over, prior to will auditioning for bmc. the fact he didn’t get the part the initial time wasn’t due to them thinking he can’t sing, okay. and already right there you have the issue that apparently a bunch of randos figure they just have better judgment than the industry professionals. 

also, you can prefer will connolly’s voice, but it’s not even A Valid Argument to say that will roland is a bad singer. like, this isn’t even about opinion. he is a good singer and this is an objective statement. He Is Very Skilled. his vocals Are Good. this is not opinion it is essentially fact. you may not like them but to say he’s bad is just to say either you don’t have the first clue what you’re talking about or are willing to skew your own perspective or just say whatever to pretend to justify this preference as “one of these is the performance i like better and the other is a performance that is inarguably Bad and Incompetent”

one thing is that will is so good that he makes it seem easy. he pulls off shit that you don’t even have to recognize as taking a crapton of skill. there’s all sorts of performances of his available and the way he’s able to emote during his singing isn’t just his also-strong acting, but it also requires the vocal ability to deliver quick shifts and jumps between differences in volume and pitch and soft/fragile vs forceful/angry and that requires a ton of skill and control. speaking of control and the stuff i’ve just said, there’s also a lot of smoothness to his vocals and consistency which reflects not only the quality of his vocals but also the control and endurance and knowledge of how to handle a performance within individual songs but also an entire show and also a string of shows.

like, dunno what to tell you. like i said before, these industry professionals think he’s good enough. the people he work with think he’s talented. i put myself through reading bmc reviews and i don’t remember anyone saying anything suggesting will’s vocals weren’t up to par, but i do remember a lot of acknowledgments about the opposite and how his performance is stellar and showcases great vocal talent and ability, whether or not the reviewers took to the rest of the show as a whole. and yet people who are mad about him not being will connolly have the take that he can’t sing. pretty wild how the people who would probably know better than you or me all consider will roland to be a very strong singer!! must be because they don’t know as well as various random people who resent will r.

it’s just a bonus when people argue he can’t sing the high notes. i’m guessing i need to say it’s called a falsetto? he has a gorgeous one and the way he’s able to snap right into it is kind of breathtaking? and the fact that joe iconis wrote lgw Specifically For Will Roland’s Voice, specifically designed to showcase and play to his strengths? and that this song, written by a professional composer to be ideally paired with will roland’s voice, features that falsetto so generously? hmmmmmmmmmmm

like, there’s so many amazing and beautiful performances of his online and like every available performance kicks ass and is certainly Vocally Competent but like, if you listen to this and think “he can’t really sing for shit” then you’re just telling on your own flawed judgment n Shit Taste lol…..like, again, to say he can’t sing is objectively incorrect.

also, there’s this. 

i’m also very suspicious of people just interpreting his singing as “bad” because of the fact that his voice is just nasal. or suggesting that he can’t have as ~serious or dramatic~ impact. for unspecified reasons. but what i am going to specify as “because he has a nasal voice and i have an automatic association with this meaning that the character is unsympathetic and a joke”

i now slowly turn around and pull down a slide reading “jared kleinman”

again, not like the “will roland was only cast for clout” idea holds any water in the first place, but it’s just extra good how his character in deh seems to be written off by like, everyone, from reviewers to casual audiences to most more-involved fans of the show alike, and largely overlooked or maligned, despite all characters getting an equally sympathetic treatment, and all of the teenagers being very similar in what their flaws and weaknesses are and what their desires are. 

like i and other people and mike faist will tell you, yeah jared’s character provides a break from Heavier scenes into lighter tone, which is necessary for good pacing, but that doesn’t mean that the character and the things he says aren’t serious or genuine. watch me avoid going off into a longer tangent about jared and bringing it back around to will roland: it just Sure Is Interesting that the character is one that tends to be seen as unimportant or even dispensable despite being absolutely crucial to multiple elements of the play. hmm

and anyways it’s kind of funny that you’d really have to already be a fan of will’s to like, make his casting in bmc make you care about bmc if you hadn’t already (#me, lol) and like. otherwise it’d be like “hey this guy who’s in bmc was in deh” “oh really that’s neat” and maybe it’d make some new people pay attention, but not to the degree that it would like, be expected to carry the show’s sales or anything lol. plus uhhhhh haven’t noticed the marketing saying anything about WILL ROLAND of DEAR EVAN HANSEN and you’d think that if they’d deliberately cast someone who sucks just cuz he had a part in a well-known show, they’d uhhhh take advantage of that? and yet. 

that theory’s total shit is what i’m saying

and it’s interesting that will has a nasal voice and isn’t Serious Enough and his Singing is Bad

by interesting i mean total shit

i’m also totally gonna say that people are mad at will for not being super tall and super skinny and seeming attractive to them.

absolutely gonna say that. there is a real, documented bias towards considering someone seen as Attractive as being more sympathetic than someone who isn’t. for example i am tilting my head 270 degrees when anybody decides jeremy is an unsympathetic character. i am tilting my head 583 degrees when anybody decides that will roland’s performance as jared is the Unsympathetic one. my eyebrows are so raised they’ve just graduated college. 

just yknow people are mad at will roland b/c they don’t find him as hot as will c and resent him for not seeming attractive enough and like, there’s the people who will at least own this and insult him for being too ugly for their tastes and their inability to keep their shit to themselves, and then there’s people who also have this inability to keep their shit to themselves but don’t wanna say they think he’s too ugly for their tastes and will instead be like mmmm dunno the way he follows the written changes to the script is bad………mmmmm idk he just can’t sing ://…………mmmmmmm his performance isn’t the same so uhh fuck him for not being will connolly………………://///……….

i don’t know if anybody sees him as fat rn, there’s this window of being Average where i truly cannot see it even though its supposed to just be Objective Judgment territory. but that sure never helps. also he just doesn’t have the willowy fragile body type of will connolly’s at all, no matter what. and that also cannot ever help. couldn’t’ve helped when he played jared either.

maybe it’s an utter coincidence that the majority of his film roles, where your body and face are always gonna get hq closeups, and in which we also have audio of one’s nasal voice, have him as Nerd Types who aren’t meant to be particularly sympathetic. not saying this is all him being typecast based on being written off from certain types of roles as characters meant to appeal to the audience / win sympathy, except, my eyebrows have now finished grad school.

in fact, although the realm of live theatre may be more “”forgiving”” of these superficial traits, it’s not as though will’s roles haven’t been largely uncool losers in various ways lol…but all of them have been sympathetic. he’s even mentioned how being cast as a romantic lead way back in school changed how people saw him. and here he is in a role where he feels like he isn’t allowed to be the main character even in his own life, and where he feels that he can be treated Like a well-liked, attractive person, but not necessarily be one. will roland is out here just outright saying how lgw is about himself and about you and about me (and for trans and non-hetero fans) and people are really out here going “he’s ugly he shouldn’t have this role” like, i’ll freaking slap you, lord

again. loser geek whatever alone is evidence that the take that He Can’t Sing is objectively false. and it is. move on. love yourself

also just thanks for mentioning the thing about throwing his arms out. that’s just like, one of the peak examples of “i resent will roland for not being will connolly but i need to invent justifications for this” and deciding that totally arbitrary things about him are reasons to be annoyed by him, and thus to think that there’s anything actually wrong with it. like, so he has a tendency to gesture with both arms out whereas other people don’t always do this? you’re mentioning loser geek whatever and it’s pretty crazy how when you watch him perform the song he actually employs a variety of gestures and you’re just picking out the one thing he does and going “ugh god you’re killing me will roland” like god….of all the arbitrary inconsequential things to focus your dislike on and pretend it’s a Legitimate Critique, this one’s a classic. if anything it’s a quirk that puts an individual stamp on things in the midst of all the other ways he moves and gesticulates during songs, but yeah, i suppose you could just decide you hate it. truly, between will roland putting his arms out and the people who see this as some kind of real flaw, whose reach is greater……..

anyways the point is none of you have any real reason to be bothered by will roland, and every “oh my god he’s so incompetent” take is ridiculous, and at least the people who outright insult him based on appearance are being honest about their bullshit since it’s all insults anyways. the oc album is right there. the performance with will connolly also continues to be right there. everybody just might consider why they’re so resentful of will roland for having the part, and also consider getting over it.