#and him just going off the deep end

[letnirvanarain]

ok I have a headcanon that after jon read the final statement from jonah which kick-started the apocalypse, he lost it. Went catatonic at first and then he lapsed into sobs and silent screams wretched from wells of true agony and torment so deep it hurt to look at. He was like the sun during that time, inconsolable and unreachable. And martin held him through it all, because of course he did. Stroking his hair and whispering what comforts he could, knowing that jon was beyond his reach.

And eventually, bit by bit, jon came back to himself. The guilt and the agony and the betrayal faded into something mishapen and ugly that he was able to push down and swallow hard and thats where we came in, at the start of season 5. And they never talked about it again, and jon never thanked martin (because he couldn't) but that was ok because Martin had never expected him to. Wasn't even sure he deserved it. Wasn't even sure how much jon remembered of his own grief. It just became a silent, unspoken thing between them. A statue in the garden of their history.

But sometimes, late at night, in this strange new world with this stranger still new version of the man he adored, martin had this strange, creeping feeling that maybe those long, stretched out days in the cabin were jon screaming out the last of his humanity.

[ptieuca]

My mom said some things to me about being the slayer. That it's fruitless. No fruit for Buffy. She's wrong.

[cuoredimuschio]

okay, but where's my steddie AU where steve wants to learn to play guitar to impress a girl he's infatuated with and he remembers that munson kid was always hanging up posters for his weird band at school, so he hikes out to eddie's usual dealing spot behind the track and asks (with far less groveling than he really should have) if eddie will teach him how to play, and obviously eddie says no because why would he want to help king steve, but of course, steve offers to pay him, $20 a week, and well, that's the kind of get-the-hell-out-of-this-shithole-town cash eddie really can't afford to refuse, so fine, he'll teach steve to play and they'll spend inordinate amounts of time together tucked away in eddie's room and they'll start to see that they have more in common than they thought and that they kind of had each other all wrong, and eddie will put his hand over steve's to help him get the placement for a tricky chord and it totally won't awaken anything in either of them?? where is it??

edit: i started writing it

[arthurtaylorlester]

so like do you ever think about john doe

[writer-room]

Love that the team continued to uphold Lloyd being extremely mentally unwell at all times. Barely functioning but insisting its fine. Plagued by the visions™. Legitimately had a panic attack when everything started to go wrong. Completely willing to fuck over his entire physiology with weird dragon magic because "yeah that'll probably be helpful later". Waking up screaming and shrugging because its totally normal to have nightmares that horrifying on the regular. A+ on this assignment lads, you've broken Lloyd down to his bare essentials.

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

my experience with maxing out the twins' friendship is just-

Hawke: So, Carver, my dear baby brother who I love and adore, I only need +10 more points to max out your friendship. I've done the grind; through gritted teeth I've kissed templar ass so that we don't raise suspicion. I've supported and defended you and let you take the lead whenever I could. You're my favorite warrior. I took you to the Deep Roads with me because you desperately wanted to go and then made you a warden and you found a place, a purpose. I've practically written my own guide on how to earn as much friendship with you because I love you and it's totally worth it so can I please please have the last +10...? Carver: Hawke: Carver please I'm begging you Carver: Carver: +5 Friendship Hawke: AAUUGGGHHLKSAJDLKAJSDLK-

Hawke: So, Bethany, my dear sis- Bethany: +50 Friendship Hawke: Bethany: :)

[hajihiko]

How do you think Junko manipulated the other sdr2 survivors besides Hiko? Kazu, Sonia and Akane?

Kazuichi: lots of praise and conditional affection (now that you're addicted to being my favourite little puppy, sure would be sad if you did something to make me and my friends mad and not like you anymore. Because I could make sure no one ever wants to be around you again :( build me a death machine pretty please?)

Sonia: aren't you tired of being nice? Dont you want to go apeshit? (aren't you tired of doing only what other people expect of you? You're barely your own person. Go on, try being a little bad for once! A little bad escalates into being immensely selfish, and eventually it's too late to go back)

Akane: a little harder, but she's very gullible and easy to trick into doing things, and has a LOT of trauma to tap into (maybe something along the lines of, "the world is a shitty place and no one ever helped you when you needed it, right? Only way to be safe from that is to be not only strong, but scary. Show them they can't mess with you! KILL")

[supjello]

"Your son?" "My apprentice, but I think of him like a son."

[s0fter-sin]

is there any actual catharsis in the boys or is it all just suffering and scrambling for a crumb of relief

[theotherrichardpapen]

...because any moment may be our last. everything is more beautiful because we're doomed.

[russell-crowe]

INT: To be totally honest, coming here, I didn't know who I was going to meet. From a personality perspective, you read all sorts of things about you. RUSSELL: You do, don't you? INT: Do you feel that this image of 'Hollywood's bad boy' is overblown? RUSSELL: Here's the thing mate, I'm not from Hollywood. I go there to work. But it's all made up and I'm sorry to burst your bubble. What do you think the whole tough guy thing is? I put makeup on for a living, brother. That's all. That's what I do. But it's not an act. It's a perception that somebody writes and then the next person goes on top of that and goes on top of that. You know, I'm in no way, shape or form like an angry person, you know, but if you do my job. And you don't get irritated by certain points of it, right? There's something wrong with you.

[shadowfloofster]

I love how a lot of us ghosties just want to see q!Bad get worse. We see him deteriorating? We start crying but also cheering for more. We don't want to see him get better, we want to see him get SO much worse.

Bad kidnaps a federation worker? We all cheer! Let's see how low he can go! How far is he willing to go to get any information? We don't know but we want to see!

Bad possibly was putting himself in the soul vulture room? We cry but want to see where it leads! How does it affect him? Is it ganna make him worse? We hope so!

Bad puts a bunch of dangerous magma cubes around the place? Yeah! Do more things like that! Cause more chaos! Let the inner demon out!

Bad gets arrested for 15 minutes? Special guest privileges! Where will it lead? Will anyone else notice his special privileges? Give us more!

Bad wants to kidnap another worker? One with a name and is friends with another islander? Go for it! We want to see him get SO much worse! Go off the deep end!

It's so funny watching us all see the special guest thing and run with it because it makes sense to be linked to him, while we also want to see him get so much worse and go off the deep end.

[impossible-rat-babies]

meaningless complaint, but sometimes stuff in bg3 is utterly asinine in how it plays. to me

[yourflame]

trauma? what trauma. he's sonic the hedgehog! there's no such thing as-

OHHHH THERE'S THE TRAUMA.

[mad-hunts]

roleplay idea: barton's trying to say this BS that he's 'good at processing grief' when your muse was a witness to the absolute rage-filled and deranged rampage that barton went on after julien was killed by the joker in which he brutally hurt all but one of his henchmen (he killed the last one because he told him he was 'crazy' and that he 'better kill him, or he was going to tell his boss that barton had been there' and he literally just snapped, went 'you know what, i think i will kill you AND also let the joker know i killed you so he knows to never come near my family again' then killed him. like HUHHH?) at the time with your muse being like this

[millenari]

you ever think about the difference in how bomba and demeter talk about Macavity in his song and just OOUUGGHHHH

Look. Listen. When Demeter talks about Macavity in the song she mostly touches upon his abilities and achievements to describe him. It almost sounds like she's bragging about him- she mentions twice that he can outsmart Scotland Yard and refers to his reputation as a criminal and also a magical cat. The only time she refers to his appearance is when she says he is 'outwardly respectable' which -as we all know- is either totally untrue or, at the very least, not true anymore.

Meanwhile Bomba focuses on his physical appearance, and when she describes him it sounds like a completely different guy than Demeter's supposed 'respectable' criminal mastermind: he's unkempt, he's uncombed, his eyes are sunken in, etc. Also in almost direct contradiction to the 'outwardly respectable' line, she additionally claims 'you'd know him if you saw him'. She compares him to a snake, an animal most cats sure as fuck don't like, and calls him a 'monster of depravity'. I'd say her descriptions lean towards accusing him of being inhuman, but these are... you know. Cats. None of them are human. But either way she certainly labels him as completely 'other' than the rest of them: he is a 'fiend in feline shape'.

(And certainly this can be explained away as the two of them just having difference preferences. Bomba, as we know, likes Tugger, and she describes him as a 'curious beast' so clearly she has a type here. Meanwhile Demeter is sometimes depicted as having some kind of love affair with Alonzo, but nowadays she's usually paired up with Munk, a guy who doesn't really seem to display much sexuality in comparison to the other male cats, and demonstrates a lot of competence and emotional intelligence throughout the play. So it does make sense that these two specifically would fixate on these two different aspects of the same man.)

However they almost seem to be in conflict about their hot takes on Macavity. Take the middle section I marked off for example: the first time that 'there's no one like Macavity' bit is sung, Demeter sings it. Then later on, Bomba sings it. But when Bomba sings it she changes the second line, which goes from 'He's broken every human law, he breaks the law of gravity' to 'For he's a fiend in feline shape, a monster of depravity'. She also mirrors Demeter's choreo from the same section as she sings it.

That makes her slight change feel very pointed, especially with the how she gestures towards Demeter during that line.

Demeter, fundamentally, is saying, 'there's no one like Macavity, he can do all of these insane things', and meanwhile Bomba is saying, 'there's no one like Macavity, he's a fucking monster' and she makes sure Demeter knows that's exactly what she's saying too.

& on that note there's even more context there when you look at their demeanor. Demeter seems to have a lot of conflict about her feelings, which is portrayed through her expressions mostly, while Bomba remains almost kind of playful and certainly enthusiastic through the whole song. Demeter --who is vastly conflicted-- tries to talk about Macavity's achievements when describing him. Bomba --who knows exactly what Macavity is and was and feels no shame about it-- is happy to talk about what an abomination he is and how attracted she is to him anyways.

And that makes the 'outwardly respectable/cheats at cards' moment feel really important, because Demeter tries to claim something that may be one thousand percent not even remotely true, (potentially to justify her attraction to Macavity), and Bomba cuts in --sometimes with amusement, sometimes with annoyance, sometimes without particular tone-- and retorts, 'i know he cheats at cards'.

Which regardless of if you interpret that line in the manner that seems most obvious: 'I know he cheated on you' (especially when there's a loaded pause between 'cheats' and 'at cards'), or if you take it to be more general ('I know he's more nefarious than he seems' for example) that line very much seems to be Bomba cutting in there and essentially expressing 'girl, give me a fucking break'. And well, one of Bomba's character words isn't 'frank' for nothing.

I also don't have it pictured in the screenshot, but the third time that 'there's no one like Macavity' bit is sung, it's sung by them both at once, and that notable second line that keeps changing says 'There never was a cat of such deceitfulness and suavity,' which labels Macavity as 'deceitful' but also 'suave', almost as if the two of them decided to compromise on their respective perceptions of the man. Which matches how they, by that point, have begun to dance in sync as well.