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kin assign me a together in hell character please i am looking at you blinking rapidly please pleaase please
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#i get embarry when talking about shit like this just out in the open so i'm hiding in tags like a COWARD#so yeah. There's this dead guy#i actually have two characters i'd like to assign to you but like. first off. dead guy#he's been dead for at least 20 years circa the start of the story; like this bitch's corpse is rotted#before he died though he was just a silly guy? like generally had some pretty bad imposter syndrome; felt like he wasn't a good person#and has like. catholic guilt#from his parents ofc#and is actually a high school dropout; got kicked out at like 16 for being gay#and was doing pretty good for himself before he got crazy axe murdered at 25 by his husbandfiance (never figured it out) for money#anyways that guy's name was charlie and he's ginger . rest in peace loser#okay . second and statistically less dead character is one of the main characters actually: anastasia hayes (doesn't like that name)#actually not sure why they remind me of you#just like the general disassociation paired with a silly disposition#<- her character actually acts as part of a greek choir to the Main Main Characters bcuz he isn't allowing himself to process his issues#just btw#she's so silly#they'll get over all their issues at some point in the story. like they let themself focus on the present instead of the future#idk. silly#SORRY IF THIS DOESN'T MAKE SENSE IT IS 3:39 A M#together in hell
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You're all fucking wrong about Catholic Jason he wouldn't feel guilt about Jack shit, ESPECIALLY not killing. He would get the All-Blades and be convinced that this is God's go ahead and divine confirmation that he's right about everything and all of his opinions are valid and everyone who opposes his worldview is a moron blinded by idealism and naivete.
#Jason should have a little bit of a god complex#there are lots of hints towards him being religious#the angel on his headstone his mother being named fucking Catholic a lot of his fire and brimstone beliefs#that whole timeline where he was a priest#but you guys seem to think there's only one way to be Catholic and interpret religious texts#you guys keep writing him like Helena but I am positive that they would disagree vehemently on a lot of things#I know we all want to project our religious guilt on our favorite blorbo but my boy doesn't give a shit#he has never felt guilt about anything because he believes that he is moral and right as much as Bruce and Cass believe they are#dc#jason todd#catholic jason todd#his mother is named Catherine**#I'm not retyping those tags
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She had it. She actually had it, in her hands.
Myriad. The ultimate weapon of a dying race, brought to Earth to subjugate its people and rebuild an empire from a shattered world, possibly the key to saving this one. The key Lena needed to unlock Non Nocere and
(take over)
heal the world. End all strife. Eradicate all conflict. No more pain. No more deceit. No more greed, or cruelty, a world without malice, a peace without end.
No more lies.
It was in her hands, such a small petty little thing, barely more than a trinket.
Lena dropped it too sharply on the stainless steel lab table, took three steps, and vomited, the contents of her stomach noisily splashing at her feet. It was the effects of portal travel, she told herself- like jumping from a great height and into cold water at the same time.
(oh god what did I do)
She just needed a few moments to steady herself, collect her bearings, clean up.
(oh god oh god I hurt her what have I done)
Then, she could begin her work immediately. She shrugged out of her coat and found a bottle of vodka, hardly her weapon of choice, and took a pull straight from it to wash the
(pain away)
sour taste of her own puke out of her mouth and dull the sour churning in her stomach, because she couldn’t get the image out of her head, the image of Kara lying broken on the fortress floor with green lines of agony carved in her flawless skin and the most heartbroken look of remorse and fear in her eyes.
(Lena don’t do this)
(please don’t do this I’m SORRY)
Snatching the Myriad core from the lab table, she went to shove it into place. The final work would take only a few hours and then…
Lena stopped. Her hand hovered inches above her work. All she had to do was make the connection, but something was stopping her, as if her own arm revelled against her. She tasted puke and alcohol in her mouth and she was crying, hot tears burning down her cheeks in razor lines.
(Lena please)
No more lies.
It was heavy in her hand, the alien device suspiciously heavy and cool to her touch. Why didn’t she just do it? She was here, key in hand, ready to open the door and she couldn’t do it. Why?
Gritting her teeth, Lena took it in both hands, staring at it.
This was good. This was right. Lena had given Kara everything. Everything! Her friendship, her support, her comfort, her secret council. She killed her own brother for her and what did she get in return? Lies! Deception!
(soft hugs and kind words and powerful arms shielding her from harm and strong hands… holding her)
It had all meant nothing. It was all a lie.
Right?
It was, wasn’t it? It was! It had to be, she needed it to be! If it wasn’t, if she was wrong, then she betrayed and tortured the only person who cared about her for what? For this fucking thing?
Lena held Myriad over her head. She hadn’t even been aware she’d raised it high, ready to smash it to the ground. Bringing it down, she stared at the device and saw a stranger’s face, a distorted visage of a pale, stress-thinned woman with red-rimmed eyes.
Oh God.
The watch! There was still time. It still had the coordinates.
Lena’s hand hovered over the watch. She could push the button and erase the only way she’d ever reach the fortress again, and it would be decided. She’d make it permanent, make it real. She could finalize the destruction of the most important relationship she’d ever had. Deny Kara. Give her up.
(leave her locked in a cage of agony)
Lena pressed the button.
The portal opened behind her with a gust of wind.
She stepped through.
The first thing that hit her was the cold. She didn’t think to put her coat back on.
The second thing was a right hook from Alex Danvers that sent Lena sprawling across the floor and Myriad spinning out of her grip.
“You bitch,” Alex snarled. “I knew it. I fucking knew it. I should have put a bullet in the back of your head the first time you set foot in my town.”
Alex stood over her, boiling with fury.
“I knew it was all a lie. I knew! I know what you did. You and your little lip bites and your flirty looks and your coffee dates. Was breaking my little sister’s heart part of the plan or just a sadistic bonus?”
For once in her life, Lena was truly speechless. She stared up at her attacker, absently touching the trickle of blood from her split lip.
“I didn’t, I wouldn’t,”
“You fucking did,” Alex hissed. “How dare you come back here? Didn’t you steal enough? Was the rest of the armory too much temptation for you?”
“I couldn’t leave her,” Lena choked out.
“Alex,” a harsh voice rasped, “that’s enough.”
Kara was on her feet, clutching her side. The Kryptonite had left her pale and pallid and hunched over a little, her normally bright eyes dull.
Lena pushed herself to her feet, wobbled, and started for Kara.
“Don’t you dare,” Alex stepped between them.
“I said that’s enough,” said Kara, pushing past her.
“I’m sorry,” Lena blurted. “Oh God, I’m sorry, Kara I…”
“Shhh,” Kara whispered. “It’s okay.”
Lena’s hands seemed to move on their own, palms cupping Kara’s cheeks. God, she was cold. She was shivering. Kara was shivering. She leaned into Lena’s grasp, falling against her.
“I’m sorry,” Lena whimpered.
“It’s okay,” Kara said, gathering Lena in her arms.
“The hell it is,” Alex cut in. “Jesus Christ, she robbed the Fortress of Solitude! She hurt you, Kara!”
“I hurt her first.”
“Kara, she’s right.”
Kara shook her head.
“You can’t just forgive her!” Alex almost screamed.
Kara looked at Alex, then at Lena.
“You’re forgetting. I’m Supergirl. I can do anything.”
The tears began to flow and Lena couldn’t stop them. She collapsed into Kara’s arms and sobbed, her body shaking with exertion.
Alex bent down and picked up Myriad.
“Give me that,” said Kara.
Alex looked at her quizzically, and placed the device in Kara’s hand.
She looked at it for a moment, then looked down at Lena.
“Do it,” Lena whispered.
Without the slightest appearance of effort, Kara closed her hand and the device exploded between her fingers, circuits and alien technology clattering to the floor.
“Let’s go home,” said Kara. “I think we need to talk.”
#supercorp#supergirl fanfiction#supergirl#supercorp fanfic#lena luthor#kara danvers#kara x lena#karlena#supergirl fanfic#ficlet#fortress scene rewrite#Lena has a good heart#she just wants everyone to be ok#Lena wouldn’t just leave her girl like that#Alex is sick of Lena’s bullshit#big sister Alex#sad lena luthor#sad kara danvers#angst#forgiving Kara#Kara will always forgive her#hate is not the opposite of love#Lena secretly just wants someone to prove they love her#catholic guilt probably#they’re so extra
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SOME MORE WOLFIES 🫠
#trigun#trigun maximum#wolfwood#nicholas d wolfwood#tryna push my wolfwood style more towards trimax bc thats my fav wolfie 😭💓#i think the way i’ve been drawing him has been more 98ish#still love 98 ww tho but man trimax ww haunts my thoughts and lives in my head rent free#his characterization in trimax is SO GOOD……… the flavor of catholic guilt is like nothing else 💁♀️#ALSO. someone tagged in a previous wolfwood drawing of mine that i didnt draw the cigs fucked up enough#AND HEY LISTEN. THEY WERE ABSOLUTELY 100% CORRECT i tried to draw them a little more smushed up this time#could have definitely done more but it was 3am JFJAJDHFJ 🫡 I WILL DO BETTER NEXT TIME
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He has such a black and white view of morality it’s so funny. Imagine trying to arrest your own self for war-crimes.
#fma#fmab#my art#roy mustang#he acts like he has catholic guilt#but Christianity doesn’t even exist in Amestris
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core // september 26 2024
#this poem is awesome cause the unrelenting anxiety i have felt over it the past couple weeks has also felt like my insides rotting away#anyway!!!!!#rot girl fall is upon us. unfortunately#poetry#poem#poems#poets on tumblr#poems and poetry#poetsandwriters#poems about religion#spilled ink#do i have a tag for. poems about guilt. jfhgds#how did i tag that lady macbeth poem...#catholic guilt#<— yeah that tracks. alright#AS ALWAYS. I DO NOT EXPERIENCE RELIGIOUS OR MORAL OCD BUT I AM SHAKING HANDS WITH ALL MY MUTUALS WHO DO
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Imagine if Machete was Muslim instead of Catholic. His name would be something like Saif سيف, and Vasco would probably be something like Dhahabi ذَهَبِيّ
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#I don't know Arabic so I can't weigh in that much but if you say so!#it seems like these mean “sword” and “golden” respectively that's neat#Machete wouldn't be able to cling to his Catholic guilt in that case#I don't think Islam has the same concept of original sin that Christianity does#I'm simplifying but it's a belief that humans are born with an innate tendency for evil sinning is part of our nature#and staying on the positive and in God's good graces requires a lot of repentance which can lead to excess guilt and shame#I could be wrong but I'm under the impression that this idea of a manufacturing error is a very Christian thing#sorry I know you didn't sign up to hear me try to talk about big theology things and I don't want to make it weird#but I find this stuff really interesting I unironically like to read and think about how religions work#and how they shape things they come in contact with#in Machete's case in particular his troubled relationship with God and his career choice are big parts of his character#and why he turned the way he did and thinks the way he does you know#answered#kachavashka#Dhahabi is such a regal sounding name#I'd steal that in a heartbeat if I didn't already have one extremely gold-coded character
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Maybe I've just missed it, but I feel like there's not enough discussion on Catholic Jason Todd and his feelings on being seemingly resurrected by God Jeesie-Chreesie style.
Like, we as the readers know that it was a reality bending punch from Superboy Prime that brought Jason back, but in canon no one has any explanation at all for how that happened.
The Lazarus Pit fixed him, but he was already alive (just in super bad shape) to be fixed. He woke up in his own coffin and had to claw out of his own grave and no one in-universe can explain how or why it happened.
And that alone would fuck someone up, but add in Catholic Guilt (TM) and references to the resurrection floating around every Easter and Jason's gotta wonder at least a little bit if the Big G brought him back and if so has to absolutely agonize over what he's done with his big second chance.
I just wanna read 100k words of Jason's complicated feelings on his death, rebirth (resurrection?), Red Hood, God, Bruce and what it all means, if anyone's got any recs please share them I'm begging 😭
#jason todd#batman#dc batman#red hood#catholic jason todd#catholic!jason#the catholic guilt had to be eating him alive even before he died#on account of it being catholic guilt and all#but AFTER he died??? man has to be at Mass four times a week and at Confession daily#the poor priest (who got the job after the last one got eh...*retired* by Red Hood for reasons you can imagine) has to be like#absolutely shaking in the confessional booth and questioning everything as THE Red Hood tells him about his many sins#like Father O'Malley just wanted to serve god and his community and now he knows all the Bats identites and has to grapple with#the idea that Jason “8 heads in a duffle bag” Todd qualifies as a miracle and possible might be up for sainthood
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I literally want to fuck Messmer so bad but I literally think he essentially has catholic guilt and wouldn't fuck
#Saying this bc his boss room has a statue of Marika (his mom)#and he looks at it and says “sorry mother for doing this” before going into 2nd phase#that and like all his armor/weapon descriptions talk about how he hates his flame and the base serpent#he literally feels so guilty and sorry towards Marika it's crazy#hence why I don't think he fucks bc of “catholic guilt”#elden ring#messmer the impaler#my post
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Just submitted a narrative essay that’s a combination of Catholic guilt and religious/cultural conflict. The twist is that the characters are loosely based on Dick, Jason, Tim, and Damian. There’s like a 72% chance I get a shit score but I had fun and honestly, the true grade is the friends we made along the way
#batman#batfam#batfamily#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#it’s is a VERY loose inspiration#I didn’t get like any of their religions right except Jason because CATHOLIC GUILT BABYY#also I kept think of that one line abt how church has to be taken out like shrapnel#one bloody piece at a time#and im almost positive that got snuck in there somewhere#same energy as the essay I wrote based on cult of the lamb#I got like a 95 on that one
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...where IS Tommy, anyway?
#stupidesr meme ever. ik tjis looks like shit but i thought it was funny#LISTEN TOMMY HEWITT IS GAY AND HAS CATHOLIC GUILT ABT IT IM TELLING UUUU#beverly says stuff#tcm#thomas hewitt#tommy hewitt#tcm 2006#tcm 2#tcm the beginning#texas chainsaw massacre#the texas chainsaw massacre#ttcm#shock and horror#leatherface#slashers#bev draws
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we need to stop making wolfwood so suave and smooth in fics. we need to make him a complete loser. he is just so touch-starved and horny that when vash puts his hand on his thigh for the first time he gets so hard he almost passes out
#he's also trans btw#t4t vashwood i love you#anyway yeah i know a loser when i see one#also that man is catholic he is so full of guilt and has NO clue what he's doing#similarly make vash an absolute flirtatious menace#i like both flavours of them tbh but wolfwood doesn't get to be a loser enough#trigun#nicholas d. wolfwood#vashwood#vash the stampede#trigun stampede#trigun maximum#t4t vashwood
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It's not that I hate fanon or that I think fanon is inherently less intelligent or morally wrong, but a LOT of fanon is based in racism, misogyny, and classism that I feel like a lot of you accept without question.
WHY is Duke (Daredevil, son of a god, has never once allowed himself to be defined by anyone's actions but his own) relegated to a background role, only characterized by reacting to the whims of other bats?
Why is Babs - Birds of Prey leader and backbone of the hero society, tells Bruce to fuck off and die 4 times a day and is constantly ruining her relationships by being biased and unhinged - Gotham bound, the mature responsible mom of the group who never argues with Bruce and never gets in trouble?
Why is Dick, both a tactical genius and master manipulator, a himbo only appreciated for his sex appeal? Especially when he is both Romani (group of people demonized and condemned as hypersexual by their nature alone) and an SA victim.
WHY is Damian "feral" and "uncivilized" despite being raised as a literal prince? Half of you treat him like a sociopath with no hope of redemption for an unfunny three second joke and the other half of you go full throttle into Bruce's white savior bullshit so that Damian can be "redeemed". Y'know when you're not villainizing Talia and acting like Dick is his other parent, actually.
WHY is Stephanie - extremely intelligent detective who can't stand Bruce and has a living mother she loves - lumped in as another member of the Batfam, a blonde ditz who only cares about prank wars and emotionally supporting Tim?
WHY is Cass - intelligent, a grown adult, suicidal perfectionist - emotionally intelligent, primarily existing to support the characters around her, immediately accepting of everyone she meets regardless of her own morals?
Why is Bruce the golden standard? Enough so that though everyone in the fandom could agree that he's an emotionally unstable wreck, being considered "the most like him" is seen as a compliment and not the HIGHEST insult? Everyone would agree if I said that Bruce purposely self sabotages his relationship half the time and the other half he simply does things without caring about the emotional impact it will have on people because he has to be the smartest in the room, but if I said that makes him a shit partner and emotionally abusive parent the fandom would bend over backwards to argue with me.
Why is Tim "the best Robin" when Dick Grayson invented the mantle, it is impossible for someone to embody the spirit of Robin better than him because he made it and he created what being Robin means. Maybe Tim is the best in Bruce's eyes, but what Robin means and who has the right to give it over was a significant thing they argued about. Tim the high school drop out, and yet also somehow the smartest? Tim "the most like Bruce" except no he's not, that's Cass. Poor neglected, abused, victimized little Timmy (the rich boy at the elite boarding school with loving albeit busy parents and almost every instance of him being victimized by another character has either been racist bullshit - The Al Ghuls and Rose Wilson- or a complete 180 for the character that made no sense when examined through the lens of prior characterization - Jason for instance.)
Almost every fanon trope that gets passed around like gospel seems to deliberately push POC characters and women into the background and strip them of interesting complex traits and stories, usually for the purpose of fitting them all into bite sized incorrect quote character types and uncomplicated narrative roles that are not only completely divergent from canon, but primarily exist to prop up the two rich white boys.
Also the insistence that Bruce, a 20 year old at the time, should actually be excused for how much he mentally and emotionally fucked Dick up because really they're more like siblings! While deciding that Dick at the same age was actually the perfect candidate to be Damian's new parent/guardian...have you lost the fucking plot you don't even make sense to yourselves.
Okay I lied at the beginning, I do hate fanon. You guys are so uncritical about the media you consume it is BEYOND just letting people enjoy things and have fun. I guess it's one thing if you KNOW this stuff isn't canon and UNDERSTAND why these tropes are problematic and you engage with it as such, it's fine read and write what you want, but just spreading the same nonsense around and parading it around as "better than canon" (version of the character so bland and boring you've somehow made the old white men at DC look like geniuses in the art of representation) is just infuriating.
#I didn't talk about Jason because every other post I make is about how bad fanon has fucked him up#and I would have mentioned Helena but honestly her being pushed out of the family is more a matter of people not reading comics#I wouldn't consider Jason her “replacement” accept in the moral philosophy department#wherein Helena feels an inherent guilt that Jason simply doesn't#and while Helena is firmly an anti hero Jason is willing to kill heroes if it means accomplishing his goals#I do think there's something to be said about his fanon relationship to Bruce and Cass#that directly replaces Helena's actual canon relationships though#If any of you bring up the Catholic Jason headcanon I'll kill you#I made posts about that already she did not trademark Catholicism#dc#canon vs fanon#bruce wayne#dick grayson#damian wayne#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#Barbara Gordon#duke thomas#tim drake#It IS really weird how you guys keep giving Bette Kanes actual canon identity to random people#like damn you couldn't even do a cursory Google search before you gave Wally or Tim or w/e her mantle
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not to turn my page into dead boy detectives brain rot but
imagine youre simon (Edwin's classmate who he saw in hell). no, seriously,
so youre simon, a 16 y/o boy in 1916. presumably youre religious, and even in the extremely rare case youre not, queerness as a whole is still considered an illness and treated with genuine torture or death.
you are queer. and you think someone else might be as well. a well spoken though awkward classmate by the name of Edwin, who occasionally wears a lovely cap you think he looks swell in. so one day, you take the cap, hoping it will finally get him to talk to you. it doesnt work how you want it. and he avoids you. doesnt return your feelings. your feelings that are inherently wrong in the first place.
when you hear the other lads going on abt a prank for Edwin, you think seeing him scared of nothing might just help you get over him, so you comply.
except thats not what happens.
the boy who you love (or at least really like) is dead. you are dead. and you are in hell. exactly where everyone has said people like you go. and its what you deserve
you listen to the headmaster, because if you had listened to the people in your life and ignored your feelings, you might not be here. you wouldnt have gone along with such a stupid plan. you wouldnt have killed him.
and sometimes he visits, Edwin does, and he says all the things you already know, but it hurts so much more coming out of the mouth you had shamefully wanted to kiss.
so when he comes in again, its nothing new.
Edwin doesnt yell, and he doesnt reach to hurt you. Edwin says you dont deserve this pain, that you can leave, that he had left, and he was on his way out again. That he wants you to come with. That neither of you deserved what you had been given.
its only after he leaves that you turn back to your book that you realize its gone. along with it that shame you have felt for nearly your entire life, because Edwin had been like you. and he was free, there was something better out there for him.
there might just be something better out there for you too.
#this is about dead boy detectives#edwin dead boy detectives#i like to think simon got to go to his own heaven after that#simon dead boy detectives#i too would be in love w edwin after that#edwin payne#this scene makes me feel so many things#my catholic guilt hardcore relates to everything about simon#the way simon has literally been grieving edwin for over a HUNDRED YEARS#dude the gay agenda is just yerning and that prooves it#A HUNDRED YEARS#i wish we could see simon be happier#just a small scene of him at peace#please dear god
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How it feels to be a popular female character enjoyer in the "giving her every single mental illness and making her suffer" way approaching other popular female character fans
#and this is why i at large never interact with the hardcore/fandom famous lady maria fans lol#its a whiplash going from their 'badass girlboss lady maria who is the only one who stood up against the church!!' maria#to my 'well. she has mental illness. probably had a few suicide attempts up her belt even before her last one. may or may not be#a laudanum addict. enjoyed cutting people up and didn't like that she enjoyed it#was too fed in her own catholic guilt extreme to do anything about byr.genwerth and then the church spiraling into depravity' maria#thank god for the block button!!!@
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do you think boy jerry contemplates clawing his eyes out sometimes
#definite's ted talks#for an christian man he sure has a lot of catholic guilt#and just like this i can connect him to every lord in black#pokey - campfire songs (virginity rocks). need for control#blinky - see no evil#nibbly - self-explanatory#tinky - knows both spankoffski brothers. uses funny little games to cope & hates it when something doesnt go his way (applies to pokey too)#wiggly - wants his wrath#boy jerry#nightmare time 2#abstinence camp#hatchetfield#i love using the phrase 'hate the sin love the sinner'#and i will continue to use it until it stops being true#guys nmt3 boy jerry episode... trust me. would i ever lie to you
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