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She had it. She actually had it, in her hands.
Myriad. The ultimate weapon of a dying race, brought to Earth to subjugate its people and rebuild an empire from a shattered world, possibly the key to saving this one. The key Lena needed to unlock Non Nocere and
(take over)
heal the world. End all strife. Eradicate all conflict. No more pain. No more deceit. No more greed, or cruelty, a world without malice, a peace without end.
No more lies.
It was in her hands, such a small petty little thing, barely more than a trinket.
Lena dropped it too sharply on the stainless steel lab table, took three steps, and vomited, the contents of her stomach noisily splashing at her feet. It was the effects of portal travel, she told herself- like jumping from a great height and into cold water at the same time.
(oh god what did I do)
She just needed a few moments to steady herself, collect her bearings, clean up.
(oh god oh god I hurt her what have I done)
Then, she could begin her work immediately. She shrugged out of her coat and found a bottle of vodka, hardly her weapon of choice, and took a pull straight from it to wash the
(pain away)
sour taste of her own puke out of her mouth and dull the sour churning in her stomach, because she couldnât get the image out of her head, the image of Kara lying broken on the fortress floor with green lines of agony carved in her flawless skin and the most heartbroken look of remorse and fear in her eyes.
(Lena donât do this)
(please donât do this Iâm SORRY)
Snatching the Myriad core from the lab table, she went to shove it into place. The final work would take only a few hours and thenâŚ
Lena stopped. Her hand hovered inches above her work. All she had to do was make the connection, but something was stopping her, as if her own arm revelled against her. She tasted puke and alcohol in her mouth and she was crying, hot tears burning down her cheeks in razor lines.
(Lena please)
No more lies.
It was heavy in her hand, the alien device suspiciously heavy and cool to her touch. Why didnât she just do it? She was here, key in hand, ready to open the door and she couldnât do it. Why?
Gritting her teeth, Lena took it in both hands, staring at it.
This was good. This was right. Lena had given Kara everything. Everything! Her friendship, her support, her comfort, her secret council. She killed her own brother for her and what did she get in return? Lies! Deception!
(soft hugs and kind words and powerful arms shielding her from harm and strong hands⌠holding her)
It had all meant nothing. It was all a lie.
Right?
It was, wasnât it? It was! It had to be, she needed it to be! If it wasnât, if she was wrong, then she betrayed and tortured the only person who cared about her for what? For this fucking thing?
Lena held Myriad over her head. She hadnât even been aware sheâd raised it high, ready to smash it to the ground. Bringing it down, she stared at the device and saw a strangerâs face, a distorted visage of a pale, stress-thinned woman with red-rimmed eyes.
Oh God.
The watch! There was still time. It still had the coordinates.
Lenaâs hand hovered over the watch. She could push the button and erase the only way sheâd ever reach the fortress again, and it would be decided. Sheâd make it permanent, make it real. She could finalize the destruction of the most important relationship sheâd ever had. Deny Kara. Give her up.
(leave her locked in a cage of agony)
Lena pressed the button.
The portal opened behind her with a gust of wind.
She stepped through.
The first thing that hit her was the cold. She didnât think to put her coat back on.
The second thing was a right hook from Alex Danvers that sent Lena sprawling across the floor and Myriad spinning out of her grip.
âYou bitch,â Alex snarled. âI knew it. I fucking knew it. I should have put a bullet in the back of your head the first time you set foot in my town.â
Alex stood over her, boiling with fury.
âI knew it was all a lie. I knew! I know what you did. You and your little lip bites and your flirty looks and your coffee dates. Was breaking my little sisterâs heart part of the plan or just a sadistic bonus?â
For once in her life, Lena was truly speechless. She stared up at her attacker, absently touching the trickle of blood from her split lip.
âI didnât, I wouldnât,â
âYou fucking did,â Alex hissed. âHow dare you come back here? Didnât you steal enough? Was the rest of the armory too much temptation for you?â
âI couldnât leave her,â Lena choked out.
âAlex,â a harsh voice rasped, âthatâs enough.â
Kara was on her feet, clutching her side. The Kryptonite had left her pale and pallid and hunched over a little, her normally bright eyes dull.
Lena pushed herself to her feet, wobbled, and started for Kara.
âDonât you dare,â Alex stepped between them.
âI said thatâs enough,â said Kara, pushing past her.
âIâm sorry,â Lena blurted. âOh God, Iâm sorry, Kara IâŚâ
âShhh,â Kara whispered. âItâs okay.â
Lenaâs hands seemed to move on their own, palms cupping Karaâs cheeks. God, she was cold. She was shivering. Kara was shivering. She leaned into Lenaâs grasp, falling against her.
âIâm sorry,â Lena whimpered.
âItâs okay,â Kara said, gathering Lena in her arms.
âThe hell it is,â Alex cut in. âJesus Christ, she robbed the Fortress of Solitude! She hurt you, Kara!â
âI hurt her first.â
âKara, sheâs right.â
Kara shook her head.
âYou canât just forgive her!â Alex almost screamed.
Kara looked at Alex, then at Lena.
âYouâre forgetting. Iâm Supergirl. I can do anything.â
The tears began to flow and Lena couldnât stop them. She collapsed into Karaâs arms and sobbed, her body shaking with exertion.
Alex bent down and picked up Myriad.
âGive me that,â said Kara.
Alex looked at her quizzically, and placed the device in Karaâs hand.
She looked at it for a moment, then looked down at Lena.
âDo it,â Lena whispered.
Without the slightest appearance of effort, Kara closed her hand and the device exploded between her fingers, circuits and alien technology clattering to the floor.
âLetâs go home,â said Kara. âI think we need to talk.â
#supercorp#supergirl fanfiction#supergirl#supercorp fanfic#lena luthor#kara danvers#kara x lena#karlena#supergirl fanfic#ficlet#fortress scene rewrite#Lena has a good heart#she just wants everyone to be ok#Lena wouldnât just leave her girl like that#Alex is sick of Lenaâs bullshit#big sister Alex#sad lena luthor#sad kara danvers#angst#forgiving Kara#Kara will always forgive her#hate is not the opposite of love#Lena secretly just wants someone to prove they love her#catholic guilt probably#theyâre so extra
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This is how their second meeting went right
#then they immediately fight and fall in love#i never understand why everyone portrays shadow as the angry one who hates sonic in sa2 scenes when it is clearly the opposite#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#shadow#sonadow#sonic adventure 2#sa2#shadow the hedgehog#hermie's rants
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Itâs so funny seeing the problems people have with this show and just going *shrug*. The show itself is so ambitious that it was bound to have holes in the narrative, but like. âThe adults only remember whatâs convenientââyeah, kinda? Kinda the idea? Do you remember every instance of what you did when you were eighteen, decades ago? I donât. I definitely do not. And there is so much I know Iâve wallpapered over out of shame and regret and embarrassmentâas a very normal person with a terribly boring upbringing.
Imagine spending two years where every day bleeds into the next, where youâre doing unimaginable things just to get by, where youâre sometimes reveling in the worst shit you could possibly be doing because it makes you feel alive? Youâre telling me youâd cast that all in stone, memory-wise? Nah, dude, youâre pushing that shit down. Youâre fine-tuning it in your head so itâs fuzzy at best and flat-out erased at worst. You think at forty these woman have just been chilling with their most reprehensible memories? Shauna absolutely did not. Taissa canonically repressed everything she possibly could. Natalie sank into drugs. Van ran away. Itâs only when theyâre together and theyâre forced to actually interact that they start behaving like their teenage selves again. Itâs only when you come back upon your old classmates that you fall into old patterns. Because doing otherwise for twenty-five years would have undone them completely. They did forget. Not completely, but the way you always forget huge swathes of your childhood. And then itâs easier to make the story what you can live with.
Shauna? Oh, she was kind of always writing, good with a knife, feel like she stressed me out sometimes, but I had my own problems. Oh, Tai? She was intense and ambitious andâŚdid that ever damage me directly? Canât recall. Van? She was sweet and funny and told stories. Thatâs probably it. Misty? Yeah, she was the outsider, she wasnât even on the team. I remember making fun of her, but havenât we all been there? Lottie? Where did she even go? We just lose track of old friends sometimes. Nat? Natâs been in and out of trouble for years. Hard to remember what she even looked like when she was small and blonde andâŚandâŚrough? She was rough, right? Yeah. Yeah, the yearbook pictures back that up. Jackie? A tragedy. Just so sad. Anyway: life to live, groceries to buy, work to do. Anyway: donât need to waste any more mental energy on that. Anyway: waitâwhy is someone sniffing around the story? What even is the story? Itâs bad. Itâs bad, why would we want to remember? Itâs bad, and the details are coming back, and oh no, oh god, we canât bury it any deeper.
What weâre watching in the adult timeline is far from flawless, but they are remembering as they go. And theyâre coloring their own memories, which are really just memories of memories. Like Nat seeing Travis in the dead-wife light, they are still writing the narrative the way they can live with. But their stories are going to start butting up against one another. And the only way through is to be the last one standing: because then you can believe whatever you need to. Whatever lets you keep standing tall.
#yellowjackets#yj spoilers#yj meta#shauna saying I was a warrior is exactly this#van hating her younger self when there was so much to love is the opposite but equal reaction#taissa is only now letting the two parts of herself merge#Mistyâs been rewriting the narrative the whole time pretending she was friends with these people#itâs all telling a story. itâs all telling DIFFERENT stories of the same events#no dude they donât remember and that isnât a bug. itâs intentional.#they have never once looked at the full truth of their lives#they only see what theyâre capable of handling#anyway you can like it or love it or hate it or whatever but#i fundamentally disagree with anyone claiming the writing is trash or the writers are stupid
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Happy Halloween! đ§źđĽŠđ
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#mouthwashing#lan wangji#wei wuxian#A mouthwashing crossover was always the plan but I ran out of time for a bigger comic. So a doodle it is!#***I am about to talk about some stuff that is not for the squeamish so please take caution from here on out***:#Okay. I know that people who know what goes down in mouthwashing are seeing this and going 'OP Why?'#BUT HERE ME OUT: Wangxian's canon kink dynamic would not bat an eye at this.#You think Wei 'I love being tied up and at the mercy of my loved one' Wuxian would *pass* on amputee-caregiver abuse roleplay???#No! He's a freak like that! 'Oh nooo I have only residual limbs and no voice to protest. And I need to take my medicine...'#Oh we even have a bonus cannibalism thing going on here. Maybe WWX needs to bring cannibalism into the bedroom. To heal.#They are not sane nor safe but certainly consensual.#Convincing Lan Wangji to get into the Jimmy cosplay is probably the most unrealistic part of this.#We hate Jimmy. That's why he is such an amazing character.#LWJ is his near polar opposite. Man takes responsibility like it's his daily vitamin.#edit: how could I forget. Happy birthday to wei wuxian. Being a freak in peace is the ultimate gift I can give him.
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Why The Voice Of The Cold Hates The Narrator
Replaying the Nightmare -> Wraith route and I'm realizing...
Jesus fucking christ, The Cold hates the narrator. Honestly, I think he might just give Smitten or Contrarian a run for their money.
He:
Doubts every word the narrator speaks
Insults the narrator whenever he gets the chance
Actively suggests killing the narrator, even stating that the princess could help do that
Not only suggests killing the narrator, but also suggests thatânoâactually, death is too good for the guy. They should lock the narrator in a void just like the fake good ending. Mind you, this route doesn't even have the narrator do that!
Mocks the narrator when he finally gives up on trying to make you slay the princess
Seems happy that the narrator is gone, saying he had a feeling The Wraith could deal with him
I'm pretty sure Cold over here'd rather be playing Slay The Narrator.
Really though, upon further reflection, The Cold's hatred for The Narrator is also prevalent in The Spectre, where one of the few things he actually seems to have a firm stance on is "We should kill the Narrator". In the Greys, though he's arguably at his most nihilistic, he still seems to oppose the Narrator. He joins the Skeptic in his suspicions, and though he mostly just seems to be having a time provoking Smitten during the Burned Grey, he still does take the occasional second to spite the Narrator.
And honestly, come to think about it, it makes sense. After all, the Cold manifests not necessarily from slaying the Princess, but more specifically, from killing yourself. But not just from killing yourself, slaying yourself in The Tower at the hands of the Broken doesn't manifest him, but specifically by killing yourself to spite the narrator. I mean, other than Empty Cup and Moment of Clarity (Where we don't actually know how he manifested due to the timeskips), each iteration of Cold's manifestation checks out.
Spectre: You slay her, get the good ending, but then decide "fuck this and fuck your contruct", and stab yourself even as the narrator repeatedly urges you not to.
Burned Grey: You kill the Damsel, and in a fit of rage against both you and the narrator, the Smitten kills you, even as the narrator urges him not to. (Funnily enough, this means that, despite the Smitten's line of "you killed her, and so I killed you", it was the opposite, and the Smitten manifested the Cold)
Drowned Grey: You kill the Prisoner, and, just like in the Spectre's route, you kill yourself even as the Narrator urges you not to. If you refuse to kill yourself, Skeptic does it for you, seeming apologetic towards you, but definitely not towards The Narrator.
Wraith: You kill yourself as the Narrator urges you not to, and Paranoid also spends this route doubting the Narrator.
These routes involve various levels of emotion for the Princess, ranging from "My love! Still gonna kill you though" to "So scary! Still gonna kill you though", and an overall perception of the Princess as a corpse. But the Narrator? In all of the routes leading up to Cold's manifestation, the Narrator is met with hostility, usually leading to you killing yourself out of a mix of spite and suspicion.
So Cold's manifestation has two constants:
Some level of apathy towards the Princess, regardless of your previous interactions with her. Whether she's your perfect damsel or your worst nightmare, you don't care. You stab her.
Disregard for your own safety. You're just going to stab yourself, cool. It's better than this hell. Sometimes it's another voice fulfilling this requirement for you, like Smitten in the Damsel, or Skeptic in Prisoner depending on whether or not you willingly die.
Distaste towards the narrator. A conclusion that the Narrator is untrustworthy and distinctly not on your side. No matter how you manifest the Cold, it is clear that you do not like this pesky raven one bit. The Nightmater -> Wraith route shows this through Paranoid's constant suspicion of the Narrator. This distaste frequently, thought not always, occurs due to the Narrator attempting to force you to live out your life in the void, though it can also occur due to the Narrator attempting to make you live a life without the one thing you cherish (Damsel route).
Apathy towards most things, but one thing's for certain: You don't trust that Narrator guy. He tried to make you live out a crappy, boring life for eternity.
Cold's attitude makes sense when you look at how he was created. Just like Smitten was made by deciding the princess was an immediately trustworthy damsel in need of rescuing from the pesky narrator, or that the witch is a gorgeous woman whom you can save by giving your blade in spite of the narrator's wishesâCold is made through deciding that neither your nor the princess's safety particularly matters, but fuck that narrator guy. He sucks. As apathetic as the Cold likes to act, he reacts to Smitten's threats and the Princess's murder attempts with "interesting", and reacts to the Narrator's explanation of the timeline with "we should kill him".
So, my point?
Well, I think thatânot only does the Cold hate the Narratorâbut hating the Narrator is part of him as a voice. He's cold, apathetic, and he hates the Narrator. It's been baked into his very being through the choices that you make. The princess doesn't matter, your physical well-being doesn't matter, but know that the Narrator is an untrustworthy little prick.
TLDR: Replaying Wraith made me realize that the Cold probably hates the Narrator very very much, and he does so because it is baked into his very being because of the choices you made to manifest him. You go, king. Let your inner hater run free.
#slay the princess#stp cold#voice of the cold#the narrator#voice of the smitten#others mentioned but those three are really the only ones i actually talked about#tangent but i believe in smitten-cold being opposites bc the opposite of love is not hate but apathy#stp analysis
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Neve is so scared of getting hurt but she's also so scared of other people getting hurt because of her and I think it's wonderful that she's emotionally intelligent enough to know when someone deeply cares about her or she deeply cares about someone else but not emotionally intelligent enough to like... be normal about it
#i love that her and my rook are on opposite ends of this#neve knows when people care about her and hates it because then its her fault when they get mixed up in something bad#rook like... doesn't realise people care or even could care about her#so she sort of accidentally gets people in bad situations#and then afterward is like đłđł you care whether i live or die?#i thought this was a one sided thing my bad#neve gallus#datv#veilguard headcanons
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Noticed an interesting parallel.
For Kaitoâs line in chapter 3- itâs when Maki was struggling with her real talent being exposed and hid in her room sorta accepting the fact that everyone views her that way now
For Makiâs line in chapter 5- itâs when Kaito was dealing with the effects of his illness and emotionally distancing from the group in order to maintain the idea that heâs Perfectly Fine
In both of these, theyâre aware the other is hiding behind a mask of sorts (for Maki she sees herself as a heartless killer, while Kaito sees himself as the hero everyone relies on), but they also see past that in each other and are aware they are struggling. Hence the concerned looks and Those Lines.
I thought it was cool because their dynamic is often dismissed as Kaito simply helping her, but in reality they were both there for each other and in a way thatâs equal rather than him playing âheroâ with her. When one of them was suffering, rather than leaving them to deal with it on their own like theyâre both used to, they said stuff like this and went out of their way to look out for each other.
I find it interesting how they similarly struggle with feeling like they have to be strong for those who rely on them. It makes sense theyâd see right through it in each other because they understand that pain. I love equals
#just some thoughts cause no one appreciates their dynamic for what it really is and it makes me sad#I just know they had soooo many late night talks about all this.#only time they felt comfortable being even remotely âVulnerableâ aka something they both hated lol#free them from the opposites attract trope allegationsđđđ#this is how you write real love#drv3#momoharu#kaimaki
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who will take the fall who of us is stronger youâll just want it more if you could, youâd have fought it but you know youâre not from the start, they knew you were wrong
#cvsd#mobwives#âchiefâ#solewin the boss#two divas who totally not hating each other.#RWHAHAAH. so excited cuz next cvsd post it will include more scene w dialogues of these two#complex characters where you dont know if your by their side or not ARE MY FAVORITE TO WRITE#ts4#sims 4#simblr#my sims#ts4 edit#sims 4 edit#also I love how ironic that âchiefâ is at the highest level in the criminal career n that rank is named âbossâ#while solewin is the perfect opposite which hes supposed to be the chief but mannn his ego cant live w/o being called boss#HEHEHE
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The twins must have slept all day because they did not want to sleep by bedtime! They wanted to play all night, but eventually, the fun tired out Louis who was starting to act quite the opposite of his brother.
#ts4#sims 4#ts4 gameplay#ts4 legacy#postcard legacy#postcard gen 3#renee reichmann#vincent kingsley#harvey kingsley#louis kingsley#the tummy time expressions đ¤Ł#i played around to get an idea of their behaviour and the quirks are so different! like hate bedtime and hate waking up#they are looking like opposites already and i love that AHAHAHA!!!
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Every part of Lena Luthorâs soul was screaming at her do not do this.
Yet there Kara Danvers
(Kara Zor-El, last daughter of the house of El, LIAR.)
stood, bedraggled and tear-tracked, hunched in Lenaâs doorway like a tiny kitten begging her for food. Lena wondered how she did it, how she made herself so small and unassuming, pathetic even. It was more than a change of clothes and hair and ripping off her glasses. She truly changed, somehow.
Changed to deceive. Changed to mock, changed to take without giving, to make Lena a fool.
(it was a cruel thought, a green thought, a Lex thought)
âIâve told you already, Kara. I donât want you here. Youâre a liar, you and all your little friends mocked me to my face and kept secrets behind my back.â
âIt wasnât like that.â
âI donât believe you.â
That relentless sad puppy look of hers softened even further.
âWhy?â
God above how Lena hated her. Hated her for daring to ask. Fuck you, thatâs why.
(nothing hurts more than a question that has no answer)
âI hate you, thatâs why.â
Kara swallowed hard, wringing her hands. She was dressed in her pajamas and had probably flown here, then landed and asked to come up like a normal person. Didnât she see that was the problem?
âI donât believe you.â
Lena threw up her hands. âOh fuck off with that, Kara. You lost your favorite toy, get over it. Iâm done with you. I moved on, you should too.â
âYou let me in. Iâve seen the real you. Youâre not vindictive. Youâre not cruel. Youâre a kind-hearted, selfless, compassionate person.â
âAnd you didnât,â Lena snapped, moving to close the door. âYou deceived me in the most fundamental way. You made me believe you cared for me and believed in me and saw the good in me. No one sees the fucking good in me, no one. No one did but you⌠and it was all a trick to keep an eye on the Luthor.â
âNo, no, I didnât-â
âYou didnât? Then why did you get James to spy on me? Whyâd you question my motives? Whyâd you keep lying to me after I proved myself over and over and over again? Because I was never good enough. It was never real.â
Kara rubbed her arms. âDo you really think I brought you into my circle of friends and held you in when you were sad and brought you to Thanksgiving and let you sleep over in my home to keep an eye on you?â
There was a heavy pause.
âThatâs fucking insane,â Kara snarled.
Taken aback, Lena flinched, half at the profanity and half at the anger in Karaâs voice.
âI admit it,â her voice broke suddenly, âI canât deny it. I canât just dismiss how you feel, I get that, but I didnât keep my secret from you because you were some kind of a project, Lena. I kept my secret because keeping it let me keep you. It was selfishness, pure and simple. I wanted my one friend who didnât see me as a superhero. I wanted⌠I wanted what I always want, things I cannot have.â
There was such agony in her voice that it cut through Lenaâs growing fury like a blade sinking into clay, stuck fast, hot in her chest.
âI knew Iâd lose you to it eventually. I didnât do it for you. I did it for me.â
Lena blinked a few times, feeling her resolve start to shake.
(another manipulation. she will do anything, say anything to get back in your good graces)
(to do what, Lex? to what end?)
âSay what you came here to say.â
âI kind of did, but I have one more thing to ask.â
âThen ask it.â
Kara swallowed. âI want to pretend.â
Lenaâs brow arched.
âPretend what?â
âJust pretend itâs like it was. For one night. Just give me one more night and I promise you I will never bother you again. Youâll never see me or Supergirl for the rest of your life.â
âYouâre on TV every day.â
âI meant in person.â
âAnd stop talking about yourself like youâre two different people.â
Kara sniffed.
âOkay,â she muttered.
Lena stood there for what felt like an eternity, screaming at herself not to do this.
(do it, itâll make it hurt more)
(me or her?)
Lena stepped aside.
Kara entered. She brushed at her eyes, adjusted her glasses, and walked into Lenaâs expansive, cold, dark penthouse.
As soon as she did, it was as if the light came back. It felt warm again, seeing her standing there. Having her here, in her cute little pajamas with her braid over one shoulder, those big eyes open and hopeful.
Lena closed the door.
âWhat do⌠what do you want me to do? Us to do?â
âWe could watch a movie, maybe get Chinese delivered. Have you eaten? I doubt youâve eaten.â
Lena hadnât, actually. She hadnât eaten today and had eaten only scraps yesterday and only because Jess insisted.
Kara touched Lenaâs side, a soft brush of fingers over her ribs, and winced.
âYouâre starving yourself,â she murmured. âOh, Lena.â
âKara-â
She already had her phone out and was ordering. Of course Kara had Lenaâs place still saved in DoorDash.
Lena grabbed her hand to stop her.
âMy treat.â
Lena fetched her own phone and put in a quick order- of course she had all of Karaâs favorites saved and of course she almost sent them to Karaâs address instead of her own.
âI ordered.â
Lena looked down at herself, wondering why the hell she was doing this. She was still dressed for the lab, so she retreated to her bedroom.
When she opened the closet her eyes immediately went to the maroon Midvale High School sweatshirt hanging at the far end of the rack, where it had been defying her for months. She should have burned the god damn thing but every time she reached for it, her hand pulled back of its own accord.
Not today. She let it fall over her, oversized for her frame and too long, and changed from slacks to leggings and pumps to bare feet, her toes curling from the cold hardwood floors.
Kara had already taken up position on the couch and had put on one of her beloved movies, one theyâd already watched together ten times and Kara had probably already seen ten times more. The Princess Bride.
It was a cheap ploy and Lena knew it.
It gouged at her anyway, leaving something raw in her chest. It ripped open every place sheâd forced to herself to scab over, broke every stitch. She killed the lights, halfway out of tradition and halfway to make sure Kara didnât see her fighting back the tears.
Neither of them spoke. They sat on opposite ends of of the couch. When the food arrived, Kara got up to get it from the driver and her absence was keen, the void she left behind ripping at Lena.
When she sat down again right next to her, Lena let her. She shoved a box of take out into Lenaâs lap and insisted she eat. They ate in silence.
Karaâs heart wasnât in it. She are aimlessly rather than shoving her food in her mouth and gobbling it all down in minutes as she usually did. She was pretending, hard.
Lena barely paid any attention to the movie. The food, normally seasoned and spiced to the point where she couldnât stand it and ate only to please Kara, was bland and tasteless in her mouth.
Kara, haltingly and hesitantly, put her head on Lenaâs shoulder, and winced when Lenaâs shoulders hitched. Why the fuck was she doing this to herself?
The worst part was that it didnât hurt. It felt like home. Even now after all she had done and all that Kara had done and said, feeling Karaâs sadness in her soft weight beside her was ripping her apart, the mad anger and rage swept aside by a torrent of grief she couldnât hold back.
If she was going to pretend she might as well pretend. She put her arm around Kara and leaned into her, nuzzling her nose into Karaâs soft hair, wondering if her alleged best friend ever noticed that Lenaâs favorite thing in the entire stupid fucked up world was a Kara Danvers hug and nothing was more precious to her than these times when she almost kissed the crown of Karaâs head.
How she ached.
The movie ended and Netflix began making suggestions.
âKara,â Lena murmured. âLetâs go to sleep.â
âIf we go to sleep the night will be over,â her voice was small, trembling.â
âI know, darling. Just let it be what it is.â
Kara nodded.
Lenaâs pulse was pounding as she headed for the bedroom, wondering how Kara had never picked up on how decidedly unplatonic it was to fall asleep in each otherâs arms. Neither spoke as they climbed into Lenaâs California King, a bed big enough to drown in, sinking beneath a goose down comforter, Karaâs body heat like old coals from a campfire.
For a moment they lay apart, and then slowly came together in their usual way, Kara forming herself into a protective cocoon to shield Lena from⌠from everything. Morgan Edge, her brother, alien shotgun weddings, random nuts with a gun and a grudge, everything but the greatest threat, her worst enemy.
âI have to go in the morning,â Kara whispered, âso I better say this now. You are not a monster, Lena. I never wanted to âkeep an eye on youâ other than to protect you and keep you safe. No matter what you do, I will never, ever give up believing in you, but if you want me gone, thatâs what I have to do. I love you so much it hurts me. I canât stand being apart from you but if thatâs what you need from me thatâs what Iâll give. I would do anything for you. If moving on is what you wantâŚâ
Kara took a ragged breath.
âAs you wish.â
Lena felt something crack inside her. An image filled her mind: Kara. Kara with graying hair, walking away, walking off into the sunset like the hero she was, and with someone else⌠with a child between them, a future, a homeâŚ
âGod damn you, Kara Danvers!â Lena snapped, shocked at the sound of her own voice. âGod damn you for making me feel this way! Do you have any idea what you did to me? I canât just turn it off, I canât stop feeling.â
âThis was a terrible idea,â Kara sighed. âI should have known better. Iâm just hurting you more.â
Kara began pulling away.
Lena threw out her arms, locked her hands behind the neck of the most powerful being on the entire planet, and yanked. Hard.
Their lips came together in a crash. The force was all Lenaâs, as Karaâs inhuman might yielded to her control. There were no words. Kara hesitated for a shocked moment before she kissed Lena back, looping her arms around Lenaâs waist.
This was no stolen glance, no innuendo, no coy hint. When Lena kissed Kara she made as if to devour her, and was mounting her before she realized she was doing it. Kara yielded, she always yielded even when Lena pinned her wrists to the mattress and clamped her legs around Karaâs hips and ground on her like a horny teenager.
She kept expecting Kara to sputter, to push back⌠to be fucking straight, to be brutally honest about her intentions, but there was nothing straight in the way Kara shifted to grind against her, or the way she twisted her hands free and slid them under the soft Midvale High Sweatshirt and skimmed them over the bare skin of Lenaâs back. There was no mistaking the intent of her kisses or the feral sound she made when the shedding of clothing began.
Lena must have shocked her at first, because when Kara recovered, she became a force of nature. Lena was quickly on her back and let out an excited yelp when Kara simply tore her leggings apart and bared her with a feral grin on her face before shedding her top with the same desperate energy.
When they came together, really came together, Lena was nearly overwhelmed. Kara was insatiable, relentless. Hokey cliches like âforce of natureâ were woefully inadequate.
She never ran out of stamina and she was gentle when needed and forceful when Lena wanted it, every stoke and motion and caress somehow perfect, and she sensed without needing to be told when Lena was ready to give rather than receive and yielded without a word.
They barely even had to talk, and when Lena was finally exhausted, Kara was there with kind touches and soft words and cared for her like the most precious thing in the world.
Lena fell asleep, deeply and soundly, and when she woke up with the sun on her skin and an empty bed she wondered if it was all an elaborate dream until she heard Kara humming halfway across the penthouse, grabbed the sweatshirt, and padded barefoot from the bedroom.
Kara was at the stove cooking breakfast and holding a spatula like a microphone, singing⌠a fucking Britney Spears song.
âI thought you were going to leave in the morning,â Lena sighed.
Kara froze.
âIâm glad you didnât. Iâd have to come get you.â
Kara turned to her with a billion watt smile.
âI was lying about leaving you alone.â
Lena walked over, arms around her waist, hugging herself. She cupped Lenaâs chin with a hooked finger and the casual intimacy of it made Lenaâs heart swell.
âI love you so much. I canât breathe without you,â Kara whispered.
Lena took Karaâs wrist and guided her hand to cup her cheek, nuzzling against the soft skin of Karaâs palm.
âStay?â
Kara nodded.
#supercorp#supergirl fanfiction#supergirl#supercorp fanfic#lena luthor#kara danvers#kara x lena#karlena#supergirl fanfic#ficlet#love confession#yet another love confession#angsty love confession#angsty supercorp#angst and waff#angst with an eventual happy ending#supercorp angst#angst and smut#angst with a hopeful ending#make up sexcorp#Kara is a Kryptonian sex god#angry sex turns into happy sex#sesbian lex#disaster bisexuals#the opposite of hate ain't love#healing the rift yet again
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I dislike how the concept of "comfort games" has been relegated to these cutesy and soft pastel and bright cheerful games where you just walk around aimlessly or fish/farm/whatever. Minimal gameplay in exchange for aesthetics and charm. More power to the people who love those games, but for me a comfort game is like a high-octane nightmare gauntlet where I have to be alert at every second less I fail and have to restart again
#sp-rambles#That or some gritty and dark game where it's just 98% story#Like I can't get into games like Animal Crossing I just love progression and immediate rewards#I hate decorating and organizing that's the opposite of cozy for me
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I think I like this lil life.
#the apothecary diaries#maomao#jinshi#apothecary diaries maomao#apothecary diaries jinshi#jinshi x maomao#theyâre in lesbians your honor#also fucking around with the gel pen brush#loves it but i hate using it lmao#it does the opposit of my fave brushes#where it goes thin when i press hard and i am inconfusion#anyways cant sleep
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I am of the full opinion that a Silmarillion adaptation of any kind can:
never adapt the whole book
never be a live action feature film or tv series
needs to forget the aesthetics of the lotr movies (as much as we love them)
in comparison. I do think a successful silm adaptation could be
a 2D - NEEDS TO bE 2D - animated film/series
a play (but like a 4 hr Shakespeare epic) - I do think one could get away with a musical but they would have to get super weird with it. HOWEVER it could also totally be an opera or ballet.
a single chapter/storyline of the book
I think the silmarillion is too weird to be a live action anything because movie production ceos are too concerned with marketability. this is where the forgetting of the lotr film aesthetic needs to come in. Lotr worked because they made those designs from scratch (like elves - from like art noveau and shit) rather than a lot of subsequent adaptations which were like "we need it to look consistent with lotr" so it got stale its so tired. go completely different cultural/historical period inspiration start from scratch we get some really cool stuff here on Tumblr.
single plotline - self explanatory. silm is too long and too broad with too many characters for a single adaptation. focus on making 1 good story rather than trying to tell 530200 shitty ones.
the 2d animation/opera/play thing comes in because THOSE MEDIUMS ARE ABLE TO GET WEIRD. They can stretch the limits of believability!!! they can get the weird singing, character vibes perfectly AND have crazy things happen to characters because they have much higher suspensions of disbelief. like u can have someone turn into a bird in a play using practical effects and rather than some poor overworked cgi artist doing an animorphs level job because they aren't paid enough to do a good one, u can have a puppet or a hectic costume. Also u can have hectic wigs please and thank you I want the most hectic devastating wigs for all of the elves (and dwarves). also opera/ballet costumes are so awesome they would do the elves justice.
anyway u got to the end of my silm adaptation fever dream agree or disagree I dont care.
#silmarillion#the silmarillion#silm#tolkien#jrr tolkien#I said what I said.#I want the most beautiful beaded costumes u have ever seen in your whole goddamn life#or the most beautifully detailed hand drawn animation#basically silm needs a labour of love LIKE LOTR#so you need to forget the lotr movies because U ARE NOT MAKING THE LOTR MOVIES ITS NOT GOING TO COME OUT LIKE THE LOTR MOVIES#this is not pj lotr hate#the opposite in fact#but the lotr movie spinoffs and poor imitations are so tired#im so tired of them#give me something new#completely different.#like the hectic silm fanart if you know what I mean#thanks for reading fevered rant pt 2.
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Whereâs that text post thatâs like âWilson is kind, gentle death and House is rough, painful lifeâ because first of all, GO OFF; second of all, I have more to add:
House is justice; Wilson is clemency.
House is harsh truth; Wilson is comforting lies.
House is abrasive idealism; Wilson is resigned realism.
House is spiky vulnerability; Wilson is velvet guardedness.
House is constructive cruelty; Wilson is destructive kindness.
House is focused passion; Wilson is diffuse romance.
House is a gleeful perpetrator; Wilson is a willing victim.
House is self-sabotage; Wilson is self-sacrifice.
#and that's not to say they are opposites#they are two sides of the same coin#and they often flip these roles#but only for each other#these kind of make it seem like i hate wilson but let me assure you i love him#perhaps too much#hilson#house#house md#house x wilson#hate crimes md
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Ectoberhaunt Day 13
Isekai: Old Hero New World
#i have Thoughts about Harbinger!Danny#bro is Very interesting in Aether bc he wants to go home#he and aether would prob get along rly well tbh#this danny is kinda bitter bc he's been separated from his family. but he can be a silly goofy guy occasionally#he and childe are besties. i declare this now. both love their families and want to protect them#also- abyss and ghost zone?? hmmmmmmmm#abyssal energy is ectoplasm... maybe?#idk#oooh that would be neat bc then danny is like the exact opposite of aether/lumine (with their full/light power)#danny has a fake cryo vision. bro doesn't really need a delusion but he can have an anemo one. as a Treat#(he wants to be Free of this world)#danny just wants to go home but no he gets dropped into the middle of snezhnaya smh#ALSO. back to the point of the post lol-#danny HATES dottore. but also the guy kinda reminds him of his parents (who he rly misses). it's very trauma-bond-y.#danny phantom#dp#ectober#eh 24#day 13#ectoberhaunt24#ectoberhaunt 2024#ectoberhaunt#(its rly late i know but i'm not stressing this yearâ¨ď¸)#(dottore is also equally fascinated in danny.but no way in HECK is danny gonna let him experiment. so dottore has to be Subtle about it lol)#genshin impact#scaramouche#combining my fixations đđ (always)
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Some scenes from Chp. 26 of A Human Condition, also known as Bill taking 2 steps forward and 8 steps back
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#gravity falls#book of bill#bill cipher#stanley pines#grunkle stan#a human condition#there was a lot I wanted to draw so I just drew a few scenes#heâs a little shit I love him#also totally forgot he dated the actual Bloody Mary#I would crash out too if my enemy got my ex immediately to fall for him#bill: mm stan has been the only person besides Mabel who knows my actual identity and has been kind to me#unlike ford who has been the direct opposite and is the reason I was handcuffed to him at all#but I still hate him so Iâm gonna forget all that and leave him to die horriblyâ¤ď¸ surely this will have no consequences#the lighting is dark causeâŚitâs dark there
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