#and got hit by my feelings instead

[poppliolover1]

So, while scrolling through Digiblr I came across a post showing this website that gives unique digimon prompts

So I thought, hey why not and created my own digimon based on this prompt I got

I really fell in love with him, he's just a little greasy guy, and yes I did make him into a good rookie for Ghilliedhumon on purpose, why do you ask.

Now that's out of the way, I need to say something important, and I didn't want to risk making a post that you could very well miss since I know we aren't mutuals here. First of all, the camp digimonth discord server really is filled with a bunch of wonderful people (with a correct appreciation for the best adventure character Joe) but the other day I said a really out of placed and insesitive joke that on recollection I never should have said in the first place, so for what it's worth, I'm really, really, really sorry @vidramon, I understand if you don't forgive me, heck I understand if I'm not allowed back in again, and while my time there might been short, it did motivate me to actually start working on sharing something I've been planning for the past two years. But if not, it's ok, and in retrospect, a server than insists on you having having to give feedback for every thong you post there is kinda oppressing, not even being able to post old art without giving more to something that might not even be there, or even be full or ships you don't like, which in my case are basically 99% of digimon fics, but that's mostly a problem with the fandom where everything has to be ship and or adventure verse focused, yes scrolling through AO3 is hell for me why do you ask. I went into more detail on this post sister post that you can find in the tags, or just moving a single post down in my blog.

The point is, even if I considered quitting for a single day when I had everything done days ago to post Grecimon because of getting kicked out because this reminded me of past experiences that I will not discuss and crying myself to sleep two nights in a row, I'm not going to. Because I wanted to do this, FOR ME, and if I have to run on pure spite if necessary, I will.

So no, I am not stopping my camp digimonth goals, and no one will make me, I don't care if the official blog doesn't even want, or even Refuses to reblog my posts, I'm still doing them, because in this world, sometimes the best selfcare possible is still posting something you love even if everyone hates it, because the opinion of others is a myth that needs to stop being thaught, COMPLETELY.

And when you mees up for real, you need to own up, and it bears repeating once again, Vidramon, if you're still reading this and didn't just hit the block button, I really am sorry, and I know it will never be enough, but if you're still willing to accept this Greasy jolly moth catterpillar, I'd appreciate it a lot, because even if it's sticky and drowses your limbs when you touch it and you shouldn't anyway, it still deserves a chance.

[lucabyte]

So does anybody else ever think about how Loop felt the need to demonstrate that the party's deaths wouldn't have any effect on the loops. I know I do but that's besides the point. Anyway I don't think Loop actually needs to bathe, they just like to feel included.

[reginaldubel]

its his day @sleep-nurse

[tomaturtles]

IT'S KAWOSHIN DAY!!! As well as the last day of Kawoshin Week :') It's been such a blast, gonna miss it when it's over

Kawoshin Week Day 7: Cuddling/domestic fluff! + Sleepover and Spinoffs (again)! Based on the Campus Apocalypse sleepover chapter ☺️

[thelien-art]

✨Him✨

What is he thinking about? You tell me

[spyromancy]

playful // shy

some little things drawn at different times from a pairing that resulted from a panfandom RP with my partner... i wanted to try drawing them after their piece here

[bitchfitch]

I've started playing Potion Permit, and so far it's one of my favorite games I've messed around with, but the most big brained move the devs made was giving you a dog on day 1, and then making that dog able to track NPCs and lead you directly to them no matter where they are in the town.

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

when I want to write something self indulgent to give me all the angsty and cuddly hurt/comfort feels but I can't because I end up feeling guilty because I'm seeking after feels that I feel in an inappropriate place because my mom told me one time when I was 15 that I shouldn't search that out or it's probably sexual sin but it confuses me because ALL the feels happen that way for me even if it's entirely platonic and nonsexual and so I don't know if it's okay to want to write to that because apparently all pleasure of any sort, even over platonic stories, is sexual or comes with a possibly probably sexual feeling and I also am having a hard time figuring out what's genuine conviction from God and what's just my anxiety/OCD/perfectionism/fear of failure

[u3pxx]

i want to have the time and energy again to draw more complicated illustrations. i want to draw drawings within drawings. i want to spend hours on carefully inking, i want to enjoy the rendering process. i want to go bonkers on a piece. hello, can anyone hear m

[evilartsociety]

my silly little guy i had to draw him

[petrow1tch]

They weren't lying, this psychological recovery journey got hands

[crossbackpoke-check]

Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

[meyerlansky]

i think the thing that bugs me most about The Clevencourse, which mostly only exists in my mind when i'm trying to write shit, is... he should be my favorite. stoic, snarky under the stoicism, has a violent streak he keeps very tightly under control because he's terrified of what it would make him, ridiculously repressed romantically/sexually, COMPLETE control freak, sharp as a tack and in a Numbers way specifically, not great with people on a one-to-one basis but understands how groups work and that it's important to know the people you interact with, shorter/smaller than the guy he doms the fuck out of. i should be ALL OVER HIM.

but the narrative doesn't actually give him opportunities to let out that violent streak, it doesn't put his internal tension on display, everyone around him fawns over him CONSTANTLY and he never seems uncomfortable with it but doesn't really do anything with it either. and then the fan reaction to him [on here, i'm not gonna get into the reddit crowd's Wrong Takes because they're just as annoying to me but in a different direction] is either "perfect woobie who can do no wrong and needs to be protected" or "complete and utter freak who outpaces everyone ever for kink and violence and callousness"

and like. neither of those move me. neither of those feel true to me. i am absolutely fucking CAPTIVATED by bucky, who is not at ALL my usual type, but like i've said in other posts, there's a fundamental tension in him between his EXTREME self-centeredness—he doesn't care that curt doesn't want to hit him, he doesn't care that crank is making valid points about the cathedral, he doesn't want to sit on the ground safe while everyone else is fighting—and the fact that he is STILL, EVEN SO, a fundamentally decent dude who cares about keeping people safe, who signed up for a dangerous job to help right nazi germany's wrongs BEFORE pearl harbor, who's the one to say "we SHOULD fold them in" about the tuskegee airmen when gale is like "i don't think anything about them," who rerouted the whole group—at least a dozen crews, 120 men—to keep one fort [piloted by someone he Really Really Likes, at MINIMUM] from going down over trondheim, who very obviously cares about people In The Abstract AND in the directly personal. it's that tension that makes him FASCINATING to me.

and it's not that gale DOESN'T have that tension! he has just as much of it IF NOT MORE, centered aroundthe fact that he Wants and categorically Will Not Allow Himself To Have. he WANTS to beat the shit out of the RAF guys, but lets curt talk him down because he Shouldn't Want To. he snaps at friedkin that they're gonna take the FW gunfire, and then right away is like "you all did such a good job" over the radio so he doesn't look like an asshole to the rest of the crew. he was GOING TO SHOOT THAT KID, and he SHOULD'VE, because it would have been WAY more interesting for him to have a single moment of rage-fueled vengeance that then haunted him for the rest of his fucking life, but he doesn't, because he has to Look Good In The Narrative.

like, curt and friedkin have like the ONLY interesting not-bucky interactions with gale BECAUSE they see that ugly side of him—curt zeroes in on his violent streak and encourages it in the pre-regensburg convo with the "we could do some real damage" as opposed to something more palatable like "we could make a big difference" or something else less aggressive. friedkin is like a kicked dog for the entire rest of the episode after gale gets in his face and won't look at him head on again. everyone else just sees Perfect Major Cleven, including gale, who never really seems to or deal with or even be angsted by his own tension, just sort of goes on acting like he doesn't have some nasty shit in him, and it's so. boring.

[satorugojoswiife]

What do you think about gojo ships

I feel like I'm pretty indifferent to most of them. This is super cringe of me, but whenever I fall super in love with a character I don't often like shipping them romantically with anyone. 💀 (im delusional I know)

It doesn't help that for some reason the jjk fandom (especially twt) is weirdly aggressive about ships. I know it isn't all the shippers and it's mostly just the loud minority, but seeing so much of the discourse has kinda put me off and I don't really engage much with the ships in the fandom except for rarepairs and selfships bc alot of the time those communities are more wholesome and cozy (if that makes sense LOL)

[fictionadventurer]

The only types of stories capturing my interest right now

YA fiction (with a weird interest in shlocky dystopian fiction)

Rereads

My retellings

Imaginary Book Recs and stories I haven't written yet

[shannonsketches]

something something foils moving in opposite directions Goku's always happy to seek and fight stronger opponents because he spent most of his life being the strongest guy in the room and Vegeta wants to be the strongest/is always exhausted to find stronger opponents because he spent most of his life having to navigate his survival around the whims of the strongest guy in the universe room and so Goku has a foundation of safety and stability and so spends his time craving challenge and adventure and Vegeta has a foundation of challenge and adventure and spends his time craving safety and stability and the overlaid section of their venn diagram is that the only way they know how acquire and maintain those things is through battle