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barabones Ā· 3 months ago
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I forget exactly where I saw the initial post asking for volunteers, but on July 10th, I reached out to the listed email. Jane, the organizer, got back to me right away and within an hour I was added in their discord.
Up until this point, I had been maintaining an average 8 ESims myself, so I already had experience checking in on them on a daily basis. The folks there helped me onboard with the spreadsheets for keeping track, and now it's very easy for me to catalog new ones I buy and record daily data usage. The whole process takes me maybe 20-40 minutes a day depending now on how many ESims actually need to be topped off.
Jane has been very up front with lots of the group's information, with frequent announcements about the groups current funds and amounts of daily ESims sent out. She and the others have been super helpful with getting funds to us when needed, and I've almost never had to actually spend any of my own money for any of this.
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In the time that I've been volunteering, they figured out how to run a Business account with the Nomad ESim company. Which means that now and then they can just send 15 or so ESims my way, and I just catalog them and send the QRcodes towards Mirna and the Connecting Gaza folks. No more wasting time with the purchasing process, while getting a bit of a bulk discount on top of that.
We also share updates on whatever brand of ESims are most needed. When folks on the ground tell us that one network doesn't seem reliable, we are able to switch over for a while until either the networking issue is fixed, or we all pressure customer service enough to replace them for us.
There's also lots of complaining about new UI updates an general website bugs. There's surprisingly a lot of them and it's good to know other folks are getting info from customer service when things go wrong.
In August they made a meme channel
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Anyways....
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Lets get into some stats for myself. In 2 months (July 10- Sept12) I have:
Send off 171 ESims
Maintained around 60 active ones
Topped up these active ESims 139 times
Spend over $6400 donated dollars
I have multiple power users who have burned through close to 100GB. 2 of them have broken 200GB. These are most likely being used as hot spots.
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Why am I sharing all of this? Mostly to show how easy it has been to make a marginal difference. I have helped at least 60 people stay connected with the outside world in just 2 months. Probably more if we assume some of the power users becoming hotspots for other folks. This is 20-40 minutes of my time a day, and I honestly regret not signing up to do this sooner.
I was specifically limiting myself to this workload because I wanted to test the waters. Those stats was me specifically not wanting to push myself and see what impact a normal person could make with 20 minutes a day. At this point I think I will be taking more advantage of Nomad's Tuesday discounts to really bulk up my numbers. It's pretty easy to buy 15 or so every Tuesday, and then send em over.
If you would like to join us in this endeavor, please reach out to Jane at cripsforesimsforgaza(at)gmail
We are specifically looking for people in European time zones, since a lot of us are in the Americas and that's quite a difference between us and Gaza. If not, that's no problem!
If you can't participate, that's totally fine, but please donate what you can! Folks like you are the ones who keep us going!
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I hope this information has been useful in some way. Like I said, I wish I had heard about this group sooner, with how easy it has been to do. I can track my direct impact of what my daily time is doing for folks, and seeing the data be used up a little bit more day by day gives me hope for everyone in Gaza. Thank you for your time.
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ninjagirlstar5 Ā· 3 months ago
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So, uh, I might've gone a little crazy last week and came up with a Kanade Concept rewrite. (And made some redesigns of IRL!Kanade and IRL!Hibiki to reflect that.)
SO, for context, if you've been following me for awhile (or just came across some of my posts in the past), you'd know that my friend and I have been playing through SDRA2 for fun and it's around the end of Chapter 3 that I started making posts mentioning certain segments of our reactions, feelings, and some jokes. And to say we hated it would be an understatement. But I've had asks where I went on a rant about Chapter 3 more than once, so I won't repeat myself here. If anyone hasn't seen that, you can find it here, and here.
At this point, we're at Chapter 6 and during one of our after stream chats in VC, my friend, @bittersweetbeet, suddenly brought up an idea that could've tied Kanade (and thus Chapter 3) into the main plot and that was this:
"What if Kanade was blessed with Divine Luck from Utsuro like Void? Like, she wasn't in on the plan, but the reason why everything went south for her is because her luck was running out and got screwed over in the trial because of that, and was more than willing to die because she'd prefer that over losing her Fortune. It wouldn't fix Chapter 3, but at least it'd explain how she got away with all those damn murders for so long!"
I'm kinda paraphrasing here since I don't remember the exact wording due to this idea being brought up in the voice channel. But that was essentially what they said and it drove me NUTS at the time. After all, it's been brought up that Utsuro tended to bless a bunch of kids that were the same/similar age as him during his travels out of boredom, and while we don't know a lot about Kanade and Hibiki's parents to know for certain if they were bad and good (personally, I interpret them as decent people but tended to play favorites with Hibiki and accidentally neglecting Kanade, which only worsens their issues even when they try to bring them together), we DO know that Hibiki tends to bully Kanade a lot and that alone can make for a difficult childhood even when you have parents that care about you. So, with a bit of timeline adjusting, Kanade coming across Utsuro when she was, ahem, down on her luck, and getting blessed by him after she vents about her problems can make sense as this is something he's done for awhile now. And it should be noted that not every kid he blessed with Fortune had the same level of dire straits, as many had different levels of Fortune which faded away at different paces. It's why Void lasted for as long as they did since their situation was the worst of the worst so their Fortunes faded away much slower while others either succumbed to fates sooner or lost their fortunes and survived but couldn't handle being back in the same state they tried so desperately to escape from that they just...well, you know. Not every person that was blessed with Divine Luck was going to be a good person or, hell, some people can end up getting worse with the Fortunes they were blessed with instead of becoming better (like Mikado). And so, we started chatting ourselves up about this idea and I really wanted to share it here on Tumblr that I asked if it was alright if I shared it on my blog and they gave me the go ahead. I didn't share it right away, but I was thinking over how to word the post while I was at work. Which is when I realize there were...a few problems with this idea, unfortunately. Mainly this since I brought it up in our rambles channel in the Discord server to get my buddy's thoughts on it, so I'm just gonna copy and paste that:
"...I've been trying to figure out how to word the idea of Kanade being blessed by Divine Luck and I kinda realized something: how would Kanade realize her luck is fadingā€¦when she's not a part of Void? Like, she's not in on the plan from the very start so she's been reverted to a [place] where she believes that she's fine and her luck is still running strong. And how that would be conveyed to the audienceā€¦
Like, I can believe Kanade could figure it out, even if I think how the writer LINUJ showed off her intelligence to be stupid, but I'm struggling [on] how to explain how she'd figure out that she ran out of luck? She'd be surprised that things have turned on her suddenly due to her state of being reverted back to a time where her luck is strong, but would she fully understand the context to the point that she'd rather die with her sister than lose what she already have?"
Like, I could've been overthinking on that. I could've had it so that a character comments that she was just hit with a wave of bad luck and Kanade goes, "Me? The most luckiest person ever? Never! (...unless-)" But I was really struggling to come up with an answer I was satisfied with at the time and even Bertie was like, "it's stuff like this that makes it so that the only option that would fix Chapter 3 is by rewriting the whole thing." Which is something I do agree with. This idea wasn't a complete fix to everything that's wrong with Chapter 3 anyways, especially when it comes to Kanade and how the writing on her character just sank it into the depths of hell. It was simply an explanation we both really liked.
And then Bertie went on to say, and I quote, "Tbh I think it would be more interesting if Kanade hated Hibiki deeply rather than love her. Itā€™d be cliche probably but itā€™s better than the weird incest-like shit we have going on here" end quote.
And I started off with a normal response agreeing and elaborating on the idea, like so:
"HONESTLY, yeah. It's better to just scrap the whole chapter and rewrite it from the ground up.
And yeah, I do agree that anything that's different than what we got in Canon is probably much much better. Although I would still want to keep the nuances of Kanade and Hibiki's status as victims of each other's toxicity. Hibiki is constantly bullying Kanade due to seeing how good Kanade is at a lot of things and is jealous of that but still cares and loves her as a sister even though she sucks at appreciating Kanade for who she is. Meanwhile, Kanade still loves her sister and willingly goes along with her bullying, going as far as to try and be meek and shy to appeal to her sister's dominant but cowardly ways but deep down she resents her for keeping her from doing things she likes even though she does genuinely enjoy spending time with her and gets jealous whenever other people get close cause it means that Hibiki won't bother to spend time with her. She often drives them away one way or another so she can have Hibiki to herself, even when nothing changes because Hibiki is her sister and she just wants her to love her and spend time with her (but not in the gross incest way and we're taking away the whole crazy serial killer thing, she's just her own level of toxic)."
And that's when I started spiraling into an gigantic ramble that lasted nearly an hour and thirty minutes (minus a dinner break) because my brain was in a creative mood that night. Enjoy my copy and pasted ramble (I won't italicize all of this to make it easier on the eyes cause if you know me by now, my writing gets very long + a bit of editing to make it a little more coherent):
"I still like the idea of Kanade being blessed by Divine Luck and being good at many skills because of it, and she's smart enough to realize that the boy she met long ago somehow changed her when she had openly vented to him about her problems the day they met (after giving him her umbrella to protect himself from the pouring rain, as she had ran away on a whim due to being fed up with her parents and her sister [at the time]). She's very grateful for what he's done for her, believing that the skills she now has can bring herself closer to Hibiki by being useful to her."
"But here's the catcher: her blessing doesn't work in the way she had hoped. Because surprise! Divine Luck has it's own set of rules despite being able to break reality as long as the chances aren't zero. Basically, Divine Luck can make you better at anything, get you anything, without having to go through the process of improving or skipping the steps that are needed to get the result, simply jumping to the result itself. However, out of everything it can change, from skills to getting someone shelter to just winning any kind of luck-based event, it cannot change a person's heart. And Kanade, despite having the skills that are "supposed" to bring her closer to her sister, only makes Hibiki even more jealous and she continues to bully her, going as far as to push her workload onto her now that she's so "good" at everything and proclaiming that she's just as good, if not better. Her blessing got her what she wanted but not what she needed in her case, unlike with the rest of Void, and she ends up paralleling Mikado as despite being blessed with Divine Luck, it did not make them better or improve their situation due to their own choices/how they used their blessing (Mikado because he constantly pursued Utsuro to the point committing crime after crime, Kanade because instead of standing up for herself and establishing her boundaries, she continued to support her sister no matter what, something that only ends up building the resentment in her heart). That's not to say that Hibiki isn't instigating most of the abuse, she is. But Kanade isn't making things better as she uses her skills to make herself seem like the better option in comparison to the people Hibiki wants to hang out with and get to know, even going as far as to scare them away to isolate Hibiki so she doesn't even have any options to choose from."
"And then, Chapter 3 rolls around and Hibiki starts to change, trying to be supportive of the group and take charge to help everyone get through the killing game. Itā€¦surprises Kanade, but she watches her sister change and grow, becoming more confident, cheerful, kinderā€¦
ā€¦And she realizes that she hates it.
She hates the thought of her sister changing. She hates the thought of her being kinder after everything she's done to her. She hates the thought of Hibiki growing closer to these people, becoming attached and happy without her, Kanade, her own sister.
She hates the thought of being left alone again. She hates the thought that Hibiki is going to leave her again.
She hates it, she hates it, she hates it.
She hates her.
But she loves her.
She wants her to be with her, forever.
So why won't she ever look her way?
Why, why, why?
Kanade is spiraling in her head, trying to keep up her shy, sweet side up but gritting her teeth the whole time as she watches. Even when Hibiki is being kinder to her, still making her usual jokes about her but is actually trying to prop her sister up a bit more, it's only because Sora and Setsuka had suggested her to be kinder, not because she wants to. At least, that's what Kanade thinks. She doesn't want to believe her sister is changing for the better, that she's able to change at all, that she's going to leave her behind for other people again.
And when Setsuka tries to reach out to her on the third dayā€¦Kanade finally snaps.
She tears into Setsuka, accusing her of stealing her sister away from her, for giving her ideas to be better when she can't, she should never be better than she already is because if she is, she'll just abandon her and leave her all alone. Her stupid, cowardly sister can't ever hope to be on her own, she always has to rely on her, HER, not anyone elseā€¦and definitely not SETSUKA!
And before Kanade knew it, she lunges at Setsuka.
The scuffle was shortā€¦but the result was predictable."
"To elaborate a little bit more on Setsuka, she's was still pretty distant from the group as she was focused on doing what she needs for Nikei and stuff. But after Hibiki starts to break down a little and reaches out to Setsuka for help, she commits herself to stabilizing the group once more, supporting Hibiki and telling her and everyone else that she has something to tell them. But Kanade, watching this entire scene, only starts to become even more on edge as Hibiki, once again, reaches out to someone else instead of her. Despite trying to "change," Hibiki had so easily broken down once more, crying and begging for help, relying on another person for support and to "fix" everything for her. And that convinces Kanade that Hibiki can't change, she won't EVER change, and she bitterly goes to bed. But Setsuka notices Kanade's displeasure and, not knowing why she's unhappy, decides to take matters into her own hands and have a one-on-one talk with her to see if she [can] help. Unfortunately, this decision backfires on her hard, resulting in her own death.
Now, unlike in canon, Kanade panics as this was the first time she's EVER committed a murder before. Sure, she's harassed, blackmailed, and even threatened people that tried to get close to Hibiki before with violence, people that would only take her away from her. But she didn'tā€¦she neverā€¦she didn't mean to do this! But, no, Setsukaā€¦No, no. Why should she regret this? Why should she apologize?
Setsuka was getting in the way. Setsuka was going steal her sister away.
And Hibki was still the same as she ever was. Not being "better," not ever "changing." She was still Hibiki, the bully, the sister, the bratty, snappy, fussy older sister that demands respect despite her cowardly, weak self. A sister that Kanade deeply lovesā€¦and hates."
"But she won't let her die her. She'll escape with her, a certain "ritual" should allow her to escape with her as it's an option for the blackened on the third island according to Monocrow. If she goes through with that, she can escape with her sisterā€¦and make sure she'll never change again.
But if she losesā€¦then she'll die. She'll dieā€¦
ā€¦and she'll take Hibiki with her. For she doesn't deserve to live without her.
Kanade goes through with the ritual as fast as she could, relying on her skills (and thus her luck) to succeed in framing Hibiki and nearly gets away with it.
But, unbeknownst to her due to her current memories, Kanade's luck has been dwindling and since her situation wasn't as dire as Void's, hers has been fading away far faster than them. And ends up making a few mistakes that seem innocent enough until it all starts to pile up, with one last conclusive evidence fucking her over and revealing her to be the true culprit.
Kanade is seething when she's caught, her ego bruised and lamenting how the hell she lost, with Syobai dryly stating that her luck has run out. Kanade laughs, saying that can't be true. She's always been lucky! She's always been able to get things her way, even when she has no friends outside of Hibiki. This tips both Mikado and Nikei off that, hey, wait a minute, is sheā€¦? Of course, neither of them speak up on it due to keeping their own plans close to their chest. Everyone asks her why, why did she do it, with Hibiki grabbing her sister, begging her why she would do something like this, why would Kanade frame her of her best friend's death? A death that she caused?
And Kanade, after years of bottling up her own resentmentā€¦finally blows up at Hibiki."
"She tells her off for her bullying, of her neglecting to pay attention or spend any time with her unless she wanted something from her, and pushing all the things she doesn't want to do onto her. She proclaims that she had ALWAYS hated everything she's done to Kanade, wishing she could've done anything else, wishing that, for once in their goddamn lives, that they did something she wanted to do, not because Hibiki had chosen it. All Kanade had ever wanted was her love and affection, but she never appreciated her or all the things she's done for her. [She even went] as far to change herself to try and appeal to her sister and her wants and needs. And yetā€¦despite everything, she still loves her. She loves the times when they would dress up together. She loves the times when they would perform together. She loves it when Hibiki actually cares for her. She loves her, because she's her sisterā€¦
And because Setsuka was getting in the way of that, she had to get rid of her. Just like everyone elseā€¦!
Everyone freezes when Kanade admits that out loud. She pauses when she realized what she said, but instead of apologizing [or even denying it], she doubles down. She admits that she drove away their childhood friend, she admits to spreading false rumors about their teacher and getting him fired, she admits to falsifying a hurtful rejection to a guy Hibiki was getting close to and pretended to be her so that she can ruin their chances of getting together when he finally confessed, she harrassed, blackmailed, threatened people that got closeā€¦and Setsuka was just another person on a long list of those that got in the way. She justā€¦didn't mean to kill her. It justā€¦happened. But Kanadeā€¦doesn't care about that. She doesn't care about anything anymore. It's apparent that her luck ran outā€¦and now she's going to die.
But she's not dying alone. She refuses to die alone.
[After all, they're] sisters, rightā€¦? It's only right that they stay together till the bitter end, right?"
"Hibiki tries to back away, but Kanade grabs her just as Monocrow drags her into her execution, bringing her with them."
"The execution goes almost exactly the same but Kanade is doing her damndest to make sure Hibiki dies with her, with Hibiki trying to escape. And it seems like it was going to happenā€¦until Hibiki beats the hell out of her with a microphone, crying and wailing for all the people Kanade had hurt in her name, demanding why, why, why. Kanade can only answer this:
"It was ALL for you. You and you alone."'
"Hibiki drops the microphone, backing away from the sister that was so possessive of her, in her hatred and love.
And then she runs away, leaving Kanade all alone.
Monocrow doesn't stop her, for this execution was only made for Kanadeā€¦and seeing her despair as she finally loses the one thing she had tried so hard to grasp onto slip away from her was enough for him to pull the lever, the platform underneath Kanade falling and killing her.
By the time Hibiki has made it back to the trial grounds, her gait is slow and unsteady, hugging herself as she stares down at her feet, processing what had just happened. What her sister had done. What she had done to everyone she knew. What she had done to Setsuka and Hibiki herself.
Why she had done it.
She had done it for her.
She had done it to keep Hibiki to herself.
She had done it because she both loved and hated Hibiki.
And the people that had been hurt because of Kanadeā€¦was because of her. Because of Hibiki. Because of all her bullying and her selfish wants, and because she didn't treat her like she should've treated her as a sisterā€¦! Because she's a horrible, awful person that hurt her own family until it was too late, her best friend dead, her sister, dead! All because of herā€¦!!
Hibiki falls to her knees, going into dissociation as everything that she ever thought she knew and was normal shattered like glass."
"Hibiki, for the rest of the killing game, blames herself for what Kanade has done, but with Sora and co.'s help, she's able to rationalize that yes, what she did to Kanade was horrible and none of this may have happened if Hibiki had just bonded with her sister instead of bullying herā€¦but Kanade had also made her own decisions, alienating Hibiki's friends and support from her to try and isolate her so she can try and force her to rely on her and her alone. Hibiki had done a lot of wrong that she probably can't ever make up now that Kanade is dead, but that doesn't excuse the awful actions Kanade has done either as many people were hurt from her own actions, one even losing his job and others probably traumatized from what she did to them. They were both toxic to each other and so long as neither of them were changing, that cycle was only going to continue until something broke between themā€¦and this just so happened to be it. It's just horrible that it also ended in Setsuka's death alongside Kanade's, who was just as much a victim as she was a perpetrator."
"As for the reveal in Chapter 6, I was thinking of two options for Hibiki and Kanade's relationship:
The two of them, despite years [of] staying together as sisters and as a part of Melody Rhythm, only ended up falling apart as their toxicity turned their head as one of Kanade's past victims, their childhood friend, decides to finally come out and reveal everything Kanade has done to her and other people, even providing evidence of what she did. And the moment Hibiki found out about it, a public argument breaks out between them and Kanade finally spills out everything about her feelings on Hibiki, which only hurts both of them as Kanade had tried so hard to isolate Hibiki from other people while Hibiki had only hurt and bully her sister out of jealousy for years. But this? This was enough for Hibiki to stand up and go, "We're done here." And she leaves, cutting ties with Kanade for the shit she's done to others but also left reeling at the revelation of what her bullying and abuse had done to her sister. Was thisā€¦her fault? She wasn't sure. But she knew [she] had to make things right somehow, even if it's only for herself, reflecting on her behavior and reaching out to those that were hurt by Kanade, apologizing for everything that had happened even though it wasn't her fault that she chose to do the things she did and tried to make it up to themā€¦if they want her, at least. [Meanwhile,] Kanade is PISSED that her sister left her, who went as far as to block her from her phone and even ending their contract as Melody Rhythm as she's left to deal with the fallout of the media bashing her for what she's doneā€¦but as time went on, Kanade is able to pick up the pieces and strikes out on her own, telling herself that she doesn't need Hibiki or the people that criticizes her for what she's done. She can do this by herself! She never openly apologizes, but she never says outright that she's happy with how things had turned out either, despite getting her career back on trackā€¦eventually."
"And then the Tragedy happens, they lose their parents, and one of two things happen.
Either 1.) the Tragedy brings them back together, with them starting off very reluctantly working together to do charities to help those in need, only to slowly and carefully rebuild their relationship while trying very hard not to fall back into bad habits as Hibiki admits that yeah, she's done a lot of horrible things to Kanade and she IS sorry for thatā€¦but she won't let Kanade hurt anyone anymore. She's trying very hard to be patient with her sister, as they know the Tragedy is a horrible thing to go through, they even lost their parents from itā€¦but if they want to make things work, then something has to change between them, even if Hibiki is the only one taking the initiative FOR the change. Kanade is very reluctant to admit that she was EVER in the wrong for what she didā€¦but as they continue work and bicker over the concerts they put together, their different ideas colliding but somehow coming together with the help of their coordinator, they start toā€¦actually bond again. They start to talk things out, Hibiki is actually trying to show interest in her hobbies and the things she likes, and while she can never bring herself to like the same things she does, she's trying to be respectful and give her the time of day this time. She's trying to make things right for her, so long as Kanade never does the things she did again. And while Kanade doesn't like the same things Hibiki does, it's still a bond Hibiki is trying to nurtureā€¦and it makes Kanade question if what she did was ever necessary, that if she had just stood her ground, let Hibiki form her own relationships while searching for her own friends that she can rely [on] like the ones she had nowā€¦then maybe none of this would have happen. Maybe they could've remain as sisters, forever, if she just accepted their differences and tried to break away and do her own thing, while letting Hibiki grow as a person [as I think if Hibiki was allowed to bond with other people, she would've grew out of her bullying and become a better person, but because she never had the chance or had people that would stand up to her and let her experience the consequences of her own actions, she never grew out of that mindset as she was never put in her place before]ā€¦
[And then the killing game happens, reverts them back to their teenage selves, and they start their toxic cycle all over again until one of them literally kills and gets executed for it.]"
"Or 2.), Kanade and Hibiki remain separate, as not even the Tragedy and the death of their own parents can bring them together. Their parents funeral, one they tried to arrange anyways, only escalates into another argument, with Hibiki changing as a personā€¦but Kanade did not. She still feels entitled to be Hibiki's one and only sister, her one and only support, and Hibiki recognizes that, deciding that it was safer that they stay separated as she NEVER wants to risk anyone else she loves coming to harm thanks to Kanade. The two part ways, with the both of them doing their own separate charity events, with Hibiki proclaiming that Kanade Otonokoji is not her sister, [not anymore], while Kanade proclaims that Hibiki Otonokoji will always be her sister, and refuses to acknowledge the fact that she had been disowned and will continue to be disowned for the rest of their lives."
"Either way, Hibiki is depressed to realize that their future together was never forever, and Hibiki had lost her sisterā€¦one way or another."
And that's it! That's the concept rewrite, plus the sprite edits since Kanade and Hibiki are no longer together as sisters and as a band outside of the Neo World Program, so their appearances reflect on that as they pursue their own solo careers. They're no longer trying to match each other, and Kanade pursues her own rock and metal music.
Oh, and while I was copying and pasting this, I had an idea that Kanade's relationship with Sora could be interesting as she's the only one that Kanade is actually okay with getting close to Hibiki...because Sora shows interests in both of them in their FTEs. She talks to Hibiki in private about her treatment of Kanade and even asked Kanade herself if she was okay as she genuinely cares about her just as much as she cares about Hibiki. This surprises Kanade as no one has ever bothered to look her way before, they always pay more attention to Hibiki than herself. And Sora makes it clear that she's genuine about this, asking her if there's anything she can do to make things better for Kanade when Hibiki is defensive about her actions. It makes Kanade feel...seen, for once in her life, and she actually likes that. So she allows Sora to get close, so long as she promises to continue being her friend, too. It's why Sora succeeds in befriending both twins while Setsuka ended up getting rejected by Kanade in the worse possible way: Setsuka unintentionally added to Kanade's insecurities by focusing mostly on Hibiki and overlooked Kanade's needs as well. She's not doing this out of ill-will, far from it. It's just that she recognized that Hibiki is a little weaker in her mental strength and her breakdowns were far easier to notice while Kanade was able to keep a cool head most of the time. So Setsuka prioritizes on supporting Hibiki first and foremost, thinking that Kanade can handle herself fine on her own. She's not completely wrong...but she's not right, either. By the time she finally notices that Kanade is hurting and reaches out to support her, it's already too late as she's finally reached her breaking point and snapped, which resulted in her own death. Just a little something to tie this whole thing off.
#SDRA2#Kanade Otonokoji#Hibiki Otonokoji#Super Danganronpa Another 2#SDRA2 Spoilers#sprite edit#Star's Art#look I won't pretend that people like canon!Kanade can't exist - me and my friend both know that#the problem is what's the POINT in making Kanade into a serial killer that's turning her sister into a puppet that it serves the narrative?#Is it meant to be foreshadowing and how that's exactly what's happening to Yuki - so he can be broken down and be replaced with Utsuro?#if so then it's not done very well since it's barely touched upon - let alone never ever called back to it ONCE - to be proper foreshadowin#And it even costed a character her own development for the sake of a twist that's nothing more than shock value - losing what could've been#-a really good character/concept in the process#and the reason why Hibiki's arc up to that point was so effective was BECAUSE she's done bad things and mistreated her sister so often#it gave us a reason to see her grow as a person because she's immature and flawed. this arc would have not worked if Hibiki was softer-#-or kinder at the start. And we just...lost that before it could develop even further.#so my approach was basically take out all the serial killer BS (and heavily implied incest) and tone down a fuck ton of Kanade's actions#She's still a toxic person but has been hiding her awful behavior for years in an attempt to keep her sister tied down to her#and just not excusing any of Hibiki's past actions or Kanade's own actions either
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spirit-girl-nijisanji Ā· 1 year ago
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I'm sorry, I've been distant... & Don't talk about her like that!
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āž¼ Pairing - Ike Eveland & Luca Kaneshiro x Fem!Reader (seperately)
āž¼ Content - Angst/hurt to comfort, mentions of insecurities, established relationships, Ike being a soft boy and Luca being well... Luca <3
āž¼ āš ļø Please remember I only write for the personas you see on your screen. I do not and will not write for the people behind the models. Please also remember that behind the models there are very real people with very real emotions. Please be respectful towards our beloved Nijisanji EN livers and do your best to separate the real people from the persona reflected on your screen. Thank you so much and enjoy the story āš ļø
āž¼ Summery; Overworking and snapping on you causes some issues... ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ā™”ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ā™”ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ā™”ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦
Ike Eveland
āž¼ You are one of the only solo vtubers within Nijisanji EN. You debuted as Kitsune vtuber brought from another world to watch over young children and grant luck to those who deserve it. You had been a big hit within Niji, the other talents and you got along very well and you ended up bonding deeply with a certain novelist.
The collabs you did with Ike were always full of fun and laughter, it wasn't long before the shipping began within the quilldren and your fd/n (fandom name). You and Ike always just claimed to be friends but behind the scenes, there was something much more going on. You and Ike had began dating after two months of you being Nijisanji.
Everything was going amazing in your eyes, you trusted Ike with your life and he trusted you with his. There was no trust issues and he had been helping you through so many struggles. You had always been insecure about yourself but he made you feel beautiful and loved.
You and Ike had been dating a year when you moved to live with him permanently and you loved it. A very fond memory of yours was how your friends found out about you and Ike; he had been in a discord call with the rest of Luxiem, you two hadn't told anything about your relationship yet. Not realizing he was unmuted in the call, you had come into his room to bring him a plate of caviar toast.
" Babe, here's your snack! I figured you would be hungry. " you beamed walking over to his desk and setting down the plate before giving him a kiss on the cheek.
The moment the word Babe left your lips, Ike froze. Realizing he hadn't been muted and the chatter from his genmates had completely stopped.
" IS THAT Y/N?! " the voice of the bri'ish detective rang out in your ears and you two froze seeing Ike hadn't muted himself and you just outted your relationship to his friends.
You and Ike planned to tell them, just not yet but it was a little too late..
" Hah.. Hi guys. " you spoke sheepishly. Multiple voices erupting into questions about when you got together, why didn't you tell them sooner.
After that day, the rest of Niji EN knew about your relationship and it was also revealed to the fans too, by you and Ike of course, which was met by a lot of positivity which warmed your heart.
But.. as of late, Ike seemed to always be shut in his streaming room. You hardly saw him anymore and he hardly ever slept in your shared bedroom. You had started to get concerned about him but anytime you tried to talk to him, he would wave you off and say that was busy and didn't need the distraction.
The confrontation that led to the current situation was when you had finally had enough of him avoiding you and being locked in his office all day, was the day he snapped at you;
You opened his door to see him hunched over his desk working on collab and stream ideas as well as a new novel, the dark circles under his eyes evident. You were worried sick so you walked over and you spun his chair around to face you, only to be met by Ike's irritated green eyes,
" Y/N I told you that I was busy and not to come into my office didn't I? " he said in a tired but frustrated tone
" I know but Ike you've been locked in this office for days, I hardly see you anymore. It wouldn't kill you take a break. " You retorted, worry etched on your face
Ike let out an irritated sigh, he looked up at you and brushed your hands off his chair turning back to his desk to continue his work,
" Y/N I am busy please leave my room. "
You glared at him and grabbed the back of Ike's chair and started dragging it to his door before he shot up out of his chair and grabbed onto your wrist, his green eyes now glaring down at you angrily before yelling,
" Y/N I SAID I'M BUSY! " he snapped gripping your wrist
" I CAME IN BECAUSE I'M WORRIED IKE! " You snapped back
" NO! YOUR GETTING IN MY WAY! " He snapped, not registering that what came out of his mouth
Your eyes went wide, feeling your eyes watering, the tone of his voice caused you to flinch before you ripped your wrist out of Ike's grip and you rushed out of his room, slamming the door behind you, leaving Ike standing in his room. You sprinted into the shared bedroom you shared with Ike, slamming the door and locking the door before your back hit the door and you slid down to the floor and curdled up, hugging your knees and burying your face in your knees. The tears that had come up in your eyes now began to slip down your cheeks.
Those intrusive thoughts started to creep up, 'is he getting tired of me?', 'Am I really getting in his way?', 'Why is he still with me?', 'I'm not worth his time..' you sat in the dark in the dark room trying to calm down. But now you felt you weren't good enough for to be with Ike. Maybe you were really getting in the way.
You spent 2 weeks after he finally finished with his work ignoring him. He noticed immediately. He tried to talk to you and apologize for his actions.
" Ƅlskling.. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean anything I said.. Please talk to me. " Ike followed you around the house trying to get you to talk to him. But you ignored him.
He figured it was time to give you space so he did. He constantly noticed your spiral. All the confidence you once had, was gone. He knew it was his fault for saying what he said. But it all came to a boil when he found you sitting on the kitchen floor at 1 am in tears,
" Y/N?! Are you okay? " he asked, concern lacing his voice as he dropped down to your side and pulling you into a tight hug.
" Why are you even with me.. I know I'm always in your way! " you said starting to fight against his hug however he refused to let go, he hugged you tight. Keeping you tight in his arms. Now whispering to you, telling you that he loved you and he never meant anything he said.
You cried into his shoulder as you listened to him tell you over and over again that he loved you and he thought you were perfect to him. ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ā™”ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ā™”ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ā™”ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦ź’·ź’¦
Luca Kaneshiro
āž¼ You were a new nijisanji liver that came into nijisanji with a new wave, xsoleil along with Doppio Dropsythe, Hex Haywire, Ver Vermillion, Kotoka Torahime and Meloco Kyoran. The first person you had met when you joined Nijisanji was the one and only Luca Kaneshiro.
When you finally started doing livestreams regularly, most of your collabs ended up being with the mob boss. You adored his Lucubs and you knew he adored your fans. Your livestream collabs with Luca were always filled with chaos and laughter along with Lucubs and your fans saying they wish you and Luca would just get together already. You and Luca playfully flirted back and fourth all the time, well you flirted with Luca and he wouldn't pick up on it.
It was the one year anniversary from your debut and you were doing a collab playing Valorant, Xsoleil VS Luxiem. The teams had switched up after the first 4 rounds, now you, Luca, Doppio, Shu and Hex were on a team against, Vox, Ike, Mysta, Kotoka, Meloco and Ver. The round started and it was all going smoothly until you made a flirty remark towards Luca and it completely went over his head. After being taken down by Ver, you turned to read some of the superchats that came in, thanking them one by one before one completely stopping, silently reading one and you felt your heart completely shatter;
Superchat; Luca'sCape221: Seriously stop making advances towards him. He doesn't like you! Like damn. Why haven't you graduated yet, why are you still here?
You were silent for a good few minutes before the voice of Doppio snapped you out of your trance,
" Hey, VT/N (Vtuber name), You okay? " He asked making you jump before speaking,
" What? Oh um yeah I'm fine Dopi! " you replied quickly, " I have to take a quick bathroom break! " you quickly added before muting and running off to the bathroom.
~ NO ONE'S POV ~
Doppio thought it was odd that you just ran off, so when both he and Luca were killed, he started talking to Luca,
" Hey Luca, do you mind checking on VT/N's stream, she went silent while reading superchats. I think something happened. " he told the blond haired mafia boss who took action almost immediately. Turning on your stream and reading through before finding the superchats that followed with many nasty comments.
Seeing the nasty remarks from multiple people about you made his blood boil. He had only recently found out about your actual feelings and he felt the same he just didn't know how to tell you. When the match was over, he asked everyone to wait for a moment until you got back so he could say something.
~ Your POV ~
You spent a good long time in the bathroom in tears, the words from the superchat bouncing around in your mind. You tried to compose yourself so you could rejoin the collab, before you pulled up your stream and looked at the chat, seeing the flood of nasty remarks coming in, you broke down again.
After a moment, you decided to return to stream. Putting your headphones on and unmuting yourself as you spoke saying you were ready for the next game, internally groaning hearing the shaking in your voice when you spoke. Before anyone could say anything else Luca spoke up,
" Actually I wanna say something before we continue, it's important. " he spoke and everyone went silent so Luca could speak.
" Okay so, while VT/N was gone on her bathroom break, I looked at her chat. I wanna say that I am absolutely disgusted by how many nasty comments there were about her. For your information, I do happen to like her so let's shut that down right now. " He spoke in a very stern tone,
The group went completely silent, you didn't even notice that tears started to fall once again listening to Luca rant and scold those who left nasty comments in your chat.
" I do not want to see any other nasty comments like that in her chat again and I will be checking. If I see so much as one, you'll be banned by ME personally. " the normally bubbly blond said, remembering you had made him a mod in your chat. The comments filled with comforting words from both your own fanbase and Lucubs. You sniffled, catching the attention of your teammate, Shu.
" Hey, don't cry VT/N.. We got your back. " He told you in a soothing voice followed by the comforting words from your other friends and genmates. Through the chaos, you heard your phone beep, looking down, you looked at the notification and saw Luca's name;
Discord chat: Lucar Kaneshiroe: Hey, I meant what I said. I do really like you. VT/N: I... really..? Lucar Kaneshiroe: Yeah! Hey, I'm gonna have you fly up to see me so we can go on a proper date! :3
You felt your cheeks heat up while reading the messages,
Discord chat: VT/N: Y...you really don't have to do that Luca, I could pay my own way to see you! Lucar Kaneshiroe: Nope! I'm gonna pay for you to come and spend a couple weeks! " VT/N: There's no talking you out of this is there? Lucar Kaneshiroe: Nope! VT/N: Well okay but um.. we're not done with the collab Luca Lucar Kaneshiroe: ... SHIT!
You turned back to the collab, both you and Luca apologized for going silent and the collab continued, every time you noticed a nasty comment come up, it disappeared just as fast as it popped up. And each time a chat from a certain someone popped up;
Luca Kaneshiro [NIJISANJI EN]: Not today satan! VT/N IS POG! Don't tall about her like that!
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I hope you like it~! I dunno if it's as good as it could be but I did my best~!
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Chapter 7 - 50-50 Grind
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Previous Chapter - Masterlist - Taglist
Pairing:Suguru Geto x Female Reader,Ā Choso Kamo x Female Reader
Summary: We get into the mind of Choso and find that his cool, calm demeanor may be nothing more than an illusion when it comes to reader.
Warning: Smut, Oral Sex (reader receiving), Oral Sex (reader giving), Choso being super sweet, Choso being super nasty, Cumshot, Oral Cumshot, Cum Swallowing, Very Slight Cumplay (Choso), Jealousy, Jealous Behavior, Vaginal Fingering, Handjob
Suguru Art:Ā YuOekk
Choso Art:Ā @DmD_0_03
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A/N: Chileeee THE WRITER'S BLOCK THE WRITER'S BLOCK!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! I hope everyone had an amazing (and safe) new year! In 2023, I'm going to try not to lie so much about when I'll be updating so instead, I just won't say anything! DLFKJSDKF
Enjoy the new year and this new chapter!
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The sounds of cash registers beeping and patrons conversing amongst themselves fills the air. Itā€™s busy this afternoon in the supermarket. Itā€™s a good thing. Choso enjoys company, enjoys the normalcy of simply shopping for groceries. He doesnā€™t get the opportunity to do it much during competition season and he doesnā€™t particularly mind the hustle and bustle. Even though he draws attention to himself with his face tattoos and tired eyes, he finds comfort in being around people.
Choso glances down at his phone, the way too long shopping list nearly making his eyes cross as he reads through. Youā€™re coming over for dinner with Choso and his brothers tomorrow night and apparently everything on this list is absolutely essential (according to Yuji). He grabs a few carrots as listed from the vegetable display, tucking them away into a bag before placing them in the basket hanging from his arm. He moves on to look at the herbs noted on his phone. Heā€™s not exactly sure what all of these ingredients will become. Heā€™s not the one cooking dinnerā€“ Yuji is.Ā 
Heā€™d volunteered out of sheer excitement.Ā 
ā€œChosoā€™s bringing someone home?! That never happens,ā€ Yuji teases. Heā€™s stretched out on the floor in the living room as he reads through a manga.
ā€œWill you ever just call me big brother?ā€ Choso sulks on the couch. ā€œIt hurts my feelings when you just call me by my name.ā€
Yuji ignores him. ā€œWhatā€™s she like?!ā€
ā€œReally sweet. Pretty too. Like, really pretty. She photographs for a skate magazine. Thatā€™s how we met.ā€
ā€œWow! She seems so cool.ā€
ā€œShe is.ā€
ā€œIā€™m so excited! Oh! Iā€™m gonna cook! Iā€™ve been wanting to try this new recipe out.ā€
Choso smiles, thinking about you. He thinks youā€™re beautiful, smart, funny and talented. Your photos surprise him whenever you let him get a peek. How can you make a simple trick heā€™s seen done hundreds of times look different and better every time? Youā€™re passionate. He likes that about you. A lot.
The only thing about you that Choso dislikes is the dead weight attached to you named Suguru Geto. He tries really hard not to let it bother him, but he doesnā€™t get it. At first, he didnā€™t mind so much. When youā€™d told him about your little ā€œsituationshipā€ with Suguru, that didnā€™t matter to him. Heā€™s never been the jealous type anyway. But the more Choso got to know you, the more Suguruā€™s presence in your life began to irk him.Ā 
How was he to know heā€™d end up feeling this way? He had no idea of knowing how serious heā€™d become about you. Or how quickly heā€™d become serious about you. He figured youā€™d come to your senses sooner or later, see who the better choice was. But Suguru was still sticking around like an annoying rash you couldnā€™t get rid of.Ā 
But he wonā€™t get into that with Yuji right now.
ā€œSheā€™s great. Iā€™m excited for you all to meet her. Hopefully everyone is on their best behavior,ā€ Choso murmurs, face serious.
The slight warning in Chosoā€™s tone makes Yuji sit up. ā€œHey! Esoā€™s the asshole. Worry about him. Me and Kechizu will be sooooo nice.ā€
Choso nods, a small smile playing on his lips. ā€œOkay, good. Iā€™m really nervous so thatā€™s good to hear.ā€
Choso was glad Yuji volunteered to cook since he loves doing it so much. Otherwise, heā€™d be ordering takeout. Kechizu talks too much and spits when he speaks, so he was banned from cooking a long time ago. Eso sweats so much, Choso fears heā€™s eaten the strange smelly goop that forms on his back at some point in time. He was banned, too. Choso canā€™t cook to save his life, so he sticks to making money, ordering food and keeping a roof over everyoneā€™s head. Itā€™s only when Yuji came to live with them, that the brothers had experienced a real home cooked meal.
It was delicious. And while Choso doesnā€™t insist Yuji makes dinner often, Yuji enjoys doing so. Choso appreciates that his baby brother uses his cooking skills as a way to bring the family together when time permits.
He sighs as his eyes scan over the items in the shopping basket. Heā€™s almost finished, which is a relief to him. He wants to get back home to clean up for tomorrow. He hopes the dinner goes well, that you like his brothers and that his brothers like you.
After grabbing the last ingredient on the list, Choso waits in the checkout line to pay. He wonders what youā€™re doing. Youā€™ve been busy since the last time he saw you. Today, you had plans so he would actually have to wait until tomorrow to see you.Ā 
Didnā€™t mean he couldnā€™t call you, though.
He pulls his phone from his pants, dials your number and lets it ring. You answer on the fourth.
ā€œHey,ā€ you answer sweetly. He can hear the familiar sound of wheels skidding and slamming against the pavement. You must be out shooting.
ā€œHey, babe. I was just calling to talk for a minute. Iā€™m at the store right now getting stuff for tomorrow. Wanted to see what youā€™re up to.ā€
Thereā€™s some rustling on your end and then itā€™s quiet for a bit. Choso waits patiently. Youā€™re probably trying to get away from the ruckus.
ā€œSorry, it was a little loud,ā€ you tell him. ā€œI just finished up a shoot at one of the parks. Packing up and then Iā€™m going to grab lunch with Suguru.ā€
Choso ignores the tightness in his chest from hearing his name. ā€œOh. Sounds fun.ā€
ā€œYeah, but Iā€™m so tired. Iā€™ve been out all morning so I wonā€™t be out too long. Iā€™ll probably go straight home after.ā€
ā€œWith him?ā€ Choso blurts out before he can stop himself. He closes his eyes, pinches the bridge of his nose because he probably sounds so fucking pathetic now. Worrying about you going home with a man you were seeing long before youā€™d met him; a man who you were open and honest about still having feelings for, still seeing. A man Choso said it was okay for you to continue seeing while you got to know each other.Ā 
Even so, he canā€™t help the nagging feeling of jealousy.
ā€œNo? Just meā€¦ā€ Youā€™re quiet for a moment before you ask, ā€œAre you okay?ā€ He can hear you zipping your bags. Youā€™ll be leaving the park soon...with Suguru. He doesnā€™t want to ruin your time out with friends andā€¦him. Well, he does want to ruin your time out with friends and him, but Choso likes to think heā€™s a little more mature than that. So he does what any mature jealous person does ā€“ He lies.
ā€œIā€™m fine. Why do you ask?ā€
The cashier waves Choso forward and he sets his basket on to the checkout belt.
ā€œYou just never really ask about Suguruā€¦I was just wondering if youā€™re alright.ā€
Choso hardly asks about Suguru because he doesnā€™t want to hear about Suguru. Although at some point in time he told you he was willing to wait for you to come to your senses, he sometimes wonders if you ever will.
Choso enjoys going with the flow. Heā€™s chill, avoids drama the best he can. Heā€™s laid back. But that doesnā€™t make him an idiot. He knows your history with Suguru. And he gets itā€¦sort of. A year is a long time to have your feelings toyed with. To be dragged along for the ride, constantly pulled close only to be pushed away.Ā 
From what Choso knows, it was less about building a relationship with you and all about the sex for Suguru. But for youā€¦you wanted so much more from him and he didnā€™t want to give that to you. At least, not until Choso entered the picture. It seemed suddenly the asshole had finally opened his eyes and realized how good you were. That, or he was trying to keep you from realizing you deserved better than him. Choso would bet on the latter.
Because how could Suguru have not seen it in the first place? How could he have not chosen to give you more when youā€™d asked the first time?
Choso thinks Suguruā€™s a fucking idiot, an actual monkey.
Actually, Chosoā€™s pretty sure a monkey is smarter than Suguru at this point. Of course, he doesnā€™t voice this to you. Youā€™ve got history with Suguru, no matter how shitty. Heā€™s still the new guy in your life and he likes you a lot. He doesnā€™t want to ruin anything.
But fuck, he wishes youā€™d open your eyes to how much of a piece of shit Suguru is.
Itā€™s easy enough for Choso to give Suguru zero energy when theyā€™re in the same area together. Itā€™s not like they had much communication with each other before, if any. Now it seemed Choso couldnā€™t escape him.
ā€œChoso?ā€
ā€œSir?ā€
The cashierā€™s voice and yours pull him back to the present at the same time. The cashier points to the screen, the total waiting to be paid.
ā€œIā€™m sorry,ā€ he says quickly to both you and the cashier. ā€œUm, I have to go, baby. Text me later?ā€
ā€œSure. Iā€™ll text you when I get home.ā€
ā€œCool, uhā€¦have fun.ā€
He ends the call, pocketing his phone and taking his wallet out so he can pay and get out of the way. He takes his receipt from the cashier before grabbing the bag of groceries and exiting the store.
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The next evening finds Choso frantically setting up the table for dinner. Youā€™d be here at any moment and he wants the place to look perfect. Unfortunately, Eso and Kechizu got called into work so it would only be you, Choso and Yuji for dinner. Probably for the best. He loves his brothers, but they can be a bit much all at once. Better not to get Eso worked up anyway. The entire house would smell.
Chosoā€™s got a bouquet of roses in a new vase in the center of the table. Yujiā€™s idea. Heā€™s not sure when or how his little brother became such a romantic, but heā€™s grateful for any tips.
Choso doesnā€™t date much, doesnā€™t have time for it. Itā€™s not that heā€™s not interested in finding someone, but his lifestyle keeps him so busy, itā€™s hard to find someone understanding enough to tolerate it. And then he met you. You work in his field (sort of) and youā€™re just as busy if not more. You understand that travel is a part of his job and there will be times when heā€™s unavailable. Youā€™re patient when heā€™s unavailable for long periods of time. Youā€™re what he wants in a partner in all honesty.
Yuji brings the food over and begins plating the two plates sitting next to each other. Heā€™s so fancy in his little apron; like a real chef. Choso wonders if he gets his love and talent for cooking from his side of the family. Probably, since Choso and all of his brothers canā€™t cook.
The doorbell rings indicating your arrival.
ā€œOh, sheā€™s here!ā€ He exclaims, rushing back to the kitchen to put the pans away as Choso heads to the door. He swings the door open, unable to stop the wide smile that spreads across his face when he sees you.Ā 
Damn, he missed you.Ā 
Youā€™re standing there, all smiles too, in a cute little dress that hugs you in all the right places. You look incredible. It gets the usual reaction from Choso that he has to go above and beyond to hide any time heā€™s around you ā€“ a subtle, persistent throbbing between his legs. It takes a lot for him not to blatantly stare.
Instead, he leans down and presses a quick kiss to your cheek.
ā€œHey babe,ā€ he greets you, lacing his fingers through yours and pulling you inside.
ā€œHey,ā€ you say back, gifting Choso with a shy smile.
ā€œYou look great.ā€
ā€œThank you.ā€
Chosoā€™s lips are on yours as soon as the door shuts, arms looping around your waist to pull you closer. Your arms wrap around his neck, pulling him forward to deepen the kiss. You open your mouth to him and he takes the opportunity to slip his tongue past your teeth and press the soft muscle against yours. You both stand in the entryway, lips slotting against each other, Chosoā€™s hands gliding up and down your back as he holds you close. When you moan softly into his mouth, that throbbing between his legs grows and he reluctantly breaks the kiss.
You peer up at him through your lashes, so fucking pretty it only makes the throbbing grow almost painful. So he turns away from you if only to calm himself down. Itā€™s always like this with you. It feels like someone is playing a cruel and twisted joke on him, because he told you he had no issue waiting for sex. And he doesnā€™t. But fuck, you always look so good, smell so sweet. Itā€™s hard for him to not want to break his little rule.
Choso takes a deep breath before his hand finds yours again, leading you into the apartment.
ā€œIt smells great in here,ā€ you comment. ā€œIā€™m so excited to meet your brothers.ā€
ā€œJust brother. Eso and Kechizu had to work unfortunately, but Yuji is here,ā€ Choso explains. ā€œHe actually cooked tonight.ā€
ā€œReally?! Canā€™t wait to try it!ā€
When you get to the dining area, Choso pulls your seat out for you so you can sit down. Itā€™s only as Yuji emerges from the kitchen that Choso notices the third placemat and dining set is now missing. Yuji beams when he sees you, coming to sit in the seat across from you.
ā€œHi! Iā€™m Yuji.ā€
You introduce yourself to Yuji as well, smiling when Yuji proceeds to tell you how much Choso talks about you and how happy he looks lately. He showers you with compliments on your looks and Choso wonders where the hell all this charm came from. Certainly not from Chosoā€™s side of the family.Ā 
ā€œThank you, Yuji. Youā€™re so sweet. Itā€™s nice to finally put a face to the name. Your brother talks about you all the time.ā€
Yuji rolls his eyes, feigning annoyance. ā€œHeā€™s just a little obsessed.ā€
You laugh, because youā€™d agree. Choso loves his brothers more than anything in this world. Itā€™s obvious. But itā€™s adorable. Something you really like about him.
ā€œHe just really cares about you. Thatā€™s all.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re not eating with us?ā€ Choso asks suddenly, probably sounding a lot more disappointed about it than he intended.
Yuji smiles sadly. ā€œSorry, big bro. Nobara and Fushiguro invited me out while I was cooking. I didnā€™t want to say anything before butā€¦ā€ he looks between you and Choso. ā€œIf I had to choose between third wheeling with my friends or you two, Iā€™m gonna choose them.ā€
Choso doesnā€™t miss how Yuji just so happens to use the nickname heā€™s always begging his little brother to call him. Itā€™s his weak spot and Yuji knows it, knows heā€™ll get away with anything as long as he calls Choso his big bro.Ā 
Choso nods. ā€œHave fun. Donā€™t stay out too late or Iā€™ll send Eso to get you.ā€
Yuji scowls, muttering about how embarrassing Eso is before he stands. His expression shifts into a grin and he claps his hands together. ā€œI really put my all into this dinner so I hope you both enjoy! Eat it while itā€™s hot! It was nice meeting you.ā€
ā€œYou, too, Yuji. Have fun with your friends.ā€
The front door closes shortly after. Choso sighs, taking your hand in his.
ā€œIā€™m sorry,ā€ he frowns. ā€œI said youā€™d meet my brothers and all plans fell through.ā€
You reach a hand forward and cup Chosoā€™s face, your thumb gently caressing over the tattooed line on that side. ā€œChoso, itā€™s okay. As long as I get to spend time with you, I donā€™t mind.ā€
Choso beams, leaning forward to press a quick kiss to your lips. ā€œYouā€™re too good to me.ā€
You shake your head. ā€œYouā€™re too good to me.ā€
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Dinner goes well. The food is spectacular. Choso canā€™t wait to tell Yuji how much you enjoyed the food. You and Choso in deep discussion while washing dishes together about the third Cheetah Girls movie and why itā€™s your least favorite, save for a few songs. Itā€™s oddly domestic. He has many opinions on the breakup of the group, but promises to save that discussion for later.Ā 
Choso talks about his competitions, you congratulating him on how well heā€™s been doing. It makes his cheeks burn red with embarrassment and happiness all at the same time. He offers to show you his trophies once youā€™re finished cleaning up and you happily accept the invitation.Ā 
After drying the last dish, Choso leads you to his bedroom to show you some of his favorite competition wins. They line the built-in wall shelves. Choso grabs the trophy heā€™d won at the televised event where heā€™d essentially confessed to you on live tv from the shelf.Ā 
You take a seat on the edge of Chosoā€™s bed, as he wanders over with it. He watches as you bring your arms above your head, stretching your back and Choso has to turn his gaze away from you briefly. You make the most mundane actions look so enticing and it drives him crazy how much he wants you. He wants more than just kisses, more than just holding hands.
Choso clears his throat before he turns his gaze back to you and holds the trophy up. ā€œI think this oneā€™s my favorite,ā€ he tells you. ā€œFor obvious reasons.ā€
You smile bashfully. ā€œI think thatā€™s my favorite, too.ā€
He places the trophy back in its spot before he crosses the room again and sits next to you on his bed, leaning back to prop himself up on his elbows. You place your hand on Chosoā€™s thigh, patting lightly and his bodily response is immediate, the earlier throbbing now making its presence known again. Choso sits up quickly, clearing his throat.
ā€œCan I kiss you?ā€ He asks and you nod, closing the distance with an ā€œof courseā€ before your lips are on his. The hand on his thigh runs gently along the length of his quad, making his breaths come a little more rapidly with each kiss. Chosoā€™s large hand comes up to grip the back of your neck, deepening the kiss. Itā€™s hungry, all tongue and soft sighs into each other's mouths as your lips caress.
When you finally pull away, Choso finds himself chasing your lips with a quiet whimper.Ā 
ā€œThank you so much for dinner, Choso. Everything was great and I had a really good time,ā€ you tell him.
Choso leans forward, presses his forehead to yours. ā€œYou sound like youā€™re about to head out.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t want to overstay my welcome,ā€ you whisper and thereā€™s a hint of sadness in your voice.
ā€œBaby,ā€ he mutters softly. ā€œYou could never.ā€ He ghosts his lips over yours, placing soft pecks to the corners of your mouth. ā€œStay as long as you want. I like having you here.ā€
ā€œChosoā€¦ā€ you breathe against him, the hand on his thigh squeezing gently. ā€œIf I stayā€¦ā€Ā 
He trails kisses along your jaw, featherlight, so soft you can barely feel it. And yet, your chest rises and falls rapidly with each breath. ā€œIf you stay?ā€
You sigh, pulling back. Youā€™re no doubt trying to change the subject with some excuse to run out of here. ā€œIā€™m just really tired. Prepping for this shoot has been draining the shit out of me. Tonight has been amazing. I just donā€™t want to bring the mood down with how stressed I am.ā€
Choso hums, nodding, eyes now fixed on the spot where your hand rests. ā€œIs there anything I can do to make you feel better?ā€
The pause is long as he awaits your answer, the heat of your hand radiating through the fabric of Chosoā€™s pants and making the throbbing between his legs even worse, if possible. You watch Choso closely, eyes following where his dark orbs are focused on.
ā€œI donā€™t knowā€¦ā€ you mutter softly, fingers lightly squeezing Chosoā€™s thigh. He bites back the low groan threatening to escape. His gaze drifts up to your glossed lips.Ā 
ā€œWell, how do you usually relieve stress?ā€ Choso asks, the heat quickly pooling in his center as your hand coasts along his thigh.
You give him a knowing look, biting down on your bottom lip. He understands.
ā€œI have an idea,ā€ He responds quietly, shifting on the bed.
ā€œWhatā€™s your idea?ā€
He wants to kiss you again, feel your mouth against his. He always wants to kiss you. Ever since he met you, itā€™s been all heā€™s done. Of course Choso wants to do more with you. He fantasizes about it. But he told you heā€™d wait for you to make a choice first. He didnā€™t want to make you feel like he only wanted sex from you, the way he made you feel.
But, while sex isnā€™t the only thing he wants, he does want it. When he sees the tip of your pink tongue dart out to swipe across your bottom lip, he can only hope youā€™re both thinking the same thing.
ā€œI want you,ā€ he blurts out, unable to hold back his honesty.
ā€œChosoā€¦ā€ you sigh his name and it only makes him want you more. ā€œ I want you, too.ā€
ā€œI know I said thereā€™s no rush for sex, but it doesnā€™t mean we canā€™t do other things.ā€
You bite your lip again, eyes searching Chosoā€™s. ā€œAre you sure?ā€
ā€œYes, but for purely selfish reasons if Iā€™m being honest.ā€
You cock your head to the side in confusion.
ā€œMaking you feel good will make me feel good,ā€ he explains.
You nod, giving Choso the green light. ā€œOkay.ā€Ā 
He scoots back to lay on his bed, pulling you along with him. ā€œCome here, baby,ā€ he coaxes as he lays down on his back. His hands find your hips, positioning you so that youā€™re straddling his chest.
ā€œCloser,ā€ Choso says, his thumbs tracing circles on your hips.
ā€œOkay,ā€ you murmur, scooting forward until your plush thighs are on either side of his head. His hands slide down your hips, to the hem of your dress thatā€™s already ridden up enough that Choso can catch a peek of your panties.
ā€œCan I?ā€ He asks, pinching the hem of the fabric between his fingers.
ā€œYes, Choso,ā€ you pant in anticipation.
He peels your dress up, getting a full view of your core. Your panties hug your pussy so nicely, a small wet spot from your arousal forming right in the center. Choso wants nothing more than to bury his face between your legs, have you crying out his name over and over, give you everything you want and more. But instead he turns his head to the side and presses a tender kiss to the inside of one of your thighs, then turns his head to do the same to the other. The sound of your breath hitching in your throat makes Choso pause.
ā€œIs this okay?ā€
You nod, your hand coming down to comb your fingers through his hair. It makes him shiver, makes his cock stiffen further. ā€œItā€™s fine. Iā€™m fine, Choso. Make me feel good.ā€
Fuck, the reassurance only makes him harder, lets him know he doesnā€™t need to hold back anymore. But he still nods, wraps his arms around your lush thighs, squeezing softly.Ā 
He kisses your thighs again, trailing soft touches all the way up to your center, leaving a soft peck directly to that dark little wet spot. He chuckles when you roll your hips forward at the contact, then he trails soft kisses back down your other thigh.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re so pretty like this, baby,ā€ he kisses your center again. ā€œAll for me,ā€ he mutters against your undergarments.
Choso pulls back, eyes locked to that sweet spot spreading along the fabric of your panties when he whispers a soft, ā€œLet me take care of you,ā€ and then heā€™s pulling you down by your thighs, meeting you halfway to latch his hot mouth directly onto your clothed pussy.Ā 
A mixture of your moans and Chosoā€™s fill the room, the vibrations shooting straight to your clit. You gasp, rolling your hips forward to grind yourself against Chosoā€™s face, a soft moan rushing past your lips. He lets you ride his tongue, his saliva soaking through the fabric. You taste incredible and he hasnā€™t even truly experienced you yet.Ā 
ā€œOh my god,ā€ you whine before Choso halts your movements with his hands. He runs his tongue over your panties, long and slow, his hips bucking into the air when the fingers in his hair tighten into a fist, your other hand finding purchase on his headboard. He presses his nose into the center of your panties and inhales deeply, eyes rolling to the back of his head when your sweet aroma fills his senses.
ā€œFuck, I bet this pussy tastes so good without this in the way.ā€
You whimper above Choso as he hooks a finger into your panties and pulls them to the side, groaning softly when he finally gets a good look at your cunt, glistening with the mixture of your slick and his saliva. Itā€™s prettier than he couldā€™ve ever imagined. He wants a taste.
His free hand squeezes your thigh lightly just as Choso pushes his tongue between your folds and runs a hot, languid lick up your core. He feels your body shudder above him, his own body following when he finally gets a full taste of you. He gives your clit a small lick before pulling it into his mouth, sucking lightly, unable to keep his hips from thrusting up again when you gasp above him. He moans, the vibration leaving you panting.
ā€œShit! So good, Choso, thatā€™s so good.ā€
ā€œYeah, baby?ā€ He asks, voice muffled as he buries his face in your cunt again, licking and sucking your clit until youā€™re grinding your own hips down on him.
ā€œYes, yes, yes! Donā€™t stop.ā€
He groans, hands squeezing your thighs to spread them further open for him. His tongue grazes your clit, swirling around the sensitive bud over and over until youā€™re a whimpering mess above him. You taste better than he couldā€™ve ever imagined ā€“ saccharinely sweet. He pulls you forward, your hips bucking when his tongue slips into your entrance. He can feel your walls clench in response, groaning when your knees tighten on each side of his head.Ā 
The grip in his hair loosens, your other arm shooting up to grab hold of the headboard with both hands to keep from falling over. Choso thrusts his tongue into your hole, moaning when he feels you moving your hips on your own, fucking yourself on his mouth.Ā 
"Fuck, fuck, fuck," you cry out.
Choso pulls out of your hole, moving his mouth to wrap his soft lips around your clit again, sucking hard.Ā 
"Oh, Choso," you mewl, the new sensation making your grip on the headboard loosen, falling forward onto your hands. The new position gives Choso much better access, his hands letting go of your thighs to cup your ass. With one hand, he spreads one of your cheeks. With the other, he easily slips two fingers into your sopping hole.
ā€œFuuuuuck,ā€ Choso moans into your cunt when he feels your tight pussy clench down on his fingers. He loves making you feel good, having you moaning and whining but, goddamn, heā€™s so hard, heā€™s thrusting into the air, trying and failing to find any sort of friction. Itā€™s torturous. He can feel his erection, painful and sticky in his pants. Heā€™ll definitely have to take care of himself after youā€™re gone.
Choso curls his fingers, smirking when he feels your thighs immediately begin to quiver around his head.
ā€œYou close?ā€ He asks before pressing the flat of his tongue against your clit just as he curls his digits inside you again.Ā 
You donā€™t even get a chance to answer him, your hands tugging his sheets as they ball into fists. The only sounds that can be heard are your hushed moans that grow gradually louder as you grind your hips down against Chosoā€™s face along with the lewd slurping of Chosoā€™s mouth as he laps up your release. Youā€™re coming undone, walls clenching around his fingers, as your body spasms with your orgasm.
And Choso waits, pumping his fingers into you and gently licking through your folds until he finally feels you relax above him. He pulls his digits out of you, placing a soft kiss to your swollen cunt before he pulls your panties back into place and helps you scoot down his torso until youā€™re seated on his groin.Ā 
Youā€™re watching him close, chest rising and falling as you try to catch your breath, pupils blown with desire. Choso brings his fingers up to his face, spreading and closing them like a pair of scissors, watching the sticky strings of your slick spread between them. His eyes stay locked with yours as he opens his mouth and slides his fingers in, wrapping his lips around them and sucking them clean. He lets them go with a loud pop.
ā€œYou taste fucking amazing,ā€ he groans, his hips coming up to grind against your ass.
Your head cocks to the side when you feel his hardness against you. ā€œLooks like you need someone to make you feel good, too.ā€ You suggest, leaning forward to place sweet kisses down Chosoā€™s cheek, his neck and chest. You kiss all the way down his abs and the fire in Chosoā€™s belly grows as you get closer to your destination.Ā 
He watches as you slip your hands into the waistband of his pants and pull them off. He moans when you lean forward and press those pretty fucking lips to his throbbing, clothed cock and itā€™s involuntary, the way his hips come up on reflex.Ā 
He groans quietly, watching your lips curl up in a small smirk. You already know the effect you have on him without doing much at all. Minx.
Your eyes lock with Chosoā€™s, hands finding the waistband of his boxers right before you press another hot and tender kiss to his core, Chosoā€™s back arching at the contact.
ā€œFuck.ā€Ā 
Keep doing that and heā€™s going to cum in his pants. At this moment he wouldnā€™t mind. It would be a welcome relief. Heā€™d just have to hope youā€™d understand if it came to that. Youā€™re just so sexy; a seductress when you want to be. How could he not blow his load when heā€™s got the perfect view of you right now settled between his legs? Face down, ass up in the air, back arched so he can see those beautiful round cheeks of yours. He kind of regrets opting for not going all the way tonight because heā€™d love to feel that little pussy contract around his dick like it just did on his tongue not that long ago.
The thought makes his cock jump within the confines of his underwear.
Gaze still glued to Chosoā€™s, you tug lightly at the waistband of his boxers before your soft voice asks, ā€œCan I?ā€
He doesnā€™t think about it for a second.
ā€œDo whatever you want,ā€ he tilts his hips up, letting you slide his boxers off for him. ā€œItā€™s yours, baby.ā€
His cock springs free with a loud smack against his lower belly. Itā€™s long, thick, with a large vein running right up the underside until it reaches the angry red tip. The entire length is sticky, precum slathered over it. You settle yourself between his legs again as you take in the sight of him exposed to you.
ā€œI want to make you feel good, too.ā€
You take his length into your mouth before he can argue, your lips closing around the head. ā€œAhā€“ shit,ā€ Choso grunts, bringing a hand up to the back of your head. From here, Choso thinks he has the perfect view of you. It turns him on beyond measure and he jerks his hips forward, shoving his cock further into your mouth, hitting the back of your throat. ā€œSorry, fuck. Iā€™m sorry.ā€ He moans, pulling out of your mouth.
You shake your head, waving off his concern. ā€œItā€™s okay, Choso. I like it.ā€
Youā€™re back on his dick, humming when Choso fills the cavern of your mouth, the vibrations making him shiver. His hand finds the back of your head again, Choso rolling his hips up so he can shove his cock down your throat again, over and over. And you take it so good, relaxing your throat for him so itā€™s easy.Ā 
ā€œYour mouth feels amazing,ā€ Choso grunts, pumping into you. The sound of his balls slapping against your chin makes his eyes roll back, a pleasure shooting straight up his spine.
It feels so fucking good. Too fucking good.
Yeah, heā€™s not going to last very long here.
You release his dick, running your tongue along that vein on the underside of his cock, pulling a string of curses from Choso. You lick from the base of his length all the way to the tip, teasing the slit of his cock with your tongue, lapping up the bead of precum that sits there.Ā 
"Fuck!"
You kiss down the length of his dick, bringing your attention to his balls, running your tongue right between the two orbs before bringing one into your mouth and sucking. Your hand wraps around Chosoā€™s length, stroking him up and down.
A liquid heat pools in Chosoā€™s core, the threat of his orgasm quickly approaching. He doesnā€™t want to cum yet. Heā€™s been wanting this for a long time, to be intimate in more ways than just kissing and cuddling. It feels way too good. He wants to savor this. But damn, if you keep going like thisā€“
You wrap your lips around Chosoā€™s cock, taking his entire length in your mouth in one motion. The sudden tight warmth makes Chosoā€™s back arch, has his hands flying to the back of your head to hold you in place.
ā€œOh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck. Donā€™t move, baby,ā€ he pants, holding your face to his groin so he can fuck your throat. And then you open your throat for him, relaxing for just a moment before you constrict around his cock and the sensation that shoots through Chosoā€™s dick makes him pull you back. You let go with an obnoxious pop as Choso grabs the base of his dick.
He canā€™t stave it off, not when he sees your swollen lips, your tear stained cheeks, the line of drool dangling from your chin.
ā€œFuck, baby, I canā€™t. Iā€™mā€“Iā€™m gonna cum,ā€ he warns.
You lean forward, opening your mouth, tongue hanging out in invitation. ā€œGive it to me, Choso. I want your cum, baby. Gimme all of it.ā€
God, youā€™re so fucking sexy.
He feels his balls tighten, feels the rush in the palm of his hand as he pumps his cock, his freeĀ  hand coming to hold the back of your head in position before thick, hot spurts of his cum shoot from the tip and paint your tongue white with his seed.
ā€œOh god,ā€ he groans through gritted teeth. He keeps pumping, watching as you quickly put your tongue back in your mouth and swallow before you stick it back out for him. Itā€™s so much cum and you take it all, swallowing without him even asking you to. Even wrapping your lips around the tip and sucking so you donā€™t waste a drop.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re so good to me,ā€ Choso whispers when heā€™s finally emptied his load on your tongue.Ā  Breaths coming rapidly, he watches you climb along the length of his body until youā€™re face to face. He can smell his release on your breath, and then heā€™s tasting it when you press an open mouthed kiss to his lips, moaning when he tastes the mixture of his release and yours on his tongue.
ā€œThank you,ā€ you say after breaking the kiss. ā€œI feel a lot better now.ā€
Choso chuckles, running his hands along your spine. ā€œGood. Me, too.ā€
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Youā€™re both sitting in the bath Choso has run for you, Choso positioned behind you as he gently lathers your shoulders. Youā€™ll be heading home after this, but Choso wanted to treat you to more relaxation before you left. He also wanted an excuse to spend more time with you because the next time heā€™d see you would likely be the photoshoot. And as exciting as that was, he had a nagging feeling things would be tense.
ā€œIn all seriousness, how are you feeling now?ā€ Choso asks, gently splashing water over your shoulders to rinse the soap off. Your hands swirl the bubbles around in the bath.
ā€œBetter. Still a little stressed, but thatā€™s to be expected with everything that goes into prepping for these shoots. Then thereā€™s you and Suguruā€¦ā€
You cut yourself off.
ā€œWhat about us?ā€
ā€œIā€™m just worried how itā€™ll go with you both there.ā€
Choso nods in understanding. He quietly mulls over his thoughts.Ā 
ā€œYou and Suguru havenā€™t really been around each other for long periods of time before. These shoots take hours and I just donā€™t want things to be weird between you two.ā€
ā€œDid you have this talk with Suguru, too?ā€ He questions, curiously. He should really be the one you're worried.
You nod, leaning back against Chosoā€™s chest. ā€œOf course. Heā€™s the one Iā€™m most worried about causing a sceneā€¦That was why we went to lunch together the other day ā€“Ā  to talk about this. Heā€™s really not good with his emotions, but he promised to behave. Said heā€™s working on accepting that heā€™s not my only priority anymore.ā€
Choso chuckles, placing a light kiss to the back of your neck. ā€œOh? Who else has your attention? Should I be jealous?ā€
You laugh lightly. ā€œPlease. You donā€™t strike me as the jealous type.ā€
ā€˜You donā€™t know me very well, then,ā€™ Choso thinks.
The fact that Suguru gets even a crumb of your undeserved attention drives Choso insane. Youā€™re a toy to him, something for him to keep in his back pocket when heā€™s bored and needs something to preoccupy his time. Heā€™s not sure how you donā€™t see it. Youā€™ve mistaken familiarity and comfort with love. It makes sense after suffering through Suguruā€™s antics for so long.Ā 
All this time, Chosoā€™s been passive, playing the long game while Suguru makes an ass of himself time and time again, hoping youā€™ll see him for the piece of shit he is. But nothing changes. Choso watches and waits, just going with the flow until you finally come to your senses and make the right choice ā€“ him. But nothing changes.
Choso leans down, burying his nose in your hair before he places a sweet kiss to your temple.
He wonā€™t sit back anymore.
In this moment of relaxation before everything goes to shit, Choso wraps his arms around you and he decides itā€™s time to fight.
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tielesiti-eftu Ā· 9 months ago
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just so Tumblr has the same info that the Rainworld Discord has currently
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the second screenshot was sent in the announcements channel by the same person that sent the first big message. they were both sent yesterday at 2:46 PM and 3:19 PM (CST)
I don't follow Rain World tags so I don't know if this has been posted but just in case it hasn't, I wanted to make sure it was known that the Ludeo situation has been acknowledged and hopefully a statement should be made in a day or two
EDIT 1
another message just went out from Buddy a couple minutes ago
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EDIT 2
the update has been pulled completely!
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this edit to the post is admittedly very late--I saw it stop getting notes, and figured that was the end of things, but since it just got five more today I wanted to retroactively add this part. my apologies for not doing so sooner.
I urge anyone that reblogged the version of this post without his information to please reblog this version, since the situation is now resolved; I don't want people to assume it's still ongoing when it was wrapped up nearly a week ago
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wienersmosh Ā· 7 months ago
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done with the smosh membership. :)
i cancelled my membership a couple of weeks ago and here's why.
i was a smosh royalty member. as some of you know it comes with access to the official smosh discord server. i was never very active on it. in the ~5 months that i used it i only checked it a handful of times. i had not even opened the discord app since december 2023.
last month, i decided to open the app. it said that i was not a member of any servers and with the help of a couple of friends who were still members, we figured out that i was banned. (and just today i also found out that i had been banned from the youtube livechat, which i couldn't have known sooner bc i missed the past few livestreams.) one of them reached out to a well-known mod -- a popular smosh fan artist here on tumblr, iykyk -- and asked on my behalf why i was banned. the mod refused to say why, but it didn't matter. it was either i said something inflammatory to someone (doubt it, bc i was barely on it), or because i had been leaking members-only content which, to be fair to them, i have. and i'm 99% sure it was the latter.
now... i don't know for sure who snitched or how they managed to trace it back to my discord profile and youtube account -- but i have a theory. the platform i'm most active on is smosh twitter, where i did occasionally post bts photos, screenshots of bts videos and livestreams, and little clips here and there and included those clips in edits. but even so, i highly doubt it was from my twitter account that they traced back my discord and youtube. i don't have my discord handle anywhere on my twitter and vice versa. any mention or hints of my youtube account have long been buried bc i tweet 50 million times a day.
i'm not saying no one has snitched on me for my twitter account, i'm sure at least a few people have bc my account had 1.3k followers and it was public. what i'm saying is that it couldn't have been my twitter that linked back to my discord and yt. i have a hunch that it's this tumblr post with this ianthony edit of mine, which includes multiple clips of bts videos, that got me into trouble. when i posted it, my tumblr url was different to the one i have now, and my old url was similar to my discord handle and youtube display name, and i'm positive that's how they traced it back to me.
i'm not going to make outright accusations and name them specifically bc i have no concrete proof. but i have a strong hunch that it's a specific smosh fan artist here on tumblr who happens to be a discord mod that did this sleuthing and banned me. and the only thing i have to go off of is that they weirdly have me blocked here on tumblr despite me never interacting with them in any way that could be construed as harassment. all i ever did was dm them and ask if i could see ian's halo fanfics from back in the day. that's it.
and you know what? i can't be too mad about being banned. again, i rarely used discord, so it's not like i lost something that i used regularly, and i did break a rule. it's not like they banned me for no reason. i get it.
but the part that upsets, or i guess, confuses me is that after i had been banned from the discord and the livechat, i was still technically a member. i was still being charged $20 AUD/month and i still had access to all their bts content. banning me from the discord and livechat wouldn't have even stopped me from leaking their content. so it's like... what was the point? it definitely wasn't loss prevention. i can't help but feel that this was more of a social punishment than a legal one. i think if they hit me with a copyright notice i'd be less offended, bc then i'd get the message that this is just business to them and they can't let people steal. but banning someone from the community, so to speak, but not from paying for and accessing your content, seems like such a petty, mean girl, "you can't sit with us" kind of punishment? does this make sense? especially bc it's up to the mods' discretion which people to ban AND not every single person who has leaked content is even being punished.
idk. i know i'm in the wrong in a technical sense, but cracking hard on stupid shit like leaking photos and clips -- not even full videos being uploaded somewhere else -- makes me feel like they're turning fans against each other. those who can pay vs those who can't pay. rule breakers vs snitches. no wonder there aren't a lot of ianthony stans nowadays -- most of the content we want to discuss is behind a paywall now.
i just think there should be a difference between major leaks, like uploading entire videos for everyone to see for free, and fans still being able to make fan content out of bts stuff. bc why is including one-second clips in a 30-second edit enough to get someone banned? no one is watching my edit in lieu of signing up for a membership. it's literally free marketing to entice people to sign up but i guess they don't want that.
so... here i am now. i still love smosh, i still love ian and anthony, but i don't have to further support them as a business anymore beyond just watching their videos. banning me from engaging with the community but not from paying for their content and doing free publicity and marketing for them made it clear to me they did not see a human being behind the fan account. i was just a source of revenue to them.
goodbye, smosh membership. i'm still a fan, but i guess i wasn't that important.
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writefinch Ā· 2 years ago
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Communion
(cn: piss, foot stuff)
It clicked for me about a month ago, years after it had become apparent to the people who knew me, but I'm not short-sighted and self-pitying enough to think that meant I'd wasted time or could've made the leap sooner. If I was less kind to myself I'd say 'boy, I had the maps and I knew the landmarks so how'd I end up in the wilderness so long' but I was sailing through fog, and you know what? When I saw that landmass looming in the distance, I sailed towards it.
I didn't know totally what it meant, still don't in fact. Last year I joked about being a cis boy dyke, and since then I've struck the 'cis' and I'm shaky on the 'boy' and the part that was a joke was the truest thing of all. Ā Am I a boy? Maybe. A woman? I don't think so. A man? I truly fucking hope not. A good girl? Put a collar on me and we'll see.
The thing about fog is that you can't just step back and get a big picture view of everything. My instincts tell me that if I want to figure things out I should look at them at a remove, see where it fits into everything around it, map things out and move forward cautiously. That's what I want to do, it's what I've always done, but fog makes it impossible. You have to get in close if you want to see things, you can't keep it at a distance.
I couldn't move ahead and start hormones right away, not for a few months, for reasons I won't get into here. Delays don't sit well with me brain because I know my brain and I don't trust it, I don't trust it not to treat this like some other big rewarding involving project like learning Polish or playing Go, decide we're too busy and it's too scary and shove the whole thing into a mental oubliette to never see the light of day again. Sure, my friends call me Charlotte now and I've got she/her next to my Discord username, but I wanted something stronger, I wanted something that would cut into me.
I can't remember the name of the first trans woman I knew as a person, rather than as a punchline to a cruel joke. It was on Tumblr and it must have been after 2015 because I remember she had an Undyne avatar, but maybe not, because surely Violet, the "boy" I'd been practically engaged to, had come out as trans at that point? Surely I knew Skeeter, that poor, vicious mess of a girl well enough by then? It must have been earlier than that, the ponies had turned me queer by 2013 at the latest.
No, no, the Undyne-avatar lady was the first time I saw someone I knew be openly *Marxist-Leninist*, she was just also trans.
Anyway I don't know what it was, but even though I was rock-solid confident in being cis and a guy (a guy or a dude, it never bought me any joy to think of myself as a 'man'), something about trans women just really stuck with me. I found their stories compelling, I found their experiences interesting and oddly relatable, though I didn't suffer dysphoria as I thought they described it. I made friends with some trans girls, some of my friends became trans girls, and suddenly most of my friends were trans girls. I burned at injustices done to them, I bought hormones for friends, donated to trans street medic projects, helped newly-cracked eggs get in touch with DIY medding sources, y'know, normal cis ally stuff.
Recently, I realized that I loved trans women. I fucking love them so much. I fucking love all of the varied and fractious transfemme communities that have allowed me to be a part of them, as nothing more than a cis guy who draws a lot of porn. I'm not going to say anything about Blahaj and Bridget and pink coding socks because I know the girl who fucking hates that silly terminally-online stereotype and I know the girl who *is* that silly terminally online stereotype and I love them both and love so many trans girls in all their aspects between and beyond those boundaries. I have never found myself so close to any group of people, so filled with admiration and wonder and love and lust for them, so overjoyed by their trust and friendship and confidence in me, so blessed to call myself a friend and contemporary, as I have of the trans women in my life.
I had accepted some time ago, with no pain and more than a little pride, that I would admire them but be apart from them, that my place would be as a welcome guest, that I would be among them but not one of them, and--
A crack has opened within me to let the light seep in.
I'm one of them. I really am one of them, they're mine and I am theirs and I never want to let this go, this revelation is a gift that I'm barely beginning to comprehend and I can't bear the thought that I might let it pass me by and slouch back into darkness.
So, I would bring a change upon myself, in a way that was small but could not be un-changed, a vow that could not be forgotten, only consciously recanted.
I cut out a lot of the idea before I brought it up, mostly out of time and expedience. I thought of a prayer to Inanna, but that felt like a clumsy thing to rush, and I decided I'd make a shrine to her only once I had the wisdom to pay Her proper respects. I liked the idea of getting caned or whipped in a purifying way first, but that felt too much like regular kink, just inspiration for another drawing. The idea of doing the ritual under psychedelics intrigued me but, well, I've never done anything but amphetamines and poppers before, and I didn't want to dull the experience of either the ritual or the drugs by combining the two under my own inexperience - though, I did include poppers.
Alice, Emily and Lily - not their real names but you get the picture - were very good about it. They told me it was a cute idea, and we met up at Emily's ground-floor studio flat on Sunday night. We'd have been playing board games anyway, and they even seemed a little excited by the idea, even if they weren't buzzing from anticipation like me.
I'd only worn the clothes once since I'd bought them - black tights, a knee-length straight skirt, a black blouse - but my heart didn't pound like that the first time I put them on. I shaved my face upwards and against the grain, my skin still annoyingly stubble-grey, but that would show much less in the candlelight.
When I stepped out of Emily's bathroom the girls had already set things up, candles and all. They were sitting on chairs in a semi-circle, backlit by flickering orange candlelight. As I approached they got stage giggles; I did too, it felt infectious.
Once the giggles had cleared, Alice, in the middle, asked me to state my name and purpose.
'My name is Sophie, and I am here to recieve communion.'
'Very well,' said Alice, and pointed to a spot between their chairs marked in white tape. I knelt there, a bowl of water to one side and a small bag at the other.
I turned to Lily, bowed my head, and asked her if I could wash her feet. She nodded, and I took the bowl and wash cloth and gently cleaned her feet with warm water. Once they were clean and free of sweat and sock lint, I bent down to dry them with my hair. She nodded her approval, and I asked Emily if I could do the same for her. Likewise I cleaned her feet and likewise dried them with my hair. Alice did not get her feet out, for me nor anyone, and instead allowed me to lick her shiny black boots, which only had the faintest hint of grit to them.
Once I had performed the ablutions, the girls daubed me. Alice held my jaw firm in one hand as she applied mascara to each of my lashes with the other, Emily let me rest my chin on her fingertip as she painted my lips a vibrant red, and Lily stroked my hair as she marked my cheeks with blush. They cooed and called me pretty, and Lily's blush felt superfluous.
I presented each of them with a gift: An Adventure Time tarot deck for Lily, a sharpening stone for Emily, a guide to mushrooms for Alice. They accepted the gifts, and gave me gifts in return: a simple black choker from Lily, a bottle of amyl nitrite from Emily, a stack of trans zines from Alice. My voice cracked a little as I thanked them, and cracked a little more after they watched me take a few long, heady hits from the poppers bottle.
Alice asked me if I was ready to recieve communion; I begged her, please, yes.
She took a blister pack of 2mg estradiol and popped out a single blue pill. I knelt and looked up at her, eyes open, heart thumping, mouth wide.
She placed the tiny pill on my tongue and said, 'Sophie, this bread is your flesh, which is given to you.'
Then, she stood up, unzipped her jeans, pulled her limp cock out of her underwear and pushed it between my lips, which I wrapped tight around it.
'Sophie, this wine is your blood, drink this in rememberance of yourself.'
It took her a moment to start pissing, and her urine immediately washed the pill down my throat. It tasted fucking disgusting, almost as salty as seawater with that weird, almost chemical aftertaste. It turned my stomach, and I felt euphoric as I sucked it down.
After that they praised me and called me a girl and a faggot and a whore, and I kept sucking Alice's cock until Emily wanted a blowjob too, and from there it turned into regular lesbian sex, Lily's chastity cage clinking fruitlessly against mine as Emily went around biting us both and Alice had me lick her armpit clean of sweat, fingering and kissing and pinching until we all got tired enough to start watching movies in Emily's bed.
I got up and fetched drinks and sandwiches for everyone and something happened between aftercare, the aftermath of a religious service, and an after-action report. They all kept calling me a pretty girl, which I *really* liked, and Alice asked me how the whole thing had turned out, if I felt anything had changed, and I had to eat two salami and cucumber sandwiches before I could figure out my answer.
Something had changed, but the change had happened months ago, and it had taken communion for me to see it. It didn't clear up my questions or reveal hidden knowledge, I don't know if I'm a she/her boy or a he/him girl, I don't know if I'm actually a woman or just not at all a man, I don't know if this is a thing I've become or if I've been this all along and it's taken this long to discover it. I don't even know if I've really settled on Sophie.
All I got from communion, from this sacred connection of love and knowledge from other trans girls to me, was surety in the things I already kinda knew:
I'm transgender as fuck and I'm a big fucking dyke.
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calissarowan Ā· 2 months ago
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Thoughts on Fairy Ogron?
Oohā€¦now, and feel free to correct me if Iā€™m wrong, but Iā€™m going to go ahead and guess that this question was brought on by @1v31182m5ā€™s incredible art and au, right? I keep meaning to reblog that; itā€™s just the coolest thing ever! In fact, I did while writing this.
Soā€¦if weā€™re talking about that au? I love it. Especially her art to demonstrate it. I saw it in the Discord server, asked, ā€˜Is there context?ā€™ and almost shrieked with joy when she said yes, itā€™s an au. I love a good au. The idea of Ogron being made into a fairy is amazing, and I gotta say, slightly disturbing in a way, because I suppose it would be changing his very magical essence without his choice, which just makes it hit all the harder! I love angst, donā€™t judge me. If heā€™s a fairy, then I suppose heā€™d in all likelihood have to start using light magic, as dark magic is seldom compatible with fairies, at least according to the show, but this is an au, so Iā€™m happy to be corrected! Iā€™m quite sure heā€™d struggle with that, plus, heā€™d be in serious distress, and so positive emotions might not even be attainable. Which would basically render him powerless, other than his wings, which, having been talking in the Discord server, he would apparently not want to use, at least to start with, which Iā€™m totally on board with. A guy that devoted his life to taking out every Earth fairy, suddenly using their method of transportation? Yeah, no, least of all with a guy as stubborn as Ogron. I love him, but we all know heā€™d sooner walk across the Sun than be wrong or do something he didnā€™t want to. But I adore this au, am actively praying that Mary posts more about it because I need this in my life. (Seriously praying.)
Moving on, because you got me going and I will ramble until the cows have come home so many times that now itā€™s their kids coming and going, if weā€™re just talking about Ogron justā€¦being born a fairy, I guess? That would be crazy complicated, because then heā€™d be hunting his own people. Iā€™ve seen a fair few fics where thatā€™s more or less the case, at least two where heā€™s actually Morganaā€™s son, which I liked, but it felt complex. But Morganaā€™s kids never make sense. But I can see him being born a fairy, and I think Ogronā€™s emotional state has perhaps always lent itself more towards dark magic, which a fairy would never perform, so maybe he would have wanted to become a wizard, which nobody was okay with, so he had to stay a fairy, with magic that he knew didnā€™t suit him, and, getting into it now and just rambling like itā€™s a backstory, he grew to hate his wings, because they were keeping him tethered to the light magic he struggled so hard to wield, and as he felt more and more alienated, the more negative his emotions became, so his choice was either to use dark magic and use his emotions, or to watch his magic dry to a trickle and die out. So, since nobody would let him change, he figured out a way to remove his wings himself, and became a wizard the hard way. The White Circles channelled fairy powers, so itā€™d make sense they could take someoneā€™s wings and let them change their magic, so he asked Morgana to do it, but when she refused, feeling trapped, he took a White Circle and did it himself. His dark magic was so wild and untrained that the spell twisted the Circle, corrupting it, but it worked, and he managed to strip himself of his wings. Of course, Tir Na Nā€™og would have been very, very angry about what heā€™d done, so he probably had to go into hiding, but with years of repressed negative emotions finally able to surge to the surface, he was damn hard to stop. Eventually, he started being able to steal the wings of others, seeing it as just after they decided what magic he could or couldnā€™t use. He was sick of living his life in fear of them, of making choices based on what they told him, so the fairy hunt came about. Also, in this idea, I think heā€™d have two long scars down his back, because he really did just tear his wings out with that spell, it wasnā€™t perfected, and he always keeps them covered up, because he hates being reminded of what he was. Please note that this is not my new backstory for Ogron, but I do like it, a lot, and I might use it in a fic where Yllidith really doesnā€™t fit in.
And finally, getting a mention is if Ogron became a fairy by his own free will. Not a lot in my head here, but Iā€™m covering all the bases. Au, angsty past, and this. Ogron might at some point reform, and as his emotions became more and more positive, dark magic might become harder, or perhaps even feel like a trigger for past trauma, so heā€™d choose to avoid it, and maybe at some point, it just feels hard using his wizard magic, so he decides to become a fairy. I think people would think it was strange, and the Earth fairies would have mixed feelings, because why should he be allowed to bear wings, after what he did to them, but also, if heā€™s got wings, heā€™s not coming after theirs, right, so itā€™s probably fineā€¦ I think heā€™d be pretty nervous about having wings, since he knows how vulnerable they are, and at some point, for karmic reasons, Iā€™m pretty sure he gets a broken wing, just so he knows how it feels. Iā€™m sorry, Iā€™m being mean, but the angst is just too good to pass up. Heā€™ll be fine, donā€™t worry!
Thank you for the awesome ask! I honestly got a bit nervous about coming up with stuff to say, but rambling saved me again! Iā€™m actually so in love with the fairy Ogron backstory I just made upā€¦I may have to use that somewhere. As always, feel free to send in asks; I love them! And, since my little backstory spoke to me so muchā€¦here!
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Have a picture of fairy Ogron! I love his wings so muchā€¦I originally thought purple and grey, but something about the sort of sunrise colours actually works so well. Not that he wouldnā€™t change their colour if he got the chance. He would. He tried. The best he can do is dress as goth as possible. I figure his fairy powers would be much the same as his wizard abilities, i.e. absorbing magic, but he canā€™t easily summon his powers using light magic, so itā€™s weak.
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amphiptere-art Ā· 6 months ago
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Just a little announcement I guess.
I'm making a DCA-centric discord.
It's going to be called DCA cookies. I'm going to invite plenty of people that I know on discord from servers and friends. Plus of course I will be posting it publicly here. So hopefully it will be plenty active when it opens.
It won't be focused on the Sun and Moon show. Although it does have a separate group for people who enjoy that stuff. Instead it's just a general DCA lover group. One where people from the Sun and Moon show fandom can enjoy themselves, alongside ones that don't engage in that content anymore.
And while I am saying this is a DCA-centric server. I'm probably going to share a lot more of the random other stuff I draw there too. It's just going to be a group of my DCA friends. You can post whatever you want there. Just know that most people are going to be DCA lovers.
Anyways I'm basically cleaning up my rough drafts. And situating all the roles. So hopefully it'll be up by the end of the week and hopefully sooner. Hopefully I can figure out discord enough.
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paigelts05 Ā· 3 months ago
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Knowing too much [FNAF, Renegade AU]
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Artwork: https://www.deviantart.com/paigelts05/art/Knowing-too-much-FNAF-Renegade-AU-1088095083
AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/23843413/chapters/148389664
Published: Aug 18, 2024
I am back again with another drawing of my AU's main phone guy, Krasnyy, for the phone guy month event that I have been running on Tumblr this August.
This drawing and short fic is for prompt 30 - "You know too much".
Honestly, Krasnyy has always known too much, weather he wanted to or not. Sometimes it bites him in the neck, and other times, he has an escape plan.
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"You know too much."
Krasnyy had grown numb to those words; he'd heard them too many times from too many people.
He shouldn't have been scared of those words anymore. But it's hard to not be when you've just been stabbed in the abdomen.
Krasnyy was more in shock than anything else as he staggered and fell backwards, dropping his camera in the process. He tried to inch further away, but with the hall corner being a dead end behind him, he knew that there wasn't much more space that he could retreat into.
And he needed that space.
"If it were up to me, you would have died after overhearing what you did the year after I made the mistake of hiring you. It's a pity that nobody else was suitable for making those recordings. And who am I to go against Afton's word. Even though you knew too much far sooner than everyone else, you were still needed for one specific task: you were still needed to train our staff one last time. And you couldn't even die like the others once you outlived your usefulness like you were supposed to." The vitriol in the voice of his former boss, Daniel Discord, was palpable. "And now you have the gall to come back here and snoop around? I know you've probably pulled some strings so that you aren't trespassing, but as you've already experienced, I prefer to deal with intruders my OWN way."
As the man finished growling, Krasnyy saw him reach into his waistcoat and pull out a pristine white handkerchief to wipe the blood off of his knife: a sign that the old manager was rearing to use it again.
He'd have one shot at this.
As the old manager strode closer and reeled his arm back to take a slash at Krasnyy's mind throat, Krasnyy used what little space that he had left behind himself to roll back, raise his legs, and boot the old manager square in the face.
Krasnyy heard a sickening crack and saw the old manager stagger backwards with blood pouring out of his nose; this was his chance to escape. Krasnyy grabbed his camera as he clambered to his feet, and ran.
The robots paid him no mind, though Freddy did seem to smile at him. Ferdinand, the ghost possessing the bear, had been rather passive after the body pit had been found. His mind flashed back to that day; to how Ferdinand took a protective stance over Vincent, detecting that Gerald Taylor still had some sort of influence seeded in Krasnyy's mind. As he mulled it over, he figured that it had to have something to do with his inability to remember the final night that this Freddy's location was open: Krasnyy only remembered the deadguard helping him find a way to thwart Gerald's control, talking to Vincent about the then upcoming memorial service for the 10 year anniversary of the MCI, and using the only language that Gerald seemed to understand - violence - to show him that he wasn't going to sit around and take abuse as his 'Voice' anymore. That was a chaotic night, and he was glad to have had his purple bear plushies with him, but he couldn't remember anything that happened after he sat down in that office chair.
Ferdinand had made some vauge reference in regards to him and Felix being able to stand up to Gerald, but naught more than that.
"YOU BASTARD!!" The old manager's voice echoed from the corridor, and heavy footfalls followed.
There was no time for reminiscing or investigation.
With nothing to show for this investigation, Krasnyy fled the building. But as he did so, he planned his return: maybe if the animatronics were in a docile mood, he'd ask them more about why they continued to hunt even though they knew the identity of their killer. They'd already told him that it was because any guard that was not Vincent Taylor was in the way of Faz Ent putting Vincent Taylor on the night shift, but Krasnyy felt as if there was another reason; one that they hadn't told him, even after Gerald had turned him into their 'Voice'.
As the cold morning air hit his face, Krasnyy decided that maybe he didn't want to know the answer.
Then again, he already knew too much: what was one more thing?
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veryfandomobsessed Ā· 4 months ago
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Finally, a blog introduction!
About Me!
Hi! You can call me DJ or VFO! I am a minor, older than 4 of course so please stay aware of that. The only Socials I have are just a Tumblr and a Discord. But if I ever do get more I will add it here! I love all types of animation, mostly cartoons and stuff but I will probably have a main focus on a show but that doesn't mean I don't still love the others. Something that I will also do is draw my persona, usually in response to an ask but it represents basically my reaction to things, and yes sometimes I will be lazy and not draw the glasses and sometimes I will so interpret it how you wanna. I am definitely a big music freak so if you wanna suggest anything I'm all ears! I am Latina but I do not know Spanish despite me taking it for 5+ years but currently I've been learning Japanese. I also love plenty of stuff in the ocean and anything that's ancient lookin. I'm pretty laid back but somehow also hyper and I could yap about a character or something specific for hours, but I can hold back. I can't really think of anything else to say about myself so..
About the blog!
I started this blog about 2 years ago and it has been quite the journey from where I started to where I am now, with posting nothing to actually starting to serve up the art that I brew up. This is quite a multi-fandom Art Blog that might focus more on one thing more than others so just a heads up. Enjoy your time here and request stuff when my requests are open! If my ask box says requests closed, it doesn't mean you can't ask me questions. Spam liking is fine, don't worry if your doing to much, it's silly to see!!! Maybe sometime in the future I might make another blog for whatever, specific art, an ask blog, anything along those lines, there will also be occasional reblogs from some of my folk, not folk, and chains.This account is SFW!!
My Art!
Noticeably I put "VFO" on all my pieces of art that I post, if any of it gets reposted or taken without credit please let me know! I work hard on some of the art I do. Adding to the requests things I am busy and don't always have the time or energy to draw them, so if I have time and energy to I will do them! I also might do commissions sooner or later when I figure out a good way to do it. I do both traditional and digital, I mainly use my finger on my phone to draw but I'm trying to do stuff more on a tablet and such! Everyday I'm doing more to improve my art and try to learn as much as I can. My art style ranges a lot but I do try and keep it consistent. sometimes it can look like an entirely different person drew it but whether I draw something cutesy one day and something intense the next day I swear it's still me,I'm just trying to find what style or thingy I'm more used to. Only occasionally there will be blood and stuff included in my art but I will always but a TW to make sure people have a heads up. I also typically use more lighter colors for my drawings but sometimes I will change it so the lines are harsher (ex: black instead of the usual brown I use). You are free to ask me for tips and tricks or questions you have about my art because I love helping and giving some creative ideas!
Thats it!
I hope you have a wonderful Day or Night wherever you may be! Or mid day! Or evening! Military time hour your at!!!
Extra info below:
Discord
To be able to contact my discord, you would have to be somebody who I've interacted with before and I know you're safe to chat with. you can send me your tag in asks WITHOUT being anonymous or in the Tumblr chat so it is clear and confirmed. it is completely my choice if I decide to add you or not.
If there is more info I can think about, I will add it in my next edit, this was made 7/31/24.
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satindupe Ā· 1 year ago
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heyyyyyy ( with the intention of getting you to plot with me ) this is a second muse so i hope you're interested in meeting miss yang taeri, because she likes to be everywhere at the same time! her profile is up here and anomaly here, below i'll give her background and some ideas for plots. please like this post and i'll come to you, or let me know if you prefer discord b/c i sure do!
yang taeri, 23, textile & fashion design major with self replication
ok now that that's out the way, she was bork in new york city, usa! went by the english name madison. her family did well for themselves because her dad was an it manager, but her mother was an anomaly with psychic powers and fully leaned into the occult. well known within the city and charged people for readings and what not. a controversial figure due to it, but people kept coming to her in an attempt to deal with lifes uncertainties.
not only to mention that taeri is the oldest out of 3 and looks nothing like her younger siblings. at all. only vaguely looks like her mom. like come on, as she grows up she knows she's mixed but it's not something that her parents bother talking about, with her or even each other, just settles as the constant elephant in the room. eventually she learns to stop asking.
but! taeri is cute and charming and not at all odd like her mother and so people just learn to ignore that part. she still gets invited to things and does well in school because she doesn't talk about her mom and people just know that she's not going to be like her.
but mom is right a lot of the times. like how she told her that she was an anomaly too but didn't specify more than that. she's seven in a martial arts class ( shoutout to dad ) when she gets kicked and an identical clone also gets thrown out of her. that's the first time that it happened in public, however. a couple of year before that she talked about having an imaginary friend, as most do, and thought that the replicas that she just ... pulled out of herself was imaginary. turns out they weren't.
anywho i'd like to believe that new york is more liberal-ish when it comes to anomalies so despite that, it doesn't effect her reputation too much. at least not yet.
fast forward to high school and she's class president, golden girl, sweetheart. the resentment has grown with her mother as she refuses to fit in and loves to put on a show, but she also uses her powers to help taeri excel too. she doesn't understand why her mom is still so kind to her even when she doesn't admit her existence outside of the house. it's a love hate thing that she can't exactly explain. her younger sister is a couple of years younger and they go to the same school, and has taken on her mothers ways. she overhears a cheerleader call her a 'fucking occultist' and she just. kind of sees red. she's pushing two other clones of herself and beats the girl's ass LOL, completely unexpected coming from her. it takes a couple of dudes from the football team to get them off of her too.
it also doesn't help that same week her mother sits her down and tells her the truth ā¤ that she's the product of a heated love affair between herself and a different man that left the country once she told him he was pregnant. or at least, she thought that was the case until he started writing you recently, showing a letter that's addressed to her. then it clicks why no one ever discussed anything with you.
lots of conflicting feelings as it turns out this is a man is a foreign diplomat currently in south korea. apologizes for what he's done and would like to get to know her. she tells her mother she isn't going, mother states that she'll end up there sooner than she thinks. it makes sense when taeri attempts to make up with the cheerleader and thankfully charges aren't pressed, but taeri does end up expelled and her reputation tanks. so, y'know, maybe a change of pace in korea isn't so bad after all.
she ends up moving to finish up her last two years of high school and realizes that this dude has moneyyyyy! upper class lifestyle, and a younger baby brother with his korean wife. adjusting to life in korea was hard as hell, especially because anomalies were looked down upon much more than in america. her actual father gives her a nullivi patch as he doesn't want to deal with her powers, and she's not fond of it but keeps her head down and plays along until she gets to sua. spends time w her dad on the weekends, he likes to have breakfast and he's very open to answering whatever questions she has.
which brings us to present day! she's a fashion major because it's the one true thing that she has a passion for, and eventually would like to work at a fashion house or start her own little boutique.
uses the patch for classes only / when told to, but otherwise you may catch her around multiple places around campus at once. she wants to know everything!
joined curious currents because she's nosy as hell and can't put her fucking camera down, and considering she's minoring in marketing it made sense for her to be the social media manager. very bubbly with them but not in your face.
and in terms of plots here's some i can think of off the top of my head:
childhood friends? anyone from new york? probably somewhat of a long shot but could be nice
roommates! red hall girlies! very much the type to try to do things w the other girls in the communal areas and loves the ~sisterhood~ and what not
i need her to have a fat ass crush on someone. very much dreamy sighs and doodling their name on class notes, liking all social media posts. can absolutely be one sided or not!
a bad influence! someone who thinks she's too much of a goodie two shoes and she would like to prove them wrong
you keep running into her and think that it's simply coincidence when in reality! it's not, she keeps sending her clones in your direction to get information / tea from you. are you weirded out? find it annoying? sorry, there's something about you that interests her ( or she finds you sus ) and she's just trying to help out the newspaper, y'know?
she likes to think that she's your guardian angel, watching over you and helping you when needed
cousins? maybe from her ( actual ) father's wife side ( so by marriage ) who had no idea that she existed until now
people who think she's fake! that she's putting on an act for attention
party friends because you know that she's always at all the events and needs someone to enjoy them with
sexual tension? a will they won't they situation of sorts?
and the usual stuff of friends, exes, and everything in between! really i'm down for anything ~
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agapi-kalyptei Ā· 11 months ago
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Narcissism potential
My dad was cool. In the sense that we, as small children, would crave his attention which he had in small amounts, but was always upbeat about it. He wouldn't whine. Even when he said he was tired it was in a cool way. He knew whining isn't sexy, and he desperately wanted to be sexy to receive validation from the wrong sources.
When I was about 17-20, I was fascinated by the personal website called 'miss petra', which was half blog, half mystique; a collection of manic pixie girl website elements like anonymous user-generated conversation in the format of a dialogue of a romantic couple. That is, you would go to that part of the website, write a sentence, hit "send" and it would get added at the end of a long virtual conversation as either "him" or "her", taking orderly turns. This was in years 2001-2004, so the interactivity on websites was a lot more fresh, and social networks didn't exist.
One of the blog posts floated back to my mind recently. It described some really cool dude, who would have the most fascinating stories. He would disappear for weeks at a time (again: this was before social networks or even smartphones), and return with even more unbelievable, fascinating, fun stories.
And they were all made up. Sooner or later the blog author figured out it was all lies, but to my dismay, the conclusion of the blog post was "who cares, they were fun stories". I was angry, because lies, in my mind, were always something that should be punished and never tolerated in any form. (It's not like I'm a fan of lies these days, but I'm less self-righteous about it.)
And I realized - am I becoming my father? Am I becoming the absent, charismatic liar? Could I, social awkwardness level 9000, stay at home dad of two cats, holder of unremarkable social life, loner and a proud grandmaster of zero game -- could I have suddenly become the self-indulgent promise factory that I always hated even as a concept?
And frighteningly, yes. I mean I've organized 4 dashcons this year. I've started a discord community. I've messaged and invited so many new people. And how did it end? "More dashcons soon! Maybe regular ones! More info will be posted soon!" I won't even mention Discord because I just pop up there to look at cat pics, if at all. Pop up, say something amusing, disappear. Building up the mystique is so easy! And it shouldn't be! Messaging friends is even worse, I start a conversation and then don't reply for weeks or months.
My social needs are met, even saturated, but I learned to be tactful, and I stopped whining. I learned how to politely attract people, but I don't know how to politely repulse them.
Shell of a person that I am, by saying vaguely nice, positive, hopeful things like "yeah we should catch up soon", I've just created a cotton candy persona with no personality.
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mamaspeckles Ā· 10 months ago
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Iā€™ll be okay sweetheart ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø Thank you and thank you all for your concern and care, it really does make me feel so loved and special
Weā€™ve already figured out who it was that sent me that message, amongst other messages that sheā€™s sent. Her nameā€™s Daisy and she was someone that I thought I could trust in my discord group chat. I feel betrayed and hurt if Iā€™m being honestā€¦.but weā€™ve confronted her and to make a long story short? Sheā€™s doubled down about how she just got jealous because? ā€œI was able to make a genuine connection with someoneā€? Which I donā€™t understand? I thought I had a real connection with her like I did with my other discord friends and like I did with you? A part of me feels disappointed with myself that I didnā€™t see this sooner. I feel like I couldā€™ve helped her so she didnā€™t feel like she had to do this ā˜¹ļø A part of me feels guilty because sheā€™s completely cut herself off from all of us and sheā€™s just deleted all of her social mediaā€™s and I feel so anxious that Iā€™ve caused all of this šŸ˜ž
But I want to preface and really drill in that this has NOTHING to do with you!!!! Sheā€™s unfortunately always been a very jealous person. And it doesnā€™t bring me any joy to say this, but I think sheā€™s always been very jealous of me in particular. I donā€™t think sheā€™s ever really been a genuine person, and I feel stupid that I didnā€™t see this sooner. Itā€™s made me feel more difficult to trust peopleā€¦..but I trust you and very very much ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
Iā€™m so so sorry that because of me and my bullshit Iā€™ve potentially brought on any stress and worries. This was the LAST thing that I wanted when I started sending little headcanons and stories, I just wanted to bring some comfort and happiness. But if youā€™re still okay with it, the Woman fanfic will be finished as soon as possible ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø I wonā€™t stop unless you want me to ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
I'm really sorry you had to go through that, it sounds incredibly tough. But please don't blame yourself for Daisy's actions. You're such a kind and genuine person, and it's clear how much you care about your friends and making others happy including me. I appreciate everything you do and send me, and I want you to know that I support you fullyšŸ’‹. And if it ever came to it, I'd absolutely stand by your side and literally bitch fight Daisy for you idcšŸ˜© Remember, you're not responsible for Daisy's actions or how she chose to handle her jealousy she is toxic and doesnā€™t deserve anything nice until she learns how to grow up. please don't let her actions shake your trust in others. You have a genuine connection with so many people, including me, and that's something special.ā¤ļø I admire your resilience and your determination to continue spreading happiness despite the challenges you're facing. Keep being the amazing person you are, and know that I'm here to support you through it all.šŸ’• I will also keep on repeating what I been saying and that is ā€œ I never felt uncomfortable or harassed by gramma and absolutely love and even feel flustered when she sends me stories! I love gramma and gramma loves me!ā€
And If it ever comes the day I find this putas burras Tumblr page i will faƧa-a sentir o que ela fez vocĆŖ se sentir e faƧa-a chorar como um bebĆŖ grande. No one messes with gramma or anyone that I care about. Go get some form of help Daisy. Ya clearly need it. If you were that jealous and butt hurt ya couldā€™ve said it on call to grammas face instead of like I said using a anonymous proxy you coward. I am sick of seeing people like you hurt kind and funny souls like gramma. I wonā€™t be more controlled with my words if this happens again. Count your days cadela.
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therianhelp Ā· 8 months ago
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help how do i talk to people online. (context, i found a therian buddy in my area on tiktok and im trying to strike up a friendship. I know there a minor and close to my age, so no worries for groomers/pedos and such, only about three years apart.Ive had friends in this range so its not much a worry for me. We've started chatting through discord and im trying to keep up conversation but ive always had diffulculty keeping conversation in private dms.)
thanks for the Ask! it sounds like you struggle to keep in contact even when you want to - by no means do I have it all figured out, but as an Autistic person I can relate, so maybe I can offer some advice:
1. It might help maintain the relationship through periods of low or no contact if you explain to them ahead of time that you tend to do that due to [whatever reason it may be - Autism, depression, life circumstances, etc] but that you do in fact wanna stay friends even if you canā€™t talk for a while
2. assuming youā€™ve established some level of friendship, and especially if youā€™ve explained the above, itā€™s okay to message them out of the blue after a few days, a week, or even multiple weeks of silence. for me, it feels less and less possible to restart communication the more time goes on, but if you both wanna be friends theyā€™ll just be glad to hear from you
3. you donā€™t have to have a good reason to message them - while a life update like ā€œI aced my test last fridayā€ is perfectly valid, you donā€™t need to wait for something like that to happen to text about. just send them memes/tiktoks/etc, even out of context, or with a ā€œthought youā€™d like thisā€ or something. you can also ask them how theyā€™re doing, especially if you can remember something specific to ask about (like ā€œhow was your trip to the zoo?ā€), or even just say ā€œhey Iā€™d like to talk but Iā€™ve been having a really hard time getting myself to send this, is there anything you wanna talk about?ā€
4. you also donā€™t have to apologise every time you message for not having messaged sooner. I know it feels bad to not be able to keep up frequent communication, but ime itā€™s less harmful to the relationship if you kinda just pick up where you left off like no time has passed
I do feel obligated to be the boring nagging adult for a second though: please do be careful with trusting people based on assumptions, eg. ā€œtheyā€™re my age, so they canā€™t be a pedo.ā€ of course itā€™s perfectly possible (arguably even most likely) that they are just a normal therian kid tryna make friends, but especially if you havenā€™t seen them in live video, they could also be a grown perv just telling you theyā€™re your age to lower your defences. plus, kids your age can be dangerous too, especially if you meet up in person (since you said theyā€™re in your area); they could turn out to be a not-great person or come with an adult who has bad intentions. Iā€™m just saying, keep an eye out for red flags regardless of categories (like, just because someoneā€™s female, for example, doesnā€™t mean theyā€™re safe to meet alone). practice standard safety things like telling trusted people in your life about this person, and especially if you do meet up irl, tell people where youā€™re going and when youā€™ll be back, only meet in very public places, etc
but hopefully (and odds are that) theyā€™re just another kid you can share cool quadrobics videos with. wishing you the best of luck in making and keeping good friends!
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lady-of-the-spirit Ā· 1 year ago
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ā˜” (for wip ask game)
ā˜”Is there a fic concept you have that you'd like to just explain and share because you're not sure you'll ever write it? If so, what is it?
I have Several fics I'm not sure I'll ever write on rotation in my mind. But there's this Doctor Who fic idea I've had for ages now. And the premise is essentially that NONE of the Doctor's modern companions are human. or at least not like, human in the way the Doctor thinks they are. And the Doctor never realizes it until the companion actually tells them or they find out through other circumstances. (rest under the cut because I got very ranty.)
For instance, Rose is (obviously) a werewolf. She gets the werewolf gene from her dad, who was also a werewolf. She's had it drilled into her head by Jackie (understandably protective of her daughter) that she can't tell people, so she doesn't tell the Doctor. Rose starts to figure out how the werewolf and full moon thing works when she's in space and once she's got it all worked out, she figures out how to keep track of the days and keep herself hidden in the TARDIS or at home until it's over. The Bad Wolf symbols have even more meaning to her. Until, of course, the Tooth and Claw episode, where things go a little better because the werewolf alien has a real life werewolf to play with/fight.
Martha is an actual star - a star that fell to earth and gained human form, like in Stardust. She finds herself with a family on earth and since she has no idea how to get back to the sky, she's content - sort of - with making a life on earth. But there's still that yearning for home, for her sisters in the sky. When the Doctor - and she's heard his name, heard his song in the universe since time began - offers to take her through time and space, she agrees, figuring this will be the closest she can get to returning home. everything goes as normal, the Doctor doesn't know, until episode 42 - when she can hear the screams of her sister star, can speak to the host inside the human bodies without burning, and figures out what's happening much sooner than the Doctor does.
Donna was a normal human - in Ancient Britain, before the Romans invaded. At some point, she was in an accident - she got killed. And then came back to life, no longer able to age or die. Since then, well, her life's been a long, long series of events. A few generations ago, she had a son, who gave her a grandson she adores, who had a daughter, and no matter how critical her great-granddaughter is, she loves Sylvia as much as she loves Wilf, and she's willing to put on a charade of the annoying daughter to stick around them for a while longer. Of course she's heard of the Doctor, although she's never met him her other immortal friends have, but becoming besties with him and traveling to the stars was not expected. But traveling to the stars - she's felt like she's seen it all, but there's suddenly more to see? Sign her up! The Doctor thinks she's just weirdly passionate about obscure historical details and a little spacey on modern things, and things don't get revealed until the metacrisis - when instead of her brain exploding, it heals on its own, though it does take a little more time than normal because it's such a weird situation for her human body. The Doctor is freaking the fuck out the whole time.
Companions past 10's are when it gets a little more vague because I know less about it. Someone in the Donna/Doctor discord suggested Amy's a fae - the importance of names and all of that - and I like the idea. Rory is another immortal like Donna, although a little more timey-wimey. He gets killed like in canon, on his adventures with Amy and the Doctor. But he gets thrown into the vortex back to Roman times, and wakes up to find himself immortal. From there he's following mostly canon events, with some tweaks. He definitely meets Donna, and they're immortal besties. I don' t know at all about Clara or Bill, or 13's companions.
So yeah as you can see from the above 4 whole paragraphs of text I've thought about this plenty. I don't know what'll ever happen to it. But it's on my mind.
wip ask game!
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