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"i don't know what tariffs are and at this point I'm too afraid to ask" - people who said they hate taxes a week ago, probably

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being alive and being able to make music (or really any noise of your own choosing) is such a privilege

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Tech CEOs be like "it's wasteful to have both a hammer and a screwdriver, we should combine them" and the result is that they throw the screwdriver into the woodchipper and make the hammer more expensive and worse.

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a random non-scientific thought but

women wield their power of denial before a relationship starts

men wield their power of denial after a relationship starts

it's a dumb thought so don't take it literally but i'll explain

Iliza Schlesinger told an anecdote in one of her standups about a guy on tinder who ghosted her or stood her up for an actual date and then went basically "that's REVENGE" or "now you know how it feels *****" as if she stood him up many times before (IIRC they never met). And she was visibly confused like what point is he trying to make? That women sometimes bail out of dates with men? Like is it her fault, did she make that decision on the last witches' consortium executive board meeting vote?

It was silly. Besides being arbitrary and nothing more than an internet rando lashing out, that guy had no bargaining power. He wasn't special, and she could get 100 matches in one day with, probably, only a little more than 120 swipes right. For the more attractive women, "playing hard to get" isn't some twisted manipulation tactic, it's "choosing who to talk to" and it's a survival technique. If you replied to every message [request] online, you could waste 12 hours of day on that. (Not to mention that the more you talk to men, the more they feel you owe them a date [etc], so it's a multifaceted risk.)

And of course this is an oversimplification and again, a dumb thought that you shouldn't take too seriously, but women have a lot of power at first, because they're in demand.

Once a relationship (of sorts) starts and emotional connection develops, it is the tradition for men to isolate and/or seek attention elsewhere. Woman relies on the stability, the emotional support, it becomes a vital part of her life. (Reader should use discernment about whether this is good or not; plus, again, oversimplification.)

While of course it's possible that a woman becomes distant and start seeking attention elsewhere, it's generally the domain of men to do that. Becoming cold, distant, unsupportive. Many don't even realize this. Some use it as manipulation tactic. It becomes their bargaining currency.

I know it's a generalization that isn't particularly insightful on its own, but it's the first time I'm realizing the symmetry of the denial.

(And in case my haters are reading this post: yes I'm guilty of growing distant as well, etc. Not interested in self-flagellating confessional posts right now, but that doesn't mean I don't have regrets.)

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Papa love your princess so that she will find Loving princes familiar Papa cry for your princess so that she will find Gentle princes familiar

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and not to be a doomer but - in fact, I will be a doomer - but people will die in the upcoming financial crisis

"oh but the markets will stabilize" yeah maybe. the situation is developing, as it will always develop. here's the thing. musk is broke. tesla is overvalued. AI is useless.

Numbers aside, markets are driven by people who pretend to be rational, but absolutely are susceptible to "depression" (intense sadness) and panic and fear. The more bad things they see happening, the more pessimistic are in their estimates, the more cowardly are their actions, which have compound and spiraling effect on the stock market.

Most of the rich won't be affected. Everyone in the bottom 80% will be affected.

Before the depressing part, and I want you to prepare. Get a go back. Have a stash of medical supplies, nonperishable food, drinking water, hygiene items, basic electricity free entertainment, candles, flashlight, battery powered radio. Ideally, have a way to cook for yourself without electricity.

Mentally prepare for being without the internet for 7 days, and without electricity for 7 days. Do you have enough coats and blankets if the weather is cold? Is your cellar / basement storage free enough to shelter there from bombs for a few hours? Do you remember, or have written down in paper a few essential phone numbers? (Spouse, close family, someone from work.) Do you have a plan for when Google deletes your account? What will happen if you're European and the internet connection to USA gets turned off / severed / sabotaged? Do you know your nearest bomb shelter location, and how to get there? Is your car in a reliable condition?

I need to emphasize that not everyone will be hit the same way, and not every catastrophe will come to happen for you specifically. I don't know who of you will be hit by an earthquake. I don't know which minorities will be persecuted.

But - and now the depressive part and feel free to stop reading - some of your friends will die. Lacking healthcare, not having financial support, flat out war or persecution. Many people will be out of jobs, and many will be forced (one way or another) to work difficult jobs for a wage that doesn't cover their expenses. You will - all of us will - lower our living standard. The free tiers of Spotify etc will go away. There will be more ads. Things that used to be free will charge a lot of money suddenly or delete your data. Independent journalism websites will go down. Your personal information will be harvested, leaked, exploited. Your unlimited internet will go away. All your online communication will be monitored. Politicians will abuse their power, and corporations will abuse their power hand in hand.

None of that matters. You're still alive, and you're alive for yourself, for your friends, for your loved ones, for the friends you will still make. We'll all feel some dread but remember.

The second World War was unimaginably cruel. But people survived it. Many people survived concentration camps. You can fortify yourself mentally and get through tumblr closing down or spotify raising their prices or youtube limiting you to 3 videos per day. Just get through this. Do your best. Be the support to your community that you'd like to receive back from them.

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I'm guessing the "migrate tumblr to wordpress but nothing will change uwu!" might be a lie (coming from the top) and what will happen is that tumblr gets sort-of shut down, and people will get the offer to keep their blogs, but at a gunpoint asked to pay if they're exceeding storage limits or whatever else of the free tier of wordpress.

I'm guessing tumblr dashboard and overall tumblr UI as it is might get scrapped, along with many features (DMs? asks? polls? idk)

Either way there will be drastic cost-cutting measures combined with aggressive upsells.

This is all a speculation, of course, I have no insider knowledge.

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i love the smell of morning (checks smudged writing on hand)

global economy burning

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tfw you find not one, but two posts on r/eesti about a not-so-great person you know...

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we need to bring back inviting people over for cake and coffee. my grandma used to do that all the time and I think it's a lost art

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it's fascinating how many dumb things you can invent when you're a lonely autistic kid with poor grasp on how the world works and a lack of personal responsibility:

in 1994 I wanted to create an AI that would analyze existing music, derive rules from it, and generate new music based on that

around 1996 I thought it would be cool if you could press the Start button in your OS and type some text and it would find results in menus, settings, installed programs, or files on your computer

around 1999-2001, inspired by System Shock 2, I thought it would be cool if there were computers just burning CPU power and talking to each other over the network. "but what would it be for?" asked a classmate. "i don't know yet" I admitted. "....still, sounds cool" he replied.

in 1999 I thought it would be cool (4 years before MySpace launched, 5 years before the first school-exclusive version of Facebook was released, 20 years before Facebook Dating was released) if there was a website where everybody would be registered, and you could find out about them, where they live, what they like, and search for them by height, age, gender, eye color, ....

in 2002-2003, before reading Neuromancer or other classic cyberpunk novels, 6-7 years before iPhone and Android launched, 10 years before Niantic's Ingress launched, I thought it would be cool if you used glasses or your phone to see metadata about the world and people around you, and leave messages hanging in physical space, like small poems like graffiti, passing shower thoughts, or what they're listening to. It would be another 4 years before Twttr launched.

Tech bros are just dumb kids with naive dreams, overinflated ego and rich parents.

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glad to hear you're sick! no i mean i'm sorry to hear you're sick, get better soon. i'm glad i don't get to see you. no i'm sorry i mean i'm sorry that i don't get to see you it's just. i'm glad to avoid responsibility. no i mean i love personal responsibility it's just. i'm so tired and there's so much to do

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Killing time until the chest paint goes away I guess

A few conversations and other random thoughts reminded me how dangerous distractions are. It should be extremely telling that none of tech companies top management's kids are given tablets and facebook accounts and all that. They're literally poison peddlers and they know that. I used to know that.

And again this isn't against me or you conceptually using social media, but it's very much like antidepressant-based funk. When all emotions are just averaged and thrown into a blender to form just some inexpressible goop. Just a slurry of feelings and thoughts.

Working on the potential video about how to get started with music production has done me good, but it very much pointed out that I need to relearn the skill of becoming obsessed with my own work.

Anyway. Doc appt tomorrow + a composition lesson.

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Huh so Firefox 137 added their first official version of vertical tabs... they don't have auto-grouping into trees, nor color by domain, nor greying out for less recently used tabs, and the spacing is a little too liberal for my taste, but it's a welcome change, even if it isn't going to replace TabKit 3rd edition any time soon. And they added some BS "AI" assistant into it as well, which you can turn off easily. But hey, it's 40 extra pixels of vertical space, so why not.

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