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senzasord · 1 year ago

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I got like four hours sleep, Cody is apparently sick again and can't see the vet until 4:45, my mum asked my uncle to help me move without asking me first which has kicked up a whole bunch of awful memories, and I have a stomach ache because I'm so stressed.

But I am finally getting some assignment work done.

#i know the last few days of inactivity have been because of burnout/recovery from the house hunt and Christmas #and also a hormonal flare #and not because i was being lazy or anything #but that doesn't stop me being frustrated about it #and feeling like i was being lazy #im pretty sure my uncle isn't going to call me because hopefully he realised my mum was trying to be helpful without asking #I really do appreciate her thinking of me because she knows im incredibly stressed about my assignments #but i explained to her that i think him being there would be much worse because he'd want to be in charge and he's quite chaotic with moves #and tends to break things and will also throw things out without asking #and i like to be very organised and in charge during a move #and so it wouldn't be a good time #moving is very triggering for me (he actually helped my mum in the move that is one of the triggers)#and id rather pay for a moving truck than put myself through reliving that again #i also have friends who have offered to help too and i trust them much more than family #because they're the ones who have been there for me every time i've moved #i've even gotten to return the favour sometimes which makes me very happy #fuck im so worried about cody #he's an old dog i know #but i just want him to be okay #fuck the worst thing about stress like this is ive survived like mortal peril #but apparently cant handle normal people stress #booooooo #sorry for the whinging im just very overwhelmed rn

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forgettable-au · 20 days ago

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FORGETTABLE-AU (page 82-85)

THAT LAZYBONES!!

[BEGINNING] [PREVIOUS] [CONTINUE]

#So sorry it took me almost 2 weeks to post these #I was busy irl but ALSO I had too much fun doing extra art and forgot to work on these for like 3 days lmao #NOW THIS TIME I DO HAVE SOME THING TO SAY #YAY RIVERPERSON! SO MANY PEOPLE GUESSED CORRECTLY!#It wasn't that hard #We know Papyrus knows the river person #are they friends? idk BUT I PERSONALLY THINK THEY ARE #I just LOVEEE looking at the dialogue and making connections #I referenced one of the lines from the river person here...sometimes they'll ask you if you know any game you can play with a dog...#They said they were “asking for a friend...”#And I couldn't help but think about Papyrus' problem with the annoying dog LMAO #+ Papyrus seems very excited to know if the river person is there when you call him nearby that area #Okay so... now ...some comic thing that I made up but also didn't...#“FLOWEY DOESN'T KNOW WHO THE RIVER PERSON IS?”#okay so...#I feel like #It's not very common for them to be there...#When talking with Undyne around that area it's kind of *unclear* if she knows about the river person being there....#She tells you about the river connecting different areas and that you should “jump in”#She then clarifies that's the only thing they got for public transport #AND LIKE? It's unclear if she's telling you to jump in the boat (OR IF SHE KNOWS THERE'S SOMEONE WITH A BOAT) or is she's literally telling #you to jump in the river?????#Anyways...so...that's that #HEHE Flowey and Papyrus finally arrived at the house! WOHOO #Sans is too lazy to bring his old stuff to the surface! (or does he still think he'll end up back in the underground eventually?)#undertale #undertale comic #forgettable-au-comic #papyrus #flowey

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 1 year ago

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finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using

#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for?#open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer)#maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel #once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs #i respected their commitment to the theme #but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities #dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton #ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered #i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it #aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment #honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet #letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already.#really i've put off my responsibilities long enough #(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings)#(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time)#(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.)#(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)

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catmask · 5 months ago

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it is insane how normal i am medicated like. you mean this was an option the whole time. what

#theresbeen some hiccups like the first month i started to realize my work drive was 90% fear based #so ivehad to develop like actual work schedule and discipline thats not just 'everyone will hate me if i dont'#but its been working! now getting stuff done actually... feels.... good?#instead of like throwing water over one fire only to run to the next one #like before nothing was ever satisfying. i was always just running around panicked #now im like. okay this is what i have to get done today. yay! i finished it! now i go to bed. okay now its the next day #the only other thing ive noticed is ive become seemingly like. more. autistic acting.#like i get More fixated on my special interests now. i can think about something for hours straight instead of getting guilty and thinking #'oh im being greedy im being lazy with my time i should be doing something productive'

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tea-cat-arts · 8 months ago

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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

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somegrumpynerd · 2 months ago

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Ah yes, very mature indeed

I love these two getting far enough into their truce to annoy each other playfully, Dream is great at it immediately but it's good to see Nightmare starting to take part too

And don't worry, Dream did get revenge

#UTDR #UTMV #My Art #Dream Sans #Nightmare Sans #This is 100% self indulgent just for me art #But you guys can look at it too if you want #No background because I'm ~lazy~ today lol #Nightmare has a slow start on the brotherly teasing situation but he gets into it pretty easily #Usually using his tentacles to be a pest until Dream starts chasing him or (non-lethally) fighting him #I dunno I just think it's nice when they annoy each other for fun #And get to act like kids again for a little bit instead of being Important Guardians TM #Also Blue and Ink got him that sweater #Ink asked Error to make one for him and Blue insisted it had to be purple because he knows it's Dream's favourite colour #Nightmare doesn't feel temperature very much because the goop kinda insulates him but he did zip up his hoodie for appearances

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gatoburr0 · 6 months ago

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im so bored so AU lore drop in the middle of the night

I did this in ms paint and yes I was lazy so it looks shitty a bit on purpose

does this mean anything? no. I will continue to draw feral lesbians ripping each other apart because this is just a dumb comfort au

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barbieaiden · 5 months ago

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call of the sea

#when you recruit the laziest pirates ever coddle them and then act shocked when theyre being lazy #threatens to kill them so halfheartedly theyre still not listening to him plus he could never actually do it #him and his inability to be as mean as he wants to be..... sigh #dont get me wrong he still kills people just not people he cares about #which i feel like is pretty reasonable and normal but #ts4 #sims 4 #ts4 render

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adhdandcomics · 3 months ago

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perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:

does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies

#when i tell you every single resource i’ve ever found or tried to get through or anyone i’ve ever asked #has been just so. mean about it #not even intentionally #not always at least #but there’s so much inherent shame tied to being late to things or being a person who used to be late to things #that i don’t think people can untie that from their ‘helpful tips’#it’s all ‘i used to also be a lazy uncaring piece of shit! you don’t have to be a horrible wretched loser anymore!’ and it’s like. okay.#you see how that’s not helping. right.#making me feel worse about it is NEVER helpful. i promise you i already have tortured myself over it FARRR more than any ‘on time’ person #ever had #this has been a comic i’ve been stewing on for ages as well but. well there’s of course the shame #idk it’s something that people are always despicably mean about bc fundamentally people who have never struggled with it #see it as a personal choice to be late #and as something one needs to just ‘try harder’ to fix. and that if you don’t #you inherently don’t care about other people’s time or even other people in general #and that feels horrible! it feels really bad!!#i mean i’ve got it from EVERYONE. disability allies. other adhd folks. disability resource offices #it’s something that nobody ever cares to acknowledge or try to accommodate for #bc time blindness and exec dysfunction are NEVER taken seriously as disabilities. they’re always always viewed as a personal failing #and i’m sick and tired of it. bc all this does is make people struggling with this Hate themselves #and worry endlessly that maybe they Are selfish and actually Don’t care about anyone else #there’s a bit too much here to keep in the tags i should really do the comic for adhd awareness month

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baalzebufo · 4 months ago

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miscellaneous gideon related doodles ive been doing over the past few days bc my brainrot has set in and its unfortunately terminal. some things:

so ghost-eyes sticks around in gideons life, as do the other prison buddies of his. theyre actually a shockingly good influence. despite being willing to commit crimes whenever, they bring a sort of temperance to gideons more. insane thought processes that stops him from doing anything TOO horrible these days. ghost-eyes especially is his hench-uncle. hes a good egg

also some older gids doodles... he wasnt sure if the pines would ever want to hang out w him after the events of that summer but time smooths over some things. hes capable of being normal around her now but he'd be lying if he said he didnt still have a little flame in his heart when it came to mabel

also do you think he ever just remembers something he did as a kid and is like Hey What The Hell Was That About. because thats the funniest mental image to me. sitting up in bed and going 'ten years ago I made a giant robot'

what a life you live

#alloyart #gideon gleeful #gravity falls #should i bother tagging the others. yeah sure #mabel pines #dipper pines #pacifica northwest #i was Going to add candy and grenda to that doodle but i got lazy and tired forgive me. i need to draw them sometime soon #anyway i think its funny if one of ghost eyes reasons for being ride or die for gideon is just he kinda wanted to be a henchman #also i think he feels a shred of paternal affection for him since he probably came into prison genuinely terrified at first #so i choose to believe he saw this kid and was like 'oh dude. hey its gonna be okay im one of the toughest guys in here i got your back'#and then just went along with his crazy a bit because 'hey i like this kid hes got moxie. sure lets prison riot'

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umblrspectrum · 24 days ago

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ive been struggling big time coming up with anything funny to draw that hasnt been done yet so have my rw au art dump

#ive never actually done a dump like this before i usually just keep the doodles to myself. new experience #ive been getting better at drawing rw lizards in a way i like #also doll and beau are there cause i felt like it #i need to change dolls patterns. how do you people just design these #it being finals week has not helped my motivation in the slighest #thinking through the plot in my head some more made me notice some glaring plotholes so ive gotta go fix that probably #or just ignore some of the scenes #this would be a lot easier to figure out if i could write #im so tired but i feel bad not posting here #while looking for which tags i used in my last rwmd posts i discovered i accidentally reblogged something #how did that happen. what #fyi i guess i tend to not reblog things cause i like keeping this blog mostly art #art #murder drones #rain world #too lazy to tag characters figure it out

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glastly · 6 months ago

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#serirei #eeping together #god i goD I FUKING LOVE DRAWING THEM SLEEPING #i dunno why but i just feel like being able to trust someone enough to be unconscious around them is very romantic :3 #serizawa katsuya #reigen arataka #mp100 #doodles #i think th reasonwhy im always drawing them sleeping is either because im projecting or im just too lazy to draw eyes

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cangrellesteponme · 3 months ago

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i don't think wonderland is ready for those alices

#i have so so many things i could say about this cielois madness returns au (yeah that's what i call it. it's not even meant to be cielois)#(but like. ship names are convenient aren't they)#anyway so many things. but that would be a lot so i'll talk about it if someone asks or if i feel like it later #this post's rambles will be about the outfits!!#so. i gave ciel the dollhouse dress and alois the queensland dress #i know they could have been swapped. and it might have made more sense #HOWEVER #i do not care #i can and will put alois in red just because i want to. and of course i would give him a red fit in an amr fusion au #the vibes are rancid. it's perfect. that's what him being in this au is about!!#terrible things happen to children in kuro and in alice ok #anyway. i know queensland would be good for ciel because r!ciel BUT please envision queen luka i BEG #it's heartwrenching to see lizzie look so small in the game already so luka???? soul crushing. i want it.#now. the dollhouse dress for ciel #because of funtom mostly... and the vibes... and he's more of a doll than alois is ngl...#like. i know that it fits alois more because it's heavy on the trafficking and poverty parts but. see if i care #plus the minor theme of exorcising the evil of the city through the pain of children is more ciel-coded. so yeah #and he looks so bad in red oh my god i could not give him another dress... unless it was the mad hatter one and it would have been boring #also very much not fitting #you might notice that i changed the symbols on both of their aprons #in both cases i replaced female with male obviously but #in ciel's case the dollhouse dress has so many disgusting implications and i made them worse you're welcome <3 #(replaced female with male and male with one of the symbols you can see on the contract seal. yeah yeah that's fucked i know)#(it's alice madness returns. and fucking black butler. bad things be happening to children!!)#anyway #that's it for my rambles #i got too lazy to do the vorpal blade and hobby horse light trails #so we'll live with the fact that my sketch has better vibes than the final piece #kuroshitsuji #kuroshitsuji fanart

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sleep-nurse · 2 months ago

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purgatory / the nothingness

#tenka willow #my sona #there's no light in this room #my art #you don't get to see the hall of nothing because no (its literally just a hall of nothing #i would've drawn it but its less important and also i drew too much today already #pumping out lore art for the important end of willow's timeloop atleast #the nothingness normally is indeed literally just nothing for most people #but if you don't somehow die then you get to enjoy this beautiful place (not)#i feel like willow is probably one of the only ones who can access it because he cant die #being the creator and all #also i briefly explained the purpose of the purgatory and nothingness (and the hall) in the last lore post i think #im always up to questions tho im too lazy to explain everything in detail in tags

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daisybell-on-a-carousel · 3 months ago

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Still very wild to me when people try to gotcha Jason with the whole "if you can kill other people for being evil why can't they kill you" when jason is like. One of the most passively suicidal characters I've ever seen. What if man

#augh i dont want to cw this because im just talking about The Character and i feel bad when i do it for characters but i probably should #suicide mention #ask to tag #while im here i do absolutely believe hes been suicidal since jaybin times. maybe even before just in different ways. but like #going into that building with shelia? yeah #now. i DONT think he was aware of it and if youd ask him hed say no fully believing thats the truth #but like if a ghost jaybin had some introspection time i think he'd maybe eventually be like yeah #his outcomes to him were have a loving parent or die and hes a very big fan of ultimatums like that.#but he doesn't fully see it like that as jaybin because oh hes a hero and saving others when no one else can is what heros do :)#ramble. ivee been feeling it lately yknow how it is #ive once saw a post saying jason was planning to die after the joker was dead in utrh and yeagh i can see that #he puts A BOMB in his HELMET #suicidal characters in the context of hero stories are so fascinating to me. the self sacrifice.#the not caring about your own safety as long as you save someone else. the pushing yourself #the way itd be so easy to make it look like they just fell in battle. to be considered a hero in the end #anyway ive been glancing at suicidal jason todd fics. how bad is it that im still getting mad about characterization #because theyre not killing him right #AND ANOTHER THING. since im here and i try to avoid making posts about The Character like this so might as welk get it all out #think about suicidal jaybin as well as the fact 80s bruce very much considered suicidal people/people attempting like #weak and lazy? yells at them? i think thats about it. Very Much. je seems to straight up just hate them #again very much feel free to ask me to tag this one ^-^'#and i hope no one thinks im being callous here im very worried about that. i just its a very important part of his character to think about #and its fun to explore as someone who is passively suicidal myself #jason todd analysis #anyway no one look at me i am in my corner just rotating him #WAIT to clarify i dont think jaybin fully realized Just becauceof the heros sacrifice thing. i made it sound like that i believe #anyway. if you read him as suicidal since jaybin times and go to ditf with that lens like i did. well. the post death victim blaming..

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radrattradish · 9 months ago

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sakulee skater au

still think this couple should have been cannon

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