#and every time i do go to take a nap or something i cant force myself to sleep
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listen, I know that depression is more of a chemical thing and while it has triggers it doesn't actually care how good or bad things are, but it's so stupid and disrespectful of my brain to be having a moment when everything is fr going perfectly my way.
also, I may be mildly anemic because I was really prone to iron deficiency as a kid and I'm feeling about how I felt then. and it might also be some general burnout due to things being good and feeling pressure around that. idk. not having fun rn.
#generally mental health is stupid#i can still feel happy in the moment#im not to complete numb apathy yet#(though i do definitely get there a lot)#but im just TIRED!!!!!#more than i know i should be#and i have no appetite no matter how much i know i should eat#and my sleep has been shit#and every time i do go to take a nap or something i cant force myself to sleep#mostly because im afraid ill miss an opportunity to talk to that dude#not that hed care if i told him that i was asleep#but more because i had neglected my social need so heavily for so long#and i do feel so much better when we talk (even now that im feeling not great again)#and i like talking to so few people that i cant really go elsewhere for that need#so id rather skip out on sleep (especially since i get a 'healthy' amount of sleep and tend to oversleep w depression so i dont need it)#than miss out on talking to him#(i say as if i havent ignored his last text for the past hour because i dont have the energy to respond)
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Hiii dear I’ve just found your blog today and Cant help but loving it!!!!
If it’s ok with you can you do a cat-hybrid San who is very needy (and a bit Dom) with the reader cuz he waited long hours at home for reader to get back from her job and he is also jealous
contains: kitty!san x reader, jealous san, dry humping, coming in pants lol
minors dni
It's day 6 of no you doting on him. Yes, San’s keeping track. 6 days of you working over-time and 6 days of neglect. Usually, he’s patient and well-behaved for you, but you seem to have taken his kindness for granted.
Especially now that you arrive every day talking about your newest coworker, the one who’s got you all starry-eyed and fluttering with excitement. Every time you open your mouth there’s no doubt that the name ‘Seonghwa’ will leave your mouth at least once. San thought he was just like a shiny new toy for you at first, but now you return every day with a smile and a ‘Seonghwa said the funniest thing today…’
He huffs to himself at the thought, his black tail swishing in annoyance behind him. A part of him is frustrated with himself for being so possessive, but the stronger part of him thinks of your smile and remembers all the reasons why he’s so possessive. Because you’re a precious thing he needs keep to himself.
How could you so easily forget such a simple rule? Or were you doing this on purpose? Teasing him, making him desperate and needy for you and waiting to see how long it’d take him to break? His face scrunches. No, not at all. He’ll show you what happens when you forget who holds the leash.
When you enter your apartment with the giddiness of seeing San overflowing, it ends when he’s nowhere to be found. You check all of his usual napping spots; by the kitchen window, the couch, and his bed. Your face twists in confusion, an uneasy feeling growing in your gut the more time you go without San. You pull your phone out of your pocket and immediately find ‘sannieboy’ in your phone.
Before you can press the bright green call button, although, you feel his big arms tighten around your figure. He traps you against his muscular body and if the amount of force he’s using is anything to go by, he’s planning to keep you to himself for a long while. Figures, that he’s ready to never let you go.
“You scared me, Sannie,” His breath tickles your neck as he kisses a trail from your jawbone down to your shoulder. He’d told himself he was ready for vindication the moment you entered the apartment, but your scent alone has him folding. His hand runs under your shirt and up your back, the texture of your warm skin soothing him like you’re his medication.
You can already tell somethings up by the way he mouths at you. Like your skin is the first taste of otherworldly nectar, every time. “You made me wait,” You assume San means it in an innocent way, “Oh, Sannie baby, I’m sorry. I’ve just been so busy at work, but I can spend time with you now!”
San squeezes you harder, stopping your attempt to turn around in his arms. “You-“ he pushes you up against the wall, pinning you between the white surface and his burly chest. His chest is heaving and you can feel his tail wrap around your calf, as if to hold you in place. His hips gyrate against yours and now his neediness is in a completely different context, “Made me wait.”
He uses your body like it’s his to play with, grinding his hips onto you senselessly and huffing in your ear at the friction. Hands roam your body, exploring all the parts he knows already. He pushes and pulls on you, in the way he knows you like, just so you can get a taste of the desperation he’s been feeling. His dick rubs between your panties, soaking them and making you just as needy as him now. You stumble through your words, “S-sannie, if I’d known you were in heat, I would’ve-“
His mewl cuts you off before you feel him press himself harder against you. That familiar heat boils inside of you now, the feeling all-consuming.
He shows no signs of stopping, his hips thrusting frantically to chase the sweet release he’s been craving for 6 days.
His voice comes out breathy as he keeps grinding against you, “J-just missed you so much,” He tries to bring you closer, like pressing you right up against himself isn’t enough. When that doesn’t work his hand comes to your front to pull you flush against him, ass directly on his stiff member.
San controls your movements, holding on to you tight as he forgets his strength the closer the he gets to his orgasm. He gives one final thrust, a groan coming out from deep in his body. You can feel his wet pants now, his shaking body, and harsh pants against your ear. You give him a moment to compose himself, his tail loosening it’s hold on your calf.
He’s embarrassed, humiliated with his cum-stained pants, that he couldn’t even wait to undress you. He was just too swept up in the feeling of you that half of him didn’t realize. San only needs you to get rid of the aching burn inside him, and nothing more.
You scratch at his fluffy ears as he catches his breath behind you, “Missed you too.”
San lifts his head to squint at you, “Mm…I’m sure ‘Seonghwa’ was keeping you company.”
You bite your tongue for a minute before deciding against it, “He did, but I missed my Sannie more.”
You smile innocently up at him, his twitching ears and swishing tail a surefire sign that your comment got under his skin. He’s too easy to tease. His eyebrows furrow and wiggle, like he’s trying to force his expression back to normal so you can’t see how annoyed he is by your teasing. You both know the truth.
He tilts his head, “Did he? Keep you company?”
The look on your face frustrates him, but he can’t look away. You frustrate him, but he likes the game you play. Taming and chasing you time and time again, as if you don’t come home to him everyday. He’ll keep playing with you.
#ateez#ateez x reader#ateez imagines#ateez fic#ateez scenarios#ateez oneshot#ateez smut#choi san#san x reader#san smut
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every penny i make and every hour of my day is controlled when my family is in town. i must wake up at 6:30 every day even if I don't go into work until 11, and two days out of the week i have classes that run until 10 pm, so i am getting a non-optimal amount of sleep at least two/5 weekdays. I have been disallowed from taking naps at home for about two years now. They have eyes on my bank account everyday. they "inspect" my room and car everyday. if my car doesn't meet regulation they threaten to take it so i cannot go into work or school. if i do not take my car through a car wash 3/7 days of the week, i get reprimanded. i must have my phone turned off and in the kitchen by 9 latest everyday (i use my laptop in my room afterward but obviously i cant let them catch me) and sometimes it is hidden from me in the morning so that i cannot use it until a list of things is done, often making me late or forcing me to cancel plans. the list is often cleaning up after other people or tasks i couldve gotten done later in the day such as reorganizing the kitchen or trimming all the tall grass around the property that the lawnmower can't reach. i have a curfew 6/7 days of the week. i know its not bad like its entirely liveable but i feel compressed and stressed constantly and i even have this reaction that whenever i hear the garage door opening (meaning my family has come home) i have to make sure the door to my room is open and that im in a different room doing something so they dont think I'm "slacking" or "hiding" even if i was just trying to do homework in my room (sometimes im disallowed from this and sometimes i am not, i can never really tell) and they yell at me like 3 times a day anyway for not spending more time in the living room and hiding from them in my room but they just stress me out so much i want nothing to do with them AUUUUUGH
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Yandere Bully X Reader
Tittle: Prince Charming
It all started when you started going to your new school at 12grade just when your school is about to end but you have no choice but to switch schools because of your living situation. Your dad dies when you were a young age and ever since then your mother was a new person who started to whore herself out and soon enough, she hooks into drugs. Now you are working at a car shop to pay for your trailer home while you also go to school because of this you never bring friends over, not that you have friends anyway. You love learning, its the only things that keeps your mind off of thing but your smartness never go unnoticed by one person, and he was your school bully. Ever since you transfer school his green eyes was set on you. He was known as the troublemaker, drugs dealer of the school but smart when needed to be. He didn't understand why at first why he like you so much but he understands why when he saw you helping pick up books someone drop and you give them a warm smile. It make his pants tight and he cant wait to have fun with you and slowly watch you break because of him. He want to be the reason why you are crying every night.
You sit alone at lunch every day, a table to yourself because it seems like no one wants to be friend with you and hated you. Until a boy with brown hair and deep forest green eyes came your way and sit right in front of you. your cheeks turn a shade of red because of this but not because you have a crush on him but no one care to be your friends and that makes your heart warm. You didn't say no words and continue looking down on your hand in your lap and you think the reason noone want to be your friends is because you are weird and not good on the eyes but to Shawn you were more then what meet the eyes. The past few days you got to know him and his family life and you notice he always seem to have friends unlike you but unknowing to you he have been following you and stalking you home. Weeks later his attitude toward you seem to change and he become more aggressive and mean to you and that kind of hurt because you have grown found of him. One day he lock you into the boys locker room and no one came to help you. He left you there though out the whole night and when he finally come back for you. He saw your eyes filling with tears and your cheeks red from all that crying. You push pass him and you swear on your dead father you never want to see him ever again.
Since that day you stop going to school to give yourself time to think and in those times Shawn really started to miss you deeply. He kind of regret bullying you into tear.
He went to your tailer home that day and for the first time he finally saw how you were living, and he felt guilt in his heart for all the time he push you around like some lost dog. He swear to himself that he would treat you better form now on.
You were in your room, trying to take a nap, tired form all the work you been doing to pay the bills. you lay there with your hair spread out on your pillow, your eyes closed. When suddenly something grabs your ankle and before you can scream the tip of the blade was pressed against your windpipe and a hand cover your eyes. The person behind you press his chest closer to your back before speaking, “ shut up” was all he said before letting his hand fall and you blink your eyes to adjust to the light. “Shawn?” you ask him all confuse while he dig though your closet before you can question him anymore he came back with a piece of cloth in his hand and tied it around your eyes. He told you to turn around but when you didn't turn around he pushed you onto your bed and flip you over and man handling you. Forcing your arms painfully behind your back and then tying them up. You trash around but all that ever help was raise your skirt up and he can now see your black lace underwear. For a monument he just stood behind you before he speaks again, he inhale a deep breath and said
“I want to take you far away from the world.”
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Probably you should write something about divorced ari x babysitter college student! reader. like ari is single and divorce single dad, who is busy with work and needs someone to take care of his daughter. Then BOOOM Babysitter reader comes in to get the job because she need cash!!!! she has hidden crush ari
👀👀👀
Omg i love this concept
Especially if she has a blatant crush on the older man and ari is somewhat oblivious to it bc he would never believe she'd be into him (he's old and damaged goods, after all)
But Ari works a lot and his ex wife has decided to start a new life with her new bf, meaning she doesnt show any interest in seeing her daughter. So you become a bonus mom to the little girl; you're there every day, spending time with her while Ari works. After a while you start to do more chores around the house too, because she needs naps and you have nothing better to do. So you'll prepare dinner, ensuring you keep it warm until he gets home. You clean up around the house and even start doing the laundry when you notice how it piles up.
And his daughter absolutely adores you. She becomes so attached that she throws a fit if you ever leave or isnt around, which makes Ari suggest they turn one of the spare room into one you can stay in when its needed. You happily accept, frankly his house is a lot nicer than that shitty apartment you share with someone you met on craigslist.
Ari super fucking rich, his house is like a damn mansion, and eventually you end up basically living there. It feels natural for him too, he starts buying you things when he notices how you need them (including a new laptop and phone when he realizes yours werent working, and he knows youll eventually want to study so the laptop is needed) as well as giving you a big raise for all you do.
He actually becomes content. He enjoys coming home to you and his daughter, it makes him feel happy and safe. His buddies tease him about how he needs to get out there and start dating, but part of him just doesnt want to. He isn't sure why.
Everything changes when he runs into you as you're about to leave the house on a saturday night, wearing a short dress and high heels. You look absolutely breathtaking, hair and makeup done beautifully.
Ari stops in his tracks, his heart skipping a beat as he looks at you, "You look beautiful, sweetheart. Where are you off to?"
Your cheeks warm at the compliment, your fingers almost trembling when you nervously adjust the dress. "Oh, uh, I have a date tonight.."
You didnt really want to go but your bestfriend had forced you to because she said you needed to get over your obsession with your employer. You cant keep pining after a man twice your age, she had said. Part of you knew it wasnt healthy since Ari didn't seem to return your feelings, but you couldn't help it. To you, he was the perfect man.
"A date?" Ari feels like he's been dropped into the freezing ocean, his entire body tensing. He didn't know you were dating, although he realizes you have every right to. But he doesn't like the thought. "I didn't realize you had a boyfriend."
"I don't," you hesitate, wide doe eyes meeting the cerulean blue of his, "I-Uh, I don't really want to go, my friend is making me.."
Ari's stance relaxes a little at your words, his tone turning more hopeful, "No? If you don't want to go, you shouldn't have to, honey."
Your teeth dig into your bottom lip at the petname, your cheeks feels like they're burning up as your eyes meet his.
He offers you a soft smile, and it makes butterflies tumble around your tummy, your words a breathy whisper when you say, "I like someone else but I'm not sure they like me back.."
Ari swallows thickly, taking a small step closer, "So you're going to forget about this other person?"
You nod timidly, your heart pounding in your chest when he steps even closer, the clean familiar scent of him enveloping you. His hair falls in cascades around his face, the light blue shirt he's wearing have the top three buttons open, revealing some of the dark curly hair adorning his chest.
"Don't you think that's a good idea?" You whisper nervously, inhaling deeply when the smell of him makes your mind swim.
Ari watches you for a moment, his eyes bouncing between yours, and then it's like what happens next is a blur.
His hand grips your waist, pulling you towards him and making you stumble into his chest, one arm wrapping around your waist as he cups your cheek with one large paw of a hand.
His head tilts down to look at you, guiding your face upwards to meet his before he whispers, "text your friend and let her know that you're not going anywhere tonight."
And then he pulls you to him, his beard scratching your skin when his lips glide over yours in a possessive kiss.
#drabble#divorced!ari levinson#babysitter!reader#ari levinson#request#wrote this on my phone so its probably full of errors lmao
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Negligent-rebellious is a great term that sums up the whole 8-9 line. 9s express anger through neglecting and avoiding things. It’s like a big passive aggressive “fuck you, look at my autonomy, I’m not doing this thing you’re forcing me to do!” (even if the 9 isn’t actually being forced). It’s a tantrum without even expending energy on throwing a tantrum. How genius, right? To 3s who are utterly obsessed with “showing up” even if it is showing up to stupid bullshit—and most shit we show up to in this world is very stupid bullshit that we only show up to because alien lizards force us to—this 9 avoidant behavior comes off as very weird and confusing… even self-hating.
in actuality, 9 avoidance is an expression of anger and sovereignty and ultimate self-importance. 9 avoidance is a statement of “you don’t matter to me” “this thing doesn’t matter to me” “I’m better than this thing” “I don’t need this thing to get by”. this is a statement that other types seem terrified of making, yet 9s can’t help making it constantly. a lot of types cant even seem to admit to themselves when something doesn’t really matter to them. There’s guilt (looking at you superego types) and fear of being a loser (YES IM LOOKING AT YOU 3S) in embracing your own apathy… this is the one thing 9s do with total conviction.
3s need to learn from the avoidant “I’m gonna go take a nap instead” “fuck you I’m not attending your stupid bullshit” 9 that they are sovereign beings who are allowed to not care, rather than slaves to what everyone else wants them to be.
as for 9s, we are perfect the way we are and we don’t need to change because we are the last bastion of freedom against the 538 alien lizards that control our lives and try to enslave us it does make us feel miserable, helpless and self-hating after a while if we keep avoiding everything and pretending it’s freedom. We are avoiding things to express our anger against said things, and to protect our energy rather than fight every injustice we see (if we did that, we would be literally fighting petty bs all the time). But we need to fight some things… and 9s who get too used to the avoidance tactic that is signature of this type, end up losing their ability to fight at all. the answer to stop avoiding things that are better confronted, is to recognize that your presence matters, aka your presence can have impact on the outcome of all these things that make you so righteously angry. so it is best to show up and have the courage to try and impact things, like an assertive 3 would. The way 9 discerns what to show up to and what to use the signature avoidance tactic on, is through using the line to 6, center of intellectual discernment.
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UMUMUM *shakes sputters shakes sputters*
HI IM THAT ANON THAT REQUESTED U DRAW MOONJUMPER THAT ONE TIME *i still cry in happiness abt that everyday btw thank you!!!*
BUT UHH...CANN U TELL ME MORE ABT UR THOUGHTS ON SWEETENED DEAL? (Snatcher x Cooking Cat) I THINK ITS REALLY CUTE OKAY BYE THANK YOU! *peddles away on my Dora big wheel bike*
oh hello :) im glad you liked that drawing! & sure ^_^ glad you like it too
i commonly see it interpreted as snatcher n cc acting as hats parents and while that's sweet its not how i see it at all. i like them a lot more as her adult friends who take care of her every now and then but ultimately leave and trust her to handle her stuff, not taking that much responsibility. im not sure what thatd entail but older sibling snatcher (to hat) is kind of fun i guess. EMPRESS IS BOWS AUNT FOREVER THOUGH this im hellbent on.
ok i think i wanna talk about how ccs relationship w hat n snatcher developed. i always thought of cc as someone hat is the most verbal with, relying everything that's happened to her to him. while enthralled, proud and concerned, i dont think ccs that protective of her, hes shown to be much less responsible than people usually write her as tbh. she trusts hats capabilities n skills but still definitely recognizes that she is a child in need of support, and shes certainly warm and affectionate with her, but at the same time its not intruding or obligate, like a parents affection.
i think cc would be somewhat intrigued by what's up w snatcher because their behavior is so puzzling, probably especially so from hats retellings. once snatcher becomes a regular on hats ship (not his territory=cant assert hinself as much as he does in forest), where they probably meet, i dont think shed be intimidated at all, because i dont honestly think hed try to create that impression (it certainly didn't in the cut cafe scene. like, youd expect them to force someone to pay for them, but they're just kinda docile. they cant even get the people around them to answer their question lol)
i think snatchers like immediately completely pacified by ccs presence. i dont think theyd speak at all either. its lije those silent films where you have to rely on expressions and body language to tell what means what. its a little funny abd disarming because its clear they DO want to get something across, and thats a friendly gesture. it signals engagement abd cintact being established. snatcher would probably struggle with non scripted speech so this sort of communication would probably feel the least threatening. also would add to their already strange and interesting image in ccs mind
while idk how likely snatchers would be to actually do that ive been imagining him curling up in the pillows and napping only to wake up to cc sleeping either on top of or near them, since cuddle piles are probably common among cats + ccs impulsive. they probably would straight up forget to react. maybe they wake up to cc kneading them, make eye contact. one of them remembers cat social cues and slow blinks. other one slow blinks back. snatcher lies back down allowing itself to be kneaded. cc lies down on it. it changes position to be closer to it. not a single word said the whole time. its never brought up again but not forgotten.
uhh if they do eventually begin dating and hats there to witness it she probably wouldnt care much. bow would go awwwww Aawww though. mu is disappointed in ccs taste but probably warms up to snatcher eventually since they have a lot in common + snatcher mu friendship real and important to me
Ok this is not all but ill stop now. hope you enjoyed :) thank you for the ask. i really really loved dora the explorer as a kid
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hi.
have you had water today? If not, drink a glass! if that's a no then i'm still so happy you're awake today^^
have you brushed your teeth today? if you don't feel up to it, just wash your mouth out with water! and even if that's a no then i'm still so proud of you. when was the last time you slept? do you need a nap? if so! take a nap <33 take care of yourself darlin!
did you eat today? just a few nibbles is wonderful! i'm so proud of you for it. and even if you can't, even if that's not something you can do at the moment m proud of you for readin this^^
did you take meds if you have em? if not, then you likely should! if you just can't in general, even if that cant is never then m proud that you tried at some point, you never have to force yourself into it! try and ease into it because they should help <33
you aren't going through anything alone, you have me and your friends and most importantly, yourself to depend on. you don't gotta fight every battle, we can take some of them <33 make sure to take a breather when doing hard things and remember that for everything you've done, you deserve affection, but even if you don't feel that way, love is not something that needs to be earned in the first place!
lovelies, i'm so fucking proud of you for giving anything you have, if that anything is only 1% then i am so so proud of you for giving it. I know you're sad, angry or upset or frustrated or scared but i'm so so fucking proud of you for being you. just for that! m so proud of who you are, and who you're gonna be! love you my dears, take care of yourself the very best you can for me? mk? or at least try because that's all that i can ask you to do <333
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see, its not just the fact that waking up and meals are on a schedule. its the fact that I've been awake from 3am, waiting for breakfast to start. if i asked real nicely, i probably could make myself bread or something. but im not supposed to. what im supposed to do, is somehow stop myself from waking up too early, and then eat breakfast at the appointed time. like. this is exactly why the routine i "learned" never carries over when I stay at home. because im finally fucking free to do what i want. also is this a silly emoticon <|3{ its a wizard with a mustache. or is it spelled moustache. i forgot. anyway yeah so i have a horrible headache from hunger and lack of sleep. and I fucking hate the fact that society is not going to change fast enough for me to be allowed to keep my sleep schedule natural. im going to have to force it. or kill myself. tbh I hate the fact that summer break is the long one, because if it was winter break, id do much better. like literally, its a nice sentiment to let kids enjoy the summer, but logistically it does not work at all. like it definetly should be in winter, because it gets so dark that your sleep schedule gets messed up. like id so so much better if school was in summer, cuz thats when my sleep schedule really matches what school needs. and actually the transition seasons too. winter is like the one thing that makes my sleep schedule be whatever the school doesnt like. and its so stupid that im expected to just suck it up. its so stupid that everyone is expected to suck it up. to put up with everything they hate about life. if I asked adults why my sleep schedule has to be the way it is, theyd just say "because thats how the world is". and that is so fucking frustrating. just becauae the world is a certain way, doesnt mean it should be like that. it doesnt mean its right. and it does not mean that its an unchanging fact. like I know that im mentally ill. but that does not mean that every single problem i have is related to that. i would like it if all of my problems were met with equal consideration. instead of just dismissing some completely and telling me to suck it up. for some reason its not a surprise at all if i need medication to fall asleep, and its not really a problem if I have to continue to take it because my body never learns to fall asleep when im supposed to. but if I cant wake up when im supposed to? that is entirely my own problem. i need to force myself to wake up at the right time. you know how you are famously concious when youre asleep, and can decide when to wake up? yeah do that. and if keeping up this forceful sleeping schedule is exhausting you and giving you horrible day time fatigue? well suck it up. maybe try excercise. are you eating well? its that darn phone youre always on. you just have to get used to it. it'll become a habit in 5 years and then itll be much easier don't worry. yeah winter does that to you. dont worry, winter is famously a really short time in finland. do you take vitamins? whens the last time you had your iron levels checked?
its always about making my life conform, and never about finding ways to make it more parallel to the rest of the world. you could take daytime naps? but then you cant sleep at night, which is a huge crime and means that something is wrong with you.
why did I agree to this. my depression is going to flare up so fucking quickly.
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I'm not sure if I made the request correctly.. Could you write "Soap", "Ghost" and "Alejandro" with a flirtatious male reader? I would like obscenity, but I'm not forcing it. :)
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I did my best! I suck at writing flirting so I apologize 😭 AND I LITERALLY CANT FIND A PHOTO FOR THIS 💀
Heartstrings
Pairings: John ‘Soap’ Mactavish x Male Reader, Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley x Male Reader, Alejandro Vargas x Male Reader
Summary: You got dared by your dear friend Gaz to go mess with the hearts of the ones that got eyes for you.
Warnings: Intended Sexual Actions with Consent, Really bad flirting(?)
Word count: 974
You were bored all day, sitting in a small lounge room with Gaz. “Got anything to do Gaz?” You groaned, rubbing your eyes with a hand, you weren’t tired, otherwise you would’ve already been passing time napping, and you didn’t feel like working out either.
Gaz looked up at you, a playful smirk on his lips, “Why not pull some heartstrings today? It’s always a great time.. usually..” Gaz snickered. “Heartstrings ey?” You thought aloud, rubbing your chin in a way. “Course! Some men around here are just dying for your attention if you haven’t noticed, there’s been some competition.” Gaz laughed, leaning back in his seat with a thump. “You’ve got to be kidding me, give me names and I’ll play that sick game of heartstrings” You smirked, “Game on!”
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“First stop..” You murmured, knocking on Soap’s door, you waited a moment, respectfully waiting. According to Gaz, Soap was head over heels for a man like you, almost tripping over his own feet every time he saw you. “Come in.” His rough voice answered from behind the door. You welcomed yourself in with a smile, shutting the door behind you. Soap hadn’t realized who it was that entered so he just continued on with his paperwork. “Paperwork huh?” You hummed, taking a seat on his desk, Soap eyed you before looking up at your face, eyes softening and a smile growing onto his face. “Yeah.. better with you around here” Soap spoke with a small chuckle.
“Why do the paperwork when you have me around here? Would’ve dropped my plans for a pretty man like you.” You snickered lowly as red began to seep into Soap’s cheeks. “Need to get it done..” Soap grumbled. “C’mon, you’re a handsome man, yet you’re wasting energy on bothersome work instead of the fine men and ladies all around” You smirked as he got more red, Soap surely does like the compliments.
He pushed his stuff to the side, sliding himself over to you, wrapping his arms around your hips as he face planted into your waist, lifting up your shirt slightly to kiss your scars, the warmth of his lips making you whine.
“Gonna waste the rest of it on someone like you, because god you’re so distracting..”
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You stumbled out of Soap’s room, clothes a little disheveled with a sly smile, straightening your posture before walking to the lounge, seeing Gaz still sitting there with a book now. “Soap down, two more to go” You grinned, “Get em boy!” Gaz laughed as you walked off.
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You seemed to have forgotten what you’ve got yourself into, seemingly lost in thought as you walked down the hallway. You almost fell back as you bumped into someone, if it wasn’t for the arm that snaked around your waist in seconds to catch you, you would’ve hit the ground and the two of you could’ve gotten a nice laugh out of it.
“You alright there?” Alejandro asked, looking down at you before pulling you up straight to stand on your own feet. “Distracted.” You replied as Alejandro nodded in understanding. “Care to talk about it?”
Alejandro was the one you could rely on, usually about stressful situations between missions that could really piss you off, unlike Soap, who you would go to for some love and jokes.
You remembered your dare or deal with Gaz, a smile plastering on your face. “You’ve been on my mind y’know?” You walked towards him as Alejandro looked at you with blush on his cheeks, opening his mouth to say something but you cut him off. “Perfectly built for a good time..” You smirked, pulling him close by his shirt, “You look like you could use one..”
Alejandro held onto your waist, glancing around before sighing, “You’re one sick man..” “Always am..”
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You walked back to Gaz in the lounge, taking a seat on the opposite couch. “Last one?” Gaz asked as he looked up from his book. “Yeah..” You breathed, a sigh leaving your lips, “Don’t know how to pull Ghost’s strings now do I?” You murmured, your plans almost ruined with how little faith you had. “C’mon he’ll open up.. Speaking of the devil.” Gaz smiled as Ghost entered the room, mask on, eyeing the two of you before settling on the other end of your couch.
“You ever taken that thing off?” You huffed as you looked over at him, meeting his eyes, you weren’t gonna back down, you’ve already made it this far. “No. Never thought about taking it off for people like you.” Ghost murmured. “Not even for a loved one?” Ghost shook his head in reply, “He’d rather let the world see his dick before his face.” You laughed as Gaz snickered along with you. Ghost growled lowly before Gaz stood up, “I’m taking my leave, see you around, both of ya” Gaz spoke before leaving.
“That’s no fun.” You huffed, “Are you insecure Ghost?” You turned to him, gesturing to the mask. “Hardly with all the people around here.” “Care to show me pretty boy?” You smirked as Ghost squinted his eyes at you, “Been playing with everyone today, what’s your deal?” Ghost sighed, trying to change the topic. “Bored as hell, but with all these good men around me , can’t hurt to play a game.” You shrugged with a smile. “Then I’ll show you a game of heartstrings you won’t regret darling.” Ghost cooed as he turn to pin you to the couch, “We’ll see how pretty you’ll be fucked out after this.” “I’d like to see you try!”
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At the end of your game of heartstrings, you can’t decide on who to cut off and who to keep pulling, but for now, you need sleep after a whole day of loving and fucking behind closed doors.
Who will be the one of your attraction?
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Can we talk more about omega!Max and resisting his omega instincts? I feel like Max would have some internal shame about a) being an omega and b) acting like an omega which meant that his instant response would be to deny himself the comfort that he really needs. And he’s probably been doing it for years - he’s so repressed and he really needs a bit of loving. But then you come along and you help Max to see that there’s nothing to be ashamed of and you help him to start indulging in those instincts - you encourage him and praise him and he starts to love it? I think the first time you got him to nest with you, he’d be so overwhelmed he’d just cry and cry, letting out years of repression. Gradually and with your help, he’d become so much more accepting of his omega side and he’d finally get all of the comfort he’d secretly needed for so long.
Yes of course we can! I love how every time we bring up the omega verse, everyone gravitates towards omega!max. as we should, honestly.
I'm making this that you work for red bull in some capacity, but I also have a whole idea for you being omega!max's neighbour that we can discuss if you guys would like.
So yeah, max absolutely struggles to accept that he's an omega, and that he has very stereotypically omega desires. I actually think that at his core, max really is the stereotypical omega. He wants to be loved and cared for and make nests and have all his pack in the nests and wants to submit to an alpha and is sensitive and all of that.
Which actually makes it so much worse.
Because it's not like his designation is omega, but he doesnt want to do all those omega things. Because he does. He wants to so bad. Yes he wants to race and win, but he wants to celebrate the win by crawling into a nest so bad his chest aches.
He pushes all those instincts down, refuses to acknowledge them except when in heat because then, he cant do anything about them.
And then you come along.
I think all the other alphas max encountered before you took one of two ways when dealing with him: they either treated him like another alpha or beta or they tried to force him to change.
You did neither.
You were just so... soft with him?
He acted all harsh and almost alpha like with you, as he did with everyone else. And you responded by smiling and speaking to him so softly, like one would speak to a frightened pup and poor max had no idea what to do.
You get to know him better, having genuine conversations with him and never trying to get him to change.
But you do make sure to complement max all the time, treating him like he's something previous and worth protecting even though he doesnt act like it all.
Of course this causes max's instincts to go absolutely insane, because there's a nice alpha giving him attention! Nice alpha that seems to like him!
As for getting him to accept his instincts, I think he might see you embracing omega typical behaviour? Like he walks into your hotel room for something and he sees your bed has so many blankets and pillows and it looks so soft.
It actually has more blankets and pillows than max's bed, and omegas are supposed to make nests to help them sleep.
After he sees your bed, he cant stop thinking about how comfortable it would be. He tries to sleep on his bed that night, with his single pillow and duvet and he just cant get comfortable.
His instincts wont settle, making him feel like a terrible omega for not having a pretty nest to show the alpha that's been so good for him.
And maybe max ends up napping on your bed? He doesnt intend to but he's so tired and he ends up knocking on your hotel room door the next night, instead of opening his own door.
You let him in of course, encouraging him to cuddle up in your blankets and even offering to let him take some blankets back to his hotel room.
From there, it gets easier.
It's never easy, but it's easier.
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faye's personal hcs
y/n is having an online lecture and how your boyfriend characters react to it
faye: helloooo everyone i just woke up and i have a hc in mind that I'd like to write and hopefully you guys would like it!!
reminder: your boyfriend is rated 18+ so if youre a minor please do not play it and respect the creator's wishes! i myself am a minor and as much as i want to play it i do not intend on breaking fuboo's heart ;;
tagsss: @invertedmindinc
🍬PETER insert your name for peter🍬
"you're up early- what are you doing?"
upset that you're busy for the rest of the morning and you can't have breakfast with him like usual
makes you great coffee
sits next to you and observes you
you tell him to go ahead and watch the television instead of distracting you
1 minute later, "Y/N DARLING,, IM BOREDDD"
hangs around and constantly stealing kisses from you, sniffing you eveywhere
you're forced to turn on your microphone to ask a question and hush peter down
because of your clumsiness, you forget to turn off your mic and everyone can hear you and hornee peter down the other end of the line
"miss l/n, please do your dirty talk another time"
you aggressively shake peter off your arm and quickly turn off your mic, feeling flustered with a light blush on your cheeks
"peter you are so done for-"
🐯lucy🐯
"AW BABES WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME YOU HAD AN ONLINE LECTURE??? I CANCELLED ALL MY PLANS FOR NOTHING ;(("
invites her "study buddy" over
they were so loud that you couldn't focus on your online lecture
quickly slip yourself into the kitchen to get a quick snack
when you thought they were in lucy's room but never mind they're making out on the countertop
"seriously guys?! i have an online lecture and cant you be considerate enough to shut your asses up-"
they look at each other and start it all over again
you groan and escape from the kitchen, feeling grossed out
🐢TK🐢
"how's my little study hard buddy doin'?"
brings in food every single 30 minutes to make sure you're full of energy
doesn't bother to stay in your room to avoid distracting you
"hey y/n! i need to go out to get more groceries! will you be okay alone?"
they come back home with an ice cream bowl in hand for you: banana split with two scoops of chocolate and a scoop of vanilla with hot fudge on the vanilla and sprinkles on both scoops of chocolate
"a little something to cheer your busy day up ///"
for your 30 minute break both of you spend time playing video games and sharing your banana split
"im stealing the last scoop of this ice cream" they grin
👤don williams👤
"what do you think you're doing up early in the morning?"
grunts because you disturbed his morning sleep by breaking a plate
slowly struts back into his bedroom to continue his beauty sleep
your lecture ends earlier than expected and you consider making coffee for yourself and don
you find don sitting at the balcony
both of you are having short chats but mostly staring at the view ahead of you
don takes his laptop to finish up some errands and promises to spend movie night with you
you leave him to his work and curled yourself in bed for a nap
#your boyfriend peter#your boyfriend game#your boyfriend lucy#your boyfriend tk#your boyfriend don#your boyfriend don williams#faye's last night produced hcs#lol#tumblr#tumblr creator#creator#poet#poetry#hcs#headcanons
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Self-Confidence tips and tricks! 💅🌹🌹
Advice from Witches! 🔮
🌸🔮🌸🔮🌸🔮🌸🔮🌸🔮🌸🔮🌸🔮🌸🔮
Okay, so guys I wanted to do something different! 😍
I wanted to give you tips and tricks on how to FEEL beautiful, pretty, sexy, cute, most of the time because you already ARE THAT, a fucking QUEEN / KING!!! 👑👑👑
Now first of all, I want to make it clear that I don't care how low is your confidence or what anyone said to you, because seeing and reading this is already a sign that Universe/God wants to make it clear to you that you are everything best and that you deserve it! 🌌
Every single thing, In this Universe, is perfectly and geometrically made with great balance. And so ARE YOU! You are That! You are the great balance, the light and the dark, the life force, energy that can never be destroyed, part of EVERYTHING and nothing, inside of all, you are the divine blood! 🌠
And no words can explain the love and everything that you are, only you can feel it. When you look at yourself and see that you are here, right at this moment, looking at your eyes, nothing else matters, because you went through this life with hardships and ease, darkness and light, and now you know, that you truly are invincible ❤
Okay LETS GO WITH THE TIPS AND TRICKS FROM YOUR WITCH! 😍
🔮 Whenever you feel very negative about urself and cant seem to stop it, the best way is to not try to stop it but to actually do something for yourself! Like taking a nap or taking a shower! When you take a shower, make a SEA SALT body scrub, it is easy, but some sea salt and oil from ur choice!
If you have extra time, take a bath and put frequency music or nature music!
The ingredients or essential oils that are great for taking out the blockages and negativity are : lavender, lemon, mint, sea salt, rosemary, sandalwood, tea tree oil! 🌸🌹
Now, here come the specifcs. If you are willing to raise your confidence, the ingredients are: RED OR PINK ROSES(roses posses the highest frequency of all flowers 🌹), sheep milk🐑 (yes I am serious, pour a bit of it into ur bath, Cleopatra used this), olive oil 🍸, peaches 🍑 (body lotion), chamomile, strawberries, raspberries, cotton flowers, mango. 🍓
So we got the ingredients, and you can try this any time and it will def work!
But when you have EXTRA time wait for the full moon! 🌝 One night before the full moon find a pot, and pour the ingredients you chose for the bath, and mix them all together in a pot with water. Cook them on a lower heat and say your affirmations. 🛀 Talk to the water!!! Feel every word you speak! Say thank you when you finish! Don't forget the music! 🎵🎶
But the frequency one! Here are the frequencies:
396Hz - The root chakra - grounding, financial stability, abundance - transforming grief into joy
417Hz - The sacral chakra - love, sexuality, creativity, femininity - removes subconcious blockages
528Hz - The solar plexus chakra - confidence, will power - repairs DNA and stimulates love
639Hz - The heart chakra - emotions, , connection - strenghtens relationships and relationship with yourself
741Hz - The throat chakra - communication, freedom, expressions - clears toxins from the body
852Hz - The third eye chakra - intuition, the big picture - helps you return to the balance
963Hz - The crown chakra - connection to the universe, awakening from the of separation which means "WE ARE ALL ONE"
After this do your ritual! Bath your whole self! Enjoy it! Sing! Then go to sleep having your curtains open on the full moon! 🌝 So it's energy can stimulate you even more! Now, if you want more masc energy, just do it on the day! 🌞
Thanks for reading!!!! 🔮❤🔮❤😍🔮❤
#astrogirl#astrology notes#astrology#witch#advice#spells#tricks#tips#confident#confidence#queen#king#universe#spirituality#aries#taurus#gemini#cancer#leo#virgo#libra#scorpio#sagittarius#capricorn#aquarius#pisces#lifestyle#positive quotes
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Hi! I saw your requests open and I wanted to ask you for headcanons of the brothers with an F!MC who is a huge fan of a male singer and like she devotes to him as much as Levi to TSL.
If you can do this,thank you. Have a good day♥
DEMON BROTHERS’ REACTIONS TO YOUR OBSESSION WITH A HUMAN MALE SINGER
Thank you so much for your request! I actually really, really like this idea!
Lucifer
the most likely to not really care on the surface
mature enough to understand that you like what you like
also knows that this is fairly normal for human women
don’t underestimate the jealous notes though
his pride will step in the way and he’ll grandstand
your singer does charity? yeah, well, lucifer looks after each of his underlings individually
this guy really into singing ballads? lucifer knows so many more sad songs
dyes his hair every comeback? so what, black hair is classic
at the end of the day, a soft kiss to his forehead and reassurance will take down his blood pressure anxieties
“I don’t mean to be jealous, MC, but you do get carried away for this man”
but, as he does with Levi, he leaves you to enjoy your hobby
Mammon
"No way, MC, I’m also totally a fan of this guy, too!”
2 people but 0 braincells
he’s a liar though
literally has never even seen this guy before
But Mammon is jealous and you are his
Therefore, it is only true if Mammon accompanies you to all his concerts, meet n greets, and merch stock ups
Its when Mammon refuses to let you get a shirt with the singer’s face on it do you finally understand
rightfully so, you’re mad
Until Mammon comes around with a sincere apology
to make it up to you, he secretly spends at least a month getting to know the singer in person in the human realm in a genuine way
and sets up a personal concert just for you
continues to be a really good boyfriend to you and a fun friend to singer
Leviathan
completely understands
The only thing is
Levi’s envy is the worst of them all
But this dude is a singer, is handsome, is confident
Levi might end being very bitter and self-sabotaging bc of this
“No, i understand, MC, h-he’s very good looking”
“You’re staying here with me tonight, MC!” he demands a bit
“You can’t go to him! He’s such a normie!”
holds your hand and cries cause he’s terribly insecure
but doesn’t want to stop you bc he knows what its like
you have to force him to open up
and the conversation goes a lot better than either of you anticipate with apologies, tears, and kisses all over the face
afterwards, Levi is probably the most likely to purchase you tickets
Satan
cant and doesnt want to understand
“He’s just a human, MC, I’ve heard angels sing before” Satan says as he rolls his eyes
“That’s so much money for a concert, MC, you’re as bad as Mammon and Levi!”
it takes some coaxing, but you get Satan to listen to the best album this guy has
and Satan will overanalyze the crap outta this album
but the result is a bit eye-opening
on a sad song, Satan admits that he’s jealous and that at first he didn’t know what to do with this anger
He’ll realize he’s being an ass
Most likely to listen to you all day and night being genuinely enthused
bc after all, this human singer just has your ear but Satan knows he has your heart
Asmodeus
the pettiest of the bunch
if you’re into sex, this man will attempt to make love while you play his music
just to make you forget about the singer
if you’re not, he’ll talk over the music
maybe even pull out your earbuds so he can tell you about the latest devilgram story he saw
after some intervention talk, Asmodeus will admit that this man is handsome and talented
“But not as gorgeous as me” he trails off, looking directly in your eyes
“Or you, for that matter,” he says as he presses his lips on yours
Genuine apologies and sore loser syndrome but Asmodeus backs off
Because nothing makes him happier than seeing you enjoy everything life has to offer
to him, that’s the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen
Beelzebub
doesn’t really care at first when you start playing his music all the time
might even hum the songs you play most frequently when he’s working out
things start to get a bit icy when you miss out on his fangol game for a concert
Beel’s stomach aches like crazy and for the several hours you’re gone, nothing in the kitchen satisfies him
its a deep rolling fire in the pit of his belly
but Beel doesn’t like it at all
when you get home, he’ll tackle you and all your collected merch
“Next time, take me with you, MC” he pleads
He’ll lay you down in his bed and tell you how lonely it was at his game because he couldn’t see you in the stands
he just hates how it makes him feel icky and jealous
of all the brothers, Beel handles your obsession the best
emotionally intelligent Beel time
Belphegor
of all the brothers, he genuinely cares the least
why should he be concerned when humans are temporary and Belphie is a demon?
its when you start bringing the body pillows, the pajama shirts, and listen to his music at night does a sort of sadistic streak burst through
Belphie will actually encourage you to play it more and louder
bc well he thinks you’ll grow tired of the other human really fast
he’s surprised when it doesn’t work
also realizes this was a pretty shitty thing of him to want
because its something you like
so he’ll pull you in for a nap but respectfully request that you don’t play his music
nuzzles into your neck and whispers
“I’m not entirely comfortable with how consumed you are with him but it makes you happy, right?”
a really good conversation about boundaries and feelings
a very, very, very long nap after
#obey me scenarios#obey me demon bros#obey me lucifer#obey me mammon#obey me leviathan#obey me satan#obey me asmodeus#obey me beelzebub#obey me belphegor#obey me requests
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How Do I Unlove You
I love you. With all that I am and all that I have. Unfortunately, it’s never enough. It’s not enough for you to let me in your life and make me a part of it. It’s not enough for you to respect me. It’s not enough for you to properly love me.
I am so tired of writing about you. I am so tired of writing these words because I know it won’t matter, because I know they’re all repetitive. Because I know, at the end of the day, you don’t care.
I thought this was it, I thought we finally had it right, we are finally working things out. You’re starting to open up and be more communicative, but what happened? You snapped at me. For something so little. I keep replaying what happened. I spent a whole day grieving about my grandma, whom I was missing so much because of the holidays, I wasn’t even able to bring myself out of bed until my family had to physically drag me out of bed to force the festivities to me. But I made sure that I messaged you the very moment that the clock struck 12 for you, I didn’t let a whole day pass. I guess it’s wrong of me to not have communicated how I felt but why are you allowed to not message me the whole day and I’m expected to be understanding of it when you’re sad but I’m not? Then I woke up the next morning where you haven’t even opened my messages. I tried ringing you because I thought you were just napping because you usually do during that time, I didn’t know you were with your family. Because since we got back together, you would let me know if you have plans even when I’m asleep. I rang you multiple times because I thought I just needed to wake you up. I didn’t know. But the way you talked to me felt as if I am the world’s shittiest person ever, for wanting to talk to you. You sounded so condescending and demeaning, which was uncalled for.
I was gonna let it go but it hurt so much, on top of my grieving. I brought up how I felt and you said “we’re done then.”. I tried to ring you to talk but you refused. What was I supposed to do with that? Of course take it to heart.
Just because I brought up how your words would sometimes hurt me, you ended it.
I cant believe I’ve allowed you to hurt me this way again. I was doing good, I was slowly being myself again. But I messaged you back and decided to give us a shot, you sounded sincere, that you are truly changed. I silenced every single doubt and every person who said I shouldn’t because I love you, because I wanted to make it work. Even if I was still hurting from what you’ve previously put me through. I decided to put it behind me because of my love for you. But nothing changed, because if it was truly changing then you wouldn’t revert back to the pervious hurtful you.
What hurt most is that you used my mental illness against me just to prove your point in a petty argument. That was the most painful thing I’ve ever heard in my whole existence, because I trusted you, I trusted that our relationship was a safe space. When you apologized, I said it’s okay because I wanted to keep the peace even if I was still hurting over it. Because I love you. Because I want to be with you.
I don’t know what words to use or what to say to express how I feel right now because it will all be redundant, because this is the very same pain you put me thorugh before. Except this time, it’s worse.
I’ve never wanted anyone in my life like this before, I’ve never imagined having a future with anyone but you came along. I wanted it all with you -the white pickett fence, the school drop offs, the mundane house chores, the quiet days, the loud days, the happy days, all of the days. I wanted endless future with you. I wanted you so bad.
You know what’s worse? I would do it all again. I would take you back in a heartbeat. Even if it’s bad for me. Even if it’s bad for us.
So how do I move on from this? How do I move on from you? How do I unlove you? Please tell me because I can’t continue loving someone who loves to hurt me. Because I cant continue breaking my own heart. Every single day, I have to pretend that I’m okay. I have to pretend that you don’t exist. I have to pretend that I am not hurting, that I’m not breaking down. All I want is to reach out to you, to feel you again, to love you again.
So tell me, how do I stop loving you? Please. I need answers. I cant keep breaking my own heart. I am nothing but pieces now.
#ex#unsent letters#letters unsent#moving on#break up#love letter#break up letter#unsent#unsent message#unsent messages
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TW: gore!, blood, knives, rope burns, sadism, begging, aggression, abuse, body horror, minor cannibalism
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- Wilbur x Reader
- Reader POV
I sit on old wooden chair wearing nothing but my underwear and a loose white t-shirt. my hands and feet tied with rope that burned my wrists and ankles. my hands and feet fastened tightly behind and under the chair. The secluded room is dimly lit and the only things other than the chair I’m sitting on in the middle of the room is a light bulb handing from the ceiling like in a janky janitors closet at your high school, and a steel cabinet table with sinister looking tools on it. Gives me chills just knowing it was there. My legs are trembling. What the fuck is happening. I try to scream for Wilbur but no noise comes out. I have a fucking cloth in my mouth?!
I spit it out. “Wilbur?! I’m trapped down here come help me, please!”
After screaming for a good 10 minutes i snap my jaw shut as i watch as a tall figure treads down the stairs. The dim light shines off of his Circle glasses which are hanging off of the neck of his sweater. As he gets closer the white streak in his hair glistens in the dim light.
“You’re finally awake!” Wilbur beamed, “How was your little nap pumpkin?”
“Not great. Can you untie me now please?” I plead, looking up at who i thought was my lover with glossy eyes.
“Oh no honey, we’ve only just begun!” He grabs my chin and kisses me lightly.
What the fuck is happening right now. “Will… Please untie me.” I pull my face away.
“Oh but I’m having fun!” He chuckles as he walks over to the table and grabs something small. I cant quite make out what it is due to the liquid perking at the corners of my eyes.
He turns around slowly as a petrifying grin carves into his cheeks. Chills rush down my spine as he amble back to the chair and crouches next to me. His knees pop. I soon figured out that the small object he grabbed was a scalpel. He drags it up and down my thigh. Goose-bums spread over my body. My legs start to tremble as my eyes drip warm, salty water.
“Wilbur please…” I beg, “I just wa-“
My speech ceased. I felt a sharp sensation slide down my thigh a few inches long. I try to scream but before even a second of noise could escape my lips a hand was snapped over my mouth. Wilbur was staring at the incision he made into my thigh as he covered the lower half of my face. Tears roll down my face as i whimper into Wilburs hand.
“God you’re so pretty when you cry.~” He coos, sliding the blade down my thigh once perpendicular to the other line, crossing it. I whine again, my tears doubling themselves with every mewl.
He carves o’s and 7’s into my legs and arms every time i whine. The more he carves, the more i wail.
“W-why…” I question looking up at him. “Why are you doing this.. I thought you loved me.”
“Oh darling,” His tall figure towers over me, “I do! I love you so much in fact, I want to make sure you see my face when you die!” He leers as he rises and strolls back to the table.
“I don’t want to die.” I cry, dropping my head to stare at the ground.
“Oh love,” He clicks his tongue whilst he walks back with his hands behind his back, “I don’t care! You’re mine. I’ll do what i please.” He chuckles into a cough as he couches down and puts whatever he was holding under my chair. I try to look but he grabs my face and forces me to look at him.
As soon as he lets go of my face he pulls a dented pack is cigarettes out of his pocket. He slides the dreaded paper stick filled with tobacco, laced with nicotine, out of the off white and red pack. He sticks it in his mouth and pulls out his lighter. He flips open his silver zippo lighter he stole from fill when he was nine and a half and puts a flame to the fag. “Ohh~ that’s good.” He groans.
“Want a drag?” He asks as he takes the coffin nail out of his mouth.
I give a small nod and he puts it in my mouth. I take a puff before he transfers the snout from my lips to his.
“Thanks.” I mutter.
“Of course my love, it’s the least i could do for my dying partner.” He takes another drag and kisses me, pushing the smoke into my mouth.
I inhale deeply. “Yeah,” I chuckle, “I’m starting to feel a little woozy Will…”
He snickers. “Oh i’m sorry… maybe this will make it better,” He flashes an unnerving smile and crouches in front of me maintaining eye contact, grabbing what he placed under my chair earlier. He picks up a large knife and presses the side of the blade against my neck, “My, my, my… You are so stunning.”
My eyes are half open, I look as if i haven’t slept in days.
“All cut up. Just for me…~” He bites his lip and moves the blade as he lifts my shirt up. He begins slowly carving his name into my stomach. I wince but i don’t have the energy to scream or fight at all.
“You look so amazing slit up for me,~” He announces as he licks the knife clean, “You taste amazing too!~” He takes another drag off of his smoke before he flicks off the extra ash onto my stomach and puts it out on my neck. I hiss in pain. I look up at him as he stands.
“Fuck you.” I spit at him. Oh fuck it’s blood—
“Oh you wish you could. But, no can do!” He giggles, “I am asexual you know.”
“Yeah. I know,” I roll my half open eyes, “Why are you doing this then? Isn’t sadism a kink?”
“Oh no! Nor a chance!” He gasped, “I’m doing this for you sugar!”
“Wh-“ My words were stopped by an agonizing pain in my side. “AAAUGH FUCK!” I scream. That was just enough to make me wail.
“Oh yes! Finally!” He claps his hands and kisses me, “Oh how i’ve missed this…”
My vision starts to fade. I watch him lick the knife and hum. He touches my face. “You’re mine. Always and forever.” He kisses me once more and my vision, goes black.
#dsmp wilbur#c!wilbur#sadistic#wilbur soot#c!wilbur soot#dsmpblr#dsmp x reader#wilbur x reader#dsmp angst
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