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deepspace-nasty · 8 months ago

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reblogging again because i ended up writing my thoughts for you. might've gone crazy but. (throws this and scuttles into the dark) under a read more because its. A Lot

But like a frozen lake in January, Jayce had been scared shitless to even come near, much less throw himself at you. -- love Love LOVE !! when characters are so scared to fall in love. especially with jayce, hes made to be such a prominent figure that he doesnt know what to do with himself - and with the prospects of having to deal with his lower half later on down the line if he does fall for you making it much worse, it makes a delicious concoction of "oh god oh no" and "i want you, i need you" that i find so delightful

With you, he wanted to be stupid. He wanted to he stupid as you touched the shin of your leg to his under the coffee shop table, he wanted to be stupid when you’d gently run your fingertips up the inside of his forearm during some terrible action movie at the local theater. -- i think i need him to be stupid for me too WOAH WHO SAID THAT. crazy draft in here guys

That night, Jayce had clutched his pillow and sobbed and wondered how he could have gotten so lucky. -- JAYCE =[[[ i frowned so hard irl, i need him to know i want to kiss him so sweetly. i love him so much

Luckily, Jayce didn’t have to fake an indigestion — the mere thought of going, with you, wearing nothing but his swimming trunks had been enough to make him throw up the day before (...) -- ☹️☹️☹️☹️ he deserves the world and the best and sloppiest head i can give him

But now you call him puppy when he presses his face into your hands, you call him princess when he’s shy, you call him sweetheart when you want to kiss him, you call him darling when he wakes up, you call him sweet thing when something’s not quite right. -- oouuuugghhhh pet names !!!! pet names that you use enough that he recognizes the tone and context of them without anything else ???!!!! sign me tf up !!!!!

“I want you,” he blurts(...) -- this mightve made me giggle because it reminds me of the cars meme that says this (link)

(...) it’s a word he’s sorely reminded of every time he encounters the prefix micro, and, unfortunately for him, he loves his microwaved ramen soup, and he went into fucking science, so he’s already making his life harder than he should. -- JAYCE. hes so. dare i say it. pathetic. and i love him and thats so endearing. jayce my love. i know i should feel bad but. gods. i cant help but giggle at this

(...) “and how much it means to me that you trusted me enough to tell me." / And he’d never thought of it like that. -- RRRDJAHSJSKAK sorry just. oh my gosh. his feelings of self sabotage and hatred just. destroy that oart of his thinking. head in hands. oouuuugghhhh im sick.

“Jayce, I’d still love you (...) don’t you realize how wonderful you are?” -- i think this section really. hits. its so well written dicax. this is amazing. i think i need this injected into my blood stream and im not joking.

You’ve never been this close. It’s never felt so good. -- genuinely i think this section, from when he says i love you, to. idk the whole fic LMAO make me so light headed w happiness and joy ! it just feels so airy and bright? somehow ? and i absolutely adore it

“I, um… sure I won’t crush you? You sure this— is how you want me?” / “Yes,” you answer, and your lack of hesitation is assuring. -- yeah i think even if he were to crush me id be going out a happy man- WOW THE DRAFT ON THIS WEBSITE.

When his crotch settles against your lower tummy, Jayce instinctively tucks a hand between your bodies, over himself. -- no notes i just want to see it written again. fave paragraph i think.

“Can I kiss you, puppy?” (...) “Yes,” he gasps, with an unfamiliar, heady drunkenness. -: another one that i just wanted to see again. puppy boy jayce is best jayce

Everything’s on fire where you touch it, everything itches for more, and your hands soothe and make it so much worse all at once. Jayce wishes he could shed his skin just so you could touch deeper. Feel more. There’s nothing but tingling, maddening warmth all over. -- read this. read it again. i want you to internalize this. uuuughhhfjakxkda (melts)

“Closer,” he gasps, like that’s anywhere within the realm of possibility. You grab his meaty hips like a cat pouncing on prey, nearly sinking your claws into them, and his pelvis clashes with yours like two flintstones creating a spark. -- GIGGLES LIKE A CARTOON EVIL VILLAIN. YES. OOOHHH MY GOD YES.

(...) "wanna forget where I end and you begin.” -- this shit. is like. so hot. the melding of souls and bodies?? hottest shit in the world

To think you’d ever want to leave when you’re devouring him. Absurd. -- UESASSBJSNSNSBDNND DEVOUR THAT MAN !!!!!!!!! PUT HIM IN YOUR MOUTH AND CLAMP YOUR TEETH DOWN !!!!!!!!!!

(...) all he can do is let you lick the inside of his mouth while he moans like a girl. -- im normal about him (is so pale from blood rushing to my cock i look sick)

Jayce comes down from it shivering, like it wrecked him. He can’t gulp down enough air to sate his lungs, even though he’s gasping for lungfuls. He wonders what your voice’ll sound like when he can hear more than static fuzz. He wonders what your hands will feel like when his skin stops tingling. He wonders what his brain will think once it stops buzzing. / As it turns out, that first thought is shame, except now it crashes down on him tenfold. Without meaning to, he lifts his hips, covering the wet spot at the front of his jeans and wondering why, how. -- is it mean that i love him being embarrassed like this. obviously its not the point of the story, and there is an underlying current of anxiety and the like, but. H. Hes So. Gods.

“We can go together. Just— could you hold me? For just a bit longer?” / There’s another kiss pressed to the top of his head. “I could hold you forever.” -- ooohohdjksmsm the kiss !! the vulnerability !!! waartatsgdbskndns !!!!!!!!!!

dicax youve done it again. genuinely i think you are my favorite writers ever, not even considering the jayce fanfiction that i found you from hahha - you have a wonderful way with words, and your writing can evoke such strong imagery that it is palpable in ny mind's eye. you are such a large inspiration, and i am so happy whenever i see your writing pop up on my feed(s)

this was an amazing read, and very hot- jayce being vulnerable with the reader, trusting them, and taking steps to be more comfortable with himself, and them?! amazing, i love it so much.

small and micro dicks get a lot of flack (as you and others have mentioned) but as someone who stuggles with penetration (and doesn't really have the drive nor need to prep for my preferred penetration lol) i think they are wonderful ! def need more appreciation, not only in writing and fan content but irl as well. big dicks are good but small ones are where its at haha

anyway, dicax, i hope you are doing fantastic. you have made my night with this and i will probably be dreaming of it when i go to bed. jayce's beautiful blushing face and little dick <33

lover, be good to me

18+ MDNI Jayce Talis x GN Reader Word count: 5.1k Synopsis: Jayce unlearns shame. Tags/warnings: Jayce has a small dick, sub Jayce, premature ejaculation, dry humping, love and reassurance. Notes: Just like Jayce, I am also unlearning some shame in the process of posting this. Yes, you got it right -- this is a fully serious fic about him having a micropenis and navigating that. I'm aware small dicks are the butt end of many jokes on the internet, so I'm taking it in my hands not to just normalize it, but to romanticize small dick. I'm also aware that this isn't something most people enjoy fantasizing about, especially when it comes to characters they want to fuck, and that's so okay. If you decide to read on out of nothing but sheer curiosity, I still hope you enjoy Jayce's struggles (and wins!) regarding relationships, love and self-esteem. This might just turn into a miniseries. We shall see.

You’d barged into his life just in time to light up the end of January.

Jayce had clung to the seven hours of daylight which his workday took up in their entirety, he’d showed up for the gym even through the slew of people coming in to follow through on the new year’s resolution they’d end up dropping by the start of February, he’d gone to the same coffee shop he’d been going to since he’d moved to this part of town.

On all accounts, it shouldn’t have been an eventful year. It shouldn’t have been the year he’d finally have more than an uncomfortable smile and shake of his head to offer his mama when she’d pose the dreadful question over their weekly Sunday dinner, it shouldn’t have been the year he suddenly found himself waking up excited, it shouldn’t have been the year he threw caution in the wind.

But it is.

Falling for you in the winter had been easy. The first smile you’d offered him after you’d shaken his hand at Vi’s monthly drink-and-lose-your-money-at-poker-parties had made the mere idea of just seven hours of sunlight perfectly bearable. It’d made his lax, dry handshake go wet with exhilarated and unfortunate palm sweat, it’d made his heart leap like he’d actually drank the stupid vodka-redbull cocktail Vi had pushed onto him instead of dumping it into the bathroom sink.

It made losing all of ten bucks to you in the next round of poker worth it.

But like a frozen lake in January, Jayce had been scared shitless to even come near, much less throw himself at you.

He’d watched from a safe distance, laughed at your jokes, tossed some of his own back, marveled at your smile.

He’d never expected to be pulled in.

You’d asked him out on a not-really-a-date-but-I’d-like-to-get-to-know-you-better outing after the second party of Vi’s you’d spent tiptoeing around each-other, which, by all accounts, was the most wonderful thing to ever happen to Jayce.

And by far the most downright terrifying.

Against better judgement, on that very same night, he’d finally texted you back to ask for the time and place of your not-date.

The fact that you’d replied instantly felt like lake ice cracking under his feet.

Jayce wasn’t unused to being wanted. There’d been enough people to consider him handsome enough to hit on at bars, or even try to not so subtly get into his pants at the academy. He’d gone on a date or two, through his college years.

But he’d never wanted someone quite this badly.

He’d had crushes he’d reasoned himself out of, of course he had; his heart was quick to go soft on anyone offering him any kind of genuine attention, but he’d been smart enough not to let it get too far.

He’d wanted to he stupid when you’d asked him if he’d like this to be serious.

He’d wanted to be so, so very stupid when he’d leaned into your cupped palm and let you lay the gentlest kiss to his lips.

You’d asked him, in all your cluelessness, what he was shaking for. You’d kissed his forehead like you hadn’t figuratively plunged him into ice cold water with just the brush of your lips to his hairline, you’d held him, and cooed at him, whispered about how there was nothing to be scared of.

There was so much.

For every hug he spent uncomfortably tilting his hips back and wondering if you could feel anything (or a lack thereof), for every time he got the urge to throw up and run when your hand touched anywhere near his navel, for every time your thigh had drifted between his legs and he’d jumped like he’d been burnt, you’d been gentle, kind, understanding.

You’d cradled his face one mild, cloudy day in mid-April and told him you weren’t expecting anything. You’d kissed the bridge of his nose like a promise, and told him he should never feel like you’re trying to get anything from him — when and where anything sex-related was supposed to happen was entirely in his hands, you’d said.

And you’d promised you had plenty of patience to spare — especially for him. Especially for this.

That night, Jayce had clutched his pillow and sobbed and wondered how he could have gotten so lucky.

And when that luck would inevitably run out.

You didn’t deserve to be strung along, especially not forever. He couldn’t give you anything.

And it felt wrong to keep you waiting, with the false promise that he would.

But he’d done it anyway. For once in his life, Jayce had been truly and utterly selfish, savoring every moment with you with the looming threat of his own shortcomings breathing down the back of his neck.

He’d clung to you — to the time he had with you until this relationship was going to meet its inevitable demise — hopelessly, tirelessly, he’d locked every squeeze of your hand and every wrinkle below your smiling eyes and every ridge of your warm palm and every speck of pigment on your iris deep in his heart, charting whatever he could get out in the greatest details his brain could muster. That, at least, would be his to keep, even after you’d leave.

Loving you in spring came even more easily. The sunlight became kinder, your eyes brighter, your jokes more intimate. There were times when something had caught his eye, and before he could open his mouth to get out the first word about it, you’d be waiting to meet his gaze with a knowing glint in your eyes. The squeezes of your hands lasted longer, your thumb lingered at his wrist, rubbing, your kisses at his jaw were crying to go lower, but they never did. Above all the affection you had, which Jayce knew was running rampant, you respected him.

And that, along with summer, made everything more complicated.

With shedded layers of clothes came a new sense of vulnerability. Jayce knew there was nothing to suspect through the coarse material of his jeans or shorts which he’d picked for that very purpose, but when you’d stayed over one late May evening, he’d frantically dug through his drawers for his fleece pajama pants.

“I get really cold at night,” he’d lied. You hadn’t said a thing, though he’d been sorely aware of the way they stuck to his sweaty legs in the morning.

Caitlyn had asked him out at a pool party, at the start of June, with you obviously invited as well. Luckily, Jayce didn’t have to fake an indigestion — the mere thought of going, with you, wearing nothing but his swimming trunks had been enough to make him throw up the day before, and he’d had a good enough reason to sit it out.

But now it’s late June and your wine glass is fogging up with the warmth of your laughing breath after a particularly bad joke of his. He’s sure he’s sweating so much he’ll leave a stain the size of his back on your couch, and that his Hawaiian shirt is glued tight to that icky, sweaty space between his shoulder blades.

Your hand, carefully placed at the top of his thigh, yearning but not demanding, gently scratching at him through his jeans, is making his leg bounce. Your smile, wine-softened and heartachingly giddy makes something in Jayce’s chest clench.

He wants to know what your skin tastes like. He wants your mouth claiming every inch of his body, teeth dragging across his damp skin, he wants your breath to mingle with his. He aches with the need of it, his brain buzzes with alcohol-induced horniness and alcohol-diminished sensibility, he wants, he wants, he wants.

His mouth is dry. He wants it slick with your spit.

“What’s the matter?”

Your index circles at the top of his thigh like a question mark.

“With me?” Jayce asks, dumbly.

You smile. Your hand squeezes the meat of his thigh where it tapers off into his knee. “Felt like I lost you there for a second. Everything alright, sweet thing?”

You’ve called him every iteration and combination of sickeningly names that would have made him gag before he met you. But now you call him puppy when he presses his face into your hands, you call him princess when he’s shy, you call him sweetheart when you want to kiss him, you call him darling when he wakes up, you call him sweet thing when something’s not quite right.

The tendons in your neck stretch with the questioning tilt of your head, the space between your parted lips invites his tongue to nestle between them, the warmth of your hand is soaking through his jeans.

“I want you,” he blurts, without even realizing what he’d just said before he hears himself rasp the words through his dry throat.

“You have me,” you say, like it’s that easy.

It makes Jayce go silent, buzzy mind suddenly quiet with the daunting realization that he soon won’t. Not after you’ll know. Not after he tells you.

“Whenever you feel ready,” you reassure, finding his hand and rubbing a by now familiar circle into his wrist, which Jayce dedicates to memory as possibly the last, “you have me.”

Except he won’t.

But you deserve to know, Jayce reasons — he’s wasted six of your months on him, selfishly clinging to your affection though he knows he will never live up to what you’re hoping he is.

You, in all your kindness and respect and reverence and loving… you don’t deserve another single month, week, day, hour, minute wasted on his denial and lies. You deserve the truth.

“I’m so sorry,” Jayce says.

“We don’t have to do anything now,” you assure, and he’s sure those words taste achingly familiar by now. You’ve said them more often than he’s deserved hearing them.

And he does have to do something now. Just not what you think.

As he draws in a fortifying breath to just say it, you speak before he can, rushing to get out the words.

“And I just— listen, Jayce, if there’s, you know, something else going on, like, I don’t know, uh, one of your balls is bigger than the other or some unusual birthmark or anything else, that— it doesn’t matter to me. Okay?”

And what he wouldn’t give to have one testicle bigger than the other or some strange birthmark rather than this. He still derives some momentary relief from your reassurance, clings to some false hope that makes his confession just the slightest bit easier.

“It’s none of those things,” he admits. “I, uh…” he swallows, and grips your hand like it’s the last time. He doesn’t think he’s ever admitted it out loud. He’s never had to — always ran from whatever situation could have lead to it before he would have had to.

You lean in a smidge closer, squeeze his hand a hint tighter. It makes him physically sick.

Jayce shrinks in on himself without meaning to, and from the way you exhale, it’s either breaking your heart or frustrating you. He hopes it’s the former. He crosses his legs. He draws in one last, steadying breath. This is where it ends.

“I have a small dick.”

He doesn’t look at your face, doesn’t want to hear a thing, he lets his ears ring and his brain go numb and his muscles go taut waiting for the impact of a sentence or a mocking laugh or something.

“That’s it?” You say, and though you say it in disbelief, rather than with malice, Jayce can’t help but imagine it in an even worse context than this. It’s what he’s been hearing you say in his head every time you’ve invited him to hop into the shower with you or held him anywhere near his waist while you cuddled.

But that is very obviously not it. You must think he’s exaggerating, that he’s just shy. He can’t let you give him the benefit of the doubt, not anymore.

“When I say small I mean, uh…” Jayce loses his wording, and, overwhelmed with shame, he lowers his face into his free hand. He doesn’t have the heart to even peek at you through his fingers. Jesus Christ, he thinks, here goes. “I mean really small. I don’t mean short of five inches small, I don’t mean, smaller than average, I mean— fuck. Fuck. Listen, I’m, I have a�� I have a micropenis.”

He can actually count the times he’s said that word out loud on one hand. It’s a word he hates even thinking about, it’s a word he mishears during normal, unrelated conversations more often than he’d care to admit, it’s a word he’s sorely reminded of every time he encounters the prefix micro, and, unfortunately for him, he loves his microwaved ramen soup, and he went into fucking science, so he’s already making his life harder than he should.

But then you make it so easy.

You hold his hand in both of yours now, slowly bringing his knuckles to your lips and kissing them the same way you’d kissed his forehead all those months ago. You press in a little closer to his side, not invasively, but enough to have your knee nudging his.

“Can you look at me, sweetheart?”

And so he does, peeking at you from between his ring finger and middle finger, resisting the urge to apologize again.

Why are you smiling?

“I don’t think I can put into words how little that matters to me,” you say, and Jayce wants to argue with it, to ask you not to be kind now because you deserve better, you deserve someone who can give you everything, and he can’t, he can’t, “and how much it means to me that you trusted me enough to tell me.”

And he’d never thought of it like that.

All this time, he’d thought of it as holding on to you, to his love for you, for just another day. Another minute. As long as he could.

Not once had he thought of it as giving you the time to win his trust.

But he’s being selfish to reframe it like this, and he has been selfish for all of six months now, and he’s going to be selfish if he lets you believe this when you have no idea what you’re getting yourself into.

He’s broken in a way that can’t be fixed, and there will never be enough love to throw at this part of himself to change his limitations. You’re getting yourself into this because, god help you, you like him, and you think this is the kind of thing that can be compromised on. That can be worked through.

Jayce knows it isn’t. From the first chick he’d allowed to take his pants off when he was nineteen and drunk at a house party and just wanted to get losing his virginity over with (she’d left without a word as soon as she caught a glimpse of the outline of his erection through his boxers), to the guy who’d grinded himself against him at a gay bar when he was twenty three and got mad because he couldn’t feel a hard-on, fuck, even from the my-dick-is-bigger-than-yours conversations his peers had shared in the seventh grade boys’ locker rooms, Jayce fucking knows better.

“I can’t— we can’t. You have no idea what—“

“Jayce, I’d still love you, and want to be with you even if you’d told me you’d never want sex.”

That alone is enough to make him lift his face from the sweaty expanse of his own palm.

“You were alright with… no sex?” He swallows. “Ever?”

“Jesus, Jayce, for a guy like you, I’d accept fucking my own hand for probably the rest of my life. I mean, have you… don’t you realize how wonderful you are?”

That word collides with the walls of his skull and bounces around in it like a fucking two thousands DVD logo before he dares internalizing it, and he finds himself sobbing before it sinks to the bottom of his brain like a penny in a wishing well. Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful.

For the first time in six months, Jayce is the one to throw himself into a kiss. He cradles your face in his sweaty palms like it’s a porcelain vase, he kisses your lips like he wants to eat you.

“I love you,” he sobs, gasping for breath and licking into your mouth and sniffling and smiling and laughing and Jesus fucking Christ, he can’t think straight. “I love you.”

Your hands cup his cheeks, the way they do when you call him puppy and he nuzzles his nose into them, but right now he thinks he’s spent long enough limiting himself to your hands and lips — he wants to know the insides of your mouth.

“I love you too,” you say the second you draw back and gulp down just enough air to breathe it back out at him. Your hands are on his neck, scratching at his five o’clock shadow, your breath is humid on his slick lips.

“I’ve wanted… you for so long,” he mutters. Jayce doesn’t know where to put his hands, he paws at your clothed shoulders clumsily. “Felt so desperate for you that it hurt.”

“Not anymore,” you coo at him, nosing under his jaw. He resists the reflex to jerk away even as you put your hands on his hips and tug him closer. Not close enough for you to feel any of him yet, but close enough to assure him you want him just as bad. “I’ve got you. I’ve got you, Jayce, I’m so sorry it took so long—“

He shakes his head, and has to hold in a genuine giggle at the way his nose grazes yours when he does. You’re so warm. Your breath tickles. You’ve never been this close. It’s never felt so good.

“My fault,” he says. “I was scared.”

He still is.

You brush the hair from his face, smiling up at him like he’s the last ray of sunlight after the winter solstice. “Not anymore.”

“Not anymore.” How he wishes it were true.

You press one last kiss to his lips, not a hungry one, not licking into his mouth, just a brush of your lips, not so different from the first kiss you’d gifted him all these months ago. Not a single one of them wasted, Jayce realizes. Hopefully.

You sit there for a second, simply taking him in, one hand on his face, the other at his ribcage. His heart flutters below it like a trapped bird.

And then he laughs. He’s not sure why, but he laughs like you just told him a tremendous little joke, or like you’re jabbing your fingers into his sides, but it’s none of those things, it’s like his heart is leaping and he’s not sure what to do to keep up with it other than laugh.

You hold him like you understand. And judging from the wide, near-dopey smile on your face, you do.

“Come here,” you say, rubbing at his sweaty back, pawing at him like you need him closer.

“How—?” Jayce clears his throat awkwardly, and looks at the space between you with a clueless nervousness. “Where do you want me? How do you want me?”

“You could sit on my lap, if… you want to. If that’s alright.”

You turn from how you’ve been sitting cross-legged to face him, and now your legs dangle off the couch and your soles are set nice and sturdy on the floor. The flat of your thighs is undeniably inviting, but that’s nothing new.

“Yeah,” Jayce agrees, and, for possibly the first time in his life, spreads his knees and puts them on either side of your thighs. Awkwardly, he hovers, and his knees suddenly feel weak even though he’s just hit a new deadlift PR at the gym last week. “I, um… sure I won’t crush you? You sure this— is how you want me?”

“Yes,” you answer, and your lack of hesitation is assuring. Your hands settle on his hips, not pulling, not pushing, just soothing.

Slowly, he sits himself on your lap, dropping the first half of his weight on you gradually, carefully watching your face, before, with a little nod from you, he finally settles.

It’s so good. It’s so terrifying.

When his crotch settles against your lower tummy, Jayce instinctively tucks a hand between your bodies, over himself.

Your hand follows suit, fingernails gently scratching at the inside of his forearm in a way that raises goosebumps.

“We don’t have to do anything tonight,” you say. “Knowing, understanding, it’s… it really is enough for me for now. Want you to be ready. Just— don’t hide yourself from me. You don’t have to do that anymore.”

Jayce swallows down a chunk of his fear that doesn’t want to be chewed through, and slowly lifts his hand from between his legs with a stuttered breath. Before he gets to even bring the tip of his tongue to the back of his teeth to form the s in sorry, you’re already cooing at him, arms winding around his shaky, meek frame.

“There you go.”

It suddenly hits him that he’s far too overwhelmed to do anything other than melt in your arms and let you hold him. But an uncomfortable question gnaws at the back of his mind as he feels himself going stiff, and he dreads just about any answer you could give.

“Can you feel anything?” He wishes he hadn’t asked.

But you nod, and he’s not sure if he should be apologizing or pulling away, until you speak. “I can feel you relaxing… going softer in my arms.”

And he doesn’t think there could be a better reply to his question. His thighs are still shaky with nerves, trembling around your own, but he lets you explore the already familiar regions on his body like they’re new again. And they are, in some delightful way; he gets what you mean as you feel your way down his lower back: he’s going laxer by the minute, basking in your touch like a sleepy cat under the kiss of sunlight.

Letting his body smoothen itself against yours, finally, without caring about giving himself away, it’s blissful enough that his eyes go dewy again with fresh tears.

He never thought the simple act of getting held, of having all of himself enveloped by someone he loves, would be this good. He wants to drown in you. He wants you to be dust and roll around in you. He wants you to be honey and stick to his every crevice.

“Can I kiss you, puppy?”

Jayce perks up at the sound of your voice alone, leans into the hand you bring to the scruff of his nape to gently scratch at it.

“Yes,” he gasps, with an unfamiliar, heady drunkenness. Like the mere contact with you, the mere exchange of your bodies’ warmth, is enough to get his brain boozy, high and dumb.

He wants to drink your breath. Wants to suck it out of your lungs when you press your lips to his, but he settles for sucking on your tongue. Jayce never thought he could feel gluttonous enough to want to consume someone whole, but you’re an exception — you’re an exception in a great deal of many things, and he loves you for it.

Your hands are on his shoulders, then tracing down his spine, down to the chub of his hips that spills out on the side of his jeans, then on the chub at the front of his tummy, and they’re groping and bold and greedy. Everything’s on fire where you touch it, everything itches for more, and your hands soothe and make it so much worse all at once. Jayce wishes he could shed his skin just so you could touch deeper. Feel more. There’s nothing but tingling, maddening warmth all over.

“You’re so, so soft,” you gasp into the spot below his ear. Your teeth scratch at his pulse, killing bite on a prey animal, and Jayce seeks it even though it makes his heart freeze. “Can’t believe I managed to last six months holding you just barely, touching you just barely, when you fit so good in my arms. Wanna melt into you, oh, Jayce, wanna— wanna forget where I end and you begin.”

Something about the rasp of your voice, the way you mutter those words into the side of his neck makes them feel like they’re shot straight into his bloodstream. They make him boil.

He offers himself up to you in the only way that crosses his hazy mind, which is lolling his head to the side and pressing the soft spot under his jaw into your teeth, begging to be claimed.

You take the bait instantly. You lick first, priming the skin with a coat of what must by now be a perfect mixture of his and your spit, and he feels his legs spreading wider on their own accord just from your tongue lapping at his neck.

“Yes,” you gasp, palming at his tailbone in encouragement, “want all of you. Need all of you. Never hide again. Not from me.”

Jayce shakes his head — the mere prospect of it all, the fact that he’d been so desperately afraid — it’s like a dot on the horizon, distant and forgotten. How can there be fear when there’s so much love, so much wanting, so much hunger?

“You have me.” He shivers as you start pawing at his hips again, can’t swallow back a moan when you latch onto his neck and suck. Your mouth is wide open, like you want all of him you can get, like you need a bite of him so big you can’t even begin to chew on it.

To think you’d ever want to leave when you’re devouring him. Absurd.

“I love you,” your voice rumbles in your chest, Jayce can feel it from how he’s pressing his own rib cage into yours. You lick up his neck, up his jaw, kiss your way to the front of his chin in searching. “C'mere to me, fuck, c’mere.”

And the second he tilts his head down to catch your lips, everything in his body goes out like a light. His breath leaves his body like he’s been punched, every softened muscle goes rock hard, his brainstem sparks into electric flames, and all he can do is let you lick the inside of his mouth while he moans like a girl.

He’s frozen, braindead, taut with tension, his ears are ringing, he can’t breathe, Jesus, he can’t breathe, he’s, he’s— oh.

Oh, no.

You shush him, wrapping your arms around his sunken shoulders protectively, cradling him close as he rides out the unexpected wave of his orgasm, kissing his temple as he muffles his cries into your clothed shoulder. He holds onto you like you might fade away if he doesn’t.

“Baby boy,” you coo. “Baaaby boy. There you go.”

As it turns out, that first thought is shame, except now it crashes down on him tenfold. Without meaning to, he lifts his hips, covering the wet spot at the front of his jeans and wondering why, how.

“I’m, hah, so sorry,” he rushes to say. His mind reels with a thousand things he could say to mend the shameful fact that he came in his pants over a kiss. But what is there to say, other than apologize and hope you’d understand? “It happened… so suddenly, really, I didn’t realize, I’m… I’m not like this usually, I promise…”

You run a hand up his sweaty back, reeling him back in gently, reassuringly. You let him tuck his chin between your neck and your shoulder, you hold him like he’s worth his body weight in gold.

And then you laugh.

If this is a dream, he hopes his alarm is hours away.

“Oh, Jayce. Are you kidding? You’re glorious.” You press a quick kiss to his dewy cheek like you mean it, and Jayce wants to believe you do. If the past six months have taught him anything, it’s that you see him in a much kinder light than he’s ever dared stepping into. He wants to believe you mean it. “How do you feel?” You ask, and he realizes he hasn’t got the slightest clue.

Jayce settles on sticky, and tells you so. And decidedly not glorious, but he doesn’t want to contradict you. If you think so of him, he will try his best to let the compliment wash over him.

“We could take a shower,” you suggest. This is your apartment — the thought is daunting. He’s been in your shower before, but it’d always been for quick, desperate pits-junk-ass-and-feet-showers, never more, for fear you’d walk in even though he’d locked the door twice.

And he realizes that fear is not quite gone yet — yes, you’ve reassured him plenty, you’ve held him while he came, but… you haven’t actually seen him.

“I can go first,” you suggest, “and you can join me when you’re ready. Or not at all, if that’s what you’d prefer.”

“I want to,” Jayce says. And though your hands settle on his hips with finality, he powers through the feeling of his own mess sticking to him and tucks his head under your jaw. “We can go together. Just— could you hold me? For just a bit longer?”

There’s another kiss pressed to the top of his head. “I could hold you forever.”

#jayce talis #also my birthday was in january so it was a delightful surprise to see that it started in january lmaoo #you also write gn smut very well ! i appreciate that a lot #as a trans guy lol #its so late but i just needed to get this out #dicax. you are awesome. i genuinely love ur works

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wndibro-blog · 7 years ago

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#me: hates feeling lonely #me: makes a friend #me: i literally hate myself #////// honestly its no wonder i dont actually have any friends #i just cant handle it #my mind completely fucks everything over and i end up alone again #me ?? allowing any sort of positivity ?? fake. unrealistic. lmao.#nah nah #i get a compliment and the first thing i instinctively do is insult myself several times #like ok chill the fuck out lol #and then i make a friend and it's not even like #i insult myself #i just feel #so fucking drained afterwards and i just ???#i do such stupid shit when i feel like someone finally likes me #and i regret it after #bUT I KNOW FOR A FACT WHAT IM DOING ISN'T EVEN THAT BAD #BUT THAT DOESNT STOP ME FROM GETTING THIS GROSS FEELING #AND GOD #IM just #a mess #everythings a mess and im tired and im not #even sad ..........#but im not numb enough for this shit #i forgot to tag this haha sorry #ill just ... do it now ig #tw negativity #tw vent

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headbangergf · 3 years ago

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heavy trigger warning ; run while u can lmao

im so fucking done i just want to kill myself. i hate school. i cant stand having to wake up so early every day and talk to people i dont like and have to do and worry about so many things. im so tired of putting my fullest effort into my classes and still getting average grades compared to what i used to get. i know that doesnt seem bad , but im literally never going to get into my dream college at this rate and its fucking disheartening. going to that college is the only thing keeping me going , keeping me from just ending it all. and the fact that someone is probably going to beat me and im not going to be in first place when i graduate makes me want to die. thats so fucking embarrassing for me. i used to be number one in and at everything and now im just merging in with everyone else. i want to be at the top. i want to be the best. i want to get the best grades and beat everyone. not for the satisfaction, just so i can finally calm the fuck down and not have to worry about it anymore. i hate seeing people above me. its so upsetting. how did i downgrade this bad? what in the actual fuck happened to me.

and on top of this the only person i truly love doesnt even talk to me anymore. doesnt even look my way in the halls. im so heartbroken over him and i cant even talk about it to ANYONE because no one fucking cares. no one cares. and no one has to , but it just hurts that everyone makes fun of me for liking him or just discards what im saying without even listening. especially when you guys make fun of him. i have to go along with that shit but it really breaks my heart cuz you all KNOW he NEVER did me wrong. and he never did yall wrong either. i dont care that none of you like him because he actually loved me. he did. i know he did. hes the first person ive ever been with that didnt make me violently cry myself to sleep. he didnt make me relapse constantly. he made me so happy , and even if he doesnt see me as a boy , at least he respected me. i dont even care about that at this point. i really dont. because he loved me and he made me feel handsome. i could show him the most masculine photo of me and he’d still compliment me in a neutral or masculine way even if i was presenting feminine. he never feminized me like the rest of you do. i didnt have to hide myself around him. i always felt comfortable with him. so fuck you guys for talking shit about him every chance you get cuz he never wronged me or any of you. i hate having to be fake cuz i dont want to be made fun of for sticking up for him. but you know why we split. he couldnt prioritize me. thats fine. even though that shit literally broke me and im STILL fucked up about it , it doesnt mean he was in the wrong. he was putting himself first and honestly i respect him for it. but i wish he would just tell me if he doesnt want me talking to him anymore. all i want is a conversation with him. i really miss him so much. i miss how i felt when i was with him. but i dont think he cares about me anymore man. i fucking ruined it because i let myself say too much. i talk too much about how i feel if you let me and im so sorry to everyone who has to deal with it. i dont know why i do that. it just feels like nobody wants to hear about how im doing anymore so idk what to do man. i cant talk to anybody without feeling guilty. bad combination of him being a good listener and me being a big talker. honestly hes probably so sick of me. that thought makes tears form so fast in my eyes but i just have to accept it i guess. i wish i was normal. if i was just a normal girl and not a demented fucking tranny he would probably like me. im probably not even ftm im just insanely stupid. maybe i just got sick of being a girl idk. either way , thats not an invite to refer to me as a girl so fucking dont if anyone is reading this. probably no one. lol. anyways. im abt to rb this and continue cuz i was typing and then i reached the limit so part two incoming i guess lmao.

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i rlly hate peter that man jus picks every fucking battle and makes work miserable by being such an asshole and wanting everything done FAST instead of safe and at a normal speed he will make things thatre not a big deal a huge deal and will be such a dick about everything and refuses to listen to logic its always his way or the highway and the highway is him angrily growling and leaving hes such a fuckin DOUCHE and has so much abusive tendencies it makes me go insane i feel like im living with my mother being around this man-

hes such a dick all the time i dont understand WHY he takes his shit out on us and he brings up how we dont pay rent even tho they say we dont have to and we pay in other ways?? like jfc we help them out with food all the time with EBT and we work around the house and help them with literally anything they ask - we spent a good chunk of summer splitting and stacking wood all fuckin day and we bought them these stupid fuckin expensive ass tools for their shitty fixer upper house that hes been building for 30 years and its still not done??? how do u have a house for 30 years and brag about being a master builder and whatever and not be anywhere near done with it,, he brags so fucking much too like ohhh im such an amazing cook and baker but everything he makes is kinda meh and its usually p unseasoned and i dont rlly care for any of it! how do u fuck up muffins and mac n cheese those are fuckin EASY!!!!! urs are dense and dry/crumbly with no taste and the mac n cheese is so fucking DRY how do u make mac n cheese fresh taste like its been in the fridge for a week and is only slightly hot what the FUCK??? HOW???? WHAT DID U DO TO THIS,,,

and my cousin is so fuckin stupid for many reasons shes always been kinda stupid and this compulsive liar but also a hardcore christian/republican and shes even more stupid for marrying him after he married/dated in our family like two or three times and for agreeing with everything he says and defends his shitty actions and behavior and says shit like ohh god led him to her and that hes the best thing like GIRL hes NOT??? HES AN ASSHOLE OLD ASS ABUSIVE MAN AND HIS KIDS ARE ASSHOLES TO U TOO LIKE HUH???? ur biggest dream was having a baby but u cant even have one with the one asshole u married bc he got the snip and refuses to get it checked up and doesnt think reversing it is worth it but they also talk all the time about how theyre gonna have lots and lots of babies as soon as he retires SOMEHOW THEYRE GONNA HAVE BABIES,,??

and she always picks every battle too like dude relax its not that big of a fuckin deal?? like the diffuser jfc u mention it and theyre instantly like UHM AKCTUALLY ITS GOOD FOR UR HEALTH AND IT CLEANS THE AIR AND ITS ALL IN UR HEA D UR NOT ALLERGIC TO IT even tho we both have asthma and it litereally makes my dads face beet red and full of hives lmao bUT I GUESS OIL IN WATER CURES EVERYTHIN AND WERE FAKING IT OR SMTH,,, and they both start bitchin and arguing with us like were not even arguing with u tf is this attitude comin from?? just stating oh its turned on makes peter go SHES JUS TURNING THE LIGHT ON SHES NOT TURNING THE DIFUSER ON JUS AN FYI U CAN READ FOR LATER like dude stop being such a passive aggressive pos wife if u bother to look up from ur tablet u can clearly see its going off and my cousins like IM NOT TURNING IT ON ITS JUS TURNING ON WHEN I PRESS THE LIGHT BUTTON AND I NEVER HAVE IT ON FOR LONG AND ITS GOOD FOR THE AIR AND EVERYONE i dont think its good for their cat either like ive been readin about it and so many articles say its toxic and my dad shows this to my cousin and she jus like WELL THE ONES I GET ARENT TOXIC TO CATS SHES FINE UR BEING EMOTIONAL AND NOT MAKING ANY SENSE like??? maam u have clove, lemongrass, and eucalyptus oil and all of those arent safe for cats - google searches can show u most of ur oils are toxic for ur kitty!!

theyre not even really good cat owners like the cat has NEVER been played with until i moved in and they had the cat for 5 years like HUH???? U NEVER PLAYED WITH LIL MEOW MEOW??? NOT EVEN ONCE??? WHY??? jus bc i didnt think of it like WHAT??? their cat snores too and while its cute and silly its making me nervous that shes having problems breathing bc of the oils she puts in the air for literally hours [even tho they lie and say its only for one hour but its such bs,,] and they dont always clean the cat box they leave it for a week or whatever until the cat complains like hg?? why not clean it everyday dude, itd makes the basement smell nicer,, ALSO the cat had like a broken tooth or smth awhile back like around christmas and they went to the vet but were pissed at the bill and were like WERE NOT PAYING THAT ITS TOO MUCH!!! WERE NOT DOIN IT!!! LIKE HUH??? WHAT??? I KNOW IT SUCKS TO SHELL OUT MONEY FOR A LIL TOOTH BUT U GOTTA DO IT IF U LOVE AND CARE FOR UR CAT YOUD DO IT??? they never did it either they jus assumed it fell out and that the cats fine, never went back to the vet for a checkup or nothin,,, man,,,,

shes also a stay at home wife but its obvious shes depressed or SOMETHING bc she doesnt cook or clean much they normally eat microwaved food and i often vacuum the floors/carpets bc they get so NASTEY,,, she jus,,, doesnt do much,,, i dont get it i dont know what happened to her but after she got married she turned into this blob of a 50s housewife but not rlly a housewife bc she only sometimes cooks and cleans and h???

theyre both like ahaha welllll~ its bc im such a type a personality💕 like yea a for asshole, ur both such assholes its no wonder why your sisters dont like you and treat u and ur husband like shit and why your kids treat you both like shit jfc

theyre both so fuckin delusional and idiotic too they bitch about how they hate big corporations and how they NEVER shop at walmart or lowes bc they prefer mom and pop shops and peter will be like “I DONT GO TO THRIFT STORES BC THEYRE ICKY AND DISGUSTING,, I ONLY GO TO ANTIQUIE SHOPS BC THEYRE BETTER IN EVERY WAY” but then they only shop at walmart and hannaford and dollartree literally all the time and have never set foot in ANY of the lil mom and pop shops near their house, he works at a big corporation and acts like he doesnt for some reason??? like its a lil pop shop like dude??? no??? its not??? they deepthroat the boot of these corporations and think theyre better than everyone bc they say they dont shop there like????? what,,,?? and they think tr*mp is gonna make this country great again and if hes not reelected the rapture WILL ABSOLUTELY happen [????????? WHICH PASTOR SAID THIS BTW LIKE HELLO???? I JUS WANNA TALK,, WHO SAID THIS,,, WHOS MAKING MY RELATIVES MORE STUPIDER,,,]

IDK like im thankful theyre hosting us but i wish they werent such childish dicks and i wish i had a normal family that wasnt,,, Like This ://

#💀.txt #diary #i wish the rapture would happen so ppl like this can jus.. go #but idk if theyd even be raptured bc theyre jus so.... ykno...

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aquagustd · 2 years ago

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seriously jk cracked me up this chapter, its literally like

"jungkook whats wrong?"

"oh you know, sora dumped me *pops champagne* im devastated"

i enjoyed reading it so much.

something that really saddens me is how much im starting to doubt tae. i was so sure he would be a great partner to oc but now i dont think he would. i dont know if its intentional, but the way he's acting last couple of chapters feels like a switch with jungkook's character. when tae's introduced to us, he's this really stable man, has a great, not illegal (i hope) job, and he seems like a perfect opportunity for oc to finally settle down and find someone loving and caring. when we first see jk he's a dick, he's there then he disappears, appears again when its conventional for him, but he's never really there for oc and barely there for their son. gradually, we see jk turn into a man tae once was and tae became the way jk was in the beginning (he leaves when things dont go his way and doesnt answer oc's calls or texts but we know he's fine and having fun with other people) while jk tried so hard to be a better father, oc's support system and even buys a factory to run a "normal" business (im still not sure if he's honest about that but lets say he is for the sake of it). that being said, i really hope oc doesnt end up with either of them lmao it would be nice if jk and oc were to have a healthy co-parenting relationship but nothing beyond that. neither of them actually deserve her, poor girl always one of them is stressing her out, if its not tae then its jk.

also, i really like sora? i feel like its a very unpopular opinion but she is so interesting to me. i always imagined her as devon so i was happy when i found out we imagined the same, but after watching eve's scandal i see her as sora idk maybe its bc of the name (if you like to watch kdramas, i highly recommend bc acting is just top tier). if she was the main character i think more people would like her too, but we naturally lean towards the oc bc a lot of people think oc characters in general need to be these perfect could-never-do-anything-wrong type of characters. also why people get mad when oc does smth stupid ??? yeah people make mistakes, dont you? i also kinda wish there would be sora x jimin spin off (i know you only write oc ff, but a person can hope 🥲) i would read this shit of it even if its just them being business partners and friends.

sorry for the long message but i really appreciate your time and effort to create these stories, thank you so much. remember to stay hydrated and take care of yourself, much love

thank you so much for reading & dropping your thoughts <33

i’m gonna be honest. tae & jk’s character hasn’t switched tbh. tae did ONE thing wrong that affected oc & hurt her feelings which was him ignoring her. which doesn’t compare to anything jk did tbh.

tae is the owner of a hotel chain !! they haven’t switched personalities at all :/ jk isn’t becoming the man tae was in the beginning.

it fascinates me when people say they like sora. you’re right maybe some readers would like her if she was the oc. but tbh then we’d get her pov so we’d know that she doesn’t like junho at all :/ and she’s fake with him all the time. even jungkook can’t pick up on that. but it was evident when she was sulking throughout junho’s bday party and then complained that jungkook was wasting money on his son. maybe it’s bc i know more about her but imo i don’t think many readers would like her if she was the oc. her backstory is interesting but she’s really not a good person.

but that’s bc i know more about her maybe 👁

#fic: hie #squishies

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IM BORED. my top three farscape eps from each season::::::: looking at these i think season two has the best EPISODE concepts (it was hard choosing faves from that season bc i love so many) but season 4 is my favorite for just,,,,,,, the hecking Yearning + domestication in each episode but i dont particularly favor the episodes themselves

Season 1:

through the looking glass - i always saw this ep as being the first completely filler ep that really felt like farscape with the crew all working together and having a VERY CUTE little laugh about it at the end. i love the vagueness of it, it’s not annoying or cliche??? and i’m particularly fond of the yellow moya scenes like rygel’s like “shall i disrobe so it will be memorable” is one of my fave lines from him.

a human reaction - mY TRASH. MYYYY TRASH. just one of those farscape eps that are so Abstract in concept, they are just Default Faves for me like Always haha. so many good little j/a crumbs, the kiss in this ep is one of my BIG FAVES, i love everything about that scene and the ones leading up to it. LOVE THE RAIN SCENE. it’s probably the very first time john is like ‘maybe Earth bad’ and,,, ‘maybe space girl Good’ and i love that thruline of the show. this ep stands soooooo far apart from the majority of season 1 for me.

nerve: the hidden memory - “THE RADIANT AERYN SUN.” stark isn’t unbearable in his debut episodes woah! i like him as a sad boy who isnt a plot device! love gilina, love her death (rip), love seeing how far john and aeryn have come since they’d last seen her, love aeryn and crais’s interaction in this episode like YES GIRL SLAY, love whenever aeryn has to juggle with feeling WEAK and having to put her big girl pants on to save her himbo, love any interaction between d’argo and aeryn LOVE THAT.

Season 2:

crackers don't matter - the DIALOGUE in this episode is Insane and i LOVE IT i think there are so many line deliveries in this ep that are so memorable and Iconic they all just live in my mind rent FREE. i wish the commentary for this episode wasn’t about the more practical aspects of it because UUUHUUH i genuinely would love to just Absorb the mindset behind it. GOD TIER FILLER.

out of their minds - i am such a whore for body swap tropes it’s humiliating. another ep with a lot of iconic line deliveries! i love cb playing as john! love that for her! bb as rygel too is amazing i love all their stupid accent switching SO MUCH. love the skeksis love that they joke about them looking like skeksis because it’s jim henson and they can DO THAT.

won't get fooled again - any time i think about this ep im like man how Opened Third Eye was it to have john just immediately be like “haha ok this is fake lmao” like it’s so SUBVERSIVE in what it does pretty much right off the bat in introducing the moya crew as “normal” humans. eps like these are just ALWAYS my faves in tv series because of how crazy they can get and this one does and i love it so much for that.

Season 3:

scratch n' sniff - any time i get the moya crew on a pleasure planet or at a rave im like HELLO. :) I LOVE RAXIL she’s such a funky little freak. describing this ep is so weird its like Oh Yeah The Boob Juice Sucking One. JUST JOHN AND D’ARGO BEING BACHELORS, WHAT BLISS. i wish i got more john + d’argo shenanigans in this show ‘cause they are like such a fave together dynamically mwah mwah mwah. <3

into the lion's den: wolf in sheep's clothing - its a little crazy how much i Hate the first half of this two-parter which is super PANDERY AND BAD and then the last half is like so Insane and such a good close for the season. EVERYONE’S SO MISERABLE. the scorp shots with the imploding ship and the water UGHGUGHUGH <33333 love aeryn in this love her trying to save the Peacekeepers, love JOHN, love the little scientist nerd who works under Scorp i forget his name WHOOPS he has a nice design. THE CRAIS + TALYN DEATH IS SO GOOD;;;; LOVE THAT FOR THEM;;;;; <3333

dog with two bones - i think the fact that literally no other tv show has pulled THIS MESS off really speaks to the uniqueness of farscape and its ABILITY TO TELL ROMANCE??? theres so much in this that is just like WOWOWOWOW THIS EP IS SO GOOD. the part where they kill the rogue leviathan and rygel is celebrating on the comms and it transitions to aeryn Going Insane in her prowler over everything that’s happening. FIRE. the dog with two bones analogy UGHGUGHGUGH <333333 I LOVE THE AERYN > EARTH THRULINE WITH JOHN SO MUCH ITS JUST AT ITS PEAK HERE WHICH MAKES IT GREAT BY DEFAULT. the coin scene is SOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOD THE ENDING SCENE OF THIS EPISODE IS SOOOO GOOOOOD.

Season 4:

john quixote - MY FAVE EP OF THE SERIES LOL. love the COSTUMING love the POP CULTURE REFERENCES love that its SEASON 4 love that we GET A ZHAAN CRAIS JOOL AND STARK CAMEO. another conceptually abstract episode so of course i love it lol. love the scene in the end with john and zhaan where he’s kinda a sad boy!!!!! actually funny story about this ep the first time i watched this i was in elementary school still, i grew up on this show this is my Nostalgia Baby series, and did not know what the word “porn” was so like for a very concerning amount of time i always assumed “porn” was an Alien Word and not a real word. BECAUSE LIKE, in context you see chiana holding up a Gooey Boy and going “and this? porn!” and that was all i had to go by the end.

crichton kicks - I LOOOOVE SAD JOHN. I LOVE HIM. I love the character beats we get out of a john that CHOSE THE GIRL over his home and instead of GETTING HER he is punished for it, losing his chance at BOTH OUTCOMES like mentioned in “dog with two bones” despite him having chosen One of the options and not both. love the introduction to 1812 whenever john gets a named thing i am like Yes. :~) my boy, my little man. he’s a little crazy and a little sad.

terra firma - the YEARNING in this ep man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this ep waters my CROPS one of my Biggest Fave scenes is when Aeryn and Jack are in her prowler talking about john and he’s like Do You Wish You Were Human and she doesnt answer and im like LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! more of that John Not Vibing With Earth Anymore trope which I LOVE. literally all fics surrounding this episode i will SNORT LIKE CRACK.

#its so funny having to decide a third choice for season 3 i was like #ugh............. i dont like any of these.......................................#sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#the question is do i do a Least Favorite ep list and potentially get BLASTED #honorable mentions?????#love A Clockwork Nebari :)#love the What Was Lost eps theyre some of my most frequently watched COULDNT TELL U WHY I JUST REALLY ENJOY THEM #also Lava's a Many Splendored Thing

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spade-riddles · 3 years ago

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Sorry mate TTA but I'm gonna need more cuz it's easy & convenient for you to say all that AFTER the fact. Hell any one of us couldve sent in that ask. Perhaps ur legit but I still feel like ur just another hater making up stuff to make us look stupid.

Anonymous asked:

And we should care, why, Tea Time Anon? I'm not seeing any reason to continue supporting those two women or to put any faith into what you say.

Anonymous asked:

I really really really hope that that teatime anon isnt giving us false hopes. Like im already at the edge, one more step and im out. But right now im taking 2 steps back and hang around… again.

Anonymous asked:

Well! It's a REALLY good thing for the girls that buying out of contracts is a thing, then, isn't it!

Because them doing it ASAP is the ONLY thing that will make it so that the number of people that will support them as a out couple ISN'T so low that you can count them on one hand! 😒🚬

Anonymous asked:

Yeah sure like she moved the re-release of her most successful and most anticipated album ever *at the last minute* because of Karlie. As if she was ever gonna incorporate Karlie while married to a Kushner (the divorce wouldn't have come right away). I used to believe so much in tta. But the timeline of events they describe doesn't make sense. Am not falling for the "pivot" excuse anymore.

Anonymous asked:

“I think you all may have guessed that a PR divorce was planned and cancelled because of his Instagram deletion and subsequent reactivation.” No offense to you SR, but this sounds really manipulative. Make us feel good for something we indeed were assuming to gain our trust in order to then excuse their inconsistencies. Also even if 1989 were to be released on May, Speak Now was never gonna be released in July as they had said. Too short of a rollout for 1989. Explain that TeaTimeAnon. 🤷‍♀️

Anonymous asked:

Renegotiate!? Come on. Nope. Taylor better carry on, cause that is bullshit if true. Hell nah. Karlie is ridiculous to keep agreeing to shit—and Taylor is ridiculous to keep going along with it. Nope. Sorry. 😏

I do feel like something was coming in May for sure. I'm not sure what's going on, but things are for sure off. And it is weird that she all of a sudden announces RED 5 months early after dropping 1989 merch. Cool, no problem, but a weird rollout.

Anonymous asked:

Uh why does KK need money from jerk if she has Taylor? The whole she needs his money thing which is why she’s staying is getting to be an old excuse.

Anonymous asked:

There's no way the jerklie divorce was scheduled for the end of May. The end of the contract maybe. But there's absolutely no way they'd be getting divorced 3 months after the birth of the baby. It would have drawn too much unnecessary attention.

Anonymous asked:

Lmao tea time is just saying what we’ve all been saying. They are NOT legit. Stop trying to convince us that they are. They sound like regular fans taking a guess. Enough

Anonymous asked:

Sigh. I am a long time Kaylor and I really don’t find 🍵 credible. There was nothing in that explanation that we haven’t already speculated about at length on here. Unless there’s some strong corroboration of why they’re a trustworthy source, I really don’t need anymore “tea”.

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I mean come on. Would a real insider reveal so many details about Karlie's contract which is STILL ongoing in a place that is HEAVILY monitored by Jerk's team? Are we really that naive to believe that someone is offering such precious info without any care? TTA is either a troll or worse... they're dangling fake hope again right when everyone has started saying how sick and tired they are and how pointless it is to still support them. TTA must prove themselves, or not bother us ever again.

Anonymous asked:

Some of what TTA is saying makes sense... But here's my big question: Is Karlie sad and blue every day for months like Taylor talked about in Hoax? Or is she willingly prolonging her contract, pushing Taylor's re-recording schedule, and making it harder to untangle her and her kid from the K*shners? Both cannot be true. I'm not a big Karlie fan rn, but I think it's the first option. Also, TTA said 1989 TV would drop 5/14. So K renegotiated and T pushed 1989 in under 2 weeks? I'm skeptical.

Anonymous asked:

… so a “PR divorce” was scheduled for May, but instead we get Karlie w Joshua’s mom walking the baby and Karlie posing for pics in their stunt apt and a Father’s Day post? Among other pap walks? Literally makes NO sense.

Anonymous asked:

If anything is worth staying tied to the K*shners when you had a chance to be free, I have no respect left.

Anonymous asked:

can someone clarify what the 3rd part of tta's message?? taylors sm, interviews have been messy? like no?? that was(is) karlie?? the only "mess" on her part are that she sent out clues for multiple albums, and even that I refuse to believe that such a meticuluous planner as taylor did not take absolutely every factor in consideration, especially one as big as jerk renemwing their contract or whatever exactly went down. here im assuming that jerk had the power to single handedly renew [PART 1]

the contract, and that the term 're NEGOTIATE' is used loosely, because what could the kushners possibly have to offer to karlie other than money- black, dishonest, taxpayers' money- even her rep isnt being helped by the kushners, so why would she agree to extending their stupid skit that no one signed up for? and taylor has more than enough money to last 7 lifetimes. and if jerk had the power to renew the contract without karlies involvement, there is just no way that taylor didnt [PART 2/4]

take that into consideration. Also, the 22 weeks and men's day thing is too perfect to be planned on a whim, but it is possible that like some anon had previously said, it was planned for 2022, so we can overlook that. but otherwise, there are only so many possibilities: 1. 1989 was postponed because karlie DECIDED to continue playing house with the kushners for money. in which case, either a) taylor supported her (seems unlikely but still possible) or b) they broke up because of this [PART3/4]

2. karlie and jerk are together for real and have a kid together and karlie refused to being a part of 1989 tv era because she doesnt want kaylor rumours again, which i agree would be unpleasant if she really is with jerk, taylor is or is not with joe, and karlies refusal caused 1989 to pivot, and all of us kaylors are delusional to think there is anything more between them. <PART 4/5>,

3. karlie is, infact, bearding with jerk but kaylor broke up a while ago and taylor doesnt want to relive 1989 tv so soon after her breakup because it would remind her of karlie. 4. they broke up sometime in the past and taylor asked her now ex to be part of the 1989 tv era and she refused. 5. tta is a fraud. these are really the only situations i think are plausible, others are free to add more and share your thoughts on these. <PART 4/5>

also, another thing that has me doubting the credibility of tta is how direct their messages are. there is a chance that spade is/was legit because they spoke the same language as taylor- one of codes and puzzles. but tta's messages are wayy too straightforward to be approved by taylor i think. so either, as another anon requested, show some proof, like maybe a single release date for red tv or something, or stop sending supposed "tips" <PART 5/5>

Anonymous asked:

Convenient that TTA shows up after Red TV has been announced. Taylor has been dropping hints about all her albums since before May. Red tv being next makes sense and there is Easter eggs and evidence that was the case. Also: if negotiations happened at start of May, why was KK dropping 1989 hints as recent as last week. It’s doesn’t make sense.

Anonymous asked:

TTA: What about Speak Now TV coming out on July 9th, like you said last time? That album has nothing to do with Karlie. Taylor said pretty clearly that the next album she's releasing is Red TV. So what's your explanation for Speak Now's release being pushed to some unspecified date?

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angelthebedsheet · 4 years ago

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my fav boys with slick black s/o pt 1?

a/n: im losing inspiration for my current requests and i’m not feeling good mentally or physically. my mood has been down the whole week and it’s messing with my school work so that’s also putting me in a sad mood. but im also in the mood for some fightin words so i’ll use my comfort boys. this may be corny but hey it works for me and this is my blog ❤️

lets get it

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Bakugo Katsuki

bro you MATCH his ENERGY so well with your clapbacks

tbh... bakugo’s clapbacks are just trash

he got the aggression but cmon now

tf is “shitty extra”

boy if you dont sit ya ass down

he LOVES your clapbacks tho

them shits be making him lose his mind

any slick shit you say he eats that UP

one time monoma was talking too much shit and you just

“nigga if you dont sit yo ass tf down fore i snatch yo forehead tf off”

safe to say bakugo busted out laughing

you were ready to post up

he lives for when you be roasting ppl under ya breath

what he doesnt like is when you roast him

bc you can and will read a bitch no hesitation

he really thought he was special....

aint shit sweet come get these roasts nigga

“boy if you dont take them damn pants off. shits look like hammer pants. cant touch this headass”

yall know how i have desiree roasting him?

that’s exactly how it be

you got a sharp ass tongue and will use it against anyone

let someone get both of yall pissed off together???

straight up verbal abuse at that point

file a complaint bc you and bakugo def made someone cry before

i think the class lwk hates you bc you helped bakugo’s clapbacks get better

which is bad for them

yall rmb those roasting vids where they go mmm after each one?

thats bakugo in the back

“big body headass”

“mm”

“dumpster truck headass”

“mm”

typa shit

he’ll hype it up too much

Todoroki Shouto

you think this man dont talk shit himself????

bro he can and will read a bitch RIGHT TO THEIR FACE TOO

he want all the SMOKE

yall together??? im sorry to whoever pissed yall off lemme plan they funeral

i imagine the way todoroki reads niggas is real sophisticated like he will point out every single insecurity you HAVE without even knowing you that well

no cursing for majority of them

“what shoes you got on?”

KAJDJSKKDKCKDDJ

yall would read bitches together but like this

“shou it’s the lifting acrylics for me”

“it’s the dusty wig for me, love”

“its the disconnecting wig for me”

“its the cakey makeup for me”

painful for them

i think he can do rapid fire roasts as soon as someone tries to start shit with you

“i know you’re not coming for my s/o. it’s the talking shoes, it’s the bootleg supreme shirt, it’s the fake chain, it’s the brittle hair”

he gets real disrespectful and wont care who it is

unless it’s your friends or family then he’ll dial it back a lil bit

if you start roasting endeavor????

my mans might be on his way to the jewelers

“try this ring on. i wanna see if it can fit you”

he finna spouse you up (spouse IS gender neutral innit?)

unrelated but todoroki is a hottie and will “ah 😜 mwah 💋” everytime and you might have a video of him losing his mind girls in the hood LMAOOOOO

Killua Zoldyck

now this boy.... cant roast for SHIT

yeah he’s a lil brat and can get mean and petty

but he cannot compare to you

this nigga’s a whole trained assassin but cant kill niggas with his words that well

🤡🤡🤡

i think the meanest thing he’s said is call you “a stupid fuckin idiot”

to which you responded with

“shut the fuck up, mushroom built ass bitch. body built like a smurf. hair lookin like hairballs cats cough up. dont get loud lil boy”

killua respectfully sat down and scratched his head

no cap that shit lwk hurt but he gonna pretend like it didnt

he dont even know what the fuck a SMURF IS

he just know that it hurt

lwk thought that was your nen

the ability to manipulate emotions into irritation or anger or some shit

like no baby they just good at roasting bitches

after a while he starts to hype you up in the back

“how you FEELLLLL”

“OOOOH BURNNNN”

“SHIT GOTTA HURT DONT IT BITCHBABY?”

eventually he learns how to roast and clapback then it’s over

the sass meter is overboard

like you might have to knock him a couple notches down

swear to god this boy uses clapbacks on leorio just to piss him off

one time leorio was telling killua to do sumn he just

“oh you must want me with the way you keep gobbling on my fuckin nuts i will do it soon relax”

you damn near BEHEADED this boy with how hard you slapped the back of his head

like it was funny but leorio wouldve JUMPED YOU

Kamado Tanjiro

OUT OF ALL OF THEM HE DOESNT WANT THAT

listen he likes to be the peacemaker

but with your clapbacks they’re enough to make zenitsu wanna post up

like you read him a lil too much

“THATS HOW YOU FEEL Y/N-CHAN? ALRIGHT”

cue tanjiro rapidly apologizing while dragging you away

the first time you roasted the absolute shit outta inosuke he had to sit down

he didnt even know what the majority of the shit you said meant

same with killua all he knew was that shit kinda hurt

tanjiro be TIRED of yall

“y/n can you PLEASE relax”

“NAH HE WANNA GET LOUD WITH ME”

“HE BREATHED”

“AND IT WAS AN AGGRESSIVE BREATH”

of course you know your limits

there’s no way you’re gonna get tanjiro to roast people

but this one time you heard him clapback by accident

“you heard me loud and clear, sir. dont act like you couldnt hear me correctly.”

like oop?

i felt a lil HEAT

aint no where near burned but for tanjiro??? good e fucking nough

dont act like he dont say some lil slick shit on the dl

this man got pent up aggression fym

tho you do be making him laugh

esp in battle if you just start reading a demon

he cant help but snicker

baby loves the way you talk and wouldnt have it any other way

if you roast him he will just go

“oh okay 🙂”

he doesnt know how to respond to that

if you roasting someone who deserves it nezuko will be your hype girl bc tanjiro’s busy trying to de-escalate the situation 💀💀💀

“and thats why yo grandma got a busted funeral”

“MMPH!”

“Y/N NO STOP THATS SO RUDE IM SO SORRY FOR THEIR BEHAVIOR THEY DONT MEAN IT”

“YES TF I DO”

“y/n shut up NO THEY DONT SORRY”

before dragging you away

jfc you’re like verbally feral

Nishinoya Yuu

your personal hypeman

will respectfully allow you to roast people

cant roast to save his life either

“you tell em!”

“yuh!”

“mhm”

“bitch”

hopping around n shit LMAOAOAOAOAO

you got that shit

someone irritating him?

“y/n.... baby.”

“alright who is it?”

“tsukishima”

“aight bet. AYE BITCH”

legend has it tsukishima is still recovering from those third degree burns

do not roast him this man will run away he values his life

“oh you must be ready to attend this barbecue”

(love that guy)

“IM VEGAN” liar

and DIPS

nigga will 100% ROLLINGGGGGG THUNDAAAAAAA tf up outta there

he can clapback and that’s the most he’ll do

he do be saying slick shit bc i hc him as someone who want all the smoke

ride or DIE

on they ass

(struggling to come up with clapbacks w/o anything to clapback to 💀💀💀)

(been cryinf over rengoku and hw my brain is mush)

“GO OFF Y/N TALK YOUR SHIT YOUR MAJESTY”

NIGGAS A CLOWN ✋🏽😭

thats all for this one folks lmao

#x black reader #bnha x black!reader #bnha x poc!reader #mha x black reader #haikyuu x black reader #haikyuu x reader #hunter x hunter x reader #hxh x reader #tanjiro x reader #killua x reader #bakugo katuski x reader #todoroki x reader #nishinoya x reader #perryat bitch #teehee

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sanchoyo · 3 years ago

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danny phantom season 2, ep 12-16 thoughts! these episodes, in comparison to the first 10 or so, felt way more laid back and low-stakes, which I appreciate sometimes. I didn't appreciate how lazy jack's halfa design was in masters of time, it made me so annoyed I redesigned it. 👎🏻 u_u

see prev episode thoughts in this tag <3

-'picking a fight with me and my upgraded form!' 'you upgraded to a mullet?' DANNNNY. YOU CANT SAY THAT TO TECHNUS. YOUVE HAD A MULLET TWICE NOW ('fun' split danny, and evil future danny BOTH HAD THEM). I HAVE THE RECEIPTS.

-danny seeing technus hurting valerie and yelling I AM GOING TO BREAK YOU IN HALF. SAMEEEE <3

-axion labs is now a part of vladco. FUCK YOU VLAD. hes not even really IN this episode, but just thought I'd throw out a nice fuck you anyway.

-'capable of blasting a single person into space in (2) minutes!' tucker. that would kill someone. i mean yeah they might get to space, but theres NO WAY THEY WOULDNT CATCH FIRE, OR THEIR ORGANS WOULDNT LIQUIFY BECAUSE OF THE STRAIN. THEY'D PROBABLY PASS OUT BEFORE THEN, BUT. ...no, okay, I get why vlad bought this company. this is RIGHT up his alley.

-danny KNOWS VAL DIDNT DO THIS, THAT SOMEONE STOLE THE SUIT. AND SPENDING ALL NIGHT CHATTING WITH HER. <3 and val is a 9TH DEGREE BLACKBELT?? danny's mom is, too!! omg and she hunts ghosts, his parents would love her. and her fav fruit is kumquat bc its a funny word. im so with danny val is amazing. I love her and I Do Not Want To Hear It From Sam.

-I knew danny wanted to be an astronaut, but the bowling tidbit is like. yes give me more useless info abt these characters, I love tiny details that make them feel more human, and im glad hes got hobbies aside from ghost stuff, we dont really see a lot of that!!! (I mean, we knew 'fun' danny from when he split himself in half liked bowling, so obv it makes sense he LIKES it, but hes very GOOD at it. so proud of him, bowling king) val calling him neil armstrong and them teasing each other. LOVE THAT.

-technus you are my favorite grandpa for setting this up. SAM WHY ARE YOU BEING SO CREEPY BE HAPPY FOR YOUR FRIEND!!! STOP SPYING ON THEM!!! who actually cares if technus did 'set them up' together, theyre having fun and enjoy each others company!!! 'you think the universe wants you two to be together?' 'i dunno, but maybe /I/ do!' EXACTLY DANNY!!! SOO TRUE.

-and valerie being happy sam said she wants to try and be happy for them and make room at the lunch table for them. and hugging sam over it. VAL NEEDS MORE FRIENDS.

-VAL GOING AFTER TECHNUS IN HER SUIT WITH (1) MILK, AND (1) TREE BRANCH AND KEYS!!!. I LOVE YOUUUU BEST GIRL. her new suit kicks ass

-dannys like 'HEY IM AN ASTRONAUT :D' AW. ...HES IN SPACE... the fact he's actually intending to give her the ring. with SAMS NAME ON IT?? IM CRINGING DANNY NO. YOU CANT DO THAT...thank god he didnt. thank god valerie cut it off and said they can just stay friends for now. tbh, they both have a lot on their plates!! they obv both still like each other...it can be a future thing!! when she knows about phantom! youre 14 theres no need to rush. I just want her to have friends and be happy :(

-...danny struggles to do (1) pull up. SAME. but all the ghost fighting in phantom form REALLY doesnt carry over at ALL? that sucks

-sam being as fit as she is, is not just a goth. shes a goth jock.

-honey I Shrank Our Kid, One of his Enemies, and his Bully: the episode

-dash's crush on phantom is So Obvious. fitness buddies :) watching them interact always makes me laugh. also, phantom, with PANTS. 'how many costume changes you gonna go through, what is this, vegas??' DASSH DJKSFHASKDF

-MADDIE GOING AFTER THE MOUSE WITH A BROOM, WHAT THE FUCK. AAAH. JUST BUY SOME KIND OF MOUSE TRAP.

-danny likes lime and vinegar chips. which sound very good.

-'our boy finally has the physical prowess of a 60 year old president!' ...poor danny LMAO

-'what's wrong with beauty pageants' oh tucker you sweet naïve child. what ISNT wrong with them. who approved this for a high school?? (I mean, yes. unfortunately child pageants exist, but...) also danny and tucker once again treating the pretty girls like objects. I need to meet the grown man who wrote this, I just want to talk...

-prince aragon's dragon form reminds me of maleficent (color scheme wise) which is always a bonus. considering the episode is called beauty marked, I feel like the sleeping beauty references are deliberate

-sam with the fake fangs. once again her accessories never miss. hate the 'not like other girls, girls who get sucked into this kind of thing are all shallow and all want to be carbon copies' bs tho.

-sam trying to be the Worst Bride, being rude as shit. DORA IS GOING TO GET KILLED. DID YOU MISS THE PART WHERE SHE SAID THE PRINCE WILL HAVE HER HEAD IF YOU ARENT THE IDEAL BRIDE. YOU /KNOW/ DANNY WILL COME SAVE YOU. JUST ACT CHILL UNTIL THEN. even if you were doing fine to get him to take off the crown, consider maybe not letting his poor sister get punished also?? sure, she could also take off the crown and has dragon powers, but did you know that for sure?? dora didnt even really realize it until you guys talked!! (or at least, she was scared to stand up to him. you had no guarantee she would...) but. good for dora. ANOTHER friendly ghost to add to the List :)

-tucker is so under appreciated in his time. if he was doing a tech-based campaign today he'd have a better shot. people in 2004 had NO IDEA how much tech would be a part of our day-to-day lives...altho. tbh if you're going to be running for student council president, maybe you should..focus on things to actually improve the school? since he's going for a tech angle, he could say like, he would be running fundraisers for the schools computers to be upgraded, etc? we've already SEEN he can be good at money-making entrepreneur type stuff!!

-oh my god wait. this episode is JUST YUGIOH?????! A REBORN PHAROH USING A TEENAGER AS A VESSEL?? YESSSSSS

-tucker using his new minion to feed him grapes and carry him. AND LOCUSTS ONTO THE BULLIES. I love how when he's possessed, he gains winged eyeliner.

-this episode is giving me big 'plankton makes everyone in bikini bottom his slaves and build monuments of him from the spongebob movie' vibes. and the pharaoh has a traitor who works for him? VERY big yugioh vibes. aknadin confirmed

-I like that danny is still completely exhausted after using ghostly wail. (still patiently waiting on him to get duplication)

-LOVE the fenton's 80s outfits. I get hes 14 and embarrassed by everything they do because theyre his parents, but. cmon, this is one objectively cool thing theyve done. love 80s fashion.

-...was vlad just standing on that streetlight waiting for danny to come out? how'd he know they'd be coming out the back? how long has he been up there???

-oh, wait, his ecto-acne has flareups? that SUCKS. danny was...well I dont want to say he was LUCKY HE HALF-DIED, but he was lucky his was pretty instant (I'm assuming that had to do with the power/scale of the portals being different?) I remember in the ep we met him, vlad made a point of saying he was stuck in a hospital for a long time, so. that really actually sucks and I feel bad. not that it excuses anything he's done...but like. it does suck.

-vlad being so sure danny wouldnt help him he made it somehow contagious to his friends to make sure he'd get help? danny is a nice boy, he wouldve helped if it was anyone else. the only reason he wouldn't have is because of the shit vlad did to him, on purpose. vlad 100% dug his own grave by being the biggest asshole, so it is very hard to feel bad for him.

-clockwork is back!!! and making danny learn lessons The Hard Way. Uhhh, okay. I kind of get Danny’s logic, that time traveling this far back would prevent vlad from becoming a halfa also, ergo no arch nemesis or ectoacne to worry about. But the fact that was basically the first solution Danny came up with to solve this problem is actually so funny. It’s so extreme

-APPRICIATION FOR THESE 80S LESBIAN BG CHARACTERS.

-vlad telling maddie in the lab (in the 80s) he has something he's wanted to tell her 'for a long time'...how long have they known each other? I assumed they met in college, since jack always calls vlad his college buddy/roommate, so jack and vlad for sure met in college, but did vlad know maddie longer? thats surprising if so. Tho we don’t know what year of college they’re in so they could mean they met as freshmen and a few years have past…speaking of maddie shes crushing the 80s look.

-vlad blames jack, but. maybe dont stick your face 2 inches from the portal??! THIS FEELS LIKE LAB SAFETY BASICS. IF SOMETHING HAS POTENTIAL TO BE DANGEROUS, DONT GET NEAR IT. WITH YOUR FACE UNPROTECTED IN ANY WAY. (altho jack didnt really give a Big Warning besides screaming BONZAI. so. also that, but cmon.) also, they need gloves, goggles, and to pull all of their hair back tbh. but fuck lab safety, I guess!

-cryyyyinnng at how lazy they were with jack's ghost form design, its just plasmius' design on jack!!! you couldve given him his own design!!

-there. I did that in about 10 minutes and its somehow less lazy than what made it into the show. embarrassing! better yet, I think the episode would've been better if maddie would've gotten the ectoacne. or maybe its just me, wanting to see her design! anyway. I'm sure people have already done redesigns of them both as halfas. I have to go look after I finish this watch through. Also mildly frustrated jacks resentment and bitterness is basically also a copy paste of vlads backstory. They’re different characters, I really don’t think jack would stew in bitterness and jealousy the same way vlad would!! I also don’t think he’d give up after one time of trying to hunt ghosts and getting laughed at. Our canon timeline says different…I dunno, I get it was for laughs, but I’m annoyed because the POTENTIAL this plot has…

-did vlad really wear a stupid cheese hat to his wedding. ok actually that kinda rules. and the cheese door knocker. the dairy-only buffet table. vlad still got rich, just on being the New Dairy King. (Assuming that means he owns a lot of dairy businesses?) ok! this actually is great. hope maddie isn't lactose intolerant!

-'no matter how hard I tried, I could never get rid of my ghost half, the half I knew Maddie could never accept' ohh, ouch, what a horrible thing to say to her HALF GHOST SON. 'YOUR MOM WILL NEVER ACCEPT YOU' BASICALLY.

-maddie strapping danny to the table with a lazer pointed at him in a secret lab she keeps from vlad that she makes a point of saying is sound proof so he can scream all he wants...CHRIST. DANNYS POOR PYSCHE.

-also, not to feel bad for alternate vlad (because, he did lie to maddie saying jack blames her and never wants to see her again...) but. being married to a woman 20+ years and she immediately goes back to jack? if she didnt love vlad and feels like she had to hide shit from him, and says she wasted her best years with him, WHY MARRY HIM. it feels like leading him on!!! cannot believe im feeling bad for vlad, but. this alternate timeline vlad is significantly Less Horrible than Our Vlad. did she not think she'd get funding for her ghost stuff? (which, fair assumption since they're considered 'ghost fanatics/nuts in canon...but...) why did she think jack or vlad would be her ONLY OPTIONS? be like your sister. be single. Actually, this au could’ve been really interesting if after the accident, vlad lied to her and said jack never wanted to see her again, but she stays single. Imagine how much that would bug vlad… like, in her mind, it was never a competition it was jack or no one type situation…

-danny being like 'leave him ALONE' this jack is a HOMEWRECKER, DANNY. let them go to court and settle this at the least. ...or just throw vlad into the portal. (100% human, defenseless vlad) CHRIST, MADDIE THATS BRUTAL. THATS MURDER.

-danny seeing his mom immediately accepting him and his dad being half ghosts in this universe, if I was him this would be a great sign that his universe's maddie would also.

-*maddie voice* "clockwork will help!" *2 seconds later, with clockwork* "I will Not Help." TOUGH LOVE KING. YES LET DANNY SEE THE SODA HIMSELF AND DEVOLP BETTER OBSERVATION SKILLS.

-when clockwork ""reset time to the way it was"" just before danny "meddled"" ...did he really erase a whole alternate timeline? ...damn. because maddie and danny both called it an alternate timeline by name, it splitting when the college incident went different, so it wouldnt have really mattered if he reset it, right. like because danny's timeline is on a different stream? why didnt clockwork just. show danny a replay and not Reset That Timeline. wh...I wonder how many people that Erased From Existence. Anyway! once again stating clockwork is casually terrifying!

#danny phantom #dp thoughts #sanchoyorambles

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wri0thesley · 3 years ago

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many many anons under the cut bc i didn’t want anyone to feel like i was ignoring them and i wanted to respond to u all! warning for small text too, it was so long i wanted to make it look smaller fgbnjkgkjn

Anonymous asked: NAT... you can write WHATEVER you want! It's your blog, and I hope that rude anons can learn to respect that. I used to be on your blog just for jjba content too, so when you started getting into jjk I was indifferent but eventually you dragged me into jjk so hard!! I already like bnha, so seeing you write for it only made me happier! I hope that you continue to write whatever make YOU happy:) ❤and yes, longer fics certainly doesnt mean it's better, quality over quantity

ahh i’m happy that you are here for all three!! i always feel so accomplished when someone is like ‘your constant screaming made me think about jjk <3′. all three of the fandoms are fairly popular and i tag everything v carefully so i hope people who do use the filtering find that useful!!!

Anonymous asked: Goodness gracious. People really be out there thinking they're entitled to dictating what kind of content you should be making

i think part of it might be that i do take requests so people feel like they have like . . . a certain right to certain kinds of my content? i take requests mostly bc they keep me motivated, i like making content for ppl who cant find what they want bc i’ve Been There, but maybe people think i am a pushover? idk i am just trying to have a good time!!!

Anonymous asked: Hi. I only started following you a few days ago but please ignore that rude anon. People are so fucking entitled towards writers it's insane. I recently had someone throw a fit for "spoiling" something in my fanfic, even though the fic was about a manga-exclusive character, so what did they expect?? Overall I've really enjoyed your writing so random assholes coming to guilt you is just a shitty thing that happens. Keep going with what you wanna do.

ah gosh anon i’m sorry about that :(. i’m always super careful tagging spoilers and stuff but like, if someone clicks on a fic about say, naoya or the steel ball run boys and is mad that i spoil something they havent found out yet . . . yeah thats on them fgbnkjgfkjn

Anonymous asked: That...that anon had the nerve to say "we". The fuck?! No no no anon, YOU'RE the only one talking and you're just talking for yourself, don't you dare try and lump us other anons/followers up with you to make yourself look like you're right. We love you nat and we appreciate you. It's your blog, you're allowed to write about whoever and whatever. This brain dead anon just needs to either go read someone else if they're that salty or write their own stuff if they're that impatient.

gosh i WISH some of my mad anons would just write their own stuff honestly. idk if this anon thought they were talking for everybody but i guess they expected anons to agree with them and not be mad at them. i appreciate u anon ;_;

Anonymous asked: Just want to say that ily and you’re one of the best jojo fanfic writers in my opinion 💗 I don’t think you’re half assing jojo fics and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you being multi fandom. A lot of jojo blogs have started posting about jjk so it’s not as if you’re the only one. I’m not sure why you get hate like this but I think it’s just because you’re one of the popular writers and that makes people bitter for whatever reason. Keep being you and posting about the things that make you happy 💕

honestly after so long writing for jojo - i’ve written well over 200 jojo reader insert fics - sometimes it feels like i’m retreading stuff, and that’s when i take a break bc i dont wanna half-ass stuff!!! i love all of my fellow jojo friends who are posting about jjk too, i appreciate them <3.

Anonymous asked: Hey my dude, ur writing has really grown since the jojo days and its better and awesome seeing u become happier to branch off and write in different fandoms 🤌🤌 those stupid anons are just boring farts that couldnt be bothered making their own content 😤😤 is it possible to block them to ease ur mind?

hello anon!! i run a statcounter for IPs but it doesnt always work for ppl who access through the tumblr app, i don’t think; a lot of the anon hate i get i just use the ‘block’ option, but last night got to me because i’ve been getting that kind of writer a lot which is . . . a bad look for the jojo fandom who are, as a whole from the ones i’ve interacted with, lovely!!! <3

Anonymous asked: People often forget, the person behind art or writing, is just another regular fan. You deserve to be happy with what you create and we should be thankful you share your talent with us. You also have right to change your main interests, and it's very normal thing. Jojo is one of the MANY things that you write for and all you get from that is a like or share. Its not your job. It's your fun thing to do, in spare time. You haven't betrayed anybody. That person was just rude, selfish and bored.

i am just a person doing my best!!! anime fanfic is one of many interests i have and i already devote a lot of time to it honestly, i love when people tell me they’ve enjoyed something i made bc it makes it feel worthwhile but equally it gets to me a lot when people are rude because i am usually trying my hardest.

Anonymous asked: Bro that jjba anon... the entitlement🤮 Fam, you write whatever you want to write😤 -Saturday

dfnjbkjnkgf i find most fic readers are NOT entitled at all and are just grateful but when they are . . . oof.

Anonymous asked: It's funny how people throw "we got you popular" and they think you start apologize and cry. Your writing and passion made you gain few numbers on a follow counter, nothing more. I think I'm too old for stuff like this, we are nothing more, but +1 on a number scale. You ow us nothing, we ow you nothing. Popular... Funny word. You just write for fun of it, fake scenarios about someone's manga characters. It's not that deep. Have fun and don't listen to people like this. I knew it's not that easy, but they are really not that important as they think they are.

extremely fun fact for people who think ‘popularity’ is important to me: i would 100% rather have 10 people who regularly comment, reblog my fics with tags and interact with me than 100 people who read my fic and either leave a like or simply move on. i think this is true for the VAST MAJORITY of writers tbh. i’m glad that people think i am a ‘popular’ blog (i am not in the grand scheme of things, one of my ex-best friends used to run a kpop reader insert blog with like 30,000 followers) bc it gives me an ego boost lmao, but i really just want people to read and enjoy the stuff i write!!!

Anonymous asked: I followed you a while ago for jojo and when my friends started getting into jjk i was like...eh sounds like work...but now that I see you writing for it I feel really motivated to get into it!!! I really enjoy your writing and I want to be able to read the new stuff too!

ah anon i really hope you like it!!! it’s only one season rn if u wanna watch the anime and there isn’t too much of the manga to catch up on either but it is a lot of fun and it’s nice to be in a fandom that’s like, excited about a new chapter and new plot developments every week!

Anonymous asked: Pls dont reply if u dont want to! <3 I'm not sure if this will be of any help to you or not but this is the kind of thing that often helps me and is the only way I know to try comfort others so I wanted to give it a go~

Now im not gonna say 'dont feel bad pls' bc I know that's not really useful but what I do think is useful is just discussing why that anon and many others feel the need to respond that way. As someone who follows a lot of writing blogs myself and have done for a long time, i've seen my handful of favourite writers come and go for different reasons, lose motivation for a while, gain motivation for a while, go from multi to single fandom, or single fandom to multi. Often times as a reader it can be upsetting when things change but it's also important as a reader to understand that some things aren't in anyone's control, I can't control what my favourite writers become a fan of or lose interest of, I can't control things in their personal lives that may motivate or demotivate them to write, but what I can do is support them as long as they're active, and if they move on to do things i'm no longer interested in or i'm the one that changed interests, rather than being upset that they're evolving to do other things or that they're not evolving with me, I think it's important that I still feel thankful for the works that I enjoyed while we were still on the same page and this is how I personally deal with those negative feelings. I think the anons that lash out at you probably just dont know what to do with themselves, maybe they got attached to your works while you were still only a jjba blog and now that you're evolving they're upset, while I understand how they feel, they're going the completely wrong way about it. I've learned to take these things and turn them into something positive for myself or at least something bittersweet that I can move on from but the anons that lash out at you for whatever reason probably haven't learned this yet. Maybe it's because i've moved on and changed interests a lot myself that I know how these things go for both writers and readers but those anons maybe haven't experienced this as much so they dont know what to do with themselves other than complain that you've changed and throw insults at you in an attempt to get you to revert back. None of this is because of the quality of your writing like they want you to believe, it's literally just because you've evolved and while some of your old followers might not like the new content for no reason other than it not being their cup of tea, it's definitely not regressed at all. You are pumping out a lot of content right now but every single thing i've read has just been better than the last. Things that really stand out to me is how well you get characterisation down to a T and all of your dialogue is just on point and from the pov of a reader I think those things seem the hardest to get right so I am such a huge fan of your stuff at the moment and I can tell you're really putting so much thought and care into each and every fic no matter how fast you're producing it, I think the fact that you're also proud of what you're writing at the moment really shines through as well and I just adore the passion that radiates from every completed request as well as in the responses for the subsequent thirsts resulting from these works that appear in your ask box later (I know i've sent quite a few by now~)

Just to be clear i'm not defending those anons in any way, while I can understand what they might be feeling/why they're reacting in the way they are I still believe it's just so immature to be hateful online point blank. Even during a time where I still got upset with writers if they started doing something else I still never targeted that negativity directly to the writer and sending rude or hateful comments whether on anon or not never something i'd stooped low enough to do even when I still had an immature way of thinking, however, I hope that it might make it a little easier to brush them off if we try and understand what they're really upset about, and that they're just putting the blame for their negative feelings onto the wrong thing rather than coming to terms with change themselves.

hello anon!! i appreciate the long message. i do feel bad for people who have no interest in what i’m currently producing and i get that they feel upset about it; i’ve watched a lot of fellow jojo writers move on completely or just stop posting, honestly. this kind of thing is why i was so intense about asking people if it would be better if i made a separate blog but the resounding answer seemed to be ‘i’m just vibing with whatever happens and i’ll block tags as needed’.

i often return to works by my favourite reader-insert writers who no longer write for the fandoms i like (and i read stuff bc it sounds interesting or i trust the person who writes it), but change can be difficult and i guess at this point i’ve - whether u like me or not lmao - been a fixture in jojo reader-insert tumblr for a While so it’s probably kind of jarring.

anyway i really appreciate you and the nice words! <3

Anonymous asked: hi nat! I just wanted to pop in and say that regardless of what fandom you write for, the love and care you pour into your writing and into interacting with followers who care about your work as well is really obvious. you're doing this for FREE and people should appreciate what you've given us so far, since ultimately this blog should be for you, whatever that means to you at any point in time. it's ok to jump fandoms! the important thing is that you feel good about what you're producing and that it makes you happy. everyone else is just a bonus - but, seeing you on my dash certainly makes me happy : ) I hope you feel better soon!

thank you anon! i’m feeling much better and happier today. birthdays are very difficult for me (i did not think i’d be alive at eighteen, much less 25!) so this event is definitely kind of a way for me to concentrate on something else, and i’m a little bit extra sensitive atm. i appreciate you so much, thank you for the kind words!!! <3

Anonymous asked: Hello! I just wanted to say, write what YOU want and make YOUR writings as long as you'd like. 💖 To the anon who is like "We mAdE yOu FaMoUs dOnt HalF asS iT" stfu, let people do what they wanna do. If you think they half do it, write something better and longer you asshat.

this is an open invitiation to that anon to send me a link to their writing blog and i’ll hype them up i promise <3

Anonymous asked: nat i'm so so sorry about that ask please know that your older followers don't share the same opinion :( sometimes people forget about the living, breathing person behind the screen smh. you are not a machine. you absolutely should not restrict yourself to posting about one fandom forever. yes, we're first pulled in by your amazing content, but we stay for your wonderful personality and work ethic. please just keep being you, taking up projects you feel comfy with! <333 bless u

ahh thank u anon! unfortunately i actually am a writing robot, i’m sorry u had to find out this way. my jojo chip has been removed, please send it back so i can continue to not half-ass my jojo work. fgnjkbgjkfn thank you so much angel!!! i appreciate you ;_;.

Anonymous asked: i don’t think it’s fair for other people to say shit about what you choose to write about because on tumblr and other writing platforms, writers are constantly developing how they write and the fandoms that they write for. it’s not fair for someone to criticize that “you don’t care about jjba blah blah blah” because you can enjoy new shows/manga. and like you said you’ve grown so much!! proud of you nat and im glad that ive been able to read your works (sincerely other nat)

i am STILL waiting for you to come and fight me other nat fgnjkbnf. it’s nice to be enjoying different things! i am constantly learning new things and reading new works and making new friends and improving and i think that’s important. i do care about jjba - a lot! but i can care about other things too! <3

Anonymous asked: I may not be one of your oldest followers, but i've been here for almost 3 years. Yes, i started following u for ur jojo content, but let me tell u, ur newfound motivation and enthusiam for other fandoms was honestly contagiuos for me. And i say this as a person who finds very difficult to move from one interest to another. Jojo is great, but so are other fandoms. Please don't let some faceless scum rob u that motivation. This is ur blog and u r always free to write whatever u want.

honestly, i have been there! i am autistic and i have special interests and watching other people move on to stuff i’m not vibing with has made me sad in the past, but i want people to be happy more than anything and sometimes that means new things and change! <3

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I saw that rude anon message & I just wanted to pop in & say that they're wrong. You're not betraying anyone & you should write whatever it is you want to write. I followed you for jojo & I'm not familiar with the other fandoms that you write for, but personally it makes me SO happy to see you enjoying new things! It's always good to find joy wherever you can, so keep writing what you're interested in. There a lot of ppl who want to see you happy and healthy <3

honestly the idea of it being a GRAND BETRAYAL is so funny, i am just writing anime fanfic here and thriving!!! tysm anon! <3

Anonymous asked: Those anons can piss off! They have no right to judge how long or how short your writing is. If they want longer content write it their damn selves. I think your writing has improved wonderfully and I originally followed for Jojo and I'm enjoying all the content period. I don't even watch jujutsu ( not my cup of tea personally) but I love seeing the creativity and the interactions. You write what makes you happy Nat and that's on that! You don't owe anybody anything! I know how hard writing is and when your consuming new content it's hard to make content for something else. That doesn't mean you don't like it any more your just doing something different for a while. Love you and your content and I'm enjoying the love your putting into your content whether long or short. ♥♥💕 Sending love your way!

honestly my idea of ‘short content’ is still over 1k words, i’m not good at reeling myself in! i guess it’s bc they see like, 1.5k jojo fic versus 5k jjk fic but it’s not that i didn’t enjoy the first fic, just that the point and the story came a lot quicker and so did the natural end! thank you anon, i appreciate you ;_;

Anonymous asked: Hello! Just wanted to let your know that I think your writing is awesome, and that you should write for whoever and for whatever you want to! You dont have to stay loyal to one fandom or anything, and your followers shouldn't expect that from you! It's not like they are paying you to write, you are doing this for free, and because you enjoy it and it makes you happy! If they dont like your stuff, they dont have to follow you, they can go to other blogs that cater to their taste, and they definitely don't need to be sending you such hurtful comments, and they dont get to make you feel sad about your writing! Just because they followed you during your earlier stages of writing, doesn't mean you owe them some type of loyalty or compensation! You can write literally whatever you want as long as it makes you happy! That's what your hobby and your blog are for! I hope you know that alot of your followers love your work and think that you are an amazing writer and are down to support the work that makes you happiest! 💖💖

ahh thank you so much anon!!! i am always so bowled over by how many people are nice to me when something like this happens, i am sending you my love <3

Anonymous asked: don’t listen to them!! we love you as a writer no matter what you write, because you’re a good person and a talented writer!! you shouldn’t have to change what you write to please a bitter person, and if they only want jjba, they can go to another blog instead of bringing you down. you’re doing amazing and they should be thankful you grace us with your talents!!

to be totally honest, if i was half-assing or not vibing with content i was making i just. wouldn’t post it. like you’d be able to TELL when i was half-assing stuff just to get words out (source: i have re-read my own nanowrimo works). there are lots of great jjba blogs who could do with more followers n interaction!!! i hope they do find them and i hope they’re nice to them :(.

Anonymous asked: Please don’t pay attention to that anon. People only have that confidence when they have anon turned on. Them looking through your blog despite feeling that way is peak fan behavior and speaks to how addicting your writing is. Naturally, you can’t please everyone and there will be people who are irrational and feel entitled to tell you what to do or what to write no matter what. Trust me when I say they’re a small minority and are more likely probably passing viewers rather than regulars. I check your blog about three or more times a day because I love reading not just your fics but also your takes, banter with other anons, or even random updates. Brainrot posts? LOVE TO SEE IT!!! Desk update? AMAZING!!! With that being said, don’t feel pressured to continue pushing out content for others. Write what makes you happy! You’ve been writing for JJBA for 4 years and it’s completely normal + healthy to get into new media. I’m not sure if it would mean much, but your love for JJK has gotten me excited to start it too!!

anon i really hope you enjoy it!!! sometimes these anons remember stuff i’ve posted and said better than i do tbh, i am living in their heads rent free i guess!

Anonymous asked: I've been following you for a couple of years and honestly it would always be a joy to see when you posted. Your writing has improved and I'm very happy you're enjoying yourself ! I know it hurts hearing and seeing stuff like that but I'm happy you're here. I'm honestly blessed everytime you post. Your writing is phenomenal. I love reading it even if its characters that I dont care for. You capture their essences so well and weave an amazing tale within the prompts and whatnot. You're amazing nat!

wehh thank you so much!!! re: the improvement, i really don’t feel like it has and then i re-read something i wrote when i first started and i’m like oh my god maybe it has. did i really write about jotaro acting like that.

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat. I recently became a follower of yours and I'm really saddened to see you get hate. You seem like a genuinely sweet person with amazing talent! I'm a writer myself and, unfortunately, get the same kind of comments. And when you get those comments, it doesn't leave you feeling motivated. People need to understand that people can and will, at times, grow out of fandoms. (1 Not just that but you're doing all of this for free. Again, I'm sorry you got such a comment. But please know that I'm proud of how far you've come. I'm proud that you're living a life that makes you happy. And no matter what fandom you may find yourself in next, I will always enjoy your writing. Take care of yourself. (2 end

HELLO NEW FOLLOWER I LOVE YOU (i get a lot more a day now than i used to and i feel guilty about not being able to look through so many blogs but i do try and follow back other writers for my fandoms!! ;_;). i’m sorry you get the same kind of comments! i’m always just happy to see people i like enjoying new things, even if i have no interest in it (hello to all of my mutuals who write for hunter x hunter and haikyuu, not interested but i’m sure you’re having a great time and i support you!!!).

Anonymous asked: I'm sure you're getting a barrage of supportive messages now (at least I hope so) but I figured I'd add my voice, because I'm a longtime follower. Your writing is, and always has been, wonderful. I've been so happy to see you and Haz get to a place that works for you both. Idk if it's obvious for everyone, but you seem like you're emotionally in a pretty good place most of the time these days, and it makes me really happy to see that. I followed years ago for JJBA content, but I stayed because regardless of what content you put out, I find your wit delightful. And I'll stick around even if you move fandoms entirely, because whatever content or editorializing you produce is going to be worth reading, regardless of what it's for.

ahh, anon!! thank you for sticking around so long, sorry if you’re old enough to have been around the vore and jorts and spider rohan fiascos! <3 i am definitely a lot more stable than i have been and - barring the Pandemic Related Mental Health Issues - happier! i’m glad that it’s noticeable! <3

Anonymous asked: It actually makes me mad how entitled some people are. Nat, you're not a content creating machine and those who expect you to be are not worth wasting a thought on. Your love for something is not measured in word counts and for you to write every day without getting burned out in the slightest you really must have a burning passion and huge dedication to your craft. If others decide to send hate then allow me to send admiration because I can feel your love and hard work in each post you make!

i try and write every day bc it’s super good for my little ocd/autistic brain to have routines and distract itself, so i’m glad other people can enjoy them because that makes me motivated to carry on! like, i write for myself mostly bc the content i want i sometimes get find, but filling requests and writing for other people also leaves me with happy warm fuzzies too! i appreciate you!! <3

Anonymous asked: If people only care about your writing for the jojo porn that’s on THEM, not you. Your writing was amazing when I followed about a year ago, and it’s only gotten better and will continue to get better! I think it really comes through when you enjoy what you’re writing and it adds a whole other layer of worth to it, because not only are you making free content but you LIKE that content and we can all gush about it together!!! More than just fans, I think you’ve created a community here and we don’t just stick around to read smut, I promise you that. -Reronon

i do miss having a discord community bc it was nice to talk to everyone in real time but it was hard work, i am glad that people feel like they can just come into my askbox and gush! i’m not very friendly in real life and people tend to think i am cold and stuck up so i work very hard to try and seem friendly and approachable online, which is much easier for me because i get to think and re-draft before i type! <3

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I’m sure you’re getting a lot of messages like this right now but I just wanted to say for what it’s worth that, as a person who originally followed you for jjba content and hasn’t watched/read any of the other series you’re currently writing for, I’m honestly still along for the ride. This is your blog and you’re allowed to do what you want with it and put out what content you feel like writing. Sometimes??? People acquire new interests??????? Shocking! I know absolutely nothing about jjk or bnha but out of curiosity still read some of your posts about them and even though I might not Get It, I still enjoy them because I think you’re a very talented writer! Honestly, as long as you’re still writing, I’m still down to clown, and whenever you take breaks (which are important!) I’ll still be waiting for your return or supporting and respecting your decision to stay away longer. Don’t let the entitled assholes get you down. Utilize YOUR blog and YOUR space however YOU choose. Your talent and kindness speak for themselves. Love you!!! ❤️❤️❤️

anon i care about you and i am so appreciative of you and everyone for sending me such nice messages! i am running out of ways to say it but it’s true, it really does mean a lot to me ;_; <3

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