#and dean :]!

[wellofdean]

Thinking about @luckshiptoshore and her liveblog of watching Supernatural and how much I love following it and how great it is to watch someone just fucking ENJOY the show...

And then, there were a couple of people in my Discord who love the fic, but have never watched the show, and folks in there were trying to convince them that it was worth watching (duh!) and that knowing the show by heart makes the fic so much better and like yes, again... DUH! And then I was suddenly overcome with such a feeling of ENVY for all the people who still have the chance to watch Supernatural for the first time already knowing what happens in the end.

I mean, I watched 14 years of it in real time (after downloading and bingeing season 1) and at least I was clever enough not to be in the fandom trenches that whole time, and just enjoyed it for what it was, but the end broke my brain, and changed the whole show for me.

Because, like, here's what happens in Supernatural by the end: Dean and Cas are in love. It was not subtle. Dean can't say it because he never has a single moment of not being up to his pretty, pretty eyeballs in dealing with the ongoing and constantly multiplying trauma of being the man his father raised him to be, and god's specialest boy to boot, but in the end, Cas finally does just fucking say it. Not only that, he waits until he can use it to save Dean, and show him once and for all in an incontrovertible, undeniable way exactly how deeply and truly loved and SEEN he is.

When you watch it knowing that, knowing that the the whole story is going to end in that stupid bunker dungeon with Cas telling Dean who he is and dying to save him, the whole thing just HITS DIFFERENT, because the Dean of season one with his outcast liminality and pretty, pretty lips is the poor, lonely, weird boy who will one day be loved like that by Castiel, an angel of the lord -- an impossible Eldritch being who learned what love and selfhood are from closely observing Dean.

The consensus amongst most Supernatural fans is that it is trashy and bad and that its all evil queerbaiting, but I would contend that it's actually deeply entertaining, culturally rich and interesting (yes, even its flaws and missteps), often impressively well-written and acted, never puts on any airs about being prestige television or high art, but still manages to be ultimately epic and somehow sublime, and that it's a queer story, about queer love saving the universe, and it is so, so worth watching.

Like, my brainworms are not 'they strung me along all that time and then never let them make out', by brainworms are 'they told us so many times and in so many big and small ways, and now I need to watch every bit of it again and again and again so I can finally REVEL IN IT (and, friends, that is the Supernatural rewatch journey: realising it was ALWAYS THERE). My brainworms aren't 'but does Dean reciprocate??' they are: 'of course he loves Cas, and of course Cas knows that Dean loves him, and the one thing Cas can't have? That's just his chance at happiness and a soft epilogue with and for Dean, because Cas, impossible, cosmic, Eldritch being Cas, traded his chance at happiness for his family's lives and sacrificed himself for love of his son and Dean, because that is what you do when you love someone, and what he has watched Dean never stop doing for even a minute of his beleaguered life.'

And then, Dean dies (yes, it's stupid), and he cannot just go to heaven, drink a beer and hang out, he needs to climb into his magic soul vehicle, hit the axis mundi and tear the universe up looking for his angel and his happy ending in The Winchesters? Fuck me.

And like, it's the most romantic, and devastating story I have ever been told? And I love it so much?

[violetpurpleviolet]

Supernatural , Season 7 , Episode 1

Meet The New Boss

Is Cas possessed? I wish he is.

And Sam. Sam is hurt. Because of Cas.What the fuck happened to Cas. He massacred angels. This seems kinda irredeemable.

Baby is totaled again, :(

Is this Cas’s version of a mental breakdown?

Why is Sam suddenly surprisingly okay? This is very suspicious.

hahah Cas in the church was a bit funny okay? I love thay he took down the pastor. Also who is whispering to Cas? The real god?

Sam has PTSD.

“He was young and sexy” - Random lady about the new god.

Cas’s body is giving up on him? He needs a new vessel?

*points at Sam* “You giraffe” - Crowley

Yes, why does Sam keep becoming bigger? I mean taller.

What they want to bind Death? Loony bins? I guess they always do loony shit. Why am I even shocked.

Oh my Cas (haha) wtf?? are the souls trying to escaped form inside Cas. That was some creepy looking shit even for spn.

“Because, we said so and we’re the boss of you. I mean.. respectfully”

“You can’t kill us , Death is our bitch” - Dean

Them being scared of Death like he’s a strict teacher. Death can make an eclipse? Why does he forgive them so often? But if they bind him again , they die. Hm.. He has taken them quite a few times already. He must be fed up.

Aw. It’s like an opposite to that episode in season 6 , where Dean was telling Bobby and Sam that Cas would never do that. And now it’s Sam who keeps saying that the original Cas is in there somewhere.

Aw , Cas tired to make amends. What the fuck? Lucifer. Oh Hallucinations. They give us these damn jump scares evey first episode of a season or what? Didn’t they give us a jump scare of yellow eyes.

Oh waah convincing Sam thay hed still in the cage is damn cool hallucination. It’s basically gaslighting pro max. Love it, Hate it for Sammy.

Are they going to push Cas also into purgatory? Oh I think so, or not, he’s still here? Oh he’s gone , just his body. Oh he’s back. Yay.

Woah woah woah Leviathans. Also whoa Misha is a good actor.

[mmaeeve]

daily dean quote #159/366:

“nobody’s going anywhere until sam has opposable thumbs.”

- season 5, episode 8, changing channels

[hellverse]

slow down

[angel-hole]

tiny!castiel

[stilldisqualified]

I could fix him (we would make each other so much worse)

[monowritestoomuch]

Okay but we all agree Danny Motta NEEDS TO WATCH Supernatural

Him at the end of season 1 ep 1: OH HOLY SHIT

If ykyk

[bbyboybucket]

Jensen Ackles is truly the blueprint. Hottest man alive. Changed 11 year old me’s brain chemistry.

[italwayshadtobeyou]

[coleslawleviathan]

watching supernatural is like if you could watch a television show that removed one medication you took in the morning per episode

[coy-lee]

I um hate been tickled um is it bad that I love your art and fanfics..? 🥺 👉👈

YOU PRECIOUS BEAN OF COURSE ITS NOT BAD! 🥺

It's something that takes trust and gentleness and even then not everyone can stand it, but it's okay to enjoy others enjoying it. The way I see it, the more joy it makes, the better. I like it cute, sweet and fully consensual. It's an act of trust and bonding and so there's nothing wrong with their happiness bringing you happiness. It's contagious :3

[violetpurpleviolet]

Supernatural , Season 6, Episode 7

Family Matters

Sam doesn't sleep , at all , not since he got back

"It never occurred to you there's something off about that?"

Oooh Dean's really pissed (Understandable)

IF HE CANT FEEL HOW IS HE FEELING PAIN? (its physical?)

"Its his soul , its gone"

Aw, because he's soulless, he can't care that he is soulless. This is so saaaaad. When does he get his soul back? Does it take the entire season? I don't want a whole season of soulless Sam :(. I miss soulful Sam.

Is Samuel also soulless? or does he have his soul because he wasn't trapped in a pit meant to hold Lucifer?

Have I mentioned that I don't like Samuel? Idk i just don’t like how he treats Dean. I get all hunters have trust issues, but idk this feels like some weird hatred. See, I trust Dean's instincts, he usually gets the trust stuff right more often than Sam. Sam's a cutie patootie (doesn't know who to trust, like me).

See, putting Dean in the back, when he knows Dean is a good hunter? Man, these damn hunters and their trust issues. Also, Samuel IS hiding something ( the phone call?).

I hate it when the brothers lie to each other. (but that's just siblings for you).

YAYAYAYA Sam and Dean are working together again. Brings joy to my heart.

Christian gives me the creeps. Also I just in general don't like people who are dicks to the brothers.

The alpha vamp actor looks really familiar. Also, before I started posting in the earlier seasons, I saw 3 actors from Once Upon A Time (Does anyone else watch that series?)

"Not heaven, not hell" "Legoland?"

Purgatory? Why does he want to find where purgatory is? I'm starting to think that the Alpha vamp wanted to be caught? Is he so powerful?

CROWLEY?

Oh, so that's why Christian was being such a bitch? Crowley is such a mastermind, though. Is Crowley the one who pulled them up? Oh, he's Lucifer 2.0, basically. (But I feel he's smarter because he doesn't underestimate Sam and Dean that much?) Also, he doesn't do the whole fate, god, raze the world stuff. Which was a big thing for Lucifer.

"What did he offer you? Girls, Money, Hair?"

Ah, Sam really was about to pull the trigger on Grandaddy. And Dean just unflinchingly puts his gun down. He knew soulless Sam would do that. Man they should have kept Crowley’s bones, but Bobby... hmm.

"You with me Dean?"

[anonbinaryweirdo]

why??? is??? there??? wincest??? on??? my??? for you??? tab???

[cherubcircus]

i miss them so bad…. they’re the team free will that lives in MY heart

[iliketoydinosaurs]

*visibly shaking* I'm so normal about him