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#the fuck are these weird mostly dry storms at night lately#i don't like them#give me a properay long storm#not these things that try to compress 12 hours worth of wind and lightning into 2 hours#and cheap out on the water#i genuinly detest the weather patterns lately#besides#i was checking 3 different weather sourses and all said tonight is going to be easy and quiet merely 3 hours ago#aha ye sure#ffs#i loves storms don't get me wrong but this one is weird#like.. really weird#i'm also super tired to i don't even know what i'm saying here#but this storm is off#levynn tries to think
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i'm drunk off two lavender martinis what the fuck do you MEAN dan and phil went on a step by step recreation of their japan trip as a part of a HONEYMOON episode for their sims. be so fr rn be so serious please. dan howell you have 4 minutes to respond . phil, keep it up babygirl. lavender martini recipe in the tags
#2 oz vanilla vodka (i used pearl bc its cheap and good)#1 oz lemon juice#1 oz lavender syrup (1 part sugar 1 part 1 water in a sauce pan#healthy coating of EDIBLE!!!! lavender to cover the top#bring to boil then reduce to a simmer for 5 mins#take off heat and let that shit steep for a bit#longer the better#i say 25 mins at the LEAST for a strong flavor#15 mins will do the job tho probs#filter out the lavender w a siv#add 3 drops each of blue/red food dye to make it purple if u want#garnish w a lemon#i bartend at a restaurant and this is one of our signature cocktails#i was iffy about lavender cocktails/lattes n shit before#but this drink changed me. the perfect balance of lavender notes and sweet/citrus#dan and phil#daniel howell#phil lester#amazingphil#dan and phil games#dnp#dnpgames#dipnpip#danisnotonfire#do people still use that tag#whatever. its there#danandphilgames#<3#i love them so much#they are my birth mothers
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do you think toji and/or sukuna are into looksmaxxing. i need to know.
choso is probably near to tears just thinking about it - he's having a hard time adjusting to all these new trends anyways, wdym there's a whole section of it now?
i feel like gojo just flexes his "natural" looks, nanami doesn't even know he has them until someone comments on your post saying "you won/we're so back."
omg hellaurrr i really pulled out a notebook to jot these down (this isn't even a joke, my keyboard was messing with me but i was worried i'd forget to answer properly) but now i may transcribe my notes on jjk + looksmaxxing 😭 🤭 u always send me the funniest things
gojo once found a wrinkle on his forehead and cancelled class for the day. now he sleeps with a cucumber and a jade roller. when he gets drunk, he claims that a kpop idol dm'ed him for advice on clear skin, never says who though (#liar) and in high school he used a self tanner once because suguru once likened him to an overgrown, pale musty mushroom. ended up with orange streaks everywhere. does pilates but will never admit it. wishes that in another life he was an influencer just so someone would send him pr packages because its nice to get presents in a box. definitely calls himself an icon.
geto thinks essential oils are a part of looksmaxxing so he feels better on the inside. literally floats around like a walking bottle of sandalwood and lavender. tried growing facial hair because he thought it would be great to accentuate his jawline, but someone called him a discount samurai and he had to cancel the cult meeting that day. thinks looksmaxxing isn't just physical but also a state of mind, so he carries around books like crime and punishment to look smart. thought that wearing glasses would make him look smarter and had a phase where he wore fake ones and not one person complimented them.
sukuna secretly has a stash of protein powder. it goes in everything, smoothies and sprinkled over raw meat. says that he doesn't give a flying fuck about these things, but used to read old, ancient scrolls about medieval skincare. got uraume to make him a scrub from red spider lilies and wondered why his skin was burning sooo bad afterwards. sharpens his nail with blades and claims its better than just normally clipping your nails, but he always ends up scratching himself bad. has a collection of sheet masks. has the best eyebrows of all time and knows this (gets them plucked). has an anonymous #hater tiktok account where he comments rude things under gojo's posts.
nanami. you are soooo right, he probably doesn't know or give a fuck about these things because he's actually employed. but hates the idea of a ten step skincare routine for he thinks that the best routine is simple: cleanser + moisturiser + sunscreen. believes in the power of a neutral toned wardrobe with clean, tailored silhouettes. but there are photos of him out there from when he was 18 years old, with black eyeliner on his waterline. shoots down everyone's ridiculous looksmaxxing attempts. jawline exercises? just chew your food properly. botox and fillers? try eight hours of sleep before reaching for the needles. want to post a glow up journey? well, just focus on yourself and move in silence. kind of gojo's biggest opp for all this, and being so clean and put together effortlessly...
#toji def has a gym acc where he does the stupid back muscle poses (that's my own haterism coming through!)#and he buys cheap bulk powder to mix with water because 'muscles don't care about taste'#choso is just...that gorgeous. hes from the 1870s he doesn't gaf truly. will break out in hives if u talk about it#— answered !#HEHEHEHEH what a fun ask!!!!!!!!!!!!#jjk x reader#gojo satoru x reader#geto suguru x reader#nanami kento x reader#sukuna x reader
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I’m still bitter that they didn’t think it was important enough for Jinx and Caitlyn to have a one on one conversation with each other and then have them fight it out.
Does Jinx know one of the councilors was Caitlyn’s mother? Are we suppose too assume she finds out during the time jump, off-screen? Is that not important enough address to ON-SCREEN????
Why establish this entire arc for Caitlyn that starts with Jinx, but you don’t see the importance of them interacting?
I know Jinx is a genius and in the game she gets away from being caught by Vi and Caitlyn numerous times, but isn’t Caitlyn supposed to have these super, amazing detective skills? That’s one of her defining traits in the lore.
I find it hard to believe that not once could she locate Jinx in the span of those months.
Also, Vi and Jinx don’t even speak about Caitlyn at all. Sometimes the writing for both of the sisters gives the impression that they don’t even remember what happened in season 1.
Yes, I know she chose “Jinx” and accepted that they both changed, but she went from being very obsessive to acting like Caitlyn doesn’t even exist really quickly. What happened to her very severe abandonment issues?
#arcane#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane spoilers#arcane s2 spoilers#jinx#vi#caitlyn kiramman#arcane critical#they built up all of this just to give us nothing#I wanted to see them throw hands at each other#blow the jinx vs Ekko fight out of the water#and#yes I am very invested in their dynamic and bitter about it#Isha being a cheap plot device#love her but still
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do they? not have? water bottles? no this is important. how do these kids consume water on the daily? they are d1 athletes i refuse to think they all just patiently wait in line to use a fountain during practices and games. and i dont even want to think about how little water neil consumes on the run if he doesnt have a water bottle
#like he literally goes for long ass runs all the time#and dry mouth from sport is ass yall#i refuse to accept that he doesnt even have a cheap bottle he stole from a park or something#but more than that#WHAT ABOUT NICKY AND AARON DRINKING OUT OF A FOUNTAIN#their literally D1 athletes#they cant not have water bottles right?#right????#kinda freaking out here#hugging my 40 oz emotional support bottle as i freak out#water is life#pls drink water kids#all for the game#aftg#the foxhole court#neil josten#nicky hemmic#aaron minyard
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#im out of cafe bustelo#this other coffee is like water#also anyone else hate when you like something and people are like eww that's just cheap supermarket stuff#ya what of it bitch#mind yo business#i dont want to spend $30 on a bag of coffee
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magnolias 🌸✨️
#secret garden 📚🧮#artists on tumblr#illustration#traditional art#magnolia#drawing#doodle#sketches#artwork#my art#sketchbook#zentangle#zendoodle#zen art#zentangle art#mandalas#mandala#mandala art#broke away from the cheap felt-tips for this one#watered down my calligraphy inks and used them like watercolours#lowkey love how it turned out#magnolias are some of my favourite flowers 💕
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it really is a thing of beauty; I'm so glad I already had enough paint to fill it
#I could naaawt have afforded to also buy all the paints to fill this but giving it empty would have been a bummer#I have a pocket palette exactly like this#and bro has expressed that portability has been a barrier for him getting into watercoloring like he planned#and that maybe something like mine would be better than having to pack out tubes of paint etc all the time#SO!! pocket palette for me brother! pocket cotton watercolor sketchbook! waterbrush! book on sketchin!!#that swatch card also has the brands n names of each color on the back with smaller swatches by each name#I don't Love water brushes myself but they ARE more handy in a pinch than water in a cup#that said I know he HAS brushes and I know I can also recommend cheap but decent travel brushes if he wants to go that route#... oh btw the thing about the paints that are almost entirely covered by the lip of the card holder lmao#this thing's magnetic! you can slide em around to access them more easily#personallyyyy those are the colors I use the least; the trays were originally empty in mine n only there to fill space#but I figured like.... they could also... have paint in em. seems silly not to frankly if there's pans in there either way ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#about me
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Top 5 drinks? ☕
i am about to confess. i am a terminal water-drinker SKFJHG i'm not super into sweet things and don't mind the taste of just plain water? so i don't often have any beverages at all, so this list is about to be the most hyper-specific list of beverages known to man 😂
hot water: i would argue this counts as a drink, because most people i know don't drink hot water, i'm just very chinese lol. it's nice! feels less shocking to the system than cold water. i do not like cold water.
taro bubble tea: truly the most bestest of bubble teas. it's purple! it has edible tadpoles! yum. idk unpopular opinion though, every time i get it from a place where they actually serve legitimate taro inside their taro bubble tea, i hate it. i want the artificial stuff that comes in powder form, that is probably like 90% sugar by weight
there's this corn juice that T&T sells that's really good. is also probably 90% sugar by weight. corn!
okay i have to admit that i do like the starbucks coffee cappuccino frappuccino whatever stuff that comes in the sealed glass bottles that you can get. again, definitely mostly sugar and milk by weight (i am not a hardcore coffee person. i'm not even a coffee person really), but they taste really good. i haven't had one in years and i'm not about to break that streak now! but i do remember really liking it.
another asian beverage, there's this pineapple beer stuff that is mostly non-alcoholic (the alcohol % is super low) that is really good. ALSO most DEFINITELY 90% sugar by weight, i swear it tastes kinda like caramel and nothing like pineapple. still good tho!
#asks#i swear the pineapple beer stuff used to be better though#like now i can taste this caramel-y aftertaste to it#which is fine it's not bad but it's not what it used to taste like#so i demoted it to 5#i don't like ANY other starbucks thing and esp now i refuse to go to starbucks#but for some reason those glass bottle boys are like. littol treat. somehow very good.#might just be that i have really low standards. in college i used to drink coffee strictly for the caffeine#so i would make the most godawful concoctions known to man#little bit of cheap instant coffee in a mug lot of hot water a bit of sugar to make it a little less caustic to swallow and voila#you now have a recipe for Olive's Caffeine Beverage From Hell: Also Known As Coffee Question Mark?#or i would dump some grounds into a french press and drown it in hot water#then walk away and forget about it for an hour#come back and pour out my cold garbage into a mug and microwave it#add sugar. serve.#yes it still had little bits of coffee grounds in it always. it was disgusting. do not do this.#oh maybe more cursed though is that with the french press method i'd always make way too much#so i would take the extra stuff and put it in the fridge for later#where it would ofc undergo the microwave + sugar treatment#again. don't do this.#and i hear you asking 'olive. why not add a little milk. please. at least don't drink it black and cursed with the ghost of sugars past.'#to which i reply: the grocery store we went to in college only had big 2L things of lactose free milk#and that was way too much milk for me to drink before it went bad#and also. more importantly. if i added milk to the mug that was less caffeine water in the mug therefore not enough caffeine.#and look at the above recipes. this was bad coffee EVEN with milk. i did not want to be drinking it either.#usually i would end up shotgunning the last 25% of the mug of cold sugar caffeine water because i would've forgotten it for an hour by then#how did i end up talking about this#ANYWAYS thank you for the ask!!!! :D#would recommend trying the above beverages in the list#would not recommend trying cold sugar caffeine water
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Atla live action 😐
#thats my honest reaction 😐#to be fair ive only seen 20 minutes of the s1 finale bc my parents are watching it but. mmmmm kinda mid#like. the casting is definitely an improvement since the last time they tried a live action but it feels like the writing falls flat#or maybe im being harsh bc ive only heard negative criticism on it beforehand. but fr anytime u bring up the original its already#good and not just because its the original. so much fucking detail went into it to the point of someone noticing azula wielding mai's knive#to how well thought out irohs character is used as a way of uniting the cast especially as zukos foil#i heard that sokkas sexism was toned down and i have to agree that feels like a cheap move. like i get WHY they think it would be better#but its not about how that reflects on real world its about how it affects the story. sokka starts out as a misogynistic asshole because#it makes it that much more impactful when he changes. toning that down makes it flatter and makes his character development weak#and someone pointed out they didnt even make him wear the kyoshi warrior uniform and i know it feels like such a small detail but#come on man. they did that in the original because not only does it help him really walk in their shoes - wearing 'feminine' clothing and#makeup and having suki explain its significance but it also ties in with the shows theme of harmony and intersectionality#i was also disappointed when they had the fire sages explain how the water tribe draws power from the moon because in the original it was#IROH who explained it to aang and everyone else BECAUSE we as the audience is under the impression hes with the 'bad guys'#and it builds up to how he learned from the other nations which reconciles his past as a war general and his character overall#AND its an excellent starting point for the cast and audience to understand how the nations arent as closed off as you would think#plus you would think its only fire nation doing propaganda but they expanded on that with earth kingdom censorship and it WORKS#a lot of things in the live action also feel arbitrary like. they gave momo a near death experience for 5 minutes for no reason#im firmly on the stance of bringing back filler moments instead of putting major events right after each other so that u give your#audience a sense of time passing and to really absorb the story. but i think thats more like shock value than filler and yeah its a small#thing to gripe about but those things build up and its really annoying. the thing abt avatar filler moments is that however small#its at least meaningful. hell even the beach episode emphasizes how isolated zuko and his friends are as child soldiers#i also swore to never watch the first live action since it was that bad but i really liked the stylized tattoos they used for aang#anyway. those arejust my thoughts. im not gonna watch the rest because im a ride or die for the original aftr growing up and#rewatching it at least 20 times as a kid. but theres definitely room for improvement and i wish ppl wouldnt take it as 'better' just cuz#netflix is adapting it. i wouldve killed for them to just reanimate the entire avatar series and touch NOTHING ELSE no redub#no changes to the story. just reanimate the thing and leave the rest alone and youd make easy money just the same#ALSO its very jarring not hearing jack desena and dante basco voicing sokka and zuko cause their voices were the most recognizable to me#i get that its because its live action but im allowed to feel a little sad abt that. and uncle irohs accent was really soothing#yapping
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König: I need beer. Soap: Woah buddy, I get it but you have guard in half an hour. Cool it. König: I need 500 ml beer, 450 gr flour, bit of salt and some herbs or spices. Soap: And then? König: And then I need a bowl to mix it all and let it rest before baking it for 30-45 min at around 180°C. Soap: And then what? What is this? König: Bread. König: Of course it is bread. What do you think the purpose of this is? Soap: Fucking germans.
#super subtle way of teaching the curious how to make bread#bread is literally so easy and cheap to make if you have an oven#obviously you can swap out the beer with water and yeast#but often some kind of cheap beer is available which makes the process more accessable#and yes beer has yeast in it#könig#könig cod#könig mw2#könig call of duty
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Final pictures of the Halloween Dream pair, a commission for @buttercupyarnart. Unfortunately, my husband decided that since we were out of color catcher sheets (used to catch bleeding dye) and instead just used salt to set the dye and prevent future bleeding, he's going to wash it anyway. The black fabric bled everywhere, and salt set it, as well as heat from the dryer. There is nothing I can do, and I am rightfully angered by his carelessness.
We use a laundromat, which is expensive even though it's the lowest cost one he could find. It's why I don't prewash fabric. When we have our own washing machine*, this won't be an issue.
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The mini quilt
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He'll be getting color catcher sheets before doing laundry next week, no worries about that.
But 76 hours of work, ruined by his carelessness.
#quilt#sewing#handmade#halloween#handquilting#*i want a Speed Queen. They're used by laundromats and made to last. our washing machine died last summer. transmission fluid leaked out#and water got into the engine. less than three years use and $500. we had a repairman come see about fixing it and he explained#this is by design because he sees the same thing in both cheap and expensive models. repairs would've cost $700 and the same thing#would happen again. he suggested a Speed Queen because they will last for decades. especially in a household of 2#unfortunately they're ~$1000 USD which is money we do not have. we spend $80-$100 each month doing laundry but we#can't afford $1000 all in one go. that'll be a future ko-fi goal.
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I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent
#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little#bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the#very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the#house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks#Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a#gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a#treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of#color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration#like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a#auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies#so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk#and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver#but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and#sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an#active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have#been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start#to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've#done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!'#(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks#with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm#secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool#stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers#me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or#it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for#too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been#investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely#enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed#google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj#LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!
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Midwest Museum has been on my mind especially after watching friends w my mom and talking about how unfunny that show was. it rolls around in my head because i really like the concept of a story where someone lives somewhat like shit but this is a life they enjoy and want and like
i guess the position of the main character, which is ''i grew up in a decent house with a rich family and i was never hit but i was traumatized to hell and back by every second of my childhood'' to ''im a poor adult with a minimum wage job and a shitty apartment and i have an alcohol problem and my friends are sort of sucky people but ive never felt so happy in my life and you CANNOT take this away from me''. and all that comes with it
#the main protag is like. i like her a lot#she claims shes a femme lesbian but dresses like shit and wears cheap eyeshadow w no mascar and hates heels#and she tries to hit on women who she thinks are lesbians but are just straight girls in tank tops#her best friend enables her alcoholism and is a known trespasser who doesnt like when others are emotional in front of him#and they have a mutual friend whos on some insane mental bender#and they all have to figure out how to prove to the protagonists army vet-turned-office lady rich mother to not come and ruin#this for her. because she wants to live in her shitty 600$/month apartment w her weird neighbor#and she wants to walk to work in the snow in her tredsafes and burn her food in the stove and not know how to boil water correctly#and drink way too much gas station cappucinos and walk around with all her money on her person and not have a bank account
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i really, truly, terrifyingly am unaware of who i am as a person. obviously, interests don't make up an entire personality. but what am i without them? the labels i use to describe myself no longer fit me. i have these swathes of names in my head that i don't want to belong to me and they do nonetheless. i am rotting. i am dying on the inside. one day i will fit to my own ideals and i will be happy and healthy and see beautiful sunlight stream through my windows again.
#random thoughts#(probably being dramatic because i watched another review of those lacey flash games and those always scare the shit out of me.#stop that crispin your language is so cheap and disgusting!!)#conflicting labels and interests and terms to describe the amalgamation of personalities i refer to as mine.#i have no concept of time and it is making me sick to my stomach. i do not remember. so many things.#this is only recent. i have not gone outside in a while.#not properly at least. there was yesterday (or whenever tuesday was) but that was for. legalities.#i sit in my room and i lose track of time and i drink water and i rot and i rot and i rot.#hey what's all this talk about rotting i need to promote the album......... 60 streams in just four days wow!!#listeners in japan and new zealand and germany and all that. amazing.#spotify no longer has malice mizer on the podcast i used to listen to. but there's another one.#i need to talk about random things. i have so much to say.#i've been speaking every day but i need to extend my reach to more people. there is a chance i am very mentally ill and i can't even tell#any of you.#in more ways than one now ! ! ! ! !#the term “crazy person”. i really do feel like it.#and i can't tell if it's properly me or myself in a way that. is. i will not elaborate.#something something four years of speculation.#that's cured momentarily i had a human interaction. i think i need to write meaningless words now. (sorry.)#torturous cloth bleeding desperately for the shrines you see nothing is ever really anything when you look at it beyond the surface of seas#and pretty intricate little cobwebs dancing a tune and spelling out the number 50 which is insignificant and means nothing obviously you#know this now#but as a member of us do you isolate yourself place yourself on a pedestal ever i think we're really all just that purple-blooded syndicate#i got into the things you like so i could be a part of you and now you are a part of me altered in the back of my mind though here you see#he took his own face and name now so he is different in some respects#no i don't like this i can see his face peeling in the forefront of my mind perhaps it is something i ought to share to the world through#song#(okay i just needed to do this. fine now. this post is also scheduled. may or may not delete.)#the internet is really scary!!!!
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Okay time for me to 🥰 in the tags real quick lmao
#not snz#okay so first of all i had thought i was gonna be trapped at the station again bc i got released but didn't trust myself to drive#so all of us who were staying overnight decided to make hotdogs but they were fucking arguing about how we were gonna heat them up??#like three of us were just sitting there starving in the cold while everyone else was fighting lmao#so i was like 😩 and called him while we were waiting for them to just pick a heating option#at which point several people had me put him on speaker to say hey and invite him to eat fucking hotdogs with us#i think it's been too long since most of us have had any outside interaction ahdkaksk#so he agreed to come and brought his roommates???? like just for funsies??????? idk i guess they really wanted some cheap ass hotdogs#and i hadn't seen him in over two weeks so i was vibrating lmao#okay and he's kind of a grumpy bitch lowkey but he doesn't shy away from like casually putting an arm around me or holding my hand so 🥺#so i hugged him when i saw him but then he went to hold my hand and was like 😨 bc they were ✨️ cold af ✨️#so he promptly grabbed my other hand and then just looked at them for a sec and asked if i was alright lmao#not an uncommon occurrence unfortunately lmao everybody grabs my hands when they start looking weird ahdmkaks we love raynaud's#but it still makes me soft when he expresses concern so 🥰#anyway so we all ate and just generally vibed for a while before people started head off to sleep#so his roommates took the car back and he drove my car so i could leave instead of having to stay overnight again lmao#and the hot water heater at the station ain't shit so the relief i felt taking a hot shower was immense lmao#especially after nearly freezing to desth in the rain ahdkkaks#anyway so then we just cuddled and watched shows on his laptop 🥰#and then obviously we slept bc it was fucking late as shit and i was ✨️ tired ✨️#but I'm a light sleeper so i woke up when he started moving around and setting up his laptop#and he gave me this little smile and ruffled my hair a little and told me to go back to sleep#fucking domestic as shit 😩🥺#also i feel like maybe i should share more things that have happened between us prior to dating#bc i swear nothing is progressing as quick as i feel my posts make it sound ahdkakdk#like I've known this man for over two years so we were coworkers and friends before anything else so we already had our little dynamic going#idk i just feel weird knowing that none of y'all know our lore ahdkakdk#anyway it was nice just getting to spend time with him again 🥰#and I'm taking him out friday bc i owe him a fun little date or several lmao so i think I'm done screaming now#partner posting
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