#and bottling it up is unhealthy

[ace-and-ranty]

The really fun movie I was watching turned out to not be a "character overcomes and wins!" but a "character goes full horror in a final dovespin", and I feel a bit like a stick in the mud because clearly the movie did it on purpose, they wanted this to be a horror and they wanted to end on that note, but... and I know my biases as not a horror fan are showing... the other story was so much better. And they ruined it for a horror ending that doesn't mesh well with the rest of the movie at all.

[pup-pee]

he is the dirt under my fingernails

[tosteur-gluteal]

Again, gouache painting I made to relax

[cookinguptales]

*stares at the camera in ehlers-danlos syndrome*

[cephydeluxe]

TW: eye strain, blood, no visible gore but eye injury implied (also rambling in the tags)

Early work in progress painting of v,,,, the final piece won’t look anything like this (…..maybe) but I was messing with layer settings and hard mix is serving ,,,,,

tbh I’m starting 2 understand V h8ters now,,, mf needs 2 get the FUCK outta my head before I do something crazy 🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣 (((draw him more****

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

random unfinished Hunter x Hunter thought of the day: Killua, having been trained his whole life to suffer through pain in silence, without complaint, and still doing the same all throughout the series, shattering during the Chimera Ant arc because he tried to hide all his strain again but has no recourse or training to fall back on when it comes to emotional pain

[cabeswaterdrowned]

Adam feeling the need to reconfigure the entire history of his friendship with Gansey in his head with the knowledge fear is a core motivator of Gansey’s.. I think before he could process that Gansey has a certain degree of anxiety as he calls it out in narration sometimes and other than times like the DC party where the rest of the situation and Gansey’s place in it brings out a negative reaction in him, Adam even tends to want to soothe/steady him like in that first 300 fox way reading earlier in my notes, the midnight calls, providing an idea whenever Gansey needs it things like that. But I think Adam assumed because Gansey can mask so easily from his pov, which he resents both because he feels it takes a lot from him when he attempts that and he’s inevitably messier and also because he sees it as a barrier for them truly being equals in their dynamic like he craves, that it isn’t true deep seated Fear the way his is, isn’t viscerally felt, and isn’t an integral motivator just something Gansey occasionally feels and never for too long because either he can push it aside or one of the people who would do anything for him (including Adam) would help him in it or relieve him of the burden (little does Adam know the largest burden Gansey is dealing with is the knowledge of his own death which he never tells anyone about.)

[marimayscarlett]

i love your tags about Richard so much, 100% relatable. thank you legend 🙏

Thank you so much for acknowledging my hard work of being my best unhinged self for him 🙏 Trying every day to send him the ego-stroking-vibes he deserves and needs as our diva in Christ

[shantechni]

It's been nearly a year since I last read Uramichi-Oniisan, but I somehow forgot how heavy this manga gets at times and Jesus Christ this chapter got me emotional-

[offlinesequence]

me, seeing dante and pointing: you are accidentally gonna be forced into a fatherly role by your nephews adopted brother or GODS HELP ME-

[thebekashow]

Bottled up emotions aren't healthy. But sometimes I have to learn how to keep the smile going :)

(PLEASE DON'T DO THIS. THIS IS SEVERELY UNHEALTHY AND CAN LEAD TO BAD THOUGHTS. YOUR EMOTIONS MATTER!)

[roseverdict]

parents will be like "it's my duty to Discipline™ my children, not be their ✨Friend✨" and then act shocked when their kids have rage issues identical to their own

[aretemisapollo]

If anyone needs to vent my messages (on tumblr) are open, as are my anon asks in case you would rather stay anonymous

“your partner isn’t responsible for your wellbeing”

“go tell this to a therapist”

“omg stop traumadumping” (after hearing a mild complaint)

can you guys hear yourselves? we are human beings. part of being in relationships (including friendships) with each other means looking after each other. we are responsible for each other. I look after your emotional needs when you need it, and you look after mine. sometimes things will be difficult and sometimes they’ll be outside my paygrade, and I’m allowed to step back from that. but you have to stop acting like it’s some massive toxic imposition on you to have to listen to someone talk about their feelings

[spikeyjo]

it's so hard bc you want to have a space where you can talk about self harm / disordered thoughts. but it's damn near impossible to have those spaces without it running the risk of giving someone ideas / encouraging continuing with the behaviors. so you nuke the space. and then there are so many sick people that have even less places they feel safe to express their self in.

[clone-wars-retteyo-au]

One fun yet tricky aspect of my AU (that I tend to do with worldbuilding cultures in general) is cultural/societal flaws, one of the biggest ones being a very "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" attitude that ends up causing issues. This results in a lot of issues related to mental health in which a large percentage of clones (particularly older ones) are bottling up their feelings despite having some absolutely insane amounts of trauma (I have a whole lot to say about how the clones compartmentalize trauma in general, but that's not the point here).

A big plot point in the AU is that, after many have settled down and created a new status quo within the peaceful era, an "epidemic" of sorts begins to appear that primarily targets the oldest generation of clones (AKA the ones who fought in the war). Aggression issues, reckless/self destructive behavior, "sudden" depressive episodes, intense mental breakdowns and psychotic breaks, etc.

Crime amongst older clones skyrockets in a way that appears almost unexpected, as many of these clones used to be relatively put together and level headed. It is eventually revealed that the biggest cause is that their mental blocks have started breaking down, and the pent up trauma is all surfacing at once.

Some members of the younger generation who have only know times of peace are a bit less emotionally constipated and realize that maybe these guys need some help, but even the older clones who realized that their situation was messed up absolute refuse to deal with any of their issues or go to therapy because why would they need that? There's some other stuff, but you probably get the point.

As a whole, I just feel like even the most introspective of clones who realize their situation was messed up don't fully think about how far down it reaches. Some might think that they are fully aware of their trauma, but in reality, they aren't actually as aware of all of their issues as they might like to think. Or even if they know that their situation was messed up, they don't really register that "hey, maybe that caused some issues in my brain. Maybe I should work on that."

I enjoy this fandom's overwhelmingly wholesome portrayal of the clones as individuals and as a community but ngl their upbringing on Kamino would foster a ton of toxic attitudes that I'd like to hear more people's takes on.

I think esp where mental health and performance issues are concerned the vibes would be RANCID. Again I love wholesome clones, and I'm not saying there wouldn't be any of those, but the Kamino cloning facilities are exactly the sort of environment that produces ppl who say shit like "everyone is doing this, why can't you?" or "just be normal" or "stop being depressed". Imo this kind of thinking would have a big impact on aspects of clone culture and community (since there's no such thing as a community without problems like that).

Imagine literally having the same DNA as everyone else but you're failing at something that millions of people with your exact "hardware" have perfected before. Both your creators and your own brothers just place all those "default" expectations on you. And how does that translate to the battlefield? You simply cannot show weakness bc at home, that would make you an inferior product, and on the job it would jeopardize your mission and everyone around you. You'd be stuck in an endless cycle of "man up and get your shit together" and more exploration of that would be fascinating I think.

Overall I'm advocating for more clones that kind of just turn out to be bad people bc it's not like goodness is coded into their genes. It's not like they were raised to be sweet and goofy, but a bunch of them just choose to become sweet and goofy people despite everything. Food for thought

[storiesofthestreetmp3]

NOthing like being at home to wonder if maybe i do have anger issues lowkey but it's fine because when it comes down to it i am a communication slayer,. #successfully argued my point and conceded only where i needed to concede & not more and also did a neat little wrap-up "You should not have done xyz but i also recognize that i shouldn't have done zyx" moment that ended in BOTH no lingering ruffled feathers AND no me feeling like i smoothed things over just to prevent feathers from ruffling . and i did this TWICE!