#and bottling it up is unhealthy
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The really fun movie I was watching turned out to not be a "character overcomes and wins!" but a "character goes full horror in a final dovespin", and I feel a bit like a stick in the mud because clearly the movie did it on purpose, they wanted this to be a horror and they wanted to end on that note, but... and I know my biases as not a horror fan are showing... the other story was so much better. And they ruined it for a horror ending that doesn't mesh well with the rest of the movie at all.
#like. the ending was building up to such a victorious crescendo.#for... cheap shock value resolution#like. yay. so her anger IS toxic and murderous and now she's gonna go to jail.#her life is ruined. huray.#but her jerk ex boyfriend is dead I guess.#hoo-fucking-rah.#I DON'T like it. I really thought the movie was making a POINT that anger is a HEALTHY EMOTION to have.#and bottling it up is unhealthy#instead like... 'wow this crazy bitch really should have kept her anger bottled up! look what happens when she doesn't!'#I. UGH.#If they wanted the boyfriend murder to be a moment of victory#one: they should have made him worse.#two: it should not have been in front of the whole world so she is implied to be FUCKED at the end.#it should NOT have been ABOUT him.#she should have won by getting the ROLE back.#her ACTUAL passion.#she should have won by taking his PLAY from him!#the PLAY is what has matter THIS WHOLE TIME. The PLAY should have been the resolution!#NOT RIPPING HIS THROAT OUT. That is so BASIC. and CHEAP.#Hated it. They ruined the most charming little movie.
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he is the dirt under my fingernails
#just a bunch of kons ive drawn over a time period#when im upset i draw him woopeee#snyways look @ my hcs boy#i hold unhealthy ass kon rlly close 2 my heart u dont understand ots so stupid#CAN U TELL WHEN U DRAW YOUNGER KON?? I RLLY HOPE SO PLS TELL ME U DO#kfjfoksnsnnngngngn hhhhhhhhhhhh#ive paniking all night staring @ the figure outside my window#now its afternoon & I CANT SLEEEEPPP tehehe#y doesnt melotinon melon mel something WORKKK#call back 2 the time i took a whole bottle of those tablets & stayed up 2 dayd that was weird#im rambling in my tags again mooommmm#yk what would b a good idea? taking my meds#imma do that yeah#kon el#kontent#U GET A TAG#konmen pls accept me as a konartist pls oh god#pls dont eat me alive#puppee art#oh hint of kart in there ofc bc im insane#i ordered stuff 4 etsy((i think idk if i did it correct)) & im working on buttons((FINALLY AGAIN))#me? doing work outside of work? insnae. its mot work im just drawing kon & bart send help#i need 2 shut up im so tired wikihow how 2 sleep
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Again, gouache painting I made to relax
#my schedule is alright tomorrow maybe i'll be able to go to the library and do some med work there#i'm. surprised i actually WANT to study but also i still have this unhealthy obsession with drawing. however somehow it's more manageable#like. i actually SIT DOWN AND DO MY WORK?? AND HOMEWORKS??? HELLO???#but the. catch is my emotions are even more confusing and i am so ashamed of them i bottle them up AHAAA guess who will probably#--do vent art#i. need to see a medical professional#for this and. understand better how my brain works also. and. transgender moment (i am NOT passing guys)#toaster talks#rant#toaster draws#my art#omori au#omofalls#omofalls au#omori basil#traditonal art#gouache painting#gouache#sketchbook art#omori
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*stares at the camera in ehlers-danlos syndrome*
#cw:#ehlers danlos syndrome#every month man#thank god for ketamine and pot because no other painkiller I've ever tried would touch it#and I am including opiates in that statement#I used to take a muscle relaxer every month#but that would make me sleep for literally like 14-15 hours and make me groggy for days#and it wouldn't start working UNTIL I was asleep so I'd usually end up drinking like half a bottle of wine to get there#it was really really unhealthy but when I say that level of pain makes you absolutely nonfunctional#I am really SO grateful for marijuana it is a GODSEND when I'm like this#it loosens up the muscles enough that I can push the bone back in with a foam roller#I've had some people give me shit for ~illicit drug use~ and it's like BELIEVE ME when I say this is the healthy option#just let patients with chronic pain take drugs okay
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TW: eye strain, blood, no visible gore but eye injury implied (also rambling in the tags)
Early work in progress painting of v,,,, the final piece won’t look anything like this (…..maybe) but I was messing with layer settings and hard mix is serving ,,,,,
tbh I’m starting 2 understand V h8ters now,,, mf needs 2 get the FUCK outta my head before I do something crazy 🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣 (((draw him more****
#hes just too fucking fascinating to me…..#him and Rika need to stop stealing the show#actually debating playing Saeran ae just to obsessively call V the whole time#cheritz was absolutely cooking when they put the most unhealthy#codependent and traumatized#and weird couple#into a FUCKING OTOME GAME AAAAA#it gives me such brainrot like#jaehee route ending with mc and jaehee opening up a cafe#and being adorable lesbians#MEANWHILE v has (presumably) fuckin died at the hands of Rika#as a sacrifice 2 keep the rfa safe#and jumin is just having to sit there sipping coffee in his former secretary’s cute cafe#acting like he didn’t pregame the event with a bottle of merlot#it’s crazy#it’s a cute dating game with cute characters#and also a fuckin Shakespearean tragedy#not apologizing for the tags ITS MY SHOW!!!#(ps. always devastating that jumin becomes a major alcoholic in nearly all the endings)#i wanna ramble about it on a nother’ post#but I’m seepy now nighty night#honk shoo🥱🥱🥱honk shoo😪😪😪honk shoo#cephy talks#jihyun kim#fanart
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random unfinished Hunter x Hunter thought of the day: Killua, having been trained his whole life to suffer through pain in silence, without complaint, and still doing the same all throughout the series, shattering during the Chimera Ant arc because he tried to hide all his strain again but has no recourse or training to fall back on when it comes to emotional pain
#storyrambles#hxh#sigh. it makes me really sad.#also I don’t think some people fully grasp how much ca arc angst was driven by both Gon and Killua’s mutual self worth issues#and their unhealthy ways of dealing with that#gon tries to fix things as a means to take accountability to the point of self destruction#and killua bottles everything up until he breaks#killua zoldyck
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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.
Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.
#my characters#waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit#deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee#and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name#deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c#man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while#he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair#ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so#its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons#but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me#and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not#fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew#and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable#while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts#and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed#so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en#so you know maybe its that idk#and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now#and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it#and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad#that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal#and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it#the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer#anyway story time in the tags again#im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note#its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him#he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times#and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea#and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you
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Adam feeling the need to reconfigure the entire history of his friendship with Gansey in his head with the knowledge fear is a core motivator of Gansey’s.. I think before he could process that Gansey has a certain degree of anxiety as he calls it out in narration sometimes and other than times like the DC party where the rest of the situation and Gansey’s place in it brings out a negative reaction in him, Adam even tends to want to soothe/steady him like in that first 300 fox way reading earlier in my notes, the midnight calls, providing an idea whenever Gansey needs it things like that. But I think Adam assumed because Gansey can mask so easily from his pov, which he resents both because he feels it takes a lot from him when he attempts that and he’s inevitably messier and also because he sees it as a barrier for them truly being equals in their dynamic like he craves, that it isn’t true deep seated Fear the way his is, isn’t viscerally felt, and isn’t an integral motivator just something Gansey occasionally feels and never for too long because either he can push it aside or one of the people who would do anything for him (including Adam) would help him in it or relieve him of the burden (little does Adam know the largest burden Gansey is dealing with is the knowledge of his own death which he never tells anyone about.)
#also Adam and Gansey both frequently operate from a place of fear over losing the other and this causes both to unhealthy bottle up a lot#(I do wish Gansey had a moment of fully realizing this the same way Adam does. he grows to understand Adam’s need for independence a bit#more but I don’t think he ever quite cracks this part of it.. )#like it’s not that Adam totally can’t conceive of negative emotion from Gansey he just cannot conceive it’s negative emotion Like his that’#the difference#s speaks#s rereads bllb#trc reread notes#trc#adam parrish#richard gansey#adansey#my meta
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i love your tags about Richard so much, 100% relatable. thank you legend 🙏
Thank you so much for acknowledging my hard work of being my best unhinged self for him 🙏 Trying every day to send him the ego-stroking-vibes he deserves and needs as our diva in Christ
#happy to hear they're relatable I'm always surprised people read them and I'm not just screaming into a void#and you know. bottling up emotions is very unhealthy#so better letting them out in the tags. it might be giving absolute desperation over this man but yes. that's how it's intended#ask#thank you 💜
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are.... are people ok?
i dont understand why so many people get so offended that you reply to them after like 6 months of them posting a comment to the point they fucking insult you for it
and ive only ever had it from people on yt too, tumblr users dont care, reddit users dont care, twitter users dont care either
but yt users? theyll fucking tear you to shreds over it... why tf bro... i dont understand, i didnt kill your family bro just wtf bro
#vent post#vent#youtube#internet#some people are just why#why#why bro#why the actual fuck#this is tame response compared to some ive seen#only time i understand is if its a heated arguement#but this was just like... a thread abt toxoplasmosis bruh#atill feeling rage may needa vent more#is it unhealthy for me to vent so much?#ive been told by reddit users before#isnt the point of venting to just#get something off your mind?#and not do something that hurts others?#what am i supposed to just bittle this shit up until i explode?#im already bottling up a shit ton already#ugh i dont wanna go to sleep like this#fuck#fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck#am i stupid for being irritated by this#im imsecure so insults like these freak me out and feel like i needs prove myself#i fucking hate life#i hate people#why am i like this#how much of a problem am i#damn i kinda wanna cry#hmmm uh this might be pms
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It's been nearly a year since I last read Uramichi-Oniisan, but I somehow forgot how heavy this manga gets at times and Jesus Christ this chapter got me emotional-
#usahara's always worried about uramichi so much and seeing the flashbacks to fill in the gaps between college and the kid's show is just😩😭#rambles#manga#life lessons with uramichi oniisan#it hits especially hard when you think of how often uramichi tends to shoot the guy down but usahara still sticks around in the end#like he /knows/ uramichi bottles things up to an extremely unhealthy level and uramichi isn't willing to open up#but usahara learns over time that just being there for him is sometimes all he needs#idk man this series is comical but it gets deeeeeeep and makes me feel things
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Woke up in a cold sweat thinking about the Wrights
#idk if I want to ramble or write a fic but my mind is being consumed#going off of the idea that Phoenix was going to be more of an actor in art school and how that transfers to the courtroom#and how both he and his daughter are performers with the same unhealthy coping mechanisms#a magician always smiles and a lawyer smiles until it’s over but it’s never really over#beanix is a character that Phoenix had to play for so long that it became a part of him#court is a stage and there’s a reason why he always takes the most hopeless wacky cases#they’re performers and maybe that’s why they get along so well#it’s just so hard to be completely genuine around anyone else but they just understand each other#Phoenix emotionally distances himself by bottling things up or treating himself like a character he’s playing and it’s not great always
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me, seeing dante and pointing: you are accidentally gonna be forced into a fatherly role by your nephews adopted brother or GODS HELP ME-
#something something dante is the closest thing flavus has ever had to a dad in his entire life#and its weird for them ar first but i thi k it helps them get over their combined depressive rut#which flavus deals with by putting himself in harms way to the pount where his partner is losing sleep over him#and dante is just. compentmentalizing and bottling up his feelings#both are extremely unhealthy and one has experienced the other and know how to deal with it but they dont know the best way to approach it#and UGH#sorry ill stop writing and projecting now#the dmc raz fanon
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Bottled up emotions aren't healthy. But sometimes I have to learn how to keep the smile going :)
(PLEASE DON'T DO THIS. THIS IS SEVERELY UNHEALTHY AND CAN LEAD TO BAD THOUGHTS. YOUR EMOTIONS MATTER!)
#thebekashow#art#bottled up#emotion bottling#please don't bottle up emotions#its unhealthy#i do it alot#but don't do it#vent art?? idk
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parents will be like "it's my duty to Discipline™ my children, not be their ✨Friend✨" and then act shocked when their kids have rage issues identical to their own
#milky way is now screaming and bashing things downstairs after getting yelled at for not mowing the lawn#like he was NOT ACTUALLY TOLD TO DO TODAY#feeling the 'you and me and the bottle makes three tonight' in this house tonight except the bottle isn't alcohol#it's the unhealthy coping mechanism of bottling up all outward displays of emotion#rosie rambles
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If anyone needs to vent my messages (on tumblr) are open, as are my anon asks in case you would rather stay anonymous
“your partner isn’t responsible for your wellbeing”
“go tell this to a therapist”
“omg stop traumadumping” (after hearing a mild complaint)
can you guys hear yourselves? we are human beings. part of being in relationships (including friendships) with each other means looking after each other. we are responsible for each other. I look after your emotional needs when you need it, and you look after mine. sometimes things will be difficult and sometimes they’ll be outside my paygrade, and I’m allowed to step back from that. but you have to stop acting like it’s some massive toxic imposition on you to have to listen to someone talk about their feelings
#I hope no one takes this the wrong way or gets the wrong idea from this#It's unhealthy to keep things bottled up. Everyone has to vent sometimes. It's not toxic or anything like that unless it gets really extrem#Partners and friends are there to help you. You just have to let them. They *want* to help they *want* to be there for you#Please never think that you should keep your feelings bottled up. Take it from someone who tried for a long time it helps no one
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