#they would need so much therapy before they are able to care for the emotional needs of a whole ass child

[clone-wars-retteyo-au]

One fun yet tricky aspect of my AU (that I tend to do with worldbuilding cultures in general) is cultural/societal flaws, one of the biggest ones being a very "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" attitude that ends up causing issues. This results in a lot of issues related to mental health in which a large percentage of clones (particularly older ones) are bottling up their feelings despite having some absolutely insane amounts of trauma (I have a whole lot to say about how the clones compartmentalize trauma in general, but that's not the point here).

A big plot point in the AU is that, after many have settled down and created a new status quo within the peaceful era, an "epidemic" of sorts begins to appear that primarily targets the oldest generation of clones (AKA the ones who fought in the war). Aggression issues, reckless/self destructive behavior, "sudden" depressive episodes, intense mental breakdowns and psychotic breaks, etc.

Crime amongst older clones skyrockets in a way that appears almost unexpected, as many of these clones used to be relatively put together and level headed. It is eventually revealed that the biggest cause is that their mental blocks have started breaking down, and the pent up trauma is all surfacing at once.

Some members of the younger generation who have only know times of peace are a bit less emotionally constipated and realize that maybe these guys need some help, but even the older clones who realized that their situation was messed up absolute refuse to deal with any of their issues or go to therapy because why would they need that? There's some other stuff, but you probably get the point.

As a whole, I just feel like even the most introspective of clones who realize their situation was messed up don't fully think about how far down it reaches. Some might think that they are fully aware of their trauma, but in reality, they aren't actually as aware of all of their issues as they might like to think. Or even if they know that their situation was messed up, they don't really register that "hey, maybe that caused some issues in my brain. Maybe I should work on that."

I enjoy this fandom's overwhelmingly wholesome portrayal of the clones as individuals and as a community but ngl their upbringing on Kamino would foster a ton of toxic attitudes that I'd like to hear more people's takes on.

I think esp where mental health and performance issues are concerned the vibes would be RANCID. Again I love wholesome clones, and I'm not saying there wouldn't be any of those, but the Kamino cloning facilities are exactly the sort of environment that produces ppl who say shit like "everyone is doing this, why can't you?" or "just be normal" or "stop being depressed". Imo this kind of thinking would have a big impact on aspects of clone culture and community (since there's no such thing as a community without problems like that).

Imagine literally having the same DNA as everyone else but you're failing at something that millions of people with your exact "hardware" have perfected before. Both your creators and your own brothers just place all those "default" expectations on you. And how does that translate to the battlefield? You simply cannot show weakness bc at home, that would make you an inferior product, and on the job it would jeopardize your mission and everyone around you. You'd be stuck in an endless cycle of "man up and get your shit together" and more exploration of that would be fascinating I think.

Overall I'm advocating for more clones that kind of just turn out to be bad people bc it's not like goodness is coded into their genes. It's not like they were raised to be sweet and goofy, but a bunch of them just choose to become sweet and goofy people despite everything. Food for thought

[lcriedlastnight]

a stain on the kitchen floor

○ lando norris x sportstherapist!reader

♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ : w/c 1.7k. this was so fun to write actually. i'm shit at pacing that's why i haven't written a multi-part story yet so if it's bad don't tell me. also i’m too lazy to proofread these days.

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"i know it's totally normal in the world on formula one, but to me? i think it's crazy. i wouldn't be able to switch up my emotions and feelings like that with some of my closest friends." lando looks over at her from his chair, eyes awfully bright for what was what she considered one of their more heavier sessions.

lando didn't know how he had gotten himself into this situation... well he did, he was just so embarrassed about it! it's not like he would know that her pretty eyes and soothing voice would be just the thing he need to see and hear first thing on a monday morning - especially after a race weekend. it didn't even need to be a bad weekend for him to want to see her and talk you through the weekend from his point of view. when lando realised that, he realised that he fancied her.

forcing himself to zone back in, (he felt bad for always zoning out during sessions. she thought that his mind must've been a battle field but in reality he just couldn't concentrate with her around him, caring words flying around his head and making himself believe that she wasn't asking because it was her job but because her genuinely cared about his mental well-being.) his eyes jump back onto her figure sitting on the chair across from him.

"it's like you said, i'm used to it. we all are." lando shrugs, something he felt like he did a lot in these short ten minute sessions. it has her sighing again before jotting something down again in her little pink notebook.

"lando, i've told you before, you need to stop shugging things like this off. i can tell it bothers you so just tell me how it makes you feel." she tells the boy, a little annoyed but in a second any trace of it is gone and she's back to her usual upbeat self. lando's heart stutters at her words. simp.

"it is a little hard sometimes, but it comes with the job. you gotta be mentally strong to do this too." lando explains like to her like they haven't already had the exact same conversation a few sessions ago. all she does is nod her head, appreciating that he was trying to open up and let her in. before she could dig any deeper though, her timer went off, signalling that their ten minutes were up. lando groans. loudly.

"why're you annoyed? you hate talking about your feelings." she points out and it has the driver turning red and stuttering out some bullshit answer. if she hadn't noticed his little crush by now then lando thinks he might have to tell zak to find someone a little better.

★・・・・・・★

much to zak and oscar’s surprise lando had been attending the sessions weekly, arriving earlier than he ever had in his entire career at mclaren. this didn’t make much sense to them but who were they to judge? at least lando was finally talking about his feelings, regularly, to someone who could help him process them correctly.

oscar always went second every monday. he would watch as lando skipped out of the room, gracing him with one of those cheesy smiles that he was famous for. sometimes oscar forgot about lando’s hesitance the first day because there was no way she was this good to make him switch from being therapy’s number one hater to its biggest fan. she hadn’t even been here a month yet!

oscar was seeing the same girl and he, in the nicest way possible, did not think she was anything special. she was just a girl who tried to get to cold at steel drivers to talk about their emotions. easy enough right? oscar was starting to think that she had maybe coaxed this good attitude towards therapy out of him some way but his mind was quickly changed just before their third ever session with her. it was the most put together oscar had even seen lando on a monday morning, ever! it was like he was doing a paddock walk. that’s when oscar realised that maybe lando’s excitement towards these sessions wasn’t getting to talk about his feelings but maybe because he was talking to her. not to blow smoke up his own arse but oscar wasn’t stupid.

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the session after jeddah was particularly difficult for her. in her entire time with lando it hadn’t been too difficult to get him to speak out about how the previous race had gone but as they got further into the season, she noticed every time how it was a little bit harder each time to get him to open up to her.

“lando?” she says softly. they had been sitting in silence for half the session. this had been their worst one yet. she had no idea why this was hurting her so much, maybe she was just too empathetic and felt whatever pain lando had felt.

lando stays silent but looks up at her with so much hurt in his eyes it makes her avoid his gaze as for the first time with lando, she felt a little uncomfortable. it was literally her job to comfort people when they were struggling so why was this time so fucking difficult?

“the session is nearly finished.” is all she can say.

“right.” lando nods.

“i know this was a harder session today but i’m proud of you, you didn’t even need to show up and you did which shows so much progress from our first one.” her words were filled with a sincerity lando hadn’t heard in a long while.

“can i ask you for something?” lando asks. the most he’s spoken this session, she jumps at the opportunity to help him feel even the slightest bit better.

“of course, that’s what i’m here for.”

lando hesitates for. few beats before he’s standing up from his chair and walking towards hers.

“can i have a hug?”

she’s taken aback but she doesn’t let it show as she opens her arms without hesitation. this may be a little unprofessional but that was the last thing she was thinking of right now. if this what was going to make him feel better then she would hug him until her arms went numb. that’s not unprofessional though! it’s just because she wants to help all of her patients. she would do the same for oscar…

lando lets himself relax for the first time since saturday. he lets himself breathe in her perfume and what he thinks is some kind of flowery shampoo. the mix of the two makes him lightheaded in the best way possible.

“i’m sorry for not saying anything.” lando breaks the silence first.

“you don’t have to apologise. i’m here for you no matter what you want to do. i’ve already told you that we don’t even have to talk about it if you don’t want to.” she comforts, hand now running up and down his back in a soft trail of warmth.

“i do want to. it’s just.. hard to break habit i guess. and now we don’t have any time to.” lando confesses, her heart simultaneously bursting with pride and hurt.

“i’m sure oscar wouldn’t mind if we push his session back for this week.” she offers.

lando moves his head from on top of hers in surprise.

“really? you would do that for me?”

she doesn’t answer, instead heading to the door to ask the aussie sitting outside waiting for her. this is professional, all she wants is for lando to get his feelings out.

once lando rants and gets out every single thought and feeling he had over the weekend and she offers her best advice, she tells him something that she hopes sticks with him for the rest of the season.

“we both know that you are capable of this. you are a world class driver in an amazing car that we know you can drive i just don’t want your downfall to be your mind. it’s amazing but you let it hurt you too much. don't let your mind make you feel like you aren't worthy of this. you aren't just a stain on someone's kitchen floor, okay?"

lando only nods in understanding before standing from the chair again, you rise again to stand beside him. instead if asking this time, he just pulls you into another hug, this one feels tighter than the last but you don’t complain. no, you smile into it and weirdly repress the urge to press a kiss on his shoulder. okay, that’s not at all professional.

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later on, before the workday for her ends, she finds herself reaching for her notebook. she didn't write down everything he said, she would be there all day with the way he spoke to her these days. it was just things that she felt she would want to circle back on in later sessions, she did it with every client she has, oscar's notes sat a little emptier a divider away. but there was something different about lando's notes that she didn't even realise that she had done until she was reviewing after that session.

she flicks to the divider with his name on it and gets to today's notes.

likes to unwind after race by watching an adam sandler film.

okay, that's still on the professional side. nothing too wrong with that, it's good to have fun and easy ways to decompress, especially as an f1 driver, she tells herself.

doesn't like sushi.

that's... not professional but not weird to write down? she questions herself in her head. she remembers the conversation in her head and can't help the smile that creeps up onto her face at the memory. she should not be smiling right now but that small smile turns into a full on beaming grin as what she had wrote next.

smells like that one cologne from armani.

she can't even remember writing that. her smile drops in seconds, thinking that this was getting creepy. why had she written that? she was going to have to start paying more attention to what she was writing in her sessions with lando. she seemed like a fucking stalker.

she snaps the book shut and shoves it back in it's drawer. it's like this was the push she needed to get moving and get home. she gathers her stuff from her 'temporary' office and throws on her coat, it was getting warmer woking but not warm enough to forgo a jacket of some sort. as she was walking out to the car park she passed by the trophy cabinet and about a million pictures of lando smiling.

she had to get a grip.

[brucewaynehater101]

The evil parent club thingy made me think about something if JJ did effect Tim to the point where he still thinks the joker and Harley are his parents imagine how it would impact his interactions and identity

Cuz Harley is good now so he could reasonably go to her and she was a therapist so she could help

But sometimes even if you hate a parent you still long to see them imagine how Tim would react to knowing that his mind sometimes wants him to just go to joker because his brain thinks joker is his dad still no matter how much he hates him

Tw: Abuse, torture, domestic abuse, brainwashing, child abuse, JJ

Yeah. The shitty part about domestic abuse is that it's not clear cut to the victim. Due to certain tactics (like love bombing), it may be hard for someone to realize that they are being abused or that it's the abuser's fault.

I haven't seen much of the Harley Quinn show, but I remember thinking that the first season showed this. Harley kept going back to Joker despite how he would hurt her. Leaving abusive relationships is grueling.

For Tim, he would know before and after the JJ period that Joker is a bad guy. A monster. Despite that, the brainwashing, electrocution, manipulation, etc. would be detrimental to his ability to be strictly rational. Add on that this happened when he was a kid and his brain was still developing?

It's understandable if Tim would have conflicting feelings about Joker and Harley. You're right that you can loathe your parents and still miss them. It is also reasonable that someone might miss their abuser due to emotional manipulation and other tactics employed. This is one of several reasons why people get stuck in a cycle of abuse.

For JJ specifically, I could go in depth about many layers. We could chat about why he would miss the Joker, the shame and confusion and horror he'd feel when he realizes it, his need to hide this realization from others, the many ways he may lash out or try to process his emotions/trauma, and overall how this would permanently change who he is as a person.

I think, and I am in no way a professional, that Tim would benefit from group therapy for domestic abuse victims. He wouldn't need to say who hurt him, but hearing others and their similar struggles may relieve some of the guilt and shame he feels. Due to his unique situation, he may need to be convinced that he does qualify for this group. Maybe Harley is the one to suggest it and support him. Maybe not.

She would not be able to be Tim's therapist due to her role in his abuse, their relationship, and her revoked license. However, she may still provide him support and care if Tim has enthusiastically expressed her presence as an aid rather than a trigger. Boundaries are important

[mustlovetommy]

Some Sentences Sunday

Thank you so much for tagging me @bidisasterevankinard @bangpop91writing and @trombonechurchill 🧡🧡🧡

I will also use this for the Make Me Write 💌 that @subtlehysteria asked of me

Here's a snippet of my Bucktommy Epistolary - Different First Meeting WIP

Dear T.,

Hi. Wow! I guess this is a bit weird, but in a strange way, it’s kind of nice too. I have to ask, though… How old are you? Because I didn’t even realize that people still wrote actual letters to each other these days. You could have found me on Facebook, Instagram, or any of my other socials… but I guess that would’ve ruined the anonymity and mystery of it all, wouldn’t it? 

So, you were in the army? That’s cool. And pretty incredible. I actually trained to be a SEAL myself, but I realized that I couldn’t shut off my emotions the way they said I needed to. I guess I’m just not wired that way, I’m not a robot. Maybe that’s why what happened on the rollercoaster hit me so hard.

You were right… it is my first death on the job. And I don’t know. I just feel so frustrated. All he had to do was reach out with his hand and I would have been able to save him. I could’ve grabbed his hand. 

My mind is full of what-ifs and guilt. But your words, they did help me. Honestly. My team has been trying to help me as well, but hearing it from someone who doesn’t even know me, yet somehow gets what I’m feeling… it really means a lot. 

So, thank you so much for your letter. I wasn’t expecting it, obviously, but I’m genuinely grateful for it. It has brought me much-needed comfort.

As for the other part of your letter… I want you to know how honoured I am that you felt you could trust me with that information. 

I’m heterosexual myself (though I’ll admit that I’ll always check out some hot guy’s ass, but that’s normal) so while I can’t fully understand how hard it must be to come out, I can imagine how much courage it must take to open up like that.

I’m glad that after seeing my interview, you got that impression of me. I would like to think that I am all those things you’ve said about me. So, thank you for that.

And no, I don’t think you’re crazy. Honestly, I think that you’re really brave for doing this. I hope your therapist was right and that writing that letter helped you out. Would you let me know if it did? Is that weird? 

Speaking of therapists… my captain wants me to go to therapy to talk about the rollercoaster call. I’ve never been to therapy before. Do you think I should?

Anyway… I’m not quite sure how to end this, so I guess I’ll just say goodbye… for now, I hope.

Take care.

Warm regards,

Evan B. 

Tagging but no pressure: @dark-alice-lilith @aesthetictarlos @frogsinflannel @quintessenceofdust88 @laundryandtaxesworld @astoopidfool and anyone else who wants to share something!

[simplynims]

The BitterSweet polycule at last!!

It took me a bit to draw them all out but I'm happy how they turned out!

If you want to hear me yap a bit about my version of SugarBoo, feel free to read more below!

Trigger warnings before reading:

- Mentions of family members deaths

- Implied emotional abuse

- Physical abuse of a minor (e.g forced cutting hair)

- Harrassment

- Mentions of being homeless

My version of SugarBoo is named Devlin but everyone just calls him Dev for short. He's a transman that uses he/they pronouns!

He was born in California before moving out to Texas with his mom and dad, however when Dev was around 4 or 5 his dad passed away due to complications with his heart. Dev was very much a daddys boy when his dad was still alive however since his dads passing him and his mother grew closer up until she remarried when Dev was around 10.

His step dad and Dev had a really rocky relationship from the get go due to the fact Dev looks a lot like his bio father so he made him cut his hair short constantly while growing up. This is because Devs bio dad had really long hair and the resemblance between him and Dev were near identical.

Dev and his mother were very close however when it came to his step dad she didn't have the guts to really stand up to him. Dev loves his mother dearly, they used to tell each other everything and Dev genuinely believed his mom would have his back throughout anything but it came crumbling down whenever his step dad was involved.

What strained and nearly broke the relationship between him and his mom was when Dev turned 18 and got thrown out of his home. After years of his mother reassuring him and promising that he'd be able to stay there while going to college, it was all thrown out the window in an instant as soon as he turned 18. Dev felt betrayed by the one person he thought had his back because his mom did nothing to stop his step dad from throwing him out.

Dev was basically living in his dingy car his mom bought for him when he was 16 for almost a year before he was able to get back on his feet again. It was around 5 years later did he recieve any messages or news from his mom and it was from the hospital stating that his step dad and mom were both in a car crash. His step dad didn't make it but his mom was still clinging on so they called whoever she put down as her emergency contacts. And the only person she put down was Devlins number.

Despite how much Dev wanted to decline, he broke and ended up going back to see his mom again in the hospital. She was still alive but the doctors confirmed she wouldn't be able to live on without a proper care taker so Dev ended up taking that role.

Dev really wanted to hate his mom, he hated how she betrayed him like that all those years ago and a part of him still won't let it go. But, seeing the shit his mom went through and believing he was going to lose his mom permanently, it shook him to his core. After everything that happened, Dev still loved his mom and still wanted her in his life. The two ended up talking a lot when she was finally discharged, a lot of things came out and a lot of tears were shed. In the end, Dev ended up forgiving his mom however he made it clear that although he forgives her he won't ever forget what she did to him. It's something he needs to work out in therapy.

Dev took care of his mom for almost 2 years and within those two years he and his mom had been harassed constantly by his step dads family. His step dad was a very rich man and his family were harassing them for his money, assest, etc. The will was vauge and the court proceedings were long, even after it was settled that Dev and his mom would get majority of his assets and money they still kept hounding them for more.

Dev really tried to not let it effect his moms health, he was taking on a lot of responsibilities and fighting off his step dads family just added more to his plate. They made his and his moms life hell for nearly two years up until his mom passed away. Dev made a promise to his mom that he would live life well and wouldn't depend on anyone for anything and that started with Dev selling everything he could that didn't have emotional value after her funeral and dropping off the face of the earth to anyone who knew him in that god awful town.

He needed a fresh start, somewhere far away where his step dads family could never find him, somewhere he could build a life in peace and that landed him in the town where he met two men that would change his life for the better.

This is all I have for now but Dev is definitely my more well written out listeners and I adore him so!!

[speakingsoftly]

Living for You

Part 2 to Dying for You

Bakugo x f!reader

tags: angst, kinda suicidal undertones, definitely self harm mentions, verbal fighting, blood mention, wound mention, angst with happy ending, idk what else

word count: 2.1k

Author's note: Again not proofread because I don't feel like it. Maybe a little rushed but I don't actually plan anything I write, I just start typin and hoping for the best. Slightly self-indulgent because when I got injured, I was like the reader and was going crazy at not being able to do things by myself and really struggled with it. I feel like going from an independent person to suddenly being dependent on someone else is really tough on one's psyche and can make you lash out. Also again, I have no actual medical knowledge and am just bullshitting my way through it so if anything's not accurate, ignore it :) Maybe slightly ooc Bakugou but I honestly believe that he matures and isn't as bad with his words and can actually regulate his emotions better. He still has some of his usual comments but with no bite to them. Leave a comment, like, reblog if you want. Anyways, enjoy!

A month has passed since the villain attack that almost took your life. Your injuries have gotten better, most of them almost healed. Now, you’re focused on physical therapy to regain mobility. After all, having a chunk of your body taken out in addition to a head injury does mess things up a bit for you. Bakugou has been by your side through it all, just like you were by him after the war. 

You were discharged from the hospital a week ago, but the doctor wanted someone to stay with you due to your mobility issues. Bakugou called his agency and got a month off before you could even say anything. He’s staying at your apartment now, cooking for you, cleaning, caring. 

It was a struggle. Not that he knew. He’s been putting so much effort into helping you and taking care of you. Normally, you would appreciate it, but right now it was stifling. You went from being an independent person to now having to be helped to the bathroom. It was embarrassing. 

  Logically, you know that he just wants to help you, especially when you were in this state because of the hit you took for him. Because he loves you. But logic has long been overridden in your mind and now you are run by pure emotion. 

“Sweetheart, I’m gonna run to the store. Ya need anythin ‘fore I leave?”

You didn’t mean to say it. You love Bakugou. You love him so much which is how you knew exactly what to say to hurt him. And you did. You watched as he flinched back at your harsh words, his face twisting with raw hurt. You regretted the words as soon as they left your mouth. 

Fuck just leave me alone! God all your hovering makes me wish I died!

You reach out your hand, desperately wanting to apologize, to make him understand you didn’t mean it. But he backs away before you can touch him. 

“Just-just don’t. I-” He takes a deep breath and turns around. His voice is gruff and shaking when he speaks again, “I’ll stop hovering. One of the others will check in tonight.”

He leaves before you can speak. Your left staring at the door, mind swirling with thoughts. At some point the sun goes down and a knock at your door jolts you. You move as fast as you can towards the door and open it. Kirishima stands there awkwardly. Bakugo must have explained everything and sent him. Your face falls as it finally hits that Bakugou won’t be coming back. Sobs rack your body as you begin to collapse to the ground. Kirishima catches you before that happens and he half carries, half drags you to the couch. 

“Hey, hey, hey. It’s ok, it’s ok. You’re gonna rip your stitches open if you keep this up!” Kirishima tries to calm you down, to no avail. You’re practically heaving at this point, everything that’s happened piling up and finally breaking free. You claw at your chest, desperately trying to stop the pain on the inside. 

You feel Kirishima try to pull at your arms but you just shove him away. You can feel your quirk activating and the air around you starts to move. Kirishima is flown across the room as a mini wind storm surrounds you in your panic. You see him grab his phone but just ignore it. He tries to move towards you a few more times, but gets shoved back. He finally gives up and just stands across the room, watching you. You’re still sobbing and clawing at your body. You know something ripped in your side as you feel a warmth begin to pool down your body. You go to dig into the wound, but an angry voice stops you.

“What the FUCK happened?”

Your head shoots up and you see him. Bakugou is standing next to Kirishima, anger evident as he glares at the man before turning towards you. The wind you’ve surrounded yourself in wavers at the sight of him before disappearing. Bakugou immediately rushes towards you, his hands cupping your face.

“Ka-Kats?” You question, your eyes bloodshot from all the crying. 

“Hey, I’m here, sweetheart. Fuck, what the hell happened?” His eyes ghosted across your body as he checked all your injuries. He seemed to have noticed the blood from your side as he scoops you up and brings you to the bathroom. Kirishima goes to say something, but is stopped by Bakugou who just shakes his head. Kirishima seems to get the hint and leaves. 

“Stupid, shitty hair. Can’t even check on my girl without causin’ trouble,” he mutters as he sets me down on the counter. The casual use of ‘my girl’ has apologies tumbling out of your mouth faster than you can think as you stumble over the words.

“Oh fuck, Katsuki. I’m so sorry. I’m sor- I’m sorry I didn’t mean it, I swear. I love you so much, you don’t bother me, you don’t! I’m just, I’m so sorry. I don’t- I don’t know what’s wrong with me! I just-”

“Hey hey hey listen to me. I don’t care about some shitty remark, ok? Yea it fuckin’ hurt and I needed some space, but I’m not gonna leave you. Especially not like that. I’m sure I said shitty things to you when I was in your position so just… just promise me not to say shit like that. Don’t go sayin you wish you’d die because- because I just can’t take that. I can’t,” he says, gripping tightly onto your hands. He’s looking in your eyes and oh. He’s crying, you realize. Bakugou Katsuki is crying as he begs you not to say you wish you died. 

It’s like something has settled in your heart as you realize that this man, the one who’s been by your side for yours, who you love more than anything in this life- loves you the exact same amount. That the man who has devoted his life to being the number one hero, now aims that same passionate devotion towards you. 

You can only nod in response. He uses your silence to begin working on the damage you caused yourself. He cleans the scratches on your chest and checks the damage on your side before bandaging both. He presses small kisses to your forehead and cheek each time you hiss in pain and whispers a soft, sorry, as he does so. Once he’s done, he cleans up the mess and leans towards you. He fits himself in between your legs as you sit on the counter and rests his head in the crook of your neck. You hum as he presses a soft kiss to it before he wraps his arms around you, still being mindful of your injuries. 

Your hands find purchase on his shoulders, one snaking its way into his hair as you begin running your fingers through it. Both of you sit in silence for a few minutes, soaking each other in. The tightness in your chest makes you break the silence and speak.

“Katsuki… I am truly sorry. I didn’t mean what I said. It’s just… been so hard. I’m not used to being so, so useless. And I can’t move like I used to and everything hurts and you were being so sweet to me that I just. I wanted you to feel a fraction of my pain, despite you not deserving any of it. I really am sorry. I promise I don’t wish I died. I’m very very happy to be alive and I’m even happier with you. I swear.”

He lifts his head and looks at you, saying nothing. You feel your heart stutter as his face remains expressionless. Panic begins clawing its way up your throat when he finally sighs and opens his mouth. 

“‘M sorry too. That I didn’t see you struggling. That I never realized how much pain you were in. I’ll do better, I promise. We both will. No more holding this in, ya hear me? I know I’m not the best with words, but we’re talkin this shit out from now on.”

You only nod and pull him back towards you, desperate to be close to him once again. His nose brushes against yours as teases you, lips ghosting over your own. You groan which pulls a chuckle from him before he smashes his lips to yours. The kiss is desperate and passionate, a mixture of anger and regret and love all in one. You feel his tongue flick against your bottom lips, asking for entrance that you willingly give. His hands move from your face down to your waist, squeezing. It has you hissing in pain as he unknowingly grabs your wound. He immediately backs off as you inhale sharply at the throbbing of your side. 

“Fuck, shit, I’m sorry. Shit, sweetheart, you okay?” he asks, his carmine eyes full of worry as he checks on your side. You huff a laugh through the pain as you lean into him again.

“Yea, I’m ok, Kats. God, I think we’ve apologized more times tonight than I’ve ever heard you say in your life. Am I that special or what?” you joke, trying to lighten the suddenly somber mood. 

“Yea, you are,” is his only response. You freeze. 

“Hm?”

“You asked if you’re special and I said yea. Ya need your ears checked now too?” he responds roughly, a blush tinting his cheeks. You don’t know what to say so instead you just pull him closer, but that isn’t enough for him.

“Look. Being shitty with my words is my thing, but that’s no excuse for me not to tell ya how much you mean to me. Which is a lot. Fuck, I’ve been in love with you since you helped me recover after the war. Maybe even before that. And I’m gonna be in love with you for the rest of my life. I’ll spend that time on my knees apologizin if it means I get to spend it with you. So yea, I’d say you’re pretty fuckin special to me, sweetheart.”

Your eyes begin to water as you stare at him, surprised at his sweet words, but also in awe of him. Bakugou Katsuki who once called you a shitty extra is now calling you the love of his life. He’s grown so much these past few years and you are so happy that you got to experience it. That you get to experience this, experience him. You can’t help yourself as you kiss him once more, overcome with love and adoration for this man. He responds in kind, love pouring out of him. You suddenly pull away, desperately revealing your bleeding heart and offering it to him as he offered his.

“Fuck, Kats. I love you so much it hurts me. But I’ll take that pain any day because it means I’m with you. That I’m alive and I didn’t die in that shitty attack. Loving you has been like breathing air. It comes so easy that I think I loved you before I even realized it. I wanna spend the rest of my life with you, to get married and grow old together. I wanna live for you, for us. I promise, I won’t die or get horrifically injured again because I want that future so badly. I’ll do anything to have it with you because I love you. So much.”

Tears wet both your faces as you are both overcome with so much emotion. This past month has been grueling for the both of you and to finally have it all laid out and revealed brings a sense of relief to the tension you didn’t know you carried. He must feel the same as his shoulders droop and he rests his head on yours. 

“I want that future too, Y/n. I want it badly. I love you so much, sweetheart, so much.”

At some point he carries you to your bedroom and you both lay down, exhausted after today’s events. You lay on your non-injured side and listen to Bakugou’s heart beating in his chest. His hand runs soothing stripes up and down your back as he hums a soothing tune. His hand and his voice soon lull you to sleep. As your eyes flutter shut, you silently thank any and all celestial beings out there that they granted a second chance at life to you and to him. You also vow to keep on living, not just for you but for him as well. 

As if he heard your thoughts, Bakugou whispers into the quiet room, “I’ll hold you to your promise, sweetheart.”

[forthevillains]

Albert Wesker headcanons

[these will be purely my opinion on what he does and how he is in and outside of relationship. Also let me know if I should write NSFW headcanons too!]

~ Albert is not a very open person so it’s difficult to get to him in the first place. It’s not like he lacks emotions, but as he can get easily attached, he prefers to only interact with people he must and that stays professional

~ though if you managed to get through that tough facade of his, you’ve earned yourself a loyal ally, a partner, a friend. People always make him seem bad, but gladly you didn’t care and wanted to find out for yourself, determined to find out as much as you could about this mysterious guy. And Wesker really appreciates it, even though someone being so interested in him feels odd

~ he is still distant at the beginning of the relationship, but it slowly develops into something warm and intimate. You have to give the poor man time, he hasn’t been in a proper relationship in ages if ever at all

~ the definition of you fell first, he fell harder

~ also he’s an active pet name user, so it’s very rare for him to call you by your actual name, though the more he falls for you, the more common it is for him to actually do that. Definitely adds ‘my’ before he says any pet name when he’s talking to you, just to make it known that you are special

~ he very much prefers women younger than him for a mere reason of spending as much time with you as possible. He doesn’t age like a normal person and he needs someone who would meet him at the very end so that you could leave this world together. He also wouldn’t want you to stay behind, however if you were actually his age, he would surely take care of you and make sure you still feel beautiful despite getting old

~ with the relationship come the secrets that he was able to hide from you before you got together. It’s safe to say that this man is not really a green flag due to the scars his trauma left on him. He’s not good for you and even though he wouldn’t admit it, he’s aware (somewhere deep down)

~ Albert insisted that you two live together, he needs you by his side and even when it might come off as if he’s trying to just be controlling - he’s just very scared of either you running away or someone hurting you while he’s not there to protect you

~ when it comes to sleeping by his side, for the first few months he just sleeps on his side of the bed, leaving you enough space only until he’s deep asleep. Then he’ll subconsciously wrap his arms around your body, pulling you close and making a personal teddy bear out of you. He’s touch starved after all the years alone, so much that even if he tries to give you enough space, his body won’t let him do so. You better not tell him though, because he’d feel embarrassed. Just wait for him to do it consciously and enjoy it;)

~ he’s often busy meaning you’ll have to find a hobbies of your own inside the house

~ he’s very keen on taking care of you in his free time, especially your hair. It’s kind of a therapy to him, not just playing with it, but also washing or braiding, even dying it. He’s up to do all of that for you

~ when there’s something going on with him, he probably just leaves, so that he doesn’t bother you with his problems, but if you come to him, offering your love and affection, he’s up for it. He will gladly lay on your chest, wrapping his arms around your waist, closing his tired eyes. Might as well fall asleep in that position because the exhaustion would get to him

~ if you worked in Umbrella with him, then you’re aware of his plans for the future, though if you haven’t, he’s gonna keep you unaware for the rest of your life, feeding you with delusions he came up with. But don’t you worry, it won’t affect your relationship at all, he’s gonna make up for all the lies;)

~ he wouldn’t dare cry in front of you, if he ever cried at all. He’s not the type of person who would go cry to the corner, he usually overcomes the sadness with anger, so good luck calming him down

~ Wesker is actually a really good cook! He doesn’t have much time for it, of course, but when he does, he makes you delicious meals (he really likes to spoil you)

~ speaking of spoiling… His favorite thing to buy you is lingerie, without a doubt. It’s just a bad habit of his, whenever he sees something you’d look good in (which is everything in his eyes), he just has to buy it for you and then watch you try it on knowing that it’s going to end up torn apart in less than a week. He tries not to do so, but he’s so eager to have you at times he just rips your clothes off:( so he buys new new ones quite often

~ he often comes home too late, finding you asleep on the couch as you were waiting for him for too long. His heart aches at the thought of someone being so excited just to see him, of someone actually caring about him and loving him as he knows how much of a risk he’s putting you in just by being with you. He would come up to you, gently taking you in his arms and carrying you to bed. He wouldn’t join you anytime soon, but he’d definitely stop by just to look at your peaceful, sleeping form, wondering just why on earth did you choose him

~ loves it when you sit on his lap while he’s working or even while he’s just reading a book. One of his arms is wrapped around your waist, keeping you close, while he holds a pen/documents/book in the other. Your presence is very important to him, he loves touching you, feeling you. He needs you and having you so close brings him enough comfort to let loose (and if you’d look up at him you’d probably see a tiny smile on his face)

~ absolutely loves listening to you. Even when he’s exhausted after a very bad day, he’ll pull you close to him, asking you how your day went and just lets you talk, only reassuring you that he’s still listening whenever you stop. Your voice is comforting to him and it’s his way of relaxation, to just be close to you and listen

~ underrated opinion, but in my eyes he’d hate smoking. It’s basically killing you, so why would you do that? If you’re a smoker, he’ll ask you to stop, but won’t do anything against it if you tolerate that he doesn’t want you to do it inside the house. He’s still annoyed whenever you light up a cig though

~ he likes it when you take his sunglasses and try them on. It always gets him to smile for some unknown reason as he watches you giggle, happy that you have a thing of his in your possession, even if for just a few minutes

~ secretly, his dream is to settle down and live a life he never got to have. He’s just a broken man after all and having you gave him a different view on life. Of course, he still wants to save the world (in his own ways), but he also wishes he got to have a peaceful life by your side, seeing you smile everyday, traveling across the world if you’d like to. He wished he could be the perfect man just for you

[day-azevir]

ALSO i'd love to hear abt etho and tango's relationships with the other hermits. like particularly etho, who was he closest to before he started hanging around the rink a lot more? did he get to know gem and bdubs a lot?

id also love to hear a little more about tangos recovery initially after his injury!! i know he's very strong about it now, but that would have taken time to process and get to that stage

im obssessed w this au man i hope you know lol

Etho definitely was closest to Gem and Bdubs before going to the rink! He met them through work and an interst in hockey and solid respect for plants led to him getting along with them. They both tried to hang out with him outside of work, Bdubs offering to introduce Etho to his horses and Gem giving him free entrance to her band gigs, but the depression was still pretty strong at the start of the story so Etho never took them up on the offers. When they saw him show up to one of the public hockey matches, they were ecstatic!

Tango had been going to the rink since he was young, so he has a solid relationship with pretty much everyone there, but mostly hangs out with his ZITS. Those are his homie buddies, after all! He also has a fun mentor-mentee relationship with Xisuma that I intend to explore a bit in the later areas of the fic. Tango was a bit of a "problem child" (ie bullied but no one cared till he fought back, but then he was the issue), and X kinda took him in and gave him an outlet as well as a few self defense tips

Recovery was definitely slow at first - lots of broken bones and head trauma in addition to loosing a hand will do that - but once Tango was starting to get back into health, physical therapy started to fly by. Everyone was treating him like some delicate flower and it really pissed him off. For a year he ran on nothing but spite and a need for speed (which, of course, was his coping mechanism. Rage is just as big a proponent in depression as apathy and sadness are, and he refused to be that weak kid that got walked on again). After some time, Xisuma and Skizz realized this and helped Tango work through that fear as subtly as they could so they wouldn't risk triggering him. And it worked! Eventually he was able to break his emotions down and air them out, and tinkering with his prosthetic helped as well, adapting it more to his style and therefore easier to use. This was not insurance approved. Tango did not care lol

[peachesnplums95]

🍑Wukong🍑

Favorite thing about Sun Wukong-

I love this silly little sunshine simian, you don't even know. He's just such a cute little peachy-pie of a monkey. I really love how canon doesn't depict him as this flawless and perfect immortal being, and instead you can see those flaws, and how imperfect he is. You know he's made mistakes, but you can see how he's grown too, he's not the same as he was before the Journey.

Though he might still be a mischievous little monkey who likes to get into simian shenanigans, he's still trying his best to be better than who he was before.

The biggest example of his character growth is the fact Wukong, who is so terrified of death, was willing to face it, all because he couldn't stand the idea of MK having to die when he is still so young and has so much life to still live and he couldn't stand the thought of losing him.

I just love this precious peach-loving monkey so much, he's also adorable to boot. Honestly, I don't know how anyone could hate this lovely little ball of sunshine. Listen, Wukong could ruin my entire life, and I wouldn't be able to hate him, okay?

Least Favorite thing about Wukong-

This monkey represses his emotions so much, like you stupid simian, open up about your feelings and please rely more on the others, Wukong.

They're your family/friends and they're here for you; you can be vulnerable with them. I hope that one day in canon Wukong will realize just how much he is wanted/needed by MK and the others. Because Wukong really acts like no one would care if he would vanish again, seriously.

For all his boasting about being the Great Sage, and the Monkey King, and such- he actually seems to be the one faking it until he makes it the most out of anyone in the show. It's sad to see just how much he represses, and how he probably doesn't actually have the highest opinion of himself, actually, and how heavily all his past mistakes and wrongdoings seemingly weigh on him even centuries later.

I mean if his reaction in a Lifetime of mistakes after seeing his memories replayed over and over again in his head nearly made him give up on trying- yeh.... this monkey needs so much therapy.

I mean look at him and how tired he looked:

GET SOME THERAPY, WUKONG! Also, I wish they would allow Wukong to stop holding back. I wanna see Wukong go WAR MODE. FREE HIM! Let him decimate an enemy that cannot be reasoned with.

Favorite Line(s)-

"Whatever the Goddess... and destiny has planned for you... you came from the same stone I did. Destiny can't have you... it can have me instead."

“Kid! I GOT YOU. I got you… I got you.”

"No! Well, maybe a little bit, but that's not the point! It's so we don't have to worry about anything or anyone ever again! Just live a lazy life, sittin' in the sun, eatin' fruit, and doing whatever we want. Sounds pretty good, huh? Huh? Huh?"

"Relax, bud! When this is over, we’ll be back here, basking in the sun, getting fat on fruit for the rest of... well, forever! Like we always wanted."

BrOTP-

I have many to choose from here, but I really love the idea of Wukong and DBK just reconciling fully. They seemed to have such a good relationship back in the Brotherhood before everything went wrong. Like DBK was having a riot here with Wukong's silly antics.

OTP- Shadowpeach

Yeah, not a big surprise here. If you've seen my previous post about Mac, then you know why.

NoTP-

Skullpeach, do I even need to say why?

Anyways, this is my NoTP for Wukong. But it's a NoTP that I wouldn't mind making content for due to the fact that LBD seems to be borderline obsessed with Wukong in a way, how she calls him "something else entirely" in comparison to DBK.

There's this really dark possessiveness the LBD seems to have over Wukong and it's just a fun dynamic to explore for me. Even though I personally hate it as a ship, it's a ship that still has a certain dangerous appeal to me in way of LBD's one-sided obsession.

But the biggest NOTP I have is Peachynoodles. Wukong and MK. Listen I see them as father/son, and yeh no. Just no. I am not gonna actively go out of my way to bash on ships I don't like, because I don't like getting into drama when it comes to shipping, but I will make my stance on this be known. I don't like this ship at all.

^^^ The Father Son Duo, ever. (Aside from Pigsy and MK/ Tang and MK. Cause I view them as his dads too. MK really out here collecting dads, lol.)

Random Headcanon-

Wukong actually likes physical touch, being hugged, pet, groomed, cuddled and the like. He's actually really touch-starved and craves physical touch from his family/friends but he doesn't know how to go about asking for that kind of thing. So he kind of just doesn't do so. Like give this monkey some cuddles, damn it.

Unpopular Opinion-

I think the fandom holds his past mistakes over his head far too much. Like stop using my sweet Sun Wukong as a punching bag and putting him down. I think he's suffered long enough for those mistakes, and also Wukong is his own worst enemy when it comes to that thing anyways. No one holds Wukong's past mistakes more against Wukong, than Wukong himself.

Song I associate with Wukong as of right now-

^^^ I have watched this over 100 times, help me I have a problem.

Favorite picture of Wukong, as of right now-

That smile will be the death of me. I wish to protect it always.

[megadoomingir]

I lost track of how many times I've read stop me and truth to be told. It was a good escape from reality or it either hit too close to home.

I'm keeping an eye for a post. But in the meantime do take care of yourself! Happy endeavors!

Also if the characters in stop me had a type of pokemon what type would they be?

Hey, thank you for the ask.

I understand what you mean about the ‘escape from reality’ while also adding in the ‘hit too close to home’. I had some abusive people in my past so when I write, I take those very real emotions and press them into the fictional world. Unfortunately, it can take those moments and situations and make them a little more non-fiction for those who know what that’s been like. Stop Me has been many things for me, including therapy at some point. From certain asks and DMs, I can see that it’s been the same for others, too.

So thank you for addressing it and pointing it out. I hope you’re doing well. :)

As for your other part of the ask…

Goodness~! XD

How to answer… You said ‘type’ of Pokémon and not ‘species’; I’m going to go with ‘species’ as it’ll still reflect correctly and I will also be writing my choice of Pokémon in as a partner. But this will solely pertain to the characters they’ve become in my writing and will not reflect what others may feel about them in their canon incarnate.

Arcee: Shiny Bisharp. Fight me. And yes, specifically a ✨shiny✨ Bisharp. Knife hands and great honor while still learning to grow as an individual, still learning that emotions are valid but let’s not let them get out of control. Situation is key. I would have said ‘Shiny Pawniard’ but our femme is a big girl and has more skill and ability than a Pawniard. A shiny Bisharp definitely reflects well as her partner.

Bumblebee: Bolthound. Now before you toss me out of the room by my ankles- Bee is a playful mech, but he also takes his job as a scout seriously. He may ‘bend’ orders a bit, but his priorities are his friends and teammates. A Yamper would be too young to understand that, but a Bolthound? Grown enough for the challenge. Still one heck of a playful partner, when it’s appropriate. They’d be unstoppable.

Bulkhead: I immediately thought of a Golem. Easy to lob around, loves rolling down mountains, can withstand the thrills and insanity that comes with doing stunts. But also a defender and community-type. Gotta be there for the TEAM, especially the younger/little ones. Golem is ya boi and he knows it.

Ratchet: Forgive me. Forgive me. XD The most exhausted looking Audino. I was going to say a different Pokémon that happened to be able to learn ‘Heal Pulse’ but it has to be Audino. A grumpy one. Both of them just being tired of trying to make and fix things and somehow stuff just keeps getting broken. Rude.

Wheeljack: I know the easy answer is ‘Greninja’ but you know what? No. Hawlucha. Got nothin’ but respect and honor and he’s small and fast. Little winged hands like tiny knives. Jumps out of nowhere. Would constantly be surprising the enemy. Jackie would be laughing too hard. And who says you can’t give the little guy a knife? Ratchet? Naaaah, Sunshine’s gotta loosen up. It’ll be fiiiiiiine~

Smokescreen: A Bagon. HOLD YOUR PITCHFORKS BACK- Bagon is the representation of growth and potential. Smokescreen knows he has the potential but he lacks the experience and growth he needs to get to the next level. He has drive and ambition, much like Bagon does, and he never gives up. He has moments of ice-water clarity, but he never gives up. Which would reflect well in a Bagon.

Cliffjumper: Cubone’s Mother. No other notes.

Ultra Magnus: He needs a ‘no-nonsense’ Pokémon. Golurk. That thing has a ‘yes, sir/no, sir’ mentality. Hands like God’s Hammers. Will hunt you down. Will find you if you’re shirking your duties. Eyes that stare into your very soul and spark and have no qualms about ensuring you understand why you’re on inventory duty.

Optimus Prime: I had to think long and hard about this one but this feels right. Lucario. A Pokémon of emotion and empathy but also a discerning leader. Unshakable, unstoppable. Carries the weight of it all. And when in sync with its trainer, it can Megaevolve. Truly a Pokémon worthy of a Prime. :3

Soundwave: Shiny Porygon. Not 2, not Z. Shiny Porygon. Soundwave is already hella meta and beyond capable in the ways of new technology… so of course he would have an appreciation for the classics. And a classic lil guy a Shiny Porygon would be. Soundwave doesn’t need to be flashy with his kind of Pokémon; being shiny is enough. But his appreciation for the classics would definitely be seen in his Pokémon.

Knockout: I had a completely different choice written out here and I changed it when I really took into consideration how much Knockout has changed… aaaaand how much he hasn’t. XD And so, I settled with Scizor. Fast, strong, *red,* it’s everything KO could want and more. But KO knows he’s still the flashiest and he’d like to keep it that way.

Breakdown: Nobody. Laugh. Tinkaton. Our boy BD needs someone who understands the way of the hammer and when best to use it. Tinkaton has an *actual* hammer. The two would be a bane to everyone but mostly Ratchet, definitely Ratchet, yes…

Starscream: As it *solely pertains to characters and events of Stop Me-* Bulbasaur. Starscream needs more grounding. More ‘present’ energy. But he’s still stubborn. Thus, a Bulbasaur. A Pokémon of decent strength, cunning, care and potential. Also my favorite but *that has no bearing in this decision-* Starscream needs something calm, strong and just as stubborn as he is. Bulbasaur. Peak. 🙌

Predaking: Going off the continuation of being Stop Me-specific… Dragonite. The friendly boy. A lovable squish full of care and wonder and questions… until you make him angry or threaten the ones he cares about most. Paired together, the two are pleasant and playful. Unless they’re on the battlefield.

Airachnid: I know everyone would pick a spider Pokémon for her and I get why because that’s easy, but in regard to Stop Me, I feel like she would have something that was easily frustrated. And since she’s dead, I had to choose Annihilape.

C.Y.L.A.S.: I really didn’t want to use a mythical or ‘legendary’ Pokémon in a sense, but I think we can agree Type: Null is right on the nose. An amalgamation of parts that are NOT supposed to be together. The two are quite the pair.

Hardshell: Shedinja. Easily disposed of if you have the right, super effective move to take them out.

Bombshock: A little more of a pre-planner and defense-based, so a Durant. And they come in hives, too. Yes. I know what Hardshell has. :)

Dreadwing: Gallade. A Pokémon of strength and honor. Need I say more?

Darksteel: Deino. A snappy little brute and still young and immature. The potential is there and Darksteel would be reflected best with this kind of partner Pokémon.

Skylynx: Frigibax. Potential is still yet to be had but with his standoffish attitude, Frigibax pairs best with Skylynx.

Shockwave: I actually had to review three candidates for him, but I managed to settle on the most logical partner for Shockwave: Metagross. Both cunning and intelligent, Metagross also boasts a cruelty in battle that most don’t dare witness. Shockwave’s experiments would only become more complex with this Pokémon beside him.

Megatron: Spiritomb. Lock them both in rocks.

Jack: This took me another long think to get right. I want to respect that Jack has been put through a lot. But he’s also not quite there yet. I’d say he has the best reflection in a Pokémon partner with Charcadet. Jack still has choices to make as he grows up. He’d never choose a less moral path, he’s not that kind of young man, but he still has the ability to choose whether to be more in the face of things or slip into the background. Just like how a Charcadet has a choice in evolution.

Miko: I know a certain poison/electric Pokémon is pretty much base-Miko. But that’s not what I chose. I chose Loudred. Still inexperienced but on the way to controlling themselves and their need to be loud.

Rafael: This kid has been through so much. I would have said at the start of Stop Me a different Pokémon but the kid has earned his stripes and then some. Alakazam. And since the brainy Pokémon never stops learning, there’s always room for growth as Raf grows up.

Agent Fowler: Braviary. ‘Murica. Secret government agent style.

June: Jigglypuff. Still a healer if given the moves for it, but most of us remember Jigglypuff from the anime. You don’t f**k with Jigglypuff.

Thank you for the ask. This was a tough one! I hope all of my choices make sense and that my reasons were interesting ones. :)

[wlwsoccerfics]

Lights Out & Pain On Part 2 (ManchesterCityWomen, Lionesses & HamptonReader)

Summary: you are recovering from your Injury with the help of your girlfriend Georgia & your Manchester City teammates. Even moving in with one of them.

It was three days after your surgery and Georgia who wasn't able to play just yet ,flew out from Munich to be with you for the First few days. Not that you didn't have any support, cause you temporally moved in with Kerstin, your Manchester City teammate and one of your best Friends and her girlfriend Ruth.

"i worry about you." Your girlfriend said.

"i will survive Babe. The knee is gonna heal at some point." You told her.

"i meant your mental health. Because you have been staring at the same spot for like 30 minutes and you avoid talking or showing any kind of emotions right now. So this Is why i worry!" Georgia stated.

"If we talk about emotions i think i might need to see my therapist again." You admitted.

"well maybe that's a good thing." Georgia answered.

"...i mean i don't know what you want me to say about this. It's all too much. It has only been like four months of being back on the pitch after being Out for 2 months with a sprained ankle and before that i was Out almost two months as well with a concussion. It is so frustrating! I feel worthless for the team! Both national and Club!" You explained and aggressively wiped away your tears with the back of your Hand. Georgia gently pulled you into a hug. Careful not to hurt you. You held onto her. Sniffling softly.

"you are worth everything. Even when you are not playing. You always have amazing advice and i know for a fact that you are the Heart and Soul of your Teams. You are always so sweet and kind.

"Georgia is right, you know? Manchester City is better because of you. You make people feel safe!" Kerstin said, she had appeared in the doorway. You looked at her.

"thanks for saying that. I believe you, cause as my best friend i know you would call me out on my Shit." You stated.

"i do that indeed! Which is why i think therapy is important part of recovery. Even If it's from an injury...which can totally Take a toll on your mental health." Kerstin answered.

"what you are saying is that i should talk to the Team therapist?" You asked.

"yes that's what i am saying, beste vriend." Your teammates and best friend replied.

"fine i will do that!" You told them.

"amazing!" Your girlfriend stated and kissed your cheek.

It was two days later when you walked into the Gym of Manchester City with Kerstin, of course you were still on crutches. You had physio right now. Kerstin would leave to practice soon but she wanted to make sure you got there safe.

"i will pick you up after practice. Remember you have to see the Team therapist in an hour after you are done with Physio!" Kerstin stated.

"how could i forget? You keep reminding me, Hannah is reminding me as well, Ruth is reminding me and so is Georgia... everyone is onto me about it!" You said with a small smile. You tried to play it off that you actually were really nervous and overwhelmed right now. Kerstin offered you a small smile and kissed your head, giving your shoulder a gentle squeeze.

"you got this, y/n!" She told you before she left.

You started with some careful movements to see not doing alot actually, but your physiotherapist thought it was amazing, giving the fact that you only had surgery on your fractured knee cap a few days ago.

"you are doing so well." He told you. You smiled and thanked him but it didn't reach your eyes.

Next up was therapy. And you didn't look forward to it. But you knew your best Friends would find Out If you didn't go.

"hey y/n. I am glad to see you back on your feet cause what i saw on the pitch looked scary!" He stated.

"technically i am walking, but not just on my own feet!" You said, pointing to the crutches that you put on the floor next to you.

"but you are up again. That's a great achievement!" He told you. "I mean Others take way longer to get back on their feet after something like that! You will get through this! Even If it doesn't look that way right now!" He explained.

"i mean that's true! I do feel like i miss out on alot again! And i can't help my Club my country! It's frustrating!" You admitted.

"and that's valid! It's how you feel, you will get back onto the pitch! It's a little setback. I know you can do it cause you did it before with your ACL. And this time you will do it too. Possibly even faster this time!" The therapist stated.

"that's true, 3-6 months they say!" You replied and this time you had a real smile gracing your Features. It was small but still a smile.

"See that's good. Maybe you can also take the time off to find a new Hobby!" He suggested.

Spoiler alert you didn't try a new Hobby, but planned a proposal to Georgia.

After therapy, Kerstin picked you up. She was done with practice for today.

"so how did it go?" Kerstin asked as you walked to the Car.

"Physio was okay. And therapy was really good actually." You admitted.

"so happy to hear that!" Your best friend said with a soft smile. You smiled back.

"there is something i could use your help with." You told her.

"what can i do for you?" Kerstin wanted to know.

"i want to plan a proposal for Georgia!" You admitted.

"you want to propose?!" Kerstin asked, sounding really hyped for you and Georgia.

"yes that's the plan!" You answered.

"of course i will help." She said.

When you reached Kerstins place you told Ruth all about your day and then went to call Hannah.

"hey sis! How are you?"Hannah asked.

"i am doing alot better then i thought i would be...therapy helped...i will continue to go three times a week." You let her know.

"that's great News!" Hannah answered. "Lucy and Keira are here. They wanted to talk to you." She added.

"hey luce! Hey Kei!" You answered. Smiling to yourself.

"hey Kid. Glad to hear you are doing better! Therapy is such a Game changer!" Lucy stated.

"true, it helped me so much as well!" Keira explained.

"thanks for sharing this with me, i appreciate it." You said. Talking for a while before ending the call.

You fell asleep that night, feeling alot better about the Situation.

[hamletkin]

the fact that most arguments for a teen-early twenties hamlet seem to be deeply rooted in ageism, classism and a deep misunderstanding of the human brain and mental health isn't surprising to me but it is disappointing...

let me preface this by saying i see NO issue with a younger hamlet. whenever i write him i personally write him as being in his early twenties. but i think that's just as valid as an older hamlet.

one of the biggest arguments i see for casting a younger person to play hamlet is that hamlet was in school at wittenberg prior to the events of the play. 30 year olds, people say, do not attend university. this is a ridiculous argument. not only do people of all ages attend university, but some people cannot afford to go to university at 18. of course hamlet had enough money to attend but the argument surrounding this has never included money to my knowledge. the point being: it's a disturbing argument to state that people don't go to university past their early twenties because this does not account for people's socio-economic background, their health, life events, means of travel, ect. i am very fortunate to have been able to go to university (when i was 19) with federal student aid. even then it was cut off before i could finish my degree. i have not been mentally or economically well enough to return to school which, in the eyes of many i've seen posting about this topic, makes me something of a loser.

but what about in the context of hamlet? obviously hamlet had the money, ability, and will to go to school! how does this apply to him? for that you have to look at the historical context of the play. in the time the play was written and before (saxo grammaticus was born in the 1100s, shortly after universities were really starting to take shape) it was not at all unheard of for boys as young as 14 or 30+ to attend. especially since hamlet is assumed to have been studying liberal arts, for him to achieve this degree he would have attended wittenberg for 6 years at least. it was then up to his discretion if he would pursue a higher degree or continue studies mainly for the hell of it. he had the money, time, and passion in order to do so predating the visitation of the ghost, after all! it's highly possible that hamlet started university in his early to mid 20s and has now arrived at 30+. now, let's apply this to modern times! there are still some disgusting prejudices surrounding people 30+ who attend university but for the most part people don't seem to care as much as they did 10 years ago. they certainly would not have cared in shakespeare's time! ask yourself: why do you find it weird for someone 30+ to seek out higher education for any reason? if you do find it weird, you need to take a deep look inside of yourself and think about your narrow world view.

people say that those in their 30s do not act like hamlet. i don't know that the people saying this have ever met someone in their thirties. there is a common misconception where people seem to think that if you're 30+ you have your life figured out. you're emotionally, mentally, economically stable. this may have been a portrait offered by people in the 1950s but we're well beyond that point so you would think that this line of thinking would be completely out of date as well but i see it's not. i've seen hamlet's behaviour described as "charming, yet annoying if he's a teenager and unhinged if he's 'middle aged'". 30 is not middle aged but that's hardly the point! hamlet is (i say this as a hamlet apologist) kind of a dick! and (this is not in conjunction with because poor mental health does not equate with being a dick) whether or not he is mad he is clearly not mentally well! whether it be from depression, anxiety, ocd, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, all of the above ect. he is clearly not being treated for it as well. he is not medicated, does not receive any sort of therapy, and his emotions are mocked and belittled constantly. i have seen other people (who i agree with) say that hamlet acts like a child because he is treated like one and he allows himself to be treated like one thus taking on the role. i would like to go one step further and say that he is either a.) not as mature as previously thought b.) has been reduced to this state due to his grief, his mother's hasty marriage to his uncle, and the poor treatment he has received.

"what do you mean he's not as mature as previously thought?" have you ever met someone in their 30s? i have! i live with them! i work with them! i interact with them online and irl! and you know what? their personalities are just as varied as any teenager or younger adult i've met! you don't just automatically mature the moment you turn 30! you have to grow into it. and this will depend on multiple factors that affect each person differently! i have seen 30 year olds start petty drama, react outlandishly, and start arguments out of boredom. i've seen 30 year olds with a maturity and emotional intelligence that i can only long for. i have seen people far older than 30 have full meltdowns because of a baby girl wearing blue. just the other week a 50 year old man cursed out my colleague because we didn't have the deli meat he apparently needed for his prolonged existence. you cannot equate maturity with age. it is a learned skill. i think, in the case for a 30 year old hamlet, it's more likely that hamlet could not contend with his entire world being turned upside down and he reacted to it in a way that made sense to him when nothing else did.

i do also want to briefly touch on grief and what it can do to a person. it is something that has coloured my life since i was very young. i watched someone i deeply loved fall apart due to it. i saw them become someone else to the point that to this day i no longer recognise them for what they were. they were about 36-40 years of age. i can't do math. they were once a very fun, loving, caring, creative person. the death of their own father shattered this. they sank into a depression that entirely engulfed them and still does to this day 20 years later. they stopped going out, stopped making art, they started to abuse various substances, they started to abuse the people they loved, they lost all sense of patience, all sense of human decency, and they eventually got swept up into a cult built on hate. this is the tragedy of grief. it destroys you, your ideals, your mind, your relationships... it doesn't matter how old or young you are. hamlet's behaviour can easily and wholly be explained by his grief if you want to go that route. for me, there are several factors, but the case can be made that his grief is what transported him to this state where he eventually got so wrapped up in the game he had created that he perhaps did really start to lose himself.

what i'm really trying to get at is that....all interpretations of hamlet are valid. unless you believe in blond hamlet. shakespeare's intentions are not known to us and they never will be. i think there's room for everyone's hamlets in this game and i'd love to see people being more open to different ages for hamlet without making arguments that can harm real people. we all love the guy. we all have a hamlet that exists in our head. why do we need to disparage others to make our point be heard?

[cerosin-bis]

Hello Cerosin :]

I have several questions, if I may.

1. How are you?

2. Has Nikto always been bad at taking care of himself or is that a result of the torture?

3. how does Krueger handle rejection, if he's interested in someone?

4. In your fic "Anger Management" (btw I love both your arts and writings!) Nikto hugged Krueger tight, before Krueger fucked him. It says "it's conflicting for Nikto" what does that mean? Would Nikto like to have a normal relationship with someone? Like, does he want/need a certain tenderness but knows Krueger probably isn't able to show it?

Thank you for your time and all your great works for this ship! It literally wouldn't exist without you and I mean it in a good way!

Have a good one and be safe :]c

Hi hello! 1. I'm doing mostly fine! Thank you for asking 🥺 I hope you're well, anon!

2. I think Nikto never really practiced "self-care" due to both his education (or lack thereof...) and his personality. However it's noticeably worse since his torture and the development of his mental illnesses/conditions because he now barely even thinks of basic human needs.

3. Good question. I think he'd be very frustrated because it's RARE, but be able to move on very quickly. Orrrr he would try extra hard (which ultimately does succeed but at very high costs with dire consequences. this would have happened with Nikto, but didn't need to because these two were doused in gasoline to begin with imo.)

4th answer regarding Nikto, Krueger and intimacy under the cut bc this got long.

(And thank you so much. I don't want to be presumptous as to say I ~invented~ the ship because there were like 3 fics when I posted Remanence already, but feeling like I was able to set its foundations in art and then consistently over the past years is unbelievable when I see where it is today.)

4. Thank you so much for letting me know you like both my art and my fics!! I feel like I never say it enough, I'm incredibly grateful people are reading all the shit I put out, let alone let me know they liked it. 😭

So, in my headcanon, Nikto craves intimacy in very very short and specific "windows", but he has a conflicted relationship with it as a concept.

Krueger can display tenderness/intimacy without a second thought if he knows it's needed by the context (and this is one), but his affectivity is abnormally... dulled? if I may say. Krueger's emotions are genuine... but extremely dampened. So it suits Nikto, because it's "as if" there were no feelings (there are. but it's beyond gestures, it's whatever they have. the codependency and violent devotion, the wordless communication... Tenderness is a rare occurrence in this whole frame - an occurrence that Nikto likes, but would rather not acknowledge, if this makes any sense.

In my headcanon, again, Nikto wouldn't be able to have a normal relationship with anyone. Normalcy repels and scares him, and even if it wasn't the case... Without extensive therapy, which he will likely never want to get, he has too many issues regarding emotions, attachment, jealousy and violence. (I want to stress this again, this is just my specific and personal hc of the character)

[musingsofalovelymillenial]

Non and Kru Keng!

Dead Friend Forever Ep 7 - extended opinion ( long-ish post)

Trigger Warnings : Sexual abuse, sexual coercion, grooming, etc. 

Since episode 7 aired I have been appalled at the number of posts I have seen regarding Non and Keng and Non’s behavior. Before I dive into ( and yes this is me letting out my anger regarding things I have seen) I want to provide some background that is also a basis for my personal opinion.  I also want to state that while I truly believe everyone is titled to their own opinion there are certain things that are wrong and should not be romanticized/glossed over.

My professional background is in psychology, social work and human service ( dealing with abuse and domestic violence)

My personal background also makes what is happening to Non even harder to watch. Episodes 5, 6 and 7 took me a while to get through and resulted honestly in needing to detach for a while. I grew up attending middle school and high school in an area where most of the students attending my schools were wealthy. During that time I and my friends experienced severe bullying for being poor and for not living the way everyone else did. For context we lived 20 minutes away from our school where almost everyone lived surrounding the school and we lived in a trailer park and even though our bus was overcrowded all the trailer park children rode one bus. We as a group were constantly in trouble even when we did nothing wrong, our vice principal called us trailer trash to our faces on our bus and the kids at school were cruel and treated us like we were disgusting and not good enough. When we were “lucky” enough to be invited to their houses we were watched more than the other kids and we were not treated the same way by the parents compared to their fellow friends from the same income level.  We were taught by everyone around us that we should be and were inferior ( we were not!).  During this time there was also one of my bullies who everyday would not only verbally harass me but sexually harass me at my locker and the worst part at the time was that there were either the kids that ignored that it was happening or the kids who laughed. I can't speak for my few friends at the time but what made all this worse was because school was not the only place I had problems. At home my father was an alcoholic and on any given day my house was a cocktail mixture of verbal abuse, emotional abuse, and domestic violence. After a while I not only started feeling sick a lot but I eventually stopped going to school and would stay home “sick” to avoid school ( both my parents worked so I would be alone during the day). Around this time was really when I developed anxiety, depression and for the first time battled with suicidal thoughts. This went on for a long time. When things finally had their culminating point of me finally opening up at least about what was happening at school. My mom was the first person to ask me and later as an adult in therapy my therapist also asked why did I never tell anyone what was happening to me? The answer was truly simple, complex but simple. I did not want to burden anyone. I told my mom she already dealt with so much because of my father and how he treated us that I did not want to add one more burden to her already full plate. I felt that if I could just handle it on my own it would be fine, eventually it would stop or these people who were cruel would just give up. I also felt ashamed and disgusted by what was happening. I also told my therapist (as an adult looking back on that time) that why would I tell anyone when the kids in the hallway made it clear they did not care and the adults ( teachers and office staff) who I should have been able to trust made it clear they did not like us either simply because of where we live and our income level.  

Now back to Dead Friend Forever

Here are the definitions for Abuse of Power, Sexual Coercion and Grooming.

Abuse of power is when someone misuses their authority or higher position in a hierarchy to take advantage of, coerce or harm other people. And it can lead to different types of abuse, such as psychological, physical, financial and sexual abuse.

Sexual coercion is using pressure or influence to get someone to agree to sex. People can knowingly coerce others into sex, such as learning manipulative pick-up artist strategies, or unknowingly, such as assuming the other person is OK when they're not.

Grooming is a tactic where someone methodically builds a trusting relationship with a child or young adult, their family, and community to manipulate, coerce, or force the child or young adult to engage in sexual activities.

More information about grooming:

Because they were groomed, children and teens who were abused often feel that they were in some way responsible for the abuse. This is especially true for teens who feel that they went into the situation willingly and thus in some way it was their fault. This shame and guilt then prevents them from reporting, as they fear that no one will believe them. In fact, many teens who have been groomed are confused as to whether what happened to them actually constituted abuse as it didn’t follow the stereotypical pattern of a violent rape. In many cases this confusion can prevent or delay reporting for many years.

Non was groomed and then sexually assaulted regardless whether it seemed like he consented. Let me say it louder for the people in the back! 

Kru Keng sexually assaulted Non! He did not ”cheat” on Phee. Did he lie to Phee yes, but he did not cheat in the stereotypically what we as a society view cheating. 

the signs or steps of grooming with examples from the episode: 

Make you feel like you owe them. Because you are in a relationship, because you’ve had sex  before or because they give/spend money on you or because you go home with them they are owed for these behaviors.

We see Keng offer Non a ride home and he then offers him money to get out of his situation. We don’t see him doing these things with other students.

Victim Selection: abusers often observe possible victims and select them based on ease of access to them or their perceived vulnerability. 

Keng clocks that Non is vulnerable the first time he is in the study class and even looks back at him after scolding Top and asking Non for his name. We see this through the several times he brings up how Non is having friend problems or how he doesn't want to work with Tee, and Non unfortunately mentions how just knowing someone cares makes him feel better which makes Keng even more aware of how alone Non seems to be. 

Gaining access and isolating the victim: abusers will attempt to physically or emotionally separate a victim from those protecting them and often seek out positions in which they have contact with minors. 

Keng has perfect access as a math tutor/teacher to have contact with minors.  Also he always has Non come to his office or meet him alone despite the fact that his office is in a seemingly more isolated place than the classrooms.

Trust development and keeping secrets: abusers attempt to gain trust of victims through gifts, sharing secrets, etc.

Keng not only praises Non as a student but also then tells him things like I want to help you anyway I can, I noticed that you are sad, I can give you money to help you because I view you like a brother, I now know your secret regarding Tee and the money so I am someone you can trust.

Desensitization to touch : abusers will often start to touch a victim in ways that appear harmless and later escalate to increasingly more sexual contact. 

Keng touches Non’s shoulder seemingly to comfort him, the next time he is holding his hand, then he is holding his hand on his knee and rubbing the back of his hand. All these on their own could be innocent and seem like comfort or being friendly. Until Keng kisses Non crossing that line and leading directly to assaulting him. 

Attempt by abusers to make their behavior seem natural: to avoid raising suspicions. For teens who may be particularly close in age to the abuser it can be hard to recognize grooming tactics. 

I feel for Non because we see how he is not happy and is actually crying when he hugs Phee the first time when Keng kisses him and then we see him come down to meet Phee. Also Non is trapped in a situation where he is being manipulated and being taken advantage of and sees little to no way out of this financial mess with the money laundering. We, as an audience, saw the fight with his family after where his mother says she is embarrassed because of him and says to Non’s father that if he weren’t a loser then Non wouldn’t be one too. Non very much is receiving a message whether she meant it or not because emotions were high is irrelevant. Non is receiving the message that he is a burden and an embarrassment. Non is aware of his family's financial situation as well. We see him say it to Phee several times about how he wants to solve his own problems and he does not want to burden people. I do not think Non lied to Phee because he wanted to, I think he did it because not only would it put another thing on Phee’s shoulders after he already went to his dad once for Non but also puts Non in a vulnerable position. I personally was asked many times by people oh are you okay? Are you sure everything is good because you look upset? And everytime I lied because I didn't want to be a burden but I also never wanted to look at myself as a victim or admit that I was a victim because that bit of fragile control on my life was one of the only things I could control. And as an adult I have had the chance to talk to some people I knew at the time and they all told me they knew I was lying about being okay or even though I cried and then would say I was fine, I wasn’t. But they all felt like if they pushed me to talk I would never tell them and my one friend said point blank at least I could make you forget about it for a while even if I didn’t really know what you wanted a distraction from. I 100% feel this is exactly what is Non’s perspective. He cannot control how Por, Tee, Top, Fluke and even Jin treat him. He cannot control how his parents view him. He cannot control Phee or Phee’s decisions to love or help him. He cannot control Keng. He cannot take back getting involved with Tee and the money laundering or the consequences of that. What Non can control is how he feels or what he takes control of. Non can control whether he views himself as a victim. He can also control whether he finishes the movie that he wrote the script for. The movie and script are something he did, they come from him and are something at the end of the day regardless of anyone else he Non can be proud of. I think while we may not view his staying with the group healthy and it's not, or his lying to Phee about things that are happening good cause it’s not; it makes sense to Non. Because again he is a teenager who is vulnerable and easily exploitable and has very little control and teenagers whose brains are not fully developed are making not only decisions they think are best or worst at the time but also making decisions based on what they know at that moment.  Seeing people who are watching this show and who are hating on Non or do not understand what happened between Non and Keng infuriate me. Should we all feel bad for Phee? Yes. He wants to be there for Non, he loves him and wants to care , on top of knowing that Non is being bullied and seeing what Keng did has to be heartbreaking and frustrating. Also without context to their conversations Phee as a fellow teenager may not be aware or understand fully what Keng did to Non is not on Non. 

You can feel bad for Phee without victim blaming Non.

Non made poor choices regarding his trust with Phee or his ability to trust Phee but none of those things mean that he deserved what happened or that because it seems like he consented that it is all just fine and he cheated on Phee and had sex with Keng. 

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk!! 

[sokkastyles]

Got into an argument with an Azula stan who said that Azula foregoing revenge against the Fire Warriors in "Azula in the Spirit Temple" for "betraying" her was Azula learning a lesson after Ty Lee's "betrayal."

And while I do think Azula did learn something from Ty Lee's defection, and that that did influence her decision not to seek revenge against the FW, I don't think she necessarily learned anything about morality or treating people better.

The main lesson Azula takes from Ty Lee's defection is that she can't control people through fear the way she had previously thought she could. Her relationship to the Fire Warriors is similar in that she does control them through fear, but she also uses other manipulation tactics to keep them in line. Specifically, she convinces them that they are better off working for her than they were before, and what better way to do that than to target women who were institutionalized, who she can easily convince that she is saving? That way, she has people whose obligation towards her she can leverage to ensure that she stay under her control.

But then she runs into the same problem she did with Ty Lee, not predicting that the FWs would be more loyal to each other than they are to her, especially when she puts one of them in danger and asks them to disregard one of their own for loyalty to her alone.

There's that tragic scene at the end where Azula is looking down on her former Fire Warriors, and realizes that they, just like Ty Lee and Mai, have with each other something that Azula utterly lacks, and that's companionship and genuine caring for one another. And on some level, I think Azula decides to forget her revenge because she envies that. But if Azula has learned a lesson about truly caring about others, it's only on a subconscious level, because her conclusion is that she can just find new followers. Presumably, ones that she can control better, instead of trying to fight against those she can't control.

So what has Azula really learned? Ty Lee and Mai's betrayal came as a shock because it was the first time someone had ever really stood up to Azula. And as Mai says, Azula failed to understand people in the way she thought she did. But now, Azula knows she can't control someone through fear when friendship and love exist as stronger forces. If anything, she lets the FWs go because she's learned more about when she can control someone, and what kinds of circumstances make someone easy to manipulate.

We don't know very much about how Mai and Ty Lee became friends with Azula, bit their backstories imply that both of them had an emotional void that Azula was able to fill. Ty Lee because of not feeling like an individual in her family, and Mai because of feeling repressed. But that changes when Ty Lee and Mai find something else to fill that need, Ty Lee's being the circus, and Mai's being Zuko. Azula had to take those things away to keep her friends loyal, but that loyalty would not last, because she no longer had that emotional hold on her friends.

So when Azula seeks out new followers in the Fire Warriors, she picks women who are especially vulnerable, whose families have cast them aside, who are desperate. She convinces them that they need her. When they finally realize that they don't, that's when Azula has realized she has lost her main advantage.

This is why a lot of manipulative people end up becoming worse in therapy. Understanding people better can teach a person to empathize, but it can also teach a manipulative person how to manipulate better. Where Azula goes from here is up in the air, but the choice, as it has always been, is hers, whether she chooses redemption or just finds someone else to fill that need for control.

[intimidating-fettuccine]

Can I ask for: Zalgo, Candy and Night Terrors (I’m not sure if you write Candy and Terrors together or separately, like in one piece of writing. so I just included them both) with a reader who has anger management issues? And it also takes them a long while to cool down whenever they get set off, occasionally a little glass breaking happens, but nothing major

I can write Candy and Terrors separately, but this one just made more sense in my head to write them in the same section, just a bit longer of an answer.

Zalgo:

I think Zalgo is the one who is most devoted to helping you work on your anger issues, specifically because he was raised in an abusive household. Whenever you yell, scream, break something, or walk away in anger, it reminds him of his parents in a way that strikes a lot of negative chords. He will 100% outright tell you that you need to work on yourself or get out of his life, he will not be with someone who will remind him of his traumatic memories. Of course, he will help you work on yourself, so long as you're willing. I think he'd probably help you get into therapy, and he would work with you through all of your issues one by one to help you not be set off like that anymore. If you begin to show improvement, he'll continue to feel secure and content in your relationship, and he will continue helping you and encouraging you to manage your anger better. If you do not show improvement or you resist him trying to help you, he's going to break up with you. He draws the line at abusive tendencies, and being unable to control your anger and breaking things IS abusive. He will not tolerate someone who thinks this kind of behavior is okay or should be accepted. He'll help you in any way, and encourage you to improve and he'll support you and love you, so long as you are willing to support and love yourself as well. He cares for you too greatly to watch you push people away with things like this, and he'll do anything in his power to love you and help you grow and learn to control yourself.

Candy and Terrors:

Both of them are quite shocked upon the discovery of your anger issues, and like Zalgo, both of them immediately want to do their best to help you control them. Terrors specifically would be quite upset at witnessing it, as it reminds him of what he was like before he calmed down and gained control over himself. He doesn't want you to do and go through the same behaviors that caused others to hate him for so long, so he's quite eager to get involved and help you work through your anger issues. I can see him giving you tips that helped him, and talking with you about what specific things upset you, and what you can do instead of getting angry. Candy also does his best to help you, as it gets him very upset when you get angry like that. Candy is much more gentle when it comes to talking you through things, and I think he'd be good at helping you find coping mechanisms. He helps you with deep breathing and coming up with ways to distract yourself when you get angry, and I can see him trying to help you do something like yoga just in general to relax yourself and keep yourself more regulated, or just exercising with you in general so you can put your energy into something. I think Terrors is best at handling you when you feel like you're about to be set off, and Candy is best at handling you once you're starting to calm down, and they'll switch out depending on who and what you need at any given time. They love you very much, and they don't want you to live like that, they want you to be able to control your emotions and not cause damage to yourself or your relationships. They're a little more likely to stick around for a bit if you don't care about improving, but in the end, if you decide not to work on yourself, they'll also have to leave the relationship, but they want to try their best to work with you before just deciding to leave. They love you very much, and they both praise you on any progress you might make and make sure to check in with you in general to see how you're feeling as you go about your days.