#and as much as i love the trigun fandom

[luvsailor]

oh man,, being away from tumblr the majority of the time has definitely changed the chemistry of my brain, but now that i’m quite literally forcing myself to use twitter less i wonder if i can sorta change it back

[untitledgoosegay]

re last reblog I do see fanfic culture pushing/replicating a certain model of "what trauma looks like," "how trauma works"

this is a problem across all areas of society obviously, but transformative works are, well, transformative. they're about crafting and modifying narratives where the fan-creator sees a flaw or a lack -- often for the better! don't get me wrong, I've done my fair share of "I take a hammer and I fix the canon," it's the main thing that gets my creative gears spinning -- but what happens when that "flaw" is simply a narrative not conforming to popular expectations?

some people just don't get PTSD from events that sound obviously traumatic. they're not masking, and they're not coping; they just straight-up didn't get the permanently-locked stress-response that defines PTSD. they walk away from a horrible experience going "well, that sucked, but it's over now." some people do get PTSD from events most people wouldn't find traumatic. we don't really know why some people get PTSD and others don't. but fandom has an idea of events that must be traumatizing, of a "correct" way to portray trauma. you see the problems with this lack of understanding in e.g. fans pressuring the devs of Baldur's Gate 3 to add dialogue where the player character badgers Halsin about his own feelings on his abuse -- because he must be traumatized, and his trauma must fit a certain mold and presentation of sexual trauma, under the mistaken impression that anything outside that narrow window is somehow "wrong" and disrespectful or even harmful to survivors.

take, for another example, the very common trope of a traumatized character who hates touch or sex "learning" to like touch or sex as a part of their healing process. certainly that can be healing for some people; other people will never like, or want, touch or sex, because of trauma or because they just don't. the assumption that someone who doesn't want sex or doesn't like to be touched must be traumatized, must be suffering from this perceived lack, is seriously harmful -- to asexual people, to people with sensory issues around touch, and to people for whom healing from trauma means freedom to refuse sex or touch.

and there's a secondary trope, one that's slightly more thoughtful but ultimately repeats the problem -- that once someone has learned that their boundaries will be respected, they'll feel it's safe to soften those boundaries. once they feel safe refusing touch or sex, they'll feel comfortable allowing it on their own terms. but many people don't, and many people won't! many people will simply never want to be touched, and never want sex, and they are not suffering or broken or lacking because of it. the idea that proving you'll respect someone's boundaries entitles you to test those boundaries -- the paradox is obvious, and yet this is something i've seen hurt (re-traumatize) people i care for.

people are imperfect victims. people don't heal in the ways you expect. many people have positive memories of their abuse, of their abusers. many people hurt others in the course of their trauma, in ways that can't easily be unpacked in a 5k oneshot. very few narratives of trauma and recovery actually fit the ones put forward by popular children's media and romance novels -- which are the ones I most see replicated in fandom spaces, because they provide the clearest narrative and easiest catharsis, and so they're easy and soothing to reach for.

that's not necessarily a bad thing! i am not immune to goopy romance tropes. i am not immune to teary catharsis. not every fic has to grapple with ugly realities. but there's a problem when these narratives become predominant, when people think they're accurate and realistic depictions of trauma, when the truth of trauma is unpleasant and uncomfortable, and doesn't fit any single narrative, let alone one of comforting catharsis

[cozylittleartblog]

my ACEN tip gimmick has been fulfilled, aaand i got a little carried away with it. I haven't had time to draw for myself (or at all, really??) in like two weeks, i needed to Doodle and Have Fun. ... also, i did not think he would get so many donuts. people understand the value of giving treats to fictional characters :) its what he deserves

also shoutout to snazzyskeletons who had the same Tip Theme i did. we took pictures with our tip jars together. they are adorable v

i'm glad their vash got some donut money too :) 🍩 please check them out if you want some cute trigun stuff

[teaboot]

I've spoken a lot about how much I'm enjoying the Trigun Fandom but one thing I think outsiders need to know is that Main character Vash the Stampede is so frequently interpreted as trans that people on AO3 often tag "vash has a penis" on smutworks where he has one, as failing to do so has resulted in what is colloquially known as "penis jumpscares" mid-woohoo

[trigutta]

𝕀 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕝𝕖'𝕤 𝕣𝕠𝕥𝕥𝕖𝕟 𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝔽𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤 𝕡𝕒𝕤𝕤𝕖𝕕 𝕕𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝔽𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕝𝕖𝕤 𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕓𝕖𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕖

[dragons1re]

If I had a nickel for each time I hyperfixated on a show with a blond autistic mc…

…I’d have three nickels, which isn’t a lot…but it’s weird it’s happened thrice!

[firethekitty]

miscellaneous wolfwood headcanons

mixed latino/japanese

exactly two centimeters shorter than vash and is eternally pissed off about it

likes birds, would enjoy bird-watching if he had the opportunity to

has OCD and really bad intrusive thoughts

gay and demisexual but doesn’t fully understand/care about what that means

NO rizz no swag no pull. extremely inexperienced in the romance and sex department

his go-to stims are Leg Bounce and Chew

a morning person against his will

loves to TELL puns but if anyone else says a pun he’ll beat them to death

actually the only other person who can tell puns is milly. everyone else is getting the boot

good cook

prone to jealousy even if he knows it’s irrational

his main love language is quality time—really enjoys just sitting quietly with people he cares about

he also likes giving/receiving physical touch but only with people he’s really really close to

has no idea when his birthday is

the best thing he ever heard was a 300+ year old ABBA song drifting faintly through a rundown bar on the outskirts of december. no one ever had a good answer for “y'know the name of the tune that goes like “lay olive on me”? somethin’ about olives?”

[shastafirecracker]

Vash giving water to the tomas best silent detail? maybe

[cosmoaxolotl]

Everybody’s talking bout the Trigun Stamped Vash plush, so may I introduce….. the 98’ Vash plush!

[sadiecoocoo]

How is vash such a pretty boy but also so fucking hot? Like both the stampede and original version honestly, tho stampede is leaning more pretty boy

There’s no way this man/plant/creature doesn’t wear makeup either

[cryofoxx]

Funky Wolfwood based on the Vibes of the Dreamland album from Glass animals *throws up hands* TIS DONE

Was mostly listening to "I Dont Wanna Talk (I Just Wanna Dance)" from the album.

Also ignore the hands, i just, did not feel like it.

[whom-to-kill-whom-to-let-live]

No but with TriStamp Legato being sensitive about his hair color, with the implication that it ties into to his backstory, coupled with that one tweet that mentions unnatural hair color making children more likely to be sold off into slavery.

Imagine if TriStamp S2 adapt the Legato VS The Rodericks gang scene and keep it the same, but make the trafficked girls in that scene also have unnatural hair colors like Legato does. 

[mave-riq]

HOW IS MILLIE THE BEST CHARACTER IN ANY PIECE IF MEDIA EVER THE THINGS I WOULD DO FOR THIS GIANT WOMAN

[hellsingmongrel]

Fam?  Friendos?  Loved ones of tumblr?

How in the Hell do you block a certain tag?  I need to know and I can’t find it.

[needle-noggins]

I hope everyone is having fun reading Funeral Rites :)

[artcosmique]

Im thinking about so much things rn

I want to do some animatics with all the fandoms ive been

But like REALLY been

Like i have a lot of drawings and stories in my closet

Like it changed my artstyle

Or my way to see this world