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guess which bad bitch has decided to start journaling again
(its me)
take your bets how long this will last
#just a load of garbage#honestly i hope this works#bc like its kind of calming ngl#and also helps me kind of like#unpack the day and shit#and help me view shit in a positive light#and also like emotionally regulate#also this is like#helping my focus somehow#idk#but yeah#i just wrote for 15 straight minutes#also my handwriting is improving#what is going on fam
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So, like out of curiosity, what are the cultural differences of child-rearing in English speaking countries vs. in Japanese society? You mentioned that in your Mrs. Rosehearts post, and now i'm curious.
I can't speak to much on it to be honest, as I only have my experience and the experiences that my friends have told me to compare. I also don't want to make huge assumptions, and since I can only compare between American and Latino child-rearing, I don't think I'm the best to ask 😓
My only opinion on Mrs. Rosehearts is that I think the TWST fandom, particularly the ones from the EN server, overly villainize her, rather than see her as a complicated character. I think that as a parent, she wants Riddle's best interests in mind but is so concerned about something ruining her son, even things out of her control, that she finds it easier to just keep him near and control everything to keep him safe and on the path that she believes will bring him the most success. She's not a good person, as she has absolutely done irreversible damage to Riddle and his social skills, but I think if you aren't raised in a similar situation as Riddle, or come from a culture where her type of child-rearing isn't normal, it's easy to just write her off as a bad parent and person. I'm of the opinion that it's a lot more complicated than that, which is why I'm more neutral about her and when I write her.
#mochi asks#twst#twisted wonderland#mrs rosehearts#i like to think that she also has a big temper like riddle but never learned to emotionally regulate#she just represses so whenever she does have big emotions they kinda burst out#shes complicated and i do like seeing complicated characters with questionable actions in media#it makes it more immersive and i think thats fun#id probably have a different opinion if this was a real life person and not a video game character tho lol
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see ive been enjoying this anouncers commentary for the last few years but shes really irking me this tournement...
like first we have that week 1 comment about how the domincan republic needed to learn to control their emotions (hilarious giving no one can go 2 seconds without mentioning how old the team is) and now we have thailand getting called childlike....... just. idk maybe its just me but this feels a bit side eye worthy....
#also the other commentator making a point of how easy the usa coaches name is to pronounce unlike the thai coach's#like maybe easier to us as americans but lets be mindful about what were saying#will never be over saying the grown women of the dr need to learn to emotionally regulate like ill always be pissed at that#vnl 2025#vbtv anouncers#not using their names not cause i think a lot of ppl read these but you never know.
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every time i have to read the word “washed” i think wow i should have been way fucking meaner to you people
#sorry i- *checks receipts* -supported and believed in someone? wanted them to do well bc i liked them?#my bad guys#let me ask you a question have you ever been absolutely terrorized while simultaneously doing something that will kill you if you fuck up?#i’m serious. like it’s not a bad tennis match. if you fuck up driving 300kph‚ you die#yes there’s the necessity of adapting and coping in a high stress environment like f1#but also recognize what happens when your team doesn’t adequately support you and actively plays mind games with you for a year plus#what they’ve done is create the fear response. impossible high standards with highly threatening consequences#that is the high performance textbook formula for fear#do i think the Mature and Emotionally Regulated thing he was doing was working for him? in life sure#but on track i think he needed to get his dick out. bare his teeth. Bite.#unfortunately he’s a stranger to me and what’s done is done so it’s kind of a moot point#but either way‚ i’d like to see YOU sit through the same experience of people actively antagonizing you#and begging for a younger‚ better‚ more loved version of you back#and watch you handle it thinking you’re above it all. spoilers; You’re Not#catherine radio
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"why are you so worried abt random accidents, stuff like that rarely ever happens" well you see I'm too disabled to ever evacuate a situation on my own, so I'd rather be a safety advocate now than become a statistic later
#like. part of the reason i avoid large crowded events at all costs unless they are outdoors#is because i know for a fact i would more likely be a victim of crowd crush than any disaster like a fire#i am slow. i am very fragile. i have extremely poor balance#even if i could walk on that particular day (which is becoming less and less likely by the month)#i would be knocked over almost immediately by a light shove and be trampled#as well as like. my diminishing ability to make it UP stairs in the event of a fire in my apartment#because i live in a basement apartment and there is no elevator or alternative way upstairs in this building#if i were on an upper floor i would bear the injuries and just throw myself down the stairs if it were that severe of an emergency#i know far too well how to protect myself from a hard fall and would likely be able to avoid too severe an injury there#but if i had to crawl up the stairs i don't know if i could make it#these things are also why i fear car accidents so much#i physically cannot use an airbag without it breaking my collarbone; my height and general brittleness guarantee that#so it's just not. active. on my side of the car. like it was manually disabled#and I'm already so severely disabled i just. i can't emotionally handle something else. on top of everything#i have a do not resuscitate order in place bc of that. so if my heart stops for any reason they shouldn't try to restart it#that's a recent choice bc like. i can already barely handle the emotional toll of my current disabilities getting worse#i would not be able to handle something new unless it were like. a more severe form of one i already handle well like. losing my legs#i miss running but it wasn't as hard to give up as; say; losing use of my hands- they're the only way i can do ANYTHING nowadays#the few times my joint pain got bad enough that i fully lost use of my hands for a few days were absolute torment#and I'm far far too scared of my voice being recorded to use anything with speech to text like. it's a BAD paranoia i can't shake it#so i would just kind of. be locked out from most tech. and THAT is currently the only way it's possible for me to be social#so i would actually just fully lose my mind like it's already fragile enough i would break i would just break#i love large transport vehicles but i struggle to trust the safety of most other than trains because those tend to be. fairly safe#I've watched enough train disaster videos to know how robust the rules and regulations of modern trains are#(all regulations are written in blood!)#i trust cars very little though and since buses run on the same streets i worry. a Lot#not that there's any buses that run near my apartment the closest bus stop is three blocks away and it only comes twice a day#and it only runs to the college and nowhere else so there's. very little point to me using it#and very few ways for me to even access it in my current physical state#it's very much not an accessible bus stop the sidewalks are diagonal in most places and my right wheel is malfunctioning now bc of it
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grumbling grumpily bc i unfortunately have to admit that i am indeed getting better >:( like i actually feel excitement again for example. smh. i look forward to going out and being with people??? i am way more agreeable to trying new things and i let myself approach them with an open mind so i often end up enjoying them??? this isn't me this isn't my heart .
#ngl i think. the last 2ish weeks before the show were a big turning point#i surprised myself with how cooperative i was and how positive and energetic i managed to be abt the whole thing#and then the show went great and i got ppl approaching me telling me they loved my bit#and i'm still feeling good since 🧐 this is so damn odd i'm not used to feeling okay for this long#and it's not like. like when i was 18 for example. that i was chill literally just bc i was detached from my feelings (ssris my beloathed).#bc now i do feel excited. as i mentioned. which hasn't happened for real in like. years#yet i'm still also mostly emotionally regulated. and not in a numb way i think#obviously i still have some hard times 😩 being bored is unbearable for example and I still struggle to find ways to solve it#and i still like. haven't been creative since august. but i also don't feel the need to do so either?#idk maybe acting scratches that itch enough that i don't need to write. who knows#anyway this was an angry (/j) ramble abt mental health. don't mind me#i AM extremely scared of when my body will turn on me and hormones imbalance will fuck me up#i'm extremely suspicious bc it should've happened by now according to past experiences. but i'm. still mostly fine. Hm#i also still tend to fall into self loathing lmao 😭 but. not as much as before. it hits hard when it does but usually goes away fast#achieving smth grand probability helped ease some of it far in my subconscious lol#uuuuuuuh does this need a cw tag. lmk 🫡
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my brain has been so mush for the past several weeks if not months and not having my adhd meds is definitely not helping 😵💫 but oh my god I do not want to go back to my family doctor who has made it clear so many times that he does not know what he’s doing and also doesn’t care. soon I’m going to be without insurance so I need to get my medical shit together fast but in order to do that I need meds and in order to get meds I need my medical shit together but in order to do that I need meds etc.
#personal#mh#it’s hell hardly being able to string a sentence together#I keep losing my vocabulary but then I also can’t read books to refresh it bc my eyes just slide over paragraphs like oil#and then I’m so up and down emotionally bc I can’t regulate lol girl help#and then all my self care and home maintenance goes to shit like I am so embarrassed by my apt rn#I need to do laundry and cleaning so bad but I Can’t for Unknown Reasons#beating my brain back with a stick like girl get it together 😭#then when I’m on meds I can’t eat bc All Food Is Illegal and liable to be expelled at any moment#so it’s like. take the meds and I’m mentally a bit better but physically a wreck#or don’t take meds and I’m physically a bit (?) better but brain is boiled stew and even if I do have an appetite I have no energy to do#anything about it#ed cw#disordered eating cw#how can a body sleep for 16+ hrs a day and STILL be tired. it’s so goddamn ridiculous 💀#ugh anyway I’m going to stop whinging and try to cheer myself up a bit#I need 1) shower 2) dishes 3) laundry#but before even that I need 1) contacts 2) sleep (even though I’m sick of sleeping)
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hyperpop loud enough to make the brainfog less foggy my beloved
#its so good but also probably bad bc its REALLY loud#but also its like my only way to emotionally regulate myself effectively most of the time#and its effectiveness is directly tied to the volume
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#are there people under the age of 40 who practice polyamory and arent fucking annoying about it#girl. emotional regulation and maturity#why are we adding another emotionally disregulated lesbian who doesnt eat vegetables to this situation#like im sure polyamory is fine if youre GOOD at interpersonal relationships its just always the ones that arent that are attracted to it#also 'this person is really into me and it makes me uncomfortable'. talk to them!! you will find out that they arent actually!!!#ugh#anyway#i have to say#i think swingers fall into the umbrella of polyamory and i gotta say by and large they have annoyed me personally far less
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ramon using his own mistakes as a father against eddie to try to get eddie to let christopher go live with them, after previously saying he wanted to do better by eddie, is truly foul stuff
#also helena being like 'he's 13 he should have a say!!!'#.......um. no? teenagers are famously poorly emotionally regulated? what are we doing here.#911 abc#911 liveblog#weewoo show
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this week on the virgoes show: realized i’ve been “people pleasing” my whole life because i am so good at reading what other people want and providing them just that, and as a result have no idea what my identity is.
#it’s like fomo and people pleasing on the smaller scale of my family my friends my coworkers all the way up until everyone on planet earth#i also don’t think i ever learned how to emotionally regulate#me blogging used to help me with introspection so much and bc i’ve been off tumblr the only time i grant myself that time is#when i’m high as shit lmfao so i thank the universe for putting me back on this path to find myself#people scare me and that is ok and i don’t have to create a personality that will appeal to every type of person#as a result of all this i have street smarts i have like.. ‘people smarts’ and can talk to anyone in any culture any generation any context#but like for my personal life i don’t need that skill to make myself happy and i only now know that#man growing up w white people didn’t help with this either#venlafaxine has flattened my emotions so much that my life has become very bleak so i hope to get off it 😖#2025 me boutta have the fattest glow up ever (watch the real me be the most boring bitch in the world)#i told myself i’m going to let myself act out emotionally from now on and not hold back any even if it’s childish.
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Léonys won a critical victory against me when I got into Umbar, encountered Rothog the Storm, and then immediately started planning her arc in that area around what hoops I would have to jump through to get my flagship OC to be friends with my new blorbo pretty much exactly the same way I did it when I developed her friendship with Candaith, thus proving that on some level, she is still very much an idealized self-insert
#shes very smug about this. shes still not getting her horse to umbar i am NOT touching those logistics with a 39 and a half foot long pole#she HAS tried to reopen negotiations on lheu brenin stabbings bug HA jokes on her im more emotionally regulated than i was when i wrote tha#also ive been thinking about her various adventures after she goes back to bree land#when shes like. older#so my mental image of her is also more emotionally regulated. which is weird
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I may have overdone it, lads/genderneutral
No thoughts head empty and so so sleepy
#all the executives came to the board meeting today and oh boy did they function#emotionally regulated like a boss. memory? worked. took turns speaking. covered all the most important points#planned like a boss. socialed like a pro.#as a bonus. i let myself stop at the park cause it was on the way and empty#i got some swing time in hell yea. also some spinny thing shitkicked the frick out of my shin#i was trying to spin rly fast and lost balance and got pulled in a circlem didnt fall but smacked my shin#that was to like blow off steam/stress from planning stuff
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it's a great day to be in the most insane headspace
where i'm sick and thus loopy and whiplashing violently between: shocks of anger and despair and then vibrating with delight
my blood pressure is so far up i'm gonna take an aspirin this is ridiculous
the fucking slow tigers are gaining on me i swear
#on the music and entertainment front: everything i wanted and more i'm so happy#on the living in this country front: i am SO angry and feeling betrayed by the democratic party (yet again)#i am ALSO resigned because i'd literally vote for a baked potato over trump but MY GODS i'm pissed and SAD#and i also can't breathe or sleep or evidently emotionally regulate#which is why i'm on here posting like sn idiot#i just want to CRY but i can't i'm on so much cold medicine and now i have to probably cancel my dr appointment friday which#rescheduling is such a pain too#so it's so tempting to just switch over to fandom mode and wallow in good and pretty and fun things#because every time i see the political news i get like a jumpscare flinch and tightening in my chest i hate this#i can't even check my email
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I’ve gotten less than 4 hours of sleep every day this week and I’m evil now
#mostly like I can’t emotionally regulate and I’m finding new things annoying that I don’t under normal circumstances#also I’ve been having digestive problems all week too so that’s been bad
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attempting yet again to rejigger my yet again extremely fucked sleep cycle and. experiencing repercussions
#it truly is SO reliable that if i go to bed early enough my body thinks it’s a nap#i WILL wake up in the dark with my heart beating rapidfire feeling totally discombobulated and‚ like‚ emotionally hung over#having had some sort of disconcertingly vivid dream#anyway now i’m like. Up but in the way where i’m thinking abt how i’ve always felt like an invisible camera instead of a person#which are like. not ordinarily morning thoughts???#on the bright side i fell asleep in a lot of merino so at least when i woke up frazzled and gasping i wasn’t also sweaty???#magic wicking temperature-regulating fiber my beloved. some people use it for real things! i just use it to wick my anxiety away. 🤘#journaling#mundanities
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