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guess which bad bitch has decided to start journaling again
(its me)
take your bets how long this will last
#just a load of garbage#honestly i hope this works#bc like its kind of calming ngl#and also helps me kind of like#unpack the day and shit#and help me view shit in a positive light#and also like emotionally regulate#also this is like#helping my focus somehow#idk#but yeah#i just wrote for 15 straight minutes#also my handwriting is improving#what is going on fam
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So, like out of curiosity, what are the cultural differences of child-rearing in English speaking countries vs. in Japanese society? You mentioned that in your Mrs. Rosehearts post, and now i'm curious.
I can't speak to much on it to be honest, as I only have my experience and the experiences that my friends have told me to compare. I also don't want to make huge assumptions, and since I can only compare between American and Latino child-rearing, I don't think I'm the best to ask 😓
My only opinion on Mrs. Rosehearts is that I think the TWST fandom, particularly the ones from the EN server, overly villainize her, rather than see her as a complicated character. I think that as a parent, she wants Riddle's best interests in mind but is so concerned about something ruining her son, even things out of her control, that she finds it easier to just keep him near and control everything to keep him safe and on the path that she believes will bring him the most success. She's not a good person, as she has absolutely done irreversible damage to Riddle and his social skills, but I think if you aren't raised in a similar situation as Riddle, or come from a culture where her type of child-rearing isn't normal, it's easy to just write her off as a bad parent and person. I'm of the opinion that it's a lot more complicated than that, which is why I'm more neutral about her and when I write her.
#mochi asks#twst#twisted wonderland#mrs rosehearts#i like to think that she also has a big temper like riddle but never learned to emotionally regulate#she just represses so whenever she does have big emotions they kinda burst out#shes complicated and i do like seeing complicated characters with questionable actions in media#it makes it more immersive and i think thats fun#id probably have a different opinion if this was a real life person and not a video game character tho lol
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What really gets me about Kitsune is that she did all that to a FOURTEEN YEAR OLD. Like, someone whose emotional regulation center isn’t even fully developed yet. God forbid a literal KID be messy and make mistakes and do his level best to try and fix them with the only knowledge he has at his disposal, right?
it's unfortunate a lot of real life people see teenagers that way; that if they're old enough to make the mistake, they're old enough to pay for it. hell, the US carceral system will arrest (usually impoverished and groomed into crime) teenagers for mistakes that they'll kill them for decades later. they consider that justice.
and as a god, kitsune sees donnie that way. he doesn't look like a little kid anymore, and he caused quite a bit of damage, both to their traditions and to their town; she wasn't the one to actively make the decision to go after him, but she believed the punishment was worth it compared to the crime. and like she says, even if he is a kid, she thinks this is one way of learning that life isn't fair. and when donnie dies for it, his brothers will know. she knows they're hamato, mind you. dont exactly think she's a big fan of their clan
it's cruel. it's utterly heartless. it rings true to the way that people will actually treat literal children. trust me, i would know personally-- i've been punished like an adult for making bad choices as a 14 year old before.
and it's especially cruel seeing how he acts during and AFTER the curse, how it's SO fucking clear that he's just a kid. a babie. three whole apples tall.
like oh my god! look at him! baby! baby boy!!!! how could you gleefully hurt him!!!!!! he's just a boy!!!!!!!!
#ask#canary continuity#also i think it gets worse knowing donnie's an autistic teenager!!#he strikes me as someone who grew up emotionally very fast compared to his brothers and is now comparatively behind#which despite the persona he puts off. would explain a lot of his actions in the show#he struggles to emotionally regulate!! puberty is cooking his brain and he's a neurodivergent kid!!!!#OF COURSE he acts the way he does!!!#and even then most of it is like. harmless!! like it just makes everything that happens to him in cc more tragic#especially considering the ableism the brothers under the curse put him through#its another layer of pain#cw abuse#cw suicide attempt#for the depictions of it in some of the scenes i showed
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grumbling grumpily bc i unfortunately have to admit that i am indeed getting better >:( like i actually feel excitement again for example. smh. i look forward to going out and being with people??? i am way more agreeable to trying new things and i let myself approach them with an open mind so i often end up enjoying them??? this isn't me this isn't my heart .
#ngl i think. the last 2ish weeks before the show were a big turning point#i surprised myself with how cooperative i was and how positive and energetic i managed to be abt the whole thing#and then the show went great and i got ppl approaching me telling me they loved my bit#and i'm still feeling good since 🧐 this is so damn odd i'm not used to feeling okay for this long#and it's not like. like when i was 18 for example. that i was chill literally just bc i was detached from my feelings (ssris my beloathed).#bc now i do feel excited. as i mentioned. which hasn't happened for real in like. years#yet i'm still also mostly emotionally regulated. and not in a numb way i think#obviously i still have some hard times 😩 being bored is unbearable for example and I still struggle to find ways to solve it#and i still like. haven't been creative since august. but i also don't feel the need to do so either?#idk maybe acting scratches that itch enough that i don't need to write. who knows#anyway this was an angry (/j) ramble abt mental health. don't mind me#i AM extremely scared of when my body will turn on me and hormones imbalance will fuck me up#i'm extremely suspicious bc it should've happened by now according to past experiences. but i'm. still mostly fine. Hm#i also still tend to fall into self loathing lmao 😭 but. not as much as before. it hits hard when it does but usually goes away fast#achieving smth grand probability helped ease some of it far in my subconscious lol#uuuuuuuh does this need a cw tag. lmk 🫡
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vivziepop haters are so obsessed with her it’s concerning. i see right through you. every time she sees success with her projects and creations you come out of the woodworks with petty insults and gross misinformation. if you don’t like her or her art, you do you, but it’s pathetic that it’s 2024 and you’re still diminishing the work of a bisexual latina just because that work doesn’t fit your hypersanitized media tastes and because she, like literally every person on the internet including you and i, did and said stupid shit in her teenage years. it’s fucking exhausting to watch, please shut up and find something better to do with your time.
i don’t want to have discussions with y’all, you’re too toxic. i just needed to get this off my chest because it’s bothered me. just block me if you feel called out by what i described and you don’t care.
#vivziepop#hazbin hotel#helluva boss#there’s nothing wrong with having genuine criticisms about her shows. i have things i don’t really like about them either#she’s not perfect but like neither are any of you??#but when you dig up shit from like a decade ago that’s petty and vindictive af. people change#also the way y’all will mock her for ‘having thin skin’ when y’all have been constantly on her ass and insulting and bullying her for YEARS#i think most people would become a bit emotionally fragile from that and you’re just… laughing at her#some people have a harder time regulating their emotions and i know that personally. it’s not cool to make fun of that imo
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Soooooo I wrote this incredibly self-indulgent thing about Miles. I have many feelings about how he keeps himself so tightly in control. It's gotta go somewhere.
Disclaimer it's quite dark, so mind the trigger warning and keep yourself safe <3
TW: self-harm, not what I would consider graphic descriptions, but it is the central theme and way more than a mention
The lock clicks. He slips his suit jacket off. Loosens then removes his tie. Untucked, buttons undone. It’s all laid out on the bed. Step by step. Shoes set to the side and trousers swapped for silken pajama pants.
The bathroom door closes behind him. The second lock between him and the world. The shower comes on. Towel laid out on the counter.
His drawer, second down on the left. He pulls out the small black bag. Gold zipper. Supple leather. Inside, his collection. Three packs of new razor blades. An open pack of blades; used ones tucked into the back. A single hypodermic needle. A crafting knife. Two unopened band aids.
The rest of the drawer’s contents is ignored, antiseptic and suture kits, butterfly closures and rolls of gauze, in favor of practiced hands sliding the tin of blades from the bag and the blade from the tin.
He sits on the toilet, lid down. Elbow straight. Fist clenched. The first slice with a small inhale. Bright and sharp and stinging. Familiar and comforting. Line after line as red blooms from the wounds. The ecstasy second only to the Kiss. Rivulets follow gravity down. Strategically placed tissues catch the mess.
Stained crimson, they fall into the waste basket. He flexes his wrist, testing the pull of the broken skin, blots the last of the blood away. Blade inspected and stowed; everything returned to it’s place. Pajamas folded on top of the toilet, he steps into the shower.
#path of night podcast#my fic#*clenches fist* i WILL get better about sharing my writing#but yes many many thoughts about how he regulates himself emotionally and the toll that keeping himself in check takes#i dont have actual like coherent thoughts otherwise i would have written more lmao#but i always gotta have some character to slap the self-harm headcanon onto and unfortunately for miles he is The Chosen One this go around#i would imagine hes very methodical and ritualistic about it and finds it very centering and grounding and cathartic but also#tips right into that edge where he NEEDS it and its becoming a coping mechanism he doesn't really have a replacement for when push comes to#shove and how does he cope when this thing that supposedly gives him control leads him to being more out of control v juicy thoughts for me#if i actually bothered to write anything substantial i would probably post it to ao3 but for 250 words im not sure its worth it lmao#i feel like my tenses are all over the place too but im just going to live with it!!!!!!!!!#i also have many many thoughts about how marcos is involved and complicit spoiler hes the one who put all those medical supplies#in the bathroom just in case miles ever needed them#and the blood bond only complicates things
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maybe i need meds???
#knocks on skull like GOD CAN YOU JUST FUCKING EMOTIONALLY REGULATE I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD#been swinging wildly between 'i need help' & 'im faking it' every single HOUR#the thing is. and this is the thing. my life right now is as close to perfect as i'll ever get there is literally nothing wrong#im MEANT to be HAPPY why am i UNSTABLE#im thinking meds maybe but also it's just such a pain#to book a drs appt to get put on a mental health plan to be put on a waiting list for a shrink then convince said shrink that I need meds#sounds painful#don't think I can do it...#but. ive booked a drs appt so baby steps.#but see like I booked it on wed bc I was very much going to have a breakdown at my desk then immediately felt silly on thurs morning bc#I felt fine??? then hours later I was like no. not fine actually#im going to fucking chuck#hex.txt#personal#personal posts are only on this blog bc u guys are more used to hearing me blabber bullshit than my main#does anyone wanna tell me some good news or something nice happening in their life
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the ‘every problem I’ve had’ doc is almost at 5000 words and there’s still a lot of stuff I could add. yippee…?
#it is nice because I’m doing a lot of self reflection#some of it feels good#some of it feels like an explanation for something I’ve never quite understood about myself (origin points for traits I have now)#some of it just makes me sad#man..#I could have been a lot less miserable growing up#if I was given more support#…or any support that actually benefited me#my parents did things that THEY thought were supportive that didn’t benefit me at best#or they made me feel worse ;w;#and they didn’t respect me as a human being (y’know classic child-parent relationship)#so if I tried to ask for explanations/tell them things that I explicitly didn’t like them doing to me#I was brushed off#they told me that they did these things because they loved me#but I usually just felt hurt by their actions#anyways! now I am very bad with regulating AND expressing my emotions!!!#I’ve been actively working on it but this is many years of damage to undo so#hopefully I’ll be better in the future#hopefully ill be able to tell people I love them too#without being scared that they’ll hurt me#because I always had to verbally tell my parents I loved them when they said it first or they’d get upset#and this is going to sound horrible#but I didn’t really?? mean it when I said it to them????#I do love my parents but I usually don’t. verbally tell people that I love them often#which I would. like to do. I would like to tell people when I care about them#and I do love a lot of my friends#but I spent a very long time only saying the words I love you to people that (unintentionally) hurt me quite a bit#mostly emotionally! sometimes it was physical though!#but now I’m scared that if I tell people I love them they’ll end up hurting me because that’s the only personal association I feel with it#also vulnerability in general terrifies me for similar reasons. trusting my parents ALWAYS came back to bite me in the ass
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this week on the virgoes show: realized i’ve been “people pleasing” my whole life because i am so good at reading what other people want and providing them just that, and as a result have no idea what my identity is.
#it’s like fomo and people pleasing on the smaller scale of my family my friends my coworkers all the way up until everyone on planet earth#i also don’t think i ever learned how to emotionally regulate#me blogging used to help me with introspection so much and bc i’ve been off tumblr the only time i grant myself that time is#when i’m high as shit lmfao so i thank the universe for putting me back on this path to find myself#people scare me and that is ok and i don’t have to create a personality that will appeal to every type of person#as a result of all this i have street smarts i have like.. ‘people smarts’ and can talk to anyone in any culture any generation any context#but like for my personal life i don’t need that skill to make myself happy and i only now know that#man growing up w white people didn’t help with this either#venlafaxine has flattened my emotions so much that my life has become very bleak so i hope to get off it 😖#2025 me boutta have the fattest glow up ever (watch the real me be the most boring bitch in the world)#i told myself i’m going to let myself act out emotionally from now on and not hold back any even if it’s childish.
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HI! i have a tumblr now :)! have some drawings, I plan to spew some au shit I never felt like I could really do on twitter!
#ratchet and clank#R&C2002#mem doodles :)#why is R&C 2002 just like that#Clanks so emotional and feel so much but is able to put his feelings aside but is also a baby right now and doesnt recognize how to emote#contrasted with ratchet who is also emotionally but CAN show it but also cant regulate it#digitalart
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Léonys won a critical victory against me when I got into Umbar, encountered Rothog the Storm, and then immediately started planning her arc in that area around what hoops I would have to jump through to get my flagship OC to be friends with my new blorbo pretty much exactly the same way I did it when I developed her friendship with Candaith, thus proving that on some level, she is still very much an idealized self-insert
#shes very smug about this. shes still not getting her horse to umbar i am NOT touching those logistics with a 39 and a half foot long pole#she HAS tried to reopen negotiations on lheu brenin stabbings bug HA jokes on her im more emotionally regulated than i was when i wrote tha#also ive been thinking about her various adventures after she goes back to bree land#when shes like. older#so my mental image of her is also more emotionally regulated. which is weird
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I may have overdone it, lads/genderneutral
No thoughts head empty and so so sleepy
#all the executives came to the board meeting today and oh boy did they function#emotionally regulated like a boss. memory? worked. took turns speaking. covered all the most important points#planned like a boss. socialed like a pro.#as a bonus. i let myself stop at the park cause it was on the way and empty#i got some swing time in hell yea. also some spinny thing shitkicked the frick out of my shin#i was trying to spin rly fast and lost balance and got pulled in a circlem didnt fall but smacked my shin#that was to like blow off steam/stress from planning stuff
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i will literally never understand when a character gets hate for being ‘overdramatic’ or highly emotional because like. i live for that shit. i fucking love when a character has a strong emotional response to a relatively ‘minor’ thing i love when characters cry easily and frequently i love when characters are loud and ‘annoying’ i live for drama. if a character is frequently hated on by fans for being annoying there is a 9/10 chance that character is one of my faves. no i dont think my neurodivergence has anything to do with this
#skye's ramblings#ihave been the number one annoying character defender my whole life and i dont intend to stop. dont worry little guy i get you take my hand#the 'emotionally distant traumatized emo' is almost never a character i get majorly attached to even if i alost always like them#but when t/pn said yeah we got one of those except he fucking sucks at hiding his emotions and has explosive anger issues iwas like#oh you. you are mine. my specialest little guy forever. i will kill anything for you. its been over a year and a half w no signs of fading#he has sooo much fierce love in his heart and its not negated by his ptsd or the less socially accepted symptoms. i fucking LOVE RAY!!!!!!!!#also the way don is sooo emotionally vulnerable and has a hard time regulating them. the way he loses the most important person in his life#and the fucking flood of emotions is so much that he doesnt even know how to process it and just starts LAUGHING?? god i love him. ilove him#yes its mostly the Comfort Characters but soo many emotional characters resonate w me deeply. everyone in this series is deeply autistic
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it's a great day to be in the most insane headspace
where i'm sick and thus loopy and whiplashing violently between: shocks of anger and despair and then vibrating with delight
my blood pressure is so far up i'm gonna take an aspirin this is ridiculous
the fucking slow tigers are gaining on me i swear
#on the music and entertainment front: everything i wanted and more i'm so happy#on the living in this country front: i am SO angry and feeling betrayed by the democratic party (yet again)#i am ALSO resigned because i'd literally vote for a baked potato over trump but MY GODS i'm pissed and SAD#and i also can't breathe or sleep or evidently emotionally regulate#which is why i'm on here posting like sn idiot#i just want to CRY but i can't i'm on so much cold medicine and now i have to probably cancel my dr appointment friday which#rescheduling is such a pain too#so it's so tempting to just switch over to fandom mode and wallow in good and pretty and fun things#because every time i see the political news i get like a jumpscare flinch and tightening in my chest i hate this#i can't even check my email
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Bro why not make the whimpering yourself? You’ve gathered a handful of simps who share the same want ! And you are an artist so you can practically create whatever you want, yeah?
no time :[
like i have a lot of suggestive and borderline nsfw art i have thought of in regards 2 him but i just. have no time 2 sit down and actually draw it
#spacie splains#ugghhhh#this post is kinda nsft#so yeah#nsft#i mean im just mentioning it but yk#everyone knows i want 2 fucvk him its not even like.#anyways#also if i drew it myself i think id hate it lmaooooo#going thru a bit of an insecure spot artwise#which being unable 2 draw for weeks on end is not helping lmao#b/c i usually just keep drawing till i feel better#the last time i drew something was#checks my watch#ONE MONTH AGO!??!?!?!?#UGOUOGUOHOUHOUOUOUOGH#HELP MEEEE FUCK DUDE#THIS SUCKS BALLS#DRAWING HELPS ME EMOTIONALLY REGULATE NO WONDER IVE FELT LIKE SUC H SHIT LATELY
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I’ve gotten less than 4 hours of sleep every day this week and I’m evil now
#mostly like I can’t emotionally regulate and I’m finding new things annoying that I don’t under normal circumstances#also I’ve been having digestive problems all week too so that’s been bad
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