#and also I am so indecisive whenever I'm writing. what if I don't like it later or wish I had written something differently.

[heartbeetz]

Working on demon anton fic stuff (been on my mind again finally) and I keep flopping between "this is out of character, he wouldn't act like that" and "okay but what if in this circumstance he would act like that. it's never happened before so we wouldn't know". I hate making him super ooc bc I love Anton for being Anton and so making him feel off feels like doing him a disservice. But also there is a specific story I want to tell here. So maybe who give a shit.

[curetapwater]

🩷💚🩷SEND THIS TO OTHER BLOGGERS YOU THINK ARE WONDERFUL KEEP THE GAME GOING 🩷💚🩷 (No pressure! Only if you’d like to)

Your aesthetic sensibilities and love for what you enjoy most are really amazing, and I aspire to someday be as vibrant of a multi-fandom blogger as you are! /pos /gen I also really enjoy your writing and how much sheer feeling you pack into it—it’s so obvious that you love what you do and it shines out from the words you type. I’m so glad we’re mutuals, and I’m looking forward to seeing more writing from you whenever you feel up to it (but obviously only when you’re ready, there’s no rush or pressure)!

WAUGHHGHG THANK YOU FOR THIS I'M SMILING SO WIDE I'M LITERALLY ROCKING BACK AND FORTH

I often struggle with chain mail type stuff (/nm) but I just had to respond because your message delighted me so much to read!! To throw it right back at you, I have to say that I get such a rush whenever you comment on my writing because you're so earnest and enthusiastic about everything it made you feel, and it's SUCH a huge motivator!! I am sosososo darn excited to see what you think of what I have in store! Rest assured, more Shadow Barbie AU is most certainly coming, I have a LOT cooking, regarding it.

I have a LOT of mutuals I'd love to shout out in this sort of thing (part of the reason I often don't carry on with chain mail is my indecision in wanting to choose EVERYONE lol; if you're reading this and I didn't tag you, please assume I thought of you too) but while I'm here I'd like to shout out @a-dream-journalist because the way we feed off of each other in terms of inspiration is insane (we are that one gif of Team Dark running in circles), and @vulturevanity because he's been so supportive of my stories since we became mutuals, with both my original story (I haven't abandoned Star and Sky!!) and my fanfics!

[rumble-aint-a-rumble-without-me]

alright hi :))

this is a continuation of the one that didn't get finished cause of glitches 😒😒 idk what i typed 🧍🏽‍♀️🧍🏽‍♀️ so here's what i THINK i typed and then some.

• im a girl gemini (diabolically cursed x5) with curly hair that's black at the roots (and then some) and dark purple at the bottom. i have dark brown eyes and im about 5'6 and i have brown skin ! im latina so im just a smidge lighter than johnny :))

• i don't have a personality because i have too many interests and different views with everything. id like to think i'm a combination of everyone and everything i find cool and interesting. which of course means i have a WIDE variety of topics in my head. i love to see the point of view from multiple people and i don't stick to just one overall opinion with things. i'm pretty indecisive but once i have a firm stance on something (like absolutely NO pineapple or mushrooms on pizza) then it's pretty hard to sway me.

• I LOVE MUSIC 🗣️🗣️🗣️🫦🗣️ i want to inject it into my soul and become one with the sound waves....but i seriously love music 💿 i have tons of cds and i caved and got spotify premium because i can't live with the ads 💔💔 i also LOVE to read and write, it's been an outlet since i was a kid so.

• i also don't have a style. like i said, i have a lot of interests and i tend to always try to let everyone know that at all times (im insufferable and pretentious unfortunately) so i'm constantly mixing it up. downtown girl meets david bowie new wave ??? check. whimsical gothic witch that listens to stevie nicks ???? check. 70's almost famous, dazed and confused wannabe ??? check. twee eternal sunshine jessica day meets juno and romana flowers ??? check. I DOMT HAVE ONE AESTHETIC 🗣️🗣️ I JUST DRESS LIKE ME AND HOPE FOR THE BEST 🗣️🗣️🗣️

• i'm not sure what my love language is ??? id assume in a healthy relationship you'd have a generous balance between all of them but idk 🤷‍♀️ leaning more into some though id def say words of affirmation and physical touch but ONLY with a romantic partner. idk why but any other kind of physical intimacy with another person just feels very weird to me and i don't like it. i always do find myself daydreaming though and wishing for affection like that from a partner so yeah 🤷‍♀️

• i slip up sometimes and call people terms of endearment 😞 i try not to cause ik some people don't like that but i always say "baby, honey, and sweetheart". sometimes i use them jokingly but i also just say them as filler tbh

• i'm not the kinda of person to go up to you and strike a conversation but if someone came up to me i wouldn't turn them away immediately. i tend to have a pretty good understanding of peoples vibes so i'd like to think i can tell when someone's being disingenuous. i'm shy at times but that's not my whole trait cause once i get comfortable you are in for JOKES AND JOKES AND JOKES 🐺🐺 i don't take myself seriously very often and i like to try and make other people comfortable around me and what better why to do that than humor :) !!! i'm don't think i'm insanely funny, i just laugh at my own jokes and hope for the best 😞 i laugh a lot and i have a loud laugh 🤬 i try to tone it down though cause i get started at a lot and my overthinking ass can NOT handle that PLEASE DONT PERCEIVE ME

• once we're locked in 🤞as friends or whatever i'm LOYAL😍 someone talking bs ??? not round me partner. not. around. me. 🐺🐺 im not the confrontational type at ALL but i am fiercely defensive over people i care about so if duty calls, i must attend. (im literally batman.)

• one of my go to signature scents is lavender honey and wild fig. do with that what you will 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

OK I THINK THATS ALL SORRY IF ITS A LOT THANK YOU

(note: the format might be weird cause it is NOT letting me type in peace 😭)

Oh buddy, I think Johnny would be obsessed with you. He loves your never changing style, he can't wait to see what you've got going whenever you guys are together. He offers to help touch up your hair too, if that's something you're interested in- your terms of endearment are more than alright with Johnnycake, everytime you call him one, the butterflies in his stomach go bonkahs

[silvershayde]

Sharing cus tbh I feel lonely rn and I'm very confused? Feeling s bit uninspired

So today (last day of classes before mid term break) I had an eye appointment and they said my eyes produce less tears, Haven't read up on it but they also mentioned technology and how it causes headaches

I'm almost done with school so I actually have soooooooo much free time sans the studying I gotta do, but I also wanne reduce my technology usage cus I have a crippling dependency ever since I had to revise my other hobbies to not get out of track with classes, but just thinking of picking up those hobbies again feels daunting and like, I won't be able to feel the love I had for them which makes me sad :(

I already crochet and have books to draw in, but writing for fic has always been online cus it's just easier to save and preserve my writing that way (plus more secure in my case) than to write ideas in a book and run the risk of them getting lost. But I really wanna cut down tech usage so instead of just writing out the plot in full I'll use paper and pen to write out the outline of my story plots and then make notes of the misadventures or side quests the characters go through and the characteristics of the characters

Honestly, I'm talking about this to someone else cus I kinda want an alternative perspective? I realised that school has made me so dependent on someone telling me what to do and I hate it, so I wanna try and practice independence more, especially planning how I wanna do my hobbies

okay, so as someone who has written stories both online and physically in a book, i was more productive writing it down on paper. sadly i did lose the book, but that was more because i did move around quite a bit when i was younger and it was hectic and not because of negligence on my part (then again i am also known for losing things but usually i eventually find them. and i actually don't know if i would read it back or not i was like 12 when i wrote it lolol)

I don't know too much about less tears can do to your eyes other than your more prone to have irritation and straight up scratches on the eyeball (i know this because my optician told me i had this but then didn't tell me what to do about it - still haven't done anything about it but i know eyedrops help)

honestly do what you truly think is best for you. if you're struggling with what to choose i suggest doing a pros and cons list and put em side by side. that's what i do when i'm truly indecisive and other's opinions don't really help. but! i will say that even if indecisive and asking others opinions, usually you lowkey know deep down what you wanna do and all it takes is someone else's thought process to know if you would fully go for it.

if you wanna cut down tech usage, instead of going cold turkey and making it harder for yourself, use night shift/night light (or whatever is your device/phone's equivalent) so you can reduce blue light at night. I know that androids have this black and white thing that gets enabled at a time for you. ALSO!! i cannot stress this, disable notifications. You'd be surprised about how much less you'd go on apps and stuff when notifs be off. But this is all the stuff that's worked for me personally, you can try these out to see if they work.

eye strain is a very real thing. technology/screens/whatever are usually what causes this and even looking away from a screen and doing something else can make it worse if it gets that bad. when you start to get that annoying thing at the back of your eyes or you feel a light ache around your eyes, know your slowly starting to experience eye strain and you need to relax them. having dry eyes i think make it worse because of the scratching/irritation it can cause and because if your eyes are dry enough, your ability to BLINK would start to get affected. and that's just a long day

about your other hobbies, i get it feeling daunting if you havent dabbled in a while, i feel it whenever i get back to drawing after a long while. all i can say to that is slowly ease yourself back into doing it. start small, because if you go in acting as if there has been no time between the last time you've participated in your hobbies, you could start being overly harsh on yourself if it isn't going as smooth as you wanted. but trying it out, is better than not at all. and it'd help reduce screen time

[eternalwritess]

Hello! I would like fo request a hazbin hotel and/or helluva boss matchup (if you only do one at a time then go ahead and stick to hazbin hotel). Can be romantic or platonic.

I'm 26, autistic, transmasc, demisexual, and demiromantic(no preference on gender). I'm introverted, and I know how to act extroverted for my job, but I try my best to be in and out as fast as possible whenever I'm out of my home. Truthfully speaking I have a fear of people due to bullying. I'm aware of how oblivious of social conventions I am, and how quickly opinions set in when the wrong thing is said. I'm also very unaware of what I feel 90 percent of the time, but I've been working on it and I'm so much better about it now than I was just a few years ago.

I love fantasy, sci-fi, and horror mainly, especially if it's heartwrenching. I love creativity and art in general, with writing, stop-motion animation, and puppetry holding a special place in my heart. I'm also a huge mythology nerd and will info dump if given the chance. I also really love researching if what occurs in movies is accurate to real life, though this has led to a lot of people thinking I'm a psycho since because of thr Hannibal Lector movies I now know a lot about serial killers and cannibalism.

Something that always surprised people is how my dad was a cage fighter and trained me in kickboxing and muay tai, as a result, I really love martial arts and jokingly spar with my close friends and family(I take extra care to NOT put any force in my hits, not after accidentally kicking my mom across the room while training as a kid)(there were no injuries, we all laugh about it now, though I remember at the time I was crying a lot).

Thank you and have a great day!

𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕞𝕒𝕥𝕔𝕙𝕖𝕕 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙…

𝓐𝓵𝓪𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓻! /p

He probably met you at some sort of showing for a movie. It was most likely a quick interaction but you did manage to catch his eye

From that moment on you kept on having small but quick interactions with each other and you both found yourselves enjoying it

He then invited you over to see the train wreck known as hazbin hotel... at least thats how he put it

He introduced you to Nifty and that was... a lot to say the least

"Nifty my dear, remember your manners,"

As for your fear of bullies might be relieved quite a bit as this is one of the strongest overlords in Hell. He will smack someone around if needed. Especially if they hurt or bully you

This also transitions into you meeting Vox! You probably scared him somehow and he threatened you. this caused Alastor to appear behind you and in return scare the shit out of him! good job :)

Alastor really doesn't care if you're indecisive or don't know your stance on things. If anything he loves that aspect of you. It makes you mysterious.

"And now what are you thinking now my dear?"

He'll even try and help you with that quality though his methods may be... less than ideal

Although if he goes too far he will end up apologizing and making it up to you later somehow someway

Since you know a lot about serial killers and this man has a MASSIVE ego he will ask you if you know anything about him and what 'the papers' said

"Have you ever heard of me my dear?"

If you say 'no' he won't mind and will instead go on a rant about the killings that he did when he was alive

You and Alastor watch horror movies all of the time together to see who will get scared first. You mostly lose but sometimes you catch him flinching at a particularly loud jump scare and you win

And for fantasy you probably watch it with Nifty since Alastor and Nifty are such great friends :)

Once you told Alastor that you can fight he asked you to show him so you went to the doomsday district and probably beat up a shit ton of people

Needless to say he was impressed with you and decided to get you something as a treat on the way back

You have an extremely powerful friendship!

Overall your dynamic is very wholesome and maybe slightly terrifying to others... but its still very sweet and amazing <3

[linawritestwst]

HI, hello >:)))

I saw you were doing matchups and I wanted to ask for one!

Personality:

I am often described as silent and I have a quiet voice (but I still can speak loudly if I try), If I get a dollar for the amount of times people ask me to repeat what I said louder I'd be a millionaire. But I can get talkative at times–when I'm having a good time or if the topic is something I'm immensely interested in.

I am lazy; I only do things when I really need to but if it's not important? I chill in bed. I also procrastinate a lot with everything. And yet at the end of the day, I still get things done decently. But sometimes, when I feel inspired or motivated, I do the things usually I'm lazy to do.

Crowds can stress me out. My temper rises and I get frustrated easily when there's too many people around. Usually when there's visitors, I lock myself in my room until they're gone (which is pretty rude actually 😭).

I am quite shy too but, there's a part of me that wants to be confident and be on stage for some reason, even though I have no talent that has anything to do with a stage. And a part of me wants to stay in place. If there's something I really need to do however, like speak a poem or play a character for a roleplay in front of people–I do give it my all and push my shyness away in the mean time. Maybe it's because I don't want to disappoint my group mates or because I try to avoid embarrassment at all cost.

Also, I like expressing myself. Whenever we have an activity (mostly writing) that involves self-expression or speak my opinion, I get really excited. Because for everyone else, I seem to be an enigmatic person because of how closed-off or quiet I am so I want them to know me atleast a bit better enough to see me as someone who can be their friend.

I don't like going outside. Too exhausting for me and I don't really have any particular reason to.

My friends say I'm optimistic but I prefer to be called as a realist.

I consider every possibility and forgets probabilities so I can get very indecisive and usually postpones making a choice for as long as possible. I also avoid confrontation a lot.

Preferences:

I don't have a favorite color.

And I like a variety of foods like salads, fruits, and tofu. I like sweet things too (especially chocolate) but I don't like cakes. I don't hate or like meat. I hate sea food but salmon can pass. I like to drink coffee, smoothies, and milk tea.

I like wearing wide pants and long dresses that cover up my knees. And even if I said I have no favorite color, I actually like wearing white and black outfits.

Appearance:

I don't think I'll say much cause I don't like talking about how I look.

I have dark circles under my eyes. For some reason, no matter how much I drink water or sleep it never leaves my face 🕴️.

I'm short, maybe around 5'0 but not above 5'4.

I have long hair, straight but curly on top (my hair is one of the things I hate on myself lol.

I think that's about it about me. Perhaps this is pretty long, and I'm sorry 💀.

I wish you good luck and enjoy doing the match up requests! Merry Christmas in advance :D

i saw the words "merry christmas" and. wow. i really should finish working on these matchup requests IT'S ALMOST MARCH

hi, i hope you enjoy your matchup!

the character that i think would be a good partner for you is..

silver!

i'll explain why i chose him:

silver doesn't mind you being quiet at all. in fact, he enjoys listening to you talk very much, it relaxes him and it feels like a nice break from more.. uh, louder students sebek. your voice can easily make him feel sleepy too.. in a good way, of course! he finds your voice very calming! however, he will try his best to stay awake so that he can listen to you. he makes sure you feel comfortable around him and he wants you to know that you can talk about anything you want. he really likes those moments when you become more talkative and open, it's like he sees a different side of you and he is very happy to see it.

he loves chilling in bed with you! you two would most likely cuddle a lot too. he thinks it's impressive how you still manage to get everything done no matter how much you procrastinate. he would try his best to motivate you when you don't really feel like doing something, but also.. he has to admit that taking a break with you sounds really good right now. also he wouldn't really force you to go outside if you don't want to and he knows how exhausting that can be, but he still would love it if you spent at least a little bit more time outside. it's good for you, you know!

he thinks your shyness is actually kinda cute, but if you want to work on it and become more confident, he'd be glad to help. whenever you have to do some kind of task, he's there to support you and he tries to help you calm down and not worry too much about it. he's a very chill person, so his personality helps you feel more relaxed whenever you're around him. he also loves to see you expressing yourself and even though you can't see it on his face, he actually gets really excited whenever he gets to know something new about you.

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

hi! if it's alright, could i request a matchup for obey me or honkai star rail?

pronouns: they/them (i use both neutral and masculine terms)

sexuality: bisexual, on the aromantic spectrum.

intp-t, 9w1 / capricorn sun & moon

appearance: nineteen years old, 4'11, thin build. very pale skin, but i get freckles when i'm in the sun. i have blue-grey eyes, and have deep circles under them. i have blond hair that's chin length, and it waves a little at the ends– it's also known to be really soft. my clothing style is very casually goth, though sometimes it leans towards the punk aesthetic as well. i have a really bad rbf, so i have to actively change it to make people more comfortable around me.

likes: history, mythology, video games, anime (especially slice of life or psychological horror), thunderstorms, stuffed animals, and having a routine.

dislikes: noisy environments, making eye contact, people who don't clean up after themselves, and butterflies.

personality: people tend to know me as either a cheerful, energetic and outgoing person or as someone who's quiet, anxious and indecisive– usually, the former is with people who don't know me well, and the latter is reserved for closer friends. i'm very good at blending in with people and pretending to be more social than i actually am, but it drains a lot of my energy. i'm hardworking– but only with subjects i'm interested in, and tend to ignore things that i find boring. i enjoy routine and keep to a fairly strict one each day– i get really uncomfortable when it gets disturbed. i get anxious very easily, especially when interacting with others, and constantly worry about how i'm seen. although i'm usually not too talkative, i can talk for a very long time about the things that i enjoy, and have tons of trivia/fun facts stored away to pull out whenever they're needed.

hobbies: mainly video games– fire emblem, persona, hsr/genshin, and pokémon are some of my favorites. i also enjoy writing horror stories, but get nervous sharing them. i like to go biking or jogging, and usually do one or the other once a day. i'm a musician, too– i play the trumpet and compose my own pieces for fun.

hopefully this is okay? if not, feel free to ignore it! either way, thank you for reading this, and i hope you're doing well <3

Hi Anon! Thank you for your request! Sorry it took a while; I'm just getting over being sick. I hope you like your matchups!

In Obey Me, I match you with...

Thirteen loves watching psychological horror anime with you! That is totally up her alley. She also really likes slice of life but she's got a reputation to uphold.

Makes sure to help you avoid loud situations. She's planning all of her pranks now so that they include a muting spell. It has the added bonus of making sure the victim can't lecture her afterwards, so really, it's a win-win.

Thirteen is also a very outgoing person but understands that you need time to recharge.

I see Thirteen as someone whose love language is physical touch and quality time so she'd love to spend time with you while you're recharging just relaxing in comfortable silence.

Enjoys playing video games with you. Thirteen is a fan of survival horror games like "Dead by Daylight". I also see her as a fan of psychological horror visual novel games like "Doki Doki Literature Club".

Thirteen can be a bit messy sometimes, leaving things around her room. But she's not a slob and she cleans up regularly. If she knows it annoys you, she'll try to put things back in their places when she's finished with them.

In Honkai Star Rail, I match you with...

Another one who would love to play video games with you. Stelle's a fan of anything that counts as a video game. She's not picky about what you play, as long as you can play it together in some way.

Stelle knows some people (March) can be pretty loud sometimes so she'll always make sure she knows where a quiet place is nearby so she can take you there to recharge.

If she's busy with a job or can't leave where she is, she'll usually ask Dan Heng to accompany you. He's the quietest person she knows and she trusts him to look after you while you get your energy back.

Of course, she'd rather go with you herself. She's not a huge fan of loud noises either so she'd like some peace and quiet herself.

Would watch horror movies with you. Be warned, she has a tendency to laugh at bad acting or bad special effects.

Stelle would also love to read your horror stories if you're comfortable letting her. She's got nothing but praise for your writing. She thinks you're very clever for writing such interesting things.

[colgatebluemintygel]

I have seen many videos from MCR gig on tiktok and it makes me happy to know that you were there!!!! I hope you had the best night!!!!

Also: drop some book recs, I read everything

oh my god anon it was AMAZINGGG <3333 it all felt soo deeply surreal and i'm still not totally convinced that it actually happened. such a full circle moment too; from my bandom years to now <3 it's funny how little has changed, actually. and just !!!!!!!!! AGH. i've seen so many other bands over the years i can say with the fullest confidence that nothing has even come close to mcr (fob was maybeee the closest, but that was also just extra special because i was 17 and in paris with my best friend <3). also side note !! i genuinely was not aware that nz held so many emos. we all b hiding. twas truly heartwarming stuff <3

AH omg okay. well! because i am to my core both a goth and an annoying ex english major: frankenstein and dracula. they both make me crazy. i will say: i prefer the start of dracula to the end (and i have also written several scathing essays about the way stoker handles female sexuality and otherness) but! i still love it <3 i read it for the first time when i was 21, and it fully fully took me back to that spooky childhood conception of vampires, and i fucking loved it. with frankenstein, i was honestly a little bit underwhelmed the first time i read it, but i revisited it a few years ago and saw the light !! in fact, i'm planning a frankenstein inspired fic so........ if that tells you anything :-))) (also shout out 2 carmilla!!!!! they are in love :-) )

fantasy is possibly my favourite genre! possibly...(chronically indecisive</3)! and two books that i always always come back to are the name of the wind by patrick rothfuss and the priory of the orange tree by samantha shannon! both are popular for good reason! i really enjoy the prose in both of them. and, like howl, i have pulled out the name of the wind on nights out and recited the first chapter to anyone who would listen (nobody<3 but i was entertained). also the lies of locke lamora <3 fantasy venice! heists!

THE LEFT HAND OF DARKNESS makes me go actually crazy and i'm going to stop myself here because i will type out an essay and i honestly don't have time for that rn <3 but take my word for it! in general i love le guin. the earthsea books are also WONDERFUL and they have strong jungian leanings and it is!! excellent.

something ever so slightly left of field: faces in the water by janet frame. i read it when i was 16 and it changed my whole perception of what writing could be (so did invisible monsters by chuck palahniuk. (tho my motivations in reading palahniuk were, admittedly, emo motivated. if u know, u know)). i have slightly mixed feelings about some of frame's other books, but she is unquestionably! a genius! such an incredible writer, and whenever i read one of her books i am always in awe. it's a similar feeling to reading woolf in that regard. which..... yes! speaking of woolf! mrs dalloway is my current favourite <3 i'm not much of an annotator, other than underlining sentences i like and dog-earing the bottoms of pages if i REALLY like them, but my copy of mrs dalloway is full of those AND smudgy little pencil scribbles. all v incoherent. but v telling of how heavily i was vibing with it

also left of field and not Technically a book (but what i Would consider digital literature): kentucky route zero! i recently played/read it, and it blew my mind beyond comprehension. and yessss while it is technically a video game, it's a literary game in every sense of the term <3 so i will include it here

okayyyy that's all for now xxxx i racked my brain to think of a romance novel that i love, because i LOVE romance, but honestly nothing is coming 2 mind... may return with a rec.

[citrusillyboe]

😞😞😞 I'm crying that sibling Hcs w the first years were too cute.. ☹️☹️☹️‼️ Can I please request a sibling hc w Vil and the tweels 😋‼️ITS OK IF YOU CNT, STAY HYDRATED ND TAKE CARE <33 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼

☆Flowers From The Same Garden (2)

☆★headcanons★☆

📒 - summary; sibling headcanons lmao

📒 - character[s] | dorm[s]; vil schoenheit, the tweels (jade leech + floyd leech)

📒 - genre; [platonic + gn!reader] crack and fluff + a little tinge of angst in vil's + cursings + twst EN and JP phrases + implied epel x reader in vil's part (although it was pretty brief)

📒 - notes;

hello anon! i'm glad you enjoyed the hcs ( •̀ ω •́ )✧ i had so much fun writing it and i think i will have fun writing this too since i have SO many ideas for the leech twins, so stay tuned for that✍️(◔◡◔)

also, a little reminder that i dont really know vil THAT well, ive yet to read his vignettes and im only on twst en, so theres maybe some part that seemed ooc or if his part kinda suck ass（ﾉ´д｀）

but anyway, take care of yourself too anon and enjoy reading~!

⁀➷ vil schoenheit

[younger sibling]

(i was a little bit indecisive when i'm trying to figure out if ______ should be the younger or the older sibling, but after a few brainstorming, i settled with younger sibling! :D)

vil absolutely adores you and he meant it!

you two spent so much of your childhood together that it made you two quite inseparable

strong sibling bond pt3

you and vil are quite the opposite with each other

which balances the aspects of you both (again, am i making sense here? idk)

vil teaches you everything he knew about potionology at that time, loving the look of focus you have every time you hear him explain

it's very endearing and he find himself smiling along with you

even if you fail to follow the instructions, he'd lightly reassure you and point out what you did wrong

"Ah! It didn't work..."

"Don't worry, it's a small mistake. You're suppose to put in vermilion essence first before the wyvern tongue,"

"Oh, right right,"

he was the one who teach you about any kind of mannerism since during the times where you're still a kid, your father was rather busy with whatever work he have

so vil was always the one looking after you

he simply teaches you things like table manners, how to talk politely and so on so forth

not only is he doing this because he's the only available caretaker for you but also because he wanted you to be the best version of yourself

and of course, he wanted to give you a great childhood

but he wouldn't go as far as to make you work your ass off every time he's teaching you

he knew you can be stubborn at times so if you say that you wanted to end the session, then it will end

"Vil, I don't want to study today. But how about we go out and visit the market instead?"

"Hm, it's still rather early though,"

"Please? I'm sure I can find ingredients to make our foods!"

"Haha, alright alright. Get yourself ready, okay? Or else I might leave you!"

"Aw, you won't do that, you cherish me too much to do that~!"

early trips to the market is something you two do when it's a free weekend

a little bit of breath of fresh air it seems

but other than buying groceries and what not, the 'trip to the market' is quite frankly a little excuse for you to spend time with vil in a more casual manner

you knew that he sometimes stress himself at certain occasions

so you wanted to at least help him relief some of it

and you know what?

vil really appreciate it

he gets a little excited whenever you say that you wanted to go to 'a trip to the market' with him

it's usually one of the eventual days, consisting of grocery shopping, making flower bouquets and looking through different perfumes, a little rest at a cafe that you two frequently come to,

each one of you ordering almost the same drinks and dessert every single time, and at times, you just let vil pick clothes for you at a boutique

you have vil to thank for arranging the clothes that fit you the most

cause if it weren't for him, you'd wear literally awfully combined clothes with either reasons being to piss people off,

or you genuinely think that's a good clothing combination

and of course, vil couldn't let such things like that happen to his beloved sibling, he's that kind afterall <3

(i can confirm this since i once have awful taste in clothing and if vil ever sees me in any of those clothes combos, he'd roundhouse punch me on the face before demanding me to change into something more tangible and not eye soring)

moving on,,,

i'd say that you weirdly hit off a little too well with rook

maybe it's because you're vil's sibling, or maybe for whatever reasons that he have

you'd rather not know

literally, your first time meeting with rook quite went like this;

Rook; "Ah! If it isn't the one and only, Aide de Poison! I've been dying to greet your presence, ravi de vous rencontrer~!"

______, looking at him with confusion; "...Hah??"

Vil, with a hand on your shoulder; "Don't mind him, ______. He's an oddball, but he means well,"

since you and epel are from the same year, you two also get along very, very well

a little too well even

i mean, vil knew it's pretty obvious on epel side, but you can be pretty oblivious so it's going to be rather entertaining for him to watch~

he'd leave subtle hints on what you like or what you're more likely to do at that time to epel, and pray every single time for you to not miss the hint

oh well, what can he do?

young people can figure it out themselves

i also would like to say that you two take no shits from people!!

absolutely power sibling/power duo/whatever you call it

when you two notice people shit talking about you, two pairs of judgmental eyes are enough to shut them up

especially when paired with chuckles and sinister smiles yum yum yum

go off schoenheits!!

and last but not least,,

______; "Vil, what did we say about comparison?"

Vil; "...Did we talk about that before? I didn't remember,"

______; "Well, if that so, let me refresh your memory. Comparison is not good because it's, obviously, bad! You're quite frankly creating a bad mindset for yourself that you need to be better than everyone else to be able to be satisfied with yourself,"

Vil, sighing; "Is that so...?"

______; "Yeah, and I don't, really like seeing you sad..."

Vil; "Hm, well if you're saying it like that, now I feel bad,"

______; "I mean, you can try to make it up by doing skincare routines with me, killing two birds with one stone technically. So, how's that sound?"

Vil, smiling; "I'd like that,"

you both cherish each other very very much in conclusions <3

⁀➷ jade leech + floyd leech

[triplets]

deadly trio, i repeat, deadly mf trio

if you, per se, value your life, you don't want to mess with EITHER of them leech triplets when they're all in the same place or room

cause if you do, well, let's just say that you're gonna be 6ft underground in a minute

sorry, i don't make the rules

you are a good mix of floyd's chaotic actions + mood swings and jade's calmness + hints of subtle threats

or to put it simply, you are a menace

you gotta be the only person that no one can even know what you're thinking

it's just that you're overly complicated that not even one person can tell what you're about to do next or what you might cause

if anything, jade and floyd are the only ones that can read you

and what's worse is that they will never tell anyone what you're gonna do and might even encourage you to do so in the most vague way

but there's nothing to worry about, really~!

because you don't cause a lot of troubles like floyd

and even if you felt like causing one today, jade would (sometimes) instantly stop you and you'd have no choice than to back down

"Fufu, do you really want to wreak havoc today, ______?"

"You can tell very clearly, Jade~!"

you have your targets that you wanted to play around with and you have your plans on what you want to tease them about

like for example, that odd ramshackle student, they're so fun to play with and you love the reactions they gave you

but of course, you won't go too far since you're still 'kind' enough to let them go even if you're not completely bored yet

whenever he's not with jade, floyd would absolutely drag you around to do the great seven knows what

you don't really care anyway and just join him whenever your mood aren't sour

floyd is always 10 times more chaotic with you alongside him, and you two would just do whatever the fuck you want and if jade's not there, then no one can stop you two

(azul have a slight chance to stop you but if anything, he's scared of you so he keep his distance)

hanging on every tree branches and see who can jump the farthest from where you are hanging from, running around the whole field after school for at least 4 rounds,

THERE ONE INCIDENT WHERE YOU THROW FRESHLY WET SOCKS AT PEOPLE WITH FLOYD DURING A SCHOOL WEEKEND

both you and floyd were just having the time of your life, laughing and having fun while others are just in despair, trying to run away from you two

"Ahahaha~! Macky, catch!!"

"HUH—?!"

it ends with you two having to clean windows for a week but you and floyd were just giggling the whole time as you do so

clearly, both of you didn't learn anything nor do you regret anything during that incident

good for you two ig?

i'd like to think that both of you and floyd's moodiness affect each of you

if floyd sees that you're not in a good mood, he will also not be in a good mood and vice versa

like an infection yknow

"ughhh, i want to sleep and never wake up, class was sooooo boring,"

"but who will play around with meeeeee if you're goneee???"

"just ask Azul, he will be glad to do so,"

"I will not," -azul

riddle is absolutely in despair whenever he bumps with not only floyd, but YOU too

sure, you're a lot more calmer than floyd, he had been in classes with you before and saw how tranquil you can be

but he knew that you're an absolute menace whenever being with floyd

"aha~ goldfishie, what are you doing right now~?"

"goldfishie, hm? what a suitable name, don't you think riddle~?"

he's going to lose his mind at one point, oh well

during days where you are calmer, you would just follow jade and talk about whatever you think is interesting

tailing him around to wherever he's going like a lost puppy

oh wait, that's not the right word um...oh, right

you latch onto him like a parasite

whether you're talking about someone, talking about boring classroom stuff, talking about plants?, talking about places in school??, talking about an event back in the coral sea when you two were kids all of a sudden???

if you haven't realize it now, ______ talks about literally anything in their mind

moray eels nature ig?

anyway,, whether you're talking about any shit, jade would just listen to you with great interest

no matter how boring the subject is, you always have ways to make it sound interesting

one of your perks it seems (and because you're his triplet so is it really that surprising?)

you call everything you think is a mushroom a mushroom

and jade would correct you with a smile every single time

"what about that mushroom over there?"

"ah, that's called Ascomycota and it's a fungi, not a mushroom,"

"well it is a mushroom now cause i said so,"

"oh, ______, you really should learn new things once in a while. mushrooms are indeed fungi, but not all fungi are mushrooms,"

"that literally make no sense, if mushrooms can be this fungi thing, why aren't fungi allowed to be mushrooms??"

"that's the most interesting aspect of it in my opinion~"

if you don't care about constant mushroom dishes;

you'd consume every mushroom jade gives you with no care

it's only mushrooms, it's not like your brother is going to feed you poison mushrooms...

...yet (jkjk)

every time azul and floyd get tired of eating mushroom dishes by jade, they'll dump it all on your mouth as if you're a trashcan

🍄mushroom trashcan🍄

but if you DO care about constant mushroom dishes;

expect a chase scene at one point

floyd checking his back to see if jade's getting any closer,

jade chasing you three, mushrooms on plates and a smile on his face

you're running while grabbing on floyd wrists in case he gets tired of running

and azul being carried over your shoulder

the mushrooms are getting too much and none of you are having it lmao

also

Azul; "Jade, ______, Floyd, please take care of those gentlemen for me,"

Jade, ______and Floyd, with that smile; "As you wish," "With pleasure~" "Aha, sure~"

(okay, i am now in love with ______ leech)

[redasmyblood]

I Can't

So I reposted @screnwriter 's "a hundred kissing prompts" and decided that I wanted to pick the first few I'd write about. I chose prompt 43 "you kissed me last night." " and you didn't stop me." If you want to pick one for me you can submit your choice here along with which boy you want! I do write for Danny I just don't have any posted yet :)

Pairing | Jake Kiszka x Reader

Warnings | Angst, cursing (there is a happy ending)

~

"Can you guys just pick a damn movie" I call from the kitchen hoping my voice can be heard over the argument taking place in the living room. "I swear to god, they're so fucking indecisive" I laugh. On this particular Thursday night Sam and I had planned to kickback and enjoy a shitty horror movie marathon but of course his two older brothers had to come and crash it. Josh is a lovely guy, I quite like him to be honest! He's sweet and funny and loud but Jake, on the other hand, I have confusing feelings about. He's quiet and attentive, which can be great but it can also be unsettling, that along with the way he looks at me is a recipe for disaster.

The first time I met Jake we were left in a room together alone for a few minutes and he didn't speak a single word to me, he just watched me like a predator and it's prey, the tension in the air was so thick and electric I could barely breathe. I've avoided being alone with him ever since but that hasn't stopped me stealing glances whenever he's around because if it isn't totally obvious, I am totally infatuated with him but Sam and I have been friends since our first day of university and I would never stoop so low as to go out with his brother. I don't like Sam romantically or anything but I still feel like it would be a betrayal in every way.

"Do you need any help?" Sam's voice rips me from my thoughts and I silently thank him for prying me out of the rabbit hole that is his brother.

I survey my surroundings and realize I'm one glass of beer short, was I subconsciously avoiding an interaction with Jake or was it an accident? I shake my head and put on a small smile as I turn back to Sam "If you could just take these into the living room, I forgot to pour myself one"

The brunette nods and grabs a glass in each hand "Would you mind bringing that one with you when you come? I can't hold all three."

"Yeah for sure, I'll see you in there" I finish filling my glass and grab the one Sam couldn't carry, bringing them into the living room. When I step into the room my breath catches in my throat. Sam and Josh are sharing one of our two, small couches and Jake is sitting alone on the other without a beer in his hand. I mentally curse myself as I walk over and sit down next to Jake, as far away from him as I can and then hand him his beer without making eye contact... or at least without making eye contact until his fingers brush against mine when he grabs the glass. My eyes shoot up to meet his and a smug expression graces his features. Flustered, I flick my gaze to Sam and Josh, locking eyes with the latter "What movie did you guys pick?

"Halloween" He says in a cheery voice "It's one of my favorites"

I smile at his sunny disposition "Good choice Joshy, It's one of my favorites too!" His cheeks flush at the silly endearment and when I look over at Jake his expression is lukewarm.

The movie starts and I can barely focus knowing that Jake is behind me. The couch we're on is angled sideways to the TV so I have to lay my head on the arm of the couch as not to block Jake's view. "That doesn't look very comfortable" My body freezes and I'm hyper aware of Jake's breath on my neck, how did I not feel the couch move when he leaned over? I push the thought aside and focus even harder on the movie, ignoring him. "Lay back on me, then we can both see perfectly"

I let out a long breath realizing that he's right, we would both be able to lay comfortably and it's the smartest way for us to see the TV properly. I nod my head curtly and let him ease me back onto his chest by my shoulders. Every brush of his fingertips against me sends an electric shock through my body. I wonder if he can feel my heart going a mile a minute when I lay back against him. His legs are around mine and he rests his chin lightly on my head once we're both comfortable, which seems a little too intimate for the moment but how can I possibly care, this is all of my dreams and worst nightmares coming true at once. I imagine how this looks to Sam and Josh and I cringe, checking over my shoulder to see if the scowl I imagined on my best friends face is that of my imagination or reality. I'm relieved to see that Sam is solely focused on the screen, as is Josh.

"Relax y/n, you're so tense, I don't bite" Jake's voice is smooth as silk in my ear and I can feel his words rumbling in his chest. I take a deep breath and let it go, relaxing my body and practically melting into him. "That's better"

~

The movie is slowly coming to an end and I can't be more grateful, Jake's hand has somehow made it's way to rest at my thigh, the warmth of his hand is pleasant but It stole my focus from the moment he put it there in the middle of the movie to now.

"Do you think we could stay the night? It's way to dark to walk back to our place" Josh's voice cuts through the end credit music.

"Yeah, of course, take the guest bedroom, you staying too Jake?" Sam asks

"Yeah, why not" The vibration of his words against my back motivates me to sit up, escaping him and his heavenly cologne.

"You cool with them staying y/n" Sam looks at me with a smile "I mean, it's not like they haven't stayed before"

"I don't mind" I reply, stretching my arms above my head. "I'm gonna go do the dishes, could someone help me bring the glasses into the kitchen?"

"I've got it" Jake's voice sounds from behind me and I scream internally, I really don't want to be alone with him "You guys can go relax, we'll get all this cleaned up" He motions to the litter strewn table.

"Thanks guys, I'll see you in the morning" Sam and Josh both head upstairs, probably to listen to music or something. Damn Sam and his normal sleep schedule.

"I've got the glasses, you can go start filling the sink if you want"

Keeping with my trend of silence I nod wordlessly at him and head into the kitchen, doing as he suggested and filling the sink. I'm so focused on the watching the water that I'm barely aware of Jake placing the glasses beside the me and then leaning against the counter. I stop the water and look up at him, admiring his side profile in the gritty lighting of our kitchen. His eyes flutter open and gazes at the ceiling, my staring going seemingly unnoticed.

"Why are you so quiet tonight, peach?"

I cringe at the pet name and give in, grabbing the counter to brace myself "Remind me again why you feel the need to call me that?"

"Because I like this-" He reaches out and draws his fingers along the apples of my cheeks, referring to the heated tint they take on when he uses the nickname. I pull myself away from his touch, not trusting myself. My breathing is embarrassingly erratic.

"Don't-"

"What? You asked a question." He turns to face me completely, leaning his side against the counter smugly "Have I made you uncomfortable?"

"No- It's just-" I sigh and push myself off of the counter, turning my body towards him "What's your deal?"

"My deal?"

I sigh in frustration and give up, turning back to the dishes "Never mind" I move the cups into the soapy water and sigh again "I don't need your help anymore, you can go"

"Y/n"

The kitchen falls silent for a moment and I swear Jake can hear my heartbeat. When I glance in his direction he's still looking at me. I draw my hands out of the water and dry them on the towel hanging from a rack on the wall. I mirror his stance, leaned up against the counter "Jake" I copy. His eyes alight with something foreign to me, it's dark and light at the same time, like his eyes are the night sky, ablaze with stars. I barely have time to process his movements as he steps towards me. I mirror him, stepping back with every forward step he takes until I'm pressed against the fridge. "Jake" I breath, his name passing my lips for the second time tonight.

The only thing that can be heard in the kitchen is the sound of our ragged, offbeat breaths. He puts an arm beside my head, effectively pinning me against the fridge. "Say it again" He hums

"What?" I whisper, our eyes locked so intensely it feels like we're trapped, swimming in each others souls.

"My name, say it again"

I swallow down my courage and press a hand against his chest when he leans in further "Jake" I murmur, unflinchingly.

"You're going to be the death of me, peach" His voice is low and growly, as if he had just woken up. I hear him mutter something like fuck it under his breath and before I can protest his lips meet mine, closing the gap both physically and metaphorically. All pretenses are lost in the wind as he cups my face in his palm, stroking the skin of my cheek with his thumb. Electricity more powerful than anything I've ever felt travels through every single nerve in my body. I grip his shirt and reach for his hair, feeling it's softness between my fingers. He hums against my lips and slides a hand down to grasp my hip. Everywhere he touches, goosebumps rise in his wake. I pull him closer by his hair, almost hoping we can join together as one in this intimate affair. His hand brushing my hair behind my ear knocks me back into reality and I desperately reach to pull myself out of the embrace, we can't do this, is all I can think now. I can't do this, Sam is my best friend... he would never forgive me... I my let arm arm fall to my side, pulling away. His eyes are clouded with that same, foreign emotion as before but this time confusion has leaked into his expression. I put my other palm on his chest and tilt my head to the side, pushing away.

"I can't-" Is the only thing I can bring myself to say before I slip away, scrambling up the stairs to my room and leaving him alone in the kitchen with a bewildered look on his face.

~

The next morning my only tasks are 1. avoiding Jake and 2. pretending that last night didn't happen. Of course, as I pad down the stairs I hear Sam yell "Josh and I will be back in an hour!" and Jake responding with an affirming grunt . I try to turn around and slip away again but Jake appears at the bottom of the stairs.

"Sam made pancakes, there's a plate for you on the island" His voice is cold as ice.

I nod and continue down the stairs when Jake disappears into the kitchen. I find my plate and instead of taking it into the living room to eat I pour on some syrup and dig in right away. "Did you get some?" I ask, flicking my gaze up to his when he stands on the other side of the island, trying to keep the awkward silences to a minimum.

"I did" He hums, crossing his arms.

"You kissed me last night" I say accusingly and I let go of my fork, the clatter of it against my plate echoing through the kitchen. Somehow my mouth worked faster than my brain and I spoke my thoughts before properly thinking them.

"And you didn't stop me," He replies coolly

"It shouldn't have happened, Jake" I lock eyes with him, giving him a no bullshit look.

"But it did y/n. We clearly have feelings for each other" He leans against the his side of the island, supported by his arms.

"No-"

"Don't lie, I know you wanted me to"

"Jake-"

"Don't you fucking do that..." He looks so hurt.

"What happened last night was a mistake and we both know it" My voice is shaky, I sound as if I've never spoken before.

"Don't say that-"

"Jake, we can't do this" I feel tears welling in my eyes but I hold back, biting my lip to stifle them.

"What's stopping us?"

"Sam, Jake. You know just as well as I do-"

"It's none of his fucking business!"

I barely notice I've moved until I'm standing in front of Jake, the island no longer separating us "He's my best friend" A tear rolls down my cheek and I wipe it away with the back of my hand "I can't-"

"You can! We can! Just... please, peach" He takes a step towards me and as though replaying the events of last night I back up with each of his steps towards me.

"Jake" I whisper

"Don't" He replies, cupping my face in his hands "I want this and I know you do too"

The tears I tried so intensely to hide have to begun to stream down my face and Jake lets go of me, taking a step back. All of the things I wish I could say coming rushing to the surface before I can stop them "I do... I do want this but-" A sob claws at my lungs and I gasp for air "Jake"

His eyes flick up to meet mine "Peach?" He sounds so uncertain, it hurts my heart.

"Just kiss me" I finally let go, letting my anxiety shed with my tears. Jake advances on me, wiping my cheeks with his thumbs before pressing his lips to mine ever so delicately. Like last night I feel that same electricity but today is different, the way he cups my face in one hand and grips my hip with the other makes my heart throb. This time when we pull away I don't want to run, I want to stay in the moment forever.

"I knew I was in the love with you the first time I laid eyes on you" He admits and we both smile.

I press my forehead against his, sighing at his heartfelt confession "I don't mean to be like this, I'm just so afraid of losing Sam, or you, or Josh" Thinking of the eldest brother makes my lips quirk up in a teary eyed smile.

"It's okay y/n, you won't lose any of us" He strokes my cheek with his thumb, pulling my head away from his so he can look in my eyes "You never have to worry about losing any of us"

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[funkymbtifiction]

So close, and yet so far...

Hey, I've been trying to come to a final conclusion on my enneagram and mbti but somehow, I'm still stuck and need help! [...] To keep this from getting off track and complicated, I'll start with enneagram and tackle mbti later. I'm mostly stuck between 9w1 and 6 core (not sure on wing, maybe w5)

- I am a pushover and tend to concede to other people/downplay my opinions, or if it's a strong moral opinion, just keep my mouth shut because I'm bad at lying and don't like it. When it comes to less important opinions, I can get skeptical and indecisive; switching at the drop of a hat based on what my in-group has to say.

Hmm. This sounds more 9, but a 6 would also change their mind. But you don't tell me why you're doing it. Are you avoiding conflict and not having people get upset with you, or are you aware of wanting to keep yourself "safe" and other people's opinions are causing you to doubt what you know?

- Whenever I take a playful jab at someone, I always end up sugarcoating it or even backtracking afterword to be sure they don't take offense with me, and then feel stupid for doing so.

9s can be overly nice. 6s deliver barbed insults with a smile.

[...] - Whenever I go out of my way to help people it's usually because I want to establish a positive connection with them, since my withdrawnness makes it hard for me to maintain relationships.

This sounds more 9. 6s like to stay connected to people.

[...] - Despite all this, I've never thought of myself as a super anxious or hardworking person. I don't tend to stress over schoolwork and am chill/lazy about a lot of other things.

6s are not chill. We're a reactive bunch who get offended, and over-think things, and spin our mental wheels.

- I am very withdrawn and daydreamy; spending a lot of time up in my head or doing things I enjoy like drawing or browsing the internet.

Sounds 9ish.

- I am not easily angered and tend to see the best in others. When friends say "UGH such and such is so rude/annoying/etc" I have a hard time coming to terms with that sometimes.

That is also more 9. 6s tend to notice people's flaws and fixate on them, then feel guilty about only complaining about their bad side and not seeing their good traits. 9s see the best in everyone.

- I do enjoy wallowing in and even analyzing my negative emotions, however, and don't think I relate to the 9's 'numbing.' I am very introspective; I have to feel everything and try to explain the how's and why's.

This is more 6ish, but an IFJ would also do it -- try and understand their feelings and where they're coming from and what's causing them, so it doesn't rule out 9.

[...] After writing all this I think I see stronger evidence for 9. Looking back through your posts just now, 9's fear seems to be people hating me which I feel is a bit truer than 6's need for support. But I'm still putting it out here because maybe this will also give a bit of insight into my cognitive functions as well (STILL stuck between infp and infj. yeah, I know). Besides, I don't want to have written and then painstakingly shaved down this abhorrent army of text for nothing :p 

Nothing leapt out at me, but if you're analyzing your feelings instead of just having them, it's very likely your feeling/thinking function is in the middle of your stack, as opposed to "I'm feeling this, that's the end of the conversation" approach of IFPs. Internal weighing and consideration and evaluation and sometimes even not having any emotions while you process all of this is more EFP/IFJ.

[witchthewriter]

hello, i hope you're having a good day. i was wondering if i could request a match up, hopefully that's not too much trouble.

fandoms: marvel, chronicles of narnia, stranger things

level complete: level 3

intro ig??: my pronouns are he/they, and i'm pansexual. i've always said my type is sad, strong (it doesn't have to be physically) and maybe stupid (like an emotional himbo), if that helps out any.

i'm black, but my skin is kinda light. i currently have my hair in locs and the ends are dyed blonde on one half (the rest is black), it's quite long now, a little past my shoulders. i'm also about 5'10. i have dark brown eyes.

personality summery: introvert, intellectual, cagey w new people, menace/dumb w friends, compassionate about world issues, artistic, poetic, maybe even dramatic, probably socially challenged, indecisive, escapist, vulgar, usually pretty burnt out

interests: music (i listen to those medieval remixes of modern songs a lot,,, and abba), writing, fantasy, mythology, night (i am nocturnal), singing, baking, cooking, painting, ceramics, superheros, history, video games, animated media, shiny things (even if they're worthless), cryptids, animals

what else?: i hate the sound of styrofoam, i have ptsd, i'm dyslexic (who decides they like writing while being unable to read? i don't really know), i just have a lot going on mentally in general, i speak a good amount of spanish and french, i like lots of foods people would consider to be gross, i wear glasses, i paint my nails, i'm very clumsy, i injured my left knee permanently

last but not least, i am a pisces sun, aquarius moon and taurus rising.

okay, that's all. hope you're taking care of yourself. thank you so much!

Want one? Here be the rules 🦋🌈

𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬

𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛

I ship you with Eddie Munson! The man, the myth, the legend. He would be such a lovely boyfriend, oh my god how he would dote on you. Always buying you things, and you would have to tell him to stop because he doesn't have a lot of money.

𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠

・You guys would spend a lot of time either in the trailer or his van. He would love if you read to him, not only does he enjoy the sound of your voice, but it gives him inspiration for his campaigns.

・He would die if you spoke to him in spanish. I mean literally, he would be putty in your hands

・He would love it when you wore his clothes, especially the Hellfire shirts, and sometimes you even take his leather jacket

・Would definitely teach you guitar!!!!

𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐯𝐞𝐥

𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛

You and Peter would be the cutest couple. He'd love to pick your brain and get to know you. Your personality kinda reminds me of MJ a bit, so I know that you would get along because your dynamics would most definitely fit.

𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠

・You weren't surprised to figure out he was Spiderman, and you brought it up so nonchalantly that Peter choked on the sandwich he was eating.

・He always brings you little gifts; a knick knack of his travels, a part of Tony's suit. But your favourite gifts are the stories that he brings back for you.

・You make him blush a lot with the things that you say, even if they aren't a compliment or anything to do with him. Sometimes you're just so honest that he's taken aback

・Peter likes to wrap his arms around your waist while standing behind you

𝐍𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐚

𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛

I think you and Edmund would fit together so well. He understands you in a way that other people don't. Even when you feel like the villain, he will remind you that the world isn't black and white, and even if you make a mistake, you can try again.

𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠

・He takes you down to the lake and rolls up his pants. He'll wade in the water, beckoning you to join him

・Ed gives great advice, he's gone through a lot and has become very wise

・Would definitely teach you how to defend yourself, and I have a feeling that you would be great with a bow and arrow

・You make him snort with laughter whenever you make commentary

[utilitycaster]

Do you have any thoughts about the abilities of the Twilight Cleric? I'll be playing one in an upcoming campaign, but I talked to my DM to change Twilight Sanctuary (this was my idea because my dm is new). Instead of a creature rolling at the end of every turn for temp HP, we changed it so that the first time an ally enters on a turn they get cleric's prof+level in temp hp and no more until the sanctuary is used again. All the stuff about charmed/frightened conditions and dim light stays the same. Mostly, I just don't want to remind my allies to reroll temp hp all the time and slow combat down. Do you think this is a good change, or is it unnecessary?

So I wrote a huge rant, started making a suggestion at the end, said "wait a minute," went back to reread this, and now I'm not sure what you're asking, so:

If you're saying "Instead of rolling 1d6 each turn, we're just using the flat cleric proficiency bonus, so, whenever a creature ends their turn in my twilight sanctuary, if I'm a level 3 cleric, that's a flat 2 + 3 rather than 1d6 +3" then yeah that's fine. I would personally roll the d6 once at the top of combat instead and use that number for all temp HP bonuses instead of just flat proficiency to make it a little more random and fun, but this makes sense!

edit: In talking this over with someone else they pointed out that you might be saying 'once per turn at the start of your turn' and this is a once-per-turn end-of-turn ability as written and I don't quite get why you'd change that. So...if this is what you were getting at feel free to write back in and clarify.

If you're saying "I am only allowing people to gain the temp HP benefit once per use of Twilight Sanctuary", you get the rant:

Doing this is not only unnecessary; it is anti-necessary. It takes a lack of a problem and turns it into something that needs a solution. Fortunately the solution is very simple and it's "play this extremely strong subclass as written."

What you are suggesting causes you and your party to stop benefiting from an excellent class ability (ie, if I were in this party and the twilight cleric was like "by the way, you don't get temp HP in my aura more than once because I decided not to use this" I'd be pissed off, like, is it really saving time if the chances of someone else going unconscious have shot up?) and is solving a problem that doesn't exist, because rolling a d6 and sticking the number in the temp HP section of your character sheet takes like 2 seconds.

If I may: there is one thing that slows combat down far more than anything else and it is indecision. It is being precious about the move you planned halfway through the round before the monster and your party member both made that move no longer advisable and not being able to pivot. "Not knowing what your spells do" and "arguing with the DM about a tiny detail" are also major culprits. This does not even register in my mind as something that would slow combat down.

I would play this class as written. If you truly feel, after a few combat encounters, that this is taking too much time in combat, you can run it by your party* or you can decide to do a system like the one described above, in which you use a flat bonus in place of the d6, but under absolutely no circumstances would I limit this ability to once per person per use of Channel Divinity.

*who are probably going to say something like "gee. do I want to get a 4-9 HP buffer each round, which is the only reason why my character finished the fight standing…or do I want to save 30 seconds, except because two party members went down when they otherwise would have, and then you had to heal us instead of doing damage on your turn, and the monster heals up when it doesn't take radiant damage on its turn, the fight then took an extra 20 minutes to finish? I think I will take the extra couple seconds to roll a d6, thanks."

[aithusarosekiller]

So you rated Evan in fics, but can we see a similar review for Barty?

Btw, hope you’re okay with the covid :)

YES

(And I'm not brilliant but I'm not dead so that's good haha)

Gonna do the same fics as the Ev one bc I'm fucking lazy

Again it isn't on how well developed they are, it's how much I love them blah blah blah

1) Choices. I'm sorry, he's funny and loyal to his friends and everything but like...you can see how he's difficult to like after what he did sooo...if he hadn't done that, maybe he would be a little bit higher because he's kinda fun as a character to read. He's also gonna be one of the only characters who doesn't die so that gets some extra girlboss points. His character was done really well but you can see where I'm coming from.

2) Carpe Noctem. I do love him, I do...but I know he's not been perfect and he has definitely done something in the past, probably to do with Sirius, I have ideas but that does have to take away some loml points.

3) Larded With Sweet Flowers. Yes, I am rating my own characterisation in the lower half but I still love the version I wrote, he's just a little bit too much of a dumb himbo sometimes and I am not going back and changing it because I love that for him but sometimes I write something he is saying or thinking and just want to drown him. He is very indecisive and as much as I love him...A SLOW AND PAINFUL DEATH IS NOT AN INCONVENIENCE! I do love him though. He's a stupid bitch but he's my stupid bitch.

4) The Filth. Mmm, we're getting into proper 'canon could never' area now. This vers is very <3 he's just a horny little bastard and I love that for him. He deserves the world. And all those dicks he's lusting after for 15k words, of course. I love him <333

5) Tell Me Pretty Lies. This was almost number 6 because I can't decide and 5 seems too low for the both of them so I forced myself to pick one over the other and almost screamed doing so. Anyway, I adore him so much. Protective friend and boyfriend? Perfect. The whole 'I love you but you were a bitch <3' thing was perfect. Just...I love him so much, I can't actually describe it. He also has excellent taste in potential sexual and romantic partners so like...that makes it even better. Love a man with taste.

6) Drugs And Surgical Scrubs. What do you mean you can't marry a fictional character? Okay, I've already said this was almost a tie but I had to pick this Bar because he has that 'loveable bitch you can't get rid of' energy and I live for that. I eat that the fuck up. He's like that one mother in the back of a primary school production that will just stand up and give an aggressive thumb-up whenever their child says a line or walks on stage but will then snap at other parents who d the same thing for 'getting in their way'. That is what he reminds me of and I love it.

7) When You Were Mine. I DON'T KNOW EITHER, WE BARELY SEE THE POOR GUY BUT I STILL LOVE HIM OKAY?! It's the way he's just so nice and he genuinely cares and I just AAA, I have an emotional attachment for no reason. He's just so sweet I can't function. There's something about him I just love and I don't know how to word it.

[clairecrive]

“Burn” - Bane x reader [Requested]

A/N: this is for this anon. Thanks again for requesting! I missed writing for Bane.

Warnings: angst

Word count: 2.5K

Taglist: @mollybegger-blog, @evelynshelby, @br0ck-eddie, @sopxhiea, @shadow-of-wonder, @fandom--0verdose, @fuseburner, @kind-wolf, @innerpaperexpertcloud (let me know if you wanna be added or removed)

The vastity of the night sky had always helped y/n ease her worries. Surely, whatever was bothering her couldn’t be as big and impossible to solve as she was making it out to be. Because, would you look at that? The universe is so big and we’re so small, so insignificant. and that applied to her problems too. 

At least that was what she always told herself whenever she’d feel lost and hopeless. Thinking this way helped her put things into perspective. And sure, not everything was as easily solved but, even in that case, it helped a bit.

And so here they were, she and Bane were laying down staring up at the starry sky. Sometimes, they would spend it in silence, just enjoying the warmth and comfort the other’s body would bring. Others, like this one, they would easily fall into conversations about everything and nothing.

“Was there someone special in your life? Someone you wish to get back to?”

“You mean, romantically?”

He nodded.

“No. Single for life.” She did a peace sign to lighten up her embarrassment but Bane was curious and did not pay it any mind.

“You mean to tell me that you’ve never given your heart to anyone?”

“Well, if you put it that way I have to change my answer to yes. Being in a relationship with someone and giving someone your heart are two wholly different things.”

“Let me rephrase then. Have you ever been in love?”

She really thought about the answer, her mind going back to any romantic involvement she might have had during her life. Even if she scouted her memories, she found that it wasn’t a yes or no question.

“I guess,” not only was the word she chose explicative of her indecision but the tentative tone of her voice left no doubts as to where she was standing. But Bane was confused, to say the least.

“I’ve always been under the impression that love was one of those things where absolute certainty was involved when it came to its presence or absence.”

“I don’t know what to tell you. I have had mostly one-sided crushes, you know?” she started but Bane could see the faraway look in her eyes and knew that she had more to tell but was lacking the right words. So he waited.

“I said ‘I guess’ because I don’t really know what love is. I mean, everyone has a different take on it depending on their experiences but I don’t think I’ve ever felt it,” she paused turning to meet his eyes, “once there was a guy I strongly had feelings for. Even that was one-sided though and it took me a long time to recover from that because he was my best friend at the time. Looking back to it, I guess it was love or the closest thing to it that I’ve ever felt for someone. It hasn’t happened again though so I don’t have anything to compare it to.”

“Maybe it wasn’t love, just deep infatuation. Or maybe I just confused my love for him as a friend for something more. I don’t know. I guess I’ll figure it out when I fall in love with someone else. “ She concluded and refrained from correcting that when with if. she couldn’t see herself being as lucky as to have someone that cared about her and that loved her in the future. But Bane didn’t need to know that.

Turns out that those unspoken words had become a sort of oracle, ‘cause here they were now, years after they had that conversation. Just when she thought that she had found that one person to share her life with, to give her heart to, life quickly come into play letting her know that that wasn’t the case.

Because the man that had saved her from a destiny worse than death, who had given her hope and made her trust him to the point where she had felt safe enough to open up to him and allow him close to her heart, had now shattered whatever remained of it.

"So let me get this straight, first you save my life than you decide to keep me with you so you basically kidnap me, get me to fall in love with you, put me through an insanely difficult training so that I could stay with you but it was all done in vain because now you’re  sending me away?"

"I'm not sending you away but you cannot stay here anymore. I’m doing this for you."

"And why is that? What changed?" and when Bane stayed silent she added, "what happened to 'I want you always' ?"

"I did not lie to you." His words were in striking contrast to the ones he had said before but y/n had learned to read him and could tell that this time he was not lying. But then the question naturally arises, what's really going on?

Nothing out of order had happened in the last few days. Bane and she had been the same as always, even his work had proceeded as usual. So what was it? What was she not thinking about? What was she not seeing?

Letting her mind go back through the last day to fat check that nothing happened, she went through their actions. Light breakfast together followed by a not so light tête à tête then they trained together until he had to deal with something for his work and she had occupied herself otherwise. She had called him to see when she could get dinner started and he said that he had a meeting with Talia first but had come right after. They had dinner and while they consumed their healthy and perfectly balanced meal she shared with him whatever came to her mind while he ate in silence. See, nothing out of order.

Wait a minute...

He went to meet Talia.

"It's her, isn't it?" Suddenly, everything was clear. She knew what had happened, what had changed. And she sneered at the pull Talia had on him. Suddenly, she understood but at the same time, the last year lost its meaning.

"I just wish I realized earlier that you didn't care about me as much as you said you did," turning she went to her cabinet to get her stuff, "I wouldn't have put myself through so much otherwise." 

Nodding, she knew what she had to do. She had to leave. There was no reason to stay. Resolute and defeated she put everything her eyes fell on that was hers in a little bag. Clothes, lingerie, cosmetics, books. But when her eyes landed on the little box where she kept everything connected to him, her heart broke further and her anger was fueled. 

In there, there was every present Bane ever gave her. Every little thing that made her think of him in some way. The letters he wrote her whenever spoken words failed him. She knew that going through its content would equal to a chronology of their relationship. If it was possible her heart broke even more. Everything she did to stay with him, everything he did to keep her now was all vain. She gave up so much for him, for a man. Her former self would be ashamed of her and knew that her heartbreak was contributing to making her feel something akin to that. 

"Here," she said walking where he was standing, "take this. I don't want it anymore," and she threw it at his feet. The only acknowledgement on his part was a tilt of his head but it wasn't needed. He knew what it was and what she kept inside of it. He felt a pang in his heart but kept his face void of any emotion. 

"I'll want you always," she said mocking his voice, still stuffing stuff in her bag and chuckled with mirth, "what a load of bullshit." 

"Actually," stilling for a second, with a shirt cramped in her fist she faced him, "I am the biggest clown between us because I believed you." retrying her stuffing, shaking her head she added in a whisper, "I should have known better," but Bane heard. 

As soon as he decided on this course of action, he had also prepared for her reaction. He knew her well and so far she hadn't done anything that he hadn't expected. And while he had been ready, he couldn't help but feel hurt by her words. He knew how she was looking at this situation, knew that his words had led her to believe it to be so. At the same time, a little part of him wished for her to oppose to his words, to see right through them and see that he was lying. That he had been honest when he had told her those things, he had opened up to her and meant everything. But knew that she was too lost to rage and hurt to think clearly. And it was also the reason why she was acting up and had thrown the box on the floor. He knew that she deeply cared about it and what it meant to her. He almost thought of offering some kind of comfort, to give her some hint about what was really going on. But knew that it would be unfair to her. After all, he was doing for the sake of her safety.

“You know,” her voice brought him back and his eyes were immediately drawn to her, “isn’t it funny how you man always pride yourselves to be strong and all that bullshit when even someone like you, who’s the epitome of masculinity and strength, at the end is totally subjected to a woman?” 

They would always have this kind of conversation. Bane, being a leader of a huge army, had the tendency to be bossy. Even in situations when it wasn’t needed. It was just who he was and he felt the need to remind her of his alfa status an unnecessary lot of times. While she could enjoy this inclination of his when they were in bed, she definitely couldn’t stand it in their everyday life. And now, it made her feel stupid that she had to put with it and learn how to deal with it but when it came to Talia, he just did whatever she told him to. Also, this changed her consideration of him. What a clown. She had tried to warn him about his rather toxic relationship with Talia but he’d always get angry and dismiss the conversation either by leaving or shouting at her. She could remember their last fight about it like it was yesterday. It was also the first time that she had ever doubted her relationship with him. The first time that she had thought that maybe she had made a mistake by staying with him, by falling in love with him. Maybe she should have left as soon as she had rescued her. It wasn’t for the motive of their fight, neither her jealousy and worry about his relationship with Talia, but it had all to do with what he shouted her in rage that made her blood run cold and her heart shatter. For it was said that angry and drunk people were the more honest ones. And since that moment she couldn’t help but wonder if he really thought what he said to her or if it was just an impulse propelled by anger as he had explained.

“Maybe I shouldn’t have saved you.” 

And then, as if that wasn’t enough, he decided to twist the knife further.

“I told you not to fall in love with me.”

As if one could choose who they fell for, she remembers thinking.

Those words still haunted her to this day. It happened a while ago and Bane had made it up to her, mostly. But it was in situations like this that they would come back and mock her for even forgiving him and thinking that he loved her as she loved him. To think that even a small part of him thought that it was best that he had left her to suffer in the hands of a sex abuser until he would have eventually tired of her and killed made her sick. How could anyone say something like that to another human being? One they presumedly loved? She couldn’t wrap her head around it. Bane had then explained that by that he didn’t mean leaving her with her captor but simply bring her with him and keeping her with him. Despite the fact that his explanation made sense, y/n still didn’t think it made things better.

And as for his second statement, it went mostly unmentioned. 

Sure, that had been something he had told her in the beginning. It was after her training required them to spend most of their days together since he wanted to attend to it personally. Y/n knew that being in the military and with his past, it wasn’t easy for Bane to show emotions let alone let someone close enough to him to allow himself to love them. She understood that. She had a few things she was dealing with that made it difficult for her to entertain the idea of something more between them.

But that was almost a year ago. So much had happened in their life and between them that even though the words were not spoken aloud, she felt the shift in both their behaviours when it came to them. Hell, they even started dating. 

Not that any of them labelled it that way. But that was beside the point.

They slept together, they ate together every meal, they lived together. If there was a band on both their left ring fingers and it was a more conventional setting, people would assume they were married. 

While y/n didn’t like thinking about what they had in that way, she surely considered the commitment they had made to each other equivalent to a marriage. 

She hadn’t considered Talia though. 

Or at least, she had hoped that if she ever would try and come between them, Bane would stand up for her. 

Turns out that she really was foolish.

“Whatever, I guess it’s not my problem anymore.” Giving him her back again, she closed the almost full bag and went to put on some shoes and coat. 

“I don’t have any use for it, you should take it with you.”

“Neither have I. Burn it, see if I care.” 

And with that, y/n turned around and walked out of their shared apartment at last.

It hurt to say the words, it hurt that things had ended to abruptly, it hurt that even after all this time he didn’t care about her, it hurt like hell but y/n was resolute in leaving all of this behind her. Yes, it wasn’t going to be easy and maybe it would be like leaving a hot fire trail behind her but at one point the fire would burn out, wouldn’t t? 

It may take a while but she would be okay,

[forestnumen]

Could you please answer Questions: 1, 8, 11, 12, 13, 14, 21, 22, 26, 31, 33, 34, 36, 41, 42, 44, & 48.

Thanks. 😊

1. Who is/are your comfort character(s)?

Ok don't laugh but for a very long time it was discord from my little pony...nowadays it's Klaus from the umbrella academy, Sydney from I am not okay with this (I can't believe they canceled season 2) and catra from the new She-ra. Probably a few more but those are at the top of my head.

8. How many waterbottles are in your room right now?

A normal waterbottle and one for tea.

11. Favorite extracurricular activity?

I never was one who did a lot of those. I was forced to go to ballet classes which I hated and once I dropped out I didn't get into anything new. Mostly just spend my time drawing at home. I loved the writing class we had in primary school though. I also did archery for a bit.

12. What kind of day is it?

Sunny autumn day with a few dusty clouds hanging in the distance. It's 20 degrees Celsius for some reason. Monday 10 am on a public holiday, so everything is really quiet.

13. When was the last time you ate?

About an hour ago... Dark dry bread with hummus for breakfast.

14. Do you love the smell of earth after it rains?

What kind of person doesn't like that smell? It's the best after a long summer day or on a cool autumn morning.

21. Something you've kept since childhood?

The pig plushy my mom got me when I was a baby. A really old book of Grimms fairytales, my dad got it as a kid and everything is written in old German letters. There are also 2 Russian dolls that I got from my great uncle. They are part of my favorite childhood memory of my cousin and I visiting him in his atelier. He put together a game for us and in the end we found a buried treasure.... We each got a fossil root (I lost mine and I will be angry about this for the rest of my life) and two Russian dolls. My cousin got the bigger two in blue and I got the smaller ones in red. He still has them aswell.

22. What type of person are you?

I honestly have no idea how to answer this. Most people describe me as quiet but tough. I'm definitely more on the shy and introverted side. I'm often a bit to harsh on myself as I'm quite perfectionistic and have a lot of expectations for myself which lead to me being quite indecisive and procrastinating a lot. I'm someone who's still trying to figure out where my place in this world is, who I am and what I want. I'm not one who judges people easily, I keep an open mind and rather see their perspective. At the same time I'm a terrible communicator, I struggle with intimacy a lot of the time, not great at letting people know what I think or feel. Terrible hugger, you could hug a cactus instead of me and it wouldn't make much of a difference. I know some people like my stoic way of handling things but I do feel like I should be more emotional a lot of the time. Often it seems to me like I'm a cat amongst overly excited golden retrievers, if that makes sense.

26. A scenario that you've replayed multiple times?

A conversation I had with someone in a hostel in Sydney 3 years ago.

31. What type of music keeps you grounded?

Mostly Rock music. It sometimes switches to kontra k if I'm in a really bad mood.

33. The last adventure you've been on?

The vacation trip to Marseille with one of my best friends. It got quite adventurous when we found out that the train we wanted to take on our way back was completely booked out...and we don't speak a word French. We made it home though.

34. Is there a song where you know every word by heart?

There are definitely a few where I might now everything but won't admit it. Probably hura die Welt geht unter by K.I.Z or Altes Fieber by die toten hosen except that I keep forgetting the first few lines.

36. How many times have you changed your URL?

One time I think. This is the first URL i actually use.

41. How do you take your coffee?

I rarely have (selfmade) coffee. I usually go for latte macchiato with oatmilk whenever I can.

42. An app you frequently use besides this godforsaken site?

I spend way to much time on YouTube, which is why I decided to not allow myself any social media until the end of the week.

44. You get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it?

Honestly no idea. Also depends if killing them would actually make a difference.

48. When did you first try an alcohol beverage?

Probably Carneval when I was 13 or 14? Just a sib from my dad's beer... Thought it was gross.

Thank you for all the questions :)