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Chapter 12: Counting the Hours

Jamie x female!reader

(fluff, safe for under 18)

Click here for chapter 11 if you missed it

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"I don't know how to skate, Jamie!" I say nervously.

I put my roller skates on and still sitting on the bench, too scared to stand up. Jamie begged me to come with him to the park to do this and I am now regretting myself for giving into his pouts and eye flutters this morning. However, he's right. It's a good day out and the weather is perfect. I told Adrian I'm taking the day off and he understood, given how much today is important for me and Jamie.

"It's okay. Trust me, hold my hands," he pulls me up as I groan.

"Let's hope you can support my whole body and not crash both of us to the ground," I try to stand up.

"Hey, don't underestimate my strength. I've been working out," he flexes his bicep.

"You're such a goof," I giggle at him. "Alright. Here we go," I stand up and immediately balances myself by holding onto him.

"There you go! Not so bad now, isn't it?"

I smile feeling happy, "Yeah! Not bad!"

We start slowly skating around the park. At first I held onto Jamie's hand but once I get the hang of it, he slowly lets me go. I hesitate at first but I finally balance myself and skate on my own. Happiness overtakes me and the wind on my face feels inviting for me to keep going. "Jamie, look at me! I'm doing it!"

"Yes you are!" He cheers me on skating right behind me.

Suddenly, my knee starts to wobble. In a split second, I hear Jamie yelling, "Y/n, be careful!"

Before I knew it, I fall to the grass right next to the skating lane we were on. Jamie skates towards me quickly and falls to his knees next to me. I feel a little lightheaded and my eyes start fluttering to Jamie's sillhouette staring down at me with the sun shining brightly above us.

"Are you okay? Are you hurt?" he checks on me.

I look at myself. The elbow and knee guards saved me from the fall.

"I don't think my body took a hit, but my pride definitely did," I groan. Now laying on the grass feeling embarrassed. Some passersby are hiding their very obvious stare and snicker. I sigh in defeat when Jamie suddenly starts chuckling and moves closer to lay on the grass right next to me.

"What are you doing?" I ask in confusion.

"Well if you're gonna feel embarrassed then I'll be embarrassed with you too," casually closing his eyes right next to me. "Such a nice, warm day, don't you think?"

His spontaneity has me bursting into a heartful laughter, warmed by his thoughtfulness behind it. I lean my head on his shoulder, now feeling the vibration of his laughter with it too.

"You feel better now?" He turns to me with a smile on his face.

His crystal eyes staring deeper into mine, always analyzing my thoughts and the details of my face. Something I will never get bored of seeing.

Something I'll truly miss very soon.

I lower my gaze onto his inviting lips and plant a kiss onto them.

"Now I feel better," I smile.

We get back up again carefully and Jamie tries to steady my balance, making sure to keep me safe.

"You want to try again?" he asks.

"Yes! I'm not giving up now!" I say in a better mood.

"That's the right attitude!"

We continue skating on the lane carefully with Jamie right by my side watching over me. He gives some techniques as I skate around which includes bending my knees right to pushing off my weight with my toes. Everything suddenly feels easier with his guidance and I find myself feeling even more comfortable.

"I can't believe it. You actually did it!" he holds me as we stop for a break. "I'm so proud of you, love!"

"Only because you helped me!" A grin forms on my face with happiness swelling in my heart.

The sun is getting high and drops of sweat are trickling on my forehead, not realizing that it's already afternoon. Time seems to move faster when I'm with Jamie, which I've experienced it many times when we spend time together. Yet, today is the day that I wished would go slower. I have to make every second count.

"You seem parched. Want to get some drinks?"

"Oh absolutely, that sounds perfect," my throat suddenly craves for something cold.

"Aroma Mocha?" He winks at the suggestion.

I hug him feeling thankful. "You know me so well."

We both go back to his car and unstrap our roller skates.

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"Ahhh.." I exhale after feeling the delicious taste of my favourite iced latte. The sun light hits us from the window of the cafe and it seems to be the perfect day so far.

"Thank you again for taking me out to the park. I had so much fun," I smile at Jamie across the table.

"I'm really glad you enjoyed it. All you needed was a little bit of convincing and pouting to come with me," he grins.

"Alright, I'll give it to you. You know what you're talking about and I won't question any of your plans again next time," I say, playfully rolling my eyes.

Next time. That won't be after a while.

Time passes in the strangest ways. It felt like it was just yesterday when we decided to sit at this very table, being practically strangers to each other, yet we both knew something promising was about to unfold at that moment.

Curious about what Jamie thinks of those times, I ask him, "Hey, remember the first time we were sitting here?"

He chuckles at the memory. "I remember you thinking I was a hot piece of ass and wanting me so bad."

"Oh really? That's how you remember it?" I start laughing.

He ruffles his hair and his cheeks turning a little red.

"Y/n. I gotta ask though, was I just being crazy or was there always something between us right from the start?"

I sit there, remembering all about the times of us seeing each other for the first time in the studio. The glances we steal from each other... the shy quick greetings the first few times.

"You weren't being crazy at all. It was always there... and I'm glad you did something about it first," I reach out for his hand.

"I couldn't pass up the opportunity," he lifts my hand up and kisses it. "Sorry it took me a while."

"You're forgiven," I smile.

Jamie now reaches out both his hands across the table and hold onto mine.

"I can't believe so many things have happened between us. You've changed who I am so much, y/n. I just can't imagine not being with you at this point," Jamie says with sincerity in his eyes.

"I can't imagine not being with you too. You've pushed me into being the person who I'm supposed to be. You're the reason I believed in myself to teach in the studio," I respond.

"I definitely believe in you, love. You'll help everyone there the way you helped me." He drops his gaze to the table and continue, "And I'm truly sorry I won't be there for it. I wished I could."

My hand twitches as I hear the words. My walls start crumbling and I slowly pull my hands away, now feeling the telltale sign of my emotions about to rise. A sudden sniffle escaping me.

"Sweetie, I know you've been avoiding this conversation all day. It's okay to be sad. Just please tell me if you are," his voice soft.

"I'm sorry, but I can't have this conversation here."

"I understand. Do you want to go back to my place and be together for a while? We don't have to talk if you don't want to."

I nod while still telling myself to put on a brave face.

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The whole ride was silent but I feel his hand on mine, rubbing it gently as he drives. It's a small gesture but it means the world to me. I realize that eventually, I still have to face the emotions that I dreaded the whole time.

We finally reach to his place and I let myself slump on the couch. I lay my head back to rest against it and close my eyes for a while. I want to stay strong for Jamie's sake but somehow, my emotions has me losing the battle in keeping myself distracted away from it.

"Do you need anything? Water?" Jamie's voice cuts the silence.

I shake my head. "I just need you. Here," I say softly.

"My love, I'm so sorry," he sits next to me and gently brushing the hair away from my face. "It's only for a while and we'll be together again before you know it."

I face towards him and as soon as I see the expression and vulnerability in his eyes, my emotions start to crumble and take over me with a strong force. "I'm gonna miss you so much," I say as I feel more tears trickling down my face.

"I'm gonna miss you too, my love. I'll call you and text you as much as I can, I promise."

"Please, can I stay here tonight? I don't want to waste any second without you before you go," I look up to him. Trying to memorize every inch of his face.

"Absolutely, love. You can stay as long as you want. We can watch a movie, have dinner or just talk. Whatever you want to do."

"That sounds perfect," I say as I wipe my tears. "I love you," I add, feeling touched by his care.

"I love you too," he smiles and kisses my forehead.

We then decided to watch a rom-com on the couch and just enjoying each other's presence. Sometimes, Jamie will point out how silly the characters are in the movies and I will laugh and jump to defend their actions. We try to act as normal as we can with the remaining time that we have.

When the day is getting darker, Jamie then prepares a delicious homecooked meal for us. He serves chicken alfredo with garlic bread at the dining table. He even pulls out a red wine from the cabinet and pour it for us. As we eat and enjoy the meal, we talk about all the plans we have that we would like to do when he gets back from London.

"I bet you're gonna be an all professional art teacher by the time I get back," he teases me.

"Well, I'm just trying to survive my first teaching day first so we'll see," I laugh.

"I'm sure you will, love."

I smile gratefully. "And you're gonna do amazingly at your music recordings. I'm so happy for you and I wished I could be there to see you," I look at him proudly.

"Thank you. That means the world to me. And don't you worry, I'll update you on everything, I promise," he squeezes my hand.

A tear that I held back falls down. "We're gonna be okay, right?" my voice trembles as I ask.

Jamie immediately gets up from his seat and moves to kneel next to me. He takes my hands and look straight into my eyes. "Yes, my love. We're gonna be okay. Our love is stronger than any distance could take us. And I promised you before, that we will go through with this together."

I nod, feeling the comfort from his voice. "Okay," I mutter through my tears.

"I'll be back and I want you there waiting for me, okay? Can you do that for me?" He asks me, pushing me to stay strong. "I'll try and finish whatever I need to do and come back straight to you, I promise."

"I will," I nod again.

With another embrace, I feel more comforted and stronger to face what is ahead of us.

As the night grows, we finally sit on the bed. I watch as Jamie does a few final packing onto his suitcase, helping him to remind him what he needs and what he might have forgotten. Jamie appreciates the help while nodding along to everything in his mental checklist.

"I guess that's it," he zips up his suitcase.

We share an understanding look, unspoken sadness in our gaze.

"That's good," I say.

He turns the light off and climbs onto the bed next to me.

"Thanks for all the memories made today," I whisper in the dark.

"We'll make even more in the future, love," he whispers back, holding me tighter.

We then say goodnight to each other as we lay there yet, even with our eyes closed, both of us aren't sleepy at all. We stay there, close to each other sharing an unspoken cherish and care in the dark as the hours pass by.

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I couldn't bear to write this chapter because this situation is actually hitting me close to home. That's why it took me a while to post this chapter up.

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