#and Rufus talks to Bobby. Bobby talks to Rufus. how is this happening? did they break the rules? get a second chance?

[quietwingsinthesky]

I’m not one for soulmates AUs but bobbyrufus soulmate AU of the ‘you have the last words your soulmate will ever say to you on your body somewhere’ kind.

[winchesterwild78]

A Little Bit Stronger 

Master List

Characters: Dean Winchester x Reader

Warnings: Language, body image issues, Dean being a dick, John being a dick, angst, light smut, assault

A/N: I was stuck in traffic on my way home today and my playlist started playing the song “A Little Bit Stronger” by Sara Evans, and it got me thinking about a story where the reader had dated Dean for years, they broke up and she’s dealing with the loss of their relationship. She’s learning how to move on, and she’s slowly getting better. Then out of nowhere, the green eyed hunter pops back into her life. Mention of Supernatural characters, but doesn’t follow the timeline. 

I’m not sure how long this will be. Maybe a chapter or two, or maybe one really long chapter. 

All work is my own, I don’t give permission for it to be taken or posted anywhere else. Feel free to reblog. 

Minors DNI 18+

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You pulled the blanket over your head when your alarm went off. Turning over after turning it off. Not feeling like getting up or going to work. Let’s be honest, you didn’t feel like doing much of anything lately. 

Knowing you were going to be late you slowly climbed out of bed. 

Getting out of bed used to be so much easier when you had something, well someone to look forward to. 

You met Dean Winchester and his younger brother Sam about 10 years ago. They were on a hunt, the same one you were on too. 

Of course you’d heard all about the Winchester Brothers. The ones Hell itself couldn’t hold. They were feared and respected in the hunter community. 

You remember the night you met them, like it was yesterday. That was the night you fell in love with Dean. You were pretty sure he had fallen in love too, even if he wouldn’t admit it. 

You were working on clearing a vampire nest, when these two giants came in and tried to take over. 

You and Dean lunged at each other, both thinking the other was a vampire. Dean’s machete swiped against your collarbone, causing a gash to appear, and you to pass out. 

“Dean, she’s not a vamp. Stop! You’re going to kill her!” You remember Sam yelling before you passed out. 

Before Dean got that slice in, you were holding your own against him. 

You woke up a few hours later to the soft whispers of the brothers, and the hum of an air conditioner. 

When you went to sit up, you realized you didn’t have a shirt on. Just your bra. Grabbing the blanket and holding it up, you looked at the brothers. “What happened, where am I, and who the hell are you?” 

Sam offered a soft smile, Dean sat with a tight jaw. “I’m Sam and that’s my brother Dean. You’re at our hotel. We brought you here to patch you up. When you and Dean were fighting, his machete cut you pretty bad. You passed out from blood loss, so we brought you here.” 

Your eyes blinked a few times before talking, “You’re Sam and Dean Winchester?!” The boys exchanged a quick glance. Sam questioned, “So you’ve heard of us. Which means you’re either a monster, demon or hunter.” 

“I’m Y/N, a Hunter. My parents were hunters and used to hunt with Bobby and Rufus. I grew up in this life, like you guys did.” 

“Well, Y/N. It’s nice to meet you. I have to ask though, why are you hunting alone?” 

“Oh, my parents retired so to speak and are living a quiet life together, my brother is married, with kids and a “normal” life. My boyfriend and I just broke up.” 

You noticed the older Winchester kept his distance and his eyes locked on you. When you mentioned a boyfriend his jaw tensed more. Normally when someone is staring you down it makes you uncomfortable, but with him it made your heart race and your cheeks flush. 

You’d occasionally make eye contact with him and you were completely mesmerized by his piercing green eyes. He would shift in his chair anytime you looked at him or bit your lip. 

“Well thank you guys for patching me up. I need to get going though. Where’s my shirt?” That’s when you realized your pants were gone too. “And where are my pants?!” Panic filled your body. 

Did they take advantage of you? Sam and Dean saw your panic. That’s when the eldest Winchester spoke. His voice was gruff and sent a shiver through you. 

“Hey, calm down sweetheart, your shirt was ripped and covered in blood, your pants were too. We didn’t think you’d want to sleep in clothes covered in blood.” 

Embarrassment rushed through you. “Yeah you’re right, sorry. I’ve just met my fair share of bad people. I didn’t mean to accuse either of you of anything.”

Dean stood and stepped closer to you, “it’s okay. Just know we would never hurt you.” 

You were lost in each other’s eyes when Sam broke the silence by clearing his throat. “Guys I’m gonna grab some food. I’ll be back soon. Y/N, you like burgers?” “Yes, that sounds great. Thank you.” You softly smiled. 

Sam left, closing the door behind him. Leaving you and Dean in the room together. The two of you sat in silence for a few minutes. Then you broke the silence, “Um, Dean. I really need some clothes. I can’t just walk around in my bra and panties. I don’t want to traumatize you or Sam.” You chuckled softly, but you meant it. 

Sam and Dean were good looking and you’d heard about “Dean’s type”. You were far from it. Where he liked thin, flat stomach, busty women, you had a stomach, extra weight in places, you were thicker than most, and your breasts were slightly different sizes. 

Dean looked at you, tilted your chin slightly and whispered “You could never traumatize me.” Red filled your cheeks and you bit your lip. 

Was Dean Winchester really flirting with you? Most definitely not. Maybe he just sees you as an easy screw, cause you’d give in to him in a heartbeat, but you’d never been a love them and leave them person. 

You pulled the sheet up more and tried to look away. Dean kept his hand on your chin, “I’m so sorry I hurt you sweetheart. I would have never hurt you if I knew you weren’t a monster.” 

Feeing brave you stood up, sheet still around you, you touched his cheek, “I know Dean. It was an accident. I do still need some clothes though. Maybe a shower too.” 

Before your brain could process what was happening, Dean leaned in and placed a soft kiss on your lips. “So beautiful” he whispered. “Come on, let’s get you in the shower. You can borrow some of my clothes.” 

Your mind was racing. Dean Winchester just kissed you. What the hell was going on?! 

Your heart was pounding in your chest and ears as Dean grabbed your hand and pulled you towards the bathroom. 

“Dean I can do this myself, I’m not that injured.” You tried to protest. “I know, but where’s the fun in that.” He winked at you. 

Holy shit! Dean is flirting with me and that kiss oh my god. I never thought a single kiss could make me instantly wet. 

You smirked at Dean, “What’s your plan Mr Winchester?” “Whatever you want Ms Y/L/N. I know what I want, but it’s up to you.” 

“Dean I don’t know what to say. I’m not like the women you’re usually with. I can’t do one night stands.” 

Dean stepped closer to you and pulled the sheet away, your breath quickened. He leaned down and crashed his lips to yours. Pulling your body flush to his. Your hands went behind his neck and into his hair. Moaning in his mouth you felt your body responding to his touch. 

When his lips pulled back he said “Then don’t.” 

That night Dean and you had sex in the shower, on the bed and the couch. You stayed with the boys after that. Your relationship with Dean deepened. 

About three years ago you and Dean were talking about how your parents were able to get out of the life and live normally. You explained to Dean it was a hard process and one that took a lot of work on their part. They eventually made it. 

Laying in Dean’s arms was your favorite place to be. Your head was on his chest and he mindlessly ran his fingers up and down your arm. 

“I love you baby. So much. Marry me?” You gasped softly and leaned up, “Dean, do you mean it?” “Yes, sweetheart. I want to marry you and have children with you. If your parents could do it, I’m sure we can too.” 

Tears streamed down your face, “Yes, Dean. I’ll marry you.” Dean pulled you into a kiss. When you leaned back he slipped a small diamond on your finger. “It’s beautiful, baby.” 

He kissed you again. The past few years with Dean had been amazing. You both learned to navigate your love while you hunted side by side. Sam had found someone too, Eileen. She was his perfect match. The four of you were great together. 

There was however one obstacle in your life, John Winchester. You’d met John a few times over the years, and each time the tension was palatable. You tried your best to charm him and get him to approve of your relationship, but he refused. He said you were nothing but a distraction and a way for Dean to pass the time after a hunt. The words hurt, but nothing could prepare you for what was to come. 

The morning after Dean proposed, he called Sam and told him he finally did it. Sam and Eileen were over the moon. Then came the phone call that scared you the most. Dean had to call his father. 

Dean sat beside you on the couch and called John. “Hello, Dean.” John’s gruff voice boomed through the line. “Hey dad, I need to tell you something.” “Dean if you’re about to tell me you fucked up and got Y/N pregnant I’ll beat your ass.” Dean’s eyes went wide, “What?! No, dad, she’s not pregnant.” You scoffed when you heard that. “Well, then what is it son?” “Dad, I asked her to marry me. She said yes. We’re getting married.” 

There was silence on Dean’s end of the phone. The only sound was your heart pounding in your ears. 

You reached for Dean’s hand and he pulled away, getting up. He started pacing the room, his jaw tight with anger and frustration. You knew John was saying something to him, because he was nodding and would occasionally let out a “Yes, sir.” 

It seemed like hours before Dean hung up. When he hung up he looked tense. “Dean, what did he say?” “Don’t worry about it.” He snapped. You flinched at his tone. Dean had never spoken to you like that before.

You looked down at your lap and fidgeted with your hands, “Okay, Dean.” He stormed outside and slammed the front door behind him, making you jump. You were determined to find out what happened, and if Dean wouldn’t talk to you, then you’d go straight to the source. 

Taking out your phone you dialed John’s number. A few rings later John answered, “What do you want, Y/N?” “Well hello to you too, John. I wanted to know what you said to Dean. He was mad and left.” “Good, he came to his senses. Look, you’re a nice girl, but you’re not right for Dean. He doesn’t really love you. The only woman he’s ever loved was Lisa. She’s a better match for him than you could ever be.” 

Your breath caught in your throat, he’d never mentioned Lisa. “John, why are you so cruel? Dean loves me and we are getting married, whether you like it or not.” John laughed and you growled in frustration. “Keep thinking that, sweetheart. I need to go. Have a nice life, Y/N.”

He hung up and you were fuming. 

You tried to call Dean but he didn’t answer. As the night wore on you slipped further into despair. Did Dean leave me? Was John telling the truth about Lisa, and does Dean really still love her? Why won’t he come home? 

You softly cried until the tears wouldn’t fall. You curled up on the couch and fell asleep. Around daybreak you heard Dean stumble in. You sat up looking at Dean. He was drunk, and you noticed the faint smell of perfume and you saw a hickey on his neck.

“Dean, where have you been? I’ve been worried sick.” “Aww don’t be like that sweetheart, I was just having some fun. It’s been too long since I had any fun.” Your heart clenched at his words. “Dean, I don’t understand. What’s going on with you? You left without saying a word, came home drunk, smelling like another woman and you have a hickey. I thought you loved me, wanted to marry me.” 

“Well you thought wrong. I was wrong. This (he motioned between the two of you) was fun while it lasted, but I think it’s time to move on.” You sat stunned, speechless. “Dean, you don’t mean that. You’re drunk and not thinking clearly.” “No sweetheart, that’s where you’re wrong again, I’m thinking very clear. You were right all those years ago, you aren’t my type. I mean maybe if you lost a little weight and actually tried to be pretty.”

You let out a gasp, and before you knew it you slapped him across the face. Your heart broke. “Dean, why are you doing this? What the hell happened?” “I’m finally thinking clearly, my dad reminded me that I’m truly in love with Lisa and she’s the mother of my child, Ben. I owe it to them to make it work.” 

“Dean, please don’t do this. How can you just walk away from us?” “Easy, I’m packing and moving in with Lisa and my son. I spent last night with her and it felt good to be back in her arms.” You felt sick to your stomach. 

Dean walked into your shared room and grabbed his duffel bag and started packing. You sat on your bed and watched him pack, silent tears falling. With each item he packed your heart broke more. As Dean put the last thing in his bag he glanced over at you. With a tremble in your voice you tried one last time, “Dean please don’t walk away from us. I love you, and I know you love me. Please don’t do this. We can figure this out.”

Dean just looked at you and grabbed his bag. You followed him to the door, “Dean, before you go, here.” You slid the ring off your finger and handed it to him. His eyes filled with sadness as more tears fell from yours. “I’ll always love you, Dean.”

He turned and walked out the door. You collapsed on the floor.

It was 3 years ago today that Dean Winchester broke your heart. You’re slowly getting better, but days like today, anniversary days are hard. You moved in with your parents temporarily, got a pretty good job working at the office your brother worked at, and now you had your own place. 

As you opened your closet to get dressed for work you glanced over and saw the t-shirt Dean loaned you the first night you met. Your fingers lightly brushed over the fabric and the happier memories came flooding back. 

You’d kept in touch with Sam and Eileen. They had since gotten married and had a little boy. They left hunting and Sam went back to law school, becoming a lawyer. You’d occasionally ask about Dean, and Sam would tell you he was okay. You also found out that John had died in a car accident about a year ago. You knew Dean would have been devastated. 

You got to work about 10 minutes late. Sitting at your desk your mind wandered to the thought of Dean. You missed him so much, but with each passing day you got a little bit stronger. You knew you’d never fully get over him. He was the love of your life and you were supposed to marry him and have his children. Now he’s in the arms of another woman. 

Your friend from work, Libby invited you to the bar with her and a few other colleagues. It was Friday and it had been a long week. At first you weren’t going to go, but decided to drink until you forgot him. You went home after work, changed and caught an Uber to the bar. 

You decided to wear your jeans, low heel boots and a nice top that revealed just enough. You put your hair up in a messy bun and applied some light makeup. Stepping out of the Uber you saw Libby at the door. “Hey, Y/N! So glad you could make it.” She pulled you into a hug. 

You and the rest of the people in your group settled at a table at the back of the bar. Drinks flowed and you were starting to get tipsy. One of your male colleagues, Ryan, came out too. He’d flirted a few times with you, but you never gave in. You, Libby and a few other girls got up and started dancing. Libby leaned into you and said “Don’t look now, but Ryan is watching you.” You glanced over and he couldn’t take his eyes off of you. You smiled at him. “Yeah, I don’t know.” “Come on girl, it’s been 3 years. You can move on.” You hadn’t thought about Dean all night, now he’s all you could think about. 

“I’m, um, gonna get some air.” Libby nodded sadly. She knew how much you had loved Dean and how much it broke your heart. You grabbed your jacket and walked outside. Taking out your phone you scrolled through the pictures of you and Dean. You sighed sadly, “I miss you so much Dean. I miss how happy we were, how in love we were. I’m sorry I wasn’t enough for you.” 

Tears started to flow freely. 

You stood outside a few minutes longer looking at the pictures of a happier time. The sound of a voice pulled your attention up. “Hey ya sweetheart.” That voice, you knew that voice. You looked up and saw Dean standing in front of you. He looked good. You were speechless. 

“How are you? You look good, sweetheart.” “Dean…I…” Your words stuck in your throat. He stepped closer to you, and his thumb brushed your cheek. “Still as beautiful as ever.” 

Fury filled your body after what he said, “Dean, what are you doing here?” You stepped away from him. “I was here at the bar tonight with some work buddies and I saw you. I needed to talk to you. It’s been too long.” 

You scoffed, “It’s been too long?! Dean, you’re the one who walked away, not me. You threw our relationship away. You proposed and then the next day you slept with another woman and left me for her. Oh and let’s not forget I found out you had a kid I didn’t know about. I heard you were engaged again, Congratulations. I hope you and Lisa have a wonderful life together.”

You started to walk away, but Dean grabbed your arm, “Baby, please.” You tried to free yourself from his grip, “Don’t baby me. You lost that privilege when you chose another woman over me. It’s taken me 3 years to finally get to where I am. I don’t cry myself to sleep every night, and I don’t question my worth as much anymore. I was doing all of that because of YOU! I gave you everything, EVERYTHING! I loved you. I wanted to marry you and have your children. Goodbye, Dean.”

As you started to walk away you glanced at him one last time, “Just so you know Dean, I still love you. I wish I didn’t, but I will always love you.” You walked away, heading towards the bar so you could get your Uber. You needed to get away from Dean. Just being near him made your heart clench with pain and love. 

Dean stood frozen, he had been keeping a secret from you he desperately needed you to hear, but would you listen? Would you really care? 

Just as you reached the door, Dean grabbed your arm, “Y/N, please I need to tell you something.” You turned and looked into his green eyes, you saw pain, sadness and love. “Y/N, I love you sweetheart, I was a fool to push you away. I want to come home to you. Please baby.” You’d waited 3 years to hear him say that, but your heart was scared. You wanted him to profess his love to you, but was he being genuine? You were afraid what would happen if he wasn’t, you couldn’t bear to get over him again. 

“Dean, it’s too late. You’re in love with Lisa, she’s your fiance and had your son. I can’t and I won’t compete with that.” He stepped closer to you, “Sweetheart, she’s not my fiance, we broke up, and Ben isn’t mine. She said he was, but he isn’t. I ended things with her because I realized I wasn’t in love with her. There’s been only one woman in my life that I truly loved, well love. Because I still do. I love you.”

“Dean, I don’t know what to say. You said some really horrible things to me.” “I know, but I knew if I didn’t you wouldn’t let me go. I’m so sorry. I‘ll spend the rest of my life trying to fix this, fix us.” “Then why did you do it, Dean?” 

“When I talked to my dad that day he played into my fears, my fears of losing you, of our children having to grow up without you or me. He also told me it was safer with Lisa and that Ben was mine. I’m sorry sweetheart, I believed him. My life has been miserable the past three years. There hasn’t been a single second where I didn’t think of you.”

You scoffed, “Then why did it take you three years?! If you were that miserable, why did you warm her bed for three years, while mine was cold? Dean, I can’t do this. Please just let me go.” You turned as the tears started to fall. 

Making your way to the front of the bar, you called an Uber and waited out front for it. Standing outside waiting, Ryan came out of the bar to talk to you. “Hey, Y/N, leaving so soon?” “Yeah, I’m just tired and need to go home.” Ryan touched your arm, “Hmm that’s a shame. I was hoping to have gotten at least one dance with you.” You smiled softly as a blush filled your cheeks.

Ryan was a good looking man, and you’d be lying if you said you hadn’t fantasized about him. Maybe it was the raw emotions you were feeling, or the bravery brought on by the alcohol, but you leaned into Ryan and placed a kiss on his lips. He pulled you closer to his body and his hands went in your hair, deepening the kiss. You moaned into his mouth. 

As the Uber pulled up you and Ryan climbed in. Not able to keep your hands off each other. Once in the car, Ryan started kissing your neck. You leaned your head back and as you looked out the window you saw Dean standing on the sidewalk with a look of shock and sadness on his face.

A few minutes later you and Ryan were walking into your apartment. The two of you couldn’t keep your hands off each other. Clothes began to fly and hands roamed. You moaned into his mouth as his body hovered over yours. You hadn’t had sex with anyone since Dean. 

Trying to push Dean out of your mind you decided sex with Ryan would help. As things heated up between you and Ryan, you grabbed a condom from the side table. Ryan slid it on and pushed in. You gasped at the feeling. He definitely didn’t give you time to be ready or adjust like Dean did. Ryan was rushing, you tried desperately to chase your release, but it felt like Ryan was only concerned with him. Stop! Stop comparing him to Dean! He’s not Dean, he will never be Dean.

Tears began to fall. You were about to tell Ryan to stop, but his lips crashed on yours in a forceful kiss. He wasn’t gentle at all. His thrusts were hard and angry. You weren’t enjoying yourself. Trying to slip your hand between the two of you, so you could get off, proved to be the wrong move. Ryan became angry, “What the fuck are you doing?!” “I’m trying to get off too.” “No! You don’t get to touch yourself. I’ll get you off.” “Well, you’re not going to fucking me like you are.” Ryan slapped you across your face. 

You screamed in pain and tried to push him off of you. “Get the fuck off of me!” “No! You don’t get to start this then tell me to stop.” “The fuck I can’t! Get the fuck off NOW!” Just as you were about to knee him, you felt Ryan being pulled away. 

When you looked up you saw Dean, he pulled Ryan off of you and punched him over and over. “She said get off of her! Don’t you ever fucking touch her again or I’ll kill you! Now get the fuck out!” Dean growled. 

You’d grabbed the sheet and pulled it around you. Ryan grabbed his stuff and left calling you a whore under his breath. As soon as he was gone Dean was at your side, “Are you okay, sweetheart? Did he hurt you?” The tears started to flow freely as Dean pulled you into his arms. His sweet, protective arms. You buried your face in his chest and cried as he held you. “I’m sorry Dean. I left with him to make you jealous. This is all my fault.” 

“No baby, this isn’t your fault. You’re okay now, he’s gone.” “And you’re here. Protecting me like always.” “I’ll always protect you, sweetheart. Come on, let’s get you cleaned up and in bed.” 

Dean helped you up and you went to the bathroom to clean up and check your face. There would be a bruise, but things could have been so much worse. You got cleaned up and dressed, when you walked back into your bedroom, you saw Dean laying on your bed with his boxers on and nothing else. “Come on sweetheart, get some sleep. I’ve got you.” He offered his arm and you curled up next to him. You laid on his chest, listening to the steady beat of his heart as you drifted off to sleep.

When Dean was sure you were asleep, he placed a soft kiss on your head, “I love you, Y/N. I’m so sorry.” 

Part 2…..coming soon

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[sammydontcrynomore]

Ok, this is what pissed me off about the Supernatural finale.

One of the things I loved about this show is its lessons.

And one of the most valuable lessons is that you choose your Family.

If someone is related to you but he/she is nothing but a douchebag, if he/she never be there for you, if he/she is toxic, then it's not your Family.

And that, that is a fucking deep lesson.

I for example struggled for years bc I thought that if someone is related to me, even if he/she had always been a shitty person, is anyway my family and I owe he/she something.

Supernatural taught me that it's not like that. Supernatural taught me that true Family is who is always there for you, especially during hard times. It's who cares for you, it's who knows everything about you, bad and good things, and still loves you.

And it's not about blood, it's not about being related.

It's a fucking important lesson that can change the way you see life and relationships.

And then comes the finale.

And everything is erased.

How painful are these words? After all the things they did and all the people they've met, the Family they've built...

The last Dean's speech is all about him and Sam, ONLY he and Sam. He said that the only important thing is Sam, always been. Period.

And then he goes to heaven and meets Bobby. Bobby was like a father to him and Sam, always helped them and protected them. But hey no time for you, just as I understand how heavens work (and most of all that Sam will come) time for me to go.

He tells Dean that Rufus is here, that his parents are here, and that Cas is here, but nothing and no one is important to Dean.

He just wants to wait for Sam. That's all.

He doesn't care for his parents, his friends, and even for Cas. Cas who is Family, bc he said that multiple times.

But nothing matters anymore, just him and Sam. He has to wait anyway so why in the hell wouldn't he go to see one of them?

He would care to know if they're ok, if everything is fine. He would go to see and talk to them, telling them everything that happened.

Why they have to erase everything that was built in fifteen seasons?

Of course Dean cares about Sam! Of course is one, maybe even the most, important person in his life but is not the only one! 

Why they erase all the relationships they've built, all the people they care about, the ones who even if they're not blood became Sam and Dean's Family?

This is not the Supernatural I know, this is not the Supernatural I love.

[whiskyanndboots]

Brutal

Summary - "Dean, I care about our relationship way too much just to be your South Dakota good time while you're in town"

Pairing - DeanxReader - Platonic!BobbyxReader

Warnings -Angst, infodump for upcoming series, tension, no editing once again

Slight continuation of SNAP

Meeting Bobby Singer had changed your life entirely, he and Rufus had saved you and two co-workers from a vampire attack after several Friday night margaritas. Your co-workers were happy to forget it had ever happened, even denied it after awhile, you however couldn't let it go. You'd researched every single thing you could about vampires, your brief encounter helped you weed out the impossible from the highly probable. 

You call it some kind of early midlife crisis, you had regularly taken time off your job to track down victims of possible vampire attacks. You are well aware how unhinged that was, you even had the crazy person map on the wall with thread attached to markers detailing all the possible vampire attacks in the area you'd been able to find, colour coded and everything. 

You decided since you weren't actively looking to interact with any vampires, just gathering information tor curiosities sake that you were safe. 

The next 4 months you were practically obsessed and while on one of your solo road trips you found a lead in Colorado that lead you to another in New York. You had stopped in the small town of Sioux Falls for the day to rest before driving more. Seeing one of the men that had saved you in the aisle of a grocery store buying beer and hamburger helper was so unexpected you almost ran into a coca cola display. 

He had ducked his head when he'd recognised you, he had rushed the cashier when you'd gone to talk to him anyway and he'd started speed walking to his car when you dumped your things and followed him out. 

Bobby Singer was not happy when you told him what you'd been doing if the "Are you out of your goddamn mind?!" was anything to go by. 

You'd told Bobby you weren't hunting, god no, you just wanted to know about this hidden world inside the one you thought you knew. You'd showed him the journal of vampire facts you'd written, which he immediately pointed out two wrong things you'd thought were correct.

He'd rubbed a hand down his face and stared for a moment. Then he asked how old you were, what you did and if you were married, children, basically everything about your life. He'd quickly realised you weren't going to be convinced into going home or letting this go so he begrudgingly told you his address. 

Right there in a Sioux Falls grocery store parking lot started your unlikely friendship.

You turned up at Bobby's the next morning and he grumpily educated you on vampires and let you have free rein of his extensive library so you'd go and leave him "the hell alone". Three weeks later, you'd quit your job and moved to Sioux Falls, you got a job at a tavern and rented a room nearby, you'd visit Bobby on weekends, sometimes even weekday afternoons. 

You'd never said you weren't impulsive or that you weren't escaping your old life. 

Around six weeks later you were living in Bobby's spare room, he'd said "Why are you wasting money on that shithole, I've got a room upstairs as along as you don't plan on annoyin' the crap outta me", you moved in and realised Singer Salvage was a mess on the business front. You'd spent your days researching monsters, trying to learn ancient languages which was as hard as it sounds, and organising Singer Salvage's inventory and sales. You'd quit your bar job when you'd started making Bobby money and he decided you were now his receptionist, both for hunters and the junk yard. It made it all more believable when you picked up and 'transferred' calls to your boss when cops called.

You'd later learn why Bobby was so willing to take you in. 

One night in late July, not long after you'd moved in, you'd both had a bit to drink and you built up the courage to finally ask Bobby about an old polaroid you'd found of himself and two young men. He'd told you about Dean and hell, how Sam's been of the grid ever since he died. Bobby had lost the two men he'd considered sons and you were filling some kind of void for him though he'd never admitted it, he wanted some companionship.

It was for the first time you really understood the sadness and loss that came with hunting, Bobby had many friends, not many close, but no family. 

The more time you spent with Bobby the soft spot you immediately had for him became ten times it's size. You learnt to cook more, he complained about the healthier things, but the guy had to watch his chloestrol. You cleaned when he was away and catlogued his never ending junk yard of parts and cars to sell. You still remembered the look on his face when you pulled out $2500 in cash you'd gotten on a day trip you'd taken to sell his stuff after he'd told you this 'junk wasn't worth that much". Problem was Bobby knew where every artififact, weapon, rare herbs and weird stuff was in his house, but he couldn't remember all the things he had buried out back amoungst the rusted out steel. 

Google had turned you into a parts expert, the only rule he had was to make sure he didn't need it and not to let any buyers here, public exchange only. 

It was an oddly simple life considering Bobby's profession. You became receptioinist for Singer Salvage by day and various FBI and Department of whatevers assistants in the shadows,he'd taught you how to answer phones while he was gone, what to say to keep the hunters out there covered and what kills what so you could help any hunter who called when he wasn't around. You were no Bobby, but you were getting better. 

Bobby had decided a beat up 1970 Chevy Chevelle was going to teach you all things cars, told you that you should know how to do things on your own, this one wasn't going so well, honestly Bobby had done most of it while you watched and admittedly zoned out for majority of it. 

The only thing Bobby wouldn't do was let you hunt. That was a hard, solid line and you did not mind in the slightest, you'd had to help on one salt and burn once when Bobby needed and that was enough. Monsters, ghosts and demons in theory were interesting, the reality of it you could miss. 

Bobby's drinking had you more worried than any supernatural creature did, you enjoyed the occasional alcoholic beverage, but the empty bottles you'd fine some mornings that weren't there when you went to bed worried you, but he would snap if you ever pushed. You were planning on a more subtle intervention.

You'd gone to a friends wedding in September and returned to absolute chaos of a resurection and an apocalypse. Bobby wanted you to pack your things and leave, you refused. You now wondered if that choice was a huge mistake. 

That was the first time you'd met Sam and Dean Winchester. 

It felt like a lifetime ago. 

It was February now and they'd missed both Christmas and New Years, you'd forced Bobby into swapping gifts on Christmas and by gifts you meant a bottle of scotch and some skincare gift pack Bobby must have grabbed at the grocery store, which strangely made you feel warm inside. 


You, Sam, Dean and Bobby were now sitting on Bobby's front porch and had been for the last few hours, just talking, it was nice considering how intense things had been for the last few months.


Sam and Dean had been through alot with the snippets Bobby had told you, despite how very much involved you were Bobby was still keeping it vague with what was going on out there. You'd heard them talking about a demon named Alistair, Lilith, Angels and Seals when you had turned on the shower and snuck out to listen to what they were talking about when they thought you couldn't hear.

Lilith. 

She hadn't come for you, it'd been months. Your rescue from her demon minions was miraculous and you'd been living on the edge ever since, Lilith had said she needed you for something, you have no idea what. 

You laughed loudly with everyone at Bobby's story about a hunt with Rufus, you were pleasantly buzzed after a few vodka limes on this particularly hot afternoon. You liked when Dean and Sam came, especially when you had moments like this, moments when you could pretend the apocalypse wasn't looming over you all. 

You stood up asking if anyone else wanted another drink with an all around yes. You said you'd get some snacks too.

Three days ago when Sam and Dean arrived was the first time you'd seen Dean since the motel room incident two months ago. Some nights you couldn't sleep thinking about that night, just rolling around unable to get comfortable or relaxed because you couldn't stop relieving the way Dean's hands felt on your skin, how his mouth felt against yours. 

Neither of you had brought it up again, just like you'd asked. 

You opened the refrigerator pulling out some cheese, dip and salami and crackers. The first time you'd made a glorified cheese platter for Bobby he'd scrunched his face up at 'this fancy crap' you'd stared at him incredulously, 'fancy? It's lazy dinner'

Now he's a cheese platter fiend, not that he'd admit it. You regularly drink beer on a Saturday afternoon eating too much cheese and breadsticks while watching football or reality TV.

"Want some help?" Dean's voice startled you, you turned around from cutting salami to see him leaning in the door way. 

"No, I'm nearly done, do you want your beer?" You asked grabbing a bottle from there fridge and holding it out towards him to quick not to be obviously nervous. 

Dean pushed off the doorway, his eyes moved down your body as he crossed the room, so brazenly, you were immediately off kilter. The tank top and denim shorts suddenly made you feel suddenly bare.

You wouldn't let him know, you wouldn't show him how much he rattled you. You were an adult for god sake, why did he make you so nervous and stupid? he never used to. 

You'd been lulled into a false sense of security, you weren't sure if it was going to be awkward when you watched the Impala roll up the driveway, but to your great relief Dean was completely normal, he was even back to his old self and wasn't treating you like you were cotton wool.

The blatant way he was checking you out caught you off guard, It had to be the alcohol you'd all consumed.


He took the bottle from your hand and you quickly turned back to the food you were getting ready, you took a swig of the vodka you'd made yourself to calm down.

You had to get a grip on yourself. 

"I'll be out soon" You said without turning around. You just had to get this ready and go back out and continue drinking, eating and laughing, no issues.

"You been doing ok, feel like we haven't talked?" Dean asked from behind, damnit he wasn't leaving.

He was right, you'd found yourself alone with him two days ago while you were making some tweaks to the Chevelle, you were about to get Bobby to check it over, you weren't an overly confident home mechanic without him yet. 

"She not running?" Dean's voice made you jump. 

"Jesus, Dean" You huffed holding your chest.

"Bit on edge there (Y/N)" He laughed "What's going on?" He peered under the hood beside you. 

"Making a weird noise, I think something is loose and vibrating on the engine, I'm pretty sure it's here" You pointed, looking at Dean for assurance.

“Can I have a look?" Dean questioned raising his eyebrows. 

"Sure" You smiled easily moving out of his way.

Dean leant under the hood and peered into your engine bay "Can you turn her on?" 

You moved to the front seat and turned the key until you heard Dean yell to stop. You jumped out and came back to stand beside him.

"Very close, looks like that one, but it's further back" He strained leaning further in and gestured "Over here" you peered over his shoulder. 

"We can get this apart and tighten it up this afternoon, won't take long" He smiled widely. 

So you did, well mostly Dean did while you watched.

"There' Dean grunted twisting the wrench into place. 

You were suddenly very distracted by Dean's arms, he was pulling on the wrench, tan skin bulging as he pulled it tighter, his grey t-shirt was straining against the size of his arm, Dean was talking and you realised you weren't listening when he raised his eyebrow. 

"Sorry, what?" Pull yourself together 

Dean repeated himself looking at you and the car to make sure you understood. He was so unaffected, ofcourse he was, Dean would've been with plenty of women on the road since you last seen him, you're such an idiot. You just needed to avoid direct eye contact and get through the next few days. 

"Should be good as new" Dean said as he finished putting everything back together "Start her up" 

You did as he said and naturally there was no more weird noise. 

'Thanks, Dean " You smiled genuinely "saved me alot of time and taught me something new"

"It's all good, I needed to get out of the house, there's only so much Sam and Bobby talkin' ancient languages and lore I can take" He wiped his hands off with a rag, once again the movement made his arms bulge, all that thick muscle not from a gym, from hunting because he was strong, you knew first hand how firm he was. 

You glanced up and see Dean looking straight at you, you felt your cheeks heat up from embarrassment and swallowed quickly moving to shut the hood of the car, Dean was still watching you with an unreadable look on his face. 

Suddenly that familiar feeling of being too close came over you, you could feel the warmth of his skin and you weren't even touching.

"Should get back inside" You said quickly.

"Yeah' He answered, his voice suddenly deeper. You looked back at him and you did not like the change in demeanour at all.

You really wish you never opened this can of worms. 

"Yeah there's been alot going on, I've been good, Bobby and i have had a couple of hunts, he wants to lay low for the most part" You answered. 

Dean leaned onto the counter beside you, his posture was relaxed, but his brow was pinched. You turned to look at him, you nervously licked your lips, Dean's eyes shot down to the movement, copying it himself. You knew if there was any shot of forgiveness with Jo, you could never ever do what you did again, you hadn't meant to the first time.

"You? Alot more going on out there than here, I'm sure" You tried to keep it light while you distracted yourself with placing cheese cubes.


"Nothing new so far, just your regular end of the world stuff" he'd answered with a tired sigh, a pained look flashed across his eyes which was gone just as quickly. 

You smiled weakly with the corner of your mouth and opened a pack of crackers. You were sure it was much more complicated.

"So tell me" He began fake casually after a short silence, your body tensed at his tone.

"You going to be weird around me all the time now?" He continued. 

"I'm not being weird" You replied quickly. 

"You're being weird right now" Dean's grin was teasing, definitely beer spearheading this conversation. He was also right, You and Dean had an easy connection that had been strained since that night in the motel. 

"I'm fine Dean, really" You answered, probably a little too reassuringly. 

"You won't even look at me anymore" 

You sighed deeply and tilted your head to meet his gaze raising your eyebrow. You had never let any man make you feel this jittery, you weren't going to start now. He's just Dean, a man.

You turned back to finish what you were doing, Dean chuckled, you could feel his eyes on you, this had to stop now.

if Dean wanted to talk then you'd talk.

"What are you doing, Dean?" You turned to face him fully trying to keep your voice casual.

"What are you doing, (Y/N)?" He countered grinning, like this was a game.


You frowned confused, you were ignoring this thing exactly like you were supposed to. Dean chuckled looking down for a second shaking his head.

"You tell me you want to forget what happened and then you keep looking at me like you want to jump my bones" He stared at you, you were making a huge bold mental note not to be alone with Dean when he's been drinking all day because apparently his already huge balls got even bigger.

"I do not" You whispered, eyes wide, looking at the door making sure no one was there "I meant what I said" you insisted.

"Why?" He asked suddenly serious. 

"Why?" You repeated incredulously 

"You want to" He stated. You could tell Dean Winchester didn't get rejected very often, you could see why too. That cocky grin, that handsome face and playfulness that you knew would show you a good time. 

"Really, cause it sounds like you're trying to convince me" You raised an eyebrow keeping your tone just as playful. He laughed sliding closer to you.

“Dean, we had a fight, that got out of control, thats all" You continued. 

"Sweetheart, I have fights with people all the time and they don't end like that, unless they started like that" Your heart was thumping in your chest, it hadn't started like that though, it really did catch you off guard. You and Jo were on shaky ground as it was, but almost back to normal after months of trying to fix what happened. 

"Look Dean we work together, we're friends, Jo is my best friend, there's a whole apocalypse, it's just messy" You finished making your snack platter intent on leaving this kitchen. 

"Jo?" He questioned, in your panic you'd slipped up. 

"Is that what this is about?" He leaned in closer towards you.

"No" You said quickly. 

"(Y/N), Jo is like a little sister to me, nothing's going on with us, nothing has even been going on" His face was full on reassurance, but you felt none of it. Your heart broke for Jo, little sister, ouch. 

You crossed your arms with a sigh and turned to face Dean, your face hard you needed a final blow. 

"You know Dean, I really didn't take you for a guy who needed to be told no twice" Even as it left your mouth your stomach was turning in knots. 

Dean's face feel and all playfulness and flirting was gone. 

"(Y/N) I didn't-" He looked so upset with himself.

"It's fine, really" you interupted "Dean, I care about our relationship way too much just to be your South Dakota good time while you're in town" You tried to make light of the situation.

"You're not just a good time" Dean looked insulted.

"Yeah, I'm a pain in the ass too, I know" You smiled trying desperately to get this conversation over.


"Right" He ran a hand over his mouth clearing his throat and looked away. A heavy silence fell over the kitchen.

You felt awful, but you were honest, you didn't want to be another notch in Dean Winchesters bed post. 

"You two good?" Bobby’s gruff voice startled the both of you. 

"Yeah" You both said unconvincingly at the same time. 

"Here, I'll take that for you" Dean grabbed the platter and his beer and disappeared through the doorway. 

"Should I be worried about that?" Bobby asked from behind you as you were gathering the beer for the rest of you from the fridge. 

"No" You scoffed, guilt still churning in your stomach.


"Dean's a good man, you know I love him like a son" Bobby continued.

"God, Bobby i'm not trying anything on Dean" You pleaded.

"Dean isn't the kind of guy for you (Y/N)" Bobby took his beer from your hand. 

You were surprised, that wasn't what you were expecting. 

"A hunter isn't the kind of man you should be going after" he clarified "It'll be nothing, but heartbreak or death at the end of that road"

"It's ok, Bobby. Don't worry, we're just friends" You patted his shoulder.

There was very little chance of Dean ever making a move on you again, so you weren't worried either.



[scoobydoodean]

I don't mean to talk out of my ass, and am saying nothing about how alcoholism works in the real world, but when it comes to the fictional world of the show I really don't think they ever meant to imply Dean has a dependency issue when it comes to alcohol. I think what the show is actually doing is using short hand for either "Dean is in a bad mental state and self medicating" or, separately and not related to that, is using alcohol as a glamorized "cowboy who can put away his liquor" shorthand. For contrast, I'm watching House right now and (regardless of if it does a good job depicting addiction, which I feel absolutely unqualified to comment on) it does want the audience to understand that House is an addict.

I think the issue is there is a lot of room to bring your own personal experiences with alcohol to interpreting the show, and obviously if those have been bad it's easy to apply that to Dean, who does drink frequently in show. As do Sam, Cas, Bobby, Rufus, Ellen, etc. I don't know why people focus in on Dean specifically, though.

I think the funniest thing about this disk horse (which I consider to be over btw—using this as a springboard for closing thoughts) is that I never said at any point that Dean has never abused alcohol. I didn't even say there's no point in the show at which he can be described as an alcoholic (Dean describes himself as one in 10.12 "About A Boy"). I didn't even say I would never believe that Dean has ever driven drunk ever in his entire life, or that headcanoning that Dean has driven drunk before at some point is somehow some horrible evil thing.

All I did was respond to mail asking me if I remembered times in the actual show where Dean was shown drunk driving, because my anon heard a claim that it is shown to us "All of the time" in the actual show, and didn't remember that, and they were looking for someone with a more recent memory who could corroborate. So I said I don't remember that happening explicitly in the show either, and invited people to provide examples if they remembered an example.

I think if the show wanted to say Dean is a frequent drunk driver— specifically—the show would show me Dean being a drunk driver. It wasn't a problem for the show to quite overtly show me Sam driving drunk in 4.09—it wasn't something they shied away from showing. If (to your point—which you are absolutely right about) alcohol is used as a signal of our characters current mental states (Bobby in 4.01, Sam in 4.09, Cas in 5.17, Dean in 10.22, etc) then there's no reason the show would refuse to simply show me Dean being a frequent drunk driver. I'd be happy to explore it if I thought frequent drunk driving was a genuine facet of Dean's character. I just don't think it is, because the show doesn't show me that. And people can say all day long that "Dean drinks a lot" + "Dean has a car and is often in the drivers seat" = "Dean is a frequent drunk driver" until they're blue in the face. I am still holding out my hand, palm up, waiting for an actual example instead of whiney voices crying and whining insisting it simply HAS to be true because they think it should be.

I think you're right at the end of the day that the show isn't worried about Dean being an alcoholic as much as the show uses upticks in each character's drinking to indicate they're going through something—you're 100% right there. I also understand and respect that some people legitimately—with well-meaning intent—want to explore Dean's relationship to alcohol, because it's absolutely in theme imo and I think there's more attention ultimately put on it with Dean than any other character (though this is not true up to season 4 in my current rewatch). I just can't say I'm sitting here wringing my hands over Dean's relationship with alcohol in the actual canon of the actual show. I'm just not. The fact is, our characters have extremely limited options in terms of coping tools, and have trauma more extensive in breadth and length and diversity than anyone in real life has experienced ever, and are almost perpetually existing in a war zone. The fact that they self-medicate in various ways in order to cope isn't remotely surprising and I don't think there's anything shameful and evil about it either especially given their circumstances and utter lack of options. I just also... don't think Dean is a frequent drunk driver.

[supernaturalconvert]

Since I reminded you of your spn revival idea.... do you have any more of this Dean Jr meets his half brother or sister idea😈

Cause my brain's been running with it a lil and... it would be kinda cool if he meets his siter who FOR SOME REASON has powers like the special children. Cause maybe there was somewhere a zealous demon follower of yellow eyes that made sure the sex Sam had with Dr Cara Roberts (from sex and violence) ended in a pregnancy.

I would kinda looove for her to maybe fall to her powers more like Ava Wilson and for her and Dean Jr to have to deal with that, on top of whatever that zealous yellow eyes follower has planned.

Maybe they could even touch on the possibility of Azazel being a fallen angel and get heaven involved. But that would be HIGHLY optional.

You got any ideas as well🥹🙏

I have thought about something similar as well but my idea was more for an AU in the revival. Probably I am stealing from TW (not sure since I haven't watched it only heard references) here but maybe Dean jumps into another reality and comes face to face with DJ and they are obviously very wary of each other for a sec until Sam comes on the scene and calls out "Dean" and they both respond at the same time.

In this reality Sam has two kids DJ and a younger daughter with Jessica (things are not going that well in their marriage or they are divorced) and Sam is a very successful attorney. I would like for DJ to be a pre-teen and the daughter even younger. Sam's life is well put together except that he does have visions and similar other dormant powers that he has suspected for a long time. That's why he has sort of voluntarily strained his relationship with Jessica coz he wants her away in case anything happens to him.

Obviously Sam is not immediately trusting of Dean coz his relationship with his brother from this reality is really bad and they haven't been in touch for years and ended on really bad terms. However, Dean wants to stick around with his brother and niece & nephew for a few days to get to know them a little. As he does that, he realises that Sam is surrounded by all the demons from his reality from Azazel to Ruby to Meg to Brady.

Azazel could be the guy who gave Sam a chance early on and Sam holds in high regard almost telling Dean, that Azazel did for him what John never did. Similarly Brady is his best friend still who he trusts with his life for something to this effect. There could be other folks as well such as Sarah, Bobby etc

The plot can develop from there with him enlisting Bobby and maybe Rufus's help to figure out the demon nexus while Sam is struggling with his own demons and not telling Dean everything about what's going on with him. Also, maybe Sam suspects that maybe whatever is going on with him is also going with DJ but actually it's his younger daughter who maybe a psychic. He eventually shares his fears about his children with Dean but still doesn't tell him everything neither does Dean tell him his fears about the demon. That will make for good drama when they eventually do after getting closure again.

Eventually they talk about John and maybe the plot of the next season is John showing up after years being underground. John is vary for both Sam and his daughter but he is torn since firstly its Sam and secondly the daughter is named after Mary by Sam.

Thanks for the ask..... I guess I was thinking how the Winchester dynamic could play out in the later seasons.

[thebiggestmenace]

I am confused?

here's why lmao

do indeed remember this season

the baby's name is Amara?? or is the guy just that out of it?

omg Sam is infected!!!! big shocker!!!! (menace knew this)

and the baby has the Mark of Cain???

hi, Billie!!!!

first mention of the Empty... I have a feeling this comes back around in s15

the holy oil worked???

Dean wrapping Cas in the blanket :(((

is this episode just from Baby's perspective? I love episodes with weird perspectives!!

"say it with me - a ✨️werepire✨️"

Finn Wolfhard?!

why do they keep flashing back to Sam's time in Hell??

I forgot Amara was God's sister

I also completely forgot about Sully wtf

Sam, please do not say yes. please

where did she send Dean?? oh, just to safety nvm

you had to have known this was a terrible idea, Sam

you're ready to watch the people you love die? really?

of course they're all in there now

so, if Lucifer is possessing Cas, then where is Cas? or are there just two angels in him?

Eileen!! I know the actress and I've seen people post about her, but I don't remember her?

did Mildred just insinuate that Dean has a crush on Cas?? cause I feel like she did... nvm I forgot about Amara smh

dude, the boys don't even sound the same in earlier seasons :o I hadn't noticed until now

Lucifer is not caged, actually

you have Crowley in a dog cage?? and are treating like a literal dog??

also if Cas isn't Lucifer's perfect vessel, why isn't it showing? like it showed for Nick?

Dean being absolutely devastated that Cas said yes to Lucifer vs Sam just rolling with that punch

they are such children 🤭

Bobby and Rufus were definitely a thing btw

I've said if before and I'll say it again, I miss Bobby

and Sam's been shot, how fun

but he's not actually dead?

a married hunter couple!!!

omg is this the episode we find out Chuck is God??? *

* it is!!! I always thought this happened in an earlier season

and Chuck has the samulet?? I could have sworn Sam had it?

KNEW HE HAD IT (did Chuck throw that in his pocket? maybe. but I will die on this hill. Sam kept it)

KEVIN??? oh nvm he's gone now

Amara is so,,,,,,, unsettling

omg family therapy with God and Lucifer!

of course Sam's gonna take the Mark without talking to Dean 🙄

is this actually gonna work?

did she just kill Lucifer and God??

guess not, okie

Cas is back!!!

all the goodbyes are normal and then he gets to Cas and is almost in tears???

so, it's fine? everything's normal now?

????? Sam just got shot at again???

gonna be honest, I thought Toni was Mary

another season down, hooray!!! this one was so??? I want to say anticlimactic, which was nice considering the other season finales! it's just odd? also wtf happened with Sam? did he get shot? cause it didn't sound it, so what happened? is there just a forcefield around the man? I guess we shall find out

s1, s2, s3, s4, s5, s6, s7, s8, s9, s10, s11, s12, s13, s14, s15

[rosemariad]

Supernatural Season 11 Part 1

So the consequence of last season's tomfoolery is the unleashing of the darkness, as per Death's explanation before he got sliced by Dean (I'm still not over how easy it was to take down such an ancient OP character)

And the darkness is a chick?! Whaaaaaaaaaaa-

Billie starts out in season 11 - okay - I know she's an enemy but I'm a fan of hers. She's sooo beautiful!!!! I love her look!!!! She ain’t takin’ no shit from the Winchesters either. That is a woman I can get behind - sowwwwwwwwwwwwy lol.

Why does Cas have to get fucked up yet again?!?!?!?! Why did Rowena turn him in an attack dog, damn!

The darkness unleashed some sort of virus ala The Crazies - 'member that movie (both original and remake)

The baby we find at the beginning of the season becomes the vessel for the darkness - she grew up so fast lol. Poor baby tho and her family 🥺

Rowena really tried starting a new coven 🤣 the name was soooo corny Mega Coven, really?! 🤣

I'm glad the sick/crazed Cas stuff is over but its only a matter of time before something else goes wrong with him. It's like the only reason he's kept around cuz lord knows the showrunners don't care about Destiel 🙃

Meanwhile the darkness is out and about as a little girl who's eating a healthy dose of humans, then demons, then humans again, totally unimpressed by Crowley and his shit 🤣

We have to see Metatron again ugh!!! Can someone kill him already?!?!?!?!

He really thought Cas was afraid. Child please. He's angry and he has so many reasons to be, between getting cockblocked by Sam and others, cockteased by Dean, having to compete with Crowley and women for Dean's attention (though where are the women, or is it all about AmaraxDean this season?), getting hated on by Heaven, getting cursed by Rowena and fucked over by Metatron personally and more than once, of course duh!

Sam! Poor baby thought God was speaking to him but it was the devil all along. He wants out of the cage and needs Sam to do it cuz another consequence of the darkness fiasco is the cage weakened some. Shame we didn't get to see Michael or Adam 🙃 (it was a great opportunity to bring back the apocalypse stuff from season 5, but oh well, that's what fanfiction's for!)

So instead of Sam who stands up to this bully, Castiel ends up busting him out (Cas baby no!)

Dean thinks Cas is fine, Dean when is Cas ever fine?! He hasn't been fine since he started helping you stupid!!!!!!! I guess Dean says that cuz he needs Cas to be fine, but my God the powers of Dean's denial are so strong!!!!!

Why Cas, why would you give yourself over to the devil 😭 and he was so passive. He only intervened when Lucifer was choking the shit outta Sam and decided oh wait Sam can’t die Dean would hate me forever I must intercede smh.

I have to say the line “grim face of angelic constipation” made me chuckle XD

That episode was pointless though since the supposed hand of God was useless and those people met their fate anyway - shoutout to that crew and the Woman of Letter Delfine - they were heroes. A somber end having Dean sat on his lonesome at the dock.

Sam watchu mean Cas won’t come back willingly - and abandon his sweet Dean. Never! He’s only doing it for Dean in the first place!!! Cuz the only alternative was for the devil go into Sam and there was no way they were gonna let that happen - though it would have made for an interesting season!

Another guy Dean goes Gaga over tho I’m not sure if its him being a fan or something else 😉 lololol

So we meet Eileen this season - she was awesome! She suffered no fools and took no prisoners lol. Almost killed Sam fucking Winchester. Talk about a meet-cute gone brutal 😂

It was nice to see Bobby and Rufus again - especially at Rufus’ savage top form, busting Bobby and everyone else’s balls 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 when he demanded Bobby tell the truth instead of whatever story he was gonna say to seem cool 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

When he sees that family together at the end 😭 what a softie.

Dean got to see Bobby again…awwwww but it turns out this episode (at least the parts that Bobby and Rufus were in) was during season 4 - and Dean was a prissy bitch! So rude, entitled and ungrateful. Bobby shouldn’t have had to put up with that!

Sam got shot but I wasn’t worried! We got 4 more seasons, he ain't going anywhere. But Dean was losing his mind again…Jesus honey there’s more to life than your baby bro! I mean I understand - he raised this boy, invested so much but this shit ain't healthy. He committed suicide to talk to a reaper who’s told him in no uncertain terms that if the Winchesters die she’s gonna keep them that way. Did he really think she’d be willing to cut him a deal? Hell nah. He’s lucky that doctor was good at his job! And that Sam swooped in and saved the day, survivor that he is!

That poor woman at the end though, so devoid of hope, just like Dean will be in a few seasons (yeah I know about that shit. I’ll address it when I finally watch those episodes).

Speaking of Dean losing hope - he works with Crowley & Rowena to try to save Cas. Why does Sam keep saying Cas ain’t coming back - you don’t know - we’re not in season 15 - lemme stop

The way Dean kept calling out to Cas - poor bby. Of course the devil mocked him, what a dick!

Crowley tried to help too, got beat up by the devil (again) for his trouble. Cas c’mon stand up to the son of a bitch!

Amara came busting in like the baddest of bitches - didn’t break a sweat when the devil attacked her.

Cesar & Jesse - ugh I loved them!!!!! We need more Latinos in this show!!! They won’t be back since they apparently retired but good for them! They got the fuck out!

Lol when Dean assumed they were brothers - they look nothing alike Dean 🤣🤣🤣🤣

When Dean asked what it was like - 2 tough, swole men together like that - why you curious Dean 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

They were really trying to recruit them - I was like oh heeeeell noooooo don’t wrap them up in your shit they’re 2 innocent sexy bears - you leave them alone!!!!! We don’t need to befriend more people to have them die for the Winchesters - enough is enough! I’m still not over Kevin. That poor bby.

Part 2 incoming!

[sarah-dipitous]

Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 129

...And Then There Were None/The Time of Angels

"...And Then There Were None"

Plot Description: In search of Mother of All's latest monster, Sam, Dean, and Bobby run into Samuel and Gwen Campbell and fight about how to handle the case.

Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: Honestly, I'm conflicted. Partly because I have no idea if that guy survived or if he got turned into a monster or what...

Guess he lived.

AWWWW RUFUS IS HERE TOO!!!!

Oh damn. I guess this IS the first time Bobby and Samuel are meeting.

Uh, DEAN? WHY DID YOU SHOOT GWEN? I know there's no real love lost between you and the Campbells, but...oh, it's whatever happened to the guys from the cannery, maybe

Good. Everyone hates Samuel, except maybe Rufus, but that's more of a Rufus doesn't give a shit about the Campbells outside of what info they have about what's going on

No, what the actual fuck. Because Samuel was DEAD. They were cutting open his HEAD. And all of a sudden he's alive again?! Because the creature that crawled in his skull activates with electricity?? Wtf is this episode even?

So now they're taking turn electrocuting themselves to prove the creature is not in them...sure.

NOOOOOOO, RUFUSSSSSS!!!!! RIP, you were a real one

Please don't tell me they lost Bobby, too....the cut to the cemetery was too obvious

"Been On My Mind...": Nope. 6...I'm pretty sure.

"The Time of Angels"

Plot Description: The Doctor tracks the last of the Weeping Angels through the terrifying Maze of the Dead.

It's the first half of a two parter, so my thoughts are probably going to be sparse. I forgot River was back this episode!!

Amy's outfits are so good.

The Doctor is the kind of guy who doesn't get something fixed in his car because it gives it character

River's a great TARDIS pilot. the Doctor's just salty

AMYYYYYY teasing the Doctor about the relationship he and River will eventually have.

My disdain for Moffat changing the rules of the Angels won't go away. The whole "that which holds the image of an angel becomes an angel" thing is terrible. And it definitely shouldn't have affected Amy. They were terrifying enough as they were

Oh. Oh no, Amy. It's starting.

Are we following these guys because they're Angel fodder? Because we really don't know enough about them for me to care about them this late at night. Sorry.

This set would be so cool to go through if I weren't also terrified of it

(I can't remember. Is the Angel calling Bob? Does Bob become an angel?)

Ah, damn...they fucking killed Bob and stole his vocal cords so they could talk to the Doctor. What the fuck.

Yeah, maybe we didn't know a whole lot about the Angels in Blink, but they've been given TOO many gimmicks.

You know...I like the Doctor and Amy like this. They're almost sibling like. He just bit her hand to make her finally believe it wasn't made of stone, and then she was complaining about his spit on it. I love this for them. I wish their relationship could have just stayed like this and not have the weird not-love-triangle but jealousy angle with Rory.

[rewatching-sam-and-dean]

My Thoughts on Supernatural, Season 11

This post was inspired by a post I saw from @seasononesam , found here

I actually consider this season to be one of my favorites of the late seasons but, like so often happens with this weirdo show, it’s not because of the season plot. Rather, I love how hard this season goes on the Sam and Dean of it all, especially after the last 2-3 years of angst. And I like a lot of the MOTW episodes.

Please feel free to comment reblog with your takes on these episodes (if you actually see this post somehow), or on other ones you like or dislike.

Please find my episode breakdown under the cut (I don’t want to clutter up anyone’s timeline with a long post).

Episodes I Pretty Much Love:

Baby

- Give me all the brother talks, "Night Moves", and quiet bonding

- Sam re-loses his virginity, and Dean is weirdly proud of his brother for hooking up. As usual.

- The Sam and Not-John vision is interesting and surprised me.

- I’ve heard the story way too many times, but Dean doing the reverse 180 is pretty hot.

- Interesting concept

Just my imagination

- At first I didn’t like this one because it felt too "kiddy."

- I love Sully, I love Sully and Sam, and I love Jared's acting in his talk with Sully near the end, and I didn’t expect it in this silly episode.

- The silliness has grown on me, and Dean's reactions to the Zana (don’t know how to spell it and don’t want to look it up) is pretty amusing.

Oh Brother Where Art Thou?

- I love all the Sam stuff

- Crowley and Rowena and their dysfunction is mostly amusing in this one.

- Sam's devastation when he finds out it wasn’t God who was speaking to him is heartbreaking.

- But, shut up Amara and Angels!

The Devil in the Details

- Sam and Lucifer walking down Sam's memory lane is interesting. Colin Ford!

- Jared's portrayal of a terrified but brave Sam is *chef's kiss*

- Dean's indignant "Have you met me?" is very on point and makes me smile every time.

- Sam trusting in Dean to save him is very little brother energy, and protective Dean is always good.

- But, Cass, you’re an idiot, and you crapped on Sam's willingness to die rather than let the devil out of the cage

Safe House

- Bobby and Rufus in the past cut together with Sam and Dean now is really enjoyable for me. I like the transitions.

- Dean and Bobby seeing each other in the nest is cool and sad since Bobby is long dead in the current timeline.

- Bobby seeing Sam and Dean in the nest (parts of your soul or people you love) since he sees them as his boys is nice.

- Dean seeing only Sam in the nest is so accurate for him. We know Sam is a piece of his soul, but this could also be seen as seeing his son (like Bobby), or like seeing his partner (like the woman who saw her husband). It’s a rich tapestry :)

- Sorry but I have to … who did he not see …? For the hellers in the back …

Red Meat

- Everything!

- Hurt Sam. BAMF Sam. Protective Dean. Romeo Dean.

- Sam is the man (or person) Dean loves. This episode could be in Season 2, and I mean that in a good way. Though I have to admit the werewolf guy is a bit over the top at the for for me.

Don’t Call Me Shurley

- While I don’t love what happens with Chuck down the road, I did find this episode moving. Chuck at the end healing and helping people actually choked me up on the first watch.

- This is the only time Metatron doesn’t completely suck, so far

- Sam and Dean in the fog always gets me, especially how Dean has not learned his lesson of letting Sam go, and tries to breath in the fog to join him in getting infected.

- The Samulet - it being in Sam's pocket tells me that Sam has carried it with him since "Dark Side of the Moon" - fight me!

Honorable Mentions:

Form and Void

- Pro: BAMF and Smart Sam, again

- Con: shut up Baby Amara!

Thin Lizzie

- Pro: gives me slightly older-school SPN vibes; just working a case

- Cons: shut up Tween Amara with your weird crush on Dean!

Into the Mystic

- Pros: The talk between the brothers near the end of the episode is nice, where Sam apologizes for not continuing to look for him, and Dean is gracious about it. I also like how the episode is bookended with Sam not able to sleep at the beginning and Dean not able to sleep at the end. Also, I kinda like the old lady, I generally like Eileen (just not in a ship with Sam), and this is one of the few times I don’t mind Misha as Cassifer

- Cons: the banshee looks weird, and does a little too anticlimactically for me (though I gues that kinda the point).

Don’t You Forget About Me

- Pro: I generally like Alex, and I don’t mind Claire in this one, and I’m actually interested in the Jody and co. dynamics which isn’t always the case. The sex talk at the table is funny.

- Con: Nothing really stand out as a con in this one for me, other than I never exactly need a Claire episode.

Beyond the Mat

- Pro: Sam and Dean having fun together and watching the wrestling, and Dean making an ass of himself getting into the ring are fun.

- Cons: I don’t really like the actual case and find it a tad boring.

Alpha and Omega

- Pro: Sam and Dean hug with "no chick flick" callback, and Dean saves the day because of how much he and Sam love each other. It saves the world this time.

- Cons: BMOL plot crap watering down the episode, Chuck and Amara is kind of a weak ending since the drama is boiled down to a silly sibling issue and could have been avoided easily.

The rest of the episodes, unless I’m forgetting one, are either just "meh" to me, or I actively dislike them. Especially any other episodes with a big Amara focus generally are not for me.

The Bad Seed

- Shut. Up. Little Amara! I find her deeply irritating.

Plush

- pretty much only thing I find amusing and not bad-weird in this episode is Sam and Dean joking about the jail bunny, but refusing to laugh at each other’s jokes.

Love Hurts

- in past episodes I feel like this would have been done better. It feels like a lake echo of episodes we’ve had before, and I just don’t enjoy it.

- Small pro: Dean finally tells Sam the truth about his weird Amara connection, and Sam is super chill about it even though he’s worried. Honesty, friends.

Hell's Angel

- Shut up Cassifer!

Alpha and Omega

- yeah I mentioned this before, but I need to double down on the BMOL eating up screen time and the easy Chuck and Amara solution.

[bustyasianbeautiespod]

Episode 116 Transcript: You’re Just a Baby in a Trenchie

[intro guitar music]

G: Hello, it's Grey.

C: Hello, it's Crystal.

G: And this is Busty Asian Beauties, a Supernatural commentary podcast where I, someone who has seen this show several times...

C: And I, someone who only knows the show through social media, discuss every single episode of Supernatural from start to finish. Also, we are both Asian.

G: Both Asian! For today's episode, we are gonna be discussing Season 6, Episode 12: "Like a Virgin," written by Adam Glass, directed by Philip Sgriccia. Hi, Phil!

C: Completely unserious episode. [G laughs]

G: There was a lot of zooms this episode. I was tricked into thinking this was by Robert Singer, and it's literally not. But it was-

C: He was in drag. Phil Sgriccia was in drag.

G: Literally. And I found it so- honestly, I was like, "Wow, for the first time, the zooms don't feel like they're too extra. They just feel just right." [C laughs] They're well-timed. The zoom in to Sam's face after Cas tells him that he's been walking around with no soul, I was like, "Wow, they really were able to accentuate Jared Padalecki’s acting skills, good for them." And it literally wasn't Robert Singer.

C: Yeah, no he never learned.

G: Thanks, Phil.

C: Thanks, Phil.

G: Yeah, this one aired in February 4, 2011, which is so long because the last one was in December 14. Do you remember?

C: Oh, yeah. So that's why they had a “Road So Far,” I suppose.

C: Yeah, this is the- they're back after the mid-season hiatus. The whole point is to introduce the plot of the second half, basically. And they did do that! They very much did.

C: I just- okay. It's an episode that is meant to be very, I think, emotionally serious, given that it's the “Sam comes back” episode. Why did they pair it with a stupid-ass case, and then spend five minutes of a pretty short episode on “What if Dean was talking to a professor from porn instead of a real one?” [both laugh] And what was all of this? What was all of this? There were good stuff. I was very happy to see Sam again. [G: Very happy.] [laughing] But the use of time was not good. [G laughs]

G: God, I feel so called out. This prof literally is like a professor from pornography. [C laughing] But I love her!

C: God. [laughing] I could not, [G laughing] because of how she was a professor from porn. Pornography.

G: I was both fascinated by and irritated by the fact that they implied that something was up with her and Bobby.

C: Yeah. As if. [laughs]

G: Yeah, first, I was irritated because I'm like, “Oh, fuck off.” But I was also fascinated because I'm like, “What is-” like, Bobby's living the bisexual dream. He's literally having terrible situationships with everyone! And good for him.

C: That's true. The fact that she hates him is quite fun.

G: Yeah. I love that she hates him, Rufus hates him, it's so important.

C: Yeah, exactly.

G: Yeah. Love is love. I have been saying that so much recently, and it's true. Love is love.

C: [laughs] Uh-huh. I agree.

G: What did you know about this episode before going into it?

C: Like, truly nothing, but by the time the second girl gets attacked on screen, I was like, “Oh, wait! This is the dragon episode with dragons who are literally just a man.” [both laugh] So that's all I knew.

G: Yeah, I did not- Prior to watching it for real, I knew a shocking little about this episode. I didn't even know that when Sam comes back, he doesn't remember, initially. I thought the “Cas is alive, too?” is from somewhere else. Where could it possibly be from else?

C: Cas dies so much. Probably... Season 12, it could have happened, right? Cas gets stabbed, Sam gets kidnapped by BMOL.

G: Yeah, I suppose so, yeah. What if in Season 12, [laughs] there is a scene where Sam goes, “Cas is alive, too?” and there's just two of them. There's just two of these scenes.

C: Maybe so.

G: This one has the iconic Sam praying for Cas. Love that scene. I had to slow it the fuck down for an AMV once, [C laughs] and it's been embedded in my head since then. [C: Excellent.] Yeah. And of course, the dragon who is literally just some guy. [C laughs] It's kind of wild. I missed Sam so much.

C: No, same!

G: When they were just doing the case, I was like, “Ah! And Sam's doing a case!”

C: For real.

G: I know that you didn't like the case aspect of it. I mean, I just- I’ve said this over and over again. I love case eps, and this one, it's straddling the line, but it is pretty solidly, I think, in the case ep camp, and I love that. I love a case episode, and I love even more so that Sam is back, doing a case episode. I love Supernatural! Who'd have thunk?

C: I like Sam Winchester and Castiel.

G: Yeah. Sastiel is so real.

C: No, Sastiel’s the realest thing in the entire world this episode. [both laugh] Cas don’t give a fuck about Dean, also. Destiel's super unreal, [G laughs] and Sastiel's super real this episode.

G: Yeah, okay. Well, let's start. We have a very long “Road So Far,” and the song is like, it just repeats, “We're back in the saddle” or whatever throughout the song or something.

C: And they are.

G: And they are back in the fucking saddle. And I don't know. It's just a recap of Season 6. There's nothing creative about it, do you feel like?

C: Yeah, no, I felt pretty disappointed.

G: Yeah, because usually, they do have a theme going on, or something that they repeat and makes you go, “Oh my god, so true!” or whatever. Or just an incredibly funny line-to-lyric situation. But here, it's just whatever.

C: Was there a monster that you- There was a monster I didn't recognize in it.

G: Which one?

C: The big eyes CGI whatever thing? I forgot where that was from.

G: I truly don't know what you're talking about.

C: Okay, yeah. It was a creature. It looked sort of aquatic, it had really big eyes, and it looks very CGI'd.

G: Where did we get a CGI monster in Season 6?

C: I feel like what it was is that it was probably a person most of the episode, and there was a brief moment when its true form was revealed, and I just don't remember what monster that was.

G: Yeah. And I was sniffing, and you were glugging water or something [C laughing] when it happened.

C: Yeah, yeah, I think that is true.

G: Okay, well, we start the episode.

C: I guess the only thing to say about the “Road So Far” is that I think, as has been misused in the past, the Lisa “I need you to go. You're a hunter.” line is used again, and it makes it seem like that's why she broke up with him in the “Road So Far,” and it's not. They were literally having a normal conversation about balancing life in that scene. But oh, well. Sorry, Lisa.

G: What's fascinating is like, I feel like Dean has started to rewrite in his mind the way that relationship fell apart, also. We haven't really heard him talk about it a lot, but I don't know. I'm just excited to see how he does talk about it when he does because, I mean, we're gonna erase those memories soon. So like, [both laugh] we're never gonna see them again.

C: That's crazy that he did that. Dean hasn't even seen them- By that point. Dean hasn't seen them for over half the season. They probably already forgot him! [both laugh]

G: Yes, very easy thing to forget. [C: Yeah.]

-

G: We start the episode with a good old-fashioned cold open. Like, literally unrelated to- It's not unrelated, but it's not related to the plot. It's just fuck-all. So important. It also looks very bad! [laughs]

C: No, the CGI plane is not good.

G: No, because before watching this episode, Crystal told me, “Hey, there's a plane crash this episode” because I've been having weird whatever anxieties about planes. Very valid, if I must say. I don't think that's an inflated reaction. I think that's literally normal. But I was like, "Oh, there's gonna be a plane crash. Okay, I’ll consider that." [laughing] And then I saw this, [C laughing] and I was like, "It's so far-"

C: "In no world would this upset me, because it looks so stupid"?

G: "This is so far beyond the realm of reality that I'm like, 'It's not happening!'" [C: Real.] And yeah, so it's this super tiny- what is the difference between a plane and a helicopter?

C: I don't know.

G: I don't think this is a helicopter. Because it doesn't have the rotation on the top.

C: Yeah, yeah, I think a plane has the big wings on the sides and the helicopter has the spinny thing on top. Propeller. [laughs]

G: Yeah, and this has the wings on the side, so this is a very tiny plane. So small. Think of the smallest plane you can think of. It's smaller than that. This is crazy small. And it's a two-seater, fully. The pilot is just some guy. [both laugh] It's not like he's a pilot or anything. He's just like a hobbyist plane flyer. And the passenger is this girl. Later, they say she's 22, right? [C: Yeah.] And so yeah, they're a young adult couple. She is terrified because the boyfriend made her go to this flight. They didn't expect that there's going to be so much weather. I don't know. Hijinks happens. She's like, “Oh my god! There's a giant fucking thing flying beside us,” and the guy's like, “No, that's just birds!” [laughs] And then he told her, “Just close your eyes,” and then she did, and then a giant fucking thing gets the boyfriend out of the plane, fully out of the plane, but the plane's still flying. The windshield is gone, and the plane has not changed directions at all? [laughs]

C: It's just a little windy now.

G: Her hair is just being swept by the wind. Anyway, that's the end of it. We don't see her get taken, but don't worry. She does.

C: Yeah, we just hear it scream and fall a bit.

-

C: So we cut to Bobby’s, and Sam’s soul has been put back in, but he's still not awake. And Dean's standing outside anxiously.

G: Well, we open the door, and it's Cas going out. Or are you just about to say that? I'm sorry.

C: Yeah, I'm about to say that.

G: So important.

C: It is very important that we open the door and Cas comes out.

G: And is rolling down his sleeves.

C: Yeah, you have used this in a certain AMV that I think we've truly never mentioned and definitely don't mention several times per episode. [G laughs] [G: Literally.] But that is what makes them good in bed. [G: Literally.] So he's been giving Sam a checkup, and his soul is there. And Dean's like, “Well, is he gonna wake up?” And Cas is like, “I'm fucking pissed at you. Probably not. He's probably dead forever. Have fun, Dean.” And specifically, he tells Dean, “I warned you not to put that thing back inside him.” And Dean's like, “Well, he was dangerous walking around without a soul,” and Cas-

G: And Cas recommends that he should have just killed him, then. [laughs] [C: Yes.] I mean, he doesn't say it like that.

C: Well, he says that Sam's soul felt like it had been skinned alive, and he's really angry. I feel like we haven't seen Cas be so-

G: He does the menacing walk towards- you know, the-

C: Yeah. [G: Yeah.] When was the last time we've seen him this angry?

G: "I have given- Two of my brothers died this week," blah blah blah. [C: Yeah.] What's the line for that? "Two of my brothers died this week. I gave you everything for nothing. [C laughs] So keep your opinions to yourself." It has the same vibe as that. [C: Yeah, because-] He's also menacingly walking towards Dean. Of course, the other time we see him angry is when he literally beat Dean up in an alley, but yeah.

C: Yeah. Hell yeah, baby. [both laugh]

G: Literally. Do you remember that episode? You were like, "We don't know how to talk about this." [both laugh] And we literally didn't. [C laughing]

C: Yeah. And we didn't. [G laughs] And yeah, and he says, “If you wanted to kill your brother, you should have done it outright.” [G: Yeah.] A real slay. A real slay of a line, I must say.

G: Yeah, and the way that- I feel like Cas is the only one on Sam's side! [C: Yeah.] The way he's so angry here on Sam's behalf, and the way he's so happy later, it's just so nice. [C: It is.] It's so wonderful that he literally hated this guy and left his soul on the fucking Cage-

C: Not on purpose!

G: - And also he didn't answer his prayers for a year, but you know. The prayer thing was on purpose.

C: Out of guilt! [G laughs] Yeah, out of guilt and being very busy. That is probably part of the anger. The guilt.

G: No, yeah. But we can't reveal that yet.

C: Yeah, but I'd like to believe it's just because he wuvs Sam!

G: I mean, I'm sure he feels a thing for Sam. [C laughs]

C: No, no, I agree. I do think that he loves Sam, and that Sam is his family or getting there. But yeah, I think guilt-

G: I don't think Sam is his family! [laughs]

C: Is he not yet?

G: You thinks he looks at Sam and he's like, “Sam, you're my family”? [laughing] Even saying it, that's so weird! [C laughs] [laughing] Is this so mean? I'm trying to say that-

C: Okay, I think maybe post-Godstiel and all of that, I think it is like closer to when that is true.

G: Okay. When do you think Cas starts thinking of Sam and Dean as family? [C: I think-] Well, first of all, I just wanna say, personally, I find the whole thing ridiculous that you have to put the label “family” to someone who's not family to make it valid that, like, they're important to you. I feel like it's one of those-

C: What if they're secretly half-brothers?

G: [laughs] That's a reference to The Kite Runner-

C: Yeah, spoilers.

G: - which is a good book. It's a good book. Oh, yeah, we can't say that!

C: It's not a reference to The Kite Runner. [both laugh]

G: It's literally not. Who wrote- Khaled Hosseini, right? So check it out. Or maybe not. I don't know. We don't know. We don't know anything about it. We've never said anything about it or spoiled it.

C: Yeah, I don't know. Warnings for like, three different child rapes, I guess, if you do read it.

G: I just feel like the whole idea of "We need to say that we're family," it's like they're trying to say that "Family is not the most important thing, and the way we say that is to just assign the other people family." [C: Uh-huh.] So you know, it's still giving primacy to the concept. So first of all, I just want to say that. And then my second thing I want to say is, [laughs] when'd Cas start thinking Sam and Dean as his family?

C: I think before Season 9, so that the being kicked out was such a shock.

G: Interesting question. I don't think so! He was literally gonna lock himself up in Heaven.

C: In when?

G: In Season 8! At the end of Season 8.

C: I mean, that sounds like something anyone would do. [both laugh]

G: Yeah, so true.

C: I also didn't know that.

G: Oh, I'm so sorry!

C: No, it's cool. I have no clue what the context is, so.

G: He's gonna close the heavenly gates and Metatron tricks him, and there was a cut scene where he was supposed to enter a room, and there's naked pictures of Dean in there.

C: Oh, yeah! I think just shirtless.

G: So true. Just like Cas in Season 12.

C: So true. In another deleted scene. Well, when do you think Cas started thinking of them as his family?

G: I think having to choose Dean over Heaven in Season 9 was it.

C: Didn't he also do that in Season 8 in "Goodbye, Stranger" in a way?

G: Yeah, but that one was like too gay, you know? [C laughs] That one was like-

C: Okay. And this was "When did he start thinking of both of them as his family?" so-

G: Yeah, not just Dean. I feel like Season 8 was just Dean, and then Season 9 was like, Sam's also there. Etc.

C: Okay. But doesn't Dean already think of Cas as his family at this point, though, in some way?

G: I think he says in Season 6- I think Dean thinks of Cas as- I suppose- [laughing] The way we're using "family" so nebulously is hilarious.

C: We're using it in the way that [G: Supernatural-] the text we're discussing uses it. I just feel like "The Man Who Would Be King-"

G: Season 6, he will say "You're like a brother to me" or something.

C: Is that in Season 6?

G: No, okay. In Season 6, he goes, "I've lost Lisa and Ben, and now I've lost Sam. Don't make me lose you, too."

C: When did he lose Sam?

G: [laughing] I don't even know.

C: Isn't he so back? Isn't he so back?

G: [laughing] I think it's when Cas takes off the fucking wall.

C: So that's Season 7, then?

G: It's Season 6!

C: When he's begging Cas to be normo? That's fair.

G: At the end of episode 20, which is "The Man Who Would Be King," he tells Cas, "Don't make me lose you, too." And Cas goes, "I can't." And then Dean's like, "Okay, then I'll do whatever I can to stop you." And Cas goes like, "Well, I'm just an-" like- "You're just a man. I'm an angel." [C: Hot.] Literally. I can't wait.

C: Yeah. I think the one I was thinking about was when Dean told Sam, "If this was literally anybody else but Cas, I would have mistrusted and tried to kill him already."

G: No, yeah. [fake-sobs] [C laughs] Yeah, wonderful. "It's Cas!" That's what he said to Bobby.

C: Augh! Whatever, maybe Destiel can be a little bit real.

G: But the thing is like, that's not the Team Free Will as family. That's just Dean and Cas-

C: No, it's just Dean and Cas being a little bit gay.

G: Sam the entire time was like, "No, Dean. He's betraying us." You know?

C: Yeah, yeah, that's true. That's true. Cas doesn't love Sam or view him as his family, I suppose.

G: I think Bobby- I vehemently believe this. Bobby needs to die first [C: Ah.] before Cas replaces him as family.

C: Gets promoted.

G: Yeah, yeah. [laughs] They need to fire Bobby first.

C: Yeah. Yeah, so true.

G: So right now, they're just still gaying it up.

C: But yeah, anyway, the line "If you wanted to kill your brother, you should have done it outright." I mean, I like it because I think, correct. Dean did want Sam to die previously. A good time.

Dean and Bobby drank a little bit and wait for Sam to wake up.

G: Yeah. Bobby says, "Just 'cause it kills your liver doesn't mean it ain't medicine," and you know what? It's true.

C: Sure. [both laugh]

G: I'm not promoting alcoholism. I'm just saying a lot of medicine kills your liver! It's a true fact!

C: That's true. That's true. So yeah, Bobby mentions the plane crash we saw in the cold open as a potential case, which Dean wants to take on as a distraction. He hears from behind him Sam saying, "Dean." And it's Sam and he's back!!

G: I'm so happy.

C: It's Sam! Oh my god. Yeah, I know the whole time soulless Sam was on screen, we were like, "We love him. We think he's so funny." I don't give a fuck about soulless Sam anymore. Hi! I missed real Sam.

G: Literally. Later, when he finds out, and then he stops himself from confronting Dean there and then, I was like, "Saaaam!"

C: That's Sam!

G: Yeah, because if he was soulless, he would have just done it, you know?

C: Yeah or not done it and tried to kill him. [laughs]

G: Yeah, but the fact that that is him trying to be like, the emotional sensitivity of "I can't burden Dean with this before we finish the case." [C: Yeah.] I don't know. The thing is that, I think I said when soulless Sam was happening that "Sam should have just been, you know, like this. He should have been like this towards Dean the whole time," blah blah blah. But the reality of the situation is Sam is a thoughtful person, and he's so caring, and I don't know, you know? I think it poses such an interesting question of like, what makes a person themself? And soulless Sam was Sam, but I don't know. The way Sam words it later, it's very fascinating. I was deeply fascinated by it. And also, I missed him tremendously.

C: Yeah, yeah. I saw him doing his little facial expressions, and it did make me almost tear up.

G: Yeah. [laughs] Can you believe that Supernatural is a TV show that we like?

C: Yeah, yeah. I mean, I don't really believe that other part. [both laugh] But it is a TV show.

G: That's true.

C: Yeah. And Dean stands up in shock, and then Sam goes over to him and hugs him soo tightly. And it's meant to be a very deliberate departure from their 6.01 hug where Sam's like, "Okay!"

G: Yeah. And Dean was the one doing the emo thing. Dean is actually primarily just shocked.

C: Sam sees Bobby, and he's so happy to see this man who loves him like a coworker who tried to kill him.

G: Literally!

C: He hugs him, and then he goes, "Wait. I felt Lucifer snap your neck." And Bobby goes, "Well, Cas, he-" and Sam goes, "[both] Cas is alive?" and he's so happy about it! He's so surprised and so happy about it.

G: Yeah, it's not just a passing remark. They linger on it, and I'm so happy that they do. [C: Yeah, yeah.] I'm thinking of the last conversation that they must have had at this point was Sam telling Cas, "Take care of Dean and Bobby!"

C: And Cas going, "Can't do it. But okay."

G: "So you want me to be- you want me to lie?" He's so iconic.

C: He's soo iconic.

G: I suppose I didn't really think of Cas and Sam as friends in Season 5, not particularly, but-

C: Cas warns Anna to stay away from Sam and not hurt him in a very intense way.

G: Yeah. But like, do they have bonding moments? Do they ever bond? [laughs]

C: Probably not profoundly, but-

G: So true! And Cas did explicitly say this. But it's nice to know that Sam seems very fond of him, even still. That's his buddy.

C: He's his buddy. He says that he's starving, so yeah.

G: Which supports my theory that soulless Sam didn't need to eat.

C: Yeah, he might have done it less often.

G: It could have been also just that he was asleep for like, [laughs] god knows how fucking long.

C: Yeah, that's true.

G: So it could be anything. It doesn't support nor deny anything. Unfortunate. [C: Yeah.] He's gouging on the sandwich. Bobby and Dean are trying to whittle out what Sam remembers, and we get flashbacks of "Swan Song" to tell us that Sam is being for real. [laughs] He's not lying about the fact that this is what he remembers. And all he remembers is going into the pit and then waking up a couple of minutes ago. And Bobby is trying to press. He is trying to press, but Dean keeps on stopping him. Apparently, it's been a year and a half. So it's been half a year since the beginning of the season. So how long do you think has it been since Lisa and Ben?

C: Huh, okay.

G: Like 3 months?

C: Wait, okay. The last time that they talked in any way was in "You Can't Handle the Truth," which was 6.06? [G: Okay.] So yeah. But also, I feel like the hiatus is- No, no, it doesn't actually mean anything. So yeah, three months.

G: Yeah, anyway, Sam asked, "Was it Cas? Dean goes, "Nuh-uh!" And Sam starts accusing Dean of having done it and Dean goes, "Me and Death-"

C: Having done a deal or something.

G: Yeah. "Me and Death-" and Sam's like, "Death? The horseman?" But Dean is like, "No, it's over. Slate's wiped. It's fine. Don't worry about it." Sam asks pointedly if there's anything else he needs to know, and Dean just goes, "No." Hell yeah. Love lying.

C: Yeah. And Bobby's not enjoying any of this.

G: I was wondering what Dean's game plan is. 'Cause Bobby points it out, right? "What are you trying- He's gonna find it out. At some point, he's gonna figure it out, or somebody's gonna tell him." And he did both. Good for him. He's so smart.

C: He's just trying to have a nice week. I think that's really it. [laughs]

G: Yeah. I suppose it's not- To be fair to Dean, I never considered that maybe the reason why he's hiding it from Sam is because he knows Sam will be guilty. [C: Mm.] I don't even know what I thought he was hiding it to Sam for.

C: To prevent the wall from coming down, I think, is what he says explicitly.

G: Okay, you're right. That one. But I thought it was just like a- I don't know. Like a power trip thing.

C: [laughs] Oh, really?

G: Yeah, but, you know, like, "Oh, this is a situation I have control over." [C: Huh.] And he must have felt so powerless with soulless Sam because of how soulless Sam acted and felt and etc. And so there must be a part of him that is vying for that control back, and that's how I felt about a lot of what he was doing this episode, like, I don't know. I mean, yeah, it is so that the wall doesn't crumble, fall to dust, and disappear. But yeah. That's the thing. I'm like, "It's not for Dean. It's not Dean's call to make," but also, I suppose it kind of is. I don't know. I don't know. But I never- I don't know. Maybe this is just lacking on my part, but I never really considered that part of the equation would be "Sam's gonna feel so bad." [C: Yeah.] Yeah. Even though I explicitly mentioned that as one of the ways Dean can guilt soulless Sam into doing better, by telling him, "When you get your soul back, you're gonna feel so horrible." [C: Yeah, yeah.] Yeah, don't worry. He'll still feel horrible.

C: Sure will. I think I read it as, you know, not wanting the memories to come down. I don't think I was thinking about the Sam being guilty thing that much, either. I think what I was thinking was more just that, those siz months were horrible, and Dean also wants to forget that they happened. [G: That's true.] He's just so happy to have his brother back that he wants it to be as smooth as possible, and as easy to forget the six months as possible.

G: Yeah, but my perspective was like, "That's not his call to make!"

C: Yeah, I agree.

G: But you know, etc.

C: I'm glad Cas told him. And also- I don't know. We can get to it when we get to it, but Cas tells him in a way that implies that Cas never thought that Dean would keep it from him, which I feel like if you know Dean, [laughs] is not a super valid assumption to make.

G: Yeah. I love that entire scene. It's so wonderful. It's good Sam character work. It's good Cas character work. I just love it.

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G: Yeah, anyway, right now, where we are is Bobby's- what is it? Hemming and hawing? That's what people say, right?

C: People say that.

G: It's hem and haw? What a weird combination of words! Yeah. But he is doing such weird combination of things. He's fixing up his car. And the funny thing is, at the beginning of this conversation, he is speaking at a normal voice. The conversation is going, "What are we doing? Why don't we just tell him? Is this the right thing to do? He tried to kill me. I just have to forgive that? What's that about?" And literally, my thought was like, "Yeah, you have to. Fuck off, Bobby."

C: No, literally.

G: Like, stop being so stuck up! Shut up!

C: Also, Bobby's been possessed by a demon and tried to kill Dean. [G: Yeah.] I feel like all of them, have at some point, their bodies have tried to kill the other one.

G: Yeah. I did just say that Dean should tell Sam, but right now, I'm completely on Dean's side. Shut the fuck up, Bobby. [C: Mm.] What's funny is Dean just goes, "Okay, Bobby, one day. But can we just leave it alone for now?" And Bobby goes, "Okay, fine." And then he turns around semi-defeatedly, but he starts talking so loudly, [laughs] and I just was thinking, like, "Is he trying to get Sam to hear?" He's like, "Okay, fine, Dean." And then he turns toward the direction of where Sam is like, "But you know, if Sam finds out, [C laughs] he's gonna realize this, Dean!" and it's so hilarious. I think so fucking funny.

C: Pretty funny.

G: Bobby said, "What if he hears it from someone, specifically me during this conversation, where I'm shouting every word?" [C laughs]

Bobby and Dean are now underway to the case. You know, earlier this case, they do a Buddy Holly joke. Or not a joke, but they do a Buddy Holly reference. And I was like, "I know what that's about!" [laughs] Anyway, that's not a laughing matter. I just was amused that I finally figured out something that Dean is saying without having to look it up. [C: Hell yeah.] But they're supposed to go. But then Sam shows up and he's like, "Wait, no, I wanna come!" And Dean goes, "Okay, okay, the three of us, then." But Bobby, very- Bobby's not a good actor. He's like, "Um, yeah, I'm so sorry. I need to talk to Rufus or whatever. I don't know." [C laughs]

C: Yeah. "I told him I'd work the phones for him, meaning have phone sex with him. So, bye!"

G: He is so awkward. He's smiling the weird Bobby smile that he does. [C laughs] [laughs] Sorry for calling Bobby's smile "the weird smile that he does," but you know what I mean. And Sam starts going, "What's that about? Why is he so weird?" But Dean just denies that this is happening.

C: A lot of music this episode. A song starts playing on the car radio. I don't recognize it. Apparently, it's Jethro Tull's "A New Day Yesterday," though. Appropriate.

G: What other songs are there?

C: Well, okay, the cold- Okay, I think it was mostly thinking about the- I'm sorry. The "Road So Far" song. And then there's a lot of use of music for comedic effect [G: Oh, yeah, the-] when Dean's talking to the porn professor.

G: Stop calling her the porn professor!

C: Alright, sorry.

G: Her name's Dr. Visyak, or whatever. I forgot.

C: When Dean's talking to Dr. Visyak. [G: Yeah.] So Sam's on the phone. He's talking to some kind of police officer [G: Yeah.] about two disappearances in town.

G: And he goes, "So get this." [screams]

C: He does! He does go, "So get this," and I did start clapping and cheering.

G: Yeah. And I for some reason miss the "It's night, and Sam's calling some fuck-all guy." I missed it! I feel like we haven't seen it a long time, and it's so important to call someone and then go, "So get this" afterwards.

C: So there were two girls who vanished from places where you would not expect them to, and they had no connection to each other. And then Sam starts asking Dean about the year away, and he says, in a slightly teasing, slightly admonishing way, "[both] So you never even tried to go live a life after I died. You do remember that you promised that, right?" Dean's very tense about the whole situation. And he asks, "What makes you think I didn't?" And Sam says, "Because look at you. [both] You're exactly the same." So true. Love it.

G: I love that line. I just- I don't know. I thought it was so charming.

C: And then Dean says that he was with Lisa and Ben for a year, but that it didn't work out. They arrive at the house of Penny, the girl who died in the cold open, and they're talking to her sister, and they make a big deal this episode to be like-

G: Of her room.

C: - and Sam's going to lead all of the interrogations in a way where he makes really sympathetic eyes at everybody and says things like, "I understand." way more than Sam usually does on cases when he has a soul, just to really drive home the difference between soulless Sam and souled Sam.

G: I think it got a little bit- What's so funny is they only do this thing with Sam where he becomes super empathetic when he's about to fuck that woman, you know? [both laugh] They did it with Madison, and they did it with Sarah. And like that's literally it. They did it with "Hook Man" girl. And that's literally it. The "Hook Man" thing was still wild. Why were they doing all that? [C laughs]

C: I don't know. I don't know. And Jess didn't really come up at all that episode, did she? [both laugh] Or I guess she did. I think he talked about her before kissing that girl. Is that real?

G: I don't remember anything about that episode anymore, [laughs] just that we gave Sam five points [both laughing] back when our point system was just completely different.

C: Yeah, yeah. Yeah, her sister doesn't want to talk, but Sam makes sympathetic faces at her until she's like, "Okay. I guess you're so nice that I will talk to you."

G: [laughing] He's just like, "Pwease! Pwease let us talk to you!" and it works. Good for him.

C: They go to her room, which is-

G: And I point out the pointing out the room because, as you remember, Phil Sgriccia is also the guy who is known for the disco room, or whatever that was. [C: Yes.] But this time, the room is relevant. They make a point of pointing out-

C: It's not. I mean, the picture maybe is. The rest is not. Only Dean thinks it's relevant.

G: No, literally. What a wild- Okay, let's continue first.

C: Yeah, so they go to her room, and it's painted pink, I think, and there's a bunch of stuffed animals, and there's a framed photo next to the bed of the guy flying the plane. Just him.

G: So weird.

C: Yeah. Supernatural- remember when Kate Milligan had a framed photo-

G: Yes. And it was the photo that falls right before she gets killed. [laughs]

C: Yeah, yeah. But that one, she was in it, too, right? It was her and John.

G: Yeah, her and John and- wait, no.

C: So I think that's more normal. Yeah, I don't think Adam was there. Having both of you, I think that's fine. Having just that guy, why? [laughs]

G: Yeah. Is he a father that died when you were really young? [both laugh] What's that about?

C: No, literally. Her sister is saying that she was very shy and not adventurous, but she loved Stan so much that she was willing to go on this plane with him. She's very sad. She says, "I just wish I told her to stay home. We don't even have a body to bury."

G: Which, that did make me sad.

C: And I was like, "Okay, so there will be mirrors?" But there were no mirrors this episode [G laughs] because it's a deeply unserious case.

G: No, literally.

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G: So now we go to Sam and Dean. They're in the usual setup of motel room. What he has found is that all of these girls that have gone missing "bake cookies for the Lord" is how he puts it, so they're very like church choir-y, blah blah blah, promise ring clubs. At first, Dean asked, "Oh, is it a prayer thing?" But Sam says, "No, Penny wasn't Christian, but she just had a promise ring."

C: I don't think she had a promise ring.

G: Ah, they found out that she's a virgin because of the diary that Dean steals.

C: Yeah. And also, she has stuffed animals in her room! [laughs]

G: No, okay. So Dean says that he has a theory, which is that- And then he pulls out a notebook that is black- They should have made it pink if they're gonna stick with the theme. Come on, guys. Sam slightly admonishes him for stealing it from the room. And I did find it a little bit charming when Dean goes, "Oh, I love that you even asked me that." Aw, yeah!

C: Yeah, it is a him missing old Sam thing, it's fun.

G: And Sam goes like, "Why wouldn't I?" because he doesn't know anything. And so Dean just goes, "So all these girlnappings," he calls, "it's not about religion. It's about purity." because he thinks they're all virgins. And Sam has this whole bit where he was like, "That's impossible! [C laughs] She's 22!"

C: Yeah, well.

G: Hilarious.

C: Hilarious.

G: Yeah. What a wild thing. I feel like- I don't know. I don't know. I'm not American. We have a different disposition. But even- I don't know. Are people like- I don't know. I don't know.

C: I recall that in college I feel like most people weren't virgins, but I don't know if that most was like, 51 or like, 85, you know what I mean? I don't know where it was at.

G: I think most people in my life are virgins, but I also, for some reason, only befriend people who have never dated in their life. [laughs] So like, who knows? Yeah. And their argument for why she's a virgin is she has a pink room. Well, Dean's argument for why she's a virgin is because she has a pink room, which I have! Stuffed teddy bears- don't have, unfortunately.

C: I do, and I'm a virgin, so I guess Dean's right.

G: No, but I have the pink room and no stuffed animals, and I'm not a virgin, so like, it's-

C: It's true. I have the stuffed teddy bears, but I don't have a pink room.

G: We don't have the full combo, so we'll never know.

C: No, you're right.

G: His like blazing gun is that he opens a diary and there's a line about how Penny is gonna give her "most precious gift" to Stan. [C laughs] And he reads the phrase, and Sam's like, "That's so fucking weird and creepy." And Dean goes, "I think I delivered it," which that line- like this entire scene. I was mildly uncomfortable. But when Dean goes, "I think I delivered it," I was like, "Okay, well, that's a bit funny." Do you think that's true or not true? Do you disagree? What are your thoughts. [both laughing]

C: I don't think it's that deep.

G: I think it was funny!

C: I have no thoughts on anything ever.

G: Yeah. Sam's like, "Okay, so now, we need to find a monster that wants virgins."

C: Yeah. And Dean mentions twice this episode, "Being a virgin is bad because they're bad at sex."

G: They're corny, tired, and played out.

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C: So we are now at some high school or college that is Catholic. And so there's this woman or girl, and she's walking, and then we hear wingbeats, not in an angel way. And then monster POV towards her face as she gets attacked. And she wakes up in the hospital, and Sam and Dean go over to interview her. And she says that she was attacked by something that looks like a giant bat, and Sam's very like, "I believe you. I don't think you're crazy," etc. And she's kind of scratched up, and she says that she passed out after it attacked her.

G: I did love the look of the large scratches on her back. I think they do their makeup well.

C: Yeah, agreed. She says that something else that happened is that it stole her gold purity ring. And Dean is like, "I need to test a theory." [both laughs] [G: Yeah.] And he goes, "Melissa, look. Nobody is judging anybody here, okay?"

G: You know what? It never even crossed my mind that like it didn't take her because she's not a virgin. [laughs] [C: Yeah, same.] I was amazed at Dean's quick thinking.

C: Yeah. Also, how does it know? From a distance, it thought she was a virgin, and then from up close, it could tell she wasn't? How?

G: The logistics of how this works, of course, whatever, who even knows? [C: Yeah.] I think also just the idea that- I don't know. Dean is so- I don't know. A lot of things are going through my head in this scene. [both laugh] [C: Yeah.] I cannot word any single one of them.

C: Okay. Do you wanna try?

G: [laughs] No. The way he tries to wheedle it out of her-

C: No, it's- Yeah. He tries to make her feel like shit. That's how he does it. [G: Yeah.] He goes, "Yeah, nobody is judging anybody here, okay, believe me. But should you really be wearing that ring?"

G: No, that is a wild thing to ask that question.

C: Yeah. In what way would she be like, "This is pertinent to the discussion at hand."

G: Yeah. And like, I think that's one of the things with Supernatural, they would ask all of these invasive questions, posing as FBI agents, [C laughs] and they'll like reveal anything. And they have this steadfast rule of "We should never tell anyone about anything supernatural," and it's making all of these people's lives worse. Imagine if- 'cause what I interpret, if I was Melissa, right, how I would interpret this is "It attacked me because I was lying about being a virgin." [C: Yeah.] And how fucking traumatizing!

C: No, yeah. And also, everyone can tell that I'm not a virgin, and this guy was sent by God to guilt me about it.

G: And from how she reacts to it, she already feels bad that she's not. [C: Yeah.] So I don't know. What a wild combination of things to be said and done.

C: But yeah, she eventually says that there's some guy that she slept with once.

And they exit the hospital, and we hear Sam say, "So what? You think Batman tried to rape her?" And then we hear Dean say, "Well, he does carry a lot of rage." And I just think it's- I think that it's an off-color joke, and that in this episode where they make such a point to be like, "Sam is different now. He's very sensitive now. He's a cool, nice guy again," the fact that he says this and then Dean says this, and Sam doesn't comment on it at all is a fascinating look into the mind of Adam Glass.

G: No, this is what I was trying to say with the homophobia in- whatever the fuck that episode is.

C: Uh, "Clap Your Hands If You Believe."

G: Yeah, with "Clap Your Hands If You Believe," it's like, "Oh, Sam is like whatever he doesn't care. He doesn't care." But for this specific thing, homophobia transcends a person's soullessness. And here, it's "Jokes like this transcend soul versus soullessness." [C: Yeah.] And it's fascinating, as I've said, what is defined as "just how people are." And here, he is already supposed to have the moral compass or whatever, the filter, and it's still the same. It's like a little bit wild. And also, I did not even connect the dots of what was happening here instantly. Because the scene before it there is a girl, looking at the screen, teary-eyed, going, "Matt Barne didn't count." And then cut to Sam going, "So what? You think Batman raped her?"

C: So you thought Matt Barne raped her, and that was what made her quote-unquote "not a virgin"?

G: Yeah. I mean, I couldn't figure it out immediately. [C: It's tough.] And I don't know. It's just like a weird thing- And obviously, that's not- that's me, comprehension-wise. That's on my side. But like, I don't know. I was like, "Oh, okay, what a weird joke! What a weird thing to say, and a weird way to put it." and etc, etc.

C: Yeah, yeah, indeed. But yeah, Dean says that "And then it didn't take her because she was already dehymenated," which I don't like as a "How did he figure it out."

G: Yeah. And then Dean makes a comment about how "See? Having fun, it's all upsides!" Fuck off, Dean.

C: Yeah, fuck off, Dean. And they're like, "Well, I don't know who this is." Dean makes a P. Diddy joke. Did he rape somebody? Or what was his deal?

G: You don't know?

C: I remember something is up with P. Diddy. I don't know what.

G: Well, he is very in trouble with the law regarding-

C: Ah. I'm seeing sex trafficking. That's no good.

G: Yeah. And it's revealed recently the full extent of it. But apparently, in 2011, people are already making jokes that he's like that.

C: Though Sam says it's comforting that "Even after I died for a year and came back, you're still not funny."

G: [British] Not funnay. You didn't say it the correct way! [C: Sorry.] There's only one correct way to say "Not funnay."

C: Sorry. "You're still not funnay."

G: Yeah. And Dean goes, "Shut up. I'm hilarious." And they get into the car in a supposed to be like, "haha!" way. I don't know. [both laugh] I did go, "haha!" a little bit, so maybe it worked.

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G: They're back in their motel. Sam's Googling, Sam's Googling. And I had the thought, like, "Sam must have figured out that he was back because he had a laptop. Why is his laptop still there? He has a laptop?" [laughs]

C: Why not?

G: You know what I mean- You think Dean kept his laptop the entire time?

C: Why wouldn't he?

G: Well, it's just that there must have been tabs open in that thing. There must have been new files. Did he not download a single file in one and a half years?

C: Maybe Sam's like, "Dean's been using my laptop" [G: Oh, that's true.] because in the past, Dean didn't even have his own, right? There was only Sam's laptop.

G: That's true. You know what? The World of Warcraft website that they showed-

C: I thought it was Busty Asian Beauties.

G: I thought it was Busty Asian Beauties. I thought, honestly, what I thought was gonna happen was, they're going to make a gag about "I can't believe it, Dean! You were watching porn on my laptop!"

C: "While I was dead, you used my laptop to jack off."

G: Literally. Because he starts the scene going, "This can't be possible!" And I literally was like, "There's a virus. It's gonna kill his laptop forever." [C laughs] [C: Yeah.] But what he's saying is, when he googles fire, claws, flying, stealing virgins, and gold, all that comes up is World of Warcraft fansites.

C: The only place where dragons are ever mentioned on the Internet.

G: Yeah. Where else are dragons mentioned? I'm sure DnD or something.

C: Most mythology? Not most. A lot of mythology.

G: All cultures, yeah.

C: All cultures. [laughs] I mean, European, the one that exists a lot, and Chinese, the one that exists a lot in my life. So all my cultures. [both laugh]

G: Yeah, so true. Aren't they called something else? Oh, no! Like, in Chinese? Is it also "dragon"?

C: You mean the word "dragon" in Chinese? [laughs]

G: Yeah? [laughs]

C: Dragons are called the word in Chinese for "dragon" in Chinese, I think. [both laughing]

G: No, [laughing is it like a dumple/dumpling situation?

C: [laughing] What?

G: [laughing] I was like, maybe it's a dumple/dumpling situation. Nobody knows that joke.

C: So true. I'm sure we already explained it once. At some point in a podcast, Will Wood says, "It's so great that the Chinese called dumplings 'dumplings' because they really look like that." But "dumplings" is not the word for dumplings in Chinese.

G: [laughing] I think you know what I was trying to ask.

C: What?

G: There's like a difference- [laughing]

C: There's a word for-

G: Mythologically, there's a different-

C: Yeah, yeah, there's no virgin stealing and gold. I mean, maybe there's some gold. But yeah, no, they they do have different behaviors. [both laugh]

G: Yeah. No, but like, there's dragon, and then there's something else.

C: Yeah, I think people- Well, people say Western dragon and Eastern dragon sometimes [G: Do they really?] to differentiate them because they have different default looks and behaviors.

G: Maybe I'm thinking like, dinosaurs. [both laugh] Okay, well, whatevs. Sam is trying to be like, "I don't know if it's a dragon! We don't know. We don't know. Is it a dragon? We don't know." And so Dean calls Bobby, and Bobby says the most fascinating thing in the world.

C: Bobby's cooking.

G: He's cooking.

C: And not on the grill.

G: Yeah, they make a point of showing him cooking, and there's a point where he's sitting down and Dean calls again or Sam calls or something, and he's like not touching his food, too. He's just looking at it. And I was like, "Is this a parallel to the pie?" Do you remember the pie?

C: Yeah, of course, I remember the pie. I think what it was, because the spoon was sticking out of his food, and I think he tried to move it, and it was kind of stuck. I think it was like the phone call made him cook it bad, so the texture is off now or something?

G: So true, so true. Could never happen to me. Dean asks, "What do you know about dragons?" And Bobby says the most fascinating thing. "Dragons? They're not like the Loch Ness monster! Dragons aren't real!" Love it. [C: Love it.] Yeah. And Dean is like, "No, but can you please just look it up? Pwease, pwease, pwease?" And Bobby goes, "Okay." And then he asks, "Okay, so how's Memento doing over there? Has he been caught in any lies yet?"

C: "Have you been caught in any lies to him yet?"

G: [laughs] So true. "He caught you in any lies yet?" is what he actually says. And Dean goes, "Well, whatever. Everything's fine. Sam says hi. Bye!" He hangs up. Sam starts getting even more suspicious, and he's like, "What's that about?" Whatever, he's also looking through the pages. And Dean is saying, "Hey, there's not any dragons there because we've read that thing to hell and back, and there's no dragons." But as Sam is flipping through the pages, he's like, "Did we hunt something recently?" And Dean's like, "I don't know. I don't know what you're talking about." And he's starting to experience deja vu. And Dean does look like he's about to start getting worried because obviously, he doesn't want that wall scratched.

C: I think Dean definitionally gaslights Sam by being like, "Remember, your brain's still crazy right now!" [laughs]

G: Yeah. So Bobby gives Dean a call back, and he says, "I can't believe she didn't jump right to my mind. Dr. Visyak. Medieval Studies, SFU." And Dean's like, "Okay, let's go!"

C: Yeah, I don't understand why he drove all the way to San Francisco without calling her first.

G: Well, I don't know. Sometimes, people don't pick up. [both laugh]

C: Fair enough.

G: Sam didn't go because he said that he is going to study the lore more because dragons are in caves or something and start to figure stuff out. I do wonder why they didn't-

C: He's trying to figure out the lair location.

G: - why he didn't just bring Sam there.

C: To SFU? [G: Yeah.] Yeah, I don't think he should be left alone. Or I feel like I would be too worried to leave him alone.

G: That is the Watsonian perspective. I'm thinking more like, obviously, it's so that he can call Cas. But he can just step out for a bit and call Cas outside, you know? It doesn't necessarily mean that he has to be left behind. My ideas are-

C: I don't think he would step out if Dean was there.

G: No, you know, maybe he's like- I don't know. He can, is what I'm saying.

C: "Me and Cas need to talk in private."

G: Yeah, but he doesn't have to stay behind. And my ideas are, I don't think they want him trying the sword.

C: Mm. Interesting.

G: Yeah, I don't think they can reconcile Sam, when he they just got him back, and he's fully soulled up, and his whole bit is he's a good person, and he's so pure of heart, whatever. I don't think they can reconcile having him not pull it out of the stone. And so they left him. [C: Yeah.] Sam gets Thor's hammer, I think, at some point, and people make a fuss about it, but I don't really remember much about it. [C: Hm.] So I don't know. Love Sam or something. I don't know. [both laugh]

C: Yeah. I feel like Professor Visyak was being kind of facetious about the "you can pull it out if you're a hero that's brave of heart." [G: Yeah.] I don't think it actually had that property to it.

G: No, I think it did. I think it did. And love is love.

C: Okay, it did, and they were trying to make a point that Dean sucks while goofy music was playing? [both laugh]

G: Yeah. And I just don't think they can do that shit with Sam. They can't goof it up with Sam trying to pull that thing out.

C: I think if Sam tried it first only briefly, and then Dean was like, "Step aside. I got this," and then he fell, I feel like that would have worked.

G: I also think Jensen Ackles is just better at comedic acting than Jared. [C: Sure.] So they were like, "Let's play up to Jensen's strengths." Jensen Ackles's strengths.

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C: There's a scene where the dragon is- he's in the sewers, and there's this grate under which a bunch of girls that he's kidnapped are there, and they're not having a good time. Their clothes are torn, they're crying, they're bloody, etc. And then he's bringing in a new girl, who's, you know, screaming and saying, "Please let me go," etc. He breaks her arm and then shoves her in there, and Penny from the beginning tries to comfort her.

G: Yeah. And there's a whole bit about how his hand [C: Yeah.] really heats the fuck up, and it melts the gate, which does make you wonder, how the fuck did Sam and Dean open that thing up? Did they?

C: We didn't see it, but I assume they did or called someone who could, eventually.

G: That's probably true. Yeah.

C: Yeah. But yeah, so yeah, he uses his very hot hand to weld together the grate so that it's impossible for anyone to escape because at the beginning of the scene, Penny is trying to get the top open.

G: Can I just say, supernatural does not mean magic. Those are different ideas. Do you understand what I mean? It just looks- Obviously, dragon who's just some guy is already goofy as fuck, [C laughs] but having him have magic warming hands [laughs] is so like, what is this?

C: Well, I'm just disappointed that they were like, "Making him breathe fire like a dragon is dumb! [G: It's too much.] He just needs to have super hot hands."

G: [laughs] Literally.

C: It's silly.

So we go to Dr. Visyak's. It's her house, [G: Yeah.] but when Dean buzzes, she's like, "It's not office hours yet." Does she hold office hours in her home? In her personal home?

G: I mean, she obviously has a collection.

C: Yeah, I suppose.

G: I'm assuming she shows people around, yeah.

C: Yeah, I don't know. I feel like there should be rules around that.

G: Office hours Monday and Friday, two times a week, is probably fine. And also, we don't know-

C: Yeah, I just think she should have an office.

G: What kind of doctor is she? Bobby explicitly says [both] medieval studies. I don't know. Maybe she's retired, and she's just hanging out. [laughs]

C: Why does she have office hours if she's retired?

G: Well, sometimes, somebody wants to consult you as an expert, not necessarily as an academic superior.

C: I feel like they wouldn't be like "This is a professor at this university... but she's retired. [G: So true.] And by office hours, she means fellow professionals who come by." [laughs] [G: So true.] Yeah, Dean says that Bobby sent him, and then Dr. Visyak opens the door, and the point of her is that she's hot. [both laugh]

G: Well, she is hot.

C: Yeah, but she stands and talks in a way that feels unnatural because the point of her is to be hot.

G: Yeah, I did feel a little bit- [laughs] Now I'm embarrassed to say. 'Cause most people in Supernatural- I was actually wondering-

C: It's nice that she's a MILF. Dean's historically not that into milves. Is that your point? [laughs]

G: No, no, no. What I'm trying to say is, I was actually thinking a lot about what I was seeing in this scene because [C laughs] she's a very attractive woman, obviously. And I kept on thinking, "What's that about?" [laughs]

C: What do you mean?

G: What I mean is, there are rarely people in Supernatural who are generally my type, and so when I saw her, I was thinking, "Do I find her really attractive because out of all the people in Supernatural, this is like the closest to what I would think as attractive in real life, or is the show trying to do it on purpose?" And I couldn't figure it out. Literally couldn't figure it out. So it is fascinating to hear you just straight up go like, "They're trying to do like a porn professor fantasy."

C: Yeah, [laughs] that is her entire thing.

G: So yeah. Who would have thunk? Not me. I didn't think it.

C: Yeah, well, okay, she's wearing a very- a very low-cut top-

G: She's not showing cleavage or anything.

C: She is!

G: Was she?

C: She is.

G: I think she just had beautiful hair. [laughs]

C: Yeah. She's also wearing a very deep V-neck dress.

G: That's not true!

C: Yeah, it is.

G: It was purple. I know that. Wait, let's look it up.

C: I'm pretty sure it was blue, but it could be a situation where it's purplish-blue, and we just categorize the colors differently.

G: There is a possibility that it's fully blue.

C: Is it?

C: Wait, let's look it up. Supernatural. [typing]

C: I feel like it was fully blue, if you asked me. But maybe I'm wrong.

G: I think it is blue.

C: Fully?

G: Sowwy. Sowwy. Sowwy!

C: And would you say that it was a deep V-neck and that she was showing cleavage?

G: Wait, I'm looking. It's not loading. Wait. Come on!

C: It's fully blue, and she's showing a little bit of cleavage.

G: I don't think she's showing a lot! Do you really think she's like a porn professor? I think she's just a normal, very good-looking woman.

C: Okay. When she shows up, there's a musical sting, and Dean looks her up and down. [G: That's true.] And then the rest of the scene, she keeps standing, even though she doesn't need to, and cocking her hip, and saying things about how "Oh, and I had to sleep with this person in order to get this artifact."

G: Did she say that? [laughs]

C: Yes!

G: I think she just said it took twenty years of hard work.

C: Including very mediocre sex with a certain person! Look at the line.

G: Did she literally say that?

C: Yes! [laughs]

G: Oh, okay, she does- she is showing cleavage. But that doesn't mean anything!

C: She's showing cleavage. She says, "Finding it took two decades, countless hours, and some really bad sex with an Eastern European ambassador." It does mean things [laughs] because they made deliberate costumes choices, and most people don't wear dresses on Supernatural. Most women wear the T-shirt and jeans combo.

G: Yeah, but I thought it was just they're trying to show a different kind of person. They don't usually have professors in Supernatural.

C: They don't, yeah. I don't think that a blue dress showing cleavage is a classic professor look. [both laugh]

G: Okay, yeah, I completely missed the sex part. I just thought she was saying it took her two decades.

C: Yeah. She was like, "It's me. Oh my god. I slept with Bobby. Oh my god, I slept with this guy as part of my job. [G: That is true.] Having sex with men is a part of my profession as me, Dr. Visyak."

G: That is true. Yeah. [laughs] [C: Okay.] 'Cause I was trying to figure out why I am [laughing] so attracted to her. [C laughing] I actually looked up the actor-

C: I mean, I think she's also closer to your type [G laughs] in terms of- as a person that she looks like. But I also think they framing her in a certain way very deliberately and obviously.

G: I actually was like, "Maybe she's from somewhere. That's why I'm recognizing her. That's why I'm so into her." I look it up, she's from nowhere that I know. [laughs] So like, who knows?

C: Yeah. I mean, she's not a very good actress, unless I mean, if she was told to just be a porn professor, then I guess she's doing a good job.

G: No no no. Because the way they- I don't want to spoil things. [C: What?] But the way they show her, they show her with like a lot of like, "Pay attention. Pay attention," you know what I mean? And so I thought it was one of those things where they have somebody from a previous TV show that was a hit [C: Oh, yeah.] with the demographic of Supernatural show up, and, you know, do a cameo. [C: Mm-hm.] Like, they've done that [C: Yeah.] several times. So I was like, "Maybe this is one of those." And then I looked it up, and it literally wasn't, I don't think. [C laughs] [C: No.] So she's just someone who's there, [C: Yeah.] and apparently, I have been tricked by Supernatural. [both laugh] I am their target.

C: [laughing] So thoroughly that you weren't even aware that you were being tricked.

G: To be fair, I was like, "It is a little bit weird that I'm this affected [both laugh] by somebody in Supernatural, and there must be something up in it."

C: I mean, you're into older women. You probably just chalked it up to that.

G: This is true.

C: Dean comes in, and she's like, "Bobby Singer. Tell him something for me the next time you see him. Actually, just kick him in the nuts. That's more poetic." And she says that they used to fuck, basically, but that's his story to tell. And Dean says that there are dragons, and she's like, "Oh my god, don't joke about that. They've been gone for 700 years, and they're scary!" And the only way you can kill one is by using a blade. And when she says "blade," Dean looks down at his crotch. [laughs]

G: Eugh! Is that true?

C: Yes. Because he's got a boner [G laughs] from his hot porn professor fantasy. And then he asks, "What kind of blade?"

G: Is that all true?

C: Yes! [laughs] Go rewatch that scene!

G: [laughing] Why is this completely gone from my memory? [both laughing]

C: I don't know! Okay, I'll rewatch it to make sure I'm not misrepresenting.

G: That's crazy. I don't think I ever saw Dean a single time this week. [laughs]

C: Yeah, no, he does. Anyway, so-

G: No!

C: The time stamp is at 23:35 if you want to see it. If it seems like I'm misrepresenting it, you can check there.

You need a blade that's forged with dragon's blood, so that's gonna be hard to make now. [G: Yeah.] And she says there's only five or six around in the world, and Dean goes, "You know a lot about this stuff."

G: Which is such a weird thing to say!

C: Yeah, like, she's a professor of medieval studies that Bobby directed you towards because of her expertise regarding dragons. And instead of saying, "This is because I am a professor, and I went to school for six years for this, and then taught it for a long time," she goes, "Well, of course I do, because I have one." Dumb as fuck. So she takes him down to her basement and says that finding it took two decades, countless hours, and some really bad sex with an Eastern European ambassador. And it's there, and it's a sword that she has embedded in a boulder. It's the Sword of Brunswick, and Dean asks how to get it out, and she says that you need "a brave knight who's willing to step up and kill the beast." And Dean's like, "Yeah! I'm gonna impress this hot woman!" so-

G: I don't think he's trying to impress the hot woman! [laughs] I think he's just trying to be like- I-

C: He makes a face.

G: Is that the whole bit of this episode?

C: Yeah. [both laugh]

G: [laughing] That's kinda crazy.

C: Okay, if somebody messages us, and is like, "I watched it, and I didn't see it at all, and Crystal's crazy," I will accept that.

G: I mean, there's gotta be a middle point between us.

C: Well, we'll see. We'll see.

G: Yeah. Or maybe there isn't.

C: Or maybe there isn't. And he goes over to it, and they start playing this epic heroic music for comedic effect.

G: Yeah, and the lighting changes a bit.

C: Yeah. And he pulls and pulls, it doesn't work, and he straight up falls off the boulder.

G: And they do another one. I just said that Jensen Ackles is good at comedy acting. It's not funnay.

C: It's not. Yeah, he fails again. And he's like, "Well, I got another idea, but you're not gonna like it." And the another idea is dynamite. Yeah. [G: Love that.] I don't think she even moves the other artifacts out of her special artifact room.

G: No, really. There's so many paintings there.

C: Yeah. He sets up a bunch of explosives around the boulder. She is not happy about it. And Dean's like you have to trust me because I learned how to blow things up from Bobby!And yeah, so he does it, and they blow up the boulder and Dean triumphantly pulls the sword out, but a part of it has broken off because of the explosion, and she is not happy about this, but we never see her again, so.

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G: We go to Sam. He is pinning things on the wall. He's like really, really investigating the hell out of this. He also has a whole situation with a map. It's really fun. [C: Yeah.] We get to see the map more later. I am thoroughly impressed that they have access to this! They have access to the sewage map of the city? [C: I guess.] Where?

C: Um, hall of public records, maybe?

G: That's pretty cool. As he's figuring stuff out, he goes to call Bobby, but Bobby, first and foremost, asks, "Where is Dean?" And Sam's like, "No, I'm not with him, whatever. I'm trying to figure stuff out." Basically, they establish that maybe it's not the cave. Maybe it's something akin to a cave like a subway line, but there's no subway lines. Maybe it's the sewers. Sam's like, "Oh my god. Thanks, Bobby." And then he goes, "Hey, Bobby, are you okay? Because something's wrong. You have been acting so weird and off-putting. What's that about?" And Bobby is like, "No, it has nothing to do with you, you know. It's been a year and a half, so whatever." And he hangs up on Sam. Sam's not done, and he hangs up. And Sam, now a little bit distressed that this is all happening, goes and sits down, and he goes- He closes his eyes and he goes, "Castiel? I'm back! So if you've got a minute," and then, he opens his eyes. Cas is not there. So he turns around to check if Cas is maybe behind him, and the camera follows him so that part of the what's in front of him is obscured. And then, when he turns back around to the front, the camera follows him, and we see that it's Cas. [C: Ah!] And he's there, and he's looking at Sam so- like he's so relieved to see Sam there. [C: Mm-hm.] He just goes, "It's so good to see you alive." And Sam goes, "Yeah, you, too." And  at this point, he's standing up. Sam's standing up. [C: Yeah.] And Cas, very enthusiastically, and also very awkwardly, because he is Castiel, waddles over to Sam [C laughs] with his arms out! Have we even seen Cas hug anyone?

C: No.

G: It's so important. [C: It is.] It's so important.

C: It's so very important.

G: He waddles to Sam, arms out, and then Sam literally just sits down. [C laughs] Literally, he was like, "Let's sit down." And I appreciate that Sam doesn't just breeze past this. [C: Yeah.] They verbally acknowledge it. Sam goes like, "I would hug you. It's just- eugh." [both laugh] And Cas goes, "Yeah, it'll be weird and off-putting." [C: Aww!] They're so important.

C: They're so, so, so important.

G: Yeah. What is the first hug that Cas has? Is it literally Purgatory?

C: I think so.

G: Crazy.

C: Crazy.

G: What is the first Sastiel hug? Season 9?

C: Isn't Purgatory a Destiel hug?

G: No, yeah. But when's the first Sastiel hug? Season 9?

C: Oh, Sastiel hug. Oh my god. I should know this. I don't know.

G: I think it is the one when Cas stays behind to care for Sam after the whole Gadreel possession thing. [C: Mm.] And then they hug, and Sam was like, "Wow, love you!" And then he taps Cas's face a couple of times.

C: Aww!

G: Do you remember this? They're in front of a bowl.

C: Yeah. The "Hugs" SuperWiki says that- Well, I guess honey!Cas hugs both of them [G: Oh, yeah.] together, [both] but that doesn't really count.

G: He goes, "I love you guys."

C: The first Sam and Cas one is in 9.11, "First Born," so you're correct. He does pat him on the side of the face.

G: So imports, yeah.

C: Aw! So imports.

G: Thus establishing what I said that Season 9 is when they become family, but only after the everything.

Sam starts vaguely talking about things. He goes, "You know, crazy year. I called Bobby. He told me everything." And Cas is like, "Yeah, I know. I'm surprised that you survived! I was begging Deana not to do it."

C: [laughs] So fucking funny for Sam to hear at this moment. [both laughing] Cas said, "I hate your ass, and I wanted you to be in Hell forever."

G: Sam's like, "No, yeah, no, no, I get it. I understand. I get it." [C laughs] And Cas goes, "You know, it's a miracle it didn't kill you." And Sam's like, "Yeah, no, it is a miracle." [both laugh] And Cas says, "How does it feel?" And Sam's like, "What?" And Cas goes, "Well, to have your soul back, of course." And we linger on Sam's face, and we do the zoom-in on him, and it is a very strikingly good-acted scene. You see tears start welling up on Sam's eyes. Oh! Love him! [C: Love him.] And he's like, "Oh, yeah, yeah, because I was walking around with no soul, right, yeah." And he asks, "I'm just fuzzy on the details. Can you tell me things? Can you walk me through it?"

C: Yeah. And we don't see any of it!

G: Do you Cas never suspects? He's never like, "Mm, I don't think he knows, actually." [C laughs]

C: I don't know. Cas is distracted. There's a lot going on in his life.

G: [laughs] Literally.

C: Well, Sam says, "Bobby told me everything," which implies that Sam himself doesn't remember. So Cas can just be like, "Oh, Bobby might have like [both] skipped over a few of the details," etc.

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C: Sam and Dean are both in the motel room now. Dean's returned with the sword, and, you know, Sam's deliberately trying to be chill and not mention anything about what he just learned. And Sam points Dean towards the sewers. They're gonna use the sword. And yeah, there's a moment where Sam seems like he wants to say something to Dean, but then he doesn't. Inside the sewers, they're about to give up, and then Sam sees a big old pile of gold. [G: Love it.] So they're going in the right direction. Then they notice that there's this altar with a book on it. [G: Yeah.] They hear Penny call out from a few feet away, so they go over to get her and everybody else, but before they do that, Dean grabs a handful of the gold and stuffs it in his pocket. The dragon returns, and there's a fight scene.

G: I love the fight scene.

C: What is the dragon's voice? He has a certain voice, but I don't know what it is.

G: What you mean is he has an accent, and I don't know what the accent is.

C: Yeah, yeah.

G: Apparently, you shouldn't say "voice" for accent. [laughs] [C: Oh, okay.] Just like me when I asked- but this is different. I once asked a British friend if she was putting on a voice. But that's different. That's like, really rude. [both laugh]

C: Yeah, perhaps so. Yeah, the dragon has an accent. I don't know the origin.

G: I also don't know.

C: I hated this fight scene.

G: I think what they're trying to go for is 'cause he's really fucking old. They kind of established that. I don't know. Maybe they're trying to go for an old accent.

C: An Old English accent? Maybe.

G: It could also literally just be something that we don't know, and I'm so sorry for calling these people ancient. [C laughs]

C: Yeah, I mean, Supernatural just doesn't really do accents very often. So I feel like [G: When they do-] it is deliberate in some way. And I feel like if it was supposed to be from an existing nation, they would have mentioned it as part of the lore. So yeah, I don't know. Might not be true.

So okay, the fight scene, you know, Dean slashes with the sword a bit, and then the dragon kicks it out of his hand, and it falls underneath into the grates. And I was like, "Okay, so like one of the girls down there can reach it and assist in the fight," but that is not true.

G: No, no, no, it's a different grate! It's a different-

C: No, I know. I know it's a different grate. But I think that if it is to fall, that's the point. Because this entire fight scene, right? Sam and Dean are just grunting masculinely. But to really keep the tension up, there's an entire chorus of virgin girls underneath, going, "Ah! Ah!" the entire fucking time. [both laugh] [G: No, literally.] And I hate it! It's so annoying! First, to not have them be involved in any way besides being like a crowd of victims down there with their like female vulnerability, [G laughs] and then to use them for this sound effect the entire time, I just feel like, is especially irritating.

G: I don't think we really got into the whole virgins thing. [C: Yeah.] Let's get into it now. It is severely off-putting. [C: Mm-hm.] Because these are all generally young girls. [C: Yeah.] Or not young girls. Young women. And I don't know, it's just like- And their entire purpose is to go, "No!" And it's incredibly-

C: "Ow! I'm scared!"

G: Yeah. This end of this episode just involves two men manhandling girls who are screaming. And it is like, what are we doing? [C: Yeah.] And because it's Supernatural, it doesn't feel like they're trying to do something or say something or whatever. It's just like, unless it's a special occasion, the purpose of a woman in a hunt is to be the victim that is screaming, or the victim that is being saved. Yeah. As we have said many, many times, there are things in Supernatural that are egregious specifically because they're in the context of Supernatural, the TV show that is always egregious. So, you know.

C: Yeah, yeah. I feel this is pretty bad on its own as well, not even being in Supernatural.

G: No, that is true. But I did love this fucking falling on the grate scene, because Dean can't reach it, and then Sam does, and he very easily can, because he has longer arms.

C: Hell yeah. There's also a second dragon that shows up?

G: [laughs] It's so funny, because when he shows up I thought the dragon changed faces, and I was like, "Well, at least the dragon can change faces. That's cool." [both laugh] No, it's literally a second dragon.

C: Yeah. And he stabs one of them, and then the other one escapes. And then we immediately cut- but apparently, both of them are alive after this.

G: No!

C: No?

G: That's a different dragon! [laughs]

C: Oh! But there are two at the end, and you're telling me that one of them was the one that escaped, and one of them was a completely different dragon?

G: That is true, yes.

C: Okay, good to know. [laughs] Because at first,  when it showed them, I was like, "Oh my god! They're inside Purgatory. Why do they have trucks in Purgatory?" [both laughing] because I thought they were both dead.

G: [laughing] In Purgatory, just me and my truck and my buddy.

C: [laughing] If the Impala can be in Heaven, I don't know why trucks can't be in Purgatory. [both laugh] Maybe he really loves that truck!

G: He literally, literally love that truck. But that's not what happens. The random dragon is just killed, and then this old dragon has a dragon friend who has a different van of girls.

C: Yeah, and we don't know what the other ones are for. I mean, Sam implies earlier that the dragons rape them. But like, why are they in vans, and why are they being transported?

G: They need to be sacrificed for Lilith?

C: Oh, okay. For Lilith? For Eve?

G: Oh, for Eve, yeah.

C: Oh, yeah, I guess we just didn't see that. We only see the one who gets possessed. But yeah, you're right, that is probably the intention.

G: That is so fucked up! Sorry, I completely forgot that this is not Lilith, this is Eve. [C: Yeah.] Isn't the point of Lilith already that like, she ran off to be with the demons, and so Eve also ran off to be with the monsters? What's the situation?

C: I really don't know what Eve's backstory is here, 'cause again, we see Adam and Serafina later.

G: Literally. That's the thing. We see Adam, and he's normo-schnormo.

C: He's normo-schnormo, and he has his hot angel girlfriend who's also normal, but also a stoner.

G: Yeah. It's weird that they were like, "And Adam's gonna be a hipster." [laughs] What's that about?

C: Yeah. And Eve is the mother of all monsters? It's just a strange thing.

G: Yeah, well, I completely forgot. This entire time, I've been thinking, "Oh, here comes Lilith!" [C: No.] Anyway, what I mean is, I'm not forgetting that there is already- What I mean is like, I thought this was Lilith- I don't know. Obviously, I remember Lilith. I don't know what I'm trying to say. I'm just being like, I forgot, but I remember. Don't worry about it. [C: Yeah.]

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G: Now we are in the- what the fuck is this place called? I always forget. [C: Scrap-] Salvage yard. [C: Salvage yard.] The salvage yard, where cars go to die. Dean is playing with all of the gold that they have, and they have a lot of it. [C laughs] What is the joke with the "ask me what time it it is"?

C: He's just playing with a gold watch.

G: No, no, no, I know, but what is the punchline to that, if Sam goes, "What time is it?" What would he say?

C: Oh, what would Dean's joke be [laughs] if Sam actually- [G: Yeah.] I don't know. "It's time for me to have a bunch of gold. Yay, I have a bunch of gold." I'm sure that's what it was.

G: Yeah, maybe he's gonna say, "It's golden time!" [C: Sure.] Something super fucking corny because he is not funny.

C: It's not. It's 15.03. Or is it 15.03? No, I think it's a different 15.

G: I think it's 15.03. No, it's not. [C: It is?] That's "The Rapture." Or "The Rupture." I think "Golden Time" is 15.06.

C: Okay, a multiple of three.

G: Yeah. It's the one where Cas is in a cabin solving murders. [C: Love it.] And Dean calls him and is like, "Oh, I hate you!" I forgot what their call was.

C: It's very tense, and Cas seemingly wipes away a tear at the end.

G: Oh! It's the one where Cas is like, "You call my supervisor." And Dean, as the supervisor, was like, "Oh, let me talk to my agent." And he's like, "Wow! And you're not even gonna come back? What's wrong with you or something?" I don't know. They were having some marital difficulties.

C: God, I love it.

G: Or do you?

C: I think I do. [laughs]

G: Do you think you're back to being a Destiel shipper, or do you think you would ever be?

C: Well, okay, again, whether or not I like it [G laughs] doesn't change the fact that it's real. [laughs]

G: Yeah. But would you like it ever again, do you think?

G: I think the way I would like it is in the "I love drama" way, and not in the-

G: "They're in wuv" way?

C: - really invested in this relationship way, you know?

G: I think that is also generally my disposition, but I can also be completely lying to myself.

C: There was a time, I think, [laughs] when you really did wuv it.

G: No, no, no, definitely. And I think there could be a time in the future.

C: Oh, you're saying now?

G: Yeah, now, I'm not sure if I'm truly invested in that way, or I'm just a "It's something that is happening for real!" that is fun to talk about. And it is both of those things, maybe. I don't know. [C: Indeed.] Well, we don't get to hear Dean's super corny joke, because Sam is like- No, he makes a joke about how Dean should just roll in the gold and Dean's like, "Oh, come on!" But then Sam finally does cut to the chase and goes, "Dean, I am so sorry. I can't even begin to say how sorry I am." And Dean starts tensing up, and he's like, "For what?" And Dean goes, "You know what." And Dean asks, "Did Bobby-" And Sam goes, "No, it was Cas!" And Dean whispers to himself, "Oh, Cas! That frickin' child!"

C: Not nice. [laughs] Not nice or true.

G: Yeah, he pulls this- [C: He does this-] He will tell Cas later, "You're a fucking child."

C: What does he even mean here? That Cas is naive?

G: Yes. 'Cause the argument he does later about this is "Just because you could have something doesn't mean you should!" [C: Okay.] when he was trying to get every power ever.

C: Yeah, I don't really understand what is childish about Cas telling Sam about the soulless months, though.

G: I think just not having the awareness to think that Sam- that Cas- whatever whatever. I do think there is a chance for Dean to think that Cas did it on purpose, like he wasn't tricked into doing it. 'Cause their last conversation sure implies that Cas is mad at Dean-

C: That's true. So he did it out of spite.

G: - and he could have spitefully done it. So maybe it's not naivety. It's like [C: Pettiness?], "What a petty fucking guy." Yeah. Oh my god! I forgot that this season is also "You're just a baby in a trenchie." [both laughing] He doesn't say "trenchie," but he should have.

C: Yeah, and he has a headyachey on his poddycasty.

G: Literally. Yeah, anyway, Dean says, "You weren't supposed to know."

C: Well, Sam says, "You should have told me, Dean."

G: Dean says, "You're not supposed to know." And Sam argues that well, he should have, because he did that to Bobby and everything. He should know. Dean argues that "You can't scratch the wall because it might kill you for real." And Sam says, "Okay, but I want to set things right."

C: "I have to set things right."

G: Oh, yeah. And Dean says, "It wasn't you." And Sam says what he feels like is that he woke up and the whole city is burnt down, "And you can say it wasn't me, but I'm the one with the Zippo in my pocket, you know?" which is something that happens when Meg possessed him. [C: Mm.] That is like how the- I don't know. I do think, why does Sam not have the memory like?

C: Of when he was soulless?

G: Yeah, how does that follow with the logic that we have been presented of what souls are and what bodies are and what memories are?

C: Right. Soulless Sam had his memories and was able to retain new memories-

G: And so like, what is that about? And I feel like, is it because of the wall? [C: Maybe.] Like, yeah. It probably is because of the wall. And he says, "I appreciate you trying to protect me, but I got to fix what I got to fix. I need to know what I did." And something about this just really struck me because this was the moment where I was like, "Okay!" I missed Sam, and now he's back. Because this is so quintessentially him in a way that I can't even- I don't know how to word it. There was a scene that we really loved, both of us, where, when he was soulless, Sam said that he remembers what he felt like before, and it was more difficult, yes, but there is something worth going back to there. And here, we see that, and we see what he must think was worth going back to. And I was like, "Aw, Sam." [C: Yeah.] I mean, it's difficult, and obviously, this is a difficult one, and it's guilt, and it's regret, and it's fear of what that means, what it means to be the person who did that, even if it wasn't technically, but it also technically is, so what is that about? and all that. But it is also the ability to make right, the desire to make things correct and to fix what is broken. And like, isn't that what Sam is about? [C: Yeah.] I love him! And I missed him so much.

C: I love him. Yeah. And his last memory being "Swan Song," [G: Yeah.] I think, also adds to this because he spent a lot of Season 5 being like, "I opened up the Cage. I let Lucifer out. That was me, and I need to make things right," and him sacrificing himself in "Swan Song" was that already. And then he wakes up. It feels like he hasn't- It feels like he's done his penance, maybe, and he's like, chill for a bit. And then he realizes this, and I feel like it's very easy for him to go back to what he was thinking in Season 5 because that just happened for him.

G: Yeah. Sam!

C: Yeah. Yeah. I do wuv him, and he is looking up with his big, shiny eyes and saying that he needs to enact justice.

G: His hair looks different, his face looks different. Maybe Jared Padalecki is a good actor. [laughs]

C: Yeah, maybe he is. [laughs]

G: Yeah. Oh my god! But anyway, Dean is saying that it's dangerous, it's dangerous. Sam says, "You would do it if you were me." But then they get cut off, and Bobby calls them inside to talk about something.

C: We don't even get a Bobby-Sam apology scene.

G: No, literally, I was waiting for it.

C: Yeah, I was waiting for it.

G: But who give a fuck? Sorry. [laughs]

C: I would rather that than the goofy-ass sword-pulling stuff, [G laughs] if you had to use time in certain ways.

G: I mean, allegedly, you do have to use time. [C: Yeah.]

-

C: So in Bobby's living room- So they took that book at the altar from earlier, and that's what Bobby's been analyzing. And it's a really obscure Latinate and made out of human skin. And it describes this place that is basically Purgatory. And as he talks about it, it's like a voiceover because we're also seeing- I think that's why I thought it was Purgatory. Because I see the dragons rolling up in a truck while Bobby's talking about a place called Purgatory. One might assume that the place they are is Purgatory. [laughs]

G: Okay, first of all, what I want to point out here is, does Bobby know about the whole [both] Crowley situation?

C: I'd assume they'd filled him in.

G: But the way he says, "You may have heard of it. Purgatory." [laughs] [C: No, that's true.] I was like, "Wait, what the fuck is that?" Is he being tongue-in-cheek about it? Or is he straight up like "You may have heard about it."

C: I think he's being tongue-in-cheek about it.

G: I fully was like, "You know, Purgatory." I really was like, "Does he know?" I don't know. I don't know if he did.

C: Yeah. So the book gives instructions on how to open up the door to Purgatory in order to let something out into Earth. And we see two dragons performing a ritual. One of them has a truckload of virgins, and they'd take one out, and you'll never guess what she's wearing.

G: White nightgown, baby!

C: Classic.

G: Literally classic.

C: Yeah. And yeah, they take her out and bring her to the side of this cliff while she's screaming and kicking and crying about it, and they recite something, I think, in Latin, or maybe an obscure Latinate, and then they ungag her and then throw her below where there's a big pit of fire. And then Bobby says the thing that they're trying to let out is called [both] Mother. Mother of all. And the girl rises out of the pit, and she's different now. She's possessed by something. Her eyes are glowing, her legs are burning, etc, and the dragons welcome her, and she says, "You kept me waiting. We have so much to do. Let's get started." [G: Yeah.] So that's the episode, yeah. I know later, Eve takes on Mary's form, which I think is fun, but right now, it's young girl- or young woman in a nightgown, which I guess is also pretty Mary-esque. [G: Yeah.] Good for her. Episode.

G: End of ep. What did you think about it? Loved it. We are so back.

C: I liked parts of it. I disliked other parts of it. I think that this is an episode that I think- The situation that they are in is one where they could have made it an episode of all time, sort of "When the Levee Breaks" level of emotional resonance thing, and they didn't, so I think I'm a little disappointed in that. But it's not a terrible episode.

G: Yeah. Best Line/Worst Line.

C: I liked Sam's conversation with Dean at the end. I think I liked the "Alright, but I have to set things right, or what I can, anyway," because that's the beginning of the whole Sam of it all.

G: Yeah. I think I really like when Sam is eating that fucking sandwich, and then he's like, "Did Cas bring me back?" And Dean's like, "No," and then he straightens up his back, and then he goes, "Dean." [both laugh] I love that line. I just thought it was so amusing and so importies. Yeah. [C: Yeah.] What's your worst life? My worst line is the sex with the Eastern European blah blah blah, which I completely missed and completely- I just completely missed. Yeah, I just completely missed it. But now I know about it, and I hate it.

C: Yeah, yeah. My worst line is the Batman rape joke, [G: That's true!] both Sam saying it and Dean saying, "You know, he's got a lot of rage," which I think we didn't really talk about. What a fucked up thing to say! [both laugh] [G: Yeah.] Spread those sheets?

G: Hell yeah, let's see. BABPod. Okay, Writer Sins. I don't think we've ever called it Writer Sins, like ever.

C: Oh, yeah, that's the name of the tab, but- Misogyny, for sure.

G: It is a lot, and it is fundamental to the episode. I would even give it a 5.

C: Yeah, let's do it.

G: Let's not get stingy with- [both laugh] [C: Yeah!] Racism? I don't think so.

C: I don't think so. Sometimes we forget, but I don't remember, so nothing we can do about it.

G: Homophobia?

C: I don't think so.

G: I also don't think so.

C: Why didn't Sam hug Cas, though, you know? Let's really think about it. [laughs] Actually, though, why didn't he?

G: I don't know. I think he just doesn't like Cas that much! [both laugh] After my whole deal about how he's so fond of his buddy Cas. I think he just doesn't like Cas that much.

C: He hugs Dean and Bobby immediately, really hard, and he's very happy to hear that Cas is back.

G: No, because Cas is not yet family, as I've said.

C: I guess it's just Cas just isn't a very affectionate person in the past, so it's strange to Sam.

G: Yeah, it's weird to have this as your first hug. A moment where you're trying to trick him into telling you things.

C: Well, this was before Sam knew. He just called Cas down because he was back, and he wanted to see him.

G: Yeah. But he was- The point is to try to get Cas to say things to him.

C: Because the Bobby thing was weird? [G: Yeah.] Yeah, no, you're right. I mostly missed that. I was just like, "Well, Sam has some time, and he wants to talk to his friend!" [both laugh]

G: His buddy, even. [C: Yeah.] IMDb guesses. I go first. I think this is definitely higher than “Appointment in Samarra,” but I don't know how high. I will go 9.2.

C: That is so interesting because I think it's definitely lower.

G: I'm afraid you're right. But okay, go on.

C: Wait. You looked already?

G: No. I'm just afraid.

C: Oh, okay. This is such a wide spread for us to be doing, but I say 8.5.

G: Hmm! 8.5? [C: Yeah.] Okay, let's check. Huh!

C: What? Were you right?

G: No, Crystal, it's an 8.2! I'm fully one point away!

C: Ha! Hahahahaha! Hahahaha, hahahahaha, hahaha, hahaha. You're still winning, though, this season. You're still winning somehow. I don't know how, but you are still winning.

G: We have really bridged some of the gap.

C: Okay, what was it before? [G: Let's see.] Okay, if I delete all of these- Yeah, yeah, no, we've bridged the gap quite a bit. Hahaha, hahaha, haha. If you care. [both laugh]

G: This one is saying, "The episode is not bad. The real standout is Jared Padalecki." It's true. Yeah.

C: Yeah, it is true, unfortunately.

G: "The brotherly blonde- [laughs] the brotherly bond in its glory-"

C: The brotherly blonde, AKA Dean Winchester.

G: Literally. "Our Sam is back with all the puppy eyes." So true. This one says, "Jensen Ackles is great with the comedic beat bits. Awkward reunion between Cas and soulled Sam. Both Jared and Misha were great on that scene." Who give a shit about Misha Collins? I literally don't consider Misha Collins as part of that episode. Isn't that so wild?

C: Cas is.

G: No, no, no! But isn't that so wild? I was like, "Oh, they gave that scene to Jensen because Jensen's a good comedic actor." "Oh, Jared was really good this episode." But literally, Misha Collins is nowhere to be seen. [C: True.] This one says [both] the dragons are bad. Obviously. I mean, people incessantly make fun of the dragons. I should have known it was lesser.

C: Yeah. "Cute Dean moment, and I liked the blonde women." [both laugh]

G: This one goes, "I don't like the Mother of All theme, especially the girl at the end. She seemed too cute and young to be the big bad of the show."

C: I did feel that a little bit. She just wasn't- she had a little bit of vocal fry on her last line, too, and I was like, "That isn't the voice that I would expect for you."

G: I'm kinda obsessed with the American accents this episode. "[American accent] Man! There's so much weather!" or whatever she says. [both laugh] I'm sorry. That was a really awful rendition of an American accent.

C: This person says, "I like the idea that they have to take virgins." [both] Why? [both laughing] Why? For what reason?

G: What is the definition of that?

C: I don't know!

G: Yeah, this one. "Useless villain, terrible monster." Okay, well, we get it. That's why it got an 8.2.

C: Uh-huh, uh-huh. Interesting stuff. My life is so much better now. You have no idea.

G: I can't believe you have now an opportunity to beat me for real!

C: I mean, let's not get hasty here. But yeah. [both laugh]

G: Are you gonna start rapping about Patrick Swayze?

C: [laughs] No, no. That doesn't rhyme with- What's something that rhymes with "hasty" that's a name? I can't think of anything.

G: I don't know. I also don't know. The next episode title is so corny. Okay, well, that's it-

C: "Like a Virgin" isn't? [G laughs]

G: Okay, that's all for this week's episode of Busty Asian Beauties. Next week, we will be discussing Season 6, Episode 13: "Unforgiven." [C snorts] Leave us a rating or a review wherever you get your podcasts. C: You're right. That is so corny. Follow us on social media! We are on Tumblr at bustyasianbeautiespod.tumblr.com. Our official tag is #BABPod, B-A-B-POD. Thanks to everyone who's donated to our Ko-Fi at ko-fi.com/bustyasianbeautiespod, which is where our outtakes live, and check out our merch at babpod.redbubble.com. G: You can email us any feedback, comments, or inquiries at bustyasianbeautiespod@gmail.com. See you guys next time! [both] Bye! [guitar music]

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My alpha at the end of the street (2)

Summary: New home, new fate.

Pairing: Alpha!(Mobster)John Winchester x Omega!Reader; former Alpha!Marcus x Omega!Reader

Character: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester

Warnings: angst, A/B/O dynamics, scenting, protective John, true mates, older alpha younger omega, comforting, fluff, cuddling & snuggling

A/N: Part 2/3

<< Part 1

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“That one over there,” grasping for John’s hand you drag your alpha toward the garden goblins. “It’s the one he destroyed, look. I finally found her again.”

“Aw, the girl who liked the bad guy, the biker goblin,” nodding eagerly you bring the goblin into your arms, smiling as you found three of the garden goblins Marcus destroyed a few months ago.

“Now they can be together again,” you sniff, smiling when John places the goblin into your shopping cart. “My biker goblin will be so happy, John.”

“He will,” smiling John pecks your cheek before he has a look at the other garden goblins. “What about the dude with the pants down?” John picks the goblin up, laughing as you look at the figurine’s naked butt. “He’s on discount. Eight bucks, doll.”

“He’s naughty but I could place him next to the angry old lady. I bet she’ll like to have a look at his butt,” giggling you watch John put the naughty figurine into your shopping cart.

“Our garden will look great with all the goblins,” wondering if John will like all your decoration you look at the shopping cart. “We only need to find the one with the barrow.”

“JOHN! Look, there he is,” squealing you run toward the other side of the shop. John laughs at your eagerness but his features change when you are not looking where you are going and slip on the floor.

“Ouch,” ending up on your knees you cry out in pain, whimpering silently to not anger the alpha. You are used to hide your pain and emotions as Marcus always punished you if you didn’t put a fake smile on.

“Omega, doll…” John is by your side before you can shed the first tear. “Are you hurt, Y/N?” he carefully picks you up to soothe the pain. “I’m gonna check on you, baby doll, okay. Don’t cry. I will take care of you.”

“’m fine, John. It’s nothing, really,” you sniff, looking at your bleeding knees. “I want to buy the garden goblins first, please. Someone will snatch them if we don’t buy them.” you tear up.

“Shhh … everything is going to be alright. I will tell the clerk over there to reserve the garden goblins for me. I’ll bring you to my car and go back to get the goblins, okay baby doll.”

“O-okay,” sniffing you hide your face in John’s shoulder. “Sorry, but I like them so much. I want the garden to be colorful and friendly, is all.”

“I like them too, Y/N,” mumbling the words against your hair John inhales your scent deeply. “We will get them all, promised. I want you to be happy at my house. You gave up your new home to be with me, it’s the least I can do.”

“I love our home. It’s just that I’m not used to someone taking care of me. My parents left for Europe years ago without a care, and Marcus he’s – ya know.”

“A bastard,” John grits out, hiding Bobby, Rufus, and Claire took care of your former alpha without John’s permission. “He’ll never hurt you again, no one will as long as I live.”

“See, I got them all,” John shows you the garden goblins in the shopping cart. “And I found one more, the one with the sunflower.” he went back into the store to get everything you wanted after he checked on your wounds.

“There is another biker goblin too,” looking at the figurine you smirk. “You like them, don’t you?” laughing John nods at you.

“Look at that tough guy, Y/N,” getting the goblin out of the cart John laughs as you take it out of his hands. “Bet that guy and the one in our backyard will be a perfect team and protect our little goblins.”

“They will,” nodding you look up at John. “Thank you for everything, John. I know it’s a bit crazy to like the garden goblins so much but after I ran from Marcus, the first thing I saw at a secondhand store was a garden goblin. He was damaged and no one wanted the poor guy, but I liked it.”

“Is it the one you are hiding in your wardrobe?” you nod, embarrassed John found out about your secret. “It’s okay, doll. Everyone needs something to feel better. To me, it’s you and your presence.”

“You make me happy too, John. Incredibly happy and-“ taking his hand in yours you smile, “I feel safe with you, alpha but do you really want me around? We barely know each other, and I don’t want to be a burden.”

“You could never be a burden, Y/N. I will not tell you again that I want you around, omega, okay. You make me happy too, Y/N,” pecking your hair John smiles against you. “Now let’s bring our friends home and we can have lunch. I’ll cook for you. ”

“Aw, your sons look cute,” looking at another picture in John’s photo album you smile. “Sam, he’s got shaggy hair.”

“You know, they are all grown now and far from being cute,” chuckling John watches you look at the pictures again. “Do you-“ clearing his throat John tries to find the right words. “Omega, do you want to have pups? I mean, do you want to have my pups.”

“Pups,” purring you close the photo album to scoot closer to John. “Do you want some? I could have two or three…”

“Whoa, three?” snickering John watches you crawl onto his lap to hide your face in his neck. “We can have as much as you want to, doll.”

“Marcus, he never wanted to talk about babies. When I mentioned having a pup he got mad and threw things around the room before he-“ choking the last words out you fist John’s shirt.

“I should’ve ripped him apart limb by limb. That monster will never touch my girl again. You’re my omega now, Y/N. I’ll protect you and the goblins,” John can feel the tension in your body, so he moves his hand over your back, gently rubs it to calm you. “Everything is alright. You’re safe with me.”

“I know,” sniffing you peck John’s neck. “I feel safe with you, alpha. I know you would never hurt me.”

“I finally found my omega, my true mate. How could I ever hurt you?” nuzzling you John breathes you in. “You’re perfect, Y/N. All I ever wanted and more. Now, do you want more goblins?”

“I think we got enough – for now,” humming John watches you get comfortable on his lap. “Maybe if we find a cute one.”

“Anything for you, doll. Just say the word. This old alpha is all yours…”

“That bastard got what he deserved, John,” Claire shrugs at John’s pissed expression. “What? He almost kidnapped your omega. He hurt and threatened her. Not to forget to mention that monster destroyed her garden goblins.”

“I didn’t give you permission to kill him! What if his father and his men come here to find out who killed his son? We can’t draw too much attention. This sleepy little town is a refugee for us,” John growls. “Marcus Grant senior is not a fool.”

“According to the police report that bastard died in a car accident. His father will never know we taught his son a lesson or two before he bit the dust,” Rufus chuckles. “Believe me, John, we still know how to cover our tracks.”

“I don’t doubt you can cover your tracks, but this doesn’t mean Grant senior will accept his son is dead without digging deeper. What if he comes here to threaten my girl? I swore to never kill anyone again.”

“If that idjit dares to come here, he’ll regret it, John. Rufus, Claire, and I won’t let him ruin our sleepy little town. We are ready to defend our home,” Bobby mutters, pointing at Rufus. “Rufus got a nice shotgun and we don’t want to talk about my collection of guns.”

“I still can cut a bastard open. John Winchester, I will not let anything happen to your omega,” Claire plays with her favorite knife, chuckling as John makes a face. “Don’t worry, we’ve got this. Take care of your omega. She’s all you should worry about right now.”

“Perfect Y/N,” John smiles when you place the last garden goblin next to a cherry tree in John’s backyard. “I never thought my garden could look that nice. You did a great job, doll.”

“You think so,” you grasp John’s hand to squeeze it tightly. “Look, I cleaned your grill and I went to the grocery store and bought meat for you.”

“You’re spoiling me, doll,” smirking John watches you smile happily. “So, we can have a barbecue, huh? Maybe we can invite Bobby, Rufus, and Claire.”

“Sounds great. We could invite your sons too,” gasping you clasp one hand over your mouth, whimpering as you believe John doesn’t want you to meet his sons yet. “Sorry, I know it’s too soon to meet your sons. I shouldn’t have asked.”

“Baby doll, you can ask me anything and,” pecking your temple John smiles, “I called Sam and Dean. They will come around this weekend to meet my omega, my true mate. My sons are both excited to meet you, Y/N.”

“They are?” nodding you look up at John. “I could make dinner for us and pie. Uh-do you like pie? I could look for my granny’s recipe.”

“Dean will love you forever if you bake a pie for him.”

“I only want you to fall in love with me, John,” grinning cheekily John looks down at you. “If only I could find a way to seduce you, alpha.”

“You have my heart, Y/N,” mumbling the words John watches you place your hands onto his shoulders; laughing when you crane your neck to peck his lips. “Always, sweet omega. I don’t want you to do anything to win me over. This is unnecessary.”

“Maybe I want to seduce you,” cocking your head you glance at John’s lips. “I wasn’t always scared and meek. I used to be confident and funny.”

“I would never doubt you’re funny, doll. If you want to seduce me, kiss me again and I’m all yours,” your wrap your arms around his neck, humming happily when he meets you halfway to press his lips to your mouth.

“Nothing, Dad,” Sam whispers, watching you introduce his elder brother to your garden goblins. “We double-checked the police report and had a look at the car-wreck. Bobby did a great job. Grant senior won’t find out his son didn’t die in the accident.”

“Keep taps on him,” John laughs when you show Dean the biker goblin. “I need to be sure Y/N is safe, just like this place. One day I want my sons to take over this town.”

“She’s nice, dad,” humming John watches Dean interact with you. “We are glad you finally found someone. Dean was worried you’ll spend your life alone while jerking off to porn.”

“Sammy,” Dean tuts. “That was a secret. Can you not blur out anything I say?” deadpanning Dean walks toward John and his brother. “Now I want that food Y/N was talking about. She made pie too!”

“Y/N, welcome to the family, and be sure, you’ll not get rid of Dean as you baked him pie. He’s your best friend from now on,” Sam chuckles.

“I love me some pie, sweetheart. Dad, well done. You got yourself a nice, pretty, and smart omega. And she can bake, that makes her the ultimate mate,” grinning Dean pokes his father’s chest. “Bet you can’t wait to have pups with her.”

“Son-“ John grumbles, whispering the next words. “We didn’t so far. I want to take it slow and not scare my omega.”

“Your sons are great. Sammy is so smart, nice and freaking tall. Dean, he’s funny, loves pie, and hugged me repeatedly. He told me about his car and promised to get me a garden goblin with an Impala.”

“They like you too, doll,” your heart swells when John tells you his sons never liked one of his girlfriends before. “Dean asked when we are going to have pups. Sam wanted to know if we plan a spring wedding, and their wives want to come around as soon as possible.”

“Aw, I can’t wait,” crawling under the covers you babble about everything happening tonight while John watches you get comfortable on his bed. “Can we see the kids too? I bet they are as cute as your sons.”

“Uh-omega? Not that I want to complain but don’t you want to sleep in your room? I thought you need space and-“ John purrs when you pat the spot next to you. “Y/N?”

“I want to sleep in your room from now on. I’m not ready for anything else but I wanna sleep in your arms tonight,” swallowing thickly John lies next to you, waiting for you to make the next step. “When my heat is due, I wanna be yours.”

“Be mine,” humming John lets you lie on his chest, sleepily resting your head on his heart. “I like the sound of that.”

>> Part 3

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[onlyonekenobi]

I love your jupernatural head canons!! Please share some more??

HELL YEAH ANON THANK YOU FOR ASKING

In honor of tomorrow being Sam and Eileen’s wedding, let’s talk about their ketubah: they do have one, but instead of having fancy artwork around the text, Jack finger painted it. and then everyone signs it (around the outside like that) yearbook style. also, they definitely wrote their own original text, and there are no less than three very sneaky hunter puns in it

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you’ve heard of Dean speaking in idioms and references that no one understands, now get ready for this Exact Same Thing, but in ~yiddish~! Dean talks in full on bubbe-speak. no one has any god damn clue what he’s prattling on about, ever <3

amendment to the above, sam definitely does know what “quit kvetching” means

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Sam tries to make vegan challah once and dean threatens to disown him

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dean making the biggest, most ridiculously oversized hillel sandwich you’ve ever seen in your life, stuffing the whole thing in his mouth, and grinning broadly. jack thinks this is very funny. cas does not (but yes he does)

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Dean leading the seder and Cas repeatedly interjecting to tell them all what actually happened, because obviously he was there

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yes sam is a jew who practices pagan magic, WHAT OF IT but also he does study kabbalah, purely for the lore of it all

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okay I have already perceived in my heart that jack (this is also a baby jack truthing post in case you couldn’t tell, because hi, it’s me) calls dean and cas “dad” and “papa” respectively, but like sam is also his dad right, so i think there’s potential here for jack to call him “aba”? I’m on the fence about this one, mostly because I don’t know what it means for eileen (would he then call her ima? or just, like, dodah or tante? what is she Cool With what is the Vibe of this Situation) but! i think it’s cute! and also i feel like most non jews don’t know what aba means (or maybe they do, but like. definitely in kansas i feel like probably not) so it wouldn’t cause mass confusion when they’re around other people, which is a plus

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sam accidentally drops a spell book on the floor and jack’s eyes get super wide and he runs over like “KISS IT ABA YOU GOTTA KISS IT” and sam is like you know what fair enough, *kiss*

at some later point sam explains this incident to rowena and she is Extremely Endeared. she thanks baby jack for taking such good care of her books

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afikomen hunt in the BUNKER, are you KIDDING ME?? Yes this is normally a game for children, yes EVERYONE participates (but of course they let jack “find it” <3)

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obviously mary is jack’s grandmother and presents the tallis at his bar mitzvah but I think also rufus joins bobby in standing up as the grandfathers (“Not to impose, Bobby, but you got no clue what you’re doing”)

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okay. okay, listen. point a, dean has cas’s grace in a vial necklace. point b, they stepped on a breaking glass at their wedding. point c, they seal a little bit of the broken glass into another vial or a locket or idk something, and they make it into a necklace for jack (“So you always remember that your parents love each other, and you, forever”) (this point inspired by a real couple I met who did something similar for their daughters and when they explained to me what they were doing I Cried in Public)

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Alexa How Do We Prepare Our Child for Their B’nai Mitzvah When They Were Briefly G-d as a Toddler

[casmybelovedass]

| After Party in Heaven |

(I'm an idiot and deleted the original post. Fuck me)

[read on ao3]

(based on this and Chad Lindberg’s tweets)

Ellen and Ash had practically thrown them out the Harvelle's, insisting they went home and enjoy the rest of the night, while they cleaned up the place. "It's Heaven," they had said "we could wish it clean. We are choosing not to".

The broken pool table, yickes, that one really got out of hand. Pretty sure at least one window got smashed. Somethings caught fire... oh well...

Dean had quickly scribbled an "I owe you" note and left it on one of the tables.

Sam and Eileen had left a little earlier, excusing themselves to have an almost-midnight walk by the lake. Wholesome. He hadn't wasted a second to tell them to just go away and be gross freely (affectionate).

Jack, Charlie, Bobby, Rufus, Jo, and the others, Dean had assured could keep partying in his honour, even if he was no longer there.

He was tipsy (kind concession of Heaven, considering he would have been dead again from the amount of alcohol he had consumed did he break that bottle or was it Ash), full of pie, slightly breathless from all the singing, and very much old.

He deserved a good birthday night of sleep.

 

Though a happiness overload was just what he needed, especially on that day, Dean had no doubt the warm feeling in his chest wasn't going to be temporary, not a variable.

Just like the warmth in his hand. Secure. Strong. Reassuring. Real.

Cas was right next to him. Hand in his. Gracefully leading him to the car they got there with.

Not quite pulling, not even guiding him. If felt more as if Cas were a river, its stream carrying Dean to his destination.

Or maybe it was just the beer talking.

Once the angel came to a halt, he slowly turned to face him, hands still together, a fond smile on his lips and in his eyes.

Beautiful.

 

"How are you feeling?" he asked in a soft voice.

Dean could feel his face forming the shit eating grin he knew he got when drunk. But that wasn't the kind of drunk he was used to.

"Awesome." and he genuinely did. For everything. All of it. Everything was quite perfect.

Cas let out a small chuckle, eyes taking in Dean's form, up and down. No funny business. It never was, not with Cas. Only fondness.

His free hand slowly came up, two fingers held near Dean's forehead.

"Do you want help sobering up?"

Dean's own free hand came up, finding Cas', and bringing it back down. Holding it there.

"Why don't you drive us back?"

They didn't even live that far from Harvelle's. Their house stood near the big lake across the roadhouse. A 5 minutes car ride. But he had insisted on driving there.

And the real reason showed in the form of playful praises on Cas' profile, face so focused on the road, and hands on the wheel. And the smile he was failing to conceal.

Beautiful.

 

Once back home, they immediately laid in bed.

Cas had made it a habit of stroking Dean's hair and back before drifting to sleep (who it was more relaxing for was heavily debated on), and this night was no different.

Those strong fingers, gently grazing his scalp, tracing patterns on his skin, keeping him close to his firm, warm body...

Dean looked up.

 

"Marry me."

 

They stopped.

Cas' body already shifting under him.

Too late to back down from it now.

Hoisting himself on his elbows, the angel looked down. Mouth slightly open, he managed to get one single word out.

"What?"

Okay, not what Dean had in mind.

But he didn't need to panic. The anxiety had already contributed to his sobering. He didn't need more.

There wasn't a reason, really, cuz Cas' blue eyes were all but rejecting his gaze.

And so, he went on.

"I defeated God. I made it to my 40s. I'm in Heaven with my family. I'm happy. And I owe it all to you."

Dean pushed himself forward on his arms, getting closer.

"Marry me, Cas." he whispered.

Their breathing combined, noses touching, Dean not sure whether to close his eyes and enjoy the moment, or keep them open in search of an answer in Cas'.

And he didn't have to wait long, cuz a couple of seconds later, he found himself pressed into the mattress, Cas' weight on him, arms around his body. Not a cage.

A home.

 

Turns out, good things do happen after all.

 

 

 

Dean's 42nd year officially began with a ring in his breakfast leftover pie, and a choke-laughed

"That's the corniest shit you've ever done."

Reposting on its own cuz yes It's past 3 am woho

@mishavacado thank you for the ring in the pie idea

@destiels-canonahhhhhhhhhh here's Dean's proposal!

@spicegirls I just read your "good things" vows post and it made me want to DRINK NAILS

[postmodernmulticoloredcloak]

The Rooster Sunrise motel and the roots of the narrative at the sunset of the story. A masterclass in Dean characterization

If I didn’t care / more than words can say / if I didn’t care / would I feel this way? / If this isn’t love / then why do I thrill? / And what makes my head go round...

This song plays as Travis comes in to check at the Rooster Sunrise motel - late in the night, later than the motel technically allows checks in. Metaphorically, this episode happens later than it should. Everything happens later than it should. Dean defeats the monster too late, after it gets Travis dead. They’re running a case when they should actually be preparing for the ultimate showdown against God. Dean tells Sam the truth about Jack too late. The very episode is “out of place” in the season - I mean, purposely so - because it gives us a “old style” hunting case in a season where hunting has lost its original purpose in the narrative but has taken a different purpose, as a sort of caricature of itself, as we’ve discussed about before.

This episode is a last. Okay, we haven’t seen the next few yet, but this episode has a specific function, and it is to be the last traditional hunting case of the show. It’s about the past, and that’s why it can happen now that hunting can no longer exist, not really. This season, we have never had real hunting cases. Fake ones, weird ones, ones that just felt off -- obviously because the story is no longer working the way it did before. Chuck’s “hamster wheel” has been fully revealed, and the narrative can no longer function in the old way.

And this episode happens as... a sunset, actually. Or better, both sunrise and sunset because it shows us, in parallel, the beginning and the end. The first case Dean and Sam work together, and what is essentially the last, at least the last with the traditional formula - a monster of the week, a motel, a gross place, a civilian saved, some choking, some yeeting across a motel room, you know how it goes.

(The elephant in the room is the sun/sunrise imagery across the show, especially relevant after the latest episode brought back the Gas’n’Sip logo, of course, but let’s talk about something else here.)

There are many echoes in the episode. 2x11 Playthings, a case in a hotel that involved children. 11x16 Safe House, where a case was run both in the past, by Bobby and Rufus, and in the present, and involves a monster’s nest and visions. Of course 1x18 Something Wicked, where they defeat a monster that targeted kids after an attempt when they were kids had failed to get rid of the monster for good, and where we also get flashbacks of them as kids. And many other little references and callbacks. A pretty major one (*rubs hands together*) is 10x19 The Werther Project, where something supernatural causes hallucinations that make the victim kill themselves; Dean also almost stabbed himself back then. (Cuthbert Sinclair again... bless.) Oh, well, the pilot itself, where Dean and Sam comment that they make a good team. And then Carver-era secret and lies, of course.

And 14x13 Lebanon. (Yes it gets its own paragraph...) Dean smashing the stone in the ring, making the monster disappear, parallels straight to Sam smashing the pearl, making John disappear. The other monster of the episode is John, of course, who drops the kids in some motel alone while he gets “out of reach” when Dean tries to contact him on the phone (callback to season 1, when they kept trying to call John on the phone and he never answered, not even when Dean was dying or they were in their old house in Lawrence and terrified). John only appears as an invisible figure driving the car, symbolically driving their lives (all this “killing God and getting free” is nothing but a mirror to getting free from John’s influence, right). Callback to 9x07 Bad Boys, where we also see a younger Dean and we also deal with the weight of the lifestyle John placed on him, in an episode that features a literal ghost of a parent. (Heck, we even had Dean stealing food - in 9x07 he was caught by a policeman and brought to the boys’ house, now Caitlin jokes about arresting him.)

As 1x18 Something Wicked, we are presented with how growing up among monsters and hunting cases impacted Dean as a kid. Interestingly, Sam tries to reassure Dean in both episodes, telling him that he was just a kid and he shouldn’t be too hard on himself. In 1x18 he had ruined John’s hunt and put Sam in danger (of course the implication is that John put them in danger by using them as bait and expecting a child - addditionally unaware of what was going on - to watch after a younger child), now that he didn’t tell anyone about the nest because it was too horrifying to share that with other kids (of course, he’d also been a kid and shouldn’t have had to investigate a child-killing monster, so the implication is again that John shouldn’t have left them alone and unable to reach him in case of danger. It’s so telling that the episode has Dean discovering the bodies of dead kids while Sam is playing with another kid - although, of course, the game also turns terrifying soon).

So it’s an episode that has it all: the ghost of John Winchester, the way Dean’s parentified role impacts negatively his relationship with Sam (the episode establishes a connection between Dean shielding Sam from the horror of the monster’s nest and Dean essentially shielding Sam from the horror of the latest Jack news, it’s always about Dean feeling the weight of a responsibility to Sam because he’s Sam’s caretaker, even if he ostensibily mentions Billie’s plan and stuff as the reason of his silence), and of course the theme of FEAR.

I’ve been screaming this from rooftops pretty much since I’ve been here on tumblr - fear is the interpretative key to Dean’s character. Since season 1. Since the beginning. (You’re scared. It’s okay. I understand. See, when I was your age, I saw something real bad happen to my mom, and I was scared, too.) Many posts have been written about how anger is a secondary emotion, when the narrative ostensibly had Dean be “angry”. Dean has dealt with fear almost his entire life, and this episode basically works as an asterisk to the season. Hey, we’re having everyone comment on Dean’s anger! Including Dean himself! He says he doesn’t know why he has these outbursts! Well, we do know. Little reminder here now... he’s scared. And he’s scared because he cares, because he loves so much, and when you keep losing what you love you are scared, scared of losing more and more, stuck in a hamster wheel of losing and losing and losing.

In fact, if losing Jack will stop the hamster wheel, he’s fine with it, because as long as they’re stuck in the wheel they’ll lose Jack again anyway, they keep losing everything over and over, Jack and Cas and everyone. In this episode he mentions funerals of hunters, friends, how they couldn’t even attend all the funerals of people they were close to. There were so many. They’ve always been so surrounded by horror and fear and death. He just wants it to stop. (Of course the plan cannot work, just like the immersion therapy method didn’t work for Travis. Well, poor Travis’ idea of facing his fears to overcome his trauma worked very well on paper, just like Billie’s plan seems to be the best option on paper, but we still have a few episodes still to see...)

This episode is an exploration of the motives of Dean’s behavior, and it spells them out very clearly. John’s abuse and neglect, the forced parentified role he had to take towards Sam since a too-early age, the nightmarish horrors he had to see (while shielding Sam from, which reminds me of the infamous scene about Max’s childhood...), the neverending chain of losses with its baggage of fear.

Dean wants - needs - to defeat Chuck, just like Travis needed to face his fears and overcome his trauma. Because Chuck means hamster wheel. And the hamster wheel isn’t just a theoretical lack-of-free-will thing. It’s not just about a philosophical/theological concept. It’s about the very real cycle of horror and fear and loss that Dean has spent his entire life in. It’s about a pile of dead children, both a metaphor for his brutally ended childhood and a very concrete example of what has been haunting him for so long.

His apparently “okayness” with Billie’s plan is not out of a revenge thing or lack of forgiveness towards Jack (of course we can add millions of words about Dean’s relationship with Death). His okayness with killing Amara is... well, only partly about punishing her for, as he sees it, toying with him. His anger is because he feels so much. If I didn’t care / more than words can say / if I didn’t care / would I feel this way?

[winchesterfanatic1967]

Nobody Knows Me Like My Baby Part 1

Pairings: Dean x AU Reader 

Word Count: 2,067 

Warnings: None 

This series will mainly be in Deans point of view. 

My name is Dean Winchester. I’m twenty six years old, and I’m a mechanic at Rufus Turner’s garage that will someday be mine. I live alone, and my favorite pastime is drinking whiskey, and frisky women. My mother had passed away when I was four years old in a house fire, and my dad raised me and my little brother Sam by himself. 

On June 21st, 2005 my father Sergeant John Winchester was murdered. It all happened so fast, and I’m pissed. He was a good man, he was a good cop. He helped people, and he was good for our community. Everybody loved him, and people were sad. Hundreds of people came to his funeral, and nobody could understand why what happened, happened. 

He was shot and murdered in cold blood. His partner Sergeant Robert Singer “aka” my Uncle Bobby, found him in an abandoned warehouse. It was all over the news, and I had to watch my father being carried out of the warehouse in a body bag. 

I was upset, grieving, and had my fair share of tears. But the one emotion I was feeling more than anything was rage. I was blind to anything else, and the people around me were starting to worry about me. Rufus, Uncle Bobby, Sammy, and all my friends. 

“Dean, I’m not firing you. I’m just telling you that you need to take a leave of absence to get yourself together. You’re unfocused, and you’re still in the grieving process. I miss your dad too,  but he wouldn’t want you to go on like this. He would want you to move on.”

“Are you fucking serious Rufus? He was shot, he was murdered in cold blood and you want me to just forget about it?!” I yelled in anger, my nostrils flaring. 

“Watch your tone boy. Don’t forget who you’re talking to here. Take a couple months. Grieve. Cry. Hit something, I don’t care. But you need to deal with it son. Now get the hell out of my office.”

“Screw you. I quit.” I said as I grabbed my stuff, and never looked back. 

I had enough saved for right now before I found another job. Right now my focus was on finding out who was responsible for my fathers murder. That’s the only thing that’s keeping me going right now. 

“Dean, you quit?”

“Damn straight.”

“Why!? You were about to own the garage in a couple of years when Rufus retired.”

“He was acting like a prick, and I don’t have the time for it right now.” 

“De...dad wouldn’t want you to act like this.”

“How is everyone telling me to “Move on,” Sammy, he was murdered. How can you just let that go?”

“I’m pissed too Dean! Believe me.”

“No you’re not. Not really. You and dad never got along. All you did was fight.”

“Dean that’s not fair! I loved dad just as much as you did. We were the same person, that’s why we butted heads so much. He wasn’t keen on my career, that’s why we fought when I went away to college.” 

“Being a cop wasn’t for me, but for you Sam..dad had a job lined up for you and you didn’t even need to lift a finger! You were crazy to turn that away.”

“Dean, I never wanted to be a cop! Dad wanted me to be, but I wanted to make decisions for myself.”

“Whatever Sammy, I’m going to bed. Stay, sleep on the couch, leave, I don’t care.” I said as I downed the rest of my drink and made my way to my room. 

“Bobby, you have to know something.”

“Son all the files are sealed, I’m legally not able to discuss this with you.”

“Damn it Bobby, he was my dad!” “

AND HE WAS MY GOD DAMN BROTHER!” He yelled. “I want to find the son of a bitch too, believe me.”

“Then please help me Bobby. I just need to know.”

He just sighed, and looked around. There was barely around, then he whispered to me, “Come into my office. I can show you the files of the last case that your daddy and I were working on before he died.”

That was two weeks ago, and I finally had a few leads. My dad had arrested a couple of different men the last two months of his life. One named Cole Trenton, and the other being Garth Fitzgerald. 

I paid a visit to Garth, and he was a scrawny kid that had been a messed up drug addict. My dad had warned him that if he caught him ever again with drugs, he would put him behind bars. Well, he did and my dad was a man of his word. After getting out, he spent some time in rehab and he seemed to have his life back on track. 

“I’m sorry about your dad sir. Given the circumstances, I didn’t hate the guy. He caught me what...six times before throwing me behind bars? He gave me a lot of chances. I think I needed to be locked up. I needed to see the light. He helped me grow up, it was probably the best thing to ever happen to me.”

Well, that was a bust. So I paid a visit to Cole Trenton. His case was a lot more different than Garths. He was involved with some shady business people, and he’d been arrested by my dad a number of times. He had a wife and a kid, and practically slammed the door in my face when his wife told him not to be rude, and invited me inside for dinner. 

“So Dean, how do you and Cole know each other?”

“Oh we're old pals. Isn’t that right?”

He was practically seething, as he was staring at me. 

“Right.”

After dinner was over, he pulled me outside for a chat. 

“What the hell do you want?”

“Who murdered John Winchester.”

“I don’t think I know.”

I slammed him into the ground, before punching him. I grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and met nose to nose with him. 

“Think harder.”

“I can’t tell you, he’ll kill me.”

“Oh buddy, I’m about to kill you. So I suggest you choose your actions wisely.”

“And If I don’t tell you?”

“Then I’ll have to tell your wife and son how much of a shady bastard you really are.”

He hesitated, before giving me a name, “James Y/L/N.” 

That’s when I learned that James Y/L/N was responsible for my fathers death. He didn’t do it directly himself, but he had someone else do it for him. He sent a hitman out on my dad because he was getting closer to busting him. He was involved in shady business deals. I wanted to kill him, but my dad wouldn’t have wanted me to do that. I needed to find him, and get him put behind bars where he belongs. 

After doing some research, I learned that James Y/L/N was a wealthy business owner. His wife was deceased and he had a daughter named Y/N L/N. He had too many people around him covering him like a shield. There’s no way I would be able to have a face to face conversation with him, and there’s no doubt that he wouldn’t know who I am. 

I did some research on Y/N. She currently attends the University of Lawrence. That’s when I decided that I’m going to meet her, become her friend. Hopefully good friends, and she’ll let me meet her dad. 

“I’ll get him dad. Don’t you worry.” I said as I looked at the picture of him on my nightstand. 

“Dean are you nuts?!”

“I’ve been told.”

“If Bobby finds out, he’s gonna be pissed!” 

“And that’s why we’re going to keep it between us.”

He just sighed, sitting on my couch and running his hand along his face. 

“So you’re just going to meet this girl, become her friend, and use her to get to her dad?”

“Yeah, that sounds about right.”

“Dean you sound crazy. You know what right?”

“Like I said, I’ve been told. I’m gonna find the son of a bitch Sammy. I’m gonna do justice for dad.”

He just shook his head, not agreeing in the slightest with my plan.

The next day, I woke up early and showered. I dressed in a flannel and jeans with my boots. I slipped some shades on, and grabbed my bag. Today I was posing as a college student. Today I was going to meet Y/n. I pulled into the parking lot, and made my way into the building. I had no idea what she looked like, so I had my friend Charlie Bradbury hack into the school system to find out her schedule. She was confused, but didn’t ask any questions. I went to the main office, and talked to the counselor. Thankfully, I was able to get at least one class with her. 

I walked in, and the class was full of students. I took a seat in the back and waited for the professor to start talking. The lesson began, and he took attendance. He went through a list of names when he finally read the name I was waiting to hear. 

“L/N, Y/N.”

“Here.”

I snapped my head to the right side where she was sitting. Holy fuck, she’s beautiful. Her long y/h/c was into a side braid, and her e/c eyes were beautiful. She was wearing jean shorts, white converse and a white tank top. She kept her makeup light and her sunglasses were placed at the top of her head. Damn, she’s a sight for sore eyes. I had to look away before she noticed me staring. 

I only had one goal in this, and that was to get close to her so I could have a word with her dad. Nothing else. After class was over I followed quietly behind her as she made her way to the Starbucks that was on campus. She smiled politely at the barista as she got her coffee and walked away. 

I purposely waited behind the corner, and then knocked into her. The coffee went everywhere, and stained her white tank top. She scoffed in annoyance before looking at me.

“Damn buddy, watch where you're going.”

 “Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry. Let me make it up to you, let me buy you another coffee.”

“No thanks I’m good. I’m going to be late for class.” She said as she threw the now empty cup in the trash, and made her way in the opposite direction. I felt bad, I really did. Despite everything she didn’t deserve that. Luckily, I had the next class with her. 

I walked in, and she was sitting in the back. I walked up, and she rolled her eyes when she saw me. I could tell she was still pissed, so I chose my words carefully.

“I really am sorry, I just transferred to this university and I guess I’m a little nervous.”

“It’s fine, I get it.”

“I have to make it up to you somehow.” 

“It was an accident, don’t worry about it.”

I didn’t know what else to say, she was a tough cookie to crack. I kept glancing at her and she was focused on the lesson in front of her. She was chewing on her pen, and seemed really interested. I couldn’t help but notice how cute she looked, when it was time to go to the next class.

I had the next one with her too, and it was the final class I had with her. She scoffed and let out a little laugh as she noticed me again. 

“Are you stalking me or something?”

I had to laugh a little at the irony, and shook my head. 

“I’m sorry, I’m sure that I’m the last person you want to keep seeing.”

“I’m over it now. I’m Y/N L/N.”

I stuck my hand out for her to shake, and her hand was really soft as I greeted her back. 

“Dean Winchester. So after class can I take you to lunch? To make up for me being a clumsy asshole earlier.” She giggled. Damn. Her laugh was cute as hell.

“I’d like that.” 

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