#YES. THIS IS SO THAT BOBBY HAS TO LIVE WITH ‘I will never forgive you for what happened. you got that? never. so change the subject bob.’

[quietwingsinthesky]

I’m not one for soulmates AUs but bobbyrufus soulmate AU of the ‘you have the last words your soulmate will ever say to you on your body somewhere’ kind.

[hiwelcometothemonstersancturary]

order in which the Smiling Critters refer to Angel as their parent, in my save everyone AU:

Dogday, by accident, while everyone is still inside. He's so embarassed by it, poor boy;

Bobby. After her rescue she hears Poppy referring to Angel as mother and goes "🥺 mom????????", and Angel just has to go with it because the majority of the toys are calling them either mom or dad by this point;

Craftycorn is next! She's very shy, VERY quietly asking Angel if she can call them dad because they helped her feel safe enough to sleep. After that she's SO HAPPY about finally having someone to take care of her!

After this, Dogday uses both mom and dad for Angel, without feeling embarrassed anymore:

Hoppy. Girlie is bedridden for the first month and Angel is always there for her, she's already all "I wish I could call them dad without it being weird" until she hears Dogday saying it. She's VERY protective of Angel and that becomes a bit worse because "THAT'S MY PARENT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT".

Kickin is all like "I appreciate the fact you're taking care of me but like Im independent, I lived through things you can only dream off, Im not calling you dad like Im a kid" and then 3 weeks of accidentally using both mom and dad for Angel later he's crying his eyes out as he finally just. Stops trying to play tough guy because he's now in a safe environment and can be vulnerable and safe.

Bubba doesn't see Angel as an actual parental figure until, much like Kickin, he realizes he's in a safe environment and Angel is his caretaker regardless of what may happen. Bubba is weirded out for some time because he's so used to never having someone looking out for him, and then Angel gently tells him to slow things down because he just had a burn out and needs to treat his mind because yes, he is traumatized, and Bubba. Straight up asks if they see him as not just a "kid" but their kid. And its complicated, but Angel agrees with the idea, and then Bubba warms up to the idea and stops calling them "sir/ma'am" and goes with "father/mother".

Picky is desperate to call Angel mom since day 1, but she feels SO guilty for seeing them like that because all the other critters are basically their kid, and who's Picky to interfere after she tried to eat some of them? And, okay, they accepted her apologies and they want to be her friends again, but should she insert herself into the little family just like that? Its Bubba who finally convinces her that she's not an intruder, and then she's all "mom, do you want to see how the garden is doing?" and is always so happy when Angel doesn't correct her.

Catnap. He has 13 layers of unresolved trauma and religious guilt, and for him to stop viewing Angel as his savior but as the only human he can trust Picky is already trying out baking a pie with Mommy Long Legs to celebrate Mother's Day with Angel. His relationship with the Prototype getting better and him finally calling him Father, alongside Dogday, Crafty and Bobby helping him stop feeling so guilty all the time is what helps the most, but he still views Angel as better than human because what else could forgive him? But when his relationship with Hoppy starts improving is when he, very hesitantly, starts thinking about calling Angel "Mother" (he already has a dad). When he finally tries that for the first time Angel lowkey is this close to crying, but they just give him a big hug. Catnap is also close to crying because he thinks he made a mistake at first, but Angel helps calm him down.

Unrelated but one time one of Angel's friends came over to visit and heard Catnap calling them "mother", and then later asked Angel if they had anything to do with Catnap's "father", because last thing they knew Catnap was having a catholic moment involving Angel and would NEVER think of them as a parent, right????? Angel's response was a simple "I know my family is weird but what the fuck, girl!". They still laugh about it to this day.

Also:

Dogday, Bobby, Crafty, Hoppy and Bubba use both mom and dad for Angel;

Kickin has a preference for calling them dad;

Picky has a preference for calling them mom;

Catnap refers to Angel EXCLUSIVELY as mom in order to avoid confusion.

Prototype refers to Angel as "the mother/father", "the caretaker" and "the parent", even when talking to the other toys. "Call the parent for that" is something he frequently says. For Catnap he says "call your mother".

[its-a-dreamer-life]

Redstone Snap JATP AU

Julie And The Phantoms is my favourite show. My comfort show. And Redstone Snap is my comfort ship. So I had to mix them up.

@soemthingsparkly this for you. I know you love those two things as much as me.

Careful this post will container big spoiler for Julie And The Phantoms. If you haven't see the show and wants to watch it wait until you read this post.

Scott is Julie, a lifer (someone who is still living) who lost someone close to him that made him stop music for a while.

Joel as Alex (battery), Jimmy as Reggie (bass) and Lizzie as Luke (guitar). Mumbo isn’t on stage but he wrote all the band’s songs. They’re all ghosts.

If Scott is Julie then Martyn is Flynn (Scott’s best friend, who is a lifer but can’t see the ghosts).

For Flying Solo. The group took Scott's lyrics. And made a banger. The thing is. Mumbo wasn't there. He was panicking over everything and went out to breath. He met Grian who quickly became his best friend (yup, nothing more). And when he got back, they had a full song finished only with Scott's lyrics.

And Mumbo feels bad because he thinks they don't need him anymore. He thinks he'll get replaced. And he feels bad for thinking that. But at the same time Scott is good. His lyrics are good. Why would they need him anymore? But quickly they reassured him and soon Scott and Mumbo started writing lyrics together which got them to be closer and to develop a crush on the other.

Martyn is not able to see Mumbo at least once (he can't be seen by lifers because he's not playing with Scott), he only sees the eye contact between Scott and Jimmy while they sing.

"You~ Totally have a crush on Jimmy.

What ? No I don't."

Martyn is convinced Scott has a crush on Jimmy and Scott is just pure confusion because. No ? They're just friends ??? Also. His crush is Mumbo??????

Caleb is still Caleb. We don’t need to change him. Although I think he died a very long time ago. At a time where the Hollywood Ghost Club wasn’t called that. But something else. And that’s when Grian joined. It was called the Watchmen’s Tower (Yes I managed to tie the Watchers to a Universe without them. What will you do, hmm ? Nothing. I am the one writing this post and I will do what I want mouahahahahahaha). So yeah. Let’s say Fwhip was the other guitarist of the band when they were still alive (yes this is Bobby). But he didn’t die. He lived and recorded their songs without giving them credits. Don’t get him wrong he isn’t a bad guy he just… didn’t think this through ? He wanted the songs of his band to live on so he just recorded them. He just. Never thought of crediting them, at that time it was hurting him so much (yes this is still a dick move but hey ! I don’t think Bobby is truly bad in the show !).

So yeah, they discovered Fwhip stole their songs, they’re mad. They go hunt him. Then Grian introduces them to Cale and BOOM ! That’s how they end up with the stamp. Also. When they come back Scott is pretty mad at them because they stood him up when this night was supposed to be their first show.

Mumbo being the one who fought with his parents and left, when Scott is mad at all the ghosts, Joel, Jimmy and Lizzie show Mumbo at his parent’s house. He is crying. He misses them so much and regrets how he left. When they all go back home, Scott forgives them and they get ready for their next show.

During Finally Free, the eye contacts between Jimmy and Scott are a lot and Mumbo thinks there might be something going on between them.

During all this time, Grian sometimes spies on the ghosts because he doesn’t want his best friend to disappear. At one point Mumbo is so confused and hurt by Grian’s behavior that he only talks about him to the band (except Scott). He talks about Grian so much that the band thinks he has a crush on him.

And sorry for those who hate misunderstandings, but Scott hears the band talking about Mumbo's crush on Grian and he convinces himself it's true. So basically.

Scott thinks there's something between Mumbo and Grian. And Mumbo thinks there's something between Jimmy and Scott.

Scott thinks about Mumbo the whole time he dances with whoever is supposed to be Nick (let’s just say Sausage because Sausage and Scott’s dynamic is funny). Or just. Imagining the song. But instead of keeping it in like Julie does, he actually writes it when he comes back home

Mumbo finds Scott writing a song and asks to look at it. Scott is a bit anxious Mumbo will understand it's about him but he still lets him look. The thing is. Mumbo thinks this song is about Jimmy and not him. So while he reads it he's trying so hard not to let his feelings show. He compliments Scott on the song because even though he's a bit hurt, it's still a very good song.

Scott doesn't have the time to ask him any question or if he's alright (yeah he definitely saw the change Mumbo had while reading the song) because Mumbo just teleported away right after giving him the paper back.

At one point, Scott decides to find and give Mumbo’s parents the song he wrote about them thus making the Unsaid Emily scene. This is also the first time he heard Mumbo sing a whole ass song. It was always some bits when they were writing. Never a whole song ! And they got home together. And Mumbo got a shock because of the stamp and Scott looked so sad and angry (at Caleb) and betrayed and like his whole world shattered.

During Stand Tall. Scott sees everyone coming back and looks backstage just to see Mumbo looking at him with such a big bright smile and Scott wants to cry right there. Then when they all disappeared he wants to cry even more because “God they passed. This is it. They finished their unfinished business. God it hurts. He never got to tell Mumbo how he felt about him. And now he never will.”

The scene with the big ass hug. They all hug each other. And then Mumbo, I don't know. Maybe Mumbo stayed on the side. But soon enough he joins Scott, puts his hands on Scott's cheeks. And oh my god he can touch Scott. He can feel him. He can feel his warmth. And he just kisses him. That's something he wanted to do for a while and now he can.

He will take the chance when he has it. He doesn't know if he'll be able to touch Scott again.

[ask-the-critters-survival-au]

Static sings out from the monitor as the voice from within reaches out to all bound to it's spell "It seems you have finally connected child... Hello. I am... thankful that my last message seems to have been only heard by Bobby... So for sake of reintroduction... Hello Kickin, hello Picky. It is good to finally meet you both as face to face as well as we can..."

"Ah Crafty is bleeding Bobby you may wish to find her soon... Ah Crafty do you see something on the ground? Maybe look at that for a bit while Bobby comes to you okay?"

"Where was I- Ah yes I was restating what I said last time while not being so emotional... I am unsure as to the specifics of what you have done to each other children... But I will say this time and time again- You have hurt each other and that is okay- you have grown to hate each other and that is okay- You can love and hate some at the same time."

"Those things are not exclusive- To feel both is natural children- it's what it means to be a Person."

"Now... for the sake of making sure you understand Hoppy- Bobby- Kickin has suffered greatly already for what he may have done... Paid the price I assume... Apologize Kickin and Picky. This Memory Picky has showed us is not mine to share... but they must know what Catnap did-"

The static shifts and churns... as a old memory surfaces for the 5 children bound to this device to hear.

~~~~~ "Catnap-please, I’m so sorry Catnap. Please, I’ll do anything to make it up. I’ll never step foot in the Playhouse again! Just don’t hurt me, please!"

"Silence." ~~~~~

"As is Picky's words- "By the time he finally came back it was clear he was only still alive because he was useful." Even if I think the child chose twisted kindness instead of Kickin's usefulness."

"Again children- Hoppy. You can love and hate someone, you can worry about them while wishing to punch their face in. Both are not exclusive. Do not let yourself live in regret. If you wish you voice your care- Do so. It does not mean you forgive him... It only means your not lying about how you feel."

"Wish you all safe children. Till we speak again."

The Static cuts off from the monitor... May these children be well.

Oh! You again! You’re the funny voice who told Bobby how I could magically get my hands back! Thank you friend! I cant wait to draw again!

Meanwhile…

How the hell do they know about that?!

I told them.

What the hell! That stuff is personal, Pig!

Do I look like I give a shit?

That isn’t your job to-

This is why you should have come. I was right. You got hurt.

Wait…you invited him? Did you invite Bubba too? Were you planning on leaving me alone with him?!

No, that wasn’t…forget this. I’m done with this conversation.

[msfbgraves]

I'm very intrigued by your answer saying Terry has been with at least one omega since marriage...! Is that considered cheating or is it OK because 'Alphas will be Alphas', 'how can a red blooded Alpha resist an omega begging for it' - that kind of thinking. Would Daniel know about it, and if yes, would he be upset? Or dismiss it as irrelevant because he's Terry's mate, Mama to their puppies? It's interesting to see Terry's Alpha nature come into play in this particular scenario (like that hypocritical way of thinking a lot of men have in our society, the double standards for men & women). Terry can barely stand Daniel sharing cuddles and a kiss with his own Pop meanwhile he's - and please forgive the crude language lol - sticking his d*ck into random omegas?! (Well, he did it once. But I'm sure he'd be on a murder spree if he found out another Alpha had fucked his omega).

I think you see it quite clearly Nonnie! I feel that this is partly because Terry is from a very Alpha and beta dominated environment. Betas expect a "boss" to be a bit of a philanderer. Most beta women who are with Alphas could probably tell them that Alphas are very faithful. They're terrors in other ways, many would say, beta men are easier to live with, but once they're mated, that bond - with betas too - is something Alphas are not very inclined to break.

Terry thought it wouldn't go for him because he's had kitties before and the beta boys keep drunkingly telling him it'll help and he is angry with Daniel (this is in the aftermath of Terry fighting with Michael and taking it out on Daniel) but he doesn't understand this, he really doesn't. It's such a diminished experience. But at least now he knows. It may be different for an Alpha without an omega - your average mobster cannot afford one - but for him? No. He has his Danny. And he needs to keep him, Jaysis, he's been an eejit! Fuck!

Daniel would be rather bitter about it, sure, when he found out (years later when someone was very drunk). As if Terry hadn't hurt him enough that time he went out and did this. Left the pups with Bobby and Tommy and fucked someone else. Hmpf! Yet he'd also be pleased about how it confirms that he really is the one for his mate. As far as he's aware - and he can smell it on him - Terry never strays and he's seen people throw themselves at his mate. He can infer from talks Pop has had with Vanessa and especially Louie that Pop has not been completely faithful to his Ma, either. But then, when he asks, Ma tells him that beta men or beta women sometimes have entire second relationships on the side, like, a kind of shadow mates. "Other" men and women. Your mate getting seduced once or twice, Daniele, sweetheart, will probably only have shown them what you are to them. The reason your beta friends are so upset by it is that it can be the first step to a lifetime of being abandoned and disrespected. And Alphas are a handful, tell her about it, but your Terry would be a very odd duck if that were him. Pop didn't ever do it again either.

And when Daniel would then complain that he can't even smile at another person, Alpha beta or omega, and Terry (and Pop?!) seems to have been OK with doing this, she'd kiss his cheek and say: "Only once, remember. But that's Alphas for you. He's learnt his lesson, hasn't he?"

[inabarbi3world]

Live Reaction to 6x11 In Another Life

starting off with maddie and her mom 🫡

aw jee loves flowers that’s so adorable

why are the buckley parents acting so weirdly nice i really am feeling like there’s something they’re not telling us

I knew it was coming but god MY FUCKING HEART BRO OUCH.

i-

“DO MORE”

EDDIE HUN… they shall try

WOWH HE’S AWAKE???? oh nvm. aint no way hes awake lol. WOAH DANIEL????? what in the fuck is happening?

i. so hes having one of THESE. the FUCKING COMA AU.

KIDS??????? I. HES A TEACHER???????? HELLO?????? Im lost. Huh? isn’t that… HUH?????? BRO. sorry y’all are just gonna get confusing ass reactions bc that’s how i feel, extremely confused.

…

Her dad is gonna be.

YOURE FUCKING JOKING.

nah y’all can fuck right off with that LMAO /srs

WHYYYYYYY ARE THEY DOING THIS TO US OMG (ik why but it isn’t gonna stop me from asking)

um. i’m SO excited to see buck realize/have to do something to “leave” this “other life” (idk if it’s sarcastic or not yet, tbd)

yup. great. still an abuser. it never stops.

i.

LMFAOOOO.

OH. SO NOW HE GETS TO SEE THINGS THAT REMIND HIM OF HIS TRAUMA THATS SOOOOOOOO COOL.

ofc buck thinks he needs to fix something in someone else’s life in order to get out of his OWN FUCKING COMA. LIKE BRO. this man literally cannot get it out of his head that it is his job to fix everyone else because that is literally what he was born TO do. fuck that.

i…

BOBBY’S DEAD HERE??????

BRO OMG STOPPPP YALL DOING WAY TOO MUCHHHHHHHH HE CANT FUCJING BREATHE?????

lol bobby is always gonna feel responsible- I- I SWEAR THAT WAS BEFORE ATHENA SAID IT.

“even the strong snap eventually”

lol buck will be fine he literally can’t die no one will watch the show LMFAO (sorry not sorry)

omg i’m gonna lose my mind.

HIS GRANDPARSNTS TOOK HIM?????

wait a goddamn minute.

so you’re telling me buck’s existence saved, at least so far, Maddie, Bobby, Eddie and Christopher????

Shocker. (sarcasm)

Him being himself saved Bobby from drinking himself into oblivion while he ALSO SAVED EDDIE AND CHRISTOPHER BC HE INTRODUCED HIM TO CARLA ARE YOU JOKING?

i’m gonna cry omg christopher thanks so much lol.

he’ll be fine AWW THEY SAID I LOVE YOU

it’s there bc trauma lol

what in the… y’all what’s going on?

i’m sorry dead bobby is so funny PLS.

NOOOOOOOO BUCKKKKKK YKU MATTER THERE FUCK YOU “if it matters to you how other people see you then you haven’t learned a damn thing” ty dead bobby!

ok buck this has been silly and goofy and all but the episode is nearly over so time to wake up now buck, thanks. bc ik you will.

oh shit. LMAO. YEAH. HELL YEAH ITS ENOUGH YOU FUCKING BITCH. YE YESYEYSYEYYSEYSYEYSYEYEYEYEYEYSEYYESYSYSYSYEYSSYSYEYSYSYSYEYSYESYSYWYEYSYSYSWYSYSYEYSS OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDD GELL YEHAHAGAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHSHAHAGAHAHAHAHAHSGAYRORIRIEYEIEUUROYOIREGOINGHOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEENOYOURENOTTTTTTTLEAVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEBYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEFUCKYALLSOBYE-

what the hell? girl… whyd the music stop? girl go away. ew shut up. THEY ARE NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTT HES FUCKING LYING, BUCK HES LYING- ok not about that. i. OH MY FUCKING GOD… BUCK WAKE THE FUCK UP

OHYMHOGMGOFNDODDNDODKDODKDODKDOEEHWUWHWIEHWHEYWYEYEYEYEYEYEYSYEYEYEYYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYESEYEYESYSUEDUSSYSYSYSYSYSSYSYSYSYYSSYSYSYEYSYSYSYDYDYDUSEUUDSHSUWHSIWJSIWJSJWUWJWOSKWOWM

SUCH A FANTASTIC FUCKING EPISODE BRO OMG PLEASE LET THE WRITERS CONTINUE ON THIS PATH BC THAT SHIT WAS SO FUCKING AMAZING YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY

LMAO, VISITORS? PLS. I love these people sm y’all have no idea.

sure he is. lol. ok he still doesn’t have to forgive him for literal decades of no relationship???

…

ok… good for chim but still fuck his dad!

ew.

omg.

they’re being NICEEEEEE THE PARENTS ARE BEING NICE EWWWWWWWWWW (yes i’m a bit bitter…) ANYWAY I LOVED THE EP IT WAS SO FUCKING WARM AND VERY GOOD FOR BUCK

[sustainably-du-mortain]

Is it okay to ask for 1, 5, and 14 for Jonah, Madeleine, and Côme? If that’s too much then whoever you’re feeling like answering for!

You can always ask for all of them, I'm always happy to ramble about the blorbos!! <33

1. What is the relationship like between your detective and Rebecca?

Jonah

Out of the three of them, he has the worst relationship with Rebecca. The degree of Rebecca's absenteeism isn't the same for each of my detectives and for Jonah I hc that she was almost never there. By the age of 7 he basically lived with nannies and Rebecca visited every few months for a couple of days before leaving again. He resents her a lot for that and honestly, he doesn't think he'll ever be able to forgive her because he barely considers her to be his mother at all. And he doesn't hesitate to let her know. Despite that, he's decent to her at work because he considers that UB doesn't have to witness their poor relationship.

Madeleine

Her relationship with Rebecca definitely isn't the best. Rebecca was often away, but, although she was almost always late, she always made it for big events like Maddie's 18th birthday, her taekwondo tournaments or her graduation, but she wasn't there for every other little things like parents/teachers meetings, or when she had the flu. She doesn't resent her, because now that she knows what she does for work she can understand in some ways, but she's still sad because all she wanted was a mother. So, she's not mean to her but she isn't really friendly towards her either. About fixing their relationship, she's willing to do it if she sees that Rebecca is really putting efforts into it and that this isn't just talk.

Côme

They have the best relationship with Rebecca. They were quite the independent kid and had a vague understanding of her job, so they didn't really question it as long as she was there for every big moment of their life. But to be fair, she was there for almost every of their birthdays, even if she sometimes showed up late most of the time and always kept in touch for other little things. But there was always that distance between them: Rebecca wasn't a very affectionate parent while Côme really needed that. But their relationship recently started deteriorating when they understood how much secrets Rebecca kept from them about their own self, but also about Rook. So their relationship is really awkward at the moment.

5. Do they trust Rebecca with information about their life, or would they rather keep the information limited?

Jonah

Gosh no, Jonah absolutely doesn't trust her with info about him, even the tiniest detail. He cut ties with her when he left the house at 16 and when she showed up at the station, it was his first time seeing her again, in years. She has no idea what degree he got in uni, she didn't know he had a dog until someone from UB mentioned Bo, she didn't know about Bobby until b2, she still doesn't know anything about his past with him and will never know about it. If it wasn't for work he would have never contacted her again, so yeah, she's on a needs-to-know basis with him.

Madeleine

Yes and no. If Rebecca asks anything about her life she will talk about it, but she doesn't do it spontaneously. Also she never told Rebecca about her IBD and begged Elidor not to tell her. She doesn't know yet if she wants Rebecca to know about it, so she's keeping it secret for now, even though all of UB knows.

Côme

Despite the fact that they have the best relationship, they aren't really privy with each other. Rebecca knows about what's going on Côme's life because they keep in touch while she's away, but not regularly enough to know their kid properly and the info she has on Côme is often outdated. Yet Côme doesn't keep anything from her; she'd find out eventually, so they're always open about anything, at least if she asks. If she doesn't, Côme doesn't say anything.

14. Does your detective harbour any jealousy or resentment towards Unit Bravo for knowing Rebecca more than the detective or for being around her longer?

Jonah

He doesn't. It was Rebecca's job to be a parent and be there for him, not UB's so he doesn't blame them for that. They didn't know he existed so really there isn't anything to blame them for. And as for jealousy, he doesn't care enough about Rebecca to actually feel any of it.

Madeleine

She does feel a little jealousy towards UB for knowing Rebecca more than she does. She was longing for a better relationship with Rebecca for so long and seeing that UB got that before her really hurt her. Yet, she doesn't let it show, so it doesn't affect her relationship with UB.

Côme

They do feel jealousy towards UB. Even though their relationship with Rebecca is fairly decent, they were never really close and Côme envies that closeness they have with her, especially with Nat and especially after they discover how much secrets Rebecca has been keeping from them. How come UB gets to know and not their own kid? This definitely led to a little bit of conflict with Nat at the beginning.

Wayhaven asks | Rebecca edition

[ughwhateveridek]

Blog 2

Karma

"A boomerang returns back to the person that throws it."

-Vera Nazarian

In today's world, this word gets thrown around a lot. Does anyone even know what it truly means?

Karma is the sum of a person's actions in this and previous states of existence, viewed as deciding their fate in future existences. In simple words, it's good or bad luck, viewed as resulting from one's actions.

But people don't get this. Most people just use this word when their own sadistic desires get fulfilled.

People who use this word way too often are definitely a lot, but the people who actually understand its meaning and believe in it are very few.

It is also often confused with 'destiny'. Karma isn't necessarily the same as destiny; but it can be seen as a part of it.

Karma is also defined as 'the law of cause and effect', in the sense that every action brings about a corresponding reaction.

The ENDLESS KNOT is a famous symbol that represents 'Karma'. They symbolize the interlinking of cause and effect, a Karmic cycle that continues eternally.

But, all this leads to one major question arising, IS KARMA REAL OR JUST A MYTH?

I feel the answer to this question is subjective. A lot of people believe in Karma because they have experienced instances where, when they'd lost all hope, "Karma" came through for them. While on the other hand, people could just as easily argue that the concept is stupid and all the things that happen are mere coincidences because it makes people feel, for even just one second, that the world isn't all unfair; there is still some sense of justice.

I personally believe in it, maybe because it reinforces that there is still fairness in this unjust world, or maybe because something like this has happened to me, or maybe for some reason I just do.

A few years ago, my then best friend and I had a major fight because of a guy she brought into our life. The guy wasn't even someone she was romantically interested in, he was just a little more than an acquaintance. Yet she distanced herself from me for him. All our other friends saw this; asked both of us to make amends. I was ready to forgive her, she just never apologized. The fight was never resolved. She later ended up dating the guy. At that point it had been more than 6 months since we last talked. Their relationship went on for a good 2-3 years. A few months ago I found out the guy dumped her for someone else and for old times sake I reached out to her, asking her if she was okay or not. She ended up apologizing and we're on talking terms now.

What was that? Karma? Coincidence? Something else? I don't know. I only know that my faith in some God-ly things was restored that day and suddenly I was a believer.

Karma is also said to have linkages to past lives. A lot of people don't believe in past lives or rebirth, but I do.

I know someone who's scared of bobby pins, yes the not-at-all-dangerous pins people put in their hair. She'd been scared of them for as long as I can remember. A while back she got really into meditation and I don't know how true the next part is, but apparently in meditation when you reach a certain level, you can see visions of your past/future life (past life regression). She ended up seeing one such vision where she was killed in her previous life by nails being nailed into her head. Awful, right? But suddenly her fear of bobby pins started making a lot of sense…

"Why does this always happen to me?", "Why do I always suffer?", are some questions that a lot of us wonder about quite often. You're this wonderful person and who always thinks about others yet you still get tested so much, yet things always seem to go wrong. Why is it so? Maybe it's your past life? Maybe you're paying for the sins you committed in that life? Nobody knows for sure. But still, why not be good? Why not help people around you? Why not always be kind? Because no matter whether you believe in Karma or not, there's absolutely nothing wrong with being altruistic (to a limit, of course) and personally the smile you get afterwards is bigger than any reward you can possibly imagine.

[inact-ice]

Ok episode 5,

- ooh arranged wedding moment. Hey guys, if it goes bad at least the wedding was gorgeous. Ope. My fault everyone sorry

- is bobby ever gonna apologize for like pushing buck against that wall bc that really scared me. I know it was a manifestation of trauma but damn

- love how black women across the world use the word wicked. It’s probably bc of like colonialism and specifically Christianity, but it’s a nice connection

- Athena you still have a job?? You weren’t even like suspended, you definitely have stuff to do other than running background checks on your friends bosses

- oh. Oh no… not the hen and Karen cheating arc, I haven’t even met Karen yet please no

- BUCKS FAMOUS ROOMATES! So these are the people everyone hates so much in fanfics

- Oh yeah Abby’s mom is missing

- hen your ex girl friend is in braids, back out slowly before she starts calling you gurl OMG, it’s too late

- what am I watching

- these aren’t even like real braids im so funny

- Carla’s little crush on buck is so fucking great, maybe they should get together

- aw wait this is buck and Abby meeting face to face for the first day time

- HOT PRIEST, hey girl

- bobby have you ever considered going to like real therapy, I don’t think the hot priest is a licensed psychologist

- HELP BOBBY DONT SCARE THE HOT PRIEST LIKE THAT HE ISNT LEGALLY REQUIRED TO TELL THE COPS AND HES ALL ALONE WITH YOU

- Bobby’s wife who’s name I never heard, I am so sorry. Is Bobby gonna cheat??? Oh. We’re pulling out ye old lantern to drink I see. Does he just come here to like nap, NO BOBBY YE OLD LANTERN

- the actor who plays Bobby has like a permanent bemused grin so while he’s breaking down to his wife about his addiction he kinda just seems confused and it’s a little funny

- checkovs ye old lantern

- oh damn bobby that was your fault wow. Oh he made the hot priest cry.

- yeah idk if the priest can handle this, maybe you should consider trauma therapy

- the priest: “god forgives you” Bobby: “gods forgiveness actually means nothing to me in this case” the priest: “well that is the entirety of my expertise”

- I don’t like when Bobby cries, it always seems to be ripped out of him😭 the actor is doing a great job

- Karen you are being very forgiving of your wife meeting her ex gf in prison, I fear you are too good for her

- aw buck calling Athena sergeant, love it

- buck being so astounded that Abby hasn’t had sex in a year is hilarious, meeting me would kill this man

- Abby you’re so cool omg, it’s like she can’t help but want to help others even when she’s going through so much. I feel like that’s the theme of her character

- Abby looks so cute in her little dungarees omg

- I can’t believe that manny’s just like dead rip I guess

- who the hell are these firefighters?? How does buck know them? Are they at the 118? I wonder what their lives are like

- Abby is calm cool and collected fr. What do jedis have to do with still hands? Anyways

- Abby’s mom! Thank you tattooed men, in my head you stay in contact with Abby forever and are good friends of hers

- aw Abby’s mom, even when she can’t remember stuff she still remembers that she wants her daughter to be happy. Gang I love Abby’s mom so much

- did not appreciate the fucking Abby’s mom joke, thanks writers but it was a little weird

- if we’re gonna keep talking about bucks sex addiction can we take it seriously at some point or what

- the “what are you high” scene in context is kinda dark bc bobby might’ve been actually scared he was high bc he sees himself in buck a bit

- aw I miss chimney

- girl he didn’t even laugh that much. Which is kinda dark. Bobby is like if Sayaka and Kyouka from Madoka Magica had a child and he was a white middle aged man. Like maybe they adopted him and just projected all their trauma onto him and now he’s repeating all their mistakes

- if they have phone sex I’m gonna freakout

- I’d like to personally thank the 911 tv show directors for cutting away from that bc I do not like bucks phone sex voice

[diazpatcher]

7x10 reaction time

the opening scene with Athena 😭

EDDIE CALLED BUCK AND ASKS HIM TONPPEN THE DOOR TO CHRIS 😭😭😭😭

Chris calling the Diaz' I CALLED IT!!!

hen :(

"it's a little true" "even in death she makes your life chaos" "I'm making my life chaos"

Oh Athena 😭 I can't handle it if bobby dies the fact that he has a DNR???? I'm going insane

OH IT WAS AMIR RIGHT? I CALLED IT

the 118 kids meeting each other at the hospital 😭

"he managed to get her to safety before he took a turn" 😭 bobby literally gave his last breath to his wife😭

"I understand it to well. Bc right now the only thing holding me upright is rage." OH Athena 😭 SLAY MAMA "because they last man who came into my home and tried to hurt my family begged me to put it him down"👁👁

"You're one of HIS firefighters"😭

oh god the house is ruined 😭 Athena on a revenge tour?

Polly Martin 🤨 Hmmm

"THIS IS MADDIE HAN" SLAY MAMA

Athena gone rouge btw 🫡 as she should

"I think Athena might be the danger" SLAY

she broke into his house????? omg Athena is of the rails!!!! I love her

it's so so heartbreaking how she was ready to kill for bobby, no hesitation 😭

so if it wasn't Amir who was it 🤔

"being a living testiment to a dead person hardens you" oh. this is all about grief. this entire season is all about grief about how it is more than sadness that it is also anger and denial.

The cartell!!!!! "it's me they want" oh. Amir is so self sacrificial

The 118 watching as bobby almost dies while Athena is a on basically a suicide mission

Amir is actually cool "go ahead and do what ever you plan to do or is your plan to bore me to death?"

"I'm misses Bobby Nash" She says as she sets flames to the Cartells hide out. SLAY MAMA

"This one we both walk out of" SOBBING ACTUALLY

the 133 being the one firehouse who is always there when something happens to the 118

OH GOD IS HE DEAD

OH S

BOBBY

He's.alive 😭😭😭😭 omg

wait. what's the cliffhanger.

The Hans and The Wilson's having dinner together 🫶🫶 family family 🫶 I love them

Tommy and Buck 🥰 "you guys at the 118 should have your own dedicated wing at the hospital" PFFF HE IS SO FUNNY

"BOBBY IS THE FATHER I NEVER HAD" OH BABY THEY FINALLY SAID IT.

B:"so we both have daddy issues" T:"I dont" B:"but you think I do?" T: "God hope so"

Ohh ph "fathers are human, sons don't take it that well"

OH CHRIS , Chris wants to leave 😭 the Diaz' redemption arc?

"your son is trying to tell you whay he needs don't wait 30yrs to hear him"

Athena being so panicked about they're phones 😭 mama such a mama OH MAY 😭 Harry and May being there for their parents❤️ (yes ik Michael lives but he is not here yk)

Chris is actually leaving. "There's summer and then there's Texas. " 😭 lmao buck

Buck fathering once again I love him❤️ "you realize just how messy life can be" okay still no reason to forgive the Buckley parents they suck.

Eddie looks like a kicked puppy also the fact that he keeps calling Buck over is so!!!

The way Eddie hugged Chris😭😭 I wish someone would hug me like that

"I know your angry but i love you no matter. I hate it but i love you." OH "you can always come back, you just say the word and I'll come for you" SOBBING ACTUALLY

the diaz' parents not even hugging him goodbye??? rude tbh

"is buck joining us?" "it's a different sibling"

THEY TOOK HER IN UNTIL HENREN COULD TAKE HER😭😭 THEYRE A FAMILY

oh bobby in the remains of the fire. Amir lmao. like a ghost he appears.

"were not gonna get into who deserves what, that's for a higher power to decide. " "maybe you earned it." Amir finally finally being the one who gives Bobby closure on his past. "You know you can't quit right?" "you think you do or you know you do🤨"

Amir im sorry I misjudged you he is actually the funniest man alive.

Wait is the cliffhanger the opening disaster for s8???

Oh no. "No captain Wilson" BOBBY ❤️

Gerard you whore. piss off. no no no no no.

THATS THE CLIFFHANGER? its just horrible

[firehousewithaview]

6x11 Reactions as I Watch

A collection of the disjointed thoughts I had about the episode as I watched it because I had to watch it over the course of a few hours instead of in one go

(under the cut because it got long)

The huddle omg

Buck making Daniel vaguely bitter is insane, I’m sure that means nothing

The Big Bear picture in Maddie’s living room ahhhhhhh

Jee into G

HOLY SHIT DOUG

credit where it’s due, the Buckley parents came to the hospital this time.

Buck’s face the whole time Doug is talking is priceless

I WANT TO KNOW WHY THEY CALL HIIIM CHIMNEY

Why arent you married

HE STOPPED BREATING WHEN HE HEARD ABOUT BOBBY

buck has now been struck by 2 random acts of nature

THE PARENTS NEVER ENTER THE ROOM

Albert I am begging you to leave Chim alone

The rewritten history lesson thing makes sense but I hate it (post to follow)

CHRIS INSISTED

had to pause to cry jfc that scene hurt, thanks Gavin. honorable mentions to Ryan and Aisha who were also great

on a lighter note, I will now picture all of buck’s problem solving process as if he has a mental Chim and Hen talking him

Mom brought 2  you brought 1 brb crying again

Peter Krauss has murdered me and I am thanking him

Buckleys still wont enter the room ugh

Because there was never a doubt in Buck’s mind that Hen and Chim would help him if he asked them. cool cool, I’m gonna be so normal about this

Oh man that hallway chase scene was not great for my brain but man did it do its job

Oh peter, turns out you will be killing me multiple times tonight, I’m so ready

I WAS NOT READY OH NO

Athena really said I will mom you back into consciousness and if Buck were any further in his process, it would have worked

The montage of memories ahhhhhhh

COLDPLAY Fix You how dare you

Chim <3

I’M ALWAYS GOING TO FEEL GUILTY FOR THAT ONE

Oh. I have too many bitter feelings about the Buckley parents to be satisfied with that. I’m going to pretend he was speaking solely to the parents that could have been. Moving on.

I have a family... not the same one I have here, YES SIR YOU DO

Oh the buckleys entered the room finally. Just for what might have been the end. I’ll be back to look at symbolism later

Daniel being a manifestation of his self hatred who

OHHH we’re getting some Dr Jekyll Mr Hyde action, love that

Oliver, please play more villains, I’m begging you. for science

FOR ME AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

The way maddie doesn’t look surprised while his parents do, I am going to chew on a brick

2 pizzas lmao

hahaha yeah, lets talk about his traumas please. it will only take like a full season of just him

The doctor looks. so fucking done. like, seems very done with him already.

EVERYONEEEEEE

Once again I point out that the Buckleys? Not in the room. Even when random other guy was (who I want to know, please) Oh wait there’s 2 of them? tell me who you are please

Awwww they’re playing cards when he didn’t with his dream family (there’s a whole cant count in dreams thing that was big in Sterek that I’m co-opting here for personal reasons)

Bobby was different because his usual method of giving Buck advice and letting him decide was going to be too slow, this is my personal headcanon now

‘It’s better here’ where he actually gets to have the dad he chose and who chose him back

Mmmmmmm if Chim wants to fix things with his dad, fine. I will not be satisfied until they duke it out in some way shape or form. And I mean them, not Albert or Myung or anyone else. Them.

I have to give Kenneth Choi props, the realization look he gave us there makes me think there’s some interaction we didn’t get to see that was... important

awwwww, Jee calls him Pop Pop

‘she called me funny’ alright I can see them being related lol

I’ll take that. It wasn’t forgiveness, it was an open hand.

‘I’m getting you a couch’ no, you’ve been here like less than three minutes, please at least pretend you have respect for his boundaries

oh god they’re staying

awwwwwwwwwwww the birthmark kiss!!!1

But I’m putting my money on ‘it’s kinda nice’ turns into ‘please fucking leave’ really fast.

Personal issues with the directions the Buckleys seem to be going in, this episode was really good!!!!!!!!!!!

Final thoughts: EVERYONE WAS AMAZING, GOOD JOB

[soft-pine]

be my anchor, pull me under

some blueberry pie life: chapter 16

You have barbecues and go to football games. You go live some normal, apple-pie life, Dean. Promise me.

Now there was a woman who had been suffering from a flow of blood for twelve years. She had endured much under many physicians and had spent all that she had, and she was no better but rather grew worse. She had heard about Jesus and came up behind him in the crowd and touched his cloak, for she said, “If I but touch his cloak, I will be made well.” Immediately her flow of blood stopped, and she felt in her body that she was healed of her disease. Immediately aware that power had gone forth from him, Jesus turned about in the crowd and said, “Who touched my cloak?” And his disciples said to him, “You see the crowd pressing in on you; how can you say, ‘Who touched me?’” He looked all around to see who had done it. But the woman, knowing what had happened to her, came in fear and trembling, fell down before him, and told him the whole truth. He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace, and be healed of your disease.” Mark 5:25–34

title from Anchor by Jack Ingram, John Randall, and Miranda Lambert

notes below

May, 2010

Both these sections take place during and right after the events of Swan Song (5.22)

The previous four times Dean was injured that Cas is thinking of are from 4.01, 4.16, 5.01, and 5.18.

The bible story both Dean and Cas are thinking of is Mark 5:25–34.

Yes, the part where Dean is thinking Cas would never tell him to worship and kneel is foreshadowing to the end of season 6.

The memory Dean is thinking of in Bobby's kitchen is from chapter 6 of this fic.

When Dean is to Bobby's with Cas in the car at the end of Swan Song, the windshield is still cracked. But it's fixed by the time he leaves Bobbys so I'm presuming Bobby helped replace it for him.

The memory Bobby is referring to is from chapter 5.

The memory of Bobby disabling the car is from 3.16.

The way Bobby talks about Dean treating Lisa right is in reference to Bobby's own father who took out his anger and issues on Bobby's mom (7.10). I don't think Bobby actually thinks Dean would hurt Lisa but I do think that kind of thing is always on his mind.

Unfortunately for me, they changed the set for Lisa's house from season 5 to season 6 so please forgive any inaccuracies relating to either house.

The issue of why (and who) removed the hand print will be dealt with later on. Unfortunately, this is one of the more evil things I've ever done.

[red-doll-face]

Hey I love reading your Thomas Hewitt stories and I was wondering if you can write one with Thomas Hewitt being a dom and a little with his female s/o if your comfortable writing it or you can do a Thomas Hewitt and female s/o where they grew up with each other and she had to leave for because of her parents and a couple years later she comes back and surprises him and the family ☺��😅

It’s not that im not up for it I just wasn’t sure if u wanted nsfw or fluff but the second prompt was a bit more clear, if you’re still interested in the first maybe send me a few more details and I’ll see what I can do ! Sorry this took forever to write 🥲

WC: 1285

Warnings; nothing much this is sort of fluffy , mentions of bullying and blood

Thomas B. Hewitt x gn Reader

One and Only

“C’mon, come play with us!” Blonde summer hair bounced around with all of the other girls on the school ground, the other girls with their dresses and bobby socks. Your mother, a dutiful teacher at the school made you wear clothes that seemed to fit right in with them but no matter what she dressed you in, you never were enthusiastic about playing with them.

“Yeah, leave the dumb ugly boy crying in the ditch.” They laughed, cruelly. Your brows furrowed.

“But he’s bleeding.” You mutter and they boo you and blow raspberries at you.

“Who cares, he’s so ugly,” They chitter and some become uninterested enough to wander away. Your heart bleeds like he does as you begin to climb into the ditch he was tossed in. This was the worst anyone had ever done to poor Tommy B. Hewitt. His face was scarred and flaky, thus the target of every person with a mean bone in their body. Girls and boys would poke at him. Prod him like a circus attraction.

“Tommy? Where’s your mama?” He sobs in the ditch, blood from tumbling over sharp things dripping down the tan skin of his arm. Your pressed white shirt has a brown smudge on it already. He never answers that question. You don't say anything either for a moment, watching him heave. You try to help him up but he’s too heavy for you to carry up the steep slope. He must have dirt all over his face. Dirt all over your shoes. You frown and look at the ridge of the hole you're in. His mama’ll never see him from up there. He might never go home. You couldn't imagine him laying in the ditch behind the schoolyard all night, his poor mama crying out for him and he none the wiser. Sleeping in the dirt. You know what his mama looks like. So, you wait on top of the ridge. Eventually, Tommy’s mama comes around.

“You seen my son, child?”

“Yes, Ms.Hewitt. He’s in there. The older boys beat him and pushed him in. Can’t get him out anyhow. I tried.” You point towards the boy. Small for someone so big for his age. His papa must be the size of Mt. Rushmore. The woman gasps and stumbles down the incline.

“You rotten things! My baby down here bleedin’!” She helps her son to stand and you finally see his face. It is indeed covered in dirt and tears. The red scarring raises over the lower half of his face. Tommy sees you looking and he chokes back a sob, letting his head bow to face the ground. His mama can’t quite get him out either so you help her tug him up. His ankle might have gotten hurt. The woman, though judging you as one of the children who tormented her son, thanks you.

“You do this to my son?” She glares down at you and you shake your head.

“Good.”

Tommy’s family has a plantation a few miles away from the town and many a mile away from the slaughterhouse. You and your mama live in the area. Mama sometimes goes down to give Luda Mae, Tommy’s mama, some books for Tommy. She won’t let him go to school no more seeing as how they nearly broke her son's leg. You go down with her, no one to look after you at the house. You hide behind her skirt but she shoos you away to go play with Tommy. She and Ms. Luda Mae talk about tea and rancher’s gossip. Tommy’s in the parlor. Bits of fabric and a tin full of needles sit on the floor with him. You tilt your head.

“What’re you doing?” You speak and he startles. He looks like he might cry again and you're not sure what to do. You watch as he shrinks in on himself. You kneel down next to him, picking up a thread he had cut and a needle.

“Need help threading it?” He fumbles and snatches the items. He tries to show you he can do it, quickly becoming frustrated. He hadn’t the tact for it but it could be learned.

“Here,” you show him your trick, placing the bristled thread between your lips for a second, then slipping it easily in the eye. You pull it out and tell him to try. He slowly copies your actions and you smile.

You remember the Hewitt boy fondly. You remember him when he was his happiest. Unfortunately, your mother couldn't afford to live in the town anymore after her work dried up and the water followed behind. She had found a job in Dallas, as her child you went where she did. You were sad that you had to leave poor Tommy B. Hewitt behind, you knew you were the only friend he ever had.

Now, you live in Dallas, looking after your mother. She teaches kids piano and you work in the city. Your mother one day mentions the quaint country house you used to live in and you decide to go see if it's still standing. Driving down the dusty roads brings back memories of simpler days. You remember, suddenly the sullen face of Tommy too. He had been so sad to see you drive away. You waved at him.

The plantation house is still there. A lot dingier and darker than you could recall. You fear for a moment that it's abandoned but there are signs of life. You carefully walk up to the porch, knowing Tommy’s uncle had set traps to catch varmint all of the time. You make it and knock. The weathered face of Ms. Luda Mae answers, looking surprised and then her face sours.

“If it ain't the city slicker.” She furrows her brow, glasses on beads pulled up to rest on the tip of her nose.

“Hi Ms. Luda Mae. How’ve you been?” You try to be friendly but she appears to be resistant to your smile and warm tone.

“Fine, just fine. You?” It’s southern politeness, she doesn't seem an ounce interested.

“Good, I haven't been down here since-”

“Since you left. Broke my only son’s heart, you did.” You frown. You hadn’t meant to but you won't fill your mouth with excuses. She knows why you left.

“Tommy’s still around?”

“Yup. I’m not sure he’ll want to see you. I’ll call him over anyway.” She closes the door a moment and shuffles off into her house. You stand patiently, waiting. Lumbering footsteps approach the door and stop. Nervous maybe. You don’t call out to him, soon the creak of the door assures you he does want to see you.

“Hi Tom-” He picks you up and hoists you in a hug. You gasp, his arms tightening around your middle. He’s grown up now, you can tell. He’s tall and built like a brick house. He places you down after a moment, hands on your shoulders as if to make sure you’re real. To make sure you’ll stay. He has a mask on to cover a face you’ve already seen.

“Tommy B. Hewitt, do you remember me?” He nods and looks down on you with those familiar brown eyes.

“Your mama said I broke your heart. That true?” He averts his eyes in embarrassment. Looking rather sheepish for a man the size of a bull. He doesn't indicate any form of yes. You comfort him anyway.

“I’m sorry Tommy. Wasn't a thing I could do. Do you forgive me?” He nods after a moment.

“Fill me in on what’s happening round here?” He nods again, eagerly gripping your hand in his own, tugging you inside of the old plantation house..

This one isn’t very exciting and is sort of long but I hope u like it ! Thanks for the req ! 😳🥰

[gates-keeper]

Part 1: “Words of Affirmation” Destiel Quotes & Parallels

I’m sure someone’s done this before me and done it better, but I’m compiling a huge Destiel evidence docket for no reason. Anyone got any quotes to add?

Comments From Outside Characters

To Dean

Uriel: “He has this weakness. He likes you.” (4x10)

Balthazar: “You have me confused with the other angel. You know, the one in the dirty trench coat who’s in love with you.” (6x17)

Hester: “The first time Castiel laid a hand on you in Hell, he was lost.” (7x21)

Meg: “He was your boyfriend first.” (7x23)

Charlie: “What about Castiel? He seems helpful. And dreamy.” (8x20)

Marie: “Although we do explore the nature of Destiel in Act 2.” (10x5)

Sam: “Shouldn’t it be Deastiel?” He then goes on to tease Dean with “Sastiel” which Dean takes negatively. (10x5)

Dean: “This Cas is looking at me weird.” Sam: “So like the real Cas then.” (15x14) 

To Castiel

Hannah: “We gave you our trust. Don’t lose it over one man.” (9x22)

Metatron: “His true weakness is revealed. He’s in love…with humanity.” (9x22)

Metatron: “Oh, that’s right. To save Dean Winchester. That was your goal, right? I mean, you draped yourself in the flag of heaven, but, ultimately, it was about saving one human, right?” (9x23)

Ishim: “I’m going to cure you of your human weakness [i.e. Dean]” (12x10)

The Empty: “I have tiptoed through all your little tulips. Your memories, your little feelings, yes. I know what you hate. I know who you love…There is nothing for you back there.” (13x4)

Demon: “I thought you were joined at the… (looks down) everything.” (14x01)

There are also several instances where other characters try to poke at insecurities regarding their relationship.

Naomi: “You're hoping Castiel will return to you. I admire your loyalty. I only wish he felt the same way.” (8x19)

Casifer: “There comes a time when every relationship has run its course.” (11x18)

Michael!Dean: “You only tolerate the angel because you think you owe him, because he ‘gripped you tight and raised you from Perdition.’ Or whatever.” (14x10)

Comments From Dean

To Cas

“There are two things I know for certain. One, Bert and Ernie are gay. And two, you are not going to die a virgin.” (5x03) 

“So what? I’m Thelma and you’re Louise and we’re just going to hold hands and sail off this cliff together?” (5x03)

“You know what? Blow me, Cas.” (5x18)

“Cas, not for nothing, but the last time someone looked at me like that, I got laid.” (5x18)

“Look, I don’t need to feel like hell for failing you, okay? For failing you like I’ve failed every other godforsaken thing that I care about! I don’t need it!” (8x07)

“We need you. I need you.” 

For more on this quote see the “We vs. I” section.

To Other Characters

Bobby: “I think maybe it’s time you made a call.” Dean: “Why does it always gotta be me that makes the call, huh? It’s not like Cas lives in my ass. The dude’s busy.” (Cas appears) Dean: “Get out of my ass.” Cas: “I was never in your… (head tilt)” (6x19)

“On my car…. He showed up naked… covered in bees.” (7x23)

While Cas suffered from some mental issues at the time, it seems somewhat significant that he sought Dean out under the circumstances, not Sam, etc.

“There’s things… people… feelings that I want to experience differently than I have before, or maybe even for the first time.” (10x16)

“My shy but devastatingly handsome friend here” (12x12)

“He came into my room and he played me.” (12x19)

“Let’s see. Crowley’s dead, Kelly’s dead, Cas is—Mom’s gone.” (13x01)

Dean’s inability to list Cas’s death singles him out as the most devastating of the losses.

“We’ve lost everything. And now you’re gonna bring him back.” (13x01)

While some people have heard this as “bring ‘em back”, the Netflix captions and transcripts I have been able to find say “him.”

“And Cas bought it. And you know what it got him? It got him dead! Now you may be able to forget about that, but I can't!” (13x03)

“I have a family.” (In response to John Winchester lamenting Dean doesn’t have a wife and kids) (14x13)

Comments From Cas

To Dean

“I was getting too close to the humans in my charge. You. They feel I've begun to express emotions. The doorways to doubt.” (4x16)

“I’m hunted. I rebelled. And I did it—all of it—for you.” (5x02)

“I gave everything for you. And this is what you give to me.” (5x18)

“I do everything that you ask. I always come when you call.” (6x21)

“So you will bow down and profess your love unto me, your Lord.” (6x22)

Before taking on the role of God, Cas seemed very concerned with Dean’s forgiveness/acceptance/love. It is interesting that, as God, that was the first thing he asked for, turning from Sam (who had just stabbed him) to Dean to ask for love.

“Sam, and everyone you know, everyone you love, they could be long dead. Everyone except me.” (10x22)

“I love you. I love all of you.” (Arguably to the group, but the first “I love you” can be seen as Dean-specific, especially since it cuts to Dean after being said.) (12x12)

“You mean too much to me. To everything.” (12x9) (To Mary, Sam, and Dean. However, the camera immediately cuts to Dean specifically, even though he is in the back of the group).

“I’m your Huckleberry.” (13x06)

Cas love confession (15x18)

To Other Characters

“Dean and I do share a more profound bond.” (6x03)

“I won’t hurt Dean.” (8x17)

This is said as Castiel is breaking away from Naomi’s mind control—mind control she fostered specifically by having Cas kill a thousand versions of Dean. This implies she knows that Cas’s strongest loyalty is to Dean, not Sam, or humans in general.

“The point is that they [Dean & Sam] were here at all and you got to know them, you -- When they're gone, it will hurt, but that hurt will remind you of how much you loved them.” (14x14)

“You know, Dean, he... he feels things more acutely than any human I've ever known.” (15x13)

Other Comments

Reaper: “How do I start looking for this... Castiel?” Bartholomew: “I got one word for you. Winchester.”

Rowena: “An Angel of the Lord, shattered at the altar of Winchester.”

Use of We vs. I

In the crypt scene in Season 8, Dean tells Cas, “We need you.” This is not enough to stop Cas’s actions. When the language switches to “I need you,” Cas drops the angel blade.

We can clearly see that Dean tries to put up barriers about how he really feels about Cas in his use of “We.” For example, after showing the audience many scenes of Dean, not Sam, frantically trying to call Cas, we get the following lines:

“So not only were you ditching us, but you were also ignoring us?”

“With everything that's going on, you can't just go dark like that. We didn't know what happened to you. We were worried. That's not okay.”

It’s clear that these “we’s” are really “I’s”

In the alternate future presented in 15x9, Sam asks Dean, “What’s happened to you Dean… ever since…?” to which Dean responds, “Ever since what? We lost pretty much everyone we’ve ever cared about? Ever since the Mark made Cas go crazy and I had to bury him in a Malak box… ever since then?” While he acknowledges Sam’s losses as well, his switch to “I” in reference to Cas implies that Cas’s loss belongs especially to him.

(Mostly) Verbal Parallels to Other Couples

In 1x01 (start at 2:27), Dean pulls Sam away from a dead Jess in a direct parallel to how Sam pulls Dean away from Cas in 12x23

Following Jessica’s death, Sam keeps seeing glimpses of her as he and Dean travel around in the Impala. Dean does the same in Season 8 following his return from Purgatory without Cas.

David from “Bloodlines” (9x20) tells his love interest, “I was there. Where were you?” which is the same thing Dean says to Cas in “The Man Who Would Be King” (6x20)

When asking Dean whether he’s in love with Cassie, Dean gives a similar response to what he will say in 10x5 when asked about Destiel.

Destiel is paralleled with their counterparts from the Supernatural play who are “a couple in real life” (10x5)

Cain compares himself to Dean in Season 10. He describes the significant kills of his life (The Knights of Hell, his wife Collette, and his brother Abel) and tells Dean that he will follow his same pattern by killing the King of Hell Crowley, Castiel, then Sam. It is also mentioned that all Collette asked of Cain was “to stop,” which is the same language Cas uses with Dean in 10x22.

Dean explains how his parents fell in love to prove his identity to Mary in 12x1, “He was cute and he knew the words to every Zeppelin song, so when he asked you for your number, you gave it to him, even though you knew your dad would be pissed.” Later in this same season (12x19), Dean gives Cas a homemade mixtape of his favorite Zeppelin songs.

Ishim fell in love with a human named Lily Sunder who ultimately left him for someone else. When trying to recruit Castiel, he compares Dean to her.

Dean questions how much of their life has been controlled by God. Cas states, “You asked, ‘What about all of this is real?’ We are.” (15x02) Later, they find out that God has been using Eileen to spy on the Winchesters. She says, “After what happened, I don’t know what’s real anymore.” Sam kisses her, stating “I know that was real.” (15x09)

PART 2 “Physical Touch” Now Finished

[thewidowsghost]

Undercover (Bobbi Morse x Fem!Coulson!Reader)

confusinggemini612 asked:

Hey, huge fan of your work & was wondering if you could do a Bobbi Morse x Reader? Maybe the reader is Coulson's daughter & was part of the original SHIELD team. Please & thanks.

(Y/n) Coulson glances over at her friend, Jemma Simmons, at her side.

The two young women go to step out of the bathroom but stop hastily as the demonic HYDRA hell-beast of a woman stepping inside.

Jemma inhales sharply as she stumbles to a halt.

"Don't you seem nervous?" the dark-haired woman asks, towering over the shorter women.

"Maybe it has something to do with the fact that you're stalking us outside a bathroom?" (Y/n) snarks.

The dark-haired woman's eyes narrow suspiciously, "Bakshi informed me that you two and Kenneth were lab partners."

"We'd worked together on a couple of assignments, yes," Jemma says, shuffling nervously.

"Well, there are some who believe that he may not have been acting alone. Were you colluding with Kenneth?" the hell-beast asks.

Jemma scoffs. "No," she chuckles.

"Did one of you plant the flex screen on Kenneth's desk?" the dark-haired woman asks, her eyes narrowing again.

"No," (Y/n) says, looking into the woman's eyes. She chuckles and (Y/n) swallows thickly.

"You're not very good liars, are you?" the woman comments, straightening off the wall. "Maybe I should take a look at your hard drives, see what I find."

"Go right ahead," Jemma says."It's nothing but HYDRA files."

Both (Y/n) and Jemma go to step around the dark-haired woman but she moves to intercept them.

"Oh, they better be," the woman growls. "I want you to keep something in mind, Agent Simmons, and Agent (L/n) -" she gives a threatening pause. "HYDRA is everywhere." She smiles alarmingly before turning around to walk out the door. "Carry on."

Jemma takes a deep breath and (Y/n) glances apprehensively at Jemma before the youngest Coulson walks out of the bathroom, Jemma right behind her.

(Y/n) and Jemma return to their desks their heads lowered as all the other HYDRA scientists stare accusingly at them. 

Once they finally get back to their desks, the two women - one a scientist and the other an undercover agent, posing as a scientist - stare at their computer screens, staring at a picture of themselves at lunch, staring at the Flex Screen. 

Simmons looks around nervously and meets (Y/n)'s gaze. 

"There they are," Sunil Bakshi says, stepping forward with two guards. "Grab them!"

"Jemma, run," (Y/n) says, remaining slightly behind her younger friend as they sprint through the white halls of the HYDRA base. 

Jemma whips around a corner but then stumbles to a stop, (Y/n) almost slamming into her friend. 

"Oh, no," Jemma mutters and (Y/n) freezes a little as she watches the HYDRA woman and two HYDRA guards march forward. 

All of a sudden, the dark-haired woman begins attacking the two HYDRA soldiers and after a moment, she joins a wide-eyed (Y/n) and Jemma, who was slightly less in awe. 

"What is happening?" Jemma asks as (Y/n) continues to gaze at the woman. 

"Don't worry," the woman says, her gaze softening as she catches (Y/n)'s expression. "Coulson has a plan."

That snaps (Y/n) out of her daze at the mention of her last name. 

"I never have a plan," (Y/n) says stupidly, taking a handgun from the woman. 

"I don't mean to sound ungrateful," Jemma begins as she, the dark-haired woman, and (Y/n) continue to run down the halls, "because I am truly grateful, but who are you?"

"Bobbi Morse," the dark-haired woman tells Jemma. "Coulson sent me in to infiltrate HYDRA and keep an eye on you two."

"Well, let me tell you, you did a wonderful job," (Y/n) says, sliding into the next corner. 

"My friend is right, you were quite intimidating," Jemma agrees. 

"Sorry about that," Bobbi says apologetically. "I had to assess our other security issues that were in play."

Yes," Jemma begins, "like every HYDRA agent receiving an e-mail blowing our covers?"

"Yeah, that was a curveball," Bobbi admits. 

"I'm afraid there's no way we're walking out the front door," Jemma tells Bobbi. 

"That's okay, don't worry," Bobbi says kindly. "All we have to do is get to the roof. There's already an extraction team there waiting." Bobbi stops Jemma and (Y/n) tenses. "Okay, just wait here. It's all a part of the plan."

Bobbi walks around the corner and after a moment, (Y/n) looks back over her shoulder. She catches sight of Bakshi and two guards walking towards her and Simmons. 

Jemma disappears behind the wall as (Y/n) starts down the hall towards the three men. 

Bobbi is startled to hear when she appears around a corner to find (Y/n) attacking the three men. 

The (H/c) haired woman had flipped Bakshi over her shoulder and had slammed him to the ground. 

Bobbi runs down the hall and beats the two guards over the head with her batons. 

"Let's go," (Y/n) says, and she and Bobbi run down the hall, Bobbi yelling into a walkie-talkie. 

(Y/n) turns, pulling a small handgun out of a gun holster in her leather jacket, and begins shooting back at the other guards who had appeared in the roof door as she and Bobbi make their way over to Jemma. 

Bobbi grabs Jemma's hand and begins running for the edge of the roof, (Y/n) sprinting after the two. Bobbi and Jemma jump over the side and (Y/n) does as well. 

Everything would have been fine if (Y/n) hadn't miscalculated the jump. 

When Jemma and Bobbi had jumped onto the invisible Quinjet, it had turned visible, and just in time too. 

(Y/n) lets out a grunt and she grabs onto one of the wings and pulls herself up. 

Skye would be glad for pull ups if this was her right now, (Y/n) thinks. 

Bobbi holds out a hand and helps pull (Y/n) the rest of the way up. The three SHIELD agents jump down through the hatch. 

"Welcome back Agent Simmons, Agent Coulson," Agent Triplet says. 

"Trip," Jemma sighs with relief. 

"It's so good to see you," (Y/n) says, a grin spreading across her face. 

"You certainly know how to make a first impression, Agent Morse," Jemma says, still breathing heavily. 

"Please, it's just 'Bobbi,'" Bobbi answers with a smile. 

"Forgive me for asking, but if you were able to infiltrate HYDRA, why even bother having us go in?" Jemma asks. 

"My cover gave me access to HYDRA security, but none of their high-level projects," Bobbi explains.

"Them I'm afraid we come up empty-handed," Jemma replies. 

"Not entirely," Bobbi argues, reaching into her pocket and pulling out a hard drive.

"My hard drive," Jemma says in realization. 

"I took it after our conversations in the bathroom," Bobbi tells the two SHIELD agents. "Seemed like it might provide some useful intel."

"Ooh, I like you," (Y/n) says admiringly. 

Bobbi chuckles smiling widely. 

"Cargo's on board," Trip says into his COMs set, "and we've cleared HYDRA airspace."

A few hours later, the four land at the Playground.

"Welcome home, Agent Simmons, (Y/n)," (Y/n)'s dad says.

"Director Coulson," Simmons says with a smile.

(Y/n) steps forward and hugs her father tightly.

"I'm glad to have the two of you back," Phil Coulson says.

"I'm just glad to be alive," Simmons chuckles. "If it hadn't been for Agent Morse, we -"

"Bobbi," Bobbi corrects gently and (Y/n) laughs.

" - Bobbi, right. If it hadn't been for Bobbi, I would never have made it out."

"What am I?" (Y/n) asks, an eyebrow raising. "Chopped liver."

"Absolutely," Skye says, walking up and hugging her friend.

"Bobbi's amazing," Simmons says, ignoring (Y/n)'s comment.

"That's why I've asked her to join the team," Coulson says.

(Y/n) glances over, meeting Bobbi's blue eyes. Bobbi smiles and (Y/n) glances down at the ground, her cheeks going a little red.

Coulson, (Y/n), Bobbi, Trip, and Melinda May walk down the hall into the living room of such.

"Hey," Mack says, walking up to the group. "Long time, no see, Barbara."

"Don't start with that again," Bobbi says, hugging Mack friendly.

"What have you been up to?" Mack asks.

"Oh, you know, working undercover at HYDRA, acting all uptight and evil," Bobbi answers and (Y/n) laughs.

A week or so later, Bobbi finds (Y/n) in the kitchen making dinner for the team. 

"Hey, (Y/n)," Bobbi says, and (Y/n) looks over. Bobbi's hair was blonde now and (Y/n) smiles shyly. 

"Uh, hi," (Y/n) says, her cheeks going a little red. 

Bobbi chuckles, walking around the island to stand beside (Y/n) at the stove. 

"That smells really good," Bobbi says and (Y/n) looks over. 

"T-thanks," (Y/n) says, looking flustered. "Y-you wanna try?" she asks, pulling a spoon out of the drawer by her right hip. 

(Y/n) takes a spoonful of the chili from the pot on the stove and then holds it out for Bobbi to take. 

Instead of taking the spoon, Bobbi leans forward and eats the chili off the spoon in (Y/n)'s hand. 

Bobbi chuckles at the red that had spread across (Y/n)'s cheeks. 

"That's very good chili," Bobbi says and (Y/n) glances over at her.

"T-thanks," (Y/n) says, smiling shyly again. 

"I have a question," Bobbi says and she's the one who looks nervous now. 

"What is it?" (Y/n) asks, focusing on the blonde beside her. 

"Doyouwannagoonadatewithme?" Bobbi asks and (Y/n) looks a little bewildered. 

"What?" (Y/n) questions, an eyebrow raising. 

"Do you want to go on a date with me?" Bobbi asks and (Y/n) smiles. 

"I'd love to," (Y/n) answers shyly. 

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[misha-moose-dean-burger-lover]

happy birthday, @irrlicht-ghostfront ❤️ i love you, and i'm judging you for this being your prompt, but i love you some more, so here <33 (warnings: car accident) [NO MCD]

It wasn't supposed to be this way.

Blink and a miss — accident — wrecked car, and fleeting on the painful side of barely conscious in a pool of his own blood. There was too much of it anyway. Castiel felt dizzy more than he felt the pain as time, almost tangibly, passed on.

There's no way he was going to live.

(It was supposed to end old — fingers crossed for painless. Featuring inevitably beeping monitors, and time to come up with last words. A goodbye to his family.

Not that he had much of one right now — he isn't sure if he can call Dean's family his, yet; Dean seems to insist on it but then he's always been a pioneer in giving Castiel more than he could ever deserve, starting with his own heart, so Castiel can't tell — but he'd finally started to have intentions to, in the future.

A dog, for Dean.

Children.

Intentions to beg his brother to come back, and not give up until he'd gotten his forgiveness and his only remaining family back. But that — well, it was a different alley than Castiel's thoughts swarmed to right now. And swarm they did, his head throbbing, and life thudding at its gates.

Castiel had also intended to marry Dean, misty-eyed and denying it. Intended to figure out flower arrangements, and guest seating. Intended to kiss him at the end of the aisle, with his hands cupping Dean's face, and Dean's around his waist.

Then, move out from their shared apartment into a house.

Yellow wallpapered bedroom.

Treasure, and keep Dean happy forever.

Fuck.)

His breathing is still ragged, and his head feels too empty, but the heaving has lessened. Probably the blood loss. Less pain, more haze. And the resultant thoughtlessness is perhaps the only thing that sparks the courage in him to do what he does next.

Castiel picks up his phone.

(A struggle, but he's determined.)

If he's dying, and he'll never get to live the life he'd finally started to dream of — never have a life to share with Dean, never get to see Dean again, then he'll take what he can get.

He's allowed this, he tells himself. Allowed to be selfish, one last time.

He's on his deathbed after all.

It's outstandingly painful to bend his neck enough to see he's picked the right number — but the mere idea of accidentally calling an acquaintance at a time like this brings a tensed sliver of life into his muscles, and straining, he looks. Right enough, he's got 'Dean :)' on the screen.

Pressing dial, he lets his head fall back on the seat, wincing again. Maybe that'll relent the floatiness, if his body circulates some goddamn blood into his brain — because he needs this.

He's dying, but he needs this. One last time, he needs Dean.

A thumb swipes the familiarly placed 'on speaker' button — he can't bring the phone to his ear right now. He's going to have to risk Dean hearing the still crackling ruins of the poor engine, strewn across the wreck in smoldering pieces.

He must make quite a sight, he thinks, waiting for the call to go through. Man found in car wreckage, trapped by the door, dead within —

"Cas?"

Dean's voice cuts through Castiel's morbid mental news report, and almost reflexively, he closes his eyes. There's a tangible relief in his head when he does it, and god, Castiel must've been doing worse than he's convinced himself he is.

Dean sounds beautiful as always, and so familiar its like home.

It's the last time he ever gets to have this.

"Hello, Dean." Maybe he manages to not sound weird, or Dean's just not listening for clues. The loud racket behind him, at Bobby (and Dean's) automobile shop, helps as well.

"Hey." There's a smile in his voice now. Fuck. He's smiling. He's smiling, and he's smiling at Cas, and it's the last time Castiel ever gets to hear it.

He loses himself trying to remember the last time he saw Dean smile — earlier this morning, kissing him goodbye before he left — no, down from their balcony, accompanied by a gleeful wave because Dean's shift started a couple hours after Cas's day in the office did — no, when Castiel checked the time, and the Dean on his lockscreen grinned up at him — and he doesn't realize he's fallen silent until Dean's speaking again.

"Babe, you okay?"

There's a tinge of worry. Only a smidge, and it still hurts. The last time Castiel hears Dean can't be laced with anything bad. And it can't be Castiel's fault.

There's a pause. "Cas, what's up?"

Castiel doesn't know what to say so he tries to hold on to the phone tighter, his throat fluttering as a tear rolls down his face.

"Wait," The worry dissipates, apology slipping in. "Am I forgetting something? Did we make plans for lunch, 'cause Bobby and —"

"N-no." Cas struggles, and it's getting harder to not pant. He sounds too breathy anyway. "We don't. Didn't."

He forces a smile into his voice while saying it. As if it doesn't break him that he'll never get to see Dean again. But he needs to smile, doesn't he? One last time. Just for Dean.

"Well, do you want to?" Dean sounds cheerful. Normal.

Perfect.

Castiel doesn't want to die.

"Not, today." He half-heaves, and another tear rolls down his face.

Not today.

(If he'd known, he'd have stared to his heart's fill this morning. Kissed him an hour longer. Held him in his sleep. Oh, if he had had any foresight at all.)

"Dickface-atron keeping ya busy?"

Castiel lets the air stuck in his chest out, and it probably makes up for a small chuckle. He doesn't want to lie, he just won't agree.

"Figures."

"Sorry." Castiel tells him, meaning it entirely.

"Nah, s'good. I love you." Dean adds, clearly smiling wider, because they've only recently added that to their vernacular instead of the pedestal it'd been on for the first eight months of their friendship turning into a relationship. Somehow, it feels grander though — or, that might also be because it's the last time Castiel ever gets to hear Dean say it to him.

Oh, he loves him so much.

(He doesn't want to die.)

"And I have my packed lunch anyway." Dean continues, filling the gap thankfully. Machines blare in his background and he braves on like a man used to not being able to hear his own words due to the racket. Castiel is grateful for it. He hangs onto every word, drinks it in. Makes himself hold on. "Pretty sure you'd kick me to the curb if I let a PBJ go to waste."

"Jelly?" Cas smiles, when he wants to sob. He's certain he sounds fainter too, he feels fainter, and it's a miracle it doesn't show.

The tears well up in his chest, for possibly the rest of time. Dead men don't cry, and Castiel can't.

(Can't be long now, can it?)

"Jelly." Dean confirms. "It's the curse of paying attention when you rant about jam, you know." He snickers. "I used to be normal."

"Yes, I'm very lucky."

Dean chuckles, and Castiel sighs.

He's yearned for Dean to be happy, tried to make him smile, longed to see him laugh, for so, so long it feels like a part of him now. And now, it goes back to Dean, without him.

Somebody else'll make him smile, somebody else will wake him up with a kiss on his temple, and somebody else will love Dean for exactly who he is because it's Dean, and there was never someone who deserved it more — so of course somebody will.

But it will never be him again.)

An untethered broken sound escapes his throat, and Cas winces, faking a cough with it.

That makes the blood gush.

"Oh, also — wait. Just a second." He interrupts himself, and probably covers the speaker with his palm before yelling blurrily to someone near him.

(Or perhaps it's not supposed to be blurry. Castiel wouldn't know. He can hardly make out his own breathing. It's a feat that he can make out the conversation, even if most of it is instinct memory, and all he's doing is holding onto Dean for as long as he can.

Somehow, it feels like he's been doing so forever. But the time left, had never been so little.)

When Dean returns, he sounds apologetically busy.

"Dude, that dick who yelled at Ash, remember? He's back. Garth went this time, 'cause douchebag brought a Sedan."

Castiel swallows again, and vaguely registers that it tastes like metal. Almost like there's blood mixed with saliva.

There's another morbid thought. What, in this wreck, is finally going to kill him?

"I should probably check on him. Garth sorta wears on you."

"Of course." He croaks, and slips — fuck, he slips — but for once, thank god for oversensitive customers and boyfriends with likeable personalities, because Dean's conversing off the phone again, his hand on the speaker.

"I'll call you back, babe." Dean comes back to add in a rush, and Cas sucks in a painful breath, slowly beginning to feel like the only thing keeping him conscious any more is the sensation of air in his lungs, in his mouth, in the back of his throat. "Still have to ask what you even called about, you know. Or maybe if you just missed me." He beams, he obviously beams, and Cas stifles a groan.

"I do." He wheezes. "I —"

"Me too." Dean returns, flirty, and Cas goes to add to it — because he has to, because he's not going to make it, he's not going to be able to hold on until Dean returns, and he has to — but there's a click.

Castiel stares at the screen, devastated.

(Or tries to, anyway.)

"I love you," He cries out, aware that the line's cut, but needing to hear himself say it anyway. Plus, his head feels too numb to keep words inside anymore. It's less a prison of thoughts, and more a canyon of loss.

More tears fall.

His heart is beating faster than it ever has.

"I love —" His voice trembles, tries again, and fails. His throat refuses to comply with the thousands of things there remain to be said, and the words slowly fade, neglected.

In more ways than one, it's like being administered anaesthesia before a surgery — Castiel was operated on for tonsils at age eleven, and he remembers it still — and it finally sinking in, and knocking you out, as the doctor says to count to ten, and you hardly graze six.

His hands clutch the phone tighter, neck rendering him incapable of looking anymore, so he has no idea what his thumbs are trying to type — but it doesn't matter, not really, because this is it. Completely alone, young, and desperately in love with Dean Winchester, Castiel closes his eyes for the very last time.

And everything fades to black.

*

When they find him, it's been at least four hours.

It's night.

The uniformed official stuck with the responsibility of calling the next of kin, Victor Henriksen, fishes out the wallet as the paramedics carry him into the ambulance and attach him to IV immediately, and steps away to dial his emergency contact with a crinkled brow of sympathy.

And as he waits for the guy, a Dean Winchester, to pick up, he can't help but notice that his number is exactly the same as the one the last text almost sent from the victim's phone had been typed to — clutched in his hand, an unnerving, 'I love'.

And well, he isn't particularly into romcoms, but he hopes the poor guy gets a chance to finish his sentence.

He was in pretty bad condition, Henriksen recalls, and the bloodloss had knocked him out for several hours, but he looked twenty five at most, more importantly healthy, and — he looks at the wallet again, and the picture of two men (one of them, the victim) smiling at the camera with their hands around each other — most importantly, seemed to have reasons to fight for.

(Plus, he'd been the one to call the accident in himself — albeit four hours after it happened, but Henriksen figured he'd been passed out for that long — so he had to want to live, right?)

"Hello. Dean Winchester, who's this?"

"Hello, sir, I'm Officer Henriksen, and I have you listed as Mr Castiel Novak's emergency..."

*

"You dick."

Castiel coughs, and gives up on squinting against the bright light. It's a LED. Like in hospitals.

"Jesus, Cas. You complete asshole, you —"

Castiel opens his eyes a sliver again. The walls do resemble a hospital. Plain, white tiled. Way too many AC vents. Is that something on his hand?

"So you'll open your goddamn eyes, and not even fucking look at me."

There's IV's on both his hands. And something stiff around his neck. Almost like a collar, but thicker. And when he breathes, his ribs start like they might hurt — but the pain is numbed as it registers. He must be running really high on painkillers; they never really worked for him.

"Fine. You don't gotta look at me." A pause. Then, more shaky. "I was so scared, Cas. So fucking terrified. They said they weren't sure, said it may be too late, and you were dying. And then they tell me the crash happened at three, and I feel like I'm going to have a fucking stroke."

His vision slowly unblurs, feeling returning to his fingers. He tries to fold them, and winces at the strain.

Immediately, there's a hand on his arm.

"Stop moving, dumbass. I'm going to kill you for this, you know. I am, but I need you to be okay first."

The words don't register, but the voice does.

(He sounds beautiful as always, and so familiar it's like home.)

"Hell, I just need you, Cas. Period. I need your ridiculous, stupid ass — and I need you to look at me when I'm begging you to be okay, and I need you to stay, with me, forever, and not call me first when you need a goddamn ambulance, you dumbass —"

"Hello, Dean." Castiel interrupts, a hoarse whisper, and he thinks he hears a sob from the general direction of the love of his life.

(He really can't move his neck — he's got to tell Dean that at some point if he's not understood already. It's the cast.)

"Oh, thank god." Dean cries, the words muffled by either him burying his face in his sleeve, or the lifesaving medications Castiel is alive on account of, but it's okay, right? Dean's here — and he's okay. It's fine.

"I'm sorry."

"I'm still going to kill you for this."

"Well, I'd deserve that." Castiel tries to joke, and almost pulls it off, except for the part where he can't see Dean's reaction until the latter lets out another broken sob, and grabs his hand. Castiel freezes, trying to squeeze back, tears welling up again. "I'm really sorry, Dean." Then, after a beat. "I'm going to make this up to you."

It feels like a strange thing to say, but it's exactly what he means.

"Yeah, you are. Although it can't stop my revenge being not texting you when I have a heart attack in aisle three when I'm eighty and you're buying eggs, but okay."

If Castiel could, he would've shaken his head at that.

(But at least, and this is what really matters — they made it. He's alive. He — he gets this.)

"I love you, you son of a bitch."

Castiel smiles slowly, a tear landing on his pillow. "I love you too."