#and I'm probs gonna do that for 20 years more

[mee30p]

Comfort me

A/N: This one is for my PTSD girlies! we are amazing and sexy but also tragic at times but nonetheless amazing. This so could've been out earlier but i decied to go on a 2 day drinking bender and proceed to forget all the english i've learnt since i was 11. It's okay i have risen again and i can write in english again or this would've and could've been in french

This fic is probs more dramatic and traumatic than @dixondisease, imagined for their the prompt which is hereHERE! but oh well. go check them out they are amazing.

☽ Summary:

☽ Warnings: mentions of child abuse, sorta graphic detail of injury to 5 year old, goreish, screaming, PTSD, Medical malpractice, unintentional self injury.

☽ Word count: 1.1k

“You okay, woman?” Daryl's gruff voice asks but it carries a hint of worry as he approaches you. His words snap you out of your hazy staring contest with the concrete outside the C block. “Hmm? Oh yeah i'm fine , just tired is all, the supply run today took a lot outta me” You nod, your body is tight and stiff with tension and your eyes are hazed over and glassy, jaw ticked tight. “Uh huh” Daryl nods, he knows you better than this, you’re his girl after all. “You been havin a starin contest with th’ concrete for the last half hour”

“I was winning” You quip back but your voice is missing it’s usual sexy overconfidence and smugness instead replaced by a beat up, groggy and slightly shaky manner. “I’m fine really Dar, don’t need to fuss.. I’m gonna go to bed anyway” You sigh as you look down at your watch it’s 20 past 9 at night. 

You’d been feeling off and on edge for most of the afternoon, it started when one of the ex-woodbury residents who you do not know the name of made an off handed comment about you avoiding the doctors that live in the prison at all costs and that you need to see one of them about your nasty cough. They were not lying or being malicious as you have been but it still stung, you have avoided Dr S since he arrived and you’ve steered clear of Hershal for the most part after the farm. The very thought of seeing a doctor even though you do have a nasty cough makes your blood run cold.

 No one knows why, you never tell and you most likely will take it to your grave as it seems so stupid to most people, a small insignificant fear of doctors to most but to you it’s life changing crippling. Even before the outbreak you hadn’t been to the doctor in almost 10 - 15 years, stepping foot into even a GPs office makes your nerves shot and blood run cold, even the smell of sanitizer or sterile rooms makes your heart beat quicken. You decide what's best for your sanity is to go to bed early so you ask Glenn to fill in for you at watch tonight which he happily does, he knows your situation. As you make your way to your cell Daryl starts to trail behind you to your shared cell, you both peel off your clothes before slithering into bed and into each other's embrace. You’re so mentally drained the moment you hit your pillow and Daryl wraps his arms around you your eyes shut and sleep takes you under.

Suddenly you're back in that hospital room, the bright white sterile roof, the strange semi-coloured faded kids mural on the walls, the vinyl green floors meant to replicate grass. You’re back on that exam table, cross legged like the innocent five year old you were not knowing of the horrors about to occur. You’d broken your wrist about 6 weeks prior and to your knowledge you were back there just to get the cast removed. You look down at the stuffed unicorn in your lap, your mama there a second ago when you look up she’s gone and you’re alone in the room with the man you’ve come to despise and fear. 

He’s gloved up, mask on, face shield on and he now has two nurses clearly students. “Now have either of you two removed a cast? No perfect” The Doctor who’s name is now a blur hums too cheerfully for the crime he’s about to commit. 

It was all painless, the cast removal at least, that part was more of a slow blur. Now you’re on your back, left arm and both little five year old legs pinned to the table as the doctor who you trusted grabs your freshly healed arm and chuckles cheerfully, “ladies one thing about children's bones are that they are easy to break but… they are so darn resilient” He chimes as he places one big hand fully around your elbow and one around your wrist. The snap of your little arm is engraved into your brain, the vision of your bone piercing your skin and the blood pouring out is burned into your eyes. 

Suddenly you’re watching in third person as your current self, your piercing screams echo through the night terror they seem so real because they are. You are screaming in your sleep, now sat upright in bed clawing at your own arms until they are red raw and a bit bloody. Daryl is by your side in bed already trying his best to wake you and comfort you but as he touches you, you’re too out of it and you scream more “Hey hey hey, I’m here s’ me Daryl, you’re safe s’ okay” Daryl says desperately as he grabs both your arms roughly to hold you still, a tactic you shared with him. “No no no no.. stop.. Please make it stop.. Mummy help me” You sob, as you rock trying to claw at your arms although Daryl is holding you still. He’s never seen you this bad before he’s scared and unsure what to do but he pulls you into a bear hug which serves to be working. Your sobs and pleas turn to quiet mumbling which turn to you slowly coming out of it, once you get your bearings after 10-15 minutes the embarrassment hits you hard. “Shit… m’ sorry dar.. Fuck” You whisper as you look at Daryl who is only looking at you with love and concern. “Do not be fuckin sorry sweetheart you can’t help it” He whispers as he kisses you on the temple so tenderly and softly you wonder if it’s even real. 

Daryl lies to you both back down again. You’re now enveloped in his arms, your safe space. Daryl rubs his hand up and down your back slowly and softly as he whispers sweet words to you so soft and delicate you can only make out a few soft “it’s okay… safe now… I ain't ever gonna let anyone hurt you”. As you lie in his arms you can’t help but feel an immense amount of guilt for waking him up and carrying on. “Daryl-” You start to whisper. 

Daryl, wonderful but annoying man he is cuts you off with a soft but gruff “Don’t even think about apologising it ain’t your fault” and that's the last thing you hear before you start to slowly drift back into sleep as you are so utterly exhausted.

[a-dauntless-daffodil]

Omg Exorcists hunting like Ospreys

They dive and go sploosh in the water then fly back out no problem

Vaggie shows this once and Charlie, a no wing haver, is amazed by her gfs ability to fly out of water very much “but??? Wings in water meant to be no bueno??”

the one thing vaggie misses from heaven: Dive Bomb Fishing

XD no but, imagine Vaggie spending ages hunting around the city for a swimming pool big enough to show off to her girlfriend in. Up in heaven there was beaches and bright sparkling bodies of water, but hell is overcrowded and....

Vaggie: "How hard is it to find a body of water in hell that DOESN''T already have a dead body floating in it!?"

Angel Dust: "I dunno toots. Probs as hard as a long throbbing-"

Vaggie: "Shut up and keep looking or die."

she finally finds one and gets SO giddy about it, same as when she was excited to show the hotel commercial to Charlie, dragging her gf over to the edge of the one sanitary pool in hell like

Vaggie: (hopping up and down) "Are you ready for the surprise?"

Charlie: "I, think so??"

Vaggie: "Good!"

Vaggie: (hugs gf) (hops back again) (Grins)

Charlie: "Vaggie wh- pffthaha! You're really excited about this 'super cool angel trick thing' aren't you?"

Vaggie: "You have no idea."

Vaggie: "Now hold this taxidermized fish for me."

Charlie: "Hold the what."

it's a fair question. clean swimming pools aren't the only thing it's tricky to find in hell

Vaggie: "Fish!"

Charlie: "HOLYSHIT WHAT IS THAT THING?!"

Vaggie: "There's not a lot of fish options down here but we're gonna pretend it's a salmon. Or was one, in a past life."

Charlie: "Do I have to- I mean, is me holding it CRUCIAL to the surprise..?"

Vaggie: "You can throw it in the pool soon don't worry."

Charlie: "If it's in the pool Vaggie I don't think I'm going in that water."

Vaggie: "That's perfect! Just get ready to throw."

Vaggie starts stretching her wings

meanwhile poor Charlie wants to SO MUCH to be supportive about the angel thing after how not great that revelation started out so she's nodding and smiling and not instantly yeeting the horror fish and internally doing math equations trying to figure this out so she can be extra super happy about it

Vaggie: (twirling spear) "Ok babe, I'm gonna fly up real high, and when you see me wave you toss the abomination fish into the pool. Right?"

Charlie: "OK!!! Fly wave throw fish, got it!"

Charlie was ready for anything she was PREPARED

she was NOT prepared to see her girlfriend plummet through the air and dive smack dead into a pool at what looks like literal break-neck speed

Charlie: "VAGGIE!?!?!?"

Angel Dust: "Mmm not bad. 10 outta 10 for looking like she's gotta death wish. Slaaaaay!"

Charlie: "IS SHE OKAY?!"

Husk: "0 out of fucking 10. That shit looks wet as fuck."

Angel Dust: "Wuh luh wuh LOVE when thing get-"

Husk: "20 out of 10 if she drowns you."

Charlie: "THAT LOOKED LIKE IT HURT!"

Niffty: "Wheee! Me next!!!!!!""

Cherri Bomb: "Booo! 2 out of 10! It wasn't even a canon ball."

Charlie: "IS SHE HURT THAT REALLY LOOKED LIKE IT HURT!"

Niffty: "Did her spine snap? Is she-" (giggles) "Dead~?"

Alastor: "I'm SORRY to say it dearest but I SINCERELY doubt it! In fact it seems she is just about to surface, and NOT as a far more flatteringly corpse, ha ha!"

Charlie: "VAGGIE ARE YOU OKAY???"

Vaggie's head pop back beaming and shaking water from her face

Vaggie: "Charlie! I got it!"

Charlie: "Not the question I'm asking! Wait, got what?"

Vaggie: (laughing) "Look!"

cue big wing flaps, Vaggie spraying everyone who isn't Charlie with water as she wings back up out of the pool and lifts her spear to show off...

Vaggie: "I got the fish!"

....the stuffed abomination skewered triumphantly on her heavenly spear

Charlie: "You- you caught it!?"

Vaggie: "On the first try! First try in years and-"

Charlie: "YOU CAUGHT THE FISH???"

Vaggie: "I did!"

Charlie: "NO WAY!"

Vaggie: "Yeah!"

Charlie: "HOLY FUCK-"

Charlie, who has NEVER seen a diving bird irl before and whose is mind actually honestly BLOWN, cheering and jumping around and grabbing each of their sopping wet friends in turn to shake them and point at her gf, who

Charlie: "-just did that whatever that was she did that IT WAS AMAZING she went ZOOM like NYOOM and SPLOOSH and wOW-!"

Vaggie: (puffing up) "If there was real fish in that pool, we'd be having some for dinner tonight."

Charlie: "WOW!!"

Alastor: (dripping) (grinning tightly) "How. Delightful."

Charlie: "OH OH OH I GOTTA CALL DAD! I-"

Charlie: "-dad? Dad!! YOU'LL NEVER GUESS WHAT VAGGIE JUST DID!!!"

Alastor: "Oho~"

Vaggie: "What're you laughing at?"

Charlie: "-went WAY HIGH UP THERE and then she DOVE-"

Alastor: "Why at your cruel fate of course! Prepare to be MORTALLY embarrassed in front your partner's parent, my dear~"

Vaggie: "Are you kidding? Fishing is best skill I have."

Charlie: "YES SHE DID SHE DID DO THE DIVING FISHING THING AND SHE GOT THE FISH ON THE FIRST TRY!!"

Husk: (soaked) "That's not. Fucking. Fishing."

Vaggie: "Don't be bitter just because you can't do it, Husk."

Angel Dust: (also dripping) "Both of ya are nuts."

Cherri Bomb: (sadly holding up soggy bomb) "You could get a whole school of fish with one stick of dynamite. I'm just saying."

Niffty: "I wanna be the fish! SKEWER ME!"

Vaggie: "No offence Nif but, pass."

Niffty: "RRG!" (kicks her in the shins) "Stupid sport fishing lesbian!"

Vaggie: "Stupid good at sport fishing lesbian, you mean."

Charlie: "-okay!? Yeah! Yeah I'll tell her!!" (end call) "VAGGIE MY DAD'S COMING OVER HE'S GETTING OUT HIS OLD FISHING POLE HE'S GONNA PUT THE FISH ON IT AND MAKE IT WIGGLE FOR YOU WHILE YOU CATCH IT!!"

Vaggie: "No way!"

Charlie: "YES!! And IM gonna film it!!!"

Angel Dust: "An' we're all goin' home. Have fun with your gay nature docu-thingy."

Vaggie: "Have fun missing out on the fishing losers!"

Charlie: (hugging her) "This is so COOL! How do your wings even work after getting wet!? That's amazing!"

Vaggie: "It's what the daily preening is for, babe."

Charlie: "WE'rE GONNA DO SO MUCH MORE WING PREENING!!!"

Angel Dust: (distantly) "Gaaaaaay...!"

[ghostmoon1]

You know what, to start the year off, Imma make this lil appreciation post.

Now it's only been like, less than a year since I joined Tumblr about, I've been writing and drawing for years before this point, but the community here, especially the CoD community which I am mainly apart of just made me feel amazing. Everyone I've met here are some of the nicest people.

I have gotten my old hobbies back, giving me reason to write and draw again which have majorly helped with my own mental health, and now I just wanted to give the amazing people a shout out to start the year off, to hopefully make peoples days, and to just let them know that I appreciate yall!

In no specific order :3 and if you don't wanna be pinged again by me, please let me know and I won't!! No harm done, I hope this is okay :) and this is prob gonna be cringe or smt.. all sappy but like.Yeah here yall are lmao-

Putting them under the cut as there are a few :3

@gomzdrawfr - You've been a massive influence since I joined the CoD community, I adored your art from the very start, and your just such a sweet and kind person, one that I'm so thankful to have met, and so proud to be able to call you my friend. You're the first proper friend I've made here, and I can't tell you how much our talks make me smile every single time. And I'm also so thankful for the community you have sorta helped me get into, you've helped me feel comfortable interacting with more people here :3

@shadeops21 - You were honestly the person that got me to join Tumblr! I was looking for something to try and make my own Konig cosplay (that's been given up on bc motivation and Tik Tok just. yeahhh) and I found you, and all your amazing work! I basically made my account to see if you'd make any more, cause I just love what you do so much, it's got to be so helpful for so many people!!

@sleepyconfusedpotato - After Shadeops, you were the very second person I found here! And oh my gosh how much I obsessed (and still do) over your art, especially Jade. You inspired me to write my first ever fic on here, actually, where I made my first CoD oc ship with Soap, your art and what you do honestly helped me feel comfortable making something like that for myself, cause some of the toxic people on Tik Tok made me uneasy and unsure about that lol- And now, I finally have an OC I'm working in depth on, and you're my biggest reason to thank for that.

@soaps-mohawk - Your writing has inspired me so much, and I couldn't thank you enough for making your wonderful fic. I may not be like, a OG, but I've been there since around chapter 20 I think? I could be wrong, but half way through sorta. You are the biggest reason I started writing again here, you just create masterpieces. And this is the first time I've ever been hooked into a fic so much, and what got me into liking the Omegaverse (you hooked me and I can't let go of it now...) Thank you for taking your time with your writing, and thank you for all the inspiration you have given me.

@on-a-lucky-tide - Oh my gosh how much you have yanked me into the Nikprice community. I adore every single one of your writing pieces, and honestly, you are another who has helped inspire me to write more. All your writing is so filled with emotion and love, I want to be able to do that as well. Your a wonderful person, I've seen you interact with this community and everyone, and I just adore you as a person and all the hard work you put time and effort into creating.

@rainyrambles-overcod - I adore your oc's and rambles so much!! And I couldn't tell you how happy it makes me to have a friend that is okay with the tag games, I never know who to tag for those sorta things, but I actually feel okay tagging you and they are so fun and always brighten my mood :3 Keep creating, I can't wait to see what else you come up with. Thank you for all the tag games and fun!!

@nekrosmos - Yet another that has helped drag me into the Nikprice community or cult ig that too. Your art is absolutely amazing, I truly want to be able to draw like you do. Just everything about your art has me in awe, the emotion, the style, the love everything. Seeing your art brings me so much happiness! Oh and your writing is BEAUTIFUL. That also brings me joy to take a little time out of my day to sit and read the time and effort you put into everything, and how kind of a person you are. I always hope you'll keep creating, and always remember how much joy you bring both myself and others.

@daredaredoodles - I know we don't interact a whole lot, but you honestly mean a lot to me still. You were my first ever mutual on this site, and I will be forever grateful for this. Personally its anxiety that stops me from barging into peoples Dm's and talking, but yeah. Thank you for that, even if it is only a small thing.

@cricricorner - you were my first follower, and I still see you in my notifications from time to time, which always brings me joy! It's wonderful to see your followers still interact with your content, and I couldn't say how grateful I am. I couldn't tell you how happy I was to gain my first follower here, so thank you for taking your time to read my writing and see my art.

@daydreamsareallineed - You were pretty much the first person to show so much interest in my main fic!! And oh my gosh I couldn't ever tell you how much joy it brought me to read your comments, to have someone so interested in my writing, that personally I didn't even think was that good. I haven't given up completely on the fic dw, I'll hopefully update it soon! Motivation just go brrr. Thank you so much for all your support, it means the world to me.

And another shoutout to everyone who supports me, who follows me, and to every single one of you that like and reblog my content. I look through every single note I receive, I assure you none of you are left out.

And my final shoutout to everyone that creates on this site. The community here is like nothing I've ever experienced before. I adore scrolling through everyone's art, it all makes my day. I've never felt so comfortable and unjudged before. Thank you to everyone who contributes to this, you all make my day <3

This turned out a lot longer than I meant it to be- but I just wanted to share how I felt with this new year. I'm sorry if you'd rather not be pinged-

But have a lovely day :3 I love you all!!

[cat-mermaid]

somthing is happening that I don't think Nintendo or the games industry (indie excluded) at large seems to have considered:

If somthing is going to start costing more, people start scrutinizing the thing way more than they previously would have

I'm seeing a lot of people saying that they've looked Mario Kart World over and decided that its lacking, that there ain't enough content to justify the price of play

And I mean, yeah? If this was a $60 game people would be over the moon, they'd be singing its praises for how new and cool and fun it looks, but now? A game thats $10/$20 shy of $100 depending on what version you get?

Everyone's expectations get jacked up along with the price. We were grimly expecting GTA 6 to be a $90/$100 game because its fucking GTA, the game series that everyone fucking knows even if they don't know a thing about vidya gaems

GTA means an incredible gaming experience like no other, huge dense and full of enough content to last you for months or even a full year and more. People will buy it and goshdammit they darn will justify the price by it being the fucking video game, and Rockstar knows it

but Mario Kart? At launch? With bare bones everything? Almost a hundy dollars???

*whispers loudly* its just Mario Kart

and i'm secretly delighted right now cos heres wat i'm hoping: Nintendo has screwed over all the triple games industry's plans to crank up the prices of games

I think if GTA6 had come out first at a hundy bucks, it would have sold like hotcakes and normalized the idea of higher prices because GTA is the video game. Right now there are a ton of casual game players that do not follow game news (the kind of people Nintendo failed to account for when they were marketing the WiiU) who have no fucking clue about the looming intent to sell GTA6 for more than $60

They'd show up on release day, get smacked in the face with the price, then justify it to themselves with "inflation" or whatever and swallow the cost because its fucking GRAND THEFT AUTO BAYBEE

but because Nintendo rushed out ahead exuberantly, like a screeching wide eyed 4 year old into the street after a ball, the whole thing is now fuckled

Every game that isn't GTA is going to get looked over with a microscope and a fine toothed comb. wheres the $90 of content? Why should I buy this luxury priced game?

The industry willfully ignores the fact that AIN'T NO ONE GOT NO MONEY and going forward, if game prices do go up? That means your average Johnny Jerkoff is probs only gonna be able to buy one major big release every few months, which means that they're going to be waaaay more discerning when it comes to the games they choose

Higher Prices: Less game sales

a game that would have done gangbusters at $60 will now languish at $80/$90 because its still being made with the same about of content as a 60 smackers game, and people will always want more bang for their buck

so in summation Nintendy has screwed over the industry, tariffs be damned, they were still planning high prices well before orange man took office

People from all walks are fucking pissed about the new prices of one of the few previously affordable forms of escapism, and that anger is going to carry to every new game related announcement from now on. I'm really interested to see what the reaction to GTA6's release date and price announcement will be by the above mentioned casual gamers, now that they've gotten good and outraged by the whole Nintendo shitshow

Good stuff, thank ya'll for attending my Ted Talk

[platonicmoonwater00]

I see these everywhere. and i mean EVERYWHERE. and also i need motivation so lets go ig

10 notes- i'll drink on weekends too(i forget cos on weekends im just at home and not at school lugging around my frank green in my tote bag)

20 notes- i will(try to) pay attention in class

30 notes- i'll watch my whole watch later playlist on yt

50 notes- i'll actually do the techniques im learning in ✨therapy✨ to help with my anxiety and shitty social skills

75 notes- i'll take my iron tablets every day

100 notes- i'll start my assessments when i get them(i have one due tomorrow which i was gonna finish now but i'm doing this apparently)

125 notes- i'll ask my crush to hangout alone during spring holidays

150 notes- i'll try to go for a run or at least a walk every day

500 notes- i'll write another chapter of my fanfiction

1k notes- i will actually make an effort to get clean

2k notes- if i see someone pretty that i want to go out w in public i'll ask for their number cos holy fuck i need to put myself out there. even if we js end up being friends cos holy shit im lonely

3k notes- i will actually finished the dress i started making

4k notes- i will try to get over my crush cos its ✨never gonna happen✨(she so pretty and masc tho its gonna be hard)

5k notes- (this is so far up here cos idk how to do this so im gonnna need a lot of time to figure out how) im gonna try to demolish the rumour that im gay thats going around a bit.**

6k notes- i will finish all my crochet projects and not start any new ones until im done.

**context. i go to an all girls school and theres a lot of people so its not like everyone knows everyone, even in my year(theres approx. 174 in my year alone, and theres 6 year groups at my school cos high school is 7-12 where i live) but some people know me ig cos i know a few girl who are more notable, im in the top class and i recdntly started sitting with a group that the popular girls call furries.

(theyre a pretty big group and popular girls hate them cos one or two of them are trans - ftm, ftnb etc, no mtf cos my lovely/s catholic school wouldnt let trans girls in- several of them are gay, a few of them are emo, most of them are poc's and a few of them dont have english as their first language. overall they are seen as the "weird kids" in my year)

so this rumour apparently is going around that i like a girl in my class(i absolutely do but if you havent noticed my school is hella hoomophobic and i could very well get beat) which js isnt ideal and is gonna lead to a lot of issues, especially if a lot of people start believing it so if you guys have any advice pls lmk. and its not like i can js get a fake bf and show him off cos its a GIRLS SCHOOL. if i reconnect with a friend from primary school tho we could pretend to be dating and like make a post on social media. but then kids at his school would find out and hed either have to tell them its fake(which would eventually find its way back to my school, and when i say eventually i mean immediately) or he couldnt get a girlfriend so that probs wouldnt work.

i know it sounds like im making a mountain out of a molehill but ive got years to go here and i dont want to spend all my high school years getting bullied bc even if i went to a teacher about it or smthing id have to like analyse them first and try to figure out which ones are homophobic or not.

like learning about why "being gay is a sin"(pretend im saying that really mockingly) is literally in our curriculum.

holy shit that was longer than expected.

no pressure tags: @wishiwereheather13 @loserboyfriendrjl @fracturedsunsets @chasingthemoony @stars-and-leather @starsofleo

thats all im doing idk how you guys can stand js copy and pasting moots over and over i cant do this i did the first six that came up and that seems like enough 🤷‍♀️

begun doing

going to do

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[kindestofkings]

in a world of boys, he's a gentleman

ryan mcmahon x reader

authors note: this is so sweet and fluffy you'll probs need to visit the dentist, but its for all you ryan girlies out there xx

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inhalerdublin it may not be music related news but we have a NEWLY WED in the band, our lovely drummer finally tied the knot with an even lovelier cailín <33

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joshjenkinson_ crackin day!

elijahhewson still emotional, OUR PARENTS

 bobbyskeetz hangover of hell today but it was worth it 🤘🏼🤘🏼

evehewson what a stunning bride, congrats !!

lewevans the best just got better! thanks for including me in the big day

yourusername are you kidding me? THANK YOU for your amazing photos! (liked by ryanmcmahon_15)

inhalerfan1 you are joking me this is so beautiful

inhalerfan2 why am I crying over two strangers getting married?!?!

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yourusername just had a dream weekend and married my bestfriend.

never imagined getting married so young but when you know you know, and you certainly do not let a man like ryan pass you by.

my husband <3

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ryanmcmahon_15 the love of my life, my wife <3

inhalerfan1 literally the most beautiful wedding ever!

inhalerfan2 awhhhh congrats!

yourmam such a beautiful day celebrating you two!! my favourites xx

inhalerdublin our parents 💗💗💗

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--finito--

lol dont even know where that marriage came from Im still undecided if i believe in the concept, but its cute lol!

hope you enjoyed <3

[captainjoongki]

Ugh did you see the drama with Our MOvie I'm glad mostly everyone is on NGM's side x com/onurscz/status/1934110726878380406

wild stuff because namgoong min is KNOWN to be like a really chill quiet guy who has never in like, a 20+ year career called anyone out so that reporter making a useless article saying "our movie's ratings fell and namgoong min should be humiliated" is gross and i'm glad he called her out even if it was way nicer than i would've been.

see the thing is he himself said at the press-con it's not the type of drama to make a lot of noise and i agree. it's a melodramatic tragedy. it's filmed slowly. it's a character driven piece. but when did we equate high ratings - which are really hard to achieve anyway in this age of streaming - with quality? because i can name 10 "hit" dramas that were truly utter shit skfljsk. and it's been like what, 2 episodes? idk i would've cussed her out but it's sweet that he said to wait for a few weeks and then he'll take responsibility of any failure - which i don't agree with bc what makes a drama a failure? if it's a good drama that even moves 5 people i think it worked. but it's all a capitalist useless world we live in but yeah. anyway our movie is prob gonna be in my top 3 faves of the year so hopefully more do tune in but either way idc i'm glad it's found whoever it needed to find.

[spicy30]

Girl are you still alive 😭😔 haven't heard from you for almost one month😟 but I hope you are doing okay and if you are taking a break, feel free to take one pookie. You deserve one because you have been feeding us good🙏💕

Yeah, I'm alive, currently studying for a chem exam💔 (I hate chemistry) I was going on tik tok on my computer and without looking I clicked enter and it took me to Tumblr (#recoveringaddict) bc yk when you search something up so much it's just auto. I haven't been on Tumblr since March 5th. 😭 (I am catholic and I gave up anything having to do with FF including reading and writing for Lent) So a ton of notifications, and being as starved I looked through them.

I'm not supposed to be here rn, but! Here I am!

This isn't a break bc it's actually been hell without my support FFs. It's more a forced break that I inflicted on myself bc I didn't want to give up my tik tok streak (105 days and going strong 🤑) I've desperately wanted to write and read (Just found a new fandom I didn't even know existed for one of my shows, but I discovered it in the middle of lent so my enemies are working hard against me) but my indomitable will to not fail this commitment to myself and to my faith is stronger.

I also gave up fast food and for the first two weeks I was good, then my mom came and told me to give in. Devil couldn't reach me so he sent my mother to tell me that I'd start balding if I didn't start eating meat. (I live alone bc I attend school elsewhere and thus was only surviving on fruits and veggies and no meat bc I'm broke and I'm too lazy to cook.) Despite my will, I will not let my luscious locks fall from my head. (I need it to survive these next years of my engineering degree 💔 and I'm only in my first year so it's only down hill from here) —Have you seen those first year to fifth year engineering tik toks?😟 Pure horror(Waterloo Uni)— In any case I ate chicken teriyaki and steamed vegetables from Panda Express (Which was horrible bc I prefer them raw) —Pause— anyways. Yeah, all last week during my spring break I broke my 'fast' three times bc I was celebrating my birthday. (Desperately hanging on to my childhood) and then I went to go get my fav fast food bc it's a little tradition to eat it when I leave and come back. (Bc I don't have a car here and I have walk everywhere and last time I did, bad things happened.🥀 So the only time I can eat it is when my parents come and pick me up and drop me off every couple of months)

Now I'm back and back on my grind to not eat any fast food but never have I broken my streak of reading ff (Except my own bc I get comments on Ao3 and I have to reread my works so I can laugh bc I find myself funny) But yeah I've written nothing since March 5th (Which is rlly more Feb 13th cuz I had to lock in for exams) and as soon the clock strikes 12am on  Apr 17, I'm hopping back on to write everything bc my mind was been cooking up ideas (Despite the fact that I'm not even supposed to entertain the thought) so I can't wait to start again.

Chapter 12 will be extra long. Maybe 25k? Or more. Probs longest chapter (Longest one rn is chap 11 sitting at a cool 20,284 words exactly)

Also due to extending time and the newest plot point (Said plot point will probably make many upset as it is a VERY unpopular trope but I have decided it is a necessary evil to get to the end.) which I have decided add in the this excruciatingly long 'break', instead of 15 chapter total it'll be a cool 20-25 bc I need to have a better build up for the finale.

SO FAREWELL UNTIL MID TO LATE APRIL! GOTTA GET BACK ON THIS GRIND!

MY ENEMIES WILL NOT SUCCEED!

(Pls don't take me for some crazy religious freak who has religious psychosis. This is all jokes. I do not actually believe the devil is in everything and is out to get me. All jokes. Have a wonderful next couple of weeks.)

That being said, wish me well bc this exam for chem I have tomorrow, I'm not so sure I'm gonna to too well on it. (I hate naming chemicals. FUCK THEM POLYATOMIC IONS AND FUCK WHO EVER CREATED THEM)

[bamnamuu]

that’s how you get the girl - riki nishimura

02. i'm an edward

w.count 1315 | warnings swearing, threatening to push people out of the car, typos, prob bad sorry, t’s long sorry for that as well lol | ems note I don't care if this is the worst thing I've written I had fun sooo | masterlist | last part next part |

You were sprinting as fast as you could to Jay’s car, not because you wanted to see the boys that badly, no, you had just seen Sunoo and Jungwon like 20 minutes ago. You needed to beat Riki and with so much luck you did!  ‘’ hi’’ you said, opening the car door and meeting Sunoo's smiling face.  ‘’I’m not gonna lie, I’m very impressed y/n I thought ki was gonna beat you’’ you hear Jungwon say as you finish buckling your seatbelts. ‘’So did I!’’ you say, still having to catch your breath. ''Look who finally shows up’’ Jay says as Riki flings himself onto yours and Sunoo's lap, probably banging his head on the roof in the process. ''OW your elbow went into my thigh!’’ you say to Niki's face as he lies face down in your lap, ''Regretting the choice you just made there bud?’’ Jungwon said like a mother. ‘’Yes, yes I am,’’ Riki said not bothering to move yet, and it's moments like this where you question how and why you are friends with these guys. Niki and you have gone to the same schools for your entire lives, but when the two of you were in grade school you barely saw him, you both had the same classes he just skipped school. But you remember the first time you talked to him Riki, it was the day of the school sports event, you had just won a potato sack race when you decided to sit down, which you did on a patch of grass far away from the school with your cherry popsicle you had just won, the sun was beaming down o you causing the frozen treat to melt on your hands and before you knew it fall into the dirt where the ants were now enjoying your prize. This was the end of the world for ten-year-old you, sniffing and wiping your tears off you feel a tap on your shoulder turning around to find a boy the same age as you holding out his popsicle to you, ''You can have mine if you want.’’ the boy said, still not looking you in the eyes. ‘’ can we share it?’’ you spoke quietly, the kid just nodded at you. ''I’m Riki.’’ he said sitting down beside you handing you the popsicle, to which you took a bite and then handed it back, ''I’m y/n! Are you new here?’’ you asked ‘’No’’ he said. You saw more of him at school from that day on, you two were now stuck together at the hip figuratively and kind of literally. ''ki gets off of me, you’ve had enough time to process!’’ the giant on your lap just murmured something under his breath and sat in his seat next to Sunoo. ''hold on guys I think I left something in the back of the trunk, y/n can you peak over and lo-’’ ‘’ no need I’m right here!’’ Sunghoon emerged from the trunk cutting off jays sentence and making everyone yelp in shock and surprise everyone except Sunoo he just laughed. ''what the fuck hoon you almost make y/n pee her pants!’’ Ni Ki said clutching his chest ''what the hell dude! Do I have permission to kick him out of the car Jay?’’  ‘’ Yeah, why not!’’ Jay said enthusiastically. 

With much restraint you managed to make it to Riki's house without causing his body any harm, jay, Riki, and Sunoo all raced to the front door while you and Jungwon helped Sunghoon out of the back ''i swear to god you vampire Hoon!’’ you pointed an accusing finger at Sunghoon ''maybe I am, maybe I'm not all I know is if I was a vampire wouldn't know.’’ ‘’ Can I start calling you a Cullen?’’ Jungwon said. ''as long as it refers to me being Edward knock yourself out!’’ ‘’I was thinking more of Jasper, you two are very alike!’’ jungwon said before skipping to the house. ''I am not a Jasper I’m an Edward.’’ sunghoon said defensively ''Sure you are bud, sure you are!’’ you say patting his back. running to Riki's front door only to be met by his back to your face. ''why are you standing in the middle of the doorway?’’ you said rubbing your nose ''I was hoping you would be Sunghoon, but you're not so sorry.’’ he said grabbing your face to look at the damage he caused ''you broke my nose!’’ ''I did not. Stop being dramatic’’ he said bending down to your level so he could see your eyes and nose, this boy is going to kill you there was no reason for him to be doing all this, you're not even bleeding. ''follow me, let's go bandage you up.’’ he said with a laugh leading you towards his kitchen. Following his lead you enter his family kitchen that you become familiar with, sitting at the dining table Riki takes out a pack of peas from the freezer and hands them to you before sitting next to you, ''So y/n I wanted to talk about earlier.’’ he said as you placed the peas on your nose, not that you needed it. ''about how you don't know how to draw a circle because I don’t think that's important ki you have many more things you're actually good at!’’ you said trying to act completely oblivious to what he's trying to get at, ''first of all rude, second of all this about what I said at lunch, y’know you helping me talk to Rei?’’ thank god for the frozen peas to cover up how flustered you are ''oh yes that thing I agreed too!’’ ''right, so I was thinking we could make a plan or list-type thing to help.’’ ''wait I just thought I was just gonna get her number for you and this be over with?’’ ''oh no no no, my good pal you’re my wing-woman y/n you're in this for life!’’ he said grinning, letting out a sigh you asked ''I'm guessing you already have a plan huh?’’ you see Riki nodding with glee ''yes- well some of it all I know is I want to ask rei to come with me to the school dance in a couple of months.’’ you were going to respond when you were interrupted by sunghoon spinning into the kitchen ''why do you need to ask some other girl you don’t know when you have a perfectly good candidate here?’’ oh god, you had regretted telling the other boys you had a crush on Riki specifically Sunghoon. ''and who would that be?’’ Riki said confused, please don't say me don't say me ''sunoo!’’ oh thank god. You watched as Hoon looked at you and winked, you should have left him in the trunk. ''hey Riki do you have any more hot coco packs?’’ sunghoon said, Riki looked up from his phone ''No you used them all remember?’’ ''damn it! I can’t have anything! I can’t be Edward! I can't drink my hot coco!’’ Sunghoon mumbled as he left the kitchen. “anyway about Rei I was wondering if you could eavesdrop on her conversations so that” “Absolutely not! I’m not gonna become a stalker for you” “Just this once y/n please!” “no ki…I know Rei volunteers to help in the library every week or some why don’t you, I don’t know see her there?” “so you’re asking me to go to the library of my own free will?” “yes, I don’t think it’s that big of a deal” “Fine.” “GUESS WHOS BACK!” Heeseung said as he walked through the door, Jake followed behind him. After some catching up with the boys, decided to head to the basketball court and play a couple of games. You, however, were now punching yourself in your mind for what you said earlier.

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[bexfangirlforlife]

So it's time for the new Spatort ep on sunday. Even though idk exactly if I'll make it in time... in case that I do liveblog again this year, here my little tag fyi of the year:

I'll tag all my posts of the liveblog with

#tatort saarbrücken

I might also add #spatort but no guarantee there. Additionally I'm gonna try and put at least one of the following tags:

#dedn spoilers

#edn spoilers

#dedn

#edn

I'm gonna try my hardest, but from my experience it sometimes goes so fast, especially also the reblogging from others, that it's easily forgotten to put more than just the fandom tag.

So if you don't watch live and don't wanna get spoiled, it prob would be best to block them all (come sunday jan 26th 20:15h german time).

[manic-sapphic]

i luv you adora- but i'm prob always gonna

have this lil like, .5% glare at you stuck in my soul for this moment---

for real though, got me on episode 2, all into the show, already loving tf out of their dynamic and feeling they got some vibes, stoked as hell on it-

then i gotta see this damn 1.5 seconds of it and get slapped so stupid hard w the realization that catra's the only one who knows they got them feels-

just tryna check out this show and can tell i'ma enjoy tf out of it - but right here ^^ after getting to watch them together for so little of the show - already lookin at em like yeeeea i see you dummies- flirty af, even if u don't realize that's what ur doin yet- helllllll yeessssss--

annnnd then hey - surprise split-second stab in the heart: 'oh fuck it's gonna be a while, isn't it?'

- instant frustration - suddenly aware of an impatience that i know is def gonna be growing at fckin exponential rates ... but damnit. yeah - still have to watch it - cause i gotta know if this is gonna happen. and ofc thinkin- 'omfg - it better. cause if it never does, i know i'ma be filled w more gay rage than i know what to do with' -

and went on watching, waiting. four damn seasons i loved tf out of but still got that underlying .....? in my head of 'when's it gonna happen? how they gonna do it at this point? IS IT gonna happen at this point? i swear to gob - if it don't - ...well, there's nothing i could or would do, but i'ma be so mad, the fury gonna pop up in my head for weeks. years - for life. if i even hear this show mentioned like, 20 years from now - my mood will still instantly get super salty for a bit.'

fact.

& the fifth season had me all over a roller coaster the whole damn time- kept feeling like i was tryna walk down this hallway illusion in shot in the dark- thinking i'm boutta reach the damn door and suddenly the fckin thing looks far away as hell

thank gob all that shit did turn out to be an illusion. cause i was feelin as scared as this lil kitty - such fear, gonna cry -

but never had to cry. except maybe tears of joy- and maybe a few tears so stoked that it even did happen- but also a lil more of em tho, cause not till like the last 10 mins of the whole series.

regardless tho - like, 20 seconds of the show that made the entire thing 10000x dumb stupid awesome- so worth it. it was all great, but got that instant infinite enhancement to all great gay. win.

<3

ps -

(but still be fierce & fiesty af ofc)

[crushedsweets]

Can you talk more about Eyeless Jack? I really love him😔❤️

holds him in my hands... yes i can.. yes. i . can..

ive already gone on about his sacrifice and whatnot.. ok . ok. what to talk about. im gonna repeat hella stuff prob.

jack nyras .. mid-late 20s... human sacrificed to a demonic deity. . cute guy overall.

as i mentioned, similar to the proxies, he has a rando cabin in the woods. slenderman actually sees him as a good utility, so while he's not a proxy, he's kept around and allowed freely in the forest without any uhh... chaperone, i guess.

his cabin is even smaller, 1 bedroom 1 bathroom, small kitchenette, small living room, etc. there's a bit of an underground bunker, sort of like a tornado bunker. he keeps 2 freezers down there. u can imagine whats in them.

the main sort of ummm... like, driving issue and character 'arc' for jack is his guilt and battles w his own humanity. he was technically possessed by a demon/deity for a year straight, and while the demon is now 'resting', he still committed the atrocities he did, and he still relies on humans. for a while after he regains consciousness, he's really skinny bc its really hard on him emotionally to eat. eventually he just gets sort of numb to it (with the help of the other creeps.. not intentional help moreso 'dont be a pussy do what u gotta do man') . jeff is especially the one telling him to 'man up and do it' so he lives. toby and ben are more understanding of why its so hard for jack.

again jacks the eldest of many siblings. i'm thinking perhaps it goes.. jack>daughter>daughter>son>son>daughter. 3 sisters, 2 brothers. he was driving and working by time he was 16, his parents had too much pride to let him help with bills but he was getting groceries and cooking a lot of food for the house.

family meals were kind of a thing in the nyras household. jack was a good cook, lots of traditional meals, etc. he's been cooking dinner for his siblings since he was like 11. his dad always thought it was odd that jack took that on, esp since he had a sister a few years younger than him, but he legit just liked it.

there was a good bit of parental pressure to be a doctor, but if that weren't the case, he'd love to go into culinary. you know. before he had to cook human meat.

he can digest raw meat, and he has a theory that he goes longer between meals if he eats raw meat, BUT he often still cooks it and tries to make it just. more normal for him.

also he can and does still eat normal food, but it lost a ton of its taste for him. he relies still on human meat, but he can go like a 1-2 weeks between meals before he starts getting violent and dealing with severe pain. sort of like tokyo ghoul style ?

mmm.. he still has a missing persons case file open. his mother still tries to get the police to keep looking, and his brothers have even tried doing crazy shit like going into creepy parts of the city alone to figure shit out, but his sisters and dad eventually gave up and assumed he was dead. his mom still believes he's alive fully. none of them know what really happened to him

he works as human remains disposal for some rando guys that ben helped him find off the dark web. thats how he pays for the cabin, but the cabin is under brian's name since...... well. um. lol. jacks missing and presumed dead and he sure as hell isnt human enough to have a house.

cute guy !!!

[magixfairyix]

TW: Mentions of suicide

[Iorda cutting off her remaining wings in a clearing far away from Alfea, trying to escape her fate as the fairy of dark arts during SSS]

[Back at Alfea, everyone sleeping]

Darcy, sits up because sixth sense or smth: That bitch is making a stupid decision again

[Goes to Musa]

Darcy, shoves Musa: Wake tf up

Musa: wtf-

Darcy: Your friend is going insane

Musa, tired: Which one...?

Darcy: Oh, FLORA

Musa: Hm... *yawn* Kay

Darcy: Of course, it's not Flora! It's your friend who very obviously has needed therapy for the past few years

Musa: What'd Iorda do now...?

Darcy: How tf would I know?

Musa: Then why'd you wake me up?

Darcy: ...

Darcy: Hopeless

[Darcy goes to Bloom and Icy's room]

Darcy, turns on the light: Alr whores, which one of you knows why I can feel that Iorda is out of Cloud Tower?

Icy: How-

Darcy: Balance. Emotion feeling. Now talk

Icy: Ask the ginger

Bloom: Why? Is something wrong?

Darcy: Well it's dull as hell, but she's in pain I think

Bloom: ...

Darcy: ...

Bloom: WELL WOULD YOU LOOK AT THE TIME-

Darcy: Icy, now

[Icy proceeds to pin Bloom to the bed]

Icy: You know something

Bloom, blushing: Are we about to kiss-

Darcy, face-palms: These bitches istg

Icy, smirks: If you tell us what's going on, then maybe~

Bloom: Okay, well...

Darcy: Well?

Bloom: Iorda and I were talking in the Dark World...

Darcy: ...

Icy: ...

Bloom: And we discussed how since, y'know, she's becoming a witch her wings may not be connected to her soul anymore...

Darcy: If you say-

Bloom: I didn't suggest it

Darcy: Bullshit

Icy: She wouldn't cut her wings off, she's not that much of an idiot

Bloom: ...

Icy: Fuck ur right, she is

Darcy: And Iorda did see her Pixie's dead body so...

Bloom: Oh yeah she's probs chopping her wings off right now

Icy: ...

Darcy: *sigh* I'll get Musa

[Back in Musa's, Stella's, and Darcy's dorm]

Darcy, slaps Musa: Wake up bitch

Musa: WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU-

Darcy: Iorda is cutting her wings off

Musa: ...

Musa: Oh, good for her

Darcy: ...

Musa: What?

Darcy: You're not worried?

Musa: I mean, she has decent pain tolerance-

Darcy: I broke every bone in her body, I'm aware of her pain tolerance. What I'm worried about is if her body would go into shock or not

Musa: Why would it?

Darcy:

Musa: We don't really learn about that, y'know

Darcy:

Musa: It's kind of illegal to learn about? Cause people would abuse that knowledge, though I guess it didn't help since your sister chopped someone's wings off twice. No shade, but-

Darcy: You were there when Galatea got her wings cut off, right?

Musa: More like shattered

Darcy, sigh: Just answer me

Musa: Well I was focused on not dying. I thought she was just scarred from fear

Darcy: ...

Musa:

Darcy: And you didn't see Iorda after she got her wings frozen off?

Musa: I saw her like, 20 mins after when we all woke up

Darcy: ... Musa

Musa: Yesh?

Darcy: Girl was barely conscious after that

Musa: ... painful, damn

Darcy: And that was one pair of wings

Musa: ...

Darcy: ...

Musa: Fuck

[Meanwhile, Iorda laying down on her back in the clearing. She's chopped off all her wings, and is staring up at the sky with her face wet with tears]

Musa: HELLO HOE!

Iorda, thumbs up: Ello

[Darcy and Musa stand over her]

Darcy: Uh... you good?

Iorda: I think so

Darcy: There's blood on the ground

Iorda: Darcy, I cut off my wings. The scars are gonna bleed

Darcy: ...

Iorda: Duh

Musa: See, she's fine

Iorda: Oh no I feel like shit and every bone in my body is aching

Darcy: ...

Iorda: :3

[Darcy grabs Iorda's wrist]

Darcy: We're taking you back to Alfea

Iorda: Nooo let me sleep here

Musa: is that dangerous?

Iorda: Eh, I've gone unconscious several times but I kept waking up. Also crying. But at least I don't have my wings anymore

Darcy: stfu

Iorda: Don't tell me to stfu-

Musa: Are you sure you're okay?

Iorda: ...

Iorda: Wait, Darcy let go

Darcy: Hell no

Iorda: Bitch I'd rather not vomit over myself

[Darcy let's go, and Iorda slightly uneasily rushes over to a tree]

Musa: So... Not okay?

Iorda: Oh no I'm FINE

Darcy: BULLSHIT

Iorda: I've had periods worse than this, coward!

Musa: ...

Darcy: ...

Iorda: I think my body is in shock cause it feels like I'm cold and warm at the same time

Darcy: ...

Iorda: Or is that normal? I don't know

Darcy: Shouldn't you know from last time when Icy froze your wings off?

Iorda: Last time I just passed out immediately. Now I don't think I'm super connected to my wings, so I was conscious through the pain until I passed out in some bushes

Musa: ... did it hurt really bad?

Iorda: Towards the end I think I was low-key delerious from the pain, so after the Sirenix wings I just kind of kept going

Darcy: ...

Iorda: Oh fuck, the world is spinning

Darcy: Girl, you're in SHOCK

[Musa makes sure Iorda doesn't collapse]

Iorda: Thanks, u the best <3

Musa: But like, was it worse than more painful than last time

Iorda: More painful, but again, I passed out several times so-

Darcy: Are you gonna pass out again?

Iorda: Oh no I think I already passed out... *pauses and looks at her fingers* ... How much is seven again?

Musa: ...

Darcy: ...

Iorda: I feel like shit

Darcy: Physically or mentally?

Iorda: Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, magically...

Musa: So... bad?

Iorda: It feels like my body is trying to kill me, so yeh

Darcy: And you thought this was a good idea why?

Iorda: I didn't think it would send my body into a shock. Oh yeah I was shivering an hour ago I think, and unable to move. That too

Musa: Iorda, why the hell-

Iorda: Because Bliss died because of me having a shitty Fate, so it was either this, or keep going as the fairy of dark arts until I lost it and either started killing others or myself

Musa: ... We're getting your ass to therapy after this

Iorda: Clearly

Darcy: Okay, back to Alfea with you

Iorda: Let me sleep here

Darcy: No

Iorda: Tis comfy

Musa: Agreed with Darcy

Iorda: I mean, at least I don't feel like throwing myself off of Alfea is the only way to get out of constant danger anymore

Musa: ...

Darcy: ...

Iorda: This is a good thing

[Musa and Darcy turn around to have a private conversation]

Darcy: How long has your bitch-ass friend been like this?

Musa: Like what?

Darcy, rolls eyes: Wanting to die

Iorda, calling out: You can say 'suicidal' you know?

Darcy: YES I KNOW, NOW GO BACK TO SLEEP

Iorda: No

Musa, to Darcy: Also, I don't know-

Iorda, lays back on the grass: For a while! But not really anymore. I mean, I don't feel trapped anymore. Also, I'm no longer in a constant identity crisis and I know I'm a full witch now

Iorda, barrel roles from side to side: But now I just want to kill the Shaman Witch, so I think that's a good thing

Darcy: This bitch istg

Iorda: Y'know, I feel the best I've felt in years

Musa: I mean, I'm glad?

Iorda: Me too! I'm glad you agree!

Darcy: We're taking you back to Alfea

Iorda, barrel roles away: YOU'LL NEVER CATCH ME ALIVE!

[kiwikay3]

BIG NEWS YALL

OMG OMG OMG!!!!! XD AIGHT LISTEN UP GIRLS GAYS AND SLAYS

After 20 minutes of tears and begging my parents for it, and another hour of a YouTube tutorial on how to use it, I now know how to use...

Wait for it.

FL STUDIOS!!!! 💃✨❤️😆🥳👏

For those of you who don't know what FL Studio is, it's a DAW (Digital Audio Workstation) where you can make music or covers! In my case, I'm gonna use it for covers hehe

So here's the plan:

I'm gonna take 3-4 song requests from you guys (because I'm indecisive lolol)

I make karaoke tracks of those songs for myself

Wait until I can upgrade my FL Studios from the free trial

Wait some more so I can get my mic and audio interface (something that converts sound waves from mics to computers so it can process the sound waves) I'm prob gonna get this for Christmas btw so the process is gonna go into 2025 FOR SURE

Make a cover

POST IT!!

Now, you may be wondering; "What are we gonna do during those 4-5 months, Mr. Kiwi?" I'm prob gonna post some updates and sille stuff hehe :P

Anyways, requests are always welcome but I'll only take 4 AT MAXIMUM for now!!! Also, I'll only take one from each person, so you can list but it's probably gonna take abt a year until I actually make the cover (EPIC is highly recommended and appreciated).

And I'm also gonna make a list on docs abt the requests so you don't have to think if your song's been forgotten hehehhe

Just make sure you post them in the "Ask me anything" thingy and uh ye!!

Alright my girls gays and slays, I need to go to sleep it's 11-

-ur fav kiwi 🥝

EDIT: charybdis is on loop in my head and my brain won't let me go to sleep fubfrbhifebjindjksdebi

[my-castles-crumbling]

hi cas!!

im gonna rant at you for a bit if you dont mind :)

Im a minor that lives in a super tight night, close minded community. Super religious, super homophobic transphobic ect. Seeing as im a teenage girl whose questioning their gender and is definitely attracted to women thats kinda problematic lols. Honestly idek how to explain the situation without a bunch of details, but basically, theres a fifty-fifty chance of me being sent to conversion therapy or just cut off from any internet access (and i mean ANY. i have a flip phone for fucks sake.)if my fam finds out im queer, i have no support system outside of some internet friends who know nothing about my situation, and within the next few years(so like once i turn 20ish, thats in like 4 years but whatever) my family is going to expect me to get married to a man and start popping out babies asap. Btw thats whats expected of me in this community, marriage under the age of 25, have like as many kids as physically possible and god forbid higher education. And im not okay with that . Ffs i want to go to college, major in fine arts, meet a person i like and fall desperately in love or maybe not just have a bunch of close platonic relationships i want cats and a dog and a cute studio in a big city where i can dye my hair whatever color i want aand get an obsene amount of piercings, i want to wear pants!! I just want to live. Without expectations or limits or people who love me hating everything they dont know about me. Is that truly so much to ask for?

And im incredibly dramatic cuz i literally have the dream life. My family loves me, my parents are upper middle class, theyve never hurt me before(besides for all the anti everything rants haha) i literally have a full sized bed, which for some reason i see as the peak of being spoiled idk why. I go to school, not even public, a private religious school that prob costs thousands of dollars, i have friends(who are all part of this community btw and id bet my entire savings that most of them think gay is only a word that ppl use to mean happy lol) close ones even!! I have adorable neices and nephews(my 3 sisters all were married by the age of 20, so i have 11 niecesand nephews while my oldest sister is 31) im living the dream life. But i hate it and i have no way out. No hope of college to get on my feet and find someway out, no people that'll help me fucking run away or some bullshit like that, hell ive considered it and then felt like shit, cuz what am i even running from? Im probably attracted to men it wont kill me to marry one. And i like kids, i wouldnt mind having any either. But.... i dont want to be trapped anymore. Cuz ill be honest thats what i am.if some one asked me to run away with them rn i would, no hesitation.

God im a mess😭😭 anyway this was me ranting in my notes app, im just apologizing for dumping this on a complete stranger(we're moots actually!!) albeit a very kind one :) i dont know what im looking for, but ill take whatever your comfortable giving ig.

I love and appreciate you<333

And hey this has been oddly cathartic so lmk if its okay for me to do this again sometime :))

"im living the dream life. But i hate it and i have no way out."

Hon, you're not living the dream life...there's a difference between financial privilege and being happy, you know? It's pretty clear that this isn't what you want.

I'm not sure if you're asking for my advice here, or if you just want to vent. But I care about you, and if you want me to research some things to try to help you, I'm more than willing to (that way it's not on your search history.) Just say the word!

Until then, you are ALWAYS allowed to vent to me.

I'm naming you venting anon in case you write again!

[ladyinwriting18]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you for the tag @thegreatwicked !

1. How many works do you have on AO3? Currently 32! There will be more! Also some of the fics I've written are old. I'm talking 2013 old lol

2. What's your total A03 word count? .........237,027 Fuck that's a lot of words LOL

3. What fandoms do you write for? A LOT LOL Mainly Star Wars and other characters played by Adam Driver. But I've also written for Marvel, House of The Dragon, Game of Thrones and Once Upon A Time.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

A Place To Escape (NSFW Multi-Chapter Kylo x OC/Completed)

I Want Another (NSFW One Shot/ Aemond "One-Eye" TargaryenxYou

Missing The Taste Of You (NSFW One Shot/ Kylo x Reader)

The Gift (NSFW One Shot/ Sandor Clegane x Reader)

The Principal's Office (NSFW One Shot/ Modern Day Kylo x Reader) IDK WHY THIS HAS SO MANY KUDOS I DON"T THINK THIS ONE SHOT IS ANY GOOD LOL

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Yes! I love talking to my readers and honestly every comment that gets left on one of my stories touches my heart!

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Uh.....I don't think I have any. Most of my fics are smutty one shots that end happy ;) lol

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? I would say A Place To Escape because I worked the hardest writing that fic and Kylo and Evangeline go through A LOT before their happy ending.

8. Do you get hate on fics? Not really. I once had someone comment that I must be jealous of Rey cause I write KyloxReader fics but I'm also a Reylo sooooo. But I'm sure there are people out there that talk shit about me and my writing lol

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? YES. All of the smut all of the time.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? Nope. Well.....once I wrote that Heath Ledger's Joker falls through a wormhole into the real world of NYC were me and my two best friends find him and taken him home......Don't ask....and no you can't find that fic anywhere LOL

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I'm aware of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? I have! Not for awhile now but they're deff fun to do!

14. What's your all-time favourite ship? Jesus idk...there's so many.... Prob Sandor x Sansa cause I've loved them the longest.

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Most likely Darkness Into Light. It's never been released but it's a multi-chapter Kylo x reader fic where reader is also an apprentice of Snoke's and Rey tempting Kylo back to the light causes all these problems. I've had the story planned out and semi-written for years now. I love my ideas for it but I don't think I'll ever have the time or energy to finish it/put it out there to the world.

16. What are your writing strengths? I feel like I'm mostly known for my smut writing abilities because I not only write smutty fics but also write smutty audios. Most of my followers call me "smut goblin" lol But I have been told that I'm good at writing about powerful emotions connected with SA. And that I'm good at the characterization of various characters.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? I'm too hard on myself and I think I suck. I also think I'm awful at writing descriptors. Like describing what clothing looks like or a place or things like that.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I've done it a little bit in A Place To Escape. I wanted Evangeline to have a native language that she used once or twice that Kylo wouldn't understand. But I ended up just using Italian words because.....reasons lol

19. First fandom you wrote for? Oh god....I'm not even sure now because I've been writing for so long. But when it comes to my Ao3 it would be Once Upon A Time (Rumbelle for life!)

20. Favourite fic you've ever written? Gonna have to say A Place To Escape because I put my heart and soul into that fic. And it's also the first ever multi-chapter thing I EVER finished.

No pressure tags! @simpremerat @weareallstoriesintheend @just-some-random-blogger @late-to-the-party-81 I feel like I'm forgetting people.....I'm so sorry my brain is legit trash at remembering people's usernames!

But if I tagged you, then I've read your stuff and I adore it! -Lady In Writing