#and I’m stressed about money

[glitterandmoondustofficial]

I WISH I WROTE BETTER 👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹

[smallpapers]

SMALL COMMISSIONS!!

Please hmu if you’re interested! These are cute, smol drawings! The style is simple and it’s supposed to look small in a larger canvas! However I can make ‘em larger too in the same style!

Backgrounds will be one flat colour or gradient, and I’m not doing heavy details/complex props! DM for more details:)

More samples here!

Reblogs appreciated💛💛

[jarchaeology]

when i first started this blog i got an anon saying that i shouldn’t tag jensen in my finds because it was unfair to embarrass him.

anyway, i wonder if that anon came from one of the twitter people who repost my finds without credit and get 20k views on “never before seen” pictures.

[wormwig]

So, I’m losing my main income source for safety reasons

Long story short, don’t ignore warning signs. Trust your gut, red flags are red for a reason. I don’t want to go into details, for safety purposes and because I don’t want to air out dirty laundry, but all in all the situation is big mega mondo bad for me/my health.

I’ve worked as a commission artist for about 5 years, because I have a handful of physical disabilities that make conventional jobs either outright impossible for me to maintain or incredibly painful (or both). I built up a decent following on the platform I used, which is how I met my ex. Unfortunately, now that things have turned a bit frightening, I’m currently unable to safely use that platform. Ergo, for the time being, I’ll be posting commission info here.

Prices are all USD, via p@yp@l, examples under the cut

Sketch, $10

Coloured/Shaded Sketch, $25

Full Render (Lines or Lineless) $45

[sittinginsunflowers]

The absolutely real way my heart dropped when Brennan brought out those fucking scantron ass test questions and a timer is proof you never outrun high school and if one of them doesn’t curse him out for this truly cruel (and genius) premise next episode I will be shocked

[seph-ic]

I REALIZED I NEVER POSTED MY LESBIAN COWBOYS HERE HAVE THEM

[antiquepearlss]

Tangled The Series would have been very different if Varian were voiced by John Mulaney, huh?

[jimmypesto]

I’m about to crash out thinking about Bob saying he’d rather be scraping by together than have extra money and be apart

[londonfoginacup]

Everyone send my precious baby good wishes because we’re at the emergency vet right now and I’m very stressed about it

[futurewifey666]

I’m just coming back from spending the day in Toronto without a moment to breathe just to see my favourite artist. Now it’s almost 3am and I’m dead in my bed. I’ll go through my notifications in the morning <3

[goldensunset]

i do not like thanksgiving (week)

[clowningcrows]

it’s crazy how much having a safe place to be yourself and express your identity and personality and interests, both online and irl, can change your will to live. honestly.

[skyward-floored]

“Being an adult isn’t that bad” CAR INSURANCE!!!

[lesbiansanemi]

Beautiful gf has been visiting <3 one of our other friends came to visit too! Crazy how we all met over a silly demon slayer ship haha! It’s been a lot of fun, we went to the zoo and the aquarium, have had lots of good food, and a lot of fun! Most of the other things I have are videos so I won’t post them but <3 it’s been very nice and I wanted to share here

[rawbin-hsr]

The previous anon articulated it so well bc I just saw what they're talking about and I'm honestly confused why they thought u were saying anything wrong like 😭😭 are we sure we have the same guy here? Aventurine while yes knows what being loved feels like, he's gone through enough things and changes in life that that little frame of reference won't serve him well, especially within a romantic context bc he doesn't have ANY reference.

I read what you wrote as him not really meaning to (even reread) and yeah, he wouldn't Purposely want to be abusive to his romantic partner, but it still borders on it. What a lot of ppl get wrong is that, emotional abuse doesn't have to always mean the perpetrator is fully aware of it themself.

Maybe bc I myself have bpd, but it's so easy to see. When someone's avoiding negative feelings they have about themself (jealousy, insecurity etc) they can easily externalize this blame (and for him, that's so much more likely, it's literally a defense mechanism) or even, projecting his own view of himself on how you view him only to end up upset. (And then, the random clinginess that comes after this pushing away, why would it happen if not for trying to convince you to stay even though what he keeps doing is generally not a good thing to do in a relationship?) He wouldn't have known healthy attachment, didn't grow up with a safety net to be comfortable with that, hell, he thinks people closest to him (in canon) are sort of "tolerating" him. Are we really surprised?

Like, you never said aventurine is doing it with intent or even awareness bc yea he isn't!! He'd realize some of his actions sure, but stuff like "pushing you away" is probably shit he genuinely considers good for you, and it's not even like completely wrong he's in a high and risky position. Doesn't mean it wouldn't hurt like a mf, and I think that's the biggest tragedy of it all, because he doesn't fully realize how bad his actions are from another pov, and it's not like a single Convo can get him to understand that.

Anyway, sorry that was a lot more incoherent than I thought and I was firmly stating a lot of things bc I can pull up stuff to back my claim but ALSO bc they pissed me off if u don't like something just scroll I've been doing that for years on this app I never felt the need to go yell at someone bc I don't agree with how they interpret a character 😒😒😒😒 I hope ur feeling better, rsd sucks ass I always get so overwhelmed whenever I experience it but ur intent came across very clearly actually dw

I’m literally in tears I’m so grateful multiple people are taking the time to reassure me thank you so much 🥹🥹🥹 I was really doubting myself and my own take on him, it makes me feel so relieved I’m not the only one who has this specific take on him haha I was lowkey worrying I was a terrible person for a moment there 😭

And yes, exactly !!!! I think you were very coherent in this, in fact I think you formulated what I meant to say better than I did 😭😭 Like there’s a lot, a LOT of nuance to it !!! He never does it out of malice. He just doesn’t know any better. He tries to do what’s right and what’s best for you, he’s just… kind of not good at that because his whole perspective is skewed.

I do still think they were right that I shouldn’t have used the word ‘abuse’. It’s a very loaded term, and I think abuse requires a power dynamic, which is something I think he would try to eliminate in a relationship. Like, yes, he is a powerful man and he sort of needs some leverage to stay in control (of both his own life and his relationship with you), but I think he fucking hates the idea of being “above you” in any way. (Though to be fair he still could unintentionally create an uneven power dynamic — he’s the one mostly in charge of when the two of you interact. I think he loathes himself even more when he realises that.) I think it would be best to stick to the word “toxic” because it feels most fitting from my pov

[butteredfrogs]

feeling very overwhelmed once again and feeling like everything is going wrong!!!!