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I WISH I WROTE BETTER 👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹
#les talks#Les bitches#sorry I’m 11 hours into my 12 hour shift while I’ve only had one cup of tea for caffeine#and I woke up at 445 so I could do chores before work and then drive to work#and I get to go home and deep clean the kitchen because it’s the time of year where the mice come in#and I’m stressed about money#and work#and school#and I can’t buy my loved ones nice gifts for Christmas this year#and my parents suck#and won’t help me financially#despite paying for everything for my siblings#all I have is my writing and I’m#not even good at it#anyway rant over I’m going to cry at my desk
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SMALL COMMISSIONS!!
Please hmu if you’re interested! These are cute, smol drawings! The style is simple and it’s supposed to look small in a larger canvas! However I can make ‘em larger too in the same style!
Backgrounds will be one flat colour or gradient, and I’m not doing heavy details/complex props! DM for more details:)
More samples here!
Reblogs appreciated💛💛
#art commission sheet#paper coms#prefer to draw the owl house or tohsonas !!#but I am open to most things#artists on tumblr#unlimited slots for now cuz I’m stressed about money so yea!#Reblogs appreciated!!#smallishpapers#I‘ve drawn adventure time dunmeshi and ocs too! just hmu to discuss
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The yearly struggle over a Christmas/birthday list ugh
#I wouldn’t even make one if my parents didn’t insist#rambles from the floor#delete later#‘what do you want’ I DON’T KNOWWWW#I NEVER know#the only things I actually want are expensive or not an option#or immaterial things you literally can’t give as gifts#augh#I just don’t know#I always feel weird about gifts#I guess I feel like I’m not worth spending money on#which yeah yeah it’s dumb but also. I still feel weird about it#ugh I need to stop stressing over everything
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I REALIZED I NEVER POSTED MY LESBIAN COWBOYS HERE HAVE THEM
#special edition with names!#hopefully comic someday#I’m stressed about money right now but they’re distracting me#oc#original character#cowboy#lesbians#cowboy lesbians#sapphics#yeehaw#comic#art#artists#or somthing
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The absolutely real way my heart dropped when Brennan brought out those fucking scantron ass test questions and a timer is proof you never outrun high school and if one of them doesn’t curse him out for this truly cruel (and genius) premise next episode I will be shocked
#dimension 20#d20#fhjy spoilers#fantasy high junior year#I’m nearly 27 years old and I’m starting grad school in the fall#and yet the second he set the timer down and said “go” my mind went blank#my body already thinks it’s dying every time I do something even remotely close to stressful#being tested and knowing you’re about to die (when many of you have already died before) would push me over the fucking edge#anyway#my money is on Siobhan or Lou being the first to yell at him but it may be a group effort
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I’m about to crash out thinking about Bob saying he’d rather be scraping by together than have extra money and be apart
#like HUH??????#he’s literally always stressed about money but would rather be scraping by than have to be away from his wife#and he said she makes working at the restaurant fun#I’m sick
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Tangled The Series would have been very different if Varian were voiced by John Mulaney, huh?
#“You want it? Go get it” *chucks the scroll into a gutter*#“ I told you I’m worried about Corona too you know like a liar”#*almost gets murdered by Andrew twice* “now we don’t have time to unpack all of that”#“Varian why didn’t you do anything when the Saporians took over?!?” “I was over on the bench”#“Is Frederic a good king?” “Whose to say”#*sees Quirin in amber in a red rock induced hallucination* NOO THATS THE THING IM SENSITIVE ABOUT#“Because this is Old Corona and life is a fucking nightmare”#“No offense Varian” “NAWT FUNNAEY”#“I am very small and have no money so you can imagine the kind of stress I am under”#*sees an automaton* “I smell a robot- prove prove”#*gets his fathers acceptance and pride* “THIS IS THE HEIGHT OF LUXURY”#@Andrew “beat it bozo”#Raps fights back against him using the rocks “YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY”#@the fear rocks “everything else is so goddamn weird this might as well happen”#Varian making that bottle rocket that explodes eggs#@Cass during Nothing Left To Lose “you have the moral backbone of a chocolate eclair”#“Eat ass suck a dick and sell drugs”#tts#tangled the series#rapunzel's tangled adventure#varian
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If a job doesn’t actually reach out and call me soon instead of setting up endless zoom meetings they never keep or making me film myself or sending a chain of automated emails I’m going to. Turn my house into a rage room like FUCKING TALK TO ME LIKE REAL PEOPLE
#the elf talks#I’m incredibly stressed about money and debt and affording food and#CANT GET MY LICENSE RENEWED BECAUSE I DONT HAVE THIRTY FUCKIGN DOLLARS#and my boyfriend is already covering g my portion of the bills and we’re out of food stamps andnndbdbdbshsd#literally ctyi g because I want like a simple fuckign exfoliant but I am getting no money and can’t afford one and NO JOB WILL ACTUALLY TALK#i’ll probably delete this later#you can ignore me
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Having a fearful moment where I think one of my friends might be transphobic.
#personal#we were talking about video games and the topic switched to Hogwarts Legacy#because my friend is still an active Harry Potter fan in 2025#and let me start with the fact that I’ve always tried to assume they just didn’t know about how awful J K is#but yesterday proved that they are aware#because they were upset that the girl characters don’t have the option to wear pants and can only wear skirts#I replied by saying how that would line up with J K’s terf nature and she’d probably hate to see a woman in pants#to which my friend said ‘but she put a trans character in the game!’#what I should’ve said to that was ‘that doesn’t excuse her history of transphobia and trans misogyny’#instead I said that wasn’t even a good portrayal#I mean for fucks sake she named her Sirona Ryan#like making a character based on the people you hate doesn’t make it okay???#that’s a real ‘I can’t be racist I have black friends’ excuse#and I might have to be an adult and ask my friend if they can really overlook J K’s history of transphobia and racism that easy#(and the rampant antisemitism in that game)#for the sake of a bland game and even blander new movies#like having an attachment to books you read as a kid is understandable#but I lose that ability to understand when you’re actively putting more money in her pockets#I’m stressing cause I can tell they didn’t like that I brought up how J K is a bad person
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Everyone send my precious baby good wishes because we’re at the emergency vet right now and I’m very stressed about it
#I’m stressed about HIM ofc but also like. emergency vet is a fuck ton of money#I think I’m gonna have to cut down on what I do for Christmas cards this year guys I don’t know how I’m gonna affoooooord iiiiit#ugh anyway#wish Fitz some love
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it’s crazy how much having a safe place to be yourself and express your identity and personality and interests, both online and irl, can change your will to live. honestly.
#i came out to my fav professor/mentor today#it was kind of impulsive but idk#she’s just made me feel so safe and supported and cared ab#that honestly all i wanted to do was tell her#and hear what my new chosen name sounds like when she says it. idk.#anyway she was So incredibly receptive and understanding and supportive#like she said things i needed to hear that i didn’t even know i needed to hear#at one point she essentially reassured me that she doesn’t and won’t ever love me any less as a boy#and she immediately wanted to call me by my chosen name and use my preferred pronouns#and she kept telling me too that there’s no pressure or need to stress and that if i ever wanna adjust the name or pronouns i can#and that gender isn’t a fixed thing ofc#she told me that she’s proud of me too#god i’m so luckyyyy dude#i feel so loved and cared about#also i said in an email recently that i was looking for a part time job (like totally as a separate thing i mentioned bc of scheduling stuff#and totally unprompted today#she started talking to me about getting a paid position for me set up with some grant money ig??#which we were already tentatively planning on doing next semester#but bc she saw me say that she’s trying to get it set up now 🥺🥺#AGH i kinda love my life rn#but i’m so terrified to and im even more afraid to admit that#anyway so sorry this is an excessive amount of tags#silas speaks#vent#trans#transmasc#trans masc#transgender#queer#lgbtq+
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“Being an adult isn’t that bad” CAR INSURANCE!!!
#and car upkeep and gas money and doctors appointments and jobs and#hhhhhh#I’m kinda. feeling a little stressed.#panicky. actually.#I’m sure I can handle it and I’m sure it’ll be fine but the weight of it all kind of hit me#so now I’m just sitting here trying not to freak out and feeling stupid about it#it’s just a car#geez#delete later
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Beautiful gf has been visiting <3 one of our other friends came to visit too! Crazy how we all met over a silly demon slayer ship haha! It’s been a lot of fun, we went to the zoo and the aquarium, have had lots of good food, and a lot of fun! Most of the other things I have are videos so I won’t post them but <3 it’s been very nice and I wanted to share here
#I’m also on a medical leave from work#so I have more free time which is nice haha#I’m only able to work four hour shifts so my hours have been cut in half#(the rest of my hours are being covered by workers comp so I’m not stressed about money)#(and can actually enjoy the free time without being super stressed lol)#anyways! things have been nice lately#I miss it here and also all my mutuals but this app is just so damn buggy it’s frustrating to use :(#maybe I’ll try popping in on desk top more often or something#kaz rambles
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The previous anon articulated it so well bc I just saw what they're talking about and I'm honestly confused why they thought u were saying anything wrong like 😭😭 are we sure we have the same guy here? Aventurine while yes knows what being loved feels like, he's gone through enough things and changes in life that that little frame of reference won't serve him well, especially within a romantic context bc he doesn't have ANY reference.
I read what you wrote as him not really meaning to (even reread) and yeah, he wouldn't Purposely want to be abusive to his romantic partner, but it still borders on it. What a lot of ppl get wrong is that, emotional abuse doesn't have to always mean the perpetrator is fully aware of it themself.
Maybe bc I myself have bpd, but it's so easy to see. When someone's avoiding negative feelings they have about themself (jealousy, insecurity etc) they can easily externalize this blame (and for him, that's so much more likely, it's literally a defense mechanism) or even, projecting his own view of himself on how you view him only to end up upset. (And then, the random clinginess that comes after this pushing away, why would it happen if not for trying to convince you to stay even though what he keeps doing is generally not a good thing to do in a relationship?) He wouldn't have known healthy attachment, didn't grow up with a safety net to be comfortable with that, hell, he thinks people closest to him (in canon) are sort of "tolerating" him. Are we really surprised?
Like, you never said aventurine is doing it with intent or even awareness bc yea he isn't!! He'd realize some of his actions sure, but stuff like "pushing you away" is probably shit he genuinely considers good for you, and it's not even like completely wrong he's in a high and risky position. Doesn't mean it wouldn't hurt like a mf, and I think that's the biggest tragedy of it all, because he doesn't fully realize how bad his actions are from another pov, and it's not like a single Convo can get him to understand that.
Anyway, sorry that was a lot more incoherent than I thought and I was firmly stating a lot of things bc I can pull up stuff to back my claim but ALSO bc they pissed me off if u don't like something just scroll I've been doing that for years on this app I never felt the need to go yell at someone bc I don't agree with how they interpret a character 😒😒😒😒 I hope ur feeling better, rsd sucks ass I always get so overwhelmed whenever I experience it but ur intent came across very clearly actually dw
I’m literally in tears I’m so grateful multiple people are taking the time to reassure me thank you so much 🥹🥹🥹 I was really doubting myself and my own take on him, it makes me feel so relieved I’m not the only one who has this specific take on him haha I was lowkey worrying I was a terrible person for a moment there 😭
And yes, exactly !!!! I think you were very coherent in this, in fact I think you formulated what I meant to say better than I did 😭😭 Like there’s a lot, a LOT of nuance to it !!! He never does it out of malice. He just doesn’t know any better. He tries to do what’s right and what’s best for you, he’s just… kind of not good at that because his whole perspective is skewed.
I do still think they were right that I shouldn’t have used the word ‘abuse’. It’s a very loaded term, and I think abuse requires a power dynamic, which is something I think he would try to eliminate in a relationship. Like, yes, he is a powerful man and he sort of needs some leverage to stay in control (of both his own life and his relationship with you), but I think he fucking hates the idea of being “above you” in any way. (Though to be fair he still could unintentionally create an uneven power dynamic — he’s the one mostly in charge of when the two of you interact. I think he loathes himself even more when he realises that.) I think it would be best to stick to the word “toxic” because it feels most fitting from my pov
#[rawbin]#[aventurine]#[rawbin ramble]#sorry my mind is a little bit of a mess rn#stressed about a con I’ll be attending very soon (still haven’t even finished my wig bro)#stressed about taking the train there (second time in my life I’m going on a train without parents)#stressed about the fact that I’m sick and I’m very scared I’ll be coughing at the convention (I have spent way too much money to not go 😭😭)#I’m so incredibly thankful you wrote this to me#it makes me feel so much more secure in myself and happy#I really really really appreciate it
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feeling very overwhelmed once again and feeling like everything is going wrong!!!!
#i was supposed to be attending an event this weekend#and i was going to have a little pop up stall with some of my crochet#and i’ve already started making a ton of stuff for it and i was really excited#but i just had a message from my cousin (who’s organising the event) that not many people are attending the event#and one of the people who was supposed to have a stall has cancelled bc they only had 2 people booked in#and apparently there’s only like 6 people who are attending the event#and it just kinda feels like i’ve made all this stuff for nothing#like i’m not bothered by making money it’s more like#the fact i have a ton of stuff that i have no idea what to do with#and obviously i’m really stressed from work and everything so that’s a whole other thing#and i’ve been avoiding messaging people and i feel really bad about it but also i’ve just been#anxious recently and feeling like i’m annoying and just#idk its fine!!!!!
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So today in job struggles my mom heard from someone that this one job I was considering is hiring but I’d have to go through indeed first and I kept telling my mom that it’s not listed on indeed and I just checked and it’s still not listed. I need to bite the bullet and walk down there to see what’s up but I find the whole process so embarrassing and since I dropped out of school I never learned anything about job interviews/application stuff and my parents are really lucky and haven’t had to do either of those things in decades and I’m just overwhelmed 🙃
#the problem is I’m very honest and willing to negotiate with people and I’m worried I’m setting myself up to get screwed over by my boss#also I’m not even sure what my limits are with work and I fear I won’t know until I actually start working#I’m just torn bc the one place will hire me around Easter and I know the boss there is a nice person + she’s willing to start me off slow#and eventually give me more hours#but this other place I think will be more fun for me to work at but I have no idea who the boss is and I’ve heard bad things about it since#it’s a chain business (but a lot of the bad things were said about the bigger stores and this one is much smaller) so I’m just torn if I#should take a risk and get this job or wait for my other one because I already told her I was interested and I don’t want to go back on my#word since it’s sort of a mutual favor#idk idk idk#autumn rambles#all that I know is a I need money badly I can’t stand my family stressing this hard to figure out how we can afford food
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