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The enormity of my desire (disgusts me),
Very very early seasons (1 â start of 2) Spencer Reid x afab!BAU!reader
SMUT!! (and fluff, some angst in relation to Spencerâs past because it can never be too happy, weâre not allowed nice things here). first times & explorations of intimacy.
ââââ autistic spencer (itâs a central theme to the plot), reader is actually morally good (for once).
Warnings: sub spencer (what did u even expect?), heavy corruption kink, first time for Spencer (all i do is sit around and think about how iâd like to devirgin that genius), HEAAVY praise kink, very very inexperienced Spencer, slight? oral fixation, theyâre both just rlly down bad (i told u i would write something light, i delivered), Reader is whipped, Spencer is sooo much worse. Biblical references, Religious imagery, i think i talk about math equations???? And random metaphors/complexes.
w.c: 4k
a/n: i rlly wanted to explore aspects of spencer that criminal minds swept under the rug (cough cough his undiagnosed autism, cough cough his social exclusion, cough cough his crippling fear of forever being alone). Next upload will prob be heavy angst/no smut post-prison spencer (god help me please, i must be a masochist for the way i make myself suffer)
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Thereâs a lot Spencer hasnât done.
He knows heâs behind, that he never quite caught up when it came to the taboo of sex and intimacy. Everything, everything, heâs ever had has been centred around exclusion, alienation, he feels like heâs lived on pause. Frozen, never advancing, stuck on âgoâ. Touch isnât easy for him, interpersonal relationships are worse. Heâs different, god heâs heard that his entire life. âYouâre not weird, youâre just⌠differentâ, but maybe he is weird. Maybe his whole existence is just one big cosmic fuck you, because heâs missed out on so much, so much that he canât understand, comprehend, act out against. Falling behind; this is the only area of life where he continuously comes up short, inexperienced, naive, heâs not used to being incompetent.
Heâs never experienced want the way others do. He could never just hook up, fall into the body of another, expose them to the vulnerable elements of his stature. Open himself up to scrutiny. He might be a genius, he might be intellectually advanced, accepted into a multitude of ivy leagues before he was old enough to vote, but thereâs drawbacks to his success. Social awkwardness, an inability to blend, mould, be one of the crowd. Sometimes he wishes he was average, something grey and mundane, so far reduced from the person he is nowâ it would all be plainly simple.
But heâs not, heâs not. So, this is the weight he has to bare for the brain he never asked for.
Pyrrhic victory, heâll always be renowned for his intelligence. âYouâre going to change the world kid,â maybe, but simultaneously, heâll never get to experience said world. Thereâs a chance heâll always be on the outside, watching normal people gravitate towards each other. Live dreary lives of domesticated simplicity. Stacked bills, arguments over money and parenting techniques. Going to bed angry, only to turn around, mid-night, and resolve it, to not sleep on bad blood. To take them off the couch, to settle into predestined sides of the mattress.
Thereâs not enough possessions in the world heâd sacrifice just to experience love.
Hedgehog dilemma, the challenges of human intimacy. The hedgehogs want to move closer, to preserve heat during cold. But, they are forced, biologically cursed to remain apart, in order to prevent themselves from harming each other. Spencer doesnât want to be hurt, to hurt, itâs a morbid byproduct of his upbringing; all he ever endured was mockery.
He thought heâd never get to experience the physical, carnal aspects of existence. And sure, he made peace with the notion, accepted the consequences of being born atypical. Learnt to live without.
But then, oh then there was you. Pretty, intellectual you who quite literally tipped his world on itâs axis. Upheaved the most stable of routines. New to the BAU, he wanted you to last. To stay around, endure the worst of the job. If only for his selfish benefit of orbiting in your presence.
He remembers how it all started: Detroit, another case, more budget cuts, forced proximity that sent you spiralling into a shared bed for the night.
âYouâre my favourite person in the team.â you admitted, âAnd I know thatâs dumb, because weâve spoken the least, but⌠youâre just, so you. Thatâs a good thing by the way, a really really good thing.â
He couldnât quite believe you were talking about him. Spencer, who spilt coffee, and slipped into ceaseless tangents about obscure information. Spencer, who walked into walls when you were around, stumbling over his sentences before deftly, very astutely, giving up, walking away mid-conversation. He wore sweater-vests and colourful mismatched socks, itâs not like he was going to be crowned âwhite boy of the monthâ.
âNot dumb.â Spencer had responded, shifting closer to tangle further into the warm mess of this accidental situation. âThatâs good. I like being me.â he mumbled. âSometimesâŚ. sometimes it sucks. But thatâs okay. I think itâs okay?â
He moved to press his face into the crook of your neck, but you were faster, gathering him by tousled hair, forcing him to look you in the eye.
Oh.
âPlease. Please.â he whispered, breaking apart, fracturing, âPlease like me. And more than in a weird, âjust friends or coworkersâ way.â
You did. You do. He shouldâve kissed you then, but maybe he was scared, maybe he couldnât quite discern his feelings, separate the logic from the emotional. So he waited, waited, waited until now. Your third date, you take him to an exhibition within a science centre: replica models of the solar system, filling rooms up, papier-mâchĂŠ sculptures illuminated by light.
Best date ever. You listen, even when heâs rambling about planets, when heâs pointing out that yes, Jupiterâs density is less than water. That, technically, it would float in a bathtub, if one was built to accommodate its size. You donât care that heâs not exactly the staple-piece for conventionally attractive males. That heâs nerdish, and awkward, and so so inexperienced when it comes to this.
In his apartment, later, much later, he looks at you, looks at you like youâre the one who just solved the fucking Riemann hypothesis.
âWhat do you want the most? Like,⌠if you could ask for one thing.â you say, and god, Spencer loves when you pose these deep, hypothetical questions. When you make him think, because you, you are the biggest challenge to his intellect yet.
You. He wants to say. But he settles for âBeing remembered,â instead. He works to untangle layers of fabric, your scarf, your jacket, letting out an exasperated laugh when he meets your amused gaze. âRight now though? I think Iâd settle for kissing you.â
You cup his jaw, tracing your fingers along the sharp curve, and god he has perfect anatomy. âSettle huh? You should be more appreciative.â
He leans forward to press a chaste kiss against your lips. Drawing away for a moment, just to return because heâs never had this before. Because for the first time in his life, he gets it. He gets physical attraction, even if it took time. Heâs kissed, been kissed, yes. But he could count those moments on one hand, and if you asked how many he truly enjoyed, heâd be left with no fingers raised.
âBelieve me, iâm very appreciativeâŚâ
This isnât like before, what he felt in the past; he expected something monotone, flighty, a brief fleeting moment of satisfaction. Means to an end. No, itâs actually the best thing heâs ever experienced, and heâs going to become so insufferable after this, because heâs just found out he is very very into kissing.
Correction: heâs very into kissing you.
In the moment between parting, and touching again, he assumes you to be divinity personified. Spencer has never been religious, but something of this magnitude should be canonised. He wants to ask you. Ask you when you became this beautiful. When you became the person he needs to kiss a second time, kiss a third time, kiss until his lips go numb.
A shaky inhale, a pause. âI hope⌠I hope that it was okay - I mean, it was good for me. Really, really good. Umââ to be honest, heâs just glad he didnât say thankyou.
âYeah, Spence. That was⌠wow.â you draw your bottom lip between teeth, press into tissued flesh. Jesus Christ. âWanna try again?â
Yes yes yes yes. He looks at you, pupils blown obscenely out of proportion. Part of him wants to say, âwhy didnât we do this sooner?â But thatâs not fair; heâs only ready now. Now that he feels, now that he might be a little in love with you.
âPlease,â is his answer, and then heâs catching your face in the palms of his hand, tugging your lips back to his, because admittedly, they have ached in the long, extensive period you were apart (53 seconds).
This time it deepens and Spencer sees stars. Itâs an astronomical phenomenon, something interstellarâ and god, heâs relating kissing to space. They should just tape the word âvirginâ to his back and call it a day.
Thereâs soft little breathy sighs escaping his mouth now, bleeding into yours. And yeah, spontaneous combustion might be a real threat. Actually no, it would hardly be spontaneous; thereâs a clear, clear cause, and it just so happens to be your ruinous lips.
This is an entirely new facet of the human experience. The kiss is electric; heâs always been partial toward physics, and right now his veins carry an alternating current.
You know, he could probably write a thesis based on this.
You both stumble back back back until heâs hitting a wall, and yes, thankyou. Heâs making all sorts of sounds he canât justify, and itâs a supernova, an infinite black pool ofâ oh, he thinks he might die, ascend, transcend, when you press your thumb against his chin, hold your lips at just a little slant from his. Force him to wait there.
âPlease,â heâs never been above begging. A worthy sacrifice, one heâll certainly repeat again because you return to the kiss, and the world around him dissolves.
Youâve got one hand tangled in his hair. Tousled auburn, fingers sinking into strands, pushing all the way down to the root. The other is still cupping his face, keeping him close, keeping him selfishly close actually.
âSpence,â you murmur. And yes. Yes. He likes that. The way his name sounds rolling off your tongue, like it was destined to be there. Like he was destined to be yours.
His world is ending. So is yours. Fuck it, he presses himself against your thigh, and ohmygodohmygod. Heâs being loud, heâs actually being so criminally loud right now because apparently heâs the most whorish virgin to ever exist.
âI lied, I lied,â he admits between messy kisses, âWhen you asked what I wanted the most? Itâs not to be remembered, well it is, its on the list. Butââ he groans, kisses you again because talking interrupts matters that are more important. Like your lips.
âI wanna cum.â
Eloquent.
Spencer Reid being dirty? Oh, itâs hot, itâs so hot to reduce someone to such an obscene state. To reduce him, the boyish fumbling nerd (who just so happens to be the most beautiful person in existence) to such a degrading mess.
Still, thereâs shock. Not because he said it (you greatly appreciate the indecent things falling from those pretty lips right now), but becauseâ
âYouâve never? Havenât even experienced it once? By yourself?â
He should be embarrassed, but his lips are red, his eyes are glassy, and the bulge in his pants is straining to be touched. âNever,â he sighs shakilly. âNever, and iâmâ iâm starting to understand why itâs so popular.â
He whimpers, pushes himself against your thigh, because the friction, yes. âIs that weird? Please donât think iâm weird. Because Iâm really, really weird. Just maybe⌠not in that way?â
Itâs never been enough. His body sometimes feels numb to the touch, and yet still so very overstimulated. Like he manually blocks himself from feeling, already prepared for the flinch. How does he explain that life hasnât been kind to him? That he hates his body because of what people made it out to be when he was a child. Stripping him naked, tying him to a goalpost, always the underdog. The one to be targeted, tormented.
âItâs actually kinda hot,â you interrupt his thoughts, and just because youâre evil, corrupt, the worst, you press your thigh harder against his clothed cock, palm covering his mouth when a plethora of whiny sounds escape his mouth.
Itâs performative, really. Alone in his apartment, thereâs no need for noise control. So when your thumb slips between parted, swollen lips, he knows to suck. The average human hand has between 10,000 and 10 million bacteria, and Spencer does not actually give a fuck anymore.
âTo think that youâve never even felt what itâs like. That youâre gonna feel it with me for the first time. I get to see that shitâ god, youâre going to look so fucking pretty for me.â
You draw your thumb out of his mouth, and he has the audacity to whine.
Heâs never wanted anything more in his entire life. Itâs all tertiary now. Only this matters.
âPlease donât praise meââ he protests, âIâll probably finish in my pants.â
âPraise kink, noted.â
You laugh, and he can only groan, curse existence for being this cruel to his overworked, undervalued body. âDonâtâ donât laugh. Youâre not supposed to laugh, that can heighten performance anxiety. Increase insecurity, andâŚâ he sighs, âYou do not care. Sadistic tendencies, noted.â
âShut up. Wanna see you.â you say, and heâs just muttering breathless mhmâs, too delirious to function; his body is betraying the last iota of self-control like the little whore it apparently is.
His sweater comes off first, then his top. Discarded fabric, his raised arms when you mutter a candid âupâ, giving way to exposed skin. In response? Your pupils dilate. Spencer knows because heâs analysing, profiling. If you hate him like this, heâs fairly certain heâll drag himself into a self-dug early grave. He wishes he was being melodramatic. That your approval didnât have such a substantial impact on his carefully-constructed ego. But, oh, it does. It does.
Thin, with a long, defined torso, he blushes, rose blemished skin, when your hands drag across his stomach. Heâd love to say he reacts sanely, suavely. Urbane to your touch. But that would be a total, discreditable lie. Instead, his back arches, seeking contact, following the path of your fingertips with pitiful desperation. He feels malleable, willing to bend and contort, if only to feel more.
âHow can you not think youâre pretty, Spence?â His pants are gone next, then his stained boxers, fabric borderline sheer now, soaked through with pre-cum.
Spencer feels betrayed. His body never responds, not to his own hands, not to his own thoughts. And yet, the moment youâre on him, heâs a live-wire. Itâs sick, heinous, double-crossing. Maybe itâs purposeful, done just to spite him. Figures.
âHoly shit, look at you. Look at how perfect you are.â Spencer wants to object, because he distinctly told you not to praise him. However,.. right now, the lights are on but nobody is home. Brain-death, heâs certainly in a vegetative state.
âOhmygodohmygod,â he whimpers, because no amount of knowledge about human anatomy and physiology could prepare him for how he feels under your touch. No amount of education in the psychology of relationships could inform him of how viscerally wrong the way you look at him feels.
Because itâs not wrong, not all. Itâs the most right heâs ever felt, and heâll tell you that if youâll just keep it up.
The sounds heâs making are phonographic, lewd, youâve given up on trying to stifle them now. Where have you been hiding? Your eyes fall, and he wants to blush away from the exhibiting gaze, but heâs justâŚ. too far gone; the thought of your touch outweighs any previous reticence. Then, oh then, you drop to your knees, and shit. He expected your thigh, maybe your hand if he was lucky, notâ
This. Your mouth, your tongue, your pretty lips; god, god, is this a sin? Because if it is, heâll take it.
âPlease,â he whines, and he canât look anymore because the sight alone is going to send him over the edge. Heâs gripping the wall, scrambling scrambling for purchase, because heâs trying not to grip you, but how exactly does he keep this respectful?
Heâs pretty sure theyâre past that, considering your mouth is currently wrapped around his cock, and heâs debauched.
You want this, you want him, he feels like heâs transcended humanity, like heâs become someone, anyone and anything, that deserves the way youâre taking him apart, piece by piece. In the aftermath, he hopes you donât leave a single ounce of him intact.
âWanna kiss you. Ohâ oh oh,â heâs sobbing now, âCome back here. Miss your mouthâ even if itâs,â he looks down and thatâs a mistake. âPlease.â
Of course it would be Spencer to disrupt the best (and admittedly only) head of his life because he needs you closer.
You oblige, raising from your knees, and Spencer thinks it might be sacrilegious. But then again, he feels religion in your touch so it canât be too profane. Maybe? Heâs not sure, heâs not sure and it doesnât matter. Ethics and morality have long since disintegrated, sins are engrained into humankind. He almost wants to thank Eve for tearing into the apple, because itâs allowed this irreverence to occur.
Spencer blindly follows you through the apartment, stumbling and muttering until he can collapse against the bed. Baring his pretty neck as his head hits the bedframe. Tangled in sheets, draped over his lap, his deft fingers run across your waist, mapping out the structure of your frame. If only to remember, recite this act of blasphemy.
âSpence,â you whisper, and then his lips are crashing into yours, stealing breath, stealing sanity. He whimpers, murmurs a protest when you draw back, and you can only laugh. âLets get you off, yeah? You wanna feel an orgasm, pretty boy?â
âYes, yes please. That would uhâ yes.â heâs not even sure how heâs conscious right now. His body, god his body, has endured more pleasure in the last hour than it has for the majority of his life. Your hands scathe, and Spencer is willing to indefinitely burn, if just to feel them one more time.
You only stop to take off your clothes, and surely there needs to be prep? To reaffirm, he knows anatomy, the correct procedure, how the transgression is supposed to occur. And yet, thatâs from a clinical, objective mindset. Do this, do that, etc etc. Nothing works out like that in practice.
Youâre so wet, panties stained through, he spares a moment to run his fingers across your thighs, hand slipping beneath fabric to graze your clit. The moan that follows has him distracted, thumb tracing circlets, over and over until youâre pulling back to return the balance. The balance, which admittedly is skewed, tipped scales, youâre on top. He falls to the weight of your influence.
And yeah, heâs more than fine with that. Jesus, you drag your panties down, down your thighs, your legs, then theyâre reaching your ankles, pooling there for a moment before theyâre being discarded, tossed somewhere on his floor â leaving behind a souvenir that yes, yes this happened.
âI canât,â he says, burying his face into your shoulder when you take him. Itâs slow, sinking onto his cock like every inch of warmth will destroy him. Maybe it will. Maybe he doesnât care, because he deserves this. He deserves to feel after so much repression.
Or maybe, maybe heâs just become the biggest slut known to mankind. Likely.
Your body presses against his, and he thinks heâs going to disintegrate, because he feels so good. He understands now, he understands why people do this. Why itâs integral to the function of most. This is the best day of his life. This. Is. The. Best. Day. Of. His. Life.
Thereâs this noise, this pathetically loud whimper when you start to roll your hipsâ and oh your body is wet against him, and youâre so tight, and itâs perfect because he doesnât have to do anything.
He can just sit here, look pretty, and cry.
He knows heâs a giver, that heâd bleed himself dry for you. Itâs a curse, he supposes: so willing to bend backwards for the satisfaction of the people he trusts. But, this is foreign, and he wants to watch you, aimlessly stare, dumb and empty-headed as you wield his body like a weapon. Turn him into something perniciously yours.
Spencer has no reference for what an orgasm is supposed to feel like, and yeah, heâs really good at guessing in these type of situations. Because heâs rolling his thumb over your clit again, and he wants to draw it into his mouth, to see you laid out across bedsheets, writhing, unable to do anything but suffocate him with your thighs.
You clench around him, back arched, releasing a series of strained moans. With one hand tangled in his dishevelled hair, the other pressed against his chest, your face contorts, your body stiffens. Thereâs no way his incessant whimpering just got you off?
Okay. So you like him desperate. Point taken.
âPleaseâ please, wanna cum. Wanna feel it so bad,â heâs slurring over his words, sentences punctured by devastating whimpers. And look at him, asking for permission, waiting even though his body has been teetering on the edge for so long now.
âShh, shh..â you press your forehead against his, and he melts. Reoccurring theme. His hand grips your jaw, thumb pushed firmly against your chin, keeping you close. âYou wanna cum for me, baby? Gonna give me your first?â
âMhmâ mhmâŚâ is all he can say. When you pick up your pace, he has to burrow his face into the crook of your neck, whimpers messy and broken off, suppressed against your warm skin.
âOh. OhâŚâ he repeats, again. Like thereâs anything else he could utter, because this is earth-shattering.
Itâs the sun, and all eight planets combined, and the universe collapsing in on itself, and heâs bucking, squirming, releasing into you, spilling deep.
He sobs. Breaks down. Because itâs so so good, and he canât believe he ever deprived his body of this.
Neediest whore to ever exist, apparently.
It takes him a while to come back. Longer to regain motor function, to sink into present day. Life, and expectations, and everything, everything, your touch eradicated.
âJust⌠just stay like this?â he asks, collapsing against your body after heâs drawn out of you. Thereâs mess, evidence of your ministrations, but cleanliness seems futile when heâs blissed out, caught in a post-orgasmic haze that yes yes yes he needed so badly.
You card your hands through his hair, watch the way he stares up at you, large, widened eyes, chin resting against your chest. âHi,â he mutters dumbly.
âSpence,â Spence, Spence, Spence. He could drown himself in that nickname.
âYeah?â he breathes out.
âYou weâre so goodââ
He rolls away from you, finding a home for his face in the pillow. âStop. Stop.â he groans, âDonât do that. Youâre going to destroy me. Iâm not⌠equipped for this, for you. Someone should just sedate me, put me out of my misery, a coma sounds likeââ
He tilts his head to the side, relinquishing, âOkay. Sorry. Meltdown over. Can we shower? Then maybe do this again? Which will make the shower inconsequential, I suppose. Thereâs a new documentary I want to watch, and oh, you still havenât seen the third Star Warsââ
Heâs happy, content, over the fucking moon, to be silenced with your lips. âYeah,â he murmurs, hand interlocking with yours as you both fall back against the mattress, âLetâs do this again.â
#criminal minds#spencer reid smut#sub spencer reid#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid x you#spencer reid fluff#spencer reid angst#spencer reid#giving him the happiness he deserved#he is my roman empire#his excess trauma is also#my#roman empire#thank u and good night america#iâm not even american
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Copy pasting my thoughts from my ramble at the friend who showed this post to me because I'm satisfied with the way I put them. Spoiler warning for wof arc 1 below
How does this work? Does she know the prophecy is fake from the moment Morrowseer visits the cave to observe the dragonets? Maybe he wasnât thinking about it well enough for her to realize he doesnât believe the prophecy - âhmmmâŚ. This one isnât good enough. This one will work better. This one will accomplish the need very effectively-â could all be interpreted as someone who doesnât trust in fate to do itâs own work. Maybe this annoys her, but the truth doesnât register.
Or does she deny obvious âlol this thing isnât realâ thoughts with the certainty that heâs wrong. And maybe she hates him because of it right off the bat - though she might not tell the others exactly why beyond a potential cryptic âhe doesnât even know what heâs talking about!â To which she gets the average response of âlol alright Sunny. Anyway I want to punt him into the sky because he hates Gloryâ - !!! Right - iirc, Morrowseer tells the guardians to kill her, but to the side where the dod donât hear him. (Canât check atm cause cat on lap). Maybe Sunny gets all bolt-upright-shock at a certain point and starts frantically trying to convince everyone that Glory is in danger the second he leaves, before anything is overheard. They maybe think sheâs overreacting, that of course he hates me Sunny Iâm a rainwing and yeah but they wouldnât go that far haha - but eventually the conversation is overheard and they all realize the truth and the escape kicks off (with the difference of Sunny being in on it this time - unless they maybe still think she might accidentally let something slip).
Also - the moment in the tunnel with Morrowseer fits a little too well to change at all. He opens his mouth to gloat, to tell them all the truth, and no, no, no! Sheâs pleading for him to stop before he speaks a word because she knows, she knows, and maybe she always has, maybe she should have seen it sooner but itâs the only hope the others have, the only reason theyâre still trying and she canât let them lose it. She canât lose it. She canât lose them.
Oh! Also - does she tell the rest of the dod? Probably not, Iâd guess. Starflight would be crushed. As far as they all know till the last book, sheâs just a weird SandWing. Not only did Starflight fail to have any powers, but she got both. Maybe she tried to tell them before it occurred to her that it might hurt him, but no one believed her. Sheâs just supposedly really good at picking up on stuff. Canât hide anything from her.
Also - mindreading and foresight would only feed into the hyper-empathy. Sheâs so worried about everyone all the time because she can hear their pain, she knows what theyâre worried about, she can hear their hopes and dreams and she can see the fates everyone tumbles through. When the dod eventually find out about her powers, I can see Tsunami probably saying something along the lines of âhey, if you can see in everyoneâs heads, why did you still trust the guardians so much? Why do you still care about them? Why do you still want to help everyone when everyone is trying to KILL US!??â To which she simply responds that that is the reason.
thrice-moonborn sunny :)
#wof sunny#wof au#wof fanart#oooooooo#I don't know if op had a story in mind and don't mean to overrun it if so#will check in a moment#BEAUTIFUL ART THOUGH#also reminds me of my WOF TMA auâŚ#edit: WAIT THIS WAS POSTED ON MY BIRTHDAY??#truly fortuitous
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JUST AN WRITING IDEA.
I just had a weird writing idea. Imagine you are a daughter from a very influential and wealthy business family. Your parents want to set you up for an arrange marriage with a powerful family just like yours. So to escape from this arranged marriage you came up with a plan. You told your parents you like yandere and want to marry him only. And your parents loved this. Because after all yandere has everything power, status, reputation, money, everything. But how come you are ready to marry him? What's the sudden change of heart? After throwing so many tantrums and rejecting numerous grooms.
Well few days ago your best friend told you that yandere likes only men and might be in a secret relationship with his male secretary. And he doesn't tell about his sexuality to anyone because his family who has most of the shares of company is homophobic.
So you made a plan. You told your parents you want to marry yandere only and no one else and yandere doesn't like women so he will obviously reject you and you will cry over the rejection and postpone your arrange marriage for some months in the facade of heartbreak.
Your plan began. To show your family and people that you are badly down for yandere you did many things. You flirted with him like a shameless every chance you got.
Would tell everyone how you are madly in love with him and will marry him one day. While people thinking that you are the most delusional person on this earth.
You would crash into his office uninvited and act like a cute girlfriend which you totally are not.
Would call him the most weird and chessy names like "My marshmallow, my sweet pea, love of my life, my future husband" in front of everyone while yandere ignores you like it's a daily occurrence which actually now has become a daily occurence.
"Won't you give your girlfriend a hug or a kiss?"
"I know your way of telling me that you love me is ignoring me"
One day you brought a huge ass size flower bouquet for him while saying "Since you don't give me flowers one of us have to do this babe"
You quite enjoyed teasing him. And did I mention you also teased his secreaty with yandere's name. By saying "Yandere is quite good looking good choice secretary. Have a nice night" while winking at him.
You are hundred percent sure that yandere thinks you are one of his crazy delulu fangirls just like thousands of many. But is only tolerating you because you are daughter of one of his important person.
Until one day he drags you into a corner at an event. Traping your back infront of a wall with his arms from side towering above you.
"Are you really that desperate to marry me, huh?" He asked.
"Well of course after all you are the love of my life " you Said smiling staying in your crazy fangirl character.
"Then marry me this weekend " he said with the most straight expression.
"Wait. Aren't you gay?" You said being totally surprised.
"I have always liked women y/n. "
Little do you know yandere ignored you in start but as the time passed now you have got him stuck with your thoughts 24/7. And there is no way backing out now. He is going to have you no matter what.
This is just a idea I got into my mind and shared it with you. Hope you liked it. If you want a longer version let me know through comments.
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obsessed!optimus x human!reader
guys, guys!! let me cook. we all know the famous robot-fucker june darby line 'and i wore heels and everything'. so!! what if you're in the base when she says it. at first, youâre like: haha, funny, june has a crush on optimus. thereâs no way that kind of relationship could ever happen haha... ha.., but!!! the next time you see him, her words pop back into your mind, and you start watching him more closely, basically doing a role reversal. btw, 101% chance youâll catch him staring at you at some point, so your eyes are definitely going to meet. youâre embarrassed, heâs surprised but also happy that you were checking each other out (heâll definitely start getting delusional). the best part is, june was totally right, because optimus is hot, and you end up losing sleep over this whole situation, realizing that this alien, inside whom youâve spent countless hours riding around, is attractive and would probably treat you better than most of the male population.
the next visit to the base will be a nightmare for you, because you literally canât look him in the face without blushing and trying to keep your thoughts on track, as theyâve suddenly started to go in very inappropriate directions. poor optimus will have no idea whatâs going on :(( heâll blame himself. he must have done something wrong; otherwise, you wouldnât be acting this way. did he make you uncomfortable when he looked at you? did he say something out of line? but when he tries to talk to you about it, you can barely meet his optics, and your face is even redder than usual because youâre just thinking about how nice his baritone is, how well he treats you, and that heâs just plain hot. basically, everything is a mess.
things will get awkward between you two, at least until it all gets cleared up, but ratchet is going to be so, SO tired of your bullshit đ he just had to deal with optimusâs weird fixation on you, and now youâre starting to return it??? heâd literally rather launch himself into orbit than watch you two fail to confess your feelings for each other for another few weeks/months.
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ââË.â I like(?) Haechan ââË.â
summary: you and Haechan are too close and Jaehyun finally admits that heâs just a tiny bit jealous
(cw: f!reader, cursing, alcohol consumption, relationship insecurities)
Fratboy!Jaehyun never in his life ever thought that there would even be the fraction of a chance that there would ever be the possibility that he would ever- not in this life, or the next, or even his past lives- that he would EVER be jealous of Lee Haechan. But as he stood in Haechan's doorway, staring at his girlfriend, his fucking sweetheart in Haechan's bed, he started to think that the green eyed monster had finally successfully possessed him.
It hadn't started off like this and he can admit that this situation he's glaring at half asleep is all his fault, but there are events that led up to this envious possession.
The first time he had felt a little weird about you and Haechan was the first time you came over as his official girlfriend and immediately came in to hug Haechan before you even hugged Jaehyun, you know, your boyfriend. You had a bright, excited smile as you ran right past Taeyong, who had so kindly answered the door, and pulled Haechan into your embrace. Jaehyun shook it off because as soon as you were done with Haechan you were in Jaehyun's lap covering his face with kisses.
Then there was a party that had gone on far too long. Yes, Jaehyun is proud, they partied until like 5 in the morning, like, fuck, come on! That was a frat record! And sure yes, Jaehyun had been a little drunk (very drunk) (totally Johnny's fault) when he looked over and saw you, all buzzed and tired and cuddly on the couch, tilting over sleepily until your head was resting on Haechan's shoulder. Haechan didn't flinch, didn't act surprised, simply laid his head on top of yours and fell asleep too.
Then it just seemed to be a lot of little instances that jumped out in Jaehyun's mind now at 2 in the morning. Now, he's starting to hate the way that Haechan only posts a story for Jaehyun's birthday, but you get a post on the grid and multiple stories throughout the year? Jaehyun hates the way that you and Haechan have inside jokes and refuse to explain them to him.
And right now he fucking abhors that you are sleeping in Haechan's bed! Like ok, yes, Jaehyun did take a couple gummy melatonin vitamins so he was sleeping extra deeply, and yes, he did accidentally kick you off the bed shortly after he accidentally elbowed you in the nose, but did you have to go to Haechan's room? Well, not only that but also sleep in his bed-- with him there?!
Jaehyun trudged over to the bed and begins to shake you like there's a fire in the house and you need to wake up now! You wake up with a gasp, eyes flying open while you look around for the disaster. Instead, you find Jaehyun standing there with a frown on his face and his arms crossed.
"What's happening?" You ask in that cute, groggy voice of yours.
"You're not in my bed."
"Baby," you sigh, laying down again, "you elbowed me in the nose and kicked me off the bed. I'm tired and I want to sleep."
"You're sleeping with Haechan."
"I'm sleeping next to him. He runs hot and I have my warm pajamas on tonight."
Jaehyun hates that you know Haechan runs hot when he sleeps. Jaehyun groans under his breath and tugs on your hand, "come back to bed."
"Fine, but if you kick me off the bed again, I'm not going to anyone else's room, I'm going home," you huff as you throw the covers off. Haechan remains deeply asleep, none the wiser to what's happening around him.
Back in Jaehyun's bed, he has you embraced so tightly against his chest that your ear is starting to hurt against his muscular chest. The house is silent, probably as quiet as you've ever heard it, but you can practically hear the cogs in his brain whirring and it's driving you crazy. "What's wrong?" you ask softly.
Jaehyun wants to say how well you know him, but in reality, it's one of the things he loves most about you. "I don't want this to become anything bigger than it is, but... god! I think--I think I'm jealous of Haechan," Jaehyun shyly breathes out. Great, it's out there, one of his biggest insecurities is out in the universe.
You pop your head up, your chin resting on his chest as you look into his eyes with a cute furrow of your brow, "Jealous of Haechan?"
Jaehyun runs a hand down his face, how can he best say this? How can he phrase this so he doesn't sound like an insecure, jealous little boy? "Maybe... I'm just jealous of how-- how close the two of you are. I just-- all the little things you guys do with each other like throw me off. Like posting each other all the time, sharing a bed, falling asleep on each other and he cuddles you! You kiss his cheeks and he tells you things he would never tell me!"
Your thumb rubs away at the line between his brows with a soft gentleness that immediately has Jaehyun calming down. He loves the way you know him. You smile at him softly, "I want you to know that there is no way Haechan would ever come between the two of us, ever. I have a soft spot for him, yeah. In some ways he's like a younger brother and in other ways he's one of my girlfriends. What I do with him isn't anything I wouldn't do with Ari or Kira. He's even told me I've gotten too comfortable talking about my periods with him, he hates that."
Jaehyun laughs softly at that and you smile back, continuing, "I think, maybe... just maybe... you might be a little jealous that Haechan isn't as open with you?"
Jaehyun guffaws, his mouth literally drops open, "I don't want that little shit bag close to me in any way! Having him in the same frat is already too close!"
"Think about it, baby, you don't have siblings, but you have your brothers here. Haechan is about as 'younger brother' as they come and you're getting the full experience. I think that you're maybe feeling a little hurt or frustrated that you don't have as deep a connection with him as you'd like. Which I totally get, he grows on you kind of like eczema, so annoying at first and then you just grow to get used to it and handle it the best way you've learned," you explain, ending it all with a yawn.
Again, deep, deep, deep, deep... deep down Jaehyun knows you're right. You know him probably better than anyone on the face of the planet. Right now, he's not ready to admit that he wants to treat Haechan like a real brother.
"I kind of hate when you use your three semesters of psychology on me," Jaehyun tells you, rubbing a lulling hand up and down your back.
"It has to pay off somehow, right? But hey, your secret is safe with me."
"Yeah, I think I'd rather rush Alpha Sig than ever admit I want to be close with... gah! I can't even say it!" Jaehyun exclaims with an over exaggerated shudder.
"Be nice, you love him a little bit," you respond as your eyes finally start falling shut again.
"Like him a little bit, more like,"Jaehyun grumbles before closing his own eyes with the hope that when he wakes up this will all be a nightmare.
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Successful Hunt in Heaven | React | Spoilers | Full Summary
Alright ya'll here I am.
And it's bad news from me.
I...did not particularly enjoy the story whatsoever.
TLDR if you don't wanna read my entire react: Don't waste your seals, just wait the three months
Now, some of ya'll may like it cause you're that big of a Satan stan, but he has a ship with my OC and a fankid and I'm STILL shaking my head at this. Like why ya'll do him like this, PB?
What I will do different for this react is, basically bullet summary as most of this card is what it is and then give ya'll some highlight screenshots that I found mildly amusing.
What goes down from the prologue(part 1):
MC is feeling cocky about being in Gabriel's body and almost fucks it up but saves themselves. Because of that cockiness though, they are literally just brain mush the entire story.
Things to note, that Satan was in restraints, those restraints were tight but not tight enough to where he could still speak and move enough. He was cussin' MC out ya'll like how he should cause he hates Gabriel.
I would want to say that this is a good revenge potential but it wasn't. Essentially MC didn't disclose that it was them who was disguised. The entire time Satan believed it was Gabriel who was touching him, jacking him off, and allowing lower angels to touch his dick. Even if it's just the tip.
MC even went as far as to punch him in the stomach? Punched him good until he was close to coming.
MC wanted to take off the chastity belt, which to me? Nah. You wouldn't even know how to use Gabriel's dick, let's not. Couldn't even properly cum or jack off.
Turns out though that Gabriel is not conscious this entire time. He has no idea what's happening.
Long story short, Satan is getting molested, punched, and traumatized in front of an audience thinking he had feelings for Gabriel and that's why he was aroused and reacting. I don't even feel like the specifics here because it was just that rushed and bland of writing for this. What happens in the end, mind you this is very last part of the story. Satan finally realizes it's MC. The spell breaks, they go home on his motorcycle, and he only went there because there was an angel with MC's hair color.
Ya'll. Satan is not that fucking dumb. Sorry not sorry, but like he can be a goof ball, but he'd never mistake an angel for MC in his entire life time. That wasn't Satan, that was his lost twin Sam or something.
What I expected:
I honestly thought this was going to be similar to Levi's story. Satan got captured due to being weakened by something, perhaps a new trap the angels set up, the restraints being so good he couldn't escape, and he and MC roleplaying in front of the angels and they get so lost in it that's what breaks the spell.
I wanted Satan to be like "MC looks like Gabriel, which pisses me the fuck off but I know it's them so I'm fucking horny as hell and I just want to feel good. This is how it would feel being teased and licked by an angel..."
But nope. Got MC being badly written, pretty much going in on Satan and playing into their own weird kink of pretending to be a high rank angel while punching, and jacking off Satan. There wasn't really any point to it half the time, if Satan hadn't of clocked them in the end, he would have never known it was them at all even though MC was being very sloppy on acting like how Gabriel would torture someone.
Good Parts:
Satan's expressions, and Satan cussing MC out thinking that they are Gabriel.
Satan questioning his attraction, he just can't place why "Gabriel's" touch is arousing him and he can't understand why this angel he hates so much looks so turned on by this moment.
Satan pretty much saying at the end that he's going to go in on MC's ass when they get home. Like I'm pretty sure all holes will be s o r e because MC insulted him, punched him, slapped him, choked him, made him cum forcefully like three times from both dick and horns.
Satan's dick looked pretty in the position he was in and I liked his little red underwear. Click here for the goodies~
The okay?? why?? parts:
MC allowing the angels to touch him. Gabriel for one if he was in character would never allow them to touch his "prey". Like? What and who was this for?
Satan not being able to tell who it was for the majority of the story. He's a King tbh, so he should have seen through the spell.
Satan being a dummy dum and getting himself kidnapped because he thought MC was captured by mistaking an ANGEL that looks nothing like them....
Being robbed of the Satan's potential in the roleplay scenario. Imagine if you will-
Satan knowing that it's MC, and he's trying so hard to make it believable that he doesn't like any of what's going on. At the same time, MC is doing an impersonation of Gabriel so well he can't help but get upset. Why is MC so good at this? Do they actually like Gabriel enough to mimic him? Fuck that. And fuck being kidnapped and in these restraints. He wants MC so badly. To pull off that charade and to get fucked so deep there's nothing but rage flowing from the both of them. And did he really find some attraction to the angel? FUCK THAT. What a stupid thought, so stupid it pisses him off too. Only MC can make him feel a series of rage and jealously swirled so deliciously he wants nothing but that in his veins.
MC's personality being even more unsavory than usual. If ya'll compared to how they act in Levi's torture card you'd swear they were just suddenly taking on some odd sadistic personality that has nothing to do with them nor Gabriel. Er'body was confused.
The audience, the angels, Satan, just...lol
Overall Rating:
4.5/10
Like...idk ya'll the fourth Satan card was just a let down. The other three he has were so much better. Even the adore mode was ass. I wanted to see him moving, cussin' and spitting. The VA put his entire foot in this and it doesn't match Satan's energy in secret club at all. Might as well just play it on SFW mode if you wanna hear his VA moan some fierce in your ear.
Nice homage to Hellraiser, could have used a cooler name imo but OH WELL. Pinhead would be shaking his head rn.
NOW don't get me wrong, some of ya'll may like this. And if you do, please don't @ me or come for me as it's not that serious. I was frankly bored ya'll. IMO It's not worth wasting your seals just wait for it to be available in the regular banner. My expectations for how Satan would react in this moment was downplayed. Even if I felt like shipping the angels with the kings, this just didn't hit.
Live photo of one of Ronove's cats disapproving.
OKAY Screenshot time~
He is legitimately so pissed off ya'll I was like OH
Yeah because you were just goin' off the rails....it's a good thing you at least had the angels hang in the back otherwise they would have clocked you MC.
I just like his face here. Mhm mhm.
Apparently ya'll that is the face of a sinner. Satan is a filthy filthy sweat covered sinner (laugh with me because lmao)
I'm crying. So it's just shrinking, growing, shrinking, growing, just being confused as fuck the poor wang noodle.
Oh Satan....he's so angry the poor bby. This would be hotter if he was irritated by something I truly did. Lol
At the same time, I feel these lines would be good for that roleplay...
I'm crying because Gabriel doesn't talk like this and yet Satan still hasn't caught on yet.
Now Satan, don't discredit virgins...some of them be knowin' a lot more than you think. (right now tho "MC/Gabe" is kissing him through the gag)
again. gimmie dis face. he does the eye roll orgasm so well.
here we go again with that fishy smell thing
Gabriel in his sub conscious rn
He can get away with calling us a bitch. I'm a bad bitch. A baddie. I'll insult you any day Satan just because. He'd call it foreplay.
LMAOOOOOOO
So that ends with the screenshots ya'll. You see how there wasn't really much to show because it's basically just what I said in the summary? But anyways, I did get a peek at a couple things that bumps the rating up for me to a 4.5....(note the changes)
Date Story/Chat Summary:
This time around Satan sustained more damage and the marks left behind are staying longer than usual. Sitri thinks this is a problem, Satan don't give a shit because MC gave them to him.
Satan getting jealous of MC requesting him to get healed because he thinks they learned it from another healing devil is cute.
He's very cuddly, we knew this but it's just nice to see this again.
MC and Satan have a talk about what happened up in Heaven and well it's also nice to see him be serious about his feelings and how MC should feel, etc. Mature Satan is mature.
He can smell when MC is horny btw. Idk this is so hot of him. But I also always had a HC that all devils could smell just about anything. When your cycle is coming, ovulation, other bodily things.
He likes the fact that MC was confident enough to insult him so boldly even though he pointed out they were in Gabriel's body.
He can't stand it that Paimon sews his decapitated teddy bear heads, the cotton is supposed to leak. At the same time he likes that Paimon adds sparkly beads for the eyes so it looks like they "glow"
His hand are so pretty with those sharp nails.
He has so many photos of his motorcycle he has two phones. He loves his bike that much to where he refers to it as his lover.
He doodles when he's bored at meetings.
That does it folks!!!! As per usual, if you've made it to the end thank you thank you to my dear moot/friends who help fuel my delusions and ramblings. Without ya'll my blog would just be...whelp a bunch of Astra in your face lmao (honestly tho she should be she's great)
Stay lovely, love up on your bois, -your lovely adminđđ
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IâLL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
stalkerexbf!rafe x fem!reader
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summary: life takes a weird turn when your introduced with an anonymous stalker. but everything changes when he breaks into your house and your met with him face to face..
warnings: crazy!rafe, pantie stealing?, creepy!rafe, rafe threatens you with a gun, sort of cnc, heavy on the smut, CNC, spit kink, degrading kink, tied up reader, soft!rafe at the end? MDNI 18+!! if i miss any pls lmk
a/n: this is kinda long whoops, not rlly proof read so ignore any mistakes pls. itâs also rlly kinky js giving everyone a heads up. hope you guys like it :3
after another long shift at the pelican yacht club, youâre finally home. throwing your keys onto the kitchen bench nd undress for ur shower. which was what you desperately needed after serving snobby kooks for the past six hours. you let the hot water fall down your body. scrubbing ur scalp and body clean of any grime from the day.
wrapped in ur towel, you walk to ur bedroom to get dressed. grabbing a baggy tee nd a lacy thong. as ur going thru ur lingerie drawer, you notice ur favourite pair of black panties missing? which was weird because you remember folding them nd placing them in there the night before.
you brush past it, getting dressed nd collapsing onto the bed to watch murder documentaries. after less than half the episode, you find urself drifting into a deep sleep.
days, even weeks go by, your daily routine unphased. another closing shift at work, you grab ur belongings nd start to walk home. usually youâd catch the bus, but when you close itâs already 10pm nd there arenât any buses running this late to the cut. so you walk home, wrapped in ur fur hoodie trying to ignore the cold air.
itâs only a 10 minute walk to get home, which has never been a problem especially bc you know most ppl in the cut. but this time you feel a burning gaze shooting right thru you.
you shiver, partly because itâs cold but mostly bc you have an overbearing feeling that ur being watched. you hear a rustling in the bushes behind you, which couldâve been the wind but you were NOT taking any chances. so you start to run, not looking back. you donât stop until you get home, quickly unlocking the door nd slamming it closed behind you.
you make sure to lock all the doors and windows before hopping in the shower, which helped you shake the creepy feeling off of you. you heat up some popcorn nd snuggle under your covers.
ur trying to pick a movie to watch, occasionally leaning over to grab a handful of popcorn you hear your phone âding!â. lazily reaching over to grab and check it, you freeze when ur gaze lands on the message.
unknown number: you donât need to run away from me, doll. was js making sure you got home safe ;)
someone was following you. oh my god. you sat still for a moment, still in shock. how did they get your number? how long have they been following you? you basically led them to your home, do they know where you live now?
millions of thoughts racing through ur head, you couldnât help but text back, your hands shaking over the letters.
you: who are you???? please leave me alone.
before you can even shut ur phone off, another âding!â catches your attention like he was waiting for your response.
unknown number: youâll find out who i am soon enough. iâm just looking after you, donât be scared, doll.
what does he mean iâll found out soon enough? is he gonna come after me? did he follow me home? youâre literally shaking in fear now, ur mind racing with different possibilities.
you: please. leave me alone.
you see heâs typing, but stops. he doesnât text you for the rest of the night, maybe he listened and heâs actually gonna leave you alone. you were just hoping that maybe it was a prank from ur friends. anything except the fact that you might actually have a stalker.
you struggle to fall asleep that night. tossing and turning in your bed, desperately trying to calm yourself. âthe doors are locked, nobody can get in. ur okayâ you reassure yourself.
a few days go by and you start to notice more panties going missing. what the fuck? youâre left with only a few pairs now, and thereâs no way youâve just misplaced them. the realisation dawns on you. what if heâs been here. has he been in ur house??
you try calming yourself down. ensuring every window nd door is locked. sitting back down ur cozy bed, u slip under the covers and bring ur knees up to your chest in a fetal position. your breathing is heavy while u hold ur head in ur hands. you quietly sob. ur so scared. youâve only been living by yourself for 6 months and you were scared then. why me??
you didnât even realise how much time had gone by or when youâd gotten tired. but you rub your closed eyes, letting out a big yawn and stretching your arms out. but when you finally open them, you freeze.
a man is standing in ur room, looking right at you. you canât muster up the courage to say anything so you just stare back completely still, unable to see his face.
âhey doll, you miss me?â a familiar voice asks, stepping closer.
your mouth falls agape. no. no. no. no. no. this cannot be happening. youâd ended things with him MONTHS ago after he started acting out, getting angry all the time, threatening to hurt you and being literally insane. you blink ur tears away, one managing to roll down ur cheek.
âr-rafe..?â you whisper, if the house wasnât completely silent he wouldnât have been able to hear you.
âyouâre so pretty when ur sleeping, baby.â taking a step closer to you now. you try to move backwards but ur back already pressed against the bed frame. u see him reach behind him, pulling what looks like a gun out of his back pocket.
ân-no, no please.. what are you doing?â you ask shakily, trying to back away further away from him to the other side of the bed.
he sighs, âi donât wanna have to use this, doll,â shaking the gun in his hand to refer to it,â just listen to what i say and donât give me a reason to hurt you, alright?â
you tremble with fear, âplease, rafe, please leave.. i wont tell anyone. just pleaseâ you plead with him. praying that heâll just go and never come back, even tho you know deep down thatâs not gonna happen.
âmâsorry, no can do,â taking another step foward until heâs standing over you, âmissed you so much, canât leave now.â
his words made your heart flutter, you couldnât help it. you couldnât deny the way ur thighs clenched together at the thought of him putting in all this effort just to see you. why are you like this oh my god?? no. u want him to leave. you need him to leave.
after a second of hesitation you finally ask â..what do you want, rafe?â wiping a tear from ur face.
he sits down across from you on the bed, holding the gun up to face you. âheâs only doing this to scare you.. he would never actually hurt youâ you try convincing yourself.
âaw come on, donât be like that, angelâ his hand grazing ur knee, before placing his large hand inbetween them to gently pull ur legs apart, âi bet ur so wet right now, so desperate fâme.â he groans nd u notice the massive buldge in his jeans.
u shake ur head, âno, rafe,â you sob again, âplease go.â he brings the hand thatâs holding the gun to your face, pushing the hair out of ur face with it, âsh sh, itâs okay.. ur okay. save the tears for when iâm done with you, alright?â
you donât know if thatâs reassurance or a threat but either way you feel your pussy getting wetter, his hand travelling lower until its resting on ur plush thigh.
âi need you to stay still, baby, or ur gonna get hurt.â he warns sternly before standing up and reaching for his back pocket again, pulling out a thick rope. u already know how this is gonna go.
he snatches both ur hands nd goes to tie them to the headboard. u squirm nd use ur trembling body to try and push him off, he doesnât budge until u slap his face. his face turning back to you slowly, a hand against his jaw with a smirk.
âwhat did i just say? hm? ur gonna regret that, doll, makin me do things i rlly didnât wanna do.â with a harsh grip he snatches ur wrists again, ur body squirming trying to release your arms but to no avail. when ur wrists are tied down, you whince, the pressure making you sore.
he reaches down to grip ur face and pulls you in to a desperate, hungry kiss. he hovers over you, pulling ur legs apart with his body. his tongue invading your mouth. as much as you hated this, you couldnât help but kiss him back.
when he finally pulls away he wastes no time in ripping off ur shirt, âno bra, hm? knew you wanted this.â he groans and attaches his lips to ur tits, licking and sucking at ur nipples causing you to let out a series of faint moans.
rafe pulls away, snatching ur knees to spread your legs apart wide. eyeing you down, admiring the wet patch heâs created through ur panties. he lays on his stomach infront of you, giving ur thighs open mouth kisses.
âr-rafe, please..hmmpfâ u whine. u donât know if ur asking him to stop or if u want him to do more. ur so ashamed.
âplease what, doll? use ur words cmon.â he teases ur swollen clit with his thumb, over the fabric of ur soaked panties.
when u donât respond, his big hand slaps your pussy, causing you to let out a scream. âi said use ur fucking wordsâ he raises his voice at you.
âp-please, eat me out,â u whimper when he rubs circles over ur clit, âneed you.â that was enough to please him. so he tugs ur panties off, sliding them off ur legs and his tongue was licking a long stripe thru ur folds. âu taste so good, babyâ he mumbles into you. without any warning, he inserts two fingers and thrusts mercilessly, now sucking ur puffy clit.
you let out a scream, or a moan, you didnât know what it was but he makes you feel so so good. almost made you forget how heâs been breaking into your house and stalking you.
u tug to wrap your hands in his hair but remember ur wrists are tightly bound. heâs holding u down with one hand and fucking you with the other.
you feel yourself getting close, clenching around his fingers. u start to squirm, lifting your hips so he can get deeper but he detaches his mouth from ur clit and pulls out his drenched fingers.
â..whyâd you stop?â you whimper, desperate for your release.
âyoull cum when i say you can.â your eyes pleading with him but he shakes his head. ânow your gonna take my cock like the filthy slut you are.â reaching for his belt nd yanking his jeans nd boxers off.
he starts teasing your folds with his cock, making you squirm even more. you know this is wrong. heâs insane. but you canât help but enjoy his torment.
suddenly he roughly thrusts into you, without letting you adjust, pounding into you ruthlessly. the sounds of your skins clapping, his heavy grunts and your screams echo the room.
your legs unconsciously wrap around his waist. his hands grip onto your hips tightly, surely leaving bruises for you in the morning. âr-rafe, fuck, please sto-â you screech when he goes in deeper. âfucking take it, quit complaining.â he yells before taking your tit in one hand, teasing your nipple inbetween his fingers.
he knew your body so well. you hated it. if this was anybody else you wouldnât have been enjoying it like you are now. but itâs rafe. even when he was acting crazy in your relationship, he always made sure you knew how much he loved and cared for you. how he would do anything for you.
you can feel your release finally coming. you clench around his cock, silently begging heâll let you cum. but to no avail, he pulls out. he unwraps your legs and sits over your chest. âopen.â when you donât comply he grabs your jaw and sticks his thumb into your mouth, âi said fucking open.â the second your lips start to part, he pushes his dick into your mouth, thrusting relentlessly making you gag around him. tears start to well in your eyes and when you try to pull your head away he latches his hand in your hair to stop you from moving. finally releasing you when you feel his cock twitch, followed by a hot flow of cum invading your throat.
he grabs onto your jaw again, giving you three light slaps to you cheek and spits in your mouth. âfucking swallow it,â hesitantly you do, opening your mouth back up and sticking out your tounge to show him.
he smirks, content with the sight in front of him. your hair disheveled, hot tears covering your cheeks and that look in your eyes, which you always had when you were around him. his sweet angel. he loved ruining you.
ârafey.. can i cum now, please? iâve been a good girl.â you beg. the nickname making him flustered, which fortunately for him you donât notice in the dark room.
âdâyou think you deserve it?â he asks teasing to which you nod eagerly.
âplease.â all your self respect and pride out the window now because you were so cockdrunk on ur psycho ex boyfriend you couldnât think properly.
he shuffles back, spreading your legs apart again and moves his hand towards where you need him most. he begins toying with ur swollen clit before thrusting back into you. this time slower but just as deep.
you donât hold back your moans, he makes you feel so good. but your cockdrunk haze interrupted when he started to speak again. âtell me you love me.â he groans, his eyes locking on yours. his thrusts hitting deeper, picking up the pace.
you were immediately taken aback. ofcourse you loved him, itâs rafe. but heâs crazy, god, he broke into your house and threatened you with a gun. he noticed your hesitation and starting rubbing your clit, almost sending you over the edge.
ây-yes, fuck, rafe i love you! hmmpfâ you scream, your pussy clenching around him once again, his hand tightly gripping your throat. his thrusts brutal, pounding into you. you tug at the ropes bouncing your wrists when you feel pure bliss, your mind hazed and your pussy aching. his thrusts not stopping to ride out your high. you let out a loud, shaky moan/scream. the neighbours probably thought you were getting murdered. your orgasm leaves you limp, only ur legs shaking when he pulls out, yanking his boxers and pants back up.
what youâve just done dawns over you. youâre so ashamed. you actually begged him to keep going. your tears reappear, trying to be as quiet as possible so rafe doesnât notice and yell at you again. you wanted to kick him out, call the police and never see him again. the other part of you wanted him to hold you in his arms while you cry, and beg him never to leave your side. but right now, rafe decides for you.
he leans over to give you a sweet peck on the lips and reaches for your bound wrists. âare you gonna be good?â he whispers, eyes scanning your face for any lies. âiâll be good, rafe. promise.â and you meant it, even tho you were choking back sobs of humiliation, you still meant it.
he untied the rope, your wrists aching and bruises already appearing. he leaves pecks all over the markings, which is his way of saying heâs sorry for hurting you. âi love you so much, y/nâ he confesses, straightening back up to face you again. without even thinking, you lean forward, taking his jaw in your hands and you kiss him.
the kiss is beautiful, it wasnât rushed or heated. it was slow and meaningful. when you finally pull away, you avoid his gaze. âi love you, rafey,â his eyes widen, he didnât think youâd actually say it back. he knew you said it before, not because you meant it but because he basically forced you. but you did mean it. you never had stopped loving him, you were just tired of his lack of sanity.
he stands up and walks out of your room, leaving you on the bed alone without saying a word. a minute goes by, you felt so dirty and disgusting now. but before any worse thoughts could swarm your head, you hear footsteps heading towards your room. rafe is back, and hes holding a towel. oh, how you missed him.
he taps your thigh, signalling you to spread your legs and cleans up the mess youâd both made. discarding the towel, he crawls onto your bed and slides under the covers with you. âiâm really sorry, baby. i wasnât trying to scare you. i just- i didnât know what else to do.â his excuse was sloppy (and insane) but you still forgave him. you knew he was messed up, but so were you. in his head, he was just trying to show you how much he loved you, even tho to any normal person itâs a really creepy way to get someone back, you understood enough to let him hold you.
his arms wrapped around your waist, ur head snuggled in the warmth of his neck. âi know, rafe.. iâll always love you.â you whispered before drifting to a heavy sleep in the comfort of his arms.
#cnc smut#drew starkey smut#drew starkey x reader#rafe cameron smut#rafe obx#rafe smut#obx smut#rafe cameron x reader#rafe cameron x you#obx x reader#rafe fanfiction#yandere!rafe cameron#yandere!rafe#stalker bf#stalker yandere#doll!reader x rafe#rafe x you
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「 á°.á entry 07: COLLAB STREAM â.á 」
âHello, guys! How are you all doing today?â you greeted your fans with a bright smile, adjusting the mic as your avatar waves at the screen.
The chat exploded with messages, colorful usernames scrolling past.
"Glad to see you're all doing well! I'm doing pretty good, too," you said with a laugh.
âScaramouche will be joining the stream in a few minutes, so please behave and be nice, okay?â You giggled, knowing full well that chaos will be inevitable once he shows up.
chaelvskumi: what are we playing today, kumi? :D
âWeâre playing Twin Realms today! Itâs Hoyoverseâs newest gameâsuper hyped about it!â Your voice practically bubbled with excitement as you adjusted the game screen on stream.
Before you could continue, a familiar voice cut through the light-hearted atmosphere.
âAre you always this loud, or is it just a special treat for me?â Scaramoucheâs sarcastic tone made you freeze for a moment. He had entered the stream.
âOh, youâre here already,â you deadpanned, turning toward his avatar on the screenâa smirking, cocky character that fits him so well.
âNo shit, you let me in,â he replied flatly.
The chat erupted with lmao and omg itâs starting already as the banter kicked off.
âShut up, Scara,â you shot back
âNo thanks,â he said, the smugness in his voice palpable.
You sighed dramatically, âChat, why did I agree to this collab again? Remind me, please.â
teapotenthusiast: Because you love us suffering.
kuniixfan: lol suffer
zuhakiss: this is a bad idea đ
scara4ever: scara please marry me
âSee? Even chat knows this was a bad idea,â you muttered, switching tabs to load the game.
Scaramouche hummed in mock agreement. âBad idea for you, maybe. For me? Free entertainment. Watching you struggle is the highlight of my week.â
âOh, youâre gonna regret saying that when I beat you in every realm today,â you shot back with a smirk.
âAs if,â he scoffed. âLetâs see how long you last before rage-quitting.â
âOh, itâs on.â
The game loaded, its dramatic opening music filling the stream, accompanied by stunning visuals. Aether and Lumine appeared as the starter characters, standing side by side in a glowing field of starlight.
âWah! Itâs Aether and Lumine!â you exclaimed, leaning closer to the screen. âTheyâre finally together after all that drama, huh?â
âIt feels... weird,â Scaramouche replied, his tone more thoughtful than usual. âSeeing them together like this. We only ever get one twin while playing genshin.â
Chat buzzed with excitement.
onittobuto: justice for the twins!!
aetheriswife: hoyoverse finally giving us what we deserve đŁď¸âźď¸
st4rryoi: they look so pretty!
âWell, itâs about time,â you said, cutting through the chatter. âI hope they stay together for the whole gameânone of that tragic separation stuff.â
You refocused on the screen. âHey, come here. I think we need to stand on this platform together to trigger the cutscene.â
âTch, so demanding,â he grumbled, but his character moved begrudgingly toward yours.
âOh, shut up and stand still,â you shot back
The two avatars stood side by side on the glowing platform. A dazzling beam of light engulfed them, and the screen began to fade, signaling the start of an cutscene.
sorayaz: are you ever gonna stream not faceless, kumi? :3
You chuckled nervously, glancing at the chat. âHonestly, I donât know yet. I still feel a bit anxious about streaming with my face, so... yeah, Iâm not sure.â
âHow about you, Scara?â you asked, turning the question on him. âAre you ever gonna do a face reveal?â
âI donât know,â he replied casually. âBut I probably will at some point. Still, I donât really care about that. They should watch me for my gameplay, not my face.â
scaraswife: ithought youâd quit streaming after showing that... face of yours đ how are you still going lol?
You froze for a moment, unsure how to respond. âOh... uhmââ
âIf you donât have anything nice to say,â Scaramouche cut in sharply, his tone colder than usual, âexit this fucking stream. Youâre embarrassing me.â
The chat fell silent for a few seconds before erupting:
chaelvskumi: you tell them, scara
kumiluvr: who the hell was that? can someone ban them
beigguangsolos: LMAO THATâS WHAT YOU GET đ
saetoru: dw kumi, they're js insecure bc you're pretty
âAnyway,â Scaramouche continued, brushing the comment off like it never happened, âif anyone else feels the need to act stupid, save us both the time and leave now.â You bit back a laugh, shaking your head. âWell, thatâs one way to handle it.â
âWhat? Iâm not wrong,â he said
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synopsis:
IN WHICHâyou, although faceless, are a very famous streamer known as KUMI. you were streaming as usual, playing games and interacting with fans. but when you're about to exit the stream, you accidentally pressed the wrong button that led to you opening your cam and showing your whole face to your audience. this wasn't supposed to happen, no ! so you panicked and quickly ended the stream. numerous screenshots circulated on twitter, which broke both the fans and the internet. this reached a certain someone, SCARAMOUCHE, your rival in streaming. when the said boy saw the trending photo, he almost fell off his gaming chair. becauseâlo and behold! KUMI was actually [name]?! now who is this [name] in his life, if you may ask? she's the girl that scaramouche has been admiring from afar in real life! quite shocking, right? have i told you that heâs also been sending you anonymous love letters? oh well...
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@imnotyizhuo @kazufavor @najaemism @simonisferal @lovelypadisarah @eternallykira-143 @yourfavoritefreakyhan @yuminako @035814 @squigglewigglewoo @lxkeeeee @blvdmrcnry @wth121 @lloovvv @3lectraheart @lovemiyae @danhenglovebot @heusalettle @automaticpatroltragedy @kyon-cherri @lalalaloveallmydays @musings-of-miss-j @ilxandra @lazy-sanns @vixialuvs @bananasquash @kochothehoe @lily-lmao @shutingstar @sketcheeee @minhosprettywife @crimxeorcremeexistspeacefully @kinanahana @featuredtofu @tamikahoshiko @jayzioxx @kleeboomed @saechiro @shyentsmissingink @poemzcheng @rifran @projectsfantasy @yejiswifex @peachystea @vi0let-writes @sicuit @hee-jinn @6blxe @viannasthings @trulyylee
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Hi (me again) a few other fic ideas I had was,
-Daddy!JJ (again) with Little!reader where reader is feeling really small (like 2-3) and JJ seeks help from maybe Kie or John B because reader had never regressed that small
-Daddy! John B (and Mama!Sarah if your okay with it) taking care of Little!reader at the beach collecting sea shells before they run into Topper and Ruthie and they think it's weird that reader is acting like a kid (the obviously don't know about her regression)
-Daddy!Rafe with Little!Reader and he brings her with him when he's with Barry
Just some ideas you don't have to do them all or any of them, just thought i'd throw them out there
I choose the last idea, and i hope youâll enjoy it!đŤśđť
Warnings: Drugs addiction.
Rafe hated even the idea of letting you anywhere near Barry and their business. He had a couple of reasons.Â
First, he didnât want to put you in danger.
Second, he didnât want you to know that your âDaddyâ has a drug addiction.
He knew that you were too small and naive to think of that as something bad, but he still didnât want you to see him just as everybody else does, disgusting and dirty. Therefore, he was trying his best to keep you away from his dirty deals, but one day you finally saw Barry. When he came into the Tannyhill, as two of you were sitting on the balcony, you were just getting comfortable sitting on Rafeâs lap.Â
 âOh, man. I didnât know that you have a chic.â
 Barry said, his voice loud as always. He set down in front of you two, clearly not bothered by your presence at all. You looked up at Rafe, seeing some signs of concern on his face. You looked back at Barry, frowning a little bit.Â
 âMan, itâs not the best time for you to show up.âÂ
 Rafe said, but Barry only sneered at his words, looking at you with an interest in his eyes that made you slightly uncomfortable. You werenât so good at communication when you were in the little space, especially when it comes to strangers. Rafe pulled you closer, taking your hands in his, as he saw you becoming more anxious because of the unexpected guest.
 âRelax, dude. What is she on? Some pills?â
 You felt how one of Rafeâs hands turned into a fist, as he was trying to regulate his emotions, so he wouldnât scare you with his anger outburst. If you wouldnât be there, he would already start some issues, and you knew it, so you just hugged him tighter.Â
 âOr maybe like you, sniffing a little bit of white powder?"Â
 Rafe gently pulled you off his lap, sitting you down on the couch, and smiling softly to you, even though you saw his jaw clenching just a second ago. He then crouched in front of you, taking your hands in his for a second.Â
 âBaby, I need you to cover your ears for me, alright?â
 You immediately did what he said, not even asking why, because you knew that it was better not to give him even more reasons to be angry right now.Â
A couple of minutes later Rafe came back, after helping Barry find his way out of this house and gently telling him that he wasnât welcomed here, at least not when you were there.Â
 âAre you okay, kid?â
 He asked and smiled as you gave him a quick nod, uncovering your ears. He was more relaxed now, and so were you. You were so happy that now there were no strangers in the house.
 âDaddy, who was that?â
 He waited before giving you an answer, probably trying to pick the right words in his head, so you would understand him, but also wonât be too anxious thinking about that situation later.
 âIt was Daddyâs friend. A stupid one.â
 You were a bit confused about why he would be friends with someone who thinks that the powder is meant to be sniffed and that you had to take some pills even though you were completely healthy. You sighed, remembering that Rafe had always told you to stay out of the adultâs things.Â
 âWhy were you swearing at him?â
 Your question made him raise his brows, as he was more than sure that you havenât heard anything that was happening downstairs. He then chuckled, thinking of what else have you heard and what exactly will you repeat after him later.
 âI think we should buy you headphones, baby.â
 He laughed softly as you happily jumped up from the couch and stormed out from the balcony to probably find Wheezie and tell her about the new gadget that youâll probably have soon. Rafe sighed deeply, closing his eyes.Â
 âAnd we should find a new dealer for Daddy.â
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Do you mind writing about Knockout, Ratchet, and or Breakdown with a human reader on their period. They fee nauseous and donât have an appetite for the first few days, really bad cramps, chest pain, and migraines too. Idk if this breaks any rules or the character limit if choosing one character is better for you there will be no complaints from me thank you for taking request đ.
A/N: Iâve got a couple of other posts with period stuff too, you can find those, here, here, here, and here. You get four extra posts for one request lol. I decided to do just Knockout and Ratchet, seems Iâm in the mood for those two lately
~Ratchet~
â˘For like the first two months since he first met you he noticed that for about 6 days a month, you were pretty freaking miserable
â˘You barely ate anything and you seemed to be in pain and all around uncomfortable
â˘The first time Ratchet thought that maybe you were just sick, and he didnât really know you that well yet, so he didnât really express that much concern
â˘He did ask if you were okay a couple of times, but you assured him it was nothing to worry about
â˘But when the whole thing repeated a month later, he thought it was weird
â˘When he asked again if you were okay, and told you about his observations, you realized he probably doesnât know about periods
â˘You had to explain the whole thing to him, because he obviously had no idea this is a normal human bodily function
â˘Ratchet is of course a bit weirded out by the whole thing, but heâs not grossed out
â˘He just finds it wild that some humans have to deal with something like that
â˘And all the cramps, migraines and stuff on top of that? How do you survive this every month?
â˘Ratchet doesnât consider it his problem, but he will make sure everyone else is as quiet as possible when you have a migraine and are resting in a dark room somewhere in the base
â˘He wants to make sure he or anyone else doesnât make it worse
â˘If you show symptoms he hasnât seen before, he will ask about it, and he makes sure youâre doing fine
â˘While he insists itâs not his problem and that he doesnât have time to take care of you, he still checks on you periodically
~Knockout~
â˘Knockout notices youâre uncomfortable and he immediately asks you about it
â˘Youâre leaning on a wall because youâre having a really bad cramp, and youâre just not feeling well in general
â˘You have to explain to Knockout that youâre not sick, youâre just having your period
â˘Heâs like, âAnd what exactly is that?â
â˘You explain to him, itâs your uterine lining shedding and bleeding out of you
â˘He makes a very grossed out face for a second, before being like âAre you okay? That doesnât sound healthyâ
â˘You sort of chuckle, but you assure him that itâs natural, even if it totally sucks
â˘He asks how you cope with it, because that sounds like a mess and painful and all around not a good time
â˘Heâs honestly kind of curious about the whole thing, even if he does find it pretty freaking weird
â˘How is it even possible for you to bleed for multiple days in a row? That doesnât sound like itâs good for you
â˘Knockout constantly reminds you about drinking water, and he somehow got his hands on some dark chocolate for you too, because he read it might help with the cramps
â˘Heâs worried about the migraines especially, because it seems youâre having a very, very bad time
â˘Knockout is worried about everything thatâs making you uncomfortable, and it annoys him that he canât really do anything about your pains or aches
#transformers#tfp#transformers prime#autobots#decepticons#ratchet#knockout#tfp headcanons#reader insert#platonic transformers x reader#transformers x reader#tfp x reader#periods#comfort
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BSD with pets
idk what I did
Fyodor x Reader / Akutagawa x Reader / Nikolai x Reader
I don't speak english, let me cry
summary: cute things about bsd characters and animals, idk
tw: nikolai is kinda oc (it's the first time I write about him, mercy), angstÂż at the nikolai part
Fyodor Dostoyevski
âFedya.â You called as you knelt down to look under the couches. âFedya!â you began to despair, you had already searched all over the house and still couldn't find your pet rat. Now, don't ask me how you convinced Fyodor to adopt a rat and give him his nickname, I don't know.
You had looked in every room but one.
You slowly walked through the house until you reached the place where Fyodor was always working. You knew he was there at that moment, you heard from outside the faint sound of keys being pressed, so you were justified in your nervousness, you didn't want to disturb Fyodor.
Anyway, you knocked on the door and stood tensely, waiting until a male voice said, âYou can come in.â
âFyodor, Fedya is lost, I can't find him.â You said the second you opened the door, while looking at him with a sad expression. It had been months since you had adopted the rat and you were already indescribably fond of him, instead Fyodor stayed more distant from him ( maybe because of the chosen name).
He turned to look at you as soon as you finished speaking, to see your expectant face for some answer or help. Expressionless, he removed his white ushanka revealing your beloved lost pet underneath.
âFedya!â you yelled as you approached with your eyes full of life again. You held the rat between your hands carefully and hugged it. Laughter inevitably came out of your mouth. âWhat was it doing under your hat?â
âIt climbed up me and got underneath.â
âAnd you left him there?â your smile widened as Fyodor nodded at your question. âI thought you didn't like him.â
âWhen did I say that?â
âIt's just that you never take any notice of him.â You pouted to which the man couldn't help but smile.
âI don't like the name.â He quickly corrected along with a sigh, to which you could only laugh. âHe's fine, doesn't bother.â
âI'm glad.â Gently, not wanting to disturb Fyodor or Fedya, you placed the rat back on his head, which curled up comfortably as Fyodor looked at you quizzically. âI think he'll be more comfortable there.â
RyĹŤnosuke Akutagawa
Your feet hurt as you took out the key to the apartment where you currently lived with your boyfriend. It was a long day of work, although you could quit and be unemployed without any problems, as Akutagawa can provide for you without any problems, you still wanted to have your own money and not be entirely dependent.
You walked in to find the place with all the lights off, you guessed your boyfriend was still out, not unusual considering his job at the Port Mafia. The weird thing was not finding RashĹmon, your cat.
You entered the room shared by both of them and there you saw one of the cutest scenes Akutagawa could be involved in. On the bed, Aku was deeply asleep, breathing peacefully as was RashĹmon, who lay on his stomach in a ball, with the man's hand on his back.
The latter wiggled its ears at the sound of your laughter stifled by your hands, not wanting to wake anyone. Despite your efforts, your pet opened its eyes, which stood out in the darkness. It seemed as if his eyes came out of nowhere, as his black fur was indistinguishable in the dull light.
You quietly approached him and petted his head, making him purr.
You changed your clothes to a much more comfortable one, still trying to keep the quietness of the place. You knew RyĹŤnosuke should be tired, so you didn't want to wake him up.
Carefully, you lay down next to him, covering them both with the soft sheets. You laid your head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat, while petting the cat with one of your hands.
With the mix of these calming sounds and the whole moment, you couldn't resist falling asleep.
Nikolai Gogol
You think it was a bad idea, adopting a white dove and calling it Kolya sounded funny at first, and Nikolai seemed to have no problem, but over time his behavior changed.
You don't quite understand, you don't know what goes through his head when he just stares at the dove in his cage. You had seen his emotions, those that he takes so much care that they cease to matter to reach freedom, but still you don't know what to do and you can't help but feel immense guilt.
One day you sit next to him, so that both of you can look at the animal for the desired amount of time.
âDo you want to release it?â
âIt would surely die, and if it didn't, it would go home because it's not used to and doesn't want freedom.â Despite his somewhat subdued tone of voice, he has a smile on his face. You decide not to press him about it, after all it's only a matter of time and trust that he will tell you about how he feels, you just need to be as understanding with him as possible.
âOh.â Silence once again imprints itself in the room, until after a couple of minutes you speak again. âAnd isn't there a way to teach him to be free?â
âThen he wouldn't be truly free. He would act as quoted, not on his own like free-ranging doves.â
âMmmh, right.â Guilt still fills you, it's obvious you shouldn't have adopted the bird, a dog would have been much better. "But still, I think it's better that it's locked up in there. It wouldn't be free at all, but it would be close, don't you think?â
âYes, I suppose that's better than nothing.â
Your hands gently intertwine and you drop your head on her shoulder. You'd be here long enough to comfort Nikolai.
I think you can tell which is my favorite
#bsd x reader#bsd x you#fyodor#fyodor dostoyevsky bsd#bsd fyodor#fyodor x reader#bsd akutagawa#akutagawa ryuunosuke#akutagawa x reader#fyodor x y/n#fyodor x you#akutagawa x you#akutagawa x y/n#bsd nikolai#nikolai gogol#nikolai x reader#nikolai x you
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The Valentino and Angel Dust section are infuriating and I have to rant about it:
1) Vivziepop canât complain when people reduce Angel Dust to a sex joke when thatâs all the promotional stuff does for him. Itâs just âhe did porn. Laughâ. His personality is just porn and abuse. This isnât interesting and honestly just offensive. I actually wish when I thought he was at worst, a 90s gay stereotype
2) The playbills not mentioning Valentino being a serial rapist/abuser is fucking annoying but whatever, itâs meant to be more lighthearted. What annoys me is that all they talk about instead is how hot he is and thatâs it. Not his personality or interests, nothing that makes him complex or nuance or just a little bit INTERESTING like his fans pretend he is. Just weird affirmations for a serial rapist.
3) this also explains why Vivziepop is weirdly passive aggressive towards people who hate Valentino. She wanted everyone to see him as a sexy problematic yaoi boyfriend and when a lot of survivors understandably didnât, and had a massive issue with people trying to woobify a man whoâs only lines are about how much he loves murder and rape, she got angry. Which is so telling because sheâs so fandom and porn brained that she didnât realize some survivors wouldnât look past Valentinoâs abusive behavior to find him sexy.
4) The gags about the weird titles of porn films that Angel Dust has starred in arenât funny but far less funny when you know none of it is consensual. Why is Vivziepop still trying to push this joke about how funny it is that Angel Dust is a porn star and is owned by Valentino. Even in merch like Youtooz they make jokes about it. As if we didnât see what the porn films actually look like, where heâs visibly in pain and literally beat up LOL.
5) Vivziepopâs obsession with incest and pedophilia, particularly with underaged boys needs to be studied dude. Iâm not saying Vivziepop is a pedophile but itâs such a frequent pattern of hers and it adds to that obsession with seeing queer men suffering. Yes porn is pretty notorious for having problematic themes like incest and pedophilia but when you know how she treated some of her underaged male zoophobia characters (cough cough ADDISON cough) itâs just makes me side eye her a bit
6) also want to add that obsession with âthe pure boyâ plus the script that would go on and on about how Angel dust is a little boy is fucking creepy. I wouldnât be shocked if Viv was ever exposed as a shotacon
7) if Valentino dies and Angel dust still makes constant sex jokes and still sexually harasses men then Viv no longer has a right to complain when people point it out
Nailed it. "He did porn. Laugh," is pretty much the show's entire philosophy when it comes to Angel Dust, and one they refuse to budge from even when the moment is meant to be horrifying and serious.
There's no need to wait on her being exposed for it -- Viv absolutely used to be into shota. Apparently, she and Dollcreep would sit around RPing all kinds of horrifying stuff with underage Addison. But that said, this was back during a time when maybe one out of ten people in the fandom thought twice about that. It's hard to stress enough how lackadaisical people used to be about fiction.
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Hello again! I recently added subs to the dmmd stage plays (except Ren's! i do not take credit for that). Originally i only had 4 routes, but I received Mink's and ViTri's routes and just finished subbing! (thank you @minkiemoo for sending them to me!!)
They're all updated on the same Google drive that i posted before but I'll repost it here
I hope you all enjoy!! please let me know if I missed anything or if it's not working (I didn't finish subbing the post credit conversations but i wanted to get the rest of the play out there first)
translators notes and general thoughts below if u care
Woo!!!! I'm so happy i got to watch all the routes and I'm very happy to make it easier to consume for English speakers! the game blew up in 2014 on tumblr from a fan translation iirc? so I think it's only fair that I do my part now that I'm at a level of fluency where I can do that too! my goal since i was a kid to be able to watch/play things in jp without subs or translation, and i think i only recently realized i can do that now lol
it has been a very long time since I started learning jpn (i believe in total it has been 18 years on and off đ god) and i just wasn't confident in my skills but when i was watching Ren's route (it was the only one available overseas without vpn shit and had subs) and no shade to whoever had to sub Ren's route but i noticed some subs were just straight up wrong? (there's a part where aoba is looking at a screen at toue's speech and it was just all wrong) so i think that coupled with having friends that also like dmmd and wanted to watch the other routes inspired me to do my own damn subs lmao đ
I'm absolutely not saying my subs are perfect, I'm sure there are spots that aren't 100% accurate (mostly because i can't 100% hear exactly what syllables they're saying sometimes because they talk so fast or just the audio quality or mumbling lol noiz I'm looking at you), but if i was unsure at any point I'd cross check the game lol if anyone notices any point where my subs are inaccurate, please let me know! i take no offense and honestly would love to be corrected so i can know for the future
also lastly, i did wanna touch on my strategy for subbing! jpn and English don't translate very well to each other all the time so there are some things that are said in jp that if i wrote literally in English would feel awkward or be hard to understand, so for some dialogue i tried to convey what they were saying with phrases that would make more sense to an English reader. So if you hear some sentences/words and you're like, wait that's not 100% exactly what they said, there's a good chance I know and i made the choice to translate it differently. it can be really hard to know when to leave something literally translated and when to localize it, or how far you should change the wording even if you keep the important information in a sentence, and which words i can leave out because of how fast they talkđ
jpn is also a very context heavy language, which means they leave out words in a sentence because it's implied that they're still in the sentence but you're supposed to fill them in. so there are many times where it sounds like in jp, they say 2 words, but it could really actually be like 6 because they're assuming you filled in the other 4 words. English you can only really get away with so much not said, and it can feel a bit weird when u read 6 words on the screen but hear the actors say 2 words lmao but just trust me on this, i promise I'm not adding words outta no wheređ
one example: when Mizuki is holding a knife to Tae, he says ĺžćăăăŞă which literally means "don't regret this", but with the full context he's saying something close to "don't regret this because it's gonna be your fault your grandma dies" which obviously is a lot more than what he said and I can't write all that on the screen for 2 seconds. The best equivalent to this (imo) was too write "You'll regret this", because even though it's not what he said in jp, it still gets the point across to english speakers and eng speakers can fill in the blank that he'll regret this because he didn't take Mizuki's threats seriously. It's less words and it's easier to digest in the few seconds that you have to read the sub
anyway i just want it to be known that i put a lot of care into these subs and thought very hard about how I translated each sentence, so i hope that you can trust my work!
Thank you again for all the kind words! I hope you enjoy the plays!!
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I WANNA KNOW MORE ABT UR CROSS CCINO I AM INVESTED PLZ
GRABS YOU AND SHAKES YOU AROUND
where do i even.. start.... oh my goodness
OKAY so,, cross and ccino. first i'll go over how i think they would meet, then i'll go over how their relationship would be like.
i think cross, after the whole x-event is resolved, is now left without purpose. he doesn't know what to do; he tries to fit in with the other omega timeline residents, but he feels wrong and out of place after everything that he did. he feels undeserving of a "real home"âplus, the omega timeline feels too restrictive to him. since he was a multiversal threat not too long ago, he was put under rules & observation. it reminded him way too much of being controlled by X-Gaster, so he takes off to figure out things on his own.
he drifts from au to au for a while, trying to find one that sticks. when he stumbles across fluffytale, the weird friendliness/calmness of it draws him in.
i won't delve into the story i have for them too much after this point (i'm currently writing a fic about it!!!) but long story short, cross begins working with ccino at the cafe.
FROM THERE !!! from there, their relationship is verryyy slow. cross is super hesitant about opening up about anything; at first, he dodges any personal questions from ccino. but over time, he grows more and more comfortable with him and sharing bits about himself. he slowly learns what it's like to be safe and happy again.
now, ccino. since ccino and nightmare are or were canon at some point in fluffytale, i believe ccino would be left with.. quite a bit of trauma from the relationship. he struggles a LOT with his self worth and motivation; he puts on a nonchalant, "happy" front to his customers. i think he would struggle taking care of himself, and would make self deprecating jokes to cope. he often misses meal times, making up excuses for himself. but, cross kinda sees right through his act, and can tell something's up.
cross would get ccino to let his walls down; it takes a while, because ccino is terrified of being vulnerable to another person again. he's afraid he'll be hurt again, he's afraid he isn't and never will be enough for cross. since cross was under nightmare's influence at one point, he has that to emphasize with ccino & make him feel better about himself.
they are a SLOWburn friends to lovers with miscommunication and mutual pining,,, they both think they aren't good enough for the other before one confesses giggle!!!!!
they both help each other see the best in themselves, and learn what it means to have safe love again. AND YEEWAHAHGGSHSGHS THEY MAKE ME SICKKKKKK SOBBING ON THE FLOOR I LOVE THEMEEMMM!!!!! i wanna share more of my thoughts about their story but again i dont wanna spoil the fic im cooking up
ALSO. I HAVE A SPOTIFY PLAYLIST FOR THEM. yoooouu should totes check it out if u wanna,,, hehe
link
im a freak about them. can you tell
#yelorambles#utmv#undertale#undertale au#sans undertale#underverse#xpresso#cross sans#ccino sans#fluffytale#cross x ccino#ccino x cross#asks
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Hi! i was reading this lovely post of yours, and i got stuck on you mentioning that buck's neutral color is grey. because when i made my cheers post i thought "aw they're wearing the same colors in both scenes. except their saturation(?) are reversed? idk what that means but it's nice to look at :D". (it made me feel like watching gifsets of madney's pregnancy reveal scenes and realizing they're wearing the exact same colors :D) but after reading your post i went back to look at mine and i'm realizing i actually can't tell if buck is wearing dark grey or dark brown??? but both colors work with the scene, and so does the ambiguity. it's the end of this brown era for buck. it's the start of a "coming back (coming homeđ) to his colors" era.
Also, seeing eddie go from maroon to pink is really interesting. i don't remember what are your thoughts/analysis of eddie and maroon but i know you've mentioned it before.
Maybe the next Buddie Couch scene, they'll be wearing black and white? i wouldn't know how to interpret that xD but it would make a really nice gifset
Hello love, I did write a meta on Eddie and the maroon, it goes with my Buck and green post (tho my conclusion there might be off because something I forgot to consider when adding the pink from the bachelor party is that that is a costume, so different rules), but I'm pretty sure Buck's jacket is supposed to be black. I think they are in a weird mirror of the bachelor party tbh. But they are also in a switch of saturation from recovery.
Buck is inverted, he is in a black jacket and dark green shirt, contrasting the white and mint, and Eddie has the pink shirt with the raised collar in contrast to the way he lost his shirt the last time, he lost the rest this time. The pink actually pays into the sense of naivety, they were using that a lot in s7 in that sense, and it's interesting considering maroon can be used to demonstrate wisdom, so the contrast of Eddie allowing himself to let go in the "naive" color and Buck searching for advice while Eddie is in the wisdom color is fun when you consider the visual parallels between recovery and confessions. They're both starting over in a sense. I do think that Buck is finally going to allow himself to find color again, and the use of green as Buck's something wrong color will always be fascinating because it is a color associated with growth and new beginnings, so even if he's being misguided, he is allowing himself the opportunity to reach for more, that paired with the brown, that has the whole stability and warmth connotations paired with the isolation and loneliness connotations, means Buck is in a very interesting spot to go back to his bright blues and reds.
I don't know about the black and white specifically, but I am maybe 75% sure that Edddie will play in lighter colors while searching for his true color (Eddie's yellow here we go) while Buck goes back to the darker colors while trying to go back to his blue. Honestly, I would expect Eddie in pastel colors while Buck is moving around darker ones, most likely going back to grey tones, leaving the brown that's been heavily associated with Tommy behind, and navy blue.
(Madney blue and red of parenting my beloved)
#this answer went full meta sorry sokasokasokaoksa#it is a fun parallel#911#911 spoilers#911 meta#đť#i really need a tag for asks#buddie
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idk if you have ever talk about this before but in case you havent, what do you think of the infamous "Albus Severus" Potter name? overall how do you feel about Harry's naming his kids?
thank you very much for the ask, anon!
i'll be honest, its infamy always strikes me as a classic case of the fandom not being able to separate what characters would do from what they would do.
because i completely appreciate that most people probably wouldn't name their children after a teacher who bullied them and a man who sent them to the death...
but harry would.
albus severus makes perfect sense as a name on the basis of who harry is, how he understands honour and lineage, how he comes to think of both snape and dumbledore over the course of deathly hallows, and how those thoughts would expand and deepen as time passes after the end of the pre-epilogue canon.
i also don't find the james and lily thing weird. i know plenty of people who are named after their dead relatives, including a couple of people who are named after murdered relatives, and it's not something anyone i know would look twice at. nor do the families of any of those people have trouble understanding them as their own person. i presume this would be considered stranger - and/or more inhibiting to a child's sense of identity - in other parts of the world, but i just understand it as something families do.
what does strike me as odd, though, is how much of this fandom forgets two things: that there are generally two people involved in naming a child; and that ginny is not a doormat.
it always seems to me that - whether people think the kids' names are suitable or not - harry is assumed to have been exclusively responsible for them, while ginny is assumed either to have been railroaded into doing what harry wanted, or to have nobly forfeited any say in the naming process because her only goal in life is to sacrifice everything to make harry happy.
[when it comes to the boys' names, at least. people do seem to go for the idea that ginny's responsible for the luna part of lily luna.]
but i think this is nonsense - and it clearly puts enough of a bee in my bonnet that i've had her say so in two pieces of my writing...
in everlasting ink:
James will be born with the cord wrapped around his neck, grey and still, and there will be hours - or maybe just seconds which feel like hours - in which she doesn't breathe, skin going cold and vision whiting, until he roars, rattly and indignant, as though being born was an unwelcome disturbance in his otherwise busy day. Â That's why she'll want him to have Sirius' name. His first cry will sound like a motorbike.
and [when i finally get around to posting the next chapter] one year in every ten:
'What on earth possessed you to agree to that name?' 'I didn't agree to it. I picked it. I hope you don't think so little of Harry that you think he'd deny me a say in the names of my own children?' 'But Albus -' 'He was very kind to me. Dumbledore. After what happened... It was like I was sleepwalking. Nothing felt real. It was like I wasn't fully in my own body. And everyone was acting like everything was fine - yay, Ginny's back to normal! - and I just went along with it. I don't know why... There was this afternoon, just before the end of term, and I was trying to go down to the lake, but I'd got stuck - I guess that's the word - on the stairs. I literally couldn't move... And then Dumbledore came round the corner and he said "are you quite alright, Miss Weasley?" and I said "oh yes, Iâm right as rain" and he just looked at me - you know the way he used to look at you, like he could read your mind - and it all came bursting out of me. How I didn't think I'd ever feel happy again. How I thought a little bit of me might have been left in the Chamber. How I worried my whole life had been broken by what you did to me and it would never be fixed. And he said - I'll never forget it - "there is nothing wrong with being broken, Miss Weasley, if you try to see the cracks as how the -" '"- light gets in". I should have known that was a pre-rehearsed bit of sentimentality...' 'I remember thinking about it when he died. He was lying there, broken, and I remember thinking "where's your light now?" But it turned out that he knew what he was doing.' 'That's one way of putting it...' 'And then we picked Severus for his middle name because we thought it would annoy Snape and that would be funny. And it did and it was.'
#asks answered#albus severus potter#is it any weirder as a name than assumpta? because i know loads of them#albus dumbledore is a leonard cohen stan confirmed#or - y'know - a lana one
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