#and I still have vet bills on top of this

[teawiththegods]

Hello, my loves! 💖

If you’ve followed me for a while now you know I’m not one to ask my followers for anything (except for cute pet pics 🥹) but one of my closest friends needs help! Her bunny, Nova, needs life saving surgery and of course it’s very expensive. Below you’ll find the Gofund Me and more details about what my friend and poor Nova are facing. It would mean a lot to her and to me if you could donate! If you can’t donate please share this post! That would also be such a huge help! Thank you all so much! 🥰

Hey there! We’re reaching out because my friends rabbit Nova really needs help for an upcoming surgery, and any donation you can make will have a huge impact on her recovery. If you could please click the link below to contribute or share it with others, I would be incredibly grateful. Thank you for considering helping us out!

Nova is a 6-year-old mini lop rabbit. We’ve had Nova since she was 3 months old. We noticed she had a mass the size of a baseball under her throat on Monday. We ended up taking her to the emergency vet the following day. The vet did a CT scan which indicated that she has dental disease, which is causing the swelling under her throat. They also suspect she might have tumors in her reproductive organs.

We ended up paying over $3,500 for her to stay at the hospital, and we still need to pay $4,500 for her future surgery to remove her teeth in 2 weeks. On top of that, we also have 2 other cats that we’re taking to the vet in 2 weeks because we suspect they have asthma and want to get them checked out. That vet bill is going to be $1,500.

We love our fur babies; they are our children, and we need help for Nova’s dental surgery in 2 weeks. Please, any amount helps, even if it’s only $1.

[monkeymeghan]

What do you guys think of the name Aubrey for my car? I haven’t decided yet, but that’s where I’m leaning. It’s Boulder Grey, like the photo above.

I’m so stressed out, money and financial shit sucks. At least I was able to get a loooooong loan so that I could afford the monthly payments. It’s going to be tricky, but it’ll be ok. I just need to stop worrying so much.

[positivelyapunovexponent-good]

graduate school application fees have me carefully plotting out how exactly to make $78 in groceries last three weeks. I thought the stressful part would be over once I submitted my last application (which I did yesterday! I am very proud of myself!) but no the financial fallout is just beginning

[numbaoneflaya]

Heehee hoohoo so update here had a power surge when the electricity went out and it fucked over my electronics so my computer is basically dead and would not turn on :D dropped it off at a repair place this morn and payed extra for it to be put at the head of the repair line bcs I need it but. Terrified it could just be fried completely and I’ll have lost all my data and saved games and art and work stuff and school stuff and everything :D hehe hoohooo

[deplcythebattery]

vent tags

[kawaiijohn]

Help a queer family of disabled nerds

Hey my name is Dante, I live in the Midwest with three of my best friends. We have four cats, one of which is my babyman whom I love very dearly.

His name is Latke Library Card Mango (LLCM). He's very orange and he's the light of my boyfriend, Kris, and I's life.

Cat pics are great right? Have a few.

A few months ago, latkes chronic bladder stones condition acted up which resulted in two emergency vet visits and a week long stay with his actual vet to get the stone removed.

It was the size of a chickpea.

Here's a photo of his post surgery when he had a nakie tummy. He was very very happy to see us.

He's since recovered, but the cost of this put us back around 1300 dollars in total. He's now on a special diet with rather pricey food to prevent this from happening but it might still act up eventually.

We've paid down some of his debt, but the interest is making it become more and more as we try to pay it down.

On top of this, our pipes backed up into our basement and refused to work suddenly a few weeks ago. We live in a house that is over a century old, and the clay pipes keep getting roots growing into them that causes them to not drain.

The roto had to come out and high pressure the roots out to clear them (which required expensive equipment), This put us back another grand.

To add to everything, our 700+ auto insurance bill is due in November, which is the worst time for this bill to need due, but both myself and Kris drive over ten miles to work during different shifts on opposite ends of town- neither of our jobs have public transit anywhere near them.

We are currently barely making ends meet-

I am a lunch lady at a public high school. I love my job. I feed kids who possibly don't even eat at home some days. I do work I am proud of.

However, I can only work around 25 hours a week without risking losing my insurance as a disabled person. My job does not have longer hour positions available, and I am too disabled to work more than this without ruining my body like I have done in the past.

I have been going without buying groceries out of fear that what little money I have in my account will be needed in an emergency. I will be out of work for a week this month, around Thanksgiving, and during Xmas break- unpaid due to me working in a school. Me being out also means no guaranteed meal every day.

Kris works in a factory. He is currently working 55+ hours a week to make what we can to pay off the bills and keep our house. He only has one and a half knees that hurt all the damn time and is barely eating either just to afford everything. His factory keeps calling for sudden shutdown weeks with little notice at the worst times, and he's the main breadwinner in the house for us.

The other two in our household, one is severely disabled and can barely work 10 hr/week (he is waiting on hearing back to receive SSI) on top of having multiple medical appointments a week to figure out what is wrong with his body and why it keeps failing. The other is a freelance artist who is working her butt off to make money while carting the previous to appointments nearly every day. She is full up on commissions at the moment, but when she opens them I'll reblog her posts.

I really didn't want to make this post. I hate asking for help. But we are drowning and there's no sign of land. None of us can afford to live on our own, nor can we move back in with our parents for various reasons.

All I'm asking for is some help. I don't care how much. Five dollars is five dollars. Five dollars is half an hour less we have to kill ourselves to make ends meet.

Even if we don't make the full amount, every dollar will help us get a bit closer to paying this stuff down so we can afford gas and regular grocery trips again instead of having to save up to go once a month like we are currently doing.

Our goal is 2000 dollars.

Yes, this is the high amount. I do not believe we will ever reach it. I can hope we can raise this much at some point.

But for now that's the dream number.

It's the number that is looming over our heads, telling us to pay up or lose our home.

It's not something we need this very moment, but just what we need in the next few months to be able to afford living without destroying our body or working three jobs/ridiculous hours.

We thank anyone who can spare a few bucks to help us, and if you can't afford it just pass this post along to someone who might be able to.

Please send as friend/family if you can, PayPal is threatening to withhold money sent as transactions now if you receive over a certain amount.

This includes sending things through my ko-fi account- so here's the preferred methods:

Progress:

388.74/2,000

Thank you for reading. I love you.

[badjokesbyjeff]

A woman brought a very limp duck into a veterinary surgeon. As she laid her pet on the table, the vet pulled out his stethoscope and listened to the bird’s chest.

After a moment or two, the vet shook his head and sadly said, "I'm sorry, your duck, Cuddles, has passed away."

The distressed woman wailed, "Are you sure?"

"Yes, I am sure. Your duck is dead," replied the vet.

"How can you be so sure?" she protested. I mean you haven't done any testing on him or anything. He might just be in a coma or something.

The vet rolled his eyes, turned around and left the room. He returned a few minutes later with a black Labrador Retriever. As the duck's owner looked on in amazement, the dog stood on his hind legs, put his front paws on the examination table and sniffed the duck from top to bottom. He then looked up at the vet with sad eyes and shook his head.

The vet patted the dog on the head and took it out of the room. A few minutes later he returned with a cat. The cat jumped on the table and also delicately sniffed the bird from head to foot. The cat sat back on its haunches, shook its head, meowed softly and strolled out of the room.

The vet looked at the woman and said, "I'm sorry, but as I said, this is most definitely, 100% certifiably, a dead duck."

The vet turned to his computer terminal, hit a few keys and produced a bill, which he handed to the woman.

The duck's owner, still in shock, took the bill. "$1500!" she cried, "$1500 just to tell me my duck is dead!"

The vet shrugged, "I'm sorry. If you had just taken my word for it, the bill would have been $50, but with the Lab Report and the Cat Scan, it's now $1500."

[milkteabinniechan]

*⁠♡Happy Father's Day - Chan

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pairing: single dad! Chan x afab reader

warnings: fingering, lots of mouth sounds, angst (if you squint your eyes)

I’ll tell him about you.

Your friend had an adorable three year old. A loud, sticky, energetic three year old. But adorable nonetheless. You had a pretty regular babysitting gig going. A few people around your neighborhood had talked and heard about your services and now you were basically a seasoned vet when it came to entertaining toddlers.

But your friend was a full time stay-at-home mom now and could watch her own adorable, sticky three year old. And now you needed another spot to fill those last bit of monthly bills. So she said there was a new dad at the preschool that seemed like he was struggling. “Struggling”, she said in air quotes. You agreed and asked her to give this new dad your information. Even though you mostly worked with the mothers, money was money.

A few days passed and eventually your phone rang, an unknown number flashing on the screen.

“Hello?”

“Uh, yeah. Hi. This is Chan. The.. uh.. Dad from Sunnyvale Preschool? I was told you could help me out with babysitting?”

He sounded nervous, or maybe he was just a shy person. Maybe he hated talking on the phone. But did his voice sound sexy? There was a deep, velvety smoothness to the way he spoke. Even between the stutters and pauses. You lingered for a moment, lost in the thought of that voice of his.

“Are you still there?” His voice pierced through your eardrum.

“Shit. Sorry, yeah. I’m here. And yes, I am available. Do you have time this week to set up a meet and greet?” your voice quickly went into customer service mode, knowing exactly what to say, memorizing the script you had made for yourself months ago.

THe two of you agreed on a time and day and said your goodbyes. You took a deep breath and tried to forget the way the sound of his voice made you feel. And you prayed all night that he didn’t look as good as he sounded.

Soon, you found yourself at the front door of Chan’s house. An expansive four bedroom home with one of those driveways that was nearly at a ninety degree angle. The door itself was large with two thin lines of stained glass running vertically down the front. A wooden WELCOME sign layed lazily against the door. A novelty sign you could buy as a last minute purchase at a hardware store. The front door clicked open and Chan stood in the doorway, child on his hip.

“Come on in,” He said warmly, arm gesturing for you to walk inside, “Did you find the place okay?”

Inside was a long staircase leading up to the bedrooms, a chandelier hanging from the top floor and swinging down gracefully into the foyer where the three of you stood. Past the stairs was a long hallway that led to the living room and an open floor plan kitchen. Windows surrounded the rooms in a sunlit blanket that made the whole house seem as if it was holding its arms out to you, embracing you.

The three of you sat down on the sectional couch in the living room. You sat on one end, while Chan and the small child sat together on the other corner. Chan introduced the small girl as Lilly. She clung to Chan tightly, her small, chubby finger gripping onto his shirt as if it were a lifeline. You smiled at Lilly and introduced yourself to her. You held eye contact with only her and asked her about some of her favorite things. You had learned over the years that children appreciated when you spoke to them like you understood them. Like everything they said was important, because to you it was. Lilly lit up and talked excitedly about some of her favorite books, jumping at the opportunity to show you. She ran to her room and hastily returned with a few small books. One was about animals, another was about a tractor that made a new friend. You exclaimed in amazement at Lilly’s amazing books. She was smart and she was quiet, but you could tell she was very well loved.

Chan watched the two of you talk about books and the different noises that animals make. It had been a long time since he had seen Lilly open up to someone so quickly. It made his heart feel full to burst, seeing the way you interacted with his daughter.

“You’re hired.” Chan said as you started to walk out of the door. His sudden decision startled you, usually it took most parents to call a few days after the meet and greet. You smiled warmly at Chan, giving him a firm handshake. The two of you quickly made a schedule of the days you would be working and before you knew it, you were in the routine with him.

Months went by with the three of you falling into this routine. You knew exactly when Chan would get home, you knew the foods that Lilly liked to eat, with her tastes changing by the week. You knew when to have dinner on the table and when to have Lilly in bed. And there was comfort there. A comfort in Chan coming home, in making a meal for him. You loved Lilly, and you couldn’t ignore this role that you were easing into.

“Happy Father’s Day!”

Chan walked in the door to find you greeting him with balloons and a cake on the dining room table. Lilly ran to Chan and squeezed his leg. You stood by the balloons and cake, waiting for his reaction. But for a moment he just stood there. Then, he picked Lilly up, propping her on his hip and walked towards you, embracing you with his free arm. He pulled you in close and whispered a soft thank you against your neck. As he pulled back from the hug, the two of you lingered there for a moment, caught heavily in the tension building thick between you. Later that evening, you walked back downstairs from putting Lilly to bed. You entered the kitchen to see Chan cleaning off the rest of the plates and silverware, blue frosting speckled on forks and spoons alike.

“I hope the cake wasn’t too much,” You spoke softly, moving towards Chan at the sink, “It was Lilly’s idea, she really wanted a cake.”

Chan chuckled softly at the thought of his daughter begging for a cake, with only blue frosting, blue being her current favorite color.

“It was perfect,” Chan stopped washing dishes and turned towards you, “you’re perfect.” Chan slowly moved his hands from the warm sink water, to your waiting waist. His fingers crept along your stomach and landed flush along your back, pulling you close to his body. You gasped at the sudden movement, but your body reacted reflexively to his touch. He took you by the hips and propped you up on the kitchen counter. He moved in towards your legs, spreading them open, making room for him. He gripped your thigh with his large hand and pulled it up and around his waist. Your eyes burned bright at his brazen actions as you wrapped your hands around the back of his neck, pulling him into a deep, possessive kiss. Chan forcefully glides his tongue into your mouth, letting it graze across your teeth. You let out a soft gasp as you feel his tongue slide inside, sending a shiver up your spine. You open your mouth wider for him, letting your tongues tangle together in a slow, sensual dance. You press against Chan, craving more of his touch, desperate for it.

He lets his hand fall lazily down your chest, then your stomach. He easily unclasps the button of your pants and lets his hand slip inside. The rush of warmth from his hand causes your head to fall back, your back arching at his every movement. A low growl escapes from inside Chan’s chest seeing how responsive you are to his touch. He lets his teeth graze lightly along the skin of your neck while his fingers trace hypnotic circles around the entrance of your cunt. He can feel how wet you already are for him and it causes something feral to happen in his brain. He buries his fingers deeper inside you, the sudden impact and pressure causing you to squirm and squeal pathetically in his strong arms.

A small, faint cry comes from the top of the stairs and suddenly the two of you snap back into parent mode. The sound of Lilly’s tiny voice pushing all other thoughts and feelings aside. The two of you run upstairs to find Lilly in her bed, crying from a nightmare.

Chan melts instantly at the sight of his daughter safely lying in her bed, instantly thinking the worst may have happened. He sits on the bed with her and holds her close. He consoles her and reminds her that dreams cannot hurt her, he reassures her that he is here to protect her. That he will always be here for her. But as he speaks, he looks at you too. He looks at you as if he wanted you to hear what he was saying as well, like he was speaking to you and Lilly. That you were both important to him. As if he wanted to protect you too. And love you too. You gave Chan a small nod, so he knew you understood. You loved him too. And you would protect both of them with your whole heart.

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[terriwriting]

Last month my work was hit by a cyberattack. I missed some shifts and haven't been able to recover financially from that, so this month I'm still short for December rent.

On top of that my cat's hip dysplasia has gotten worse. It's normally manageable but in the past couple of days I haven't been able to pop her hips properly back into place. Usually it doesn't slow her down (Stop jumping off the furniture, you idiot beast!) but now she mostly lies around and doesn't move much. I made an appointment with the vet on the 28th of November, but I'm hoping I can get her in sooner.

I know I need at least $300 for rent and bills. I have no idea how much the vet will cost or whether my cat will need x-rays or an ultrasound or what. I'll start a new GFM as soon as I have the bill from the vet. In the meantime I'm going to circulate the link to the GFM I set up earlier.

Thank you for any reblogs and support!

Kofi here.

GFM here.

Current $210/$830 CAD.

[anesidore]

UPDATE 12/04: thank you so much for the support! i'll be closing donation channels now, as we have reached our goal. i really do appreciate the support!

i will be keeping the original post through a read more below for posterity.

hi everyone! i know i have a relatively small following but i wanted to take a chance to ask for help anyway.

my beloved cat alphinaud (alphy for short, alby if you're being cute) was a naughty boy and decided to go outside a few days ago (he's been an indoor cat all his life) and got into a fight with a stray, which led to a wound with an abscess above his right eye. on top of this, he has been struggling with urinary tract infection for the last year and the crystals in his bladder unfortunately flared up once more, so the vet recommended him to be confined at the clinic for the next few days as he undergoes testing.

so far our expenses has been PHP 23,600 (around USD 400) for all the tests he went through as well as the confinement fee, and i expect it to cost more as he stays in the vet for confinement. luckily i cobbled together enough money to pay for the 11.8k PHP downpayment for today, but i don't have any money left after that expense. i will be adding the receipt from the 50% downpayment under the read more below as proof of these expenses.

i hate to ask for help from strangers again, as i have already done so last year when his uti was first diagnosed. unfortunately i'm quite literally at the end of my rope here. i've recently lost my dad last month, which took quite a toll on me financially (and of course, emotionally) because of funeral expenses and the medical bill that we're still paying off.

my friends can attest that i don't really make a habit of asking for help even when i desperately need it, but i really can't lose another member of our family so soon after we lost my dad who i loved with all my heart. i hope whoever reads this finds it in their heart to understand where i'm coming from here, but thank you for reading up to this point despite how long it has gotten.

if you're willing to help, you can send donations at paypal.me/amunetis or if you are from the philippines like i am, you may send your donation through my gcash at 09175252352.

i will also be prepping a commissions post soon in case anyone is interested, if you need examples you can find it here in this link. i'll be updating this post when i'm done with preparations.

again, thank you so much for reading through this all. if you are unable to help financially, i would greatly appreciate sharing/spreading the word through reblogs or maybe even sharing this post through other sns like twitter or bsky.

^ 50% downpayment receipt that i paid today. i can also provide pictures of his test results and other things if needed as proof.

have another pic of alby as thanks for checking!

[captainzigo]

life has to go on.

i need to be ok. the internet is my escape. i have a small platform, and i feel compelled to use it, but spreading positivity is a use.

however i personally need to do something. i just have to.

firstly, if you voted for trump, unfollow me. i do not care about your reasons. delete my motherfucking number.

secondly, for the rest of 2024, i will be donating anything i make on kofi to relief in palestine. i was able to raise $85 when i did this in the month of september. for someone struggling to stay on top of bills, that is a lot of money. but i’m hoping i can make more this time. i’ve thought about opening actual commissions, and im going to see about expediting that process. please see my pinned post for details on sending me a request on kofi. my minimum donation is still just $5 and i do OCs or whatever

if you do not need to make a request and simply want to donate, i recommend doing so directly. here is the post i have been using to find people in need who’s campaigns have been vetted: https://www.tumblr.com/el-shab-hussein/749304296909225984/vetted-fundraiser-masterpost-masterpost

[gamchawizzy]

Hi everyone 🥺 so sorry to do this right before the holidays but once again I am asking for help in footing some vet bills for my dogs

As some of you may know, we have 7 dogs. There was a mite outbreak in my area quite recently and they all got infected, some of them developing scabs and rashes and losing hair... I was saving up to get them all treatment but the medicine (bravecto) costs around 1300 php and I had to prioritise one of my dogs, Gaspar, because he wounded an eyeball. It's difficult for me to keep up because on top of my house bills, I have to give them all treatment at the same time, otherwise the mites come back OTL... today, my girl rottie, Emma, just gave birth out of nowhere and we weren't aware at all. I have been pushing to get her neutered but my family would not allow it as she is a senior. The puppy wants to feed but she cannot latch as Em's nips are too swollen for her. I was able to get her to latch onto one of my other smaller dogs but I can't do it for too long as the dog rejects her :,(

My family aside from my mom are also very uninvolved with pet care, and the best my mom can do is assist with feeding the dogs. I'm not sure if I can give the dogs away to better homes because I could get punished. The best I can do is give them some immediate care for now while I try to stabilise my situation

At the moment I am still working on a queue of commissions and I'm not very sure about advertising them right now, but I am very grateful for any donos - 1 usd ≈ 50 php so everything super duper helps.

If ypu'd like, you may also ask for doodles from me via my ko-fi. I'm hoping to raise around 10k-13k php so I can cover some basic medicines and vet bills. I don't even have plans to provide for the family for the holidays at this point, I just want the dogs to get better

My tip jar is

ko-fi . com/gamchawizzy

I will also attach a proper link in a reblog

Please do not feel obligated to dono if you are also in need, I am very appreciative of shares as well.

Thank you so much, love you all, happy holidays 😭💖

[focafurineuvi]

help needed after hospitalizing our cat

we had an emergency last night after finding out our cat had a severe urinary blockage and was in critical condition. he's stable now and the vet was able to safely clear out the blockage, but this leaves us in a very big financial pit.

my partner still hasn't heard back from any of the jobs he's applied or interviewed for yet, and commissions have been slow for me so money is very tight. we still have bills and groceries we need to take care of this month on top of this, so we really need help.

i take commissions over on my art blog and will be open for unlimited slots until we can get our situation stable. if you're unable to afford any of my commission prices but still want to help, any amount in donations or just helping to boost this post is just as helpful.

venmo: edgygender cashapp: edgygender paypal: dorianb1210

[physalian]

First Time Author Mistakes You Don’t Have To Make

This is for self-published authors, somewhat, I didn’t go through the agent/publishing house process, but I did give it a try.

1. Thinking everyone you work with will like your book

I wasn’t under this illusion, but I did assume that every beta I worked with would be able to stay objective, i.e. saying while they don’t like an element they think it still works instead of “I don’t like this” with no explanation. Which was not the case. If this happens, best thing to do is to cut your losses. They’re not your target audience.

2. Underestimating how long it takes

Your book baby is your top priority and yours alone. Everyone else that you could work with does so at their pace on their schedules. I wrote ENNS in one month. It took almost six months of beta readers and a professional edit for a lot of reasons, but largely in part due to betas just not being very speedy. In other areas, too. I didn’t query ENNS because my first experience trying to work with publishing houses was a lot of “hurry up and wait” and I did not have time to wait 6+ months, with exclusive submissions, just to be told no.

3. Underestimating how much it costs

I had funds prepared and set aside in a savings account to pay the editor that I knew would be the steepest cost of the whole writing process. I’d saved up over a couple months and was virtually unaffected by the exorbitant fee when the bill came due because I had prepared. Betas and editors cost money, and you can’t skimp on those otherwise you’re just burning money. If you hire illustrators or promoters, they eat up cash. Formatting, too, costs money. If I wanted to break even with ENNS, I would have to sell over a thousand copies. Just to break even. Even if you do it all yourself, of which I did my own illustrations and formatting, the programs I used cost money, and time.

4. Vetting book promoters

Anyone following this blog might know of my recent escapades in dealing with scammers. It’s my personal opinion that anyone who will promote any book for money does not have an opinion worth trusting. Do I think my book is good? Absolutely. Do I think every book they promote is good? No. Nor do these people seem to care about anything more than profit. I wouldn’t buy a product based on a review without integrity, and have learned a hard lesson in trying to undo that mistake. If you just want word out, then you can act without discretion and just pick the cheapest influencers. But their word means nothing if they’ll sell it to the lowest bidder.

—

These are just four things I didn’t quite think about going in. I’ve been a writer for almost 10 years now but this is my first time all the way through the publication process and it was a wake up call in many areas, especially with the bad actors on social media.

But the bottom line is this: Don’t underestimate the cost of the process, whether that cost be money or time or simply stress. Writing is easy. Publishing is work.

—

My LGBTQ+ vampire fantasy novel Eternal Night of the Northern Sky is out for preorder now! Paperback debut on 8/25/24.

[angy-brows]

Life Update - Laptop and Dog

Hey y'all, sorry I haven't been able to make as much art for y'all as of late. My laptop has been acting up lately and I'm worried that the hard drive is failing on me. It's been periodically having moments where it slows so bad it completely freezes and I can barely move my cursor, and when I log in after a restart it just displays a black screen with my cursor on it for like 5-8 min before everything sloooooowly starts coming back.

My disk space has been constantly at 100% without any clear reason why, and I already ran a virus/malware scan and fixed any issues related to that.

If anyone has *any* idea what's going on, that would be appreciated. I'm also starting a goal on my Ko-Fi to help me replace it if it's gone completely down the shitter, which I hope to god it hasn't because I won't be able to do my digital art otherwise.

On top of that, literally just a few days ago, our cat took a swipe at our dog's eye and punctured it, so we're praying that he recovers because he's already blind in one eye and the cat got his good eye.

I might start another goal to help with vet bills to try and help my folks. My laptop + my dog + a plethora of other things, it's just been one fucked up thing after another and I'm so, so tired. If I vanish for a longer period of time, I'm sorry. On the bright side, hopefully I start therapy tomorrow. All that to say, I'm still listing my Ko-Fi. Please support me if you can, I sincerely appreciate any help given.

Love y'all - ZJ

[lucifer-is-a-bag-of-dicks]

normally I hyperfixate on christmas like an absolute madlad and coast the high all of December, it's my favourite time of year, I go feral for it, christmas has pulled me out of some really dark slumps over the years

so I don't know what god I managed to piss off this year but it has been absolutely determined to make this the worst December of my life

it's christmas eve tomorrow and I never even got to put my tree up because I've been either too busy or too exhausted, I had to spend $700 on vet bills that resulted in next to nothing so not only could I not get everyone the presents I wanted to get them, I also still don't know what's wrong with my bird and now have to spend another $400 on an xray to hopefully find out, and god knows how much to fix the problem when we find it and now, because of how fragile birds are, I'm terrified of waking up one morning and finding him dead on the bottom of his cage

on top of all that I settled on making photobooks for the most important people in my life as presents, but it took so long for my sibling and I to organise the photos together and then we could only get together to go to kmart to make them last week in the evenings so could only get through one at a time before we had to go home, and then kmart fucked one up and 3 hours of work designing the album and placing the photos just disappeared, I had to spend 6 hours on that fucking computer making a third album and REmaking the second, my neck was killing me, I didn't get home or eat dinner until midnight

and now, the cherry on top, I'm SICK so I don't even know if I'll be able to go out and make the last two albums I need because it would have to be TODAY or it'll be too late

I feel like I completely wasted christmas, I haven't felt good at all at my favourite time of year, everything sucks and I'm fucking pissed off, what the fuck did I do to deserve this