#and I miss my cat so fucking bad
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#i just got back to my place after holidays and I'm feeling so homesick#i want my family closer to me#i want to see them more often and for longer time#and I hate that whenever I come home i have to split my time between mom and dad#and now my dad os going through something and it's breaking my heart#because he's always the funny and silly one...always happy and now he reminds me of himself when he was divorcing my mom#i am so grateful that I spent new year's with him and that he wasn't alone#i even miss his cigarette smoke infused apartment#and my mom's weird cooking and her her candles and essential oils#and I wish my brother would appreciate all this more and not see us as a burden#i love him but I want him to grow up finally#and today before I left everyone hugged me a little tighter and a little longer#and now it's making me cry because I won't feel a human touch like that until next time I get home and that will be easter#those holidays went too fast and I want at least one more week like that#and it's all about those mundane things that make my heart beat faster#like when I went grocery shopping with my dad on new year's#or when I was just sitting and watching my mom cook#and I miss my cat so fucking bad#I'm so happy he spent another year with us#i don't even want to think about it but each year I get worried that it's his last Christmas with us because he's getting so old#and now I'm here alone and I love it that I can do my own thing and I don't share my apartment with anyone#but I just want them a little closer#i don't like how limited is my time with my own family#I'm super emotional tonight#I know it will pass in few days but today the feelings are super raw#because for more than a week I was never alone and always surrounded by love and my favourite people on Earth#and I went to being totally alone right now#i should go to sleep because I'm exhausted and I'm waking up at five tomorrow#guys...i hope you all had wonderful holidays and i wish each of you all the absolute best in 2024!
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searching for a star that's still unknown to anyone!
#for finncakes.arts dtiys on instagram... i missed you wxs#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#proseka#emu otori#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#wonderlands x showtime#wxs#polysho#my ipad did not survive this one its at 3% after like 5 procreate crashes#and sending me visions of it being put down like a dog. Not happening#kirapipi album release im FREE#wxs getting 1 another wanopo comm and 2 a traditional japanese style song. ive been saying they need it. emu deep voice can save the world#I drew emus recent card the untrained but i dont KNOW HOW TO RENDER SNYMORE IDK HOW TO DO IT. SO SHES TRAPPED#in my wip art timeloop for eternity.#tsukasa is pissing me off so bad in this no matter how many times i drew and redrew his head imhe just completely breaks the illusion of#depth i think i actually did alright on rui and emu. i love how theynlook. Went hard rendering tsukasas outfit i guess which.#pisses me off MORE. its NOT THE FOCAL POINT. TSUKASA INHOPE YOUR NEXT LIM HAIRCUT IS EVEN MORE STUPID. YOURE RUINING MY LIFE.#whats supposed to be his hand is so fucked up with the perspective too helppp me just pretend its nenes.#the tonal difference from my ladt post is so funny. fuck you siffrin you stupud cat
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ok, new apprentice pov officially confirmed!
#warrior cats spoilers#changing skies spoilers#i do suspect it will be a tom. i cant see them sticking with the all female pov cast unfortunately. women lose#if it is starlingpaw tho i hope my mean post about him isnt hit with the gift of prophecy. love his prefix. i want to like him#do noooot do 'i miss my dead dad sososo much. my grandma and/or mum and/or sister is such a bitch tho' pleaseee erins please#my overarching hope is that i dont want this protag to be a love interest for moonpaw bc that fucks up the writing structure so bad#like sure if it was a hypothetical girl moonpaw love interest id give them a pass but i am NOT losing chess to that dog LOL#i cant do the dual protag romance again im not strong enough. i dont like the way wc writes romance. it's not for me.#well like. i think it's an interesting story builder if they do it right i just dont care for the aw cute angle of it on its own
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GET FRAGGLE-IFIED‼️‼️‼️
So recently I’ve been more than a little obsessed with the 1983 Jim Henson company project called “Fraggle Rock,” about all these silly little muppet creatures having crazy adventures in the cave system in which they live, called, appropriately, Fraggle rock. After watching 3/4 of the seasons, I started doodling some of my fav cats OCs as fraggles, and it just sort of spiraled from there. So if I’ve sent you 🫵 an ask about the kind of clothing your oc would wear, this is why :D. Without further ado:
THE FIRST WAVE‼️‼️‼️
These are the tallest of the bunch, and they are, reading left-right left-right:
@gotham-native’s Calypso, @ernestelm’s Vega, @toki-toro’s Chaumet, and last but certainly not least, @cillyscribbles’s Tin Tin!!!!
#I DONT KNOW WHAT TO TAG THIS ‼️‼️‼️#I’ve been working on nothing but this for weeks#cilly thank you genuinely for keeping me going 😭😭😭#I’m so fucking obsessed with this show#I wanted to do this so so so bad I like cried thinking about it genuinely don’t know what’s wrong with me#ANYHOW!!!!#THESE WERE SO FUCKING FUN‼️#I missed drawing peoples OCs so badly#I don’t know why I stopped doing that#this was in fact the au I was working on btw#Fraggle rock au!!#calypso looks so cool and slay she was the last one I did and she’s so gorgeous#bc she’s a lil punk rock and fraggle-ified foxglove dresses the same#I kinda imagine he looks up to her a bit#thank you to pintrest for sponsoring this post/j#no but that’s where I got half the outfits done#got this project done literally the day before I go back to school ✌️#cats the musical#cats musical#cats oc#jellicle oc#fraggle rock#fraggle oc#I think those tags work? idk#sorah’s silly scribbles#fragglecats#this is so incredibly self indulgent maybe the first project I’ve done in a while that was specifically for my enjoyment lol
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I've started playing Potion Permit, and so far it's one of my favorite games I've messed around with, but the most big brained move the devs made was giving you a dog on day 1, and then making that dog able to track NPCs and lead you directly to them no matter where they are in the town.
#im still early game but i like the play and the writing is passable#like#Theres a flatness#the characters Are distinct but theyre mostly just their jobs#with only a few who stand out and have like. something to really grab onto#Like rue? rues entire deal is little girl you can date. Nothing else behind those eyes. She has nothing better to talk to you about#than the fact her favorite color is red#Sorcelia? Sorcelia is a goth nun who loves singing and teaches one of the village children#Reynerd? sure is a guy#got nothing else to say about him. hes just a Guy™. Victor? Has ghost friends and loves bugs and cares deeply about the cemetery#he tends to. At the moment it feels like they're trying to imply there aren't actually ghosts. and hes just talking to himself/#insisting his imaginary friends are real people#and so far? The games been cool about it. Victor's a member of his community and his eccentricities are accepted and not ridiculed#all four characters ive mentioned are romance candidates. but its just as hit or miss with the regular towns folk#Opalheart is an older woman and a world renowned blacksmith who only takes jobs if they will do Good. regardless of whether or not they#pay well. She declines to make a dagger for a rich man but makes a helmet for a childs father bc the girl asked#and olive is here#anyways you can be best friends with a cat (shes just a regular cat) and i appreciate that#idk im putting it above sun haven in my ranking of life sim games#purely because there are older romance candidates.#no fat romance candidates. but sun haven doesn't have thise either.#and sdv has neither fat or old candidates Nor can you fuck a cat boy. it goes at the bottom.#gameplay wise sunhaven is at the bottom then sdv then potion permit at the top. sunhaven has the Most™ but having#a lot of crap doesn't mean its fun and it ends up making half the game feel really incomplete#idk. Sdv is a game you should've started playing a year ago. sun haven is a game that perpetually needs another year worth of updates#before id say its worth it bc the devs keep pushing content ™ updates instead of quality of life or polish so what is there is uh#Bad. plentiful. and a large portion is good#but a Lot is just bad.#its insincere and cant take itself seriously it gives you (the right dialogue option) an (the shit joke option) which is worse than just#i ram out of space. tldr. potion permit is good Now. sdv Was good. sun haven Might be great Eventually
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My cat died over the weekend whilst I was away from home. Before I knew, I had a dream where we were sitting outside in the garden and he was fat again and happy.
#also hi i had a bad mental breakdown and deleted all social media and thinking about being online makes me want to kill myself#anyway my cat died + i miss him already + i cant believe i'll never get yelled at again or get claws stuck in my leg or hold him like a bab#he used to make biscuits constantly even if he was just sitting on the floor like he was so full of love#he used to lay on the path in the hope that strangers would pet him#he got so fucking thin and confused and couldnt meow anymore#anyway i'm off to delete tumblr again
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getting him next week <3
#excited but in a suicidal way#still miss my baby boy like a phantom limb. im fine when i dont think about him but i think about him always#still couldn't bring myself to put any of his things away. i just miss him so bad#still cant look at pictures of him without dry heaving and a full emotional breakdown#god i just want him the fuck back thats my baby i need him#anways#kitkat#cats of tumblr#cats#he really said EARS
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crying at the airport whos with me
#im back in sf and i missed my shuttle so im gonna be home an hour later than expected and i just want to see my cat so fucking bad#i’m actually crying abt it. and everything else
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#bit of a hard one today#on top of being actually physically sick#my sister left home officially#today mum decided it was time to put up decor for christmas#and this was the first year i just#didn't feel like doing any of it#sister isn't here#which is bad but worse than that#is that grandpa isn't here anymore#i miss him daily and this fucking sucks major ass#so yea sorry for being a tad bitsie off today but#ya boy's going through it i suppose#hate being this fucking damaged#but alas <3#if i don't carry on no one will take care of my cat#so i gotta stay ig#bonnie vents#i miss my grandpa so so so much#Spotify
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hi so. i might be not around for a bit; or like, posting inconsistently. idk
my partner and i broke up. i had to move back to my familys place. fuckin worst of all is that i had to leave behind my cats because my family has allergies. the stress of it all started a health flare.
its been. a very intense couple of days dkdhdkdjf
#im gonna live. ill be okay#im just. starting from absolute 0 it feels like#and my god i miss my cats so fucking bad
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had two encounters with animal death that were very personal today and i don't know exactly how okay i am actually
#the first one was awful but 'luckily' it wasn't my missing cat it was just nigh fucking identical and i sobbed for 20 mins#but just now got some bad news about the upstairs neighbor dog who i adored i am so heartbroken rn#g-d i hate this#a.txt
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Hanging out at the park with friends on a breezy summer day could fix me
#my joints hurt so so bad and my family isnt going to be home until tomorrow afternoon#and I miss my dog and my cat and the summer and doing sports and having close freinds#I miss playing minecraft on an xbox 360 and walking my brother home from school and having my mom brush my hair#I am filled with devastating amounts of grief over what has come to pass and what will never be#but alas. Its 1:30 am and I have school in the morning#no fr tho my joints and ribs hurt so fucking bad im gonna explode#save me minecraft ost. save me#rambles
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been without my girls for barely a week and I'm Dying!!!!! I miss them!!!!!!!!!
#im at home with my family but every little thing that happens im talking about them#it must be so annoying for everyone but fortunately it's not an issue for me i love remembering them and talking about them#if mu family is annoyed at the things i say about them they should hear the things im thinking about them. in my brain#it's everything!!!#im like oh you got a backless top. my roommate wears a lot of backless top because she's got a back tattoo#that's such a nice storage box you got thwre. my roommate bought me a storage box once did you know that#are you making cake?? my roommate lovesss making cake she lives almost exclusively out of sweets#oh you bought plums! i bought plums back at home a while ago. roommate tried a nectarine for the first time w me#ur thinking of buying a rice cooker? we got a rice cooker at home. for free. courtesy of roommate's ex boyfriend#do we have spices at home? me and roommates went out and bought a ton of spices when we were christmas shopping too lol#is that the product ur using to clean the toilet? we got that one at home too lol. i used it to clean the shower stains when we moved in#these are the hairties roommate bought me. she's so great. arent they cute??#this cat is so well behaved and quiet. roommate's cat eats everything and his meow sounds like a duck quacking lol#and im like this allll the fucking time!!!!!!!!!!#for this entire week!!!!! all the time!!!!!!!!!!!#i miss them so bad
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me coming back from fucking around in the swamp thinking missing a single sunbelt showdown was gonna be fine and then being told that is NOT the case
#hey man so what the fuck#YOU MISS ONE GAME????#WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED???#there has to be such bad luck in missing a single game and thats the game mikksy gets injured and put day to day#WHEN HE NEVER MISSED A GAME AS CAT DUE TO ANY INJURY????#AND ALSO HE NEVER REALLY SUFFERED AN INJURY IN HIS NHL CAREER???#WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT?????#WDYM MAFFHEW GOT KNEED SO HARD HE GOT HELPED OFF THE ICE AND STILL RETURNED#WHAT THE FUCK DID I MISS????#WDYM ALL THE TAMPA GUYS MAFFHEW TAUNTED GOT GOALS#no im still on mikksy with an upper body who wanted to come back so bad but couldnt#WHAT THE FUCK#the sparksnotes of this game is insane and i-#touched grass too hard ive missed a lifetime#im not saying theres a jojo curse but also there is a jojo curse#me coming back and telling this all to ___ and their immediate response is “thats what you get for fucking around in the swamp”#LIKE EXCUSE ME??? IM SORRY I WANTED TO HAVE FUN AND TAG ABANDONED BUILDINGS??? AND CLIMB CRUMBLING RUINS???#AND WISTFULLY POINT AT ALL THE SNOOPY GRAFFITI??? IS THIS MY FAULT NOW????#sorry i had love and whimsy in my heart and bonded with someone who /couldve/ been my moot on my old twt#like we bonded about being ships in the night because they didnt get into [insert fandom] and i didnt get into fandom but we were aware#and oh my godddd we couldve been and it wouldve been soooo funny#and then we talked about our old hyper fixations and we were so similar its hella funny like wowwwww we shouldve been moots#chronically online people bonding in the middle of the wilderness is funny yeah
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When he gives you his undies you send him cute pictures of you wearing them it's the law.
#babe snuck his dragonball z undies into my bag in hopes I'd find comfort in them while we're apart 🥺#the underwear and cat and heart in this photo all belong to joj 💞#6 months until our life living together starts#can't fucking wait I miss him so bad#distance sucks ass but my love is so worth it#whiskey sue
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I’m always so fascinated by people’s bad roommate stories. I’m not sure I’ll ever live with someone I haven’t vetted extensively beforehand ever again
#every living situation where i’ve been assigned roommates randomly; i always seem to get one person who is an absolute angel#and 1-2 people who are honestly fucked up#i lived in halls 1 year of undergrad and everyone was kind of equally insane. honestly no one stood out as particularly bad#because everyone was just constantly screaming. i dealt with it by going home most weekends and getting noise cancelling headphones#3rd year of undergrad i lived in a suite which.. honestly was basically an apartment. had a living room/kitchenette; a toilet; a shower room#and 4 bedrooms#one of my roommates i’m still friends with to this day but honestly they were and are kind of a ridiculous person#like they were actively dealing drugs most of the year and their boyfriend was around most of the time and they would bone LOUDLY#and that’s the good roommate. so you can imagine the other two#one of the others.. honestly wasn’t a bad roommate; she was helpful and clean and civil#she was loud as hell though. she used to have attacks of insomnia and decide to rearrange her furniture at 3 in the morning#and we shared a wall. she also had an illegal pet rabbit.#our personalities just didn’t mesh well; like it became clear pretty fast that we were going to spend as little time together as possible#third roommate was loud; rude; annoying and gross. she’d be calling people at 7am just to yell down the phone to them about her problems#i was like who is picking up the phone to this bitch. she also picked up on my homosexual vibes in that way that homophobic straight girls#always seem to have; and was convinced i had a crush on her. and she bought a betta fish (allowed according to dorm rules) and then it died#because she didn’t want to take care of it properly. and she refused to do anything for herself#like she was always breaking shit and leaving it because she didn’t want to email or call maintenance. so then i’d have to do it#because it was always something we specifically shared. like a set of shelves she put a fucking 5lb shampoo bottle on. twice.#in grad school it was almost the same thing. one angel roommate who was kind of messy but otherwise fantastic#she rolled the best joints i have ever seen. and i still miss her cat cali#it was the men that were the problem. one was an international student who left after a month and bothered nobody#like to the point i didn’t notice when he moved out because he was so innocuous#the other two though….. so one of them started hooking up with my favourite roommate and immediately became SUPER annoying#the other one stole shit; left lights on all the time; left fridge and cupboard and freezer doors open; tried to guilt trip me#into giving him my weed; played mariah carey at 2am; never bought a single cleaning product or household item for the collective#unless you told him to…… he was even using my toothpaste at one point. like. sir.#oh and he was always dirtying other people’s dishes and cookware and leaving them in the sink for days. and leaving big chunks of food#in the sink. it was fucking gross#personal
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