#and I just couldn't stop crying
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my dog passed away this morning in my mum's arms - she spent 17 years by my side when no one wanted to and I can't quite understand that i'm never gonna see her again. life feels so empty without her already, it's just not fair
#i had to go to work because we're super busy#and i just couldn't stop crying#i need to keep myself busy because the second i think of her i just burst into tears
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literally Through the Fire and the Flames by DragonForce is not that deep, but I did sob while listening to it on repeat bc the lyrics feel very real right now. we carry on. we carry on.
#god. it was the first song that played when I put my huge power metal playlist on shuffle#and I just couldn't stop crying#we wait for the day for the lives all so wasted and gone#they'll raise their hands to the heavens above with resentment in their eyes#I'll break the seal of this curse if I possibly can for freedom of every man#through the fire and the flames we carry on#god.#metalhead ramblings#dragonforce#2024#politics#lemon generator#edit: coming back in and tagging posts both directly and tangentially related as#we carry on#decided the full lyric was too long to always type out lol
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Thinking about ND Stevenson having to squish his way into having catra and adora being in love but only in a subtle way until the last season, having to weave their romance so thickly in the plot so that the higher ups wouldn't get to cut it out, only being allowed to have catra and adora kiss in the very last episode. And now.
Now he got to show us a couple of men who say they love each other right from the start of the movie, who act affectionate and were clearly a couple from the start, who yes only kissed in the last minutes of the movie but not because they "weren't allowed" to do so before, but because it fit the story and their reconciliation and it was the right moment for them to kiss
#nimona#I couldn't be happier and more proud and more grateful#nimona spoilers#ballister boldheart#ballister x ambrosius#ambrosius goldenloin#nd stevenson#i just. can't stop crying have some incoherent thoughts
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(check the tags for more and also the tag for other fics in the story!)
athena, scowling as she gets bullied into marrying the people she pined over for the last 1000 years, suddenly realising something: wait a minute
odysseus: what?
athena, frozen: wait a damn minute you know what this gives me rights to do
penelope, also realising: oh fuck yes
odysseus: I don't like the sound of whatever's happening here what are you two fucking talking about?
athena, grabbing the marriage wine and tossing it back, then kissing her new wife and husband and handing penelope a spear as she picks up a mace: we'll be back shortly, you can start celebrations without us.
penelope: do u have anything that can start a fire
athena, pulling out an old contract and scanning it before throwing it over her shoulder: yes. are you scared of heights or can we fly.
penelope: fucking bring it I've waited years for this moment
zeus: where are they going
hermes, picking up the contract: they're going to... Ogygia? Oh fucking shit they're going to fucking kill Calypso- hey, hello, WAIT-
#odysseus disappears midway because athena plants one on him so hard his soul evaporates#(strategic to make him stop from coming after them and also from passion she forgot to hold back for once)#(and also shes maybe possibly in love and cant wait to get vengeance on Calypsos bitch ass who hurt him so much for so long)#penelope has had to deal with calypos afteraffects for literally the rest of their lives. from flashbacks to odysseus inconsolably crying#at her feet for forgiveness some days even though shes always said frim the first moment that it wasnt his fault#the rest of the gods have to chase them down to prevent them from eternally torturing calypso (goddesses cant die <3)#athenas blazing mad and sick with guilt and horror. she couldn't attack before because it would be seen as an attack from olympus#but as a wife! as two wifes! no political implications there no holds barred calypso gets her ass BEAT#but also pls imagine them chasing her and gods chasing them round and round the island while screaming#odysseus wavered like 17 times on whether to ask hermes for a lift there or not but goes in the end#their honeymoon in truth ends up being on ogygia#athena lovingly and seductively teaching penelope how to fillet a person both of them covered in ichor#odysseus with a hand over his mouth blushing grinning tears in eyes torn between turned on and terrified to be back and crying coz they lov#him that much.#((he goes to her just before they leave in the cave she used to drag him to. she can barely hold herself up and hes shaking to approach))#((but he's stronger now. settled and satisfied and content. he kneels by her and sets down bandages next to her.))#((i told you i was married he says. and because his truest weapon is his tongue- if youd just listened i wouldve found us both a way out))#she sobs and he leaves. the scars will never fade fully but he feels lighter as he steps out into the sun where athene and pen are waiting.#bloodsoaked and being shouted at by hera but smiling at him widely and gleefully as he approaches. takes a hand each and presses him btwn.#he squeezes back with a smile and leans into them. his beautiful horrifying wives#odypenath#odypenetha#odysseus#penelope#athena#odypen#odyath#penath#epic the musical#love in paradise
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I know for a fact I've talked about the golden records, but I don't care because here is a sample of some of my favourite greetings on those discs
There is something so vulnerable, precious, and human about sending up pieces of our hearts into space. Even when we know that there may not be anybody out there to hear us, we are still whispering to whomever might listen how much we love them, how much we want to connect. No matter how small the chance is, we're taking it to say that love is real, that we are real.
How is that not something to be in awe over?
#positivity#golden record#though it's been forty-seven years since launch both voyagers have just barely left our solar system#they are between 12-15 BILLION miles away from us#that's 20-24 BILLION kilometers away#i cant go to the club i need to cry uncontrollably about this#love is real#this is why i can never seriously consider apathy to be a poignant commentary about human nature#we never HAD to include this stuff - evidence of our love to completely inconceivable peoples#in fact if we learned anything from scifi maybe it would have been better for us not to say anything at all - to lead other life RIGHT TO US#but we couldn't shut up for five minutes to not say how much we love them and our planet and how enthusiastic we were that we MIGHT be found#we couldn't stop our hand from putting in *so much* effort for the 0.000000001% chance there's Something out there...#...for the chance that that 'something' will even be ABLE to retrieve AND understand our message of love#we absolutely need more golden records <3#to love something without even knowing anything about it .... there's nothing like that in the world#because i love whatever's out there. i think about them so often. i'll unironically pray for their health and safety#do they eat enough? do they look at the stars with wonder too? what's it like to breathe their air? do they know they're loved?
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fiona gallagher // "oldest" by brooke alexx
#fiona gallagher#fiona and her kids#shameless#fiona gallagher’s childhood#sad fiona gallagher#ami weaves a web#this is also just such a good song#okay okay sorry i promise i'm working on the mom am i still young fic req I PROMISE#i just listened to this song today and couldn't stop thinking about Her#this song just perfectly encapsulates fiona's psyche: she has to be the perfect big sister she has to take care of everything because#well somebody has to. and it's not going to be frank or monica#and she'll do it all and she'll take care of the kids and she'll hide her pain because what else can she do? she's the oldest.#GODDDDDD FIONAAAA#crying screaming throwing up#i love her so much you don't understand#gnawing on my own bones about her
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#Astarion#Baldur's Gate 3#Baldur's Gate III#*mine#*gifs#*BG3tag#I couldn't sleep and I remember that he did that little lip upquirk and I was like man you are a big fucking stinker and I would like to te#l you that you are very handsome and very evil but also very soft and very broken and I have a lot of feelings about you but tumblr won't l#t me type anymore because apparently there's a word limit for tags so I keep having to stop and now I'm just going to cry! bye!
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Theres something about the idea of Sparrow and Logan's birth thats really hitting me.
Sparrow has been fighting their entire life, even in their childhood we see them having to resort to violence. They've spent their entire adult life stuck in the past, fighting entirely for the goal of avenging Rose. The future has never mattered as much as the past does, no matter how much Theresa whispered about it.
But now theres Logan.
For the first time, they do have a future that matters, Logans future.
Not the future Theresa tells her of, not the violence they've always known, not the weight of the world of the world on his shoulders.
Violence is an integral part of them thats so intimately woven into who they are as a person.
They don't want it to be like that for Logan.
I think thats clear in the way that Logan seems to idolize them, the fact that he chose to go on expeditions outside of Albion as opposed to being forced to. The fact that he seemingly was unaware of the darkness and the destiny laid for him and the hobw to try and stop it before meeting it.
According to Theresa one of their children is meant to save the world, but Sparrow has their first child, sees their son, innocent and yet to be hurt like they have, and chooses a different path, even if only temporarily.
In a way its finally avenging themselves, the child in them that was killed with Rose and replaced with a hero tormented by all thats happened. As long as they're alive, they'll keep their children safe from that same fate. They allow them to have a life outside of being a hero, unlike them. They allow them to have a childhood. They free them from the expectations that were held on them.
Logans birth is a huge moment for Sparrow for so many reasons, it's not just the birth of the first child, the one they get to be with the longest, but its arguably the birth of a new Sparrow.
#fable 2#fable 3#fable#sparrow#hero of bower lake#logan fable#this isn't the best thought out post#might delete it because I am kind of a teensy weensy bit out of it but i has made me cry thinking about this lmao#I just have a lot of thoughts about sparrow and logans and I couldn't stop thinking about a fem sparrow#holding a newborn logan; knowing full well what Theresa told them about their childs future#and deciding as long as they live they'll protect him from it#like we don't know when they hide they guild seal but they do#they cut off the way Theresa can speak to them; and I know they tell walter how to find it to give it to hobw#but I'd aruge thats because while they know they can prevent the ruining of their kids childhoods but their fate is inevitable#sparrow likely wasn't the best parent; i imagine it was a struggle; but also I do genuinely think they try#they try so hard man#sorry I'm ramnling lmao
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I wonder if Flowey ever just... let Clover stay dead for longer than a few seconds after they died in a fight just to see what happens. I mean, he basically is the master of their fate and would probably get bored of seeing them repeat the same three routes over and over and over again. I feel like in between trying to push Clover to fight Asgore, he'd probably find the time to entertain himself watching other characters react to Clover's death to mix things up a bit.
#undertale yellow#he'd be busting out popcorn and treating everyone's psychological breakdown as a dark comedy#oh? starlo succeeded in killing Clover and now that he can see the blood spilling into the sand and suddenly everything isn't some#dumb cowboy roleplay where everyone plays at justice and starlo really for real murdered a child? lmaooooooo#let's watch this grown man break down crying as his best friend has to cope with the fact that he's a child murderer.#or axis kills clover in a pacifist route and Ceroba has to cope with the fact that because she told them to not fight back#they couldn't defend themself properly and now another kid died because of Chujin's creation AND she can't use their soul#for her husband's legacy.#or how about dalv killing clover and he realizes that it wasn't a hallucination. he just fought another human.#or martlet's fight where she wasn't seriously trying to apprehend them but they died anyways and she realizes that#a part of her job entails killing kids.#or the Feisty 4 fight where starlo leaves for 5 minutes and comes back to all his friends having murdered a child#why stop at pacifist/neutral though?#Martlet was reluctant to fight clover the first time in a no mercy run. yeah she stopped a dangerous killer but they could've turned#things around and tried to be better but now they never get the chance to do that.#or Ceroba beats Clover and realizes that she has absolutely nothing left for her. her husband is dead. her daughter is in limbo.#her best friend died in front of her. there is nothing left for her now.#..... actually. flowey. pass me the popcorn too. i wanna sit down and see where things go as well.#i know flowey wouldn't give a damn about all the emotional aspects but I'd more than happily eat that angst up!#uty analysis
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"it's better to tear it all down than let things continue like this" just seems like such a big thing to be resigned to...do you think they talked about it
#THIS is several months old bc i had wanted to do more with it but at this point i think i'm not going to. its fine as is#pizza tower#pillar john#gerome#john pillar#i think about them so much and they are so tragic to me forever. pillar john thumbs up death sprite makes me insane every day#like at what point did they realize they couldn't stop pizzahead? at what point did gerome accept he couldn't keep up with the decay?#how long were they waiting for a guy that could come through and just wreck shit?#and how distant a hope would it be that that guy could also be trusted with the treasures to give them any shot at a good ending#peppino is certainly not.... the ideal choice for a hero. but it's what they got. and he was enough.#begging and crying and shaking everyone please you have to care about the pillar bros#pizzaposting#arting
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Shout out to Seymour and Audrey for possibly being the fictional couple with the worst communication skills. Literally they're so bad that the world ended because of it
#yannow. because if Seymour had told her about the plant being man-eating she wouldn't have died and then he wouldn't have#probably Audrey would've wanted to stay in Skid Row for a bit longer so they could supervise it until it died#instead of that stupid plan Seymour had of just leaving the killer plant alone in a shop that he was hopefully at least gonna board up???#also Audrey didn't tell him she loves him for probably years so like#technically he didn't tell her either but it's even more obvious with him so he doesn't really have to#and she lived for probably years thinking that if he knew a certain piece of information about her he would hate her#when she was upset after Orin's death and couldn't stop herself from crying she tried to get away from Seymour so he wouldn't see her cry#also Seymour lived for probably weeks thinking that she didn't actually love him while they were in a relationship#overall really bad communication skills all around I love them 15/10#lsoh#little shop of horrors#audrey lsoh#seymour lsoh#seymour x audrey
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pros of being mostly immune to online impulse purchases: I can save my money and use it on more necessary things, like rent and groceries
cons of being mostly immune to online impulse purchases: I don't get to have The Thing
#sobbing crying etc etc. I'm okay just dumb#ordered a custom thing but the colors ended up looking different from how I thought they would. 0 dead 1 dying of Stupid About It (me)#it's still very cool in its own right and it was Expensive for us. it was just me fucking up and choosing the wrong color...#and there's no real way to request a different version without just. buying a new one basically#but the site is still having a sale and it's chewing at me so bad right now. but it's not something I can afford to impulse buy#and even if somebody did just plop a big donation/order a big commission etc etc right now I still couldn't justify it#because there are other things I should take care of first#instead of replacing something that's not technically broken. it's literally just not the color I thought it would be but aaaUUUUUUUGHHHH.#I'm just mad and sad and tired and stressed and should go to bed and stop thinking about it. it's fine. it's literally fine.#just kicking myself for it and about a billion other tiny stupid things right now.#storm speaking
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sorry this idea possessed me
#this was the stupid thing i had to do i was referring to in the last post. sorry. idk why i find this meme Very Funny.#also. i had to make the text crispier.. i couldn't stand the fuzziness of the template (crying)#i thought too hard about which grongi to put down the side.#jalaji ginoga and obviously daguva for their hashtag impact on the plot.#zazalu because i thnk she Would tell godai this. and garima because i think she's sexy and wanted her on here.#now the question is if i tag this with kuuga tags or if.. i shouldn't#kjdfhg#kuugaposting#kr kuuga#yuusuke godai#<- well im tagging it with my blog's own organisation tags at least#godai yusuke#kamen rider kuuga#ok just two the most used kuuga tag and godai tag ✌#why can i see myself embarassingly re reblogging this and making everyon look at it over and over and my followers scroling past like#please! please stop reblogging the godai whatsapp cck post#mine
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Bitches be like 'I am mature and understand myself very well!' and then cry for hours over this figure
#south park#stan marsh#i had to make this a meme so i wouldn't go fucking crazy#the situation is that I saw this figure a few days ago although I had already seen it once#but a few days ago I thought about buying it#like ALL THE FUCKING TIME#so now when I told my family about it we saw that it was quite expensive#so they just told me to think if I really needed it#and the best part: I couldn't stop crying and laughing at absurd things repeatedly at the same time#like what the fuck bro#can someone give me some advice on how to stop thinking about this figure tysm#the level of my fanaticism for him already makes me feel ashamed atp and i hate it#sorry for thinking this is the notes app guys i'm a very normal stan marsh fan yk#:3#me core
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FF7 REBIRTH SPOILERS ft A THEORY OF MINE
"Emptiness"
I may be reading too deep into this but bear with me. Sephiroth doing his damned best to reinforce that Cloud is nothing, that everything he feels his fake, that he's a puppet pulled along by Sephiroth's strings with no real purpose of his own. "Your tears are empty" is a line that really stands out to me, because Sephiroth insinuates that Cloud isn't a person and has no true substance as an individual. He's a shell.
Then much later, in the dream-esque Sleeping Forest, Aerith wants to spend one of their final moments focusing on Cloud, focusing on "finding the real [him]". Then Cloud hands Holy to Aerith, and she gifts him the clear materia in return, presumably having taken up Holy before she leaves. Aerith theorised earlier in the game that Holy was probably powered by her memories and dreams, and having lost them to the Whispers, to fate, has rendered the materia useless.
Basically, Cloud aptly describes not-Holy with, "It looks empty".
An empty man holding onto an empty materia.
I don't know, man. The thing about being given an empty thing after being told and tortured with the idea that you yourself are an empty thing is getting to me.
Part 3 is most likely going to deal with the fallout of Cloud's broken psyche and piecing him back together to "find the real [him]". I'm theorising not-Holy is only restored once Cloud has finally figured out who he is and what he wants to do.
Because materia isn't just the crystallisation of mako and the Lifestream. It's the physical representation of hopes and dreams and desires. The Black Materia was created to deliver the Gi from their unending existence. The White Materia ensures the prayers of the planet are answered.
And now not-Holy belongs to Cloud, so that whatever he finds in himself will fuel not-Holy and provide it with new purpose, maybe even allow him to finally heal after over two decades of suffering, because as Aerith said, "it's about saving the world — and you"
That is all
#ff7 rebirth spoilers#HOLLERING UNTIL I GET GIVEN FF7R PART 3 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#WHAT DO YOU MEAN I HAVE TO WAIT FOR YEARS#GENUINELY SO DISTRAUGHT OVER THIS GAME. FUCK#“maybe aerith doesn't die!!! maybe cloud saves her!!!!” oh sweet summer child past agni we got something even MORE CONFUSING#this has been on my mind all night. couldn't stop thinking about this. and also the fact that cloud needs cognitive reconstruction surgery#YEAH SO MATERIA JUST BEING THE SOLIDIFICATION OF NOT JUST MAKO AND THE LIFESTREAM#BUT ALSO THE DESIRES OF THE SOUL#YOU ARE HOLDING THE PUREST ASPECTS OF YOURSELF IN YOUR OWN HANDS#YEAH. ANYONE ELSE THINK ABOUT THAT#im going to cry about this forever now. and think about clerith...... fairwell#cloud strife#aerith gainsborough#ff7 rebirth#ff7#ffvii#final fantasy 7 rebirth#agnirambles
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i wanted to see altaria rei then i started goofin around
#the only ones i could see clearly were eevee eiden and morpeko morvay#i couldn't pin rei to a single mon bc i don't know a THING ABOUT HIM yet#but i want to see ghost type rei fight ghost type kuya and they're both just super effective against each other#i wonder if all the old men automatically get honourary ghost type membership. live 300 years ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED: spooky#ANYWAY LET ME TALK ABOUT MY LIST#as in the list i was compiling of pokemon who matched the VIBE of someone and i couldn't decide#now BESIDES the ones req et al. already mentioned. which i already 👍👍👍 i was trying to find even moooore . exploring what could be.....#rei: altaria. marowak (alolan). noctowl. chandelure. decidueye. ribombee [a quiet friend :)]. inteleon.#once again i don't know rei's birdy deal yet so i won't (eheheh) pigeonhole him into an owl pokemon but we'll just wait and see#i had inteleon under rei before milke brought up sobble yakumo so now i'm like..... oh no...#rei fits the last evol and yakumo fits the first two.... uhhhhh#they can share. like they share gem placement. butt buddies.#yakumo had: girafarig. froslass. azurill (crying). tropius. wishiwashi. leavanny. marshadow.#i just want him to hang out with the food related mons and enjoy some fresh fruit with a giant flying dinosaur. yah#OK FOR EDMOND I SAW SIRFETCH'D AND COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING#WHAT A REGAL BOY. I HAVE TO. PLEASE I NEED EDMOND TO WIELD ONIONS#i was trying to be serious and find him a proper majestic pokesona . i swear. but the look on sirfetch'd's's face#edmond's list went: skarmory. lucario. cinccino. zeraora. dachsbun.#do i know edmond? i doubt. he's fluffy. wait no he's severe. wait no would he dare carry a fluffy cakey pokemon around? DARE HE????#for olivine i was even more stumped. seems like a lot of the pokemon i immediately thought of were the fluffy nurse types#stuff like chansey/blissey. kangaskhan.#this pokemon is 100% female? *flings pokedex out the window* no. olivine is a gender now#some of the newer pokemon i considered were bewear. drampa. mabosstiff.#but once again these were all just Protective of the Little Ones types#so i was imagining olivine just chilling with his serene smile and an army of MASSIVE CARETAKER POKEMON behind him#but. there has to be more to him than just taking care of others . furrows brow. idk. i'll settle for lapras FOR NOW#ditto eiden riding on the back of lapras. wonderful. glorious#pokemon crossover
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