#and I have OTHER exams to revise for
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Clawing at the walls of my enclosure
#moss mumbles#I hate school so much I hate it let me OUT (I’m not even there rn)#I’m literally fine im just getting bored of geography#but I’ve only done 3 hours of revision today#and that is like#nowhere near enough#I couldn’t do enough if I worked straight from now till the exam on Monday#and I have OTHER exams to revise for#and I literally told myself I wasn’t gonna care about these exams bc they’re just mocks#but here I am. CARING#also the thing is I would go to sleep now and do it tomorrow#BUT#I know if I go to sleep#I’m gonna wake up tomorrow and have so much trouble starting the revision again#that im gonna waste hours#and I just want this DONE#I hate having adhd#like I love having it#but I hate having it#yk
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My brain coming up with ideas / theories / scenarios after the new Zaros audio:
What if... (Sorry for my english, i hope this makes sense...)
The Earis didn't steal Zaros idea and the corrupt judge changes their answer, so the Earis had to improvise.
Didn't Zaros say in one of the audios, that Earis was dreaming of doing something else (Part 3?). The Earis wanted to travel/see the world, maybe study science, be a painter or dancer, etc.... What if the Earis had originally - once they grew up - accepted their responsibilities, sacrificed their life to learn and live up to the expectations. But now they see a tiny chance to break out of their "golden cage". They see that Zaros really wants to help the people and that he would do what is best for the dominion. That he would be a good enough eminence. But the Earis can't tell anyone that deep down they wanted to leave their life at court behind because they don't want to disappoint their mother or anyone else. They also feel bad for dreaming of a life outside the palace and being "irresponsible" to what is expected of them. They know some nobles / judges try to manipulate the trials in their favor and wouldn't want Zaros as the new eminence. So the Earis plays the game. They try to upset Zaros, so he pettily puts in more effort to win in the trials. The Earis is intelligent and actually likes Zaros. They think Zaros likes them back but the Earis wants their freedom, so they try to make Zaros dislike them in order for him to try to be better at everything and to get him to win the Contention. The Earis knows he will win, that is their way out. They have their bags packed and after it is announced that Zaros is the new eminence, they quietly leave without anyone noticing. They are finally free to do what they want for the first time in their life as an adult. In the end Zaros sees the Earis happy to leave quietly with all their things already packed and realizes:
Rereading this, i realize i may have watched the old Barbie movies one too many times as a child:
Anyway... me waiting for the next part of the noble trials:
#zsakuva#sakuverse#the noble trials#zsakuva zaros#zaros#zaros kymen atha'lin#zaros atha’lin#i have administrative + civil law and other exams in less than six weeks... i should be learning and revising#spoilers#?#dont mind my rambling#im a clown#🤡#zsakuva earis#zsakuva the noble trials#zaros story#youtube audios#im probably way off what is going to actually happen
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when will exams stop being cruel and allow my girlfriend and i to see each other again
#our exams have been falling on like opposite days#so one of us is always desperately revising whilst the other is free#and i miss themmmmmm
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I once read a soulmate AU for a different fandom where the way the connection eventually manifested was that whatever someone wrote or drew on their own skin, it would transfer to their soulmate’s. And I was thinking of the applications of it for Rimster given that time Rimmer resorted to scrawling revision notes on his arms and legs.
Like, Lister’s probably used to occasionally seeing some exam notes and other things pop up on his skin from time to time given how often Rimmer takes exams but usually it’s been within relatively normal boundaries. He’s not gonna judge. He doesn’t know much about the person on the other end of their inked connection but he hopes with all the tests they seem to take that they’re doing well. Sometimes he’ll even scrawl a little ‘good luck!’ on himself as a kind of encouragement to them.
The very first time something like this happens, Rimmer freaks out. Because oh holy smeg he has a soulmate! There’s someone out there for him! A real honest to god person!! Meant for him!! All the years of his brothers teasing him, acting like the universe would just skip bothering to assign him one, are washed away to be replaced by an initially heart-bursting glow of elation, but it’s followed swiftly by a deep-seated dread. Because oh god anything he writes on himself will be seen by this other person. What if he smegs the whole thing up!? He’s already caught their attention with his revision scrawlings, he’s going to have to tone it down to something that won’t be off-putting…
Fast forward and Lister has joined the Red Dwarf crew and it’s like any other day. He’s left his annoying bunkmate to stew in pre-exam nerves and he’s out and about on the ship, maybe trying to flirt with some of the lady officers when suddenly he notices his hand rapidly becoming covered in words, scrawled in a panicked frenzy, first across his palm, then the back of his hand and down onto the forearm. And yeah, sure, this has happened before, it’s no big deal. Except this is the most chaotic it’s ever been, especially since it’s now trailing right up his arm and if he doesn’t get out of public view people are going to notice.
So he runs back to the bunk room, hoping to grab a jacket or something to cover it up but he freezes as soon as he’s half-pulled it on because he spots Rimmer. Smeghead Supreme, Arnold Judas Rimmer, sitting with a textbook on his lap and his shirt sleeve rolled up, utterly engrossed in his pre-exam stress-induced frenzy of copying as much of the text from the book onto his own skin as possible.
The realisation hits like a truck and Lister cannot believe it. He refuses to. It’s gotta be a coincidence. Rimmer wouldn’t be the only person in the universe cramming for an exam, surely! Just because he is doesn’t mean what he’s writing is the same as what’s still being hurriedly scrawled up the inside of his left arm. The universe wouldn’t play that cruel a trick on him! Surely!
Rimmer hasn’t even noticed him come in and he’s muttering out loud each word as he copies it out from the book and Lister can only watch in horror as he sees the exact same words blossom across his own skin and oh this CANNOT be happening!!
So now you have Lister knowing that the universe has somehow, bizarrely, chosen to pair him up with Rimmer, and Rimmer blissfully unaware of the fact that the soulmate he’s yearned for his whole life is the lazy gimboid who just interrupted his revision by tossing an unwashed shirt at his head.
#Rimmer becoming a hologram after the leak makes the AU a bit odd bc why would it still work on him in that form#but suspending disbelief and allowing it to happen that way allows for some fun stuff#where Rimmer is bemoaning the fact he never got to find out who his soulmate was supposed to be and Lister is there awkwardly like oh boy…#last two people in the universe and they’re soulmates and he still hates the idea but it’s really starting to look like it was always meant#to happen this way so he grabs a pen and writes Smeghead on his arm and Rimmer watches in HORROR#just absolute horror and then he goes full on into denial like no this isn’t right#it can’t have been you the whole time! You’re a man (he’ll figure out how he feels about that later) and also I’d have known if it was you!#he tries to convince himself the universe just reassigned them each other bc they’re the only two left#but lister has to reluctantly tell him about the exam revision notes and that he knew it was Rimmer since before the accident#also this only works in ur own dimension so Lister writing on himself will only show on his Rimmer but not Ace bc Ace has his own back home#But it means that lister is able to confirm that it’s HIS Rimmer returning from being Ace by seeing the text he writes appear on his skin#Rimster#Or it could happen during the exam where Rimmer has his I Am A Fish breakdown#lister just sees I am a fish appear on his arm repeatedly and only finds out later#when he gets told about Rimmer’s exam incident#red dwarf
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death and pestilence on all my professors
#effictively just tanked my gpa👍🏻 i hate this uni so much oh my god#idek how i'm supposed to study for tomorrow's exam#even funnier that we literally begged them to postpone the exams a bit or at the very least space them out and they refused#but no let's have TWO written finals 80 and 100 questions each#covering 90% of EVERYTHING we took this semester. everything. on the same day :)#amazing that i spent weeks studying for these finals and spent 13 hours yesterday glued to my desk just revising#when i could have not studied at all and it wouldnt have made a difference!#:))#walking out of the exam room it's just lines of people sitting on the ground sobbing#when they could have just not pushed exams so early people in other majors don't finish until the end of this month#amazing faculty we have here
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Actually, I think Kaeya would be a really good influence on the young people and children of Mond.
Yes, he's horrible at taking care of himself, has terrible coping mechanisms and is just downright not in a good mindset whatsoever. However, when it comes to others, he tries his darn hardest to make sure they take proper care of themselves specifically so they don't turn out like him.
He invites his knights to the tavern after a successful mission - drinks on him. He won't force anyone to drink alcohol if they don't want to. If he knows someone has problems with alcohol, he won't suggest a tavern outing. Kaeya knows how difficult it is to keep those in check and doesn't need to put anyone else through that. (There are exceptions, obviously, such as coaxing info out of suspicious persons via loosening the tongue with alcohol, but that's different.)
Kaeya sees Rosaria smoking behind the church, he joins her, keeps her company, asks for a cigarette too. He tells her she really should quit, it's not good for her. Rosaria mumbles under her breath, calling him a hypocrite, but if she notices how he orders her chocolate and different snacks at the bar to keep her from getting antsy and in turn keeping her from going for a light, she doesn't mention it.
Jean isn't taking care of herself? Long hours at the office, little to no food, horrid amounts of caffeine instead of sleep? "Jeanie, there's an issue that desperately needs your attention! Yes, it's very important, follow me! Why are we going to your house? Well you see, this is where the very important matter should be. It's you. You're the important matter. You need sufficient rest to function properly. Much love and understanding, goodnight." Jean would argue with him, call him a hypocrite, if as soon as her head hit the pillow she wasn't immediately out like a light.
I like to believe that Kaeya also teaches the children of Mondstadt all about the importance of self care, as in eating regular and nutritious meals, getting enough sleep, getting help when they're sick. He educates them about different substances, why they're bad and how to use them safely if they desperately feel like they must. He doesn't make it a whole 'thing', it just somehow comes up in conversation, but he does stress the importance.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not making him into a saint by any means! Kaeya doesn't care enough to intervene if some drunkard is drowning their troubles at a tavern or if one of the townspeople have been skipping a suspicious amount of meals. It's not his issue, not his problem, he doesn't care. However, when it comes to the people he does really hold near and dear (read Diluc, Jean, Rosaria, Klee, Bennett, etc.) he will take matters into his own hands.
I think Kaeya knows the theory, he knows what should be done really well, he just doesn't do it himself. And because of that, Kaeya hurts. He doesn't want people he cares about to hurt like he does. So he makes sure they too know the theories, but actually put them to practice too.
#i should be sleeping but i don't want to so have some Kaeya thoughts#i dont like the headcanon that kaeya is completely indifferent to what people do#or that hes a bad influence#hes definitely a bad example im not arguing with that but he tries his hardest to not be a bad influence#especially to the people he grown to care about#kaeya alberich#kaeya#jean gunhildr#klee#rosaria#my personal stash of kaeya#in other news I've written a poem and decided it fit kaeya really well so now I'm drawing a little comic type thing for it#I'm very excited about it#should i be revising for my exams instead? yes. definitely. but fuck that because i don't want to
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Took twice the max dose of melatonin before the final revision for tomorrow’s exam, I’m shitting my pants and I genuinely don’t know anything as thoroughly as I should but if I sleep less than 4 hrs before it I just know I’m gonna do even worse somehow
#don’t take twice the max dose of anything btw#genuinely don’t do the shit that I do#i only did it bc I know my limits and haven’t had any other substances in over 24 hrs but don’t ever try it#always talk to your gp before taking any meds and supplements at all#anyway psa aside#I want to revise for two hrs so until 1.30am circa but I genuinely hope I pass out sometime in the next hours and a half#godspeed ig#uni#melatonin#I have super high expectations but I genuinely prepared this exam in like 4 days and my brain has been all over the place#haven’t had the chance (economic too so please please consider sparing a couple of bucks for my ko-fi?) to meet my therapist in 2 weeks#been super suicidal super busy dealing with stuff and people and my family and uni and ah oh how I wish I had a brain able to focus#also the ‘visions of horror’ as I call them have lowkey turned into auditory hallucinations that never stop and it’s… tough#genuinely so tired of everything in general#I’d promised to hang with my uni friends after the exam bc I should be done my midday tops but I know im gonna be super sad and underwhelme#so I hope I can be at home by 4 pm tops with one excuse or the other#I love them all so much but I need a break. also bc I got another exam in less than a fucking week and I still haven’t started studying for#it because it’s objectively easier than tomorrow’s and because when was I supposed to study for it#I spent 3 good days working on a paper that isn’t even mine for a subject I don’t even take#a favor for a friend which turned into 3 more friends asking me if I could help them with theirs#and you know me#I never say no. unfortunately. but also I’m super glad they want my help bc they know I can write at least (one good thing)#but. that’s still -3 days available#then. the demons#wasted so many hours just pacing and biting my nails raw and being pathetic#so yeah. in a little under 15 hrs I want to be in bed again. resting until the 19th when the cycle will begin anew#also math ain’t mathing. my exam is in 12 hrs only now 13.
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Just submitted the SI project, honestly not my best work haha. But sometimes that's all we can do. I did well in the other 3 projects, so hopefully it won't influence my grade too much.
Here's to accepting our failures lmao
#I have two other projects#and I need to revise for exams#I just don't care much about it tbh#It is what it is#uni
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Hi! Happy New Year! How’s the Classic Who watch going? Still in the first season, right?
happy new year to you too!! it’s going extremely slowly lol. as in ‘have only just started watching the daleks’ slowly. my excuse for this is that i am also mid-homestuck reread and mid-exam revision and there is only so much my brain can focus on at once
#tempted to start watching it while i revise. sometimes watching stuff really helps me focus other times i just. don’t do any work lol#i am determined to get on with it though. exams are over in two weeks so i’ll have a couple free weeks then#and i think i’ll properly get into it when i finish the hs reread. admittedly that could take a while#although who knows maybe i’ll breeze through the 4000ish pages of act six in a week again#asks
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oh for fuck's saaaaaaake 😐
#a student didn't pass their linguistics exam so i returned it to them for revision#with my commentary on what needs to be improved without explicitly pointing out which answers are wrong#and the new answers they have submitted are just as wrong only with different/fancier words 🤡#like. dear child if i tell you to identify only _phrases_ and not entire _sentences_ from the text#and even tell you which exercises that we have done in class will help you with identifying _phrases_ instead of _sentences_#then WHY. THE FUCK. ARE YOU STILL. USING ENTIRE FUCKING SENTENCES IN THIS TASK?!!?!?!?#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhdfhhdfsfhsfhshf#and if i tell you to be more specific with your analysis#instead of going ''it could mean this but it could also mean that'' because HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO EVALUATE THAT#''more specific'' does not mean ''the exact same answer but put in a more formal way'' 😐#yes dear child i KNOW none of those things are _explicitly stated_ in the text you're analysing#that's why you need to COMPARE the two texts and make CONCLUSIONS based on that comparison 😭#like. bro. just choose one or the other way to analyse it?! if you argue it well enough your guess is just as good as mine!#i should have maybe just told them to pick the other option for that task since they clearly completely missed the point of this one#but i wanted to give them another chance 😔#the world's longest sigh
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i forgot everything i studied for these past 6 months how is that even possible
#i dont even have any energy to revise all that i have my exams tomorrow#wish me luck guys though im definitely gonna fail (with confidence)#meh whatever it's just an entrance exam i'll apply for other colleges ig
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i have an exam at 5:45 pm Today and I was planning on studying for an exam that'sthis sunday for like 2h Before going to write the exam that is Today but I don't wanannananana
#i finished revising for todays exam yesterday#so i have time to get ahead for the last exam thats on sunday#but i technically don't have to bc i still have 4 entire days other than today AND! i studied some of the material#already last week!#but i should. but i dont want to. but i should. but i#dies#z.post
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Sometimes i wonder "did something happen to my wife?"
And then i worry a lil and then i see she liked my posts and im like "im glad she is still alive but perhaps a lil stressed uwu"
#im sorry for calling you out pumpkin#“i cant believe a teenager is having more platonic sex than i am” - a guy i talked to#oh to have social anxiety#totally cant relate#not at all#i would never#me? also having social anxiety?#pish posh#btw pumpkin if ur reading this i hope ur exams went well#i hope u dont have any for the rest of the week#but knowing your school you definitely have like 3 other exams#why? because the school system wants ur blood honey#stop revising ur gonna do fine anyways cause ur so smart#anyways i hope ur doing well!!!!!
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You people are assholes and cruel I should have never fuckin said how old I am now go to hell.
I have had to endure the most strenuous types of bullying that shall leave scars on my psyche for the rest of my life
I hope you disgusting ruffians are pleased with your efforts to torment me as they have worked to high affect
I shall never doze away to escape from the troubling thoughts now plaguing my mind from this horrendous bullying
#man im tired as shit#i should have been asleep like two hours ago.#oh fuck i need to start studying for my exams so i can actually get out of school...#its not that bad. im only sitting two exams as i know because my school is basically just giving me the bare minimum to get me to fuck off#and its art and english. two subjects i love and that I'm good at#aswell as my art teacher is really cool and has been helping me with all my other work and has posted a bunch of stuff to help revise#hes cool i really like him#he can be a bit harsh but its because he wants to see you improve and hes stressed like 24/7#he is genuinely such a cool guy#anyway night you fucking fucks#also if you somehoe couldnt gather i am joking about me being upset. i couldn't care less#honestly i find it funny seeing other people realise how old i am
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Me remembering that I still need to study for the re-examination session (which is in the same week as my bday, but it's ok tho cuz my bday falls on a Sunday) so that I can take the exams I failed this uni year
#mina.txt#8 days of studying... for both algebra and statistics ggyghfh#at least i have more time to study than i did for the other subjects#like during exam sessions there was usually a 3-4 day gap between each exam so there wasn't too much time to revise and stuff ;-;#fortunately for me i'd usually do homework throughout the semester so that stuff will be easier to memorize for the exams#but for the 2 that i failed i didnt have time to study the pedagogy exam would be a day or 2 before them... in both semesters ;-;#so uhhh yeah im tired and mentally exhausted but i still... need to push a lil more until i ACTUALLY OFFICIALLY reach the summer holidays
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everyone please pray or manifest for me that i get one of the easy texts for my exam pleaseeeee
#its an oral exam where you have to read out and translate a piece of text from the curriculum (in japanese)#and some of the texts have a lot of kanji i am unfamiliar with#and while they said that the reading out loud doesnt count and is only to make sure we know how the kanji have to be read#its still kinda embarrassing if i have to stop up every other word bc idk the kanji#but the text i was revising today was so easy compared bc its written from the perspective of a 12 year old#so theres not that many hard words#while some of the other ones describe very unfamiliar phenomena etc#like theres one thats about some sea creature who lives in a hole in the ocean....#idk all those words pleaseeeee#also one thing about japanese is that theres so many onomatopoetica#like as adverbs.... its just onomatopoetica and i dont remember any of themmmmmm#but anyways after the translation part theres a conversation part which would be fine but i havent spoken japanese in 5 months so im#probably super rusty#while i think my reading skills have improved a lot and i learned a lot of new kanji this semester#i have not spoken a coherrent sentence since january lmao#but i actually dont care THAT much about this exam#bc when its the last exam for my entire bachelors degree#i just get extreme exam anxiety and the anxiety only gets worse when i have to come up with stuff in the moment#its fine if i can just stick to a script but i usually fall on the questions they ask
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