#and I am proud of her for her achievements dont get me wrong

[theworldthrukaleidoscope-eyes]

To fast food workers: "It's only meant for young people in college! Not to support a family!"

To retail workers: "The job isn't that hard. Why do they need to be paid so much?"

To CEOs: "They had to work hard to get where they are!" - Let's talk about this. A CEO of a small business (I'm using an example of someone I know personally, just so you know I'm not inflating or spewing secondhand facts) makes 350k/year. Minimum wage makes 15k/year. Do you honestly think any people/persons are capable of working over 20x harder than anyone else?? Retail workers have customers screaming at them for 8+ hours a day; fast food workers must prepare your food in a boiling hot kitchen (with customers screaming at them!) for 8+ hours a day. I could go on about waitresses, firemen, childcare, teachers! (oh but those jobs should be fulfilling enough without the paycheck...right?? Tell that to the CEO) My CEO friend doesn't work every day. She works MAYBE 15 hours a week, and complains about the days she has to drive to work to handle things in person. She absolutely does not work harder than minimum wage workers. Don't get me wrong--she used to. Before she made 350k a year. Before she made even 200k a year. Did she work hard to 'earn' a position where she makes so much and doesn't work? No. That's what we call 'retiring'. What she is doing is earning money she don't need off the labor of others. Because that's the kicker--she doesn't need this much money. She owns three houses. She travels at least 3 times a year overseas or on yachts/cruises. She buys expensive furniture (I'm talking 2 thousand dollar lamps, 400 dollar chairs) on a WHIM. She eats out for nearly every meal. She does not need this much money. People in poverty don't want to have a free ride. They don't want rich people to pay their way. They want this kind of financial imbalance to stop. Because when your friend who just spent more than you make in a year on her monthly travel expenses, and then complains that her taxes are just too high, and she has to pay way too much for health insurance, to someone who literally cannot afford health insurance (and some days, actual food)...it starts to get ridiculous.

This is a real person I know in real life. Not a billionaire. Not a famous actor, artist, or anyone you would have heard of. This is income inequality right on your doorstep.

[juniestar]

Oh my god one last thing my ex took me to outside lands and when we tried to watch lana del rey he laid down on the grass and had a “panic attack” (this was after months of him talking about how he didn’t like her) so we went to see foo fighters after a bit and he was FINE

[calpalsworld]

I just realized Im over 6 months on T...!!!

My genuine review of T for others who may be considering or just interested in the topic.

Keep in mind that everyone will have different results on T. For me I am on a small dose because my T levels were already high to begin with.

Reasons why I went on T:

Was living out publicly as non binary but I would still feel upset when strangers would misgender me.

Had been wishing that I was more masc body wise and voice wise since at least high school.

Didn't have intense dysphoria but I felt very neutral about my body. It felt strange and like it wasn't progressing how I imagined it would. I had certain features that pissed me off, which I knew T would change.

Dysphoria was triggered in public interactions and when I had to acknowledge my body by myself. I felt like strangers weren't seeing me as me, and felt that I wasn't experiencing my body in the way I wanted to.

Pros:

Everything!!!

Voice that surprises me with how deep it is sometimes. When I lean back against a chair and speak I can feel my diaphragm rumble.

Menstruation stopped almost immediately.

(May be TMI but this is a major thing yet the only thing that I did not know was going to happen before starting). Rapid and significant genital changes. Psychologically helpful for me.

Hairier arms, stomach, and thighs.

Stomach fat and face fat increase. (potentially boob and thigh fat decrease but it may be placebo or just in contrast).

More facial fuzz.

Slightly veinier hands.

Slightly thicker/more muscular arms.

Looking at myself and seeing someone who looks good and confident and masc/butch and feeling great about it. Sometimes I look at myself in the reflections of building windows and get excited.

Being able to discuss T with other friends who are on T.

People misgender me as he/him and a man (Im non binary and go by they/them) more often than misgendering me as she/her and a woman now. This is still not ideal but it bugs me less.

Random queer strangers asking "are you on T!?" and being excited.

Knowing I dont have to live my life as a lie.

Cons:

My pre existing erotophobia (I'm triggered and obsessive over certain things relating to sex) has been activated as I experience new things.

My pre existing paranoia being rebranded into a trans related experience (I worry sometimes people are stalking me and planning to kill me for the slightest things I do wrong, now I worry that its because Im trans). This will go away once I work through my mental illness and internalized bigotry.

Voice hurt when the changes started (like a sore throat for a few weeks as if I was sick).

I cant do a lot of funny voices that I liked doing anymore, but I can do new voices.

New and strange sensations in genital area, during the first few weeks it was very painful (I have Pelvic Floor Dysfunction and Vaginismus so this may not be a universal experience).

Became slightly stinkier and oilier when I started, but it seems to have gone away.

I'm non binary and I still feel connected to women and I get anxious that people won't be able to comprehend that. (examples: others might not like me calling myself "butch" or sharing my experiences with womanhood). But this is internal rather than reflective of anything I've experienced. This may be entirely in my head.

Family awkwardness. Family members assuming crazy stories about how I feel. (generic things like: thinking i hate myself and am scared of men so i want to turn myself into a man?!?!😭😭😭). But friends and others do not assume these things.

(TMI but true) Thick buttcrack hair is annoying.

Future thoughts:

I feel very fortunate that my experience with T is going very well.

I know the best parts of T takes time and patience to become apparent so I am excited that I started at 21.

I am proud of achieving what I thought might only be a fantasy, and I hope I can have access to T for the rest of my life.

[justmeinadaze]

I had a very abusive relationship and after 9 years I was finally able to get away from him at the beginning of the year.

Today is his birthday and I have an urge to text him and I feel so silly because for some reason my brain wants to believe that what he did to me was not serious enough to make the decision to get him out of my life.

I don't know how to tell this to the people around me, if I myself think I am so stupid for that obviously others will think the same.

First of all, thank you for feeling comfortable sharing that with me❤.

Secondly it's never wrong to leave a toxic relationship and I'm so proud of you taking that step. I dont know if this helps but

I was abused through my childhood physically, mentally, and emotionally by a parent and I didnt leave until I was 13. Even I left I still kept her around because in my brain I was like "Shes my mom and shes sick. She cant help it. Other people have been through way worse."

Even though I was out of the house the emotional and mental abuse got worse not just towards me but the people around me. She accused my dad of things he didnt do. When he died she said she thought we'd finally be able to have me now (I was 23 and this was 3 months after he passed). When I lost a friend of mine 5 years ago she said the worst thing you could say to your kid and I knew then had to fully cut ties.

I havent talked to her in these 5 years and I'll tell ya I'm doing so much better. But... that doesnt mean I dont miss her. Sometimes I think about trying again with her but then I remember how far I've come.

The first time I told my friends about my abuse I remember I thought "oh they're going to think it's no big deal." But they were shocked and so encouraging.

If you tell someone what you've been through and they invalidate you and experiences in anyway then, honey, those arent people you want to have in your life.

The road to healing isnt easy but I assure you that you achieved the hardest step that some never reach... you left.

I see you and I'm proud of you❤

I'm sorry if I rambled a bit. PTSD brain skips sometimes.

[night-rhea]

I am curious what would happen if Ben and Rhea swapped roles or Ben as the masked death eater while rhea is aurorer.

Hmm interesting. Pretty interesting.

Ben being a Death-eater despite being muggleborn, looks difficult but not entirelly impossible me thinks.

He can hide his identity from regular Death Eaters maybe? And if he is powerfull enough to fight good, i mean good good, who is to judge that he is less from pureblood wizard.

But also him being Death Eater seems more like it if some high ranked one uses him as pawn you know. I dunnoo like Night's uncle Jonathan Rhea hm? Who is also member of R.

İ dont know which year was it but remember when Ben was the one who was controlled by R to send message to mc? What if they never let Ben go? What if they slowly, but i mean really slowly made their way into his beliefs. That there is so many corrupted wizards that he cant trust anyone, anyone but R who can see through people. Even Rakepick betrayed them, but R already told them to stay away from her right?

Long story short i can definitely see a scenerio where R can win Ben over. İf we add the obsession of protecting i headcanon that he has, it becomes really reasonable.

He has to help the "cleaning". Even if that means he need to work with disgusting beliefs. He can defend himself among them after all. Jonathan can benefit from him oh so much. He wants Night under his control, under his command. And Ben, might be the best way to achieve that goal.

Now i realized i didnt make him all evil and shit. Good. İ dont like pure evil chars. Like how i did with Night, i would also write him as "great goal with very questionable methods"

On the other hand, our poor Night. Despite all the manipulations they stand in believing the "good" and forced their curse to work in their own ways, without hurting and destroying.

Ben dissapearing would crush them really bad. He was the biggest support to them for years. Even if it wasnt healty, i dont think Night would realize that. And seeing him right next to Jonathan? Man.

How could he abandon them like that, them and all their friends? What could Jonathan have offered to him to get him?

Their curse feeds on anger, regret. And Ho boy Ben would trigger these on dangerous levels.

İn animes and movies, there are scenes that lover turns evil and their loved one desperatelly calls them back, unable to hurt the evil one despite the bad things they do. And in one vulnerable moment, evil one reaches their lover oh so gently and so caring like none of this happened. Speaks soft enough to reach other ones broken heart, strokes their cheek with their thumb- And says they just need to let go, just need to trust them.

YOU KNOW SCENES LİKE THAT RİGHT?

This. This is entirety of reversed CopperRhea.

And do you know whats the most interesting part?

He would take Night to his side. He would have succesed.

Dont get me wrong, Night isnt some damsel in distress. But without Ben being on their side in their worst times, the curse took a lot from them. Both from their mind and power. We shouldnt judge them for being in need of comfort from the one they loves right?

Oh how Jonathan would be proud of his little pawn for being succesfull. How long do you think for Ben to realize Jonathan will drain Night to death? Who knoooows~

[koaly-ty]

Different Princess (Episode Reacts)

Spoilers for Different Princess from episode 18 to 20. Tis what this review covers. Expect nothing and be not disappointed.

Ep 18

bestie stands disapproving of you rescuing your traitor wife (fish guy needs an award for all those exasperated frustrated im done with this looks, also a promotion to eternally disappointed in you bestie)

so much shoving

dont suck it out dont suck it out (chants frantically) please dont please please please nooo, eternally frustrated bestie why did u have to say that, u r a doctor do not make such terrible incomplete medical statements, lovesick people have very different interpretations of such matters

nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo (cries, not in a goood way, in a very sad utterly done with these people way)

also doctor thank you for stating that like you thought it was gonna stop him, or be retained in the memory of any of these people

now they are going to kiss feed her and fight over that (facepalm)

bro u should atleast be awake to appreciate all these tropes going on over your head (and on your neck)(he makes a nice vampire, perfect amount of agony on his face while attacking her neck)

please just end me

i cant do this

gongye qi i am so sorry for you and i respect you, i would have left the continent by now

and they have music, background music for the medicine mouth to mouth (sinking into the ground, im never coming back)

also bro u r the prettiest in the room, why didnt they give you more space for your faint, why such a cramped fall (so disappointed)

bro you need to get paid, forget brotherhood of revenge, your bestie has clearly decided to lose every single one of his braincells

what they cant share the medicine, mouth to mouth, it just all perfectly pours into the other person's mouth?

wrong word. u r a physician not a saint

bro changed his hairstyle (hello zhao yunlan)

bestie mad about it

such a im a big tough guy nice stoic pose (rolls eyes) could look a little less constipated though

oh oh fish guy reciprocates

Female lead: i will not believe these villains but of course they have explained their side of the matter and i may have misunderstood them (lies on floor, what logic is she on)

Ep 19

secretary du u have an exemplary work ethic

new robes new hairstyle bro got a full makeover

and how do u not know he is gentle? he carried you out there while running from pursuers, caught you before you could fall etc etc

he smiled!!!!! (who are you)

proud man applauding his brilliant wife's achievements (so cheesy, pauses to stave off the second hand embarrasment, does not succeed)

lady realises son is still after his bro's wife (aishh)

bestie accepts his in-law

everybody get up give this princess a standing ovation, ostrich (accurate, died laughing)

well now we have two matchmakers for her main couple

i did not just read goo-goo eyes (my eyes oh my eyes my eyes)

bury head in book why not

Ep 20

bro u wrote him, what do u mean since when do u understand each other so well

look who is jealous (smirky face)

secretary du, are u scratched, u r the assassin arent you

im dead sorry, look at him, look at that man staring so adoringly at his wife

ive passed away…………………………..ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (insert more incoherent screaming) proposed, he proposed (more screaming) bro is totally on full husband mode

and here is the obligatory mid-autumn festival scene, every single drama has it huh lanterns wonder and adoring looks

sorry bro your automated script lines are not gonna reach those ears tonight

oh no that male lead is gonna confess his love to her isnt he? bro u know she's ur bro's, why do u persist so futiley

yao yao adorable as always

ah hah mid autumn festival, the holder of all the all cliche cheesy and embarrasssing romantic scenes of dramas

yao yao is the general's kid

murder bro u cant flirt and reciprocate and then suddenly have a moral dilemna, the dilemna should be before you throw yourself in

princess (give her a standing ovation), forget your brothers, u would be the best queen on the throne, she is every self-insert's dream, a pro at wrapping her man around her fingers

okay look here bro, u betrayed your murder bestie for your wife, now you who recycle your outfits has gone and gotten a new outfit to tell your bestie off for falling in love, he hasnt even betrayed you

i can give them a chance, if (insert pointy finger) u agree to marry me, admit to being my wife etc etc

bro u could have called him delusional, u could have pretended u had so many options instead u stood there like a goldfish and admitted it, then u blame him (slaps hand onto forehead)

get off my screen and flirt you terrible cringy creature, even ur servants are in on this (wriggles fingers at screen, shoo shoo)

so du has been replaced by someone else, and no one noticed? poor guy :(

[crescendeyes]

mummy issues

You would think that after all that has happened to my family that they'd have a change of attitude or heart towards how they do certain things. I am appalled mostly at how my mother continues to talk and treat me whenever it is convenient to her.

Over the weekend, I took the time to go over to my parents place despite nursing a hangover and going for Nuuna's grand launch exhausted. My mum had to take a stab at my competence just because she can.

I dont think her comments merit any form of discussion but something bout her comments and tone just ticks me off. She went on to say that she had every right to say what she can say to me because she is my mother.

She tried to blame me for my emotional state but the inability to look inward really truly pissed me off. One of the things my mum is convinced shes well aware of is who i am as a person. A part of me feels like she is jealous of the life I get to have and never got to be a part of such independence. Instead, she is stuck with a half paralysed husband and taking care of two useless men at home by herself makes her feel like she entitled to take it out on me because I moved out.

She texted me this after we had argument:

"Good morning. Just concern & worried of you. I think you should check it up with a therapist on your mood swing . I realised you get angry and agitated very fast. You were gentle & happily talking and another minute your temper flare up and you started scolding in public. I was quite shocked& upset you reacted in such emotional state. I can see that you are very stressed over little things and very impatient. Yes, I agree that I shouldn't brought out topics that happens so many years ago, to me I feel alright bcoz you are my daughter and its a family talk. I am sorry about that."

To which I replied:

"Morning. I just want to tell you there’s nothing wrong with my mood. Since you want to know I’m going to tell you as an adult I’ve had to unlearn a lot of things that I believed since I was young that really affected my confidence and self esteem.

Growing up, you always believe that you shouldn’t compliment me or tell me you’re proud of my achievements. And even as an adult, that theory still stands strong with you. I’ve learned that you will never change and accepted that.

It’s ok if you don’t tell me you love me or you’re proud of me or if you miss me or even if you’re thankful for me - I accepted that. But when you question my ability and competence to you or this family as a provider or a daughter, this really cuts deep into my heart. I believe I go above and beyond for this family. I take every opportunity to think about this family and sometimes even stretch myself over for you. I can see that you do the same for this family too. I learned from the best and appreciate your sacrifices.

So to hear my own mother criticise me and put me down in public even after I’m well off into adulthood is the most painful thing a daughter can ever go through: it angers me and I don’t appreciate being compared to a younger version of myself that was clearly only 20 years old at that time.

Your insensitivity comes from an entitlement you’re my mother but you disregard the fact that you’re my mother. I only have one mother. And if that mother can’t even show me love and encouragement but instead doubt, discouragement and sometimes even call me useless, stupid, can’t be trusted. How can I feel loved and safe around my own mother?

I’m equally shocked that my own mother can put me down so badly in public or even infront of friends and family when I’ve done literally nothing to you to make you feel this way about me. If you really feel this way about me over something I’ve done as a teenager I’m fairly disappointed you don’t see any form of growth in me. You say you don’t say anything nice bout me to my face - that when you compliment me it’s not infront of me. What I’m hearing is I don’t even deserve it but in contrast to how you talk bout Justin - the tone is always much more gentle, thoughtful and respectful.

I’m telling you this because I don’t know how to keep this all inside while having to still be the model daughter that you want. I always feel like I’m not enough to you and frankly, the reason why I fight back is because you don’t have the same respect you give Justin to me. If that’s the case, I don’t see a point to give you the same respect cause you make me, your only daughter; feel like dog shit whenever it’s convenient to you.

I accept your apology and I’m also sorry I snapped at you, but this is a VERY common occurrence with you and it doesn’t sit well with me. Please, if you still want to fix this relationship between us, I really hope you:

A) realise I need to hear gentle words from you B) your words as my mother weigh so much more than anybody else in the world - so choose them wisely C) respect no matter what your relationship is, is earned. I reciprocate whatever energy you give me even though I love you D) I love you and always will, but I can’t say the same bout you because I’ve only ever known that you think of me as a piece of shit daughter. I feel like it all the time whenever I’m around you."

If this isn't the most asian parenting trauma IDK what is. My dad tried to smooth things over the next day by asking us out for dim sum but it was just so awkward. Then today she texted me saying she is coming over to pass me some late lunch. IDK, I feel like she's going to try to talk to me but I dont think I'm ready for it.

[lord-shitbox]

ive nerfed myself

[pepprs]

HI so… per my last post today i did nothing but play video game ♥️. i havent done a wobbledogs post in a couple weeks in bc i got an ear infection and then my wifi adapter broke lol but here are some dogs i have loved recently... (im leaving a lot out bc.. there have been SO many since my last post. but these are like my favorite favorites over the last couple weeks)

this is vasthy! idk why i love them so much i just think she looks rly cool. a lot of the dogs she’s related to look kinda similar but.. idk she specifically just rly grew on me :D

this is PIGLET and they are just a happy little guy!! i wasnt expecting to love him so much but their pinkiness just makes me so happy and i love his little eye shape (it’s charlotte’s! in fact i may be wrong but he might be descended from her now that i think abt it? which would be funny bc of charlottes web lol charlotte and then a pig….) and also he was always just super friendly w the other dogs lol. i just loved having him around. an all around good guy

this is BEAK!!! i dont have many good pictures of her and u cant really tell from this one but she is my first dog who got honest to goodness horns out of nowhere…. and she has a UNICORN HORN at that! ive tried to keep horns on her offspring but i havent been successful yet and its rly frustrating lol but i will work on it

this is beanie! i think she’s piglet’s descendant somehow.. just an all around cool pup who loved holding dirt in her mouth <3

this is dumbo (named for those GIGANTIC wings) and he is the wobbledog equivalent of the get stickbugged meme lol. he had a difficult life bc as he got older he had trouble walking around bc his body got so long and his wings were so huge and his legs couldnt support him. so he would just do a lot of flips to move around and get stressed out all the time and i caught him in some funny poses (like the one pictured) but.. overall he did not have a good time. but i like him a lot and i wish i had done more to make sure he wasn’t in distress all the time

this is FLOCKA my absolute beloved!!!! (i FULLY meant to name him floppa after the meme bc of his coloring like the big cat… but i got it mixed up w flocka and by the time i realized my error "flocka” had already grown on me 💀💀💀) he only had 1 leg and he had a rude personality so instead of getting stressed he would get really angry.. and he absolutely STOLE my heart bc i started watching him rly closely and learning what would stress him out and removing the stressors before he could react to them badly! i was rly excited and proud of kinda coming up w a language to interact w each other... like he couldnt grab food a lot of the time so i would move it to this specific spot against his forehead that he would always get it from and things like that. idk i just love when dogs have like a unique personality or way of doing things that stands out and then i feel like i bond w them lol (throwback to charlotte 🥴) but thats flocka!

and THISSSSS is wammawink (solid green body, lighter red face... yes named after the centaurworld character 🥴) and her daughter wiggly (yellow hearts on green body, darker red / pink face)!!!!! wiggly is my first ever worm dog and bc of her i have completed every single achievement in the game except for one wing angel and i am SAURRR excited. wammawink only has two front legs (i kinda cheated by finding a dog code on the discord that i figured would give me a good chance of having offspring with 2 front legs 😭 but i nabbed her as soonas i saw her) and i had a TON of dogs w only two back legs to try to pair her with... it was actually soppy from one of my earlier posts who was the other parent to wiggly so that was rly cool since i loved them so much! i also am very amused / pleased that wiggly looks SO much like bambi.. like the same coloring and everything except bambi’s face is brown, same face shape and eye shape and pattern, etc.... so true of her <3

AND FINALLY!!!! LAST BUT NOT LEAST!!!!! IS MY BABY BOY CUB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am OBSESSED with his nose and as soon as i saw it i knew i couldnt let him go. look at his little paws i am SICK!!!!!! look at his EARS! HIS EYES! HIS SNOUT!!! WAUGHGHGHGGHH!!!! BABY BOY BABY!!!!!!! the pictures dont convey it (also all of these are from before he was an adult bc i was so focused on getting a worm dog when he grew up lol.. as an adult his ears and nose turned into a light purple and im still not used to it) but cub is absolutely fucking LARGE. he is maybe my biggest dog ive ever had. he was already a pretty big puppy and he maybe tripled in size as he grew up to the point where he can’t really sit inside the den now without having to bend his head. also this was more exaggerated when he was a puppy / juvenile but when he flies his wings kinda.. jerk him backwards and all over the place and splay out his hind legs? and i am SO obsessed w it its the cutest thing ever in the whole world. i love himmmmm 💓💗💝❣️💖💞💗💓💞💝💖❣️💓💓💞💗💖💝❣️💓 (also he literally picked up the fucking VACUUM and was flying with it in the first pic. icon behavior)

[fictionkinfessions]

(hey if this is too aggressive and it’s against the rules i understand, and sorry about sending it if so, i know chara hate and angry rants are allowed, but idk if this crosses the line or not, im sorry if it does)

tw: child abuse

god i get so fucking mad when i think about Bro. dont even wanna call him that stupid shit. my fuckin father, i guess, strictly biologically speaking, or that dipshit who raised me (with a generous-ass definition of “raised”). why adopt me if you didnt fucking want me? actually dont answer, i deadass could not give a single fuck if i even cared enough to try. my “training” didnt really do shit for anyone. i mean i couldnt save the earth. maybe that was impossible, but also maybe you were a dumbfuck shit for brains who did a terrible job at the one thing you cared so much about that you dedicated your life to it. yeah, i am being a little shit, but does that mean im wrong? not necessarily. i know you know somethin about saying shit thats true but being a total ass about it.

so great fucking job makin me into the strong emotionless hero, no, really, bang-up fucking job on that one, man! i only had ptsd and got scared by loud noises all the time, yknow, cause of the goddamned ptsd. are you proud of yourself? is this what you wanted? well its what you achieved regardless. this is your doing, man, this your grand accomplishment, your legacy: a stuttering mess of a motherfucker who hates fighting and violence and jumps when someone slams a door. great job dude!!!!!

i hope your blood boils when you think about me hugging my boyfriend and telling my sister that i love her. i do love her, and i love john, i love jade, i love terezi, i love kanaya, i love karkat, and i love the mayor. i LOVE my friends and i fucking mean that. all those years of trying to beat the emotion out of me were for nothing, you absolute moron.

i sure hope im a disappointment to you. this isnt cope, its just that i disagree so deeply with all of your beliefs that if i didnt let you down, then i must have done something wrong.

i mean, i guess i really hope that youre a changed person. im never talking to you either way, but itd be for the best if you were. i dont really think ive gotta get into defending why im not, if youre a good person now then you should get it. and if you haven’t changed, then i straight up could not care less what you think

-dave strider

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[moonlit-imagines]

Headcanons for being Tony Stark’s Daughter (The Teenage Years)

Tony Stark x daughter!reader

warnings:

a/n: this is LONG so please dont let this flop

prompt: y/n is 12-16, takes place from Avengers 1 to Avengers 2

The Early Years (1) The Intense Years (3) The Aftermath (4) Continued (5)

starting out with tony powering stark tower with clean energy:

it was very late, you were supposed to be asleep

“what are you doing up, missy? it’s way past your bedtime”

“it’s my fault, i let her stay up to see her dad’s big achievement” -pepper

just vibing on the couch with absolutely no intention of sleeping anytime soon

you really did take after your dad

“how was the show, sweetheart?”

“uh, cool?”

coulson showing up when he did

you were excited bc you knew he had to be there for superhero stuff

“hi, agent coulson!!”

“hey there, kiddo!

BEGGING to come with your dad

“no. absolutely not. there is absolutely no way im letting you get involved in any of this”

you got involved

but like, not the whole “im a 12 year old superhero” involved

“y/n, sweetie, this is dr. banner, you’re gonna be his assistant in the lab!”

“—what?” *bruce utterly shocked*

talking that man’s ear off oh my GOD

he taught you a few things along the way, though

it ended up being very educational

“yeah i built my own suit! it’s definitely not as cool as my dad’s...and he put a bunch of safety controls on it. obviously, i could bypass them and do whatever i wanted, but it’s best not to break his trust, you know?”

“you are astonishingly wise for a 12 year old”

bruce being kind of scared around you because he thinks he could hurt you

also scared you might hurt yourself on the scepter

CASUALLY talking to the rest of the avengers

“so, you’re stark’s daughter? now i’ve met three generations of starks.” -steve

“oh, wonderful, there’s a smaller one!” -thor

“hey, y/n, it’s good to see you again. still practicing those moves i showed you?” -natasha

listennnn as you got older you started to exert more of your father’s personality traits

you developed his sarcastic and occasionally ill-timed humor...and

YOU WERE COCKY AS FUCK

“i mean, i’m not saying that i’m better than you but i know you’re thinking it”

when the helicarrier was attacked nobody really knew the correct way to protect you

“dad? dad??”

“right here, y/n, come with me”

tony brought your suit for emergency purposes

“you put this on and you stay here, understand?”

oh, another thing you got from him? NOT LISTENING

helping where you could, the first step to becoming a superhero, right?

being really upset when coulson died

but understanding that it was apart of the job

going back to new york for some alien ass kicking and having the whole team check on you every thirty seconds

“y/n, how’s it going?” “stark junior, are you doing okay?” “need any help out there, kid?”

“you guys don’t have to babysit me” “i’m still kickin’ it, thanks”

tony calling right before he went through the wormhole

“hey sweetheart, just gotta let you know that i love you and i am so proud of everything you’ve done”

the avengers holding you back from him when he fell back to the ground because you were unreasonably worried for obvious reasons

“is he breathing? steve? steve, let me see him! JARVIS, are you there?”

falling on the ground and hugging him (with your clunky-ass armor still on)

“hey! yeah, i missed you too”

*clink clink* pat on the back

schwarma stop

“you’re gonna eat it and you’re gonna like it”

having your own input on the stark tower remodel

taking a slight pause for random stuff

you’ve definitely drawn his mustache/goatee on your face before

“please tell me that’s not permanent marker”

“it’s permanent marker”

you and pepper doing mother/daughter things for bonding (but you and her already had a great relationship)

unreasonable amount of cussing from your father has rubbed off onto you and now he doesn’t notice when you say bad words

natasha taught you how to shoot so that was cool

“if i can shoot a repulsor, i think i can shoot a gun”

“whatever you say, baby stark”

obviously the team is just a bunch of protective uncles and an aunt

“i miss [insert avenger here]”

resume to iron man 3

just tinkering in the shop with pops

“are you sure that’s safe, dad?”

“duh, why wouldn’t it be safe?”

you were right and it was not safe

sometimes you proved your dad wrong and it made him happy?

“well would you look at that, you’re right”

learning how to help your dad with his anxiety and panic attacks

the house in malibu got blown up and your dad disappeared

you were benched by pepper effective immediately

“don’t you think it would be better if i were still out there? someone has to be out there and...i don’t know, protect the people?”

“y/n, please, you’re still a kid. i can excuse fighting aliens but i draw the line at terrorism”

“you can excuse fighting aliens??”

pepper sent you to a different house and hired a...babysitter

zip zip zip its AOU time yall remember the beginning of that at the hydra base

*explosion* “oh, shit! didn’t mean to do that...”

“watch your language, y/n!” -cap

“don’t tell my daughter what to do!”

having an external monologue that everyone just kind of rolls with

“glad i put a heater in this suit” “anyone up for burgers?” *humming Eye of the Tiger*

going back to the lab with tony and bruce and being very uncomfortable with the idea of ultron

“okay dad, you know how im usually right?”

“lighten up, kiddo. remember what i taught you about trial and error? this is a learning experience”

*bruce and you side eying*

“i’ll ground you”

“what?!”

“kidding, im kidding”

a lot of kid jokes from other partygoers

“isnt it past your bedtime”

“very funny”

actually dressing up nice for a change, as opposed to an oil-stained band tee

but then ur outfit was ruined because you had to shoot murder bots :(

“not cool! i designed this room!”

tony still got all the blame for ultron while you and bruce went 😬

tony made a joke about ultron being your brother and you didn’t talk to him for hours

“oh, come on! you have to learn to laugh at your mistakes!”

“poor choice of words, stark” -literally everyone

🎶getting to see your worst feaaar🎶

which was a mixture between tony not surviving the wormhole and being abandoned and vulnerable again

your phone got confiscated “because of ultron”

meeting wanda and pietro on better terms

“you are stark’s daughter?”

“um, yeah, that’s me. i sincerely apologize for anything he’s ever done wrong while i’ve been alive”

actually getting along with them (plus you were in a similar age range)

“uncle rhodey!!!”

“staying out of trouble, i hope?”

“define ‘trouble’”

okay okay, enough of that. besides a few robots hitting you and you hitting harder...and ultron taking a couple personal jabs at you after accessing some of your social media accounts...it went back to normal(ish)

you made a friend of wanda and visited the avengers compound weekly and helped with training

and nat gave you some spy pointers to help you if you ever found yourself without the suit

when you left the compound after thor that day, you had some nice father/daughter time

“why don’t i give you a driving lesson, yeah?”

“you’re gonna trust me to drive this thing?”

“sure, why not?”

you drove very fast, wonder where you learned that from

he was clasping onto the seats and whispering curse words

“next time, you can drive with happy”

[juminsmysticmc]

Hiya! Im still a bit new to tumblr so i dont know if this is exactly how i ask for a request ^^; if its not im sorry ,_, but ill to request a RFA and V, Saeran meeting with a MC with one arm (like she lost her arm in a accident, etc.) PS i love your content! Its very interesting, enjoyable, admiring, and fun to read! Have a good day/night take care of yourself! :)

RFA + Minor Duo meeting a Mc with only one Arm

Hello Baby! Thank you very much for your nice comment! I hope I didn’t let you wait for too long! And by the way, you did it perfectly right (the request thing I mean) I remember the first time I tried to use Tumblr, ahahahahahah.

Jumin

You were really scared to meet Jumin in person.

You respected the black-haired man and looked up to him  so you didn’t want to make any mistakes to hurt his reputation. You knew perfectly well that other people would talk about you.

But when the guard led you in and Jumin noticed that you only had one arm, he acted as if it wasn’t anything.

He didn’t even ask you, which made you comfortable.

He was literally the first person on earth who didn’t ask you about it, which made you feel special and see him in a special way.

When the night time came, you began to tell him on your own ,,You didn’t ask about the other arm,’’ you began.

,,No, of course, I didn’t. It’s something You need to tell me when you’re comfortable. I don’t want to force you into anything. If you want to tell me, I will gladly listen to you. If not, I will patiently wait for you to be ready,’’ he told you and stroked your hair.

And so you told him about your accident, feeling comfortable telling him for the very first time.

What surprised you too was that no one ever said anything bad about you or your arm, not even that you got an artificial limb two years later, something that Jumin gave to you as a present and made you the happiest woman on earth.

Zen

,,Okay!’’ you took a deep breath and rang the doorbell.

A few moments later, Zen opened the door, surprised to see you.

You weren’t nervous at all.

You were sure of yourself.

And perhaps this was something Zen liked about you too.

The time came and the both of you sat together on the couch and began to talk when he asked you how it happened that you only had one arm.

,,You don’t need to tell me if you’re uncomfortable. I’m sorry if I’m being rude,’’ Zen tried to explain.

,,It’s okay,’’ you assured him.

,,I am okay with it,’’ you nodded and told him, without any problems that it happened in a car accident when you were 17 and driving with your friends.

,,Let’s say that I was lucky,’’ you told him.

,,I mean, I can at least enjoy this moment with you here. My friend, however, didn’t lose an arm. She lost her life,’’ you told him.

This was something that actually made you emotional again, but after Zen hugged you and told you that he respected you for being so strong, you were feeling better again.

Yoosung

,,Mc!’’ Yoosung called you when he could finally meet you.

He hugged you and actually made you notice that he injured his eye. He also told you that he did all this just to save you!

You guys talked a bit until he wanted to take your left hand and noticed that you only had one arm.

Of course he looked a bit shocked and you noticed it, but he quickly looked up at you and looked at you with cute puppy eyes.

,,I’m sorry, this was pretty idiotic of me, right?’’ he asked you.

,,Kinda, yes,’’ you honestly giggled ,,but I am used to these looks so-’’

,,NO!’’ Yoosung shouted.

,,I actually thought I saw wrong and tried to blink a few times. I got worried that my eyes turned so bad in so little time… I’m sorry, I swear, I have no problem with it!’’ he whined.

You could hear from his voice tone that he meant it.

,,It’s okay, Yoosung. I trust you. Let’s talk some more, okay?’’ you smiled.

And indeed Yoosung didn’t seem uncomfortable, but instead tried to make you feel more comfortable and kept holding your hand the whole time, making you feel safe in his presence.

Jaehee

At your first RFA party, your worst fear was that the RFA members would do anything to draw attention to your missing arm.

Well, your fear kind of came true, but also got erased by the happiness you felt when Jaehee asked you to open a shop with her.

The action made you cry out of happiness because if she would have wanted, she just could have hidden the idea about her project, but instead she still asked you because she believed in you.

After the party, you decided to ask her about it ,,I mean, you saw me and you saw that I was missing an arm, why did you still ask me?’’

,,Mc, because this doesn’t matter to me! I like you as a person, not because you have two arms! I like you and your character! I believe in you, just like you believed in me. This time it was my job! And together we can achieve our goal,’’ she mumbled and smiled at you.

The both of you practiced a few times and you could perfectly handle the coffee shop with Jaehee and the help of only one arm.

You became the most famous coffee shop and you and Jaehee were really proud.

Saeyoung

The red haired man already knew from your medical records that you only had one arm so he was kind of prepared.

However, Saeyoung didn’t imagine that his mood would dampen so much when he met you for the first time.

Of course it wasn’t because you only had one arm, but because the situation was really bad.

And besides, he was concerned about your health.

Luckily, things calmed down after the whole mess.

It was a big shock that Jihyun died and it was a pretty hard time with Saeran while he stayed at his house, but after the mess was cleaned up, Saeyoung had the chance to listen to your side of the story since he only knew what happened from the medical records.

You finally told him that when you were younger you leaned your hand outside of the car while driving and one day the car from the opposite side was so close to you, that you injured yourself pretty bad and had to have an amputation.

,,Sometimes I still feel the pain in my arm even though I can’t. It’s called phantom pain,’’ you told him.

But your story only triggered Saeyoung to learn something more about artificial limbs and made him build a super high technology prosthesis for you, of course it was only because you agreed with him and felt comfortable.

Saeran

At night in bed, Saeran still apologized to you for hurting you so badly when he was Saeran.

,,I said horrible things to you,’’ he whispered.

,,Don’t worry,’’ you responded.

Saeran hurt you back then, but Ray helped you feel better and this actually made up for all the mistakes Saeran made.

Besides, you knew that he wasn’t in his right mind.

Saeran had no problem with the fact that you only had one arm. Instead, he was pretty amazed by you and all the things you could do despite only having one arm.

You could also do a lot of things with your feet and this made him respect you even more because he knew perfectly well that he would never be able to top you.

Even though he already had so much to do because of Saeyoung and his ,,Father,’’ he always tried his best to help you and support you with everything you had to do.

Having a person like this actually made you feel so much better.

Jihyun

At first, the blue-haired man got scared that Rika did something to you.

Knowing that you were in an accident still made him very sad, but Jihyun still liked the way you enjoyed life.

You were his inspiration for everything in the world.

And thanks to you, his adopted daughter was also able to learn that everyone in the world, despite being different, still deserved to be treated well.

Jihyun was also the first person you ever told about the loss of your arm and the story behind it.

He still remembered the day perfectly.

Even though the poison made him feel sick, listening to your story on your lap and knowing that he had a strong woman beside him made him get through the pain and made him always confront his fears.

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[hazelenergy]

How I Digitally Paint like a Scenic Artist/Designer

Aka: how I did this and put my degree to good use. 

LONG POST WARNING

Step 1: Research. 

First off, get to your image search. If you are going to be using Google, you may want to type “-pinterest” in the search to eliminate the countless boards. 

I had to figure out clothing that is vaguely late 1800s. I found a multitude of reference images that were fancier clothes- but I wanted to find images of clothing for kindred across all social classes. Photographs from the era and paintings are your friend. They will more accurately showcase what was worn. 

After Fashion research comes location research. The 1890s in America is known for the rapid industrialization. Factories were getting bigger and work days were getting longer. But, I wanted the moonlight to be cascading into the place, illuminating the scene. This means I needed to find a structure that had skylights or let sunlight in. And the best images I found? Slaughterhouses. Fitting, huh?

The same rule for fashion still stands- if you can find photographs or paintings from the era- they’re better. There are tons of places still standing today from the 1800s. But today, they look WAY different. Ya know, Abandoned! So just be sure to take this into consideration if you search “abandoned slaughterhouses” or go trespassing like I did.

Lastly, pose research. Finding the poses for a fight scene can be tedious. So, I enlisted some help from a few fight choreographers and stunt men. You can record their fights and play them back at quarter or half speed. You can also get a mirror and flop on the floor a bunch. I did both. This lets you see the action/motion lines you are going to replicate in the drawing.  Heres how we initially did fina’s pose:

And sometimes you have to go back and get a clean shot. I ended up using this pose for the axe.

Step 2: Set up and Background!

When you open a new file, set it to the dimensions and resolution you want. I was working at 600. Usually, I’m working at 300-350. You can always reduce resolution. Its hard to prevent fuzzy lines if you increase it later. 

I cannot stress the following enough:

You work background to foreground. Big Shapes and areas to little shapes. Work your way forward. What this means is you need to fill in as much space as possible first. Then build your details. I prefer working as follows: Big Solid tones, Soft shadows, Dark Shadows, Highlights, then final blend. Once you finish this, put an overlay on top. This knocks everything back and helps create the illusion of depth. See this at work with the video below or here

Step 3: Figure Drawings + Composition

Utilize that research and images you collected to pose your characters. I create subfolders for each set of figures. Organization is important here. This will help keep you on the right layer and prevent the eternal digital artist struggle of “Fuck that was on the wrong layer!”

Even after you move on to lineart and shading, Keep the sketch layer as a reference. You may need to see what youre original notes/ figures looked like as you do the lineart and shade. Don’t be afraid to move them around and alter the composition rn. You want to be able to make changes. Make notes! Detail light sources! 

I’m about to through out some art jargon:

You want to think about asymmetric balance. The easiest way to achieve this in an eye-pleasing manner is to use the Fibonacci spiral. Yeah. This boi:

Place your figures and actions in a similar sequence to the spiral and the viewer’s eye tends to naturally follow it. This is sometimes called the Golden Ratio in the art world. 

Doesn’t need to be perfectly on the spiral. You can break it- but its an excellent tool to plan how things move in the piece. 

Step 4: Lineart

Once you got things sketched- its time to do the lineart. I’m using clip studio paint’s standard brushes. Nothing fancy. I often switch between the G-pen and the For Effect Liner. Mapping and Turnip are for thicker lines. 

Usually I set these pens to a specific thickness depending on where I’m drawing.

My background figures are lined at 0.05 thickness, the midground is .1 to .2, Fina is .3 and the foreground is .4. I set my stabilization high to help keep my lines smooth. Stabilization 100 means there’s a significant delay between where the pen is and the cursor. I like the stabilization to be at 20 for freehanding and at 50 ish for outlining. Dont become completely reliant on the stabilization though. Good and smooth lineart is drawn from the arm not the wrist. Your range of motion is severely limited if you only move your wrist. Practice moving from your elbow and you’ll be surprised how much smoother your lines get. 

Once I finish lining the figures, I usually go around it with an outline. This does three things: 

1. Solidifies the figure and cleans lineart for paint bucket tool. More on that in the next step.

2. Its a stylistic choice. Helps give it that comic book feel with a heavy outline. 

3. Pushes figures forward or back in the composition. Thicker outline helps denote that a figure is farther forward than another. My background figures have no outline to push them away 

Step 5: Digitally coloring

For each figure you are going to select outside the lineart. 

Create a new layer under the lineart

Invert the selection. Paint bucket. You should now have a solid shape of the figure under the lineart. Do not deselect.

Create a new layer above the one color. Title it solid colors. Paint in thick, solid tones. I like to use the mapping pen and turnip pen to color in my solid tones: skin, clothing, hair, etc.  

After that, deselect. Create a multiply layer if you can. If your program does not have a multiplier function, Pick a tone you want to use for shadows and lower the opacity (usually 30-40% I like to use lavenders or blue tones). It will not be as vibrant, but you can edit it in post. Select off of the solid colors layer. I like to start with skin tones. Use the airbrush tool to create soft shadows. You don’t want to create harsh lines on this layer.

Then repeat this process with harsh lines.  

Then knock it all back with an overlay. If you dont have the ability to create an overlay, you can again drop a solid color and lower the opacity, but you’ll have to mess with the color balance/ brightness/contrast to let all the hard work come through. 

You’re going to repeat this for every single figure. Here’s a few color theory tips though.

Your overlay colors should be darker (not more vibrant) in the foreground and lighter (avoid using pure white) in the background. This helps with the depth of the piece. Things closer tend to be darker (not always true, depends on lighting)

You can choose to use color theory to aid your shadows. Instead of choosing black or grey for shadows, choose a complimentary color. I used a lot of green for this piece, I used red for really dark shadows. Its not that black drains color- its just loses some depth if not used carefully. 

Keep your colors consistent. Helps unify the piece. You can strategically break the consistency to draw focus. For example, Fina is the only figure with a true blue overlay. This helps her stand out from the other figures who have reds and greens. 

Step 6: Touch Ups and Final Renderings

Now comes the most tedious part. If you’re like me, your computer fans have been whirring for the last few hours trying to render this monster of a file. If you havent already,  SAVE FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS GOOD

These are the last four layers I have for the entire piece. Here, I am trying to create effective and believable lighting. This kind of work I have only been able to achieve in clip studio or photoshop. You can do it with normal layers, but choose your colors CAREFULLY. Stay away from pure white. Carefully utilize your knowledge of light and shadow to create soft highlights. Harsh lines tend to be a stylistic choice for me. The final layer, subtract, dulls out harsh red tones. I used this as a final overlay to help put everyone and everything in the scene. Without it, things are a little too green and skin tones are a little too blushed for vampires.

The challenge here is I want to tone down the red, but not lose the vibrancy of the blood. So, shift it to a blue. This also helped reinforce the “nighttime” effect. Its only a slight change.

Final thoughts:

Whenever you finish something, its important to reflect.

1. I am so FUCKING PROUD OF MYSELF. This is easily one of the most complicated pieces I’ve done in a while- and I’ve made 16′ tall faux stained glass. Brag. Let yourself feel awesome cuz you just made something awesome. 

2. I timed myself on the piece. I could have easily spent another 7 hours on it. But its important to know when to stop messing with it. Partially for budget reasons but also when you get down to the details you can make yourself go insane. Theres also a ton of detail work I lost cuz of overlays or its just too small to notice. Fina’s face? hard to see cuz its not close enough. 

3. I needed to take frequent breaks for this piece. That was good. Resting and stretching was very important. That is one of the reasons why I was able to work so fast. 

4. I started doing more digital art in April 2020. I have to say, practice makes perfect. I practice drawing and digital painting for at least 3 hours a day. 

That discipline has allowed me to improve so rapidly. So- I don’t wanna hear shit about I can’t possibly get this good! Or I couldn’t even draw a stick figure! BULLSHIT. You can. Get yourself some free software like Krita or Autodesk sketchbook and start playing! 

And thats what I got! Thanks for coming with me on this long post! 

[the-wayward-arc]

How Jaune asked Pyrrha out (Dark Angels AU)

*everyone is sitting outside relaxing after a rough mission*

Nora: Then I grabbed its tusks and threw it a death stalker! Impaling it on the stinger!

Ren: it was a Beowolf and it was dazed for a few minutes.

Nora: Fearless leader isnt it true? *notices Jaune isnt there* huh, where is Jaune?

Ruby: he said he had to go to your guys room to grab something, said he had a surprise.

*Everyone sees Jaune coming with a Guitar in hand*

Weiss: *sighs* I thought we were past this! I'm gonna freeze that guitar to his hands!

Yang: Oh this gonna be good, *starts recording*

Ruby: Guys! Dont be mean to him!

Pyrrha: *muttering a bit under her breath* guess I was wrong about us getting closer.

*Jaune walks past Weiss, much to everyone's surprise and stands in front of Pyrrha*

Pyrrha: J-Jaune?

Jaune: *Clears his throat and strums his guitar*

Pyrrha: *Face redder than her hair* I...Uh...

Weiss: *Stunned by what happened*

Ruby and Nora: *Squealing because of how romantic that was*

Yang: *still recording* Woah...Lady Killer sings pretty good.

Blake: Not surprising, heard him practicing last week. Been waiting for this moment. Speaking of, Ren?

Ren: *Sighs* Deal is a deal, here. *hands her 15 lien* two more days Jaune, and i would have won the bet.

Jaune: So...uh...will you go out- *gets tackled by Pyrrha as she kisses his face all over* Gonna assume yes.

-Elsewhere in the Imperial Palace-

Emperor: OH BOY! OH BOY! CRY! CRY! CRY!

Karstodes: My glorious overlord! Are you alright?

Emperor: SOMETHING GLORIOUS HAS HAPPENED AND I'VE LEARNED MY FUCKING BEAUTIFUL SINGING GENES WILL LIVE.

Karstodes: I'm confused my lord? What happened? Also I haven't heard you sing in ages! Oh to hear your voice gets me all exci- *gets punched by a psychic hand*

Emperor: SHUT YOUR FUCKEN MOUTH YOU COCKSTODES! DON'T RUIN THIS MOMENT FOR ME, MY NOODLY BOY GRANDSON HAS WORKED UP THE COURAGE TO ASK OUT A GIRL WHO HAS BEEN CRUSHING ON HIM SO HARD IT COULD CRUSH A DAMN TERMINATOR.

Karstodes: *Thrown down* Ow. Um, my Emperor, you have a grandson? You mean a space marine asked someone out?

EMPEROR: NO. MY SON, LION EL'JOHNSON, IS ALIVE BUT CAN'T REACH ME. HE HAS HAD CHILDREN AND THEY ARE MY BEAUTIFUL GRANDBABIES. IRONICALLY, HE HAD ALL GIRLS AND ONE BOY.....FUCKEN HILARIOUS GIVEN HIS UPBRINGING. ANYWAYS, MY NOODLY GRANDSON HAS SERENADED HIS PARTNER WITH THE BEAUTIFUL VOICE THAT ONLY COULD BE ACHIEVED THROUGH MY GENES. *SOB* ONLY SANGUINIUS HAD SUCH A SINGING VOICE AND NOW MY GRANDSON HAS IT. I FORSEE BLOND REDHAIRED GREAT GRANDCHILDREN SOON! *SOB* I AM SO DAMN HAPPY.

Wamuudes: *slides in the room* My master, I could not help but hear the most wonderful of news. Congratulations my master.

Emperor: THANK YOU. NOW I SHALL USE MY NOT GOD LIKE POWERS TO LET HIM NOW I AM PROUD OF HIM AND THAT HE BETTER TREAT THAT PARTNER OF HIS RIGHT OR SO HELP ME.

Wamuudes: Ooh I'm sure I could teach him a lesson or two in how to please someo- *gets punched*

Emperor: YOU FUCKEN OILY DISAPPOIMENT WILL NOT LUST AFTER MY NOODLE BOY. YOU WILL NOT RUIN THIS FUCKEN MOMENT FOR ME. UNDERSTAND? NOW, BACK TO WHAT I WAS DOING.

-Remnant-

Jaune: *lies on the grass after his team and RWBY had help Pyrrha back to her room since she passed out from the excitement* Well, today has been really good! *smiles but sees something in the sky* huh?

*a projection of the Emperor floats in the sky*

Jaune: Uhhhh....Grandpa?

Emperor: HOLY SHIT IT ACTUALLY WORKED. IM MUFASAING THIS SHIT.

Jaune: Mufasa? What? *pinches himself* I'm not dreaming am i, did I pass out too?

Emperor: NO. I AM HERE FOR THE MOMENT BUT DAMN DOES IT HURT, ANYWAYS. I AM PROUD YOU JAUNE, YOU ACTUALLY ASKED OUT YOUR PARTNER. NOW TREAT HER WELL OR ELSE I WILL SPANK YOUR ASS SO HARD YOU WON'T EVER SIT DOWN AGAIN! UNDERSTAND?

Jaune: *Gulps* Uh Y-yes sir!

EMPEROR: GOOD, NOW! GO FORTH AND CREATE BEAUTIFUL GREAT-GRANDCHILDREN FOR ME! *disappears*

Jaune: *red* Dad did say he likes to embarrass his family at times. Better go see how Pyrrha is doing. *leaves*

-Imperial Palace-

EMPEROR: SWEET MOTHER OF MYSELF THAT WAS PAINFUL BUT HE HAS RECEIVED MY MESSAGE. NOW, TIME TO SCARE DAEMONS IN THE WARP.

[superspoonie24]

Mine

Kara gets infected with red kryptonite. She won’t stop till the world is hers.

This is actually a decent length fic at 3620 words. I am really proud of it. Hope you enjoy! (also there is some unwanted contact and kinda noncon? nothing happens but i want y’all to be warned and stay safe.)  💛

https://archiveofourown.org/works/27034954

"Supergirl, there's a road collapse over on the west side. Can you stop it?" Alex asked over the com.

"I'm on my way" Kara replied. She changed into her costume and flew out the window of her apartment.

Minutes later, Kara arrived at the scene of the crash. One of the support columns was crumbling and the road started to dip. She rushed over and one by one carried everyone off the falling road and onto the street, far away. Once everyone was safe she flew to the crumbling column and did what she could to hold it up. The fire department and emergency services showed up and provided back up. They worked together to keep the road from falling, but Kara couldn't shake the feeling that she did most of the work.

The media hounded Kara when she landed, asking question after question about her heroics.

"Why did you save the people first?" "What made you think to hold up the road?" "How did you know there'd be enough time to save everyone?" "Are you grateful the fire department came to help in the end?"

"I saved the people because that's what I do. I knew there was enough time because I'm Supergirl. I did what I had to to keep the road from falling while the fireboys took their sweet time getting here. I think they should be grateful to me."

Kara then flew off without another word and went immediately to bed.

***

The next morning she woke up to a slew of texts from Winn, Lena, James, and Alex. She ignored them all and got on with her day.

'They're just pissy cause I wasn't 'nice' last night.' Kara thought to herself as she picked out her clothes for the day. 'Doesn't matter. I saved the day and that's all that counts. Now to get to work and see what slack I have to pick up.'

Kara flew out the window and landed in an alley behind Noonan's. She got a single black coffee for herself and nothing else. She groaned when Winn caught up with her in the elevator.

"Hey! I called out for you, why didn't you wait?" Winn panted.

"Oh, didn't notice." Kara shrugged and took a sip of her coffee.

"Oh." Winn looked Kara up and down and took in the new attire. "You look, different."

"And that matters how?" Kara quipped. 'God he's annoying today. Could this elevator be any slower?' She thought to herself.

"It's, nevermind." Winn dropped his comment and eyed her coffee. "Can I have a sip? I overslept and didn't have time for some this morning."

"Whatever." Kara casually handed the cup over to Winn.

"UGH!" Winn nearly spit out the drink. "Since when did you start ordering black?"

"Since today."

"Kara." Winn looked at her, his eyes filled with concern. "Are you feeling alright? You didn't answer anyone's texts last night, and now you're drinking black coffee-"

Kara cut him off with a short "I'm fine." Then the elevator doors opened. 'Finally. Now I can try and get some work done.' Kara walked off without saying another word to Winn. Winn immediately texted Alex his suspicions.

***

The day passed and everyone in the office was quickly made aware of Kara's new attitude. She didn't hold her tongue and if someone messed up, Rao help them.

'Maybe Winn has a point,' Kara thought after the newest intern ran away from her holding back tears. 'You haven't been yourself. You should talk to Alex.' Kara reached for her phone when a different, but familiar voice, chimed in. 'She's right. You've been better than yourself. You don't have anything holding you back anymore. Nothing is stopping you from achieving all you ever wanted.'

Kara slid her phone back into her pocket and started packing up for the day. She was on her way out the door when Lena showed up for an unexpected visit.

"Kara! I haven't seen you in a while. How are you?" Lena asked as she opened her arms for one of Kara's trademark hugs.

"Oh, Lena! What a surprise!" Kara smiled through her annoyance and squeezed Lena a bit too tight. "I've never been better."

Lena let out a groan and replied "that's good." She took a step back and looked closely at Kara's face. "Say, you want to get dinner with me tonight?"

'I bet Winn and Alex put her up to this. Guess I'll go through with it just to get them off my back.'

"Sure! That sounds lovely."

"Great. Let's do my place, 8 o'clock."

"It's a date."

The two women parted ways, but Kara swore she heard Lena get on the phone with Alex before stepping into the elevator.

***

'She's tricking you,' the familiar voice sneered. 'She's going to ambush you and keep you from being the best.'

Kara shook her head while picking out clothes for her date. 'That's insane' she thought to herself. 'Lena cares about me. She'd never do something like that.'

'Don't be a fool. She's a Luthor afterall, you know what they're capable of.'

'That's ridiculous' Kara mumbled. 'Lena isn't like them. Right?'

Kara dwelled on that idea all the way over to Lena's. She went straight up to Lena's penthouse and was greeted at the door.

"Kara! Right on time." Lena smiled and welcomed Kara in.

"You did say 8" Kara snipped as she entered the spacious apartment. 'Why are you snapping? She didn't do anything' Kara thought to herself.

Lena didn't say anything about the comment and sat down on the couch. "Come, sit."

'What am I your dog?' Popped into her head, but Kara ignored it and nodded.

The two women enjoyed their 5 course meal. Throughout the night, Kara noticed her attention drifting away from Lena's words and towards her, other assets.

"Kara, have you been listening to a word I said?" Lena asked politely.

"Huh? Of course. Why?" Kara questioned, her eyes still not on Lena's.

"Cause you've been staring at my breasts ever since we sat down."

"Well you have to admit they are beautiful to look at." Kara smirked and slid closer to Lena. "Say. Have you ever looked at a woman like that?"

Lena's face flushed. "W-what do you mean?"

"Don't play dumb Lena. Have you ever looked at a woman the same way you looked at Jack?" Kara scooted even closer, pushing Lena into the side of the couch.

"Well, I, uhm" Lena stuttered. Her face quickly turned red.

"Be honest. Have you ever looked at me like that?" Kara's smile was almost predatory.

"I, uh. This isn't like you Kara." Lena tried to get up but Kara grabbed her wrist and pulled her back down.

"But what if it is?" Kara slid her hand onto Lena's thigh, her smile sick as she watched Lena shudder.

"Kara" Lena whimpered.

Kara dug her fingernails into Lena's pale white flesh. "Yes?" She answered, delighted by her squeal.

"Stop" Lena gasped out. She tried to brush Kara's hand off her, but the kryptonian's grip just tightened.

Kara licked her lips and leaned in close. "What if I don't want to?" Kara could her Lena's heartbeat increase.

"Kara. You're hurting me," Lena spoke as she stood up, pushing Kara off her. "I think you should go."

Kara stood up, offended. "Fine. But you'll be back. I know it."

Kara stormed off down the hall, but she swore she could hear Lena crying before picking up the phone.

***

'What the here Kara?' She asked herself on her flight home. 'Why did you do that? Why would you hurt Lena?' Tears welled up inside her as she struggled to find an answer.

'I- I dont know. I didn't want to hurt her. I'm supposed to protect her,' she replied.

'But you liked it, right?' The familiar voice chimed in. 'You liked the power, the control. You liked Lena being yours. You want her, you know you do.'

'But not like that!' Kara screamed internally. 'Never like that. I need to call Alex. Something is wrong.'

'Or is it?' The voice questioned. 'Tonight you got closer to Lena than you ever have before. Next time she'll be yours. Imagine kissing her plump red lips. Fondling her gorgeous round breasts. You want this. Listen to me, and I swear she'll be yours.'

'Mine?' Kara mumbled to herself.

She landed on her balcony and changed into her pajamas. She laid down in her bed and dreamt about what it would be like to have Lena as hers, to have the world be hers.

***

Kara woke up again to ten missed calls, all from Alex; she swiped them all away.

'I'm not gonna let her ruin my Saturday. Let's see what pathetic humans need my help today.'

Kara changed into her suit and took off into the sky. She surveyed the city below and listened for the first pathetic cry for help.

'Gotcha.'

Kara sped off to help a kid who's cat got stuck in a tree. The girl smiled wide as Supergirl came down to help, but Kara ignored it. She floated up and got the cat. She wanted to go to the next worthless human calling her, but the girl tugged on her cape and demanded her attention.

"Thank you Supergirl!" She chimed, her smile bright.

"Yea yea whatever. Don't let your cat outside next time." Kara waved her hand and flew off. 'What a brat.'

Kara's whole day was filled with helping humans who couldn't bother to help themselves. Emergency after emergency Kara flew down and saved the day.

'How did they ever survive without me?' Kara thought as she flew into the mid-afternoon sky. 'They're useless! Every single one of them. They need someone to take charge, someone who already saves their sorry asses on a daily basis.'

Kara flew home and dug through her closet. She pulled out a familiar black jumpsuit with a red House of El symbol on the top left.

'Ah, a suit fit for a god.' Kara changed into it and relished the feeling of power it gave her. 'Now I can truly own this city.'

***

Night fell over National City, and Kara never felt better. She flew up above the city and looked down upon it.

'Pathetic,' she thought to herself. 'When I'm done with it, this pathetic excuse for a city will be a shining star; a house on top of a hill; an example of what's to come with me as their savior. But first, I need my queen.'

Kara sped off to L Corp. She landed on Lena's balcony and burst through the glass sliding doors. The lights were out, but Kara could hear shuffling from behind a door.

"Lena," Kara sang. "Come out come out wherever you are." Kara stepped closer to the sounds of nervous feet. "Come on baby. I know you're in there." Kara stood in front of the door. "You're not still upset about last night, are you?" Kara asked, her tone undermining the severity of the situation. "I know you-UMPF"

The door blasted open and blew Kara against a wall. She shook her head and pushed off the broken door laying on top of her. Kara stood up and her vision turned red when she recognized who was standing across from her.

"You" Kara snarled. "Where is Lena? Where did you hide her?" Kara's voice was almost a growl, deep and predatorial.

"Somewhere you can't hurt her ever again," Alex spit out as she tightened her grip on her gun.

"She's mine." Kara zapped a lamp next to Alex's head. Bright sparks flew out and Alex jumped away from the blast.

"She doesn't belong to you. She doesn't belong to anybody!" Alex shouted. Her hand twitched slightly as her finger slid closer to the trigger.

"You're going to pay for this."

Kara zoomed over and wrapped her hand around Alex's throat, pinning her to the wall.

"Kara. Let me, help, you..." Alex coughed out.

"Help me?" Kara laughed. "Oh dear sister, I think it's you who is in need of help." Kara lifted Alex off the ground.

"Where, is she?" Kara punctuated her last word by squeezing Alex's neck. Alex didn't respond; she kicked her feet, desperately trying to get purchase and relieve the pressure on her throat.

"Fine." Kara tightened her grip even more and leaned in to Alex's ear. "I'll find her myself," Kara whispered. She pulled back and revelled in the look of fear and terror Alex was giving her.

"Pathetic."

Kara tossed Alex through the glass and over the balcony. Alex's screams echoed throughout the city. 'Oops,' Kara thought as she focused on finding her prey.

Kara listened in for Lena's heartbeat, and was able to locate her on the roof, alone. Kara made her to the stairwell and floated up to the roof entrance. She opened the door and stalked over to her target.

"Isn't it beautiful," Kara asked, standing about 5 feet behind Lena. "This whole city, the whole worthless planet could be ours." She placed a hand on Lena's shoulder, gripping it tighter than necessary. Lena shrank under her iron grip and stepped away.

"Kara, this isn't you," Lena pleaded. "Please. Let Alex help y-"

"Oh, she won't be helping anyone," Kara interjected.

"Wh- why? What happened?" Lena's eyes got big.

"I threw her out the window and over your balcony. I heard her pitiful screams on the way down, and then they stopped." Kara's smile was sick.

"Why did you do that?"

"Cause she tried to keep you from me," Kara pouted. "Anyone who does that deserves to be punished." Kara put her hands back on Lena's shoulders, holding her in place. "That'll be our first rule once we take reign."

"Wh- what?" Lena shook her head. She stared at Kara. It looked like she was trying to read Kara's face.

"When we take over the planet babe." Kara smiled and pulled Lena into her side. "Imagine it," Kara said as she gestured to the stars with her left hand. "This planet needs a hero, a ruler, and I'm just the god to do it."

"What?" Lena gasped. "You never talk about being a God. I thought Rao was your god!" Lena tried to step back but Kara tightened her grip.

"Let go of me Kara!" Lena shouted as she struggled more. "What makes you think I would ever be with you!?"

"Oh Lena." Kara shook her head and rolled her eyes. "What on Earth gave you the impression I cared about what you think?" Kara squeezed Lena's shoulder and delighted in her wail of pain. "Don't be mad at me dear. You brought this on yourself."

Kara looked down into Lena's tear-filled eyes. "Please. Stop this. Y-you're hurting me Kara."

"No." Kara leaned down to whisper in Lena's ear. "You're mine," she snarled. "And nothing is ever going to stop me."

Kara dipped her head and pressed herself into Lena's lips. Her hands roamed Lena's warm and flush body as her tongue dived deep into its treasure. Kara relished the feeling of Lena beneath her, of being in her. She bit Lena's lip and smiled at the tiny yelp of pain as blood dripped onto her tongue. Tears fell onto Kara's cheeks, but they weren't her own.

"Not on my watch!"

Kara begrudgingly let go of Lena to turn around and find the source of the intrusion.

'How is she not dead yet,' Kara thought to herself.

She ready herself for a fight, but before she knew what was happening, she was on her back with Lena kneeling over her. Kara's body shook violently, and Kara could see red dust exiting her pores.

"I'm sorry, Lena," Kara mumbled, not sure if Lena could hear it or not.

Kara caught a glimpse of Alex and J'onn emerging from the red dust before her vision went black and her eyes closed.

***

"...kara..."

"Kara..."

"Kara."

"Kara!"

"Huh?" Kara mumbled as she forced her tired eyes open. "Alex? I thought you were- I thought I-" Kara's tears cut off her own sentence as the events of the past couple days caught up to her.

"Oh Rao. I'm so sorry. It happened again. I felt it happening but I couldn't do anything about it. I'm so sorry Alex. I- I tried to kill you!"

Kara's eyes were wide with pain and fear. Alex took her hand and Kara calmed down a bit.

"It's okay. Hey, look at me," Alex spoke. "I'm okay. J'onn caught me on the way down. I'm okay. We're all okay." Tears filled Alex's eyes.

"Oh Rao, Lena!" Kara shouted and tried to get up. Alex had to force her back into bed.

"She's fine. You can see her after we run some tests. Okay?" Alex asked gently and patted Kara's leg.

"O-okay," Kara sniffled.

There was a long silence between the two sisters. Kara took a deep breath and broke it.

"It was red kryptonite, wasn't it?" Kara asked meekly.

"Yes."

Kara's body sagged into the bed.

"Did I kill anyone?"

"No."

Another long silence dragged on between the two sisters.

"Well," Alex started as she spun around in her lab chair. "It looks like all the red K has left your system. You're good as new," Alex finished and pat Kara's leg.

"You're sure?" Kara asked timidly.

"100%"

Kara let out a breath she didn't know she was holding.

"Thank you, Alex. For everything." Kara smiled weakly and looked into her sister's eyes. "And I'm sorry. I'm sorry I yelled and hurt you. I'm sorry I threw you off a building. I could've killed you. Hell, I thought I did kill you!" Kara exclaimed.

"But you didn't. I'm okay. We're all okay," Alex reassured.

"But it's not okay. I knew something was wrong, but I didn't stop it."

"What do you mean?" Alex asked and scooted to the head of the sunbed.

"It's like there were two voices in my head, besides my own. Like how in old cartoons you'd have a devil and an angel on your shoulder." Alex nodded and Kara continued.

"Well, I could hear the angel telling me that I was hurting people. That what I was doing was... Bad. I would beat myself up over it. I hurt so many people. I hurt Lena."

Kara began to cry but Alex squeezed her hand genty.

"Hey, it's okay. Why don't you tell me about the other voice, the devil one," Alex gently prodded and redirected.

"Right. Thank you." Kara wiped her tears before continuing. "It was familiar. I couldn't place it at the time, but it's the same voice I heard the first time I was hit with red kryptonite. It whispered in my ear all these mean, horrible things. It made me order black coffee! I thought that humans were pathetic. I ignored your calls and I-"

Kara stopped as a wave of pain crashed into her.

"Kara. It's okay. I'm here. You can tell me." Alex rubbed Kara's hand and waited patiently for her to continue.

"I came onto Lena. I hurt her. She told me to stop and I didn't. The voice told me I could have the world, that I could have Lena if I listened to it. I wanted her so bad, but now I've ruined it forever. I kissed her and bit her and crushed her and I hurt her. She'll never forgive me Alex! I love her and now I've lost her forever."

Kara broke down crying and all Alex could do was rub her back and help her through it.

Minutes passed, and the sobs faded to tears.

"Feel better?" Alex asked, still rubbing Kara's back.

"No" Kara muffled into her knees.

"What about if I asked?"

Kara's head looked up, at first she didn't believe it. She rubbed her eyes, but the person didn't disappear.

"Lena!" Kara shouted as she tried to run towards her.

"Whoa there Kara. Settle down." Alex pulled Kara back onto the bed.

"Lena, I'm so sorry. I wasn't myself. Rao that sounds so stupid. But it's true. See a few years ago Max was trying to recreate kryptonite and well it didn't turn out right. It was red and it made me all angry and well it didn't make me angry but I couldn't control my-"

"Kara!" Lena shouted. "Please. Stop. It's okay. I know all about what happened."

"You do?" Kara looked up with a sad pair of puppy dog eyes.

"Yes. Alex told me. After our, disagreement Friday night I called Alex and confirmed her and Winn's suspicions. We made a plan for Saturday to help you."

"You, you knew this was happening? And you still wanted to help?" Kara sniffled.

"Of course Kara," Lena responded. She pulled up a chair and sat down by the bed, holding Kara's other hand.

"We even got J'onn to help out in case anyone went over the railing," Alex chimed in. "Which, I have to say I'm grateful for. I do not recommend a twenty story freefall."

A laugh burst out of the three girls and Kara's nerves began to settle.

"Thank you Lena. For everything. And you too Alex." Kara smiled wide and looked into the eyes of the people she loved.

"Anything for my little sis," Alex replied. "Well, almost anything. Still not too fond of freefalling twenty stories."

Kara lightly punched her shoulder and Alex smirked at her sister. Kara turned to face Lena. She stared deep into her olive green eyes, getting lost in the depth of emotion held within them.

"Thank you for saving me Lena," Kara spoke softly. "Today, you were my hero." Kara felt her heart flutter and butterflies rise in her stomach.

"Anything for you, Kara."

[tillman]

Pls infodump about lancelot from what i observe almost everyone hates him? (Ok its understandable bec of his affair with queen) im curious why do you like lancelot? And i remember a few days ago you post that there so many things you want to talk about him? And i want to see you rant/gush about his character, relationships, mental illness, his flaws etc ans also what is the difference between fate lancelot and lancelot in the legends? I want to know more about him he is complicated

OK its not that everyone hates him its that people hate what he stands for. the french side of arthurian lit is VERY focused on making lancelot seem like the greatest knight in the entire world because…. wow… hes french. and french people suck. stop normalizing the french. i like lancelot because of what he COULD stand for. theres a lot of things that could be delved into more (his mental illnesses, his communication issues, his inability to comprehend love, the struggle with being unholy or wrong, ect) but no one ever does. so i stole him hes mine now fuck the french they did him dirty.

uhm ok this is under a cut for talks of kinda heavy topics (lots of mental health talk, lots of abuse talk) and also cus its long. sorry i have a lot to say about him) 

i like lancelot a lot cus i see myself a lot in him. mostly in his mental health and how he ends up dealing with situations. his struggle with violent mood swings and his huge burden of being labeled as a sinner or whatever for a relationship he admits to feeling trapped in is…. relateable… comforting to see in a fictional character i guess. as flawed as he is hes still heralded as a good person. hes still loved by his friends and his family. and thats nice.. i like it. 

uhm for his mental health the main thing that comes out is his struggles with trauma, awful depression, and also just the fact he dissociates a lot. in knight of the cart he is so out of it he doesnt realize a knight is attacking him until hes thrown into the water in which he reacts violently and freaks the fuck out, trying to rip the guy off his horse. he like. physically can not handle extreme emotions and will either fall asleep so he doesnt have to face it (le morte says this is a known quality of him, he does this enough dinadan expects it as soon as he gets mad) or he swings so hard he has an extreme bout of depression (in the vulgate when trying to comprehend his relationship with guenevere and galehaut he just shuts down and spends all his time sleeping or staring at the river) or awful mania (see: the many times guenevere freaks out at him and he gets so upset he jumps out a window and lives in the woods). Lancelot has a lot of unworked out trauma from being r*** twice by the same woman who continues to use him and freak him out so much he cant find camelot safe (triggering another huge spike where he runs off into the woods) or the literal entire end of the legends where he has to deal with the trauma of while having one of his dissociative episodes in combat he accidentally kills gareth, someone he loves and adores like a brother or son and gets so upset he just accepts everything happening and hides in joyous gard, where his cousins have to BEG him to go and defend his honor from gawain whos basically knocking on his door pleading with lancelot to kill him. 

lancelots inability to understand a lot of social nuances is also really interesting but like, ultimately leads to a lot of strife for him most namely galehauts death and gueneveres constant abuse. The thing is Lancelot basically idolizes guenevere and this is where a lot of the abuse and weird shit comes from in their relationship. lancelot was a very young knight who honestly didnt understand anything about BEING a knight when he came to court. the queen knighted him and him, being young and not understanding, took this as “i am her knight! i will do anything for her!” and guenevere just kinda ran with this? i dont rlly wanna go too into it ill do that later when i get farther in the vulgate and can talk more on it but it leads to lancelot being trapped in a relationship he admit hurts him, but the small sliver of love guenevere gives him when she needs him is enough to keep him in because his mindset is still “im her knight! this is what a knight should do for his lady!” Galehaut is a different situation where his blindness to social cues and other shit leads to a lot of drama and hellish shit and when he finally snaps and realizes “oh. oh no this is what love should be” its too late and galehaut is dead and lancelot isnt much better. his own mother has to come and convince him not to literally kill himself over this and sends him into a spiral of depression where he doesnt leave the joyous gard for months. when he does and when he comes back to court, no one really … cares? that galehaut is dead. and this is lancelots first experience with actual love and his first experience with the death of someone close to him. which is an awful double whammy to have to experience. he does have good friends like gawain and dinadan and tristan and his relationship with galahad is good but they all end up dead or turned against him by something thats he did and its just. god its so sad to watch. the only people lancelot is left with in the end are his cousins, and even at the end of all of that hes left alone with the corpses of people he thought he loved. 

like hes a very flawed man. lancelot is a problem causer and not a problem solver. he doesnt try to he really doesnt, he strives to be the perfect knight mostly for some sliver of appreciation from someone he idolizes he never really ends up getting. he doesnt know how to cope, and ends up making things worse when he inevitably ends up screwing shit up because of this. hes called a sinner and unholy by god, and while he is very proud of his son for what he ends up achieving, has to deal with the trauma of the grail quest alone. he ends up killing someone he loves, and who genuinely respected and cared for him like a brother in a fit of him not being able to deal with heavy emotions. like he truly is in the wrong in most situations but like. in such a pitiable way. hes a good person, but lets his flaws overtake him a lot and pushes away the people who want the best for him. its like…. sad. 

(about to talk about fate u can drop off now if u just wanted to read my arthurian lit opinions :-) )

i could go off about fate lancelot and all the problems i have with him for hours but i think the main thing i wanna talk about rn is how they handle his internalization of his life and then just did nothing with it. his wish for the grail is just to be told he was wrong. thats so fucking GOOD!! in life he was heralded as the best knight like of course his one regret was that no one ever stopped him and went “you are wrong. this is wrong. you are doing the wrong thing.” and that being all he wants out of the thing that can grant any wishes is soooooo soo cool and neat. and then they just reduced his personality to “oh boo hoo im so sad im going to fuck a married woman now” like. the fucking dissonance. like lancelot isnt the type for random flings. tristan sure i understand that a bit hes unhinged and hard to characterize and .. honestly does just go around fucking married woman. weirdo. but lancelots entire struggle is over his relationship with guenevere being both wrong morally and literally abusive! i jsut dont get it i dont understand how they built up something so interesting with zero and threw it all out the window it makes me so mad. i dont even wanna talk about fate lancelot anymore rn its giving me a headache cus im so mad.