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I'm reading Crime and Punishment, does Raskolnikov have a borderline personality disorder? Because he doesn't seem to have a stable sense of self and of the world.
#no shame to people with bpd; i have one myself#just his switches in mood and tought patterns remind me of the symptoms#also let's not demonize his bpd; the murder is not for that reason I believe#he is just a weird guy to begin with; apart form the mood switches and random thoughts#he seems to be a cynical shithead#fyodor dostoevsky#fiodor dostoievski#fiodor dostojewski#crime and punishment#rodya raskolnikov#also i remember that this was our required reading in high school - i didn't read this at the time cause I was a busy with ya fantasy#or some shit like that#but I remember how the book was described and how Raskolnikov was decribed and how his crime was described in school#and I am kinda like ???z#did I and all of those literature doctors read the same book?#or do I just feel it differently?#is that me or them?#maybe it's because I allegedly have bpd (first diagnosis; second is different but tbh the doctor is shit and didn't do a proper interview)#and the first one did#Raskolnikov in school was calculated and cold#and don't get me wrong - he planned the crime I get it; he is a bitch I get it#but he is also a mess with mental illness who lives in extreme poverty#🤔#he seems to be emotionally unstable - not cold and calculated#smart but still very messy#also empathetic some of the times?#and thoughtful?#but my man is just walking around town with fever and severely sick#just stay at home!!!
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Cellbit trying so hard to stay level headed and rational and keep shit together, but when Hombre Misterioso comes in with some fuck shit, and he’s not sure if he’s only hearing him inside his head, his response is basically ‘I can and I will out crazy you without hesitation’. He’s like I have done fucked up shit before and I will do it again if you give me an excuse I swear to god. He’s like I’m level headed and reasonable right now with rigid self control, but if you give me a single reason I will kill us both
#Cellbit on his last thread like I can and I will snap and make this your biggest mistake yet jfjskfkd#he’s like lol if you’re really in my head you picked the wrong guy. good luck have fun#Cellbit who is so aware he is capable of just going fucking off the walls like haha! one more thing and I will go off willingly and it will#have repercussions you wouldn’t have even dreamed of :)#pac walking on eggshells but also needing to rely on Cellbit while helping forever like ‘man isn’t it fucked up were the most stable rn’#he’s very like ‘I’ll light myself on fire to burn you’ kinda energy yknow what I mean#Cellbit a reformed cannibalistic murderer like I have had a fresh start I am a changed man. be careful tho#idk it’s all. his character sure is something lmao#mcyt#qsmp#Cellbit#z speaks
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#polls#submas#emmet#pokemon#pokemon legends z-a#i really am enjoying reading everyone's thoughts! so kinda curious to see what we all think 👀#personally i would just cause yes lol#but logically i'm sure it isn't likely aaah
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COUGHS LIKE A GARBAGE DISPOSAL girl I finally finished the lesbian
#NEW REDESIGN BABYYYY#glow up honestly#murder drones#my art#art#yeah#murder drones oc#heck yeah#it was#SO HARD#to get her lineart and coloring down#she has hair now z!#yayy!!#she’s my favorite morally gray sapphic#shakes her in my mouth#the religious/fleshy/angelic polycule symbolism allegations are still on me gang#I AM NOT RELIGIOUS#I just really like designing kinda freaky angels
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the worst thing about me being a Gen Z with a Gen X father is that i routinely use Gen Z slang & internet lingo around him to the point that he's able to accurately parse what it all means. AND THEN HE GOES AND USES IT AT WORK TO IMPRESS HIS TWENTY SOMETHING COWORKERS
#my dad is a manager at *insert big tech company here* so he works with a fair amount of recently out of college computer science majors#and they're like 'oh haha it's fine john's really smart and stuff but he is kinda old'#but then my dad starts talking like some gen z teenager and they're like 'wah??'#and of course he has to tell them he knows this shit because of me#his gen z child#like when i tell you all his coworkers know about me is that 1) i teach him slang 2) am a stem major and 3) i have pink hair#like what picture does this paint of me?#like. y'all. he told them he knew what rizz means#how am i supposed to recover from this#wrote this ages ago and now i don't even have pink hair anymore#oh well have this silly little post that's been rotting in my drafts for weeks#not good omens#shitposting about the stuff my dad does will never not be funny to me#personal#personal post#random
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#originally i had a very visceral reaction to debster#i am still not really that much a fan but i dont wanna judge#its not for me and thats alright#and i respect yall#there aint no point of being in this fandom and try to be puritanical lol#i think i reacted weird to it cuz i projected a wee bit onto dexter and i have a sister so... so it made me uncomfy#meanwhile i dont have a brother so brian n dex having an unhealthy weird thing didnt bother me#and i didnt like the justifications of theyre not actually family that the show tries to pull since...#adoption is real family and that kinda narrative rubs me the wrong way#like you can write unhealthy codepency and incest but like dont pretend it isnt incesty you know#yes i get theres a difference cuz of genetics n shit but like its the emotional boundaries of family that matters to me#i guess it frustrates me when folks be like it isnt actually incesty cuz of x y z lik just own up to it lol
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I will probably never post again but I just had a vision and needed to let this out in the open
Save me trans man banjou ryuuga headcannon…save me
Hair based on his hair post new world
#kamen rider#kamen rider build#banjou ryuuga#banjo ryuga#kamen rider cross z#autism is autisming#am i projecting?#kinda#but like#he’s giving trans idc#kamen rider fanart
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men apologizing: what more do you want me to say
#i just cant#idek anymore#like wtf#am i being gaslit#is a genuine apology too much to ask for#on a side note i look kinda pretty in the bathroom mirror when im crying#textpost#lmao#shitposting#meme#shitpost#funny#tumblr memes#gen z humor
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Three years on Jorvik.
#logged on to take some celebratory pics and was just not feeling zelda's appearance at All#so... 240 sc splurge on changing their appearance Obviously :]#I used the body type glitch free appearance change to *checks notes* uh. Change their eyebrow colour#so I had to pay for all the changes I did today lol#cant even say it feels like an Oops. moment though#I am very happy with them :]#please please please this hair in the darker brown colour that the messy bob has though#also the anniversary was actually yesterday but i was very busy and then very tired so i forgor#kinda bummed about it because 3 has been my favourite/lucky number since i was little#but whatever. theres always the 9th anniversary. in 2029.#(6 is not a special number)#z talks#sso#ssoblr#z's photos#h: northborn
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does vegetta consiously make the choice to sound like an anime character at all times for the bit or is that his real voice
#if its his real voice thats sooo funny#yes this is vegetta. yes he is kinda like the guy from dragon ball z#the most anime character sounding man ever: yes i am vegetta#vegetta777#qsmp
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I love Zed sm
This is just gonna be a post talking about Zed because I'm going insane and I love him so much
So first movie I already knew I was gonna kin him after like the scene where he noticed his z band hand was becoming red and he was like "Nah I'm fine. Besides I have to keep making the other zombies proud." Like he cares about others people's opinions and just cares about other people over himself like hello?? That's literally me coded. He's such a loser /pos like he's so cringe and just such a loser, just like me fr
In the second movie I started kinning him so much more. Like I totally understood why he hated the werewolves at first because they got so many privileges that the zombies had to work for. He felt like it wasn't fair and I totally get that if I saw other people that didn't have to work hard for something I worked hard for it would make me pissed off too. And the song Do It Like the Zombies Do I love it sm. Because I am like 90% sure I am neurodivergent, specifically autistic, and so I have always tried to fit in to be accepted. So I totally get why Zed is trying to make the werewolves fit in because, despite not liking them he still doesn't want to see them struggle like the zombies did because he's still a nice guy, and I get why he's frustrated that they don't care about fitting in. As someone who's trying to stop masking in public because who cares what others thinks I also get kinda envious when I see people being themselves without caring. Sometimes I try to tell my other neurodivergent friends to calm down or to act more "normal" because I've learned to not be weird so I don't want my friends to be seen as weird by other people. I'm trying to stop that habit as well.
Zombies 3 I related to him doubting himself despite everyone saying he's amazing. My thoughts get to me despite what anyone says. I also relate to his immediate head over heels love for Addison because I am a hopeless romantic. I just love Zed sm and I relate to him a lot.
#z o m b i e s#zed necrodopolis#milo manheim#disney zombies#rant? kinda?#i kin him#I kin so much it's not even funny#I project onto him too#Like I headcanon him as trans ftm mostly because I am trans ftm and I relate to him a lot so#I also headcanon him as bisexual partly because I'm gay but also like have you seen the way he interacts with Wyatt??
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No one:
Me: so funny how the origins of many of my tags were very random and have ended up sticking and also influencing the tags i made afterwards-
#i am continuing in the tags lmao. this is basically me just wanting to explain why i have named my tags what ive named them. probably wont#remember all but i shall do a few#anyways the 'le' in front of everything is random. when i was young id just add 'le' in front of words randomly and i wanted to have tags#*i wanted >personal< tags that were basically the same as what thet would generically be called but with something added so that it wouldnt#come up for just anyone who searched up certain tags (like personal text posts and selfie tags etc) and so 'le ____' was born#it was only for a couple things and then as time went on i just liked having my tags matching and so added it to other things#my fanart tag is 'fabart' purely because i mispelled it the first time i tried to tag 'fanart' and then kept it because i thought it was#funny cute and i liked that 'fab' kinda sounded like i was saying 'fabulous art' which is indeed what fanart is lmao#for 1d 'the boys' was pretty simple. think i along with every other stan just referred to them as that and so thats why i chose that#and then when they broke up and i was tagging ot4 i chose 'the boyz' because even though its only the 4 of them i wanted zayn still involve#somehow 😭😭😭 so adding a z to their tag it was lmao#thats all the tags i can think of for now but if i ever think of more I'll maybe rb this who knows#anyways thats enough rambling because i cant sleep from me xD#le text post#stop. i just remembered i used to have a tag for pics of harry styles when he had long hair -long hair dont care- i actually miss my 2d days#nEways im sure i have more like that but the fact i cant remember all of them drives me up the wall fhdhfh hopefully more will come 2 me
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as much as Bad very much does care for the well being of all the eggs, as much as Leo of course cares for her tio, the fact remains that Roier is her closest family and caretaker right now, and he Does Not Trust Bad. not with the time of day, not with the location of Pepito’s room, certainly not with Leo. and it’s like, after everything that happened in Purgatory, it’s to be expected. it doesn’t matter how much Bad has cared for the eggs, it doesn’t matter how much we as the audience know he’d do everything in his power to keep any one of them safe - the fact remains that his actions have tarnished the trust he’s built with some of the other islanders. it remains to be seen how this’ll come into play with the rest of Red, as they’re still missing, but it’s super obvious with Roier.
I doubt Roier will be on tomorrow to take care of Leo, and I know Bad is planning on giving her cookies and taking care of her. and I’d bet money this’ll be another point of tension against Bad - yes, even though he’s watching out for Leo. I keep coming back around to actions having consequences, but it’s prevalent, and this is one of the many Bad is experiencing - a complete lack of faith and trust from the others because of his actions in Purgatory.
#either that or maybe it’ll get Roier to trust bad a bit more. I kinda doubt it though#it keeps circling back around to purgatory but it’s so prevalent rn with what’s going on and how people treat bad#it’s like. yeah it makes sense Roier would not want bad taking care of Leo. it doesn’t matter that we know bad only cares about her he#doesn’t get that trust anymore. like#it sucks because ofc we know bad has only ever cared about the eggs. and it’s always been known to everyone else#but purgatory still frayed the trust enough to put doubt on that#by Roier at least. etoiles’ level of trust still means he trusts him w the eggs as far as I’ve seen#idk we’ll see what happens we’ll see#im just delighted at purgatory having lasting consequences. drama and intrigue and fraying trust. it’s interesting#and to be clear - I am so glad bad will be there to take care of Leo tomorrow jfjskfkd#mcyt#qsmp#q!roier#q!bbh#z speaks
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everyone was so harsh to alola it deserved so much better. like this region is so well designed and so pretty and the story is actually really fun? will never forgive everyone for what we did to her
#I started a sun nuzlocke and granted I’ve only just finished the melemele grand trial#and idk! I’m having a great time!#when I played it the first time I didn’t love it but I was also doing pretty bad at the time and had started being less into pokemon#there are reasons I understand being frustrated like the constant stop start of tutorials and cutscenes but also like?#maybe it’s that i know they’re coming and have accepted it but can’t you just like enjoy the ride? it’s a way more involved story I guess#like you get to talk to lillie and hau a bunch and see what they’re up to! feels more like actually going on a journey w your friends yknow#compared to idk sinnoh where you run into Barry occasionally or even bw where there are 3 parallel journeys which intersect#also think when I first played it I didn’t like the removal of megas. z moves as a concept. and the removal of national dex#and yeah all those things suck a little bit maybe I’m just more used to it now after galar+paldea#idk! but man alola itself is so cool it’s just so good#I rlly love the environments and the island setup and god alolan pokemon are so fun#the one thing I DO have beef abt is the relative paucity of grass types but it’s not even that bad. that’s a me thing bc i like grass types#(it would be unfair to judge alola on ice types especially given they’re kinda the best about it to that point bc of tapu village)#anyway I’m rambling but alola!!! alola my beloved I’m so sorry#this is my first time properly playing since it came out bc I didn’t wanna restart ultra/sun for the longest time#my original sun had all my ancient pokemon from the bank launch free trial. rip to my original black + x teams. and also the 2020 mythicals#ultra sun is my last original save file pre-switch so i am very reluctant to restart that. maybe one day. until then! sun <3#luke.txt
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Buggy worrying so much about roger....
#kinda love how robins eyes are brown in movies sonce oda wrote one lmao#also post timeskip movies stop it..... let their tiddies alone... it hasnt even been a minute#WHAT IS SANJI WEARING AND WHY AM I SEEING NAMIS GOOCH also ooc nami would never jump on brook like that if luffy is there too....#another episode of what temperature is it there you can never tell with these bitches bc why is robin wearing a sweater#deke HAMBURGER so true franky.... did he go insane what is he talking about#sanji gave zoro sake at the end.... also what is going on#also i was watching the z prequel short but i realized i havent watched the strong world one and i thought well i might as well#nothing important right tho.... TELL ME WHY DOES SHIKI KNOW ROGER FOUND AN APOCALYPTIC WEAPON??? HELLO??#oda said well if i am writing this movie i might as well put a bit of lore in there.... boom roger boom ancient weapon boom#swngoku and garp are so funny here. matching color ties and everything#OH MY GOD. BABY ACE!!!!!!!!! CRYING AGAIN!!!! HE ACTUALLY ENJOYS GARP OMG AKDHSJSNK#kuinas father says as she is born that she won't inherit the dojo.... and yasopp prepares to leave his son. amazing... omg bellemere...#ROBIN!!!!! AND FRANKY!!! omg shakky and rayleigh#also kinda pathetic this guy got taken down so easily.... rip bozo#talking tag#watching one piece#watching one piece movies
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Tell me if you would you read this book idea:
There are five high schoolers who are both popular and queer. The cis hets are asking them out all the time and they’re tired of it. They band together to figure it out. But they eventually realize that their real problems actually have nothing to do with being popular or queer.
#yes I got this idea after watching heartstopper don't judge me#the protagonist is aroace because I'm aroace#I like the idea of a book where all the characters are queer and you think it's going to be about their queerness but it's kinda not#all the hotties are queer#ya book idea#wip#aromantic#asexual#queer#gay#lesbian#trans#gen z#writer#writeblr#am writing#lgbtq+#lgbtqia#heartstopper#cross btwn loveless and to all the boys I've loved before#alice oseman#jenny han
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