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can-of-w0rmz Ā· 2 years ago
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Pov you repeatedly find cool sounding modern ā€œgothicā€ media only to find out itā€™s really shit overly edgy 13-year-oldā€™s-Wattpad-story level shit that romanticises suicide and mental illness ā€œdepression and self harm is quirky and everyone else with a mental illness is crazyā€ style instead of commentating on and delving into it and exploring the darkest elements of the human condition through romanticism without presenting them as a good thing or gatekeeping who has it worse:
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powderflower Ā· 4 months ago
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bad thing about pay per views is they end and i have way too many things to draw now
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lanternlightss Ā· 7 months ago
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watching a playthrough of the prologue while doing other things and what im gathering is that i need to draw my human loop with heavier eye bags
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finelythreadedsky Ā· 1 year ago
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on the heels of my realization that nathaniel and theodore are the same name, anybody got any guesses about what 'aristobulus' might calque from hebrew into greek? 'best-plan'?
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bartholomewillustrated Ā· 7 months ago
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Does Auger prefer to eat meat or vegetables? Is Auger violent or passive? What about... sugarcube?...
For those creations by Lazarus which eat (if they do) meat, are they capable of consuming "Carne Nullis" or would it cause them to become mutated due to contact with his blood? (Or does it have to be fresh blood from his blood stream)?
It was written that Hieronymous is 'unstable' and is 'always in need of repair'. Does that mean Hieronymous is unstable mentally, or physically? I noticed in the drawing that Hieronymous looks sickly with no fur of Hieronymous' own, but Shelley had bits of Shelley's own fur growing and looked strong and vibrant. What causes Hieronymous, in your canon, to be unstable versus Shelley being strongly stable? Is it related to the Cadou, Lazarus' powers, or something else entirely?
Is Hieronymous' nature of being able to like or dislike people even though Hieronymous is very aggressive relative to Hieronymous' instability, or just a quirk of Hieronymous' personality? Are the Wear-Wolves positive/less aggressive to those with a Cadou vs those without, or it doesn't matter? Is it possible for them to have a passive or friendly interaction with a mere stranger, say, if that stranger were to offer them a snack?
Do Wear-Wolves only eat fresh meat, or can they eat cooked, rendered meats? Is there something a Wear-Wolf really cannot have, like chocolate or raisins, or do they forego the typical drawbacks of actual canines?
Ooooo hoohohoho!! I Love this! What excellent thought provoking questions!! Thank you so much!!
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Does Auger prefer to eat meat or vegetables?
Auger was made specifically with the idea in mind that he can, and would, consume Anything. You could feed that lad a Tree Branch if you wanted to. He doesn't really have organs the same way a regular horse would, or even the same way the Worn Wolves do. He's got what is essentially a large grinder for an abdomen, in which any consumed material gets ground into nothing. As such he doesn't really express much of a preference. He'll eat whatever he's fed. He does get to graze in the summer on nice fresh grass cause there is a horse brain In There, Kinda. but when fresh foliage is short in the winter he eats a lotta old hay or bark and such. (Lazarus's creations don't have the same nutritional needs as a normal animal/person? per say? Even a human augmented by cadou/megamycete still needs to eat a balanced diet, but because Lazarus's creations are all hodge-podged together and ambulated exclusively via Mold Magic they just kinda need.. Something in the tank to give them energy, and even then.. Laz is Dubious that that's really the case.)
Is Auger violent or passive? What about... sugarcube?...
I wouldn't say Auger is actively Aggressive, but he's.. like... Fight is his first response to anything he doesn't like. He's cool with Lazarus (most of the time) but everyone else is pretty iffy (In the imaginary version of the game in that exists in my head that has Laz in it Auger is actually a mini boss Ethan fights before getting knocked tf out) Even Karl he's pretty ehhhh with.. So sugar cube? You could try, But Watch Out!
For those creations by Lazarus which eat (if they do) meat, are they capable of consuming "Carne Nullis" or would it cause them to become mutated due to contact with his blood? (Or does it have to be fresh blood from his blood stream)?
SO! This was an interesting one and I really had to ponder on it because I somehow had not at all thought about someone (except maybe Lazarus himself because he's a Freak) trying to eat Carne Nullis.. let alone Laz feeding it to his creations... I think it Is Technically edible. BUT If you are a person who is not predisposed to have a favourable reaction to Cadou/megamycete it will cause you Harm. Because it's really like a weird mixture of actual meat and The Mold, in a similar way to how Ethan is both a Meat Boy and a Mold Boy. But if you're reaction to Cadou/megamycete is stable it's just like a really mid and kinda musty cut of whatever meat it was generated from initially.
Because, then, his creations are dependent on Cadou to live, they can eat Carne Nullis just fine. They don't usually, because Lazarus kinda needs his blood, but they Could. (To answer a sorta sub-question I see nestled in there as well; Once Lazarus's blood has like.. fully formed and become Carne Nullis it no longer holds its mutative growth property. Only when it's still liquid can it grow or mold the extra flesh)
It was written that Hieronymous is 'unstable' and is 'always in need of repair'. Does that mean Hieronymous is unstable mentally, or physically?
Physically, poor thing is always in need of replacement parts or restitching, and Lazarus has just given up at trying to figure out how to get eyes to not immediately rot out of his head..
I noticed in the drawing that Hieronymous looks sickly with no fur of Hieronymous' own, but Shelley had bits of Shelley's own fur growing and looked strong and vibrant. What causes Hieronymous, in your canon, to be unstable versus Shelley being strongly stable? Is it related to the Cadou, Lazarus' powers, or something else entirely?
It's all in the material really. Lazarus sources a few different things for the flesh that makes up his creations, the Worn Wolves in particular are comprised primarily of actual wolf/dog parts, a little bit of human, and Lycan meat/skin (with little filler bits from other animals where necessary).
Lycans are tricky in terms of quality, as they're already proven unstable against the cadou so getting the right combination of A Strong(er) Lycan, a Good Amount of stable material from other sources, and balancing it all to react well to the Cadou can be Finicky. Once all the parts are together and Lazarus is satisfied with the result they are injected with partial little chunks of Cadou which brings them to "life". So Laz's powers really don't factor into the stability too much, once the sculpting is finished the end result is really in the hands of the flesh's reaction to the Cadou, which is something that's really hard to predict with 100% certainty.
Heironymous isn't the Only unstable worn wolf, he's just the Most unstable. (and has become the Little Baby of the pack because of it.) He was one of the earlier experiments and Lazarus hadn't got the formula exact yet, where Shelley was formed later in the pack, but her relative strength made her the Leader.
Is Hieronymous' nature of being able to like or dislike people even though Hieronymous is very aggressive relative to Hieronymous' instability, or just a quirk of Hieronymous' personality?
Just his personality. The worn wolves are probably Lazarus's most successful venture. His most Complete Works, in terms of overall functionality and... Lively-ness (Auger being a close second, and a creation I've yet to reveal that he collaborated with Karl on that is leagues beyond anything either of them made alone >:3c) So each of them is actually pretty Dog-Like in that they have determinable personalities and are capable of like.. Being Clever (where something like Auger is mostly reactionary) or being Calm, or learning to trust other people etc.. But Heironymous's particular docility is also probably in part because he is so often Babied, by the other wolves and by Lazarus.
There all very aggressive innately but they are also, for lack of a better word, Well Trained. Are the Wear-Wolves positive/less aggressive to those with a Cadou vs those without, or it doesn't matter?
That doesn't particularly matter, they're aggressive at whoever Lazarus directs them to be aggressive at.
Is it possible for them to have a passive or friendly interaction with a mere stranger, say, if that stranger were to offer them a snack?
It Is! In fact! there is a very important Character in FaHI I have yet to introduce; Johanna, Lazarus's young assistant, who does exactly this!
Do Wear-Wolves only eat fresh meat, or can they eat cooked, rendered meats?
They could eat cooked meat, but they wouldn't enjoy it nearly as much.
Is there something a Wear-Wolf really cannot have, like chocolate or raisins, or do they forego the typical drawbacks of actual canines?
Though they share a large amount of their material body with like.. actual dogs, I think the added human/lycan parts of their composition and the fact they are puppeted by weird Mold Magic moots any foods ill effects.. they aren't Quite Auger, you couldn't feed them Sticks, but like.. they could eat some raisins.
This was so much fun!!! thank you so much for sending this!!! I take a very "I don't have to explain myself to you as long as it all Seems internally logically consistent" approach to story telling so a few of these really made me think!
#bartholomew speaks#re8 oc#lord lazarus bosch#for as much as I try these days not to get Too bogged down in Lore Weeds in favour of spending time on plot and character#I dooooooo love to go back to my roots and just Make Shit up about How Stuff Works#vwv#Johanna though! I'll give her a little bit of an intro here in case anyone is curious#She's a young woman from the Village (probably early 20's)#She's sort of a weird outcast among her peers#and after this that and the other thing is dared to break into Lazarus's property#(a common challenge among village youth#see if how far you make it into the hedge maze before encountering The Horrors..)#So she gets tossed into the maze and basically abandoned#and after struggling and running from a few of the shambling mass she makes it out the other side of the maze and runs head-long#into the worn wolves#She keeps them from attacking her by literally throwing the lunch she had in her bag at them - which they chase after Immediately#Seeing this she kinda.. just realizes that these things are just.. big weird dogs.. basically#she slips away back out the hedge maze#and then continues to come back every couple days to hang out and befriend the Weird Dogs#in this quiet and honestly kinda peaceful back garden where she can draw and write and read without worrying about the other youths#Until Lazarus finally fucking Catches her back there#but I don't wanna spoil the whole arc v-v#Heironymous likes he plenty but it's actually a different Worn Wolf (That Johanna names Ghost) that favours her the most#Ghost is the tallest of the Worn wolves and she's the one that's completely hairless in the one sketch i've drawn with all 8 of them in it
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steampunkhobo Ā· 29 days ago
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When I figure out how to write gay fanfiction for The Brutalist itā€™s over for yā€™all
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fobnsfwdoodlesbackup Ā· 2 months ago
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Hiiii you weren't on anon so I screenshotted just in case
Yippee!! Welcome to fob farms! šŸ®šŸ¤ šŸ’• I do hope to be doing a lot more content fleshing out that world in this next chapter of my life. Tbqh I've never run into hucow content of men, so I feel a little bit like I want to create the content I'm imagining, with a very specific tone to it. It's sooooo wild to me how scared I was to bring this fetish up the first time and now I know more than one person who's into it šŸ¤­
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hannibal-confessions-nbc Ā· 1 year ago
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I hate when people say Hannibal "ruined" Will's perfect life with Molly shuuut up Will made his own choices. Will conveniently walked his dogs when Jack was there and left Molly alone with him knowing he would show her crime scene photos and she'd try to make Will go. He said he knew what he was doing going back after Molly got hurt. Hannibal told him not to come back even and Will ingored it! We need to acknowledge Will is a manipulative person and makes his own choices
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#anon i am so sorry i took ages to post this. its been over a month i hope youre hanging in there#hannibal confessions#nbc hannibal#hannibal#im so sorry for ranting here! couldnt help myself.#about hannibal telling will not to go back... he did say that BUT because he knew will wouldnt#listen to him. will has problems with authority god damn it. course he wouldnt listen. i think im more upset with molly in this scenario#because she pushed will to do something he expressed uneasiness for. she pressured him. he guilt tripped him into going.#ik will makes his own choices but as someone who has been guilt tripped frequently by someone im supposed to trust. its not easy to ignore.#doesnt matter if its intentional or not.#guilt tripping is not easy to ignore at all. so yeah im mad at molly for that. BUT THEN. im mad at jack for guilt tripping molly into guilt#but then im not mad because jack was just doing his job. he wanted a way to catch the ripper and he was relentlessly out for his ass#and would stop at almost nothing to get there. including putting his agent-made-ex agent-made-agent again's life and wellbeing on the line#yeah. will is a grown man. he makes his own choices. hes manipulative. hes a good manipulator.#no matter how manipulative you are you can still be manipulated. and easily. will has an unstable sense of self and im 99.9999999 percent#sure he struggles with a dissociative disorder outside of the encephalitis. among plenty of other things. his sense of self is not stable.#that makes him malleable. he can close himself off all he wants to avoid being susceptible to manipulation but he's still malleable.#chiyoh said it. she's not as malleable as he is.#will graham#hannibal lecter#molly graham#jack crawford
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trans-yllz Ā· 1 year ago
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I'm watching a youtube video and they started talking about all the shit in harry potter that just didn't make any fuckin sense, and while I don't believe that the "the books have actually been bad this whole time" sentiment is helpful in the argument against jkr, it is sort of insane that for the like 20 years before she went fully mask off terf everyone just didn't question any of the wild inconsistencies in the books šŸ˜­
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lilbirdblu Ā· 1 year ago
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why are people already giving me unsolicited advice on how to prevent the laceration on my face from scarring/how to fade it
for starters, itā€™s not even completely healed yet
secondly, i donā€™t care???? if it ends up being a very noticeable scar then oh well, i truly donā€™t care?? imo i donā€™t think it takes away from my appearance at allā€”my only concern is if iā€™m going to have the full range of movement back
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murphysiblings Ā· 1 year ago
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"go to a real lgbt space" as an argument for why aspec people arent queer is just kind of funny to me because every lgbt organization i know of, both big ones & local ones from my town, have included asexual & aromantic ppl . maybe there is some kind of hostility towards aspecs in the gay clubs here that im not aware of but i really doubt that
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abutterflyobsession Ā· 1 year ago
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oh fantastic my prescriptions haven't shown up, I have one dose left for today, and can't contact anyone until monday -_-
luckily I have some leftovers from previous refills and I'll have two out of three tomorrow so withdrawal shouldn't be completely debilitating, only extremely unpleasant
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heyitslapis Ā· 1 year ago
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Walked out of work today bc long story short a guest decided that she was gonna lecture me/use me & my "abhorrent, disrespectful attitude" as an example of a lesson for one of her student & I decided that standing there & being belittled wasn't worth it
#i only gave her back the disrespect she was giving me. not even as bad as she was dishing either#granted i couldve kept my composure but also she was up at the desk for 45 minutes making a mountain out of a molehill#& among other things in her ''lecture'' she told me that if any of her students or employees acted the way i did they'd be dismissed & fire#she said ''post covid there are PLENTY of people who would be lucky & LOVE to have any work right now'' & i thought#yknow. i love my job. but i dont deserve this. this isnt worth it#so i turned to the food & beverage manager who was the only MOD & said ''actually i think i will go home''#i called my AGM after i left & let her know the whole situation. even told her i understand if im fired or written up bc of this but its no#worth standing there & being lectured & having this lady lie to my face about things i said/did. i dont deserve to be treated like that#the woman really told me ''this couldve been a teachable moment for you'' LMAO lady i will let a LOT of shit slide#but i refuse to be the subject of your lesson & i certainly dont get paid enough to have anyone who isnt management lecture me#it just feels weird though. ive never walked out before. never spotainiously taken the night off. never had a situation like this before#it feels weird having left & it feels weird sitting in my bed trying to enjoy my night when my brain knows im supposed to be at work rn#oh well#my AMG said im definetly not fired & she'll talk to the lady in the morning. i couldnt care less if i was though. theres always other jobs#and to preface i even apologized to the woman both for my behavior & the disrespect. yet she still felt like making an example of me#what a week its been#emma rambles#emma vents#2023 tag
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letsplayballet Ā· 2 years ago
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if yukiko's social link ends with her deciding that she doesn't actually hate the inn that much and wants to run it, I'm filling this junes food court with hornets
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orcelito Ā· 2 years ago
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i hate anytime anyone says like "You should just do this one specific thing with writing bc it's the superior way of writing and everything else sucks" bc im like well what if i dont want to do that with my writing. i rather like how my writing is as it is. & then it makes me feel self conscious of my writing. bc brains are bitches i guess.
#speculation nation#like i do take writing advice into consideration bc it's not like my writing is perfect#there are still things i could improve on. & im working on them.#but. sometimes ppl r just so... generalizing.#this is Specifically with regards to the sentiment ive seen going around of 'it's best to just stick to 'said'' with dialogue tags#and i... dont like doing that.#i find it Fun to think on whether theres a more descriptive word!#and it can really embellish the writing when you find the right ones#and i also like to intersperse dialogue among actions and thoughts. to mix it up & all#'said' just feels very... bland to me. i dont like using it much.#im trying to work on using it if theres just not a more descriptive tag that properly fits. & there's not an action i can easily insert#bc i do agree that overusing synonyms of 'said' gets you that My Immortal type of screenshot#it's about moderation. it's all about moderation.#i know im overthinking this. i KNOW plenty of people have said they like how i write.#but when i see something like this that contradicts the way that i write. it makes me so incredibly self conscious i find it hard to write.#the thing is i try to seem confident on ao3 but i am anything but. even after 640k words posted my confidence is flimsy at best#so even one statement that could be read as anything other than a glowing review makes me so self conscious i wanna curl up in a ball#gaaaah brain's a bitch. anytime i start getting self doubts i try to just shut up about it so i dont bother anyone else with it#since it happens... unfortunately very often. VERY often.#ive been thinking about this for a few weeks tho & ive seen another post on the matter floating around#it's a joke post. not even that serious. but it still makes me so self conscious.#so i wanted to get it off my chest. mostly just complaining. i hate feeling so self conscious about my writing.#hundreds of comments of praise and excitement for my writing & im done in by a few posts that weren't even directed at me#self consciousness is so fuckin stupid. i hate how my brain works.
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observethewalrus Ā· 2 years ago
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#got a message on fetlife from someone I havenā€™t seen in like 4 years#theyā€™re trying to give away some really nice looking rope and it was nice of them to offer it to me even tho I donā€™t need any rn#they said theyre not involved in community stuff anymore cuz theyā€™re focused on exploring kink with their partner#and goddamn if she ainā€™t living my dream#I havenā€™t been active in the community in YEARS#Iā€™ve been to one or two munches since covid but thatā€™s it#I spent years going to every dungeon party and class and munch I could think of#and they were all anxiety nightmares#if it wasnā€™t the anxiety of trying to make friends among people who already had their own very well defined friend groups#(literally no different than when I was in school)#then it was people who went after every single sub they met#who wanted a quick scene and then disappeared and moved onto the next one#when people did actually try and engage with me I never felt like we were on the same footing#it felt like I was being interviewed for a job and I got all the answers wrong#literally my dream is to have a partner to explore kink with#and still know they think about me as an actual person outside of kink too#I know itā€™s possible#Iā€™ve known plenty of people in relationships like this over the years#but it feels like the kind of thing that always happens to other people#and Iā€™m not meant for that#and Iā€™m not saying kinky people arenā€™t nice#some of the nicest most talented most amazing people#Iā€™ve ever met are kinky#itā€™s entirely me being a nervous wreck that made it so difficult for me to find my place in the community#personal
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