#ambilify

[candybatwings]

Hello and welcome to my depression. I’ve been having a bad time due to going through The Horrors irl (my life is falling apart haha I’m fine it’s fine) so I’ve been drawing some weird stuff to cope. Weird stuff = this little guy who’s a sheet ghost but with a quilt. Something very calming about drawing a bunch of lil quilt squares…mmm yeah.

[spaceacerat]

I think the funniest thing is that this means I have been formally diagnosed with three "people are scary and I don't understand them/they don't understand me" disorders. Just within the last few months. Because apparently having a psychiatrist or whatever actually sit down and listen to you ramble about your symptoms and taking you seriously without just shoving medication down your throat is Life Changing.

After years of begging my therapists and psychs in my old town to at least go through the diagnosis criteria with me so I can know if I should try to get a formal diagnosis and being told no over and over, my new psych just went through them with me and went "Yeah I'm adding autism to your diagnosis chart". It was. That fucking easy this whole time.

I asked if I needed to go somewhere and get a formal diagnosis, she just went "Ah, no. I'm a [insert doc type here], I'm allowed to diagnosis you with it".

THAT EASY???? HELLO?????

[cloud-based-and-rainpilled]

Crowley is so repressed-memory C-PTSD coded 💅 Yes girl take that Ambilify ® and still feel sad

[izzysarchivedblogs]

Do you have any Marvel headcanons for Grace?

ALWAYS ACCEPTING // random questions and asks and anons

Oh, yeah totally! I keep putting off my write ups I have planned, but yeah.

🎵 So on an expansion, as well as deviation, from how Grace's powers work and exist in a Marvel setting from her vague canon setting.

ONE Yes, you will be compelled to sing if Grace starts up a song; no, she can not control you or force you to do anything (that you wouldn't inherently want to do)

TWO She can't control you, or make you do anything; there is some light influencing she can do, but not to influence you to do this or that. She can influence/amplify a specific emotion through song, so if she needs you angry than it's an rock ballad with yelling, but she can't give you a reason to be angry; it's just Grace drawing out whatever you anger you already have, and making that at the forefront and most present feeling you are now feeling

THREE Her powers still exist around drawing out truths and feelings, which makes herself a potentially good interrogator for that fact

FOUR However, in additional to those base powers is that she can do a thing like a Song Barrage, which is literally mental assault in specific area range (if she's outside it can be much broader, but requires a lot of exertion or needs an ambilifier) This barrage of sound, is meant to confuse, concuss, and knockout those caught in it. That's the scale of what it can do, base on how Grace amps t up; but it's basically continuously steam of sound (like turning all all the loudest music at once).

FIVE She can do sound / sonic blasts with her voice like Black Canary from DC or I'm forgetting who from Marvel, I'd say like Songbird but Melissa's is visual and it's really not similar, and she does literal sound barriers, and you should check out Melissa Gold/Songbird if you aren't familiar with her character in marvel, her power is neat. BUT YEAH. Grace has like sound force, concussive blasts of sound, both audible and like you can physically feel it (can't see it)

SIX I've decide that IDOLS in translation to Marvel setting, would all be tied to Mystic Arts; and that means that Grace could learn spells and mystics arts, it would require her to some training and teaching to sort of awaken the innate power within her, and her spellcasting would in fact be hinged upon her having to sing/have a musical element to casting the spell.

SEVEN She has healing powers, but they are not of any kind of flesh o mortal wounds. She cannot heal a bullet wound, do heart surgery, touch you a heal a burn, or anything. Her musical ability can heal wounds on the soul, psychic injuries, she can help you reach peace or resolution in your grief, and so on. She can't make you forget, or take it away; but she can heal psychic and wounds on the soul. Presently she ability to sense these wounds needs refining, is rather weak; but over the years, as she becomes more Calliope, her eyes will literally be able to see wounds on the soul in visual representation.

EIGHT So lets go into the song powers, they are psychic/mystic in how you would classify them. When you are singing with Grace, while she isn't actually reading your mind but if you are imaging yourself on a boat, or somewhere else as you sing your feelings, than there will be the illusion (visual and metaphorical and metaphysical) of being on a boat, of doing that action even though you and Grace will both be literally still exactly where you are, in the whatever place the song started. It's pretty neat, if not a little freaky at first. AND THE SAME APPLIES if you catch Grace singing, and if you focus on her singing and drawn towards her, you'll see whatever Grace is projecting; like sometimes you will be taken in a black space of nothingness, with just a spotlight on Grace as she sings; you can easily break out of it, if you stop listening or need to get somewhere, but. . . hey, stay a while, join her and than it'll probably become your song, or the both of yours.

🎵 SO THERE'S KIND OF THE EXPANSION ON HER POWERS, now let's go on with her power.

🎶 Right now, Grace is still Grace. Her powers are but a fledging at the moment. She's more Grace than Calliope; but as the years go on and she starts to gain Calliope's memories, her abilities will get stronger, grow, change a little too, and maybe new abilities will pop up.

🎵 HERO NAMES. Grace typically does not have one, but if she had to have one. She would simply be Muse, or The Muse. Grace, The Muse. That's at least when she starts out, and enters into the Idol and Superhero world. As the years go by, and she grows stronger in her godhood and memories come to her, than she might start going by Calliope as her 'hero' name.

🎶 If Grace to be on a superhero team, than the team that would b most fitting for Grace would be the Defenders actually. Speaking on hero business, Grace absolutely is not a vigilante, she does not see herself as one.

She just can't help that godhood does come with duties, and she is drawn to The Arts, people of inspiration, people who need help creatively, or need help because of their emotion of their soul. Calliope the Last Muse, and the Muse of Muses, duty in old days would have been inspiration great works of art from people, seeking creative souls (seeds, watering them), making sure they do something grat with their life.

Going back hero business, you can blame her roommate Freddie and their bandmates, Brian and Kaz, for promoting Grace as an "ally and sidekick" for superheroes, and as "badass songtress" and "healer and witch"

🎵 How to find Grace. She is still in the ban Edge of Elysium, with Freddie, Brian, and Kaz. They have a two or three nights a week show, at the club/bar, The Underworld (yes, that one started up by Peresphone). So you can find her there, after the sets unless EoE has gone on tour. Technically, Grace is there most nights. As the Marvel world state, she kind of got left the keys to the place. She and the band, are kind of in charge of The Underworld, and so it definitely has become a idol-and-power-friendly bar, and yes, there is nights where she warns the patron she's going to be using her musical abilities, and casting those mental illusions for the whole crowd, fun night, do get warned when it happens (that's why the bar has noise cancelling headphones). and as responsible for the bar, they hire bartenders, Grace and EoE organize all the other acts/theme nights on the non EoE nights. Also The Underworld bar is in Hell's Kitchen, Manhattan in this setting, cause that makes sense.

🎶 Grace only knows anything about Greek Myth and Superheroes because of Freddie (who i will write her and brian and kaz as npcs as needed), and Brian + Kaz know superheroes too. Grace will literally meet like someone like Daredevil, she has no clue who he is; and Freddie will just WE'VE LIVED IN NEW YORK, IN HELL'S KITCHEN, AND YOU DONT' KNOWW DD. and She'll just "oh wait. actually, yeah, no I don't pay attention." Freddie, Brian, and Kaz will literally drag her for days about this.

ANYWAYS THAT'S GRACE'S MARVEL SETTING HEADCANONS.

She'd mesh really well with characters rooted in mysticism and Asgardians; but also work with just about any character. I have a lot of ideas for her TBH in a marvel setting.

[shop-korea]

Watch "Keyshia Cole - Love (Alt. Version) (Official Music Video)" on YouTube

SULLI - BRALESS - REQUIRED -

2 B - HANDCUFFED - 3 MEALS -

DAILY - NOT - MALAYSIA - AT -

6 HUGE - SPICY - MEALS YES -

AS - BLK - FEMALE - NURSES -

LOOKING - AT - HER BREASTS -

FORT MYERS - POLICE - BLK -

GHANA - POLICE - BLK MALE -

SUPERVISOR - 'U WERE NEVER -

THREATENED - SULLI' - 'THEN' -

AFTER COLUMBIAN - EX ARMY -

MERCENARIES - SPANISH YES -

ONLY - FLORIDA NATURALIZED -

COLUMBIANS 2 INTERPRETERS -

LET - FORMER - HAITI - BLK YES -

MALE - PRESIDENT CELEBRATE -

JUNE - BIRTHDAY - MIDNIGHT -

LIKE - INDIRA GANDHI - A WED -

WEDNESDAY - SHOT - HIM - 12 -

TIMES - AT - THE - HEAD ALSO -

INDIRA - 5'4 FT - 20 TIMES - XO -

THEN - SHOT - COLLEGE - YES -

SWEATHEARTS - WIFE - ONCE -

THEY'RE - NOT - CUBANS - SO -

PHILIPPINES - FIRST OLYMPICS -

MISS UNIVERSE - 2018 - TRUE -

KOREA - GOLD - MEDALS - XO -

GHANA - BLK MALE - SHUT UP -

U - CAN'T - TELL - KOREA - IN -

USA - GO - BACK - 2 - KOREA -

SMALL - EYES - SULLI - SML -

BREASTS - NO - BRA NEEDED -

BLK - MALE - SUPERVISOR IS -

HISPANIC - BURNT - 500 FAMILIES

IN PHILIPPINES - IN THEIR HOUSES

SULLI - U NEED - PSYCHIATRIST - 4

TOPIRAMAX - TOPIRAMATE - SO -

NO - MORE - BLEEDED - NO KIDS -

JUST - THIGHS - OPEN - ENTRY -

COLUMBIAN - ARABUCA COFFEE -

IN - VEHICLE - SULLI - WE - HAVE -

2 - HANDCUFF - U - WE - DO THAT -

24/7 - DAILY - IN - AMERICA -

9 DAYS - SULLI - MENTAL XO -

HOSPITAL - 4 - YEARS - BAKER -

ACT - 3 DAYS - INCLUDES YEARS -

TOPLESS - 3 MEALS - PUBLIC US -

CLASSES - DAILY - HOURS - TRUE -

ILLEGAL - ALL - THE - SHOOTINGS

SCHOOLS - COLLEGES - CHURCH -

SULLI - INSTEAD -

KNIFED - HEAD - 'TWICE' -

JUMPED - TALL BLDG KR -

LANDED - ON - EYES OPEN -

LEGS - BEAUTIFUL - SEOUL -

WHAT - HAPPENED INSTEAD -

USA - SUICIDE - LEGAL - 14TH -

NO - STATE - CAN - DEPRIVE -

ANY - PERSON - OF - LIBERTY -

ACT - AS - PLEASE - BAKER XO -

ACT - HISPANICS - BLK NURSES -

REMOVING - WIRED - BRA - 2 FL -

BITE THEIR - BREAST LESBIANS -

AMBILIFY - DEATH - BLINDNESS -

DAUGHTERS - BORN BLIND USA

[aki-firebird]

Turns out Ambilify can create hyperfixations and cause erratic behavior and bad impulse control. It can also cause suicidal thoughts and so forth. Also the withdrawal sucks.

Anyway I'm off the stuff, have been for a few days. Explains so much of what was going on with me.

[anthonykeidissuckingonmyclit]

Uhhhh update on this one, I low-key had a panic attack bc I thought I saw a ghost the other week. Ambilify can be wild

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[ssj4goku777]

Risperdal Haledol Ambilify Zxyperxa Cogetinol defecated serpentine magic oil Titus 1:2 ☀️🕯️🚬

[manicato]

I got a medication upgrade.

Ambilify. It's new to me. and supposedly will help with bipolar. We'll see...

[dontkaraabit]

Days on ambilify

I started ambilify Oct 30. I’m gonna document how it helps or if it helps my mental health on here. I have ocd, generalized anxiety, and bipolar 2.

Heads up it’s a lot of complaining from here on out

Oct 31–The first day my eyes really hurt and my anxiety was really bad but I think it was because I was scared to start a new med.

November 1- On the second day my eyes still hurt and when it kicked in and when I woke up it kinda felt like my entire field of vision was a lava lamp (it was really bad when I closed my eyes); I was anxious but in terms of my bipolar cycle I wasn’t at a high and I wasn’t quite at a low, but I was moving closer to a low.

I think it’s way too soon to discuss if it’s helping the bipolar situation, and will be too soon to discuss for a few weeks. I’m also not manic or depressed, I just recently was manic and was cycling really quickly (like every few days); because I was on the wrong meds. (When I come out of a low or high, I’m fine for a bit before the next up or down.) But like I said I felt like before I started this med, I was moving towards a low. I would describe my overall mood as anxious because I’m sensitive to medications and I was worried about the eye thing.

November 2- I was super productive. I woke up early and got all my work done and painted my nails by 9a. (Side note I paint my nails and cut them once a week because my self harm is scratching and short painted nails make it harder to scratch). I also started a new mood blanket.* I figured because I’m starting a new chapter in my mental health journey I should start a new blanket. I also let my cats hang on the patio all day which is big for me bc the OCD. They get dry bathes whenever they come in but it also means I’m basically outside all day because they aren’t allowed outside unsupervised. (I live in az it’s 70 degrees so it’s basically spring).

I would describe my overall mood as anxious, I put myself in an uncomfortable space (which I do believe is necessary for growth particularly for OCD) but the resulting emotion was anxiety, I’ve also been trying to be more active on the internet which is hard because I’m an introvert and have a hard time reaching out to people.

*a mood blanket is basically a temperature blanket (every mood is a different color—when I’m low on cash similar emotions are the same color). I use them to recognize my emotions instead of journaling but I think I’m going to try both hence this.

November 3- I didn’t sleep last night. Which makes me worry because I wouldn’t consider myself an insomniac but not sleeping is becoming my norm…

Today felt relatively normal besides that I didn’t have any anxiety until about 10, but my anxiety was caused by chest pain or vis versa. My mom/nurse/person I call when anything I very wrong said a big medical word I don’t understand, but my chest muscle is sore. So I would say my feeling/mood for the day is fine.

November 4- today sucked. I was so sick all day and I have no idea if it’s a side effect or if I just ate something bad. Like I’ve been nauseous on this med after I eat pretty consistently but today was next level. I was doubled over in pain from my stomach, it felt like I had the flu. Let me go back a second when I started today I was fine, then I got a “you haven’t had enough water signal” from the toperimate (my hands start to tingle then go numb) so I knew I was dehydrated and there was a big thing about drinking water on the papers that came w the med (perks for having a nurse in the fam you read those things so you can answer questions lmao). So I do think not having enough water was a main factor in why I felt bad today. But why I think it could be a side effect or food related is because I get nauseous after I eat. Side note: my therapist missed our appointment and I really need to go to therapy do to the the mass amounts of anxiety I’m having. Overall mood: sick.

November 5- OCD day.

November 6- I don’t feel comfortable in my body, like I’m not comfortable sitting, standing, laying down, walking, nothing. Red thinks I’m manic and so does my mom. I haven’t slept in days; all I want to do is crotchet because I can count. I think I’m just tired and having OCD overload.* I started taking the med in the morning today and half of it. I messaged my doctor two days ago about doing this because of the whole not sleeping thing, I’ll probably hear back on Monday. My overall all mood is anxiety because while tired is a feeling, I don’t think tired is a mood but anxiety over not being able to sleep is. Why isn’t it OCD you ask? It is but I’m also exhausted because of the OCD. I just need sleep.

*all ocd terminally is extremely unoffical. It’s just how I describe my ocd to my doctors. (Psy/ therapist)

November 7- today is my last day on ambilify lol. I told my psy how I was vibing and she was like lol no that’s not okay (my therapist said the same thing). So we no longer are taking it lol. But it won’t be out of my system for three days. Overall mood anxiety

[suckrfish]

Can’t fuckin sleep

Getting off ambilify sucks, but I’d rather sleep less than continue to gain weight.

I also have a mix of High Horse and Ocean Eyes stuck in my head, so if I’m still awake I might go to the living room and play music.

[theonlyway4me]

Anyone have any experience taking a stimulant (dw I’m prescribed) and an antipsychotic together? Did it offset the weight gain😩

I wanna try this ambilify just to make sure it doesn’t help lol but way too scared of gaining weight

[waddlesworth]

I’m starting to have a depression rebound from weening off my antidepressants (Ambilify and Zoloft, respectively). I feel like shit and I’m at my lowest. Though, something popped up in my YouTube algorithm today from Warlow’s version of J&H. Needless to say, it’s something that I’ll listen to if I ever feel this low again. It’s helped a little as I replay it over and over.

https://youtu.be/ugc4w7cqCII

[polarpiggy]

I take abilify. I miss Haldol but that was giving me serious side effects. Abilify may be giving me some anxiety but I had the best year of my life last year and it had an important role in that. I hope you have as best of an experience as you can and come out with pretty good meds you can work with or don't need to change at all.

Anyone taking Ambilify?

Landed myself in inpatient care and finally being treated for bipolar. Is anyone on Ambilify that can tell me anything about its like?

[lesbian-moon-gf]

ok im gonna get back on ambilify instead of planning my death

[ciaosucker-a]

i just wanna apologize for all the negative posts lately and for asking for help i’m literally losing my mind because i haven’t been able to get to the pharmacy to renew my ambilify and with all the anon hate it’s been putting me down but i just want to remind you all you’re beautiful and ily all and i’m sorry