#am i crying??? maybe. who’s to say

[pwurrz]

also on that note i have BIG feelings about how quincy probably thinks yakumo is one of the strongest members of the clan, mentally speaking, because yakumo still has it in him to be a kind, compassionate and open-hearted person despite everything he’s been through because.. quincy knows how hard that is. quincy knows what it’s like to be hated and feared, excluding from society for things beyond his control.

and he especially knows how hard it is to continue being a person that wears their heart on their sleeve, despite everything. quincy knows exactly how hard that is, and he knows damn well he wasn’t able to do it. the grief of losing his loved ones and then being ostracized by the community that once loved and raised him was too intense, so he closed himself off from the world. he protected his heart by putting on the facade of being an uncaring, nonchalant person for so long that he actually started to believe he had become that person.

even now, after all the new connections he’s formed and memories he’s made, it’s difficult for him to admit he cares deeply for the people around him, and that he’s afraid of losing them.

but yakumo?? yakumo somehow still manages to love the world with all his heart. he hasn’t allowed the way people have treated him to turn him bitter, if anything, he uses those experiences as reasons to treat the few loved ones he has with even more unwavering compassion.

yakumo, who’s self image is clouded by hatred and fear, a result of internalizing everything he’s been told throughout his life, wakes up every morning and chooses to be the sweet person he always has been. he chooses to treat everyone he meets with kindness, even strangers, even people who definitely don’t deserve it. despite knowing there’s a high chance he’ll face some kind of rejection, yakumo opens his heart to people time and time again.

sure, he may be quick to cry, but that’s only because he cares so deeply. his tears, and how often he sheds them are not signs of weakness; quite the opposite, in fact. it takes unbelievable amounts of strength to continue to be soft in a world that’s done nothing but try to hurt you. that softness is a choice, and it was in no way an easy one to make.

quincy might know that better than anyone.

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

[iremiari]

charles rowland is the type of person to end his marriage vows with "and you're my best mate" then think nothing of it

[sysig]

Can I request a pokemon drawing? Was thinking mewtwo but idk whoever whatever!

Day 11 - Quiet pls

[ameliarating]

I think it is a very human need to scream and rage against horrors, even if the screaming and raging do not change a thing, because at least wipes the complicity off you. At least you can say that you said no. At least you know that someone sees you raging in their name and it brings them some hope and connection.

On the other hand, sometimes the screaming and raging does not only do nothing but it actually makes something worse. And then on the other hand, sometimes it makes all the difference, so that even when there are people screaming dangerous and wrong things, on the balance, it was good that you were out there.

And you can never know until after the fact. If you ever know at all.

[skunkes]

the bad: i have been raised without much warmth from my parents in childhood, but also pressured to conform to familial authority, doubt myself always, and value familial connections above all else (<- failed at this, and feel guilt about it.)

but also in experiencing this i have been so isolated from the entire rest of the world and others, that it will be nearly impossible to create my own "family" -> find safety and comfort in anybody else once my family is Gone. despite dis i find it really difficult to break away from the familiar, disobey and disappoint, because, well, why are my wishes more important than anybody else's. why would I cause upset and distress in anybody, and exert so much effort into my doubt filled half decisions, for my meaningless little Wishes. being away would also mean less time with these people who I'll never see again once they're gone. being raised this way is definitely paying off for those who did so.

the good: yaaaay adjacent inspiration for writing talon lore

[thebirdandhersong]

Lol

[party-lemon]

when the celebrity is a genuine actual good person

[madaqueue]

i only cried once today after being yelled at/scolded for two hours straight!!!!! i would like my hug and pat on the head for being so good now please!!!!!!!

[causeimanartist]

Guys, I'm trying - but FUCK I can't draw Bruce or anything

[pilonciillo]

lol didn’t think someone giving money would give me anxiety

[pardonmydelays]

i have a confession to make: i'm actually doing better than i ever was

[a-s-levynn]

(source)

[windor-truffle]

not me dithering for 2 months on whether to buy the Asobi store-exclusive physical items only for them to sell out 😭💔😭💔😭💔

[reegis]

On this server at least we absolutely love your art <3

SAY PSYCH RN 😭😭😭😭

[doux-amer]

One thing that has deeply annoyed me about the response from Americans/Westerners about this week's events in Korea is that a lot of them, including people I like and respect, are like, "The protesting civilians and lawmakers who barged into the National Assembly would've been shot if this were the U.S./this would've never happened in the U.S. because people are too afraid of being shot." There's some truth to that, at least with regard to state violence, but I'm fed up because it doesn't account for how frightening this could have turned out to be had it not been for how much of an inept flop dunce Yoon Sukyeol is. It minimizes the courage of those who showed up.

Sure, it was likely that the military and riot police wouldn't have done much (again, YSY's self-coup wasn't thought out well, and there's more evidence of that as military officials and soldiers are speaking up about the lack of information they received, but I'll refrain from talking about that to avoid making this even longer than it inevitably will be, knowing myself), but let's not pretend there haven't been issues with them in recent years. They pepper sprayed and used water cannons during an anniversary rally for the Sewol ferry victims (x) (x) (if you don't understand how unbelievably cruel that is, look into the horrific Sewol ferry sinking). They tear gassed crowds (Korea has a gruesome history of this) and sprayed water cannons, and citizens have been injured and killed during the 2015 protests and 2016-17 Park Geunhye impeachment protests, notably Baek Namgi, an elderly activist whose death caused global outrage (x) (x). Park Geunhye was going to enforce martial law during those protests according to a leaked document, with hundreds of tanks, thousands of soldiers and special force troops! (x)

Not to mention, there are decades of extreme state violence that have scarred an entire country and are still super fresh for a huge percentage of the population. Again, check out that tear gas history piece. Look up the April Revolution, Gwangju massacre, and June uprising and see just how bloody they were. Thousands of civilians were tortured and killed. Look at how many protests were going on year after year during the 1980s. That isn't that long ago! All those older people who ran to the National Assembly to stop the coup? You bet a lot of them were college students who protested during that time or knew people who did. All the younger people? They may not have experienced what it was like living under martial law, but as I said, state violence still occurs, however much it's dwindled over the years, and you have to account for generational trauma. I don't think I'll ever forget the way I felt when I saw the breaking news alert about the martial law declaration on December 3. I've never experienced that, at least to that degree.

Instead of viewing the response from civilians and elected officials through the framework of police brutality in the U.S., it should be contextualized using Korea's own history. Thankfully most of the serious discussions are doing this, but like I said, even people who are smart about reading up on things have reflected on how this wouldn't fly in the U.S., not because of the difference in protest history, civil movements, and public engagement with both in the two countries but because of the military/police response. There's an insinuation there that Koreans would be more reluctant to do what they did if they knew what it's like to live in fear of violence instead of living in such a safe country like Korea...and I want to yell.

It was monumentally brave of everyone to do what they did to stop the coup. We're all laughing at how stupid the coup was and there's a reason why people were more furious than scared because of the political history of Korea and the laws set in place to protect the democracy and neutralize coup attempts, but this could have easily become a disaster. It's not alarmist of me to say so because there was no way for anyone to be 100% sure of how the military would react—especially when no one knew what the hell was going on.