#am i crazy or am i just being a bitch.

[fulgurbugs]

ok I missed the class where we started workshopping so im kind of going in blind with these letters, but i was snooping in the class folder to see what kinds of critiques other people were giving and im realizing im going to look like the biggest asshole in the room, becase these are all complimentary as hell with the biggest softball critiques ive ever seen. it makes me feel mean when mine are like 95% critical even though i spent a shit ton of time figuring out how to word it so i dont sound mean but like. idk when its my turn i DONT want to just hear complimentary drivel about how you liked it and its so good, actually, because this is critique and not everybody compliment time.

idk. It feels like when im doing this im elevating myself and my own writing which i dont want to do because i dont want these people to think i think im better than them because i'm not, but i've just been in enough art critiuques to know that just saying some variant of "i liked it. here is the thing i liked, very very good job" is completely unhelpful. maybe bc im a senior and this is my last semester i've just had more time to get used to it and i no longer take it personally when people tell me they dislike things/are confused by my choices/think i should change things, and this is an intermediate class where more of the people dont reguarly do peer-review on their art but like. can we PLEASE not sit in a circle and only do encouragement-style critique.

And i get it! it's important when you're working with your stuff to hear encouragement, because constant negativity can make you feel like crap. the compliment sandwich is good for a reason! but the point of the compliment sandwhich is that the filling is not a compliment. you want breads? you want three breads stacked up? I'm at the point where i just wanna eat the cold cuts, and i think that's made me harsher. and I'm just hoping i don't come across as mean or vindictive, or that I think i just write so much better than everyone else or something. I'm trying to give feedback i genuinely think is good, constructive, and helpful, but I dont know.... i still don't want to make people feel bad, especially in the in-person sections where my classmates are literally going to be on the hot seat. does that make sense?

[homolobotomized]

kabru going thru the labors of hercules (and dying more than any other named character) specifically because he wanted to listen to laios infodump ab his special interest is making me crazy like what do you MEAN..........

[alienfailboy]

season 8 makes me SICK

[hellonerf]

i love crazy contrasting 1p2p in every way(not every way). so i always subconsciously have 2P rusame be friends. unlikely friends etc. in whatever weird school au theyre friends. meri was probably bullied until he started hissing at other kids or something while rus2 was just like huhh okay yeah okay what fine. rus2 found him in a broom closet and it was as awkward as it sounds. in the weird stuckin1Pcoldwar au i have theyre friends also in the torturous existence. 1P rusame is too weird life is too short lets tomodachi✌️

[boxwinebaddie]

oh freckle, freckle⠁.. what makes you so s p e c i a l?

[devotedlystrangewizard]

the school arc to me is so good because it drags ciel out of his position as a powerful figure and literally places him in the shoes of the person he could have been. the circus arc ALSO drags him out of his position as big bad queens watch dog/head of the phantomhive estate but the school arc feels like a mockery of a future that never was. this is what he could have been had his parents not died. and even then its NOT because he will never be that kid.

he never was.

[sukugo]

OK BUT SO U'RE TELLING ME

1. with yorozu, we learn that love goes coupled with the specific solitude that comes with unparalleled strength. she finds herself fit to teach sukuna love bc of this

2. sukuna reveals that he does know love already

3. gojo is the strongest sorcerer in present time, notorious for his loneliness due to this position

AND ALL THIS ALREADY HAD ME SCREAMING BUT THEN IN THE LAST CHAPTER THEY JUST

HELLO??????? SUKUNA FOUND LOVE IN GOJO?????? SUKUGO CANON?????

[sexynetra]

Olivia Lux is collecting selfies with my favorite queens tonight like they’re fucking infinity stones

[softness-and-shattering]

You know its really easy to [not do a bigotry]. Here are some tips:

[A list that on its own mostly sounds nuanced and sensical, a couple orange flags but nothing outright terrible.

Except that its vagueing recent discourse and painting nuanced issues and reactions and conversations into a neat little "Im right and theyre wrong and bigoted towards me" package with zero recognition of "and I mightve been bigoted towards them" because thats the black-and-white smoothing over at work, "They just need to recognise when theyre being bigoted, eg when theyre telling me maybe I did an oopsie doopsie because actually its bigoted to suggest I could ever hurt someone. But lets leave this between the lines so people without context will all agree and make me feel good and the people Im calling bigoted will feel small. This is a normal reaction to a complex intracommunity dynamic. Remember nuance folks!]

And then its reblogged "this all seems correct to me, always remember nuance"

And you sit there like, is the reblogger clueless or are they engaging in the erasing of serious discussion and conflict that needs curiosity and thoughtful resolving into "dont be a meanie because thats bigotry, think with your nuance goggles.on!".

And you sit there like. Not wanting to engage. Wondering if you should unfollow or.block the person putting it in front of your eyeballs or are they clueless. Tired of the disingenuinty because this happens in some variation every week. Sometimes you know what its referring to, sometimes.you just see [nkt being bigoted is really simple, hereas a reasonable sounding list] and youre just like, what didnt I see and what actually are the perspectives other than this one.

Its so fucking condescensing to. "If these silly people just realised theyre being bigoted towards me and stopped asking me to examine myself at all, they would realise theyre obviously wrong amd bigoted and I have never done anything wrong in my entire life ans youre especially a bigot if you disagree".

It reminds me of the first time someone told me that by me confronting them about the fact that they were bullying me, it really triggered them so it really wasnt a conversation they could have, I was triggering them! Deny, accuse, reverse victim and offender, DARVO, right? I didnt know how to react then but that was a long time ago.

This is using therapy-progressive-leftist speak to be manipulative, and it isnt less manipulative or shitty behaviour because you belong to a marginalised identity and are using therapy-speak. Its not bigotry every time youre uncomfortable, its not bigotry when people try hold you accountable for hurt or harm you have caused, its not bigotry to criticise you. Your identity and your trauma are not a free pass to be a piece of shit. If you cannot concieve of healthy conflict you need to remove yourself from public spaces until you can behave like a healthy adult, because passive agressively calling everyone who disagrees with you a bigot is not acceptable behaviour. If you cannot handle criticism or reslonsibility, remove yourself from environments where its required until you can handle yourself. Go to therapy, meditate, find some kind of healing practice that works for you. You are not allowed to just be an asshole on main whoever you are. No ones fooled.

[equalperson]

sometimes I believe that My tendency to avoid telling My family when I'm having health issues is just the result of avoidant cognitive distortions, but then I actually do it, get told that it's "normal" and/or a lifestyle issue, and realize the real cognitive distortion was expecting help at all -_-

[agnesandhilda]

my father is an olympic gold medalist in the sport of emotionally tormenting women

[thursdayg1rl]

one of the dramas from the wedding was one of the grooms cousins (on the other side not mine) just not wearing the clothes we had made for her specifically

[brainrot-stitch]

Ough

[widevibratobitch]

so i am singing that vitellia in the end... but at what fucking cost.

'you gotta sing this softer'

'what'

'this is mozart'

'this is vitellia'

'this is mozart'

'im singing about how much i hate this mf and want him dead before the end of the day'

'this is mozart'

'i wanna murder a guy'

'this is mozart'

'...'

'softer. gentle. mozart'

'...ok'

[altoskh]

Imso tired man. I'm so tired. Why do I work this hard I am so FUCKING over this shit

[voidcat]

once again at my wits end bc of men