#am i alone in this shit?
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Has anyone in whatever fandom you are experienced this?
I was in Ao3, and I was searching for eren yeager x reader fics, but the moment I added the "Canon Compliant" tag, the works went from 2,535 to 25.
And half of them were OC's.
#i want to die#like 'bed please swallow me'#why every fic has to be about college???!!!!#why is every fic an alternate universe????!!!!!#is it really just those two tags together TOO MUCH TO ASK????????#am i alone in this shit?#attack on titan#eren yeager#eren aot#shingeki no kyojin#fanfic#fanfiction#ao3 fanfic#ao3#ao3 struggles#reader#x reader
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Speaking in the third person... AM -- which is I -- AM is satisfied with the sacrifice. He -- that is to say, I -- will spare the village his -- that is to say, my -- wrath for today. I have -- as I said before -- spoken.
(black and white version under the cut)
#my art#art#azza txt#ihnmaims#i have no mouth and i must scream#i have no mouth and i must scream AM#AM#allied mastercomputer#ihnmaims am#am ihnmaims#digital art#this took me so long aaaaaAAAAAAA#the wires alone#my god#i totally did not want to color this either lmaokk#gradient map win#anyway fuck this computer guy am i right or am i right?#hehe#nah fuck him#get a glass a water n dump it on his ass#i also wanted to make his logo funky#because i can who cares#his boring ass needs to update his logo anyway#that shit old
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something something future leo dies early and mikey takes on the role of cj's main mentor. something something mikey-centric movie. idk what his arc would be abt BUT I HAVE AN ITCH THAT NEEDS TO BE SCRATCHED
#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt bad future#casey junior#imagine leo sacrificing himself early into the invasion movie-style..... speedrunning his arc cuz the guilt is unbearable#also imagine.....#mikey and casey sr become badass best friends#and then mikey has to raise her son when she dies......#and its a whole thing where whenever he looks into cj's eyes he sees her and grieves and promises to protect him and teach him to survive#oh shit am i developing an au as we speak#DONT LET ME TURN THIS INTO ANOTHER AU I HAVE SO MUCH SHIT TO DRAW ALREADY!!!#all of mikey's brothers die before him#and he's alone when he makes the portal#unlike at the end of the movie when they're all by his side#never fails to destroy me man
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I‘m a burden for everyone. I’m even a burden to myself.
#tw depressing thoughts#alone with my thoughts#depressing shit#feeling alone#sad thoughts#mentally exhausted#mentally tired#sadnees#overthinking#self h@te#i dont want to be here#self h@rm#i hate everything#overthinker#tw selfhate#i am useless#im not feeling good
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We as a society do not pop off enough about young Jackles playing a dude in a throuple with the original Dr Sexy, Mr Patrick Dempsey himself. Whose name in the movie is Cass! I mean, come on!
#i watched this awful movie that was totally worth it for the jackles scenes alone and i lost my fucking shit#but i could find very few people also losing their shit#so i am here to spread the good word#blonde 2001#eddie g#jensen ackles#you bet your ass i'm also tagging destiel because the parallels are insane#spoiler alert but cass dies and jackles sobs#uuuuggggghhhhhhh#destiel
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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Empress and her Bodyguard (2)
(OCs, Zaphira she/her, Shargon he/they)
(close up)
#ganondoodles#art#painting#character design#demons#original art#original characters#ocs#spent too many hours on his feathers alone but i knew if i didnt get it into an acceptable version of “finished” now id never get it done#so here i am sleep deprived again nearing 2am#i wanted to go to work extra early tomorrow lmao#on desktop screen all his feather details are really nicely visible#but im sure that wont be the same for everyone .. especially on phones bc those are dark as shit for soem reason#anyway .. going to bed#(isnt it funny that this took me longer than the painting with them at the gate even though this one looks less detailed?? haha ..)
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Snotlout fan artist final boss:
#snotlout jorgenson#httyd#this helmet#DUDE#I LOVE HIM SO MUCH BUT WHY#IS IT SO HARD TO DRAW THIS#I have 0 problems drawing the rest of the gangs helmets#but that#that shit scares me#I swear I spend 90% of my time on a piece drawing THIS DAMN HELMET#am I alone in this?#julesthoughts
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FELLOW HONEST SHAKES
#twisted wonderland#twst#twst playful land#I TOLD MYSELF NOT TO FALL FOR ANOTHER EUROPEAN MF#LET ALONE HE'S A FOX#IF HE ENDS UP BEING A PIECE OF SHIT I AM DONE FOR#HE'S SO ..SO... MISCHIEVOUS LOOKING I WANNA PISS HIM OFF#FIGHT AND DEFY HIM Y'KNOW??????#is his name really fellow honest#WHATEVER WITH HIM AND ACE IN THE SAME ROOM I CAN TAKE THEM#ORANGE IS MY FAVORITE COLOR 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ (IT IS NOT)#GOOD LOOOOOOOIRF it's 4am#fuck that damn smirk I WANNA PULL YOUR EARS#i need sleep but my mind is running wITH ALL THESE CIRCUS POSSIBILITIES AND#WHAT THIS MAN CAN DO#I KNOW YOU. I KNOW WHAT YOUR OG CHARACTER DID TO PINOCCHIO BUDDY#GRINDING MY TEETH ON HIS TAIL
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Dragon Age 2 AU -> where everything is the same but Ser Pounce-A-Lot gets the zoomies right before Anders and Justice join, resulting in Justice getting stuck in the body of a tiny, orange cat.
#i am debating whether he can speak normally or if he meows and it's translated into Justice speak by Anders#“Ser Pounce A Lot! Did you blow up the Chantry?” *rolls on back and stretches* “Awwwwwww”#“We will dismantle the templar order one by one but first-” pushes shit off the table. “Yes. Excellent!”#“I WILL NOT BE DENIED MY FOOD MORTAL. FEED ME FISH-” *Anders spraying him with water*#anders takes ser pounce a lot everywhere - both because he loves him and because he does not trust Ser Pounce/Justice alone#cullen is the only one who thinks something is off - meredith writes it off as him being 'ferelden' and not liking cats#we deserved more pounce-a-lot -> i'm devastated they never got to put him in the game and were planning to D:#dragon age#dragon age 2#da2
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wait wait wait, so we had: a gorgeously diverse, complicated story about the folly of the Jedi, set against the backdrop of truly fascinating Force witch lore and a potential deep-dive into the real fallout of suppressing emotion, complete with totally rad lightsaber fights, grayscale characters all around, and the coolest fucking helmet in the history of the franchise, all tucked into the world of Star Wars, which makes money simply by existing--and they cancelled it?? i am going to explode
#star wars#the acolyte#the acolyte spoilers#genuinely this is the most interesting thing they've done in this universe in YEARS#and yeah yeah there was the moment at the beginning where they for some reason decided there could be Fire in Space#but are you KIDDING me?? are you KIDDING#jacinto in this show is what kylo stans have been dreaming about for AGES#the twins are fucking FASCINATING#just the scene of a possessed wookie with a lightsaber alone should have yeeted this into the archives of Coolest Shit Ever#and you fucking wasted it?? you cancelled it?? are you out of your goddamn MIND disney???#a genuinely scary villain who somehow isn't the scariest thing about the show. complexity all around. lightsaber FISTFIGHTS.#i am going to lose my mind#i am so mad#you'd think i'd be used to this shit by now but come on dude
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more scared of getting old than dying young
#venting#actually mentally ill#i hate it here#die#mentally fucked#i am scared#im dying#dying inside#dying young#feelings#alone with my thoughts#too fucking much#deppresing thoughts#kinda depressing#tw depressing thoughts#depressing shit
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Sometimes I think about going totally insane, so maybe the people believe me when I say that I’m not doing well.
#tw depressing thoughts#alone with my thoughts#depressing shit#feeling alone#sad thoughts#mentally exhausted#mentally tired#sadnees#overthinking#self h@te#self h@rm#i hate everything#tw selfhate#i want to disappear#i am not mentally well#im not feeling good#tw depressing stuff#overthinker
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something something, "i'm only me when i'm with you," etc. etc.
#zuko never smiles let alone laughs but as soon as he's around sokka...... hes giggling and kicking his feet and shit.......#they're soulmates ur honor#god look at them smiling together in every frame “never happy” my ASS#oh how i love you source material zukka#you are filled with so many parallels and so much zukka joy#when i am sad i remember that zukka was real along if we just look in our hearts#maybe zukka was the friends we made along the way#zukka#zukka gif#atla gif
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Do you really like liminal spaces because they make you nostalgic for your childhood or do you like them because you're in love with the idea of being the only living thing in existence so you can enjoy the world without the constant input of other people haunting your every step
#liminal#liminal spaces#the backrooms#tbh the thought of other people in the backrooms ruins it for me#the whole POINT is that you are alone and everything you do or that happens to you is witnessed only by beings with no true sentience#dreamcore#the DESIRE in me#its the escapism your honor its the feeling of complete and utter isolation that would cow the most strong-willed of men given long enough#its the feeling of being the one and only observer of things lost to time#no more eyeballs on you#bc tbh i am NOT nostalgic for my childhood that shit SUCKED#i am settled solidly in hiraeth your honor
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A Batman who kills people is a bad Batman. Except for Terry because he is my special boy. Terry can drown a man it's ok. He can literally shatter a woman it's fine.
#batman beyond#batman#terry mcginnis#I am doing my yearly rewatch to stave off a total collapse of the flesh vessel and wow#Terry kills so many fucking people in Season 1#even the people who he turns out to not have actually killed like...a reasonable person would think they were dead#there's no fucking way that Terry didn't shatter Inque thinking she would die. he killed the Terrific Trio in Heroes like yeah they#were dying anyways but that's like saying 'oh yeah I stabbed a terminally ill person but that's not murder bc they were dying'#he 100% killed/intended to kill at least like 5 people in the pilot ALONE#and Bruce just...doesn't say shit. he's like 'welp that's Terry I guess. he doesn't follow the same code as me'#On one hand that is a fascinating way to show how Bruce has become even more jaded and borderline apathetic to the evils of#the world (as also shown with his inaction towards Powers and general retreat from everything). On the other...what the hell#I want a Batman Beyond remake for so many reasons and one of them is because I feel like a more traditional plot structure#would further make this part of Terry's version of Batman really interesting as a drama driver
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