#am I making any sense to anyone? lol hopefully

[greenfiend]

Green Fireballs...

Did you know that green fireballs are a legit thing?

A UFO…

This, of course, further connects the Upside Down with space.

Going further into this analogy, Will chose fireball aka he chose to “drop the bomb” and tell Mike the truth about what happened to him in code.

Will cast “fireball” against the Demogorgon the night he vanished. Like he literally (and figuratively) did… I talk about that in this post.

Demogorgon appears… Will as “Little Boy” (the first atomic bomb) detonates causing a nuclear fission reaction and a green nuclear fireball!

Elvis cloned by aliens...

Clones? Changelings? Introjects?

Some thoughts:

This all likely relates to the Russian code (which I believe has multiple meanings)… blue and yellow creates green. And the silver cat feeds = the Demogorgon feeding on the egg.

The egg is Will's head... it cracks/"hatches"... opening "mother gate" and creating a new planet/the UD/the species within it. Yes, Will is the mother... he is "Mr. Mom"

Those who came from the UD are a “different species” from “another planet”, such as D’Art… also El and Max… (and more)

[0nlythrowharrybeaux]

Hello friends here's a sneak...

So sorry for the delay on the next part of the Twelve days! I am writing but also I'm in the middle of studying for my MFT Law and Ethics exam which I'm taking at the end of February!!!! Can't believe it lol But it's very time consuming as you can imagine... But here's a little sneak for you all:)

WC: 715

You wanted to correct this narrative Julie had made up of you so badly because she ought to know you better than what she was choosing to believe of you. You had never had the type of sister relationship that made you best friends, like you’d mentioned to Harry, there’d always been an air of competition. Being just three years older than you, you’d coincided academically on a few occasions and you really didn’t start to “fight back” until high school. Naturally, you were a bit more likable because you were more laid back . You were great in your classes without imparting as much effort, which surprised your teachers. You soon learned that they expected you to be a little more of a wooer as she had been but when they learned you weren’t they eased up on you, the other students did too. Comparison was a killer and after one awful fight she told you that you had ruined her senior year. She had been cold towards you after that until she was off at college. And well, you decided not to go that route, you went to culinary school instead. And that gave her enough of the sense of superiority that she needed to have over you to placate her.

It had been a week after your conversation with Harry that you had your appointment with your therapist and had gotten to speak to her about what your sister had been saying and how you were feeling about it all. She had been supportive of you trying to go speak with her and so you had done just that. It was the end of her workday and though you felt like a stalker for being parked next to her car waiting for her…this was the only way you’d get anything from her. When you saw her approaching the car you hopped out of yours. As soon as she caught your gaze she noticeably became deflated. 

“What are you doing here?” She asked you and you offered a slightly nervous smile.

“Hi.” You greeted Julie. “I was just hoping we could go for dinner and talk?” You asked hopefully.

“About?” She asked cooly.

“What you saw.” You said and you saw her lips purse a bit as she gnawed the inside of her cheek pensively.

“I don’t know…I mean…I know what I saw, I don’t think we need to rehash it.” She stated as she crossed her arms.

“Well you’re still not talking to me so…”

“Because you kissed my husband!” She scowled.

“I know and I’m sorry-”

“No you’re not.” She cut you off.

“I’m not sorry for kissing him. I’m sorry that my actions upset you and angered you.” You clarified.

“So you’re sorry you got caught?” She asked.

“Not necessarily…I mean, I know that you actually don’t care that I kissed him. You don’t love him, so I know that it didn’t hurt you.” You said and she glanced away, “So I’m here to figure out what exactly you’re still so offended with me over.” You said and her gaze found yours again.

“You couldn’t have gone for anyone else?” She asked.

“I didn’t go for him, Julie! We were literally just talking about the things that we were dealing with. I mean, we’ve always had a good relationship as friends, you know that! But through these experiences we’ve been through we bonded on a new level. The attraction was just…there. It wasn’t on purpose. It wasn’t a plan of any sort! And the fact that you believe I would do something like that…” you said sadly, “I’m not calculating like that. You know that. And to be quite honest with you, I feel like…your anger actually has nothing to do with me. It’s just being directed at me and that makes me upset.” You said and her jaw clenched a bit. “Well…that’s all I wanted to say so…” you trailed off and she just nodded but said nothing else. 

After standing there in silence for a few seconds you just got into your car and left. You had done your part and now, the ball was in Julie’s court. You hoped that she would give what you’d said some honest thought and consideration.

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[erens-heart]

detailed fluffy/smutty headcannons! draco malfoy as your boyfriend.

i’m writing this as a continuation of “ive got my eye on you”, and sooort of requested by @dolcid. i’ll hopefully write a proper part two soon but for now here are some detailed, fluffy bf!draco headcannons to keep you satisfied. ive thrown some smuttys hcs in as well, so you really get the picture (i love reading headcannons so i hope you’re as pleased with this as i am!) <3

WARNINGS! SEXUAL CONTENT. SMUT. 18+

malfoy is a really good boyfriend. you’ve never had one before though so you can’t compare him to much :(

the way he confessed to you was really impressive though (and really turned you on! drunk kisses > )

he gets better and better at kissing every time you do it. he’s not very emotional but he’s passionate, if that makes sense?

when you’re kissing he doesnt administer alot of touch himself but he loves it when you touch him. he lets you run your hands all over his chest, it makes him groan.

when he DOES touch you, its usually your thighs.

despite all the kissing, he’s actually very cautious about going any further with you, because he knows you’ve never been fucked by anyone before. in the first few weeks, he sticks to hot makeout sessions with you.

he used to tease you for being ugly when you disliked eachother, he never meant it, by the damage it did to your confidence meant you never pursued a relationship before him so you’re really a virgin in every aspect. (slay tho <3)

draco doesn’t do dates really. he likes to keep you all to himself, he’s selfish like that. so he usually invites you to the slytherin common room, and takes you up to his dorm.

he banishes the goons from the dorm to spend time with you because he knows they make you uneasy.

he really cherishes quality time over anything, that’s his love language. he doesn’t have to be kissing you the whole time, sitting beside you whilst you read is enough for him. he’s enamoured with your presence.

he’s always been enamoured with your presence, even when he pretended to hate you.

draco is quite a grumpy boyfriend. not mean. just moody. he doesnt like other people. he especially doesnt like harry potter. or anything about any of the gryffindors. you pay it no heed, you just find it cute.

he takes things further one day and you let him eat you out. he doesnt do this alot. hes mostly a receiver.

he’s really dirty when he wants to be, its the fault of his smirk, it makes him look even dirtier.

draco is heavy on the dirty talking and teasing, after all your relationship begun because of his unremitting teasing.

so when he’s licking your pussy, he’s doing it whilst smirking and cooing annoyingly because of how red your face is going.

he gets really hard because its his first time going further than kissing with you. youre the first girl that hes had feelings for as well, so it makes it unreal for him. he gets so hard he has to ask you to suck his dick.

he doesnt beg you though! his voice is cool and nonchalant like it always is.

instead of cumming in your mouth, he comes all over your pussy because he likes how it looks.

when you two finish, he isn’t one for cuddling, but he lets you lay beside him in his arm, and fall asleep on his chest.

when its time for you to go back to your dorm, he folds all of your things up for you, stacks all of your books. hes weirdly a neat-freak.

when you aren’t hanging out on his bed, you’re watching his quidditch games.

one day he has a bad fall and ends up in the hospital wing, with his arm in a sling. typical draco!

he’s a hypochondriac lol!

you drop your studies to sit with him. he grumbles profusely about the pain and the sling. he loves complaining.

you shut him up by kissing him, which makes his expression harden because you two werent public about your relationship yet. but you dont care.

when he’s injured in hospital he lets you groom his hair for him. he cares alot about his appearance. its a frequent occurance. because hes not one for skinship its how you feel close to him.

he warms to the idea of cuddling a bit, but when he does he prefers to be spooned rather than spoon you. and he always does it under the blanket so no one could accidentally see.

he’s a tall, protective boyfriend. he usually wards “threats” away with rude, witty comments, or dirty looks. he doesnt care. you’re his.

when you’re in public, he stands behind you w his hands on your shoulders so he can protect you at all times if he needs to.

he gradually becomes more comfortable being emotional around you. not emotional as in sad or cloying but. he smiles more. not big cheeky smiles, but small ones you notice when you catch him off gaurd.

he kisses you alot before bed, you start sleeping over in his bed in the slytherin dorm, you get away with it because he becomes a prefect.

he kisses the top of your head and your hands/fingertips the most. you’re precious to him, that’s how he conveys it.

after a few weeks of sleeping in his bed, he makes the ultimate move on you and fucks you for the first time. “making-love” is a bit cringe in dracos opinion, he is draco malfoy after all. but it isnt senseless fucking.

he loves the power imbalance of you getting onto your knees for him and sucking his dick. like i said, hes a receiver!

he puts his big, pale hand in your hair and bounces it harshly on his dick. he doesnt make you choke on it though, he doesnt like that.

he actually doesnt fuck you in his bed, the first time. you both get so carried away that he takes you against the wall. from all angles. behind. from the front.

it’s rough, desperate fucking. youve never been fucked before. its such a new and overwhelming feeling. youve been pining for eachother for so long.

he cums all over your pretty pussy again, but not inside it (obvs) and admires it for a while whilst catching his breath.

you start crying after! it was such an intense experience that you get a bit… worried? overwhelmed? it’s not serious crying but you need some softness.

draco isn’t always the best person to rely on for softness but he knows that you need it right now after the way he’d just fucked you.

you cuddle properly for the first time. all naked and sticky (draco HATES that, but he doesnt mind tonight bc its you) and he kisses your head over and over.

hes not big on aftercare usually. but hes patient with you tonight. he lets you sleep off the feeling, and wear his big, boxy school shirt whilst you do so. it smells of him. you love it.

you love him.

he loves you too, hes thinking.

but you don’t tell each other just yet ;)

[coldgoldlazarus]

Okay, mostly done screeching in excitement, now it's analysis time.

First point: That purple blast of the turret getting taken out looks great.

Looks like we're opening hot, a lot like Corruption's beginning. Hopefully won't be quite as protracted as the Norion battle, though, lol.

Also, I've seen some jokes already about how this section will end with Samus getting depowered like the openings of Prime and Echoes, but given how barebones her arsenal seems to be here, (missiles and morph ball, which sometimes she just starts with and keeps, maybe bombs too) I don't expect that to happen.

The HUD and helmet edges are a lot more dialed back this time, pushed as far into the corners as they can go. Probably better for visibility this way, but I am gonna miss the more wraparound feel of the previous setup, with the missile count and hazard meter along the sides. But this isn't a bad look by any means, and we still have a fair few items here.

A & B: My bet is this is the replacement for the old hazard meter. In addition to keeping it out of the way, putting it right next to the motion tracker is a good move. I may actually remember to use that more this way.

C: Health bar is obvious, of course, but I really like the move of tucking it away into the notch on the top of the Echoes/Corruption/Beyond(!) helmet visor. The lines around it suggest an empty row above, undoubtedly for the energy tank pips once those are picked up.

D & E: Minimap is present as usual, not really much to say there, but I love the addition of a compass direction scroll beneath it, which should be helpful for putting places in context of the broader map. (Tallon IV's elevator label system, anyone?)

F: Missile count has been shunted down from the side to the bottom corner. I'm interested to see if it will grow upward, or just stay in its present spot and scale accordingly, as you collect more expansions.

G: This is the one everyone's already pointed out, but it seems that we won't have a visor OR beam swap readout.

Scan Visor is still an option as shown in the next bit, but based on the lack of an indicator in the hud, it's probably just going to be a toggle between that and combat, without anything else like X-Ray or Thermal or Echo or what have you. (Or it could be that that would only get added to the HUD after picking up a third visor, but I won't hold my breath for it.) Kinda disappointing to deemphasize one of the cool new mechanics the Prime subseries brought to the table, on one hand, but I'm still grateful to have the Scanner, and the extra ones always did struggle a bit to see much use.

Similarly, a bit disappointed this means we're probably looking at a stacking beam like in Corruption and the 2D games, (unless of course beam swapping is still there and just being left off the HUD until relevant for the sake of cleanliness #copium) but not entirely surprising; I'll live.

But what is interesting is what's there instead. The D-Pad seems to be tied to non-Beam weapons or tools instead, with the missile launcher as the only one available at present. I'm really curious to see what the other items will be; I imagine this is going to be Prime 4's unique spin on things. I saw someone suggest affinity weapons like in Hunters, but given those all function like Beams, it feels weird to me to set them against Missiles instead, ammunition requirements notwithstanding. I'm not going to rule those out, of course, but I could see this being something completely different entirely.

Again, I am very glad to see the Scan Visor is still here at least. Even better is that it uses the full-body highlighting of objects like Echoes and Corruption instead of Prime 1's icons. Pretty minimalistic layout, all told; I like that the scanning bar is a ring now. And it doesn't reflect Samus's face by default like in Corruption, which makes sense since we're not liable to have the same kind of mutation shenaniganry happening here.

I forgot to snag a screencap of this bit on my computer, so forgive the lower quality, but this scene is interesting for a few reasons.

The Pirates' breaching charges letting them into this room just as Samus passes through a gap in the wall overhead is a nice touch, and also remniscent of some sequences from early on in Corruption.

The Federation guys in here seem to be wheeling away someone or something on a stretcher in a hurry. That could be important.

Energy tank up in the rail section, but blocked by a box. Are we just going to bomb through to get it right away, or will we drop down into the room, and have to come back from the other direction to pick it up? (Please be the other direction)

Samus looking spiffy here, even at a distance. And as some have pointed out, looks like she's walking out of a portal instead of a door, pointing to either more dimension-hopping shenanigans like in Echoes, or possibly the time travel elements I recall hearing Tanabe wanted to play with at some point. (This plus the black hole look of the logo makes me think this could be more likely.)

Whatever the nature of the portal, though, the interesting thing to me is the sort of circular structure in the rock around it, suggesting a doorframe almost. A lot of the portals on Aether seemed to actively cut into the environment at random, the rock carved out in perfect spheres with fucked-up edges, and interrupting the pre-existing architecture or geology. In contrast, this looks like it was put here on purpose, implying a more controlled creation. Potentially really fascinating implications in that.

I also kinda wonder if these portals will be replacing elevators as a way to get between regions.

Ignoring the big numbers in the middle, (though they do kinda mess with my prediction that Prime 4 was going to be a 2024 holiday title to avoid getting eaten by Switch 2's inevitable 3D Mario launch title,) a couple things stand out to me here.

Giant tree in the background is giant, and I love it for that. Also looks like it's not the only giant tree here, even if still probably the biggest. I hope we get to go there later.

But in addition, we have a bridge in the middle distance, and a tunnel opening in the foreground. I will eat my hat if we don't get to cross that bridge, and my bet is that they're going to pull a similar trick here as with Skytown, letting low-poly versions of other "rooms" be visible from the current one, but dividing them with interior sections for optimization reasons, allowing for amazing landscapes of all traversible terrain. I loved that there, it looks great here, I can't wait to go explore all this myself next year.

[thaenad]

Hey. I love your work so much on your other blog (and have even sent anons there) but since this one is more feedism-related than fat lib related I figured I’d send it here, I hope that’s okay.

Do you have any recommendations for people with this kink who are so deeply ashamed by it that they haven’t been able to tell anyone about it their entire lives? I’m alloace and never had a partner partially because the only sense of sexuality I have is this kink and I have always felt like that makes it almost impossible to truly connect with a partner without knowing 100% they’re into it beforehand. And yet, I have so much social anxiety that I hardly meet people period and given the shame surrounding this kink I kind of assume anyone who I’d really click with would never tell me they were also interested in this and wanted me to feed them unless we’re already in a relationship. I can’t even be open and honest with friends about it because I’m terrified of their judgement especially because I AM so pro-fat lib and have been so vocally around them and I dunno. U saw all those anons u got lol.

I dunno I’ve just resigned myself to never having that kind of intimacy but it’s hard sometimes when I know deep down that it’s what I want. Do you have any recommendations for what I can do to start being more open and honest about my sexuality and hopefully feel a lot less ashamed? (For the record I am very sex-positive, for everyone but me if that makes sense. Lmao.)

Hey there anon, it's absolutely okay! I'd love to have more of these conversations with fellow feedists on this blog, especially since it's a much safer space for all of us.

Oof. I just wanna reach through the screen and give you a great big hug. I can completely relate to what you're going through right now (also as an alloace). I struggled with the exact same fears before coming out to anyone 5-ish years ago. It's so hard to feel like you have to hide or deny such a big part of who you are, and I hope you're doing okay. Just sending me this ask is a great step towards self acceptance, because connecting with other people who get it can help so much. If you need to talk, my inbox and dms are always open. ❤️

I will say the most monumental step for me was talking about it out loud with someone. Although the shame may cause paranoia, I promise that you can tell your best friend and they will still love you. Yes, the backlash from fat libbers on the internet is scary, but they don't know us, we're just a concept to them. The people who know you already know that you are not a predator. The people who know you know your intentions are good, they love you, and they want to support you. If they listen to you with compassion when you express yourself other times, they will listen with compassion when you talk about this.

The fact that you are passionate about fat liberation means you have already crossed the biggest obstacle when it comes to self acceptance for feedists: knowing that there is nothing wrong with fatness. Most people take their entire lives to discover that fact (or never do), and you are already there. And from what it sounds like, you are surrounding yourself with fat positive friends. That's huge. Take a minute to celebrate yourself for that.

If you decide to open up about being a feedist to anyone, be selective. Fat positive people are safer because they already understand the basics. They already know you're passionate about fat lib, being a feedist won't negate that, it will make sense. Most people actually have no idea what feedism is, so you might have the chance to explain it for the first time in a way that is positive, and that can be incredibly validating and empowering.

The person you share this with will know how hard it is for you. The first time I opened up to my best friend about it, I wept on her shoulder. Nothing changed between us except I felt seen and supported, and now she sends me posts with food and teases me about fat guys, and we laugh about it, like she would with any friend. It's made me feel so much more close to normal.

If that feels impossible right now, that's okay. Keep talking to feedists online, keep seeking community. I had to make friendships with feedists years before I could even imagine telling my own friends. The more normal you feel, the less scarier it gets.

It can be really, really hard. I ended up seeking therapy because I was struggling so much with shame. I knew I needed it, but for years I put it off because I didn't know if I could trust a therapist, I thought they might diagnose me with a sexual disorder and try to give me conversion therapy! Needless to say, that was the shame talking. Fear can cause our minds to heighten things out of proportion. It also took years of conversations out loud with a friend or two to finally be able to talk about it in a therapy setting. This shit takes time. After I discovered fat liberation, flung myself into the research and dissolved some of my own fatphobia (the BIGGEST step of all!) I ended up searching for a fat-positive, kink-conscious therapist, and guess what? They exist! They are 100% sex positive, understand the principle of bodily autonomy and that health does not determine a person's worth, and will remind you of those things over and over. I still see my therapist, they've always been in my corner cheering me on. They've helped me through the shame and fear, and they've helped me navigate my sexual & romantic relationships as a feedist. It's one of the best decisions I have ever made for myself.

Here's a post I made on how to find feedist-friendly therapists.

"I have always felt like that makes it almost impossible to truly connect with a partner without knowing 100% they’re into it beforehand."

I feel the exact same way. It was so isolating and horrifying before I realized that I don't have to date non-feedists. I know this is something that will likely take a LOT of healing first, but I want to share my experience just so that you can see what a potential future looks like. First I tried dating on feabie, got into my first relationship, but it ended very badly for me. Again, it took a long time, but eventually, once I knew my self worth, knew that there are lots of people out there who will be into what I'm into, and could spot red flags, I was able to disclose my preference for feedism on regular dating apps. I didn't care what strangers thought. Some people asked me what it was all about, politely expressed that it wasn't for them, and we parted ways. It is such a relief to have potential partners know I'm a feedist up front. I eventually met my current partner and the love of my life on Hinge. I had feedism in my profile and he sent me a message saying, "hey! I'm into that too." If a feedist relationship is something you feel like you can't live without, I want you to know that it's possible for you. If you tell people what you're looking for, they will come. You'd be so, so suprised. But it takes a while to get there. The fact that you want it for yourself is huge, and I am so proud of you for reaching out for support.

Take it from someone who lied awake every night in agony, crying and worrying and wishing I just had someone out there to tell me that it was going to be okay.

Please know this, dear heart:

It's going to be okay. ❤️

[newx-menfan]

NYX # 1 Review

*Spoilers!*

After weeks of waiting, spoilers, comic leaks , and “The Krakoan’s” identity being very brutally obvious…it’s FINALLY HERE guys! The CLOSEST we will probably EVER get the a NXM book!! JK!!😆

The issue starts with Kamala monologuing about her recent acceptance to an after school program in NY to Bruno, who is currently in Amsterdam. (I’ll fully forewarn everyone and be transparent that I only read Kamala when G Willow Wilson was writing the book 😬…so Kamala fans MAY need to help me out a bit, lol) 

Kamala literally runs into Sophie and they go to Prodigy’s lecture…(no offense to Prodigy…but Sofia’s a bit right…the lecture COULD use a little more finessing, lol…)

Sophie gives him shit and Kamala realizes she’s friends with the “cool kids” now, who pointedly go out of their way to embarrass and humiliate their teachers (not that Bruno or Miles isn’t cool, Kamala…)

It’s interesting that in some ways DAVID is going the academic, “through proper channels” route…but it also makes sense considering some of his characterization during NXM: AX…(and why a certain character is the PERFECT FOIL for him, in this storyline!…)

David- who, while calling out characters like Josh…was also a bit of a “rule follower” in a way that certain OTHER characters DEFINITELY weren’t…

Any, Sophie convinces Kamala to go clubbing with her and they run into Anole bartending. Anole gets accosted by some patrons screaming about a mutant “terrorist”. (Also…I really LOVE Sophie swearing all the time 😂🤣…I guess her polite way of sassing has changed after “Riot at Xavier’s” and being dead lol)

Kamala and Sophie get kicked out of the club while defending Anole (I guess they’re not having a “brat” summer….☹️). Kamala then dons her Ms Marvel suit and calls David…sorry… Professor Alleyne… to help unlock a phone (the interaction IS super adorable!) and we learn that the guys at the club are committing crimes and pinning it on mutants. (Or so it would SEEM! Foreshadowing!!)

While on the phone, Laura attacks and brakes Kamala’s phone, because Laura is kind of a dick, telling her she’s chasing “ghosts”. (This is why Laura doesn’t have consistent friends guys 😒🤣)

Laura’s characterization…isn’t great… (Laura you were LITERALLY ON a teen X-Men group…you LOST the right to call anyone “kids”!)

Kamala then tells Laura she needs to get a life (which is kind of TRUE…). 

FINALLY…after all the filler…we get to the STAR!…who people have been desperately WAITING FOR…

KRAKELLION! (Sorry @ thestomping-ground …but I’m stealing the name because “the Krakoan” sounds terrible lol)

In one of the COOLEST, MOST AWESOME panels ever (I am really NOT biased)…Krakellion ARISES…ready to enact revenge on the FLATSCANS!!

In HANDS DOWN, ONE OF THE BEST SCENERY CHEWING MONOLOGUES EVER WRITTEN (told you, I’m not biased!), Hellion more or less just calls into question Kamala’s movie to comic book mandated retcon… (Feel like he should have leaned more into the “Emma/Ms Marvel call out of 2006”…but I am not judging, Hellion…)

Kamala then saves the helpless flatscans on the subway- but is then forced to reckon with the fact that humans will ONLY support her because they don’t know she’s a mutant. The minute she’s outed- that hero worship will ultimately go away. ☹️

Kamala then meets up with Sophie and they talk and have coffee (Wait a minute… Kamala is an inhuman too? I thought that couldn’t happen and that’s why Quicksilver had such an identity crisis while married to Crystal??…I told you guys I’m kind of out of the loop on Schrödinger's newest mutant/inhuman…🐈‍⬛😬😂🤣); Kamala also having a mutant friend is adorable…

We transition to the Krakellion walking in some shadowy penthouse, giving Empath shit on the telecom (Brownoses shouldn’t throw stones, Empath! Also Hellion did LOTS of COOL stuff in NXM, OkAy Empath?!) and we see the new….Hellfire Club?…Hellions?…Council??…. Hopefully that gets cleared up in the next issue….

(Also…I bet you 100 bucks Empath FORCED Hellion to drop the name “Hellion” because he couldn’t stand being “Hellion and the Hellions” to Julian lol- Not Julian’s fault he picked the superior name! 😂🤣🤣)

(Also- can anyone tell me what the QR code is- it won’t scan on Kindle and I am waiting on my paper copies ☹️)

Review:

Obviously… I am biased; but this has been one of the few X-books I have been excited about in a while! 

I know people LOVED “Krakoa era” X-Men… but I am personally happy to see return to a more “Astonishing/Mutant Town/Morrison X-Men” type of story.

I am also happy to see a return to a more “Tom Taylor/Tamaki” street level Laura; as much as I whined about Taylor’s representation in the past… Laura really does work better when she’s more low key…

After years of sitting through “Wolverine and the X-Men” style books…it’s nice to see characters like Prodigy or Hellion being treated AS ADULTS and with narrative care.

The writing is fine; there are moments where I think it could be tighter, but I do think it definitely has its moments and will definitely get better as the writing team goes on and gets more used to the characters voices.

I KNOW people are going to complain that this seems more like a stealth Kamala solo…and while I DO think there’s some validity to that argument (it’s focus is DEFINITELY on Kamala and getting stubborn “Inhuman fans” like me to accept her as a mutant….); I am mostly fine with it, since that seems to be what it takes for fans to get a “New X-Men: Academy X” book.

The biggest complaint I have is unsurprisingly Laura- we’re still sadly in the “Talon-esque”/ “Laura written as Wolverine” representation. Hopefully this gets better the more they feature her…but I do fear this era

will be very disappointing for Laura fans (I haven’t heard much about the Gabby/Laura mini either!)….

Question/Theories:

More and more I am thinking Laura and Julian are in cahoots- possibly Laura didn’t want Kamala involved because of her emotional connection with Julian…. It may just be that she wants to try and reform him; to give him the same chance he gave her…but I think more than likely she’s using Julian to spy on Empath. (Also because I can’t envision Manuel and Julian standing each other for more than five minutes lol)

Is Tag helping Hellion? I feel like Tag SHOULD be helping him, since they’re bros and Tag literally got blown up in a school bus… (Also his powers are cool…)

The BIGGEST question is- Is Hellion blasting “brat” through AirPods under that helmet? Is he having a “brat summer”? Is “Mean Girls” his favorite song? …(someone needs to make a “Hellion/brat YouTube fan vid” like they used to in the 2000’s 😂🤣… @romulanslutempire …?)

[puzzled-pegasus]

So I've mentioned Guilty as Sin? As a song for Jercy but I really want to explain it

I'm going to start this by saying that I mostly mean it PLATONICALLY so I just wanna explain why the vibes of this song match the vibes of their relationship cus I don't think anyone sees my vision lol

So I'm gonna dissect the lyrics. Hopefully it makes sense.

Drowning in the Blue Nile

He sent me 'Downtown Lights'

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This makes me think of Jason at one of the camps talking to Percy and picturing him as he's in the mortal world in NYC

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I hadn't heard it in a while

My boredom's bone deep

This cage was once just fine

Am I allowed to cry?

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"This cage was once just fine/am I allowed to cry?" I think the "cage" refers to his predetermined destiny and the eyes of everyone at CJ. "Am I allowed to cry?" Refers to both his taught habit of keeping his emotions shut away and his being taught to follow orders and ask permission for anything he needs.

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I dream of cracking locks

Throwing my life to the wolves

Or the ocean rocks

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"Throwing my life to the wolves or the ocean rocks" makes me think of his indecision of whether he belongs with the Romans or at Camp Half Blood by the coast (and ocean rocks also alludes to Percy as the ocean boy, of course)

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Crashing into him tonight

He's a paradox

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Percy as a paradox/character foil to Jason. Also something about how Jason can't read Percy very well sometimes and Percy bewilders him

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I'm seeing visions, am I bad?

Or mad? Or wise?

What if he's written 'mine' on my upper thigh

Only in my mind?

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I do think the idea of Jason having catholic guilt for wanting affection from his friend is both sad, hilarious, and weirdly in character. This guy is laying awake at night thinking about how he wants to go to percys house and make cookies with him lmaoo hes like "...w-what if we sat together and played video games at ur apartment 😳😨🥺 and then we 😖 slept next to each other on the floor 😳😖 and stayed up talking in the dark for 3 hours 🥺🥺💕"

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One slip and falling back into the hedge maze

Oh what a way to die

I keep recalling things we never did

Messy top lip kiss

How I long for our trysts

Without ever touching his skin

How can I be guilty as sin?

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Jason feeling guilty as sin can be a lot of things, which is why I love this song for him. His friendship/bromance/relationship with Percy breaks several rules. Their fathers are rivals. Their camps have battled each other. Jason has always been seen as the son of Jupiter and never been allowed to explore his mortal half, and Percy gives him the ability to learn more about what life is like in a mortal household.

Also the "touching his skin" part means that jason is super touch starved and thinks about hugging his friends 24/7 and this does not exclude Percy by any means lol

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I keep these longings locked

In lowercase inside a vault

Someone told me

There's no such thing as bad thoughts

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Jason feels so much love for his bro and wants to spend so much time with him but his Issues(TM) prevent him from conveying that because he's never really had anyone stick around or be loyal to him like Percy does. While thinking about Percy, he also thinks about how another of his friends (probably Piper or Annabeth) told him there's no such thing as thought crime and it's not wrong to think or feel things. He's at war with his past and having been taught that he must block out and hide his wants and feelings because they're dangerous and no one wants to hear them anyway.

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Only your actions talk

These fatal fantasies

Giving way to labored breath

Taking all of me

We've already done it in my head

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Uh....I don't really have a platonic explanation for this part. Lol

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If it's make believe

Why does it feel like a vow

We'll both uphold somehow?

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Jason's doubt and hope are fighting each other. He wants Percy to be friends with him and stick around forever, but it's difficult for him to believe that their friendship/bromance/relationship is serious and Percy will stick around until one of them is in the ground (which NEITHER OF THEM CURRENTLY ARE >:[)

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What if he's written 'mine' on my upper thigh

Only in my mind?

One slip and falling back into the hedge maze

Oh what a way to die

My bedsheets are ablaze

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Okay this is really funny because it randomly conjures Leo up for no reason. Someone use "My bedsheets are ablaze" as a title for a valgrace fic please

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I've screamed his name

Building up like waves

Crashing over my grave

Without ever touching his skin

How can I be guilty as sin?

What if I roll the stone away?

They're gonna crucify me anyway

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CJ and Jason's father especially is never going to love Jason or see him as the perfect son of Jupiter. They will always judge him, especially since he's indecisive about what camp he belongs in. If he spends time in his mortal side with Percy, it's a much needed break from trying to be Camp Jupiter's prettiest weapon or Camp Half Blood's weird Roman freak who was raised by wolves.

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What if the way you hold me

Is actually what's holy?

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The gods don't care, Camp Jupiter doesn't care or want what's best for me. You do, Percy. With you, as your friend, I feel more powerful and important than I ever have as my father's son.

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If long suffering propriety

Is what they want from me

They don't know how you've haunted me

So stunningly

I choose you and me

... Religiously

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I hope you can see my vision by now because I don't know if I can even articulate my feelings about all six of these lines AGGHHHAHHHGHH

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What if he's written 'mine' on my upper thigh

Only in my mind?

One slip and falling back into the hedge maze

Oh what a way to die

I keep recalling things we never did

Messy top lip kiss

How I long for our trysts

Without ever touching his skin

How can I be guilty as sin?

He sent me 'Downtown Lights'

I hadn't heard it in a while

Am I allowed to cry?

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Do you see it now?? My vision?? I hope I didn't waste my frickin time

[hplonesomeart]

Hey!! So turns out a video I made between a certain “well beloved but highly sensitive/emotionally reactive T.V” and an “orange haired inkling-turned-human” has managed to sweep my YouTube channel and accumulate 100k VIEWS!! THAT’S A LOT OF PEOPLE ACTUALLY?? My most widely viewed video EVER to exist in this moment in time?? AAAAA?? Not even mentioning the various comments and staggering increase in subs! It’s so much more then what I expected or even prepared for—might even be the most impactful thing to happen for me this year <3

…aside from graduating high school + the social connections I’ve been fortunate to make lol

BUT THE POINT IS I’d been closely monitoring the YouTube growth through the entirety of October. It’s make me smile like a dork, gawk in astonishment, dance frantically in my room from the energy boosts, and grow courage to stop being so selective/self-conscious with what I wish to share with the world! It’s kept my ambitions going!

I needed to find some way to celebrate the occasion and express my thanks—because I can’t NOT acknowledge this milestone jksjskp. Typically I try to avoid getting tunnel visioned focusing on the metrics/numbers. Mr. Puzzles had already demonstrated how much those things can mess with the minds of creatives. Caring too much about chasing views or placing your artistic value in attention seeking gets damaging. But at same time…it’s hard to deny the sense of pride the 100k achievement has filled me with. I understand that reaching 100k views doesn’t immediately make me any “better” or “worse” then I was before. I’m still just me! It only helps me feel seen by others—and that’s all I really needed. To hear some nice words & receive reminders that my ideas are cared about. So thank you SMG4 fandom for that, seriously thank you.

Please accept this Mr. Puzzle drawing as a way of sharing the happiness around. He’s so entertaining. Love him for simply existing. So glad we can all collectively be super attached to him (and the rest of the SMG4 cast of course). Can’t wait to see more incredible artworks from the fandom :)

Just incase anyone is confused by my vague description over which “animated video” I’m referring to here—hopefully this photo will help clarify lol. It’s this one!! Sorry about not outright stating the title at the start, I got carried away with writing!!

I’ve been in an odd place mentally when thinking about it. Wondering to myself if any of the attention is deserved considering it’s not even fully colored and could be dismissed as “low effort” content (despite taking several days making it). It’s easy to get into a trap of comparing yourself to others and questioning how much of the videos success is based on your skills, sheer algorithm luck, or only because you used popular characters and catered to a specific fandom. And then judging yourself by looking at other peoples videos. I’ve seen several artists post higher quality works then my own but it somehow gets less views. So why did mine succeed when others (who should have gotten just as much attention if not more) didn’t? Sometimes you feel like you’ve unfairly robbed them of that chance to be seen. However I’ve realized that I can’t ever expect views to be consistent—and comparing is pointless. So why worry about it or feel inadequate? I mean it’s pretty common for funny cat videos to go viral, so who am I to question the system lol. “Popular” YouTube videos can range from a passion project which took 7+ artists…to a clip of Toad singing Chandelier or a nonsensical Vine sketch. Anything can happen when it’s the internet! And just-so-happened my video was chosen. I should stay glad about that and get rid of all the overanalyzing. So that’s what I’ve chosen to do :)

[lukaslosteyelashes]

My Review of the Miraculous London Special, Part 4

I’ve finished part 4 (finally lol). There’s going to be one last part, the "final thoughts" which hopefully will be done faster than the previous parts. Anyway, I made a little bit different look for this post and I also will (or already did) edit the previous parts too to match with each other.

What this part contains:

How does time travel work in Miraculous? - I am basically trying to make sense of the logic behind the time travel in Miraculous by going through the Miraculous/MCU comparison others also made.

Ladybug = Gabriel Agreste - My honest reaction and thought about this.

Here it goes!

Spoilers ahead ->

How does time travel work in Miraculous?

Every time I think I can understand how time travel work in Miraculous I read someone else's post completely debunking everything I believed in and I'm at square one again. But here I am, still trying to make sense of things.

Older Bunnyx said in "Evolution": "Time is like a river with multiple streams and the Burrow is where they all come together." So, like, if we look at the time as a straight line that's come from the beginning of time to the end of time, then that's the river; and the streams are all the different timelines that are on that straight line; and the Burrow is this magical dimension where every timelines (the streams) are connected to; staying with the water metaphor, I guess it'd make the Burrow the ocean? The holder of the Rabbit Miraculous is the one who can jump to every other timeline from the Burrow. Right now (and in the future for who knows how long) Alix Kubdel is the Rabbit Miraculous holder and oversees the time for any possible anomaly. And her top priority is to protect and preserve their universe as is, where she's Bunnyx.

I saw people compare the time traveling in Miraculous to the Spider-Verse movies, or Bunnyx and the Burrow to the TVA in Marvel (I'm not familiar with the comics so I only know the movies and serieses). I think, this makes sense since it would explain well why Gabriel's wish got different treatment than Lila's even though his probably also rewrote the universe. It'd make Gabriel's wish a canon event or it'd be the intended future in the Sacred Timeline. While Lila's wish is not a canon event or it made a branch in the Sacred Timeline. Well, in the MCU it's not just about the timeline but the multiverse and while we know that in Miraculous different universes exist (Paris special) and it's possible to travel through them with akumatization or kamikotization, there's nothing really that connects the different universes and their timelines. So Bunnyx doesn't have to deal with other universe’s problems and only needs to focus on theirs, which doesn't make her job any easier at all tho.

I'm also in with that comparison and I'd go that far to compare Bunnyx to He Who Remains (Kang) but without the villain part (Loki series). For so long I thought that Kang basically wrote every event that happened, happening and will happen on the Sacred Timeline and he didn't allow any altering (so kind of like a God). But further searching made me realize I was wrong. Kang didn't make the Sacred Timeline, that's his original timeline which produced him and that's what he wanted to preserve. He made the TVA to oversee his timeline, detect anyone who deviates from and made a branch, and eventually eliminate them, preventing any alternate universes to develop. This not just stops any new, more evil Kang variants to emerge but also denies everyone their free will. Kang is just a time traveler who saw the future and wants his preferred timeline to be the absolute reality, that's why he created the TVA and located himself at the end of time. And isn't what Bunnyx is doing is kind of similar to that?

I already wrote above that Alix’s top priority is to protect and preserve their universe where she's Bunnyx. Lila's wish would've made a cut into the river and would've diverted it to create a completely new one with new streams. It'd break the connection with the Burrow too and erase a part of their universe, which is their future, and recreate it according to the wish. I guess if their plan hadn't worked Chronobug and Bunnyx would've sat there in that white space for eternity. With Gabriel's wish, the river wasn't really cut off, more like some streams got removed while other streams were created but still connect to the same ocean, I guess? I mean, Marinette is still Ladybug, Adrien is still Chat Noir, Alix is still Bunnyx and so on, and the timelines are still connected to the same Burrow. There’re two things that changed: Gabriel is dead while Nathalie is alive; well technically there's only one thing that change since Gabriel would've died anyway, he didn't have much time left before he made the wish. Bunnyx made the choice to not interfere after Gabriel made his wish because it didn't erase their future from their universe and he was Monarch who had to be defeated in some way. It did create a new villain though.

Anyway, the bottom line is, I still don't understand how this works 😂. Bunnyx can jump to the past and to the future too, so I was kind of baffled how she didn't know what would happen, only after her future selves started to disappear. Maybe there are rules with the Rabbit Miraculous that haven't been mentioned before. We know that Bunnyx's future selves cannot tell her anything, but maybe she can't look at futures that directly affect her either or she can only change events that happened in particular ways.

I guess the point with stories with time travel is to just sit back, switch off your brain, don't overthink things and try to enjoy it. If you know any good time travel stories hit me up with it, I'm only familiar with the MCU stuff and this, lol.

Ladybug = Gabriel Agreste 

Brilliant and hilarious!

I know not everyone is pleased with this, and thinks Marinette should have made a smarter move to deceive Lila, besides she didn't even erase the rest of the information Timestalker gathered (she didn't have time for that tho, the windows inside the Burrow were disappearing swiftly). But I adore this! It's almost like when Lila as Hoaxer in "Revelation" made everyone believe that Marinette is Monarch.

I know Marinette doesn't know that future Hawkmoth is Lila but I think it's still perfect that she trolled her like that.

Plus, not everything has to make sense and be rational in a story. We are talking about Miraculous here, even though the tone of the show changed, kids are still watching it too. It's perfectly fine to include things just for the giggles and fun.

I felt an immense amount of satisfaction when I saw Lila completely breaking down after she saw that in her notebook.

I was like "Yes! I knew all along you weren't sane at all". Okay, I know that's mean, but I've read a lot about how others think she'd treat Nooroo right, that he'd be the only one there for her and stuff like that, and I just couldn't grasp what would make someone think that. Just look at Nooroo, look at him!

He’s more miserable than when he was with Gabriel. She’s more cruel to him and he is with her for, like, a couple hours yet but she already controlled him in ways even Gabriel didn’t use (or just didn’t know about). Lila is going to be (already is) a terrific villain that you can hate to the core and (hopefully) also an unredeemable one.

And lastly, here is a happy Nooroo to lighten your day:

We probably won’t see him like that for a long time.

part 1 | part 2 | part 3

The last part is coming soon…

[sirenscriptures]

hey! we need to talk.

well hello again!! i hope you’re all doing well. i feel like it’s been a minute since i’ve actually spoken to anyone on here.

as some of you may or may not have noticed, i’ve been pretty absent on this blog lately. at least, more than i usually am. i haven’t posted any writing in well over a month which is a little out of character for me. i’ve had quite a few writing blogs on here and i can’t really recall a time where it’s been that long without me posting at least a drabble.

in my time away from this app and from fic writing in general, i’ve realized a couple things changing about myself + my attitude towards this place in general.

honestly, i’ve come to the conclusion that i don’t really get the same satisfaction from writing on here as i used to. it could be due to the lack of feedback from the general public on here, or really just me admitting that i don’t want to write for pre-existing characters/storylines forever. let’s settle it as a mixture of both!

and don’t get me wrong, i still enjoy fanfiction writing. i adore the community here and the people i’ve had the privilege to meet even through the littlest moments. it’s made me not only a better creative, but also just better in general.

i’ve just been doing this kind of thing for so long (really since i was in 1st grade mapping out my first warrior cats fanmade storyline and oc), and i think between that, and all of these more mature/explicit writing blogs i’ve had in the past 4-5 years, maybe i’ve just grown tired of ALWAYS resorting to fanfiction.

i’ve always wanted to create something that is truly mine, and i feel like i’ve been sort of “limiting” myself this whole time in a weird way. a part of me knows it isn’t true, since this has been pretty expansive for my creativity. and it’s an art form that, in my opinion, doesn’t get anywhere near enough credit for all of the thought that goes into it. i mean, you have to be pretty damn creative to be able to write multiple descriptions of sexual penetration in the same oneshot that actually sound good, and don’t sound like they were ripped straight out of booktok. just saying! (that was a joke please don’t kill me)

anyways, this is getting to be way too long of a post for something so unimportant LMAO.

to get to the point, i’m not going to be active on this blog much longer. i’m probably going to post my final works in these next few months (possibly a few fics for my feeble attempt at a kinktober, and maybe a few for my bday month in december).

and just to clarify, this is in no way me saying that i’m leaving tumblr for good after those few months are up. this is also not me saying i’m quitting “fanmade” creative works forever. i still love writing a good fic and making fan art from time to time!

in the hopefully better part of this news, i have been planning out my art account for when i feel this blog has run its course and i’ve made everything i need to make. i probably won’t announce it publicly, but for those who want it when that time comes, i will definitely make sure you get the url. as usual, mooties get first pickings when that time comes <3

i don’t imagine this will disappoint many people since i’m not really “leaving” but who knows. i’m not expecting many people to even read this far or even notice if i’m here or not lol. i just didn’t want to deactivate out of the blue since that wouldn’t make sense for me to do.

even though i’ll still be on this blog for a few more months, i want to thank you all for giving me a space to grow and express myself. not just as a creative, but as a person too. this sounds really stupid and corny but i mean it. sure, i’ve never made record numbers on here, i’m not the most popular, but i can say without a doubt i have a wonderful group of people around me on here. even if we never meet in person, or if we never interact again outside of this blog, all of you on here will always be somewhere in my memory and i will always be so grateful for you since you made me feel like i was good enough to be seen. even if it was for my shitty smut fics. <3

i love and appreciate every single one of you. let’s have a great last few months on here, ok?

vlynn

[wayfayrr]

aaaaaaahhh all i can think of is like- most isekai fics I've seen for some reason [i mean understandably] the reader is wearing their pajamas, but after visiting the modern world they can finally show the chain what they actually like wearing, [i can see this going in so many ways, depending on who is reacting, and especially depending on what aesthetic the reader likes to dress in. for the sake of the request ill keep it as dark academia, cause i love it so muchhhh [not so much in the summer, but i make it work lol] with time? [just imagining reader with a tie and just wearing business casual w a trenchcoat frrrrrrrr- might draw this kind of thing and send it to you lol]

Anon I hope you know this ask had me in an absolute chokehold. OUJDFNBJNF ✨I LIVE FOR DARK ACADEMIA AESTHETICS!!!✨ My trenchcoat is one of my favourite things I own. So I get your pain in summer as well 🥹

“Hey Time, have you seen Wild anywhere? He borrowed my laptop and I really need it back.”

“I haven’t sorry [nam]-... Is that what you wear normally? You look incredible.”

“Pretty much, yeah? Why, is there an issue with it?”

Time’s blushing. Is what I’m wearing really that impressive because I know he’s not blushing over what I’m wearing being revealing. A trenchcoat that goes down to my calves with the rest of my clothes? Does he just think I’m attractive or something? 

“No, no issue. You look good in it, it’s just very different to what you arrived in Hyrule wearing.”

“I know, like I said then those were my pyjamas. These are my casual clothes.”

Well, his blush has only gotten worse from that, so he is clearly struggling with how my clothes look on me. Dark academia doesn’t exist in Hyrule I know that, but really he’s struggling far more than anyone else has with my fashion sense. 

“Do you think you could help me choose some clothes like that? I’d like to match wit.. I think that style would suit me.”

“If you’d like, we can go shopping for you later. After I get my laptop back and finish off this report I have due.”

Laughing at how he's stumbling over himself to ask me these questions simply isn't an option, no matter how hard it is to hold myself back. He's asking so genuinely and so sweetly and who knows maybe getting some new clothes could help him adjust to this world more easily, I mean it certainly helped me when I was in Hyrule. How different could it be for time?

It didn't take too long to find wild after talking to time, and even less to finish off the work I had to do, now it’s just down to taking time shopping.

“So you want to look like you belong with a shot of espresso in an artisanal coffee shop while writing a research paper?”

“I only know what half of those words mean [name.], even less with how you’re using them.”

“Right, sorry. I’m still getting used to all of the differences in our cultures. Hopefully, you’ll get more used to the terms we use here sooner rather than later. Ready to go out though?”

“I am, it’ll be nice to get some new clothes. Not that I’m complaining about the excuse to wear yours.”

The nearest place that sells things like these isn’t exactly the closest to where I live, making it the perfect opportunity to adjust Time to my world’s transport. Well, more than he’s already seen anyway. Actually, now that I’m thinking about this, what size clothing even is he? Not that it’s an issue but not knowing a vague size is gonna mean he’s going to have to try on a lot of different fits. Then finding the right colours for him is a whole different challenge… And we’re already here… Time to find out the answers to those questions of mine.

“Where would you like to start?”

“A coat exactly like yours perhaps?”

“I don’t see why not. Any colour in mind or just the same style?”

A shrug was NOT what I wanted as an answer, but he does know what he wants which means that I’ve got somewhere to start. Trench Coats are somewhat pricey but with how some of the others are chipping in towards living costs now there’s no issue with spending out occasionally. He seems to be gravitating more towards things that are similar to mine, isn’t that charming? He sees something he likes on me then decides that’s what he wants for himself hopefully, he just stays away from the expensive ones. 

“You ready to try those on then, old man?”

“Just a moment more love, I can’t find quite the right colour yet.”

He just… How red is my face right now? It has to be crimson, doesn’t it? That’s the first time Time’s ever called me something like that naturally it’s when he’s looking at clothes like my own, is he trying to kill me with his charms?

[kudzucataclysm]

OKAY SINCE NOBODYS ASKING BUT AT THE SAME TIME EXPRESSING INTEREST I will give a barebones rundown on these 4 until i do the powerpoint. BE AWARE that each’s backstory is under heavy reconstruction due to the fact that theyre moving over from another wip entirely but their base personalities should be the same-

Dorian: hes from the UK. his hair is BLONDE, NOT WHITE. hes an arrogant spoiled loser whose family just took a beating down the social ladder so hes got all sorts of hubris and an unfounded sense of superiority. was sick a lot as a kid and so becuz of that was isolated from others…he can certainly be a jerk/bastard/ignoramus but he truly does experience empathy and cares abt people (cuz of certain Events in his Youth), he just doesnt really know how to…express that ig. hes currently stuck in america as the photographer for some storm chasers. germaphobe. afraid of homeless ppl

Raleigh: a 7 foot tall bioengineered supersoldier of sorts from Louisiana, where she spent half of her youth as an oil pirate in the gulf of mexico and the other half under the care of a catholic priest in deux orleans. shes super cool and chillax, loves helping people, has an interest in fungi, so why is she a storm chaser? i dunno yet but she does provide a pretty good layer of security for the team when theyre traveling through the southeast and the plains. has all the energy in the world and probs the most competent/trustworthy person to meet ever….umm she is also very blunt and reckless. she does not value her own life a lot so she is always getting injured. erm…tramsgender

formerly-osea: i am still figuring out his new name leabe me aloen…uh he is an aspiring revolutionary of sorts. hes def a stereotypical twitter leftist of sorts and likes to talk abt burning down police stations and walmarts but doesn’t do any of that. he reads a lot of theory but doesnt practice. he also has some anger issues and struggles a bit with his roots as the son of asian immigrants in america…hes very selfish and has an inferiority complex but hes super optimistic and charismatic so thats cool…he and raleigh r very mischievous. hes the radar tech

West, formerly Windsor: this guy is from the western US hence his name, but he never tells anyone where hes from exactly or what he used to do. as of rn im thinking like, former militant for some terrorist organization lol. hes done a ton of shady shit and war crimes…hes always bored and tired. always likes to listen in on what people r talking abt and what theyre doing. hes not very good at making friends but he is like, super reliable and down to earth. he does a lot of driving for the team and helps with navigation…also tramsgender 🙂‍↕️

AND THERES MORE PEOPLE ON THE TEAM BTW!! i just have to flesh them out…so theres like 8 or 9 peeps on the storm chaser team plus one pygmy goat. i will have a post for them as well hopefully

[sassyshoe]

[OFFER IS CLOSED] IF I'VE ALREADY REACHED OUT TO YOU THAN YOU'LL STILL GET THE FREE COMMISSION BUT I AM NOT ACCEPTING MORE AT THE MOMENT🚨🚨🚨

(if you're like really desperate though you can buy a commsion 🥺 I'm willing to negotiate prices)

Hello! I'm really bad at wording things so hopefully this post makes sense. Do any of you want to do an art trade, get a free commission, or give me drawing suggestions? Basically do any of y'all want me to draw something for you for FREE 💀 I want to do commissions in the future but I want to practice not having free will/having to draw things that I don't want to if that makes sense.

I think I'll randomly choose like 3-5 people, you may not get chosen, and it could take me a few weeks to get to yours because I have a crazy life.

I am terrible at drawing full bodies and animals so it'll probably be a headshot of a person... If you're interested maybe comment and then I'll dm you? Idk what the best way to do is.

Rules: No animals, no NSFW, please don't rush me or beg me to do yours. I am allowed to deny you..

Idk if anyone will even read this lol

[blkkizzat]

would you ever consider writing soft Toji? like Toji who did a complete 180 when he met you?

Short Answer: Hmm...I think it would depend on how 180 tbh. I feel like any softness Toji would show would be more subtle then the overt displays of affection or affirmation you'd get with Nanami or Choso. In that sense, I have shown glimpses of affection for reader with a softer Toji in a few fics of mine. ex. Toji's acceptance of reader and her hobbies/kinks in toji x smutwriter!reader. Or in werewolf toji even though he's not being completely honest with you, the plans hes been laying shows his commitment to you. Or in my multi-char fluff halloween fic, Toji harbors jealousy and feelings of not being good enough knowing you used to date gojo. Long Answer:

But I'm a firm believer in meeting people where they are at. I don't think it's very realistic to start dating someone and have them completely change for you, but you can inspire people to be better versions of themselves—however the decision is still more on them.

That isn't to say I think Toji is a one-dimensional asshole and can't be soft—on the contrary I think he is very complex. But I think a 180 right when he meets you isn't something I could really get into. So much of his character is based on the fact he is in constant survival mode.

Although there are plenty of amazing toji x reader stories that are based on more passionate meets like enemies/bully to lovers, etc. On a more practical and ordinary note, it would be a slower burn.

I just think with Toji, that would take time and be kind of rocky to start, but you'd have to slowly but surely domesticate him. He's like the booty call guy who fucks you so good he starts coming over more and more. Ending up staying longer and longer each time. Then he starts helping you out: to fix your sink, take you to get a quote on a new car so they don't rip you off and then grabbing a bite/beer with you after. Before you even realize it, he's stayed over a week and you just watched a whole 6 hour Netflix series on the couch together all night while Megumi is asleep in the other room.

All that said, because he is the way he is with his baggage and trauma, I think it makes for a more engaging dynamic with reader. This way the bonds you build are stronger as you know when he whispers, I love you into your hair once he thinks you've fallen asleep and can't hear you—he really fucking means it.

I do have a virgin!toji x reader fic coming up thats more angsty and although he still damaged by his family, hes not completely closed off by any means. Him and the reader serve as a comfort to each other before they fall for each other.

Also my yakuza!Toji fic coming up yeah he's stalking you and yandere as hell but he's still soft in the way his main motivations are wanting to take care of you and for you to be his wife.

Writing Toji this way is much more interesting to me. No offense, to anyone who writes/prefers him different.

Hopefully you see where I am coming from a bit more nonny! Ty for asking. I love talking about characterizations literally could have went on for hours LOL

[radfemsiren]

So this is a really difficult question for me to ask because I have a lot of shame around it, but I wanted to know if you (or your followers) had advice or resources for a woman trying to unlearn kink. I've had a preoccupation with a certain disciplinary act ever since suffering through child abuse in a fundamentalist home. When I was a young woman I was in an abusive disciplinary relationship and people in the community always condemn that, but it gets so confusing when I also see them fetishizing relationships that look just like it. It's hard to make sense of because sometimes the dynamic seems harmless and even helpful, but also it doesn't seem healthy to want to be punished even if said punishment is not that bad. Like, that is kind of a form of self harm, isn't it? I am sorry. This is so uncomfortable, but I can't talk to anyone in the kink community, and a lot of the feminist angles are about men choosing to harm women, but that doesn't help me because I don't usually engage with men, and it's not like hardcore BDSM with sex involved. (To be clear, there's never sex.) Jillian Keenan is a really prominent voice in this specific community and always calls out abuse, but she still takes the choice feminism angle of empowerment is what makes you feel good. I am questioning everything about my preferences and wondering if I've never dealt with the abuse properly. I don't want to bring it up with a therapist because it's so embarrassing, and I don't know if they'd even be helpful. I'm not trying to make you my therapist either, and I totally respect if you ignore this. I'm just starting to question things and feeling a little lost and confused.

Thank you for the ask! I think it’s good to push through how uncomfortable it feels to speak about what we are ashamed of, it takes away its power.

I was racking my brain trying to think of what kink could possibly not include sex, but I visited the woman you mentioneds channel and realized lol.

I think analyzing your own behavior and understanding where it came from and what it’s currently doing is really powerful. I discussed my thoughts on similar topics here here here and here and here before, hopefully they can help! Your relationship to your sexuality is something that’s unique and so many factors are at play: the individual’s sexual history, motivations, mindset, lingering feelings. The act you’re referring to might be harmless to some people, but if it specifically stems from abuse, and feeds on shame and trauma, then there is a problem.

A big reason why radical feminists critique kink is that pain is a big factor in what makes kink, kink. And looking at the patterns shows that women are the primary receivers of pain in bdsm communities, by an overwhelming majority. We can also look at csa statistics and see that women are an overwhelming majority as well, more than 80% of victims being female. Going through any form of abuse while you are developing makes it hard to separate pain and pleasure… but it’s imperative to your healing journey to do so, in my opinion.

Recovery from a traumatic event has a goal, which is to move on and heal. It can’t be left in the past and fade away if it’s continuously brought up again and again in the bedroom. Retriggering yourself is still retriggering yourself, even for the purpose of pleasure. I also personally don’t think it’s a good idea to pit your libido against your recovery: if you reinforce that attaining a sexual climax relying on retriggering past abuse and mixing pain and pleasure, then it’s doing so many things. It’s placing your climax on one side and moving on and healing on the other, and the animal part of your brain will always choose the climax. What makes kink, kink, is both the pain and pleasure being present. So if sex isn’t involved in your situation, I’m thinking there must be some form of pleasure still, so a form of sexuality at least is present.

Sexuality relying on pain and self harm also enshrouds the unhealthy behavior with this air of taboo, which makes it even more difficult to let go of. Kind of like fast food, indulging in unhealthy sexual behaviors starts to feel like how a junk food cheat day seems to taste better than a regular, home cooked meal. It’s not better for you, and often doesn’t even taste better, but knowing how bad it is compensates that. That’s why so many food addicts find it hard to not quit fad diets… the more restrictions, the more your psychology makes it tantalizing.

So that’s why I think continuing is harmful, but just telling yourself no isn’t the way to go. But rather redirecting yourself, trying new things, talking about it, introspection free from shame… all of these helps cultivate and grow a healthier relationship to your sexuality. Instead of restricting bad behaviors, trying out new things and having your sexuality grow in a different direction is a better move. I used to not be able to enjoy sex, for example, without drinking alcohol. Instead of cutting myself off, I worked with myself and analyzed where my behaviors came from, while slowly trying out things that weren’t so overwhelming that made me run grab a drink first. It’s a process, developing a healthy sexuality and learning what you personally prefer and enjoy… but just being honest with yourself, and exercising love and acceptance of yourself is already a huge step in progressing forward. ❤️

I’m not well read on the topic, so besides the book, The Body Keeps Score, I don’t have any other recommendations… but if anyone does, feel free to add your thoughts and recs!

[raccoonfallsharder]

feel like this is a given but ur not into rocket because he’s a raccoon right? like more in spite of it? /genuine question

his character is rlly fun so like i get it i have just had bad experiences with bestiality on tumblr lolololol

i feel like i just made the same activation-noise my cat makes when i wake him up. sweetheart you must be new here. i hope you already had an idea of how famously longwinded i am before you asked

so. i get this question a lot but your ask is like, the polite version lol, so i’ll actually answer. i’m not sure what bad experiences you’ve had on tumblr but i’m really sorry you went through that. any experience where you’re exposed to something you don’t want to be exposed to can be traumatizing and exhausting, and if anyone was trying to push your boundaries with those things, that’s not okay. i’m honestly grateful you felt like you could ask this question in this space.

anyway let me start by saying i personally support the harkness test for monster (or fictional character) fucking.

personally, i am not into rocket “because” he’s a raccoon. (and is he? is he really? he does not remind me of the raccoons who my mom tells me about during our weekly phone call, who keep trying to kill her chickens and move into her garage. though frankly, i still root for the raccoons). the only thing truly raccoonlike about rocket is his body, and even that is questionable (have you seen that shoulder-to-waist ratio? that is not a chubby lil raccoon). sure he's got the stripey tail and the black mask and the twitchy lil ears and ruby-red eyeshine, but beyond that, he has been altered not just down to his brains and his bones, but to his genes. when rocket says there's no thing like him except him, he's... absolutely being truthful.

god, i honestly have so much to say about what raccoon means in the context of gotg but like. you're not here for that. maybe it'll be a separate longwinded post you can read if you want.

all this to say that personally, i am not generally attracted to raccoons. though i guess if we ever find one that is self-aware enough to evaluate their own emotionalistic intelligence (and considers it lacking), can speak a clear human language and sings like bradley cooper, regularly walks upright and has opposable thumbs, has an incredibly sarcastic sense of humor, is a tech-genius, is an incredible (though not infallible) single dad, has a complicated relationship with the thought of his own death, and regularly saves the galaxy, i may have to see if my opinion changes

but that kinda seems like a tomorrow-problem

tbh bodies have never been that important to me in terms of attraction. so yeah. i like rocket (and i find him attractive) because i see him as a character of such rich empathy that the only way he knows how to protect himself is to try and turn his empathy off. i like him because he fails at turning off his empathy, pretty much every fuckin time.

i like him because he knows what pain and loss are, and because he blames himself for things so obviously outside of his locus of control (me too, buddy, me too).

i like how he loves people, so deeply he carries them in his bones and never gives up their memories — not just batch 89, either, but also all the guardians who had been snapped into ash. he holds onto them so hard that he brings them back from the dead.

frankly i also like that he's acab and a leftist. (don't tell me this motherfucker escaped from twenty-three prisons and thinks defunding the cops is enough. he doesn't.)

i like how scrappy he is, and how devoted he is, and how sarcastic he is, and what a good dad he is, and i love how he is constantly underestimated by literally everyone (but by himself most of all).

and when i get to write him a little snuggle time — platonically or, erm, less platonically — it heals something for me, and hopefully maybe for a reader or two. like, yeah, okay, you're scared and lonely and hurting and sometimes you say mean things that you regret and sometimes you don't like yourself very much. sometimes you don't feel like you belong in your own body, and sometimes you feel purposeless and worthless and low, and sometimes you feel guilty just for breathing. but hey, you still deserve to feel like you can offer your kindness, and your warmth, and your connection, and your community, and your love.

and you deserve to let yourself receive those things too.

and you do.

anyway if this wasn't enough justification for why i'm into this raccoon here's another tirade abut how relatable and awesome he is