#am I just saying that cuz I kin both of them?

[alex-just-vibing]

Sally being the only mentally stable sibling frfr

Yeah lol the other two have Issues <33

[strawberryraviegutz]

I feel like this needs to be said but..Am I the only one getting annoyed with the “Ame Chan is a bad person/problematic” discourse?? I’m not just talking about the ppl who’ve been complaining about her character saying they “didn’t realize how awful she was”. I’m also talking about ppl being like “lmao yall clearly didn’t play the game of course she’s a horrible person you’re just now realizing that??”

You don’t necessarily have to play a game to be a fan of it. It’s pretty common for ppl to watch gameplay videos or videos covering the story of/analyzing games and characters if they can’t or don’t wanna play it. Second I dont think we should just look at Ame through a black and white lense. Ame’s not a horrible person but she’s not necessarily good either. She’s a very VERY flawed person who struggles with mental health issues and addiction and makes rlly bad decisions and says rlly mean/bad things.

But that’s like…literally everyone on earth. Everyone has flaws especially mentally ill ppl, nobody’s perfect. It’s implied that Ame was literally abandoned/disowned by her parents so of course she’s not going to make the best decision with a “stable” mind especially if you’re desperate.

Ame Chan does terrible things/decisions like taking drugs on stream and self harming on stream and I think she even killed herself on stream too in one ending(tho feel free to correct me if I’m wrong) which is obviously irresponsible and dangerous. And she says things that aren’t necessarily nice or the best(some of it is warranted since some of the ppl in her chat were saying rlly awful, gross and even misogynistic things and calling her “old”).

And while she only wanted to be kangel for attention online, it’s kinda possible that she’s been able to have positive impacts on her fans/audience. We’ve seen how she is with the younger side of her fanbase as Kangel. She’s very kind and compassionate and overall very sweet towards them. Kangel’s entire persona is revolved around reaching out to lonley ppl online who’re struggling and to make them happy.

She may be doing it only for money snd attention, but like most ppl who struggle with mental health issues, they sometimes don’t realize the positive impacts they’ve had on the ppl around them. Hell maybe deep down Ame made Kangel to also help reach out to ppl like her online and make them happy too.

And as for the whole shotacon accusations, Ame Chan is NOT a shotacon. It was a very bad translation error and we all know that most translators aren’t always reliable(especially Google Translate) so please stop spreading that around. It’s been debunked already.

Maybe I’m biased because while I don’t have BPD(at least I don’t think so), have never taken drugs, nor have I ever cut myself in like a very VERY long time(tho I never left any scars cuz i didn’t like pain)and have an anxiety disorder and am autistic, I still sorta relate to/kin Ame Chan.

I’ve had my moments where I’ve had emotional and or violent outbursts(not where I’ve beat someone up or broke anything)due to a rush of emotion and or getting real worked up/frustrated online and irl.

And it’s always rubbed me the wrong way when I’ve been seeing ppl trying to put Ame into the box of “bad/problematic person” whether you’re trying to defend her character or not. It’s a lot more complex and morally grey than that and I think characters like her being in media are important to lessen the stigma of mental health whether it be in Japan or worldwide.

Feel free to correct me and fill me in on stuff if I missed anything or left anything out but in conclusion, Ame Chan is a not a good person, but she’s not necessarily a monster and or all bad either and I think ppl on both sides should realize that.

[fictionkinfessions]

anyone else out there new to fictionkin , having their world turned on its head , finding out it meant something else than what the internet taught you (i always thought kin meant what synpath means lol) , and you realize it fits you perfectly ? but you also keep worrying you might look like youre faking it cuz you dont have any of that canon memory or past life stuff and really just None of what everyone else seems to be experiencing ? like youre just that fictional character trapped in a human shell and not much else ? did you also make an entire google doc compiling possible "evidence" that proves youre beyond a doubt fictionkin but you still kinda feel like youre faking it ? am i the only one ??

like. i've had this feeling for over a year . before i watched any part of spearmaster's campaign i asked my friends if its weird that i feel a connection to them (spearmaster) . I've been calling them me or basically me for a year . looking at fanart of them always makes me feel like im looking at myself . why do i feel faaaaake just bc i dont really have memories from canon . I dont understand memories . any other fictionkin out there that doesnt understand memories? is it,, okay to even talk abt my kintype like this ? with a hint of seperation between them and me ? like we're both the same and not? is it weird to say "me" "i" "myself" instead of "spearmaster" or vice versa? is it ok to talk abt this in the . fictionkinfessions askbox??? is it ok to post where other fictionkins can see ? will this pondering harm anyone??

i know everyone's experience can and will be different but mine feels. too different yonow . i dont get why i cant wrap my head around it . i feel like i wouldnt be able to distinguish memories from my general knowledge of the source . Is anyone else like this. i cant be the only one dude . the way i experience being fictionkin feels like the same way i experience being otherkin : looking at images makes me think "haha wow thats me" and sometimes i feel like my actual body is a mech . and thats not how any fictionkin-related site described being fictionkin . should i just call myself otherkin ? are these rhetorical questions? no theyre not i need answers

i could elaborate on this more and more and more but i dont wanna talk Tooooo much . Im sorryyy

- spearmaster rain world

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[ddlcpoly]

Day 4: Misunderstanding

*A door knocks on Natsuki’s front door. She opens it teary-eyed to see Sayori standing there with an empathetic smile*

Natsuki: hey…

Sayori: Can i come in?

Natsuki: sure

*Sayori walks in, Natsuki closes the front door and they both go to Natsuki’s room, sitting on her bed*

Sayori: So-

Natsuki: I fucked up.

Sayori: I- umm. Well, I wouldn’t put it like that.

Natsuki: I did I screamed at Yuri again. She was just being too critical dude! It was my first ever short story! I-I just felt so little and hated that and snapped and yelled at her again!

Sayori: Hey, calm dow-

Natsuki, holding her head with both hands: Why am i such a bitch!?

*Natsuki starts sobbing, pointing her head downwards, leaving Sayori stunned at her break. Sayori takes a deep breath and cups their head upwards*

Sayori: You’re not a bitch, Natsuki, you’re a wonderful, energetic, bold, creative, beautiful person, you just have some issues. We all do, I would know that.

Natsuki, now sobbing less, scoffs: You only say that cuz I’m your girlfriend.

Sayori: Hey. I think that means that it should be more valuable, cuz I know you better than basically anyone.

Natsuki: *sigh* I just wish Yuri could know how bad I feel.

Sayori: We’ll, you can tell her, she’s standing outside your apartment right now.

Natsuki: What?

Sayori: Yeah, I brought her over, cuz I knew you’d want to apologize to her.

Natsuki: …

Natsuki: It’s scary at times how you can predict all of us.

*Sayori sticks her tongue out playfully*

*Both them step outside the apartment and see Yuri standing there awkwardly waiting for them*

Yuri: He-Hello.

Natsuki: hey.

*After a bit of an awkward silence Sayori “clears her throat” and looks at Natsuki*

Natsuki: Look, dude, Im sorry, I just kin-

Yuri: N-No, i um, I want to apologize first. You see, well, oh, I have the unfortunate tendency to, well, criticize things that someone else shows me, to, how do I put this. Um, show, that I, well, put attention to the details and things… so I’m sorry for seeming harsh… to you… in the club.

*Yuri’s nervous rambling apology makes Natsuki feel a bit more comfortable*

Natsuki: Yeah, apology accepted. And I’m sorry for yelling at you and calling you “pompous blood-sucking freak” I didn’t really mean that.

Yuri: I also accept your apology.

*They both smile at each other*

Sayori: Sooo, what usually happens when 2 lovers reconcile?

*They both chuckle at Sayori’s comments and quickly kiss each other*

Natsuki: There? Are you satisfied ya dork?

[the-kinfesssional]

MAN im tired ok

robots (this also goes for beings that are stuck in a computer, i just dont know how to word that) are another thing that i kin a lot of, both fictionkin and just being a robot otherkin. i dont normally get dysphoria for them but its started to flare up really bad to the point i start crying and then people ask me why and i cant tell them :sobss:

what do you even do for robotkin dysphoria anyway??? wrap yourself in tinfoil???

also on the topic of robots im The Daycare Attendant from fnaf and the rare pair of Glamrock chica x Eclipse from my canon is something i love talking about even though i dont have anything else to say about it other then "yeah it happened"

ALSO ALSO i got a sewing machine and am working on cosplays >:3333 might force get my little sister to do a duo cosplay w/ me or smth cuz she likes most of the same stuff i do

mk i might try to sleep through this dysphoria buh bye nowww <3

-✨🍝

Shit. Never thought about the robotkin dysphoria sort of stuff. I'll think about it. Try to sleep it though, ig.

[busiest-bee]

I’m scared to post this but if I don’t I’ll beat myself up about it. Fuck it we ball

I’ve been trying to put my emotions into words All day. But then I remembered. Oh right yeah. I can just. Say It.

Anyways Me being a loser (vent? I don’t know) under the cut

(Cool divider made by me using some splatoon assets I got off the wiki btw :•3 )

(This is kinda long. Way longer than I originally wanted. So super sorry about that)

Anyways for a little while now I’ve been considering that I Might be some form of nonhuman/otherkin. Specifically a shapeshifter, but dogs, cats (both big and small), wolves, and bears are things I relate to heavily as well. (Not sure “relate” is the best term for what I feel but ehh I’m having a hard enough time with this as is) The dog, wolf, and cat parts are because of the kind of shapeshifter I..am?? That feels kinda crazy to say (and saying THAT is giving me some serious self doubt. But as they say, Fuck It We Ball).

Edit (8-24-24)- adding in cuz I just remembered: some visual similarities to lizards/reptiles so throw a little bit of That in the mix idk

Anyways yea the type of shapeshifter I’m talking about is actually a species I’ve been Sorta developing over a couple years now, it’s all come about pretty naturally tho. It’s basically just my brain saying “hey I Hate these parts of being a human. Let’s do something else” idk how to word it. So the kind of shapeshifter I am is more so based on what I hate about my irl body. That definitely plays into my gender dysphoria, and vice versa.

The bear part I feel less strong about, but it makes sense I guess. That came around when I had an intense hyperfixation on Splatoon. My favorite character is Mr.Grizz. Who is a bear. That hyperfixation was also the catalyst for me trying tinned fish!! (This is important to me bcuz I’m an Incredibly picky eater. Not fully relevant to the rest of this but Oh Well. I’m already oversharing on the internet in an attempt to come to terms with my identity, why not share a fun fact, Yknow?) Ever since that I’ve also felt very strongly about salmon. My favorite fish (I didn’t have a favorite fish beforehand) is sockeye salmon I LOVE them. They’re beautiful. They’re poetic. I want to eat them. Also my current layout (as of writing this) is splatoon themed. Specifically Salmon Run and golden eggs. I love the way the world of splatoon makes me feel. I want to be completely immersed in it. Golden eggs look so tasty and are so gender I HAVE to eat them.

I don’t know if this is a kin thing or if I’m just thinking too hard about it (that could apply to this entire post but eh) but I also relate (again, maybe not the “correct” term but I’m working with what my brain has so shh) to Chara from Undertale. Idk something about a little kid falling down into a mountain full of monsters, being adopted by said monsters, and giving themself up just to try saving them…their cannonical distaste of humans…something about them as a character really feels so intensely Me. I don’t think I Am Chara, but. Idk. This is all very new to me (admitting that I feel these things at least. I’ve been consuming some kin content for a while now. It’s fun!! Love moodboards and stimboards so much they’re so fun)

And maybe, if anyone has even read this far, u might be asking “bee! Your name is Bee! Your account name is bee themed!! Are u a little honey making freakazoid out to get lost in the pollen sauce?”

To which I say:

All jokes aside. I don’t know man. Bees are very me, I am very bees, but I tried looking at bee kin/therian posts and i couldn’t really relate as well as i hoped. Although I might’ve just not scrolled down enough to find something that I really deeply felt in my gut. So just. Think of me like a fancy car (except creature) with a cool bee themed skin or something idk. (To be fair itd make more than enough sense for me to be a..kin?? Therian?? I don’t know. Of a bee. I have so many bee things. One day I will have more)

I’m still unsure of labels, if anything I just prefer the term nonhuman, gets the point across without being too specific, and doesn’t give me any of the bad icky feelings that make me feel like I’m lying no matter what I do or say.

Anyways yeah this was long and dumb and honestly? I’m terrified to post it. Ive been struggling to get my words out all day and I’ve been posting like a madman. But I guess using my social media as an outlet for all my emotions I otherwise wouldn’t really have anywhere to put will do that.

Sorry if none of this made any sense, I’m really trying to not only understand myself, but also to then Describe that understanding to other people. And I’ve never been very good at having people understand me.

If I end up realizing I was wrong I will promptly dig a hole in the ground and let nature overtake me and cover me in moss

(Also just a note: if anyone sees this, Reads this, and decides to like. Reply or reblog with words of encouragement/understanding or really Anything. I might not reply bcuz I have really bad social anxiety, especially on the internet. But trust me when I say that I read everything people say in the tags of reblogs, comments/replies, all of it. It’s all greatly appreciated, it really truly is.)

(Cool ass Mr.Grizz divider made by me with an asset from the Nintendo online app in Wandercrust I think. Though I believe all the pics u can get from that are also on the wiki) (I should make a salmon themed divider holy shit)

[thejademountaincollective]

BOO!!!

We’re very new to tumblr so I hope we’re doing this right

Hi there!! We’re the Jade Mountain Collective (Or The Breached SYS or the Reputation system (we’re basically just collecting system names LMAO) )

Uh this is just a little intro thingy but we don’t plan to post much on here but maybe some art sometimes!!

Here’s some about us

• We’re an absolute wings of fire enthusiast and honestly. If you say one thing about it we will never. Ever. Stop talking /hj

• please use tagtones with us (if you interact) Becuz it’s so hard to tell tones ☹️

• we use “☹️” as a sad joke like we’re jokingly sad (aswell as 😨,😃,😰 and any angry emoji)

• fictkin! Our biggest kins are Snowfall (Wings of fire) and Vanny (FNAF SB) !!

•aswell we’re a therian and otherkin, our theriotypes are Norwegian forest cat, Arctic fox and our otherkins are a sandwing and water Na’vi

• LIV LAUGH LUV TAYLOR SWIFT 🫶 (uh I might have hyper fixated a little too much on her cuz uh we have a factive of her.. LMAO /lh)

• system of (maybe?) 25 !!

•hyper fixation is wings of fire but just fixation is FNAF- we are very (very) confused about the lore but it’s all good cuz we got the basics!

• we practice witchcraft!! We’re like a year or two into it and still have alot to learn but it is something we do!!!

•I am so normal about Vanny and Vanessa. So normal you wouldn’t believe how normal. So very normal. You couldn’t even guess that I wasn’t normal about them because that’s how normal I am. And this little paragraph is so normal and it’s not normal to do this. Because I’m so normal about vanny and Vanessa /silly /j

• we do regress sometimes, depends on the alter for little age but mostly it’s 1-7!! (Both voluntary and involuntary)

• Cassie (an alter) has made her own blog! I’ll tag it here for him :3 @l1ttl3-c4ss13

Frequent fronters are…!!

Vanessa- FNAF SB fictive- memory holder- she/celeste/flash- age 23 -🔦

And uh.. another Vanessa - FNAF movie - she/her/they - age 19-25- 🌌

Cassie- FNAF SB - co-host, anger holder,little - he/she/him/her - 4-6 age range - 🌈

Onyx/Gwen - no source - host, persecutor -star/ vamp/jelly/stars/shine -🌧️

Vanny- FNAF SB - protector in general - void/she/ insert name -🔪

Gwen- into/across the spiderverse - unsure of role- she/web/paw- 🕸️

DNI BELOW

Thanks so much for the banner Vine!!

Proshippers

Endo “systems” and supporters

Transphobes, homophobes etc

Ableists

NSFW pages

Pages with no pfp, bio and no posts will be blocked (assuming your a bot)

Christians (they just make us uncomfy! Nothing against their religion just not great experiences!!!)

If you’re uncomfy with swearing- this is just for your own comfort!!! We tend to swear a lot and have no impulse control so it comes out automatically

I think that might be it for now so uh yippee!!

- Vanessa (🌌) and Onyx (🌧️)

[3rdculturecharacter]

Hey people, it's been a minute.

Let's talk about one of my favourite third culture characters, Amethyst from Steven Universe.

I'm gonna preface this by saying she in one of my top kins and I am so excited to be talking about her.

So the thing about my girl Amethyst, her third cultureness is very... understated... In that isn't not a major plotpoint.

I'm pretty sure this is because Steven already comes with a fair bit of the usual third culture angst and structurally it wouldnt make sense for them to both have the exact same character arc, especially being so close.

And honestly I don't think it's nesserary a bad thing. As much as a third culture character like Spider from Avatar can complement and enrich the narrative by being third culture, a character like Amethyst can do some pretty tangible good by just existing as she is (wich makes sense cuz that's kinda touched on in her character arc)

Her third cultureness isn't egnored: she's unlike the other Cristal Gems in that she's picked up human habits like eating and sleeping, playing video games, watching TV, having human friends, being the first to use phones (as well as being much more culturally American in general).

Her non human side is shown pretty cleverly. She's a gem of course, does and knows alot of gem stuff, but in particular, because she's immortal and doesn't need basically anything to survive, she can be super disregarding of things humans need to make money and live off, or will take them time and energy they don't always have to fix (just like the other Cristal Gems)

Or

This totally feeds into her immaturity, since she didn't develop under the strict culture of Homeworld like all the other gems, but the chill, flowy environment that is beach city. Pair that with the fact of her having basically no physical chalanges while living on earth and you can see how she would develop an "the whole world is my playground" mentality.

Speaking of her development, let's talk about that!

*Proceeds to rant about character design for a while*

Ok so her shapeshisfting powers are super interesting, because as we can gleen from the movie, when she first emerges she copied and shapeshisfted into who or whatever she came across to get her bearings.

(I'm gonna say that's some developmental issue unique to her or maybe all overcooked gems, since we see other quartzes emerge and they don't do that, maybe that's coding for something, not sure).

Her copying is very in character for a third culture kid, and if you look at her formations in order it kinda seems like she's inadvertantly copying the developmental pattern of a human child? (over a much longer time ofc). Then she went through a long pase of partially covering her gem with her shirt and also after a while she gives herself bra straps wich (much like the extra cleavege rose gave herself) she absolutely couldn't have needed, probably copying humans.

Then in future her design speaks volumes! Her top and shoes are that gem-wear seran wrap stuff, ofc with that little unnecessary rip around her gem cuz she gotta. And then those cute frayed jorts with the stars on being so human and organic. It's all really saying, "I'm a bit of both worlds and we all cool with it."

More thoughts on the rip: it could be ripping the gem-wear to say I'm not JUST a gem, highlighting her human side, it could be there to reveal her gem/draw attention to it like "I'm Amethyst, loud and proud", it could be just cuz she really f***** loves ripped clothes. Idc wich any works good 4 her.

It really shows her full journey of self acceptance.

I feel like alot of the emotional pitfalls Amethyst runs into during her character arc are also very relatable to me at least as a third culture person, even if in her case they aren't directly realted.

Feelings of guilt for existing, feelings of not belonging, self isolation, feelings of not being good enough, comparing yourself to others and rebelliousness are all pretty common.

So it makes nothing but sence for her to be quietly third culture.

Also this:

Wich is the lerfect segway into:

My big PSA related rant

This... This will end me. Honestly I'm not even mad about the style rn.

REBECA you could have chosen ANY other Cristal Gem from this one.

The problem here is, I could see a bunch of humans discriminating against Amethyst for whatever reason actually having an impact on her. Amethyst is the ONLY cristal gem who could tangibly be vulnerable to any form of gem racism, garnet and pearl would just pick the haters up and put them back over the fence.

This whole thing is just highlighting how you didn't explore that angle. Not to mention that the whole show established her to be very close to humanity, and then she just turns to the camera and says "wtf, I'm actually nothing like people"? It just feels wrong.

Also you gave my girl the most handfisted one, idk why those two googly eyed toddlers having a detailed understanding of the neuances of racism seems somewhere between unrealistic and straight up bizarre.

(Ok I tell a lie, the guitar dad one was kinda a mess but nobody even remembers that one so whatever)

That aside, this one should have been on Garnet, she is the most detached from humans of the trio (except for pearl, but I think she's better in that classroom scenario), she should have been the one saying "yea, comparing us ist right" and it would have made sence because it's already evident in the show.

Amethyst should have been the one at the playground, she doesn't even have to drop out of the sky, its AMETHYST! she can totally just be hanging there.

They did her so dirty! At the end she even gets pissed off about having to stay longer to fix the thing SHE had a problem with.

Don't get me wrong, ist an invaluable message and Im totally on board but gurl what happened?

Hit the image limit... Gonna make a part 2 and get back on the original point oml

[fictionkinfessions]

different opinion ask game because fuck it, why not.

don't have much to say on specific things for this, but when it comes to people, i could not STAND wally or norman. wally was a complete and utter BONEHEAD and norman... well, he was simply a weirdo. i could always feel him... watching me.

and now i love both of them to death. sigh. i can't help it, wally's quite funny and norman's just one cool son of a bitch.

it's funnier considering i'm also a wally kin! yiiiippee.

speaking of which actually, lemme tell you sammy was SOOOOO annoying oh my GOOOOOD. he'd get set off over the TINIEST things.

and yet he's my favorite character FROM bendy, even disregarding the fact that's ALSO me. siiiiiigh.

i also didn't like mr. connor very much cuz he treated me like a child even though i was a grown-ass man, thankyouevermuch. (though to be fair, i was only in my... 20's, i wanna say? i dunno? but mr. connor was like, at LEAST early 40's.) and also he expected me to do two jobs at once! like, sooooorry for not doing the shit gent pays YOU to do! i'm just the janitor! i didn't even WORK for gent!

in retrospect, he's alright though. he's kinda cool, giving him credit where it's due.

tl;dr, i am my own biggest hater somehow!

- kind regards, sammy lawrence/wally franks (#💫🪓🎶)

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[tk-writer]

⭐️⭐️⭐️

I politely request some directors commentary for your fics.

fics?!? as in PLURAL?!?? with a 's'???

*cracks knuckles*

lets GOOOOOOO (infodump below le cut)

SOOOOOOOO in my most recent shadamy fic, i had them go to an indie neo-soul concert instead of Honet Pot or whatever tf that band was in MoStH. and thats because i had just gone to a Liv.e concert and wanted to incorporate that into the story since it was an AMAZING concert, plus the genre fit the vibes/tone i was going for moreso than a peppy pop singer :) and also i want more ppl to listen to her cuz shes phenomenal. my taste in music is superior, pls trust me on this

for the ongoing surgeamy fic i'm in the midst of writing, all of surge's dialogue and inner thoughts are what i say to myself when im having a bad bpd episode. and everything amy says to her is what i wish someone would say to me when i get bad. i see myself in both of them!! i kinda view them as my dark side thats angry and full of self hatred and my brighter side thats loving and sweet and compassionate!!

the one shot surgeamy fic was a rewrite of an old catradora fic that now seems awkward and weird when i look back on it lol. the setting and plot fits surgeamy soooo much better tho. originally i wrote it when i was pining hard for this girl who was my good friend, who kept getting fucked over by lame guys, and i wanted to swoop in like captain save a hoe like the raging bisexual i am lol. she ended up being super toxic and narcissistic tho so i dodged a bullet 🌚

when i wrote the amnesia sonamy fic, it was going to be TOTALLY different from the final draft. i was actually going to have amy lead sonic through her mind, but i didnt think it would hit as hard emotionally so i changed it to have her actively fighting against him, to depict her internal conflict of trying to forget him + trying to preserve her memories of him. i kinda wanna make an alternate ending or even another separate amnesia fic, but that shit was difficult to write so im gonna wait on that lmao.

in pieces of cloud, i realized i lowkey kin amy skfhsjd. i projected so much of myself into her character, from her bpd diagnosis (that no one has noticed yet cuz its such a small detail hehehe) to her fear of abandonment & anxious attachment style. all of that was taken from me and my personal real life experiences!! AND the therapist's dialogue is everything my current therapist tells me when i'm having an episode! its good advice so i wanted to share it 💗 and also heal amy cuz I LOVE HER (just like i love me! 🩷) also im still debating on writing an epilogue for it!! wanted a post frontiers scene but not sure if that would add anything to the story or not!

boom boom into my heart was supposed to be like 25 chapters, but after trying to write a few "fillers" i realized i hated them and they lacked the passion and excitement of earlier chapters. so i ended it early when i thought it felt more natural. im kinda bummed i couldnt stretch the slow burn a little longer, but i also didnt wanna drag it out or have it become boring just for the sake of being longer. does that make sense?

[weirdo-from-bonesborough]

oh hey i just want to clarify that I don't blame Echo for what happened. He's literally the reason i started watching star wars animation in the first place my babygirl, my pumpkin pie, my cinnamon roll, my sweetheart sugar bear, my boo-boo beau, my snookums, my silly billy little guy, my girlypop pussyslay, my meow meow, my oompa loompa, my prefect princess, my catgirl, my maple syrup, my love-a-dove, my darling, my salt-and-sweetie, my funky monkey, my Ec-hoe, my orange chicken chow mein, my sodapop, my pepsi-can, my mnt dew, my liquor-liquor-lips, my teacup, my porcelain girl, my sugar, my doll, my dear, my love, my puppyboy, my kin.

However the reason I kin him is because the boy's got self-esteem issues. And I am also a boy with self-esteem issues who once convinced himself that a loved one dying was punishment from god for being gay. Eck's literally spent the last two seasons being told he's less-than-human and it's implied one of the reasons he decided to join the rebellion and refuses to settle down with the batch was out of guilt ("i'm doing this for my brothers" "when will it be enough"). I'm just saying humans are irrational in grief and Echo has so, so much trauma and regret. This is arguably the third time Echo's lost someone he deeply loves and cares for has passed without any closure. Obviously Echo has never done anything wrong in his life (being taken advantage of while in a vulnerable state and having his own mind unwittingly used to kill brothers does not count!), but I can imagine that he's in such a bad place mentally that he would blame himself, even though it is irrational. We know it's not his fault, but we also know that he most likely has survivor's guilt, and Tech's body is just gonna be another heavy weight added to the pile when Echo weighs his worth against those he's outlived.

Obviously Tech's death is a result of his own choice in response Tarkin's actions. He's a martyr in the name of his loved ones, and he's a tragic victim of the Empire's cruelty. One of the morals of the Bad Batch has literally always been about blaming the wrong enemy -- Crosshair blaming Rex for abandoning Echo. Hunter and Tech assuming Echo's a traitor.

Crosshair blaming his brothers for leaving him. The Batch blaming Crosshair for leaving them. Omega blaming herself at the start of the season. The Batch seeing the man from Serenno as a Separatist instead of an innocent. Cody blaming himself for Obi-Wan's death. The clones being blamed for the fall of Kamino. Those kids from the ipsium episode competing against one another for the favor of that evil guy.

The tension between the Batch and the regs instead of loving one another as brothers. The in-fighting within the Batch... that's like their m.o. Crosshair is very clearly the kinda guy who says inflammatory things to rile people up on purpose, and based on how long it took for him to defect despite multiple opportunities to do so previously, he also seems like the guy who hates admitting his wrong-- and Crosshair isn't to blame either! He tried his damnedest to protect his siblings, and they didn't listen. Tech made the choice to go on the mission and to sacrifice himself, but you can how Crosshair might still feel guilty, and that guilt would lead him to lash out?

And even if he understands it's not his fault, he's still gonna act out, cuz he's Crosshair and he says snarky shit unprompted all time, so of course he's gonna be mean and harsh and cutthroat when he's in mourning.

I already said why I think Hunter would use Echo as a target to take out his rage, but of course Hunter won't actually blame Echo. He's an intelligent man and semi-emotionally stable, but he just lost both his brother and his sister-daughter. He's going through a lot right now, and I could see him snapping at Echo because of the awful cocktail of guilt-anger-sadness-longing-grief-regret-fear he must be brewing right now.

Yeah, so, I'm sorry for not being clear that I don't think Echo's at fault her at all, but I could see how he might blame himself, or how the others my irrationally take their own guilt and grief out on him. I just think it's interesting to think about all the angst this could cause because, as stated before, Echo's my babyboy moonshine honey pot kitten sugar cookie sweetheart light of my life, and I enjoying making my blorbos suffer emotionally

Hey :D so y'know how Echo couldn't crack into Hemlock's data so he specifically left to ask for Tech's help :D how Riyo never asked him to reach out, and he did it of his free choice :D how it was because of that data that Tech decided to check his old channels :D and that made him decide to go on the mission instead of lounging in domestic bliss on Pabu :D

Do you think Echo will blame himself for Tech death :D do think Hunter will as well :D since he was against the mission in the first place and already wanted to retire :D even if logically he knows it's not Echo's fault he'll act out out of grief :D will crosshair blame him :D because it's easier than blaming himself :D

Do think if even Wrecker will be able to stop from lashing out when they're all mourn both Tech and Omega :D Do you think Echo will think it's what he deserves :D

[pandasized-crevice]

MY KINNPORSCHE EP5 FRESH JUST WATCHED THOUGHTS

TO START! SO WE'RE NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT IT??!!!JUST LIKE THAT!!??

Kims detective era ft. snooping through his dads stuff

PAPA KORN KNOWS HE KNOWS KIMS UP TO SOMETHIMG

PAUSE: kinn looks mighty fine in the red suit

UNPAUSE: korn intimidates greatly i gotta say & he barely does anything

THE WAY kinn and his dad have different mindsets over what a boss is?? wild since you'd think kinn would think more like his dad

THATS WHY KINNS MORE LIKE HIS MOMMA

CHAN FUCK OFF MY BBY

i see now why korn is the head boss cuz that man ruthless

BROTHER MOMENTS AHAH

OHHO tankhun knows i wonder if he helps kim?or at least encourages kims shit??

FUCKING SHIT I KNEW IT I KNEW KINNS GOING TO HAVE TO PUNISH PORSCHE SINCE HIS DAD KNEW DAMMNIT

if you had to punish porsche WHY USE THE BITCHES WHO HATE HIM MOST FUCK THIS

pete my love thank you for trying to comfort him

the way i don't want porsche in kinns presence at all right now

AYO I KNOW SCENE IS GONNA HAPPEN SOON

this is so cute fr so happy to see porsche smile HE NEEDS ALL THE HAPPINESS

AYOO AYO AYO AYO AYO AYO AYO AYO AYOAYO AYO AYO AYOAYOAYO

THEY REALLY HAD BOTH OF THEM BE WITH DIFF PEOPLE ONLY TO THINK ABOUT EACH OTHER DJS;HIU;FCNJ

omgomgomgomgomgomgomg

NOO OTS VEGAS PORSCHE BE CAREFUL FUCK OFF DEVIL

"i don't see why not" IM FINE LOLOLOLOLO(she was not fine she is in fact a whore for bible)

LOOK WHOS WAITING LIKE A SPURED HOUSEWIFE

omg porsche is so happy:( BRO HOW CAN I BE MAD WHEN PORSCHE LOOKS SO HAPPY AFTER BEING SAD

they.are.so.fine i can't cope

PORSCHE YOUR SMILE I WOULD BURN THE WORLD DOWN FOR IT TO STAY ON YOUR FACE

O H WE HUGGING??!!

the way if you didn't know the context and just saw that clip of them you'd think vegas & porsche are the couple jc

HE'S LITTERALY WAITING FOR PORSCHE IO H HO

"at least they haven't hurt me"(they have porsche....) "are you accusing me of hurting you" YES I AM

THE PEANUT GALLERY GASPS(its me)

CHAY & KIM TIME

we at the studio bby!!!!YES WE LOVE SNACKS

aw chays so excited you can tell

OH NAME REVEAL(like we didn't already know)

CHAY GIRL CHILL

idk if this is related but both porsche & chay wear sliver necklaces?

U KNOW MY BROTHER???I NEVER SAID KIM

smooth save kim....you idiot

OH HO THIS IS KIMS WAY OF GETTING INFO ON PORSCHE I SEE U FOOL

chay love his brother:(

chay you trust too much!!!! its the idol blur...

STOP HE'S BEEN TEXTING PORSCHE EVEN THO HE KNEW PORSCHE WOULDN'T SEE:(:(:(:(

IM SOBBING IN THE STUDIO TONIGHT CHAY SWEET CHILD

OH KORNS MEETING PORSCHE IM SCARED

STOP IM ACTUALLY CRYING BROTHERS UNITE

peep the shower ad YOU CAN'T DISTRACT ME WITH A WET HALF NAKED PORSCHE(but good effort)

PETE NOT AGAIN\GET FUCKED KIN HAHA

PETE SHUT THE HELL UP DON'T EXPOSE PORSCHE

oh we love to see bestie pete!!!!!

YES PORSCHE WITH HIS FRIENDS

ig kinn & porsche are butt-faced bros

THATD BETTER NOT BE KINNS HEADASS......damnnit it is

kinn you whore he's not your bodyguard rn YOU'RE AT HIS HOUSE

CRAPPY BOSS STOP JOM these whore friends

PORSCHES FACE HE'S DONE

kinn you make me SICK SICK I SAY,kinns struggling out here fr

what super senses does porsche have to know other poeple were there

HANDCUFF SCENE YALL SHE'S APPROACHING

DAMN GET RECKED BIG & KEN

HEADSHOT WOOOO

aaaahAAAHHH THEY GOT THEM BOSS MOVES!!!!1

HANDCUFF SCENE HANDCUFF SCENE HANDCUFF SCENES

[otaku-tyriq]

Unpopular Genshin Opinions that will have at least half the fandom show up at my address to murder me

1. I hate Yae Miko. Idc if she‘s yall‘s uwu pink fox waifu or your lesbian main kin, I genuinly want that dumb fox to die. There is being smug and teasy and than there is straight up bullying. Her absolutely ignoring Sayu‘s personal boundaries and her entire behaviour during Gorou‘s hangout event crossed several lines for me cuz she just reminded me so much of the girls in highschool that would call me fat, pathetic and disgusting only to than laugh it off with: "OMG IT IS JUST A JOKE YOU ARE SOOOO SENSITIVE AHAHA“. Every time I see and need to interact with her, I want to strangle her. Idc about her, her story, her supposed relationship with Ei and her quest. I‘ll just skip through all the dialogue, get those primos and buzz off cuz I literally hate her that much. The only fictional character I hate more is Adam from Sk8 the infinity, so congrats Miko, the only person worse than you, is a canonical pedophile.

2. Xingqui and Chongyun are not cute together both as a friendship and romantically. Just like Yae Miko my dislike for this ship stems from years of bullying and trauma cuz like Chongyun I am insanely naive, can‘t recognise sarcasm or when people are pulling my leg which led to a lot of "friends“ in the past exploiting my naivety to pull pranks on me and make me believe the dumbest of shit. Do any of you know how tiring it gets when after a while of this, you genuinely do not know when to believe the people who are supposed to be your friends? I just don‘t think Xingqui is that great of a friend for exploiting Chongyun‘s kindness and trust for his personal amusement and I genuinely think Shenhe is in the right to dislike him the way she does.

3. Hating on straight ships such as Ittosara and Jeanluc and commenting on posts of these ships saying it is disgusting and homophobic, is deeply biphobic. Cuz it deepens the idea that bisexuals in straight relationships are "not gay enough for the LGBT community.“

4. Genshin should not be allowed to be played by minors due to the Gacha system and the fact that it is clearly geared towards adults with its character design. It is a gateway for young children into a gambling addiction if left unsupervised. Mihoyo needs stricter rules on player’s age.

5. Genshin is becoming less and less Newcomer friendly. Let me elaborate. All the new characters both 4* and 5* are from inazuma and later regions. Now let‘s say you just started playing genshin cuz you like Yae Miko. You get Yae Miko. But you are unable to level her up past 20 cuz all her Ascension material is in Inazuma. Or even with certain 4* like Sara and Gorou. Or even just so many events that new comers cannot take part in cuz they haven‘t completed the liyue or inazuma quests yet.

6. Ayaka did not manipulate/guilt trip the Traveler into fighting for Inazuma. She showed them the suffering of her people, the damage the Vision hunt decree has done and she promised to actually help the traveler to meet the Archon, which is way more than what I can say about what the people of Mondstadt and Liyue did for the traveler as much as I ADORE those Archon quests. Ayaka herself said that if the traveler did not want to help after seeing the truth, she’d accept their decision. If you seriously believe that counts as guilt tripping and manipulation, than by that logic every time someone shows you how people are suffering from covid, they are "guilt tripping“ and "manipulating“ you into wearing a mask or something? Every time someone tells you about police violence, they are guilt tripping and manipulating you into supporting BLM or something? Some of y‘all have never faced true manipulation and it shows.

7. The Sinophobia in this fandom is disgusting. But what I hate the most is that some of y‘all just casually write tweets saying "yun jin sounds like a dead cat, chinese is such an ugly language“ and "Chinese Genshin fans should unalive themselves for real they are so disgustiiiing“ all while having the words "Protect Asian lives“ in your Twitter Bio, showing that you do not give two fucks about Asian lives unless it fits your uwu Kawaii K-pop ideal!

8. Some of y‘all need to touch grass and that includes me too

[futzfuck]

Ok so random rant time, youtube villain playlists and anger playlists suck fuckin ass bruh

There is such a lack of variety song wise that i can legit predict at least 3 songs on title alone. If i click on a decent thumbnail and hear FUCKING MICHAEL BUBLÉ CROONING OVER THAT FUCKING CHORD AT THE VERY BEGINNING IM GONNA PUNCTURE BOTH MY EARDRUMS WITH A PENCIL- Also hayloft (1 and 2), wolf in sheep’s clothing, can you feel my heart, my ordinary life, obey, brutal, mad hatter, blood//water etc.

Like i really like some of the songs and artists (mother mother, grandson, Melanie martinez, etc.) listed but they are played TOO MUCH

i listen to SYNTH WAVE PLAYLISTS WITH MORE MUSICAL VARIETY THAN THIS, its bs

And then the titles, god help me

“Your the villain everyone loves” “your the hero waltzing with the villain” “your the hero that falls from grace”

This is all the same fuckin vibe with the same fuckin songs and its CRINGE AS F U C K dude

Its all played completely straight and serious and it hurts me physically, like you are not a super cool manipulative villain, you are not a badass, and the fact that the playlist exists means you aren’t special/unique either, cuz either ur listening along with the 3 million other people or you made it like the 500,000 people. And all the songs are the same ANYWAY!!

Kinnie and POV shit is weird too, yall aint safe

i am NOT watching the sunset with glup shitto rn and the songs don’t even give that vibe (cuz they all the same), the title alone cant make me visualize it sorry

And as far as kinning goes, idc for it myself and i find the concept kinda stupid BUT i can kinda see where it comes from character wise and im not gonna make fun unless A. You throw the first stone or B. Your bein an asshole, and both of those requirements apply to a broad variety of things in life

I just gotta say my ordinary life, seven nation army, and mother mother as a whole can’t apply to EVERY CHARACTER IN EXISTANCE I SWEAR TO GOD-

Also if you make a playlist and i cant listen to more than 3 songs im not listening to ur playlist, im too lazy to search up the 2 songs i like up on youtube individually and ur playlist is already in my history from clicking on it out of my early curiosity upon discovering playlists existed as single videos.

Tbh tho im probably equally as cringe if not more

But you see

I can be a goofy silly little self aware boy who is funny and acknowledges their cringe

and simultaneously thinks about how lyrics and song meanings apply to character and doesn’t post the same song arrangement as a playlist for the umpteenth time-

Anyway yeah, ik i seem really mad bout it and i kinda am but at the end of the day its my opinion and if you’ve read this far and disagree i am proud of you, ur entitled to whatever u believe in the subject. I’ve i was looking to change someone’s mind this would be much more constructive and id prolly give some alternative music or methods or smthn but im not looking to do that, this is pure expression and anger babyyyyy

ALSO NOT ALL PLAYLISTS ARE BAD AND IM NOT SAYING TO NOT LISTEN TO THEM, if i was this rant would be completely hypocritical (takes one to know one)

Anyway my kins are the grinch and joe mama, im gonna go listen to gremlincore and synthwave like the degenerate i am

[noonmutter]

Introductions

Daily Writing Challenge 2021 Day 12: Ball/Gravestone

"It's gonna be a quiet meetin'. They're not...th' most talkative people, these days."

"No, I know, love, of course. I absolutely still want to do this. You're so brave for this and I'm so proud of you."

Leon couldn't hold in a chuckle at that. Valarin's open, whole-hearted support of him for what was, admittedly, a trip that Leon had made dozens of times by now was all but impossible to ignore. The reassurance wasn’t necessary, but he wasn’t about to ruin Val’s fun. He simply set a hand on his wee love's shoulder to momentarily silence him, and bent to kiss his forehead.

"Thank you, love. It's okay. I'm not gonna collapse, it's just...a li'l tense, sometimes. Bringin' somebody new..." He let himself trail off as he inspected the kit they'd brought with them. Valarin had brought the supplies for their lunch, and he'd brought a bag of gardening tools, along with a couple bouquets of marigolds at Val's insistence. Asking about the marigolds had opened up the floodgates, not that he minded; listening to Valarin get himself going about something he was passionate about was one of Leon’s favorite things.

"The marigolds are traditionally very important! You see, the land of the living can be confusing and difficult to navigate for spirits. We try to help them by providing strong sensory things to guide them. The marigolds have a strong smell, but I think their color is quite strong too! And the candles are a little lighthouse..."

The flowers had been a bit of a trick to avoid crushing once they'd left the road that would've led them across the border into Stranglethorn, but they'd managed. He still wasn't sure if mum and dad would actually like the marigolds, but he understood the importance of it being this specific kind of flower, now. It was both like and unlike the little ceremonies the Gilnean was familiar with.

"This is such a lovely area, too. I’m honestly so excited to see where your parents rest. I’ve not really seen many human gravesites. I’m interested to see how similar they are. I’d like to learn about Gilnean customs regarding it. I know that the Day of the Dead is more widespread now, so I’m sure your parents will enjoy the offerings all the same. And--Hey, are you doing okay? You’ve been a little quiet."

Leon paused, then gave a short shake of his head. "Just tryna make sure we don't get lost, hey?" It was a lame excuse for letting his mind wander, but Val let it pass, since they were tromping through an awful lot of dense foliage. Valarin was aware there was a moonwell not all that far from where they wandered, and though there was a ceasefire, it was still Alliance territory and he was still visibly not a night elf. The tension wasn't really there like it'd been during their trip to Aerie Peak, though; they were alone and nowhere near a proper settlement.

He almost asked another question before Leon stopped, pointed at a small cluster of bright purple blooms hugging the forest floor, and said, "We're 'ere." It was hard not to get excited all over again, but he wanted to be respectful of Leon's feelings, so he kept himself from squeaking and simply gave Leon his best 'I'm here for you' smile. Leon answered it with another kiss on his forehead. Val liked those kisses, even if they were usually Leon filling in a silence when he couldn't figure out what to say.

He watched Leon pull a ton of vines and push a ton of branches aside like a very sturdy set of curtains, and after a moment, rushed to assist. Together, they opened up a relatively worn footpath to a small clearing. Val couldn't help but gasp softly at the sight; it seemed like every square inch of the ground was covered in lilacs! Little purple flowers were everywhere, and the scent was almost overwhelming. Butterflies fluttered from blossom to blossom in every direction, and small clouds of them seemed to erupt every time he or Leon took a step. He found himself tiptoeing to try and avoid crushing anything almost immediately.

"Oh, Light, it's absolutely beautiful, Leon. You did this?" The thought was enough to bring tears to his eyes, but he tried not to let it, at least not yet. He knew he'd do plenty of crying before the day was out and he'd really rather not start again so soon. It was a little embarrassing, even if Leon said it wasn't. Just focus on not snagging your pants on anything, Valarin…

"Well, I mean, th' flowers did it on their own, mostly... flowers do tha'..." Leon looked sheepish as he deflected praise, "All I did was plant a couple an' leave 'em be. Lilacs 're 'ardy, easy thin's. Part o' why mum liked 'em so much." The Gilnean made his way carefully but quickly through the dense growth, well used to the path he took and not worrying overmuch about whether he was stomping flowers or butterflies; the flowers were going to be cut back anyway, and the butterflies were quicker than he was. Reaching the apparent edge of the clearing, Leon bent to set his hand on a particularly tall lilac bush, then abruptly tore away a few branches to reveal the carved wooden grave marker underneath it.

It was not a professional job, this marker, but it had definitely been a work of diligence and a high degree of effort. It was sanded down to a nearly glasslike smoothness, and it would probably shine like it once it was cleaned up. The uneven top edge of it suggested it had originally been a chunk of driftwood, but it’d been stained so dark that it was hard to be sure. Valarin was privately glad he’d gotten better at reading Common lettering; hand-carved stuff like this was a little tricky. “Bettany Marie Ambroce” caught a bit of light and practically glowed. 

“Right. ‘Ere we are, then.”

“Oh, Leon,” Valarin said, “This is so lovely. This is your mother?” He knelt down beside the wood and brushed his fingertips over the lettering. “Hello, Missus Ambroce. I’m happy to meet you.”

“Yeah.” Leon didn’t really know how else to answer, but felt like that was woefully insufficient. “This’s mum.” Okay that was almost less helpful. He brushed his fingers along the lettering in much the same way Valarin had, mulling over a few things before he settled on a simple, “...You r’member Val’rin, right? I’ve talked about ‘im b’fore…” He risked a glance at his little love, offering a weak smile. “Only th’ good stuff, though. Promise.”

“It better have been!” Val flashed a playful grin and tossed his hair. “I am a perfect angel, after all.”

Chuckling, Leon set down the bag of tools and took out a pair of hedge trimmers, offering them to Valarin. “I’ll take care o’ th’ bigger messes, you clear out th’ stuff all over th’ ground, okay?”

“Wait, are we doing this entire clearing?”

“Course. Otherwise th’ lilacs’ll grow way too far an’ get completely outta control. It’s already bad enough cuz I waited longer’n I should’ve, I norm’ly come by ev’ry month or so.”

Valarin looked out across the small expanse of purple with a tiny bit less wonderment than he had the first time. This was a bit more work than he’d realized, but, he had to admit to himself, Leon had warned him. And he was bound and determined to help, regardless, so! Nothing for it but to roll up his sleeves and get to work. Leon had to restrain himself from grinning at the look of almost militant determination that Val got before he started clipping away.

“Cheer up, at least y’ don’t ‘ave t’ make it look pretty, too, hey?” He waggled his own pair of much smaller clippers, and gestured toward the high-piled bushes covering the pair of markers. “I’ll prune these down an’ then we’ll both tackle th’ rest of ‘em. It only takes about an hour if there’s two of us.”

“Isn’t this a bit much?”

“‘Ow d’you mean?”

“Well I’m going to end up killing most of these by cutting them back all…all willy-nilly, aren’t I?”

“Sure, but tha’s kinna th’ point. They can’t all keep growin’ or they’ll overtake more’n th’ forest kin afford, see? S’why I come back an’ clean it up at all. Can’t just plant whatever, wherever, or it throws th’ ‘ole balance outta whack. I’d be a worse druid than I already am if I just planted a bush an’ left it.”

“You are not a bad druid!”

Laughing, Leon pruned away, and Valarin attacked the rest of the lilacs with gusto.

Once they were roughly halfway through the clearing as a whole, Leon mercifully called for a break. Valarin was not at all accustomed to Leon in work mode, at least not like this; he knew the man could get lost in his leatherwork for hours, but that wasn’t quite so physically demanding as this. It was impressive, if a bit exhausting to keep up with.

They both sat down with a satisfied sigh, and Leon stretched his legs in the much more visible grass by the cleaned-up gravestones. Once properly polished, the lettering on both gleamed like it had been painted with gold:

Bettany Marie Ambroce Beloved wife and mother I’ll take it from here

Graeme Iain Ambroce Beloved husband and father I’ve got this

“Dad would’ve liked you, y’know.”

“You think so?” 

“Yeah. Anybody ‘o kin keep up with an Ambroce’s bullshit is worth keepin’ an eye on, somethin’ like that.” Leon chuckled with a subdued smile, thinking back on various times when he’d heard that. Naturally, Graeme had been talking about his own wife, but still. It had merit. “‘Especially th’ wee ones.’ Mum was about yer ‘eight, I think.”

Valarin’s ears went back just a little. “I’m not that wee.” After a moment, though, he let himself chuckle, too. “Although I suppose it’s still a compliment. You said he was a mountain, anyway.”

That made Leon laugh, and he threw his arms out wide. “Oh yeah, an absolute fuckin’ behemoth, was dad. ‘E wrestled with steer at th’ yearly fairs, sometimes, an’...”

As much as Leon enjoyed listening to Valarin give impromptu dissertations, Valarin loved listening to Leon tell stories of his family and his home. Knowing that he’d never get to see either of them the way his boyfriend did, he clung to every word to try his best to imagine it, and let the farmboy ramble as long as he was willing to. He only dared to interrupt long enough to break out their picnic, which thankfully didn’t stop the flood at all.

Once they’d eaten and Leon had run out of tales to tell--some of which Valarin was sure had to be at least exaggerated, if not totally made up, but he couldn’t for the life of him figure out which ones--they’d gotten back to work. It was almost agony to start over again, since they’d had enough time for their hands to start hurting. That only seemed to spur them to get done quicker so that they were able to put the tools away after what felt like no time at all.

While Leon was raking the detritus into a corner of the clearing, Valarin set to work by the markers.

First, Valarin set up a small collapsible bed tray in front of the markers themselves, and covered it with a white cloth. He set out a few candles and arranged the marigolds all around what would become their ofrenda. Upon the tray he left portions of the favored foods they had brought; raspberry tarts, beef pasties, fried taters, all sorts of things. Though they had no pictures of the deceased--Leon couldn’t bring himself to risk losing the only image he had of his entire family--it was the thought that counted for this.

Obviously, Leon wanted to help, but he also didn’t want to do things wrong (despite Valarin’s many and constant reminders that there was no wrong way to arrange an ofrenda), so he hung back until it was almost finished. At Valarin’s urging, Leon took up a long match, and they each lit a candle at the same time, one for each parent. Finally, a small bundle of marigold petals was pressed into Leon’s hands, and he awkwardly scattered them in a rough line from the ofrenda to the graves themselves. Valarin had already made one out of the clearing itself, and with Leon’s contribution, there was a complete path.

When he returned to Val’s side, Val immediately curled both arms around his waist and tugged him down till they were both seated in the grass before the ofrenda. There, Val could finally get the cuddles he so cherished. Leon smiled softly and dragged the insistent thing into his lap, the better to hug him close and rest his chin on top of Val’s head. 

“So… what ‘appens now?”

“Now, you tell me more stories about them, and cuddle me, and I’ll tell you stories about mine, and cuddle you.”

“All night?”

“All night.”

“I think I kin do tha’.”

Though they couldn’t leave everything behind, the next morning, a pair of marigold-and-lilac wreaths hung from the wooden gravestones.

( @daily-writing-challenge​ @valarin-sunstorm​ )

[bigskydreaming]

Currently thinking about whether or not Dick would reconsider his stance on taking Bruce’s last name post-adoption, if the Court of Owls and the origins of his own last name were taken into consideration.

Dick’s protectiveness of his parents’ memory and holding on to the few tangible reminders he has of them is of course a big thing with me, but he already does that via his first name....which is the one they actually gave him. Grayson was just the name - the title - John inherited, with no idea what it meant or was meant to signify, and it never really defined him or his family, as they instead made it stand and be associated with something else entirely, the Flying Graysons, a colorful circus act of wonder and awe-inspiring stunts.

But once Dick knows that the legacy beyond what his parents and grandparents made of the Flying Graysons is simply one of his Crypt Keeper of a great grandpapa like, getting his pretension on and trying to Ordain Shit steeped in classism and faux-prophecy of the fake news variety, I can see Dick seriously considering the Grayson-Wayne hyphenate, because he’s like. “Hey, its my name and I’ll keep it if I want to, BUT ALSO lmfao fuck you if you think I’m gonna let you have the last word on who and what I am. Cuz guess what? I get the last word there, and I declare the new last word in who and what I am is not your ‘Gray Son’ and now you don’t even get to spin it that way, cuz its Dick Grayson-Wayne now hahahaha what, are you mad about that? You gonna cry? You gonna DIE?”

Jason squints at his somewhat hysterical elder brother, and out of the corner of his mouth says: “He’s usually better at the shit-talking, and I’m not just used to giving him more credit than he’s due there, right? I’m gonna be so pissed if I am. I hate giving people more credit than they’re due. Its the principle.”

Tim shrugs. “He’s kinda running on four days of no sleep and I mean, it is a bit of a heated situation for him.”

Cass shushed them both, still gazing intently at the detente between their brother and the would-be zombie apocalypse he reluctantly called his biological next of kin. Ugh. Biological next of kin were just the worst. Well, not always. Just most of the time, with their family. “Shh. Its poetry.”

“You’re just saying that because of the theme,” Jason sniffed haughtily. “His execution is still decidedly lacking and we all know it. Also lacking here: an actual execution. Why can’t I shoot the guy again? I know there were reasons listed off, but it was Bruce, so I wasn’t listening.”

“In other reasons to shhh, Damian IS seconds away from stabbing you if you don’t shut up,” Duke warned, not looking terribly concerned.

“Let our brother have his moment,” the baby of the family haughtily out-sniffed Jason. The latter not so gracefully ceded his defeat there with a glare. Nobody could out haughtily sniff the youngest Wayne, but that didn’t mean Jason had to like it. “It’s no less than we would do for any of our siblings here.”

“Oh I reeeeeeeally want to test that theory, Babiest Bird.”

Cass and Duke exchanged mirror looks of delight as Tim and Damian’s faces both journeyed across wastelands of horror, devastation and bewilderment, as they tried to parse which of them had the most right to be more offended by Jason’s latest mangling of a family honorific. Dubious emphasis on that last part.

The moment was shattered, as most moments are, by Stephanie.

Making puppets of her fingers talking at each other. So. That part was new and different at least.

“My dad loves you more than me. He’s MY dad and he loves YOU more than ME! Well my brother loves me more than you. Well he’s MY brother and he loves ME more than YOU! I know you are but what am I? I’m Robin no I’M ROBIN no I’m the mostest Robin of all the Robins in Robin land hahahahaha suck eggs, Robin-poster!”

She laughed and wiped tears of hilarity from her face, heedless of all eyes (including Dick and Cobb’s) now being trained on her. “Oh man, this family is just the best. You guys kill me. I mean, not literally, Black Mask already called dibs there but in like, all other not actually fatal ways. You get it.”