#am I being psychotic?
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
…
#*sigh*#I fear I may have somehow fumbled the bag with this man#so Friday night he let me know he wasn’t gonna be able to come over#and that was fine#so I went to bed#then at like 2am he asked if I was still awake#I of course didn’t see that until much later#I was busy Saturday and texted him late Saturday night with a pic of my fit#and we were being flirty#neither of us messaged the other on Sunday#then yesterday around 5pm I messaged him and asked if he was busy that night#no response#I thought maybe he’d text way later or even early this morning#because he works super early and has texted me at like 6:30am before but there was nothing#when we were messaging Friday he said things like it’ll make the next time we meet up even better#and when I sent him the pic of my fit he was like I can’t wait to see what your clothes look like on the floor#and all I wanna do I ride this man’s dick#so now I feel like I did something wrong#I really hope he’s not gonna ghost me#we’re still matched on bumble so that’s a good sign right?#but I guess now I just need to wait for him to message me because I don’t want to send another text that might go unanswered#am I being psychotic?
1 note
·
View note
Text
i love when ppl draw bumblebee like the happy little creachure he is but also i love when people draw bumblebee like he's had 500 beers in the last 1 hour and still the pain won't even ebb
#bonus when they do both by making him just utterly psychotic but he smiles so no one notices#i am a shameful idw bee enjoyer but like in the tired af ppl pleasing libra girl who needs a therapist so fking bad but#has 700000 billion duties and 900000000 billion expectations and mean bitches in his ear telling him hes stupid#sense#and not the he feels like an officer sense like no my queen is just a teachers pet doing her best which is her worst im afraid#anyways i love bee hes very indignant and a bitch but also im gonna stand beside her sorry#u do not understand how powerful it was to give him a cane . a literal crutch to hold onto to feel stronger even when ratchet says he doesnt#have to anymore but yet bee still insists bcs he doesnt have time for the repairs itll take when others cannot survive#and 2 it comforts him with support and also power and so he cradles it close with the idea of him being weak & needing smthing else#to make him strong#even tho at this point it's rlly just for comfort but he cant afford to allow himself to have comfort when others cant#or dont need it in his heroism ideals (specifically optimus being seen as so much stronger than him)#optimus also had bee tho. had him. but bee is so self conscious he just sees all his failures surrounding optimus & views himself not a#crutch to lean on but a crutch to optimus' character#he rlly needed rodimus and his fiery upbeat persona so they could fake it till they made it together and he left & fucking exploded#(in bees eyes)#like idk im just obsessed with this little tryhard loser#he islike a sad little clingy mother who refuses to think herself as human. she is just mother. lives off evrryones accomplishments#never her own#idk like hes so interesting tonme i want to kill him teehee#chew on him like sponge cak#bumblebee#transformers#tf bumblebee#tf idw#idw#tf#????#maccadam#i hate not knowing waht tag to use
208 notes
·
View notes
Text
Can people stop fucking using the term “delulu” or using “delusional” improperly can people stop making light of symptoms of mental illness if you are not affected by it.
It is like saying “Oh I’m so OCD” for just wanting everything to be clean or something
Shut the fuck up
You are not delusional just for having a crush on somebody who does not like you back or for wanting something that is generally unlikely to happen
Stop using mental illness as your quirky little fun language I bet the second you see someone who experiences delusions you will get extremely uncomfortable and want them out of your sight
#I do not even know what to tag this I am just tired#Can people stop being ableist to psychotic people for ONCE.#Please.#Actually psychotic#Psychosis#Delusions#Delusional#Schizophrenia#Schizophrenic
836 notes
·
View notes
Text
hiiiiiii friendly reminder to not go knocking on strangers doors and running away :)) or just doing that at all :) some of us have sheer paranoia that can render us stressed for time long after the action is done :) because you don’t experience consequences doesn’t mean you’re free to go around doing this like a fucking asshole. :). I know most people who’d listen to this don’t go around doing it but I hope that at least one person reconsiders doing this just to look cool in front of their friends. You don’t seem awesome, you just make it clear your an uncaring asshole and nobody will come to you. I hope karma does its thing. :)
#No because my fucking heart sank when some dumb ass kid just approached my home then harshly knocked#They ran away. Of course they did. I’d fucking deal with them should they have not. What cowards.#But fuck. I don’t like when my hands shake to the point of not even being able to properly hold a phone.#I still am thinking about it today#even tho it happened a day ago#paranoia isn’t a fucking fun thing#psychosis#schizoaffective#actually psychotic#schizo spectrum#actually schizospec#schizophrenia#ehhhhh just for the tags I’m unsure if I have schizo but like yk#paranoia#bipolar disorder#venting#mental illness#high school#college#student#dumbasses#schizoposting#reminder
41 notes
·
View notes
Text
I wish people weren't so quick to interpret everything in bad faith. Today, I saw a comment claiming someone was "promoting delusional therian behaviors." When I asked for further clarification, the commenter explained that the person in question experienced a phantom tail, which they deemed delusional. I replied that somatic shifting, or phantom limbs, is not always a sign of mental illness or delusions. While they can be delusions, this is not always the case. As a result, several users insulted and accused me of encouraging delusions. Somatic shifting is a common experience among therians, and not everyone who experiences shifts is delusional. Also, it feels as though they equated being delusional with being wrong. Therians who experience delusions are not inherently evil or in need of fixing. Delusional therians have the right to exist, whether their therianthropy stems from their delusions or is an entirely separate aspect of their identity. No one has the right to deny their existence.
#wuff wuff#therian#therianthropy#endel#clinical zoanthropy#clinical lycanthropy#physical therian#actually psychotic#actually schizospec#schizoaffective#psychosis#schizospec#i apologize if this comes as rambling i am frustrated#i was repeatedly antagonized and told that i was not allowed to speak on the topic despite experiencing delusions AND being a therian
21 notes
·
View notes
Note
npd culture is being ashamed to call your delusions of grandeur delusions of grandeur. because "i'm not like. actually delusional. i don't have any kind of psychosis. i'm just setting goals for myself :))" and then the goals are like. be globally beloved forever make all your friends go viral be recognized as the coolest hippest person in the world defeat ableism forever. all before i reach 30.
-lamb
.
#i am psychotic but i do relate to being hesitant to say i have delusions of grandeur#npd culture is#npd#actually narcissistic#actually npd#narcissistic personality disorder#cluster b#-lamb
56 notes
·
View notes
Note
hey ever considered if. MAYBE the mayor likes you. that’s why they stick around????💀
MASTER POST
Asks Start 💜
Previous 💜
Next 💜
#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#monkie kid macaque#lmk macaque#blue and violet#he is not very convinced in believing the Mayor likes him#because... how could they?#its really weird betweent these two righy now#but Macaque probably believes that Mayor's personality is so out of wack that they could be emotionally vulnerable and passive one moment#psychotic angry sobbing mess in the next#Macaque is not taking any chances in believing he is on the Mayor's good side again#but again - its complicated#really really really complicated#so complicated that I don't know if I am writing this relationship correctly and depicting things the way they should be depicted#but don't think Macaque doesn't remembered those prison moments#he knows the Mayor wanted something 'better' between the two#but can Macaque really afford to believe that when its literally the Mayor who says that?#regardless - being on better terms with someone doesn't actually mean you have to like them#it is simply: getting along a little bit better#BUT THEN AGAIN THE MAYOR SAID THAT BEFORE LBD DIED SO THIS IS EVEN MORE COMPLICATED
56 notes
·
View notes
Text
I would love to party with Eric Bogosian for many reasons but first and foremost because 1) he has stories and 2) he does Not have a front-end filter. Homeboy will be on a Zoom interview like "not to overshare but once I forgot a traumatic event in my own life for 12 years and even though I didn't remember it consciously it affected everything I did"
Really endearing quality in a party interlocutor, especially if you're both sober
#Love meeting someone at a party and 3 seconds later they're telling you about their first psychotic episode or whatever#I am being 100% earnest by the way. Parasocial but earnest#One of my favorite Types of Guy to hang with at parties
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
I feel so much emotions sometimes, I wonder if people within the schizo-spec relate to it.
Like it's. Huge.
The biggest emotions, moving, crashing down on me, but they have no name. I can't know, for the love of God, what they are. They're just here and crushing me and overwhelming me. Making me paralysed and stuck and wrong.
And some other times, generally when I'm supposed to feel joy, pure joy, content, happiness, euphoria, whatever you wanna call it, I feel nothing and really want to be alone at home rather than surrounded by those people, even if i know them.
I'm realising that often, I fake happiness because I'm supposed to be happy, but really, i feel neutral or even annoyed.
For example, I was at my first ever pride. It was big, colourful, loud, people smiling and laughing and dancing and singing, my friends deeply enjoying themselves...
But honestly. I would have rather been home, doing my usual stuff.
I love my friends, I love my job, I love my coworkers, I even love people, but I like being alone better. I like being in my own little calm corner. Or not calm. But my corner.
Sorry for the rant. DAE within schizo-spec relate ?
#schizo spectrum#schizotypal personality disorder#mental illness#schizophrenia#schizophrenic spectrum#schizotypal#psychosis#disorganized speech#paranoia#psychotic disorders#is this some form of seclusion ?#am i using this word right?#negative symptoms#this is not being introverted#i'm not introverted#i feel like this is something else idk
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
i don't miss kinblr, but i miss people being open about their delusions and generally having a sense of whimsy about them instead of focusing on repressing them so hard that they become a bitter unpleasant person who mocks anyone who even somewhat seems like theyre a "kinnie" from 2017.
#house creaks#i am a psychotic person who has a schizophrenic mother. i had early onset psychosis. my moms side of the family have experienced religious#psychosis my entire life. kinning ended up being a healthier way for me to cope with pretty much everything in my life. and while i dont#want to go back EVER to how it was in 2015 i do wish there was a post-kin movement. make art about those experiences god damn it
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
Jokes on you, I’ll NEVER give up hope that Prodigal Son can be renewed. NEVER.
#prodigal son#yes I am rewatching and remembering how beautiful it was#the show starts with Malcolm returning to the city after being away from years it could easily be picked up again in the same way#Malcolm went through a lot by the end of season 2 he could totally be working through a psychotic break all these years#renew prodigal son#malcolm bright#dani powell#gil arroyo#jessica whitly#ainsley whitly#jt tarmel#martin whitly
52 notes
·
View notes
Text
push that thing down the stairs
#SQIRNK SKNK SQKNK SWEK SQUENK#sound of them falling#squeaky sal#ocs#fursona#pooltoy#i am. mentally doing awful so working on this next comic has been a little cathartic (( youll see later )) and also destroying me. a bit.#i want it to be a bit longer but i dunno how to fluff it up#but i dunno having psychotic episdes and feeling unsafe and being alone 24 7 hasnt been helping with all the stuff thats currently going on#i dont really have anyone to talk to so im rambiling here#you dont have to read this btw#i dotn wanna be negitive on my blog and keep stuff happy adn fun ebcause i dont wanna be saf#*sad#mm
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
the soulless jack “arc” is both very horrifically sad and very horrifically funny bc on one side everybody is freaking out panicking brandishing weapons thinking that jack went dark side slash rogue slash awol or that he finally succumbed to his dominant evil genetics and betrayed them or something , meanwhile jack on the other side is almost-crying and panicking and hallucinating and literally punching the air because he’s so upset and confused about what he did and afraid that he’s gonna lose everything if he can’t fix it . like
Bobby: yerp he’s too outta control and sick I’m sorry I fought alongside him too but we gotta put the dog down boys he clearly chose his side and was obviously genetically predisposed to being evil anyways. I’m gonna get my gun
Jack: IF I DONT BRING HER BACK AND FIX THIS I AM NEVER FUCKING SEEING THEM AGAIN AND THEY’LL NEVER WANNA BE FRIENDS AGAIN I DONT KNOW WHAT TO FUCKING DO I JUST WANT MY MOM I JUST WANNA GO HOME I AND HAVE EVERYTHING BE LIKE IT WAS PLEASE GOD

#I am plagued with thoughts of soulless jack tonight#cal.txt#spn#jack kline#sam winchester#dean winchester#castiel#tfw2.0#spn 14x18#spn 14x17#save me spn rewatch that I’m never starting …. save me ….#save me jack kline or Perhaps I need to save you from being in a bad show#save me unattainable dreams of an idw comic spinoff or sequel or animate crossovers that feature jack in fuller length and more complexity#I need to take a break from this it’s silent hill time#my boy was Stressing he was literally psychotic with grief and guilt and Bobby is like . ‘hm yeap. he got evil rabies now’#he’s sooooooooo#explodes#spn shitposts
36 notes
·
View notes
Text
Guy who can see the dead, but he's being treated for schizophrenia and the meds don't do much but the whole 'make sure someone else can see whoever you're being introduced to' policy is working out. Who's that woman standing over the baby? Oh, she doesn't exist? Probably fine then.
And it is probably fine, because most people die gently these days! Everyone talks about what a good baby he was (because his dead grandparents would put him back to sleep when he stirred). Every so often he waves at someone in the street and is told they died a week ago (awkward, schizophrenia, sorry).
And then he goes to a military graveyard.
#for extra hijinks#it turns out he DOES actually have schizophrenia too#so he's juggling being a poster boy for the condition#with having what his therapist thinks is a psychotic break#with figuring out which people are fake and which are dead#with suddenly becoming an anti-military activist and trying to get his best friend out of the army#oooh call it Veterans Dave#fic request#not so much because I want it or am going to write it#as just an organizational thing
38 notes
·
View notes
Text
can anyone on this website please acknowledge ADHD as a serious and debilitating disorder, or are we going to forever treat it as a mild disorder that just the people who aren't really mentally ill use as an excuse to invalidate the real mental illness havers.
like you guys regularly invalidate ADHD experiences, and then act like mild/moderate at most experiences are actually severe ADHD and therefore people with severe ADHD are totally represented everywhere. just because severe ADHD doesn't have clear-cut definition like level two/three autism doesn't mean you can act like having any actual struggles with ADHD is having severe ADHD.
stop treating autism as inherently more severe than ADHD, and fucking stop using pwADHD as these drama queens that aren't really mentally ill.
#before you fuckers act like im being a bitch#i have level two autism. i have many other disorders. i also have one of the most severe ADHD cases my specialist had ever seen.#my autism is debilitating. i have severe PTSD. i have PDs that ruin my ability to trust people. i am psychotic#i would get rid of my ADHD first. without question
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
forgive any incomprehensibility but the notion that the world can be cleanly split between the two immutable categories of 'the neurotypical' and 'the neurodiverse' ignores the reality that any person can at any point for any reason be arbitrarily 'diagnosed' by a 'professional' and shuttled between categories with no regard for the notions of 'accurate traits' or 'specific symptoms'. nice dichotomy what lies outside of it? you understand me?
#N posts stuff#i'm reading some old issues of 'Phoenix Rising' and a line in one of the articles really caught me#''we are questioning the very foundation of psychiatry which uses mental illness; which is often just behavior that is judged strange#by some usually conventional middle-class-standard of morality''#also thinking about that post i reblogged yesterday claiming that 'posture sway' is a Symptom of adhd like.#Embracing the pathologizing of average behaviors VS the like. weaponizing of diagnoses against 'undesirables'#idk am i making sense? lol#like people talk about this re: disability - the notion that anyone can become disabled at any time but that's usually in the context#of like. 'anyone is one bad accident away from being disabled' but Neurodiversity in particular does not even require that much#another Phoenix Rising tells the story of a woman who like. got a little sick at work and diagnosed as 'stress' and prescribed a#heavy tranquilizer that caused side effects no one had told her about; she got confused at her appointment and her subsequent#panic got her involuntarily committed as psychotic where they upped the medications and gave her ECT until the combo#caused so much brain damage that she seized and died. bc she threw up at work one day. the categories are not immutable and#the people who define them have agendas. who benefits from buying into this dichotomy? you understand what i'm saying?#anti psychiatry
49 notes
·
View notes