#am I becoming delusional?
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#it's that time of the month when I just want to sell my uterus on black market with human organs#the week leading up to my period is far more worse than the actual period#it made me gain 2 kg and I can't stop freaking out about it...i know i lose them every month but my brain won't leave me alone#it's making me want to starve myself or just work out until i collapse#tmi sorry...how is your Friday evening?#I'm bored and I'm deciding between going to bed before 11 pm or let my brain torture me a little bit more#I don't even think I'm excited about the weekend anymore because it means I'll have to eat again#you just eat and work out and eat and work out and try not think about the calories because we're not doing thay anymore#but deep down my brain still knows the numbers and won't let me go over 900 calories#i perfected my body but destroyed my head even more#i shouldn't say thay but maybe it's worth it#feeling happy in my own skin is the best feeling in the world#and I know I'm shallow because of that but for the first time in my life i like my body#i actually like all parts of my body#and knowing that i did it with all that hard work feels even better#but on the other hand now I'm just too scared I'm going to lose it all if I eat a cookie after lunch#i think I'm too deep into this#is it bad that I like the feeling of bones under my skin?#am I becoming delusional?#that's what a menstrual cycle does to a emotionally unstable woman#it makes me feel angry that out of four weeks in a month i get like max two weeks when I feel good and normal#all of that for nothing#anyway maybe it's time to stop myself..
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fueling my katedenza delusions
#im being delusional i know#but they're so cute#im becoming obsessed#they're my babygirls#i need them to kiss#im rewatching diaires with them in mind#i know they only interact like twice but still#im delusional but i am free#aphmau#minecraft diaries#mcd#mcd rewrite#katelyn the firefist#cadenza aphmau#cadenza mcd#aphmau cadenza#katedenza#katelyn x cadenza
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for fear that the name “angel striker” for butch biker lesbian phil will catch on without credit being given to the person who created it, let it be in writing that, to my knowledge, @valiantcheesecaketrash came up with angel striker
i think having a name for her (that isn’t “phlonde phlesbian phil” as i’ve been calling her lmao) would be amazing and angel striker just feels right
#we are so delusional but i do not give a shit#dnp#dan and phil#phan#dan howell#daniel howell#amazingphil#phil lester#danisnotonfire#yeet my deenp#yeet my deet#angel striker#sister daniel#phlonde phlesbian phil#blasphany#phlondster phlesbaniel truther#<- prev tag of mine i saw ppl using#this is probably not a necessary post but i know how the internet works so it’s good to be prepared#danandphilgames#god i cannot believe i’m a phannie account like i really am aren’t i#you either die a multifandom blog or live long enough to see yourself become a phannie blog 😤#image description in alt#the lesbification of dan and phil#described
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I think I'm finally starting to realize Claudine wasn't just trying to tell Maya to remember her humanity or to open herself to others, to acknowledge Claudine and Claudine's love, about human passion winning over lifeless godhood- Revue of Souls was also saying what good is pride if it can't be shared
#Literally bc Maya spends the entire show the most proud with good reason but all her pride was only directed inward#She didn't know how to openly express pride in others or how to share a feeling of pride together#She felt pride was a solo act something she felt alone that no one could understand With her#And Claudine proved her wrong not just with love but by getting Maya to feel proud & awed by someone else#revue starlight#All the other girls play with this idea pride being a group achievement is literally what the series tells you by the end#But Maya was THE most hard headed in learning this lesson#Funny enough Futaba is the one who spends all her time shouting this exact message at Kaoruko that's half her entire drive#Pride should be shared in order to mean anything#Pride only directed inward becomes delusional vanity which is exactly what Claudine tells Maya#Maya like I'm a god I'm a god I Am God and Claudine is fucking pissing laughing at her that was the entire revue lmao
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My Favourite Couple
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Yeah I posted this for the split second Paul-to-Ace touch
#kiss#mykissposts#paul stanley#starchild#ace frehley#Space Ace#Spaceman#Gene Simmons#Demon#Peter criss#Catman#Starsluts#Starlovers#Starry eyes#The way Ace becomes livlier when Paul interacts with him#Am I delusional? Absolutely#Paul needs to touch Ace more#I spliced this up to feature most of their interactions or cutesy bits#Oh tommy is in this video#Tommy Thayer
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Mk is a Yaoguai
I came across some interesting information while I was researching another theory. The concept of a being not quite demon, human or celestial demon in Chinese mythology called a Yaoguai. The number of similarities MK shares with them is uncanny.
First of all, how Mk being refered to as the Harbringer of Chaos connects to him being a Yao:Within Chinese mytholgy, Yāo have a tendency to be "blamed for sudden outbreaks of confused and erratic action, or transgressive behaviour" with there literally being a Chinese saying saying that goes"when affairs go awry, there must have been a yāo (acting)" ("事出反必有妖") Quite like how Mk seems to cause a lot of chaos around himself, without even meaning to and feeling a lot of guilt for it. ie- Lady Bone Demon, Demon Bull King, Spider Queen, Azule Lion, and maybe even Macaque gaining power due to his (direct or indirect) actions. As well as other unfortunate things that have happened around him, like Mei's Samadi Fire getting activated and Wukong getting trapped in the scroll.
Secondly, tying in the concept of him being a Yaoguai to his creation: Mk was born from a rock, a clay rock made by someone unknown to us but presumed to be the goddess Nuwa. And guess where most Yao originate from? From unsentient natural items- "yāo refers to natural objects (animals, plants, or rocks) which have acquired sentience (lit. spiritual awareness)," That spiritual awareness might’ve been gifted knowingly or unknowingly by Nuwa.
Yao also only appear in human or near-human forms, and that is after all MK's original form that we see him in the show with. But they also share an "essential nature with an animal or plant." and that is there actual true form. Which since MK was carved into a monkey by Nuwa, it natural that that is the the animal he would share an "essential nature" with and would explain why he has a monkey form.
Mk also tends to have very atypical powers, which also aligns with the concept of him being a Yao since they tend to be born with unsual powers and with the ability to cultivate immortality. This explains why he was able to be immortal when we first met him, how he got that "invincibility" in the first place is still up for debate. I also wonder if this goes the other way where Yao can be born with immortality and cultivate others' powers... because that would explain how Mk is very easily able to adapt to others' powers. I'm not sure, though, since I've only done surface level research on this.
If that cultivation of powers is not possible then he may be unknowingly utilizing another common power of the Yao, shapeshifting to very accurately "mimic"(I'm not sure if that's the right word for it) others powers. Such as Wukong's, Macaque's and possibly LBD's.
Just some other cool tidbits about Yaoguai:
Yaoguai (妖怪) are distinct creatures from ghosts (鬼, pinyin: gui) and demons (魔, pinyin: mo). Ghosts are the spirits of the deceased, whereas demons are often described as fallen immortals and gods.(Mk is neither of those I think)
Sun Wukong uses this term often to insult his (demonic) adversaries(Huh that'd be ironic wouldn't it. To seemingly hate Yaoguai in JTTW, and then end up with one as his succesor.)
In Taoist folklore, yaoguai come from "an imbalance in the Tao" and "any combination of [atypical] powers, including mind control, shapeshifting and the ability to create illusions.(well our boy sure does have an atypical set of powers but if you all want to add on to this I would love to know if you've noticed some instances of these powers happening because I can see how Mk could be using shapeshifting powers but mind control and illusions? I'm not sure if there is any instance of him using those.)
#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#lmk#lmk mk#lmk season 5#lmk sun wukong#lmk macaque#lmk qi xiaotian#lmk theory#lmk season 5 theory#i think this might be revealed in season 5#i need more info for this theory#ive connected the dots#you havent connected shit#IVE CONNECTED THE DOTS ISTG#im not crazy am i#i fear my theories are becoming more and more delusional as i wait for season 5
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I am delusional
Joel: Boat boys? Boat boys are gone guys
Also Joel: Etho's first MCC? YES. I can't wait to absolutely destroy washed up Etho at MCC. Like he's so washed, I'm saying this right now I'm team Gem on this. Etho's washed...he's gonna get-I'm going to kill him everytime I see him, I'm targeting him. I'm just kidding, but he did break my trust in the last life series after we had such a nice time together as Boat Boys and...he just...it wasn't the same.
HE'S STILL NOT OVER IT, HE STILL MISSES ETHO. NO ONE CAN TAKE THIS AWAY FROM ME, BOAT BOYS ISN'T GONE TILL I SAY THEY'RE GONE.
(sobbing noises)
#smalletho#boat boys#i love them your honor#they're so divorced#they deserve to kill each other#murder is a love language#because i said so#i miss them so bad#you have no idea#i have become to delusional for them#i am so desperate for any interaction between these two#i don't care if it's 10 seconds#anything please i beg#posts-it notes
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Okay the screenshot is on my computer but I think the quote is something along the lines of "My brother wasn't a good man, but he protected me" in Sam's second therapy session and like...
Idk man. Maybe it's just late but I can't stop thinking about Jeb (I'm assuming Jebediah?) Walls.
You're a kid. Your father dies for a cause that doesn't matter to you. Your mother marries an evil man who drinks up the money and beats you, but it's fine. You can take it. But then he tries to do the same to your little brother.
So you kill him, and you run.
And you're just a kid but you need to keep your brother alive so you need to beg and steal and push things like virtue out of your mind because poor kids don't have the luxury of morals.
And you grow up in infamy and sin, but your brother is alive, and somehow you are too. And you get married to a girl and think about maybe settling down.
And then you're offered this huge opportunity- this heist that would have you and your great-great-grandchildren set for life. Of course you take it. Just this one last job. Just this one, and then you can go home to your wife, and your brother won't be in danger anymore and that's all that you've ever really wanted.
But you die, and you never come home. And your brother is roped into things you can't possibly imagine. You tried so hard to keep him safe with the tools you had and it didn't work.
#sorry but like as an oldest sibling when i saw that line i actually started crying#vampire therapist#Sam walls#jeb walls#<- am i delusional enough to think this will become a real character tag? no. will i try anyways? yes#toad lectures#tw abuse#tw murder#tw alcoholism
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the attention of an unimpressive man should never be more important than your own self worth/comfort and bodily autonomy.
#txt#stop giving shit to men for free they do not deserve it reevaluate your values#reevaluate your values goes crazy#stop giving 100% when they only give 50.#my entite life I’ve seen the most wonderful women lower their standards for men who give them#nothing and make their lives harder#this dynamic is so common and its so engrained that it’s almost become a meme#or I mean it HAS become a meme#like it’s so silly that my boyfriend can’t cook!!!! it’s so funny that my husband can’t clean😭😭#why do u choose this life you are delusional#sorry it’s 7am and we are decentering men#I am not anti men and this is not a terf take they can explode this is just my personal view
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almost 8 years ago, 15 year old me sat crying on the floor of my bedroom after getting my heart broken and utterly destroyed by the blatant queerbaiting from BBC Sherlock, and I am truly trying to not make that happen again. I won’t hope for anything
#happy loki eve#I am building up my walls!!!#not trusting anything!!!#at this point I have to convince myself sylki is happening#so anything else becomes great#loki series#lokius#iben speaks#iben is trying not to be delusional!!!
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just watched the clone high s3 finale if joanfucius breaks up i'm ending it all
#...or if they get blown up. i guess#the little montage of joanfucius moments man stop </3#bro's willing to go die for her while she's willing to die for someone else lmfaooooo c'mon#here's how joanabe can still lose <3#gonna chalk her thing with abe up to being remnants of her crush in s1 but she'll choose confucius (i'm being delusional)#she was gonna finish that sentence by saying “i love... being your friend and that's it” for sure hahahah#i refuse to lose my sillyloserboy x indiegothgirl ship#(joanabe is not sillyloserboy x indiegothgirl they're just loserboy x indiegothgirl btw)#on the bright side... kahlopatra is winning#they are so getting back together i can feel it#kahlopatra and joanfucius are legit the only canon ships in the show that i've actually become invested in don't fail me bro#(who am i kidding. this is clone high. they're gonna fail me)#since jfk and harriet are a thing i guess that means no abefk so. let's bring back tophabe. bam. problem solved. everyone's got someone#clone high#joanfucius#clone high confucius#clone high joan
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Everyone on wwdits twt heard nandor say "you will all forget" in the new promo and turned to me like when the teacher says the next project will be an art project and the entire class looks at the Art Kid
#seeing my nandermo delusion become Common Fanon is so funny honestly#don't think i forgot when everyone called it delusional tho. you hated me bc i spoke the truth#(i am absolutely still delusional but at least i have a reason for it now)#wwdits#nandermo#wwdits season 5#ramblies
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Car Seat Headrest, “Weightlifters” // the Mountain Goats, “Isaiah 45:23”
#I am the most stagnant person to ever live#if I were a body of water#mosquitos would flock to me like salmon to waterfalls and inland lakes and rivers#because I haven’t changed in nearly a decade#nothing changes with me#I am the bog water in the basement after the flood#untouched for years#yearning to be disturbed#unable to set myself to moving#god i’m so pretentious I wish I could just sleep for like#1322 days#wake up and have something be different#different or over#because being over would mean being different#and I’m delusional too if I think anything will ever change#I’m doing the same shit I did eight years ago#I’m feeling the same shit I felt fourteen years ago#and no matter what I tell myself#or others tell me#it never changes#because I’m so fucking deluded that I think#if everything stays the same#if I don’t do anything#things will change around me#things will become better around me#that if I keep my mouth shut#god will answer all my prayers#I’m so fucking DELUSIONAL god please just smite me with the knowledge of how everything will end. please. please. please. please. please.#Car Seat Headrest#the Mountain Goats
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okay I’m annoying yk that and I know that.
I love to see what non bkdk shippers think will happen with the manga, bc this way I can learn and see things outside of my special interest for the chapters. And I was reading some interpretations of Ochako being weird in 425.
Some people are right here expecting izuku to go and support her. Some people saw him being this sad, yet only could think about him worrying about Ochako’s feelings over her fight, not Izuku’s fight. they think this will lead to a beautiful confession, in which she cries how she couldn’t save himiko, that izuku noticed, and that he’ll call her his hero and they’ll kiss. And I can’t help but feel like this is bc he is the boy. Because he is the boy in that ship, he is the one that supports, not gets supported. When I was reading those little scenarios, I thought they would explain deku would cry with her about his own fight and bond over it, or something like that. But no… they believe deku’s strange reactions come from being worried over Ochako only. and it’s so sad, to see how gender expectations are being pushed like that in something as simple as a “what I want to happen in the manga” scenario. It’s sad how people think this is how it should work, when actually that would make me even sadder -as I said, for the most part I didn’t care about that ship, I accepted it as inevitable, but this isn’t fair. Romance irl is not perfect, but in a story for this to be a resolution when the character who hasn’t talked about his feeling keeps not talking about them and just supports her before confessing…
Even hetero relationships should have some balance, right?
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someone brought up bkdk lmao. They explained how the confession from ochako could get answered: happy ending is izuku loving her back, bad ending is him saying he likes katsuki, and medium ending him liking mei. I can’t even lmao.
another person argued deli just has shown a brotherly bond with him (weird) and that he only thought of him at that dinner with the Im too blessed, and the last time he followed him was in season 1. people need to learn how to read, and connect the dots, literally. No matter how you see their relationship in canon as platonic or romantic (or queer platonic), it’s clear their bond is strong and that Izuku depends on katsuki as much as katsuki depends on izuku on emotional levels -izuku losing control over and over and over again with him, AFO explaining he is the closest to midoriya, katsuki going towards him no matter how injured he is, looking for each other and the time stops, etc.
this is just canon. There’s no arguing about it. Idk why intimate bonds between two male characters means they are like brothers. Is it bc if they are not related, there’s no way to not see it as gay?/gen but also /s
#grrr talking#I want to make another post about the ways Izu//ocha could have been developed easily#Like extremely easily#What was the reason to give the thing that was supposed to connect ochako to deku#To himiko and ochako#What was the reason to also make that connection an all might keychain which doesn’t hold any weight for her bc she’s not a huge am fan#Why having himiko grab that symbol they now share and cover it completely with her hand#Why not giving izuku another physical symbol of her#Why bringing up the childhood cards instead when we almost knew nothing about them#Why have them be explicitly connected to each other thru a dream they have to share together for it to be worth it#For bkdk to become friends again they didn’t need all of this#You don’t need to share your life n be connected to someone in order to become friends again#Or to atone for the bullying#They could have been shown working to be friends ever since the apology#And have small moments of them trying to just be that#And focus those big efforts into izu////ocha scenes#But no#we get this shit#Wtf#the contrast between Izuku reuniting with Katsuki vs with Ochako is a lot#N it could have been more implied the romance!#Like have him be surprised instead of just sad -it would show he notices she is acting weird n gets worried bc of it#Or have ochako show a bittersweet face like saying pls deku kun don’t make me say it now#So many options and yet#They don’t get disappointed bc it’s a het ship n they believe that makes it canon#JUST LIKE WITH FUCKING TODO///MOMO LIKE ITS CUTE IDC BUT HOW CAN YOU THINK THAT MAKES SENSE FOR CANON#No problem with these fanon ships bUT WHEN THEY ACT LIKE THEY ARE REAL N THE REST R “DELUSIONAL”
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who r they looking at. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
#osmosis jones#leah estrogen#ozzyleahdrix#my art#fanart#SOMEONE SHOOT ME#sorry#im delusional over these three... the person i will become.. my fault yall#also i tried clip studio w/ my tablet again after like 4 months umm#tried a different coloring style????#also if you notice my art style changing every drawing#no you dont#lol#(i am adhdtistic)#clip studio paint#im gonna blend jones into a fine powder and blow the ashes into the city air#okay will be back l8r byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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HERES HOW HOOKHAUSEN CAN WIN AND RISE BACK FROM THE DEAD:
THE FIRST PIECE OF EVIDENCE
DANHAUSEN HAD CLAIMED THAT THERE MAY BE A RETURN OF HOOKHAUSEN AT SOME POINT IN THE FUTURE. SO WE CAN ASSURE THAT THEY WILL MAKE A DEFINITE RETURN, (AND HOPEFULLY ITS SOONER THAN I WOULD ASSUME BC I CANT MANAGE LIKE THIS ANYMORE.)
ANYWAYS, BASED OFF OF THIS AND DANHAUSEN CONFIRMING THAT THERE WILL MOST LIKELY BE A RETURN. I WOULD LIKE TO ASSUME THAT DANAHAUSEN WOULD SHOW UP AS A SORT OF BACKUP FOR HOOK IN CASE JUNGLE BOY EVER AMBUSHES HIM. THIS WAS IT CAN SET A FUED BETWEEN THEM, AND I AM SURE OF THIS BASED OFF OF AN INTERACTION DANHAUSEN AND JB HAD ON TWITTER.COM
BASE OFF OF THIS, I SEE THIS AS AN OPENING FOR DANHAUSEN TO COME BACK AND SAVE HOOK FROM JB. DANHAUSEN REACHING OUT TO HOOK ONCE MORE AFTER FORBIDDEN DOOR GIVES A STRONG FEELING THAT THEY WILL BE BROUGHT BACK TOGETHER AAT SOME POINT. WHETHER IT BE A VERY SLOW BURN OR IN THE NEXT COUPLE WEEKS, THEY WILL REUNITE. SND THEY WILL GO AFTER JB.
DANHAUSEN WOULD BE IN HOOKS CORNER AS HE DEALS HIS ISSUES WITH JB. AND HE WILL COME OUT VICTORIOUS!!!
ALSO‼️‼️‼️ I WOULD LIKE TO ADD THAT THIS MAY NOT BE THE SAME SILLY LOVERBOYS FROM THEIR FIRST TAGTEAM. AS DANHAUSEN HAS BEEN SENDING CRYPTIC MESSAGES ON BOTH HIS TWITTER AND INSTAGRAM
AS SHOWN HERE
WE ARE, OR AT LEAST I HOPE WE ARE GETTING EVILHAUSEN (I LOVE EVILHAUSEN SO FCUKING MUCH AAAAAA)
BUT SAFE TO SAY, I WOULD LIKE TO PERCEIVE THESE MESSAGES SAYING THAT HE IS COMING BACK AS HIS OFFICIALLY ONCE MORE. MEANING THAT WE WILL BE GETTING A BADASS VERSION OF HOOKHAUSEN☺️☺️☺️ AND I AM HERE FOR IT, THEY MAY STILL BE THE SAME SILLIES BUT DANHAUSEN WILL HOPEFULLY BE MORE OF A BRUTE AND WILL HAVE MORE ACTION RATHER THAN IT JUST BEING HOOK. (IF THAT MAKES SENSE)
BUT I REALLY JUST HOPE THAT HOOKHAUSEN COMES BACK BECAUSE I HAVE GOTTEN TO THE POINT WHERE IT BECAME AN OBSESSION. THEY ARE ALL I HAVE NOW THAT RKBRO IS OVER, AND IS MOST LIKELY NEVER COMING BACK. SO HOOKHAUSEN IS ALL I HAVE TO KEEP ME FROM GOING OFF THE DEEPEND SO I NEED THEM BACK. THESE SILLIES ARE WHAT MAKES MY DAY😫😫😭😭😭😭
Am I delusional for this
#aew#all elite wrestling#send hook#hook aew#hook#hook nation rise#love that danhausen#danhausen#EVILHAUSEN#hookhausen#i am becoming delusional#I AM BEGGING YOU TK GIVE ME HOOKHAUSEN BACK#I ALREADY GOT RKBRO TAKEN FROM ME SO DONT TAKE HOOKHAUSEN AWAY AGAIN AFTER ITS SO CLOSE TO COMING BACK
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