#always sad hours

[balladofthe101st]

if my body could speak in concerns by blythe baird // little prayer in don't call us dead by danez smith // it lasts forever and then it's over by anna de marcken // aphrodite made me do it by trista mateer // if my body could speak by blythe baird // the thing is by ellen bass

[thatoner3ader]

It's a truth I never wanted to acknowledge.

Now that I don't have to go to school, now that I actually have time (and I had forgotten what it was like to rest without the persistent voice in the back of my head screaming and howling that I should keep studying, that eating wasn't worth it, that sleeping wasn't worth it; it's been so, so long and so hard. I had forgotten what it was like to breathe) I could notice something... distressing.

I do not want to live. I'm exhausted.

This body of mine is pathetic and disgusting and uninhabitable. My soul is a prisoner of these walls of bone and flesh, of a heart that is too small and lungs that are too corroded.

My body is the home, the house that no one wants to visit, the cave where they buried Jesus, but my spirit can't take it anymore and is not going back. Let alone the rotting corpse.

I am Theseus hunting the minotaur, finding the monster in my reflection.

[wineanddineloseyourmind]

the transgender urge to curl up like a small fluffy animal against someone you love’s warm body and make little mewling and sighing and whining sounds as they pet you and praise you for having tried so hard to be human until you fall asleep

[certaintylikelightning]

thinking about riz and how his mom and his weird romance partner both think the bad kids are bad friends to him… thinking about how riz took on every single stress token for his friends… thinking about how riz always puts his everything into helping his friends and being there for them. and the bad kids aren’t Bad Friends but sometimes they take/need a lot, and they’d be fine if he pushed back, but he never pushes back? thinking about fig’s one nice note made riz break down and send gorgug WALLS of text about how much it meant to him

[felassan]

Spotify Judgement Season 2024: Sad Elf Summer edition

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[zylphiacrowley]

Do you know that you bring out the best in me too? // I know you can't see it // But love looks good on you

[skitskatdacat63]

Seb comes to Fernando's bedside to cheer him up! (aka resolving my turmoil over there being no vettonso moments yesterday)(long gif!!!)

+ what if Fernando hadn't been out sick!

[balladofthe101st]

skip's i swam across the niagara once and that his mom, sister, and fiance nagged him after, lipton's i helped my mom run a boarding house with my brother, bill and babe's stories about philadelphia, webster going to harvard, etc. etc. etc. really pushes the point that these boys weren't always soldiers and they had a life back home before the war. and that their lives were interrupted and disrupted because of the war. and that most of them never got their lives back, be it because they died during the war, or because they were never the same when they got back home after the war

[ghostedtea]

i'm not really feeling like myself today

[streetsweepershenanigans]

Thinking about supportive military parents icemav and Maverick insisting that their child(ren) use Kazansky as their last name instead of Mitchell or the hypheated Kazansky-Mitchell/Mitchell-Kazansky, 'cause he doesn't want them to miss out on opportunities like he did just because of his name...

[min-xie]

help i cant stop drawing fem neuvillette

[bearforceone3]

wondy donna troy design page

[aleriya-darling]

if i lay here,

if i just lay here,

would you lie with me

and just forget the world

[aprilblossomgirl]

random sound win moment [14/?] Win coaxing Sound so that he would take him under his umbrella. Win playfully pulling the umbrella so that a side of Sound got drenched. Win embracing Sound so that the rain could not get him. And both keep looking at the other's eyes and lips. (My School President, episode 9)

[mo-ok]

giftober day twenty seven - blue

[larapaulussen]