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for context. thats how tall kaz is if ur 5’2 (which is my height)

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you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.
but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.
well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?
his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.
still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.
so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.
and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.
what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.
it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?
it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.
maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.
#spilled ink#warm up#oh im .... sick to my stomach.#i talked to him. like ....... we talked. that man interacted with my poetry and writing.#that article.... gutwrenching. i am so sorry to everyone he's ever even been in the room with.#i feel.... like... unbearably. sick.#he acted like he was cool and friends with me!! we were cool internet writers together!!!!!#i feel sick for even having been polite to him.#i ...... am experiencing something so fucking complicated.#i wonder how many of u are feeling that too. like ''oh i sent him an ask and he was funny and sweet''#THATS HOW THEY GET U. ..... and YES I KNOW!!!#i am so fucking well-read about parasocial relationships. it would just be nice to like. trust that someone ISNT#hiding a huge fucking background of BEING A COMPLETE MONSTER. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.#by the way i am not part of a fandom. this is “what the fuck i accidentally supported a rapist” not#“but my showww”. like i care far more about like. the human cost.#but also like... people are people. idk i saw a take on here about how nobody should mourn the books#and idk. people almost always reply to any scenario with their personal experience first -#''i knew him'' or ''wow i was just at that store'' or ''i grew up there'' or whatever. because that is how we establish connection &#emotional weight. that's just... a person thing. and there is a difference between 'oh this guy is a monster'' & the feeling of:#he's been a monster and i SUPPORTED THAT. i CELEBRATED him. i !!! a fucking victim myself!!!!!!!!! SUPPORTED . HIM.#i am sick. i feel so much pain for her and everyone he's ever hurt. saying ''the books are ruined'' is i think ... like how people say#they're shocked and disgusted by him. (obviously there's nuance here. im sure there's some creep doin it wrong. but u know. in general)#idk..... im an author. i understand my work is in your life in whatever small way. i understand that connection. it's real.
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#dungeons and daddies#dndads#scary marlowe#taylor swift not that one#lincoln li wilson#normal oak#dndads spoilers#epilogue headcanons#linc started to like cats after he got over (at least a bit) his previous jealousy towards his dads#but mainly bc he grew attached to Scary's cat after they started to live together yes she is a cat lady to me#normal still isolates himself when he's feeling shitty tho this time it went on for several years#despite the others not giving up on trying to contact him#they wanna give him space but they're also worried so that's why they try to be nonchalant about it during the reunion#which i also already have a sketch of but college's been taking up most of my time sorry#not described#ignore the inconsistencies please and ty
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alright, so jevin has wing huh? here's the real question, how well can he actually fly?? anyway, i love him so muchh, the way you designed him makes me wanna give him a rub on the back and wings-
ooh flight inquiry, i imagine jevin is able to take himself at any height he desires but simply chose to stay grounded
he although preferrably goes as high as the height of octave hills (one of the locations i made up for my au, need to draw a map for future refs lol) which is generally at 14ft
wanted to draw more of this idea but for now here's one (1) depiction of jevin actually flying and a lil bonus whee
yippeee!! 🪽🪽🪽🪽
#leer got an ask#soundleer's art#sprunki#that blue bun can fly indeed hyeee#i like to think when he first grew wings he struggled to take flight with them and fell flat on his face bc he hadn't gotten used to it#(id be embarrassed too if i tried to fly with my newly formed wings that i just recovered from the stinging pain)#i love making him do all the bnuuy noises if you got the ear you might hear him honk and purr#also for the octave hills part: yes im using musical terminology for the locations of the sprunki island#yay for research now i wait as i gather motivation to draw the map and location names bc fun world building go brrrrr#lastly gonna end the yap tags: SPRUNKLINGS!! BABIES!!!! LOOK AT JEVIN TAKING HIS CHILDREN FOR A SMALL FLIGHT!!!!#sprunki jevin#sprunki sky#sprunki peebii#sprunki jaylene#anonymous
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let’s be super clear: there is zero canon evidence that alden ever pressured or neglected any of his children. zero. if you want to make him that way for fic or fanon purposes, fine. you do you. but the second you try to use that in a serious anti alden argument, you lose credibility
#if you’re going to bring up alvar’s whining think about this: when fitz was born alvar was twelve years old#when biana was born alvar was fourteen#OBVIOUSLY the parents will pay more attention to the younger children than the teenager!!!! this is common parenting sense#there’s also no evidence alden prioritized fitz above alvar or biana#if you don’t believe me: think about this. when has BIANA ever complained about alden favoring fitz? she doesn’t#alvar does but that’s because alvar’s only personality trait is whining that he has to share (yes SHARE) the spotlight with fitz#he says he grew up under immense amounts of pressure but there’s no evidence that alden was the one putting that pressure on him#it reads more like a societal thing. like ohohoohoho look at the vacker boy over there we’ll see how he holds up#and if you don’t believe me on THAT just read biana’s registry file. it’s clear that she was put under a lot of pressure----#----not by alden but by her peers at foxfire. the council. other elves. there’s nothing from alden#alden is a good parent guys. you all forget that he grew up under these exact same conditions#he’s a good parent full stop. not “oh he’s trying” not “well he’s a little messed up but he’s doing what he sees as best”. good parent#i am still working on the sending his kids to search argument. just wait. that’s coming still#but god people act like he sent his kids to scope out murderous cults and not take short trips to watch random girls from a safe distance#kotlc#kotlc alden#pro alden vacker
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I used to despise Eridan and think he was the absolute worst character (barring Cronus ig) but you have shown me the light and completely turned my opinion around and now I think he is such an endearing little freak <3 I read your whole blog already but if you've got any more thoughts on eri or anyone else then I hope you post them bc I'd love to hear more abt it!
i have sooo many controversial opinions about the dancestors you have noooooo idea
#always glad to have another person go 'oh eridan's not that bad huh'#like he IS a freak and there is SO MUCH thats wrong with him#but he's supposed to be an antagonist AND sympathetic AND funny AND pathetic AND tragic#like all these things can be true hes just a complex character#same w a lot of them#vriska equius and gamzee all kind of fall into this boat#yes there is a lot thats wrong with them but they are also 13#let he who was not a shithead at 13 cast the first stone#anyway ive been hesitant about talking about the dancestors because if my eridan opinions are controversial...#but the tl;dr is that almost all of them suck horribly#like collectively they are the worst characters in homestuck and thats on purpose#bc their role in the story is villainous like theyre the reason lord english even exists#if the alternian trolls as a rule are meant to be sympathetic even if they have a lot of problems#then the beforus trolls are like a worst case scenario of 'what if they never address their problems and grow up that way'#theyre the counterpoint to the comics themes of being a kid and growing up#learning to care about each other and become responsible#the beforus trolls are children who never grew up#going through the exact same problems and drama as when they were children#because they never took responsibility for their own actions or their treatment of each other#And That's Terrible
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heathcliff: i killed cathy...... im a horrible person in every timeline. my revenge killed her. my remorse literally broke through timelines.
catherine who got back at heathcliff by stealing a house to remodel into the Magic Cocaine Labyrinth after draining the financial assets of england's least tragically ill victorian man, making carmen contact her copyright lawyers by sealing her ambiguously dead body into a glass tank while her brain powers a building, and potentially hiring the Mueseumafia of Modern Art because if she pays them with cash she doesnt have to report her Green-Energy-Human-Tank Powered Hydrogen Bomb Basement Factory's earnings to the IRS or whatever the city uses: 'tis what you get for trying to boyfail without your girlboss, methinks 😇😇😇😇😇
#limbus company#limbus company spoilers#posted to the wrong blog lololol#anyways she's a science fiction villain who everyone treats like jesus.#''catherine is MISERABLE ALWAYS'' she was certainly going through it!#she was also literally coping through making terrors and horrors in her basement lab like dexter#and is this a result of heathcliff's self worth being like. bulldozed from every direction as he grew up?#yes.#they're both very fascinating characters but someone get that man away from that woman's blast radius#him: i'll get a good job. i'll internalize all of my abuse. i'll be Good Enough For Her#her: gonna grow some psychic damage nukes in my lab like rutabagas to harvest for the growing season. then i'll turn into a house!
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Mu Qing ascending is objectively so funny considering Feng Xin and Xie Lian also do. Out of the people in your kingdom who accomplished immortality there’s this guy who used to be your servant but is now on equal rank to you and he‘s super rude now and also thinks you hate him because he remembers when you were 18 and lacked socioeconomic-interpersonal awareness
#he doesn’t even hold the ignorance against you. you hold it against him though#list of people who ascended from Xianle: the crown prince and his noble bodyguard. also the prince’s attendent who came from poverty#like mu qing only got to cultivate because of a very specific set of circumstances but like he did it very successfully#it’s hilarious#by all rights he worked harder than them both but he sure got there#also you see him as super rude and mean now while the people of his region keep insisting he’s kind gentle and refined etc.#Feng Xin looks at Mu Qing as if they were in the same boat and Xie Lian looks at Mu Qing like they were in the same boat#and Mu Qing is there doing their chores on top of studying and training and caring for his mother looking at their idealistic nonsense#with many question marks#Xie Lian and Feng Xin: our past friend Mu Qing#Mu Qing: ah yes. my employer. who I would like to befriend but unfortunately I have dignity.#tgcf#like sorry not everyone has the awareness or priorities or ideas another who grew up poor might smh#also he has like a ridiculously impeccable memory so like. yea he DOES remember when you were 18. in vivid detail.#he used to prepare your clothes so has your whole cultural fashion line embedded into his head forever. including the jewelry#imagine being 800 years old and the guy that used to steam your clothes every morning and fold them every night lives next door#isn't that so embarrassing#that guy remembers EVERYTHING too#you don't remember that stuff but HE DOES?????
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He may be. slightly jealous of how well jack and deuce work together in their club.......
(not that he'd admit that---)
('extra' under readmore)


there is no peace for Ace..................
#twst#twisted wonderland#deuce spade#jack howl#ace trappola#jamil viper#floyd leech#art#ram's art#i drew this back in Ace's clubwear showcase---#i was manifesting luck for me to get floyd's card in the future----#i wasn't gonna post it but i grew fond of it................ so here it is lol#i. have a specific indulgent headcanon of the basketball club actually being pretty close pals past the. NRC-ness of them all----#but in canon they can and will cause problems for each other lol#well. jamil if he's really annoyed - ace occasionally - and floyd. well you know--------#also yes i didnt bother drawing all the stuff on the basketball clothes ..................i didnt want to ..................#also also..... artists that draw jamil well - tell me your secrets....................................
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Rhaegar: You can’t beat me, Hightower. You worked your way into this world, but I? I was born into it. I breathe it.
#otto is quacking in his boots at this very moment but also intrigued at the challenge.#yes he’s QUACKing. like a duck. that was totally not a spelling error#it’s so funny bc rhaegar grew up as the crown prince and now he’s so far down the line of succession#that even if daemon and his sons got to be runner ups: rhaegar is still the second born son. like otto.#it’s so interesting both ways since rhaegar certainly doesn’t act like a second son. syn said that smallfolk could mistake him for aegon ii#and with the love vizzy shows his nephews i wouldnt be surprised#resonant by syndrossi#rhaegar targaryen#otto hightower#source: 30 rock#house of the dragon
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is it controversial to say im a travnat supporter
like YES i want nat to be with a chick as much as the next person........ but I enjoy doomed relationships ok
#they grew on me ok#trauma bonding#pain and suffering#yes travis is a BITCH is s1 but hes also 16#idkidkidk#spoons (yapping)#nat scatorccio#natalie scatorccio#travis martinez#travnat#yellowjackets
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there are so many fandom ships that i want, so 911 is one of the very few times i don't want it because i think buck and tommy are really good together.
now i also get bashing a character that you don't like, especially when they're trash...but goddammit some of yall are so fucking nasty to tommy and he didn't do shit 😭😭😭
#911 abc#911 show#evan buckley#tommy kinard#bucktommy#tevan#and before anyone brings up with happened with chim or hen yes im fully aware#it wasnt right but keep in mind how and when he grew up and that itbwas self preservation#this is also mostly stuff i see on twitter but jesus fuck#some people act like hes the most toxic mf and thats so off
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Re-watching wakfu for the first time in years and s1 Yugo was so silly???
dude discovered he could make portals at will and his first thought after actually acknowledging it is "i can do so many cool pranks with this"
#he was just a kid..... guys he was just a kid....#HE WAS SO SILLY#also the fact that after eva told him they used to call amalia princess gobball he just laughs at it ☠️#was he 12? i think he was in s1#why dont they ever celebrate characters bdays tho#thinking over it now there was little to no chill time for these guys#sure there was a good amount of non plot stuff to get to know the characters but like#idk? ummm like in the first ova they gave them some chill time and i wish they had done that more#s4 was an amalgamation of “FUCK NOT AGAIN JFC”#OH ACTUALLY#there was (1) episode with chill time and i loved it#despite having gone thru alot of effort to be like look!!! chibi and grougal!!! theyre bros!!! yugo spent like. 5 minutes of screentime#with them. like actually being their brother.#and like it was kinda funny because imagine like the world sorta blowing up a little and then ur child comes back just to say#'dad im rlly fucking upset. ive been to the house of the gods btw. and i met my mom.'#alibert mustve been so fkn confused hdhdbd#then again. its like. average shit for his son#alibert went from gay dad with his lil guy from a species he does not know of who basically works a farm inn to like#a literal demigod. he def has made some enemies#i remember the most abt yugo bec the hyperfix was strongest on him#current thoughts on the others in the brotherhood:#tristepin: yugos nickname did not translate well into en lmao. also my guy pls stop harrassing women?? he gets an arc ik but like. my guy.#yes specifically s1 them#amalia: i mean. she does in fact act like a spoiled 13 yr old. but like. girl they did u kinda dirty.#eva: they also did you kinda dirty. love that your the only one just sick of everyones logic defying shit.#ruel: yk what. no notes. that is the most realistic old man ive ever seen. hes hilarious#az: this mf gets his ass in trouble every five seconds. u can tell he grew up with yugo. also according to s4 he gets bitches so XD#wu's rewatch notes#thats what im calling this#wakfu
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The doctor leaves and James busies himself with doing nothing. Taking note in the logbook of what has happened. Writing down the list of the dead, cross-referencing, figuring out who they were. It's just war, he reminds himself, don't get too personal about it, but it's personal. It feels personal.
He doesn't know if it's normal to feel as though he's lost his own sons and brothers, his own family, but he hates the feeling nonetheless. He hates that he cares so damn much because he knows he will never be good enough for them. He was never one for family and grew up an only child, without a mother, but being in the navy and this tight crew business has shifted perspectives. It scares him to have people he's close to. He'll have to be careful with Goodsir tonight. Nothing personal. Friendly, but nothing personal.
He goes on deck again, busies himself with giving his orders and checking on the crew. He's too afraid to go to sleep, so he won't, he'll stay awake as long as he can, even if he's tired, even if his mind is muddied, even if he feels so terrible, so so so terrible.
Much as he knows he should check on the injured, he avoids the sickbay.
Eventually the time comes. He has the steward get everything set for him in the wardroom, and then he waits for the doctor @erebusanatomist48.
#terror rp#//ooc not sure which steward so i didnt name drop him#//ooc also yes irl fitzjames had a brother and yes he grew up in a very nice happy family but that will not do for my purposes#//ooc so liberties have been taken
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just finished Season 9 for the first time,
have some scrunkly character designs :P
#lloyd garmadon#kai ninjago#lloyd ninjago#lego ninjago#ninjago#character design#lloyd: part oni. part dragon. wholeass boy#me: so have some fucked up deer thing. yes hes lloyd dont question it#also id like to point out#that the boys match#kai grew his hair out so he could have a tiny plait too
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#undertale#frisk#flowey#utau#undertale au#premaposting#no idea what to name this yet but its an au ive been building for a while now#also yes frisk's hair intentionally mimicks the floppy ears the dreemur family has#um i dont know when im gonna post this#so if i post this before really explaining the au#heres the explaination:#in short this happens at the end of true pacifist where the game continues on than having a definite end#a few months after. frisk and papyrus leave to the underground to meet everyone and p much uproot flowey and bring him to the surface#even though he can choose to leave or not. though didnt want to initially#i think i placed winter alarm 6 months post true pacifist end?#so about another half year later. or a full year since the route. flowey kinda gets adopted?????#chilled around frisk a lot anf accidentally ended up as their brother#and then they grewed up. this is like#7 years since true pacifist#a pretty good amount of stuff has changed#so thats why they look a lot older#OH WAIT I FORGOT TO MENTION#like frisk and toriel decided to have flowey pick a bday since he forgor in this au#like what it was#its now like november 2nd bc all souls day and marigolds associated with the holiday#IK HE ISNT A MARIGOLD#BUT THATS THE CLOSEST IM GETTING#oh so on like the 2nd bday frisk w alphys get him a soul and that why he can life now#proceeds to post this without lore explaination because school look in tags yall#utpyrt
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