#also this is um...definitely becoming a series.... yikes....

[sesamestreep]

New Taylor Swift prompts! 16, Matt/Foggy

16. I’ve missed you all this time (from this prompt list) I don't know what this is, but it's technically set in the 60s, even though I did not make that explicitly clear anywhere in the text and it serves no purpose beyond just...vibes. I mostly just wanted to write silly new year’s fic, don’t worry about historical accuracy or world-building, everyone be cool! happy 2024, you silly and sultry geese! on ao3 here 🥂✨

Matt can still hear the noise of the party, barely dampened even when he's several rooms removed. He’d be able to hear it from the lobby of the building, truth be told, but here he can still make out conversations without having to focus that hard. He tries to direct his senses somewhere else—somewhere with less overlapping chatter and clinking glasses and shuffling feet over plush carpets—and breathe deep, so that maybe he can regain some equilibrium and hopefully go back to the party in a few minutes and act normal. It’s almost midnight, after all, and who goes to a New Year’s Eve party just to ditch out before midnight?

“Matthew Augustus Murdock,” a voice calls out from the far end of the paneled hallway.

“Not my middle name,” Matt says, smiling, “as you already know.”

“But wouldn’t it be better if it was?” Foggy asks, as he slides down to sit next to Matt. 

“Yes, I imagine I’d have lived a much easier and more successful life, if only my middle name was…what was it again?”

“Albert,” Foggy says, “or something. Who cares?”

“Good point,” Matt says, pressing his shoulder into Foggy’s happily. “How’d you find me?”

“I used the one and only superpower God graced me with: I’m like a homing pigeon for you specifically. I always know where to find you. It’s eerie, frankly, and damned useless, but—“

“Not to me,” Matt interjects, too readily. “I mean, for what it’s worth.”

Foggy nods, his overly long hair that he keeps meaning to get cut rasping over his shirt's stiff collar as he does. “That’s a good point.”

“I make those occasionally.”

“Occasionally,” Foggy repeats in a comically shrill, tiny voice, like he’s doing an impression of a cartoon mouse, for whatever reason. He’s a little drunk, clearly, which Matt could tell from the way he’s talking and the way he’s moving and the way he smells and, well, that’s probably enough evidence. 

“If I’m ever in trouble, I know who to call,” Matt says, which is maybe too honest, but Foggy doesn’t have to know that.

“You wouldn’t even have to call, Matt,” Foggy replies, solemnly grasping his shoulder. “If you’re ever in trouble, I’ll know and I’ll come running.”

“I would pay real money to see you actually run anywhere.”

“You’d have to, my man. I imagine it would take a massive breakthrough in science for you to see anything at all, and those things tend to cost a pretty penny,” Foggy says, grandly. “And also, on a much more serious note, go fuck yourself.”

Matt laughs and collapses against Foggy’s shoulder. “I’m sorry, I just know how much you hate running.”

“Which means you’ve entirely missed the inherent capital-R romanticism of me offering to do it for you! Classic Murdock. Absolute philistine behavior. I should expect it by now.”

“Your gallantry is wasted on me,” Matt agrees, still doing that thing of being too honest.

“I know,” Foggy sighs, theatrically, “and yet, here I am.”

“Why are you here, anyway?”

“Missed you, came looking. Same as ever.”

“Aw,” Matt says, leaning into his side even more. “You’re right, I really don’t deserve you.”

“I never said that. You said that,” Foggy says, poking him. “But anyway, I lied and the real answer to your question is that I got tired of girls coming up to me and asking where my handsome friend had got to.”

Matt knows two things with a decent degree of certainty: Foggy hadn’t been lying when he gave his first answer (Matt would have heard it in his heartbeat and likely noticed any other number of tells that Foggy has when he does lie, besides) and that no one would have had to ask him to go looking for Matt after he disappeared. His joke about homing pigeon-like tendencies is more truthful than either of them would like to acknowledge. When Matt goes missing—as he very frequently does at these types of things—Foggy always comes to find him. Matt’s been doing this since way before he met Foggy—having overly heightened senses does not make crowded social functions more manageable in general—but he can probably admit that he does it more now that he knows someone will come looking for him.

He also knows that girls like Foggy a lot more than Foggy thinks they do. He’s always talking about how girls seek him out to get in with Matt, but Matt doesn’t really believe that. There have been a few girls, here and there, certainly enough that Foggy’s right to be a little paranoid about it, who have turned their sights from Foggy to Matt, which on top of being unkind is just bad business sense. Anyone with a brain in their head would see that Foggy’s the better option of the two of them. And Matt’s got plenty of flaws, but he’d certainly never take up with anyone who hurt his best friend, so it doesn’t work out the way anyone hopes it will, anyway, when they do. Still, he's sure Foggy could have found a nice girl to keep him entertained until Matt got back to the party, if he put his mind to it, and that maybe he'd just been looking for an excuse to duck out himself when someone asked about Matt.

“This is where I got to,” Matt says, with a slightly pathetic shrug.

“Who says I meant you?” Foggy asks, absently. “I have other friends that are handsomer than you!”

“Not only do you not have a single handsomer friend in all the world,” Matt says, belatedly unsure if ‘handsomer’ is even a word, but otherwise too confident to turn back, “you don’t even have another friend at this party.”

“I’m exceedingly charming, Matthew,” Foggy over-enunciates. “Everyone at this party is my new best friend.”

Matt loops his arm through Foggy’s and leans his head back against the wall. “Sounds like I’ve got a lot of competition.”

“You’re not having fun?” Foggy asks, the change of topic so sudden and his tone so unexpectedly serious that Matt has a brief moment of confusion that he means with this joke they’ve got going. It takes a second to realize he means at the party in general.

“It’s fancy.”

“Too fancy, you mean…”

“You know I don’t go in for all this stuff,” Matt says, shrugging. 

“Like I do, you mean?” Foggy asks, lightly, even though Matt can feel him warming with embarrassment. 

“Like I used to,” Matt clarifies, and trusts his meaning to be clear.

“Right,” Foggy says, and the tone in his voice is the one he uses exclusively when he refers to Matt’s ex-girlfriend from junior year who almost caused him to drop out. “Fair enough, I suppose.”

“You can head back. Really, I don’t mind. I just need a few more minutes.”

“No, you’re right. It’s…a bit stuffy, isn’t it?” Foggy muses. “I mean, I didn’t even know people still had apartments like this, outside of, well, the Rockefellers.” 

The apartment belongs to the parents of one of their friends from law school and the only reason they have free rein over the place is because the parents are vacationing in Aspen with friends. Even without being able to see it, Matt can tell it’s a swanky place. The rug he’s currently sitting on is so plush that he can basically sink his entire hand into it. Every table he passed on his way to this hiding place smelled so strongly of Pine-Sol that there has to be a maid on staff, if not a team of them. He’s fairly certain this random hallway he discovered is actually a back passage to the kitchens, so the servants don’t have to be seen coming and going. He's not sure if he asked their host about it that they'd even know it existed. And Matt’s shoes, as well as most of his clothes, are secondhand.

“You were having fun until I made you feel bad,” Matt says, tucking his chin onto Foggy’s shoulder and trying to look contrite.

“No, I mean—I like having you around, Matt. You keep me honest,” Foggy laughs. “Two and a half years of law school, four years at an Ivy before that, I think I’ve just made peace with having to go to parties in uncomfortable clothes and to make conversation with people I don’t really like. I don’t think I’d call it fun, but it’s a social life of some kind, I suppose.”

“We should have gone to Josie’s,” Matt says, holding onto him too tightly, even with the excuse of a few drinks.

Foggy snorts, thinking of the beloved dive bar they sneak off to in Hell’s Kitchen whenever they can, whenever they’re home. It’s only a matter of blocks to get there, but sometimes, at school, it feels farther away than all that.

“I don’t dare imagine the caliber of our prospects for a kiss at midnight there,” Foggy says, with an exaggerated shudder.

“Can’t be any worse than our prospects here,” Matt replies. 

Foggy whistles, low, under his breath. “You’re going to be disappointing a lot of nice girls with that kind of talk, Murdock!”

“Better to disappoint them now than later,” Matt says, fully burying his face in Foggy’s shoulder now. He gets like this when he drinks. Foggy's used to it.

“Oh, that’s right. You don’t do the whole ‘going steady’ thing anymore,” Foggy says, leaning in conspiratorially. “You’re too damaged and that means you’re never going to get married, so you’d rather not lead anyone on.”

“You say that like it’s not true,” Matt whispers back.

“It isn’t true, you moron!” Foggy laughs. “One day, some beautiful girl is going to turn your head so quick, you’ll have neck problems for the rest of your life!”

“Sounds uncomfortable,” Matt says.

“And I’ll be there,” Foggy continues, like Matt didn’t even speak, “laughing.”

“Well, as long as you’ll be there, Foggy.”

“Did I mention you’re a moron?”

“Yes. A few times now, in fact.”

“Then, I’ve done my duty.”

“And what about you?” Matt asks. “When’s somebody going to turn your head?”

“Somebody turns my head every goddamn day, it feels like,” Foggy grumbles. “The problem isn’t my head. It’s everybody else’s.”

“There’s plenty of girls who’d be more than happy to trap you in matrimony.”

“Hmm, well, I’m sure that’s true enough,” Foggy replies, thoughtfully. “I guess it’s more about finding someone you wouldn’t mind being trapped with.”

“And you haven’t found her yet, I take it?”

“No,” Foggy says, sadly. The girl he dated for most of their sophomore year—the one everyone had been certain Foggy was going to end up marrying—had just gotten engaged last month. Foggy still wasn’t entirely over it, Matt was pretty sure.

“And you’re certain she’s not here?” Matt asks, encouragingly.

“Unlikely,” Foggy says. “None of the girls here would be caught dead with me in the daylight. One of them might be unscrupulous enough to let me kiss her at midnight, though.”

“So, go back,” Matt replies. “Find the girl in that room with the lowest standards and lay one on her!”

“I will if you will.”

“I don’t know this for sure, but I do have serious doubts that any girl in the room will let the both of us kiss her at midnight.”

“I meant, you should—you know what I meant!” Foggy exclaims, embarrassed again. 

“I was trying to be funny!”

“‘Trying’ being the operative word there…”

Matt sighs. “What’s the point of kissing someone at midnight when there’s almost no chance of seeing them ever again after tonight?”

“You’ve just described the point yourself! It’s just for fun, to start the year off right! There’s no pressure!” Foggy says, disbelieving. "What’s gotten into you? I thought zero expectations romance was your specialty!”

“Maybe I’m just not a New Year's kind of guy.”

Foggy hums thoughtfully. “Can I tell you my theory?”

“Your theory? About what?”

“About you, and New Year's, and all of that.”

“Oh. Sure. Go ahead.”

“I think you’re afraid,” Foggy says.

“Afraid?” Matt asks. “Of…New Year’s Eve?”

“You don’t want to participate in these silly little rituals, like kissing someone at midnight, because you’re secretly terrified that something good is going to happen to you, and then you won’t know what to do with yourself.”

“Really, Foggy. Be serious!”

“I am serious,” Foggy replies, casually. “You’re scared of being hit over the head with it again.”

“Hit over the head with what?”

“Love,” Foggy says, simply. “You felt it once and it nearly derailed your whole life, so now you avoid any situation where you might accidentally meet someone interesting or have more feelings than you’ve carefully rationed out for yourself for that particular day.”

Matt swallows, feeling utterly exposed. It’s not something he would have been able to say for himself an hour ago, but the words feel true to him coming from someone else. He doesn’t like anybody knowing him well enough to know all of that, though, and if it wouldn’t be so utterly obvious, he’d pull away from Foggy right now just to be safe. Like that would even help, he thinks reluctantly.

“You missed your calling not going into psychiatry, Foggy,” he says, stiffly, once he’s gathered his wits enough to form sentences.

Foggy’s hand, warm and a little damp, closes over Matt’s where it’s still resting on his arm. Matt wants nothing more than to flinch away from it, but he controls the urge in the interest of saving face.

“Don’t be mad at me,” Foggy says, quietly, like there’s a chance they might be overheard somehow and he wants Matt to be the only one who hears this. “I’m just trying to tell you that, in avoiding fun and frivolous things, you are not sparing yourself from being hit over the head. If you’re meant to get hit over the head, it’ll happen whenever and wherever Cupid so chooses. It’ll happen at the deli or the bank or while you’re waiting for the bus. Which means that the only thing you’re ultimately sparing yourself from is fun and frivolity, and that’s a stupid way to live your life. That’s all.”

“I think you just called me a moron again,” Matt says, weakly. He doesn’t know what else to say. The rest of it is...too much to consider.

“I called you stupid, actually, but I see your point.”

In the distance, Matt hears the noise of a crowd of people all simultaneously trying to shush each other, with limited success. He imagines even Foggy can hear it too a moment later when they all begin counting aloud.

“Last chance…” Matt says, tipping his head backwards in the direction of the room where everyone’s gathered.

“It doesn’t matter,” Foggy says, apropos of nothing, as far as Matt can tell. He’s about to ask what he means when Foggy continues, anyway. “I have someone who meets your criteria.”

“My criteria?”

“Yeah. You’ll only accept a kiss from someone you’ll see again after tonight, right?”

“Uh, I don’t think I said ‘only’, I just meant—”

“Too bad,” Foggy says, as the countdown reaches its conclusion. “Happy New Year.”

Matt’s halfway through formulating a question or an objection of some kind, which is the only reason he turns in Foggy’s direction at that moment. It’s clear from the noise of surprise Foggy makes that he absolutely had no intention of kissing Matt right on the mouth and was probably, in fact, aiming for his cheek, trying to be funny and charming after Matt was such a spoilsport about the whole kissing at midnight thing. If Matt hadn’t moved, there’s no doubt in his mind that that’s what Foggy would have done and then it would have been over and they’d already be laughing about it and moving on. But Matt did move and, even awkwardly off center, Foggy is kissing him on the mouth right now and they’re both just frozen like that, shocked and useless.

Matt doesn’t give himself much credit for genius. He’s reasonably smart, and can be even smarter if he applies himself to a subject and really studies up on it, but there’s plenty of people in any given room smarter than he is, most of the time. He has his moments, though, and this is one of them. He sees very clearly the two paths available to them. Down one, this moment stretches awkwardly and they allow it to become a source of discomfort and then outright pain that they'll avoid talking about for years, or maybe possibly forever. Regardless, it has the power to ruin their friendship and Matt simply can't abide that. Down the other, they don’t flinch from it and they don’t make it any stranger than it has to be and it becomes one weird but not fully objectionable moment in their long and storied relationship. They’re not going to trot it out as an anecdote at parties, sure, but they’re not going to become crazy about denying it happened either. If Matt can steer them in the direction of the latter, he thinks maybe it will all be okay, but it’s going to require him not to make matters worse. For whatever reason, the only way he can think to not do that is by kissing Foggy back.

It’s immediately apparent that, momentary genius or no, while it does not technically make things worse, it also does not make them better. Then again, Foggy makes a sort of interested noise as he feels Matt return the kiss, which Matt is infinitely better off for knowing about and having heard and being able to think about some other time when he’s alone preferably. 

They don’t take it any farther than just that. They’re not necking in some random person’s hallway or doing anything truly objectionable. They just stay there, mouths pressed together so that Matt can smell (and sort of taste) the champagne Foggy’s had and the last cigarette he smoked and a hint of that sugary gum he always chews, even though he hasn’t had a piece since before they came to the party. It mostly feels, more than anything else, like they’re breathing together and it’s not sexy the way wild, passionate groping in the dark can be, but it’s intimate in its own unique way. Matt, against his own better judgment, puts a hand on Foggy’s cheek, and he doesn't really know why beyond just really wanting to and that seems to be reason enough.

Foggy doesn’t try to slip his tongue into Matt’s mouth—despite the alarming reality that the moment Matt realizes that’s not what he’s doing, he also realizes he’d let him—or try to escalate matters one bit. His hand is still grasping Matt’s collar from when he first pulled him in, but his other one doesn’t roam. His lips, still pressed to Matt’s, only move to exert a little more pressure and to alter the angle at which they meet slightly. He takes precisely zero liberties and makes no effort to get fresh with him at all. It’s very gentlemanly, and Matt doesn’t know what to do with himself because it doesn’t feel awkward or fumbling at all. It feels like restraint, and once he knows that, everything is different.

The tune of ‘Auld Lang Syne’ reaches him from the other room, but it’s drowned out almost entirely by the sound of Foggy’s heartbeat in Matt’s ears. Foggy must hear it too, though, because he breaks their kiss with the worst sort of gentleness, pulling back only enough for them both to have space to breathe but not far enough that Matt can’t feel that breath on his face.

Matt traces his thumb over the curve of Foggy’s cheek before dropping his hand back down into his own lap and licks his lips as he slowly turns away. 

“Happy New Year,” he says, aiming for calm and unaffected and likely missing it by a lot.

“You too,” Foggy says, even though he already said it first. His heart is still beating too fast and too close and too loud for Matt to read his tone, which is too bad, because he’d really like to know how Foggy feels right now and if he feels anything like Matt does.

Because Matt feels like he’s been hit over the head.

✨

[hambone-kablooey]

Okay so my Sabrina stream of consciousness was mildly popular, and season 5 of Van Helsing just came out. Let's have a go.

Preamble:

This show really went from apocalypse story with vampirism instead of zombies to full on Dracula magic times didn't it? Not sure how I feel about that.

Tricia Helfer as Dracula can step on me though. Hope we see more of her this season.

I have no memory of what happened last season. Vanessa has teenage daughters, who's still alive, where'd Christopher Heyerdahl go? All forgotten.

With that out of the way, let's get it.

Episode 1:

New intro kinda slaps.

Why is this girl coming through a portal? Wasn't she stuck in vampire hell?

That's Castle Dracula, right? Looks a lot like the one from the Netflix series.

Okay so time travel now?

Wow you can tell Kelly Overton couldn't be there to film. Bad voiceover and no face. I hope we see her soon.

Um, excuse you, weird mask lady?

Yeah, get her ass!

*disgusted* Peasants.

Listen, I've seen this girl in lots of stuff, and I like her, but "vampires, and I'm the cure" was not a good line.

Tricia!

This man! I know this man!

Midwife is sus.

Oh, isn't she one of Dracula's wives?

Toxic masculinity, who's she? Don't know her.

I sense a love interest? Or was this the lesbian. Truly all memory of this show is gone.

Wouldn't it not be called Transylvania? Wasn't it Wallachia at this point? World history is not my thing.

Also did she get magic language powers? There's no way medieval Wallachians would speak English.

Who's this? He looks like a Chad

THIS BITCH!

I see you creeping Chad!

Oh. I thought this guy would be decent. Maybe not.

Who's this MAN?

Tell him, girl!

Tricia no!

Oh sweet Florian. So pure.

Are we getting a tragic Dracula? Because I'm a little bitch for a tragic villain.

Jesus, Michaela.

So is Michaela in on the vampire thing? Or just a little obsessed?

Time travel is so dangerous. There are so many potential pitfalls.

I'm so torn about the Count. He acts like a smarmy asshole, and yet he loves his wife so damn much.

Damn she old.

Damn he sneaky.

Also Michaela is definitely in on the vampire thing, which makes her older than Dracula? Interesting.

Listen to the servants they know EVERYTHING!

CHAD!

This woman is so flaky I love her.

Listen to the fortune tellers they know EVERYTHING!!!

AHA! Tricia is just a vessel for the original Dracula. I see.

Jesus, Jack!

Also TRICIA NO!

I love this aspect of time travel. The hero just dunking on a villain who doesn't even know them yet.

Please tell me this isn't the last of Tricia. Damn I love her.

Episode 2:

Is Bathory evil here?

Oh jeez I don't think she is! Are we getting good Bathory?

Oh, Florian no.

This obviously isn't going to kill her. She's a Van Helsing!

But even so, being hanged when you can't die? That's rough.

I forgot how much big villain energy Michaela has. She's great.

Ooh that evil laugh.

I feel so bad for this man. By medieval standards he's not that awful.

Yes Jack!

Yes Bathory!

No Jack she's not evil yet!

Oof poor Bathory. She has no idea.

Fuck this guy.

Florian you chicken shit bastard!

This is so messed up. I HATED this woman last season. She's so great now.

Tell her Jack!

Chad!

Is Chad a Van Helsing?

IS BATHORY A VAN HELSING!?

Is that not what the amulet means? I forget.

Aw, servant girl no.

That's so much wasted blood. Come on, Michaela!

Okay is this nice Tricia or evil Tricia?

Don't make any sudden moves my guy

Will you love your corpse wife, my guy?

Not a witch, my guy. A vampire. Get with the program.

I love a lady villain who can snap every man like a twig.

Who's that meant to be?

Oh it's her. That's her coffin.

Not a good likeness.

Poor Jack just sleeping in the dirt.

Is this going to be one of those "time is a closed circle" type deals? Jack killed Olivia, which let her be turned and corrupted. Jack convinces Bathory to fight, and she's turned. We'll see.

Why isn't the sunlight hurting her?

Yes Alexandra! Florian, quit being a chicken shit!

I'm getting a bad feeling about all this.

Yes Jack!

IS TIME A CLOSED CIRCLE!?

Poor Tricia...

Oh no this is bad...

SHIT WHAT!?

OH NO!!!

A VISION!

Yikes Tricia, that's not okay.

Michaela is just fucking batshit. I love her.

This feels more like a final act than an episode 2, so I'm thinking we're going back to the present soon.

Ooooh she's here!

Episode 3:

She is going to wreck Michaela's shit so hard

Yes girl...er, evil shadow spirit!

Tricia plays unfathomable evil so well.

Oh god please don't cut off Jack's arm.

Oh god it's so much worse!!!

No don't leave the evil flesh strip just LYING THERE!!!!!

Yep. She just made it night. God I love evil Tricia.

Jump cut to carnage. My favorite kind of jump cut.

You chicken shit piece of old man peasant garbage!!!!

I forget the rules, do Jack's cured cure other people?

She is so damn scary.

What is this damn scroll?

Is this how Bathory becomes evil?

Please tell me he's lying...

Yay... feminism?

YES KILL THAT BITCH!!!

I'm so worried about Bathory...

Never thought I'd utter those words.

DON'T TRUST HER!!!

YES! But also he's so dead...

Don't eat the baby please...

It's a trap!

I still think time is a closed circle here. They'll stop the Dark One now, but everything will turn out the same in the end.

I'm still living for badass Bathory though.

Obligatory battle scene.

Yay Florian! Chicken shit no more!

Motherly live?

Drink from the vampire teat!

Is this going to be a vampire baby?

Oh no did he axe Bathory!!!

Yes bite him!

We love a self aware noble.

Yeah why isn't he healing?

SHE'S SO FREAKING CREEPY! I LOVE HER!

Oh there's the scary Bathory voice...

Oh shit!

FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!

Michaela's back. That blows.

This is such a downer and it's only episode 3.

THIS FEELS LIKE SUCH AN ENDING!!!

Back to the present!

Ooooooh!

Okay, that's it for now. Back tomorrow with more.

[jadedragoness]

Review: Peace Talks

First Read Through Reaction

Now staring off, knowing that the book was essentially part one of two did mean that I went in expecting that there would be plot lines that wouldn’t be resolved. I did NOT expect that nearly zero of the plot lines would be resolved, at all. Yikes. Now, I’m not saying I didn’t enjoy it. I did. But it felt like there were 50 to 60 pages missing that should have been in the story to at least wrap up minor plot lines before heading into ‘Battle Ground’.

Warning: Full of Spoilers

Such the arrival of the Outsiders those Cornerhounds. Um… Outsiders and at no point that Harry wonder why in the hell they were called to Chicago? Or why they were targeting him and Ebenezer. Seriously, unless the author totally forgot we know that Outsiders can only be called by mortals. So human wizards brought them. So was it someone in the ‘Black Council’ or was it the Formor, since we know from previous stories that they grab humans and mind-whammy them and also modify them. And we know that they’ve been pretty focused on grabbing minor practioners for a couple of years now.

Hell, even just knowing why Thomas attacked the svartalf King would have been good to know in the book even if we don’t find out who it was yet.

That being said lets start of with things I didn’t like.

Thing Which I Wasn’t All that Pleased About:

1. Butters in that threesome relationship.

Now, let me explain, it’s not because its a poly relationship. I don’t even twitch over how Justine and Thomas include others in the sexual part of their relationship. It’s because I kept wondering if Marci was even into dudes. As far as I knew she was only into girls. And now she’s suddenly bi?

What the hell?

I think my reaction has a lot to do with how skewed the sexual orientation gradient in shown among Named characters. You have straight men. Straight women. Bi women who are shown to be blatantly into men and women…and that’s it, now.

No lesbian women with zero interest in men. No bi men. No gay men. No asexual characters. No trans characters. No gender fluid people.

I know that this due to the author’s eye and while it hasn’t irritated me much in the past as we keep getting more and more books with more newly introduced characters the lack is becoming more and more glaring to me. Especially, as I have drifted into reading other series that manage to be way more inclusive about this sort of thing in great and amazing ways *sighs happily over Rivers of London series*. And I don’t just mean in passing with random nameless scenery people that never talk which have popped up in the Dresden Files but with actual characters that have names, dialogue and contribute to the series.

So it really, really annoys me that Marci went from being the only lesbian who is a named character to joining the horde of bi women in the DF verse.

Okay, so its not really a Butters issue to much as a grumble about the spectrum of gender and sexually needing better representation.

*grumbles* Step up your game, Butcher.

I will add that I’m head-canoning that actually the relationship here is Butters with Andi, Andi with Butter and Marci, and Marci with Andi. That pretty much with Butters running around being the new Knight Andi didn’t like how her boyfriend wasn’t paying attention and gave Butters the ultimatum of letting Marci in as Andi’s girlfriend or they broke up.

… yeah, I’m totally liking that spin way, way better.

2. That Marcone took forever to show up! ARGH! I love him ok.

Considering how early he was name dropped in the story the amount of time it took him to show up… Jim Butcher is a damn Marcone-tease. *glares hotly in author’s direction*

3. I don’t like it that Murphy is so hurt. I don’t hate it. I think I’m just uneasy about the future implications.

Having reread the entire series before reading ‘Peace Talks’ I fully expected some lingering injury but not to that level. I’m actually worried about her chances of surviving any upcoming battle, and not just in Battle Ground. There’s even more danger coming down the pipeline in future books and she won’t let herself stay ‘safe’ when she could be watching Harry’s back… so its a worrying problem.

Now if she died I have no doubt that her being recruited to be a Valkerie is an option. But then I remembered how those warrior women go out into the world with ‘clients’ and of the two we’ve seen they’ve been attached to ‘monsters’ aka Lara and Marcone.

Unless, the payment isn’t cash and she can be attached to Harry. *hums in thought*

But then I have to wonder how much Murphy would accept that role. She’s also a pretty devout Catholic as this book reminded us so that is also something that would make her say no to the offer.

4. That the younger Wardens who had so looked up to Harry being so damned suspicious… ow. That hurt. I may have teared up and sniffled into a tissue thinking about it. And then sobbed because so much of it came from Carlos… Carlos! The man went into the Deeps with Harry! Ouch.

5. Rudolph… that roach.

Ugh, I’ve had the disturbing thought that now that magic and the supernatural on the path to being exposed to all of humanity, scared humanity too, that will end up with a resurgence of a new Inquisition and the killing of anything eldritch. And you know that Rudolph would definitely be in it. *shudders in disgust* Creep.

BTW I totally don’t believe that Rudolph answers to Marcone. It doesn’t make sense as to why he was so pushy go get Harry during ‘Changes’. I had thought he was answering to the Red Court but with them being taken out of the picture… now I wonder if he isn’t answerable to the Black Council.

Things I Did Not Expect:

1. Damn… when Ebenezer sent that spell through Harry and ‘killing’ I was so shocked even though I was pretty sure there was a twist coming. Mostly because of what it says about Ebenezer.

Ebenezer actions killed Harry.

Sure it was a fake body that brought no harm to the real Harry. But if Harry hadn’t thought ahead? If he hadn’t used his brain to ask Molly to create a fake? Eb would have killed his own grandson.

Sure it was an accident but it could so easy have resulted in a dead Harry. I was crying so hard I wondered if my eyeballs were loosening in their sockets. Argh.

2. Bonea…. Harry your naming skills are simply weird. I’m so glad that Susan named Maggie.

Although Bonnie is a pretty great nickname.

Thinks I Found Utterly Hilarious

1. The line about the best offense being a T-Rex? Gold. Pure gold.

2. When Harry figured out there are angels in the hilt of the Swords of the Cross and Butter’s immediate reaction of horror because he’d accidentally laundered the hilt, giving it a ride in a washing machine.

OMG! I had the instant image of a miniature angel screaming and growing dizzy when going through the spin cycle.

I know that makes no sense but that’s where my mind went, okay.

3. The conjuritis. Omg, it’s so gross with all the ectoplasm leaking from Harry’s nose but it’s sooooo funny. Also the way he kept getting the ‘aren’t you too old for this’ from Ebenezer and then Lara made me giggle even harder.

Then I thought: dude, it’s like chicken pox, something you got as a kid but if you never had it you get it when exposed later in life. So one of his kids has it. Probably Maggie too.

4. When Sanya pretended to have his hand lopped off. I straightened up and was so worried Sanya had lost a hand. Then when I realized he was pretending to freak out Butters and Harry I admit to laughing way too hard. Got me too.’

Also there’s no way that Sanya was actually defeated there. He’s younger and better trained then Butters, I don’t care how light (Heh) the new sword is. He definitely threw that fight to test his hunch.

5. Murphy’s inability to handle being flirted on with a red-headed warrior woman. Sooooo funny. I mean, Murphy could have said a number of things such as ‘I’m exclusive.’ or ‘I’m not interested in women.’ But she just floundered. Heh heh.

6. I continue to find it completely hilarious that Lara, a couple of centuries old vampire, seems to keep learning a lot of power moves from Marcone.

Such as: having trained fighters that are NOT food, well… mostly. Having those mines installed in the walls. And now hiring a Valkerie of her very own.

I keep thinking, yeah, there’s no way she’d win in a fight against Marcone because there’ s no way that Marcone has let slip all of his tricks.

Things I Really, Really Liked:

1. Marcone. Everything Marcone. *heart-eyes*

And then he proves why he’s so damned scary by standing up to the Titan. Then to the ghouls. Then after proving his bad-ass quotient if off the charts he gets everyone organized to fight.

Yeeessss… It proves to me that when it comes to protecting Chicago he is actually the best person after Harry. Hell, in some ways he’s better than Harry. Now, I’m not saying he’s a white knight or anything like that. Just that he has the intelligence, the ruthlessness, the will, the power and the men to provide the most protection to the city’s mortal denizens. At least when there’s a war raging with multiple enemies who will be attacking at various points.

And oh, I can’t wait to see how he’s going to get revenge for the death of his people. Omg, he’s going to kill the Formor so hard. *goes starry eyed thinking about more Marcone*

But why did he have to appear so late in the book?! *wails in a heart-rending fashion*

There better be a ton more Marcone in the next book! *makes desperate gimme gimme hands*

No, I don’t have a Marcone addiction… I can stop anytime I want to. *sneaks off to mainline some “Even Hand” straight into the brain*

2. The return of Goodman Grey! Oh, I hope he’s around a lot! I’ve really grown to like him.

<b>Things Which Blew My Mind or Were Just Freaking Awesome: </b>

1. Dad!Harry is actually the most amazing Harry. Forget the magic flinging and the fire storms… this is the best Harry.

Just the way he takes care of his kids…. *turns to mush like ectoplasm*

2. Murphy and Harry are finally together! Yay! Yay! Hip hip hooray!

Now, I’m a rather shameless Marcone/Dresden fic writer, but as I never ever expect this to be canon I’m content to write it as fanfic for my own sense of delight. However when it comes to canon I’m full on board with the Karrin and Harry relationship. Be it friendship or romantic, I think its great.

3. Marcone… that is all.

Random Speculation

1. I find myself wondering about Ebenezer’s rage against vampires. And my brain muttered this theory: Maybe Harry’s grandmother was killed by White Court vampires.

Whoa.

It would explain the vitrolic rage.

And if Lara was involved it would also explain her flash of shame.

We don’t know anything about Harry’s grandmother, not even her name. So… that’s a thought.

2. River Shoulders teaching Harry.

Oh man, oh man, I hope Harry learns shape-shifting.

And thinking about it I had to wonder if the animal-shifting had anything to do with knowing the animal in question which of course made me think…

Harry should learn to shape-shift into a T-Rex.

He already knows how one is put together and the mind of one. And he knows that it’s possible to add extra mass to a shift from the Nevernever in the form of ectoplasm… so

Harrysarous Rex, baby…. I may have to write a fic with this premise.

3. Oh, if it’s possible to make a ectoplasmic body can Harry learn to make one for Bonea? After all Maggie would probably really enjoy getting to play with her little sister that way. Even if Harry can’t do it all the time and it wouldn’t last longer than a day. That would be delightful.

4. Okay, not this is more head-canon than speculation but… considering how hard Harry has been made to be analogous to Merlin I can’t help but wonder if Marcone is suppose to be Arthur’s analogue. So wielding Amorrachius *coughs*Excalibur*coughs* would make sense.

…it’s not just my Marcone-love talking dammit.

Speaking of Merlin, I’m convinced that he’s behind this whole ‘starborn’ thing. Seriously, otherwise its way too convenient that a wizard with that power is born every 666 years. It smacks of a spell.

And if that’s the case it also feeds into my pet theory that the whole reason we have Outsides at the Gates is because Merlin was the schmuck who drew them to our reality in the first place. And everything surrounding the war with the Outsiders are his attempts to try to fix what he broke.

*lost in pondering thoughts*

Things I Have Questions About

1. Did Harry forget he has The Ways Map from his mother? I would have thought he would have figured out a way (heh) to get to the island somehow. He was on it for so long I thought for sure he’d spend time exploring it. Also we knew from ‘Skin Game’ that even tiny factors can change where the Way goes in the Nevernever. I doubt the ENTIRE island has Ways that lead to a bad place. Especially for Harry now that he’s the Warden.

2. Also why didn’t Harry get Lea to help him? After all unless she’s moved it since ‘Changes’ her garden is still on the other side of the sub-basement.

3. What did Lara use that first favor from Mab on? *eyes her suspiciously*

4. Where are the Za Lord’s Guard? *wondering about what been happening with Lacuna and Toot-toot*

5. If Harry gets kicked out of the White Council (good riddance, since they haven’t exactly been all that helpful lately) can he get enough signatures to be added as a member of the Accords in his own right? After all being Warden of Demonreach has got to mean a lot to the older members.

Then he wouldn’t be reliant on Mab’s protection.

I can’t help but hope this proves to be the case, especially if in ‘Battle Ground’ Harry ends up taking down that Titan. Because he needs as much protection and influence he can gather if he’s no longer White Council to protect himself, his people and his kids. Especially if he eventually gets rid of that Winter Knight mantle like I hope he does.

6. How in the hell (pardon the pun) did evil demon Sasquatch survive being turned to mush by Hade’s Ice Gate? Or the shades that were part of the security system that almost got Harry?

*frowns* The only reason I can think of would be the coin of Ursiel being the factor. I doubt a Fallen Angel is allowed to stick around in the Greek realm of the afterlife.

7. WHERE IS BOB?! Seriously, if Butters doesn’t give him back...

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           hi  kids  !  wow  ,  we’re  already  at  opening  and  that’s  so  crazy  !  i’m  kofi  ,  your  co - admin  ,  and  i’m  so  excited  that  you  guys  are  here  !  i’m  23  ,  from  the  est  tz  ,  prefer  she / they  pronouns  and  i  graduate  from  college  in  a  little  more  than  seven  months  ...  yikes  .  that  being  said  ,  i’m  ready  to  introduce  you  guys  to  my  latest  muse  ,  who  may  have  huge  development  changes  as  we  go  on  because  of  him  being  brand  new  ,  mr  .  saint  moon  !  he’s  um  ...  something  of  a  mess  and  idk  if  i  love  or  hate  him  yet  ,  but  i’m  happy  to  plot  with  ya’ll  on  my  d.iscord  @  𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐣𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐜𝐲.#4090  !

            (  lee  juyeon ,  22  ,  cis  male  ,  he / him  )  *  fun  fact  about  me  ?  okay  ,  let’s  see  .  .  .   an  injury  stopped  my  promising  olympic  career  .  crazy  ,  right  ?  i’m  saint  moon  ,  i  live  in  the  contemporary  new  build  with  a  three  thousand  square  foot  outdoor  patio  on  ocean  lane  in  key  biscayne  , &  not  to  brag  ,  but  my  family’s  worth  around  $740  million  .  pretty  decent  for  real  estate  and  construction  developers  ,  huh  ?  we’ve  been  around  for  some  time  ,  but  in  town  ,  everyone’s  always  associated  me  with  the  gatsbys  ;  but  it’s  not  like  that’s  my  whole  identity  ,  or  anything  .  while  filming  for  key  biscayne  ,  it  was  surprising  when  i’d  get  dragged  on  twitter  for  being  “  errant  ,  impetuous  ,  &  rancorous  ,   ”  but  the  cameras  don’t  see  everything  ,  &  my  real  fans  know  that  i’m  nothing  but  coolheaded  ,  venturesome  ,  &  enamoring  .  i’m  not  too  bothered  by  it  though  ,  because  since  the  series  ended  ,  i’ve  opened  a  highly  successful  café  in  south  korea  and  planning  to  expand  to  the  states  .  follow  me  on  instagram  @SNT.MN  to  keep  up  . 

name  :  saint  moon  .

nickname(s)  :  none  .

age  +  date  of  birth  :  22  +  july  19th  ,  1998  .

astrological  sign  :  cancer  .

myers - briggs  personality  type  :  infj  .

enneagram  type  :  the  individualist  .

moral  alignment  :  chaotic  neutral  .

gender  +  pronouns  :  cis  man  +  he / him / his  .

place  of  birth  :  gangnam  ,  south  korea  .

place  of  residence  :  key  biscayne  ,  florida  .

sexual  orientation  :  bisexual  .

romantic  orientation  :  biromantic  .

occupation  :  former  reality  star  /  instagram  influencer  /  café  owner  .

nationality  :  korean  .

ethnicity  :  korean  .

language(s)  spoken  :  korean  ,  english  ,  japanese  ,  and  learning  mandarin  .

social  media  handle  :  @SNT.MN

THE  BACKSTORY  .

            saint’s  story  starts  when  his  parents  ,  moon  ji - ho  and  park  soo - ah  went  on  their  first  date  .  in  truth  ,  it  had  been  a  rare  instance  of  love  at  first  sight  when  they  bumped  into  each  other  at  ji - ho’s  office  in  seoul  ,  and  the  date  was  only  used  to  solidify  their  feelings  .  you  see  ,  ji - ho  and  soo - ah  were  fairly  well  known  with  ji - ho  being  the  second  heir  to  moon  industries  alongside  his  sister  ,  moon  eun -  ha  .  moon  industries  was  founded  in  the  1940s  ,  and  is  known  primarily  for  their  real  estate  and  construction  business  .  the  company  was  founded  in  seoul  ,  and  originally  started  out  by  purchasing  and  renovating  beautiful  homes  and  condominiums  within  the  city  .  after  thirty  years  in  the  business  ,  ji - ho  and  eun - ha’s  father  was  one  of  the  first  in  south  korea  to  reach  the  status  of  billionaire  .

            ji - ho  and  soo -ah  were  looking  to  forge  their  own  path  ,  though  .  although  they  were  lucky  enough  to  have  wealthy  parents  ,  both  of  them  have  always  liked  the  idea  of  working  for  themselves  and  getting  their  hands  dirty  .  so  ,  they  refused  ji - ho’s  father’s  investment  and  decided  to  start  their  own  real  estate  firm  .  they  went  through  the  process  of  obtaining  their  real  estate  license  in  both  south  korea  and  the  united  states  ,  specifically in  florida  .  after  studying  hard  ,  they  were  able  to  open  moon  real  estate  ,  and  it  was  a  hassle  for  them  .  they  initially  ‘ struggled ’  seeing  as  though  they  were  their  only  employees  ,  and  soon  ,  soo - ah  discovered  that  she  was  pregnant  with  their  son  .

            for  four  years  ,  they  worked  hard  with  their  bumbling  baby  boy  ,  saint  ,  crawling  at  their  feet  and  curiously  looking  at  home  or  building  buyers  .  for  a  long  time  ,  they  considered  saint  to  be  their  closer  as  he  was  the  selling  point  and  allowed  people  to  hold  him  while  looking  at  the  home  .  usually  ,  soo - ah  would  use  saint  as  a  marketing  ploy  whenever  they  were  trying  to  sell  to  young  couples  ,  and  it  always  worked  .  the  moons  became  known  for  saint  syndrome  ,  where  those  same  young  couples  would  typically  call  to  say  that  they  were  expecting  within  a  year  of  buying  their  home  .  it  only  took  a  few  years  ,  but  the  moons  were  soon  raking  in  their  own  money  without  the  help  of  ji - ho’s  father  .  

            when  saint  was  six  ,  his  family  relocated  to  key  biscayne  ,  florida  .  life  was  easy  living  on  the  water  ,  and  his  parents  continued  to  sell  gorgeous  homes  both  in  seoul  and  in  the  wealthy  neighborhoods  of  florida  .  with  such  a  lifestyle  ,  it  wasn’t  unheard  of  for  saint  to  excel  at  his  private  school  ,  where  he  was  known  for  his  academic  prowess  as  well  as  his  ability  to  play  both  the  piano  and  the  cello  .  saint  was  a  fairly  popular  student  while  growing  up  ,  and  it  showed  when  the  moons  would  host  their  annual  christmas  party  .

            he  was  fourteen  when  he  finally  started  to  understand  the  rivalry  between  thoroughbreds  and  gatsbys  .  originally  ,  he  put  off  like  he  didn’t  care  ,  but  in  reality  he  was  trying  to  figure  it  out  .  the  moons  were  a  special  case  ,  considering  that  ji - ho  was  clearly  an  heir  to  a  billion  dollar  fortune  ,  but  also  had  become  wealthy  in  his  own  right  thanks  to  his  business  with  his  wife  .  saint  never  understood  that  jabs  and  jeers  that  he  would  receive  from  thoroughbreds  ,  because  to  him  ,  they  were  all  rich  so  what  the  hell  did  it  matter  ?  he  eventually  began  to  side  more  with  the  gatsbys  ,  never  understanding  why  the  thoroughbreds  felt  as  though  they  needed  to  stick  their  noses  up  in  the  air  at  them  .

            within  two  years  ,  though  ,  saint  seems  to  have  changed  for  the  worse  .  while  his  grades  may  be  good  ,  he  begins  to  spend  more  time  with  new  friends  in  miami  .  while  there  ,  he  surrounds  himself  with  fast  cars  and  short  nights  ,  but  he  thinks  it’s  his  parents’  fault  for  buying  him  a  488  spider  for  his  sixteenth  birthday  .  saint  began  to  get  into  trouble  ,  often  pulled  over  for  speeding  and  reckless  driving  to  impress  his  friends  .  like  always  ,  a  star  is  meant  to  fall  ,  and  it  all  came  crashing  down  for  saint  when  he  thought  that  drag  racing  on  u.s.  route  1  was  a  good  idea  .  he  assumed  that  he  could  lose  the  cops  ,  but  he  was  stupid  for  ever  thinking  so  --  he  totaled  the  $1.3m  dollar  car  ,  and  after  being  treated  for  minor  injuries  ,  he  was  booked  in  the  county  jail  .

            having  rich  parents  seems  to  be  all  fun  and  games  considering  they  were  barely  able  to  get  him  out  with  a  slap  on  the  wrist  ,  but  that  very  same  night  they  sent  him  away  on  a  business  plane  to  live  with  his  no - nonsense  grandparents  .  for  the  first  year  ,  saint  pouted  and  argued  ,  screamed  and  kicked  over  being  trapped  in  seoul  .  he  tried  to  escape  the  fortress  of  a  house  in  pyeongchang  ,  attempted  to  ditch  his  security  guards  when  he  went  out  in  public  ,  but  he  eventually  realized  that  there  was  no  getting  out  of  this  .  so  ,  he  made  the  most  out  of  it  :  he  finished  school  ,  and  during  his  senior  year  with  the  help  of  his  grandparents  ,  saint  opened  goodnight  moon  ,  a  late  night  café  that  appealed  to  college  students  and  late  workers  in  need  of  a  coffee  and  pastry  pick  me  up  .  the  café  went  viral  ,  and  so  did  the  handsome  owner  .

            he  returned  home  when  he  was  twenty  ,  and  discovered  that  key  biscayne  was  filming  .  as  the  resident  who  suddenly  disappeared  ,  saint  was  sought  after  by  the  producers  and  was  introduced  mid - way  through  the  second  season  .  

THE  SHOW  .

saint  and  his  family  were  not  introduced  on  key  biscayne  until  midway  through  season  two  .  he  was  introduced  as  most  table  shakers  would  be  ,  with  a  flurry  of  local  headlines  ranging  from  KEY  BISCAYNE  TEEN  ARRESTED  FOR  DRAG  RACING  and  HOW  MONEY  GETS  YOU  OUT  OF  A  JAIL  SENTENCE  .  his  parents  didn’t  like  the  idea  of  being  on  a  reality  series  ,  so  they  weren’t  featured  although  there  were  a  few  scenes  with  them  .

he  was  the  reality  show  villain  and  you  can’t  tell  me  otherwise  !  showed  up  with  an  air  of  what  the  fUCk  ever  and  despite  the  air  around  him  since  he  was  arrested  and  shipped  back  to  south  korea  ,  he  never  let  that  stop  him  ?  like  ofc  he’s  a  rich  boy  who  got  away  with  something  bc  he’s  rich  ,  but  it’s  not  that  he  doesn’t  acknowledge  it  ,  he  just  chooses  not  to  talk  about  it  .

was  definitely  the  subject  of  show  cliffhangers  ,  probably  nearly  got  kicked  off  the  show  because  of  his  short  temperament  and  despite  all  that  would  still  be  invited  to  the  reunions  because  he  would  always  start  some  shit  .  he  was  very  vocal  about  who  he  didn’t  like  on  the  show  ,  and  probably  had  good  chemistry  with  a  cast  mate  and  fans  of  the  show  always  pushed  for  them  to  become  a  thing  (  a  wc  ...  mayhaps  👀 )  but  they  were  never  anything  more  than  friends  .

by  the  end  of  the  show  ,  saint  was  that  cast  member  that  fans  love  to  hate  .  he  was  employee  of  the  month  ,  and  that’s  on  period  !  gave  what  he  was  supposed  to  gave  and  was  highkey  problematic  (  not  in  a  bad  way  ,  but  in  a  way  where  he  was  always  the  one  in  the  middle  of  some  shit  )  and  when  people  would  question  him  about  it  ofc  he  didn’t  care  KFNDSJBFS  .

THE  PERSONALITY  .

a  little  shit  .  that’s  it  .  that’s  all  you  need  to  know  .  although  he’s  standoffish  ,  still  has  his  insecurities  because  he’s  not  the  ‘  perfect  ’  son  that  his  parents  pushed  for  him  to  be  .  very  much  so  the  black  sheep  of  the  family  ,  and  is  deemed  as  a  lost  cause  by  his  thespian  of  a  mother  ,  so  he  figures  that  he  might  as  well  live  up  to  that  name  .  comes  across  as  someone  who  genuinely  doesn’t  care  ,  and  he  doesn’t  KFDBJSFSD  .  sometimes  only  looks  out  for  himself  which  adds  more  sand  into  the  asshole  bin  ,  and  he  hates  being  asked  ‘  dumb  ’  questions  .  it’s  a  pet  peeve  that  his  mom  thinks  he  picked  up  from  his  father  .

THE  HEADCANONS  .

he  does  not  want  to  be  your  friend  KFNDSFUS  .  he  can  be  very  standoffish  just  to  get  that  point  across  ,  and  he  doesn’t  interact  with  people  outside  of  a  chosen  few  .  

can  be  wildly  off  putting  and  while  someone  else  may  be  afraid  of  confrontation  ,  he  isn’t  !  might  be  the  subject  of  bar  brawls  and  minor  scraps  because  he  genuinely  does  not  know  how  to  shut  the  hell  up  .

hates  walnuts  ;  idk  why  that’s  important  but  it  is  .  serve  him  something  with  walnuts  in  it  and  he’ll  never  talk  to  you  again  .

romantically  and  emotionally  stunted  ,  therefore  he  bides  his  time  with  casual  sex  and  noncommittal  acts  of  romance  .  can  be  found  slipping  out  of  beds  in  the  middle  of  the  night  ,  never  returns  texts  ,  and  at  times  will  pretend  that  he  doesn’t  know  who  the  other  person  is  (  ew  !  )  .

a  chaotic  boy  with  a  heart  of  gold  ,  he  just  doesn’t  show  it  and  has  mastered  the  art  of  being  fake  .  

despite  his  repulsion  of  romance  and  relationships  ,  he’ll  flirt  with  anyone  that  has  a  pair  of  legs  ,  and  he  quite  honestly  might  call  someone  daddy  just  for  the  hell  of  it  KNFDH  . 

probably  posts  those  outfit  thirst  traps  on  instagram  reels  or  tik  tok  bc  he’s  annoying  .

THE  CONNECTIONS  .

an  angsty  ex  boyf  👀 if  i  have  to  BEG  for  it  i  will  !  and  i  promise  to  make  you  cry  xD

a  best  friend  pls  !  someone  who  has  been  friends  with  him  since  before  he  was  shipped  back  to  korea  for  a  few  years  so  when  he  came  back  and  was  on  the  show  ,  they  were  THE  dynamic  duo  .

i’ve  been  really  into  his  plot  but  someone  he  works  out  with  ?  maybe  they  don’t  work  out  together  per  say  ,  but  they’re  somehow  always  at  the  community  gym  at  the  same  time  .

something  soft  ?  something  so  sweet  that  it  would  make  my  teeth  rot  ?  could  either  be  a  boyfriend  or  girlfriend  thing  or  tbh  i  don’t  know  but  i’m  literally  looking  for  something  that’s  all  fluff  and  all  marshmallows  and  if  i  don’t  get  it  then  i’ll  cry  .

a  plot  where  they  full  on  hate  each  other  .  none  of  that  cute  shit  KNFDNFHSD  .  no  lingering  feelings  ,  no  moments  of  hate lapse  --  they  hate  each  other  and  it’s  a  spicy  hate  ship  that  literally  gets  your  blood  pumping  .  

SKINNY  LOVE  ARE  YOU  THERE  ?

his  hoodrat  friends  NFDJNHFBD  i’m  kidding  but  i’m  thinking  like ...  a  billionaire  boys  club  type  of  thing  ?  perhaps  the  five  of  them  get  together  and  ppl  try  to  penetrate  the  group  or  they  have  these  instances   where  ppl  straight  up  hate  them  for  no  reason  ?  they  were  probably  the  TALK  of  the  show  bc  thought  they  were  assholes  KNFDJBFBD  idk  either  way  ,  my  hand  is  out  .  (  1  of  4  spots  filled  )

a  one  night  stand  with  some  substance  ?  like  yeah  ,  they  fuck  around  and  they  have  their  fun  together  but  they  don’t  pretend  to  not  know  each  other  in  public  (  unless  this  person  is  a  thoroughbred  and  i  oop  ,  chile  )  so  they  probs  tend  to  be  a  little  like  confidants  at  times  but  also  have  a  tendency  of  shutting  each  other  up  with  sex  .

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #258

“as above, so below, what you reap is what you sow. what you give comes back threefold, as above, so below.”

Who was your favorite cartoon character when you were a kid? Pikachu! Have you ever asked a guy out on a date? No. Who do you consider your best friend in your workplace? N/A Do you have to have your bed or anything else in your room a specific way before you go to sleep? I think I almost always have to be facing the left, but I can't really say with total certainty considering you don't really like... *realize* when you fall asleep. Have you changed your mind about anything lately? I've been on the fence about things. What do you dream about most? What is the general tone or mood of your dreams? They're either uncomfortable, melancholic run-ins with Jason or horrible nightmares about being attacked in some way and being incapable of fighting back. Do you mind going grocery shopping or is it something you enjoy? Does ANYBODY enjoy it?? If you could have a physical feature like wings, horns, a tail, ect., what would you have? GIVE ME RAM HORNS. What is something you wish more people understood about who you are as a person? A lot of my struggling goes on in my head. Like I think I'm relatively open about when I'm having a hard time, but it's come to my attention recently that there's a lot of battles people don't see and leads to the belief I give up easily. Have you ever gone through a time when you had no friends? How did you deal with it? No friends I ever hung out with or anything, yes. I just had to start reaching out and opening up a bit more, and that's when Colleen came in. What is your favorite food to have as a snack? It depends on what flavor I'm craving. Usually though, something sour and gummy. What time do you usually eat dinner? That can vary from as early as 5:30 to as late as like, 8:00. When was the last time you felt extremely happy? Like about a week ago, the second night Mom slept on the pull-out bed a family friend got us versus that damn couch she's slept on for years. Her doing it a second time was like, verification that she was more comfortable and would keep doing it, which she has. Has any food ever made you sick to the point where you’d be afraid to try it again? No, thankfully. What is something you wish you had the opportunity to do more often? Get out of the house. Do you have any interests or hobbies you thought you would outgrow, but haven’t? I wasn't sure if I would ever "outgrow" RP. Apparently I won't. Is there an outfit that you wear much more frequently than any other? There are a few shirts, yeah. How old is your television? We got it when my parents were still together, so it's old. Do you have a laptop or desktop? A laptop. Do you own any television series box sets? Just Meerkat Manor. Have you ever been in a fight with your best friend? Yeah. Was the last movie you watched a horror film? No. Where is your favorite place to go when you’re depressed? On a car ride where I can blast my music. In high school, were you in trouble a lot? No. I only ever got in trouble for too many tardies in the morning. Do you enjoy your hairstyle? Yeah. Do you have weak upper body strength? Yikes yes. Do you think hugs are awkward? Not if they're friends or similar. People I don't like and/or know well but am expected to hug anyway, yes, it's uncomfortable. Story of my life with my sister's in-laws. Do you think facial hair is gross? ... No...? I mean sure, if it's not groomed it can be, but it's very natural and normal? Would you ever dye your hair an unnatural color? UGH I want to. My hair has such a hard time holding color... Has anyone ever been weirdly obsessed with you? No. What is your favorite band of all time? Ozzy Osbourne. Always. Would you consider getting a tattoo any time soon? Literally ASAP. I was supposed to get my Mark one tidied up big big time for my birthday by a really professional artist with both holiday and birthday money, but Mom literally had to use it to keep this house and the car. It was admittedly frustrating, but I could tell she was far from happy about it and I can't *rightfully* be pissy about it. Then the cancer came along and threw a massive wrench in the plan, so now idk when that's happening now. What movie did you last watch with someone? I THINK it was the live action The Lion King with Dad. It's been a long time. Are you afraid of airplane rides? Not very actively, no. I acknowledge the risk, but it's not something I deeply worry about. If you’re reading a book, what page are you currently on? Don't have a book to read currently; I just finished the second Wings of Fire book, now I'm moving onto The Testaments by Margaret Atwood when we can order it over Amazon. Do you have a job you like? I don't have a job period. Have you ever lived with a roommate before? Yeah. How many scarves do you own, if any at all? Maybe one? If even that. Did you tell your last girlfriend/boyfriend that you love them? Yeah. What was the last thing your parents got mad at you for? Idk about Dad, but Mom... probably something I said? But I'm not sure. Do your pets have favorites? I'm the only one who handles Venus, and I'm Roman's favorite. How many people could sleep comfortably in the room you’re in? Just two if we share the bed. Would you like to have a treadmill in your house? I DESPERATELY want one. My legs are getting bad again now that I haven't physically been in school for what, a month? What’s the longest you’ve ever liked someone without telling them? Well, that would be Girt, but I went on-and-off with like-liking him for years... Since freshman year, really. It's hard to say because of my mind constantly changing. When is the last time you were on a swingset? Wow, no clue. At sleepovers, do you usually sleep on a bed, couch or floor? I haven't had one of those in too long of a time to really tell you. It would depend on the relationship, too. What’s the sweetest thing a gf/bf can do to get you to forgive them? Changed behavior. How hot does the temperature get in the summer where you live? High 90s/lower 100s. Was the last hoodie you wore too big for you? No. Did it belong to someone else? No. Have you ever taken Ambien to fall asleep? I was given it at the hospital, but it never did much for me. Did your last ex try to get back together with you after the break-up? No. Do you know someone who has 6 or more siblings? Possibly, but I don't think so. Do you rent movies frequently? Nope. What is your favorite thing to do outside? Take pictures. Will we ultimately end up destroying our own race? Yup. How do you think the world will end? Human life, climate change. Earth itself, probably like a meteor or black hole or something. I believe the universe itself will always exist. An alien ship lands at your house, and they want you. Do you go with them? Errrr no. If I even had the option. What’s your favorite meal to cook? I don't cook. Homework: Do you actually READ the chapters, or just skim through them? I read. I'd be too nervous about missing vital info to skim. If you were in a horror flick, would you be one of the first ones to die? Probably, but it depends on the predicament, I guess? What movie has been taken WAY too far, as far as sequels go? I don't know. I'm not a film buff. Do you refuse to eat certain foods because of what they look like? Yep. Green olives, for example, look so fuckin gross to me. Would you ever become a fan of a team you hate to please your spouse? No? Can you handle scary movies? I love scary movies. I enjoy the adrenaline of 'em. How often do you get a new purse…and for guys a new wallet? Not often at all. What is the most money that you have ever spent on getting your nails done? Never done that. Do you have a fake I.D.? Nope. Would you date someone 5 years older than you? Yeah. Have you ever been fingered? Yes. What is your favorite horror movie? Hmmm. I've got a bias towards Silent Hill, of course, but I also really enjoy both The Blair Witch Project movies, as well as The Crazies. Has a little kid ever fallen asleep on your lap before? Yeah. What’s your favorite kind of float? (coke, root beer) I can't remember the last time I had one of those. If you heard your best friend’s significant other was cheating on them, would you tell them? Even if you couldn’t prove it? UM yes. I mean it kinda depends on who told me this, like it could be total bullshit, but, they'd deserve to know that there was a possibility. If you discovered you were pregnant at this point in time, would you keep it or abort it? Why? If I got pregnant now, it'd have to be a case of rape, in which case I would probably abort, considering I'd be fucking traumatized worse than I already was. What is the last thing you googled? Uhhh shit. I think the definition for a word to ensure I was using it correctly? Have you ever jumped off a high dive into a pool? Nooo. I always wanted to as a kid, but I was ultimately too scared. Do you like hot, cold, or lukewarm showers? Hot, usually. Do you plan on having both your parents at your wedding? Yes. Where did your mother and father meet for the first time? I think work. Have you ever stayed in a cheap motel? No. I'm too much of a germaphobe for that. Have you been to Mount Rushmore? No. Do you sleep with the door open, kinda open, or completely closed? Open or kinda open, depending on if the cat moves it or not. How old were you when you got chicken pox? Never got it. What’s your sexual orientation? Bisexual. Do you have full or thinner lips? Uh idk, they look pretty normal to me. Which of the Pirates of the Caribbean's was your favorite? Never watched 'em. Do you press the delete key or the backspace key to get rid of a mistake? Backspace. How far do you live from your parents? I live with one. How many family photos do you have in your home? Like, on display/the walls? A pretty decent amount. Are you happy with how much money you make? I make none, so like... guess. Are you the type of person that will parallel park? Fuck that. To you, what is “the best thing since sliced bread”? Probably the Internet. Do you read and believe your horoscope? No. Do you have rules for naming your future children? I'm not having kids, but if I was to, no. Which actor, in your opinion, played the best Batman? I haven't seen them all. Have you ever TURNED DOWN an invite to a wedding? Why? No. Do you believe people should get married in a church? lol get married wherever the fuck you want. Name a movie everyone else thought was funny, but you couldn’t stand: *shrugs* Does the mall you go to have an arcade? Do you go in there? No. What is your favorite Little Debbie snack? This is ACTUALLY impossible. Don't ask me this question lmao. Got any interesting wigs? I don't have any wigs. What Mario game was your least favorite, and why? I've literally only ever played Mario Kart. I'm not that interested in the games. Have you ever been snowed in? Not to where like, we couldn't go outside. Does playing games in 2-D bother you because you now play mostly 3-D games? Oh no. Graphics absolutely do not make a game. Sure, they're more desirable considering it greatly improves immersion, but still. Sometimes 2D fits the "vibe" of the game. Tell the weirdest name of a town/city you’ve ever heard: Conetoe. You're pronouncing it wrong. Do you know anyone who DOESN’T have a cell phone? I don't think so. Do you like pineapple? Oh yeah. Do you get a flu jab each year? No, but I should start. Did you ever dream about being an animal? Maybe? Idk. What's your favourite colour on a dog? Orange/red. Do you have an electric or gas cooker? Gas. What do you like to drink at a restaurant? I usually get a soda. If we're at some fancy place for once, I'll usually get some light, fruity alcohol. What was the last book you read that also is a film? I don't have a clue. Have you always known what you've wanted to do with your life, career-wise? It's changed many, many times now. Would you stay at a haunted hotel? Hell yeah. What is the best HAND-MADE present you've ever received? It was this long, extremely sweet letter my mom wrote for my b-day two years back. It meant a lot to me. Have you ever gotten pizza delivered to your house that you didn't order? I don't believe so. Do you follow a 5-second rule after dropping food on the floor? NOOOOOOOOO sir. Did you take Flintstone vitamins or any others as a child? EW, no. We were lucky enough to have fruity chewy ones, not chalky crap. What types of things do you think the government is hiding from us? Oh my fucking god, a universe of information. Aliens probably being one of the least scary things. How do you like your soda: I think it tastes best cold from a can. Have you learned anything valuable today? No. What's your favorite kind of Doritos? Cool Ranch. Do your parents have MySpace pages? Mom has a Facebook. Be honest...ever peed in the pool? Noooo. When I was a kid, you went behind the pool and handled that. Have you ever pulled a fire alarm? Nope. Have you had your tonsils removed? No. Isn't Chef Boyardee awesome? Not a fan. What reality show has been taken WAY too far? I don't watch enough TV for this. Must you grab a souvenir from almost everywhere you go? Nah, not always. Did you enjoy making things out of Play-Doh as a child? I did. What do you put on hot dogs? Mustard and ketchup. Can you swim? Yeah. Hot dogs or cheeseburgers? Cheeseburgers. Your favorite hobby? Taking pictures, particularly of animals. Do you wear glasses? Yes. Do you have a phobia? Plenty. Can you drive a stick? Never tried. How many TVs are in your house? Two. Do you like to sing? Not very long. Favorite car? Idc. Is there anything (out of the obvious) that makes you feel really ill? Perhaps, but I'm not certain. Maybe some smell. WELL WAIT, gasoline can give me a real headache, but I don't feel like, REALLY sick. Do you know both of your biological parents? Which one do you prefer? Yes, and I don't want to choose between them. When was the last time you wrote so much your finger ached? My final exam for Writing last semester. What is something you think about yourself that nobody agrees with? Quite honestly, I wouldn't put extreme emphasis on my loyalty, but only because if you prove to me that you're undeserving of my friendship, trust, or anything like that, peace. I'm out. Family, friend, whatever; I don't care. Yet most people who know me have pointed out I'm extremely loyal, but really in all cases I can think of, I remained loyal because the person was worthy of it. What about something people think of you that you don’t agree with? This depends on the person and situation of course, but mostly, that I put on a damn good front of not being a socially anxious mess. Teachers and friends have pointed that out quite a bit, but I could NOT disagree more. I think I do awfully. What design is on your calendar this year? I don't have a current one. What is your favorite type of video game? Horror. What’s the weather like where you live? (All year round, not today) The baseline is IT'S HOT. Even our winters are - usually - very mild. Summer usually soaks the shit out of us; afternoon storms are literally an almost daily occurrence, so as you can imagine, the humidity could kill a man. The weather in general is very unpredictable year-round. When was the last time you climbed a tree? I've never actually properly done so. I grew up with almost exclusively pine trees, which only have branches much too high to climb.

[lets-talk-appella]

2018 Fic Roundup

I was tagged by @aliciameade​ and @acabellas​, so thanks for that you two! Okay actually this was loads of fun to do because I’ve only been writing fic since like April/May so here we go:

Total 2018 Word Count: 206,438 - not gonna lie, pretty proud of that

Total 2018 Hits: 33,768 on AO3. No idea on FFN because the website won’t tell me

Other 2018 AO3 Stats: Kudos: 1921 Comment Threads: 177 Bookmarks: 218 Subscriptions: 121

Links & Titles to 2018 Works: There are 30 - literally everything I’ve done has been this year - so I put a break.

Four Sambucas - 987 words, Not rated Beca is the DJ at a popular club and she's just doing her thing when an incredibly drunk Chloe confuses her with the bartender.

Jealousy’s a Bitch... or Maybe it’s Just the German - 15,171 words, G All Beca/Kommissar interactions in PP2 (plus some additional content) as told from Chloe’s POV. Basically, an extremely jealous Chloe Beale. Largely cannon, but I added some things in the middle and at the end. Part of a series, but can stand alone. “PP3 Doesn’t Exist Here” series #1

Just a Joke? - 1,316 words, G When Jesse says something serious to Beca, meaning it as a joke, she freaks out and goes to the one person she can open up to: Chloe. Part of a series, but can stand alone. “PP3 Doesn’t Exist Here” series #2

Chloe’s Secret - 7,364, G Chloe needs to know why Jesse broke up with Beca, so she secretly goes to LA to confront him for hurting her best friend. Takes place about five months after PP2 and is part of a series, but can stand alone. “PP3 Doesn’t Exist Here” series #3

That’s When She Knew - 4,214, G In which Beca finally wakes up to realize that she’s been in love with Chloe this entire time. Much fluff ahead, enter at your own risk. Takes place just under a year after graduation/Worlds/PP2. Part of a series, but can stand alone. “PP3 Doesn’t Exist Here” series #4

Expectations - 7,801, T The immediate follow up to That’s When She Knew (this will make more sense if you read that first), in which Beca and Chloe finally admit their feelings to one another. After leaving Central Park, they go back to their apartment and Beca believes that Chloe seems to have some… expectations of where things should be headed next. Of course, she panics. Part of a series. “PP3 Doesn’t Exist Here” series #5

Spooning Looks Easier in the Movies - 2,716, G Sure, they’d decided to wait before getting really intimate together in their new relationship. That doesn’t keep Beca from being a little awkward about sharing the bed for the first time since they’ve told each other about their feelings. Part of a series. “PP3 Doesn’t Exist Here” series #6

Reality - 23,703 (listen I got excited), M Continuing the series and following the established Bechloe line, this follows Beca and Chloe as they figure out life as a new couple. Specifically, how they prepare for their first time. Smut, but more in a making love way. “PP3 Doesn’t Exist Here” series #7

Accidents Happen - 1,892, G A different take on the Activities Fair from Beca's freshman year. Or, Bechloe Week 2018 day 1 - prompt "accidental kiss."

The Underwear Incident - 3,967, Not Rated Beca Mitchell is one of the most famous music artists in America. She gets a lot of attention from her fans, which occasionally makes Chloe a little jealous... established Bechloe. For Bechloe Week Day 2 - Jealousy.

Don’t Touch Her - 3,504, T Getting drunk texts from Chloe is nothing new for Beca. However, when the messages become alarming, Beca races into action. Part of Bechloe Week Day Three - Drunk Texting.

How to Break Beca Mitchell with Six Words - 473, G Submission for Bechloe Week Day Four - Why. Angst ahead. Read at your own risk.

The Eight Times Aubrey Posen Had to Ask Why - 7,482, T Aubrey prides herself on knowing her best friend, so to suddenly not know what Chloe's thinking is alarming to say the least. Or, the times Aubrey was confused about Bechloe's relationship and had to ask about it. Alternate Bechloe Week Day Four - Why.

Five Minutes - 2,661, G Beca and Jesse have gone on a road trip meant to seal their future together, leaving Chloe devastated. She gives up entirely, hiding away from the world... but then, there's a knock on the door. For Bechloe Week 2018 - Road Trip.

Sealing the Crack - 2,215, G When Chloe's valuable good luck charm breaks in an accident, Beca is there to pick up the pieces. For Bechloe Week Day Six - Good Luck Charm.

Come Home to Me - 10,377, T Chloe dishes herself out some of the pasta, being sure to save a good amount for Beca. She chases it around her plate with her fork, suddenly not feeling particularly hungry. She finds herself glancing out the window at their empty driveway with increasing frequency. Beca really should have been home by now.

Amy’s Limit - 2,461, G This came from Tumblr Prompt - "Stop being so cute," but I decided to add it to the series because I thought it fit well. This follows the events of "Reality," and is established Bechloe. Told from Amy's POV. Pure fluff and horrible pick-up likes ahead, read at your own risk. “PP3 Doesn’t Exist Here” series #8

Fallen Leaves, Fallen Bellas - 35,086, T “It’s not true, though,” Chloe’s voice jarred them from their thoughts. “I mean, it can’t be. Ghosts aren’t real, and they definitely don’t kill people. You made that up to scare us, right?” she asked Aubrey, smiling uncertainly. Aubrey didn’t smile back. Or, a horror-themed twist on the Lodge at Fallen Leaves. Originally for Pitch Perfect Horror Week 2018.

Restless Nights - 5,706, M Prompt: "If you can't sleep... we could have sex?"

I Want to See You be Brave - 3,065, G Prompt: "I'm your lock screen?!" "You weren't supposed to see that." For this one, I did an alternate version of the "Confession Scene" following the fight for the pitch pipe in PP1. Enjoy!

Naked Mole Rats Aren’t Endangered - 4,052, G Based on Tumblr prompt - "That’s my ex-boyfriend/girlfriend.” - “Well, kiss me so they see.” Honestly a little ridiculous.

Black Sabbath - 4,783, T For Tumblr prompt "Don't do that again! You scared the shit out of me!" This is set during Beca's junior year, meaning that Emily isn't here, sadly. Enjoy!

Dangerous - 5,307, M A spin-off on the last motorcycle prompt. This is pure smut, actually no plot whatsoever but with the added motorcycle imagery from the last chapter. So, yeah. If you don't want to taint the motorcycle fic, look away now! I also want to give a shout-out to Redlance's excellent A Moment's Reprieve fic, which inspired part of this. Um, pretty NSFW stuff ahead.

The 12 Times They Said, “Stay Awake” - 10,347, T Based on Tumblr prompt "Stay awake." I low-key forgot about PP3, so ignore that. Also, if you don't want your heart torn out, stop after segment 11. Also, warning for character death. Sorry about that.

Area 51, Now in Barden - 1,555, G For Pitch Perfect Horror Week Day 5 - Alien Abduction Listen. Don't take this too seriously, because I definitely didn't.

Friday the 12th - 5,649, T For Pitch Perfect Horror Week Day 6 - Fears Come to Life. It's set sometime between PP1 and PP2, and is definitely cannon-divergent.

Shine Bright (Like Cubic Zirconia) - 10,015, E Created for Tumblr prompt "The diamond on your engagement ring is fake." Contains a lap dance and smut, so if you're not a fan, I'd skip this one. Also, the French was an idea stolen from Tumblr user isthemusictoblame (who also goes by iPhone on here).

Make Me (Where Dreams Come True) - 15,629, E Beca doesn't want to dress as a Disney princess for Halloween. But it's all Chloe's idea, and Beca will do just about anything for her girlfriend, especially when Chloe bribes her... Smut. For Bechloe Week Day 7 - Disney. So, yes. Disney-related smut. And a second chapter for the strap.

Winter Dreams (Beca’s Song) - 3,441, G "The touch brings memories of the night before, of needy kisses, of soft whimpers and sharp gasps, of lips pressed to bare skin, and of limbs tangled together; memories that make Chloe’s body heat up and heart beat faster in her chest. She stretches out her limbs slowly and takes another deep breath. The touch on her back pauses, and Chloe cracks open her eyes a millimeter to see Beca – propped up on an elbow, like she’d imagined – watching her, deep blue eyes heavy with sleep and a tenderness that makes Chloe’s chest ache. Beca’s hair sticks up in weird places and a small purple mark dots her porcelain skin just below her collarbone, a proud remnant of the night before. She’s absolutely perfect." “PP3 Doesn’t Exist Here” series #9

Real Hot Wings and Fake Hot Dates - 3,566, G “Hey, it’s okay,” Aubrey says with surprising gentility. “I’m a little nervous, too.” That makes Beca turn back to her in shock. “You are?” Aubrey nods and says, “Of course. If they figure us out, we’re not gonna get that discount.” Mitchsen fake dating fluff as a Pitchmas 2018 gift.

Favorite Fic: Yikes, mate, asking the hard questions. Probably Expectations, because that’s the idea that started literally everything else - without it, I wouldn’t be a fic author. Otherwise, Chloe’s Secret, Naked Mole Rats Aren’t Endangered, Friday the 12th, Stay Awake, or Winter Dreams.

Hardest Fic: Honestly, anything with smut. I have such a hard time writing smut. And, currently, planning my Beca Sexuality fic (more on that in 2019!).

Do you plan on taking prompts in 2019? Tentatively yes! I love doing dialogue prompts the most, because they give me room to play. I do still have 12 prompts in my inbox, some of which are from like August, so, yeah... I’m gonna do those first.

What was the best thing about 2018? Honestly, just discovering this fandom and starting to write this much. I’ve always enjoyed writing, but writing fic like this took me to a whole new level. I’ve loved it more than I can say, and I feel like I’ve gradually been becoming a better writer because of it.

What was the worst thing about 2018? As for fics? Maybe... not enough time to write? Or just pressuring myself to churn out fics more quickly than I was really able to with classes/life.

Any last thoughts for 2018? I’m gonna miss the 20gayteen references, tbh, but make room for 20biteen! Also where’s the Bechloe kiss?

Goals for 2019:

Complete and post a fic where Beca struggles with her sexuality. I’ve got a ROUGH outline and all flashbacks written!

Finish my inbox prompts because, like, it’s been months.

Maybe try creating an original work? I have a couple ideas, but we’ll see.

And because I had so much fun with this, I’m going to toss it at @chloes-yellow-cup!

[aion-rsa]

Wynonna Earp Season 4 Episode 7 Review: Love’s All Over

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This Wynonna Earp review contains spoilers.

Wynonna Earp Season 4, Episode 7

Damn, it’s good to have Wynonna Earp back. “Love’s All Around” has a clever premise that wastes no time throwing us back into this world after more than six months away. In a mix of Greco-Roman mythology and Midsummer Night’s Dream, Waverly makes a bet with a stripper/food deliverer/”love professional” named Demetri (I guess Puck was already taken) that love is real. Unbeknownst to Waves, Demetri is actually a Cupid and he has slipped a vial of love flakes into her blazer pocket. Whoever touches a flake will fall in love with the first person they see, which leads to Waverly inadvertently spreading the “love disease” around Purgatory. Hilarious chaos ensues.

While Waverly is spreading love, Wynonna is falling apart. Consumed by the guilt she has around killing Holt in the midseason finale (a choice her fractured relationship with Doc has now become a symbol of), Wynonna is self-medicating with a combination of alcohol, sex, and Peacemaker. She’s suffering and further isolating herself in her pain. She’s doing badly enough that she misses Waverly and Nicole’s engagement party and, when she tries to make it up to them, manages to bring them on a very terrible bachelorette party (which is, honestly, a pretty competitive descriptor to earn).

Waverly demonstrates characteristic patience with her sister while also trying to hold her accountable for her actions. This seems to only make Wynonna judge herself harder. Our central heroine makes frequent references throughout the episode to how much everyone loves angel Waverly, implying that she falls somewhere on the other end of the spectrum. It’s an old story and pressure point for Wynonna, who was framed as the “screw up” in their family and community for so many years. While Wynonna had found a purpose and a support system since her return to town in Season 1 that kept those negative voices at bay, old habits die hard and, while Wynonna’s self-criticism may have originally come from external forces, right now, in this family she has built for herself, no one is judging Wynonna harder or harsher than Wynonna is judging herself.

Well, Doc might be judging Wynonna a little bit. Roughly a month after the events of the midseason finale (spring has sprung!), Doc is still struggling to forgive Wynonna for killing Holt. He is on his own journey of self-forgiveness and recovery and, frankly, he isn’t willing to sabotage his own mental health to join Wynonna in her pain… especially when he knows that, in the long run, this probably wouldn’t help Wynonna. The two obviously still love one another, but they are currently at an impasse: Wynonna needs to believe that she lives in a world where shooting Holt in the back was the necessary option, and Doc needs to live in a world where there are better ways. Because of this, these starcrossed lovers are living worlds apart.

This becomes particularly evident when the gang (including Nedley, Nicole, Amon, and Bunny Loblaw) are doused with a cloud of love flakes and all of their walls come down. The way these two stare into one another’s eyes is so different from the Cupid-inspired desire of the episode’s other connections. Their love isn’t simple and manufactured, it’s so very complex (just as Wayhaught’s is shown to be, even if Nicole really wants to get her body closer to Waverley’s, like, five minutes ago). “I don’t want to let go,” Wynonna tells Doc as the effects of the spell fade. (Um, same-sies, but with this TV show.)

The second half of Wynonna Earp Season 4 is burdened with the weight of Syfy’s cancellation of this beloved queer, feminist series. What might have been a perfectly fun spell-of-the-week episode of Wynonna Earp hits different when you know it is one of only six episodes left (barring the show getting picked up elsewhere, which I haven’t yet given up hope of happening). This was a fun episode, but in the long shadow of the show’s potential series finale, I perhaps unfairly want more. These kinds of “the gang goes mad” episodes are best when they tell us something new about our characters, and I’m not sure “Love’s All Around” did.

That being said, one of the thematic elements the episode pulled off was in eventually expanding the traditional definition of “love.” While the first few people who fell under the love spell became pretty horny, as more people fell under the spell, it became clear that sexual desire is far from the only expression of love. When Doc falls for Cleo, he spends his time doing emotional labor, encouraging her to forgive herself in a way that he hasn’t been able to do with Wynonna. And after Wynonna accidentally rains the love flakes down on the crew at Shorty’s, they spend most of their time dancing platonically in one another’s arms. Plot-wise, the rules of the love flakes were not as clear as they could have been, but, thematically, this episode nailed it. Waverly confirms it for us: “Love might be the only thing that’s real.” It might not last, and it doesn’t always look the same, but if this show believes in anything, it believes in love. If Wynonna Earp does end after this season, what a legacy that will be.

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Additional thoughts.

Wayhaught is having a “medium fuzzy” wedding, y’all… This is going to be the series finale, right?

I wish Wynonna Earp had found a way to lean a bit further into the aesthetics of Midsummer Night’s Dream. Fairies and flower crowns are not necessary, but always encouraged.

“I love you.” “Nope.”

Doc’s sweater this episode, tho.

Whoever came up with the name “Bunny Loblaw” is a genius.

Never bet against Waverly Earp. Duh.

I continue to wish Jeremy was in this show 160% more.

“At first I thought that was a new, woke term for ‘strippers.'”

It is vital that this episode has a consent clarification (and it does), though I’m not sure they totally nail it. Although Demetri tells Waverley that “sex doesn’t enter the equation unless it’s what the client wants,” that doesn’t mean “the client” isn’t ignoring the consent of the person they want to have sex with.

“We’ll find a fat baby to curse tomorrow.”

The couch!

“Be your own legacy, Cleo.”

Yikes, Cleo Clanton is ready to continue M’am’s killing campaign… and Billy might be on board too?

“I’m a damn good sidekick.”

Poor Rachel.

“Have a good evening, lesbians.” “Actually, Waverly is bisexual.”

There were so many good references in this episode, but my favorite was probably Bend It Like Beckham.

It’s official: Wayhaught’s love has defeated homophobia.

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10 Questions Tag 2 Times

So @the-literary-prince tagged me in a couple of these things, and I am Slow at Responding but I love answering questions, so I’m gonna do them all together all at once! Here we go:

1. Current favorite WIP? Oh ouch this is like trying to pick favorite birds it is too hard to do. I keep gravitating back to Angel Wings and to Average, Ohio, right now, so I guess those are toward the top of my list? But I’ve only ever written one thing so far that I didn’t intensely enjoy doing at the time, so there’s that, too.

2. Favorite trope? Yikes umm . . . does best frenemies count? Cuz I dig best frenemies. All over the place. All teh time.

3. Favorite childhood book/series? ANIMORPHS. One hundred percent. 

4. Do you drink tea while you write? Sometimes. Usually I start with coffee, if I write in the morning (which is my Best Writing Time). If I write after work, I do tea, or decaf. I do like to have a hot beverage near me though.

5. Do you have a lot of notebooks? We do not discuss the number of notebooks I own. (Yes, it is Too Many. Still working on filling them all. I’ll keep y’all posted.)

6. What was your weirdest OC like? O.o hrm. Good . . . question? Cuz I’ve got a world of superpowers like X-men, and I’ve got a world of superpowers like comic books more generally, and I’ve got a couple alien species running around, so . . . it’s hard to pick? One of my recentish faves is Big Horn, though, who is a six-legged purple nonbinary Moose. Big Horn is awesome.

7. Colorful ink pens or blue/black ink pens? Color-coded by story! Driscoll was purple in November. Lucius in March will be navy blue. Arterio and Alicia are cheapo black, Omaha is hot pink, Average is light blue (Terrwyn blue), Aschar is also purple, Razz is orange. Faultlines is greenish, when I’ve got them, or black when I don’t. The pens match the binders match the plot card Sharpies. It’s very organized and colorful and I love it.

8. Favorite genre? Fantasy! Sci-fi! Both! Yes!

9. Hand-writing or typing? Handwriting. It doesn’t hurt as much as typing since my surgery, and I like being able to disconnect and take a lil notebook and a pen with me instead of having to lug around my laptop and the internet connection that it entails. Plus then typing is Round One of edits.

10. Do you daydream a lot? Gosh almost always. That’s why I started writing, honestly--I’d get caught and in trouble for daydreaming in class, and I discovered if I wrote down my daydreams it looked like I was taking notes and paying attention. No regrets.

11. Who do you usually share your work with, if anyone? I’ve got a little circle I rotate stuff through. A couple really close friends (you know who you are), a couple good friends, frequently also my mother, sometimes my roommate’s mother. I do it in stages so I get feedback on drafts, because it’s a relatively small circle. But I do love feedback, so I’m bad at not sharing.

12. Do you listen to music while you write? Sometimes. I prefer silence to music, but music to ambient background noise. I make playlists for specific stories and characters, and then that becomes my background noise if I’m writing somewhere public.

13. Who has encouraged you most as a writer? Honestly, my parents. They’ve been so supportive for literal actual years, and I’m very blessed by it and them.

14. Who’s your favorite author? Help too many faves!! Victoria Schwab is my queen and has been for a while, but I also adore Scott Lynch’s work and Jim Butcher’s. And, y’know, K. A. Applegate.

15. Is there an idea you keep coming back to? Oh, Feathers Son, why won’t you leave me alone? Yes, yes there is. I’m listening to his playlist as I answer these, honestly, and in February I’m going to replot it and in March I’m going to write it. Hopefully the . . . fifth? draft is the charm.

16. Where is your favorite place to write? I can answer this now! I have a writing desk! In my own condo! Dedicated to writing and only writing!! Not homework, not general life things, but writing! It’s swell. I also have a soft spot for a couple specific coffee shops, Paneras, and libraries. Also, my parent’s deck. I haven’t been able to try our porch yet, but I’ll keep you posted in the spring.

17. What’s the last book you read? Fiction, Beneath the Sugar Sky by Seanan McGuire. It was phenomenal, per usual. I’m in the middle of Africa by John Reader, too. 

18. Have you ever done NaNoWriMo? Every year since 2007. And Book in a Week, once, and sometimes I make my own NaNos. I’m doing one in March, if anyone wants to join!

19. Do you plan your writing or just go wherever it takes you? I have turned into a hardcore planner. It helps me get stuff out of my head and down on paper, although recently I’ve found the right balance: I plan scene ideas, but let the scenes unfold on their own. So there’s definitely a plan, but there’s also breathing space. It works well for me.

20. Share a song from you WIP’s playlist? I just added “Wolves” by Sam Tinnesz featuring Silverberg to my Angel Wings playlist for March! I am the most stoked!! The wolves definitely needed a theme song, and this one is Perfect. I am so fucking excited I can’t wait.

Um. I guess this is the part where I’m supposed to come up with my own questions and tag writerly people? But . . . I don’t chat with many writerly people on here besides IRL friends and also Max, who is at the top. So . . . if you are a Writerly Person who sees this and would like to partake, pick a few of ur fave numbers and answer them and tag me? I wanna seeeee.

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Cardcaptor Sakura: Clear Card-hen 1 | Gakuen Babysitters 1 | Idolish7 3 | Zoku Touken Ranbu Hanamaru 1 | Karakai Jouzu no Takagi-san 1 | Miira no Kaikata 1 | Death March 1

The debuts for the winter season keep coming, but we’re almost at the end of them with this post.

Cardcaptor Sakura: Clear Card 1

Note I don’t have any prior experience with Cardcaptor Sakura aside from 1 volume of manga and watching the show in passing while other people were watching it, plus knowing about a few spoilers and the show’s reputation as a seminal magical show show…then in more recent days, I finished 2 episodes of it (in fact as of the day I’m typing this, I finished episide 2 today!).

This OP makes Sakura look like later-stage Sailor Moon, and I think that’s the point.

Where did the bear in Syaoran’s hand go when Sakura hugged him?

Eriol! I don’t really know much about him, and I knew I should’ve known about him before starting this, but…it was a bit of a shock to see a character I technically haven’t seen the debut of with my own eyes.

I get the feeling these are the “two bears” from the prologue OVA…

Emails! In the world of Cardcaptor Sakura! Wow, I feel old…and I didn’t even grow up with her.

Hot dang! Gimme dat bishie (Yue)! I knew he was coming, but…I still don’t really know how he came to be!

Wow, this Yamazaki kid spouts such rubbish! I’m looking forward to seeing him in the main series now.

It’s pretty obvious I need to watch the original before understanding this fully, so I’m putting it on hold.

Gakuen Babysitters 1

I’m here for my Ume and Nishiyama. I’m not particularly good at dealing with kids, especially younger kids, but this doesn’t make me run for the hills either.

Ryuichi involves the kanji for “dragon” and Kotaro has the kanji for “tiger”.

That man with the hat is so not sketchy…

I’ve never heard of NAS before (but I have heard of NAZ through Idolish7).

That joke Saikawa told actually worked! These shows may all be middling this winter, but I’d be happy with even some of them on my docket. I’ve been pleasantly surprised more often than not that I haven’t found “stinker of the season” yet.

The comedy for this show’s really on point, although the overall design is a tad lackluster.

K-Kamitani?! Apparently Ume-chan’s character is Hayato Kamitani, so that’s how Ume got involved, so to speak. This sudden intro of 4 kids works on a story scale, but not in a way any person can process without pausing the video (or getting individual intros later).

Well, there are those individual intros I was asking for. Spoke too soon.

It’s actually kinda sad and quite telling how independent Kotaro is. (I still find it extremely hilarous Nishiyama – whose first name is Kotaro - didn’t voice Kotaro, although from a practical standpoint I understand why.)

Usaida has such bedroom eyes, it’s hard to ignore (because they make him look like En)! Dangit, I want my En back!

This brings back memories. My mum used to deal with kids all the time, and of course I was in the background for some of the shenanigans.

Dragon puppet symbolism, eh? (see the dotpoint a bit back about Ryuichi’s name)

As soon as this guy (who kinda looks like something out of Haikyuu) started demanding Taka come with him, I screamed. That character doesn’t seem very Ume, but…uh, it’s Ume. Gotta deal with it. Now that I listen to their voices properly though, Ume does have a “big bro” voice and Nishiyama a “earnest young man” voice.

Oh dear. Taka’s imprinted on me already, and I don’t even like boys that age.

I haven’t felt a genuine sense of danger from any of these winter shows until this one, so it seems like it’s one of the strongest debuts. Then again, CCS was my frontrunner before this and YuruCamp the second best, so I guess I can’t talk, eh?

Gah, I feel like I wanna cry now. That is a strong premiere!

I have a real problem with how anime tears come out in globs. Then again, I’m too much of a crybaby, as my notes can attest…so I guess no arguing here.

Should it be “Chairman” or “Chairwoman”???

Tsundere grandma. Now there’s something I thought I’d never think in my life…

Oh, I didn’t realise earlier but Taka = “hawk” and Hayato = “falcon man”. Animal jingoism at its finest!

Whoo, that was a real nice debut. I thought I was too old for this stuff, but it’s a keeper!

Idolish7 3

It’s a good thing I chose to cover episodes 1 – 2 so I won’t have to do them now.

I didn’t notice Nagi getting all huggy there with everyone in range (the first time, at least).

In case you don’t know from all the other idol shows, the centre is the one in centre stage. They’re often seen as the leader, so it’s a very important position.

This song can’t be anything but Monster Generation! Woohoo!

Wow, I haven’t seen one of those “watch from a distance” things in a while. Makes me nostalgic.

“Ichi” would probably refer to Iori, right? (He has the kanji for “one” in his name.)

Wowee, Nagi’s entendre…is really thick. Like pudding.

I agree, brothers can be so strange…

“…spoil me sometimes.” - Laying on the entendre thicker than custard here, Iori!

These boys are so into their Magical Kokona. I want in now.

Tamaki really is an En-chan…En-chan! Come back! (But why does Tamaki have no socks???)

These ED outfits are so elaborate! Ooh! Imagine a gender-swapped cosplay of them, that’s be great!

Who’s that on the edge of the ED video though? (You can see something hopping up and down.)

Zoku Touken Ranbu Hanamaru 1

Can we please just call this “Hanamaru 2” like Crunchyroll? “Zoku” just refers to a continuation…anyways, I got Hanamaru season 1 done last year while dealing with Katsugeki, so…here I come, sword boys!

Didn’t Hanamaru get a dub, by the way? Why would you dub this? For me to criticise it? The Touken Ranbu fanbase is kinda small…

W-Wait, did they just write Yams out of this season? Yams is the protag (if not a protag) here! What did Ichiki do now to deserve this???

It was getting too hard to jump through the proxies to play Touken Ranbu as of late, so I deleted my DMM account. Even still, the sword boys have multiplied since I left! Yikes!

Wow, unexpected 1st person bit there, Kashuu/Masuda. I thought I told the industry to stop doing that…

Exposition wave…I don’t need this wave, but I guess anime-only fans might. Carry on, Heshikiri.

So this multiple Konnosuke thing wasn’t a Katsugeki-only gag? Oh dear, my head’s spinning…

I don’t think I noticed, but Kashuu uses a brush (and not a specialty brush provided in the lid of nail polish). Probably because in Touken Ranbu, plastic isn’t much of a concept…

I still appreciate how Kashuu was this Saniwa’s starter. Makes me feel warm and fuzzy for my own TR days…

Photos are a nice way to recap. After all, 1 picture speaks 1000 words.

Wow, Shishiou’s a real chibi compared to these tachi. But Shishiou’s a tachi too…

Dang, I’m jealous. These bros were around when I was a TR player, and I missed ‘em! Dang Kebishii drops!

So that thing really is a nue. I could never see it on Shishiou’s card, y’know.

Hmm…considering the bros are new swords, the Saniwa’s strategy is to level up them up using the younger bro as leader (remember, the leader gets more experience). I see…

A “pincer attack” is a V shape, so the description fits the Crane Wings formation…

I can’t say I wasn’t impressed by Akashi just then. Come to think of it, he didn’t have any battles in Hanamaru’s 1st season.

A double attack suits a pair like this, of course!

Oh my gosh, they even got two dfferent voice actors for the Konnosukes! LOL!

Hanamaru’s EDs kept changing and it seems like they’ll continue to change, eh? This one looks quite spiffy.

The style of this ED doesn’t look like Hanamaru at all. It was probably done by the original illustrator for the swords.

It’s a great return to form for Hanamaru! I’m sold!

Karakai Jouzu no Takagi-san 1

Another day, another long title…plus this show I would’ve passed on, if not for that resolution…

Michiko Yokote is on a lot of shows I watch. I don’t really know what her influence is, but it seems she’s genuinely competent at what she does.

So…uh, Gendo pose anyone?

I think the teacher is the best part of this. I’ve been a bit of Tonari no Seki-kun, and the pull of that is the sheer ludicrousness of what Seki does with his stuff. However, there didn’t seem to be any intervention aside from Yokoi (I think that was her name)…

Nishikata’s reactions are just way too easy to read…

Well, that was okay, but it’s definitely a show to binge all at once. On to the “on hold” pile it goes.

Wait, but they missed a segment (the 100 yen segment). Gotta skip forward…

I didn’t get any laughs out of that show at all, but it’s still a decent school SoL.

How to Keep a Mummy 1

I have absolutely no experience with this manga, mind you…aside from seeing this tiny mummy on Comico…

Wow, if the mummy can fit in his shoe…how big is it?

The translation of “ready” is surprisingly ganbaru, and there’s a “but” mentioned in the Japanese title missing from the English. Also, “ready” has sexual connotations I’d rather not pair with a tiny mummy…I’d say the translation of the episode title should be something more along the lines of “White, Round, Small, Very Wimpy But [Also] Tries Its Hardest” (“It” being the mummy and not Pennywise…).

Is Dracula even public domain right now? (Does anyone care about the intellectual property of a classic vampire novel anyway? Because I sure don’t.)

Can we please start making jokes about how Sora’s daddy got him a mummy? It may seem childish, but I’m tempted to now.

This mummy is so adorable, I think it even beat out the kids from Gakuen Babysitters! Geesh, I’m spoilt this season! It completely set off my moe senses, and I don’t even have any!

It imprinted on him! Oh wow!

The mummy doesn’t even have a mouth…how can it spit things-oh wait. That’s the joke, isn’t it?

Come to think of it, crybaby characters ae few and far between. However, between this and Devilman…er, Crybaby…they’ve suddenly become popular…I guess?

It’s like a harem, only it’s between a dog and a mummy. Why I never…

One of the best things about anime is that you can learn about other cultures through the things included offhandedly…like that molokhiya thing that Sora mentioned. Apparently it’s a Jewish vegetable of some sort.

Do mummies get jet lag too? I was just thinking how Comico stories, with their full colour and yet simple design (to allow for downward scrolling and intake by the eyes) are perfect for anime.

I listened to the show with volume for once…because Tazuki seems to be the guy voiced by Keisuke Koumoto…and I think I was on the money there. Plus, Sora’s VA really sells the delivery of jokes (although he seems to be voiced by a woman…?)!

Yamanba…like Yamanbagiri’s namesake. The mountain hag, right?

Yep, I was right on the money with Tazuki being Koumoto. Kamitani Tazuki, it seems his name is…

This dance ending’s kind of cute, too. It’s a keeper!

Death March 1

(looks at title just above this dotpoint) C’mon. There’s no way I’m going to repeat “Death March to the Parallel World Rhapsody” over and over again for at least 11 or 12 episodes…by the way, I’m here because I was reading a KonoSuba novel and saw an ad for this, just in time for the anime…

“SADA”, my butt…

I love how they almost replicated Windows 8 in this show. Or is it 7, or 10? They don’t show the taskbar, which is the main visual difference between 8 and 10, but either way the Windows replication without being sued is really something…

This OP’s gonna make me dizzy someday…

Classes, eh? So that means Suzuki’s working with an OOP language. Plus you can see Cortana on the computer as the mention of classes goes by, meaning that person’s on Windows 10.

UML.

By the way, Satou is a fairly common name in Japan…at least to my knowledge. But Suzuki is a pretty common one, too, hence the mistake.

The client? Unless Suzuki is referring to the client as in the program, it could also mean the client as in the person/group who wants the game made. Considering what he says though involving a call, it’s probably the latter.

That’s the second show with a lost kid in the first episode. It seems a bit trite, don’tcha think?

According to his phone map (flip phone!), he’s in Akihabara.

FFL…eh? Google says there are multiple Final Fantasy games for Android, meaning I’ve probably thinking of Fire Emblem Fates (which doesn’t match), and there’s no such thing as Final Fantasy 50 (L in Roman numerals) yet.

That’s the second time they mentioned work/daily life being a death march. Can we not???

Come to think of it, Suzuki looks like Nobuaki (King’s Game), which doesn’t bode well for either show.

Apparently you can get Facebook Messenger for Windows 10, which I didn’t know…

“…being a corporate slave.”

C’mon! This ain’t the Animatrix, but still, if you’re trying to make stuff look technological, at least make it look a bit better.

Third time they’ve mentioned “death march”.

It might just be Houseki no Kuni’s fault, but this CGI is really janky.

Welllll…at least it looks like a game.

Welllllllll…at least they knew where to put their money for some sakuga…

This running through fields scene is either a homage to Every Anime Opening ever, or Pokémon. I distinctly remember it being in Emerald’s opening animation, at least.

Dude, if you want to look for a wyvern, do it from the ground where you won’t get injured, dumb Satoo.

Does this look a lot like Berserk (2016) with all its CGI knights…or is that just me?

Zena…? I might be showing how old I am with this (or how much I scour the internet), but…by any chance, do you mean this gal instead?

I think I’ve had enough of this flip for now, so I’m putting it on hold.

[kenshiliker]

mcfuck load of things i was tagged in going here thanks everyone that tagged me & im sorry for this Entire Mess

Also I was tagged in 3 different things that have like similar fuckign questions so im jst gonna stick them all into 1 tag bc if not you’d have me repeating my damn names 18 times and thts no fun for Anyone)

Meet the blogger meme (Tagged by @bodhierso, thank u ark!! @woehuxbub tHJANKS FAMTHER & @orsonkraennic)

i. name:  徐

ii. nickname: OH LORD I HAVE SO MANY um I’ll just put the main ones; Brucie, Jerry, Tiaan, King Dickard II

iii. zodiac sign: Sagittarius / Dragon (Chinese Zodiac)

iv. height: ??? UH I think 160 cm the last I measured but I’m not sure. Over 5′3″ iirc.

v. orientation: Ace (the helpful place)

vi. ethnicity: Chinese 

vii. favorite fruit: Orange, Strawberry and Banana, L E M O N (u fucKIGN COWARDS)

viii. favorite season: Autumn/Winter but I’m stuck in hell so guess I’ll Die

ix. favorite book / book series: I don’t read many books but I like Shakespeare’s stuff & also Sherlock Holmes

x. favorite flower: Hibiscus rosa-sinensis (this is as patriotic as I get tbh), PLANTA GENISTA

xi. favorite scent: Nothing too strong or I’ll feel nauseous. Maybe a soft vanilla? ...And maybe orange. Or Lemon.

xii. favorite color: ORANGE (funny story is that my dad’s fav colour was orange and I decided to project frm a young age and wow guess what Orange has been my fav colour ever since), White, Black, Blue, Red

xiii. coffee, tea or cocoa: T e a slorp slorp

xiv. average sleep hours: Depends on what I have planned the next day. Lately (due to exam month) it’s been about 5 hrs per week so guess I’ll die

xv. cat or dog person: I like both as long as I’m not being chased

xvi. favorite fictional characters: ghhh Bruce Wayne, Tiaan Jerjerrod, Illya Kuryakin, B.J. Hunnicutt, Freddy Newandyke, Cal Lightman, (and Duke of Aumerle & Richard II if they count,,, hte Shookspeare version)

xvii. dream trip: UK,,, Get Me Out Of Here, 

xviii. blogs created: 4 (This one, TMFU blog, Secret Shakespeare Blog & Secret Art Blog) (I haven’t posted on the latter two) (That’s why they’re a ‘secret’)

xix. number of followers: 940 here (how even the Fuck) & 1582 on the TMFU blog.

xx.  random fact: I recently sat on the hard wood floor for 10 hours straight (s/o to you if you remember this) and felt myself just physically shrivel up and die. I literally hurt everywhere bc if I wasn’t sitting down, I was laying on the ground and gOD It took me a week to feel better but yeah god 11/10 would not recommend

xxi. number of blankets you sleep with: There’s like 4 on my bed lmao I’M LIVING

xxii.  blog created: I’ve had a tumblr since like... 2010 and I didn’t really use it until 2012, 2013 was my first year I was really active

xxiii. nationality: Malaysian

Tagged by Krenny again, to answer all these questions, and then tag 15 people 5 things you’ll find in my bag: SUPERMAN WALLET, Phone, Powerbank + Cable, Earphones, Art Supplies

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom: 5000 Stuffed Animals, DC shit, SW garb, The decapitated head of Jar Jar Binks that greets the visitors, Convention merch (+4 GAY REALLY FUCKING GAY, SO GAY THAT IF MY PARENTS FOUND THEM I’D BE FUCKING DEAD, fanbooks of TMFU which are in Chinese, sent by my lovely Internet Sister)

5 things I’ve always wanted to do: Get some air-dry paper clay and make tiny sculptures or something, learn how to paint properly, have nice handwriting, visit the UK again, WATCH A PLAY

5 things that make me happy: My unhealthy coping mechanisms, my favs, my friends!!, drawing (sometimes), reading/learning about something I’m interested in

5 things I’m currently into: TIM ROTH, LIE TO ME, Shakespeare, Star Wars, DC

5 things on my to do list: Get good fuckin grades for once in my damn life aye, finish watching Lie To Me, finish reading As You Like It and Othello, finish the school year & be done with it for the rest of my life, memorise all the experiments for the physics syllabus by Thursday if not my teacher will literally grill me

and lastly, tagged by @bunn1cula​ and Krenny again! Thank u two am loaf the both of u,

the last

1. drink: water 2. phone call: irl friend that is saved as ‘Mr. Pink’ in my phone (as per their request fhghg) 3. text message: ‘👌👌’ or if chats count then:

4. song you listened to: HOOKED ON A FEELING 5. time you cried: Yesterday while watching Lie To Me 6. dated someone twice: Nooooot yet 7. kissed someone and regretted it: NOT FOR ME THnks 8. been cheated on: ?? I don’t know. Probably not. 9. lost someone special: Yes 10. been depressed: Yeah, still am, but I think it’s not so bad nowadays (hopefully). 11. got drunk and thrown up: Never

3 favourite colours

12. Orange 13. White 14. Black

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: Yeah, definitely!  16. fallen out of love: NOT YET BUT MAYBE SOON 17. laughed until you cried: GOD A HECK OF A LOT OF TIMES 18. found out someone was talking about you: No, not really. I mean, there’s an asshole in my class that loves talking shit about me but I honestly don’t give a fuck about him he’s Irrelavant. 19. met someone who changed you: I don’t really know,,, I think I’m still the same? 20. found out who your friends are: I’ve never really had an issue with anyone, really. Maybe except one or two people, but yeah, the rest of y’all are alright. 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: NO

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: About 60/93 of them. I plan to boot a ton of them after I graduate tho. 23. do you have any pets: UNFORTUNATELY NO but I’d love a cat 24. do you want to change your name: UM SURE I mean it’d be kinda nice bc I hate when people I hate tainted my name by calling it, so yea, Yes 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I don’t think I did anything at all. 26. what time did you wake up: 6.30 a.m. (gotta love tht School Life) 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: ,,,Watching Lie To Me, reading fics instead of studying for my exam, 28. name something you can’t wait for: GRADUATING and getting tf outta here. 29. when was the last time you saw your mum: Last night ghghg 31. what are you listening to right now: Stuck In The Middle With You 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: I was the person named Tom once, so, yes. 33. something that is getting on your nerves: My shitty fucking class/school. 34. most visited website: Tumblr, YouTube 35. hair colour: Dark brown 36. long or short hair: Short! 37. do you have a crush on someone: Mnnn 50/50 38. what do you like about yourself: I’m kinda sorta funny & I can draw sometimes 39. piercings: None 40. blood type: A+ 41. nickname: Jerry, Brucie, Tiaan, King Dickard II 42. relationship status: Single & That’s Alrighty 43. zodiac: Sagittarius 44. pronouns: He/Him or They/Them 45. favourite tv show: RN IT’S LIE TO ME (TIM ROTH COULD FUCKIGNG LIE TO ME RIGHT IN MY FACE & I’D BE LIKE WOW UR TELLIGN THE TRUTH I BELIEVE IN U), but I also like M*A*S*H, The Man From U.N.C.L.E. and The Twilight Zone 46. tattoos: I idon’t really want any! 47. right or left handed: Right

first

48. surgery: None to my knowledge, or maybe a few when I was super young bc my moves (lungs) are weak babe 49. piercing: None (my mom keeps trying to get me to pierce my ear but it’s not my thing, & also if I do get it i’ll only get one and it’ll be the Gay Ear) 50. sport: Football, I think? In any case, I’m bomb as hell at getting hit in the fucking head by the sports balls.  51. vacation: London or Australia iirc 52. pair of trainers: I don’t remember either, I can barely remember anything from 2016.

more general

53. eating: Nothing at the moment 54. drinking: Water 55. i’m about to: Nap or watch Lie To Me (I haven’t decided) 56. waiting for: My exams to be over 57. want: Nothing at the moment 58. get married: Sure? I’m not really opposed to marriage as a whole, but if it starts getting yikes you bet your ass I’m gonna fucking bounce 59. career: I don’t have a career rn but I’d like to do illustration/concept art it seems p cool. Either that or become a psychologist and charge people $30 for readings.

which is better

60. hugs or kisses: I don’t like either 61. lips or eyes: Eyes 62. shorter or taller: I don’t really care. I love both short girls and guys (@tiM), and tall girls and guys are just as good! 63. older or younger: Doesn’t really matter to me either. 64. nice arms or nice stomach: Also doesn’t really matter but if ur arms are good I’m definitely eyes emoji af 65. hook up or relationship: Relationship. 66. troublemaker or hesitant: See, I’d say hesitant but I don’t really know that either. Just as long as you’re not doing some stupid shit we’re good.

have you ever

67. kissed a stranger: No 68. drank hard liquor: Nope.. Well, not to my knowledge. 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: I don’t wear either ghgng 70. turned someone down: No 71. sex on the first date: N O 72. broken someone’s heart: UH Yeah when I was 13 (how even the fucK.) 73. had your heart broken: yEP 74. been arrested: Never bc I’m a cop, Larry 75. cried when someone died: Yes. I’m okay throughout the funeral but the minute it registers that I’m never gonna see them again, I’m gooooone af. Even if I didn’t particularly like the person when they were alive. 76. fallen for a friend: YEAH!!! But it’s usually one of those new-friend crushes sourry.

do you believe in

77. yourself: I mean, Sometimes. It’s like... Can I do it? Most Likely. Did I do it correctly? Most Likely Not. 78. miracles: Not really, no. 79. love at first sight: Yeah, sure, I mean everyone’s different, so who’s to say just because I don’t feel it someone else doesn’t. 80. santa claus: No way my dude 81. kiss on the first date: Depends bc at mY AGE I’m not boutta put my face anywhere near someone else’s thts jst weird 82. angels: Mayhaps,,,, I don’t believe that they don’t exist, if that makes sense.

other

83. current best friend’s name: Mmmnnnn Kylogram (Kyle Ron), maybe? I’ve a few best friends. 84. eye colour: Dark brown, they look kinda nice in the sun I guess. 85. favourite movie: RESERVOIR DOGS, Four Rooms, Rosencrantz & Guildenstern are Dead, The Lion in Winter, TMFU, Wonder Woman, ROTJ, Indiana Jones and The Last Crusade

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This is a big Mess, but yeA I’m tagging whoever was mentioned above & no one else bc this has gone on for long enough, to do the one you weren’t tagged in or hell do the first one if you want, bc that one is a compilation of like 3 different tag memes ghfh. Good bye u all.

(OH YEAH if ur a mutual/follower/whoEVER who sees this feel free to do if if you’d like!! Say I tagged you if you’d like to c:)

[ashleybenlove]

Bad Boy

This episode is definitely one of my favorites from what I remember! Kim and Ron watch a soap opera type show Agony County! Kim and Ron go to a wedding! This episode might be the reason why for a VERY brief time the first time I watched Race to the Edge’s Snotlout Gets The Axe, I thought Hiccup and Astrid would be each other’s date for the wedding in the episode. Also, this episode came out at a super apropos time in January 2005 because on the soap opera Guiding Light, Jonathan Randall was something of a bad boy on that show. (Tom Pelphrey, who played Jonathan, would later play Ward Meachum in Netflix’s Iron Fist and gosh, his acting is amazing.)

The opening lines of the episode are “Sitch me.” You’re making up phrases now, Kimberly Anne.

Also Kim and Ron use wingsuits (as opposed to Hiccup Haddock’s flight suits, which I mean, basically the same thing) and I loved this back then and still do. (I can see why my ass became a HTTYD/RTTE fan.)

Ron has a cousin Ruben who is getting married and another cousin Shawn who’s a jerk. Shawn has an iguana and apparently tried to feed Rufus to it. Um. I mean, it turns out he’s a kid (he’s 7!) but that’s like... ALARM BELLS. 

Shego laments they’ve become predictable.

Kim and Ron are on the couch with tons of food watching tv together. So cute. Self care. 

Kim suggests he bring a date to the wedding and her body language even seems to suggest “ask me?” or that she’s willing to go with him and Ron’s thinks about it and then he looks at her and they both get awkward and its like. YOU SUGGESTED IT WHY ARE YOU BEING AWKWARD. Oh wait, yeah, because they’re teens and have the slow burn thing. 

Kim watches Agony County to stay current. The guy is named Danny and the lady is named Charity and actually a pairing that was lowkey my OTP on Guiding Light were named Danny and Michelle. 

“It would end the series.” HAHAHA. It’s funny because KP was supposed to end with Ron and Kim getting together and then the show got renewed and YAY, I get to watch season 4 later this week!

Ron and Kim talking about this show together is adorable. Also, Kim totally thinks bad boys are hotties. 

And Ron decides to be a bad boy to get girls. SHE. JUST TOLD YOU LAST SEASON. TO STOP TRYING TO BE SOMETHING YOU’RE NOT. WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS.

Drakken basically starts crying and looks through his hands to see if Shego is paying attention to you. YOU LITERALLY JUST WANT ATTENTION.

Drakken gorged himself on funnel cakes and puked on Dementor at the last villain convention. HAHA. 

Danny and Charity almost kiss and then the tv is turned on by Ron’s cousin. 

Ron begs Kim to let him stay at her house. He’s gonna take the couch in the den. Obviously because with them getting together inching closer and closer would have made it inappropriate (for a kid’s show and for two teenagers) for them to stay in the same room/bed. (Though I mean, Booth and Brennan didn’t share a bed until they got together and that was a TV14 rating).

Kim is on the mailing list for the villain con. Ron apparently thought he was signing her up to win a tank. Haha. BECAUSE APPARENTLY SHE NEEDS ONE? BUT ISN’T THAT GREAT. SHE KICKS THEIR ASSES ALL DAY LONG AND IS ON THEIR MAILING LIST. SO SHE GETS INFO ABOUT THEIR NONSENSE.

Kim and Ron cosplay to get into the villain con. Undercover! Ron is Zorpox and Kim is wearing an actual catsuit, Sheela of the Leopard people. RON GETS A SMILE ON HIS FACE. RON. RON. You are such a teenage boy.

Kim doesn’t feel 100 percent on the catsuit. 

Jack Hench! He hates you, Drakken. He fucking hates you. GEE I WONDER WHY. YOU STOLE A THING FROM HIM IN SEASON 1.

The evil measure thing has Drakken ranking at playground bully and Shego at the top of the charts.

Attitudinator. it has a warning of swelling to the ego and itchy feet.

Shego steps on Kim’s tail.

Attitudinator breaks and good energies go to Drakken, bad to Ron, because that’s a thing.  Attitudinator seems like pseudo science. Like... phrenology. 

Drakken’s singing an Oh Boyz song. HOW DO YOU RECOGNIZE IT SHEGO.

Coco moo. 

Drakken basically made an overly large vibrator. Did I say that? Yes, I did. 

Ron flaked on Chem. 

Ron pets Rufus like he’s Blofeld. Ron’s basically turning into a villain rn.

Ron makes a potato pun.

Ron causes a food fight but I think his machine is the only one throwing food.

Ron gets into Kim’s face and I love the the way she holds her ground.

Ron gets 2 months of detention. Yikes. Way to poke Barkin with the laugh. 

Kim asks Wade to keep an eye on Ron and asks if he still has him chipped. You know, like a puppy! Wade tells her that he and her have talked about the ethical ramifications of that (I LOVE THAT SO MUCH. Just imagine that convo!) 

Rufus chooses to spend his time with Kim. He’s currently around her neck.

Shego has to put up with so much nonsense.

Also I just realized that this episode is kind of like Emotion Sickness but with the two males???

“Is this the lair of Dr. Drakken?” “More or less.”

Shego fucking hates that word coco moo.

Stoppable-Starter Wedding. 

Kim’s at the wedding reception because Ron’s apparently tricked out his trike into an ATV.

They play organ music.

Zorpox attempts to murder a child.

Ruben Stoppable is briefly seen wearing a yarmulke and he pulls his wife down so she’s not in the fray. Also Miss Starter/Mrs. Ruben Stoppable is wearing a very nice wedding dress. Like even though a decade has passed since this episode, I could see a modern bride wearing that.

“Did Drakken ever build a plasma blaster this dangerous?” Ron built a plasma blaster. You could have just befriended Toothless. 

Shego dumps Drakken and kidnaps Ron. How many times has he been kidnapped.

The overly large vibrator (The Annihilator) Drakken made will cause quakes that will shake the world to pieces. I don’t think that’s accurate??? So what, like 9 pointers everywhere? Yeah, that would destroy the world. nvm.

Will Friedle clearly had SO MUCH FUN with the Zorpox stuff.

Stop poking Rufus like he’s the Pillsbury Doughboy, Drakken.

This whole thing with fixing the Attitudinator and turning Drakken evil again definitely has some sort of ethical or philosophical undertones to it. I mean, by letting him be evil, you sort of are complicit in his future bad actions I suppose but by letting Ron stay evil, you lose your friend and he continues to do bad things so like... it’s kind of a damned if you do damned if you don’t sort of deal. Kim’s a teenager and she has to deal with this. Though to be fair, the decision was likely VERY easy because it’s Ron. 

I like that Kim informs Drakken that he needs to turn bad again. 

Zorpox was scanning for the Kimmunicator’s frequency. He finds them that way. Betrayed by technology.

Love the shot of Kim handing the Kimmunicator to Drakken and telling him that she’s counting on him.

Zorpox uses Kim’s middle name. She says it’s overkill. Which was meant to lead into the next line but I just think it’s extra. 

Kim uses her small laser that basically just a small lightsaber to get out of chains. I KNOW THAT’S A LIGHTSABER. 

Mega Weather Generator. Zorpox caused Climate change!

Drakken and Ron are back to normal!

The lair exploded and Kim and Ron escape!

They did go to the wedding together. I would have liked to have seen them sitting together at the ceremony.

[phoebehalliwell]

After reading that latest chapter (which was amazing as always fam 💖💖) now imagining Dency, Penn, and Dove meeting Wyatt, Chris, and Melinda! The drama OH to be a fly on the wall for that 😂

dsaghdjgdgds thank u bestie also,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, omg. i feel like. i feel like the person having the best time would probably be dove because she loves soirees meeting people etc i actually gave penn younger siblings but idk if i'm going to commit to them but they're 4 and 5.5 years younger than her respectively so they're not a Major Presence in dency's life there like. present in penn's life obvi but i feel like they're really close to one another and kind of not too super close with penn just because penn's always been Really Far Removed from the rest. they're not even a po3 bc she's the twice blessed. but idk if i'm doing anything with them the point is i think like wyatt and chris kind of resemble penn's brother's like at first blush but like. oh my god are they not. oh also penn definitely wins Person Having The Worst Time because for starters they're wyatt her mirror who just seems So Much Happier That Her so ouch! and also like. has his own personal goals and dreams especially for a like normal / mortal life the little things penn doesn't even allow herself to think about because of course she's gonna marry a witch like someone who she went to magic school with someone with a powerful family like she's always felt like that's the role she has to play and wyatt's just out here like yeah <3 i work at an art gallery <3 i'm trying to make sourdough but i'm just like really bad at it haven't got the hang of it yet <3 someday i'll live in the suburbs w the love of my life and tend 2 a garden and put fresh cut flowers on the dining room table <3 and penn's just there like :| because like. fuck. she should be having dreams like that too are those her dreams? that's her mirror is that what she secretly wants? into realizing she doesn't know what she wants into like blah blah blah downward spiral it's all quite uncomfortable to witness. more discomfort!! its that penn and melinda actually have the same full name: melinda penelope halliwell, which penn ended up shedding in a series of moves because she Hated being compared to her ancestors. so to see a blood relative (sister, technically) wear that name and not feel any pain. yeah that also hurts penn!! i also the melinda the empath would be looking at penn like um respectfully jfc is that bitch okay. and the answer is no. i think melinda would Love dency i think dency's basically the middle point between chris and wyatt and i think melinda would be endlessly entertained by it like dency just immediately feels like Family melinda's like yep this is a halliwell. i think chris would be really interested in dency just because of like. how in the muck she is so to speak how involved she is in the underworld something chris has never fully done bc he family is such a beacon of light magic but has always considered. i think wyatt is secretly really grateful dency doesn't exist in his world because he knows the source's heir bit is the only reason they made penn keep the twice blessed title and looking at penn wyatt is quite frankly terrified. however i think wyatt would really like dove and dency as a dynamic a) because dove can talk art because of course she can and because dove is just like antagonistic as a person she does try to make it not necessarily an argument but a challenge a friendly debate at the very least which i think wyatt really finds fun because he doesn't get to do this with most people but also b) because i think dency really reminds him of chris because they're both like grunge black sheep children out to prove themselves but the idea of chris hanging out with anyone remotely like dove is beyond funny to him. i don't know what dove and chris's dynamic would be like. i think it really depends on where he is in his relationship with bianca, because i think bianca definitely carries an air of haughtiness a la dove, so if chris is already desensitized to that, then they're good, but while bianca is really like reserved in her air of superiority dove flaunts it like Flaunts it shamelessly and if chris hasn't already built some antibodies to that energy

dove being dove will knock him flat on his ass i think they might have beef. or they might hook up idk if the bro code extends to alternate universe cousins i think dove would run that past dency first (who literally wouldn't care). i think chris sees penn and suddenly becomes really grateful for the wyatt he has because if wyatt was like that well then um. yikes!

[graceivers]

Review #51 - The Bachelor Auction

The Bachelor Auction Author: Rachel Van Dyken Genre: Billionaires & CEOs, Contemporary Romance Rating: ★★★ Recommendation: it’s a toss-up; once was enough Summary: At twenty-two, Jane has already taken over her father’s cleaning business and basically guilted into doing everything for her sisters. At thirty-five, Brock seemingly carries the world on his shoulders trying to please his grandfather to assuage his own misplaced guilt over his parents’ death. Jane becomes Brock’s cleaning lady and develops feelings for him—feelings that are mutual yet seemingly doomed. It’s a modern Cinderella story.

Female Lead: Uh, okay. I had mixed feelings about Jane. There were some qualities I liked about her, some things I understood given the circumstances she was in, but then some things I just didn’t get. What I did like about this character? Her independence and tenacity. Yes, despite being strapped down with two ridiculous and ungrateful older sisters out of guilt, Jane was still an independent girl. She took over her father’s business; that cleaning business was entirely hers, and she was the only one working it. Jane paid her sisters’ credit card debt. She worked hard. There were so many times in the book and likely beforehand that she could’ve quit and left, but weighed down by guilt to keep her family in tact, Jane persevered.

But then… Jane was also a very damsel-in-distress type of girl, which directly contrasted the good and responsible girl Van Dyken had introduced. Obviously, yes, I got that this was a Cinderella story, so the end goal was to have Brock sweep her off her feet and save her from her wretched life and horrible sisters. Yes, that happened. And while part of me enjoyed that aspect of the story, another part of me was disappointed that everything Jane had worked so hard for herself was basically negated because a wealthy man came in to save the day. Jane was so overly sensitive at times—always on the verge of tears, for goodness sake—and so disarmed by Brock that the very good and responsible girl that I liked so much was reduced away to the damsel-in-distress character that I was not fond of. Male Lead: I was never sure what to make of Brock. Did I sympathize with his misplaced guilt over his parents’ death? Yes. Did I get his need to please his grandfather and do everything perfect because someone wanted him to and someone told him to? Yes. Van Dyken laid out Brock’s motivation easily and well. My issue with this character was his constant back-and-forth and lack of determination with Jane to the point that I couldn’t enjoy the grand ending the way that moment probably should’ve been savored. For the majority of the book, I was rolling my eyes at this character and waiting for him to make up his mind. Get it together, Brock! Geez. Again, I got his need to do as told and please his grandfather both for familial and business reasons, but what the heck was this character doing the whole time? Half of the time he was angry and upset and projecting those feelings at Jane who didn’t deserve his harshness. And then this dude was pursuing her with no plan or end goal at all when he was still going to go through with the auction and basically give himself to another woman. I didn’t like it. Plot & Writing: The Bachelor Auction was a modern Cinderella story. The good thing was that if you enjoy that fairy tale and the kind of happy ending it brings, Van Dyken did a nice job with this retelling. The bad thing was that these characters didn’t necessarily bring enough to the table for me to like them and believe and investing in the overall romance. But that’s just me, of course.

Honestly, I didn’t feel the chemistry between the couple. It was obvious to me why Jane was attracted to wealthy and good-looking Brock. It was much less clear to me why Brock liked Jane. Yes, he stated that he liked how she didn’t know who he was at the beginning. But right after that first interaction, she definitely knew who he was—his name, family, reputation, etc. Thus, that reason for liking Jane over other girls was negated. So… why else did Brock like Jane? Because she cooked and cleaned for him? Seriously. What were the reasons because half the time he was cold and harsh with her, especially after they had sex for the first time—Jane’s first time! And then their fight and separation leading up to the grand finale… The whole thing was weird and cold. Brock needed to fight harder for Jane, but he didn’t. And Jane seemingly reverted to poor damsel-in-distress mode. Even when they reconciled in front of everyone and got Brock’s grandfather’s blessing, I was expecting something epic. I did not get it.

The business and family plots for each character were a bit much for me. On Brock’s side, the thing about keeping the shareholders happy and using the bachelor auction to do so was a little weird. And then mixing family problems into that mess? Yikes. I mean, did Brock’s grandfather really have an anxiety attack when Brock initially told him he didn’t want to participate? Geez. Regardless if he actually did or did not, that grandfather of his seemingly did nothing but guilt and manipulate Brock into doing whatever he wanted and never really let Brock grieve for his parents properly. There was a lot of guilt and manipulation going on on Jane’s side too with her sisters who were these egregious characters that didn’t deserve anything Jane gave them. I get that the sisters and that life as basically their servant was part of the Cinderella story. I guess maybe my disenchantment, then, is actually with the Cinderella story itself then… Favorite Part(s): Um… probably any interaction between Jane and Brock’s brothers. Those were fun. Learning that Bentley knew how to bake? And Brant trying to take cookies away from Jane? Those were the little moments I enjoyed far more than the overall storyline. Final Thoughts: The Bachelor Auction was extremely average to me. Despite the book being a Cinderella story, I wasn’t much invested in the characters and subsequently their romance. And though I thought I might still give the other books in the series a shot for Brock’s brothers, I’m not so sure about it anymore. The only reason I recommended this book as a toss-up is because of the supposed fairy tale aspect to it. But even I, a hopeless romantic, was not sold on it.

[survivorpacificislandallstars]

Ep. 3 - “Seaux my tribe sucks” - Karen

I know I just said this, but damn, I'm goin to say it again!! FUCK SAM IN THIS GAME.... SHE CAN GO.... I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR HER FAKE ASS ANYMORE.... SHE LOST ME 100%... AND LOSING ME AS AN ALLY WILL ONLY HURT HER IN THIS GAME!!!

okay who the FUCK do i have to fight to avenge nicky getting rocked out????????????????

Well i survived! This is a lot for me I dont know how i survived a tribal in the pacific island series. So here is were I think things Stand. Me and Stevie are good with each other, Gage and Billy are obviously together because of teriyaki sauce. Brandon voted for me no surprise there. Andrew is like never on but he is with me and Stevie. and Kevin I think now that Lily is gone will be with me possibly. I wanna see if me and Stevie can go with Billy & Gage so that they dont think about getting with Kevin & Brandon and killing us.

I highkey still think it's me.

Oh fuck Sam.... She's digging herself in a fkn hole with me. Our tribe better win fkn immunity..... Because if not I am worried! I NEED TO STAY! FUCK!

sam has been being really fake to rhea about not voting rhea even tho ashleys got screenshots so me Ashley & rhea are really close and if we go to tribal we need 1 more which we are trying to get Gabriel to vote with us so if we go to tribal tonight sam is probs going which I'm ok with

So Jose gave me my idol which was like rightfully mine with some convincing. I played my idol and poor Karen got rocked out because that dumb bitch Rhea didn't vote punpun with us. I basically hate everyone except Jose, I'm just going to have to do good in the challenges so I keep going to exile because I'm in the minority rn. I mean I got 4 votes bye. The good thing coming out of this is now Rhea doesn't trust Sam and now me Jose and Rhea are a thing. We're trying to get Gabriel to possibly flip.

So um most likely will be fucked up later tonight because my dumb ass won't get home till 7:30 and if this was regular challenge or even on a nonbusy day I would be able to play the challenge but I played myself and it's probably gonna be going home. The one good thing is that I'll be able to be reunited with Nicky!!!! But otherwise yikes

to quote my friend Andrew "snake is very depressing they have to give him mice that won't fight back so he won't bite himself" and I was like "accurate." also snakes do not work like this and snakes can easily avoid biting themselves, breaking your snake's neck is clearly another way to lose. and a revelation I really realized you have to have a super steady hand for this game, and because of my autism I can't stay still to save my life. so if anyone is wondering why I suck at everything so much that's why.

me when the hosts say tonight is an instant tribal for whoever loses: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Guys, did you plan to use this challenge BEFORE or AFTER casting Sam, because honestly, I can't tell the difference between the two of them. 

I love how Katie and I had a mini competition to see who could get the best score. She comes out with 5350 and she's like "beat that!" and I'm like "lol k hold on" and whip out a 7150 20 minutes later. I love competition.

I’m really glad the past 2 immunity challenges although flash games have had tiny db functions so that I could save my high score just incase it ever comes into question that I cheated- which I have been accused of in the past.

So I noticed that Nicky submission for immunity......DEFINITELY speculating another twist like yurei. This game may have just become so much more ugly

Not to sound full of myself or overdramatic because I would never be those things but my mini-challenge-redemption arc in the span of like an hour was iconic and I know it probably had no influence on the challenge results at all but I'm gonna pretend I #that. So um good news is Samantha the queen is safe tonight I believe, and honestly the whole Kyaal tribe or whatever is full of icons but I hope it's like ashley bc idek her. I think I managed to recover things with Brandon. He's paranoid again this time about being in the minority but as far as I know he's safe because there's no alliance. Andrew and I both agreed that Gage has been kinda shady. According to Andrew Gage played a shady floater game in Hawaii, and it looks like old habits die hard because Gage was the swing vote at the first tribal council. Do I hypothetically want him out next tribal? ...Maybe. I don't know if it's possible, so that's the problem. I want Andrew and David and I think I want Brandon as well, but it's hard to keep all the people I want together when they don't necessarily want each other. So idk. It's hard to plan ahead in the case of swaps and whatever, but if I had to choose someone to eliminate in a heartbeat I'd choose Gage.

Anyway seaux my tribe sucks, not one challenge beast on our tribe? Interesting The vote is gonna be 3-3 hopefully, 3 votes for Jose and 3 for me and hopefully pun and gabs don't flip on me and hopefully we can scare Rhea into flipping I have a trick up my sleeve to sway her if it does tie. And we go to rocks? Then good for me bc then I'm safe seaux :~) 

So, I have made my choice. This could cost my game moving forward, but it seems like smartest move for MY game right now. It'll piss people off, and possibly puts me on the bottom, BUT, I think I can make it past this. I can't risk rocks. I can't be Jessica, I just can't. :/ Had she just switched her vote to Hannah.....,

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Links I Love, Right Now

I’m going to start this post completely off topic because I just have to say something about the fact that today is, in my opinion, one of the best days of the year. This is because today is the first Friday in March, my friends. It goes without saying that Fridays are just great days. And the minute March begins I start to feel renewed (because I love spring with every ounce of my being). So when you combine the two, I feel like it’s a day destined for greatness.  And now that I’ve gotten that out of the way, let’s get to the links, man! This is actually not the kind of week I normally reserve for the   Links I Love   series. Robbie has been on the road all week, which means I’ve been on full time kid duty on top of working, which therefore means I’ve had a lot less time than usual for pretty much everything - especially for spending on the internet. That said, despite the fact that I’m so exhausted once the kids are finally asleep that I can barely keep my eyes open, I need a little time to myself to wind down. That time would much better be reserved for reading a book, of course, but instead, I end up online reading news and window shopping and checking out blogs. And when I find cool stuff, I mean I  obviously  have to share it with all of you.  So here goes:    So, um, who else watched the Oscars? Yikes. I loved this NY Times piece titled  ‘ Moonlight,’ ‘La La Land’ and What an Epic Oscars Fail Really Says  .  Have you guys seen this awesome post on the “  X-Plan  ,” or how to give kids (mainly teens) a way out when in uncomfortable situations where they’re feeling peer pressure? It involves a simple text (one great thing about the fact that today’s generations of teens have cell phones), and it makes a whole lot of sense.  I am officially an auntie to a 10 week old Husky named Laika. (My sister got a puppy!) It’s given me some serious dog fever, I have to say, and got lost in this fun article on   27 things you need if your dog is your best friend  . (I miss you forever   Bubby dog  !)  My friend and fellow mama Terra bravely shared her   postpartum depression story   on her blog on Tuesday. It’s a raw, beautiful read, and it’s so important. Please read and share.  I need to make myself a   sangria tequila snow cone  . Immediately.  Someone please design me a house that looks exactly like   this  .  One of our regular customers over at the   Bubby & Bean Art shop   named Emily, who is, in her words, a breast cancer thriver, is raising funds for a program called �� I Em Strong  . Through this program she will volunteer with oncology centers, hospitals, and non-profits, create programs specifically geared towards women healing from breast cancer (and treatment), and help empower women through yoga and its philosophies. Please check out her inspiring story and campaign   right here  .  I was a major clog fan in the ‘90s and this seriously beautiful   pair of clogs   (also seen in top image) might just make me become one again.  I know I mentioned this in my last Links I Love post too, but I have to do it again because it’s just that good. My friend Jessica’s gorgeously photographed, all plant-based (!) cookbook ‘One Part Plant’ is   now available to purchase  . (I shared one of the recipes and gushed about why I love it in   this post  , in case you missed it.)  Another ICYMI - I was over on   Prevention.com   last week talking about how a sugar addict (me!) gave up all forms of sugar for 7 days.   Check it out   if you want to see what happened.  An architect turned an old cement factory into his home and  t he interior is AMAZING  .  I don’t eat meat, but aside from the beef and stuff, I’m all about these   “authentic American taco” recipe   ideas. Tacos forever.    This dress   is so simple and beautiful, and best of all, looks like it would be really comfortable without being sloppy. I think I’m going to get it. (The $29.99 price tag is definitely helping my case.)    Enjoy the first Friday and weekend of the first month of spring. (Hurray!) We’ll be at the park pretending it’s 10 degrees warmer than it actually is. See you Monday!       ALSO FIND US HERE:  INSTAGRAM  //  FACEBOOK  //  TWITTER  //  PINTEREST  //   BLOGLOVIN’    twitter   ||   facebook   ||   bloglovin’   ||   pinterest    ||  instagram

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