#also i love sam’s dad

[if-i-look-straight-look-again]

Rewatching Ted Lasso part 54: Sam’s dad coming in just when he needs him and Sam immediately hugging him and then the CAMERA PANS TO JAMIE

[br1ghtestlight]

big fan of the fact that louise is the biggest reader in their family :) she's a bit of a bookworm and i truly believe this

[pikopiikko]

i am getting barraged CONSTANTLY on all sides by STUFF THAT SHORT CIRCUITS MY BRAIN THIS EPISODE

[samdeancrimespree]

k hold on im going insane. so. what i just said abt dean beating up the car instead of sam. the Next Episode is the one where sam is like “you miss dad sooo bad and i can see right through you” “you can’t just substitute him with whoever you want.” and then dean punches him. guys if sam KNEW.

then sam is Begging dean to hit him. you don’t GET IT HES CRAZY.

dean doesn’t want to show these emotions to sam. he wants to be strong for him. so he tells gordon about them instead. but sam sees dean choosing gordon over him, believing gordon instead of sam. sam wants to be his equal, not his kid. dean doesn’t think sam knows what he’s doing. but sam understands dean’s emotions more than dean does.

so he goads dean into hitting him, just to prove he can take it. “you can hit me all you want. it still won’t change anything.”

we Know from how hands-on he is when sam gets injured that dean uses physical touch instead of words to show his emotions. if sam saw him fuck up the car, saw his warning, he knows that dean is struggling and wants sam out of the way so he doesn’t hurt him. dean might not even realize he’s doing it, but sam does.

and sam doesn’t let it go. sam shows dean that he’s here for him, no matter what dean does. if dean needs an outlet for his emotions, then sam will make sure it’s him. he doesn’t care that dean is messy and angry and mean right now. those emotions, those punches, are for sam. not for gordon, not for a monster, not even for his car. for sam.

[pocketgalaxies]

sam talking about how he tries to let his kids sleep for as long as possible every morning so he'll help dress them while they're still sleeping makes me wanna cry

[soullessjack]

Also just since my one jack-psychosis post made its rounds i’d love to add on these things for extra salt in the wound:

-> “jack smiles, so happy to be so needed, so loved.”

-> “they’ll never want to be friends again.” [“and that’s important to you?”] “they raised me. taught me to be who i am.”

[starnana7]

“john winchester did his best” Okay but his best still wasn’t good enough :/ and like i get it he lost his wife the love of his life whatever .. but in the end dean ended up raising a child while he himself was a child and that just wasn’t fair i’m sorry … and if he was just a little bit negligent maybe it wouldn’t be so bad yk but man was literally abusive like all the hints of john’s bad behavior when he drunk, how angry he got, the werewolves marks, how he let dean rot in jail for stealing Food so that they could eat (mostly sam, actually), just so many fucked up things that i really just can’t forgive him.. and the sad thing is that he actually used to be so good yk he never wanted to bring his sons into that life but in the end not only did he brought them but he turned them into soldiers, into weapons, and no matter how much you want to defend him or how much “it was necessary”, you just never do that to kids.. and it just makes me so sad. like give me that children so I myself can raise them yk just poor babies :( specially poor dean :( he took all the responsibility and like 90% of the reasons that he turned out the way he is is bc of john like all “his bad traits” can just be attributed to the way john raised (or not raised) him

[ardentpoop]

:)

[walk-to-gallows]

Why are the Winchesters perpetually caught in a battle of trying to keep their messy little whirlwind family together while it's straining and coming loose at the seams. Can they not be happy. Please. As a treat.

[angelsdean]

my dad was also like "can this guy stop monologuing" when john-as-azazel was going on and on in 1x22 and then 2 seconds later dean goes "you mind just getting this over with, huh? Cause I really can’t stand the monologuing" and my dad was like "no way!" djfkdfkd

[boywifesammy]

fucking 4x04 metamorphosis man. i think it's the first time spn really addressed sam being a "freak". like it's set up beautifully for the first 3 seasons but the psychic/demon blood arc pulled it to the forefront.

sam has felt this feeling of alienation, this wrongness inside of him his entire life. not fitting into the hunting life, never having a stable home, being nerdy and empathetic and emotional trapped in a big 6'5 body. and when he finally gets a life outside hunting with jess, it gets ripped away from him. for the first 3 seasons he kept that all bottled up inside and let dean take the reigns (very lil bro of him btw), because whenever he tries to break out of it (jess, meg, etc etc) it ends horribly. and to have that feeling of constant otherness validated by learning that he has demon blood inside of him? sam must have believed that he was sick to the very core. he must have looked up to dean as his amazing big brother, who was rough around the edges but good and normal and always dad’s favourite. so it’s no surprise that sam kept a lid on all of those feelings around dean, because he was used to being the freak, and he was used to suppressing it.

then dean is gone and sam suddenly loses the one person who saw something good in him. hell, his own father thought he was a monster, and other hunters, who are the only other people he could make any sort of meaningful connection with without putting their lives in danger. he’s stuck with this awful thing inside of him, rotting away at him, his whole family is dead, and ruby is there, telling him he’s not evil. he’s not bad. he can make something good of this thing inside of him. and sam must think that ruby understands; she’s a demon, trying to be good, she gets it. so sam gets so deep into it that he forgets why it would ever be bad. he basks in this feeling of otherness and he embraces being a freak because for once in his life, it's actually a good thing that he's different.

then dean comes back to life and suddenly everything is flipped on its head. in the eyes of dean, he’s a monster. that awful feeling of alienation returns. he’s a freak, he’s a ticking time bomb, he’s tainted from the inside out. so of course sam hides it from dean, because he wouldn’t understand. not like ruby apparently understands, not like the other psychic kids, to sam dean could never understand him because he was always the freaky nerd younger brother and dean was the cool, sweet talking older bro that always seemed to have everything in check.

so that look of absolute hurt on sam’s face when dean says he has something evil inside of him, something in his blood?

that is genuine betrayal. dean's loss is still fresh to him, and now that he's finally found something that makes him belong, it's ripped away from him. just like stanford, just like jess, just like anything else in life that he tries to make his own. so he blows up on dean, screams about how he feels like a freak, just unloads all of this shit that he's been holding in his entire life. his entire damn life. because sam has been an "other", a freak, as long as he's known. the only person who he had was dean, but now he was losing him, before he even got him back fully. all because he tried to embrace who he really was.

so yeah. 4x04 metamorphosis man. wow. just fucking wow.

[graedari]

What if I babygirled your Sam Flynn- what would you do?

[Image ID in alt]

[lovyabug]

Maybe im too much like dean winchester bc why do i get soooo upset when i see john winchester hate...like yes he is a piece of shit dad yes he did a terrible job raising his sons and yes he deserves to be hated on sometimes BUTTTT. But. He *IS* still dean and sams Dad. They still love him despite everything. John still loved his sons despite how he treated them. And it just hurts seeing people so quick to call him iredeemable or evil

[sbd-laytall]

[folansstuff]

AHHHH MY GIRLSSSSSSSSS (AND SAM AND PRODIGY)

they look so good omg

i hope this book is good please let this book be good

[girl-bateman]

How does one get assigned as sam coded / dean coded ? Do I need a doctors note ? A psych evaluation perhaps ?