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rendering takes me so long.. but that's on me for choosing this path. ain't that right, olaf
#mostly im just indecisive. i don't know how to do this right!!!#also i lose focus#it doesn't look bad in fact i do like how it's turned out but am i 100% satisfied? i can't answer that#quacks#11 more characters to render 👍
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Birds of a Feather previous / next tw: anxiety attack
#as a note that bracelet isnt like a magical ooo anxiety attack cureall#it was the bracelet breaking#their usual stim that helps the calm down and focus#right after talking abt losing emelie#that triggered the feeling of intense loss again#so being able to futz with it again helped them calm down#i mean. they didnt get their aunt back#but they at least got their bracelet back#OH ALSO when they get rlly +++vibes they grit their teeth#which can damage their teeth so they try to chew on the collars of their shirts instead#we've only seen it once before when nino mentioned gabe#also their i tried to add a lil shine to explain but#the bracelet they wear on their right hand has crystal beads#the other has plastic#so it doesnt make the right sound or feel right#anway to wrap this up#nothing like the nostalgia of helping a friend recover from a breakdown after u just had on lmao#feralnette au#my art#felix culpa#marinette dupain cheng#birds of a feather#tw anxiety attack#this update took a bit bc i dipped into my own fun attacks for ref
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drunk alhaitham who yaps about the improvements the sumeru education system should make & kaveh, also drunk, attentively listening- the literal most beautiful man in whole of sumeru, with sparkly red eyes, messy blond hair, and a soft blush across his cheeks, with his full attention on the autistic scribe. flustering alhaitham to the point he stops mid sentence, averting his eyes, "oh fuck."
#THE GAYS#guys literally alhaitham would be drunk#with no filter#and that would make room in his mind to focus on how fucking drop dead gorgeous kaveh is#i should write this#alhaitham x kaveh#haikaveh#kavetham#genshin impact#drabble#fluff#they're adorable drunks#your honor#also no im not writing alhaitham here as if he got turned on but just flustered by the sheer beauty this man has#how fucking dropdead beautiful kaveh is#i am alhaitham alhaitham is me#kaveh is AAAAAAH#alhaitham 1 minute flat of silence later: you're so pretty#another; alhaitham remembering this is his boyfriend and putting a hand over his mouth in shock as he recalls#shaky pupils as he realizes he could just kiss him rn#like he could do that#no one would stop him#enter alhaitham panicking#kaveh smiles as he observes his bf just being quiet#alhaitham sees him smile AND LOSES IT COMPLETELY#A BLUSHING MESS INTERNALLY SCREAMING
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“Where does it all lead? What will become of us? These were our young questions, and young answers were revealed. It leads to each other. We become ourselves.”
#once again yjs losing best casting was a snub of the century#i bet the lighting on this looks ass in bright light#but it looks great in this dark room rn#yellowjackets#op#also i really hope the adult timeline writing cleans up its focus in s3#imho it got a little sloppy mid way through s2#but i still love them
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Girl please stop romanticizing obesity, it will literally kill you eventually (and I know it’s not the first time someone says it to you). Like are you even ok? Romanticizing being immobile & being humiliated on the street? Why would you even aspire to this? For some attention of questionable men on this app? Girl they don’t deserve you. This message comes from a place of concern, it is not intended as an insult. You said you want a career in the future, maybe focus on that, I’m not sure how possible it is do all that while being immobile or having whatever condition.
omfg 😭 i apologize for writing little stories to get myself off, i guess?? lmfao. i have a fetish. i state clearly in my bio that this is what to expect. sorry im horny posting anonymously on tumblr.com ???? stop being weird when u don’t even belong in these spaces
#this is so silly#like i really have any choice but to focus on my career#and i’ve literally said before that i don’t plan on reaching immobility#i really doubt i could. i have tummy issues and am literally allergic to garlic#and i’ve also definitely stated before that what i do requires me to have some level of fitness#permits went thru and i have. a massive project out in west TX in september#also. why does this person assume i’m not doing it for myself??#i was fat before posting here. and i will be fat after#i love my body and i’d love it even more if i was bigger#but i’m fine where i am and i’d be fine losing 50lbs too#tho i don’t wanna be under 200lbs bc that’s where body dysmorphia starts#i am predominantly attracted to fat women so. let me be that pls lol#anon. we have one life and i’m genuinely blessed to have attraction to smthn outside of the norm#this variation is normal within a population and i will have a normal life despite what ppl like you think#talk#ask
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HAHA HA !! HELP !
Okay sooo...
I hate talking about my private life but Ig you guys need to know why I'm making that post Basically: medical bill ! 14,000 euros total ! I wish I was kidding ! :'D
We were already tight this month and we knew it would be tight for the incoming months but this is the final nail in the coffin and I need help !
I'm opening commissions, I will even make backgrounds again if you wish but it will need to be discussed bc I need to be careful and not burn myself out more !
I also made a paypal me link if you don't want to commission me/just want to help ! >>> Here ! <<<
I will do :
- Ocs - Canon Characters - Furry Anthros or Feral - Pokemons - Humans / Humanoids - Ponies Anthros or Feral
I will not do :
- NSFW - Mecha - Anything racist, lgbt-phobic etc..
I need a clear digital reference
Payment in euros and via paypal
Contact via PM if interested
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I don't expect to gather all the money needed for the bill but I wish to lighten the weight of it :']
Sorry for sudden post and all ! Thank you for your time !
#saastalk#commission#art comms open#art commisions#art commissions open#art commission info#i was already trying to not lose my mind cuz of irl stuff but i guess that part is just too much and i have to swallow my pride#i will also not finish gobtober cuz of that i need to focus on commissions and just gather money#quick edit i forgot to say how to contact me dzedhzeuhd welp
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Once upon a time
#I want them to lose focus and have a consensual workplace relationship 🥺🥺#ALSO WHAT?. SEASON 4 DROP OUT OF NOWHERE WHAT? AND WE GET SHADOWPEACH BACKSTORY CRUNBS???#can’t get over macaque’s face in That photo. I know what you are#I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS FOR THEM THOUGH UGHHHGFDO#like I have the model sheet for macaque and it shows him with his six ears and it says only to draw the six ears if extreme closeup but i#can’t find a single screen cap in the show with his six ears#I’d like to think wukong would have been one of the first ppl he’d show them to if he always has his glamor on them. PLS IT WOULD BE SO CUTE#like the glamor comes off his scar and someone pointed out his tail switching between black and white and a theory he’s using glamor on his#fur too. but he never ever takes the glamor off his ears which I want to believe is more than just the crew not drawing ‘em#I’m gonna be honest I’m only gonna watch season 4 when dub comes out but. that’s not gonna stop me from peeping the tags since I don’t under#understand the subs anyway.#first shadowpeach art too let’s gooooo. im so normal about them (lying)#my art#myart#Lego monkie kid#lmk#monkie kid#lmk sun wukong#lmk macaque#six eared macaque#sun wukong#shadowpeach#lmk fanart#lmk wukong#lmk monkey king#lmk six eared macaque#lmk season 4 spoilers#lmk season 4#lmk spoilers
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Sorry if you've gone over this before but I was curious as to what you'd think it would take for Leo to finally break in front of his brothers?
We’ve actually seen Leo break his persona multiple times throughout the series! And pretty much each and every time has a common theme present: his family being in danger.
#non au ask#probably the biggest break he has is immediately after Raph protects him from the Krang and forces him to leave Raph behind#not once in the series has Leo shown a greater horror than the moment he’s out of the pod knowing Raph was left behind#and he makes that break KNOWN#he shovels it down again soon enough but yeah#also noteworthy is his reaction to losing Gram Gram#and(less of a sad break but a still a break of his lackadaisical persona) when he IMMEDIATELY gets serious when Raph’s missing in the sewer#actually I think of Leo being serious about Raph missing in the sewers a lot#luckily (or not lol) for his mask these breaks happen mostly when everyone else is ALSO freaking out#so more focus is put on to the entire situation than simply Leo’s reaction to it#but yeah Leo loves his family SO MUCH so of course they’re consistently his breaking point#tbh tho all of them share that breaking point#cannot BELIEVE I didn’t mention it but his ‘I’m nothing without them’ speech ALSO HAPPENS WHEN HE THINKS HIS BROS ARE IN DANGER#it’s all fun and games until plot armor loses its durability!
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rewatching s1 this time around has actually left me sooooo fascinated by buck and abby's relationship??????? bc what we know of it in its aftermath is actually completely visible on screen during the season???
in episode 6 when abby is talking to carla about a potential valentines day date with buck she outright says she's fine with him being a boytoy and it just being something casual so she can feel good in herself again and is almost complaining that buck is taking it so seriously by trying to go slow. and the thing is, i don't think her stance on that ever changes???????
she absolutely cares about him and appreciates him for everything he does for her (both in helping support her with her mom and what he does in helping her find her way back to herself) but i don't think she ever really wanted or needed him to be more than that????
on the flipside, you have buck who's experiencing feelings he's never felt before and is so totally overwhelmed by this woman who's making him realise real connection is possible and it feels a million times better than the way he's vied for people's attention before. and there's something a little heartbreaking in the way he questions if he's ready for it to be something real. because bobby encourages him to step into the relationship fully and in the end he does do that
but abby doesn't really want him to???
so you have buck, fully committed and ready to be the partner he thinks abby needs, and abby, who is so completely unable to be that partner in return because she wants to navigate the next stage of her life alone
and aksdjfh it's just!!!! so!!!!! interesting!!!!!!!!! and i am once again BEGGING someone to make a gifset/video/edit/anything for them with reckless driving by lizzy mcalpine
#also#the way it *primes* buck to be ready to as the partner EDDIE needs from day one i have to go#911 rewatch#but anyway back to the lyrics!!!!#abby is: 'I didn't mean to kiss you // I mean I did but I didn't think it'd go this far // I didn't mean to kiss you // Now you can't focus#on the road when I'm in your car'#and 'I don't love you like that // I'm a careful driver#And I tell you all the time to keep your eyes on the road#But you love me like that // You're a reckless driver // And one day it'll kill us if I don't let go'#while *buck* is: 'But then it's over in a second // Crashed the car into the tree // I don't know how it happened // Guess I'd die to keep#your eyes on me'#and 'Cause I love you like that // I'm a reckless driver#And you tell me all the time to keep my eyes on the road#Do you love me like that?// If I keep on driving // Would you hold me when we crash or would you let me go?#AND THEN THE BRIDGE#Don't wanna scrape you off the pavement#I can't be your savior // I don't wanna be here when you lose control#Don't wanna watch it as it happens // See the crowd's reaction // I don't wanna be here when you kill us both'#i'm honestly begging someone to discuss this with me askdjfhs
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“if you go, i’ll stay, you come back, i’ll be right here” but it’s clarke griffin giving her life so that bellamy blake and all her friends could make it to space, surviving through sheer will, and calling him on a radio every single day for six years until he could return to her and the home she built for them all.
#the 100#jroth#kass morgan#clarke griffin#bellamy blake#bellarke#her s5 arc and just post praimfaya arc in general is not talked about before#like even before the trauma was HEAVY#but after that she was just constantly miserable and losing everything#honestly her praimfaya arc is arguably the saddest#spacekru had each other and became a family and arguably had it the best even with all their struggles bc they had true peace and happiness#even octavia had people around her and even tho they failed her sm she had people like miller and gaia and indra#she had a propose to care for her people#clarke had literally nothing before madi#she was so alone and spent six years stagnant with no idea if the human race could even continue#if spacekru didnt come down then they could never open the bunker meaning humanity would end with her and madi#and she didn’t even know if spacekru were alive up there#literally the 100 needed to focus on its characters#imagine if it was character driven like lost and everyone had their centric episodes and worthy development#it could have been everything 😭😭#also sos for the rant but i could literally talk about clarke for years#especially her after praimfaya#but this was just meant to be a cute bellarke post lol
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"Jimmy shouldn't be the only one who gets any blame for the events of Mouthwashing, Curly is also horrible for basically sweeping what happened to Anya under the rug and not doing anything about it" and "Curly doesn't deserve what happened to him" are statements that can, and should, coexist.
#mark making#bloo shut up#mouthwashing#tbh that last statement also applies to the rest of the Pony Express crew as well#Anya Daisuke and Swansea didn't deserve what happened to them either#I think that people focus so much on hating Jimmy because he's the ONLY ONE who deserved what came to him#Curly may not be entirely faultless but I don't think he deserved losing his hands and feet and face and skin#and being forced to eat himself#anyway yeah#all my homies hate Jimmy#thanks for coming to my ted talk
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Doodle dump ahh them
#megaman#megaman classic#mm classic#I gotta post my hcs about them someday I keep losing focus or getting busy lol#fire man#fireman#elec man#elecman#also side headcanon elec calls fire red because hes always red and theyve got lil nicknames#fireelec
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Reading loz/lu fics and it's just so interesting how wide the spectrum is of their personalities.
Sometimes it's got an in universe reason (different past (usually gender or species change), recent or ongoing traumatic events, a spectacularly bad first meeting), but sometimes (often) the characters are just... Weirdly angsty or peppy, there's no in between!
And I'm beginning to think less people have played more than one game than I thought XD.
Not that it's anyone's fault! One game is more than enough to be part of it all, and loz is exclusive to Nintendo consoles - and all the older stuff is frustratingly hard to get hold of. Heck, I'm still looking for wind waker, and that was really popular! And then you have to play it! They're not small games!!
But could people writing wild please ease off just a tiiiiiny bit so he can be a semi functional member of society pretty please XD? He's just as much a polite boy as any other member of the chain! He won't even run in shops! He can't attack npcs! He talks to every single person he's ever seen and remembers every single name. Yes, he's three quarters woodland creature with a hefty amount of trauma but he's also a fashionista who managed to avoid accidentally taking sides in a mayoral election and that's not easy!
#I have some actual gripes but that's just me being pedantic about something I know a lot about#loz#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#loz link#loz botw#loz totk#the legend of zelda#totk link#lu wild#Okay but please stop making his teleportation a point of interest to the chain they ALL can warp it's not even slightly special#And the slate/pad doesn't hold any items I'm begging you that's just fanon it's never been canon or been implied to be#Travelling across hyrule (on horseback) is about a week and a half following the paths at a walk. Rito to lurelin. It's not weeks on foot t#Hyrule Castle!!#This isn't a problem but like. Let link be petty brats to civilians occasionally. It's enrichment. They all have beef with some rando.#They're all extremely polite and let people get away with more than they maybe should but like. Adults starting smth with a 16yo.#Also wild has serious beef with ganon why does everyone write him so chill. Like botw sure but totk?? Absolutely not.#'wah my home is in ruins it's all my fault' it's been like that for yonks no one's even mad and hello?? Miles on miles on untouched#Landscapes?? Millenia of ruins indistinguishable from the recent stuff?? Link literally died he could not have done any more#How anyone can play botw/totk and not be BLISTERINGLY proud of hyrule I don't know#Okay but why does everyone (particularly legend omg) always bitterly blame hylia like loz has a dozen odd deities and hylia is the ONE who#Got cursed right alongside link. It's just... Idk but it seems like such a culturally Christian thing. All the focus on one who then gets#Blamed for everything in life going wrong. Not even Christian but specifically American Catholic. I don't know.#Hylia is the one deity we can pretty safely assume is neither omnipotent or omniscient lmao#In every time she has a voice (botk/ss) she pretty clearly mucks up or gets tricked and has regrets#In ss when she was zelda she hated every second of leading link around and even then it all hinged on link being completely willing!!#And then she got kidnapped anyway!#In totk (spoilers) she loses contact with one of her statues and asks link to check it out. Another statue gets POSESSED by ol triangle hea#And again link has to figure out the problem. Like even in her divine form she is so far from all knowing and all doing.#It's a lot of conflating with the concept of fate maybe?
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something that absolutely changed the way i approach goals was realising that it's never the thing that you want, but rather the feelings that you believe it will give you. without striving for those feelings, the thing is not going to make you happy.
for example, until i was eighteen i would daydream about having a Real Best Friend. like i wanted my disney channel bff you know?? and getting older felt a lot like 'okay it'll happen when i get to secondary school' 'okay it'll happen when i get to sixth form' 'okay it'll happen in fandom' and it just. never did. i kept getting sucked into friendships that made me feel shit about myself while all the people that seemed to want to be close to me would, for some reason, make me feel uncomfortable. but it was at the point where i was like, okay. what do i really want from a friend? is it the actual object of A Friend or is it what i feel like A Friend would allow me to do? so instead of looking for that Real Best Friend, i started allowing myself to feel like i deserved a Real Best Friend. i stopped deleting my messages even if i thought they were embarrassing, and i stopped worrying that people would think im annoying if i messaged them first, and i stopped being scared of being 'too much' whenever i shared my interests.
and you know what? within two months i GOT that Real Best Friend. within a few more i had Multiple of those Real Best Friends. it's been three years since that shift in my life and it's like All my friends are like my disney channel bff friends -- they genuinely care about me, they genuinely like me as a person, they invite me to their houses, they cook for me, they buy me random things when they think of me, and most of all they make me love myself more, when for my entire life the trade off for a friendship always felt like i had to hate myself a little.
idk. i just think it's worth remembering that the feeling of something is the most important thing to strive for. a thing without feeling is nothing
#this is... also VERY relevant to weight loss/diets#not gonna get into it too deeply but just like. if youre trying to lose weight#id really suggest you focus mostly on all the emotional/mental benefits you think being at your gw will give you#(e.g. confidence in a certain dress or not having to over think your snacks)#because trust me when i say if you hate yourself into getting to your goal weight you're still going to hate yourself at that weight#your mental state and your thought processes are like stained glass and they will colour whatever reality is in front of you#♡alizeh talks♡
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Hhhrrg born to leave long comments on my favorite ao3 fics forced to complete 5 consecutive midterm assignments all at once. god have mercy on my soul and this canvas
#not art#text#this is a form of torture. i want to open my ao3 email so bad but i must resist because i know the moment i do i will lose focus forever#soon… by god……….#also sorry lol im almost out of my art backlog so there might be a small posting gap#im not dead.just. a secret third thing (college)
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learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way
#experiencing some BIG FEELINGS OVER THIS REVELATION#listen i have never ever been bothered abt not seeing someone in a while or making time to talk to them bc in my mind its like not thst muc#time has passed. i mean it with every fibre of my being that when im like 'oh its ok even though we havent talked in a while and have our#own things going on it doesnt mean we're not friends anymore since we left things on a good note 8 months ago' i sincerely believe that#and for the longest time i just thought everybody makes peace with it at some point and not automatically assuming the other person doesnt#wanna talk to me anymore or smth. my longest lasting friendships are with ppl who work the same way i just thouhght that was normal#whatever organ everybody has that makes them reach out to their friends and plan hang outs i probably dont have it#i was already hesitant to ask out Alex bc i spend almost every waking hour doing smth that isnt talking to ppl unless they happen to be in#the vicinity. and at first it was bc i planned on making sure i had everything set up so i dont get stressed out and do it one at a time#but then i find out theres a friendship decay mechanic? and after dating and marrying someone you lose -10 friendship points for every#day u dont talk to them?? actually ive probably been losing friendship points this whole time without knowing bc of this?????#and i notice a lot of my own habits are also reflected in how i play bc ive been avoiding getting close to pierre and marnie since its more#of a professional relationship. like i know theyre npcs but im approaching it the way i would in real life its fucking nuts#i think its a little relieving im playing /as/ a character than myself bc as im playing im just making up little interactions in my head#than approaching things the way i would myself so it takes a bit of the stress off trying to put myself in there as a spectator. but well#being in a relationship demands a certain amount of energy even more so when theyre things that already take up energy on its own#like making time to talk to your partner and make sure they know theyre loved. i dont always have energy to put all my mental focus into it#and this is true for real life so im not really bothered by not dating anyone. but when its a game and i want my character to be with someo#and i know its fully optional and i know i could just apply the same logic to this i dont /want/ to. sometimes i want to experience#the same things other people do at least to a certain degree without the same emotional andmental stakes#no offense krobus#yapping#stardew#stardew valley#puppy plays sdv#sdv#this game has me by the ankles man
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