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pretty sure the c.diff relapsed from the penicillin i had to take 😃 i wanna blow my brains out
#at least i hope it is#if it’s my gallbladder like i originally thought i’m actually gonna kill myself#saying i hope it’s c.diff is actually insane but like#i already had it before and i know what to expect#and it’s treatable with medication i can afford now that i have insurance#cause that 5k made me lose my mind last time#the horrible ocd episode will def be part of this again which#lmfao#but yeah#idk idk#also can i be so real rn#i’ve been scared to eat bc every time i do i’m in a lot of pain#and i’m v surprised that the fear of eating + the loss of appetite i had last time didn’t develop into an ED#the way i have to skip past food videos bc they just make me sad 😭#y’all don’t understand how much i miss garlic and onion and tomatoes and saffron and#the list goes on and on of all the things i cannot eat anymore#i feel like a british person#surviving off bland beige food
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the brainrot won
#GUY S i know i haven't posted anything in a while and thats because im working on a big cool project that i really want to finish without-#distractions. but uh. as you can see. ive been distracted 😔. still working on it tho!!!! and im very happy with it turns out its just-#super time and energy consuming so ive tried to limit my intake of other media to not make myself want to draw other stuff#i also haven't read the last two (two already?????) chapters of RnS and im very sad about it and i want to read it but you know that if i-#read it ill want to make fanart and then ill never finish my project :(#SO. sorrey for the lack of art itll be coming when im free to draw!!!!!!!#but also. yes ive watched new life because i dont want to go insane with nothing but this project on my mind and umm. had to take a little-#break to do a couple designs for fun... and to switch it up a bit because for real im going insane i think#ALSO. friend got me into zelda botw and i haven't played a whole lot yet (because project) but ive tried to take some inspiration for-#designs from there. at least for joel and scott. everyone else not so much...#WELL ANYWAYS this is getting long. i should really stop rambling in the tags and just make separate posts for all this but i dont want to#umm. tags.#new life smp#smallishbeans#mythical sausage#geminitay#pearlescentmoon#smajor1995#inthelittlewood#my art#sketch
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birthday boy 🎂
#river dipping#theodore doe#matthias evanoff#a burning house to live in#echthroi#ts4#ts4 edit#simblr#ts4 screenshots#theo i hope you're having the most insane birthday sex rn i hope it's ******** and ***** and ***'** **** *** **** ***** :)<3#sorry i put off making your birthday edit for so long that i had to pivot and post this edit instead of the one i wanted </3#...very funny how similar this is to that LAST render i posted... well so WHAT!! if i think matthias looming is sexy!!#this is based on a photo that everyone was drawing their ocs as so really it's not MY fault he's back there clinging and being a freak#actually if y'all want this pose lmk... i'll share it but fyi it's only meant to be seen from the waist up and idk how it'd look#on a sim that doesn't have the same muscle mass and like. bulk. that matthias has......................................#just got rock hard after typing that... anyway.#HAPPY BIRTHDAY THEO <333333333 LOVE YOU SO MUCH I PROMISE I'M GONNA KEEP WORKING ON THE //ACTUAL// BIRTHDAY EDIT!! like .#posted abt this on the sideblog but the real edit i have planned for him is making me lose my fucking gourd#and it'll probably take me :))) a few more days to figure out#expect a depressing theo-as-a-teenager edit eventually tho. with writing!! accompanying it!!#matthias's face has changed again btw 😭 i redid it almost immediately after i posted that first render attempt so he looks DIFFERENT!!#i posted screenshots of him in cas just the other day on my other acc and he looks so good in them i might post them here too#oh and!! this edit looks massively different than my last because this screenshot was taken with a new preset i made specifically for#the real birthday edit i'm working on... it's a hallway scene so i figured out depth and density to get this really cool fog effect#i'm really excited for it!! in my head the way it looks makes me crazy but idk if i can pull it off properly. but like i WAS SAYING!!#new preset is sooo sexy after i post this i'll reblog with the before and after to show you how good it looks even w/o any editing#like. the colors....... literally have always wanted a preset like this i'm so glad i spent yesterday fucking around with it#ALSO!! i've been doing those oc/ship dynamic templates for fun recently so i might post a few of them here soon#realize i'm rambling so much in these tags bc i haven't been here in forever kfjnkfjhn ummmmm. let me stop.#EVERYONE WISH THEO HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIGHT NOW 🫵‼
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wonderlust stuff :]
#jrwi fanart#jrwi wonderlust#jrwi wonderlust spoilers#jrwi spoilers#<- hopefully i’ll remember to take those tags off later but for now it dropped yesterday so still spoiler territory prolly#three episodes in is usually when i start properly doodling for these so i’m right on schedule lmao#i think three or four episodes in was about when i started fixating on the suckening#might upload another version of the colored later! it’s just flats rn obviously but i need to color my shit more so hopefully i’ll finish#that one later :)#the 🤨🤨 is me projecting cause they did Not Notice but to be fair he says bullshit all the time so i wouldn’t either lol#but i was like 🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨 *vine boom* PAUSE#i love how they were making fun of how chat freaks out every time anything can be remotely considered sus but i know that means chat is#about to do it even more now lol#also real troy drawings this time lol not a fucked up hand drawn joke sprite
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okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is
#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year#not art#fhjy spoilers#its!!! gods I will Be My Ass in the tags rn. but thats so like. deliciously setting typical#like porter's desire is to transcend and his contempt for the world he's in feels. idk Real#like he plays the game bc he wants to win and be done with it. how do I word this#yknow. being a god would like. be his win state. when he gets that happening thats it his story is done he checks out#meanwhile the bad kids do actually just like playing the game lmao. like they love adventuring!#theyre so solidly Of This World. they carry the values that can only be born of it and they like having mastery over it#its a meta angle that I think is very fun specifically for d20 being in such a unique position in the zeitgeist when it first started#the rat grinders are from DnD Writ Large. porter wants to escape. but this is the bad kids' home its Their Actual Play Show#which makes it so fucking excellent to me that porter's question is somewhat of merit! its their show and it tries very hard to punish them#and they just straight up dont listen to him here lmao bc they hate him but! since the moment the academic track ended its been clear#that they save the world bc they Like Playing. With Each Others#thats what riz thinks the core of adventuring is! thats why fig stayed! and I also think thats why this hovers over elmville now and#a dead god is coming back in the school gym. porter is a shit evangelist but even if hes a good one I dont think it wouldve worked like he#wants it to. the only way he couldve escaped is if he'd not involved elmville at all. thats where the bad kids met dude#its a shitty place that fucks with them but they all come back here bc they wanna play with each others#and in that regard I think thats what the stress tokens ultimately means. Is This Game Still Fun To Play. ITS A RAGEQUIT LIMIT#Im literally running from one end to another of this conspiracy board Ive pulled out of nowhere#Ill draw after this I just wanna get this out. gods this episode has done nothing but furthering my delusion of grandeur actually#Im the hottest smartest manthing on earth Im king fucking midas over here. anyways uh! great ep!
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nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am
#my want to draw traditionally literally split me open for the past week and leaves me literally depressed i'm so serious i can't even look -#- @ my art programs without wanting to throw up omfg should;ve never picked up those pencils#but it's ok i just needed a nap#something so relatable about them i think nelvas has something in it for everyone meanwhile eltl is secluded art museum.#it's very possible to walk around in neloth's and talvas' brains but eltl is off limits. they will NOT! get no drawings like this outta me#wtf r they thinking ........#< eltl not nelvas#something nobody on dis earth can understand ..........#talvas wants to live he likes living but neloth's presence is so strong that it overrides and deletes his will to live.#bruuuuuuuuh#i bet the feeling of neloff is in everything he does if they ever part ways he won't be able to fold clothes or anythign without wanting -#- 2 cry . for what reason . idk bc neloth once yelled at him for folding clothes like shit .what am i on rn#(talvas thoughts mode) I want this old man to hug meeee😢😢😢#NELOFF DO IT and smash him too before i do it first .#me and neloth are the same person tho so it doesn;t matter but w/e#i'm getting emotional over them right now this cannot be real#i love her .... (Skyr1m)#i opened the game for .5 minutes today to take pics of a character uight what a beautiful game.#Te/s having such extensive lore ruins the whole entire game and the franchise but whatever . skyr1m is an art piece that's just how i feel#also this might be a very hard pill to swallow for some people but t*lvas is literally a kin Vessel for young women that keep getting -#- hit on by men twice or thrice their age when they're just trying to live their life .#this feels so profound to me i need dis shit inmy discord bio right NOEW.#Talvas................................#(eyes watering) (holding palm out)#suicide //#just in case but this tag would've gone crazy with my drawings of ulfr*c from late 2022 where i drew him with slit wrists. very artsay#is it not. i didn't like neither of those drawings tho i need to revisit cus i can feel ulfr*c on a diffaraaant level#when will i run out of tags. the way you can tell i just LUH talvas look at me drawing his hair in that second pic 😑BRU#look at me also trying to replicate pencils digitally in the first.. hmmm i don't hate it#at least it soothes me and i don't have pencil withdrawal
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Okay now where's the Seb teddy bear so I can make them kiss each other!?
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#okay btw you can credit the last frame to suzuki#bcs she brought up the pig stuffed animal that seb kept as a good luck charm when he was karting#and suggested the same with fernando's bear :DDD#also feeling weirdly sappy abt the fact that theres pics of fernando in the ferrari garage w an almost identical pig like ??????#anyways please yes have this random vettonso comic 🥰🥰#im working on a bigger vettonso drawing rn so i made this quick in the meantime!#icl i saw the fernando teddy bear. and i made the eyebrow post and whatever#but there was also just this image in the back haunting me of him gifting one to seb#I AM DELUSIONAL!!!#its just so cute to imagine it as like 'heres a memento of me to keep you company' 🥺🥺🥺🥺#funny tho cause i had the same exact imagine for my ocs and i never drew a comic version for them yet drew this real quick#the power of vettonso takes hold of me sometimes.....#tfw you take a break from your vettonso painting youve been working on for a wk+ to go draw a vettonso comic#i have a problem.#ANYWAYS THIS IS SO CUTE WAAAHHHH#drew it as cope bcs in trying to restrain myself from buying the fernando teddy bear#if i cant have it ill make seb have it yknow 🤭🤭🤭#wah this reminded i should draw more little comics theyre not too hard tbh#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#vettonso#catie.art
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if u waaant to destroy my sweateeerrrrrr. hold this thread as i wallk awwaaaaaay
#rain world#fanart#iterator#rw iterator#no significant harassment#nsh#rw nsh#my art#he would also listen to weird al cuz i said so. hello this is the real nsh typing on colfys computer rn i can confirm i listen to weird al#africa weezer cover starring weird al yankovic on loop in my chamber
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Updated relationship chart for my Naruto 2000s au!!
#Gonna be yapping in tags lawl I have many thoughts#Sasuke n sakura are actually friends but I think it’d be funny if they had such similar personalities n still disliked each other#sakura n Shikamaru also won siblings or dating every time while they were still tgt#it wasn’t on purpose the exes plotline has been around for a while now but their redesigns just ended up looking so similar#slowly making Temari’s hair more red toned so Gaara can actually look related to the others LMFAO#ino likes Sasuke at the beginning but I don’t think it’ll stick or ever be requited shrugs#Temari and Shikamaru are friends but she’s kind of scared of how much he’s into her so she pretends she’s oblivious -#She tends to run away when her feelings get too real so they’re in an awkward friendship situation rn#OK I THINK THATS IT#if u ever wanted me to elaborate on a specific pair or relationship just ask!!#Venus’ art#Naruto 2000s au#digital art#fan art#my fanart#naruto#naruto modern au#temari#temari nara#shikamaru nara#ino yamanaka#shikatema#sakura haruno#naruto uzumaki#sasuke uchiha#team 7#sabaku no temari#Relationship chart
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Second day of La Vie En Rosé🥀
🖤JSK/socks - Metamorphose 🖤Blouse - Plum Tree 🖤Headdress - Mademoiselle Pearl 🖤Necklace - BB&B 🖤Overskirt - Ruby Princess
#really loved this coord this jsk was a wishlist piece i got lucky with on lm#also this blouse is getting bootlegged like crazy rn but if you can get the real one its SO comfy#egl fashion#egl coord#egl community#egl#lolita fashion#lolita community#lolita coord#gothic lolita#jfashion#metamorphose temps de fille#metamorphose
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caytober day 5: theyre sleepy :3
#cereal tries to draw#caytober#cater diamond#leona kingscholar#leocay#i feel like w/any of these u can take them as ship or not... sometimes u gotta snooze on the homies w/e#but also teehee lol#twst#twisted wonderland#i looked @ a pic of the savanaclaw lounge and saw couches outside so i was like ok. go sleep there 👉#shout out to these boys i was feelin real bad but it was good distraction to draw them#i coulda just done my jade cater today but my brain is being so particular about shit rn#i still wanna draw them tho it's just not for jade caters caytober day#but i am also gonna have to shuffle jack to later bc ims aving him for his bday lol#ok whatever bye
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i love drawing my babygirl in situations :3
#i would say this one pairs w the other laurance piece i made tho i this one happened first chronologicallly imo#sth sth post nether arc in season 1 even tho i forgot to draw his eyes paler to account for his temp blindness during said arc#god i love this new style im drawing w rn it’s so mmm fun#laurance having a bad time#ehe#also can i just say#fuck armor#mcd#shadow knight laurance#mcd laurance#minecraft diaries#minecraft diaries laurance#agh#laurance zvahl#shadow knights#for real this time#aphblr
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okay guys so heres the thing. if i am having fun and being happy over a post and you come in my inbox and say something rude about how im enjoying something you're getting blocked lol. i have been veeeeeeeery nice so far. i dont know why you're following me if you're gonna make a stink when i reblog/make art/talk abt something i like. why are you here. you know. the blog where i talk/reblog/make art abt the things i like. if you dont like it here instead of telling me. leave. be a decent person, okay?
#spacie spoinks#mood killer#just got a very very rude ask like what is up w/ppl and springtrap its only when its abt him#the ask was literally like ''yeah i hate this thing that you like so there''#????? okay?????#i have spam reblogged other posts and not a peep abt how ''ohhh this thing sucks actually why are you enjoying it :/''#litrally shut up!!!!!!! go away im having fun what's wrong with you!!!#this wont ruin my mood b/c haaarhouguohg that art.....#also . what is up w/ppl and bringing up being aroace in their anons when talking abt springtrap 😭😭#IM ALSO AROACE!!!!! YOU FOOLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#''im not simping for him im aroace'' you are literally looking at an aroace rn#do i need 2 make more posts abt being aroace. is that it.#would you guys finally believe me if i told you that IN REAL LIFE i do not find most humans attractive sexually or romantically?#smh#anybeans :333#spins around with basyas drawing in my hand oh how i love him#im gonna put this in a frame#im. i need a corkboard so i can jut have a collage . on my fwall
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Just to minimize my chances of being genuinely misunderstood OR deliberately misinterpreted, and crucified for something I don't think, How Dare You Say We Piss on the Poor website etc...I'm gonna say this right up top. I absolutely understand why people don't like Thessaly as a character, if anyone does completely unironically stan her as some kind of feminist hero who Did Nothing Wrong uwu, I personally see it as a bit of a red flag. I don't like terfs real or fictional. In a vacuum, I could even completely sympathize and agree with the people who want her cut.
HOWEVER.
It's really something to me to see people clamoring for her to be cut, because she carries and expressed an ugly indefensible prejudice (transphobia) in words towards (1) person. Meanwhile Hob fucking Gadling enacted one of the most violent forms of antiblack racism I can even think of against thousands no, millions of people, the ripple effects of which still affect billions more today. Just a little light idk, profiting off the fucking slave trade and had to be told by someone else that it was bad...and he's a fan favorite.
People are saying Thessally being Dream's love interest reflects badly on him or is somehow endorsement by the narrative (?!?!?!?!?!? Didn't she (SPOILER ALERT AS IF IT MATTERS BY NOW) help participate in his extended assisted suicide? She's not painted as a great person to me just another character what are y'all SMOKING whatever fine. It's fine this is fine.) But shipping Dream with Mr. Former Slaver is not only not verboten or frowned on widely in the fandom but its THEE most popular pairing by far. So...why the difference?
Like where are the same fans who are saying Thessaly shouldn't just be more clearly shown to be wrong, she shouldn't even be in the show at all when it comes to Hobert's crimes??? Yes, transphobia is indefensible. Isn't racism?
And I hear the cries of "it's fiction!!!" Already rallying (if anyone who needs to hear this even sees it lol) to which I say:
HORSESHIT. I KNOW you don't, deep down, really agree because if you did, why get upset about Thessaly being included??? Why does what she said to one person matter if it's Just Fiction You Guyze. Fictional characters are allowed to do bad things and fiction isn't reality sweaty....except when you only apply that standard to fictional racists you like and simp for, but fictional transphobes you don't are SO HARMFUL they shouldn't even be portrayed in fiction.
Like. Give me a big fat BREAK. This looks like bullshit, no? I'm sorry, but I'd love for someone to try and give any other explanation besides one personally offended you or hit home for you, and the other doesn't.
And if that bothers you or you feel like it says something negative about you...idk what you want me to say??? You can't control how other people perceive you and that's how people outside this majority-of-the-fandom bubble see it. You don't need to respond, I just wish and genuinely hope this gives you a moment to think about why fans who ARE bothered by both (and not just paying lip service to being bothered by the one but railing against the other) are so frustrated with people saying everyone is welcome but in practice only bending over backwards for the comfort and emotions of themselves, and people they can easily relate to.
You don't have to like Thessaly (I don't. I find her an interesting antagonist, I don't stan her. And frankly imo likability is not. the point of her character) but you'll pardon me for feeling more than a bit cynical and side eying people's motivations for what seems a...pretty obvious double standard, on what fictional crimes related to real world issues matter to y'all, and which clearly don't. Either actually bring the same energy to the table for fictional people who committed atrocities, even if against a group you're not part of and thus don't feel the need to empathize with, or just carry on, but accept that you don't have the SLIGHTEST room to talk about cutting characters who do immoral things. And you also need to accept that you look like a hypocrite when you do.
#thessaly#wanda the sandman#hob gadling#fandom racism#I could've cried sexism!!! Problematic Male vs Female Characters except 1) I don't actually think that's the main reason *here*#2) there are WAY better examples of that particular double standard in this fandom#also i can admit when I'm a bit of a hypocrite or was.#i used to dip my toes into the dreamling stuff too early on#but idk. It just got too sour seeing ppl whitewash (lol I know I'm a comedian)#what he did over and over. And I genuinely had started to wonder#if the show hadn't included that particular crime and I'd just imagined it from the comics because#my memory is shit sometimes and I guess I was naive. I *wanted* to believe someone would talk aboutit#if it had made it in. but ultimately i went back and checked and no#and seeing how the whole fandom behaving affected my non-white mutuals some of whom...#like these are my friends man or ppl I just respect and I can't just. Ignore their feelings and their pov#and act like they werent making points or it doesn't matter#like it's all just fun and games for everyone on the same terms. And seeing how easy it was#for everyone to ignore was so unsettling. I couldn't keep pretending it was just fiction and didn't affect anyone real#Call me a bully a t3rf apologist (fuck you and for the record. no)#a puritan or a Fancop (actually stop comparing#people disagreeing with you online to what cops do. For fucks sake you just make it look like nothing is really real to you outside fandom)#whatever man. Whatever helps you sleep. I'm just gonna block you#if you're clearly sticking your fingers in your ears. engaging with you is a waste of time and energy then#Hell I have sympathy for anyone who doesn't like thessaly#especially trans fans. Especially rn. But lbr that sympathy for a lot of the white trans/queer fans only goes one way!!!#never gets extended to anyone else's issues. Like THATSthe issue. And it's shitty!#(sorry this post is not about me in the confessional lol that's why I put this at the bottom#I just had feelings to get out and yes its my blog but i didn't want to clog the airways)
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here's a gen-5 style creepypasta sprite for your girl :] i will do an actual polished not pixel art piece sometime but. she called to me. i hope you like it
OMG. OMG. OMG OMG OMG OMG I LITERALLY SCREAMED IRL I LOVE THIS SO SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOOOOODDDDDDDDD THE DETAILS OF ALL OF HER CUTIE MARKS ARE SOOOOO GOOD??????????? I LOVE THIS SO MUCH??????????? THIS IS INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#I AM SO GITTY RN OH MY GOD this morning has been crap this really tutned the whole day round im not joking#oh man.. all the little details are so good .... the lillys of her orignal cutie mark are soooooo pretty#i love that you can see the one that makes her stand upright and her regeneration one ...... oughhhhhhhh#cutie pox chronicles#main tag everyone look at this#augh this us so awesome#salad says!#hold on i need to show everyone i know real quick#i love this so much#also crazy bonus but gen 5 is my favorite gen . actually magical#augh yhe details of her eyelashes.... i need to actually post this i keep just stairing at it
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@ivimidnite173 you have put worms in my brain. are you happy? is that what you wanted? i have not been able to stop thinking about this and ive decided to make it everyones problem
for your consideration:
i dont earnestly believe this will go anywhere especially given that lindsay st george says in ch 96 that chise could "disrupt the order of the college," like i dont think it would be necessarily beneficial to the st georges at all, but i think its sooo interesting to think about. the prospect of chise being paired with someone else could also force elias to figure out the real reason he wanted chise to be his bride, because there is still no way he actually knows
i think they could have a loveless genderfuck lavender marriage. i should be allowed this, as a treat
#original#chise#elias#violet#the ancient magus bride#sometimes i have to tag things in the real tag to remind people that they are lucky to be exposed to only 5% of my derangement#AND THEYRE ALL CURRENTLY GETTING DRUNK TOGETHER IN-STORY HELLOOOOO??? CAN ANYONE HEAR ME#was also going to include 'i dont know what its like to be in love' from 98 but remembered it was jasmine who expressed a similar sentiment#and not violet#remembering the 'except for a bit lonely' line in this context made me actually scream out loud in real life. so glad im home alone rn
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