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Knight and a reaper 🗡️🪦
#slay the princess#voice of the cold#voice of the hero#stp fanart#stp#stp voices#some notes about their designs here#hero's eyes are the only part of his face visible as he's trustworthy and down to earth#he wears his emotions on his sleeve and is generally honest with the slayer instead of using words like the opportunist for example#his armour is not very practical At All#showing how he's been thrust with the slayer into a role that he's ultimately not ready for#his heart and vital organs are exposed showing vulnerability and kindness#and i thought a bascinet helmet was a cute design choice for a cute bird man#and for the cold#him being fluffy was actually inspired by @justcherryqwq's cold#i like him he's a soft little guy#but also shows how he's got such a thick barrier to feelings and emotion#and his whole design was a little bit inspired by the ghost of christmas yet to come from the muppets christmas carol specifically#little random#i'd also like to think that his eyes would be visible at the end of the fury chapter :)#ramble over!#blues art
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going to say something about writing that is not a complaint and i know it sounds exactly like someone complaining but the conclusion i have drawn is that this rules. preface over am currently "working on" (in the most generous, nebulous sense possible) an original fantasy story & i just keep finding more stuff about the world i need to decide because it feels extremely formative to me even though it will barely appear on the page, if at all
but like... just the sheer volume of communication irl that happens symbolically that you never question becomes so apparent when you try to create a world that doesn't have those things or doesn't have the conditions for such a thing to be created. writing a character wearing a wedding ring and then going wait a minute— would these people communicate marital status via ring placement? why do we do that irl? when did we start? surely thats not the only way people ever communicate marriage— what does everyone else do? and really, come to think of it, what does it mean to be 'married' in this fictional world i'm creating? is there a legal component or just a social one? should it have all the same connotations/obligations as the real world (e.g. monogamy, having children, romantic love, impact on finances, etc)?
you can do this with literally Everything In The World. what language is everyone speaking? is it the same one? how many languages are there in the region i'm writing about? is the language we're speaking anyone's second language? when did they learn? is bilingualism common? and where does everyone here live? speaking of living, is that a permanent dwelling situation or are people nomadic? what's the climate like? are all the characters here used to the climate or is someone used to ten degrees cooler and kind of short tempered because of it? the clothes are probably impacted by the weather, what's everyone wearing? what's it made out of? what would be around here that could be used for dye? help me i have a case of worldbuilders disease and its incurable. these motherfuckers are never going to finish this journey because i cant even get them on the page long enough to pack a cart. also would they use carts? when did we start having cart and carriages pulled on roads irl? if there's roads, who's maintaining them— or is it just the path from years of people travelling that way? does the terrain allow for wheeled vehicles or would some other way be better?
anyway. you may call all this a waste of time and "not technically writing" since i "havent written any prose". i think im just slow cooking this novel. oooooh im thinking about it so much. you just wait when im like 56 im going to knock your socks right off with my intricate detailed world where i thought about everything except whatever element of society you understand most deeply. that part i fucked up and clearly didn't know anything about. sorry
#trying to make a couple basic words so i can derive names from them. so hard. SO hard. extremely doesnt matter#but also l*ghtlark has now turned me deeply against the 'generic noun' sort of fantasy naming conventions#[muttering under my breath] starstick... wildlings... moonling. sunling. the fuckin... bondbreaker#so i have to do SOMETHING. some effort into fantasy naming. things i actually thought about and didnt use a random generator for lol#good idea generator
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Actually I don’t think you are actually fr an adult author if you can’t write something without a s*x scene in it
#<-trying to avoid our ancient enemy the evil bots#but literally. i will pick a book off the general fiction side and every time completely unnecessarily there will be such a scene where it#has no business being for the story#I’m about ready to fight over this#there’s been exactly one book out of the dozen or so I’ve done from that side that did not have it and it was Patron Saint of Second Chance#by Christine Simon#and I don’t think Road to Roswell my belovedest did either#but listen I think it’s a sign that something in society is fundamentally broken when I can pick too random books#and one is a cozy bookstore romance thing#and one is a weird travel fantasy that has nothing to do with romance#as a plot#and then both of them as soon as the girl comes across a guy and is like he’s likable#the next step is randomly try to sleep with him#evil evil evil evil#let’s not.#stop using sex scenes as shortcut for romance! it doesn’t work! you won’t have any!#this is wisdom and you should listen to it!!#I’m also gonna include the use of f-bombs in this post because if you can’t write a fantastical Victorian travel novel in fairy tale#style language without randomly using f bombs like do you even have a grasp of the language#those don’t belong in this story’s word set use your vocabulary!!#(there are times it makes sense in the story and the language catalog for the story and/or character for both of these but if you can’t do#story without them when they don’t belong that’s lazy I think#I’m throwing down the glove to adult authors I think they should try#this also goes for Jodi Picoult for whom the first thing did fall into the subject material but should not have been like the whole bull an#meat of that story at the expense of the actually interesting material#(couldn’t finish By Any Other Name between that the anachronistic feminism and the massive chip on her shoulder that seemed to be her subje#material
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gen loss >:] and a written out talking to myself because i think it’s funny that it looks like a star wars intro
#the words randomly in the corners from other drawings was stuff i was drawing about the other 3/5ths of sorry looking for ran and charlie#only one drawing made the cut lmao that’s why tommy innit is randomly here w a flashlight#could just be a random kid though so you didn’t hear that from me#oh wait i lied in the star wars intro blurb there’s more of it lmao that definitely gives it away even if i said nothing#also i cropped two drawings into blank corners and the spinny one isn’t genloss but it IS from an rbg trio among us stream (vr one)#tbh since i watch streams w/o 100% attention i thought he was stuck spinning for real since it happened the first time i was like 🤨#like ran you fixed it last time just pick up the controller again that’s it#im a fool#this is only half of the ones i’m posting cause i didn’t realize how much i doodled#generation loss#EW IT SUGGESTED @1 GENERATION#SORRY FOr the CRINGE CENSOR BUT I DO N O T WANT THIS IN THAT TAG#anyway#generation loss fanart#ranboo fanart
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witchy prompt list
just for my own personal use, but if anyone wants to join in on the fun, please tag me in your writing!
Cackle
Apparition
Bones
Dusk
Fangs
Shadow
Mist
Infected
Icy
Haunted House
Vanish
Cursed
Nightmare
Cemetery
Hex
Grimoire
Disguise
Legend
Blood
Fog
Ancestors
Divination
Candles
Omen
Broomstick
Conjure
Wand
Hayride
Lantern
Party
Treat
#this is what i'll be using for taswtober!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!! so excited#also i put all my words in a random order generator and it just so happened to put party on roxy's birthday first try... incredible#taswtober :)
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#okay random story time i don't know why im narrating this or how i even stumbled upon this memory rn#but i generally do sad vents in the tags and for a change this is a funny one#so back in highschool (i say highschool but i mean junior college) i used to visit this park near my house a lot#i was an sg kid back then and the thing about parks there is that they're kinda beach-parks and they have the best cycling/running tracks#they're also really massive parks so i used to go often. sometimes bicycling. other times walking. yeah. the park was like my sanctuary#anyway. there are quite a few bike rental areas in the park and there was a cute lil shop next to this one particular rental place#and they sold like biscuits and water and icecreams and stuff and i went there a lot#and on one particular day i went there and there was this guy around my age part timing at that shop#now again this might be culture specific bc i dont see it in india but part timing in uni/pre-uni is pretty common is sg#a lot of shops and restaurants employ teenagers to twenty something ppl for part time jobs... anyway im just adding context#point is that i had walked to the park with my mum that day and she told me to go buy a couple icecreams so i went to the shop#and i saw this guy around my age and like. not to be a simp but this dude was so pretty?#like he saw someone had come to the counter so he looked up and shot a smile and i thought i got slapped by sunlight#i could spend the next several lines going on about his pretty tan skin and his glowing raven eyes but this is pathetic enough so ill stop#anyway he saw me and smiled really wide (customer service smile- i thought to myself) and i smiled back and asked for icecreams or whatever#and then this guy started getting chatty right. so he was all 'you come here (to the park) often right? ive seen you with your bike a lot'#see now. the problem with me is that i always think im bothering people. this poor dude was attempting to make conversation#and i was replying with one word answers#and i wasn't even realizing that he didnt want that. bc he kept asking more questions and i. kept. shutting them down.#then when he gave me the icecream he was all 'are you here alone? icecream alone is no fun... i could keep you company if you want..?'#which. he was being really cute about right. but because im so fucking dense i was all 'oh no i came with my mom actually'#and he went 'aw man' in this really cute but faux sad way which i didnt understand at the time and i left and then#after three full fucking days. i realized this man was tryna hit on me?#and then i went to the park like a week later and he was gone. poof. i even thought of asking the uncle in charge of that place#then i got too embarrassed and chickened out#yeah so turns out my neurodivergence neutralizes any sort of rizz that comes my way#i could've been chilling with a cute boyf rn but no😩 this is my destiny#megumi in the tags
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words are hard. explaining is hard. remember that while reading
the amount of disabled people on thos website who make posts going against each other makes me so sad. there's too many posts of "such and such people/random person are talking over people like me and making us look/feel bad, but they're wrong and not suffering as much so need to shut up!" can we stop invalidating each other because you claim they're invalidating you by speaking about their struggles????? can we all support each other instead????? ableism within disabled community here is awful.
I get it. sometimes people say a thing and you think it takes away from you or makes you feel bad. but that doesn't mean they did it on purpose/everyone with their condition is doing it on purpose. doesn't mean they know you and your feelings. doesn't mean their feeling is invalid because it hurt yours! and if it's just a thing you saw on tiktok, don't blame entirety of people with the condition because one or two people on tiktok don't speak for everyone! (not everyone uses tiktok either so don't act like everyone is getting info from there)
it's so frustrating and disappointing! can't say anything on here without upsetting and offending another disabled person because many different or new reasons every day! like you didn't mention that they have it worse or say yourself isn't suffering as much. or you use a phrase or word thar helps you but another group gatekeeps it. or you're simply "talking over" people you don't even know that decided you don't suffer and struggle enough because they "have it worse" and want you to talk about THEM and not just yourself. on your own blog. but somehow know to mention them and advicate for them so they don't have to or something???? is confusing.
words are hard. hard to explain this!!! but is frustrating and upsetting to see many disabled people here targeting each other more than ableds. example there's many posts of physical disabled vs ND, acting like being ND can't be disability. do you want to borrow my brain and see if it disables you more????? sometimes see opposite where ND is harder than physical disability. do you want to borrow my body and see if you can live easily??? see many physical disabled vs other physical disabled, example "cane user can't complain because I need wheelchair!" type things. or ND vs ND "I have more ND than you because I cant do *thing* alone but you can so you can't complain about struggling because you're talking over my bigger struggles"
I GET IT. everyone wants to feel valid and not feel talked over and all that stuffs. but stop fighting each other!!!!! stop invalidating each other because you feel invalidated/assume they are trying to invalidate you. is nothing but invalidating loop!!!! stop assuming everyone must talk about you and your struggle before their own because you think their voice shared means yours is blocked. stop having disability "Olympics" in which you jump through metaphoric hoops to prove you're more disabled and deserve most attention and more voice and everyone below is taking that away! learn how to support each other because we know ableds don't like supporting us!!!!!! we all suffer and struggle. why act like fellow disableds don't or arent allowed!! 😭😭😭😭😭 this is for both people that use tiktok to do "quirky" stuff or are able to push through struggles and want to act like everyone can too. and people with higher support needs that think lesser needs have super easy life and talk over them if they make post about their struggles. I see both!!!! a lot!!
never see anyone talk about ableism within disabled community and how it is bad for all of us!!!! but sure see lot of.......
I know. i'm bad at words. dont try to misunderstanding and attack and be mad at me! if you experience real problem with this you are valid in your feel. you can feel! but maybe don't do generalizing and invalidate all because one person or a few or tiktok did or said things you don't like. that make sense???
#disabled#disability#disability problems#neurodivergent#maybe shouldn't tag this. dont think we ready for this discussion. someone wil misread and yell at me probably#too burnt out to deal with you. will probably ignore!!!! yell at brick wall. sorry. cant argue#lee rants#words are hard#also with amount of tiktok complaints maybe everyone needs break from there or stop using? 😅 idk i dont use it#but yeah. feel like someone with valid problem will think i said you cant feel upset. not what i said!#only saying dont make generalizing post you were personally attacked by entirety of group of people and decided they are all invalid now#all because 1 or 2 people or a tiktok video or something. dont tell random individuals they are invalid because you feel invalid!#so hard to explain!!!!!! not sure if doing it right. but no ones allowed to yell at me if i did word bad!! please 😭 i will cry#but when will we admit disabled community has much ableism???
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Not entirely sure what I was doing on The Cutting Room Floor but I think I accidentally tried to hypnotise myself by staring at the gif of Walking Wake’s shiny and now I’m thinking about an idea I had a few months ago (before I got the DLC) where Game Freak could make the imagined fusions appear in-game (as alternate forms for Wake and Leaves but the Beast fusion has Fire and Bolt included while the Sword fusion has Boulder and Crown included) but have them event raid exclusive and be shiny for no particular reason (because somehow when there are probably less instances of their individual species put together than the shiny chance denominator three of the few instances that made it through are shiny? Like that just makes no sense). Also I’ll admit it, Wake and Leaves’s shinies are pretty
#do I still think it’s fine that the instances there are of them in the playable timelines are canonically not shiny? Of course#would it be cool to get shiny versions of each of the Proto Beasts and Neo Swords and have them meet their non-shiny counterparts? Also yes#random but I like to think the shiny Proto Beasts are more feral and the shiny Neo Swords are more stoic than their non-shiny forms#I’m still defaulting to imagining Wake and Leaves as the friendly ones who always seem to be happy unless being scolded by Bolt/Crown#Fire and Boulder as the smart pyromaniac metalheads#and Bolt and Crown as the reluctant ones you would think were their grandparents if you didn’t know any better#also I have no idea what name scheme I would use for their shinies because I’m not thinking up two more “blue” fruits#(especially since the censor doesn’t like the name Grape)#but I was just thinking if they were distributed as Mystery Gifts instead I might refer to them as “Shiny [second word of name]”#just to make it clear I’m not referring to their non-shiny versions which would inevitably be in my party in that situation#my name scheme for shiny Future Paradox Pokémon is just a word relating to their energy light colours#so if I could nickname them in-game I might consider using that#but I’ve already used Rose (on my shiny Iron Valiant) and Sky (on my shiny Iron Bundle)#and I’ll probably use Amber if I get a shiny Iron Moth#just in general though in that situation I think I might want to play a bit more with their name schemes#because I’m not using that name scheme for the shiny Past Paradox Pokémon#shiny pokémon#walking wake#iron leaves#proto beasts#neo swords#pokémon#I wouldn’t expect any shiny event though. It’s the same with Koraidon and Miraidon (don’t let me go on that rant)#forgot to mention this but I think that the shiny Beast fusion would be gold (to match how the shiny Sword fusion has to be silver)#the fusions’ regular colour schemes are red orange and gold (Beast Fusion Walking Wake)/purple blue and silver (Sword Fusion Iron Leaves)
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even though i feel like i can confidently tell when a piece of art is generative A/I, i really don't feel inclined or really even justified calling someone out for it due to the precedent it sets - especially when artists who DO make their own pieces get caught in the crossfire for being inexperienced or making the choice to be more free-form when it comes to character design / consistency...
#i can't even really put into words how I can Tell#other than like... random blurry details in areas that would not logically have those details blurred - for styles imitating digital art#what i mean by this is: you can kind of tell when and where a type of tool has been used when it comes to digital pieces#if it looks like an artist grabbed the smudge tool and used it in a small area surrounded by crisper details ... it seems like an arbitrary#- and thoughtless decision#especially when it comes to character design pieces#this blurriness is also present in a type of style that wouldn't see much reason to use the smudge tool at all .. such as a cell shaded -#- toon style with thick outlines#i think what bothers me about this whole debacle is how we're setting up an environment where people feel inclined to lie about using-#-generative tools... part of the problem is the foundation of a/i art to be using people's work without . permission. im sure a good amount#-of artists wouldnt have minded MAKING pieces to be used solely for these type of tools#since generative art has been used as an excuse to replace artists in an attempt to render their work unnecessary or obsolete ... it's -#- become politicized and viewed as anti-artist. which. fair enough. it was pitched and sold that way#but even if like... these initial problems were addressed i feel like there'd still be a lot of stigma associated with generative art#since a lot of people's beef with it is the fact that it feels soulless. and i feel like that has to do with how the generated works are -#- being passed off as completed full pieces and not have any transformative work done upon them#i always joke about like 'they should invent art that's easier to make' ... but i don't want the hard work on my end replaced#just some help really. or guidance on completing my own work. A/I could have -possibly- been used as another form of reference#(if it were more competent. i think it's sloppy as hell in its current state)#but before it was uh... hugely controversial and right when generative A/I got more competent? i actually saw it as a toy.#i wanted to play with it and see what would come out... im honestly just more-so frustrated that it's viewed as on-par or better than-#-work done by human beings. what makes something art to me is if it's been transformed by human intention and connection#and i don't get how it's snobby to dislike A/I art for that reason. why do y'all think artists love when people dissect and examine their-#-work ? art is about human connection. we have ancient monuments and abandoned cave paintings we know nothing about-#- but are captivated by because we want to know WHY they're there. WHO made them. and for what reason#and i think a/i art is a painful reminder for a lot of artists that to a lot of people art is only valued through aesthetic merit#no acknowledgement for an artist's hard work .. their life .. all the personal intention behind their work#it's the commodification being thrown back in our faces tenfold#another tag essay by me. shiloh
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every time someone on the internet lies about surge's origins to prove that sonic is canonically trans an angel loses its wings
#well i guess lying isnt the right word. spreading misinformation would probably be more accurate#but its still annoying#especially considering the surge being a clone of sonic misconception being so widespread#can be traced back to one specific tumblr post that blew up and got reposted everywhere#that non sonic fans (or people who just dont read idw sonic) all accepted as fact without doing their own research#and then went on to spread further. PAIN#also even if surge really was made from sonic's dna i dont see how that would mean sonic is trans.... ?#because shes clearly not an exact copy shes a different species and a different color i dont see why her gender would mean anything#i say this as a trans sonic believer btw. people saying sonic is trans is not the problem here its the using inaccurate info as evidence#and then spreading that as facts#theres so much misinformation abuot sonic related things going around all the time in general not just this and its SOO ANNOYINGGGG#this along with stuff from the sonic bible being spread as canon info are things i see brought up most oftenn by non sonic fans#on random sonic related posts i think
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reading all of your guys comments on the polls account is so amusing omg sometimes yall do surprise me sdjklf
#running the polls account is so amusing#if yall happen to see this im trying to schedule the polls mon wed and fri#but i can't guarantee its gonna stay that way#both of us are very very busy#but anyway#some of your guys tags are so funny omg#and im actually kinda surprised dazai isn't moving on to the next round ngl#oh also as a reminder we do just put the names into a random word generator and put down the results lmao
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you ever think about the in-universe online world of dc? the youtube essays must be insane
#batmans real plot armour is how not a single random 27 year old youtuber discovered his identity yet#i mean. except tim but he was 9 and doesnt count bc i dont think tim would be a ytber. sue me. kill me. im stronger than you.#thinking about how gotham itself is struggles moving along w the times w how dependent it is on its exaggerated portrayal of class and crim#and mafia#the mafia isnt nearly as prevalent today as it used to be#i dont like placing my batman delusions after the 90s. maybe like early 2000s max. limited media and tech just flavours it better i guess.#different society than nowadays. one that generally fits better with batman themes i find and i also find more interesting to explore#idk im having a lot of emotions about this lol??#i have a lot more but i struggle putting them into words
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tbt the deh days baking motif interviews like it's time for will roland cooking v'logs while someone is there to pepper in q&a moments & conversation (&/or extended tangents) starters
#or difficult to say how general/extensive his cooking knowledge is but like 4 pts of evidence abt his Meat Heat technique nowadays#and joel crump's bwaytime interview where he builds a little dish spontaneously....tell us more#(he'd slice quarter inch strips of spam & saute them; have on a nicely crusted bread; add a sweet jam; maybe pickled/fermented onions)#maybe there's been an occasion between 2017/18 & now to learn/practice/hone a skill at home....maybe#tragically one Montage where he's sharing his bacon recipe instead cuts the clips around michael park's bacon recipe lmao#like ok noted 350F in an oven for 25min but will introduced the topic & is talking abt fresh cuts & presumed stoveTop cooking. please lol#summer stock grillmaster....& i think another occasion he mentioned his Skills here#also shoutout to that deh Movie baking virtual interview where nik dodani left in the middle to buy some butter#will roland#whatever will talks abt: a banger occasion. cherished deh nhie video where so little is about deh lmao#bits in either deh baking video like little abt deh b/c there was so little they could tell + Character Questions just generally so rare#the [having a bit of room & start sharing hc's for details of jellicle cats' sexuality] gift that we need more of fr keeps on giving#the classic cats tangents of anytime prior. appreciating the summer stock dancing going off like ah#just like will saying he was just fuming about Tepid Applause in the Big Theater for cats elaborate costumed mega dance break. word#talk about dry technical whatever like hell yes engaging & i love information. pool chlorination. what of the lighting knowhow#& the realest point here is oh boy keep scattering scraps of culinary knowledge in whatever random little moments; epic. jot that down#edit that i was like ''did i say sautee; that seems unnecessary. he probably said seared'' & indeed he said sear it on both sides#sounds great i'd want this spam bread jam pickled fermented onions situation. & the bacon of the unheard recipe
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Goodnight ^^
#also#random thought od the night#spanish is a beautiful language#I mean all languages are I just really like spanish#I like english too don't get me wrong#but when wrotten and when speaking ig it's not too vulgsr it sounds amazing#I recently started reading a book my dad gave me#La Sombra del Viento#it's in spanish#and it's#GOSH it's beautiful I can already tell I'm going to like this book a loh the expressions and words used sre#mwah#beautiful#a lot of spanish songs are also really beautiful and general poetry sounds amazing#have you listened to Y Nos Dieron Las Diez by Joaquin Sabina#or Es Hora de Marchar by Mägo de Oz?#don't blame you if you haven't but you yotally should#snyay#beautiful langauges#bye
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how i feel lurking in that ultrakill discord servers channels all the time cuz i want to talk to people but theyre all so cool and im scaredddd
#owls nonsense#the Beast will get me if i make a fool of myself in general one more time#also kinda on topic but i just realized how fucking like awful i am at interacting with people. well like ive always known but like#its become very apparent these past 2 weeks#1st example: interacting with people online is hard. im not being normal enough and im scared im now Weird#2nd example: had to follow around a group of classmates like a lost puppy silently cuz everyone else left with their groups and#i was the only person left#so they were like just join us and said exactly zero words the whole time we were doing the activity#3rd example: also yesterday i had to work in pairs with this random ass like i think he was a junior or senior on a thing#and idk it felt awkward#and i tried to make small talk but i think im really doing that All Wrong.#i wanted to rip my hair out#SAD! ultrakill/hetalia/homestuck fan/tumblr user/speedcore/gabber listener who doesnt go outside cant interact with people
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auuudggghghhrhrhrbrr
#okay I’m feeling Bad and I need to unpick why before I’ll be able to sleep#friend is asking abt lunch on Friday when I already have standing commitment w other friends then so I can’t do that.#but I also go home on Sunday and I can’t do shit until Friday bc work and I have plans on Saturday so I just. can’t see them#which. I guess makes things easier actually that’s not something I can control and I’m not changing existing plans that’s unfair#I’m also listening to a playlist of old music (Apple Music generated favourites — so literally random picked from everything I’ve ever done#and the last few songs have made me feel Bad bc of being associated with certain times but song playing rn is definitively a good song#w a good memory attached and it’s MY song not one of my old friends#okay where are we#I’m stressed abt presentation on Thursday but also a non issue. I’m prepared. I have all day tomorrow to practice and read up more#and then it’s 20 minutes on Thursday morning I’ll be done before 10am#I am. a little frustrated on a broader scale about the role I’m currently occupying#in that w a bunch of my friends I’m having to be the one with their shit together and dealing with their Stuff.#mostly in the way that I have to be putting in extra effort to tiptoe around them and steer stuff to keep them happy#i can do it i can do it easily I’ve just tasted not having to now so it’s. noticeably different having to do it more#i do Not have the words to talk abt this in the way I want to it’s so annoying#it’s like. I know how my friend responds to stuff. I know the things that make her anxious and what her instinctual responses will be#and I’m constantly having higher level thoughts planning out how things will go it’s effortless and constant it’s just There#with everyone all the time but sometimes I use it more and sometimes I have to because I’m in a position where if I don’t we’ll get nowhere#and I don’t like that I’m having to worry abt keeping other people happy while I’m talking to my friends it removes me a layer from stuff#hrm. there are broader questions here abt the utility of this bc like. sure it helps in some situations#but this probably isn’t great long term for either of us. wild. goddamn talking to my friend abt philosophy opened new parts of my brain#anyway I cba to have those thoughts rn! it’s midnight! I’m going to bed in half an hour <3#it’s honestly unfair that I have to do anything other than be gay and play pokemon#luke.txt#uaUrghrhfhjs I’m also being insane abt a guy. which is predictable and I feel stupid abt for multiple reasons but. here we are.#I’m being insane. and maybe I should be less mean to myself but I feel like I’m being insane.#I think! I need to go to bed!#I am not being insane I am having feelings and that is allowed. feelings are typically regarded as a pretty normal thing to have.#philosophy friend is gonna be so mad at me if anything comes of this but it’s fine and if it does I think I’ll be pretty happy anyway#point is I’m doing nothing wrong and have done nothing wrong and I’m allowed to feel whatever the hell I like. okay.
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