#all with their situation makes me want to cry 😭 especially if she didn't know them all that well before? but like she still did this-

[anthromimicry]

adding this to my wishlist now because OMG — imagine your muse and misao being lost somewhere after they'd miscalculated just how big the area they were exploring is ( i was thinking someplace with mountains, in particular, for some reason ) so they have to camp out in this unfamiliar, kinddd of scary place that may or may not have dangerous animals living in it. then, because of this, your muse gets scared (rightfully so, honestly) because they aren't sure whether they're even going to be able to find their way out of the mountains at all and there's no cellphone service around here so like? they can't call anyone to come help them??

and as a result, misao gestures for them to ' come here ' + when they do, she very calmly tells them to put their head in her lap and when they do... she just starts running a hand through their hair to comfort them / make them less scared like. and misao would probably be slightly scared herself at the time, but then she'd tell them that 'they have nothing to worry about because i'm going to keep both of them safe?' like OMG 😭 idk what it is about this idea (i guess it might be that misao is scared herself, but has put the other person's emotional needs before anything else) buttt just the thought of her taking the initiative to be brave + volunteer to watch over the other person as they sleep (bonus points if they let misao make them a blanket out of her silk + tuck them in) is just too good

[starkeyisthelastname]

Stepbro!rafe holding his babygirl to his chest because she woke up crying in the middle of the night and reader is just waking up and is already trying to get the milk ready for their daughter and then when she gets back from the kitchen after preparing the baby's bottle she hears him say something like 'yeah that's right, we'll all move out of here, me, your mom, and you. All of us, we're gonna move out into the suburbs or some shit and just live happily ever after or something. Just for you, baby, just for you' and he's bouncing her lightly trying to comfort her and reader just admires his effort for a moment before giving him the bottle as she just rests her head on his shoulder for minute with her baby in rafe's hands and knowing what he wants from her 🥹😭

You quietly but hurriedly walked up the stairs of Tannyhill, warm bottle in hand, eyes half open from lack of sleep. Making your way to the cracked door of the nursery, you paused from the soft voice you were hearing. Your eyes caught in the small light of the lamp, Rafe holding your previously crying baby girl to his chest. You could see his tall frame, standing in the middle of the room, bare feet on the fluffy pink carpet as plaid pajama pants hugged his toned hips.

“Yeah, no need to cry, kid.” His usual dark tone, softer.

Sometimes you wanted to hate how handsome your step-brother was. His longer hair now gone it being shaved into a buzzcut, which you had to admit brought out his features. His chest was broad, looking massive compared to the tiny baby he held.

“We are gonna get off of the island. You, me, and your mama. Get a nice big house on the mainland. I'm gonna marry her too. Make your mama my wife.” He spoke to the baby girl, who of course didn't understand a word he was saying. The truth behind it, being pretty messed up.

The little girl’s cries had now calmed, the voice of her father helping her calm down. You admired Rafe’s effort, especially when he could only be a father behind closed doors. Even though situation was more than wrong and you were naive to your step-brothers’s corruption towards you, now you were a mother and you wanted your daughter to have a relationship with her father.

Slowly padding into the room, your eyes met sea blue ones. You smiled softly, handing him the bottle of milk. Your arms then wrapped around his front, you being shorter against his muscled back. You peered at your daughter in his arms, her baby blue eyes closing as she sucked down her bottle. While there were parts that resembled you, she was truly all Rafe’s. She was beautiful and no matter how wrong this was, you wanted everything he had spoken of.

“You start that lovey shit, I might put another baby in you.” Rafe whispered, turning his head to gaze down at you, knowing smirk on his face.

[raeinyourdreams]

'call it what you want.' | l.h x reader

pairings: logan howlett x sway!reader

tags: fluff, no established relationship but.. there's something there, mutant!reader (they call her sway due to her mutation.. i love her i wanna talk ab her someone PLEASE ASK AB HER), AFAB reader, she/her pronouns used for reader, no specific petnames for reader (just bub and her hero name.. gets called kid like twice), no use of y/n, written with x1/x2 logan in mind... sigh... save me x2 logan.. anyway, he gives reader his dog tags before a mission in case he.. you know.. so maybe angst? but only til the very end.

wc: 2k!!

a/n: OKAY SO BOOM! this is my first actual work that's not a drabble and i'm so anxious to post AAHHH, i got the inspo from a post i saw a while ago while fried as fuck from someone requesting a fic ab logan giving reader his dog tags, pref fluffy and angsty so i hope i did ur vision justice OP!! tysm for inspo, my reqs are always open 🫶🏻 also i know this is a very burnt card but if something in the wording is off lmk PLEASEE english isn't my first language 😭 anyway enough yapping plz enjoy!! any type of interaction is appreciated

'just know these are yours now.'

you've never seen him without his dog tags, he never took them off, not ever since the first time he came into the mansion. you'd been there the first time, you were a teacher in the school, and you'd seen him occasionally roam the halls and stay by the door, listening in on your class, quietly. but very rarely interacted otherwise, just a simple nod or a 'good morning' that he'd return out of good manners, but he'd mostly keep to himself.

you're a teacher. you're the fun teacher. at least that's what your coworkers seemed to agree upon, seeing how your students appeared to leave your classroom more cheerful than they entered. you'd be lying if you said you didn't use your mutation as an advantage in this situation, being able to read your students' moods every day, how they were feeling and why came insanely handy, especially when it came to giving each student the type of care they needed. which is why you were also a student counselor.

on the days you didn't teach, you'd put that psych degree to work and counsel. in your classroom filled with drawings and fairy lights and stained glass that looked straight from a fairytale, and a door you'd lock for privacy as a student came to confide in you.

obviously despite your title, it wasn't only students who'd come to your office to let a feeling go, teachers too, needed a space to blow off some steam, cry a little sometimes, because they knew you'd soothe them in the end, touch your hand feel the pain dissipate, make it seem as if they'd never felt that way.

up until now, only teachers and students seemed to come to you for help. teachers. and students.

so it did surprise you when the wolverine started showing up in your office after coming back.

"must be tiring. to handle others' emotions like your own all day." he'd say, sitting down on a chair, to which you'd playfully roll your eyes and shake your head. "i don't treat them as my own, i just do what i have to do so they feel better." you'd reply, walking towards the door to lock it out of policy. figured that he was here for counseling as well.

"you treat everyone with so much care it seems like it." he said, which made you stop in your tracks, turning heel to face him, your hair cascading on your shoulders and moving ever so softly as you spun. before you could speak, stunned, he asked again.

"don't you get tired? i mean mentally. it must take a toll on you to be around so many emotions all the time." the way he seemed to read you stunned you, he seemed like a very gruff, cold person from the brief interactions you'd had with him before. truth be told, this was the closest you'd been to logan since he came back to the mansion. it's what other people thought of him, anyway.

but you weren't other people, you were different.

the feeling in your body when you perceive others emotions is strange. you could never put it into words. your mutation was mostly contact based, a small brush of the hand was enough to let you know that person's feelings, the reason behind them, what they needed to feel better and it made it easier to help everyone. you could, however, see and feel the emotions, sometimes even smell them if they were too strong, no need for contact necessary.

with logan, you almost didn't need to be in the same room as him to feel the amount of physical, mental, emotional strain he was constantly under, his superhuman body subconsciously tuning it out, making him oblivious to it. once, after a very dangerous mission, he isolated himself in his room for days, his expression cold and unfazed, but every time you'd walk past an area he was in, the emotions hit you like a truck. so strong you even cried over pain that wasn't yours, a life you hadn't lived.

you looked at him sympathetically, taking a deep breath to concentrate less on the seemingly invisible fog around you two as you sat on the chair, your expression calm and collected. "i'm okay, i promise. thank you, logan."

"like hell you are." "neither are you."

he stays quiet at your retaliation, a weak smile forming on his lips, letting you understand that you were right, not that you needed confirmation.

sometimes, when emotions overpower you, you feel compelled to speak, give words of reassurance, even if you didn't quite know if they'd help or not. "logan, you should let people into your heart, stop living in fear.." you blurted out, unsure of why you were telling him this, but you'd learned to not question it and just speak, because it helped to just hear the words sometimes. it certainly did get you a reaction from logan, as the overbearing feelings you were perceiving faded.. briefly, before they slowly crept back into vision.

it was the faintest of reactions, but a reaction at least.

he nodded, taking in the words silently, as if he were contemplating. you remained stoic, analyzing his demeanor out of pure habit. "did.. you come here for counseling?" you asked, suddenly aware that you were still working, and you weren't even sure if he was here for another reason, or if he did need your help. instead, he shook his head, looking at you as if he were conducting an analysis of his own.

"nah, just came to see you.. sway."

a knock on the door interrupted the brewing tension, a gloomy, childlike presence behind the door, to which you looked at logan apologetically. "i'm sorry logan, i have a student to attend.. but think about what i said." you spoke softly, your warm voice reverberating in his ears like a hug.. something he longed for but couldn't bring himself to ask.

you started seeing him around the classroom more, or rather, he started seeking you out more. in between breaks, before his training, during counseling. it got to a point where your children started greeting him hello and goodbye if he was in the classroom, interacting with him, playing with his hair, always styled like kitty ears. the way he just smiled and let them made something in you bloom, a feeling you couldn't recognize in yourself, but it was pink and warm and fuzzy all over. you couldn't help but wonder if he felt about you this way, too.

slowly, you noticed how, little by little, the gloomy cloud surrounding him would go away when he entered the classroom, how it would be replaced with a pink haze when he looked into your eyes, or made you laugh.. it would quickly fade away, but you'd notice, and noticed how much it resembled that feeling inside you: pink and warm and fuzzy all over.

as time went by, you got used to seeing him around, swinging by your classroom as if it was his haven, a small break from the world he knew, because you were in it. you'd be lying if you said he didn't make you day too, the gloomy atmosphere that once came along with him every time he entered your classroom slowly changing into a lilac haze.

one day, he showed up as the kids were leaving for the day, no colored cloud, but something seemed off. you invited him to sit down as he locked the door after getting in, his expression serene. before you could even speak his hands were on you, pulling you close to him in a hug, and you swore you could feel him shaking slightly. the realization hits you like a bucket of cold water and you just hold him tighter to you, since it feels like the only correct thing to do.

"you're scared."

"no one gets to see me like this, so feel special." said he, almost as if he was confiding a secret in you, which he was.

"oh, trust me, i feel quite special." you replied jokingly, which caused him to let out a chuckle, though it was dull and almost no feeling was tied to it.

you two let go and you asked him what was wrong, and he opened up like it was routine.

"i leave tomorrow. there's a mission out of state and they're asking me to go.. might be off the grid after that for a while." he explained, his voice remained calm but his eyes seemed to reveal to you more of how he was actually feeling.

"i dunno.. thought someone should've known in case.. things go south." your expression changed at that, and logan noticed. "ah, c'mon bub, change that frown, it's just reality. sure, i might be a piece of work to kill but it doesn't mean i can't die."

the silence that fell upon the classroom as you two finished speaking made the words fall with more weight into your heart, it did little to nothing to comfort you as you came to terms with what he said. it shouldn't have been hard - he was just stating a fact -, but it didn't mean that it didn't cut deep for you. you opened your mouth to speak, unsure of what you were even going to say, but he quickly cut you off.

"logan-" "listen, bub, you told me to start letting people into my heart.. i'm letting you in."

slowly, his hands went to unclasp the chain that always dangled on his neck, dog tags adorning his neck with his names, his identities. you looked in awe as he held them out to you. "gimme your hand, kid." and surprisingly, you did as you were told, holding your hand out as he placed the piece on your hand, feeling the cold metal clink softly as it fell and heat up under the temperature of your palm. you looked up at him, unsure of what it meant, of what this changed between you two, but it felt undeniable, even if unspoken.

“now, these.. they’re very special, bub. a reminder of everything that happened that led to here.. and it’s leading me to you right now.” he explained. “feels right for you to have them, i guess.. keep them safe, kid.”

the silence that fell between you two again was more comfortable, filled with a newfound tension that left much to question, but it didn’t feel right to interrupt with all that noise yet. the only sound filling the room was the breathing and a faint humming of the white noise machine you kept in your room, next by the door. you opened up your mouth again, your mind utterly blank and filled with thoughts and questions at the same time, unsure of which one was going to breach through your mind to materialize out in the cold, tense air.

“.. why me? trust me, i’m flattered, but i’m no one special, logan..” you questioned, and it made him frown.

“you are special. you're special to me.” your eyes widened at the confession and you watched as a soft smile settled on his face, one that made your heart flutter with the sheer tenderness he held in his gaze. “call it what you want.. just know these are yours now.” he said it so calmly, you wouldn't have tought he was handing you his heart, placing it in soft, tender hands and pleading you to not break it, not change it, and instead embrace it and accept it as it came, rough around the edges.

with that, he stood up from the chair, took your hand to squeeze it briefly, and walked out of the room, not before looking back at you one last time, the heaviness that he carried as he entered the room seemingly gone, all that you could perceive was a haze, all too familiar, one that left as quick as it came as his eyes met yours.

pink, warm, and fuzzy all over.

additional author's note: BOOM SHAKALAKA I POSTED FINALLY!! i think it's a little rushed BUT!! it's cause i have a (smutty) part 2 planned for this HEHEJEHE i don't like writing (or reading) series bcs i get sad when they end but i just might.... hehehe... anyway pls lmk what u think!! or i kill off logan 🥰🥰 your choice 🥰🥰

taglist: @allen-444

[kyokutsu-sama]

omg, this was a random thought that popped into my head😭william with an s/o, who during her period, gets the WORST anger issues? im talking she gets annoyed if someone breathes wrong😭how would he react to her random sobbing and extreme clinginess during all that? thank you!!!

A/n: Hi!!! When I read the request I just find it funny cause this is so me when I'm on my period😭🤭 I hope you like it.

I really felt sorry for William after writing this one😭

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As we all know, William is a very kind and very patient man. It's almost impossible to get this man out of his peaceful state (unless it's something really bad). He begins to notice that for a few days now, she has been acting strangely towards him and everyone in the room. She who used to be as respected as the captain and so nice to everyone, was now shouting at everyone and without any patience. William already suspected that she was going through that typical monthly phase where she just wanted everyone to disappear but at the same time would cry if that happened. He decided not to confront her with that, out of fear, since she was looking like a wild animal on the loose. He couldn't help but stare at her when she was acting like that, towards someone from Golden Dawn. He even tried to get closer to her to interfere but when he saw her looking at him with that dark look, he hesitated. "WHAT'S WRONG WILLIAM? WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT ME? DO YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL ME?!" She shouted at him The captain just stood there, with wide eyes and an expression like "Honey... I was just passing by... I didn't do anything wrong🥲" It was then that some of the members reported situations like this to him. "Captain, with all due respect but she's going crazy! Everyone in the division is shaking because of the way she's yelling at everyone and looking like she's going to kill someone!!"Klaus said, completely terrified, to the captain who assured him that he would solve everything She spent the whole day walking here and there, hurriedly, while doing her duties within the division, keeping an ill-tempered look on her face, which made the members of the division afraid to approach her, since even breathing seemed like a problem for her. That attitudes, created small murmurs among the members in the corridors of the HQ, wondering what could have made her like that. At the end of the day, she used to go to William to see each other, as they rarely saw each other during the day because of work, but that day it was he who went to see her, especially after she shouted at him and avoided him when he tried to interfere when he saw her scolding another member when he dropped some papers on the floor that were for the captain. William slowly opened the bedroom door, peeking inside and saw her sitting on the bed, with her knees to her chest and crying. A scene that broke his heart. William approached and she quickly threw herself at him, hugging him tightly and he held her, caressing her back with his hands, while she sobbed. He sat with her on his lap, listening to her lament for being so mean to him and others. "I'm sorry for yelling at you William, I'm really an idiot, I'm horrible and I don't deserve you..." She sobbed, clutching the fabric of his uniform "Don't say those things, my love. You're important and I really like you and so does everyone here, do you hear? I love you so much." He whispered, wiping her tears while she was still there, clinging to him and apologizing He always stayed by her side while she calmed down, he couldn't help but smile when she gave him a load of kisses and hugs. He thought she was cute even when she was mad, although the sudden change in mood was still leaving him a little confused. "William, will you forgive me?" She asked for the thousandth time "Yes, I forgive you," He sighed. "I know this time of the month makes you more sensitive and ...a little angrier but it's normal and I'm always here, whenever you need me, okay?" He moved her hair away from her face, kissing her forehead "Oh Will, you're so cute I think I'm going to cry again..." She said in a tearful voice and he chuckled "You don't need to cry anymore. I'm always here." He gave her a peck and hugged her This man is a sweetheart❤️

[blueberrypancakesworld]

Hii how are you I was wondering if you could write a fic about The Lost Boys x Male reader Where reader is the youngest and they all forget about his birthday and see him crying they start to feel guilty and go to apologize to him. But he also forgot that it was his birthday and the reason he was crying because he was reading a book and saw a sad scene Sorry if it doesn't make sense 😭

Don't cry little bat

Lost Boys x kid reader (platonic)

warning : fluff, angst, crying, reader is a kid

Info : So here is your request dear anon I was not shure (with the youngest) what you meant so I did the reader as a kid. If I missunderstood it write me and I do it again. If not have fun reading ;)

masterlist

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The night of the shapes, the night on the beaches where they went hunting for their star and their two little bats. The two little bats especially wanted to eat and eat a lot.

Poor Star could hardly keep up with telling stories from distant worlds and she told the boys more than clearly that they should hurry up.

A night full of stress due to the few victims in the cooler winter months, as cool as Santa Carla can be when the ice cream is still melting. But no tourists and people meant no food and no lake meant hunger and hunger only leads to strife.

The blond leader didn't want to give up, it was the second day they had been feeding on a few homeless people and even his zigartte didn't seem to bother his nerves.

,,Take it easy, it'll be fine," he heard the terse words from Dwayne, who was well aware of his leader's inner turmoil. Each of the three could see the almost nervous look into the night in search of heartbeats.

It was a night that frustrated the three of them and when they heard an ,,Oh no, that's not good" from Paul, they also saw the blond vampire suddenly holding a notebook in his hands. The notebook they had given him to write down his thoughts and ideas for anything, but in this case it seemed to contain something else.

,,Oh no?" Marko asked and his grin seemed to disappear as he looked over Paul's shoulder at Dwayne and David. ,,Y/n birthday...it's today," Marko whispered and David bit his tongue in horror as Dwayne let out a sigh.

They had forgotten it in their search for food. Cursing came from the group as they all cursed themselves and their infinity for forgetting their little field mouse's birthday.

A silent look from David to the others made them all disappear into the nact in the hours they had left to search for food and presents.

For something they could give the little boy. Minutes dragged into hours, dragged and dragged until the figures met in front of the entrance to the cave alone, a small box in their hands containing gifts.

Inside the cave, however, they were greeted with a crying sound. A cry that did not come from Laddie or Star, a cry that worried them.

An exchange of glances with Star let the veir know that the little boy was probably not calming down. ,,Bat, what's wrong? Listen...we should have been here more," David began and the other three started to hand over the present, trying to straighten out the situation somehow.

Star seemed to know what they wanted to do and seemed to have her own presents in hand. "Right, we're always here from now on," Paul added and was ready to literally throw the gift to the little one when they heard a sniffle and Y/n suddenly spun around.

Tears were in his eyes and rolling down his cheeks. My-my book...the little frog is...the frog is dead" he sniffled and showed his family the book he had received a few days ago. Marko finally found his grin again and couldn't help but laugh.

The little bat didn't cry because of his forgotten birthday, a birthday he had forgotten himself. The others joined in the giggling and Star lifted the little vampire in her arms.

,,That's not good... but I think your brothers have brought you something... something to take away your tears," Star said and nudged Dwayne, who handed the little boy his present first before the others joined in.

The night of tears turned into a night of presents, hugs and stories that finally made the little vampire laugh again.

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[makshu]

Hey hi! :)

So I'll start by saying that I thank you for the fact that you actively defend Tsukasa in this fandom, your posts almost make me cry to know that there is actually someone who understood him as a character😭, it's too misunderstood simply because some can't see it in another light from the anime, which is essentially something that bothers me a lot considering that in the anime we didn't know about the whole backstory and entity, so it's normal that he seemed like a "completely evil demon kid" compared to his brother of which we had flashbacks with tsucigomori that made us empathize more (even though I always liked tsukasa more from the beginning), but now we're advancedii, someone simply has to open their eyesii.

Then, secondly, I wanted to ask you, how do you think Tsukasa was treated upon his return? his relationship with his mother and father? all very mysterious and strange, the only thing we know is that probably, at least his mother treated him as if he were a demon :(

Hello! Owwn I'm glad you like the posts <3

Since Tsukasa is my favorite character of all times, I feel it's my duty to always protect him lol, especially from people who distort his image.

And yes, unfortunately it's normal that the fandom have a bad image of him because of what was presented in the anime, but even with people reading the manga they still remain ignorant about him.

About Tsukasa's relationship with his family... I've always read more about it than I've actually thought about it, but I have a few theories about what might have happened.

The twins' mother realized that something was wrong with him, and even took the extreme measure of taking him to an exorcist, but it didn't work. About her, I theorize that this estrangement continued throughout his life, and perhaps at first she still treated him well, but then she began to treat him in a distant and somewhat harsh manner.

About their father, he's a real mystery, we know nothing about him. He seemed to be a man who worked a lot and only stayed home on special occasions (like the twins' birthday), and in an official art we see Tsukasa with his father. Having this art as a basis and I assume they were closer, then I believe his father was kinder to him. Yes, he probably noticed something strange, but he preferred to ignore it, he imagined it was because of his development, maybe something had happened while he was away, or even the whole situation of his brother almost dying, he tried to think of many more plausible possibilities than something possessing Tsukasa. Over time, he was the only one who continued to treat Tsukasa normally, as normally as he could, and I also imagine that the twins' parents had many arguments about Tsukasa, with the mother accusing him and the father protecting him.

I'll take a moment to talk about his relationship with Amane as well. Amane was apparently the first to notice that something was off with his brother, but he was just a child at the time, he felt that something was wrong but didn't know what. As the years went by he tried to ignore this feeling, but it was impossible to ignore how Tsukasa had changed, which made him act distant with his brother but still always keep him close (which created a lot of doubts in Tsukasa). Theorizing now, he may have discovered the entity and was destined to remove it from his brother's body, which made him kill Tsukasa at age 13 and then kill himself out of regret and guilt. But this was in vain, since Tsukasa continued with the entity after death, and now Hanako searches incessantly for a way to save him, even though Tsukasa himself does not want to be saved.

Well, these are my opinions mixed with theories and headcanons, it's very difficult to think about this subject since we have almost no information about their parents, which leaves us with only speculations to make. I hope I was able to be clear with my words lol.

[hiccupscloud-26]

Oh my gosh FINALLY! I finished it! Took a little longer than expected and lost inspiration for a bit, but it's done!

So this story was inspired by a prompt I saw on here, but I forgot who wrote it and just scrolled through all my likes for like 30 minutes trying to find it to come up with nothing😭 it was something along the lines of someone eating spicy food even though they hate it and they actually hide the pain well and are proud of themselves for hiding it, until the hiccups start. I thought this would fit Calliope and Indyko, so voila.

Idk if I like how this ends, but I'm so ready to move on to the next idea I have and I've just been staring at this for too long so I'm posting it.

(Green-haired cyclops is Indyko, I just haven't updated the picture yet, my bad)

CW:

-painful hiccups

-hiccup burps

-mentions of nausea (but no throwing up)

-loud hiccups

-let me know if I need to add more pls

And now, without further ado, I give to you:

Spicy Curry

Calliope was lounging on her couch on her phone, her legs spread out on Indyko's lap. Mentioned cyclops was reading some romance novel that seemed more like a porn, but they didn't mind it. They would forever be grateful for the situation they were in. A beautiful apartment, a beautiful girlfriend, a wonderful life indeed. If you were to ask them a few months ago if they'd expected to be here today, they'd probably shake their head and laugh it off to keep from crying.

“You ok, Indy?” Calliope asked softly, “you've been glaring a hole through that page for a while.”

Indyko blushed and moved the book down so they could see their love's beautiful face. They smiled and nodded, “yes, I'm just…feeling grateful, that's all.”

Calliope couldn't help but smile back at them. She reached for their hand and they gladly accepted it, “I'm grateful to have met you too.”

“Callieee,” Indy giggled quietly and squeezed her hand softly, looking at her as if she was their whole world.

“Indyyy~” Calliope rubbed their knuckles.

Indy smiled and brought her hand to their lips and kissed it gently. “I'm so glad you found me.”

“And I'm so glad you stayed,” the redhead smiled before slowly sitting up. “It's getting late, I better start dinner. Any requests?”

“No, anything you make is bound to be absolutely delicious,” Indyko smiled at her, releasing their hands slowly.

“Awww, such a sweetheart~” Calliope chuckled and kissed their cheek.

The cyclops giggled and planted a kiss on Calliope's cheek before she'd stood up and headed off to the kitchen.

It wasn't long before Calliope had finished cooking the meal and setting the table for two. Indyko's stomach grumbled when they smelled the different spices and chicken.

“Smells so good, Callie,” they complimented, sitting down on a dining chair, sitting in front of some sort of chicken dish with rice. “What is it?”

“It's a dish called chicken curry,” Calliope told them as she sat in the chair across from them. “I was craving something a little spicier this evening.”

Indyko blinked and froze in their spot as Calliope mixed around the rice and chicken in her bowl. “S-spicy?”

The black woman pierced her fork through one of the chicken bits and looked up at Indyko and nodded, “yeah, it's spicy. Oh shoot, is that ok? I should've asked if you liked spicy food.”

“No no, I'll be okay, I love spicy food,” Indyko reassured her, even though they knew spicy food wasn't for them.

Their first experience with spicy food had been undeniably unpleasant. They'd found some spicy noodles in the dumpster a few years back and the memories of them puking their guts out as their tongue burned remained engraved in their brain.

However, they knew Calliope had put her soul into her cooking, she always did. They didn't want to waste their food, especially knowing that there were people out there who didn't have food at all. So they decided to just suck it up. How hard could it be?

They picked up their fork and pierced through the saucy chicken bit, taking a deep breath before putting the food in their mouth. Instantly, the different flavors and spices flooded their senses. Indy smiled, “it's really good.” They were pleased to know they actually meant it.

Calliope smiled, “aww, thanks, Indy. It's not too spicy?”

“Spicy? No, I don't even taste the spiciness,” Indyko swallowed the chicken, feeling the flame burn down their throat. They almost winced, but they held it in. They couldn't show Calliope that they couldn't handle it. They'd dealt with rotten, spoiling food before.

They would get through this.

Calliope nodded, “hmm, maybe I should add more cayenne pepper next time then.”

Indyko remained silent as they gulped down another forkful of curry. Maybe if they ate it quickly, it wouldn't affect them as much. Only pausing to sip on their water, they took in two more forkfuls back to back. Their mouth felt like it was on fire, but still they were keeping it under control.

They had to admit, they were proud of themselves for being able to fight through the heat. They were doing well.

*HULP!*

Indyko's eyes widened and they covered their mouth, eyes instantly locking with Calliope's, seeing her mouth open, her fork frozen in place.

“A-are you okay?” Calliope placed her fork back on her plate.

Indyko jolted in their seat with another *HIUP!*. Their eyes started to water and snot poured from their nose.

“I got *HUP!* the hic-*CUP*s,” Indy announced before they attempted to hold their breath.

They quickly released the air, their mouth way too hot to hold it in. Their whole body jolted with their powerful hiccups overtaking them. Calliope shuddered slightly, hoping Indy hadn't noticed her strange behavior.

See, she hadn't told them about her…appreciation for hiccups, feeling embarrassed about it all. Plus, neither of them had any cases since Indy had moved in.

“My mouth *HOLP!* is on fire *H'GUP!*” Indy whined.

Concern instantly filled Calliope's face and she rushed over to her partner, all thoughts of her excitement gone at the sight of Indyko in pain.

“Indy, I thought you said you loved spicy food,” Calliope pushed their hair out of their face, her hand being thrown back against the force of their next *HU-UP!* “Hold on, let me get you some milk.”

She hurried to the kitchen, quickly pouring a cup of milk into a glass, not caring about the mess she was making. After grabbing some extra napkins, she rushed back to her partner and handed them the glass. “Drink this, it'll help with the heat.”

Indy nodded and gulped down the milk in one go. They panted, casually interrupted by their loud hiccups. Calliope noted they weren't too fast, thank goodness, but the way they moved them with such force that their whole body-

No, not the time, Calliope mentally scolded herself. She took a deep breath and placed her hands on their shoulders, “is that a little better?”

Indy looked up at Calliope with teary eyes. Their face was a red blotchy mess, but they still smiled and nodded, “yeah, a little *HULP!*-” they blushed impossibly redder, “excuse me *HUUUUP!*-ooh, these are bad. I'm sorry *HUCK-UCK!*-ah, shoot. It burns.”

Calliope frowned and hugged them close, “don't be sorry, Indy…I shouldn't have made something spicy without asking. So I'm sorry, and now I know for next time. Now…how can I help?”

“It's really ok, you *HILP!*-ah, didn't know, and um…can I *HULP!* get some more milk? Oooh, or *GUPrrrp!* ugh, please excuse me. Erm, does ice cream *HICK!* help?”

“Yeah, any lactose helps honestly,” she gently squeezed their shoulders before heading back to the kitchen.

After retrieving the carton of vanilla ice cream and a spoon, Calliope returned to Indyko, but they looked a little green in the face. She hurried over them, “Indy? What's wrong?”

They held up one finger and she noticed them trying desperately to hold their breath again. Their body betrayed them every few seconds with strong, muffled hiccups that jerked them in their seat. Calliope set the ice cream and spoon on the table before rubbing their back comfortingly. She glanced at their bouncing stomach, hidden only by a thin tee shirt. She wanted to rub her partner's pains away, but didn't want to break any boundaries.

Suddenly, she gasped, feeling Indyko gently grab her hand and place it on their stomach. She looked at them, seeing them nod their head as they still held their breath. Calliope didn't hesitate as she gently massaged their upset tummy.

Her hand was quickly thrown off by a powerful hiccup as Indy released their breath. “I'm sorry, I *HILP!* I can't seem to shake these things *HICK'M!* excuse me.”

“Don't worry about them, unless…are they hurting you?” Calliope worried as she started massaging their stomach again.

“I wouldn't say they *HUCK! HEEEKrrrp!* oh gosh, please pardon me,” Indyko covered their face, blushing profusely. “They don't hurt, per se, but *HERK!* they're just uncomfortable because of the heat, but it's slowly dissi-*HIP!*-pating.”

“Do you feel like you're…gonna throw up?” Calliope continued the gentle massage.

“Not anymore, it pa-*HACK!*-passed,” Indy rubbed their sternum and exhaled softly, being interrupted by another loud spasm.

Calliope nodded, “those are so s-strong.” She continued rubbing their belly, feeling every jolt. “D-do you wanna take this to the couch? It might be more comfortable for you.”

Indy wordlessly nodded as they stood up and grabbed their ice cream and spoon before heading to the couch. Calliope smiled and followed them to the living room, watching as they sat down, opened the ice cream, and dug in. She giggled and sat next to them.

The cyclops looked at her confused, “what? *HICuuurrrp!*-ugh, excuse me.” They covered their mouth with a fist.

Calliope giggled again as she sat next to them. “Nothing, I just…love you, is all.”

Indyko froze as they gasped and flushed a deep red. “You…you…huh?”

The red-eyed woman glanced up at them confused, “hmm?”

“You…love me?” Indyko squeaked out.

Calliope blinked as she realized what she had said earlier. She blushed and looked away, taking a deep breath before looking back at them and nodding her head. “Yeah, I do…you don't have to say it back if you're not ready, no pressure at all. But I do love you.”

Indyko teared up slightly before hugging her close. “I love you too…it feels good to finally say that.” They giggled and kissed her cheek. “I love you too.”

Calliope gasped and smiled, “I'm so glad the feeling is mutual.”

“Me too,” Indyko smiled back, then placed a hand on their chest, “oh hey, my hiccups are gone. Your expression of love must've shocked them out of me. My hero yet again~” they snuggled up close to her.

Calliope internalized her disappointment, but smiled, “more than happy to help, my dear. How are you feeling?”

“Much much better, now I can eat my ice cream in peace,” Indy chuckled and Calliope couldn't help but chuckle along with them.

One day, Calliope would eventually tell them her secret, but for now, she liked the way things were going now.

Fin

[nerdysleepybunny]

Hiii!!! This is my first time making a request on tumblr so I hope this is okay 😓 anyway, alot of my friends have said that I seem so quiet and timid. My parents have also called me out on this so can I have the full score trio with a quiet and timid s/o? Maybe base her off Yuri from ddlc because she's my top kinnie 😅 gender neutral please <333

P.S.

Your tpn posts are so good, I need more 😭😭😭 btw I hope I didn't make any grammar mistakes, English isnt my first language.

Helloooo, apologies this took so long to get to! And don’t worry, your English was great! I sadly haven’t played ddlc but I’ll try my best to do this. And I appreciate the kind words! Thank you so much for the request, hope you enjoy! <33

🩷☁️N E R D Y S L E E P Y B U N N Y☁️🩷

Fandom(s): The Promised Neverland

Character(s): Norman, Ray, Emma

Reader: Gender neutral (they/you)

TW: N/A

Style: Short hcs

Summary: TPN trio with a shy s/o!

🩷☁️N E R D Y S L E E P Y B U N N Y☁️🩷

Norman:

He enjoys how quiet you are! It’s a nice refresher from how the other children can be.

He knows how easily scared you can be, and has willingly turned himself into a comfort plushie for you! He’ll let you hug him, lay on him, play with his hair, cry on his chest/shoulder, whatever you need, he’ll be there for you!

If you get scared/overwhelmed by other people, he’ll keep you distanced from them (if that’s what you want)! If he notices you beginning to panic he’ll drag you away from the situation and do whatever activity you have in mind to help you relax.

If you get scared from things like loud noises, he’ll allow you to hide away in his chest, and if he knows a loud sound is about to be made, he’ll cover your ears and bring you away from it.

He’ll also sing, hum, or just ramble if his voice helps you calm down. <33

Literally just a teddy bear for you to hold onto tightly when you need it. 🥹🫶🏻

Ray:

You’re shy? Great, so is he! He prefers smaller gatherings anyway, so the two of you will often just hang out one on one. No need to get overwhelmed by others if you’re with him and only him 24/7. :D (this lowkey sounds yandere, mb y’all 💀)

Sometimes you’ll be mid-conversation with someone then your social battery just goes to 0. He’ll immediately notice the change and will instead answer things for you, since at this point he can read you super easily. Just one look and he immediately knows what you’re thinking. He’ll talk for you for as long as you need until you’re recharged enough to take over again.

He isn’t into physical affection very much, especially in front of others, but if you need it he’ll hold your hand or let you play with his hair.

Will also slap anyone that purposefully overwhelms you or tries to push you out your comfort zone. Whoops.

Emma:

Complete opposites relationship pog? Complete opposites relationship pog.

Y’all have such a cute dynamic istg. 😭

Emma is just a complete ball of sunshine, always speaking loud and proud, then you’re just there quietly simping over your brave girlfriend. 🥺💕

You’re just like “Omg she’s so confident I love her sm” and if she notices you watching her with heart eyes? OMFG she’ll point you out and just start bragging about you, talking about how perfect and amazing you are and how you’re the best s/o. And you’re just awkwardly sitting with a hot red face not knowing what to do with all the attention. 😭

She’s good at distracting you from your worries by simply talking away and being herself! You could be rocking back and forth in a corner with your knees to your chest having a breakdown from being so overwhelmed then this mf just walks in and you’re just in awe. 😭

Literally the definition of going from 😭 to 😳

Them tears be stopping so fast when she’s around istg.

She’ll absolutely smother you in nothing but affection. 🫶🏻

🩷☁️N E R D Y S L E E P Y B U N N Y☁️🩷

[lostfracturess]

CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP NICI YOU ATE AND DID IT AGAIN, THE NEW CHAPTER IS SO FUCKING GOOD AND DELICIOUS AND IT HURTS ME IN A GOOD WAY AND IN A BAD WAY IT WAS KINDA A ROLLERCOASTER FOR ME 😭😭😭😭😭 trying to calm down and collect my thoughts PHEW really sorry for all of my upcoming incoherent messss, firstly, wanna thank you for this amazing chapter, you're just doing THIS again again, constantly improving your skills, i don't know, you're such an amazing writer i am on my knees 😭😭😭 thank you again so muchhhhhh for your hard work, believer all the work and effort you put in all your stories are showing!!! truly fantastic 😭😭😭 secondly, well i don't know even what to say, i just think this chapter made me in love with your gojo even more (didn't think it might be possible but here we are...) he's so so soft and thoughtful and considerate and caring in this and previous chapter it makes me BAWL MY EYES I LITERALLY LOVE HIM AND HIS LOVE SOO MUCH 😭 it AMUSES me also that he's willing to do everything for a s&c reader and he loves her in all possible love languages and it seems there aren't enough ways of him to express his love. no, one lifetime isn't enough for him 😔 i don't know this folder in the library made me fucking cry, that is SOOOOOO i don't know even why i was so moved, he's putting all the effort into loving her 😭😭😭😭 and also the way he both fell first and harder???? we love this man being so pathetically in love- i absolutely adore him. secondly, s&c reader girl. well, i really don't have much to say, just because THE SITUATION IS SO COMPLICATED AND DIFFICULT I WANNA KMS. but i absolutely ADORE how you depicted all of this controversy going on inside her head, her confused feelings and thoughts, she feels so alive and relatable to some extent, just because you describe us life! and there aren't purely black and white in our lifes, that's way it's so tempting for me. our poor reader girlie deserves a hot cocoa cup and reading some kafka book beneath the blanket (with gojo obv) and just RELAX! she's si strong but i am really afraid, because she can break at any moment 🥺 i really do hope one day she opens up as well to satoru and share even a tiny bit of her fears to satoru, it would be much easier, though of course she wouldn't want to do it, just because to take care of him and it kills me 🥲 i understand her anger and frustration, and that sudden (actually not so sudden, all her pent up emotions just BURST OUT!!!!) snap at satoru, she was just mad at him, at herself, at fact she doesn't have a proper student life, and that research, her lack of sleep and migraines, all of this caught up to her and that's completely understandable, everyone has such moments :( then again she should RELAX. thirdly, i am in love with their relationships and interactions. each chapter describe them from a different side, ane i am so thankful that we can see various sides of their relationship, just like in life. i love them so much. once again. they own my heart. fourthly, the car smut that was so fucking scrumptious tears rolled down my thigh © you really ate this one nici, as always 😭 i am a huge sucker for car sex scenes idk even why 🥲🥲🥲🥲 and fifthly, I Am Afraid for that family dinner 😩 will his mother be alive after that? will EVERYONE??? there's so much room for angst i am waitinggggf (and soft moments as well obviously but who am i fooling...) and alsoooo ALL THEIR CONFESSIONS IN THIS CHAPTER I FUCKING CRIED AND ESPECIALLY YOUR DESCRIPTION OF THEM AS OPPOSITES BUT THEY CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT EACH OTHER??? shattered my heart <3 ALSO thank you again for bringing up and discussing such important themes as addiction and abuse (i think we'll get more of this in the next chapter...) ig that's all for my overall thoughts about the chapter, now it's time for my thoughts during the chapter 😭 again THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR HARD WORK!

"At the sound of your voice, Satoru's head whipped around. His anger seemed to dissipate as his gaze landed on you, a slow smile forming on his lips" OH MY FUCKING GOD HE'S SO WHIPPED I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

he cares so much for s&c reader, awwwwww 🥹🥹🥹 and she cares for him as well to this extent, i am so weeakkkk

i feel very bad for suguru when he's watching satoru and s&c reader gotta admit 😞😞 now when we know his thoughts :(

"He straightened up, snatching the drug test from the table and grabbing his jacket. "I'll be back in a few hours," he called over his shoulder with a quick wave as he headed for the door. "Try not to miss me too much." SHE REALLY SENT HIM AWAY I CAN'T 😭😭😭 WHAT A WOMAN

"You didn't know why this time felt different, why you couldn't turn a blind eye as you had before. Maybe it was the project, or maybe it was the unfamiliar vulnerability that had burrowed under your skin since that day back home" our poor baby is just so shocked and distressed after seeing satoru back then, when he nearly died in her arms, her feelings are totally understandable 😭😭

"You could see the shame burning in his eyes, the self-loathing that ate away at him" STOP THIS I AM BEGGING SUGURU JUST DON'T WHYYY AND IT'S ONLY THE BEGGING OF THE CHAPTER I AM SCARED

"I can tell," you said, a faint smile touching your lips. "By the look on your face, the way you look at me sometimes. You don't have to apologize for your feelings, Suguru. You can't control them." You paused, your heart heavy. "I know that all too well." she's so right, i hope these words will help suguru heal a little bit, as i said previously, that's very respectful and considerate of him! he's obviously not the type of a person to pressure anyone especially s&c reader to anything

s&c reader and her friends' interactions, love them all so much (especially maki)!

"You looked up to find Satoru standing there. His hands were tucked casually in the pockets of his perfectly tailored dress pants. Crisp white shirt, navy tie. His expression was unreadable — as always." he's sometimes kinda creepy 😭 still adore him.

"Maki rolled her eyes. "We'll head out," she announced, gathering her things with a pointed look in Satoru's direction. The scrape of her chair against the worn wooden floor was jarringly loud in the hushed library" WHAT IS HE DOING, HE JUST MADE THEM ALL UNCOMFORTABLE AND GO OUT OF THE ROOM 😭 i can't with him

"Inside, neatly organized notes and summaries of the lectures you'd missed stared back at you, each page filled with carefully highlighted passages and detailed diagrams. Brightly colored sticky notes peeked out from between the pages, explanations and key points meticulously written in Satoru's messy handwriting" WAIT WHAT HSHSHSHSSHSH HE JUST WHAT WHAT HE DID HE WROTE ALL THE LECTURES SHE MISSED????? OR WHAT JUST ASKED FOR THEM??? idk it made me tear up, that's sooo i am sorry i don't even have words, i would basically melt at this point 😭😭😭😭 i love him so much it's impossible, like the effort he put into all of this? speaks VOLUMES

"You flipped through the folder. It wasn't just notes. He'd even gone through the old exams, the ones you'd failed due to, well, everything that had been going on in your life lately — him mostly to be fair" you know what? i am in love with the way he loves s&c reader. that's so nice, kind and considerate of him, everyone needs such a person in their lives 🥹 he's so cute i almost forgot all his drug and commitment issues-

"You grabbed your half-empty, now lukewarm coffee cup, and before you could even think, the contents splashed across his smug face." QUEEN SLAYED! SHE SAID ENOUGH OF GOJO'S MAKING A FOOL OUT OF US! IT'S BEEN ENOUGH! the lesson should be learnt.

"Ouch," he said, that infuriating smirk returning to his lips. "Is this how you plan to treat me in our marriage? Because I have to say, it's turning me on." gojo, everything she does turns you on, who are you trying to fool 🙄

the way they are both SO stubborn and it's always a battle of minds and wills with each other between them ❤️ absolutely love this dynamic

"No, I mean—" You reached out, cupping his cheek. His skin was rough with stubble. "You don't have to do this, Satoru. I'll accept you as you are. Addict and all. I don't care." i feel my heart's just been ripped out and thrown to the floor 😀😀

"Somehow, you felt that your unconditional love for Satoru and your desperate need to see him whole again was tearing you apart as surely as his addiction was tearing him apart" so nicely worded 😩 she loves him and seeing that his addiction destroys him tears her apart as well 😞 and there's nothing she could actually do to make him feel better, i don't know honestly how to describe these feelings, it's so complicated :( but accepting addiction is difficult anyways, the consequences would pain you every time. it feels like a doomed circle: she wants him to be whole, but he isn't whole without drugs and the cycle repeats again and again

"Listen to me, Satoru," you paused, waiting until his eyes locked with yours, until you were sure you had his full attention. The intensity of his gaze almost made you falter, but you pressed on. "You think you're the disease, but I think you're the cure. And I'll keep saying it, over and over again, until you start to see it too." the truth is (for me personally) he's both to her, not that i find it this bad (after all we will have a happy ending....will we, nici?..) and this is such a beautiful and all consuming form of self destruction 😩😩😩 they're both so madly in love with each other it's INSANE. i live for it

"No." He reached for your hand and intertwined his fingers with yours, his palm warm and rough against your skin. "I'm in love." no you're stupid and in love

"God, you were so afraid and terrified of failing him, of not being strong enough to stand by him through this. Shouldn't you be stronger? Shouldn't you be able to handle this without falling apart?" nooo baby you're doing just fine 😭 sometimes even you're way too strong and you shouldn't bear all of the burden on your own (this is applicable for everyone) but AGAIN both her and satoru are so stubborn it makes me angry STOP DOING THAT, PLEASE TALK TO EACH OTHER AND SHARE YOUR BURDEN, DON'T BOTTLE UP YOUR EMOTIONS, they're gonna be the death of me, i swear 😭 you know i think she's too strong so she forgot how to be weak, but it's okay to admit your weaknesses, understand that you're not able to do something, just let go of it 😞 i hope she will understand that as well :( our strong girl

"You looked down, your heart sinking as you saw his picture on the home screen. It wasn't an obvious photo, but a candid shot you'd secretly taken of him" killing myself bye everyone 🤗💋

"Didn't want to admit that parents could be so cruel" WHEN WILL THIS STOP. I AM HURT. there's no way abuse could be even slightly justified towards anyone let alone CHILDREN. i am soooo angry rn

"Yuta, however, remained unconvinced. "Are we seriously considering this? Going to the party of the guy who assaulted our friend?" totally with yuta on this, that wouldn't be the smartest idea...

"You would deal with the consequences later, would find a way to make it up to Satoru somehow. For now, you needed this — needed to feel in control." i understand her feeling but that's too dangerous and i am scared of her 😭 maybe dr. handsome should come along as well, though ANOTHER violent beating either naoya or satoru's bank account won't survive

"And you meant it, with every goddamn fiber of your being. But seeing him like this, seeing the evidence of his struggle written in blood on his skin, it was hard not to feel a twinge of doubt — to feel that perhaps your efforts were not enough" this hurts me so fucking much, on one side is their wellbeing, and on the other... THEIR WELLBEING AS WELL 😭 she wants him to be clean, but the price is too high and consequences as well as the process are dreadful

"Because you think you're that awful?" he does and it kills me. it kills me that he doesn't see barely anything good in him, i am crying AGAIN and the way it probably angers him that he influences her (in a bad way as he thinks ofc) and he's so upset even now...😞😞😞

"Satoru chased after you. He managed to block your shot just in time, his hand slamming against the ball. "Steroids might not be enough. We could use tocilizumab or other anti-IL-6 agents, like in CAR-T therapies for blood cancers." i am sorry that's so hot of him to be this smart.

"Yeah, we need a clear intervention plan, something like a safety switch to destroy CAR-T cells if toxicity becomes unmanageable," you added, our voice breathless. i am sorry that's so hot of her to be this smart.

"Satoru looked up at you, his eyes dark. "So stubborn, yet so weak," he said, his fingers brushing lightly over your inner thigh. "Your body always betrays you, love. It can't resist me." LITERALLY THIS BASTARD SO HOT

"Naoya? Are you fucking kidding me?" Satoru's eyes narrowed. "You wanna go to a party thrown by the same fucker who tried to drug you? Have you lost your goddamn mind?" i understand s&c reader as well, but more with satoru on this, that's way too dangerous and he will be so worried and frustrated 🥺🥺🥺

"Some rational part of your brain screamed at you to stop, but it was drowned out by the roar of your emotions. You were tired, so goddamn tired of him wanting to protect you while he was literally falling apart at the seams" NO ANOTHER MISCOMMUNICATION I AM JUMPING OFF THE CLIFF, WHEN WILL THIS END

"And now what?" you exploded, the words leaving your mouth before you could stop them. "Should I just lock myself away? Never go out, never have any fucking fun, never live a normal goddamn life? I barely sleep, you know that? I'm constantly doing research, going to classes, studying for exams. I don't get to have the typical university experience, the friendships, the stupid parties. And now, the one time I want to feel like a normal fucking student being for once, you want to take that away from me too? Like you haven't already taken everything else?" she deserves all of it but not with that price 😞😞😞😞

I CAN'T DO ITTTTT SHE'S JUST SO ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED NOT EVEN WITH SATORU, IT'S ALL JUST COME INTO PLACE, EVERYTHING FELL ON HER 😭😭😭

"It's tearing me apart, being without you," he confessed. His brows knitted together, pain etched into every line of his face. "No matter how much time passes, no matter how hard I try to stay away, to move on, my heart will always belong to you. It beats for you, only for you. I'm so fucking lost without you, so empty, so incomplete—" i really am shattered and teary eyed at these words. left speechless.

"You were water in his hands, fluid and formless, sometimes losing your own shape in the tidal wave that was Satoru's love. You were rain in his storm, mist in his morning, ice in his winter. But it didn't matter. 

For you would gladly be formless in his hands if it meant being close to him. For he was the moon to your tides, the wind to your waves, the earth that carved your path. He brought motion to your stillness, depth to your shallows." THIS IS SO PERFECTLY WRITTEN I AM IN TEARS, JUST THEM COMPLEMENTING AND DESTROYING EACH OTHER SIMULTANEOUSLY, SO BEAUTIFUL AND DESTRUCTIVE AND DREADFUL IN THIS LOVE AND POWER

"Just as you were about to let go, a shrill ringing filled the car, making you shutter for a second. Satoru's phone, connected to the car's Bluetooth system, lit up the dashboard with an incoming call." 😭😭😭 THAT WAS SOOO OUT OF MOMENT

"You wanted to die right then and there." i think everyone would do (except dr. handsome)

"Next weekend would be fine. I trust you can spare us a few hours out of your busy schedule of debauchery and disrespect?" DEBAUCHERY AND DISRESPECT 😭😭😭😭 he's just a silly goofy cutie patootie 🥺💝

"You think I'd let you go alone to your parents?" the party is cancelled me thinks, but another "wonderful" weekend for satoru and s&c reader! i really am afraid.

ahhhh thank you so so much for your incredible message !! 😭😭😭 your words mean the world to me <33

i've read it yesterday while my boyfriend was cooking and i was smiling like a idiot at your message ahaha. he asked me what i was smiling at and i was like, you wouldn't understand lol.

didn't think the chapter would be such a rollercoaster for you, bc apparently not much was happening haha, expect like 8k words of car smut help. and omg, you don't know how much it means to me that you're saying i improve with every chapter :''))

i'm really trying to make the story better and better and learn a lot while writing it and it really means so much to me that it shows kinda ?? ahhh i'm so happy rn. you make my whole day, believe me <33

and yes satoru was so soft in this chapter, it's truly heartbreaking to write him in so much pain but also reader but ahhh i'm so weak for this trope of both being like on the verge of collapse but still do everything possible to at least make the other feel loved and happy :''))

am i'm so sorryyy for making u cry !!! ahhh kinda happy that the story touches you on such a level, but still !!! take care girl <33

and i'm so happy that i kinda got the complicated feelings for reader right ?? like i was rewriting her inner monologue parts again and again and was always like, this doesn't make sense but then again, these feelings are so complicated and often define rationality so it kinda fits that they are all messy and over. ahhh just so so happy that you got that characterization right, with just her bursting out all that pend up frustration !! that was really what i was going for <33

can't wait to write that FAMILY DINNER ahahha. that's gonna be so much delicious angst for me to write *evil laughter* <33

STOP THIS I AM BEGGING SUGURU JUST DON'T WHYYY AND IT'S ONLY THE BEGGING OF THE CHAPTER I AM SCARED

and omg, suguru is so hurt even from s&c perspective now wait until we see that scene from his perspective *more evil laughter*

gojo, everything she does turns you on, who are you trying to fool 🙄

lol this made me laugh out loud ahahah

the way they are both SO stubborn and it's always a battle of minds and wills with each other between them ❤️ absolutely love this dynamic

yeesss !! i also love that dynamic so much <33

the truth is (for me personally) he's both to her, not that i find it this bad (after all we will have a happy ending....will we, nici?..) and this is such a beautiful and all consuming form of self destruction 😩😩😩

the "will we, nici?" 😭😭😭 yes of course !!! idk why u question that all the time ?? everything fine, right ??? *evil laughter returns* but yeah, really the self destruction is just ahhhh, i love it, i probably shouldn't but i can't help it :'))

maybe dr. handsome should come along as well, though ANOTHER violent beating either naoya or satoru's bank account won't survive

girl you make so funny comments i can't 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 but hmmmm maybeeee something is cooking !!

i really am shattered and teary eyed at these words. left speechless.

😭😭❤️❤️

THIS IS SO PERFECTLY WRITTEN I AM IN TEARS, JUST THEM COMPLEMENTING AND DESTROYING EACH OTHER SIMULTANEOUSLY, SO BEAUTIFUL AND DESTRUCTIVE AND DREADFUL IN THIS LOVE AND POWER

hahaha i'm SO GLAD u liked the water metaphor, i was so proud at myself for writing it lol.

thank you again for leaving me this lovely message and giving me insights of your reading experience, i'll forever cherish these messages and come back to them, really :'')) <33 hope you have a wonderful week and something good happens to you on the weekend, i'm manifesting that for you !! <33

[zepskies]

I just have to say, genuinely everything in the BMD-verse is some of the best stuff I’ve ever read, BMD has managed to climb it’s way up to being one of my all time favorite fics that I could endlessly re-read and I can’t thank you enough for that. It was so well written and so many subtle details went into making the word feel so real, to the point where I truly felt immersed in the plot and could clearly visualize everything in my head. This fic made me laugh, cry, and had me on the edge of my seat wanting to read more to see where everything went with these two. Reading it helped brighten my day when I wasn’t having the best one. Also I don’t think I’ve ever loved OC’s quite as much as I absolutely love Frank and Loco, you put so much world building and detail into this fic and it really shows so beautifully, you were able to encapsulate the personalities of each character so well, down to the little details in how they react to certain situations or things they’d be likely to say, all while still giving your OC’s just as much depth and personality, you even executed the character arcs so realistically and it was done so damn well. This fic truly felt like a masterpiece and I am so grateful that you decided to create it, so genuinely thank you!

Okay, I didn't expect to cry today but you managed it, lovely Anon. 🥹💚

I've actually been going through a roughish time in my personal life, so you sent me this amazing note at the perfect time...

I'm having a hard time forming actual words right now, but I'm so happy that Break Me Down has become one of your favorite stories, and most of all that it helped brighten your day when you weren't feeling so hot. I definitely have my comfort stories, books, movies as well.

I genuinely put my heart and soul into BMD from conception, to outlining, to writing and editing each chapter. Even now I look at those 19 chapters and can't believe it's something I actually wrote. I'm just a sucker for a redemption story, and after SB's character hooked me, something crazy told me that he should get his chance to become a real hero.

(Here are some more details you probably don't want/need to know about how BMD began. 😅):

After writing Checkerboard, @deans-spinster-witch knows, as I've credited her many times, but she encouraged me to write a "prequel" to expand on how SB might get to that level of character growth.

...And somehow, BMD became an "enemies to lovers" epic. 😂

Thank you also for loving Frank and Loco! I've said this before, but one of the best writing tips I've ever gotten about writing minor characters is this: Write them like they're the protagonists of their own stories.

Give them their own character arcs, however short or long, whether tragic or fulfilled, etc.

When they're in the scene, give them something important to do or say that furthers the plot.

If you can't name a character, 9/10, they probably don't need to be there.

Without both Frank and Loco, Ben and the reader wouldn't have made it through until the end. And those two (especially Frank) now live in my head alongside Ben and the reader and their ever-evolving story.

This fic truly felt like a masterpiece and I am so grateful that you decided to create it, so genuinely thank you!

Damn it, who's peeling onions?! 😭😭

You're so very welcome. 💚💚 It's an absolute pleasure to write for you guys, but also to express myself and get out these stories that live rent free in my head. 😘

(Btw: I totally respect that you're anonymous in my inbox, but feel free to comment on this and let me know who you are -- only if you feel comfortable! You absolutely made my day, hun. 💓)

[icanseethefuture333]

whats the tea on olivia rodrigo and taylor swift's "friendship"? 👀 how does olivia feel about her idol now, she had to pay 50% of royalties to her over song similiarities to cruel summer with deja vu

Is it just me who finds it problematic and weird how Olivia keeps getting caught in these copyright infringement scandals? Like girl how hard is it to give credit to someone or pay for the sampling 😭???

Taylor Swift & Olivia Rodrigo, friends or foes?:

Lmfao this is so dramatic but I had a vision of Olivia being hysterical and crying saying "Our friendship is over 😡😭!!!". She's really taking it to heart and feels this was a personal attack on her, when that it is not the case. To Taylor, this is just business, and she felt that she was being disrespected by someone who was supposedly her biggest fan. Taylor feels that she can be inspired by her, but it's not right for her to copy her. She questions how much of a "singer-songwriter" Olivia actually is. They are on really bad terms as of right now.

How does Taylor feel about Olivia?:

I feel that Taylor really appreciates the love and support that Olivia had given her all these years. She could see her younger self in Olivia and had high hopes for her. Taylor could of had possibly wanted to be her mentor? Or someone Olivia can depend on in the industry since she's seen the highs and lows of what the music business can do to people, especially Disney stars in particular. Taylor thinks what Olivia did was sneaky and could even think her behavior in general is very two faced. She believes Olivia acts as this sweet girl but then takes from other people to get what she wants or likes to take credit so she can get the praise. Once Taylor discovered the song similarities she deaded that shit immediately LMAO. Taylor did not care that Olivia idolizes her, she cares more about her craft more than anything, and will do whatever it takes to protect it. I heard "I worked hard for this, not you." (Period T.Swiftie!!! Go off T Swizzle 😂). She's not playing with Olivia fr. Taylor knew this situation would emotionally upset Olivia since she has such a strong attachment to her but she knows that she can't let her feelings get in the way of work. So Taylor had to do what was right and fight for justice. She feels guilty though and might reach out to her soon to try to patch things up. Taylor could be reading what people are saying about her on social media and after the court case, she feels like she needs to be alone to recover because disappointing someone so dear to her makes her upset. "It's either me or you, I have to choose me."

How does Olivia feel about Taylor?:

Olivia is absolutely distraught by this situation. She has looked up to Taylor for years and feels like the saying that "Don't meet your heroes because you'll be disappointed." is true, but I don't feel like that's what's really going on here. Taylor didn't do something to purposely go against Olivia and be spiteful towards her. It's just that she doesn't understand how serious this is. This is a business matter and a legal issue, you can't just graze over work just because you are friends with somebody. Olivia feels like since she is inspired by Taylor, that's why their songs are similar but she didn't actually intend to copy her. I am almost reminded of like those people on tiktok who promote themselves and caption their videos with "There's this new girl who sounds like Ariana Grande and blah blah her name is ___" Then it's their music and concept that looks and sounds the exact fucking same as the artist mentioned. It's really just a cheap and tacky tactic to gain more popularity. Being so "heavily" inspired by someone is problematic because you're not being yourself and you're copying off somebody's else's hard work. We don't need another Taylor Swift, we need to know who Olivia Rodrigo is. Olivia is being immature, she is still young so she is easily impressed by the fame, celebrities, etc, but if Olivia wants to make it in this business she really needs to grow up and find herself. She's in her 20s now and this is the age of self discovery. Olivia needs to find her own identity and learn about what makes her happy and what is her purpose as a musician. Otherwise this industry will chew her up and spit her out. As fast as she became famous, she will go downhill just as quickly if she doesn't get it together.

Could they be friends again? Were they ever truly friends?:

They were never really close friends because Olivia has this perception of Taylor that's not true to her. Olivia's view of Taylor could be really outdated. It's like a little girl who's missing her big sister. Taylor is not the same teenager with her curly hair and acoustic guitar anymore, she's a grown woman. So as much as they wanted to be close, it's just that Olivia can't get past her own assumptions of Taylor. With the Seven of Cups, their possibility of being friends is really up in the air. I honestly believe these two are going through some sort of karmic lesson right now. They are learning from each other about doing what's right. As much as Taylor is mad about what Olivia did, she is thinking of ways to reconcile with Olivia. Even though Olivia is in her feelings right now, she really misses her. So maybe in the future we could have hope and see if they will be on good terms again.

Channeled song: Do You Want To Build A Snowman? From Frozen ❄️⛄️ (Aw this is actually so sad, help me LOL 😭)

"Elsa?"

"Do you want to build a snowman?

Come on, let's go and play!

I never see you anymore

Come out the door

It's like you've gone away

We used to be best buddies

And now we're not

I wish you would tell me why!

Do you want to build a snowman?

It doesn't have to be a snowman"

"Go away, Anna 😔..."

"Okay, bye 🥺😞"

[the-irrelevant-trumpeter]

OKAY PERCY JACKSON SERIES THOUGHTS REAL QUICK not in any particular order just what my brain is spewing

(spoilers obviously)

okay so like. it was so good. screaming crying throwing up like!!!!

walker leah and aryan are all excellent and i'm so excited to see them throughout the rest of the show

special shoutout to leah because in these first two eps she's had a lot less screentime than the other two and yet she has completely stolen the show for me

forgot that jason mantzoukas is in this and got jumpscared lmao

the car and then minotaur scenes would have been really good if i had been able to see them

i feel like i was expecting luke's scar to be bigger. this isn't a complaint or anything, just an observation.

"NO I AM SALLY JACKSON'S SON" slayed so hard like i screameddd

percy praying to his mum <3333 there's one thing percy jackson will do and that is think of his mum as a goddess

also HIM BURNING THE JELLYBEANS 😭😭😭

also also him telling his mum that he really feels like he's made friends when you know he's talking about luke is TRAGIC oh no the final episode is going to be sooo good and so heartbreaking. oof.

i really REALLY liked virginia kull as sally, but a lot of the dialogue in her scenes felt a bit clunky to me. idk i know they need exposition and all that, but some of it felt a bit weird. especially their conversation right before she was killed

okay i know a few people in the tag have already talked about this, but sally and gabe felt a little off to me. i know the posts i've seen have said that they downplayed how completely and utterly awful gabe is, and while i do think it was downplayed a little bit, he was still bad enough that i didn't feel like that was a major issue. the part that didn't feel quite right to me was the way sally argued back at him. i feel like what she says to him is kind of what the audience should WANT her to say (because gabe's a dick), but the point is that she doesn't say that, because sally jackson loves percy so damn much that she willingly endures that until she is able to get out of that situation. i swear i'm not going to be like "tHiS iSnT hOw iT iS iN tHe bOoK" much, because it's an adaptation and it's going to have to make some changes and that's fine! but in the book, percy states that he's "never heard her raise her voice or say an unkind word to anyone, not even me or gabe" and keeps on emphasising how she constantly withstands gabe and doesn't move against him because of her love for percy, and i just feel like that's an important aspect of her character. also i feel like sally arguing back at gabe is going to make her finally killing him less impactful. and i think it probably also plays a part in gabe's assholery being downplayed. because the argument they have there feels much more like "oh we're so dysfunctional ha ha" instead of "this is an abusive household". you know what i mean? idk i get that it was meant to be a #girlboss moment, and a part of me was like "YEAH GET HIS ASS", but i do feel like that moment didn't serve sally's character as well, changed the dynamic of sally and gabe's relationship, and negatively affected the impact the story will have when percy gives her the means to get rid of gabe and she takes it. this is a very long dot point i'm sorry.

mr d pretending to be percy's dad was SO FUNNY

clarisse is too pretty (/pos), like i was barely paying attention in her scenes because i was literally there like "women <3" thank you dior goodjohn

"you fell in love with god... like jesus?" is a top tier line

i'm so sorry but i'm a "tah-lia" pronunciation truther and it will remain this way in my head

the cut to percy flossing in the woods killed me. like straight up killed me dead.

BLACKJACK BEING THE FIRST MAGICAL THING PERCY SEES!!! THEY'RE GOING TO BE BESTIES!!!

these are all of the thoughts i have atm, and despite my more negative thoughts here, my feelings are almost completely positive (my excitement is less coherent than my criticisms, so i didn't write about them as much). i'm really excited to see the rest of the episodes!

[azrielsdove]

Hi thank you for writing my cass x reader request🥺❤❤ I am absolutely crying at the moment with the anguish I have received!!! Don't touch me, please!

I don't even know where to begin to rate 'Longing', other than to say that I loved the angst and the plot. I've read it, re-read it and so far I'm at a loss for words(??)😭🤧

The reader looking at Cassian and Nestha's interaction, not knowing how to hide her emotions and suffering hurt me, but if she doesn't know how to hide it, other people in the Inner Circle could see her feelings for Cassian, yes? But it also makes me wonder how Cassian wouldn't see it too if it were that obvious, or would he. Which makes me have several hypotheses ☝️

Azriel said that he might have been jealous of the reader when Cassian confronted her about her supposed relationship with him, but that may or may not be🗣 At first I thought it might be that, but then it came to me that he might feel hurt by her and Az hid it from him. But then again, he went after her not only when she left dinner, but also when she got hurt and found the two of them hugging and the rude way he talked about Az and her being together and why would that happen, if not out of jealousy? I could classify these as signs of something more, but then Nestha comes in. And then my theory doesn't quite hold up, because his reactions when the reader talked about Nestha left me with a flea in my ear, them flirting at dinner and especially the two of them almost fucking in the library. It seems Cassian is confused. I'm so 😭😭😭🤔

The only comfort I found was Azriel being the best friend anyone could have. Him taking care of her when she got hurt, the affectionate way she referred to him, him wanting to know if she was okay, him supporting her in her unrequited love and taking care of the reader💖💖🥺

Az >>>>>>>

A friendship so, so, so beautiful!!!

I saw the comments left and it makes me wonder if there will be a part two(?), because girl… that ending left me wanting a continuation. On the one hand, it could be the reader being enough for herself and showing much more of her friendship with Azriel. On the other hand, I saw a comment with the possibility of Az being with her and I was like 'wow! that would be interesting!'. I'm still hurt by Cassian on behalf of our dear reader, especially, after the last scene!!! Or maybe an Azriel point of view? I feel he'll know a lot more than we see from the reader's point of view. What prompted me to ask for the second one was, the last sentence regarding the mating bond.

I was like, "Is Cassian her mate?", but then another question comes in, which is, you didn't specify if it's really Cassian. Some crazy part of me thought it might even be Az, the bond that way because he sees the reader suffering for someone else. I need answers!

But ☝️ don't feel obliged to write a sequel, although I'd love to. I just have to thank you for this wonderful fanfic! Thank you so much!!!🥺☝️💖💖

i am SO GLAD you liked it !!!!! i love all the points you’ve brought up, you definitely noticed a few little things i sprinkled in there. i wasn’t originally planning a pt.2 bc i didn’t know if people would want one, but i do have an idea of what will happen!! i actually wrote this out longer and planned for a more final ending but decided it was more fun to leave it like this 🫣

i am obsessed with best friend Az in this. he’s a real one for our girl haha. Cassian is definitely missing some key things, and I do agree that other points of view would really clear up the situation. i have lots of ideas for pt.2!

[agirlwithglam]

Hey, Vanilla!💕

I'm having a problem at school. I'm already in the final stretch of this school year and I have a bit of an idea what's going on. There was this guy in my class I was with for almost a month, and it was really intense, my feelings for him. Everything seemed perfect between us, but after a few weeks, he just seemed to want to run away from me. He'd say he liked me, but then say the problem was him, and it was clear he had emotional baggage. I tried talking to him about it, but it seemed like he didn't want to fix things; he always dodged me.

I could tell you many other things that happened, but I don't want to drag it out. Okay, so we drifted apart, but I always held onto the hope he'd come back and we'd work things out (I feel silly now for thinking that back then). Then, one day, he just showed up, dating another girl (found out through a friend). I felt uneasy when I heard, like I'd been used, just another conquest for him. But, even upset, I moved on.

But then on Monday, he started attending classes again (he rarely went due to work). I can't stand his presence; being around him makes me anxious, to the point my hands shake like I'm freezing all day. Honestly, all I feel when he's near is disgust. My friend gets mad at him because she knows what he did and how he still checks me out when I'm distracted (she keeps me posted). I try to ignore it, but can't focus on my tasks.

I've only shared this with one friend because I feel like she understands me best. I'm telling you this because I want to know how to deal with this situation. Transferring schools isn't an option since I'm almost done with the year, as I mentioned earlier, and switching classrooms isn't possible either (I spend the whole afternoon in the same classroom 😭 because, in Latin America, we don't have different classrooms and materials for each subject).

I don't want to talk to him because being near him makes me nauseous, and I've already tried that when we were closer. The worst part is how calm he seems, like he's unaffected; it makes me angry, and I feel like crying – I can't explain it. Please, help me out Vanilla 😓

(Sorry for my bad English 🥹)

hi princess 💓

ok first of all, i need you to realise and understand that you deserve better. you understand? this boy obviously has some problems which are HIS. its not your job to help or save him okay? especially if he's treating you like this.

also honey, cry. just let it out. let yourself get super upset and tear up papers. embrace this part of being a girl.

and also, distract yourself. i know he's in your class and it feels like he's just in your face, as if trying to flaunt the fact that "he doesn't care", but guess what? it's none of your business! whether he cares or not, ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.

what you need to do is put your head down and focus on your own life. your friends, family, health, mindset, grades, career, future, YOURSELF. okay?

also one more thing, heal. maybe theres a part of you that relates or something which makes you feel so angry and emotionally intense around him. idk, im not a therapist or psychiatrist or anything but it might help to speak to a professional or search something up on a trustworthy website.

also off topic but your english? its so good i felt like i was reading a literal story/ book.

i apologise it isnt a lot to go on but i figured that it would be better for me to at least give you something bc if i left it in my drafts im afraid i may not get to it in a whiiiiiiiile.

xoxo, vanilla <3 keep shining!

[reds-skull]

Hi I’m the work anon from earlier

Wow your revenant fic was amazing! I’m so glad I got to read it from start to finish and watch as your story grew and took shape

I adored Soap and Gaz’s friendship but I also adored how Ghost trusted and was friends with him too especially when he asked him for advice! 😭 (there’s so little of their friendship the fandom and it sucks ) Price was best dad and deserves all the hugs (and cigars for dealing with his sons squad every day) Rudy and Alejandro (and the vaqueros) were adorable and had the 141 backs from the start, they were ready to throw down! Grave’s got what he deserved I hated him in this fic so much (great job) he was such a smug smarmy bastard until the end. Farah and Alex were so sweet they were like the favourite cousins that got roped into the family drama (I still want Fahra to BITE shepherd you know as a treat!) Laswell knows things and is scary she will happily help people reach the find out portion of their fucking around.

The reapers were so cool!!!! Especially with how they combined I was not expecting that, was legit shooketh (I now imagine limbo as a pitch black ocean full of burning stars (I also have a couple questions regarding it I would like to asked later please?)) Soap’s reaper was warm and kind Ghost’s was cold and clinical together they’re so much more?!?! Like it’s poetic there the best version of themselves together (like ghoap)

Speaking of ghoap they’re so in love it’s sickening all I could imagine during the vows was Price “listening in” and then getting Laswell to hand the boys a bloody wedding certificate so sweet 😭

Thank you for putting in the time and effort to create something so beautiful for so many people have a lovely day or night you deserve a break after all of that hard work!

And with all my admiration fuck you for making me cry (again)

Hello work anon! Hope it went easy haha

I feel like there's a few versions of Ghost headcannons floating out there, one is basically "the man believes he's broken beyond repair, he doesn't think he's human, all he does is focus on work" and the other is "yeah he went through really fucked up shit, but he holds himself together pretty well, and while it's hard for him to find someone he trusts, the people close to him are priceless."

I like both versions, but this time I went for the latter. I love love love Ghost and Gaz as friends (mw4 please give me them interacting), and you can see that in my comics as well lol.

I made Graves such a little bitch that everyone hates from the start lmao.

I didn't plan for Rudy and Ghost to interact that much if I'm honest, but because Soap wasn't the POV and I wanted to have the Vaqueros more prominently in the story (it does take place mostly in Las Almas after all), Rudy's initial reaction to Ghost's mask was the perfect opening for a deeper friendship.

Farah and Alex weren't too active, if I make a sequel, I think I'll make it focused on the situation in Urzikstan. Farah deserves to take her own revenge and get her happy ending...

I love your description of Limbo, especially because I mentioned in the fic that Ghost loves seeing the stars, because it's the first thing he saw after he was Reaped (and now Soap created stars for him in the void).

I'd love to hear your questions!

Ghost and Soap, like someone else commented, are practically married on all levels beside legal lmao. I never planned for them to be so fuckin' whipped for each other tbh, like the vows at the start were not planned at all. I just looked up Celtic wedding vows, and it was literally so perfect for them ("I give ye my Body, that we Two might be One./I give ye my Spirit, ’til our Life shall be Done."? Couldn't fit more to their story), I just had to add it.

Thank you for reading and commenting! I wish this break was voluntary, but my semester is ending in 3 weeks and I have many projects to finish, so I have to prioritize that for a while T_T

[campgender]

ROY KENT? toxic masculinity-roy fuckin kent? oh hell nah, sorry in advance, this is gonna be long, you just jinxed yourself mentioning that. ;_; whoever said that did NOT watch enough of that boy because his masculinity is beautiful and there's genuinely nothing toxic about it at all. like, we did not watch him suck all his bitchiness up to have a relationship with his girl just for him to get called toxic. not to mention...

FIRST on my list of his display's of butchness: this is Roy "I gave my girlfriend head while she watched a video of me crying my head off" fuckin Kent! Y'all are not gonna pin him for toxic masculinity, c'mon. If that ain't the most butch-ass shit I've ever heard of...

SECOND: I'd put a lot more weight into the suggestion of toxic masculinity if he'd stayed the way he'd been at the beginning of the show but this is a man who grew a fuck-ton even in just the first couple episodes, not to mention throughout the show (which I haven't finished).

He's not a bully, which is surprising for such a hyper-masculine character. Hair as far as the eye can see, with a beard, furry thighs and arms, a low growly voice-But for all his swearing and other foul language, he isn't a bully. He doesn't pretend, he says no, and he sets clear boundaries, but even with children who he has loads of power over, he's very careful to never cross the line into bullying. He jokes, clearly knowing the children, barking orders and playing ball. He has a niece and even though he doesn't understand the book wrinkle in time, he reads it to her and only after getting three quarters through does he go to ted to demand what the fuck its supposed to be about.

THIRD: the way sometimes he looses speech and yet he STILL. FUCKING. COMMUNICATES. beautiful. Which rolls straight into FOUR, which is the way he communicates! He's very clear, very blunt, obviously. But its not just that. Its how as we get to know Roy Kent, more and more, we see how when he gets overwhelmed or annoyed, he often steps back from the situation so that he doesn't blow his temper at someone he likes or someone who doesn't deserve it...which is very, dare I say it? chivalrous! Its not a word you think when you think of roy kent, but he is! He's chivalrous! He isn't quite comfortable around rebecca, think of early season 2, but when he sees she needs it, he tells her she deserves the goddamn world in a partner, not just "fine", and he didn't tell her that because he had to! Keeley would've left it and he could've gotten away with a minimal answer. He told her because she deserved to hear it and he knew that and he's a fucking kind person!

just like that time at the end of season 1 when he and keeley were photographed by that man and he stole the photos and then handed them to keeley and gave the man back his camera. he could've smashed the fuckin camera. he's exactly the type of person to smash the camera! but he didn't. why? because they cost a shit-ton of money and because he wanted keeley to have photos of their first date. ;_; its called CHIVALRY. which. is. BUTCH. AS. FUCK. need i go on?

roy kent's masculinity is beautiful, it's a joy to behold, it's butch as hell, thank you, i hope you don't mind me dropping an essay in your askbox, sorry abt that.

OH SHIT YOU HAVEN’T FINISHED IT. you haven’t seen what they did to my bestie in the finale 😭😭 how they MALIGNED his NAME — if you do watch it come hmu though bc holy shit am i still livid.

anyway. yes to all of this!!!!! especially how he communicates while also losing speech <3333 i get so fucking upset every time someone calls him repressed bc like. he literally isn’t!!! he’s very aware of & in touch with his emotions!!!!!!!!!! what he is is stoic & it’s bc 1) he’s autistic 2) y’all are assholes. like. i feel like fucking crying every time i think about the scene in s1 when he’s just been benched: keeley’s excited but kind of impatient “oh, so you are ready to talk about real stuff now!!” and the way it makes it seem like a bad thing for him to need some time to process. & then her really sarcastic & dismissive response when he says how scared he is of losing what the entire fucking country has made his sole identity:

I think men that feel sorry for themselves are so sexy. And if you start telling me how hard it is that you play a game for a living, I think I might come.

i see fucking red!!!!!!! the show multiple times (including in the finale) belittles his feelings and/or throws away his characterization and then treats that like a #Feminist moment. & like in the previous example, yeah keeley prompts phoebe to say how she sees roy & that’s a sweet moment, but keeley never actually apologizes or says how she sees or thinks of roy outside of sex.

& then in s3 honestly his apology letter to her made me feel ill. like there’s a difference between owning your shit — which i do think she deserved an apology for him breaking up with her out of nowhere — and saying everything is your fault. that’s not growth, that’s still self-hatred. and like i understand keeley was going through a lot but i don’t think it was fair to him for him to confess his love & her fuck him while like. presumably knowing she doesn’t want to get back together.

i’m also so fucking livid about the show comparing roy and FUCKING RUPERT????? in that scene, again for some sort of shallow #GirlBoss moment. fuck that fuck the writers fuck like most of the fan attitudes i’ve seen.

also the way the “roy is sorry for not understanding keeley” scene is played — yeah, he should’ve communicated better, but she just started yelling at him out of nowhere & revealed she’d been complaining about him being clingy to all their colleagues. and she never apologizes for not talking to him sooner & her bottling her feelings until she exploded at him???? instead he apologizes for doing….. something she’d never told him she had a problem with.

i’m working on a fic about this aspect but the show has no fucking sympathy for his becoming disabled and it’s so transparent. obviously ted lasso in general is really bad at acknowledging systemic issues — “just be a goodfish!!” :))) — it’s a liberal show & you should overcome adversity by individual work ie therapy & forgiving your oppressors. but like there’s literally no acknowledgment after that scene when he gets shut down by keeley in s1 of how ableism affects roy’s self-image.

as a disabled person whose mobility impairment started with a knee issue in sports, i also think the show did a fucking shit job with his disability in general. like they played it for a laugh — you might not have watched 3x11 yet so feel free to skip this paragraph but “i played injured all the time / you can’t go up stairs!!” followed by jamie still playing injured to, what, make a point about forgiveness?? shows how fucking seriously they took that, and roy was walking up stairs earlier in that very episode.

similarly, “everybody run to the bus… except roy!” earlier in s3 was an emotional moment for me bc like oh they’re acknowledging how this affects his life!! …..and then they showed him running (on pavement!!!) with jamie all the fucking time. like sure not every knee issue is the same as mine, okay, whatever, but either be consistent or throw in a line about him having a good day today or something. jesus fucking christ it’s so ableist & careless & disrespectful.

anyway my hot take is that as they’re written, keeley & roy shouldn’t be together not because, as brenden fucking hunt put it, “he has work he needs to do on himself first,” but because she doesn’t respect him & fundamentally you can’t make compromises with people who think how you are is wrong.

i do really like keeley especially in s1, i think a lot of this is fuck-ups on the writers’ parts that keeley were she a real person either wouldn’t have done or would’ve apologized for. but as it’s written? fucking yikes.

anyway that got really off track from your thoughts lol but i absolutely adored reading this, it was a delight & i would love to hear more any time 💓💓💓