#all the feels goddamnit
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As someone who lived in a home where it was not safe to be queer but their first love was their same-sex best friend, I really cannot emphasize the importance of characters like Charles Rowland enough. As someone who deals with shame from years of self-hate, repression, happy-masking, and being called a "Token ally" by even my queer friends while feeling wrong wrong wrong about it, and being the kind of person who just didn't "Look queer enough" or whatever the fuck arbitrary, exclusionist rhetoric people would casually hurl about, I just really can't believe we have a character like him.
He's complex and deeply scarred and I've never cared about a character like this before. I've never felt so "Seen." I can't wait to save this show because seeing him heal will be like a balm on my heart. His character arc is completely unique and handled with such care that it brings tears to my eyes.
That's all. I am just so deeply thankful for & emotional about Charles Rowland tonight.
#I'm not commenting on any of the Payneland panic because I stg if one more person treats his trauma and pain as a background story#that doesn't deserve screentime in favor of rushing him into ANY relationship so help me god I will lose my shit#Let him 'Figure the rest out' goddamnit! It's hard being an abused child out here! We do not feel like we deserve love okay? Let him realiz#he DOES deserve love. Edwin got a whole season to figure his shit out Charles deserves the same damn#No Charles Rowland hate in my house. No straight Charles 'lads lad' truthers I'm done with it!!! I won't be having it!#oh for the record I ship Payneland like a motherfucker. They are the ship of all time and very obviously endgame#anyway GO STREAM DEAD BOY DETECTIVES#save dead boy detectives#dead boy detectives#dbda#charles rowland#dbda netflix#the dead boy detectives#the dead boy detective agency
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appreciation for the sheer melancholic fondness in wilson’s gaze at house during what he knows is the last normal interaction they’ll ever have; during the final comparatively trivial rant in which they don’t both have to pretend the world isn’t collapsing beneath their feet
#ITS SO FORLORN GODDAMNIT#it’s the way that he waited a few minutes just to savour the normalcy of it all#acting like his eyes aren’t glazed over as house jibes about hooker innuendos#rsl has to be a sociopath I swear because if this was ME acting out this shakespearen ahh tradgedy…. I would never recover#would literally have to move into the forest in order to contemplate the inevitability of all good things coming to an end#I’m juiced up if you can’t tell. and feeling TOTALLY normal about these fictional middle aged men.#house md#greg house#gregory house#hilson#james wilson#hatecrimes md#house/wilson#robert sean leonard
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It's a collection honestly
#i feel like im missing something but i cant place it. goddamnit#starkid#i am not tagging all of that. fuck off
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#hell boys on their demon bike#where are they goin what are they doin#ts4#sims 4#double post today sorry#edits#i hope the quality doesn't go to dog shit when i post this#its so crisp in the drafts but i feel like it'll be all fuzzy on the dash#it looks so bad on mobile goddamnit please click it#it was fun to make i wanna do more!!!
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“you don’t know the first thing about piracy. it’s not about glory, it’s about belonging to something.”
– our flag means death (2022 - ?)
sources: 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈 | ☠️🏴☠️☠️ | 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈
#LISTEN. LISTEN. I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT THIS QUOTE AND THIS SHOW RN BUT IM SO ARTBLOCKED SO I HAD TO EXPRESS IT ALL SOMEHOW.#SO NOW YOU HAVE THIS. PLEASE TAKE IT.#UNFORTUNATELY THE CONCEPT OF ‘queer joy and community but specifically for pirates’ IS A BIT OF A TRICKY THING TO CONDENSE INTO A FEW GIFS#BUT I TRIED MY BEST GODDAMNIT#*grabs you forcefully by the lapels* I HAVE SOOOOOO MANY FEEELINGGGGGSSS. I LOVE THIS SHOWWWW. WE ARE SO FUCKING BACK BABY.#ok ok let me tag things properly before I explode#stimboard#ofmd#our flag means death#queer#lgbtq#ocean#water#guitar#instruments#sunset#kiss#kissing#stim board#my boards#personal boards#orange#pink#purple#rainbow#yes literally only one character plays an instrument. yes I still put the guitar in.#I couldn’t find any more rainbow gifs I liked for this ok#also the Jim + olu gif cropped horribly but I could NOT fucking resist putting it in there I’m OBSESSED w that clip 😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺🥺#they…
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you posted 2 isat comics and i need to know. how many isat fans flocked to the follow button.
40! is wild.
people are very excited in isat!!
#i love their tags so much#my favorite so far was this one ---->#this is so FUCKED UP we should all d(remembers i asked for this) fuck. fuck goddamnit. i hate it here#but most people ramble in the tags. Be it the about their theories of how the au would work/make sif suffer or their feelings on my art#is really cool really sweet#what a nice place so far
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Every time I try to write lately, I just can't get anywhere with it :/ I can string words together but they feel empty. Events happen, but what story are they even telling? There's no emotion, no depth, so substance at all. I just can't make anything that's about or says anything at all and idk why :/
#it's starting to get really frustrating#I've got 3 wips that are all different stuff that I keep coming back to and none of them are going anywhere#it's like there's no substance to any of it#the events feel soulless and empty#what am I even saying with anything that happens#'oh this story is about intimacy' where's the intimacy then bitch#like yeah they're touching but like what's intimate about it where's the emotions#goddamnit I just want to make something and I just can't#like maybe I could make something that's shit and soulless but I don't want that I want it to be good#and I keep trying and trying every week and I get nowhere with it and then I'm like :/ well fuck now I don't know what to do with myself#and then the bad feels get worse cause the thing that's supposed to make me feel better isn't working and I can't manage to actually do it#ffs#idk what to do but sometimes complaining helps so I'm trying that lmao#who knows maybe it'll help#shut up nerd#text#misc
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Hey there, are you ok?
hey! thank you for checking up on me, this was really sweet!
i SWEAR i did not die. i just got a bit busy doing SladeRobin Week (which i will finish so help me god-) as well as things in my real life. i'm still trying to find the balance of like. fandom creation and working. i am very lucky to have the living situation that i do rn, but it is the sort of schedule where i do have to be ready to watch a baby at really any given point so. it's a tricky balance right now, but i'm going to be active here again! maybe not as many asks answered a day as before, but i want to try to answer like, a few a day and whatnot.
i also think i got briefly overwhelmed, in that i got more asks faster than i answered them. which is the opposite of a problem and something i'm very lucky for! but it did make it difficult for me to keep up and know what to answer next. (this is *not* a discouragement to sending asks! i love them all and pls send as many as you want! i just am a little slow sometimes so i appreciate the patience! <3)
so! i'm back and i'm good, ty for asking! we are back to the regularly scheduled programming <3
#necrotic answerings#this was really sweet anon#like not asking for content. just checking in#made me so soft#also when I initially was going to come back there was you know.#the fucking us election.#and I think it's very fucking clear by the everything about me how I feel about that#I needed a few days to just. handle feelings on all that#also also I started a new show. my partner finally convinced me to watch 911.#so i've been thinking about those lil firefighters.#which. I did make a blog for 911.#haven't posted anything yet! but I made it.#bc godDAMNIT the dead dove scene over there is scarce. fandom full of antis Jesus.#I like a challenge tho. I'm bringing the dead dove to the firefighters not even god can stop me on that one.#I have almost 100 asks to work through.#AND I WILL FINISH THE WHUMP ONES I SWEAR ON MY LIFE PLEASE.#I just had a few weeks of adjustment to both my sister and my brother in law working full time again#I love my darling nephew. but I cannot type and play with him at the same time.#taking care of babies is like. easy until it isn't idk how better to explain it#he will sleep for 4 damn hours and I will be peacefully bored#then he wakes up and wants to fight Jesus.#I don't like kidfic but I could write a good one with this experience by now tbh.
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hello lmk fandom!!! anyone got some good shadowpeach fic recs?
im asking bc even after a lot of filtering, i still come across wukong/azure or wukong/peng or wukong/tripatika or extremely evil macaque, or even deadbeat dad macaque, and thats fine if you like it, its just not my own personal jam yk?
so yeah, shadowpeach, established or not, exes or almost exes or not, just as long as they are lovers again or headed in that direction!
#these two were in it for the long haul in ways that. might not have been the healthiest at times. but goddamnit they took#obsessed to another level#i just dont ship wukong/azure or wukong/person who isnt macaque. which is funny as hell cause i can multiship usually but smth abt shadowpea#has me going like genuinely i cannot wrap my head around wukong looking at someone who isnt himself or macaque#which is v real of him. and i feel like macaque too was codependent and didnt glance at anyone but wukong. so they missed all those other s#gnals and were cool with that#shadowpeach#lego monkie kid#lmk#lmk macaque#six eared macaque#sun wukong#monkey king#lego monkey kid macaque
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"What a blatant attempt to demonize and vilify Boxtrolls, all in the name of some twisted, anti-cardboard agenda. As if we don't have enough of this false rhetoric nonsense polluting our media landscape already. What, do you, so called "artists" think you're being politically correct by portraying Boxtrolls as these grotesque, monstrous creatures? 😒 It's nothing but a cheap ploy to appeal to the basest instincts of their cheese-eating, imperialist audience.
And the way they've chosen to depict this poor creature: all twisted and distorted, with those haunting, soulless yellow eyes, it's just a blatant attempt to strip away the inherent dignity and worth of our fellow sentient beings, my family. As if they're nothing more than mindless, savage beasts to be feared. Reported."
#READ THESE TAGS!!!!#the text is modified from a comment left by a seemingly very angry rage-baiter on flipanim.com#commenting on my last drawing saying it “was speciesist to convey a wolf as creepy”#completely ignoring the fact that the drawing was of a WEREWOLF and it was VENT ART#so my best buds and I said “Hey wouldn't it be funny if we turned this into a copypasta or something”#so its our new#inside joke#posts for my bf#posts for my bff#posts for all my bffs#copypasta#the “Propaganda Boxtroll” style was really fun to imitate#the boxtrolls#boxtrolls#HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE TURNED INTO A COPYPASTA#laika fanart#eggs trubshaw#fanart#ITS BOXTROLL ANNIVERSARY MONTH!!! ITS BEEN 10 YEARS EVERYONE GO DRAW THOSE CUBES#LAIKA DOESNT THINK WE LOVE THIS MOVIE GODDAMNIT#I'm actually only mildly irritated by the fact#that's why I'm writing an analysis on the film#also can ya tell I gave up with the background lol#I don't care#crowfish scribbles
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Porcelain BJD Artists Stop Photographing Your Dolls In Highly Specific Lighting Conditions That Hide A Feature Buyers Might Want To Know About, Like Over-The-Top Blushing Or Eyes So Glossy The Doll Looks On The Verge Of Tears At All Times
Challenge
#personal#dolls#doll collecting#goddamnit this keeps happening#(yes the doll arrived and yes she's beautiful but. she looks despondent. all. the. time.)#(I'm pondering what to do about this- maybe she'll grow on me? I just. I don't want to feel like I've failed somehow when I look at my doll
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i always see birthdays as a second chance at new years resolutions so. heres mine: i want to be a person
i want to go and do things and have fun, i want to leave the house without panic, i want to speak to people, i want to make new friends, i want to make art, to sew, to write (a little), to create, i want to laugh and play and feel fully and truly alive, i want to learn to drive, i want to stop caring what other people think of me, i want to be. i want to do the things i always did want to do, but was too scared to.
we're all gonna die, if we dont start living.
#sorry i am once again being dramatic i just#i want to be so much more than i am#and i think i just. have to try#maybe itll drive me completely into the ground#but i want to feel JOY goddamnit#im already being exhausted by not trying. i have to try#nyxtalks#anyway idk what this looks like in practice#booking my other trips for this year i guess#finally sorting out driving lessons#it all terrifies me to hell. but not changing is no better#one way or another. this time next year i will have spent my birthday with friends. i will.
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For almost a year I was relatively happy with my appearance. Whenever there was anything I didn't like about the way I looked I'd catch myself by looking at my hair and loving the cut and colour of it. It didn't make the feelings of insecurity go away but it kept me from focusing on what I was unable to change at that moment.
On Friday someone close to me pointed out the similarities between me and my (abusive) mother in the context of a conversation, ending up saying that it had never suited my mother and "then you had to go and get the same cut/colour". When I said I actually thought my mother always looked really good with it they made a face.
I have a similar haircut as my mother but not the same one by a mile. The commonality is simply that it's a short hairstyle and dyed in a shade of red.
I chose this for myself because it simply suited my face the best and because I always wanted to have red hair since I was little (I've been chopping my hair off since 8th grade, trying to find the best look for myself and the last cut was the natural next step)
My friend has told me before that she liked my chin-long blonde hair with the highlights the best and that my red hair is simply not her cup of tea. That's fine because guess what IT'S MY HAIR. I'd like to take this moment to remind everyone reading this to keep their unasked opinions about other people's experiences, especially the ones that can't be changed in a matter of 5 minutes (like changing into a different outfit) to themselves.
Not only do I feel ugly now (because apparently I look like my mother, and this haircut looked so bad on her that it made people pull a face when I expressed my liking for it), but I also feel uncomfortable looking at myself in the mirror and imagining the person that always made me feel inadequate and inferior looking back at me.
Cheers!
#ok to rb#maybe it will teach some of you#don't know how to tag this#please just THINK before you talk#goddamnit#now i feel ugly with this haircut because these people said it#but i also feel like a wallflower with all the other styles i had before#so now what#thank you for making me go through every day hating what i look like again
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I rly like making gifs and I have ideas but I can’t help but feeling slightly demoralised abt my fav creative fandom activity when half of the fob fans on tumblr who might enjoy looking at them have me blocked and it keeps happening live crylaugh love
#god I feel like I complain about this all the time which makes me seem pathetic but it kind of still sucks even if I guess if I got blocked#for dumb reasons then sure I’m better off I suppose idk. but like man this fandom has slowly kept making me feel more :/ :/ bc of#this cliqueyness. I’m literally only trying to have fun and I believe in blocking absolutely.#feel like I have to reiterate that every time lol. but like … sad tigger looking back meme… ok…#BLAGH ANYWAY. Stan judasisgayriot she’s nice and chill and likes to make gifs goddamnit! lmao#anni rambles#it also makes me feel crazy. why do people I’ve followed for ages and/or mutuals keep randomly blocking me#is there someone telling ppl to block me when ppl reblog my stuff???#what sort of surveillance state is this?? joke. I’m joking. foblr panopticon is a joke. I hope#MAKES ANNI SAD THO
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oh my poor sick little man..... he has a bad fever :(
i've always had a soft spot for sickfics and i like seeing strong characters get taken care of by the ones who love them most :) craig is making him chicken noodle soup in the kitchen, barry's favourite meal to have whenever he's not feeling well.
bonus: earlier version with ripped sleeves
i liked the thought of him being all snug in the only piece of clothing he hasn't ripped so i drew the sleeves of his jammies because it was cuter :)
#barry steakfries#jetpack joyride#why does tumblr always compress my drawings grrrgrr#he is sikc :(#i feel like if barry got sick he'd be the type of guy to be like ''what! i'm not sick no waayyy haha''#and then die of a coughing fit immediately after#he'd be very grumpy about not being able to go jetpacking and having to stay at home all day#he'd be like ''what happened to watching cartoons when i was home sick!? this is so BORING''#and craig would be like ''there there its ok you'll live. go to bed barry''#also i love how barry canonically has homely cute flower blankets on his bed#i like to think he's kinda embarrassed by them because he always calls his home his 'secret hideout'#and always talks about how cool it is and whatnot and then you walk inside and it's just. comfy.#only craig knows about the cosier bits of his home he's too prideful to tell anyone else#craig thinks it's nice :)#wait tumblr fucking deleted the other tags i wrote goddamnit#barry would be like ''i'm not THAT sick! i don't need to be pampered! i'm a man i can do it!''#and then when craig drags him home he's like ''ehh... i'm dying craig..... craig tuck me in.....''#he's stubborn but he's a big softie :)#i like to think he doesn't like to ask for help because he feels like it's weak#but at the same time he knows he really needs help because he feels really sick#he may complain a lot and act all fussy but he doesn't resist to craig taking care of him#cause he knows he's gotta let his guard down every once in a while + he's too tired to do it#he's too proud to admit it but he likes being taken care of by craig every now and then :)#ahh how i love stubborn characters who just wanna be held...
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What I think everyone needs to understand is that EVERYONE has red flags because not all red flags point to danger.
A red flag means a symptom that is being displayed could potentially be caused by something dangerous. BUT it could also be caused by something benign. It is a warning to keep an eye on things, not a death sentence.
But some of y’all acting like people should never raise a red flag in their life are entirely unrealistic.
HOWEVER, in media, a red flag is a Chekhov’s Gun. If you point out that there is a gun in a piece of media, and you don’t fire it, why the fuck did you put the gun there in the first place. So if I see a fictional character who is given a red flag, but then the narrative never fires it or even acknowledge it, why the fuck was it there.
… anyways this post got away from me.
#ANOTHER SIDE NOTE#This is why a lot of kdramas or BL dramas can annoy me#because I love characters with red flags#but then you’ll go through the entire season and the writers will never fire the red flag#as in the red flag will enact and a consequence will occur to satisfy the justification of it being there in the first place#and then realize at the end the writers didn’t realize they put a red flag in#and then I feel left high and dry because they did the equivalent of starting a sentence and then never finishing it#MAKE THEM MESSY BUT THEN FOLLOW THROUGH WITH THE MESS GODDAMNIT#anyways this is also an#only friends the series#appreciation post#because all the characters have red flags because they’re human#but they’re also ensuring that they’re firing each and every one#and it’s SO SATISFYING THANK YOU JOJO#kdrama#Thai bl#BL drama#only friends#ofts
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