#all ppl are asking for is transparency like i said i know they talked about this more in their tour q&a but still it reads as insensitive

[manchesterau]

what is the problem with dan's tweet?

he could have worded it so much better, like do i think he's trying to make a sick joke and play with ppls feelings? no! i truly think they tried and face opposition (also their prompters suck) but he could have worded it sooo much better than he did

[lunas-side-anime-blog]

AOT Icks (Eren, Armin and Mikasa)

one thing about me: i am a hater

Eren

def has mommy issues and no woman could ever compare to her like good luck to any of his girlfriends lmao

^^ that being said, as a roommate he’s a nightmare like you can tell his mom cleaned up after him all the time because it doesn’t even occur to him to do so now

toxic gym bro who says shit like “we all have the same 24 hours”

def has the the 3 in 1 bottle in his shower, I just know it

prob calls women “females” 

the cringiest instagram captions like I know he will post sum: “I think my closet bi-polar, it keeps throwing fits💯”  like dude, get a grip

attempts thirst traps, he has a ripped body so it kinda works but the content is so transparent you can’t help but roll your eyes

go out to a bar with him or something and he’s the type to try to make everything a fight

like if someone bumps into you, he's quickly in their face like "what's good bro😡” and you know its not actually about you so much as eren tryna beat someone up

i think he’ll use spit as lube thinking he’s so bad boy and lewd when it’s actually just so bad for your PH like ewwww (if u have a vag ofc)

i feel like his hair would get so greasy, mikasa and armin have had to force him down with shampoo in hand before 

so gross but you came here for icks and I don’t believe Eren believes in holding back his farts for anyone

it can be the most intense and serious event like a funeral and he’ll rip a loud one and be like “what? it’s not good to hold it in??”

Armin

nail biter who will chew on them till the bone and you hear that loud ass “crONCh"

says he hates drama but that’s just something he says to not seem petty bc at the first sight of a fight best believe he’s sitting there, watching it all go down, wine glass in hand like "🍷🤨👂" 

lil shit will even add lil comments to keep the beef alive, like i can see him loudly asking “okay but jean didn't you say her outfit made her look fat though?”

if you're in a debate with him, he’s the type to say something like “you're so uneducated about the subject, I’m actually pretty well versed in it” and your like "okay so what's all ur research then?" and he'll just quickly change the subject bc he didn’t actually have sources to cite lmao

is one of those bfs who would make fun of you for liking trashy tv but guess who eats that shit up everytime? armin.

he does that dad thing where he walks around in the living room and acts uninterested with what’s happening on the screen but he’s actually so invested and would be fuming if you dared watched an episode without him 

i think he’d also be the type to try to be friends with his ex even if they obviously still have feelings for him, but if you dared even talk to yours he’d get all huffy and puffy like “go be with him then🙄” 

got obsessed with skincare after watching your routine but u kinda created a monster bc now he’s critiquing your products and techniques? “Babe you should really consider a gel moisturizer, it’s better for your pores'' and you're like, “boy you used neutrogena when I met you???” 

is that bf who will shower at your place and use up all your expensive washes and scrubs 

not the best gift giver tbh, I think he’s a firm believer that all gifts should be practical so even if it’s a romantic anniversary date and he slides over a lil present, it’s probably just gonna be socks or something, srry

Mikasa

applies her chapstick like a man (iykyk)

“he know where home is” bitch, I hate to say it

i think she’s a girl’s girl until her man cheats on her, then she’d be the type to fight the girl and not really address her man…which is just… 😣

as a friend I think she’s sadly the type to unintentionally embarrass you bc she doesn’t get some social cues.

like you can miss a hang and ppl ask where you are and she’d just say matter of factly “oh they’re fine, they just have diarrhea rn!” and she won’t understand why you’d be mad?

outfit repeater to the max, she has like three tops that she likes and all pics of her are with her wearing one of those three tops

a lil delulu and prob genuinely believes all the tiktok pick a card vids on her feed

likes her coffee black and somehow thinks she’s better than everyone for that???

as a gf she checks your snap score and location regularly and has no shame in it 🙂

fights in her sleep like you will just be sleeping next to her all soundly and next thing you know you get punched in the face? she refuses to apologize in the morning bc she “has a right to defend myself in a nightmare” or whatever

when shes mad at someone she’ll post like ultra specific lyrics or captions and it’s so obviously targeted at one person everyone else is like "girl go to bed, don’t even post the quote…"

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for yelling at someone, making them cry, and indirectly making them loose their friends

This happened several years ago but it plays on my mind sometimes. Everyone in this story is 15/16 at the time, in our last year at secondary school, UK. (🏎️ for finding this)

Myself, my girlfriend at the time [F], my best friend [B], F's friend [D], and a few of our other mutual friends were hanging out at lunch break. There aren't enough chairs at the table so F and I leave to go get extra. I come back and nothing seems amis.

Adding in some context now. No one in this story is cishet. We were all painfully awkward queer teens who haven't figured ourselves out yet. So we were all bottom of the social ladder, very much 'losers'. Me and F were, to my knowledge, the only 'same sex' couple in school. So by this point I'm used to people constantly making remarks about our relationship, but that's usually from ppl I didn't know or care about.

D is the only person, at this point, at school who's openly trans and genderqueer. They got a lot of hate for it. A lot of people harassed them and they didn't have many friends. I think for transparency's sake I have to say, I didn't really like D, we just didn't jell, but I made an effort to be kind and include them bc it's hard being queer in secondary school and I'm not gonna add more hate to that when me not getting on with them was my issue not theirs. And as a fellow victim of bullying I wasn't gonna exclude them from our friend group

Back to the story. As soon as we're back in classes, B tells me that D leant over to them while me and F were gone and said that it's "so sad seeing A and [OP] together" because "I took F's first kiss" and "poor [OP]". I trusted B's word on this as at that point we'd been best friends for several years, they weren't a shit stirrer, and had no reason to lie. In fact, they were confused D even said that to them since they were barely friends and knew B was best friends with me and would tell me they said that.

Hearing this really annoyed me. While I knew F and D had dated in the past, that didn't and shouldn't have effected mine and F's relationship in any way. And they'd been broken up well before I knew either of them. It's none of D's business who F kisses, and it's a shitty idea that because they'd dated before their later relationship first didn't mean as much. It felt very much like a dick thing to think never mind say about me and F. Also, B was my best friend, who did D get off to shit talking me to my best friend?

Anyway. Usually at the end of the day, several of us walked home together, and this group included D. I get to the spot we usually wait first and when I see D I confront them. I ask them why they'd say that and if they've got a problem with me. They don't deny saying it or really explain themself at all, they just look guilty. At first I kept calm. I knew D was F's friend and I didn't want to put a wedge in their friendship because of any issue I had with D. But, I keep asking why they did that, and if they've got something against me. If they're gonna shit talk me yanno. Then D starts crying.

I know it probably shouldn't have but this made me really mad. So I start yelling at them, saying something along the lines of 'so you're going to be an asshole to me and then you're gonna start crying?' and 'you started this, why are you crying?'. They start saying something along the lines of 'I didn't mean it like that' so I ask how did you mean it? And that they knew it wasn't something fine to say, because they said it behind my back and not to my face.

By this point, other people are watching, some of which were our mutual friends. I keep demanding they explain themself or at least apologize to me, but instead they run off crying. I don't follow them. If they're going to remove themself from the situation then fine.

People start asking what the hell that was about and I explain briefly to the people I knew and told the people I didn't to mind their own business. Someone I don't know tells me Ds gone to the head of year and I tell them I don't care, let them, I didn't do anything wrong. (This later amounts to nothing as no teacher ever comes to speak to me about this, so I doubt D did go to the head of year at all)

Eventually the people who were curious about what happened leave. All of the group who walk home together show up, including F. I explain to F what happened and they're upset that D said that about me, but wasn't happy to hear that D left crying.

For the rest of the school year, D ends up avoiding me. Literally staying out of my way, moving if I even glanced over at them. I thought they were overreacting. I never threatened them, and they were the one who chose to be an asshole first. I felt they were making this much more than it needed to be by avoiding it all together. We barely had an argument before they left, but anyone would have thought I'd attacked them or something. But because I obviously was always around F, D didn't have anyone to hang out with anymore. F was their only real friend and their other sort of friends were in our friend group.

No one told them they couldn't hang out with us anymore. (I'm pretty sure because they started avoiding me, I never ended up speaking to them again.) I know they still spoke to F still, but it seemed like their friendship was heavily damaged by it all.

D later ended up dropping out and finishing the school year through home schooling. I believe this was in large part due to the harassment they got for being genderqueer openly. (I remember on several occasions standing up for D and telling people to stop being transphobic assholes behind Ds back after this argument happened. Just because we didn't get along doesn't mean was gonna let that shit slide.)

I feel like I could be the asshole because due to this whole situation, D stopped hanging around their friends and through that lost a lot of the support they had. And obviously, I did make them cry.

On the other hand, no one stopped them from hanging out with their friends. They chose to avoid me and the situation. A situation they started by being a dick to me with zero provoking. They never apologized or recanted what they said. It's hard to feel bad that they lost their friends because they were being a shitty friend

Luckily, from what I know from friends of friends, D is doing better now and is around ppl who support them

This got a lot longer than I wanted but I believe I got all the details in there.

So, wita?

What are these acronyms?

[rodolfoparras]

I think I've developed a piss kink. like not even physically wanting someone to piss on me, but I enjoy reading it. but it SCARES me because that small part of sane in me says 'DUDE IT'S PISS'.

DISCLAIMER NSFT TALK AHEAD MWAH

First of all I love how I’m like a piss kink advicer here but I love it I’m literally as transparent as one can get bc I don’t see the point in beating around the bush so ask away djdjjddj anyway back to what you said I was genuinely the same when I first discovered the kink

I was just into the thought of pissing yourself while having clothed sex bc of a fic so when I went to like read more about the kink and found out that ppl piss on each other and piss in each other’s mouth I’m like yeah I’m not doing all that bc it’s piss you know why would you want it in your face or mouth and then a good chunk of time passed and I found another fic where one character was pissing on the other character’s ass and I was like oh hold on??

And u know if you imagine Price down on all four jeans pulled to his thighs waistline falling just under his ass and pushing his cheeks up, smacking them red before you piss on them thinking about the steady stream trickling down his skin..you’ll get what I mean 🤤

And more time passed and by that point I didn’t have to stumble upon a fic to figure out if ’m into pissing into someone’s mouth I kind of just thought of it one day and went hell yeah

At some point it stops being so much about piss and more about someone wanting you so bad they’re willing to humiliate themselves and as a dom I fucking love it

It’s one of those kinks that are presented as shameful but tbh a lot of ppl are into it I rmr telling my irl friends about it and 2 of them were into it as well💀

And also you can enjoy a kink however you want if you’re just into reading it then that’s cool if you’re into doing it then that’s cool too

You don’t have to be into all aspects of a kink

For example I’m not into hard core cnc roleplay but the thought of fucking my partner so dumb they wouldn’t be able to say yes or no to have someone else’s hand sneaking up their body really gets me going so🤷🏻

[golbrocklovely]

this is no disrespect to either of you three anons, so please don't feel like this is me trying to be a bitch.

but oh my GOD i don't care lol

i'll just say everything i feel about this here and then be done with it.

ms singer was a girl colby went on a few dates with, and was done "dating" her by like halloween or a little bit after. he didn't even know malia until sam's bday, so it's not like he left ms singer for her. ms singer herself has said she's on good terms with colby and that she has no hard feelings for malia, it's katelyn she has issues with.

colby unfollowing her on her bday was not done maliciously. he just unfollowed her, most likely, bc he has unfollowed every girl he either a, dated/had a fling with or b, found hot. shock and awe to absolutely no one, she falls into that category.

but also she's STILL talking about her beef with katelyn. and look, she has every right to talk about it as long as she wants to. i'm not here to say she can't vent. but let's be real for two seconds: first and foremost, fans are egging this on and we all know that. anyone that wants to argue otherwise is just plainly ignoring what is happening. ppl go on her tiktok lives just to ask her about katelyn so she can start complaining about her yet again. and the only reason fans want more tea on katelyn is bc they hate her bc she's not kat. full stop, full transparency, that's why that's happening. yall don't like tess; you just like that she gives you tea on a girl you hate bc she maybe once shaded kat when in reality if you have more than one brain cell you would know that's not what she did. stop being so up kat's ass that you think everyone is out to get her.

and secondly, tess can complain - sure. but she is talking about real ppl that are now dealing with real hate. it's the whole fuck around and find out method. keep talking shit on someone, and someone close to them (ie colby) is gonna stop fucking with you. why is this a surprise to anyone?

and i'm not here to say that katelyn is innocent. don't mistake me for that. i'm just saying, if katelyn was a shitty friend to her, then that's a shame. but the beef is very much between the two or them, and not us. stop egging it on for content reasons, or for twitter threads, or for whatever weird reason yall try to justify in your head this all for.

not only this, but colby and ms singer only dated MAX a month, but i don't even think that's the case fully. they went on a couple dates and stayed cordial. some of these fans are acting like he blocked his bestie or something. they remained friendly with one another bc things didn't end badly between them. they don't have to have loyalty towards one another, that includes colby. this isn't some betrayal. he unfollowed bc he's taken now, and she's still talking about his best friend's gf. it's really that simple.

dear god, all of this is such hs drama bs and i'm so tired of hearing about it, honestly. i'm too old to go back to my hs self who would have throughly enjoyed this drama. but seriously, can we find literally anything else to talk about??? i'm actually begging at this point.

and colby didn't unfollow ms singer bc malia told him to. he did it bc he wanted to. he's a grown man, as many on twitter love to point out every time he does something they deem as childish. why do you think this is any different?

also, sam and kat pretended to be besties after the break up. let's be real here. there clearly was some awkward tension left between them, but if they told the fandom they were going no contact and never talking again except maybe in passing, ww3 would have started. so they remained cordial to be appease fans (and probably themselves in one way or another). and realistically, kat probably made sam unfollow her (by blocking him/muting him/removing him as a follower) bc the day she did that was after pics of him and katelyn leaked from new years. realistically she probably wasn't thrilled about that and needed some space. it also didn't help that the khakis personified that is sam golbach decided to like a tweet that she made saying how nice her spotify top five looked without the "take a look at my bf" song, which CLEARLY WAS ABOUT HIM. he got his ass blocked after that, and rightfully so lmao

i would like to request - respectfully to all anons going forward - to stop bringing up ms singer, shea, and stas. hell, throw kat in there too. i don't care enough about any of them to hear what's happening about them. i'm tired of talking about them. some of them i've been talking about for years, i've said my piece on them countless times, and i just want something else to talk about. bc it's always the same stories over and over again and i just cannot care about it any longer.

also, since i might as well throw this in too, if you genuinely think snc are malicious in any compacity - STOP WATCHING THEM. why are you here if you genuinely think colby is a slutty manwhore who fucks anything that moves and is malicious and a shitty friend and whatever other random nonsense you think he is?? why are you here if you think sam is a terrible boyfriend who's also a bit of creep and has as shitty gf and again, whatever random other shit you believe???? why are you here???? you don't like snc anymore, and yet you waste your time talking about them. what you really like is the tea that comes from them and the ppl they have surrounded themselves with. i implore you to log off and find a hobby or a content creator you ACTUALLY like.

(also none of this was really directed at yall. more so the fandom et large. sorry if it felt like i was yelling at you guys. wasn't what i was trying to do here lol)

[wherelanguage-ends]

Sorry to bring up the B and P issue, but imo BoC should also come clean and clarify on the topic that is the 4 minutes series. We should not forget that the first accusation P made against B was regarding plagiarism of a supposed series she was writing. Then there is a phone call recording in which P accusses B repeatedly of sharing the plot of her series with B*C and with the writer Sammon and B repeats that he didnt do that while crying, asking her please to believe him, and then she asks him for money as compensation. Back then the company not only did not defend B, but only recently the ceo said that it had been all coincidence and that P had made a mistake and it was solved, yet no apology to B was ever made. I think there are more issues and ppl involved in this mess that we're led to believe.

So I’ll be honest anon, when I got your ask I wasn’t sure if I would answer it or not, partly because most of the time when it’s come to this situation I tend to either have emotional outbursts on my blog that go untagged(as in not in the main tag) or the occasional tags under a post as I try to process information(this is one of those times it’s always best to listen to what experts or survivors have to say before formulating your own opinion) Plus talking about this issue when Build himself posted a statement saying he’d like to move on seemed pointless, cause it would be more speculation and theorising.

But fuck it I say, since Pond clearly wants to share his side that nobody asked for?

Going to put the rest under read more.

When this whole thing started I wasn’t really active on Twitter or following any of the going ons on there so correct me if I’m wrong but initially I thought BOC truly had nothing to do with this situation. Sure it’s weird that a former/current writer was accusing their newly contracted writer of stealing her idea by way of an actor in the company and the company itself says nothing but hey Build’s the one who decided to address the situation all on his own. I am not blaming him we clearly know now why he did that at the fan event. Add to this already messy situation the fact that former writer and actor were in a relationship that apparently was abusive, I wouldn’t have blamed BOC for wanting to separate themselves from this entirely even if it started with plagiarism charges.

But they never did that did they? Now Pond’s adding an IG story saying he knew about things from the start? Like what? The abuse charges were fake? The pregnancy was fake? It’s true as he says you can’t know what’s the truth when you’re outsiders but based on what Pond did know how was the press conference a good idea? How is his posting that statement now even helpful to the situation?

Why the both sides argument back then and even now? Poi went on a complete rampage trying to ruin the reputation of a man because he wanted to break up with her and now we’re just supposed to accept it was a messy break up? I know many have commented and explained what toxic relationships can be like , keeping that in mind: What happened to Build’s charges of compelled to act and extortion? His saying that she forced him to stay in the relationship using his career as leverage? That just doesn’t seem like they were equally at fault?

Yeah there are more people involved in this issue and we’ll never know what and who but what the hell is the CEO thinking when he does what he does? I can’t tell if this is his version of ‘oh look at us, we’re such a transparent and honest company’ or what.

As for the thing with Dr. Sammon and everything else. She’s seems to be an industry veteran with multiple projects to her name. So she would know how to handle the situation best and if she doesn’t want an apology or further clarification then so be it. Same goes for any apologies owed to Build. If he deems a public apology necessary he’ll ask for it.

Honestly don’t know if this is what you were going for when you sent the ask but sorry this is what I have.

[goatlingsvent]

you ppl truly cannot read i said $1k - $2k AT MINIMUM from only a SMALL FRACTION of the MULTIPLE revenue streams on the site. all together with things like adopt tickets and monthly fundraising it's more likely in the $5k range on average, if not higher and okay, if we're "letting the grownups talk" then lets talk. ur correct that goatlings as a business is not enough to sustain a single person full time for every single one of their life expenses. because kris has been mismanaging these funds for the last decade. if she is paying her credit card debt or vet bills with goatlings money, that is mismanaging funds, incredibly financially irresponsible and embezzling from her company. if uve ever actually run or owned a small business before, u would know that money coming in from ur business is not the same as a paycheck. "profit" is not just free money to use on whatever. u need to pay that money back into the business before u pull it out for ur own personal expenses. and the fact that kris isnt doing that is again, an irresponsible mismanagement of funds. goatlings is not a full time job. kris is not sitting here doing 40hours worth of work a week on this site. everyone with eyes can see that. livable wage for most of the us rn is $25 an hr. if she was working a full time 40hour a week job, that would be around $700 a week after taxes, or just about $2100 a month. ur really gonna sit here and tell me that kris is doing more work on this site than 40hours a week??? be so fucking fr right now

she does not have a separate business account for goatlings money. all money paid to goatlings.com is actually just donated directly into kris's paypall account and she does what she wants with it. that is not how an actual real life adult business is run and if u ask any small time creator who is actually successful they'd explain to u that thats incredibly fucking shady and stupid and irresponsible goatlings is not an LLC, something multiple ppl have looked into and verified, because kris is, once again, a bad and irresponsible business owner with no idea what shes doing despite being a 40yr old woman whose been at this for 10+ years. goatlings.com is registered as a domain and thats it. domain names cost AT MAX $20 a year. so she isnt actually paying the full spectrum of business and income taxes despite how much she cries about what little taxes she does pay to guilt trip teenagers. the monthly site expenses should be, at max, $500. that is the standard for a site this size with the avg daily traffic goatlings is getting. if u look at other similar sites to compare, u can see that because they're actually transparent about their cost breakdowns because they arent funneling all the sites income into buying shotacon adoptables. and we've already covered how the monthly fundraising goal of $300 is consistently not only met, but overfunded. we've also covered how she doesnt actually pay her artists or mods or programmers in real life money, including tip a mod funds which are supposed to be for directly supporting and paying the staff. Kris instead pockets the money and then pays those ppl in her fake monopoly money, something that is again, highly illegal, irresponsible, and shady. she has blown through 4 different anonymous programmers throughout the years, 2 of which have confirmed that she refused to pay them in real life money and that is why they left. so lets TLDR: we know that goatlings is making thousands of dollars a month. that money is not being paid back into the site, it is not being paid to taxes, it is not being paid to mods, artists, or programmers. so what is it paying for? Kris. it's paying for whatever she wants, whenever she wants like her own personal allowance. and apparantly demanding any level of accountability for that or calling it what it is, mismanaging site funds, is bullshit for some reason? I didnt sign up for a womans patreon. When i paid money to this site, it was to do exactly that, to pay to support the website that i am using. I expected that money to go towards the website because thats what its stated as doing. I wasnt paying to buy a woman seaweed snacks or roblox gift cards or pay for her credit card debt or vtuber model. and when u take ppls money and tell them its going towards one thing and then instead secretly put it towards something completely unrelated for urself, thats called a fucking scam

🎰

[acabecca]

“i just like seeing you happy.” Jas and Bucky!

i saw this prompt and was like wtf sam what am i supposed to write for this i write ANGST!!!! but it was fun to write so maybe i should let ppl be happy instead 😌

*

“Do you want to dance with me?”

Bucky looked up, eyebrows raised as he sipped at the whiskey and let his eyes roam over the woman standing in front of him. “Uh, sorry,” he scratched at his beard. “I’m here with my girlfriend. I don’t think she’d like it if I danced with someone else.”

She shrugged. “Pretty sure I could take your girlfriend in a fight if it came down to it.”

“I don’t know…” Bucky paused thoughtfully. “She’s pretty tough. Real good with a gun, got a killer right hook.”

Huffing, Jas rested her hands on the sides of the chair he was sitting in, caging him in as she leaned down to him and narrowed her eyes. Bucky grinned widely.

“Get off your ass and show me a good time, Barnes.”

“You’re so bossy,” he chuckled, quickly finishing the rest of his drink and placing the glass down on the table before he stood up and offered Jas his hand.

“Thought I was bossy.”

“I like bossy women, so long as they let me take charge where it matters. Like on the dance floor.”

Rolling her eyes, Jas placed her hand in his and allowed him to lead her out between the other dancing couples. Wrapping his right arm around her waist, his hand on the small of her back, Bucky took her right hand in his left and pulled her closer to him.

“You gonna teach me to dance like how they did in the olden days?” Jas teased, and Bucky scoffed.

“Better than the dancing I see now.”

“Okay, Gramps,” Jas giggled, and Bucky grinned down at her.

“I don’t think I’ve told you how beautiful you look, by the way,” he hummed, his thumb rubbing circles against her back. “Your cousin must be furious; don’t you know it’s rude to upstage the bride on her wedding day?”

“Shut up,” she squeaked, ducking her head down and burying her face in his chest. Bucky chuckled, leaning down and placing a kiss on top of her head. “You’re so embarrassing.”

“Why? Because I like telling my girlfriend she’s beautiful?”

“No, because you say it around other people who can hear you,” Jas looked up, gesturing around them. “Do not let Kellie hear you saying I’ve upstaged her. She’s murder me and dumb my body in the ocean for the sharks to feast on.”

“You like sharks.”

“Not if they’re gonna eat me, Bucky,” she said in exasperation. Bucky smirked, and Jas narrowed her eyes. “Do not turn that into a sex joke,” she warned. and he snorted as he leaned down and tucked his face into her neck. “I knew you were gonna say something dirty.”

“Am I that transparent?” he muttered, pressing featherlight kisses against her skin.

“Only when you let your guard down,” Jas hummed, tapping at his shoulder. “Stop that, we’re in public. What is with you today?”

Bucky pulled back with a raised eyebrow. “I can’t just wanna kiss my girl?”

“Not like that. Not when we’re surrounded by my family,” she hissed. Bucky snorted out a laugh, his eyes twinkling and the corners of his mouth lifting up into a grin as he wiggled his eyebrows. Jas smiled despite herself, and she shook her head. “I like seeing you like this, Buck.”

“Like what?”

“Like this. I just like seeing you… happy.”

He kissed her softly. “That’s because you make me happy.”

“Sap,” Jas quipped, her eyes darting around the room and landing on her father who was whispering something to the bride, his eyes fixed firmly on her and Bucky. Jas frowned. “Hey, uh… Did I see you talking to my dad before?”

Bucky paused. “Maybe.”

“How come?”

“He’s your dad, Jasmine,” Bucky laughed quietly. “I thought I should probably introduce myself, given the fact that I’m living with his daughter.”

Jas huffed. “He and mom haven’t spoken to me in over a year. Haven’t made any effort to come talk to me today. You shouldn’t have wasted your time. What did you talk about?”

“Nothin’ much.”

Jas’ narrowed her eyes suspiciously. She knew Bucky well enough to know when he was fibbing to her, and the way the muscle just beneath his eye twitched and he refused to meet her gaze was enough to tell her he was hiding something. “What’d you talk to my dad about, Buck?”

“I had somethin’ I had to ask him, is all,” he shrugged nonchalantly. Jas opened her mouth to question him, but Bucky gave her waist a squeeze and quickly changed the subject. “So, hey! I can’t believe Kellie wanted me in her wedding pictures? I was kinda scared when I saw her stompin’ towards me in her wedding dress. Didn’t realise the maid of honor’s boyfriend was supposed to be in the photos.”

Jas scrunched her face up in confusion. “Buck, they didn’t want you in the photos because I’m the maid of honor. They wanted you in the photos because you’re family.”

Bucky froze. “What?”

“…You’re family,” Jas repeated. “You’re my boyfriend, have been for a while and they love you, so you’re part of the family now. That’s- that’s okay, right? I’m sorry if that weirds you out or-”

Bucky stopped her from finishing when he cupped her face in his hands, leaning down and pressing his lips against hers in a hard, firm kiss.

“Will you excuse me for a second?” he didn’t wait for an answer as he turned around and walked away from her, heading over to the stage where the wedding band were set up.

Jas could do nothing but stare after him in confusion, her arms hanging by her sides as she caught her cousin's eye.

“What’s he doing?” Kellie mouthed, and Jas shrugged her shoulders in reply, her eyes following Bucky as he made his way back over to her.

“Dance with me.”

“I thought that’s what we were doing before you ran off,” she raised her eyebrows. He ignored her, lifting her arms up and pulling them over his shoulders before wrapping his around her waist. “Bucky, what are you-” she dropped, her eyes widening slightly when she heard the song the band had begun to play.

“When I fall in love, it will be forever Or I’ll never fall in love…”

“Bucky…”

“Yeah?”

“Did you… Did you ask them to play this?”

“Uh-huh,” he nodded, smiling softly. “This is the song, right? The one your Nana used to sing to you when you were little, when your Grandpa would dance around the living room with you.”

“Y-yeah…” Jas blinked, her voice cracking. “I can’t believe you remember me telling you that.”

“I remember everything about Wakanda, sweetheart,” Bucky whispered. “But I especially remember this story, because you had this far away look in your eyes, like it was your favourite memory.”

“Every memory I have with my Nana and Gramps is my favourite memory,” Jas smiled gently, taking a deep breath and resting her cheek against Bucky’s chest as they swayed to the music.

“I wish you could have met them - especially my Gramps, you two definitely would have gotten along.”

“You made me facetime him in Wakanda, remember? And he just asked for my autograph,” Bucky snorted. “But I wish I could have met them both in person, too. Would have been nice for them to see Kellie getting married.”

“Shit, Gramps would have interrogated Ross so bad,” Jas snickered. “He would have interrogated you, too. He interrogated all of my boyfriends.”

“He interrogate Sharon?”

“No, he loved Sharon. He interrogated me,” she laughed quietly, burying her face back in his chest with a sad sigh. “Love you, Buck.”

Bucky leaned down, pressing his lips to the top of her head. “Love you too, sweetheart,” he murmured into her hair, closing his eyes and taking a deep breath. “Look, uh… Do you maybe want to- I mean, would you like to-… Do you, maybe, wanna have one of these with me, one day?” he asked quickly, nervously, as Jas pulled back to glance up at him in confusion.

“What, a party?”

Bucky chuckled anxiously, coughing to clear his throat as he brought his right hand up to rub at the back of his neck. “Uh,” he paused. “Not- not exactly…” he gestured around and Jas’ eyes widened, her whole body going slack.

“You mean a- a… wedding?”

“…Yeah,” he whispered, nodding his head and pulling her closer. “Yeah, a wedding. Would you? I know it’s not something we’ve talked about and I figured we should because, well… Because I’ve thought about it, and it’s what I want, but I can live without it if it isn’t something that you want-”

“It is,” Jas interrupted him quickly, biting her bottom lip to hold back her grin. “It is something I want.”

Bucky beamed. “Yeah?”

“Yeah,” she confirmed. “I’ve thought about it, too.”

“Okay,” his fingers tightened on her hips. “So we’re gonna have a wedding one day.”

“I mean, are we… Was that you- did we just-?”

“Oh, no!” Bucky shook his head quickly before leaning down and brushing his lips against hers. “Christ, no. I’m gonna- it will be better. I have a plan.”

“You have a plan?”

“Sure I do,” he shrugged as though it was no big deal. “Been thinkin’ on it a while.”

“Okay,” Jas whispered, ducking her head down to hide the flush on her cheeks. “If it helps any, I’ll definitely say yes, whenever you’re ready to ask.”

Bucky hooked a finger under her chin, lifting her gaze to his and smiling softly, leaning forwards and placing a loving kiss to her lips.

“Good to know, sweetheart.”

taglist: @sgtbuckyybarnes @mer-writes @jewelswrites-ish @foxesandmagic @hiddenqveendom @starcrossedjedis @lukespatterson @if-you-onlyknew

Jas taglist: @suethor @jeremyrennerfanxxxx123 @ohhitherekatie

(let me know if you want to be added/removed!)

[jirnkirks]

Theres been ppl on twt talking about the Blasebalm TCG and how you cant claim you own an interp or that, like, its not YOUR characters in the first place

And honestly my guy

Ok well first of all copyright does exist. You post shit and it IS defacto your intellectual property.

Secondly, I know sometimes we bandy shit around on how not all interps are ours and players arent your OCs. But also. Sometimes they kinda are. They kinda are!

Blaseball player creation does sometimes exist in a spectrum- players where identities kind of came en masse and with barely depth. Players with a lot of depth but built by so many people it is a little confusing to untangle those roots. But there are also designs and interps that are 100% largely from Specific people.

Like, I got some blorbos where I delved into the minutae or tried to do my own approach, but actively riffed of what was already substantially present. But I also have some blorbos where I know I did a lot of the heavy lifting and I know Im the one doing the work and pushing this interp.

I honestly dont know where the answer lies on some spectrum of do whatever with listed credits or scorch earth this bitch. But I think that discussion is now secondary to Wayfinder (and maybe TGB 's) own inability to be clear, transparent and public about their own direction. Like, come on you cant even like. Announce your intentions? Ask if you can use basic info as a prompt or whatever?

Girl literally at any point has wayfinder or blaseball publicly said that. Hey. So. We want to maintain some familiarity with fans and felt that its appropriate to try and maintain the irl diversity fanon has. Please know that we will provide artists with ethnicity guidelines on some players but we will avoid everything else. Or whatever!

[transhoverfish]

What are everyone's "abilities" in Survivors? Ryley has good hearing and Milo glows but what do the others have?

!!! YOU HAVE ASKED ME ABOUT MY AU !!! THE FLOODGATES OF YELLING HAVE OPENED!!

OK SO. as u mentioned ryley has good hearing and milo glows. basically,

ryley = good hearing

milo = glowy boy

emily = electric detection (cooler than i describe rn my vocabulary is small)

danby = like emily's but reverse. controls electromagnetic things

roman = night vision

jochi = the most superpower like one, he got quick regeneration.

avery = telepathy!

bart = also kind of telepathy but more like future telepathy. he has future vision.

and i. never thought of one for ozzy actually and at this point i have no idea what to give them that wouldn't have been brought up prior so. u know genetics are weird! they just dont have anything ig. nobody look at me LABDKABDLABD

AND ALSO paul and marg have powers! paul got that peeper enzyme carrier thing, and marg got the very funny power of feeling others emotions. yes that includes the fish. yes this is one of the primary reasons she didnt kill paul over a decade of dealing w him. yes she hates it.

and the vesper haven't been sick long enough to develop anything! or at least thats what im going with bc i havent thought of anything for them yet 😔

AND NOW: LONGER EXPLANATIONS. IM GONNA GET CARRIED AWAY SO ITS UNDER A READ-MORE.

first off on the list: bart! so bart.. kinda has futuristic visions?? but the things he sees are not set in the stone,, as in if he dreams about smth (a lot like ryley can!) it is possible to change those events! most of these visions/telepathy type stuff were bc of the emperor and warpers, and also al-an! once the sea emp died and the warpers all calmed down his powers kind of go away a bit. i think i wrote al-an sort of mentioning it in one chap of awa?? but its only kind of implied. so he has rlly similar powers to avery except he can't tell what others are thinking and he can only kind of tell how his closest friends r feeling. so right now bart pretty much doesn't have powers! he can communicate w the warpers and sea emps much easier than the others tho (he's the only one that can talk to warpers! im not sure he'd get along w them after being hunted down by them for like 12 years though KABDLSBRLSHD)

avery has telepathy! this is because when he first shows up he jokes about having telepathy and i was like "haha. WAIT." and then he got telepathy! i realize its a bad idea to not come up with their powers until as im writing but uhhh well. i never said i was a fantastic writer who's smart. KANROSHROSBF.

he also kind of had marg's empathy ability but wayyy dialed back. he can only tell how other humans are feeling and he can only vaguely understand it as opposed to feeling the emotions himself like marg does. so he can kind of tell how others are feeling and he can tell what theyre thinking about! unless of course for plot convince he can't. strong emotions, especially strong negative emotions (ie. fear) can overwhelm him and makes his powers stop working. and if someone is convinced they're right then he wont b able to tell they're lying/hiding something! yay plot convenience!!

roman has night vision. i have no way of making this sound cool he just straight up can see really well in the dark. like a cat. most of the powers were based off where they originally landed and what would help them in that area! and roman landed in the sparse reef, which is so dark all the time i cry thinking about it. so he has night vision! his poor eyesight is probably all kinds of fucked up now tho.

jochi has regeneration abilities! now i know this might sound a bit much but he just heals from cuts and stuff faster and like. he bones heal fast. and he's more likely to survive smth that might usually kill someone, but its like a 10% higher chance of living nothing too much. he doesn't rlly get scars as much as the others, and its healed his old ones a bit more! this is by far the most unrealistic power of them all, but ya know its alien fish planet game who cares. basically bc his life support systems failed his spine got all fucked up and he got infected faster bc he was barely alive for the first few days and spent a lot of time w bart who was looking after him. power helped fix his back, but he still has a rlly bad limp and pretty much constant pain. big mood there khasar 😔✊

emily can detect electromagnetic waves! works best underwater. kind of like ryley's, but instead of hearing noises she can only hear anything electric, like vehicles or ampeels or heartbeats. gets all fucked up during thunderstorms though sadly. she's the only other one that can kind of hear warpers and can tell when ones about to warp around but she cant actually talk back to them. pretty sick if u ask me tho.

danby has p similar powers to her bc ampeels also spawn in the bulb zone. except he can sense them at a much smaller distance, cant hear warpers, and can control the waves around him! mostly just his own tho. so like, he can quiet his heartbeat or make it stop all together. scary power that he does not know how to control. uh oh. but he can also control other creatures a bit! he's very good at hiding bc of this, which is nice bc he loves to hide from scary things. very big mood once again.

milo is glowing powers! looks a lot like the transparency of a ghost levi or a crabsquid, although he isn't as see through as them. you can def make out like veins but not bones or organs. his powers are activated by touch, the more force behind will create more glow and more transparency! a poke = goes away within a few seconds, a slap = stays for a minute or so. instead of bruises, he just glows until the bruise would normally go away. he's basically a living glowstick. i have another joke for this but i cannot physically convince myself to type it bc its some shit emily would say to him and i cannot embarrass him like that LABDLABDKABAKD

andd ryley's super hearing! can hear basically everything within a mile radius at all times. im bad at math and i don't know the metric system but i think that's like around 1k meters. wait does the metric system use mile already. no. ONCE AGAIN NEVER SAID I WAS SMART.

OK ANYWAYS back on track! this means he can hear about half of the crater at all times. he's gotten p good at blocking out background noise and anything far away. typically only hears everything within like 300 meters of himself. so when he does get back to just hearing everything its like. u ever take out headphones in a busy place and everything kinda hurts for a few seconds bc its so much noise. yeah like that but 500x worse. he's able to concentrate on specific areas within this 1 mile field but if its far away it fucks him up good for a lil while. sorry ryley :(

and then the other two degasi! as mentioned before, paul can carry enzyme like the peepers, but he also can kind of make some himself! only small amounts and it works a bit less than the peeper enzyme does. he does not have to cough it up though thankfully it just like. idk how to describe this idea it can just kind of leave through his skin?? he has like no control over his power at all it just kind does its own thing and he deals w it. this is primarily how he and marg survive for so long w/o dying to kharra!

and finally marguerit! highly empathetic abilities that allow her to feel the emotions of anything around her! i thought it would be funny as hell to give MARGUERIT of all ppl Big Emotion Disease. this is a big reason why she has had yet to murder paul and why she's a lot less murderer like in the au. its hard to kill someone if you. you know. can feel exactly what they are. probably the reason she adopted Dog Bart/Legally Preston Emotionally Not. saw sad puppy and felt too bad to leave him. like paul, she has basically no control over it and is one of the reasons she does NOT want to go back to the survivors base and be around so many other ppl, she'd be feeling like, 13 ppl's emotions at one time. all these powers have fucked up drawbacks dont they??

once again sam, robin, jeff, maxim, and ozzy are (for now at least) not gonna have any powers! mutations are weird and ozzy just didn't get anything, and the vesper haven't been sick long enough for any yet!

OK THATS ALL. HOLY SHIT SORRY FOR YELLING FOR 15 MINUTES. GOT CARRIED AWAY. hopefully that explains everything tho OABEOABROANRJS OK BYE MY PHONE IS ALMOST DEAD

[simplysaphique]

the lesbian google doc certainly has its... issues but that one takedown is truly horrible. i do wish that the doc considered the existence of bisexuality & bi experiences a little more or was at least transparent that you can have many of the experiences listed in it as a bisexual (and/or wasn’t directed at questioning ppl; i feel like a significant part of the controversy around the doc wouldn’t be a thing if it was called ‘can i still be a lesbian if...’ or ‘why im a lesbian’ instead) bc as is it comes off a little ‘being a wlw and/or having a complex relationship w attraction to men are lesbian specific experiences’ (which i think irks bi women bc of how much they’re told they are available to men & can’t be gnc/have complex feelings/relate to their own history & deserve to be abused by men & will never have experiences as complex & unique as lesbians do & are secondary wlw & basically straight but worse bc they choose to be w men, etc); but responding to it with takes like ‘actually this doc is evil bc it says you’re not predatory for being a lesbian AND some lesbians are in fact predators & abusers! checkmate!’ is just heartless & evil imo

considering it was written by one person and they talked about their personal experience with lesbianism and comphet etc. i think it’s a good doc. it was the thing that made me finally accept myself as a lesbian so maybe i’m biased. op says that if you identify with a lot of the examples or reasons listed, you MAY be a lesbian. they never say you have to be a lesbian or anything like that, so that one person saying the doc is CONVERSION RHETORIC or whatever tf she said is so so disgusting. like lesbianism is some horrible and disgusting cult because they.... aren't attracted to men? and point out how someones attraction to men CAN be false? bi sapphics definitely can and do have complicated relationships with men and their gender identity, etc. and i know lots of bi girls have said that the lesbian master doc helped them reaffirm their bisexuality so !!!! 

the second thing i linked on that ask titled “how do I know I'm a lesbian?” is definitely the better thing to read if you are questioning your sexuality (specifically questioning if you are a lesbian) because it implores you to read and watch multiple things from different lesbians and perspectives and has lots of good resources and links. it’s also more inclusive and has words of reassurance. an important thing to remember is “If it doesn't apply to you, but you feel it is somehow undermining your sexuality, I want to reiterate that this is specifically for and about Iesbians.“ bi people are going to relate to some points, but that does not mean they aren’t bisexual. only *you* know your sexuality and only *you* know how you feel. keep that all in mind. 

the “everything wrong with the lesbian master doc” is pure evil and lesbophobia so if anyone here supports it or it’s creator, give this blog a unfollow. lots of love to all my sapphics out there ♥

[minejiro]

hi, tee <3 this is a moot who's a little to shy to ask you this off anon, but how did you come up with the courage to archive your blog after 8 months? i've been planning to move for a couple of weeks now, and i have a new account set up and everything, but i feel conflicted about leaving my 10 month old account.

i'm about to reach 2k, which is something that holds me back; i'm not planning to delete anything or change aliases, but i just feel like it's really difficult to let go, even though i'm not making an intense move. thank you for listening to me ramble <3

hi bby omg im about to spill my whole tumblr experience to you LMAO jvhufdbv but maybe itll put things into perspective for you and youll be able to tell if its something that you still want to do or not !!

so im just gonna be transparent here, i had 14k ppl on mine when i left and that was kind of hard to leave no matter what anyone says. ofc its always about the writing first and foremost, but i built so many anons and inside jokes and interactions and i had a name for myself and stuff, and thats definitely hard to let go of bc i built that up you know ?? but then i looked at it in a more narrowed view than a "bigger picture" view and it was a matter of am i happy on here anymore ??

no

now thats partly bc i was just drained of writing hq in general, but even when i was happy to write for hq, the blog just got tiring. that blog made me happy and i was proud of it, so i was attached, but at the end of the day being that big was also draining me more than i realized bc i was dealing with ppl being pushy or expectant, or rly rude comments to rly hateful ones, and i felt like the interactions themselves werent as genuine anymore as they used to be. ppl brought up things about the blog itself, its stats, how my writing wasnt what it used to be, how i was just doing things that were "popular" to get notes, etc instead of what it was about — haikyuu

so i took a leap and kind of started a new fandom (tokrev) and that was my excuse to start a new blog from the ground up and it seemed less scary bc it didnt seem like i was starting over per say, i was just adding something new, but it still needed to built up again

and then thats what changed my worries tbh bc once i started my tokrev blog and i posted and built interactions, i realized it wasnt as awful as id been telling myself it would be you know ?? the interactions slowly built, my work was being read and slowly gaining more interaction, and overall my blog was just being built up and i realized that building a blog back up not only wasnt as awful as i thought it would be. it also gave me a chance to redo things better and take what ive learned from the last one to set better boundaries for my followers and myself. and also, it helped running a blog be fun again bc as ive said before, my blog in its smaller days was a lot more fun bc ppl talked to me bc i was just me, not tee whos in the top tags all the time (im sry hfbehfb that might sound kinda bad and maybe a little conceited but i mean that in the least self absorbed way bc in all honesty the size of my blog was rly what a lot of my asks and even some moot interactions were centered around anymore)

in the end, the followers you built up will come again bby they will, trust me i was sad about seeing all my hard work be "left behind" too but the restart is so refreshing and it gives u a chance to organize and set up everything to make this an even safer space for you. if you stick it out for a bit, youll start to get rly excited about the growth and progress you made, and the last blog wont be on your mind as much because youll want to start pouring more into building the new one, and i think thats the part that made me take the full leap and just drop hq blog all together

i was actually gonna deactivate that blog if im being honest, but there some extremely touching asks that made me rethink bc i didnt think my writing meant that much to ppl, so ive left it as an archive, and i think thats honestly the best thing i can do at this point, just leave it to be appreciated for what it is instead of trying to make it fun again and drain myself more

oferfirhgb this was so long im so sorry LMAO but idk i hope that maybe helped a little bit sobsobsob

feel free to dm me if you wanna talk about this !! dont be shy omg i love all my moots <3 even if we dont get a chance to interact as much

[fairycosmos]

ik its hard to view yourself objectively (and everyone has their own biases too) but like fam u are gorgeous!! any time you post selfies and ppl are like “you look like [insert celebrity here]” they’re right! also like even aside from being beautiful your voice is so lovely and you care so much about ppl, u are 100% in every hot girl’s league (tbf this is coming from an average-looking lesbian so i cant speak for All Hot Girls™ but ik im right lol)

i love you sm but it’s not the case in reality 😭😭 like i prommy my selfies r like angled with makeup in good lighting nd even then i know i don’t look really pretty pretty. ofc everyone has their own tastes and i appreciate anyone who sends me nice asks when i post selfies bc mate they keep me goin for MONTHS afterwards lol it fuels me, heart and soul. but idk my whole life i’ve felt like this standing next to girls. i went out briefly today and it just reinforced the feeling or the knowledge that they seem to have something i just don’t. i don’t know what it is, if it’s how they do their makeup or their bodies or how they carry themselves or what. but like i see the look behind their eyes when they have to talk to me and i know what they’re thinking of me it’s like i’m a joke to them. omg that sounds so paranoid but it happens basically every time and i know it’s not me reading things wrong ahhh </3 ugh but whatever honestly i probably won’t be able to date girls until i move out of my grandma’s place anyway maybe never. and looks aren’t the be all end all, if i ever want to find peace i have to let go of that notion entirely. it’s all a scam plz i need to ingrain it into the fabric of my mind!!! anyway thank you so much for this babes i can’t tell you how much i appreciate it <3 i know it seems like i just counteracted everything you said but it’s cause i want to be transparent and honest lol. this is still going to stick in my head as something really positive and warm. like hey someone out there sees me like this so maybe i don’t stick out as much as i worry i do. side note every lesbian i know is above average by virtue of being a lesbian so checkmate?? ur hot! I LOVE YOU!! <3 

[akari-hope]

Citing Lindsay Ellis isn’t a good idea, just fyi. She’s all but single-handedly responsible for popularizing the “Each & every criticism of Twilight is misogyny & born of the idea that ppl love to hate on teen girls!” stance. She’s dismissed native ppl’s criticisms of the bastardized portrayal of the Quileute tribe w/ “But I know some native ppl who like it so I don’t feel comfortable speaking on that!” (She then failed to provide examples of native ppl she knew who liked it, & went on to make

2/3   a video about Pocahontas comprised entirely of talking points already put forth by poc, w/ no credit.) She has made tasteless jokes about Harriet Tubman & her “twink” master & defended ContraPoints, a known antisemite who only caters to white feminists & has dismissed ppl who point said antisemitism out, claiming that she was only joking & that ppl were just “too sensitive.” I just thought you’d want to know.

3/3  Ellis has also dismissed criticisms put forth by poc of Daenerys Targaryen being a prime example of a colonizing white savior (which she quite literally is written to be) as baseless hate. She’s just a generally racist & ignorant person who knowingly monetizes the arguments of poc & deflects any criticism w/ blanket claims of misogyny.

gonna be 100% with you here. idk any of what you’re talking about. i’m not saying it’s not true, or that you don’t have sources, but i am saying that my knowledge of her work is...basically limited to those video essays i linked. i mean i’ll publish this ask so other people are aware i suppose? but i don’t follow youtubers (idek who the other person you brought up IS). i’m not really involved with any of that. and i’m not saying that you’re wrong, or that i couldn’t look this up. what i AM saying is that i need some sources bc i can’t just take word of mouth as fact, and that i am really just not in the headspace to be doing that research. i’m out of spoons today, and even if i wasn’t i don’t have the time or energy to dig through hours of videos or tweets to find this stuff. if you have it on hand and wanna send to me, sure, go for it. just...please don’t send me stuff like this without at least a link or the specific name of a video i can reference.

for transparency, i still think those videos i linked on death of the author have good points and are unrelated to the issues you listed, so i’m going to keep them up for now. if it comes to my knowledge that lindsay ellis is concretely a terrible person i’ll consider unlinking them.

[alias-b]

OKAY. So, I wasn’t gonna dignify this with an answer, but I’m feeling super good and starting my vacation and have few things to lose tbh. I blocked you, but you’ll find a way back if you feel this is really worth it.

You certainly found it worth it enough to slap that anon button to insult me and dress it up as idk ?? being helpful & even kind in your mind?? If you followed my fics, you know the nasty msgs I get monthly so why would I take a personal jab as from a good place? Why would anyone mean to act “holier than thou” ???? Telling me you’re not coming from a bad place....yet you still went anon bc you knew how this read. Hm. Anyways....to answer, I’ll just unpack this neatly:::

1) ???? When did I say ANY of that even in a talk down/negative context??? lmao I even searched my asks trying to find myself being this rude. Slide into my DMs and let me know bc from my POV, you’re blatantly misreading something or making it up?? I’m confused and of course, I’d never want to come across any kind of way like that! If I ever mention young ppl, I mean actual teenagers in fandom spaces that adults get nasty interacting with. Ppl in their 20s/30s+ really need to be mindful about interacting with ppl under 18 and attacking them or being creepy and inappropriate with them/their content. Don’t twist my words.

Ppl who write thin OCs still get hate on their fics lmao, I did. But they don’t get constant hate generally based on their size or race. ((Also like...we’re all aware of fatphobia & racism in fandom and what types of OCs/characters are targets for that...esp if they’re being paired with favs... Writers of color are absolutely also allowed their frustrations with racism in fandom spaces btw too. Do not talk over them. Just listen and be aware. Do your best.))

2) I absolutely DO NOT think I’m better or “more moral/braver” than any other writer on here wtf, I consider myself even “still young” and learning... I’m in my 20s, I’m not a fandom gma trying to police anyone??? As long as you’re living your best life, surrounded by the best content YOU want, go tf off, sis!!! We’re all in a pandemic here trying to get by.

Writing is always a growing process and we’re doing it for free, it’s not perfect and always is a skill that gets better as we do it. I try not to compare myself to others, my fics are mine and that’s IT. I’m allowed to be proud of what I’ve created and I encourage all writers to do the same. A lot of writers are happy and patting themselves on the back for what they created but I’m NOT taking digs or doing it cause I think I’m some brave crusader on a mission. I’m too tired for that bull. I don’t get/want cool points for anything. Have you sent these concerns to any one else for doing the same??? Or are you irked I’m trying to uplift MY fat character?? That I get constant hate for??? More reflection for you.

3) I’ve been incredibly supportive of OCs of all shapes and sizes. I’ve gotten asks shading thin/white “model” ocs and only ever preached patience and support to all oc writers bc it’s never right to bring someone down to lift someone else up. It’s never right to shame a writer not hurting anyone. All OCs are good OCs. That’s the point I always make!! Writing is hard. Finding face claims is hard. Making whole ass humans for a fictional world is hard. So, I’m constantly posting/replying to be open and understanding with writers, whatever they do. It’s their fic. Their characters. Their choices. All OCs are valid.

No one is obligated to make a specific type of OC, just make the OCs you want to see. I don’t think it’s right to hate or shade ANY writer/OC and I make it clear in asks that try to suggest otherwise. Maybe go reread them before slapping that brave anon button again to come from ‘a good place.’

4) Evie is ONE of FIVE OCs I’ve written on this account. And the only plus size OC of them too so IDK why I’d ever act ‘holier than thou’ about a SINGLE OC when the numbers are 1 of 5 here... I’m not gifting the fandom the gift of me, I’m just writing content I enjoy. I’m gifting it to my damn self. There’s no crusade. There’s no BIG STATEMENT UWU. She’s not some political piece, y’all can be so dehumanizing with that toward fat characters or characters of color. Just let them exist proudly. If you don’t like it maybe they’re really not for you!

Evie’s literally just a character I created that I adore. Fat characters exist and they can be whatever we writers want. If people feel represented by her, I think that’s amazing and I so so appreciate when I’m told. It’s a special thing to see yourself represented when you never do in fandom or mainstream spaces!! She represents parts of me too that I’m still learning to love. But if not, I’m sure she’s still relatable. She has a whole personality beyond being a plus size girl bc being fat is not her defining trait. We absolutely should encourage more positive diversity in fandom, esp in main characters. Everyone of all sizes writing about what they look like is awesome! We agree on that point!

5) Evie is one of five ocs. Again. I’ve gotten hate messages and passive aggressive comments for all three of my big fics. Evie has ONLY EVER gotten hate for her size and race. She’s gotten a LOT.  ((sometimes her eating disorder, but that’s another issue)) And yeah, it doesn’t shock me. It’s too transparent. People who relate to her don’t deserve that shame either.

I hadn’t even started posting the actual fic before I got my first hate msg about her being an “oc reach bc billy hates fat chicks” whatever. So I think I’m allowed to defend and stan her that much harder and her role in this fic. I think I’m allowed to gush about how much I love her story against all the disgusting hate she gets. I’m not apologizing for that. Me loving Evie super hard has nothing to do with anyone else’s OC. It’s not a mission. It’s not a dig. She’s mine.

**So no, anon, I don’t think I’m doing any big, in your face, public service with my ONE plus size oc. I don’t think I’m better. I think I’m just creating content for myself to enjoy. If others enjoy it too, awesome!! If not, they’ll find something else to enjoy. It’s a big space with lots of amazing writers, I can even direct you to a few!!! I’m happy to do that!! ****If I really had an issue with white or skinny ocs....I wouldn’t be writing them myself which I DO. I wouldn’t be supporting my fellow writers who also write them!!

So you’ll excuse me if I don’t believe that you actually support Evie or me or my fics. All this message served to do was dwindle an author’s excitement for her OC and accomplishments. And you didn’t do that. I’ll try even harder to support fellow writers around me tho!! ^_^

If this is a big misunderstanding bc you misreading asks that I’ve gotten or you misread my tone or remarks anywhere, that’s really not my issue either. IDK, maybe I’m popping off too much too, but this accusation is truly mean-spirited. I know things don’t always translate over the internet well, but I’ve been openly loving and supportive to fellow friends and authors despite anything that’s been said. Even through laundry lists of passive aggressive and hateful messages about my stories since my first fic took off. I’ve seen friends get hate too and I can’t stand that they have to deal with that. They SHOULD be proud of their works always.

I know I don’t deserve them and I know I don’t deserve this either. I know who I am at the end of the day and I know what I put into the world and I know that my fics are mine first. I know my truth and I hope you know yours behind that anon button.

So, thank you for your concerns but please drop them somewhere else and have a wonderful day enjoying the free content we put out. Support your favorite writers and encourage all writers to keep doing what they love and getting better at it! Thanks!!! xoxo :)))

[viktorfm]

(MAXENCE DANET-FAUVEL, NONBINARY) - Have you seen VIKTOR SAMUELS? VIKTOR is in HIS/THEIR SENIOR year. The VISUAL ARTS MAJOR is 24 years old & is a CAPRICORN. People say HE/THEY are OBSERVANT, INGENIOUS, RETICENT and DEPENDENT. Rumors say they’re a member of KINCAID. I heard from the gossip blog that THEY'RE HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH THEIR THERAPIST. (JAMES. 21. EST. THEY/THEM.)

dont. look at me. i know. anyways if it wasnt obvs i abandoned cupid (n darrow) in order 2 bring the two ocs tht he ws inspired by n ws a combination of bt. theyre better as different ppl methinks.

DEATH, HEAVY GRIEF, OVERDOSE / DRUG ADDICTION, HOSPITALIZATION, HYPERSEXUALITY, RELIGION MENTIONS TW

aesthetic.

old tvs and their static, worn tapes, horror movie screams, spilled ink, a sculptor’s hands, clay-stained, chicken scratch handwriting, messy notes, messy hair, scoffs and eye-rolls, bruised knuckles, sore throats, funeral homes and a crying preacher, shattered ceramics, knife fights, high ledges, vertically-striped pants, red lights, the moon shrouded in clouds, cigarette butts, graveyards and half-empty wine bottles, sitting there for hours and talking to nothing, about nothing, a god complex, gold rings adorning both hands, barbwire baseball bats, having never played baseball in your life, deep eyebags and broken mirrors, a permanent chip on one’s shoulder, yearning, longing, wishing.

basics.

full name: viktor phillip samuels

nickname(s): icky vicky :/

b.o.d. - january 2nd, 1996

label(s): the black hole, the crepehanger, the impious, the opaque, the tempest, etc.

height: 6′1″

hometown: preaker, vermont

sexuality: pansexual uwu

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favorite song: disorder, joy division / it’s getting faster, moving faster / now it’s getting out of hand / on the tenth floor, down the back stairs / it’s a no man’s land / lights are flashing, cars are crashing / getting frequent now / i’ve got the spirit, lose the feeling / let it out somehow

background.

born to mama and papa (preacher) samuels in preaker, vermont - fifteen minutes after his twin sister, tatiana samuels. years later, rosa samuels joined the gang.

was an awkward, quiet kid growing up, he didn’t interact well with others and preferred being left alone to dig up worms and draw on the walls of their childhood home. the only exception was his twin, really.

as he got older he grew out of this, but instead became like … sort of an asshole? maybe to compensate for years of childhood awkwardness. he’s the sort of person who will bite the hand that feeds him & developed into a full time nuisance by middle school, unlike tatiana who was much more subtle about her conniving manners.

always has been a fan of ‘darker’ materials. grim & creepy morbid shit. probably the biggest tim burton fan, ever since he was a kid … not a good look for a preacher’s son, but he never really felt ‘in’ with the rest of his family to begin with. classic black sheep syndrome.

drew disturbing pictures as a kid that probably prompted one or two or five phone calls home to assure everything was fine.

just really had a knack for art at a young age, from drawing to painting to playing with clay. it’s always been his thing and probably is the only thing he’s good at.

being twins with tatiana was hard. they were near opposite besides both being quite mean-spirited. tatiana handled being in public better, left a better image behind - but viktor had talent, more than she did. they loved each other deeply - y’know, those unbreakable twin bonds as cliche as it sounds - but found each other as competition for their parents’ attention. a rivalry for affection.

in high school is when viktor really started to act out. it started extreme, like losing his virginity in their church and vandalism around the neighborhoods. faked being possessed in the middle of sunday service & almost had an exorcism performed on him.

his only redeemable trait was like … just his sheer talent in the arts. was in a 3d art ap course and specialized in sculptures. he could pretty much create anything he wanted with enough dedication.

because he was the problem child, the one who deserved to be disciplined for all his antics, tatiana could sneak away and get away with whatever she wanted much easier. on the bright-side, for her, i guess.

not a very motivated person - wasn’t planning on going to college, much less going to yates but his parents literally wrote & sent his college application for him because they weren’t going to house a deadbeat but had too much heart to kick him out onto the streets. cool!

he’s actually pretty smart but he just doesn’t apply himself. has a minor in english because he didn’t care for an extra course-load, but he’s good at writing & analyzing literature. is going to use it to write and illustrate his own series of children books with a style similar to tim burton’s. not for the kids, but because he likes to leave a trail of terror in whatever he does.

has been experimenting with himself since high school but college is where he really had started to crack down on himself. was out as pansexual & nonbinary by his sophomore year of college just … not to his parents, who don’t really need to know.

if you asked him if he believed in twins having a psychic connection with each other - he’d tell you he wouldn’t know. it felt believable at times, but sometimes he had no idea what was going on inside of tatiana’as head. on the other hand - viktor had always felt oddly transparent to her, like she knew all of his moves before he did. the only person who could predict him accurately.

( tw death, grief, overdose / hospitalization beyond this point )

when tatiana disappeared, viktor knew something was up. it was a twist in his gut, pure instinct that something wasn’t right. and it wasn’t right - and when she was proclaimed missing, they couldn’t find her.

and when tatiana died - viktor knew. it felt wrong, something cut so severely in him he could pinpoint her death to the second. he didn’t know how, or why, but he knew it. knew it before anybody else had.

afterwards he went on a sort of bender. he’d begun to struggle with a mild drug addiction late senior year of high school / early college, but he was managing it up until this point.

his mental health had also sunk to an all-time low, when it’d never been great to begin with. (manic & depressive episodes. once fixated on a sculpting project for six months and then knocked it off the table and destroyed it as soon as he finished it for no apparent reason.)

tatiana’s body wasn’t found immediately, and when it was … viktor went off the rails. ended up overdosing & being hospitalized. spent six months in & out of psychiatric care after that.

came back to yates to finish his senior year because … for the reasons above, he hadn’t been able to complete it. just wants to get his credits and get out of here.

is still dealing with a lot of trauma & grief - causes him to spiral and be unpredictable in regards of his mental health. he stopped taking his medication, so. :/ some days are alright, other days are pretty bad.

personality & facts.

the human embodiment of a gremlin that was fed after midnight. a goblin, if you will. one of those cats with a narrow head and really big ears … that’s them!

a big horror & halloween enthusiast. loves the old campy horror movies & probably has an abundance of masks from different movies. dresses like a grimy millennial beetlejuice more than they should because they just … love those black & white vertical-striped pants.

can appreciate the ~urban legends~ at yates and likes to feed into the fear that surrounds them. is probably the cause of a few ‘anomalies’ and ‘paranormal sightings’ because they’re just … a jerk.

fashion alternates between e-boy (they would be tiktok famous if they were 17 & didn’t think that a majorly minor based app was weird.), millennial beetlejuice, and goth in a crop top & sweatpants. big fan of crop tops and a big fan of sweatpants.

they can be really fucking mean? petty, aggressive, a major instigator. will literally spit in your face for little to no reason, you could just look at them the wrong way. the kind of person who will stick their gum into someone else’s hair. other than that? they’re like … sort of okay. they’re not always mean, just a dick about 90% of the time lmao

like okay yeah they’ll call someone a stinky bitch for no reason except they feel like it and believes it. it’s fine, they’re fine, we’re fine.

despite the fact that they’re probably getting into a fight whenever, considers themself to be a lover and not a fighter but that’a primarily because they fuck a lot. uses it as a coping mechanism, like they’re this big fancy carnival show that’s like ‘come one, come all! fuck the dead girl’s twin brother!’ and it’s … a lot. might have a problem with hypsersexuality but they’re not fully aware of it.

the preacher’s whore son, basically :)

pansexual & nonbinary, switches between he & they pronouns often and without a pattern, but they have such a fragile grip on their identity that you could call them ‘dog-faced bitch’ and they’d turn around like. sup.

vastly impulsive … like i said, they destroy their own creations for the fun of it. spends all their money on useless shit, will cheat on someone because they feel like it & likes the thrill, screams into the night sky frequently like a cat in heat.

will also spend months creating useless shit for no reason too. spent six of them sculpting a hollowed out tree the size of them & then took a sledgehammer to it.

they’re very super dramatic. would play the organ at church when nobody was looking after them and service was about to start. would just churn out these super haunting, creepy melodies like they were phantom of the opera. would do the same exact thing at home on their keyboard with the pipe organ setting whenever they got grounded until their parents took it away hbdsjfngkh

will absolutely not talk about their ‘time away’ because it’s not anyone’s business, not even their own younger sister. still refuses to talk about tatiana’s death, or their mental health, or their addiction (fallen back into it but it hasn’t gotten severe … yet :/), or anything involving their own emotions.

will just change the topic abruptly, no warning. asks about the jonas brothers instead and they fucking hate the jonas brothers.

that being said they’re absolutely not over tatiana’s death & it’s to the point of obsession over it. like there’s some kind of secret that needs to be uncovered, even though there just. isn’t. tatiana was their rock and they were pretty much dependent on her. kept them grounded. could control them when nobody else could, got into their head easier than others. it’s sort of like rosa lost two siblings that day because viktor hasn’t been the same since.

emotionally unavailable while also crying twice a day. cries during their brawls but still wins. is stony-faced when they tell you they cheated on you with your much hotter best friend.

will tell you straight up what they want from you, no bullshit & no beating around the bush. just blunt. if they want to fuck, nothing else, then that’s it. if they feel deviation or developing feelings then they’ll ghost in less than a second. is awful like that but feels no shame.

but also emotional as shit and it’s confusing. will cry on a whim and then flip you off if you try to console them or ask them what’s up. will bite you.

they go to therapy but they just fuck around and wastes their therapists’ time … also is fucking their therapist, but that’s neither here nor there. so they’re not really getting the help they need.

likes to be intimidating but not … with their body or anything because they’re a twig but uses their love & knowledge of horror and creepy shit to their advantage. has an abundance of fake blood. has channeled the energy of jack nicholson and used it on tatiana’s boyfriends before (also is a big fan of sfx makeup & has dabbled in it)

probably chases kids around with a chainsaw without the chain on halloween every year.

generally never doing good, both mental health wise & morally. would probably steal candy from a baby for funsies.

i don’t know if there’s a good to them somewhere deep down, but they don’t see any issues with themself either. nothing really breaks through to them anymore because the only person who ever made them stop and think about their actions was tatiana, and well, y’know. :/

an introverted reclusive type who doesn’t like most people or going out, but does so anyway if it means a quick high & a cheap thrill.

pretty observant and likes to analyze people even though they’re often like … partially wrong. judgmental because they like to make people feel bad, not because they’re a righteous mighty person. because they’re not. so like, a hypocrite!

wanted connections.

religious trauma? oh worm ;; three cheers fr <3 guilt <3 anyways uh. just people tht viktor hs known thru the church in some way even tho hes a fkn. freak now. maybe even family friends. 

the horror of our love :/ ;; hmm. any romance tht cld b toxic i think this cld fit. just rly a bad fit. viktor doesnt rly know hw to love so nothing rly lasts bt. maybe they try n try n nothing works bt they keep trying. cld also just be anything unrequited.

little fkn gremlins ;; theyre all evil n mean. bt theyre all friends. <3 

you are nothing ;; uuh. enemy plots. spicy enemies. rly bad enemies. rivals. they r brutal towards each other bcos nothing viktor does is ever soft.

fuck u dont pity me ;; uh. people who try to get close to viktor n he just. bites at them. he’s like no. bc he assumes ppl who r kind in response 2 his vileness r. theres smth wrong w them. n it might hv to do with pity. n he hates pity.

ugh. locals x ;; ppl who also grew up around preaker, vermont. the samuels r <3 well known folks n the uh. hm. the murder is an ongoing case. so they cld know abt it <3

dont tell anybody x ;; this is for soft plots. i dont know much about soft plots but. 

maybe i am part of the problem ;; the problem is chlamydiagate. this is a hook-ups connection. fwbs n one night stands. ppl viktor hs brutally ghosted. he doesnt acknowledge their existence outside of these events, perhaps. 

dont u just wna go apeshit ;; this is where viktor becomes a bad influence.

bt uh. anything. pelase