#aka i hate you aka i love you

[sunsetsmakemesad]

Oshi no Ko chapter 154

HddhwbdjshuwushAjushc I'm so excited

Dudeeeee Kamiki looks so saddddd

And ohznhdjzj not Ai treating this whole thing as a classic tuesday afternoon💀

Oh God he really was ready to do anything for her and she just with her demeanor here implies that she never cared.

Of course I don't blame Ai for this. After all she was just a child and the stress of relationships was too much for her. She was afraid. I'm just talking about Hikaru's perspective here.

God I love it when two characters who both mean well but just can't understand each other at all.

Oooooohhhdhhdhtjdfj myyyyyyyyy he thinks she left because of the fact that he had a son with airi.....

Hikaru it's not your faulttttt

I've beat this drum to death but "I can't love you" being an apology from Ai but a demeaning comment to Hikaru makes me cry every time AHSHSHSDHJJFJSHGAGSAJSYDAAAA

Not saying Kamiki was right for the adress leak but brooooo he didn't even want to kill herrrrr

If anything is to be taken from this, I'm glad Hikaru atleast acknowledges Ai as a normal person. One who was also vulnerable and also made mistakes and also just a girl who tragically ended up being the object of desire to so many people

Good question Aqua. Are we gonna go down a road of psychology now?

Oh he was talking about him and Ruby

AI DVD AI DVD AI DVD AI DVD LETSGOOOOOO

Stop don't tell me she broke up as an act of kindness to hikaru she really did love him ohmddfidkdjf

And hikaru looks so shocked BRO

She did it for him. She didn't want him to break.

Aka why

And when two people love each other and want to stop the other's hurt but they're both so painfully human and they both make mistakes and they're both hurt and they can't see eye to eye so in the end that earnest love gets lost when being translated to actions

Aka. Aka when i catch you.

OH MY GOD THIS IS MY LIMIT HER WORDS HIS FACE SHE LOVED HIM SHE WANTED TO BE WITH HIM FOREVER BUT TO LOVE SOMEONE IS TO BE ABLE TO LET GO

BUT SOMETIMES LETTING GO ISN'T WHAT THAT PERSON YOU LOVE WANTS BUT YOU CAN'T KNOW THAT SO NOW WE'RE ALL HURT

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HE'S THE FIRST PERSON I'VE EVER WANTED TO LOVE HE'S THE FIRST PERSON I'VE EVER WANTED TO LOVE HE'S THE FIRST-

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Wdyd when your desire for revenge against your father directly contrasts your mother's dying wish

"Ruby acted out those words as a lie. She honoured Ai's request properly"

I really dislike ruby you can't just remind me of how much I loved her character when it was taken seriously.

Why do I feel like the twincest was a strategy by aka and mengo to get us to lower our expectations so they could pull the rug under our feet with this

And what if I sobbed and cried and never woke up

This chapter ripped my heart out and stepped on it and threw it scattered across the pages of itself

Why

Why is this suddenly so good

Anyways stick around for chapter 155 which will be out after a one week break!

[kanjichris]

"why don't you want him to know how much you love him?" "that's a little personal. he knows." "uh-huh."

[ghost-bard]

I think at least some of varrics issues would be fixed if he looked into bisexuality and thats all i have to say on the matter

[cowgirlp1xie]

Bro I’m literally the sweetest girl in town so why the fuck are you being so mean for no fucking reason you crusty musty dusty unwashed hater

[dollyiia]

pomegranates are so beautiful and worth the mess, maybe im beautiful and worth the mess too.

[thirdeyeblue]

“Nine would have treated Martha better than Ten did”

I need to talk about this argument that never seems to stop circulating.

Note: Not a venomous/anti post. There’s more than enough of that across fandom spaces as is, and this is supposed to be a place for ✨sweet, blissful escapism✨

When making this argument, people seem to envision a scenario in which Nine never met Rose.

While I can appreciate a good hypothetical, recognizing Rose's significance to the Doctor (Nine and Ten) is essential to understanding why things with Martha played out the way they did in the first place.

In the third series, the Doctor is grieving. This grief is deliberately threaded into nearly every script, whether spoken aloud or not (and these are just a few examples):

He's burning in Rose’s wake the entire time Martha travels with him, which is why it’s so frequently called upon: It’s 100% deliberate in framing his grief. He grieved as Nine too, of course— having been fresh on the heels of the Time War — but then he met Rose, which changed everything.

Back then, he was still a rude, traumatized pain in the ass, but we watch Rose soften more of those jagged edges with every episode as they grow closer; as he lets his guard down and forms a deep connection with her.

He falls in love (against his better judgment) and it's game over.

And yes: provided S1E1 had been titled 'Martha', one can realistically assume things might have unfolded similarly to how they did with Rose. However, it wouldn’t have been that way just because the Doctor was Nine and “Nine was different” — it would be because he wasn’t already in love with someone else. The same can't be said for the start of S3.

Think of it like this: if Rose AND Martha had been in that cellar — if Nine had taken both of them along with him in S1 — we’d eventually be looking at the most melodramatic love triangle ever, what with him living in close quarters with two brilliant, gorgeous, compassionate young women... But Doctor Who is plenty “soap opera” as is with just one woman in the TARDIS.

(I certainly wouldn’t object to reading that fic, though)

Now, regarding the unrequited elephant in the room…

His inability to be romantic with Martha isn’t because he thinks her lesser, nor is it for lack of compatibility. It isn't because Rose is any better than her. It certainly isn’t just because he’s Ten.

It’s really only for one reason, which can't be denied — and now I’m a broken record:

He is still in love with Rose.

(cut from a tenrosedaily gif)

Nine is Ten, and Ten is only such a mess in S3 because he’s just lost the love of his life. Martha merely got caught in the crosshairs of a volatile Time Lord in mourning, and yes — it sucks. Absolutely.

But it also feels dismissive to chalk Ten and Martha’s relationship up to little more than some sort of mindless dance of pining, jealousy, and toxicity.

Ten trusted Martha with his life over and over again — and hers, with him. He constantly praised her brilliance, happily carting her around time and space with no intention of letting her go. In the BBC’s extended universe of novels/comics/cartoons/etc, there’s so much depth to their relationship: love and trust and trauma and sacrifice. They had their own special bond as mates, their own complexities — so it’s a bummer that it's forever overshadowed by the other things.

I’m not denying that there was a lot of stuff that sucked/was for sure toxic about Ten's S3 behavior, but so many of the things I've seen him catching flak for can be directly attributed to being A Clueless Fucking Alien Idiot (not a trait that’s unique to Ten) — as well as his flat-out obliviousness to Martha’s feelings.

So yes, I agree: if Rose never existed, he would have treated Martha differently as Nine. He also would have treated her differently as Ten. Certainly.

But Rose did exist, and when discussing canon, it matters.

“He tells me that he absolutely, 100% loves Rose... He tells me how my daughter; my wonderful, beautiful, clever little girl saved him from himself before… And he says that’s all because of me! I made her into the Rose Tyler that saved him.”

-Jackie Tyler, Flight Into Hull!

Martha got the short end of the stick in S3. She came round at the wrong place and time, but that doesn't mean it was all bad. It doesn't mean the Doctor didn’t adore her. It certainly doesn't mean the time they spent together was wasted or worthless. They were brilliant!

Sure, he could be a twat, but let it be known that he was a twat with Rose as well, both as Nine and Ten. I’m sure Tentoo can be plenty infuriating, too. So while I'll defend Ten (and Tentoo) into the ground forever and ever and ever, I'll concede that he's fucked up.

The Doctor is a certified Pain In The Ass. It’s one of the things I love so much about this character — dynamics.

But never forget that Martha was goddamn tough as nails and overcame every bit of it. She moved on with her life, and the Doctor moved on with his. One can only pray that, when they inevitably drag her back onto the show (which feels inevitable if I'm honest), we see at once that she's been living her best life for all these years.

[lycanlovebites]

You know what? Fuck you *hits Father Ardelian with the shoujo filter and babygirlifies your priest*

@stjohnstarling

[yungluv16]

And the only stars we need are in the sky, not the boulevard

And the only thing we want is to be free

[vrtualvr]

id let him do coke off my tits

[zimszim]

the frame-up job is such a good episode in general but from sterling's pov. its stunning. he's watching his old partner who he has an intellectual hard-on for and his new hot thief girlfriend who is also insanely intelligent flirt w each other and generally be super hot in front of him ......... rough night for ppl w a thing for competence

[violentdelightsbaby]

♫ im glad i came here with your pound of flesh ♫

[bonchobrick]

(angst alert !! death + slight blood tw !!)

Tim is stuck in a sticky situation and has to call a certain 'spooky' friend for help.

Jason would probably call him a dumbass for trying to do something so stupid. Well, atleast thats what Tim thinks Jason would do, he isn't for sure though, he isn't certain.

Because Jason's laying on the ground with a flat pulse and he wont be giving him any answers anytime soon.

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“Don' look so weird replacement, its just anoth’r day in gotham.” His brother slurs with the slight quirk of his lips

"Jason don't fucking do this to me!" Tim hisses tears cursing his eyes

And Jason, oh that bastard—bleeding out on the pavement and in Tim’s arms sends him his classic beaming Robin Smile. 

"Love ya' little bro take care of yo'rself, kay?" he says eyes fluttering

"Jay," Tim cries, "You dick."

For all the joy and hope and belief his smile conveyed for the first time in a long time—his red blood muddled what should’ve been such a nice sight. Tim held him on the pavement with someone yelling on the comm mic on the floor that he just can’t bother trying to pay attention to. 

The pavement is cold. The air is cold. His brother is cold. It’s all so cold tonight. 

All the younger boy does close his eyes and slowly, In. Out. In. Out.

He lets himself breathe for a minute. Lets the horror wash over him. Lets himself absorb what just happened,

Then he gets back to work. 

Like a switch his brain is back online running at a hundred miles an hour–what is the best scenario, what should I do when my brother's wrist is limp and his eyes are shut, what do I do if he’s dead again, what can i do, how can I Fix. This.

Thoughts cloud his mind, whirring around his head like layers and layers of messy documents has just been dumped on his desk and he’s shuffling through them panicked trying to find the right file because its somewhere here, there is something and he just needs to sort. it. out. And–

Then it all becomes clear. 

His desk is back to clean and stationary. All of the papers are gone back into neat piles in neat manila folders, stored away in tidy filing shelves–

Everything is gone aside from one little yellow sticky note in the center of the desk.

“Well, Jay?” Tim chuckles with a cracked voice, “Second times the charm right?”

In his mind, at the center of it all, on a yellow sticky note lies the words in green ink: ‘Contact The Ghost King.’

Slowly he shifts and with a loud grunt he lifts up Jason, “Up we go!”

“--im? Why do you have Red Hood’s Comm–Tim what happened! Tim!” the comm speaker plays faintly in the background of his head, “Tim! Whatever you’re thinking off doing, don’t!” someone Tim can’t think about hisses

Tim hums absentmindedly towards the mic, almost automatically, “Don’t worry Babs, I’ve got it covered.”

Walking away from the roof he thinks to himself, I wonder where Jason would wanna wake up? Perhaps his apartment? Yea, i think that would go well by him–let’s head to the apartment.  

And just like that Tim leaves a crime scene—shuffling away with a dead body over his shoulder and a plan.

“Jay,” Tim murmurs to the corpse on his shoulder, “You’re really gonna hate this, but i’m doing this for you anyways cause I love you. So dont be too hard on me when you wake up okay asshole?”

Tim stumbles off into the stairwell making his descent and sometime as he walks away Barbara faintly catches him on the comm saying

“-Your gonna love Danny and making your lame 'im a dead guy' jokes with him man .”

[cottoncandiheart]

What the fuck is happening !

[lukreziaaa]

The three heads of the dragon

[dollyiia]

[bibisparlkequeenfairybiboca]